#putting in as many tags as I can as I will be dissapointed if nobody responds to this

[cassinij]

It's kind of crazy to me how Schools just over now, I saw it coming a mile a way, I am 18 after all but its just really hitting me how it's over now. I'm never going back.

I have been in school for 12 years now or 66% of my entire life and now ITS JUST GONE. That's an ENORMOUS status quo change and I don't get how other people aren't more freaked out over it.

Way way WAYYYY back then in Primary (or Elementary for the Americans) School I was so excited for the future, what I was going to do once I got out of school, stuff like that.

Then time went on, and on, and on. Overtime I just stopped caring about what was going to happen in the future as I had spent so long in School I just resigned to my fate, it felt like I was never going to get out so I made peace with that fact.

Now here I am, out of school despite everything. This isn't even mentioning some far more serious stuff. Its just feels impossible that I'm really here. Idk where to go from now.

[adozentothedawn]

Caduceus for the character ask? :)

Ah, not a Pillars character, I am intrigued! :D

Ask is here.

First impression

Truth is, I've always been thouroughly spoilered about chritical role, even when wasn't watching it yet, so my first impression was mostly, "Uh, pink cowman!" Followed later when I started by "I'm excited for the fluffy cowman, but also Mollyyyyyyyyyyy".

Impression now

I love him. Just. So much. I want to hug him. I want to drink his tea. I want him to tell me it's gonna be fine. Just. Give me more of him please. Taliesin, how do you keep doing this to me? Caduceus is also literally the only representation of an ace character I have ever seen and it makes it so much better I just can't love him. I don't care if some people think it's word of god. (Though there might be a talk about it some point? Maybe? I don't know I'm only at episode 80 something.) And it's such good rep too! I'm so excitded for his Trent talk.

Also how has no one made art of blowdried Caduceus yet? He is a cowman! Give me a fluffed up Caddy! There is a fic though which very is cute. (Nevermind I found one! I need more though 👀)

Favorite moment

I don't think I can choose, he has so many good lines. "I only have like, three cups." "He'll be dead eventually." "Sleep well with your bad decisions." "I met a ghost who I didn't want to punch. " "I'm always happy when they're here." I'm always a sucker for angst so him getting resurrected was also great. Also the Trent speech of course, but technically I haven't seen that one yet.

Idea for a story

Not really any to be honest. You'd think I'd jump to write fics about him but I don't really have any inpiration for that. Maybe once I'm done with the show I'll get to filling eventual needs I still have.

Unpopular opinion

I'm not really in fandom so to speak, so I don't really know what's popular and what not, I just personally wish people wouldn't write romantic ships with him. And no, I don't care if you try to justify why this aroace character is now in a relationship or having sex or whatever, you have so many characters to ship, you can leave this one alone. I'm not gonna start any fights with someone or anything, and Ao3 let's you filter tags for a reason but I do want to put it out there. Also, I want these people really think about how they would react to someone writing straight fics for a gay character. Just really think about it. Yeah, taking away rep suddenly doesn't seem so nice, does it? So please leave mine alone.

Okay my rant is over now, I just had to get this out of my sytem. I haven't a lot ship fics anyway, but there are a few and I'm dissapointed every time.

And I guess I'd also wish for more fics of him? Just without shipping. And there are some good ones, don't get me wrong! But it really seems that some people have decided if they can't ship him they're just not gonna write him. I'm not judging anyone in perticular here and nobody has to feel called out or anything! Nobody has an obligation to write a character or anything they have no interest in writing. It's just a larger trend that makes me personally kind of sad.

Favorite relationship

I love his realtionship with every one really! I feel like Fjord would be the basic answer, but if I really have to choose I'll say Melora. I'm always a sucker for cleric relationships and there are so many lovely takes and art out there. Also "Mom, put it back!" is one of the greatest comics I've ever seen. xD

Favorite headcanon

Not sure I really have one. Aside from the fact that he definitely gets fluffy when properly dried. That is fact though, no one can deny me this. Fluffy cowman for the win!

(As a side note for anyone reading this, if you have some angsty comfort fics for Caduceus, please feel free to send me the link, I need some more therapy for this man. He alwas tries so hard for everyone else, he deserves some attention too.)

[bts-aesthetics-for-the-soul]

I'm actually so dissapointed. Nobody ever, EVER, request when I specifically ask. Requests are always open, yes, but there are times where I want to write as many small little drabbles as i can before my inspiration fades. This blog is huge, the biggest i've ever had. I cannot express how dissapointing it is to have worked so hard for almost a year to still rarely get feedback, rarely get original requests, rarely get interaction. I get more interaction when I post shitty reactions that I'm not proud of than when I put my heart and soul into a series for it to get fewer notes than me just putting the word 'bork' on a post with no tags. I'm so dissapointed.

-Sincerely, Admin Cas