#racism and CSA 'jokes'

[knownoshamc]

Anyway, I'm not deleting the previous posts just yet in case you guys want to block them etc, which I recommend you do, but if you want me to tag the posts lmk

In the midtime please feel free to send me nice stuff (about characters, etc, or pets or anything) to distract me, I'd appreciate it

[neurotypical-sonic]

maybe I'm just a buzzkill and take things too seriously. but I hate fake out jokes. if the joke is "haha you thought I was gonna say something hateful or hurtful but I didnt isnt that funny ^_^" then its a shit joke. anyways dont put posts about "[child character] is addicted to porn - suprise! the porn is an acronym for something else get your head out of the gutter 🤣" on my dash

[glitter-stained]

Jason Todd Meta: My opinion on the csa headcanon

Does Jason's behaviour suggest he was a victim of csa?

There is very little, in terms of clinical signs, that’s going to point to csa specifically, because most symptoms, for psychiatric disorders, aren’t specific to one disorder or cause. One thing that’s usually a good hint would be children making very sexual statements/references/jokes/behaviours that are very inappropriate in context (a good example of this would be Roman Roy from Succession); night terrors are bed wettings amongst children/teenagers over a certain age. But that is absolutely not necessary: many, if not most victims of csa don’t display these specific signs, and a twelve years old that suffers from night terrors is not necessarily a victim of csa. The one thing that tells you for sure, in a person with trauma, that they have been a victim of csa, is that they’re telling you they have been a victim of csa. I’m insisting on that part because there’s a whole bunch of therapists (cough cough psychanalysts) that will tell you confidently that your psychiatric symptoms stem from a childhood sexual trauma (cherry on top of the shit cake if it’s incestuous) that you didn’t know about because you’ve repressed it. I repeat, that’s bullshit. If you meet a clinician who tells you that, RUN. So, a warning: this is probably the least “psychological analysis” of my “Jason psychological analysis posts”, because Jason’s symptoms do not allow us to conclude formally for or against a history of sexual abuse. But that doesn’t mean we can’t do some meta, make sure we're on the same page with what's analyzed here, some textual analysis, discuss what the csa headcanon does and does not imply in terms of his behaviour. I think it’s a good idea to start with it so we know where we’re standing with our analysis, regardless of the fact it’s maybe not the most interesting in terms of psychopathology and neuropsychology.

A couple of disclaimers:

I only talk about the comics I want to talk about. This is for two reasons, which are that 1) I do what I want and if I don’t like/don’t find something interesting, I’m not gonna waste time on it; and 2) I’ve been reading comics for a couple of months only, and there are, like, a lot of them. If there are comics you wanna see analysed under that lense, feel free to suggest them! I might not want to, but it also could be that I haven’t read them yet. Additionally, I'm not interested in questioning the morality of Jason's actions here. Ethics are fun, and I like talking about them sometimes, and morality sometimes has a place in talks about demonization but largely speaking this isn't the space for that. I separate talk about morality and psychology stuff as much as I can for a reason, so if you are looking here for excuses for his behaviour or arguments as to why he is a bad person, you're in the wrong place. Moral judgement is irrelevant here for the most part.

On the events of Red Hood: Lost Days:

Jason has, at some point in the comics, been a victim of csa. When Talia kisses Jason before pushing him off a cliff right after he got out of the Lazarus Pit, and when she initiates sex with him in Lost Days, that’s not consent!! That’s a grown woman taking advantage of a traumatized teenager who is, on top of that, deeply indebted to her. That’s a predatory act, with a steep power imbalance, it’s sexual assault, and on top of that there’s an element of suggested pseudo-incest. That decision was retconned, and thank god, because it was a brutal assassination of Talia’s character based on a good bit of racism, and also because the way it was portrayed doesn’t make it clear that Jason is a victim in a situation rather than that super annoying trope of “teenage guy gets to bang a hot MILF and hahaha lucky him”, writing a male character in a situation of SA without acknowledging it as SA or taking it seriously is one of the tropes I hate most, it reinforces stigmatisation and isolates victims. For all of these reasons, I’m not gonna include that element in my analysis, but it’s important to note that if you do include those scenes in your conception of it, then Jason is undeniably a victim of csa and everything discussed about it applies to him.

What if it were a lie?

I’ve said it before (and I’ll say it again), I deeply, violently hate headcanons/tropes where a character lies about being a victim of csa (whether it’s for manipulation, personal gain, any reason really I don’t care). It’s rare as fuck in real life, however it’s a common trope that feeds into fear of being wrongfully accused that causes push-back and increases social stigmatization. CSA is a painful thing associated with intense feelings of shame and already a deep fear of not being believed. Imagine making a considerable effort to seek help after something terrible happened/is happening to you, and you have to brave your fear of not being believed on top of that, and once you’ve made all that effort you get rejected and villainized because it’s just easier for the person you’re reaching out to not to believe it. So I’m awfully weary of this type of headcanon, and I think a general rule of thumb is “if your interpretation of what the character is saying is that he’s talking about how he was abused, especially if he’s talking about sexual assault, then it happened.” If you don’t like that, if you don’t feel like that’s good representation, then you can question the story, think it should be retconned, or rethink your interpretation of what the character says if it’s ambiguous, but hcing that the character lied about his assault is not a hypothesis we’re going to accept here no matter what. So we can start by scratching that one out: Jason never lies about being a victim of csa, or wilfully hints at it even though that’s untrue, at any point.

Two other ideas I’ve seen floating around that I think are worth mentioning:

No, just because Jason lived in the streets as a kid doesn’t mean the only way he survived was through underage prostitution. I genuinely don’t understand that idea, yes being a street kid makes you extremely vulnerable, yes it makes the risk of resolving to underage prostitution to survive higher but it’s absolutely not a fatality. That idea is, quite frankly, weird. Do you automatically assume if a real life person tells you they were in the streets for some time at a kid that they are a victim of csa? Also, I've seen the idea go around that because some people have a strong reading/hc of Jason as bi (which I have no problem with I love bi Jason), that would be an argument in favour of the csa hc. Please don’t do that. There’s no link between queer sexual orientations and childhood sexual abuse, that’s a harmful myth that we should work to deconstruct or, at the very least, not continue to vehiculate.

Another important thing to keep in mind: childhood sexual abuse =/= childhood sexual trauma.

Now, a traumagenic situation is a situation that might induce trauma (so development of, acute stress disorder, ptsd, cptsd, derealization, any traumatic pathology really). These situations exist on a continuum of probability to be traumatized by this situation. For example, a flood, a car accident, witnessing a murder and being sexually assaulted are all traumagenic situations, but the probability of developing trauma from them are very different. It hinges on personal, situational, social, and environmental risk factors (that have nothing to do with being weak, anybody can develop trauma). A definition for traumagenic situations can be found in the diagnostic criteria for ptsd in the dsm-5:

A. “Exposure to actual or threatened death, serious injury, or sexual violence in one (or more) of the following ways:

1. Directly experiencing the traumatic event(s).

2. Witnessing, in person, the event(s) as it occurred to others.

3. Learning that the traumatic event(s) occurred to a close family member or close friend. In cases of actual or threatened death of a family member or friend, the event(s) must have been violent or accidental.

4. Experiencing repeated or extreme exposure to aversive details of the traumatic event(s) (e.g., first responders collecting human remains; police officers repeatedly exposed to details of child abuse). Note: Criterion A4 does not apply to exposure through electronic media, television, movies, or pictures, unless this exposure is work related.”

Note that the this last criteria has been added from the DSM-5 in order to explain cases of PTSD observed in at-risk jobs like cops exposed to repeated detailed child abuse, first responders collecting human remains, or, crucially, vigilantes repeatedly exposed to brutal crimes. This means that Jason, when he works on the Dumpster Slasher case, when he is horrified to find Gloria in the immediate aftermath of her rape (and later finds her dead body, because witnessing the consequences of these traumatic events is also an important component of that second-hand trauma), is being exposed to a very traumagenic situation. As I said before, that doesn’t necessarily mean you will experience trauma (thank fuck for that), but there are factors that influence that. SA related situations has an already pretty high probability of inducing trauma. On top of that, age is a big factor in that: the younger you are, the less resources, emotional regulation, development and coping mechanisms to face the traumagenic event you have (though there is such a thing as “too young to have PTSD" -when your memory is simply not developed enough for the memory to traumatize you because you will not remember the event.) At fifteen, with his memory fully developed but his brain going through so much changes because of teenagehood and his past history, Jason would be at risk. On top of that, you’re more at risk to get traumatized if you’re already stressed out when the event happens, so Jason’s mental state at this point in his robin run is also a risk factor. All to say, it’s very plausible for Jason to have sexual trauma without being a victim of sexual abuse in relation to canon events. Besides, in headcanon territory when it comes to Jason’s childhood before Robin, there are so many ways to be exposed to sexual violence : witnessing/finding his mother being a victim (considering the position of extreme vulnerability Catherine was in), witnessing assault in the streets, being the victim of attempted SA and escaping, watching street kids get picked up and later find their bodies/being told by other kids, as a cautionary tale, in excruciating detail, testimonies of their own assault… Or for example, if we’re thinking about Arkham Knight, being constantly threatened with SA, it being hinted and joked about and hanging over him like a sword of Damocles is something I could see Joker and other inmates do that could definitely induce sexual trauma even if it doesn’t happen ; what matters most, in trauma, is that the fear is real. Mechanically, when we’re looking at the way trauma works even on a biological level, the overwhelming fear is at the core of the pathology. (This is also why you can develop PTSD after a psychotic episode.) Like, my point isn’t that one of these things happened to Jason, or that he has to have sexual trauma from the events of the Diplomat’s Son or anything -mostly just that this is a possibility, something very serious that happens and an important nuance that I never see in discussions on the csa headcanon, and while it’s not exactly what the debate is about, I think it’s something important to ponder.

Do you consider the csa hc to be canon?

So, there are a lot of Jason stories, and I’m very pro “not take in account what is said in comics you dislike in your conception of canon” because if I did that absolutely no bat character would be readable, I have to believe that no character is defined by their worst writers. And boy, does Jason have a lot of bad writing… On top of the personal retcons, there are also the canon retcons: like Battle for The Cowl is retconned… Unless someone decides to reinject/revamp it into the narrative (please don’t please don’t it’s irrecuperable let it lay with the Flying Todds where it belongs). So, let’s see. There are three writers/arcs that imply/mention the csa hc: Starlin’s writing of Jason’s post-crisis Robin Run (canon though some stuff in it seems to have been retconned), Winick’s writing in Green Arrow: Seeing Red (canon as far as I know), and Battle for the Cowl (retconned). It’s worth noting that one of those are considered to be foundational works for Jason’s character (Jason’s post crisis Robin Run and Starlin’s part in it), and another was written by Winick, who wrote the other two foundational Jason stories: Under The Red Hood and Red Hood: Lost Days. On a personal level, I’m very mitigated about what I like and accept about it. I base my whole love and characterization of Jason about his post-crisis Robin Run, I love that little guy so much, Starlin’s take on Jason’s Robin Run is absolutely canon to me (which does not mean I like Starlin as a writer, thank you very much). On the other hand of the spectrum, the only reason Battle for the Cowl isn’t my least favourite comic ever is because The Killing Joke exists, absolutely not canon, get this thing away from me. And then in the middle, my feelings on Seeing Red (on the entirety of Winick’s Jason really) vary depending on the day, because I do like a revenge story that challenges the status quo with tropes of “bad victim” and it sets up Jason as a character based on love rather than morals which I adore, but there are also some elements of psychophobia in the writing that I (who approach stories through the filter of psychopathology first and foremost) can’t just look past, and also the way it intertwines with classist stereotypes. So do I consider Seeing Red to be canon? In good faith, yes, but whether I’ll accept it as such really depends on the day. In terms of the csa headcanon: it’s heavily hinted in BTFC but not outright said, it’s there as a undercurrent in Starlin’s run because of his intention (to make Jason die of AIDS). And then we have Seeing Red. Basically Jason lists elements about Mia’s life, including her past with underage prostitution (so, just to be very clear, csa), and says they’re very similar, having both lived on the streets, and understand having to do bad things when it’s necessary. This is not the same as saying “I was a victim of csa”, and what he’s saying could be interpreted differently (we know that he was stealing tires, and “only what he needs to survive”, so he could have been referencing small-time theft.) So, it could be a reference to something else, I totally understand why some people want to interpret differently. It just… Feels like such a weird and weak argument to be equating boosting tires to underage prostitution, to me it’s very ooc (in comparison to UTH Jason), and it would feel like weak writing from someone like Winick. Aka it’s not technically canon, and you don’t have to accept it as such(I understand the mentality of "I'm rejecting this interpretation because it feels like demonization of csa victims" perfectly), but personally I think it takes a lot from Jason’s character in Seeing Red and from this story in general.

[ineffectualdemon]

I feel like there is confusion over what is alleged and what is confirmed in the Colleen Ballinger situation

Especially if you haven't been down this rabbit hole for weeks now so I'll explain for those who want to know what the hell is going on

Now my bias is that I believe the victims but I am not a court of law so when I say alleged I do not mean I don't believe them just that it isn't as hard evidence

So I'm going to break it up into what we know is fact, either because confessed to doing it or we have video evidence, and whar is alleged because we only have the victims word or screenshots which we know can be faked

TW: grooming and sexualisation of children and mentions of implied CSA (of a fictional character for that last one but still)

What is fact:

Video Evidence:

Spreading a 16 year olds legs as wide as she could on stage while the teenager was wearing a short dress and therefore exposing her body in a way that made the victim very uncomfortable

Putting snacks down the front of her trousers and then getting young boys to reach into the trousers

And ongoing "bit" about how "Miranda's" (her character) uncle molests her. Like not innuendo its really overt and not okay. Especially for a child audience which she knows she has

A really uncomfortable and weird joke about teen girls and "leaking"

Calling girls on stage to talk about how they are "porn"

A really weird video of her inserting a tampon in her mouth

Lots of racist shit that was or currently is up on her channels

Animal cruelty - not just the dog story. There are a lot of videos of her being horrible to her cats

Offering to send her underwear to a 13 year old Adam even when she acknowledges the parents would be upset

Stuff she confessed to in her "apology" videos:

Talking to her underage fans in group chats

Oversharing in those group chats

Getting ideas from Adam (a minor at the time) for her channels

Sending a 13 year old her underwear like WHAT THE FUCK! Her "defense" is he asked for it! She offered and he took her up on it because he was a huge fan! And he was fucking 13!

Alleged:

(Again- I believe the victims. Their stories are too similar and their screenshots corroborate each other. I'm just saying alleged because screenshots are not the best evidence by themselves in a court of law. I am not a court of law so I can say I believe the victims)

The exact content of the group chats including sexual content sent mostly to and about Adam

Whether or not she sent Trisha Paytas' 18+ content to others without Trisha's knowledge or consent to make fun of Trisha

Including to someone who was a minor at the time

How much work she was getting Adam to do for her

The conversation her brother had with an underage fan

Her best friend Kory abusing Johnny and her allowing it

Her behind the scenes treatment of the lady who worked on her netflix show and her general racism irl

Her mocking and bullying her own fans

Her encouragement and insistence that they keep the chats private and and a secret from the victims parents

That's what we know at the moment

I think even with what we have of the hard evidence this woman should be kept away from kids but that's my opinion

[trickybonmot]

cw: mention of childhood sexual abuse. This post isn't about that but it mentions a specific case of csa in the second paragraph.

So, my dad is a boomer and a pro-Trump Republican. Like a lot of people in that situation, I've been very puzzled, confused, and betrayed at how the person who taught me many of my progressive values, like belief in science, being kind to others, etc. can support what Republicans support.

I read something the other day that made it much clearer to me. Actually, it was in this post by Brandon Taylor about the sexual abuse suffered by Andrea Skinner, daughter of celebrated writer Alice Munroe, at the hands of her stepfather. The author, Brandon, draws a parallel to their own experience of disclosing their sexual abuse and having their family ignore it, minimize it, and even make jokes about it. Why did the family act that way? Why didn't they empathize with the victim and seek justice?

Here's a quote from the article:

Among my people, the rural and working poor, to make a history out of the past is taboo. To speak of a thing done is to make too much of it. To be fishing for sympathy, and for what, when there’s nothing to be done about it anyway.

Here is something that I remember about my dad. We used to watch David Attenborough's nature documentaries together, the old ones, Life on Earth and The Living Planet. In those days David Attenborough himself was in the shows; he would go to the locations and walk along and talk in his nice calm accent and point out the plants and animals. My dad, like me, was an atheist, so we didn't share any mythos of the workings of the world except the one that David Attenborough gave us: the cold, hard, fascinating, miraculous truth of evolution. To me, this was religion.

The last episode of each series was about Man on earth. Even back then, the closing message was a cautionary one: Man was changing the earth, Man was destroying nature with pollution and unchecked urbanization. My dad? Wouldn't watch that. He would turn it off and tell me that he hated that stuff. He didn't tell me that it wasn't true! But I came to understand that he felt there was a kind of wallowing, finger-wagging quality to it that simply made him cringe. Still to this day, when I see this kind of media my first thought is my dad would hate this.

To speak of a thing done is to make too much of it.

This quote hit me like a ton of bricks because I think this is exactly my dad's attitude toward everything bad in the world. This is why all talk of environmentalism, racial justice, reparations--any issue where people are seeking redress or repair of something awful that happened in the past. To make a history out of the past is taboo. To speak of a thing done is to make too much of it. To be fishing for sympathy, and for what, when there’s nothing to be done about it anyway. THAT IS MY DAD. And if you're wondering whether it also came up in the context of being raised by him, IT SURE FUCKING DID but that's a story for another time.

I think he knows that climate change is bad. I think he knows that racism is bad, and that what this nation has done to Black people is bad, and all the rest of it. But when people talk about it? When people beg for something to be done about it? Man, he just doesn't want to hear it. It makes him cringe inside. It's just unbearably awkward. In fact, I think the very hugeness of these issues, the very awfulness of what has been done and it still being done, is exactly why it's so out of line to bring them up.

So he's supporting the party that doesn't put that stuff up in his face all the time, is all. That's what I think. His reaction to the progressive agenda is just a knee jerk, gut-level negativity that has nothing to do with whether what we're asking for is good or right. He just can't stand for that asking to happen, because the MAIN value he was raised with was exactly this: you put your shoulder to the wheel and get on with things. I was talking to him about Putin or something and he said, "well, like my old ma would say, the trash still has to get taken out."

Now, for sure he has also been brainwashed by Fox News and he believes a lot of things that aren't true. But I think what initially opened the door for it was this feeling that it's just unseemly to make a fuss, to make a history out of the past.

I don't know if there's any hope, here--if being aware of this attitude can change anything. But it was comforting to me to find this clue, and maybe it can open the door to a way of talking about politics that doesn't activate his fight-or-flight response!

[acuteradiation]

I've seen alot of posts nowadays talking about how they proudly claim to be fujoshis and like. Idrc how you like reading your BL, but alot of BL/GL has a huge issue with tropes that depict their characters or stories with an offensive amount of racism, transmisogyny, and pedophilia, and I feel like nobody actually talks about how fujoshis overlooked all of these issues. Purely consuming it just because a great majority of them want to objectify/sexualize people they personally could not or would not relate to. Idc if people want to "reclaim" the word for themselves, but I also get the feeling that people are forgetting where fujoshis came from. They came from seeing gay men as "exotic" and writing stories that were laughably bad at best and degradingly awful at worst. Lots of BL/GL still have really bad issues with incest/CSA/SA, in addition to the aforementioned racism, transmisogyny and pedophilia that's been present in BL/GL. Even if they have different origins, they still suffer from the same current day issues. People get really excited for adaptations from mangas to animes, forgetting that the BLs/GLs that are being adapted have HEAVY undertones of these nastier elements, if not it's just always in your face, and nobody is actually taking them seriously. And I wish people could actually remember what "fujoshi"s actually were, and how for a while, BL/GL was heavily impacted by what these fujoshis were looking for in the market. Fujoshis started out as cishet women who wrote stories about gay men for cishet women, and can only see gay men in unrealistic, fetishizing and uncomfortable ways. This isn't a post where I say "It's hard to find GOOD BL/GL" and then get recommended a bunch. Because I'm sure if I look hard enough, I'll find it on my own. But the issue I'm trying to describe is that alot of "self proclaimed" fujoshis seem to not understand just how murky the history of claiming to be a "fujoshi" is. idk.

another issue is that people claim “misogyny” when gay men criticize them for the consumption of BL, when a lot of BL is very misrepresentative of gay men in general. While GL is slightly different in the way it presents sapphic relationships, it still has issues with presenting itself as “cute” and “wholesome” and then the premise revolving around pedophilia and/or incest. Which is also just as big of an issue in fujoshi spaces. And nobody ever talks about it, but they all wanna call themselves fujoshis.

and now with people calling everything “yaoi” and “yuri”, it just gives the impression that people are afraid to call things what they are. They’re scared to say “gay” and “lesbian” or even “sapphic”. People are more comfortable making things into jokes, and are extremely quick to make fun of people who criticize this as well. And it’s very weird.

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What are some of your favorite character relationships/dynamics in TMNT, and why? Is there anything that you particularly like seeing explored with them in fan works (art, writing, comics, etc)?

Wwell. Would I be predictable if I said I like it when people write about Mikey and Meatsweats's dynamic. Cuz I like that. Even if it's not angsty it's still interesting!! Mikey's fanboy obsession that might be a celebrity crush vs Meatsweats's cranky ass middle aged man divorcee that also wants to eat a bunch of teenagers... FIGHT!!! And we all know that I see that whole mess that's going on as Mikey getting groomed because I love to harm my blorbos and give them my personal problems. Also Nothing but Truffle was literally just an episode where Mikey was very explicitly groomed so there's that too. Source: that was, for me, a painfully relatable 11 minutes 👍

I also like Donnie and Mikey they're very special to me,,, and Mikey and Raph too they're CSA victim buddies. Leo and Mikey are still cool but the whole. Oversaturation of Leo content makes him less appealing to write/read about tbh. It's only ok to include him if it's in relation to Mikey now instead of the other way around (JOKE I PROMISE). And Mikey and April are such an underrepresented duo that it's quite literally killing me. THEY HAVE MOVIE NIGHTS GUYS!! CASH IN ON THAT!!!

I also think that April should be included more in general. Across iterations, not just rise. She doesn't get nearly enough attention. Neither does Mikey! So Mikey and April should team up and become. Like. Way cooler than everyone else. I mean they already are but folks can't see it because of misogyny, ableism, and, in rise, racism. Yaaaaay. 😑

Also TO BE CLEAR. none of this is shippy. I hate shipping (all of it) (yes even that one. Especially that one.) (everyone get divorced NOW) (I'm aromantic and romance repulsed)

Sorry if this is like. Weird and incoherent it's 2:30 in the morningggggg I should probably go to bed

[nabs-draws]

Lets talk about being Biracial today.

(TW: Mentioning of racism, CSA, Domestic abuse)

I'm biracial. My Mother is german, my biological father is a Pakistani. My biological father immigrated to Germany in the late 80s/early 90s when he met my mum. They became friends, they began to date and my mum got accidentally pregnant with me. My dad tried to push my mum into abortion first, because at the time mum was pregnant with me, they were not married. Which is a big nono in Pakistani culture. Yet, mum kept me. And convinced my dad, that it will be allright. A year later, they married.

As a kid, it never actually mattered that I was biracial. Because most of the kids I grew up with had a immigration background. Some kids were turkish. Others were russian. and some kids in our neighbourhood were polish. We usually all played together. I learned a bit of russian and Turkish as well...but never could return anything about my culture, as my dad didn't teach me much about Pakistani culture. Yet, the whole outer family expected me to live as a Pakistani.

My parents fought a lot. Both of them had a love/Hate relationship towards each other and my Dad was very abusive towards my mum, and later towards me too. (which resulted in me having cPTSD today). My mum, as a result of my dads abuse and his hostile behavior towards us, became neglectful of me too. I don't blame her today. But it wasn't easy. Especially if you were exposed to violence since birth. My aunt always said, that he should use me and my mum as a way to get the german citizenship. After all , he impregnated a german woman and I was the result, but somehow despite my dad being a monster, he also kind of loved us and said that he would never do such a shitty thing. (but beating your wife and sa'ing your kid was not a shitty thing, huh? ). Dads side of the family were verbally abusive towards me too, considering the fact that I embrace my german side more and pushed away the Pakistani side. It sucked but yeah, it is what it is. I might talk more briefly in the subject in the future, when I'm ready. For now. This is as far as I can go about my family dynamic. Back to other parts of my childhood:

I think the first time I experienced racism, was in 2nd grade. It was the 12th September 2001. I was pretty early in school when a group of kids approached me. Since a lot of people were curious where my name came from, I was always open about my biracial background. "You are Pakistani, right?" In confusion, I responded with a nod. "So that means, you're evil too?" I was still confused by it. They clarified "It was propably your family member that flew into the towers, right?" and they pushed me. Like, I knew what happend on 9/11. But how on earth do they think that I was related to them just because of my ancestory roots. Overwhelmed by all of this, I began to cry badly. A few classmates saw what was happening and called the teacher and told her what happened. My teacher , who was the sweetest person on earth got furious. Not at me of course, but what the kids put me through and she lectured the kids and afterwards thought us about Racism and why we should NEVER discriminate someone because of their heritage. Or looks, or for who they love. Miss Viera truely was the best!

In my family, I usually clashed with my Dad because I began to show interest in christianity. I'm not religious at all, but I was always fascinated by Theology. THe similarities between religious beliefs. And of course, European churches. The concept of Angels and Devils, as overused as this topic is in popculture.

People are always surprised by the fact that I'm biracial, because I pass as white on the street. I have lightskin, but my facial feature would call out the Pakistani side immediately. My amber-colored eyes too. My hair is darkbrown with a ginger shine on it and some lighter brown hairstrains. Which are natural, not colored. And I got freckles. I always joke around that my Parents genes were as stubborn as they were in person, resulting into a weird mix because non of the genes were able to tell which one is the dominant one. and well yeah. I'm in the priviledged position of being read as white , but this doesn't mean that I don't face racism and microagression regardless. Mainly because my name calls me out. And Pakistanis easily recognize me too because of facial features.

Once people get to know my name, they usually begin to treat me differently. They willingly mispronouncing my name, which resulted in me being annoyed and tired of correcting people each time. People asking me where I'm from and not believing me that I'm german (despite my CV says that I'm born and raised in Germany.) Having to deal with bigoted opinions, primarily with authorities and them apologizing, once they learn that I have a B.A. Or people telling me that I speak "good german" once they realize that I am biraced. like…yeah. My mum is german!

Being biracial makes it harder to speak about being victimized by CSA from the family. Because you never know if the therapist in front of you might hold racist believes or not and you don't want to tell your story in order to hurt other people or bigoted people to instrumentalize your story for their fu**ed up believes in thinking that all immigrants are evil (no they're not, by he way I was just very unfortunate to be born in a familysystem consisted of a group of predators that put harm on their children.) That you have to apologize in behalf of people you don't even know just because these people did evil things. Like…for gods sake, it's not our fault that these people do these shitty things. …okay I should stop here.

Anyways…That's why I drew this image. Inspired by the song "Half" by Queen Bee, where Avu-chan sings about their own experience of being Biracial. In fact, it was that song that inspired me to reflect on my own biracialness. That it's not always easy. That we want to live regardless and make people happy. That it isn't our ancestory that makes us matter but the people that we are. That evilness has nothing to do has nothing to do with our culutral heritage but the effed up believes that other people have. For thinking one is more worth than the other, when actually, we're all just human in the end. And if you think otherwise with your racist believes, than maybe this blog isn't for you!

In the end I like to say that you matter. Regardless of your race, your sexuality, your gender, your ability or you age. You are important. You are loved. You matter!

P.S: I need to clarify that every biracial person experience being biracial differently. Just because I had a shitty upbringing, doesn't mean that every biracial person had a shitty upbringing. I'm just talking about MY experience!

P.P.S: I really hope that this doesn't offend anybody. I'm was sitting here for the entire day, not being sure how to write it. On top of this, english isn't my first language so it might be that some sentences might be weird due to errors in translation. Thank you for understanding. If there are problematic sentences, please let me know and I will change it. And please be kind towards each other!

[knownoshamc]

I can't believe I'm awake at 5am cause of this person's posts.

Rant under the thing cause again triggering

Like we do r*pe jokes (including csa jokes) if they are even jokes, really??? Like an entire post about it with those annoying af emojis. Likes instead of people arguing against it

And add racism again "being okay" cause "oh it's a joke" "the show clearly—" "assad is ugly". and this insane also racist behaviour of having to compare and contrast two actors of colour when it's not even comparable (in this case lead actor vs supporting actor. Or just different discussios, not sure I can explain it) is just ugh

and nothing gets done about it, cause who is going to change the minds of these people??? And if you get upset by this, or any conversation about Hollywood's (and a some fandom people who "surrprisingly" adore lou.stat) general tenednecy to push aside muslim and brown actors especially now... you're a whiny baby who is also a racist.

Anyway again no tags or reblogs but feel free to send me messages or reply or like this post, or... don't I needed to get this out

[sunhowler]

readme.txt

hiya :-) username's xenodogz, but you can call me xeno, carrie, sam, or sammy. i'm a 21 year old genderless lesbian. she/they/pup/woof pronouns for me.

i'd prefer that you be 18+ to follow this blog, because i reblog suggestive stuff frequently and speak openly about sex, kink, and fetish. i do not reblog porn, but i may reblog artistic nudity or suggestive content.

all my posts are ok to reblog! if they aren't, then reblogs will simply be turned off. i tag triggers! (starting 3/29/24. if you're concerned about triggering posts, don't scroll past that date!) current list is under the cut.

my website is here. it's got an extensive about-me and commission sheet, if you're interested! :-)

↓ more info below the cut, including what i would like people to tag, if you're into that sort of thing ↓

!!! please tag suicide !!!, including jokes and references, because i will unfollow otherwise. or block, depending on how upset it makes me lol.

(i have all the tags and phrases i could think of blocked, but "#suicide", "#tw suicide", "#suicide tw", or "#suicide mention" are preferred)

★★★★★

triggers i tag:

(i'll try my best to remember to tag these! if i forget to tag something, feel free to let me know. feel free to ask me to tag other things! in my inbox or my dms, i don't mind. i'll almost certainly agree to tag it.)

my format is "#tw trigger".

suicide [#tw suicide]

self harm [#tw self harm]

rape, sexual assault/harassment [#tw rape]

child sexual abuse and child sexual exploitation material [#tw csa]

child abuse [#tw child abuse]

child death [#tw child death]

incest [#tw incest]

domestic abuse [#tw domestic abuse]

drugs [#tw drugs]

drug and alcohol addiction [#tw addiction]

transphobia [#tw transphobia]

transmisogyny [#tw transmisogyny]

racism [#tw racism]

animal abuse [#tw animal abuse]

animal death [#tw animal death]

gore [#tw gore]

unreality and gaslighting [#tw unreality]

thalassophobia [#tw thalassophobia]

i also tag flashing gifs/videos as "#flash warning" and abnormally loud videos as "#loud warning"! i do not reblog jumpscares.

★★★★★

other blogs:

@xenodogartz - my art

@imagelover420 - art inspo

@doggirlhole - furry and furry adjacent

@butchbenrey - hlvrai

@nastyaliendogz - my nsfw art

less active blogs include: @romancerepulsed, @evil-fuck-posts, @critterposting, @wormicide, @puppynose, @moorbid, @frenreyhater, @davekatofficial

★★★★★

frequent tags:

#thank queue - queued posts

#fave - favorite posts

#ultimate fave - favoriter posts

#barking - original text posts

#vidz - videos

#little guys - animals

#feathered friends- birds

#awuff - dogs

#glub glub - fish and cephalopods

#wifeposting - posts that remind me of my girlfriend

i block very liberally. if you or someone you know is blocked, it could be for any number of reasons ranging from "you're a bigot" to "you don't tag my triggers" to "you made a post that kinda annoyed me one time" to "you post about a show i don't care about sometimes." don't take it personally and don't message me about it. thank you!

★★★★★

★★★★★

last updated 1:20 pm cst on march 29th, 2024.

[opinated-user]

for any other YouTuber, faking cancer would be the end of their career. for lily, between saying her sister deserved to be groomed and fucked as a kid and her ongoing seething hatred of the non-white people of Earth, it wasn't even a blip on the radar for a full week.

lily's kinda the marilyn manson of the animation community. hardcore fans who pretend everything's fine, litany of past abuse victims, hatred of kink while being into kink, racism, antisemitism - except marilyn manson actually put in the work of making music and lily just has her wife make art for her and sometimes hits record and rambles for a bit instead of writing anything out in a coherent way.

don't forget now: making a joke out of the possible CSA that her own father went through. i want LO to be called out on some major way and receive some actual backlash, like she has done to so many other people abusing what little power and influence she has. but if all it happens is that she's drowned in irrelevancy and her channel dies without any noise, people tired and done with her shenanigans, then i'll be okay with that too.

[bromantically]

why south park on the dni? i’m not up to date with anything so i would like to know why so i can stop supporting it :>

im hoping this is a sincere and good faith ask so i will answer to the best of my ability

basically south park has participated in just about every kind of bigotry imaginable under the guise of calling itself "satire". the problem with this is that satire is supposed to be a clear critique of something. south park does not "critique" any of the controversial topics it depicts, it simply joins in on targeting whatever compromised group is funniest to make fun of at the time

it would be pointless and tedious (and extensive) to list off exactly everything south park has ever fucked up on, but to list a few things that i can remember (in no particular order):

antisemitism. cartman is a blatant hitler joke and his gimmick is that hes antisemitic to an explicitly jewish character. this is rarely scolded and often encouraged, as if explicit antisemitism is funny

constant racism in every way u can imagine. stereotypes, making fun of poc, and a bg character who frequently shows up is black and his name is token, which is an intentional play on "the token black character", to name a few

queerphobia. the usual; stereotypes, harassment, jokes at the target groups expense, etc. the most prominent gay character is literally satan

csa/pedophilia jokes.

constant ableist jokes

tbh im out of energy for listing everything but if u can imagine something to make fun of in a bigoted way south park has probably done it, and likely many times over. south park claiming to be satire is wrong at best and deeply insulting and actively harmful at worst

[manic-sammy-homodachi]

Thank you for making my tags a meme. I appreciate this so much. It's hilarious and I love it.

I'm sorry for unloading the god awful spn lore that I know but bc I am knee deep in this toxic fandom I am going to unload more cursed lore.

The thing is I hate how destiel shippers woobified Dean so much they ignored all the ways he was problematic and their excuse is he is a repressed bisexual when that is an interpretation and was never canon so his racism, sexism, and HOMOPHOBIA can never be excused. Lbr, even if he was canonically bi the things he said and did weren't excusable.

Anyways, I saw your tags and altho Jensen hates destiel and was never for it. Misha isn't a saint either. Both these actors are problematic in their own ways (tbh a lot of the spn cast are. I could write a whole essay for each of the main cast members.)

But Jensen and Misha are glorified by their destiel fans and most often they look away when these 2 idiot white men do dumb shit. The most recent ones are Jensen made a joke about csa. It's insane how this gets ignored. I'd rather not put the video here as it might upset some people.

But Misha just recently talked about the genocide in Palestine and he fucking denied it. And was very much pro-Israel or (at best) was being neutral.

He deleted this tweet and the thread but just so u know this guy is a piece of shit too.

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[white-chalk-sapphomet]

[ Ask: what's wrong with c*tgirlfor*skin? ]

Idk if this is a genuine question or if its bait or whatever, but basically like.

Back when the same shit happened back in October w lea she was a huge defender of all the paraphilia incest/rape shit if I recall. Idk that they supported the racism fetish shit or beastiality at least as far as i know, but I would prefer to avoid them for the other things alone.

The entire argument about sexual puritanism or whatever could apply if it was about like. Leather, piss, rough sex, weird fetishes and not straight up like. Getting off to rape/incest/ageplay etc that like. Has a real life context.

I and many other ppl on here who were victims of csa or other shit understandably don't want that kind of interaction. I don't buy that it's genuinely empowering or sexually liberating or a healthy coping mechanism for other survivors either.

Somehow I feel that the ginormous category of porn marketed to like. Parents fantasizing about fucking their children isn't the hill they should die on when it comes to a discussion on how respectability politics are dumb. And I say that as somebody who does think respectability politics are dumb.

And yeah, trans women are treated like an easy target for accusations of 'deviancy', of being abusive, of being manipulators, of being violent. We are more carefully scrutinized for respectability.

With that said, I'm sick of mostly other white trans women clamoring about being victims of transphobia when faced with criticism for anything a tme person would also get criticized for.

And then soapboxing about solidarity being a joke and spreading intentionally vague posts like 'once again, trans women are burned at the stake for doing anything. 😒 rb to hit a transphobe with a brick'. Like some kind of blithering child trying to guilt trip their way out of trouble. Which then gets passed around in its full context by their supporters, and then like. Spreads out of context as generic trans solidarity that paints them as a victim while obscuring who implicitly supports whatever they've done like some kind of dog whistle.

It was upsetting to watch the first time I saw it happening and it's upsetting to see it happening again. A lot of the ppl involved were former friends and mutuals.

Its been several months and if I've misrepresented any argument she made as I remember it, its not my intention.

I find no personal gain in like. Petty slandering or whatever if that's what some people universally chalk every blocklist or whatever to be. In summary I think rape/ageplay/incest fantasy apologists cross a boundary that a lot of people would rather not be involved with, either for their own well-being or for the people around them.

Idk that I answered the question as cohesively as I could bc I've been awake since tuesday morning. Thats the most I can manage for now

[talkingtotheapples]

I don't follow Brendon Urie much, what has he done that is problematic? Just so I am aware, I agree it's important not to ignore things like that.

Brendon has done A lot of shit unfortunately heres a link to racist rant of his (x)

At the moment I’m tired and I can’t bothered digging up other sources but just off the top of my head: he made rape jokes to an audience once, he’s made a vine making fun of bipolar, the miss jackson video had a white girl in a war bonnet im pretty sure(i havent seen that video since it came out but i think he beheads the girl too right? like not Wild about that violence against woman) I think at one point he and zack made fat jokes about a fan. 

You’d probably find stuff on google and i know theres master posts floating around(anyone who has one/ any kind of sources it’d be neat if you sent them my way) anyway, I’m sorry this is a mess and I hope it helps! 

[elmidol]

Regarding Commenting

This post does not have to do with me personally, however I am writing it due to friends having endured such things as well as my own experiences with these incidents.

When it comes to comments on fics, be it on AO3 or tumblr, there are times when a line can get crossed. It may be between two readers, two authors, or a reader and author. There are situations where we’ll see comment discussions we do not particularly agree with. It can be commentary on the narrative we don’t vibe with, jokes that rub us wrong, viewpoints drastically different than ours, etc. Where the line gets crossed is how things are handled.

I do not believe an author should personally attack a reader. On that same note, I do not believe a reader should personally attack an author or even a fellow reader.

People have various triggers. I believe in don’t like, don’t read. I did go through a period where I ignored that, and my behavior is something I have grown from. It doesn’t mean I don’t encounter content that makes me cringe, that triggers me. With comments, we don’t necessarily get warnings or tags. But those also aren’t conversations you have to insert yourself into. Can it change your perception of the piece, author, or a fellow reader? You betcha. That’s fair. That’s human. What it does not do is authorize you to leave a comment to suggest the individual is morally wrong. [aside, obviously I am not referencing things such as racism]

There are comments on dark fics regarding how a character deserves what they got. Hell, a lot of audience members root for the villains to be punished, sometimes in horrendous ways, in film, tv shows, etc. And in dark fics we say how karma happens. Sometimes those instances include SA. Reminder: these are fictional characters, not real people.

Now, as a SA survivor (and a survivor of other things that are no one’s business), I sometimes nope away from certain comments on fics or even content within a fic. It’s just stuff I have mixed feelings about. What I do not do is dictate how someone will cope with their trauma. I do not push to know if they have that trauma. You don’t need a survivor card to write or consume dark content.

If an author turns off anon after they receive a comment you made? One that bothered them? One where you believed you had the moral high ground to make such a comment, stating they are wrong for jokes or commentary regarding a villain/dark character “having it coming”? That is not license to go to social media and post a long essay lecturing them how they cannot possibly be a CSA or SA because of their comments. That it’s the common belief amongst such survivors that rape is disturbing in all forms and no one would wish it on their worst enemies.

Do you know what? That fucking shames other survivors who do let themselves go through those emotions of rage. Where they imagine the person who assaulted them going through that. It doesn’t even mean they necessarily actually want that. It doesn’t matter if the person you approached in the comments is a survivor or not. They turned off anon and stated their discomfort. Because you know what? That was a personal attack on them. If they had been a survivor, you have placed them in an uncomfortable position to reveal that information. Which may or may not even be public knowledge. And if they are not a survivor?

Who fucking cares? You aren’t morally superior because you have invalidated their right to privacy. You aren’t morally superior because you lashed out due to being triggered from comments on a dark fic where you absolutely do know there will be individuals rooting for that.

I don’t say that entirely cruelly. As an author of similar dark fics, I had comments that rubbed me so wrong. I either ignored them or stated they made me uncomfortable. Because, yes, comments like that can be triggering. Just as the fic itself can be.

On those same notes, I cannot begin to count how many times I’ve been made to feel guilty or wrong for how I wrote dark fics or handled my sexual assault healing process. Beyond that, how I’ve explored kinks in fiction. We are dealing with fictional characters here. It’s ridiculous how many times this needs to be said. Harassing authors is never okay, and it will never make you morally superior.