#rbs r ok! I like reading tags a lot

[nyamcot]

Theophobia: dread of the wrath of God. : A phobia of which God is the object.

( rbs > likes )

[nostalgic-muffins]

"𝗀𝖾𝗍 𝗒𝗈𝗎𝗋 𝗁𝖾𝖺𝖽 𝗈𝗎𝗍 𝗈𝖿 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗌𝗄𝗒!"

"𝖻𝗎𝗍 𝗐𝗁𝗒?"

○°•☆ hello and welcome!!!♡ ☆•°○

your self-proclaimed internet fairy has arrvied--!!☆

names

lorelai

lor (shortened version of lorelai >0<)

ren

rio

what i like !!

project sekai

nijisanji en (some other vtubers too!)

obey me

vocaloid

sonic the hedgehog

jujutsu kaisen

dungeon meshi

class of 09

pronouns

im a girl but i dont mind any pronouns (she/he r most preferred and he/him r double preferred tho!)

more stuff about me!

IM A MINOR!!!! im ok with adults interacting with my posts, just dont be weird <3 (unless ur an mdni mf. you interacted with a minor and youre getting blocked on sight. sorry!! >-<)

regarding fundraisers, i am unable to donate but i CAN share it.

my rentry can be found here!

reasons why i love rosemi lovelock: a thread

if you wanna friend me on obey me then my code is. 566180999

PLEASE ask me about my ocs

wxs forever my love

i love all units tho lmao

MADLY in love with satan from the hit game obey me 👍 (sometimes the belphie brainrot takes over but i get over it fast)

biggest fan of satans "a teasing gesture" card I NEED TO BITE HIM SO BAD DAWG

nenekasa superfan and minomafu vice ceo (shout out lune)

kamioshis: alban knox, shu yamino, kyo kaneko

oshis: quinn benet (ig), lucien lunaris, banzoin hakka

i speak spanish a decent amount but i cant rlly write in it that well idk man i just guess half the time

i also like space (specifically eclipses) and also penguins (my FAVORITE animal!!!) the most youll get about those is an occasional rb tho

i use tumblr on mobile so i apologize if it looks goofy on website or something idk

looking for obey me sprites, transparents, or icons? look through my blog tag #resources

spam liking/rbing will get you a kiss on the cheek AND freshly baked cookies!! <3

sideblog where i write pjsk, niji en, and obey me thingies idk: @wosemi-sama

daily airi blog: @airi-momoi-daily

daily satan blog: @sameimageofsatandaily

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thank you for taking time out of your day to read this! ALSO another thank you to all the likes n stuff you've given me on here! my followers too, all seven of you! thank you, truly.

AND ALSO MY MUTUALS IK I DONT SAY IT A LOT BUT YOU GUYS ARE SO SO SO COOL.

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have a nice day/night and ily goobers!!♡

"𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗇 𝗂𝖿 𝗂𝗍'𝗌 𝗃𝗎𝗌𝗍 𝖺 𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗒 𝗌𝗍𝖾𝗉,"

"𝗂 𝗁𝗈𝗉𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗌𝗈𝗆𝖾𝖽𝖺𝗒 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗌𝖾 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌 𝗐𝗂𝗅𝗅 𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖼𝗁 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗐𝗈𝗋𝗅𝖽!!"

[francolapintogf]

trans mick thoughts???

ok so i have 2 schools of thought on this, one is more irl based but the other is more fic based (this post is tagged w rpf for blacklist but im also just warning again, rpf is under the cut)

real based

ok anon so u have basically opened up a can of worms for me . so in reality i do think mick is very frat boy coded and if i think of a mick that’s characterised very canon compliantly, i think: a king himbo like dude… he’s always just sort of known he’s not cis and/or het but didn’t think much of it, but when it comes down to it and he has to confront actual feelings and all that he struggles bc he’s always upheld this image of a poster boy etc etc

i believe that his symbol, the dragon (this is the trans dragon drawjg i rb-d yesterday :)) which he uses a lot (on his helmets and stuff) signifies change in many cultures… at least that’s what it means to me personally.

i also think that f1 drivers in general have a lot of potential with being written as trans in fic simply bc it’s the whole ‘when i out my helmet on and get in the car i am just a driver and no one can see Me’ ?? if that makes sense ?? like personally for me i really enjoy that analogy.

ANYWAY moving on to the less inexplicable things that make me wanna headcanon mick as tboy in my mind is the way his boy is so wiggly.. idk how to explain this but in this picture when he hugs this person HES JUST SOOOOO . so squishy

idk man mb it’s just smth i see but yk 🙏

2. fic

tbh i haven’t read much transmick fic (but if there r recs…… pls send them my way) but like if i were to imagine a general scenario it’s the one i talked abt in the real based thing . basically just wilhelm in young royals sort of arc..

or maybe we could go a different direction and take into consideration the fact that he grew more introverted w each racing series promotion ? maybe he saw that things were getting more and more serious and the pool of ‘talent’ was getting narrower and narrower and less diverse. so maybe he doesn’t wanna tell anyone that he’s transitioned/wants to transition. so he starts getting more secretive bc he doesn’t wanna find out how the worlds gonna treat him ? he doesn’t wanna lose a shot at f1 either ..

when he gets to f1 it’s the time when seb and lewis are advocating for change and equality in the sport. so that’s why he starts getting close and closer to them mostly 😔✊ i feel like he could go either way w telling seb or lewis first bc mb hes closer to seb so he feels more comfortable but what if thats the thing. he’s scared seb won’t accept him bc seb has known him for so long so he tells lewis first instead hmmmm

ok sorry i’m done like as u can tell i am very normal abt transing my blorbos’ genders PLEASE don’t take any of this seriously……… like clearly im just having fun here or projecting wtv wtv. if i get any weird comments abt this in my inbox i am going to block straight away

[6okuto]

how'd u know i love to talk about myself and overshare. Wehehe... thank u for the tag!!! 🙆🏻‍♀️

started writing: Omfg. tried writing a luke hemmings x reader fic on wattpad when i was definitely not supposed to have wattpad almost a decade (🤯) ago. i don't think i wrote more than a few chapters before deleting it so my irl could follow me LOL

also tried writing one (1) jungkook thing when i was like 14 (it had like no plot & was mostly metaphors. sooo embarrassing thinking back on how my irls read it 😭💔), but then i didn't write again until tumblr 😭 some of you have watched my main writing journey from the start

started blogging: well known(?) nia lore… first post was december 2021… accidentally posted my asra relationship headcanons and here we are! but i was a lurker for a couple years i think

followers: 5.6k.... bizarre considering the long droughts i've put u all through + i only Rlly write for haikyuu 😭 i'm sure many are inactive or bots but 5k is still nonsensical like i'm just a girl fr… love u guys 🫵🩷💌 thank u 4 rocking w me.

communication: i don't. it's bad. i'm so bad dawg i'm so sorry to u all 😭 but i appreciate Every interaction and message !!!! 🥹🥹 i see an inbox/dm notif and go (!! :D !!)... i smile at my screen and think about ur message and how i could respond.. i pinky promise U r all Always On My Mind!! even if i don't reply to ur reaction I see it and go !! :00 YIPEE !!

really sorry i don't approach people…even moots... i DO really want to talk but i Still struggle to even follow people (back) because i get nervous. what if u don't want me to follow u. what if u think i’m stupid. i still only follow like 60 blogs because of this. fawk my stupid Baka LIFE bro IM SORRY 😭💔 i'm trying. i feel miserable and lonely when i think about this IMGONAN TRY HARDER PLS WAIT 🫵!!! thank u everypony who messages me despite it all. I will cry and wail and sob in front of u /pos /very grateful ☹️🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷

for me,, i Love leaving long reblog tags but i can get overwhelmed(?) at the thought so it can take ages to actually reblog ;; i also try 2 make it clear i rock heavy w interaction.. i hope i give off a friendly aura. pls. how i talk here is exactly what my irls get too,, ur all my friends. it's just that i'm akin to a scared cat that takes months to be comfortable ☹️

likes: they're alright!! i don't mind spam liking, it's kinda fun to watch and i've never dealt with any shadowbanning because of it.. i don't know where that idea came from to be honest 😭?? i appreciate them & i get why leaving tags can be nerve-wracking or awkward to do at first, so don't worry ! 👍👍

i do wish the ratio of likes to tagged rbs/comments was better, but i found a post from a couple years ago where i talked about how my ratio was also only like 10% rbs (not taking into account which actually had tags) so it's never been very good/gotten better… it was better with multi-chara posts—i'd post late at night and wake up giddy to read all the tags but that doesn't really happen anymore.. probably both because of my posts and how the community has changed.. it's disheartening to say the least so i try not to check a lot anymore 😭 just try to write what makes me happy 👍

requests: general relationship hcs r OK to ask for. but other than that they'll stay closed… i push myself to write a certain amount minimum and then get tired… and i feel so bad when i don't get to one/i'm not inspired… they sit there for months and months like girl just let it go.

i think they're still good and fun for events though! and i like when people ramble or just share thoughts with me so i don't Have to write a full post ^__^

writing: let me get all of This out of the way. i think i've gotten less creative over time tbh.. and a lot of my ideas are fun to daydream about but feel flat or boring or too short when i try to write them… and i wish i was more concise,, had better descriptions,, filled the work with more than action beats and movement (or Stopped adding them and just let the dialogue exist),, could write fun au’s and stuff other than fluff oneshots…

i have a lot of thoughts but,, it's all still fun when i've locked in!!! i really like writing and i'm probably not as bad as i think, but i'll keep trying 2 improve on the things i listed. i think i've gotten a little better atp at least!!! 🙂‍↕️🫡

hcs are generally easier to write, plus i get to be silly and ramble 👍 that's why i didn't even Write oneshots in the beginning… twas scary.. especially bc i had no experience w them...

i don't even consider myself a Slow Writer i'm just not creative. LOL. literally just no ideas. if i had them i'd write more 😭 will try to do more short .txt posts..

dialogue is still my strong point. pretty much all my fics start as what could be described as scene scripts 👩🏻‍💻 i try hard to make it fun but still realistic,, and i think my characterization is pretty good.. hopefully... (;ﾟ∇ﾟ) maybe not my smaus LOL

and i don't really write angst anymore but i'm alright at it! 👍 i also have my moments writing nsft stuff and part of me wants to make a sideblog for it but,, IDK. we'll see.

i also want to write for more fandoms but.. scary. scawyyy... scawy... or just more for the ones i Have written for tbh. LOL. cove... may ask for ideas 4 him 🫡

works i'm proud of. umm. …

notes wise idk for sure, i'm assuming it's clingy boyfriends with 14k and flustering moments with 12k. all my old multi-charas did well. I ROCK W THIS! they're rlly fun to do when i actually have an idea to work with, and they Take Time, so i'm not mad they did so well tbh. i'd like to do some again ^^

i liked the iwaizumi sitting on the lawn one but i didn't like the ending… confusing mood and not what i wanted so i deleted it ;; you know it's serious when i actually delete a post guys. but i was cooking! tried hard on it and it was fun to do :3 will maybe go back and revise the ending some day...

i also liked “the most attractive person in the room” !! largely because i got to write banter, but also i was pushing myself to write more than Action beats and Movement so i was happy with myself ^__^

the smau where they react to your new post... i don't even like the actual reactions that much,, but people liked the different reader pics and that made me really happy !! 🙂‍↕️ i want to do another part but i'd have to remake all the accounts so 😮‍💨😭

#THROWBACK, this post for LL where mc wanted to go back to earth. who's rocking with nia 6okuto angst. i miss writing it sometimes LOL i remember really liking writing this one.. the ideas just kept coming...

and here's a Bunch of parts of fics i'm probably never going to finish / post bc i have nopony to (not nervously) tag so. u might as well get something + i like them. yaaayyy!!! ε=ε=(ノ≧∇≦）ノ

(1 + 2, 3 + 4 (copium fic. mb if the beginning is cringe.), 5, 6, 7, 8)

Behind the scenes of a Tumblr Writer - Tag Game

Hey there, I love behind the scenes and since this is something that's rarely talked about, let me start the chain... if you feel uncomfortable with a question, just skip it. You can add some if you want as well.

Started writing: I wrote my first Harry Potter fanfic at age 10. Started posting around 15,16 years old. I'm now 31, so...

Started blogging: I started on a German fanfiction site around 2010/11 I think. Might have been earlier too, but back then I was mostly reading, no posting. I really started when I got into One Direction (very late, tbh)

Followers: Currently at 961, which is wild to me. I don't even know that many people IRL. I convince myself that half of them are bots tbh, so I don't freak out all the time.

Communication: The people I talk to regularly are: a few writers who answered after I constantly reblogged and commented on their works and a few people who commented and reblogged my work. Writing and blogging on here can be pretty lonely, depending on your personality and the time you're active (I'm from Europe and a lot of my followers seem to be living in Northern America, so there's the Timezone thing) ... And I found that the best way to strike a conversation is to reblog, comment, and to not be shy. I do wish I got more asks, though....

Likes: I actually filter them out. I have 793 original posts up at the moment. It doesn't give me anything to know how many likes a fic has other than to tell me which characters are liked more than others or maybe that one fic does especially well. My activity only shows me comments, asks, reblogs with tags, and answers to my own asks. I live for the tags and the comments.

Requests: I love talking to people about ideas. That's how I started the plotbunny game because I have so many ideas and so little time. And sometimes an idea just doesn't want to be written out fully. Requests are fun because YAY, I get some mail... but then I freak out because I don't really know how to write this NOW and then I freak out because it's been a week already, two weeks, wait, two months? I'd rather have suggestions where people tell me vague things like "I'd love to read something about this side character" or "Have you ever considered this character with a soulmate trope"? because then I don't have the feeling of failing the request when I write it a little bit differently.

Writing: I am a fast writer. I know that's one of my talents. I can churn out a oneshot of 1k words in less than an hour. People read slower than I write. That can suck sometimes because you've just posted this and you want to know what people are thinking but they're not as fast as you are. I do have a lot of ideas. I want to write constantly but my brain doesn't always want to. I am trying to respect that.

There are also certain things that I just feel wrong writing. I cannot write anything suggestive (I also don't like reading it) and everything past that gives me panic attacks. I can hardly write mean characters and jealousy feels so wrong to me that I cannot write it. I've also overdone it with the soulmark trope and now I feel like everything I write about it feels lifeless.

I write best in the mornings before going to work, but I don't have much time there. I don't need special music (but it helps), but I need to have at least some energy left and at best, no distractions. But I have been writing for over 20 years, so I will say experience helps a lot.

Tagging: @revasserium @shoulmate @lemurzsquad @screamin-abt-haikyuu @toomanygoldfish @satorisoup @emmyrosee @reverie-starlight @alienaiver and @writingsofanomnivore and everyone else who wants to join

[yioh]

2020 follow forever :^)

hello it is, but i, ur local frog, yura, i really realllllllllyyyyyyyyyyy wanted to make some kind of post to appreciate everyone on here because , fr, you guys have been such a large part of my life recently and i can not thank you enough... every single person i have interacted with on here has been so wonderful and it’s been such a pleasure to talk with you guys<3

also extremely extremely extremely sorry if i forget anyone, i really really do love every single person i interact with!! this is my first time doing something like this also this is probably filled with typos but im too impatient and lazy to read what i wrote, im so sorry if its weird or something aaaaaaaaaaaa jhdsgjhd

without further ado lets goooooo losers😎

@honeyedmilks sof u are one of the softest people i know, we didn’t get to talk that much this year but i love ur presence in general and it makes me :D when u pop up on my dash/notes hehe, i can’t express just how much i adore ur writing, the vibes and settings and the way u write in general is so my thing and !!!!!!!! <3 

@asianmelodrama faizaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa u are mine and a lot of other people’s sunshine on this hellsite !!!! ur blog is so feel good and pretty and relaxing and i love all ur thoughts and ur gifs are soooooooooo pretty and ur so cool !!!!!!!! thank u for being so kind and creative and wonderful and for creating a place so safe and lovely i love u i love uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

@muscosus robin robin robin robin ILUSM !!!!!!! ur so fun to talk to and i find it so amusing that we met each other via druck but then consequently found all our interests colliding and we were literally *shook pikachu* kdhigjdghkjf also whenever u tag me in whale stuff it warms my heart so much and i treasure our friendship so so much !!!

@lesbiangoths OLIVIA why are u so adorable :( everytime u send me an ask im :) ur so creative and talented and ur crocheting stuff looks so COOL !!!!! also ur vibe is just immaculate in general and talking with u is so easy, never change ilu bro

@illiterateopossum ELIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ur DEFINATELY one of the people on here that are MOST special to me, all our conversations are so freaking fun and man, u just get me .... and watching u get into all the dramas and anime i reccomend ??? it makes my heart doki doki hiagsjhjh thank u for always looking out for me and sending me the most loveliest messages, im really really bad with words and i am SHITE with keeping up with messaging but i seriously treasure our friendship so so much, i only hope for good things to happen to you next year and all the years after that, you’re such a kind wonderful person and !!!!!!!!!!!! i love u sm :(

@beesnutz KJDFKHIJFHKD GUSTE i wanna be emotional this one time and tell u that ur seriously such a fun person and the way my brain goes on overdrive from creativity when i talk to you is . insane. i want to bonk ur head with as much cereal as i can, never forget that you will always be the dumb sidekick to me, the superior villain and i WILL lead the way to world domination one day. sometimes i feel like u aren’t even real, you could be an anime character and i wouldn’t even bat an eyelash . ilu <3

@rosa-leche kana kana KANA :^) how are u so ???? sweet ???? adorable ???? wonderful ????? i already had so much fun interacting with you, all ur thoughts and messages are always so sweet and u make me smile SO much, and after the secret santa i feel like we have so much in common !!!!!!!!! do tell me if u ever watch bloom into you hehe, keep being the angel u are, ilusm !

@petekaos RAHUL !!!!!!!!!!!!! meeting u this summer feels like so long ago somehow, you sir!!! are one TALENTED person . it really really amazes me with how much passion you get into things and how much love and adoration you put into the things you create, its so so special .... anytime i see u vibing on my dash it fills me with so much joy, keep doing u bro !!!!

@toptaps zeeeeeeeeeeey you are so lovely :) you’re so gentle and soft and i adore talking with u about nanamin, also u are so cool and i was rly rly happy when u followed me lol, lowkey i admired u from afar jdhjkhdijd i love uuuuuuu

@fushiguroo MY LIL OREO CUTIE PATOOTIE oFC i still remember the first ask u sent me, i was so taken aback and honoured :( and the more and more i talked with you and saw you on my dash i was so happy, you have such good taste and you’re so so cute, take care of urself and stay the precious bean u are ok? 

@morksuns sumaya sumaya sumayaaaaaaaaaaaa everytime you interact with me im :D i love all our little convos and ur vibe in general is so peaceful and relaxing, im glad i got to meet you:’) here’s to another year and many more after that, that are filled with only good dramas !!!

@gayvlad NICO (nico niiiiiiiiiiiiii ) YOU DESERVE THE W O R L D. i dont know why but as soon as i had like one convo with u that one time i thought u were such a chill cool person :( im so happy that i get to be friends with you, all ur gifs are so pretty !!!!!!!! ur such a kind person and ur blog is such a warm nice place to be. :) 

@cupidhashorns   peach ........... PEACH !!!!!!!!!! you might be one of the nicest people in the WORLD , whenever u like my posts, regardless of whether u know what im on about lmao, i feel so seen... its just so nice to know that Someone i listening to the shit you throw into the void on this site lmao, i adore all ur asks and i truly truly appreicate all your messages so much. thank you for finding my blog interesting at all man, i cant tell you enough how happy you make me :)

@guihan arloooooooooooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MY CAT FRIEND . THE AMOUNT OF SEROTONIN YOU HAVE GIVEN ME IS IMMEASURABLE your cats ................... are so cute .............. !!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so glad i got into tsomd and got to meet you , whenever u tag me in things im !!!!!!!!! also im defo gonna read  twwtadsl sometime ksdjkdhjksd you make it sound so good aaaaaaaaaaaaa

@otterplush rey many people have probably already told you this but you are someone so ...... so spectacular and special and incredible and amazing ............  so much of your words has given me SO MUCH comfort in the short time i had known you, seriously. i seem to always stumble on your blog whenever im most hurt and your words have really had an impact on me in the best way possible and i love u so so so so much. i only wish for good things to happen for you and i want to be there for you in a way you are for everyone else !!! you are so warm and kind an generous, everything about your vibe feels so soft... also i always wanna rb everything you rb ndjbshs ur blog is so pretty :( 

@aheartandashirt nisaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAA MY KSH THIRST BUDDY KDHJKHDKJHDF fr ive had some of the BEST convos with you, ur taste in dramas is !!!!!!!!!!immaculate !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its so so so  fun talking with you and everything you gif looks so nice !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thank you for being such a lovely friend to me, you’re so easy to talk with and so friendly and nice and <3 *pat pat pat* 

@tetsuos dawn dawn !!!! you are !!!!!!!!!! such a talented person !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love ur little corner on the web, its so nice to read all ur thoughts about the dramas you’re watching, all your thoughts are so well thought out and interesting to read and, in general, i adore seeing you do ur thing :) *hug hug * 

@heartsofsunlight angel ! your drawings are so beautiful !! you are such a beautiful person in general ! whenever u drop by it makes me so happy, its been so lovely getting to know you, thank you so much for talking to me :) i love uuuuuuu

@metawin jay jay jay !!!!!!!!!!!! for some reason whenever i see u im overcome with so much love !!! everything you make is so beautiful and u are defo one of the most elite people here hehe, also ur cats are ........ so adorable ............ 

@metawwin aliiiiiiiiiiiii, its been such a pleasure seeing you on here !! ur so soooooo kind and whenever u sent me those adorable asks it made me so happy, you’re like a little happiness fairy, you eminate so much joy and positivity !! also ur singing ... immaculate 

@87s min min !!!! u are soooooooooooo adorable, i think ive said this before but u seriously give me little sibling vibes lol, its so fun talking to you, and im so happy that you first popped up to me !!!!!!!!!!! iluuuuuuuu

@joblessquinoa JQ :^)    i always associate you with my engineer haha, and that was so long ago !!!!! ur so fun to talk to, and i adore seeing u rb and leave ur thoughts on all the manga and webtoons im reading !!!! in fact whenever u like my posts i aways feel so happy hehe, also . i literally wouldve failed my coding course without u thank u SO much for helping me out * cries* 

@gigiesarocha cata CATA CATA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  when you first popped up i was so elated to talk to you, u seemed so nice:( and later when u told me u watched joan’s galaxy because of me i was sdhfsgijdfhjkdhjkfh all ur gifs are so unbelieveably gorgeous, i literally go back to the set u made of yioh staring at joan skipping all the time, its so ........ beautiful.......... hopefully we get more wlw content next year and hopefully theyre all as good as joan’s galaxy hehe, iluuuuuuuuuu

@yibobibo aamna my love !!!!!!! how are you so precious ? everytime u reblog any of my posts its an instant serotonin boost, the experience of getting back into mdzs along with u was seriously incomparable, it was so FUN and i wanna go back :( ur such a friendly wonderful and talented person and i adore seeing all ur creativity blossom on this website, ilu aamna !

@brightwin JELLY jelly u are literally the human embodiment of the softest teddy bear in the WORLD . i wanna give u all the hugs and pats i can because u make me so !!!!!!!!! happy and u fill me with so much soft warmth ........... thank u for being u, all ur gifs are so pretty and its been so nice to be able to bask in the light that comes off of u, never change i love u so sooooooooooo much <3

and lastly, some blogs that i really really adore !

@kurusutakatsu @chanagun @yuhaosturtle @jiangyanlisgf @duoerla @yinyu @tichawongtipkanon @jbums @wenqing @lemongrasslesbian @weiixian @schech @kikuism @earthfluuke @0ffgun @yamaguccchi @wullu @seniorwitch @leoyunxi @floraflorenzi @dreamterlude @florbexter @doctorbahnjit

[ourangeloftrash]

~×~reclist~×~

ok so i'm aware most people don't care what so e v e r but i thought i'd start on a reclist that i can like rb occasionally and all that

longer/multichaptered fics

Ad Astra (f/g/g, scifi, gerard is a pining idiot, some awesome worldbuilding, full on lgbt rep even outside of the main pairing)

Secondhand Smoke (ray/mikey and background lindsey/gerard, high school au, really great characterization and a great plot. heed the archive warnings, there's a scene involving homophobic violence)

Something Supernatural (gerard/frank/bert, angel/demon verse with frank being g and bert's relationship counselor and falling for them. lots of good polypining)

All's Fair In Love And Comic Books (f/g/g, this one is just amazingly nerdy, lots of pining gerard and some oblivious frank (and grant being wonderfully all knowing), really hot smut scenes)

The Devil's Furnace (f/g/g, horror porn?? ridiculously hot especially if you happen to be a huge horror fan like i am, not to mention this fic has a STELLAR cast of side characters)

Coffee in the morning, milk at night (frank/gerard, futuristic au with lots of amazing sex, and again a great cast of side characters, if a smaller one than devil's furnace. @hangmansradio always writes stellar fics, expect more of them on this list.)

Ain't Nobody Gonna Love You Like The Devil Do (frank/gerard, demon!g and catholic teen!frank, amazing writing style and imagery, and g is hot as hell, if terrifying)

Untamed (frank/gerard, a/b/o, probably one of the hottest fics i've ever read. the importance of consent in this fic is amazing)

Public Enemy (frank/gerard, 1930s criminal/cop verse, i'm seriously overdue a reread for this one but it's amazing)

Unholyverse (everyone and their mother has read this one, but my religion fascinated ass feels the need to rec it, it's seriously so good.)

A Lovely Apparition (frank/gerard, crossdressing, the 1790s, a nice touch of pining, what's not to love? the first fic i read in this fandom, so it's special to me in that way too)

Old Scars/Future Hearts (f/g/g, i'm overdue a reread on this one too, so i can't give the best summary of it, but it's definitely one to read for fans of the ship, if you're okay with everything the tags and summary warn for)

From Grace (frank/gerard, guardian angel au, major tw for a suicide attempt and self harm in this one, it's not an easy read, and definitely not for everyone. the relationship in it is amazing, though, and if you're able to read it safely, it's worth your time for sure.)

G.U.Y. (Guy Under You) (frank/gerard, office au, powerplay, so basically everything good in life. Hangmans_Radio has done it again people! this one is more a lengthy one shot than a long fic, but i feel it has just enough plot and all to count! gerard in this is just fucking wonderful, he's such an ass but so cute at the same time.)

Out of the game (frank/gerard, this one has a big age gap, legal, but def not everyone's thing. i personally adore this fic, and gerard's characterization is a big selling point for me that's definitely gotten me to reread it.)

Buy Handmade (frank/gerard, this fic and its sequel are everything cheesy-but-sweet that the world always needs)

Crosstown (frank/gerard, some old-fashioned bandom genderfuck fic with great relationship dynamics to boot)

Some girls are built for speed (frank/gerard, roller derby au with crossdressing frank, and a good helping of old bandom cheesiness. found this one the time i worked my way backwards through the chem tag on ao3, don't regret reading it at all.)

Becoming Joan (frank/gerard, this one is definitely the best not!fic i've ever read. frank's relationship with gender/presentation in this fic is absolutely AMAZING to read, and the notfic style conveys the emotions so well instead of just seeming cheesy-in-a-bad-way)

Speak The Speech, I Pray You (frank/gerard, shakespearean style playwright!g au, a hearty helping of crossdressing, what's not to love? the wording and style in this fic is phenomenal, a lot of periodfic doesn't sell the time period through dialogue half as well as this one does. this was the second fic in this fandom i read if i recall correctly?)

To Cast Turpentine Kisses (frank/gerard, this one's a heavily kinky teacher/student not!fic, which won't be for everyone, that's for sure. kind of cheesy, but in that amazing and still well written 2009 bandom way that i love personally.)

Doll Parts (frank/gerard, model!gerard au. this one's a heavy, angsty mess, and can maybe be a bit melodramatic, but the style of it makes me love it loads still.)

shorter fics/oneshots/oneshot series

Gentle Sin & Wasteland, Baby! (frank/gerard, guardian angel au, these are both pure porn, but it's damn good porn.)

High Fashion (frank/gerard, yet another amazingly done old bandom fic with a nice helping of crossdressing, are you noticing a pattern yet?)

Tattoo Erotica (frank/gerard, masochist frank getting turned on by his hot tattoo artist and they fuck. shameless smut but damn good smut.)

Price Of Pretty (frank/gerard, this one is super kinky and super hot. definitely impact play heavy, so not everyone's thing, but definitely mine.)

she's my missus and i'm her man (frank/gerard, girl!frank, the relationship in this one is just perfect, and the 50s husband-and-wife roleplay dynamic is one i'd like to see in other fics)

A Room Full Of Mirrors (frank/gerard, vampire!gerard, this one is pure fluff and i love it to death. undeath?)

Vanity & Beauty (frank/gerard, frank is very feminine in this which i know isn't a lot of my followers cup of tea, but i love these too much to not rec them. this author's writing style is just gorgeous as hell.)

Die, My Darling (frank/gerard, 1920s assassin au, more crossdressing frank, but again, i love this one and the dynamic it presents too much to not recommend it.)

Desperate Little Thing (frank/gerard, puppy play and sub frank. frank is such a good boy in this and it's so cute-hot i love him sm)

Domino (f/g/g, surprise sub g! the relationship dynamics in this one are so good, and frank is a little shit. i might just die if this ever gets a follow up.)

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[lovvw]

Hewwo all !!! :3

I am need of some Assistance with mine life lol since this is really REALLY long cuz I lack the ability to be concise have a TDLR and also a read more lol:

Basically I need help paying to go to planned parenthood to try and get a gel testosterone ! I’m assuming it will cost around 250 for both ! And tw for needles and injections ? Just in case !

Also If u can’t donate it’s ok ! I know I always feel big guilty when all I can do is rb but bro !!! we r all just going thru it bro !!!!!! I llove u !! 😔🥺💖🥰

Recently some wild things have gone down in my life and if u wanted a full rundown I could give it to u but a) it’s a REALLY REALLY REALLY long story and b) really I only need help with one part

Let’s begin shall we ?

The parent that was providing for me to start/continue my transition isn’t supporting me financially anymore (for ANYTHING) I have very limited income and currently all of my money is going to fixing a snafu with my car insurance, my tags, paying for two storage units with all of my families stuff in it and whatever random issues pop up in my life like buying my sibling a new pair of shoes for school & paying for both of us to have phones tht work lol My car is a huge part in how much money I have at any time as I get payed to take my brother to and from work

I have that part mostly covered ! The thing I really need help with is my Testosterone

I really don’t have any leftover money after delegating and putting any money away for my testosterone is really hard since I keep having to dip into what I’ve saved for it

I need to go back to planned parenthood and try to get a gel to replace the injection method as I am SO bad at jabbing myself I’m afraid I’m gonna do more damage than I already have

(Here’s where the tw comes in 😳)

The last time I tried to give myself an injection i caused enough damage that my leg was in extreme pain that traveled from my thigh down to just under my knee for several days on top of that one of my thighs has a bruise under the skin from a previous injection for a while now and is still a bit tender to the touch bc I really fucked that one up......At this point Id been putting off injections because of how afraid i was of hurting myself and how my fear makes me more likely to hesitate and therefore more likely fuck it up again (U may absolutely call me dumb if u wish it’s valid in my case aksnskssk)

I am aware that a gel testosterone is MUCH more expensive than the injections but I’ve looked around and found coupons for the most commonly used gel so I’m hoping it won’t cost me quite as much using those :] though I am not aware of what the initial price is going to be since it’ll be thru pp IM sort of guessemating the price and hoping that i have some sort of wiggle room just in case

The cost is for both the visit to pp and hopefully to cover the prescription (my insurance does NOT cover the visit unfortunately :[ it would be really nice if it did) The last visit I had at pp cost me about 130 but they can range from 80-135 depending on what happens during the visit (if I’m remembering correctly !) I’m hoping my visit will be in the 80 range since they aren’t going to run any tests

I’m gonna assume the gel will cost me about 150 dollars and I’ll see if I can cover the cost myself if it’s any more expensive ! so all in all I think I’ll need around 250 to get this done :] after I know the initial price of the gel I should be able to scrape up the money (hopefully w/the help of coupons !!!!)

 if it was just the appt or the prescription by itself I could probably swing it eventually but unfortunately it’s just not high on the priority list when I have any money

I really wouldn’t be asking if I thought I had any other means of getting it realistically.. currently I can’t work due to my mental health (aka extreme social anxiety & depression 😳 lol) but I will probably end up trying to get a job regardless bc I really can’t go on with my life like this. It’s causing a lot of unnecessary stress and worry most nights 

I can’t sleep & I am getting constant headaches from all the stress I carry which isn’t helping anything lol

My art isn’t the best but I can draw most things ! So if you’d like a drawing in exchange for a donation please let me know :] it isn’t very polished and little doodles are usually what turns out best ! I can provide examples if u would like me to ! I am also relatively good with my hands so I can make things like traditional art, jewelry and simple little clay statues and pots and send them to u if you later when I have the money for materials and shipping costs if u like :]

This is not life or death or anything so if u feel that ur money is spent better else where I totally understand !

I honestly think this is a long shot and that I probably won’t get any money in the first place (it be great if so ! But again I don’t really feel like my predicament is like. Super super important in the grand scheme of things u know lol) but if u actually managed to read thru this rambley mess thank u !!! I love u and I hope ur having a good day/night :] !!

[maidshe-blog]

BEFORE WE START.

HI! I’m Alex! I’m 22, I’m a demigirl ( she / they )! This is my first foray into writing Portia publicly, but I’m excited to share my feelings about her! I’ve also been rping for 10+ years, and been on tumblr for around 8+ years. If I seem familiar it’s probably because I am, is what I’m saying. I have had a SHIT TON of blogs. I love reconnecting with old friends so if you think we knew each other hit me up! Or even if you think we could get along! Overall, please be kind to me and I’ll be kind in return! I have commissions if you like my graphics, by the way. Okay. I’m done with this. Here are the rules!

FULL DISCLOSURE.

        As per usual, I am obviously not Portia. We have similar personalities but she might think differently than I do, as such MUN DOES NOT EQUAL MUSE. Please keep that in mind! I’m also not like... Active? In The A//rcana community? That is to say, there’s probably definitely some stuff that I don’t know about just generally community-wise. Please be easy on me! I don’t know shit, my man! Not a fuck!

INTERACTION.

I AM NOT FAST.      I have no excuse for this, sometimes executive dysfunction is a thing. I’m sorry.

ALWAYS ASK FOR CLARIFICATION.       A lot of my RP shenanigans occur on skype, discord, or kik. If you’re ever lost or confused about what I’m talking about please don’t be afraid to hit up my ask! I love when everyone’s included.

ALL SMUT UNDER READ MORES IF I EVEN DO IT.       I don’t mind NSFW, though like I hardly ever write it? If I do, I will need to like... Talk to the person I’m smutting with beforehand. I will never ever do anything that doesn’t consent, or is categorized in any way as pedoph//ilia, best//iality, or inc//est. I don’t RP smut with minors. Non-negotiable.

DON'T BE AN ASSHOLE..         We’re living in horrible times where people can be very hateful. Homophobia of any kind, transphobia, or any otherwise bigoted actions towards any minority will result in a hard block. Period.

INTERACTING.       There are some people who I have grown to dislike in the RPC. Whether we’ve had a falling out or they’ve done things to my friends or me personally. I won’t disclose names for their privacy and out of respect for them, but please know I will be uneasy around certain people. I might not respond if you start talking about these people, and please tag every URL you interact with, as some mentions of those URLS make me incredibly uncomfortable. Please, just be kind and patient with me on this front.

PUT REBLOGGED ASKS INTO A SEPARATE THREAD.       Reblogged asks used as a thread look weird & clogs up the dash. I will occasionally reblog asks purely for saving purposes. You can do so too, but don’t continue the thread in the ask. Thanks!

ON PERSONALS.        I love you, but please do not share ( reblogs or otherwise ) anything unless I specifically say it’s okay to. This includes ooc posts and ic posts. I will be specific about it, ‘ok to rb’ will be in the tags. You are free to like it to your heart’s content and I absolutely accept asks from personals or anons. 

I AM THE ONE WHO PSDS.     Unless otherwise stated or credited, everything is made by me. I don’t use fanart for icons unless the person has stated that they’re okay with it, otherwise all my art comes from official sources. I do not claim to own this art, because I do not own it.

I’M SELECTIVE, BUT I STILL LOVE YOU!      ...It’s not you, it’s me. I’m shitty. Even if we’re mutuals or not, feel free to strike up a convo in my ask or IMS! I’ll still RP with a non-mutual, but the chances of me replying faster are less likely. I just... RP better with people I know.

I TYPE LIKE AN ELITIST PRICK.       My formatting is small ( not super small, still readable like this ) formatted text, and icons that I’ve made myself. I ask that you try and match me, and even if you can’t I’d still love to RP with you. I just want to let you know I do have a format preference. If you can’t match that for any reason that’s fine.

That’s it! No passwords! Have a good day.

[fiovske]

This is me being awkward and emo and loving you already

Submitting because it’s so freking long whoops…This could be a pile of dumbass statements, tbh I’m just overemotional sometimes (and we Italians are known for sucking at foreign languages so I cannot guarantee that what I wrote makes sense), so I apologize in advance :’)

ok now that I’ve read your adorable tags I just HAVE to tell you this because believe it or not I’ve been thinking about sending you this message for like, the past 10 days or so (but I didn’t wanna sound awkward or anything): it’s such a pleasure seeing you on my dashboard. You represent everything I love about fandoms.

You see, I’m a lil weird… I hate every kind of conflict, both irl and online. Fandom wars? My nightmare! I often see posts written by/for antis where the only way to defend a character/ an actor/ a concept, is to destroy another one. And not only I dislike it, it also makes me very VERY uncomfortable and it’s what usually ruins a fandom for me. Of course calling out toxic behaviours is okay, but other than that I find the whole ‘antis vs stans’ culture very unsettling (rn I’m thinking about Steve and Tony in particular because you recently stated that you don’t like Civil War and I couldn’t agree more).

But your blog is just the opposite! I mean, aside from the excellent quality content, you never reblog/write anything negative. Instead, you choose to analyze characters and situations in a positive and critical way, and whenever you reblog something vaguely more ‘aggressive’ you always clarify in the tags that your own point of view is actually far less extreme. For someone like me, that means the world. I genuinely find your blog somehow soothing, like a wonderful and peaceful place (now you know what I meant when I said I was afraid to sound awkward lmao).

And since your blog says a lot about you, all the things I’ve just said apply to you as a person as well. I can’t say I know you, of course (tho I’d love to), but I’m pretty sure you’re just as soft and respectful irl as I imagine you to be.

I love and cherish every one of my followers, mutuals or not, and that’s a fact. And needless to say, all the people I listed in my post deserve that spot. But know that even if we’ve never actually had a conversation, you have a special place in my heart (aaaand again, a w k w a r d  girl alert!), and that you’re one of my favourite people here.

Idk if you were serious about the friendship thing and I understand that creating a real friendship online is difficult for loads of people, but if you were serious I look forward to be your friend :’) <3

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ok @godisavalkyrie I dont even know where to start okay, so I’m gonna make points in the order of how I go thru the paras bc aaaaa

ok first of all, I love seeing you on my dash cause you rb sUCH amazing stuff and also when I see you reblogged the stuff I reblogged it makes me feel this dsjkgkd happiness like “aaah yes, I have pleased The Friend” kind of emotion OK, you’re just so smart and so wholesome on the internet I lov u big time OK

and lol i’m awkward as hell so dont worry if the conversation ever gets weird its bc i dont know how to carry a conversation but that doesn’t mean I dONt wanna be fRIENDS ok we gOT THIS

and oh yea, antis of any kind are just the worst like if u dont like something then fiNE! dont like it, but nah they’re gonna make blogs and stuff to make specific posts to POST hate and that’s the lamest fucking thing like wow you’re talking this way about fictional characters pleas chill go eat a pizza or something idk stop being so hateful jesus fck

oo ya I totally get ur conflict point bc some days im like that but some days my impulsive ass is ready to fight lololol srri I’m 5ever bitter with CW dsngkdsngk I think the writing could have been vastly more nuanced but well, Marvel had a plan and they tried their best lol. Your stand on the whole anti vs stans thing is so justified bc honestly it gets very very toxic in the fandom it’s suffocating like people are rude to people for NO reason but simple dumb hate it’s absolutely ridiculous.

i’m gonna cry this is the fucking sweetest thing anyone’s ever said to me gosshhhhh I try to keep my blog the kind of thing I’d come back and enjoy going thru and feel good about i’m so happy to hear you like it aaajkkfhsgj catch my brain machine breAKING skjgkg <3

aaaa what’re you tlaking about online friendships are THE JAM I’ve met a couple of people here online that I’m ready to die for and i know online friendships are hard to sustain but i gUESS WE’RE GONNA FIND OUT BC guess wHAT WE’RE FRIENDS NOW (if ur ok with it plsss)

You’re legit one of the kindest sweetest people I’ve met on this hellsite and I’m so glad to have met you the fact that you tag me in those posts like shit that’s too damn soft ughhh it makes me so emo everytimee I’m just,,,, really overwhelmed,,,, know that I LOV U and we can be awkward together BABAAEEEEYYYY

[astheravensighs]

I’m on mobile so I’m gonna rb i hope that’s ok!! lemme kno if it aint ilu ur my fave i lov being tagged in things i feel so special 🥺 ur answers r so babey wtf a precious creature,,,, also I’m SORRY this is SUPER long bc. i had nothin to do so i went Hog Wild my dudes,, I’ll put it under a cut once I’m back @ my computer but for now ur dash will be filled with my rambling :)

Nickname: I have .... a lot. my actual real name is Grace but that’s boring n doesn’t fit me lol. my bf calls me rose (his family thinks that’s my actual name I’m p sure 🥺) which is rly cute!!! my nickname with my irl friends is Grac (pronounced grack lol), occasionally ‘The Gracken’ hdksh.... my online handle is usually ggravendust so people call me Grave, Graven, sometimes even Raven!! and now i go by Gray!!! and it feels rly freaking cool like ... woah. what a cool freakin name ?? oh wait it’s MINE ?? oh heck yea

zodiac: i know little 2 nothing abt zodiac stuff but I’m a scorpio!! i have my lil chart here but i have... 0 clue what it rly means so feel free 2 interpret lol

Height: uh... hhh. hhh. 5”1 shut up I’m just a babey

Last thing I googled: mmd raycast tutorials lol dhskh kill me,,, this shit makin my brain go blurph

Song stuck in my head: honestly none rn ??? I’m free. I’m FREE

Number of followers: on this url?? 21 lol... but quality ovr quantity!!! my main reblog shit n ramble in the tags type url has 500 smth but it’s mostly bots at this point fhdjj

Average amount of sleep: 16 hours babey!!!! if i sleep any less than that i am 100% nonfunctional lol.... welcome to narcolepsy we have sleep and... sleep. that’s it. that’s all we have. that’s not counting naps either yikies

Lucky number: i don’t rly have one in particular but i like 3, 4, and 5 ??? 3 bc rule of 3s, 4 bc my brain likes things divided in 4 parts lol, and 5 bc... idk it makes my brain feel comfy ??

Dream job: singer!!!! keytar playing singer!!!! that is literally all i want in this world !!! i was watchin my composer pal (he said we’re friends now 🥺) recording a new accapella track and i was like. o h. i could do this. i honestly might u guys i just might start doing that ?? hdhjdjfhdbdjk what if i... did that....

Currently wearing: a Ghost BC tshirt, comfy yoga pants, flippy floppies and my apple watch so i know if I’m having a heart attack or smth lol

Favorite song: ooph that’s a rly tough one so I’m gonna go ahead n list a few lol uhhh

1. emotionally my fave is waiting for the end to come, linkin park (listen. it resonated with me when i was Sad(tm) and now i cry every time i hear it bc it represents hope for me lol so that’s my Emotional favorite)

2. my favorite musically in terms of melody n lyrics n stuff?? uhhh rn it’s reversible campaign tbh it’s been a jam for a few days now (tho my fave jam changes like literally every day)

3. Performance wise it’s probably the kerry marsh composition of kiss from a rose bc like.... just. listen 2 it. heres a link. itll change ur life. (i rly wish id got the solo but second soprano is cool too🤷‍♀️)

oh woops it becomes an embedded video on mobile huh,,, well that’s a bit extra but there u go easy access i guess ANYWAY

Favorite instrument: keytar. hands down. keytar all the way babey. i play piano and electric bass guitar (and i like to pretend i can play regular guitar) but my one true love. my literal goal in life. is to own a keytar. it’s on my amazon wishlist and i look at it like daily. it’s a thousand dollars. i WILL own it. anyway. talent wise I’m p good @ piano bc I’m an ear learner but it’s all compensating for the fact that i can read sheet music hardly at ALL

Aesthetic: ooo i have a few!! my main irl aesthetic actually leans pretty hard mall goth but it has touches of cute so i call it happy goth??? idk lol it’s black and red with white details on everything!! basically imagine a human being that was made For Gamers and that’s me. I’m a human Razer product

Favorite author: honest to god. i don’t rly. have one? tho the guy that wrote the ranger’s apprentice came to talk at my school once and all i remember was him telling a story about how he accidentally kicked his cat and then said “now don’t go telling people i kick cats” so there’s that

Favorite animal noise: oh my GOD how am i supposed to choose ??? i like when deer scream bc holy Shit. My dog also makes a chewbacca noise when she wants something ?? dog sneezes are cute ?? the little frogs that screeeeeech are cute??? ravens that talk are badass??? literally how am i supposed to choose i love all of them

ok ok that’s enough rambling but this was!! so much fun 2 answer and it kept me enetertained on a long car ride so thank u,,,, ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

i was tagged by @holographiq-ships and @narutohighschoolreunion !!! thank you so much i love doing these!! >:3

nickname: UHHH my nonselfship friends call me foon a lot lmao. ive also gone by fletcher and moth on different things if that counts!

zodiac: gemini sun, taurus moon, leo rising!!

height: like.. 5’5??

last thing i googled: shaking hands emoji. idk why i didnt just use my desktop emoji keyboard hello??

song stuck in my head: BACK IN THE SUBARU FOREVER

number of followers: uhhhh 326 !! 💕💕💕

average amount of sleep: 7-8 hours i think!! cut that in half when im at uni..... 😰

lucky number: 11!! which is my birth day :3c

dream job: UHHHHH. yeah.

currently wearing: a pink shirt and comprees!!

favourite song: perhaps little fang? :3c

favourite instrument: pianos fun!!

aesthetic: i like a lot of things!! typically softer aesthetics tho like honeycore/cottagecore. i like softer kidcore aesthetics too!! angelcore if thats a thing? and lovecore!!

favourite author: HMMM terry pratchett!! and erin hunter!! also i used to be obsessed with gordon korman’s books as a kid

favourite animal noise: my dog makes this ‘foomp’ noise when shes being silly and. its that

im gonna tag @mysterypinesx @yokairu @lovelyescapist214 @shirorabu @astheravensighs @queen-of-faerghus @squips-ship @nanonami-loves @hoarder-of-boys @yumejin !! and anyone else that wants to!! 💖💖