#probably wont be a full blown thing

[mydarlingdearestdead]

"I'm Apollo." His golden hair shone in the sun's light, an almost mythical contrast to his dark skin.

"Hyacinth." I replied, offering my hand. He took it, but his fingertips were rough, calloused in a way I didn't expect from such a man, still, he had a strong, welcoming grip.

"An intriguing name."

"And you."

Masterlist

[toytulini]

feels very strange to get podcast ads about how pride friendly orlando is rn what with the current political conditions of florida for very large swathes of the queer community

i mean i dont have any suggestions for like idk the marketing team of the orlando tourism board to do any better like i certainly wouldnt know how to advertise rn, thats a rough hand youre stuck with and i hope your shit ass transphobe fascist politicians drop dead.

just. wild to hear rn

[administer-distractions]

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[i-yap]

I have a dick Grayson request 🙋

Dick Grayson x gn s/o who speaks another language or first language is not English (I speak spanish especially around my family,,, who are not English speakers) 💕

even english isnt technically my first language so I love this ask

Dick Grayson x gn s/o

man can speak a shit ton of languages. It was a part of his training , Especially if the language is sort of common or spoken a lot. He knows it . The slang , references and modifications to the language still confuse him cuz that's something usually only native speakers get. Like I speak Hindi but my hindi isn't grammatically accurate and has a lot of modifications .

He probably has better grammar than you in it which he teases you about endlessly. And when that thing happens when you cant find a word in both languages his teasing is dialed to 100 . You cant even use the english is not my first language cuz he gets all languages.

If he doesn't speak the language HE WILL LEARN IT AND THAT TOO IN LIKE 2MONTHS. He wont even tell you he has learned it till you guys are fighting and you just swear at him in your native language and he's like "HOW DARE YOU CALL ME A DOG" "HOW DID YOU KNOW THATS WHAT I CALLED YOU" "IVE BEEN LEARNING YOUR LANGUAGE FOR YOU FOR THE PAST 2 MONTHS" "wait really? you learned a whole language for me:)" "yes cuz I love you you dumbass, id learn all the languages in the world for you"

If you ask him to translate for you, haha he will mess it up on purpose. Dont get too mad at him, its just so cute when you're pouting and you cant be mad at your pretty bf when he calls you cute.

Full blown gossiping/ private talks when in public in the native language so that everyone is super confused . Also dirty talking..in public...kill me already. His pronunciation is perfect btw.

Your family is so impressed by him, um don't introduce him to them unless you want to get married by the morning.

the fact remains that there is nothing the man wont do, wont learn, wont get done for you. dick is underrated asf and my boy deserves all your love cuz he loves you with all he has.

[toots-senpai]

fair warning: i do not have a foot fetish, i just appreciate any form of pleasure...no foot fetish, (i will kick you stop fwm) just hear me out.

if cod men have hand/foot fetish & their opinions on you be spoiled with mani-pedis (ghost, price, soap, konig, gaz)

MDNI (you'll be blocked)

nsfw under the cut

captain price has a slight foot kink i dont make the rules. but ik its just purely because he loves all of your body. i dont think he’s down for sucking toes (idk tho man is a freak) but when he's got you in a mating press, ankles on his shoulders, he’ll kiss the arch of your foot 100% of the time. when you doll up to go out he loves slipping on your shoes, affirmations to stay safe or if the two of you are going out together, maybe it starts a teasing amount of pregame for the night ahead, kissing from your feet and up your legs. also pays for your mani-pedis every time you talk about a new color. if you ask him what he wants, he loves any pastels fs. goes rabid if you get his name or initials on your nails. sits in the car when you're in the salon or goes and occupies his time by buying food for you to eat when you're done.

soap probably has it full blown fr, like adoration about anything oral, full blown oral fixation with this one. he kisses wherever he can, it doesn't matter if it's the heel of your foot. bet he loves watching you lick the release off his fingers and vice versa. he's too jealous to sit in the same room as you without being able to touch you. this man most definitely gives you at home pedicures because he doesn’t want anyone else touching your feet. definitely complains about it even if he does give you the money for the pedicure and your technician is a woman. he'll lotion you every time you're out of the shower even if you don't need it. positive he's a switch, loves getting degraded, the sight of degrading him by making him suck your toes is clear. 100% puts of you don't get his initial in your nail everytime he pays for them, pouts even more when you pay yourself.

i feel like konig has the same energy as soap when it comes to being attracted to all of your body but i don't think he's down for anything other than kissing. but, when you get your nails done flashy for this first time, he see's your little hobby as something he can smother you with like everything else. you once got long nails with a red bottom underneath and that's when his appreciation clicks and he starts to love your pretty nails more than anything. kissing at your fingers anytime he gets and cumming harder when your pretty nails are wrapped around his thick length. probably begs you to not give him handies when your nails are done because the sight makes any amount of stamina and restraint go out the window. if you brace your pretty fingers on his collarbones while you ride he wont look away from you. if you get his initial signed he thinks it's cute but nothing to roll heads over for him. also paints your toes when he has the chance. would probably sit in the salon with you but man is a girl magnet so he sits in the car and probably sends you the worst memes you've seen.

i think ghost doesn't care for it all, pays if you ask, definitely likes to sit in salons with you, stares down anyone who tries to even think about talking to him. when you have your nails done man lets you do nothing if he's able to enforce it. no hard labor with your hands, but loves watching you tap away at your phone, flip at pages and laughs when your nails gets in the way when you write.

gaz is soap but way less possessive. do whatever you want, he's your backbone. i personally think he aids in your thoughts of delusion and encourages things a little too much sometimes. he's the best friend a girl could ask for when it comes to drama and getting all dressed up. is never unenthused at the the things you like and if you think it's cute, of course it is, he's buying it regardless of what you want. i think gaz is the type of man to be like "i wanna spoil you, whatchu want." instead of grabbing random things. the only time he surprises you with random things is when your items need to be refilled and he knows exactly what it is that you need. sits in the salon, stares at you the whole time and makes the nail ladies blush.

[fansta]

Here is a lil sneaky peek at, what was supposed to be a short joke crack ship animatic, that has slowly turned into a full blown project ;-;

This is the most animated part of the whole thing because its the cool dance sequence and I couldn’t resist making up a whole new one hahahahah

The rest of it along with this is still in veryveryveryvery rough draft state and probably wont be done for another 2 weeks, but i still wanted to share a little bit because damn I need the motivation to keep working on it as I am going insane :D

[amisalami03]

cave mommy headcanons :D [this is my first time doing this help]

i'm gonna flip the script a little with this one, I think shes way more chill BUT will troll at any time >:)

she walked past pickle and sprayed him for no reason which resulted in a mini brawl , it was swiftly ended when cave shawty picks pickle up and suplexes him, so in celebration she beats her chest then goes to sleep in a nearby tree

she's definitely omnivorous in my book but she will eat meat and acts like a leopard by hiding her game in trees and pissing on those who walk to close to her territory this isn't a piss-kink thing I swear she's literally feral and piss is her prehistoric version of pocket sand

ironically enough though she and pickle are mated but he can not stand her ass sometimes, but she literally doesn't gaf and will lay on top of him (because she can.) and pickle does not seem to mind his woman using him as a mattress he will growl lowly but eventually puts himself to sleep since her warmth, scent and breathing patterns make it impossible to keep him awake lol (also its a sense of familiarity and comfort of her being the only thing he left of the past, so he willingly tolerates it)

because of her retsu's hair has been let down to its full glory and she even gave him a beautiful restyle :3 (lots of stick and shiny rock so cool |:) <- cave mommymoji) pickle didnt like it and wanted to fight retsu but a swift kick upside his head thwarted that act of petty conflict

she has no clue whats going on but is happy to see such small little guys doing complex things

she fucking LOVES pinwheels and windchimes hell yes little trinkets for her pretty please, even pickle is entertained when she shoves a pinwheel in his hair and shows him her stolen hardware store collection of chimes and shiny glass lawn ornaments used to water flowers -> |:) [her proud face]

she scratches her head like a dog and prefers to stay quadraped, which threw the boys off when she finally decided to stand on her two legs

katsumi told retsu he saw her walking on two legs before everyone else did and retsu called him a liar stating that she simply hadn't "evolved" to do that yet, as soon as he was done saying that she walked right passed them with various lawn ornaments in her arms, farted and continued walking without breaking a stride. retsu was stunned and katsumi just put his hand on his shoulder to console him.

I like to think she has a fighting style similar to dogwatch man from one punch man, which makes her a very hard opponent to defeat since her speed and agility far surpass her bipedal descendants

baki used her as a shield until she force-fed him a handful of grubs and ever since then shes been wondering where he's been |:( his ass ran away from her for about a week

she found him eventually and frantically fussed over him while holding him in a tight embrace, she thought she lost her baby again

Please keep her away from vending machines and claw games, to her they are like giant see through crustaceans she can crack open and benefit from, her and pickle will leave a wake of litter and shards of glass to get whats inside

Loves fountains, they are like vertical waterfalls to her and she’s mesmerized by how the magic water goes up 24/7

She draws cave paintings and is very proud of her work

Absolutely blown away by crayons, completely opened pandoras box for her wait until she learns about paint and markers

Keep scented/colorful soaps and chemicals away from her…she will try to drink them and get sick…no she probably wont die, but she will shit and vomit alot, pickle didnt wanna take the risk to drink fabuloso after that

She has an underbite snaggle tooth that sticks out

This is all I can come up with

This is all I can give you…for now

[cluster-b-culture-is]

hey!!! if its ok i’d like you’re thoughts on something ig and to sorta ask you something

so im bodily 15 atm, and i have cptsd. when i look at posts regarding certain cluster b experiences (possibly some cluster c aswell) i relate a LOT (obviously im not saying that bc i relate that i have these disorders, i just kinda have a feeling that *something* is going on). its tricky bc i keep looking into things and i cant really find an answer. i also dont know if im too young and that its just because im a teenager.

i wont get into like what “symptoms” i experience rn bc i feel like thats a whole other conversation but yeah.

i hope i dont sound like one of those people that are like “i must have x bc i related to a silly video i saw” im just really confused and i feel like something aint right

i know you’re probably not professionals so feel free to delete or ignore this if its too much, but if not, what do you think?

So, here's the thing (and we will attempt to avoid being patronizing): It is absolutely correct that your age and emotional/psychological development can affect things, and that the process of development can cause things that look like mild symptoms. It's also correct that that combined with c-ptsd (and any other disorders you may have; you'd be surprised how many symptoms and comorbidities autism, ADHD, NPD, and BPD all share) can make it extremely hard to determine where your symptoms are coming from and whether there might be something more.

(You're also correct that we are not professionals; this is all coming from our own research and personal experiences, so as with everything, take this with a grain of salt.)

However. I would argue that it would be far more harmful to deny any possibility of having a personality disorder until you reach some arbitrary age threshold than it would be to say that you do have a PD. Especially if looking at your life experiences through the lens of having a PD is helpful, and if resources for pw/[x]PDs are helpful to you. Even if you don't end up having a PD, that doesn't mean you were just a hormonal stupid teenager refusing to listen to the Adults™ or whatever the fuck--it means that you looked at your experiences, found something that seemed similar, and it turned out that you were wrong; but hopefully, along the way, you found things that were helpful.

Under the assumption that you have done a lot of research, I would personally recommend saying that you have traits of a particular disorder as opposed to saying you have the full disorder, and that is to two ends: one, a lot of adults with PDs (especially in ASPD spaces, if that's one of the disorders you're looking at) will kick your shit to hell and back if you even insinuate that you think you may have the full disorder (which I think is extremely counterintuitive if we want teenagers to understand their experiences and, yknow, not develop a full-blown personality disorder, regardless of whether you think teenagers can have a full personality disorder); and two, it might help you target the specific symptoms that you're experiencing without saddling you with the belief[/knowledge] that you have an incredibly stigmatized and lifelong disorder.

A lot of this stuff depends on a few things: (A) what your symptoms are (and if they can be better explained by other things, especially other things you know you have); (B) how severe your symptoms are (like the difference between being generally grouchy versus being actively hostile); and (C) how long your symptoms have lasted (if they only started popping up in the past few months or the past year versus if you've had them for years and years).

If you end up not having a personality disorder, anon, I think it will still be better for you in the long run to explore the possibility instead of shrugging it off under the excuse that you're "too young". It could turn out that you never had the disorder and it really was something else, it could turn out that you have traits but not the full disorder, or, hell, it could turn out that, by using resources and support you found by being part of communities surrounding PDs, you ended up not developing the full PD (even if you may still have a few traits)--because, at this age, you are still developing, and you are changing a lot, and very little is set in stone when it comes to these types of things--and you should absolutely take advantage of that! And even then, speaking from a more selfish perspective, it will never be a bad thing for more people to understand what it may be like to have a personality disorder.

For a bit of actionable advice on determining whether or not you may have one, though:

(1) Do your research. Obviously it's great that you're getting information from people with the disorders themselves by looking at PD communities; however, not everything having to do with the disorder will be talked about, and quite honestly, Tumblr is a terrible place to find definitive information on the PDs. Life experience? Yes. Actual information looking at how the disorders work and what they can entail in full? Ehhh, not quite. Look at a variety of academic sources, but in the same vein, keep your wits about you--professionals aren't immune to ableism, and may often perpetuate it with glee. Some of it may be obvious, some of it might not be.

(2) Keep an eye on your symptoms--make a manual check against the actual criteria every once in a while (but keep in mind that the DSM is also deeply flawed and biased); @shitborderlinesdo has a ton of checklists based on the DSM and individual testimony that can help. We first started questioning ASPD when we were 14, and we'd do those kinds of manual checks once every several months or once a year or so. It both helps you understand what your symptoms are, and helps you keep track of how you're doing over time. Don't use online quizzes for this; quite honestly, they're not really good for anything except validation if you know you'll get a high score.

(3) Look at stuff other than personality disorders, too, and try to figure out why your interest skews towards specific disorders. For a long ass time, we believed we had StPD and did our absolute best to ignore any information to the contrary, because (due to our symptoms) if it wasn't StPD, the only thing it could be otherwise was schizophrenia, and we were scared shitless of the idea; at first because we were scared of the idea that our symptoms might've been so severe, but eventually because we were afraid to admit that we were wrong. (As I've said before, no shame in being wrong--do as I say, not as I do.)

Ultimately, I can't stop you from doing anything, and I can't force you to do anything either. I'm just a mentally ill guy with an internet connection. My life experiences have led me to this conclusion, and others may disagree with it--that's perfectly fine. Again, I am not a professional. You know yourself and your experiences the best, and I think by this point, you have enough understanding of yourself and the world to be able to figure out what'll be best for you and your health, given that you have the proper resources to do so. You are a being with life experience, even if it's less than others may have; you aren't a rock, and you aren't a three year old who still hasn't realized that touching the lit stove will equal a burned finger. I personally think that the way a lot of folks go about talking to and about teenagers who think they may have personality disorders is, frankly, infantilizing and invalidating, and it just ends up with traumatized and unsupported teenagers turning into traumatized and unsupported adults, with the added bonus of an extra helping of imposter syndrome to top it all off.

I hope you're doing well anon, and I hope you see this (sorry for responding so late lmao). Off into the world ye may go, hopefully with a bit more knowledge and idea of what to do next than you had before.

[womenloverlmao]

SPVTW with a partner who plays Rugby

These are gender neutral

ALSO WE NEED MORE X RUGBY PLAYER SHIT. LIKE???

Kim

-She doesn't tell anyone about it, but she goes to all of your games.

-She’ll occasionally go to practices but lets you have space, knowing that if she’s there too much it’ll humiliate you.

-One time she missed her own practice for one of your games. One time. Still.

-If you're a woman it's kinda like ‘my girlfriend plays rugby you really wanna fuck with me?’

-When you get hurt shes kinda like ‘yeah you play rugby what the fuck did you expect’

Knives

-Goes to everything. Games, practices, hangouts. Everything.

-She brings a bunch of people with her too. (well she doesn't have many friends but still)

-”GO Y/N WOOOOOOO I HEART YOU.”

-team merch? She has it.

-Bro is so worried if (when) you get hurt

Neil

-”You play rugby???? Coooooool.”

-���Wait whats rugby??”

-bro doesnt understand it, he just thinks it's like a homosexual game of intense ass/thigh gripping (as a rugby player, can confirm)

-he’ll go to games but wont let it get in the way of his schedule

-he does toss the ball with you sometimes.

-when you get hurt??? Bro is freaking out.

Ramona

-she likes rugby in the first place so she was chill with going to your games and shit.

-she’ll walk you to practice and things its kind of sweet.

-out of all these characters, shes most likely to understand what it is (wallace probably would understand but he would make fun of you for it) and not make fun of you for it

-if you get hurt? She takes care of you but still, gets kind of nervous when you play again.

Roxie

-likes rugby, does not understand it at all.

-she would play touch with you though its so sweet even though she has no idea what shes doing. Sweet girl probably goes backwards.

-if youre a woman? ”GUESS WHAT FUCKERS??? I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND AND SHE PLAYS RUGBY!”

-all over you when you get hurt. She is like ‘what MONSTERS would do this???’

Scott

-”wallace, they play rugby.” “cool.” “whats rugby?”

-he’ll occasionally show up to games. Like once a month. He doesnt understand it. At all.

-immediately asked if you were gay because of it.

-if youre a dude ‘scott baby what the fuck we’ve been dating’

-is confused on how you get hurt if its like intense hugging (you explained touch to him and now he thinks thats rugby)

Stacey

-thinks its cool.

-acts like she doesnt care but she goes to every single one of your games without fail.

-is really nervous about you getting hurt but doesnt show it

-when you get hurt she like pretends shes not having a full blown panic attack

Wallace

-knows what rugby is, says he wouldnt date someone in rugby…

-and then you come along.

-honestly though i feel like rugby people is something hes attracted to but he hates so much.

-goes to your games but pretends he doesnt like it.

-when you get hurt and complain he is like ‘yeah so maybe you shouldnt play something that getting hurt is a requirement for???’

-does take care of you thoug

[robo-milky]

1. I have no issue in being the spokesman for this ship i swear. Also so be it, outta the way Cloche, Epel bby come here 😍

2. I thought that ask didnt send?? I completely forgot about the carved apple hc thou good thing you still saw it <3

3. Im just now noticing being tagged as a mutual?? Like i know you follow me too but the tag 😭💕

4. And lastly response to the previous ask (this has been a series of full-blown responses, back and forth amongst us)

Shinning light on Epel's character, he does indeed feel conflicted. He fears Cloche's paranoia and vulnerability after the incident is what made them to be closer. If that's the case then he hates it. Dont get me wrong now Epel's the kind who "fell first and fell harder" but he wants to be sure that his Relationship with Cloche even as friends is genuine. He wants to be sure that the closeness Cloche develops with him is not related to her incident even in the slightest. While he still sees glimpses of OG Cloche with how she responds it still makes him uneasy with how he got closer to her in a few months then he could in a year. He knows Cloche doesn't like him back. The way she looks at his vice housewarden with love in her eyes, he wishes he could be that person. (Dont be jealous of that wannabe Dora 🫶)

But he knows he'll never be. But that doesnt mean he wants to cut all ties with Cloche. She is still special to him. He can move on but he knows that wont be the case for a good while but till then he'll be there for Cloche in her time of need when rook is ojt for internships.

Now thats enough angst on my side since now i just feel bad 😭

That being said, signing off till the next responses, peace out and hugging cloche <3 (and hugs for you as well :D )

Throwing in a lighthearted meme as a cleanser <3 If you know the source, you know 😭 God… The amount of layers to get this- (Shout out to y’all following along the SY! Cloche lore)

[Response]

The true ship was Epel x justm3di0cr3 all along- I’m losing it at the irony of you being the spokesperson of ClochEpel yet also writing the downfall(?) (er… Not ClochEpel ClochEpel)

Sending hearts back at ya <3 Any mutual is a mutual ^^

Going straight for the angst path I see- Not that I’m complaining- I’m all for it!

Waiting for Cloche’ epiphany arc to come, when she finally realizes she shouldn’t have taken Epel and his feelings for granted when he’s gone for good. Before the incident, Cloche would have known about Epel’s one-sided affections for her (at some point), but she’s more confused why he would like her. With that, if Epel ever confronts SY!Cloche to set things straight or were vocal about missing the old Cloche, she’d feel upset and lost.

As the person experiencing the changes, Cloche views the new development as growth. OG!Cloche was distant, always trying to not be a burden, and now she’s opening up her heart to rely on others willingly. Cloche, herself, didin’t think the incident changed her, but was an excuse for her to act upon the fears she already had. How Cloche sees herself vs how Epel sees her, would make for an interesting conflict of misunderstandings. Since Epel wants to be there for Cloche, he probably wouldn’t voice his personal conflicts, and Cloche is too prideful to open up any more.

The few remnants of OG!Cloche that Epel can find, is mostly her uncaring, “so be it” attitude. Despite having been there for her for so long, he’s still bitter that a simple “Salut” from Rook on Magicam is enough to make her …smile. (Barely. The corners of her mouth can tilt up by 1mm, I guess.)

When SY!Cloche does feel better, she wouldn’t apologize to Epel, but more so give a word of acknowledgement. She’d drop the bomb out of nowhere, when they’re just alone, without any warnings at all. And ofc, in OG!Cloche fashion, it’d be hella dry but gets the point across. She is chewing on her pride (she cannot swallow it completely.)

“Thanks …for everything. You make this world a little more tolerable, I guess…”

FR— Epel dealing with SY!Cloche’ hot-n-cold reception is such a big improvement from OG!Cloche’ hot-n-cold.

[outsideratheart]

3 Present shopping with gulia gwinn

A/N: Day twenty two of the Christmas advent calendar. 

You were the organised type of present buyer. Throughout the year if you saw something one of your friends or family would like then you bought it. This meant come October, November at the latest, you were done and December could be stress free.

“Do you want to go for breakfast tomorrow?” Lina asks you.

You and some of the girls had just finished your last media appearance before the Christmas break. The energy was high within the group and even though you spent the majority of the week together, you still loved to go out and explore the city together.

“Sure 9am? I’ll meet you at the bakery, the one that does my favourite cinnamon buns” you mouth began watering at the mention of the sweet treat.

“No, you can’t” Gulia stops in her tracks, turns to you and puts her hand on your chest “you said you would help me with my Christmas shopping”

You couldn’t believe what you were hearing.

“First of all, hand” you look down at her hand.

“I forgot you don’t like to touched, Sorry” she quickly moves her hand away.

“Oh please, when you do it she takes longer to freak out” Lina says earning a slap.

It wasn’t that didn’t like it. It has more to do with the person and situation. Gulia was slowly becoming an exception. After you lost the euros you were heartbroken, there were nights when you couldn’t sleep because you would obsess over the mistakes you made. Once Gulia found out she would stay over and held you until you fell asleep. It was the first time someone else’s touch brought you comfort.

“As I was saying. Tomorrow is the 23rd December, how have you not finished your Christmas shopping?”

Gulia mumbles something incoherent.

“What was that?” You ask with an amused look on your face.

“I said I haven’t started it yet”

“What!” You mouth hangs open in shock.

“Don’t be dramatic. We’ll have fun”

You knew she was right. Whether you spent the day with her or anytime with her you had fun, more so with her than anyone else.

The next day you met with Gulia in the middle of Munich. She gave you a list of things she needed to get knowing that you knew where the best places to buy them were given that shopping is one of your favourite past times.

You quickly checked the first five people off the list. Gulia then decided now would be the perfect time for a coffee break.

“Can I ask you a question?” Gulia says as she watches you take a sip of your favourite beverage before nodding your head.

“Why don’t you like been touched? I asked Lina about it and she said I should ask you” Gulia looks down as she admits to discussing this behind your back.

“I probably wasn’t hugged enough as a child” you joke even though you know this is the exact reason.

You can see the look of pity wash over Gulia’s face. This is why you never talked out it, you cannot stand that look.

“But you let me touch you. You lay happily in my arms as you sleep and when I do this” she reaches across the table for your hand “you don’t pull away”

A small smile tugs at her lips as you allow her to stroke the back of your hand with her thumb.

“You are different, I can’t explain it. After the full time whistle was blown in the final you forced me into a hug so no one would see me cry, since then it’s like my heart trusts you”

“Well I’m honoured and I wont hurt you Y/N, I don’t think I could even if I tried”

“You don’t have to say that. Just because I opened up, you don’t have to say what you think I want to hear”

“Don’t do that. I felt something change that day too. Why do you think I offered to spend all of those nights at your house?”

Her hand still holds yours and that itself surprises you. You have never held hands with someone for this long before but what surprises you more if how happy the touch makes you.

Her question makes you think. You had asked yourself that same question every morning when you woke up in her arms.

“Because my bed is comfy” your attempt of making a joke out of the situation causes Gulia shake head “ok, fine. I don’t know Gulia”

“The thought of you having sleepless nights, overthinking every minute of that game and blaming yourself breaks my heart. It does that because I care for you but I think deep down you already know that or at least your subconscious does, it’s the reason why you don’t pull away”

You are at a loss for words. She was right though, you had thought about it but soon stopped. How could a girl like her every like a girl like you.

“Now we’ve have our deep moment, what do you say about us finishing the shopping?” She withdraws her hand and already you find yourself craving her touch.

A few shops later and the two of you are walking the streets of Munich. Gulia looks around at the different Christmas light and stalls but even then she can feel you staring at her.

“What is it?”

“Can I hold your hand?” You ask the question that had been on your mind since leaving the coffee shop. Gulia doesn’t answer but intertwines her fingers with yours.

“You’re cute” you teases you slightly “is this ok?”

“This is” you pause for a moment to see if your body will pull away only it doesn’t “its perfect”

The sun had long set when you finish the list but you didn’t mind. Today had been one of the best days you’ve had in a long time and you loved every minute of it.

“And we’re done” you close the boot of Gulia’s car after helping her load it with the presents.

“Not yet”

You grab the list out of your back pocket running your finger over every name which as you suspected had been crossed off.

“We are, look” you hold up the list for her to see.

“I still have to get you something. What do you want?”

You think for a second before the perfect gift comes to mind.

“You”

“You want me for Christmas?” She asks slightly confused.

“Yes and no. I want to take you on a date?”

“I guess you’ll have to wait and see what Santa brings you”

Gulia drives you home that night instead of you getting an Uber. When you arrive at your apartment she insists on walking you to your door.

The nights ends with her hugging you tighter than ever before.

“Merry Christmas Y/N. Thank you for trusting me” she whispers in your ear.

“Merry Christmas Gulia”

[trickstarbrave]

TERFs have more in common with white supremacists than many of them want to admit. trying to root out trans women based on skull shape and size, the size of bones, random features, etc is literally the same thing as racists picking apart the features of jewish ppl and poc. its going to be used to hurt jewish women and women of color because that’s what its designed to do. TERF’s ideas of womanhood are about thin, conventionally attractive, white western ideals of womanhood--thin, hairless except for long hair on your head, soft features, quiet, demure, etc. it isnt a mystery why more and more high profile TERFs are allying themselves with literal nazis. its because they buy into very similar ideologies of biological essentialism and white western values. and their hatred of trans people is a disease which consumes their identities and leads them to forgo all other social issues they used to care about--gender equality, abortion access, equal pay, etc etc to instead ally themselves with other hate groups who will help them attack a common enemy.

and TERFs also fail to realize that when trans people are all “gone” those groups will attack them next. hell, they probably wont even wait until we’re gone. the second they get out of the public eye nazis will begin insulting, demeaning, and attacking them. because the ideology of hate doesnt have true allyship or truces, and it doesn’t stop. nazis will help them attack trans women, and then they’ll go for gay people, and then they will go for interracial marriage, and then they’ll attack all poc and try to remove them from society, and then they will start attacking ethnicity who havent always been white, and then they will start inventing more groups to attack. hatred never stops, it can only consume be it your identity or the very fabric of society.

i say this because there are quite a number of TERFs being like “why are several high profile TERFs allying with nazis???? its so bad for our optics!!” but the reason is bc its a very short jump from extreme hatred of trans people and TERF ideology to full blown nazis. all it takes is the hatred consuming you to the point you drop all pretense of the fucking F in that acronym.

[webslingingslasher]

“hey, i might not wait til marriage but you are and that's fucking cool”🥹🥹🥹 this is so cute and made me feel so good AHHH <3

okay I need to SPILL.

first I wanna say i know this isn’t a big deal and when I eventually talk to him about it, he’ll be reassuring but I’m freaking out first and i wanna talk to the girlies first instead, but I do feel like I can tell him (bc if u can’t talk ab these things w someone, you shouldn’t have sex w them in the first place)

but bro I am FREAKING out HDNDNDND. we’ve been looking at rings. he hasn’t proposed because he said he still wants me to be surprised and stuff but we got carried away talking one night and he let it slip that he wants to marry me and somehow we started looking at rings. we went to a couple shops just to get general ideas bc I have no idea what I want!!

ANYWAYS. I was super excited and I had a full blown freak out earlier😀 I’ve been waiting til marriage my whole life (I’m 23) but he hasn’t, he had multiple sexual partners in high school and college and a couple before he met me. I was just thinking ab our future wedding night bc it’s getting super real now and I don’t think it’ll be that far in the future and I was like omfg. this whole wait and it’ll be over in one night. like “that’s so exciting, FINALLY” type thing bc the wait has been hard😭 I’m just a girl and he’s soodkdjdkskskksskso sexy😭

and then I was like…. It’s all over in one night

and I was like, wait. I’m a virgin virgin. he isn’t. even just fingering/head (which I literally cannot WAIT for😭) is gonna be new bc I’ve never had another guys fingers in me and whatever. and I’m not nervous at all, I’m so excited, I’ve waited so long as u can imagine JDJDKDK but I was like realistically, it’ll probably be overwhelming. and then ur meant to do everything in one go? even in most ‘normal’ relationships where people aren’t waiting till marriage, you don’t usually go from 0-100 in a single night😭 that’s kinda insane. like ‘oh you’ve only kissed a boy? well here is literally everything under the sun!”

and I think I just realised today, for the first time, that maybe that wont realistically be what I want. like doing some things and then the rest after. like we’re gonna be married forever (that’s the plan😭) so we have all this time to go it yk. not that I’d necessarily wanna wait super long after we’re married, but I just feel kinda… bad. like, he’s waited this whole time, just for me. imagine we get married and he’s super excited to finally get to hit and in like “actually……..🤣”

idk. I just feel a little alone because even the religious/non-religious ppl I know (who decided to wait just because), none of them felt this way. they were so ready to just jump in and start boning (as they should bc the wait hasn’t been easy😭) but idk I feel… idk. I feel like that might not be me, like I feel like I might need a little more time just to get used to like, everything in reality yk. bc it’s all fun and games saying it rn but I realised earlier, when I started really thinking about it, that I haven’t done anything and realistically, even ppl that don’t wsit need more time yk.

he obviously won’t make me feel bad for this either, he’s not a monster & he’s very understanding but I’m just spiralling.

this might not even be a problem, realistically the second we’re married I might not even make it to the after party and just be like “dick in me now pls” but… ifkdjdjddjdjw

I’m thinking too much lol. I’ve waited 23 years and it’s so real now that my mind is spinning. I’m sorry for the ramble but thank u for listening & for the girlie talk JDJDJDX💗💗💗💗💗💗 i love u so much

(I am sooo ready to get married tho😭💗)

i am so happy for you both!!! i really wish you the best of luck!

i think him being experianced will help out so much in the long run, but girl, there's nothing to worry about! if he's waited this long, what's a little more? like you said, you may change your mind but you said you wanted to wait until marriage. so i'm with you, why does it have to be your wedding night?

it sounds like he's going at your pace and he's in no rush to bed you either. you already know you're gonna talk to him about this so kudos! and coming from me, it sounds like you're ready for sex and that's awesome.

you're excited and that's the most important. (after loving and trusting your man.) trust me, it'll be worth the wait and i can't wait to hear about the proposal!

[gremlin-star-sketches]

Hello

You are probably young. Very young, somewhere between 13 and 15, right? So I understand why you would think this is appropriate behavior, you're still learning how the world works. However, it's far from okay to do this. Making one "mistake" and then having a full blown meltdown threatening to leave the site and all your friends just because you're a """horrible person""" is guilt tripping and generally very unkind. You aren't intending to hurt anyone and I'm sure you genuinely do believe the things you are saying, however all that's happening is that you're stressing your friends out over something that likely won't even happen, and telling them that they can't tell you when you ARE doing something wrong because they won't want to upset you. You'll be back within days, if not hours, I'm sure. Again, you're probably young so it's no wonder that you think you'll feel this way long enough to actually do as you intend. You wont, I promise, you'll be over it within a few hours if you just let yourself let it go. You don't hate yourself, you're simply experiencing the wild emotions that someone your (assumed) age would

This isn't intended to be hateful and I apologize if I'm harsher than I intend to be. I've been on the receiving end of this behavior several times from various different people, and it's not just hurtful. It's traumatizing, once it's at a certain point. And if I can talk just one person out of making it a habit then I will. I wish you well, and I hope you consider what I had to say, even if I'm hiding behind anon lol

Dont worry, I'm used to this...this isn't the only time I ruined things, it is my fault, whoever you are have a hug

[archaeolitikum]

generally i think the eu taking precautions with the kind of food companies can sell, the way they market their products etc is good and whatnot but one thing that really makes me roll my eyes is the way theyve been trying to make it so meat free and dairy free products cant use the same names like "milk" or "sausage" because it would be "confusing to consumers and costumers". full offence but if you see a carton of something that clearly says OAT MILK on it but you ignore the oat part and go grab the thing in a full blown milk frenzy, black out, and wake up at home only to realise the oat milk is in fact made from oats and not from a cow then i think thats on you buddy. costumers and consumers have to have some personal responsibility while buying shit sorry its not that difficult.

its extra annoying because the eu actively want to meet our goals about the climate and that includes encouraging people to eat more food that has a lesser impact on the environment and yet they make it extra difficult for the companies to just sell normal food made from plants by forcing them to come up with weird stupid terms instead of just using the language that we are already using for it. everyone KNOWS oat milk isnt actually milk but calling it oat beverage or oat liquid is ridiculous. making plant based food more alien by changing the language around it probably wont help anyone. i dont think calling a burger made from peas "plantbased/vegan/pea/soy burger" is confusing anyone. and if allergy is a concern, allergic people already fucking know to read the ingredients! allergens (like soy!!!) are always underlined anyway and allergics already knooooow to check it you sillies.

if i can check the ingredients of something to make sure i can and want to eat it then i dont think its impossible for everyone else to realise oat milk is actually not real milk and the milk part is just a descriptor for the products general purpose you know

[dumbass-tumbler-cryptid]

Oh my God Blood Brothers was wonderful! It gave me terribly conflicting emotions - I don't know if I should be happy that Hunter and Spider now have each other or disgusted by all this manipulation by Quaritch.

My heart sank when Spider cut his hair and burned the bracelets - he was definitely broken very badly. However, Hunter and his thoughts about the adoptive family also touched me deeply.

I keep imagining Hynter with glasses, they somehow suit his image (also I see him as Lucas Jade Zumman in blue eyes lol). And I wonder what books Quaritch bought him? Are these typical children's adventure stories, comics or school books? If you ever plan a part 2, it would be great to see Lyle Zdog etc. Thank you so much for writing this and good luck with continuing The Cabin in The Woods ♥️

Thank you so much! I'm glad you enjoyed it! 💞

So originally I was thinking about writing Hunter with glasses because babies born premature can have eyesight issues. I had the idea of Hunter knowing he needs glasses but his adoptive mom wont let him wear them because she doesn't like how he looks in them. I was still toying with that idea when I started writing the fic and that's part of the reason I had that little line about Hunter being a bad student. My thought was that he's bad in school because he can't see the board (and has A.D.H.D but less hyperactive more things just go in one ear and out the other) I left all that out though because Blood Brothers was getting really long. In my opinion one shots should be in the 1,000-3,000 word range and Blood Brothers was over 9,000. Which was longer then the original Cabin in the Woods by like 3,000 words 😅 So yeah I had to draw the line somewhere or else I would have written a book (like I'm doing right now with Cabin lol)

As for the books Quaritch got Hunter I imagine he got him a lot of educational books on nature and wilderness survival, some age appropriate fantasy/adventure novels like Percy Jackson, The Spiderwick Chronicles, that kind of thing, and books on interests Hunter might have. I had the idea of Quaritch giving Hunter a book on Morse code and the boys both learning it to tap out messages to each other once they got put in separate rooms but again, I had to draw the line somewhere.

And I know I'm about to sound like a broken record lol, but yeah I did plan on Lyle and Z to make an appearance maybe visiting for Halloween or Hunter's birthday which in my head is like a week after the tree climbing incident but again the fic was getting way to long so I tabled that idea. I'm totally willing to write more for this au though. But probably just ficlets on request and not full blown oneshots/ chapters to Blood Brothers.

Also I like your fan casting 💙Again thank you so much!