#puralgang

[the-systim-cafe]

The Systim Cafe Returns

Well, this might be a little awkward. I'll explain to you exactly what happened and why the old @the-systim-cafe blog was originally deleted. I deleted it. I'm the old owner.

I used to go by Plum Symphony and I used that title as a system name too. I realized I was a system last year. But I was too open about this, and I made the mistake of telling people online I was plural. I was annoying.

It came out that I was a system inclusionist and this was when people started harassing me on Tumblr. Should I have attached my old main account to the blog that was tracking my every move on a stupid Pokemon clicker game? Absolutely not. That's my fault. But I don't have anybody to apologize to but myself. Because what happened next was beyond inexcusable.

I was stalked for a series of months during which people on Pokefarm Q (realpokefarmconfessions under #pfplum) would screenshot my every move (or not they don't need proof to harass people) and shared it all anonymously on a gossip blog. They threatened to put me on Kiwifarms. They called me slurs. I tried to settle this with the moderator of the blog, who saw no reason to put a stop to the mob. According to these people, I was not disabled. Because fuck you they said so and that means it's true.

And then when I told people about what was happening to me and showed them the evidence? Those people used the information on that blog to fucking DOXX me. My parents were contacted. After that, I hospitalized myself.

Around this time, it's pretty fuzzy. But my system disappeared completely. For months I was in denial about having ever experienced anything like plurality. I muted channels and avoided tags. I abandoned all my old accounts. I deleted the original Systim Cafe. I thought I was a liar and a fraud.

But I'm not. I know that I'm not. Being a liar requires that you know what you're saying is wrong. And I know my experiences better than any yahoo internet fuckwit ever will.

I was banned from the PFDiscord for being disruptive which is a fair enough assessment. Nobody liked me. I was screened for autism shortly after my account was locked after I tried to take up the offer to move to a new PFQ account. Apparently this offer from the moderation team was conditional on my social awareness improving. I won't comment on that.

All of my previous alters have gone completely dormant. The only ones left, I ignored and insisted were kinshifts. I myself (not as in the plural I, but me specifically) only came to terms with even being alive yesterday. There are three of us total.

I'm Sakura Haruno. I ran away from the Leaf as a teenager and joined the Akatsuki, and if you recognize me you've heard that story already. Host used to talk about writing it down at some point.

I really shouldn't post this. But you have to know what happened to me. I'll write a proper pinned post at some point in the future, but not yet.

The only thing we've learned is that cruelty is everywhere. We were naive enough to think that kind of rule was conditional. It isn't.

Thank you for taking the time to read this if you have. I appreciate that. If you recognize us and want to, I'd love to reconnect with you. Feel free to drop us a line.

~ Sakura Haruno

[sophieinwonderland]

Do you have any guides or just information on how to switch because we are struggling

Our go-to method for the cleanest switch has been using external visualization. The current fronter relaxes the body as much as they can, closes their eyes then visualizes themselves stepping out of it.

Then the person who wants to take front next steps into it slowly. Start by taking first person perspective of your mind form, then step into the legs. Imagine your legs shifting to become the body's legs. Then connect with them. Feel the legs as if they were yours. Maybe try wiggling your toes at this point just to confirm that you're controlling the legs. Then lean in with the torso, and do the same thing you just did with the legs, but claiming the arms this time.

It might help to mentally assert that each limb you connect with are yours now as you go. Those legs are your legs. Those arms are your arms. Claim them as your own.

Save the head for last. If you did everything correctly, once you claim the head, you can open up your eyes and are fully in control of the body.

At least, that's what works for us. If this method doesn't work for you, then you might want to check out some of the switching guides in the Tulpanomicon.

[sophieinwonderland]

hellooo i'm a parative and wanted to write a post on paratives but i'm not quite sure what to put on it/what questions people have/what people should know and i'm not entirely sure who to ask but uh do you have any ideas?

I'm not really sure.

I would just say to just write your experiences and what's important to you.

Personally, I find that the most important questions are often the ones that others wouldn't even think to ask. It might be cliché to say to just write from the heart, but I really think that's the most important thing. After all, you can't speak for all paratives. Just yourself. So don't be afraid to let it be somewhat personal.

Although, I guess if I were asking questions, I would want to know how far back your memories stretch, or when you felt developed enough to be considered an actual headmate, if such a thing a point could clearly be defined.

[sophieinwonderland]

Hi there! So I have a question regarding tulpas, is it possible for a headmate/tulpa to form/show themselves during a time of stress? Just asking because a few years ago one of my OCS showed up when I was having a meltdown and overtime evolved from their initial core traits and we talk with each other constantly, to the point where if Im stressed I feel them hugging my legs or I can see them floating around on my shoulder. Is this a traumagenic thing or not? - NC & SL

That sounds super cute!

I would say that if it's possible for a headmate to form without stress, I don't think stress would make it less likely, and stress often comes with isolation and loneliness.

It could be traumagenic. Especially if you're experiencing (c)PTSD symptoms. But it could just also be that this OC was well-developed in advance for whatever you were writing, which made it easy for you to talk to them.

You know... I don't actually know when I started talking to my host or why. I mean, I know it was last year. I think it was an intentional writing exercise on his part, but I can't be certain if I hadn't spoken to him first. He had spoken to other characters in the past, such as Rapunzel from Tangled, but they didn't have any self-awareness. He would just talk to some of his characters when he was bored.

I don't think that memory is in our brain because it was just such a mundane thing at the time. He was just "imagining" a person to talk to. Why would he want to remember something so trivial?

So for all I know, I could have arisen similar to this and have initiated contact with him. We just don't remember.

Anyway, having OC's become sapient isn't uncommon, both in endogenic and traumgenic systems.

If you're curious about your system type, I made a post differentiating between commonly-reported endogenic and traumagenic symptoms:

Hopefully that can help you sort things! Good luck!

[sophieinwonderland]

Can you push your host from behind (e.g. if you think he is walking too slowly) if you want to?

I don't think I can. I mean, I can make the legs go faster through something kind of like partial possession, but I can't push the body through imposition like that. It would be a fun skill to to build though.

What I have done is walked beside him in an imposed form, held hands, and swung his arms around! That's fun! :D