#pseriouslyschizophrenic

[schizosolutions]

please dont "reality check" strangers. it can be helpful and grounding if its a close friend and youve discussed it beforehand, but you could seriously hurt someone trying to "snap them out of it". psychosis doesnt work like a tv show.

[ghostlyschizophrenic]

u know those whole “people with schizophrenia are actually in another plane and can see ghosts?” yeah id like to take the ghost now please. take away all the symptoms and give me a ghost please.

[jenniferleecopping]

short little comic doodle about psychosis and insomnia xxx

[pplatonic]

doctors will literally have THAT terrible of a handwriting and when a schizophrenic bitch shows up they're like "wow their writing is so bad it's like a sign of motor abnormalities and nervous system deficits or whatever"

[holyholyholey]

I had a psych intake last week.

Schizophrenia - yep still got it

W

Adhd - Probs got it

EH

OCD - Totally thought I didn't have it anymore - immediately prescribed meds for it

L

Seriously, apparently it's not a typical brain thing to obsess over things like I do. I am very upset about this as I no longer have (obvious) compulsions like I did as a kid.

My last psychs all missed this and she asked the screening questions and then asked more detailed questions and I was like "oh yeah I totally do that" without realizing it was going to be OCD and not schizophrenia symptoms.

[sick-in-the-stomach]

Day 4 of no latuda

[schizofreaknia]

i do not believe in god. not in that he doesn't exist, but in that he doesnt love us. he is real and he hates us. he is an almighty and we are his unloved bastards.

[schizosolutions]

GOD i wish schizospecs could do literally any unmasking without risking going to a ward or worse. i feel like the only place i can actually express what my reality is like is online, and even then there's always the risk of someone trying to aggravate my symptoms.

[schizoaffectively]

Might document some of my reoccurring hallucinations and delusions in a little masterpost. It'll help me organize it, plus others can share their experiences too.

[vergess]

Hey fellow psychos of tumblr, quick question about content warnings (CWs) and math posts:

If you happen to know any other tags/blogs about psychosis that I could put this in/send this to, let me know? I'd like to get as many results as possible before I go around requesting a CW. I remember how nasty people got about Goncharov lol

[rxttenfish]

it is kind of wild to see that post of how much people will just immediately mistrust strangers and assume the worst out of anyone they won't know for me personally, because

well, im schizophrenic. i know im paranoid. i often get intense paranoid thoughts about people walking by me in a parking lot or mistrusting someone in the same public space as me, or even just automatically assuming "theyre going to kill me" if my family is driving and they take a turn they havent done before.

and i guess the difference is that i automatically label these as paranoid thoughts. i have to work to bring myself down from them, reassure myself that theyre just people as much as i am, and arent doing anything unusual that im not also doing in the same place. its just another person. me automatically leaping to them trying to hurt me isnt going to be productive, and will only make me more of a danger to them, so i need to just relax.

and its very bizarre, i guess, to see all these apsychotic people just bold-faced admit to being constantly paranoid of anyone else existing around them, and to think that this is normal and fine and good and isnt making them the dangerous one in that situation. i guess its just another example of why, if youre schizophrenic, youre constantly expected to be far better than any other apsychotic person in your life, and if you arent, then youre treated as inhuman and uniquely dangerous and deserving of violence and mistreatment.

[wheelie-sick]

I feel so embarrassed about some of the things I said and did while in psychosis. I've been coming out of an episode for a couple of months and it's so upsetting to look back and process it all because I just get so embarrassed by my delusional self.

this wasnt from my most recent episode, this was from 2021 but still

I'm just processing that I really did, in fact, tell many people in my life that I'm psychic and can talk to ghosts (I am not! I can't!) ...... and also that I was talking to the Norse gods and that they had chosen me, and also that it was my destiny to bring lost souls on Earth to the afterlife and just. now that I look back at it all it feels so obviously untrue?

I used to go around to roadkill and perform different blessings on them so that they could pass into the afterlife because I believed that was my job. all of the traffic saw me (thank god because I would not be here if they didn't) and this was when I lived in a small town so everyone knew who I was. they. all. know. and they probably remember because when you see teenager standing in the middle of the fucking road doing witchcraft on a dead squirrel you don't forget that!!

I just wish I could go back and undo it and make myself no longer psychotic because all of these memories make me want to turn invisible. I don't mind people online hearing about it but the people I know in my real life?? the people I interact with daily??? it makes me want to shrivel up like a raisin

and they all pretend that they don't know about my schizophrenia. everyone pretends that they believe the abilify is for "anxiety." that or they all have come up with some absolutely wild ways to explain it all away.

it's just so frustrating. it often feels like psychosis takes away my autonomy. I didn't get a choice in doing those embarrassing things I never stood a chance at not having embarrassing memories.

!! I have religious psychosis. your religious beliefs might be true but my beliefs were delusions. do not try to talk to me about your religion at all !!

[dogcrate]

not to Personal Problems post but anyone w/ schizophrenia or related disorder, do you experience the self doubt of "if i was actually [insert schizospec disorder] then i would have to be worse off than i am now" or the whole "i know this looks like [schizospec disorder] from the outside but i know my internal experience and it doesnt feel like [schizospec] to me"

and if you do, how do you work about getting over it?

[schizophrenicbulbasaur]

we should talk more about the overlap between schizophrenia and autism

signed, someone who has both

[prayerworksfolks]

Checking out ass and begging for wine

[sick-in-the-stomach]

Was too honest with my therapist today and now she's sending a email to my psychiatrist and primary dr because "she's worried that I'm relapsing in to another mental health episode"

Which means once they recieve said email they'll arrange admission to hospital

And I just can't fucking do this right now, I'm so sick of hospital, had 8 or 9 admissions last year alone 3 of them were month long ones

Its not even a week in to the new year and mh team trying to send me inpatient

Im so sick of meds and eating and showering and having to look after a stupid body that isn't even mine