#random life update

[c4llmelove]

I still have so many books to read but I want to reread solitaire 😭

[infiniteetcetera]

Nowhere else to post this where I wouldn’t get clocked😩 but this couple in my year dressed as Rhys and Feyre for Halloween and when I mentioned to the girl I’d thought about doing Azriel but it didn’t work out (cool looking wings are HARD to find and without a group I feel like I wouldn’t have looked right) and she looked me dead in the eye and said “Aw you could have been subservient to me” and that will probably haunt me for the rest of my life

[aliceosemansolos]

am i the only one who gets that random sick feeling for no absoloute reason?

[urcrowley]

Pookies, I swear the college au is being written 🙏😔

I’m just a bit busy now, since summer is done ugrhrh

anywyas Hawks emote before I gor, I’m making a discord server :)

[spaceman-spaetzle]

fucking hell I just realized I am one day off from having my name change day on weed day. it was yesterday instead

nonetheless i am still very happy

[burningfieldof-clover]

A case of my mother understanding me and what fandom means to me

Me: *showing my mom (60) all kinds of gifs and pictures of the Bad Batch and gushing about how much they mean to me*

Me: *sends the group photo of them from the last round of posters*

The reason I bring this up is because my mom finally managed to understand how real the Batch is to me. She watched me go through a couple different fandom phases as a teenager but nothing like this. (I’m 33 years old now!)

But her realizing what kind of life I am living in my head and with all of you wonderful tumblr moots and friends felt like a breakthrough for me.

After this I started to tell her about my Star Wars OC and how Omega really is just the sweetest girl ever, but man I can’t tell you how much my heart soared knowing that my mom FINALLY got it in her own way.

[amalthiaph]

update: I had gone back to the doctor and I'm halfway through healing. The infection is way less now but I had to continue my medication. I can also hear well now.

[araminthe]

8 October, Tuesday 2024

Ouffffff

Last time I updated was almost a month ago and let me tell you that sooo much has happened.

(Needed to take some time for myself, and so much happened, didn't have the energy, nor felt the need to share on tumblr)

So,

Main events of the previous month:

- Had multiple outings with friends and family, was soo much fun, made some life memories ♡

- School started, I had to start this year in a degree I don't like, but hey I met soo much girls/friends and we happened to have so much in common, imagine my surprise when I discover thar one of them knows my cousin 🤨, so guess those 3 weeks in this degree were worth it ✨️✨️

- Now, the NEWS I was expecting since the start of september, I wanted to change studies to go into science and I GOT ACCEPTED. Well I have almost 3 weeks of classes to catch up on but at least I LOVE what I'm learning and studying. I definitely did not feel that in my previous degree, but now it's like I can finally exploit my skills and knowledge. I feel like im in the right field. Youhouuu! 🎉

(I'm also on the same campus than a cousin of mine and 2 close friends, isn't everything soo great? I rarely saw them before but now we often cross paths hehe, that's one of the perks of studying in the city you grew up in)

- I also met with multiple close friends I hadn't seen for a long time so it's also a positive note.

- Today, I had my first driving lesson, I never drove a car before so I will have to take between 30 and 35 hours of lesson.

Almost 60euros per lesson, oh gosh that's so expensive 💀💀💀💀

And my cousin only had to drive 20hours. HAAAAAA. *expressing frustration

And omg the instructor literally tried to intimidate me, I think she was testing me, she invaded my personal space, and I was like "Hehe alright when do we start " 😀 Ughh, help.

- I also watched the 2nd season of jjk, and damn gege, stop making the fans suffer.

(I never watch animes even tho I love them, so for me that was also an accomplishment)

Anddd that's it I guess.

Now

Personal goals:

Did I stop scrolling? No, but I'm not extremely addicted anymore, I can stop and not be distracted when I study so it means I improved on that point.

Those last 6 months struggles paid off it means 😁

(But I need to be careful to not fall back into it, I think it could easily happen)

I'm also including short exercices in my routine.

Stretching more often.

I still don't eat healthy, on this aspect I'm doing really bad at the moment 😓

But, I can study without distractions and actually work my lessons, that's a W.

What else could I mention?

Sleep: I have a nice sleep schedule now, I managed to sleep early almost every night and wake up early in the mornings, I feel rested and great.

Mental health: I think it's adulthood doing that to me but I've started to go from optimistic to pessimistic. I discovered lots of new negative feelings during the last year, I don't like how I'm changing negatively.

I guess I just had a taste of reality, not everything's perfect, neither are people, I guess I've started to come out of my bubbly wrapped pink dusted innocent view of life. Welcome to reality as they say. People are not as nice as I had always thought. I'm starting to not like people. But I only became 19 recently after all, i feel like a child mentally, am I not 1 year old in adulthood?

Anyway, I just want to be nice for the sake of it, does it mean they will see me as naive ans stupid? Well I am not, I just chose to be kind.

Let me fight evil with kindness.

Also need to work on my faith, because without it I lose my inner peace.

And to finish, let's talk about health; well, health wise I'm really not doing great. I really can't handle the humidity in my city and everyday I feel like im about to have a heart attack in the sense that I feel this humidity in my head, heart, bones, nose, throat, EVERYDAY. I really don't feel great, and I KNOW that's its because of how humid everything is.

I'm even 80% sure that it's because of the humidity that I developed so much allergies. Screw bad healthcare and bad doctors, in 6 years, couldn't they tell me that I was suffering everyday single day because I had developed so many allergies? Maybe it should have been obvious when I told them that I sneezed literally hundreds of times per day and had a very runny nose every day of the year FOR 6 YEARS

(I feel resentment)

Well.

Overall life has been 70% positive, 30% negative.

So much great things happened and I'm really happy but life's not easy for anyone and like any lambda human, I have my deal of problems.

But well, I think our purpose as humans is to keep trying to BE better and DO better.

So I won't give up, for the sake of my own life.

And we always have more good things in life than bad, others sometimes even have it worse, we just need to be open minded enough to see all the great things that have been granted to us.

Goodnight people.

N'abandonne pas, ça va aller <3

Crois en toi et continue à faire des efforts ✨️

[harrywavycurly]

Life Update: Hello my loves! I know recently all I’ve been doing is posting updates on why I haven’t been on and updating my stories. I’m sorry for that but I have been sick for the past two weeks and I just can’t seem to shake it and on top of that I work 40-50 hours a week so my time off is just very precious to me and I’ve been using it to rest. I haven’t forgotten about my stories they are still going to be updated and TND as well as It Was Just One Night are going to be completed before Christmas! I love y’all and hope you’re doing well! Thanks for being amazing💖✨

[kiwi-licious]

Ayyy, I survived the second day of my finals :'D

Did i do a good job? Absolutely not, I'm praying that I'll pass SOMEHOW. But now I can sit around and do nothing without feeling guilty about not studying haha.

Maybe now I'll be a tiny bit more active on here (no guarantee)

[c4llmelove]

I want an online friend group😭

[aliceosemansolos]

I BURNT MYSELF WITH DA SOUP😔💔

[fandomsoda]

Holy hell Konpeito was right, I am burnt out… I’ve started to realize that the sheer amount of stress I’ve been under lately has only hindered my ability to make better decisions and function properly. I have no idea how exactly to undo this stress, but spring break is next week so here’s hoping that will be a time where I can get my mental health in some sort of order. I’ve not been my best self recently, far from, and I need to see if I can do anything about it beyond just trying harder to do better. Because if I keep trying super hard but continue to be physically and mentally drained, it’s just gonna be a matter of emotionally overexerting myself and my state and behavior will only get worse. My efforts to prevent my fuck-ups will turn those worries of fucking up into self-fulfilling prophecies if I’m not rested enough to actually monitor myself. I’ll just wind up being more impulsive out of trying to prevent a problem and end up making it worse.

I’m not sure exactly what my course of action is going to be just yet, this isn’t an announcement or anything just thinking out loud, but expect to see less of me posting again even though I’ve already been on a slower roll. Just trying my best to get back on my feet so I can be my best.

[superstaridolstart]

Sorry for not being active, there has been a recent death in the family, and I'm expecting to be traveling a lot more in the future, plus my executive disfuction got the better of me

[twistedtummies2]

SOME EXCITING NEWS, MY FELLOW KINKY WEIRDOS: I have officially (AT LONG FREAKING LAST) had the opportunity to download both "Obey Me!" and "Fate/Grand Order" to my (rather crummy) cellular device. I've wanted to play both games for a while now, but I haven't been physically able to because my current phone's memory is a gigantic pile of...insert an unpleasant euphemism here. :P Well, thanks to the purchase of a very lovely new SD card - and the ability to shuffle around some apps accordingly - I have FINALLY been able to get the space needed to get these games. I'm not totally unfamiliar with either franchise, of course; "Fate" I've seen several of the anime shows for, and "Obey Me!" I've also watched the anime shorts series. But in terms of the latter, I'm not really an expert and have been known to make several mistakes in details, and in terms of the former, there's just a lot of characters and story elements for "Grand Order," specifically, that I just don't know much about, because the game is absolutely MASSIVE in its cast and scope. Hopefully, with the ability to play these games now literally at my fingertips, I can develop and/or rethink some crushes, and just get a better understanding of these worlds and characters for future endeavors. We'll see how things go in the near future. ;)

[whatsleftofdishaa]

October really is the month of fall. I have fallen twice this month and hurted different body parts everytime. The only similarity was I fell from the stairs both the time.