#rambling on and on but mostly this is for me lmfao

[fish-and-forbear]

Thinking so much about Thanor again tonight...

He didn't deserve the fate he got.

I have ten thousand thoughts about him, about what he means to me, about the concept of revenge, dragon morals, and wisdom/anger (in Rhapsody/Rhapsody of Fire lyrics and themes)

I am THIS CLOSE to following my heart and "reincarnating" Thanor into Grist + Neumes world to mesh with the steel dragon god of vengeance/cosmic irony/retribution. To give him a happier life and chance to grow and love and destroy and hoard and feast and do all of the dragon-y things he deserves to do.

He still gets to be a hero (in a story of choosing to go against your anger/evil side and do The Right Thing at great personal sacrifice) but instead of letting him be tortured by Nekron for forever he gets to come back as a cool undead dragon god and get a 20 ft tall knight boyfriend (Helm, my beloved) as well. uwu

Helm (human god of protection, guardians, the eternal watcher) and Thanor (steel dragon god of vengeance, cosmic irony, choices) they are so perfect together and I love them.

Also fully embracing Thanor would... really help explain a side of myself that I have forcibly ignored for. So many reasons.

Giving him a voice and a chance to grow, heal, and have the life he deserved (vs his original source, and the way I've buried this side of myself).

Needs a lot more thought and to be nurtured over time, gently and with caution. But feeling at peace with it.

Is it cringe? YES. But are we happy? The BIGGEST yes I can muster right now. c:

- Fisher

[bitegore]

I misplaced my credit card.

It's prbably not stolen, but, out of an abundance of caution, because it hasn't turned up in four days and the last time I saw it was a day I wasn't doing super hot for a number of reasons and then got sick as a dog after, I'm going to operate under the assumption that it's somewhere out in the public and I have to concern myself with the idea that someone might pick it up and use it. Before that happens, I'm going to order a new one in the mail and cancel that number.

This normally wouldn't be a big deal, because I have a debit card, and I try not to spend money I don't have. That is not true right now, because I get the money in my actual bank account (mostly) from my dad, who has been saying he'll get it to me for about a month now and not doing it. His bank account was hooked up to my credit card (which we did last month so he could pay my bill for me). This also normally wouldn't be a big deal beacuse I have cash. My college is cashless. Sometimes I have to spend money here. So you see what the actual problem is, right?

Anyway point is I suddenly have about $70 to split over everything I'll need to pay for for the next (estimated) two weeks, during what is probably the single two week period I'm going to spend the most money on takeout. (Midterms).

Normally again this wouldn't be a huge problem! I'd take on some art commissions and finish them off later. I don't love doing it but I can do it. Normally. I have a lot of outstanding commissions from this summer that I owe people, though. So I can't in good conscience do that.

Anyway, all that to say: I'm selling nudes. Hit me up. I'll do whatever. Particularly good at taking pictures outdoors but I can do it wherever. I'll fill requests. Send me a message and I'll see what I can do for you.

"teaser" under the cut :3

[neiptune]

I hate how I need to hang out with someone for a bit to start developing actual feelings for them like I can't meet a guy at a club and be into him I need that friendship course first I need the tension I need the will they won't they energy I need banter I also need to make sure he doesn't stab me in the face at some point

[passerinesoncaffeine]

"he would not fucking say that" but its "he would not fucking cope like that." "His recovery would not fucking be that quick." "He would not fucking have the strength to live this down." yk

[fleshdyk3]

theres this one very famous very controversial artist that lives in my city and like... the thought that shes out here doing nefarious things is like haunting to me

[meimeikyu]

entirely random, but what order were Horror, Dust, and Killer yoinked by the gods?

for yoinked by the gods im going with nightmare yoinking them for this!!! those 3 were also technically affected by other gods but,,, nightmare would be the primary god who i mean. literally did take them so-

the first was killer! nightmare was wandering about late at night some point after the 'incident' and found killer bleeding out in an alleyway. nightmare wasnt really intending on doing anything about it at first but well,,, nightmare saw something in them that felt too familiar...

the second was actually horror!!! horror was touched by a previous god before being 'yoinked' (i need a better word for this-) by nightmare, but nightmare is the god he is properly 'under'. nightmare discovered horror, being the only survivor of a cult town that attempted ahem. not great shit!!!. horror had somewhat escaped the town before but really had no where to go, so accepted nightmares invitation.

dust was third! nightmare actually had to track dust down somewhat. she discovered part of dusts 'story' and decided she wanted to find where he was being kept and free him from it, bringing him into nightmares group!!

i will go more into detail about their like,, stories n stuff if ppl r curious but ye!!!

[raviposting]

Okay smoshblr please help lmfao what cast dynamics set should I make next yes there is an obvious theme

[reverie-starlight]

I've been feeling extremely depressed this week, but I kid you not kuroo's bday is bringing me back to life today so if you see me going a bit wild on the dash, don't mind me <3

[overwhelmedfrog]

in my current/first bg3 playthrough, due to a series of unfortunate choices and events, everyone at last light inn became shadowcursed undead and had to be killed. including dammon. which means there’s nothing I can do to fix karlach’s engine (at least as far as I am aware). and if I think about this fact too hard I WILL cry. my girl karlach deserves the whole world!! and I can’t give her the one thing she asked for? to say I am devastated is an understatement

[gojoest]

i have this feeling that whenever i am absent from work pure chaos reigns over there judging by how often i get calls…

[bitegore]

So seriously: if you have a serious recoil/disgust factor at uncommonly eaten parts of an animal being in any kind of food context (eg: whole fish being served at a table) and you want to work on minimizing that reaction, I really really recommend eating "normal" versions of those unusual foods, like for example deli-sliced tongue. I know I'm talking out of my ass here, but things like liver and haggis (organ meat), tongue (tongue), and probably a whole lot of others I've never had can be pretty easily made into forms that taste real good and don't look much like a weird lump of flesh you can recognize, and being able to get from "that's weird and gross but I want to get it" to "that's weird but it tastes really good and I want to get it" will probably make building up momentum easier when you move on to less "common" pastures.

Good luck, by the way. I believe in you.

[welcometoteyvat]

played too much star rail this might become a genshin and hsr blog for real

[tariah23]

Imagine telling another black person to stay out of black folks businesses just because they got an anime icon and you by default, thought that they were white or nb 😭…

[helloarchivist]

gonna put this under a readmore untagged bc I'm not trying to harsh anyone's fun, just a like...interesting thing i've noticed.

it's been a while since my hyperfixation has been on like. a live action series/actual actor, so i've been out of those circles for ages, and it's like...usually when I go to reblog a gifset in one piece or any of the anime that I'm into/have been into, it's either catalog tagged or has tags about the characters in the gifs.

but a LARGE majority of the gif reblogs for Peter's stuff has been like. faceclaims? like for people's OCs or roleplay groups? which I am all for, I'm a big proponent of OCs and selfships and all that stuff, it just means that the vast majority of the reblogs are random names in cursive followed by snippets of songs or poetry followed by characterization tags that are years into someone's RP thread.

which is fascinating in the way that overhearing someone having a really intense conversation while walking past you on the subway platform is fascinating, but it also means getting to anyone's thoughts about the actual scenes involves scrolling through old school superwholock levels of incomprehensible self-referential RP tags.

idk if that happens here too and I just don't follow anyone who does tumblr RP in my other fandoms or what, but it's EVERYWHERE in these tags lmfao.

[orcelito]

Honestly manga Midvalley and trigun 98 Midvalley are basically two different characters

Yea I wanna punch manga Midvalley constantly, but I also find him interesting & a compelling character. The times I've seen 98 Midvalley he just looks so sleazy lmao it makes me REALLY wanna punch him

Tough choices

[astrxealis]

my ocs..... i love you