#raz text

[raspberryberyl]

ah I love the dsmp and some people (mainly cc's) are killing me.

I had to watch the cctommy video because idk ocd or i just felt like it would kill me if i didn't watch.

Tommy was usual tommy fashion, and the video was good! Don't get me wrong. I love that he didn't say it was cringe, and was nostalgic and positive about it. That he had good things to say.

I believe and want to believe in my heart that cctommy really cares about the dsmp and ctommy. Sometimes it feels like cc!eret , cc!quackity, cc!tommy are the only ones that really care. That care about the audience that they've created, that try to cultivate it. I want to believe that others care too but its these three that i feel are the most vocal about it.

But watching the new Tommy video, i feel slightly hurt. I know Tommy is just being Tommy fashion and being silly and "annoying", and maybe he's not being completely full hearted and serious because he wants to appease fans that do think it was cringe (which seems to be quite a bit, mostly twt).

But i just feel like, is it so hard to believe that people would care about the story you created? Especially one that is so unique and tackles such raw and real emotions and experiences. for my fellow ctommy fans, its family, home, abuse, suicidality, etc.

Maybe it's because it just doesn't feel real to the cc, that they made this popular series. Maybe it's because to a lot of them it really was just a game and goofing off. But to us fans, it was so much more. We poured ourselves into it. And it hurts to be treated like a joke and "cringe".

I feel grateful to cctommy for saying the positive things he did, but should I? Should i be appreciative that he treats us with bare minimum respect... like yes I know he cares, I think he does, but his joking attitude about it all makes me feel like a joke.

I did not like the constant sexual innuendos about c!tommy. was the foreplay one a little funny? yeah maybe. but describing the classic hurt c!tommy sigh/grunt/thing like a moan? no, i did not like that.

Maybe he's coping with humor. as other people pointed out cctommy was constantly sexualized on that server. And as he said he is an adult now that can joke about it anyway he likes because it is HIM.

I also did not like him describing ctommy as "a bad guy." ctommy had flaws, he was not perfect, that's one of the reasons he is so great, but he was not a bad guy. I could see c!tommy thinking he is the bad guy, but cctommy is the writer and should know better. I don't like being told that an abuse victim who is so very human, is "the bad guy". I might only partly forgive him for this because he talked about how c!tubbo (and cc!tubbo), was often an ignored victim and character that deserved to shine.

I did not like the "making fun of " suicide. Which is a major problem the dsmp writing has.

I am forever hurt by how the cc treat us. I devoted so much of my time and energy to this just to feel like a joke, just for them to act like they don't care. Well i choose to continue to care, because i really and truly do.

I've said it before but cc!ranboo was my main main, i watched every stream, even the non dsmp ones. But with how they treated c!ranboo, i just can barely bring myself to watch them. i did not get into generation loss, it hurts too much. I respect Ranboo for going with his passions and not doing things just to appease fans, but i am forever hurt that he had so little care in the end for something that so many of us cared about.

Most cc are just silent about their dsmp days and have no comment. But then others joke about how the fans cared? cc!puffy i was devoted and excited for your lore, and you failed to deliver it and now treat us like a joke.

And other cc where it just feels like they are trying to milk it for content, don't get me started.

And I'll be honest, I am still sick of all this dancing around the subject in the room that is the problematic cc. I get the cc don't owe us their views, and probably don't want to further drama. But Tommy can you just say you don't like or support Dream! Can any cc be open about it! Tommy stop giving me heart attacks by putting dt in your thumbnails 😭

And yeah this was really long and rant/venty, I feel like i forgot some stuff that i wanted to say so i will just add it later if it comes to mind.

But my point is, people cared about the dsmp. Some people moved on, and many of us are here and still thriving. People care, so stop being surprised that we do. Stop treating us like a joke.

If you're going to mention it cc, be respectful, kind, and maybe don't say anything if you don't really care about it.

the dsmp had many issues, no one is denying, but people cared.

[rinboking]

The request post reminded me of this old comic I made but forgot to post.

Not long after...

[dammarchy211]

Rude.

[ottosbigtop]

This documentary is really good I think.

[nhasablogg]

my god I just LOVE casual tickles in casual settings that don't even really lead to tickle fights. watching someone just squeeze someone's side or poke them. it's so CUTE, I'm going insane

[ca-dmv-bot]

Customer: FIRST NAME INITIAL LAST NAME AND YEAR BORN DMV: 88=HATE SYMBOL Verdict: DENIED

[2hoothoots]

So happy I finally found you! Your art has been lurking in my Pinterest feed for forever and I kept forgetting to check out your Tumblr pffff

Your art is so cool your grown-up versions of both Raz and Lili and very gender to me specifically ❤️❤️❤️

AW thank you!! it's always so wild to me to think about my stuff popping up on other sites, haha. perhaps this too will some day reach the distant shores of pinterest...

and i'm glad! (raz doesn't keep up with the On-Line Lingo but he'd still be flattered i'm sure)

[thissmycomingofage]

It was said before but needs to be said again: being part of the community doesn't make it impossible for you to be discriminatory. It's among the community that some of us are the most mistreated and it's a fact

[heres-to-all-that-is-mine]

Tfw The Guy™️ who breaks into your house at night to tell you to commit atrocities while you (try to) sleep is also one of your only “friends”

[way-too-cool-raybot]

Raz is like 10 in psychonauts (1 and 2, because they are only days apart) and I know he's a smart kid but a lot of people in psychonauts do NOT treat him like he's a kid. Yeah sure blame the 10-year-old for not making it to your classroom on time after he was hazed and then found a practically dead body. Also he's ten you didn't show him where your classroom was you just let him wander. Give this kid an apple juice or something he's had a hard week

[raspberryberyl]

To that one ask I just got, you are totally right. I don't expect people to still love things they made years ago, I myself have fallen out of love with things I have created. You are right. I suppose I just don't like expecting other people not to still love that thing you made. I can totally understand if cc!Tommy didn't like the dsmp, and that would be totally fair. I guess I'm just thrown off by the cc and past fans being like "you actually like the dsmp?" But yeah I was being harsh on Tommy. Tommy's video is totally him and totally in character. I'm just a bit bitter and taking this as an opportunity to voice some of my thoughts. And I guess my harshness comes from the fear of giving cc!Tommy the benefit of the doubt? Like I don't know him, I don't know what his real thoughts are. Part of me is scared of trusting cc and believing the best in them after everything this fandom has been though. And yeah cc!Tommy has on several occasions said that c!tommy was the bad guy, but I and many other very much disagree with that and find it hurtful. I suppose it's just hard when cc!Tommy has expressed that he knows his character so well (as of course he made the character) but then says things like that. I am mainly thinking of the eve of the dsmp finale, where in his chat cc!Tommy was saying that c!Dream was the villian/bad guy and whatnot, and that c!Tommy was a victim. And how he might make a stream talking about it, but then never did. I know he knows it, so it just hurts that he seems to backtrack.

But yeah you are right. And maybe later I will regret and disagree with my original post. But I just felt like sharing my thoughts in the moment.

[astr0lumina]

god giving their weakest soldier (me) their hardest battles (having to do Tasks while 12 feet deep in a hyperfixation)

[textingtroublesanswers]

do any of da two medics have spare teeth I can use :P

-RAZ

Friedrich is trying very hard to wrangle his budgies back into their cage, "Third drawer in the second cupboard to your left. Take as many as you need. Wait, no, take at max ten, I need the rest."

[tri-punisher]

youngins

[emo-nordegraf]

hey. in basic braining when raz says he was researching how to get rid of nightmares. do y'all think he was researching that because of the mpreg nightmare

edit: okay i just remembered that loboto was in that dream and. raz didnt and had no way of knowing loboto until later on so this cant be true. but then again the idea of raz having reoccurring mpreg nightmares is incredibly funny so im just going with that

[ca-dmv-bot]

Customer: RED RASPBERRIES DMV: RED=GANG COLOR Verdict: ACCEPTED