#psychatric hospital

[not-so-superheroine]

i have returned from my biannual grippy sock vacay.

aka. was psychatrically institutionalized/ in the psych hospital.

update on why i disappeared an why my fics aren't updating.

just got my phone and internet access back. and my mind is wasn't in the right place.

especially, for that steven universe fic, tbh.

though i certainly have even more insight on the struggle i am attempting to portray.

tbh. in comparison to what i have been dealing with irl, my improving my mental health is most important. bc it is very poor atm. but i am working hard at treatment.

if you pray, please pray for me. if you feel called, let me know about it, or share the prayer with me if you are comfortable.

i'd really appreciate it.

[doritofalls]

I saw an amaguuji comic where kiyo says his favorite movie is human centipede and it got me thinking on what types of movies he'd watch... I don't think he'd be big into horror movies, I think he would be more into documentaries like ilha das flores (documentary about the trash system in brazil), alphaville o outro lado do muro (documentary about a luxury condo in Brazil and how everyone living there is shitty and racist), Bicho de sete cabeças (movie about psychatric hospitals based on real facts)

(all of these are brazillian bc these where the first ones that popped up in my mind and no more than that)

i know EXACTLY which comic you're talking about. the song as well, it is never not stuck in my head for too long. that being said while i don't think kiyo would particularly like human centipede, the song DOES fit him.

i think kiyo would not be much into horror for horror's sake? like i imagine he would like a lot of more supernatural-themed jhorror since it often has an inspiration in folklore, as long as it didn't try to claim itself as factual. he probably couldn't see the reason behind a slasher or a zombie movie though and least of all shock horror like human centipede. i  don’t think he is bothered by gore but he also doesn't seek it out in his everyday life, not even make-believe gore.

i think he would love docus as well! he brings some really heavy sorrowful stuff to a movie night because it's a conversation starter and is surprised the mood is dead by the end of it. not to say he wouldn't like most kinds of documentaries probably, but keeping his sense for the macabre in mind, he would be onto some dear zachary/the bridge kind of thing. i think he would enjoy seeing documentaries as a very dubious genre, an effort to make unbiased narratives that will inevitably claim the creator's agenda.

[starora2]

Palui eh.

I was in the middle of watching this. Then melatup karan dekat vanity mirror😔.

Last time this happened I dont have a job. I was stay at home. Then went to hospital psychatric (sp?) scary

Melatup tadi lampung jamban and tertutup kipas 🫢

Im watching coco melon theory and twinkle twinkle little star theory and need to usai this stupid lots of clothes just in case the dolls want to hide in the closet for idk what reason.

Oh shit i need to repaint this stupid Kk. K could be khaleed. And k is the doll. Help. My eyes.

[mindwhoree]

reality

[scenessystem]

another stupid trauma thing:

No realizing how much something fucked you up till later.

like I was in a partial hospital program for after a suicide attempt and inpatient stay (called CAPH). And like apparently it fucked me worse than I thought. I’m at a hospital for my GI issues and we passed a sign for a “day hospitalization” and my heart jumped into my throat and I felt nervous and stressed and my mind brought up all the stuff from CAPH. 

Like I didn’t even realise that it fucked me that bad. Like I knew the inpatient stay did a lot of really bad stuff happened that upset me then. But like over the 6 months of the partial I had to like I guess normalize it or whatever. 

I mean like I’m wigged out by marble notebooks, From these things. I knew it was partially CAPH and the inpatient but apparently like equally. 

but it’s just like great this thing can give me all the stress till. 

-Alex & Rey

[charlypancakes]

why i haven't  been posting much recently...

hello everyone,

i hope you are all doing well! today i decided that i want to give you an update on what's going on at the moment ''behind the scenes''. as you may have noticed i have been very quiet recently and wasn't posting any work in project pictures or informed you on what kind of cc set is coming up next.

TRIGGER WARNING: in the following text i will talk about my mental health issues, which include the topics depression and anxiety.

please stop reading here if these topics can affect you in a negative way.

long story short: i started therapy this week (and will be at a psychatric day-care hospital for at least 4 weeks). so i have less time and energy to work at the moment and need to focus on my health first.

the past few days i was thinking a lot about how i would handle this situation and decided that i want to share this information with you because first of all i think that you as my supporters deserve to know and i also hope that this might be a sign for someone reading this to seek out for help as well.

so i started therapy on monday this week and will spend at least 4 weeks at a psychatric day-care hospital. for a long time i have been struggeling with anxiety and depression now which only got worse during the years of the pandemic. it comes and goes in phases and i am very lucky that i have my income from making custom content so i can work from home and scedule my productive days when i am feeling well.

the weeks before my therapy started i got very nervous again and was in a bad state not able to concentrate and work on my desk and on my current project which got so far that i was afraid of going online and check social media regularly and be active.

now that i spent a few days at the psychatric hospital i realised how much i have to learn to function well and to solve basic everyday tasks. this also includes developing a schedule for my work and managing tasks around this.

because i want to get back on track with my cc work but also want to concentrate on the therapy sessions as well, i will focus on the hospital time more and try to reflect on what i learned there before i try to get into my workflow in the afternoons.

i am incredibly thankful for my supporters and that i am able to take some time off at the moment without worrying about my financal situation too much!

in the upcoming weeks i can't promise you super regular updates on my current mental health state because as you possibly know social media can be quite stressful, too, but i will try my best to inform you on what's going on.

if you are in a similar situation at the moment, as i might have been before i got the nessecary strength to talk to family, friends and my doctor, i really hope that you are able to reach out for help as well. if you need someone to talk or if you have more questions about how i managed to talk to people around me about my issues, please let me know. my dm's are open for you! i just can't promise you that i will answer immediately.

thank you all so much for reading this!

please take care of yourself

lots of love,

charly

[trickstarbrave]

why the fuck are ppl proposing “psychatric hospitals” as an alternative to arrest or hospitals don’t u all remember the woman held against her will as insane bc she was black and claimed to own an expensive car (that she did own)

[professional-benaddict]

Hey! I have a prompt but I'm not one hundred percent sure whether you will be okay writing it. Basically little!Peter in a psych ward and he is forming a bond with his doctor, Dr stark, and possibly Peter like trying to run away from therapy? Now I've written it out its legit the plot of iagbtb but anyway if you are okay writing it I would love to read it!! (There's a high possibility I'm being sent to a psych ward soon and I've never been so imma bit scared)-🐢 xxxxxxx

Hiyaa dear🌸 as similar as this is to IAGBTB, I still looved writing this😍 I hope you like it too babey and I hope your admission goes well and is helpful if you do have to go💚💚

Psychiatrist Tony, +18 Little Peter, psychiatric hospitals and admissions, brief mention of self harming thoughts, mentall illness, generalised anxiety, depression, group therapy, therapy, or just Peter talking through some feelings with Tony

“All right, everyone, thank you so much for this session. Many of you shared a lot today, and that means progress and recovery. We’ll gather again tomorrow.”

Although half of the patients have already scrambled off from the circle formed by the simple chairs, Tony still follows through with his short ending speech, like he does every other day. The other half are still listening though and some even give Tony a smile and start putting the chairs back in place. Peter is one of them, and he tries his hardest to gather as many chairs as possible. But, getting a third chair on top proves to be his limit, and the little boy huffs as he puts the chair back on the floor.

“I’ll take that.” Tony smiles, coming up behind Peter to take the chair, and lifts it onto the pile with ease. Then, he lifts all three stacked up chairs and carries them to their right resting place. “Thank you for the help. That was very kind.” Tony says to Peter, making the boy giggle softly.

“We go now?”

“Yeah, let’s go.”

It’s been three weeks now since Peter was admitted, but this is not his first admission to the psychatric hospital. It’s his third, so he is quite familiar with the building and its’ wings, both the locked and unlocked ones. Still, Peter likes to hold onto Doctor Stark’s hand as they walk through the halls, not because he needs the guidence, but rather for his emotional needs. During all three of his admissions, Tony has been his psychiatrist, so you could say he knows Tony pretty well too. Or perhaps, it’s more accurate to say Tony knows Peter very well.

It is a bad brain chemistry mix of generalised anxiety and clinical depression that has brought Peter here, as well as the self harming thoughts. The latter is the biggest contributor to his admission, not because they are necessarily severe within themselves, but it has more to do with Peter’s CG’s lack of the right skills to keep Peter safe and healthy. Peter’s living situation with Beck is something Tony has struggled with for a long time, and it doesn’t show signs of getting resolved soon. But, at least Beck pays the hospital bills, and Peter is safe and looked after here. Very, very looked after.

“So, how are you today, Peter? You were quite chatty during the group session.” Tony starts once they reach a private exam room. Just like he owns the place, Peter settles into the chair next to the desk in the room.

“Hm! I’m okay.” Peter starts. “The bad thoughts aren’t that bad today.”

“No? And what about your feelings? If you were to colour in today in your mood calender, what would you colour it with?”

“Hmm, green, I think.” Peter replies after some consideration, then pauses. “But, with one corner with red.”

“One corner with red? Where you a bit angry today?” Tony repeats and rephrases. Peter nods, so the psychiatrists continues. “When did you get angry?”

“This mornin’.” Peter starts, and Tony has to repeat once again, but as a question, to get the boy to elaborate. “It was during breakfast and- someone said Lucy’s goin’ ‘ome tomorrow cause her Mommy’s wants her back.”

“And who did you get angry at?”

“Dunno...”

“Take your time thinking, Peter. There’s no rush.”

“Said I dunno!”

“It’s okay, Peter.” Tony says calmly, and pauses a bit to give Peter some room. “Let’s just pretend that you do know who you’re angry with, who would you say it was then?”

“... Daddy, I think.” Peter mumbles finally. Tony hums thoughtfully at that, to show Peter that he heard him, but also inviting him to say more. After a few moments, when he has connected the dots, the boy adds. “Was angry cause Daddy doesn’t wan’ me back. Like Lucy’s Mommy wants her back ‘ome.”

“Hmm, I see. That’s a lot to be angry about. Are you perhaps a bit disappointed too? Someone in your situation might be disappointed over something like that too.” Tony explores.

“Maybe... Is that bad?” The boy asks.

“It’s a bad feeling inside you, that I bet. But, it’s not a bad feeling to have. You see? It’s okay to be angry and to be disappointed.”

“Hmm, it doesn’t feel nice.”

“Yeah, it isn’t.” Tony agrees. “You wanna know what I think?” The psychiatrist asks, then continues when Peter nods his head yes. “I think, being disappointed and angry is okay. But, I want to remind you that your stay here is going to be six weeks, at least. We agreed on that with your Daddy. You remember? When we sat in the room with the funny looking plants on the wall?”

“They did look funny.” Peter snickers quietly.

“They did. And in that room, we agreed that you’ll be staying here for six weeks, maybe more, but we’ll see when we reach the six week mark. So, you see, your Daddy can’t take you home yet. It’s not because he doesn’t want you, but because he brought you here to get better. And we’ll get you better, and then you can go home with your Daddy.”

“I wanna get better.”

“I know you do, and Pepper, Stephen, Bucky and Steve and everyone else want you to get better too.”

“You too?”

“Yeah, of course. Me as well. That’s a lot of people helping you, huh? And with all of us working together during the next three weeks, I’m sure you’ll be going home with your Daddy soon.”

“Okay.” There’s a hint of a smile on Peter’s lips.

“Good. Now that we found out why you’d colour one corner red, let’s talk about why you’d colour the rest green. What made most of today an okay day?”

[bpdisbae]

Tested another psychatric hospital today

⭐️⭐️⭐️ for the beds and nice people

⭐️⭐️ for the food because 🤢

⭐️ because I want to go home

ButIknowitsnecessarybutwhyamIlikethis

[welcomebackeds]

In psychatric hospital

Did an suicide tentative

And ED's made me not eat since 15 days

So i'm coming back here

[horsegirl4000]

a couple of months ago something very traumatic happened to me n in few days i saw my self esteem get to the lowest point I’ve ever felt, I was ready to k*** ****** but instead called a psychatric line n got in 36hr bed at mental hospital and it was what I needed to survive. I have never been a jealous or possesive person but suddenly saw my self being extremely paranoid about my boyfriend and what he was doing to the point where i convinced myself that he was seeing someone else with absolutely 0 evidence that he was or shouldve wanted to.

i’ve always been a believe victims over r*pists etc, but when it came to myself I had a really hard time not victimblaming myself. it’s been a few months now and my self esteem is getting back, i’m more happy and i believe in myself again.

[the--sad--hatter]

hi there, i know you're currently dealing with a lot and i'm sending good wishes, love&hugs your way. also, you're like a big sistet to me (i'm not a creep, i swear) and i'd really need some advice.. like tomorrow's my birthday + i'm stupid and i also wrote to the psychatric hospital that i'm coming tomorrow (if not tomorrow then never yes i'm dramatic) and im scared AF, also i wrote an email instead of calling, what if they didnt see it ahhhh.. anyways hope youre doing better pls excuse my rant

Hey Anon, it's not even remotely creepy. It's really touching. I'm flattered and awed that I could have made that kind of impression on/connection with someone.

Our birthdays are only a few days apart, that's pretty cool. Happy Birthday m'dear

[the-remarkable-mrs-smith]

Well shit...

I’m not dead. I went to a psychatric hospital from Sunday (I had slept 20 hours straight) to Wednesday.

I told them I didn’t TRY to kill myself but apparently I blogged here that I wish I were dead. I think if I wanted to kill my self, I would have. I THINK I just wanted to be out of the intense pain and anger I was feeling Saturday morning.

Rejection, abandonment and betrayal are not my favorite feeling and not when I’m feeling them from multiple people who are close to me.

So... just in case you were wondering, and you didn’t want to message me, I’m still alive and working on getting better.

[doctortwhohiddles]

Ben and Sophie are both at the Endgame premiere. The meltdown has already started in sewage corner. To think Murphysmom thought Ben was going to a psychatric hospital 😂😂😂😂😂😂. I wonder if Anna will work over time tomorrow becauuse she had to photoshop Sophie's face 😆

[tangyyyy]

Some blog recommenadations? Blogs that post about Skam and all of its remakes. Some bloggers who are older than 20? Because I feel like a grandmother sometimes, even though I'm 23. 🌸🌸

Ok !

Ohlala this is a very difficult question !! I’m not good at recomendations, really !

First because I’d feel too bad to forget anyone I like. Sometimes, people do rec and I’m not in it. It’s ok because my blog is not THAT interesting but I feel a bit bad anyway... The worst is when people make fic rec and I’m never in their recs ! Ahah ! Now I feel fine but when I read the rec I feel so down ! :P

And second : Because I don’t follow many blogs actually...

Honnestly, I guess you already know all the blogs about Skam France I follow...

But I can give you some blogs I follow which are not about Skam France !

@getcottage (Beautiful pictures, aesthetic af and it follows season so... It’s cool ! I guess... ^^)

@iletaitunefoisenpsychiatrie (Ok, this one is my favorite but I don’t think you’ll like it... ^^ It’s only in french sooo... If you don’t speak french it won’t be very interesting for you. This blog is held by a “psychatric nurse” who works in a psychiatric hospital. He writes small sotries about life in this hospital (patients & workers), it’s always very human and touching and important. So maybe if you want to learn french... ;)

@fuckyeahfanficflamingo-blog-blog This one is not edited since months but you can go it and read posts, sometimes it’s very very very fun !

@intimacyis Not a porn blog ! But... An intimacy blog as the url says itself. Some posts are very beautiful, really !

Bloggers older than 20 ? oh my... I don’t know all of them ! I know @jebentnietalleen, @inthedreamatorium are older than 20 because they already said it. (Oh my God, guys, if you don’t want to be tagged on this, please, tell me, I’ll delete !) @juuuunaaaaoooo and @tumblingdownthehills are my grannies friends too and they are lovely girls (and fun !).

Ok, I’ll stop there... Feel too awkward to rec anybody ! :P

But thank you sooo much !! We can talk any time you want, my box is always open !! Oh and you’re not old at all !!! :D

[xacidxrainx]

Have you ever tried to slit your own throat? You feel like you're in control, in control to end all of this. You feel superior to yourself and there is no such thing as pain anymore. Then your head gets clear again in the psychatric ward of a hospital where your are left alone in an almost empty room to cry your heart out. You're alone. Why am I doing this to myself? And even worse, why am I doing this to the person I love the most? I want to get better. I want to be better. Please, if you ever thought about suicide think twice. The aftermath is even worse than the initial pain you feel. Stay strong.