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Sibling 😝
#choicolatte_art#digital illustration#illustration#digital art#digital drawing#art#anime art#artists on tumblr#anime style#illustrator#ptn earl#ptn horo#ptn fanart#ptn#path to nowhere#無期迷途#무기미도#无期迷途#fanart#game art#siblings#artwork#boy art#big brother#meme
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Me, before playing path to nowhere: I'm not even a responsible enough adult to look after myself. I can't take care of a kid.
Me, after playing path to nowhere: *collecting kids like I'm collecting coins in mario* I'm going to give you all the love I never got from my mom and you will like it
#ptn#path to nowhere#ptn hecate#ptn emp#ptn mess#ptn crache#ptn oliver#ptn horo#ptn hella#ptn summer#hecate path to nowhere#mess path to nowhere#crache path to nowhere#emp path to nowhere#oliver path to nowhere#horo path to nowhere#hella path to nowhere#summer path to nowhere#your honor i love them#emotional support chaos kids to a mentally exhausted chief#I've had this game for about a month but if anything bad were to happen to these kids i would unalive anyone in this room and then myself
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So coming up for cn is Donald, Matilda, and a Horo 2-star skin!
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Ima be real with you I'm bout to turn into Mrs Steal Yo Girl with Matilda- like what need will he have for an adjutant when he's gonna be locked in the MBCC soon I'm just saying 🤷🏽♀️
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April fools
Substituting Horo's milk stash with either water that has white food colouring or buttermilk. Or changing the expiration dates to like a whole month ago.
Stealing Hella's pipe and making it obvious that it was stolen and make her chase to a dead end.
Everyone in the MBCC gets silly little plastic duckies hidden everywhere in their stuff for them to find.
Pranking Rime by replacing all his snacks and stuff with hay bcs that's what deers eat or drawing a lil silly thing on his face
It would be difficult to prank any of the ptn mommies but it would be funny to try.
Ohhh, messing with Irons medical supplies would be funny. Like. Nonessential stuff to be switched up.
Ill probably be back if I get some other ideas
Two contents in one day? Shocking! So I'm finally doing this a whole month later because.... well, motivation is weird. Anyway.
Enjoy your ptn pranks! They're a lil short but hopefully you like it anyway... I was looking for something easier to try and get back into writing, heh.
I switched the last two, to group things a little bit better by fandom... and I have no idea what you could even try to do with the Mommies, so I just did the specified pranks.
Prank #1: Substituting Horo's milk stash with either water that has white food colouring or buttermilk. Or changing the expiration dates to like a whole month ago.
Horo is. Not gonna be happy. At all.
If you switch them, she takes a sip innocently and then gets the most comedic look of shock on her face. If it's water she might recognize the prank and just swallow it, but if you switch it with buttermilk, she's likely just gonna immediately spit it out because what the hell is that
If you change the expiration dates she might not notice immediately, depending on when you do it... I feel like she checks them religiously when they first arrive, but after that, not as much. Truthfully, this prank will not work very well, because she either doesn't notice or throws out perfectly good milk. Listen. Listen. As someone who drinks a lot of milk. You learn to pick up on changes in it instantly. I promise you, if that is all she drinks, she will notice the second it starts going bad. If she's actively drinking it and notices the expiration date is that far back, she's likely to suspect the prank.
Anyway prepare for vengeance either way, especially if you swap it out. She's going to be a little ball of fury for a little bit, but after she calms down, she's going to plan a good prank for revenge, so... pray she doesn't find out it was you.
Prank #2: Stealing Hella's pipe and making it obvious that it was stolen and make her chase to a dead end.
Something something little ball of rage... sounds familiar. Maybe don't prank Horo and Hella on the same day?
She pretty immediately swears to make whoever stole her pipe pay dearly, and is intent on getting it back. Very little will deter her from this task. Don't even ask her to go on a mission until she gets it back.
Ninety-Nine helps her hunt for it, because of course she does. Which makes it even more nerve-wracking if you were to be caught.... good luck.
Someone will inevitably offer to replace her weapon, and she'll reply, as always, that she doesn't want or need anything else. Her pipe was perfect, and she will get it back.
The longer it takes to hunt it down, the more frustrated she gets. Hella does not have the most patience, after all... She's probably cussing like mad and threatening to use her pipe to kill whoever stole it once she finds them.
If she learns it was you, she won't follow through on those threats... but she will be dramatic about it, and will very obviously pout and ignore you for a day or two until she naturally gets bored of it. If you want her back to normal faster, bribes of money and candy will work... even if she insists they don't at first.
Prank #3: Everyone in the MBCC gets silly little plastic duckies hidden everywhere in their stuff for them to find.
Now this is gonna be fun!
The reactions range from thrilled affection to fury. Many of the Sinners 'adopt' the little duckies, and carry them around with them or craft a little makeshift nest for the duckies in their rooms.
Many ducks get names, and several Sinners immediately get customizing with paint and markers. Likewise, Hecate suddenly becomes extremely popular, after she logically begins to paint the duckies she found in her room to match the Chief and other Sinners. By the end of the day, she has a list of orders, a small mountain of duckies overflowing the basket beside her, and an assortment of things she's been given as payment, from money to trinkets to art supplies. She'll spend the next week painting the little ducks in a myriad of different ways, and she seems quite content.
Unfortunately some ducks are, inevitably, viciously destroyed the moment they're found... looking at you, Wendy. Poor thing thinks they're corruptors, most likely....
A lot of them don't really care, they just chuckle a little when finding more, and either put the duckies in one spot in their room or give them to other Sinners. Most of these Sinners keep at least one, though, because they are adorable.
Several of them turn it into a competition. I'm assuming that, in addition to hiding the duckies in the Sinner's rooms/belongings, maybe some were scattered throughout the Bureau.... well, now the hunt is on, and there's a massive competition to see who can get the most. The main competitors are Hella and EMP, but OwO actually wins. She claims it's due to luck, but at least a little has to do with charming other Sinners out of their duckies... and also being able to hunt freely while Hella and EMP try to hinder one another. She keeps them all in her lion's head.
Wolverine doesn't quite know what to do with them, but Pippy loves them. Cute little badger loves playing with them, and ends up with many duckie toys.
Nightingale ends up with a little duckie painted in her likeness (or at least, with her uniform) given to her by Hecate, and, in a somewhat uncharacteristic show of her more relaxed, fun side, glues a magnet to the bottom of it and sticks it to her shoulder, occasionally consulting the "Assistant Adjutant" duck for advice.
All in all a very good time is had by all, and this likely becomes something of a ritual for April Fool's Day. People used to go on Easter egg hunts... the Sinners go on April Duckie hunts!
Prank #4: Ohhh, messing with Irons medical supplies would be funny. Like. Nonessential stuff to be switched up.
Do you want to die?
For the love of god make sure Anne is around. She's probably the only one who can save you.
Iron detests her mania research being interfered with. She is very busy, and most definitely does not approve of this.
If she notices when she has time to spare, she will stop work and painstakingly reorganize her supplies. If not, though... she goes through with whatever procedure she needs to do, grumbling the entire time about the mess. And then she will fix it.
You'd better hope that she doesn't find out you did it, because if so, you're going to have to pay her back for this. If she finds out quickly enough, you'll be the one putting everything back in place, likely with a very grumpy Iron 'babysitting' and instructing you on where everything goes.... or, if you're unlucky, a simple instruction to return everything to its rightful place before leaving you on your own. Fortunately most things are labeled, but unfortunately, she is very particular and will inspect your work when you're done. If she finds out after she's fixed things herself, she'll insist upon you being her assistant in the future, which could entail anything from helping her move unconscious/paralyzed patients to doing strenuous tests as her sample test subject. Good luck!
Prank 5: Pranking Rime by replacing all his snacks and stuff with hay bcs that's what deers eat or drawing a lil silly thing on his face
He's extremely grumpy and will pretend this is the worst thing that has ever happened to him, but he actually finds it hilarious.
Seriously, though, he loves his snacks, and goes to great lengths to ensure that he never runs out of them. Waking up one day to find his entire stash not only gone, but meticulously replaced with similarly-shaped bits of hay and leaves? Yeah. Not happy.
He immediately swears vengeance on whoever has done this. And immediately blames Sage, probably, both because he's the prime suspect and because Rime just... enjoys the excuse to fight with him. Eventually Sage will convince him that he had no idea where the stash even was, and that he'd have stolen snacks long before now if he had, and Rime moves to other suspects.
He practically does a full detective investigation to find out where his precious, precious treats have gone.
If/when he finds out it was you, he'll be quite annoyed, but... so long as the snacks are returned, he will forgive. Eventually. He'll definitely think up a task or three for you to do to make it up to him, though... or, worse yet, he'll forgive you far too quickly and you'll spend the next week paranoid about what he's planning before he inevitably catches you off guard anyway with some ridiculously-detailed prank of his own design. You'll probably end up trapped and/or portaled somewhere, given enough of a fright that he feels you've paid for your thieving ways.
#beefriend writes#april fools#prank time#path to nowhere#ptn#ptn horo#ptn hella#ptn iron#ptn hecate#ptn emp#ptn owo#last legacy#last legacy rime#Hi Mossling <3
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not meant to be.
Dealing with rejection (giving + receiving)
⛓️🐺🪓🎬♟️
❥ Giving She averts her gaze as soon as she hears your confession. This is always an awkward position to be in, no matter how many of her Sinners have professed their love for her.
“I’m flattered...” She’s hesitant with her words, feeling for any reaction from the shackles. “...And I’ll always cherish you as my Sinner. But I can’t give you the love you’re looking for.” It’s kind of cheesy, but she means it.
❥ Receiving Fortunately, Chief is skilled at improv. Her brilliant idea is to pretend she confessed as part of an undercover mission.
“Nevermind, forget what I said. I lost my bearings for a second.” She waves you away and digs into her pocket, pulling out her comms device. “Sorry I put you on the spot.” She then dials Nightingale to ‘reveal her plan,’ but it crumbles into a cry for comfort instead.
❥ Giving “You’re cute, I’ll give you that.” Zoya doesn’t mean to mock you, but it’s hard not to feel humiliated beneath her. She knocks a gentle fist against your shoulder and flashes you a well-meaning smile. “Hey, you’ll find someone worth your time. You deserve better than some Syndican thug anyway.”
❥ Receiving Most people obey Zoya without question, either out of fear or loyalty. She commends you for not giving in the same way. Her talk with you is brief but respectful, and she doesn’t hold anything against you.
The signs of her wounded heart only appear once you’re out of sight. It’s left her in a very nasty mood. She seeks out any chance she gets to destroy something—whether that’s by picking fights with rival gangs, or wrecking up whatever car/window/person is within reach.
❥ Giving “...What.” The shock lingers on her face for all of ten seconds. She hadn’t seen this coming at all. “I don’t—I, um—is this a prank?” Her face is bright red, brows furious, gape incredulous. She concludes you must be messing with her, and yells at you for being weird.
❥ Receiving “Y-You actually believed that!?” She starts firing punches against your shoulder, hard enough to bruise. “I just wanted to see how you’d react and you went and took it seriously! Now get out of here and learn what a joke sounds like!!” But she ends up being the first to flee the room.
❥ Giving As a beloved director known all over the world, Deren is no stranger to spontaneous love confessions. It’s a little different coming from you, though. As soon as she realizes what you’re trying to say, she takes a sharp breath and picks up your hand. “I’m glad you like my work. Really, I’m flattered.” She leaves no room for you to say anything else.
❥ Receiving “Mhm... good.” Deren never drops her lazy smile, and this time it’s more unreadable than ever. “You ever consider acting? You’ve just got something about you...” The way she seamlessly deflects from the topic catches you off-guard. You press into her some more, asking if she’s really okay after getting rejected like that. All she does is shrug and say, “Hm? Yeah, why wouldn’t I be?”
❥ Receiving Eirene maintains an icy stare while waiting out your answer. When you finish, she crosses her arms and meets you square in the eye. “I’m sorry, I must’ve misheard you. Would you mind repeating yourself?” It might sound like she’s trying to coax a different response out of you. But she’d actually prefer you to stand your ground and counter her—it makes the thrill of the chase all the sweeter.
#i was feeling masochistic :pensive:#im still getting used to characterizing everyone so i'm chipping away at lil blurbs like these uvu#path to nowhere#ptn imagines#ptn x reader#ptn x you#chief#female chief#chief x reader#zoya#horo#deren#eirene#zoya x reader#horo x reader#deren x reader#eirene x reader
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PtN New Main Story Chapter Trailer—「The Weak」
The text at the beginning reads: "The Finale | Syndicate"
Julien says "I just want to know... who arranged such a fate for us?"
Cr Jiu Jiu subs
Also, Donald and Matilda are confirmed as the new S and A rank sinners.
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And Horo's new skin.
She looks cute 🥹
Cr. PathtoSnake
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My team of sinners !! ^_^
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Yes!! Feel comfortable and confident to selfship yourself! I've been doing that for a long time now and am heavy in lore with my girl husband, Zoya. When I tell you the lore is heavy, I mean the lore is heavy (by which I mean there's a bit).
ngl your sevchino stuff made me feel more confident about selfshipping... like i kept feeling a bit silly about it but yk what actually no!! i am not cringe i am free that fictional character IS in love with me!!
yes !!! the selfship agenda is spreading !!!!! that fictional blorbo IS in love with YOU anon 🫵🫵🫵 they told me themself 😤😤😤
#*:・゚✧*:・゚sins rambles#me and zoya canonicaly have kids lol#not including horo or the other ptn kid i've adopted#also a funny canon thing is that rahu is our 'dog'#mainly she lives with us and occasionally we fuck
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Psst! This is Draculaxias but erm.. on main acc I cant send asks on my ptn one unfortunately but I wanted to send a quick crack ramble to you ;p
PTN characters reacting to Jojo Siwa… We have ALL fallen victim of it, the song is okay— we can survive, the music video? Absolutely not. Especially the… scene with her and red girl
(PLS IF YOU HAVENT SEEN IT PLS SEE IT SO YOU CAN UNDERSTAND THIS ALTHOUGH IT WILL BE TRAUMATIZING)
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Will pause the video and scream at the top of their lungs / scream cuss words
Hella, Horo, Chelsea, EMP, Wendy
Can’t process what just happened, they just stare at the screen with (or without) wide eyes and their mouth hanging open (or just a blank stare lol) traumatized; part of them wants to cry… and die
99, Hecate, Rahu, Oak Casket , Deren
“Oh!….. oh…” smiling while a their eyes water
Anne, Eleven, Shalom
Broke the device because they don’t wish to see any further, THEY HAVE SEEN ENOUGH! THEY DONT WANT TO SEE MORE…
Zoya, Wendy,
Doesn’t know whether to cry or laugh
Bai yi, Deren
Stares in disgust
Iron, EVERYONE
Man the fucking thing was horrendous 😭😭😭
Raven would be typing a newspaper article so fast like something like: Karma by JoJo Siwa is uprising for not the reason she thinks!? Or something like that. And you know that Chameleons therapy sessions is gonna be BOOKED. She would have to get therapy after watching it 😔 Oak casket probably gotta go find a casket after watching that shit. Though Anne tries to stay positive, at the end Jojo’s humping performance got to her. Shalom is silent the whole film though she will raise an eyebrow. Coquelic has a disgusted face would mutter something about how unsanitary her eyes are now.
She did not come back like a boomerang 😭
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OMG SINS ??? if you are comfortable with it may i know the zoya x sins lore……… 👉👈 only if ur ok with it ofc !!!! i love selfships and i love seeing selfships of my friends !!! it makes me vibrate at a frequency that shatters glass (/pos) frfr 👉👈
I am more than happy to give the lore behind my selfship with Zoya! There is quite a bit, especially when you start mixing in other PTN women, but I can give the main information! Lmk if you want a deeper five btw Sev, because I'm happy to provide.
Me and Zoya's relationship can be summed up in two words; domestic life. Sure, she's the leader of the Legion, but when she's not dealing with the stuff associated with them and is home with me, our life can be seen as your stereotypical American family life.
We have five biological kids (I've always wanted a big family, especially with Zoya). Three girls and two boys, who are all a perfect mix of both of our genes. The older three kids are like Zoya, rambunctious and destructive, while are littest two are like me - more quiet and reserved, at least until you get them to open up. The order from oldest to youngest is our eldest daughter, our twins (a boy and a girl), our son, and then our youngest daughter. Each of them have Zoya wrapped around their finger, but not as much as our youngest who could be seen as the "runt" in a pack of wolves, meaning my girl us extra protective.
Besides our five biological children, we have quite a few more adoptive kids, including Horo, Hecate & Hella, Eve, & Thistle. They might be adopted, but that doesn't mean Zoya and I love them any less. They're our little babies, and I would kill anyone who threatens them just like our other five!!
Some big lore that happened a few months ago is that me and Zoya had to go to couples therapy for a week. The reason why? Rahu.
When Rahu came out (and you guys will understand this when I wrote her for a long time straight on here). All I could think about was that dog to the point I wanted to be with her more than my girl husband!! It was a hard month, to say the least, and we had to send the big scary dog to the Rust for a week while me and Zoya did couple's therapy. Everything worked out, though!! As I'm not as obsessive over Rahu now and me and Zoya came to an agreement about sharing me with her - which is somehow why Rahu is now the family dog.
The kids love their big, scary dog, Rahu! And the twins will periodically bully and pull pranks on the poor girl. But it's okay! She sucks it up and takes it (not because I promised her we'd have a baby together at some point).
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Ah that’s my bad, I’m not too familiar with PTN and it was not very clear from the info I found
Sorry bout that
That’s okay! Also, just a heads up for any of my newer/experienced ptn fans.
I don’t write for:
Hecate, Hella, Horo, Lynn, Summer, OwO, Christina, Victoria, Roulecca, Crache, Mess, Dolly, Nino, Eve (an upcoming Sinner), EMP, Letta, Pacassi and Pepper.
These are all the female sinners that I personally believe to be a bit too young (from looks and personality alone) so I don’t write for them :)
#⛓️ interrogation complete#I know summer is 18 because she was attending her high school graduation when she became a sinner#but I don’t like how she still wears her high school uniform#therefore it kinda feels weird to write for her but I don’t mind people who do
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AND THE STORY GOES ON....
[ Contain Spoiler for Ch.13 ]
Hello, fellow Chief. How are you faring after this chapter? As for myself, i'm quite satisfied with recent story. So much lore, meta, and others term which enrich our understanding of PTN world. 🥳
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WAY TO GO, DONALD!! 🫡 My man support The Chief all the way until the end. No fire, bullets, and reprimand from Matilda could stop him and his clownery to bring back his Bros.
...yeah, despite what happen to him, he is quite dependable in loyalty area. :') I thank AISNO for releasing a male sinner. The game is lack on that part haha...🤭
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CHIEF...!!! Oh god, i hope you got therapy + massage after what you experience 🥲 your shoulder must be quite heavy with all that burden and tensions... Paraidesos or whatever enemies out there will pay greatly for their conduct toward you 🤯
Nightingale must be furious if she heard what they did to you in 8 months.
But look!! your babies are grown. Hella and Hecate 🤧 Aaa ... I'm so proud of them, especially Hecate. She has found her own 'Voice'.
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AND THE LONG AWAITED ONE FINALLY RETURN! But hold on, Zoya, what happen to your face?? Is that remnants of Black Ring??
You are not become their test subject... right?? 😱😱 anyway, about that Rust Guy... is he also a BR's victim? Maybe another unlucky crew from Parma Group, secretly survived? 🤔
But this is a great development, so human who change into a corpseborn could survive? Hm... very interesting. I really hopes Julien could survive, but he is pretty stubborn to make sure Rustfire revival. And probably he would choose the same option again and again. ☹️ RIP Hero...
Zoya... have you seen Horo?? She is a true born leader 🥺🥹 You and Earl must be proud of her... also she increase in height, that Milk binge drinking finally reached its goal.
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And who are you guys? Why No.01 has Parma-like voice?? Are you secretly rejuvenating yourself with Mania?
Also GIVE US BACK SHALOM AND RAHU!! I don't accept that mysterious soldier and never EVER touch them with your hands 😡😡
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Hi from the other side, Elder Sister. Are you the one who wreck havoc to your little sister? 🤗 what a splendid flower you have, must be evil....
Am I to assume that AISNO are planning to create animation film? That would be great, ☺️☺️ Please do it, Aisno!!
So... this chapter are quite satisfying. I can't wait to see another chapter and meet other sinners. I'm also curious about that elderly woman and the Chief past.
I hope you guys enjoy the games too...😉
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I wanna be kin assigned ..
let mak kin assign you ptn
OKAY PURELY OFF THE VIBES I FEEL U GIVE OFF AND A QUICK LOOK AT YOUR OTHER MUSES I HAND THEE:
Kawa-Kawa, Nino, Horo....
also Summer maybe!!! Or McQueen who i love,,,
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me staring at Horo's lines of
I'm strong now and will no longer be a burden to anyone. But the person I cared about the most isn't there anymore. & You were lying when you said Boss Zoya sent you to save me, right? Humph. Fine, I forgive you. I won't repeat the stupid mistake of... bickering with important people over little things.
and how Horo talked about bickering over stupid things with Earl and probably others too. and also the fact Earl... just. He tried his best, did his best for what he could do. The fact he was already raising Horo on his own even before Nirvana Company & Legion and trying to do everything and im just- GOD!
PTN does a really good job with the dynamic, esp for what little we actually get. Maybe its just situational, but i'm the oldest out of 5 kids and there's 5-7 years between me and the 4 others. And I also had to play parent sometimes when my dad was deployed overseas for a year (give or take a month). And even just with that?? it definitely created a different dynamic between me and my siblings. bc i was their older sister but sometimes i was also playing parent. and my siblings are older now so we've talked about it. but one time we all ended up crying in my car because beind the oldest i was trying to play parent and sibling, but they didn't always know how to interact or get to know me as me. And i always felt i had to take on all the burdens and i couldn't....show my emotions. I needed to be strong for my siblings and my mom. and like....idk. a lot of attention went to my siblings, and i get it. they were younger and they're all super close in age, but i played a huge support role and so everything i needed or wanted i shoved down to be last priority for my siblings ( most of the time, i mean i was a kid myself too trying to figure this all out ). and idk. its just. hard.
Even the other day it was kind of pointed out that i'm extremely good at shutting down how i'm doing to help or deal with other problems. and idk. i think thats why Horo's interrogation also hit a particularly hard spot and always makes me tear up, just hearing it from the other side versus my own & how my little brothers have mentioned it now that we're older and.........im rambling and this probably doesnt make sense but i just. needed it out there.
#i so desperately want more for earl knowing there wont be any#that dynamic tho is so...#so good & realistic to me at least#᛭ — [OOC] angst is the game and tears are the currency#i need to go to bed soon but now im sobbin GHDJFHG
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