#probably deleting this soon or later because idk if it's going to be taken the wrong way

[icicleteeth]

Idk if this makes me a wet blanket so I keep a lot of it to just ranting to friends irl but I personally am not relishing in the honeymoon phase of bsky being more active than twitter right now, nevermind what I've talked about before with the vibes not at all being as chill or nice as a lot of people are going on and on about it being, but I'm just not going to celebrate too early because it remains to be seen if it will last long term. I just worry that a lot of the conversation around it being a good platform has been artist focused (and I'm not saying it's not important!) but I personally know of plenty of normie friends who have no interest in moving over, and I really think if the site is ever going to be New Better Twitter like we all want it to be, it would take more than just artists to adopt the platform, and I just don't know if that's going to happen! I'd love to be proven wrong but I'm not sure I will be!

I don't know. I guess my point is, I'm not going to celebrate too soon about the death of twitter just to own Elon (I dislike him and the direction twitter has taken under him since day 1 just like everyone else) because frankly, for one I don't like bsky being sold as a safe and chill place when it isn't, and for two, I think artists who nuke an entire platform to put all their eggs into a basket that may or may not pan out (unsure if bsky is going to bring in a large enough and active non-artist normie audience long term) have WAY more to lose than a CEO of a way larger socmed platform that may not even notice the loss of artists because it's probably too big to fail at this point. And I'm not trying to stand on a pedestal, I get wanting to send a message and don't say any of this from a place of judgement! I just. Worry for smaller artists. I don't like using terms like "audience" or "reach" or w/e but the vast majority of these (as well as potential clients) are NOT other artists (who are the main people moving over to bsky), that's just the reality of it! As well as the reality that moving to bsky isn't a safeguard against getting scraped by AI, if it isn't grok doing it, it's going to be something else

[diah-the-demon]

Aint no way ppl are genuinely believing this shit right oh my god

[willowser]

i received this lovely lovely lil thought from a lovely lovely anon in response to this question, and i think we ALL should get to enjoy it 🥹🩷

(Tw:Abuse / Manipulation (kind of; it's not overly gratuitous, but better safe than sorry))

Will! !! So I was thinking about your "would Bakugou chase after you, even after you're engaged" post (loved it! spinning it around in my head), and while I do think he'd probably let you go if you were truely happy with this other person, y'know what might change that? If this other person wasn't making you happy. (I’M SO SORRY FOR THE INCOMING WALL OF TEXT – please just delete if I’m being annoying!!) To explain; I think in this scenario, maybe you're still getting over a long-time unrequited crush (👀), and you're looking for something with a normal, sweet guy to help get over it. He's not the type you would usually go for, but he's nice enough (idk, maybe he has blonde hair, or red eyes, and maybe that makes it easier). And while you initially thought this would just be a short fling, it just kind of... gets away from you? A few dates turn into a few more, and then lots more and before you know it things are getting Serious. He's talking about moving in together, and you're taken aback by it (weren't you just starting to go out together? Isn't this too soon?). But it's not like you have anything real to complain about! He's not horrible to you or anything! He treats you well enough! It's just that you don't seem to feel anything... deep? for him. You don't daydream about a future together, you don't go out and wish he was there with you; Honestly, if he's not there with you, you don't think much about him at all (not the way you used to with him 👀). And hey, maybe sometimes (frequently) you end up doing things you didn't want to do, maybe he knows what to say to get you to acquiesce to his wants and needs, without coming across as manipulative. Or maybe you're just nervous! He isn't "rushing you long term commitments, which would dissuade you from leaving", the two of you are just caught up in a Whirlwind Romance! /Sarcastic. Being honest, that kind of thing grinds a person down after a while; you bend much more easily to his whims. He is, after all, so Normal and so Sweet - and how often do guys like that turn up? You'd be a fool to dump him now, now he knows you so well, and really. What are you expecting? Some Prince Charming(👀) to come and sweep you off your feet? Get real. So you get the flat together, and later on (though sooner than you'd like), you accept his proposal.

1 / 7 (I'm so sorry)

2/7 To my mind, this is the kind of diverging path for Bakugou. I think, if this was a genuine whirlwind romance, and it was recognised by the people around you, he'd probably back off. For all his brashness, he wouldn't want to hurt you by ruining your wedding day to the person you actually love. TBH I can kind of see him pining for you for the rest of his life, and hoping you become a widow/er so he get another shot to confess his feelings lmao. In that situation he could write off his own negative feelings towards your fiance as his own jealousy, right? If the fiance were actually bad for you, at least one other person from your respective friend group would notice. But!! I think that would change if his opinions were backed up by his friends (because it would demonstrate that it isn’t just his jealousy tarnishing his opinion of your boyfriend) Let's imagine that maybe he isn't the only one to think something Weird is going on. Maybe he's hanging out with Denki and Sero, because he's so obviously miserable about not confessing in time, and they're trying to cheer him up (it's been a month and he's mouldering. He is suffering). In walk Eijiro and Mina, who - while they were out getting snacks that Bakugou would never even consider eating if he wasn't in the depths of despair - just so happened to run into you and your new... boyfriend? Kind of? You seemed kind of reluctant to say the two of you were dating, but he seemed nice. Eijiro thinks he's kind of bland, and Mina knows you can do better (which she says both for Bakugou's ego, and because it's true), but nice enough. And you know, maybe, for the first time in a month, Bakugou stops sitting so rigidly. He doesn't slouch per se, no. He relaxes in the same way that tiger might relax before pouncing, in the way that a hunter might breathe out before pulling the trigger. A month of dating, and you still won't call the guy your boyfriend? When you'd introduced them to each-other (after your third date), Bakugou assumed it was his jealousy that made him hate the guy. Kind of boring, kind of pushy (a/n: no, he wouldn't clock the fact that he looks like off-brand Bakugou). He didn't think it would last too long, but it still felt bitter that that was the guy who beat him to the punch.

But seriously; a month of dating, and you still won't call the guy your boyfriend? That's... interesting >:)

3/7 So months roll by, and Bakugou keeps his eye on you. He flipflops between anguishing over his jealousy, and making sure that your “boyfriend” is treating you right. Of course, it’s made harder by the fact that he doesn’t see you that much any more. Your other friends notice it too; You’re not being kept inside your (shared) flat, but you always seem busy, and a bit tired. Ochako and Iida can usually grab you for lunch, Momo swings by your flat pretty often, but your social calendar seems so full now. Full of dates and outings with your new boyfriend. Apparently, you barely have a minute for someone you’ve been friends with since childhood.

It pisses Bakugou off to no end, but he’s keeping his distance (for now). Because the thing is, Bakugou – above anything else – respects you. If you want to waste your time on some loser, he’s not going to presume that he knows better for you! Bakugou’s many things but he’s not “fuckin’ presumptuous”. Besides, if you really were in dire straights, or needed help, you’d reach out. It’s not like you don’t still send him little messages every other day; memes you think he’ll like, little scenic photographs of your dates (conspicuously, your boyfriend is missing from every single one👀). He’s Fine. He can Be Patient. (Reader, he’s been seething for months).

4/7 HOWEVER. Flashing forward to The Proposal. I think it shakes him; firstly because the person he loves is getting married to another man, and he somehow thought you’d have ended it by now. But secondly because everyone else seems to agree that it’s weird! It’s way too soon for marriage to a guy that you don’t even seem to like all that much, and while everyone gently float their concerns to you that maybe it’s just a teeny tiny smidge too soon to get married (which you rebuff half-heartedly), the group-chat is popping the fuck off. It’s definitely too soon, this guy is Too Normal in a very weird way, they barely know him, the wedding is taking place really soon, they should stage in intervention (Eijiro&Tsuyu&Sero), they should kidnap you until you realise what a mistake it would be (Mina&Denki), they should kill him (Deku&Ochako&Iida), etc. It’s pretty weird, then, that Bakugou comes in as the voice of reason; you’re a grown up, and you can make your own decisions. If you really, genuinely want to marry him, that’s up to you; After all the freedom to make your own decisions comes with the responsibility to accept the consequences. (a/n: obvs it would be phrased in a far more Bakugou-esque fashion, but you get my point). So they relent, although they’re still concerned.

So maybe a few days before the wedding he sends you a message (because it’s tricky to get a hold of you in person); he just wants to know what you see in your fiance. He wants to know if you’re really serious about him, or if you’re just settling. It’s not phrased cruelly, but it’s blunt. The message he sends isn’t nice and sweet, but it’s honest, and it comes from a place of concern.

You read it and you don’t reply.

Flash forward again, and it’s the night before the wedding. Wedding Eve, if you will. Bakugou’s in a sour mood and tries to ease his pain by heading to a bar, but it doesn’t really get any better throughout the night. He’s conflicted now more than ever; Is this guy actually awful and bad for you, or is he just jealous? Is he not stepping in because he wants to be respectful of your wishes, or because he’s afraid that by doing so he’ll reveal his own feelings, and suffer the consequent (possible) rejection? Why didn’t he just tell you how he felt before this mess started? He has a few drinks to many, and falls into a dreamless sleep.

5/7 MERRY WEDDINGMAS. It’s the day of the wedding, and because of he hit the bottle too hard last night, Bakugou’s overslept (for the first time in his life, probably). He goes to check his phone – maybe he can still make it to the wedding the venue on time?-

TWO MISSED MESSAGES.

He didn’t realise, but last night you finally replied to his message: You don’t know if you want to get married to this guy.

It’s a long, winding message, but what it boils down to is this- You threw yourself into a relationship with someone you know you don’t really love (you like him well enough, but there’s no spark), because you’ve been spending years muddling your way through a hopeless crush on someone you think will never like you back. So you’ve let yourself go along with this guy, but now you’re on Wedding Eve, and you’ve never been so uncertain of yourself! Your fiance’s a sensible choice (He’s Bland, and he’s Pushy, but he’s Nice, and he’s Normal, but maybe you’re losing yourself in your relationship with him, but maybe you just have cold feet), but you’re not sure that you care any more, and it’s now or never, and it’s ‘You, Bakugou, It’s always been you’, and you’ve been too afraid to tell him, because when does real life play out like the films? When does the years long pining, the roller-coaster of emotions, the ‘I’ve been in love with you since the moment I saw you’, have a happily-ever-after in the real world?

The next message was sent a few hours later. Evidently, you’d calmed down somewhat, because you tell him that you’re sorry for sending him all of that on Wedding Eve, that you’ve had feelings for him for a long time, but if he doesn’t feel the same it would be the kind of closure you’d need to move on. If he doesn’t want to attend the ceremony, you’ll understand and leave him alone. But if he wants to “talk” (👀!!!), then you’ll be waiting for him.

Bakugou feels raw after reading your confession; All this time, and the two of you – despite sharing the same feelings – were so afraid, and for what? The relief, the fear, the hope, all spur him into action.

He’s hungover, he’s in his pyjamas, but all the same he’s rushing towards his expensive, fuel-efficient car as fast as he can, because he has a fuckin’ wedding to stop.

6/7 Meanwhile, you’re stressed, mentally twisting into knots. Bakugou didn’t even read the messages you sent last night, which is both a relief (now you can just get married and move on) and a heart wrenching disappointment (because if you’re being honest with yourself, you were hoping he’d stop you).

You’re wearing an outfit you don’t really like, and your fiance’s family are beaming at you, although you don’t really know them so well. The venue is pleasant but not what you would’ve chosen for yourself. As you walk down the aisle, the band sounds kind of off. Your family and friends are… what? Grimacing? Smiling? Both Smimacing? You aren’t sure.

The ceremony passes in a kind of blur, and you go through the all motions. Mostly, you think of the messages you’d sent to Bakugou. You’d felt so courageous when you finally – finally! - confessed your feelings to him, so hopeful that maybe instead of replying, you’d hear a knock at your door, and he’d sweep you off your feet and- then hours had passed without a word, and you’d been left wondering. Conflicted, and unsure.

As you wait for your fiance to finish his vows (that he wrote himself, but sound like he stole them from a Pinterest board), however, you have a mild epiphany. Did it really matter so much if Bakugou loved you back? Sure, it’d break your heart, but one day you’d heal from it. Besides, he wouldn’t want to settle for some nobody! Bakugou was loyal to his friends, and he wanted the best for them, and that was one of the things you loved most about him! Surely, you owed it to both him, and more importantly, yourself, to put an end to this madness!!

You steel yourself as it gets to That Part of the wedding. The officiant turns to you, and asks if you take this man to be your lawful wedded husband. You face your fiance, and open your mouth to say “Actually…. I DON’T” when-

The doors slam open, and who’s standing there in a matching pair of pyjamas, still holding his car keys? It’s Bakugou, and you only have to lock eyes with him for him to shout – in true romcom fashion – ‘I FUCKIN’ OBJECT’.

7/7 Everyone’s stunned, although the guests on your side of the venue look more thrilled than scandalised.

In truth, I wouldn’t normally peg Bakugou as the “Objecting at a wedding” type, but in this scenario – when the two of you have been pining for so long, when he knows you’d appreciate the spectacle, when he gets to show up that nobody who wasted your time for so long – I think maybe he’d make an exception. Maybe he wouldn’t make some long, protracted speech about how much he loves you, but he MIGHT run to the alter full tilt, and tell you that you’re making a mistake. I do think MAYBE he’d hold out his hand to you, a silent question in his eyes, all while your fiance sputters and rants.

Idk, maybe you say something to the effect of “Looks like he beat me to the punch – I object, too :)”, tell your ex-fiance you’re sorry, but you can’t do this. PERHAPS – after all of the years of wondering, and stressing about whether Bakugou would reject you – you’d just quietly take his hand. And maybe to two of you would scamper off down the aisle to the raucous applause of your friends and family, get into his hatchback or w/e, and drive off into the sunset, certain in the knowledge that – yes, there would be ramifications to running off together like this, but that whatever might come your way you’d face it together! MAYBE.

Idk, I just feel like if he was going to confess his feelings for you after you’d already been engaged, it might be in the form of kissing the back of your hand, pulling off your cheap, shitty engagement ring, throwing it out of the car window, and going for a long drive so you two can finally Talk.

Listen, this really got away from me, and I’m so sorry for flooding your inbox like this. I was just really caught up in the scenario, and wanted to share it with you. Much love 💖

[employee052]

kinda vent under the cut? idk

(prefacing this by the fact that this is made at around midnight my time, so this is probably just my brain being a stinker rn)

i hate how i just dont have many thoughts for tsp rn

its still my main fandom, i love it dearly, but i cant think of any story or thing to do with it rn, and its making me sad

i wish i had a unique narrator design thats elegant and unique and brings something new to the table

i wish i had a cool sprawling au that tells its own story thats based in tsp

i wish i could have an au with an amazing story that brings something new while also staying the same, the balance of new and old

i want to find that spike in brainrot for the game again, i want to do something with it

but my mind rn is just...

blank.

idk, it might just be the late night voices speaking, but im just worried that im not really bringing anything new.

i want to make a cool new au that tells this cool story with lore drops n plot events and whatnot

but my aus are simple n light mostly, out of bounds/fourth wall is self indulgent "hey what if they were taken to the real world", control group is just me sticking to the base game while also still doing the real world schtick of fourth wall

and outside of that... nothing.

i want to tell a story, i want to explore their characters again, to tug at heartstrings and to have people feel

idk. maybe im just feeling self conscious over having fourth wall as an au

n thats not even getting to how ive been feeling self conscious over my designs recently, with tk, curator, and lynne their designs feel unique enough that i feel okay with. but with my narry? with virgil??? i feel like the swoop isnt enough anymore. i feel like i need to do more with it but idk what or where or why

because i love my narry design so far, but meanie voice in my heads telling me that its too simple, that theres a dozen other narrator designs like mine that are 10x more cooler and unique and original than mine, n i feel bad bc i felt this issue last year, and its one of those things that doesnt seem like its going to leave me any time soon.

idk. im rambling rn

ill probably delete this later idk.

ty for reading ig if anyone does. gonna go sleep this train of thought out.

[unrequited-words]

6/19/24

Juneteeth

What pisses me off more than fucking ANYTHING . . .

When you go on social media, and all you've ever wanted in your life is to be included. This has to deal with his stepmom. She posted pictures of going to a water park/amusement park with all of the kids/cousins. I know we can't be invited to everything and I only get so much PTO off but they never fucking ASK us.

I received an email from work stating that the time I asked off is denied so I can do one of two things. I can wake up, work 3 hours and then go and get my step kids and spend 7 hours on the fucking road and have Sunday off to recuperate.

OR

Say, FUCK IT you have to drive, pick up your kids with the child we share while I work.

I should be getting more PTO in the next 2 weeks when I get paid again to replenish the time I have now off or have them take the points I received everyday by clocking in which is 200 I'm covered either way but I'm just like

WHAT.THE.FUCK.

He's recently been gaming with his best friend while I work and it's actually starting to really and I mean really piss me off. It's hard to hear customer at full volume with headphones trying to understand their order and how I can help them while he's gaming with his buddy and talking pretty loudly etc.

I had to go on mute today to shush him to basically say shut the fuck up and the weak ass bitch that I am apologized after and said sorry when I'm the only one working and the agreement was you watch our kid while I support family of five when sometimes it's usually a family of three.

It's really difficult when my daughter is almost four likes to scream and dance and jump when if I worked in the office it would be harder if I worked IN the office... I would never see my partner or my kid because I would spend the time commuting on a damn train and somehow walking to work and losing sleep so it's better that I work from home but working from home currently sucks and I shouldn't have to babysit a grown ass man and say could you tone it down a bit... So I can you I know, idk... maybe work?

What am I doing now? I am making dinner again. I might have another beer maybe I'm tired of having terrible and I mean terrible sleep

I'm tired that everything lies on my shoulders... bills, chores, dishes and laundry ... I asked him to vacuum last night which he was glad to do and he threw out his back and I felt like garbage because I know he's healing and he hurts... He threw out his back .. but I mean isn't that kind of in the job title of stay at home dad?

Some days, feel like I have another toddler. As soon as I get on break I ask him what can I do for you? What do you need? I also also make sure my kid is taken care of I also make sure she's fed, if she needs to go potty etc

I have zero and I mean zero FUCKING mom friends.

I have no female mom friends and this feels so and I mean so

FUCKING LONELY

I make too much money for state insurance... I cannot afford to go to the marketplace to insure myself and my kid when I'm not barely making rent were in a comfortable spot because of the dividend I got from work, and taxes but I also just spent $1,000 on parts for the car and his truck

When I want something like to get my feet done or to get my eyebrows done because he drives everywhere and I don't have a license it's hard for him and inconveniences him for. Aan hr or so for me ... I look like a dude

I'll probably delete this later because I have literally no one to bitch to

FUCK I NEED A VACATION and to be included

SO.BAD.

[nezu3kun]

little personal vent

i hold grudges for life usually and it's hard for me to let go of what's been done to me even if i've moved on. anyway so i'm thinking on this person i met recently (lasted for about a month and a half lol) who at first was so friendly and nice to me so instantly fell for the friendship lol. i always tell myself i won't write/draw for anybody cause i always get ghosted (has happened 3 times eheheee) but i did anyway... wrote a whole ass thing on their oc and made so many drawings only to be ghosted the month and a half later for a petty ass reason and they wouldn't even have told me if i hadn't gotten angry and pressed them about it.

so idk what to do with the drawings... i will probably delete them. i make a habit of not deleting anything because it's my hard work even if i dislike it, but fuck it man, i don't want that near me. they make me feel bad whenever i skim through the files.

they also did me dirty on so many other things but this is what fucks me up the most. me putting effort and time into something that in the end means nothing. i stopped drawing after that and what got me drawing again was renfield!

these past few weeks have really taken a toll on me but i want to resume drawing as much as i did soon.

and well i did meet some people here who are incredible and lovely and that's all i could wish for honestly!

[disheveledorganization]

intro

contacted a second divorce lawyer today. the first one never responded, so i'm hoping to at least hear back from this one.

i'm putting this post (and if any others i might make) under a cut because i don't want them reblogged and i don't want them saved if i should decided to delete them later on. hopefully that's a thing still.

i want to say that i'm not sure how my marriage got to this point, but i do know. communication breakdown! reaching out for connection and being rejected! lying! drinking! and the icing on that cake: financial infidelity.

my soon to be ex-husband has at minimum $15k in cc debt that i didn't know about, and probably more. like there's a strong possibility that he ran up some ccs (and then paid them off?) without me knowing. and to pile more shit on top of shit, he (his business - an s corp) owes the irs like $300k. i had a full blown panic attack when i found out. and i only found out because the irs sent a certified letter to the house. this has been going on for years and i had no idea. and i can't get a straight answer out of him. first he said the irs thing had been going on for 3 months, then he said 3 years.

we have children, pets, a house, and i haven't worked in more than a decade because i've been homeschooling our kids.

(please, before anyone says anything about homeschooling freaks, i have trans kids with autism, adhd, severe depression, among some minor physical issues that call for regular doctor appts out of town, so. public school would be a dumpster fire.)

i'm currently taking college courses in the hopes of some sort of career. no, idk how i'll homeschool my kids and work. but i'll figure it out. i have the support of my parents and sister. and an extended family who will be there for me. and my friends.

i've told him i want a divorce. he said he's been expecting it for 10 years. blew my mind. he said he wants me to keep homeschooling the kids. that he'll move out of the house. that he'll keep paying bills. but then he hasn't really talked to me about it since then. i'm hoping for a collaborative divorce where we work through it while keeping the kids our priority. i don't want this to get messy.

yes, i'm in therapy. i started going because of my severe anxiety and depression, but i'll continue seeing my therapist through this and beyond. yes, my kids are in therapy. i thought it might be good for them to form a relationship with a therapist before the shit hits the fan.

and, just to be clear, the $ isn't the only reason for this divorce. i've tried everything, even couples counseling, which he stopped attending. he started pulling away from me about 10 years ago, which is odd to think about when he says that's when he started expecting me to leave him. and he does things sometimes that just...... he lied and told my youngest that i'd taken his sister to the emergency room because she was much sicker than we originally thought (i'd taken her to cvs for cold meds). this was his idea of a joke. my child was frightened and shocked, and he insisted it was 'just a joke' over and over.

he is not physically abusive. i'm not afraid of him. and i honestly believe that he cares about and loves the kids. he's just emotionally stunted and refuses help.

this got long. hopefully any updates will be shorter.

[subliminalspecter]

mental health thoughts after the last reblog

you know, i wasn't sure if i should post this here, but i just reblogged a post related to it, so here we go. i still feel vulnerable posting these thoughts, so i still might delete this later. btw this is also kind of long. sorry.

note: i definitely feel like i'm probably over reacting to a lot of this, but do feel free to correct me on anything.

ANYWAY, okay, how do i start talking about this? i'm no fan of the DSM, but i've been doing research on something, and it lead up to doing research on psychotic disorders and disorders with psychotic features. back when i was in my teens, i was diagnosed with MDD "possibly with psychotic features" before i knew much about psychosis. i was told that my narcolepsy was causing the weird brain stuff that could be related to that because, well, it can cause psychotic-like symptoms. but anyway. i should get to the point.

during the time i got that psych exam, and during years surrounding it, i was dealing with catatonia (based on what a therapist said), hallucinations that really stressed me out (mostly episodic), and weird beliefs (the example i like to give is the time where i believed an imposter took over my partner's body because i've talked about it enough tor remember it, even with my shitty memory), and more. i would either have few-hour long episodes that happened when my BPD stuff was acting up or longer ones that were more more random (i think).

anyway, i don't really bring these experiences up to psychs because they usually change the subject or are like "you don't seem like someone who's psychotic." (reminds me of the psychiatrist that looked at "R/O BPD" on my exam results and was like, "you just don't seem like you have BPD. i can tell as soon as patients walk into my office!" and therefore didn't even look for it. (and then another psych, later on, said i fit the criteria, but whatever).

back to the point. it's been really hard to tell if what i'm experiencing is depression or negative symptoms. after upping certain medications, i don't think i've experienced the "depressed mood" symptom for a long time, which makes my psych nurse wonder if i'm even experiencing depression. (though i know that you don't need the "depressed mood" symptom to be in a depressive episode, so idk.) but one thing i've noticed is that the symptoms of depression i do experience are also negative symptoms. plus i experience negative symptoms that aren't criteria for depression. whatever these symptoms are have potentially taken over my life more than most things.

but one big detail is that i stopped experiencing positive symptoms (except for when i'm on weed). i was out of an episode for a few months (longer than usual), and then started an atypical antipsychotic, and now i haven't experienced them in years, whatever the reason is.

it could be the medication, but i don't think that usually makes positive symptoms... go away completely? i've also been researching residual psychotic disorders (or the "residual stage" of schizophrenia for example), which aren't in the DSM-5 (they were in the DSM-4, but i'd figure it's still a phenomenon), and i've only spent like 5-7 hours researching total, but it seems to... fit? but obviously there could be something i'm missing.

i'm not claiming i fit the criteria of anything i've been talking about. it really just makes me wonder how what's going on would be labeled. i hope i'm not too ridiculous for wondering about this.

[ranhaitanisgf]

nahoya kawata (smiley) & souta kawata (angry) meeting female delinquent twins: nahoya kawata [smiley] ending

[𖤐] i really hate how this turned out because i feel like this dialogue is ass, but oh well. gotta post something LMAO and also i'm too lazy to make a header so just take this idk man

part one

❧ masterlist

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the words that nahoya had spoken to you before you had entered the shop stuck with you for the rest of the night, and you weren’t exactly sure why that was. you could tell that you were pretty spaced out while you all were eating, but you couldn’t bring yourself to participate in the conversation when your thoughts were running wild.

your sister and yourself had never really had a lot of people close by to lean on who understood you, which is why you learned to rely on each other because you were the only ones who understood each other. this is why it came as a bit of a shock to you to learn that there was other people who could understand you, and vice versa.

he could understand me…

the dynamic that the kawata twins had was similar to the one that you had with your sister, so you weren’t sure why it was such a surprise to you that nahoya had been able to pick up on what you were thinking. perhaps it was because you weren’t used to having somebody else besides your sister be able to pick up on your mannerisms, (it was pretty amazing though how quickly nahoya had been able to tell though).

you were snapped out of your thoughts when your sister shook your shoulder, and although she had a gleeful expression on her face, you could tell from the small furrow between her brows that she was a bit concerned.

“huh?” suddenly, you realized that all three of them were looking at you; waiting for something.

“sorry, i wasn’t paying attention. what’s going on?” looking between all of their expressions, you knew that they could tell that something was up with you, and you internally sighed.

should’ve saved the thoughts for later…

“we’ve been here for twenty minutes and you haven’t taken a bite; are you feeling alright?” your sister asked in her cheery voice.

“i’m quite fine; excuse me for a moment.” you decided to ignore the somewhat worried expressions on their faces as you got up and made your way to the back entrance of the restaurant, deciding to take a breather in the alley. as soon as the door closed behind you, you sighed and sat down on the ground, not really caring if your clothing got dirty because of it.

because of the way you looked, everybody would assume that you were never in the mood to talk and would try to avoid you, since you always seemed to look depressed. instead, they would approach your sister because of her happy attitude, and of course you were happy that your sister had friends, but you had always wished that you could go out with friends of your own, instead of watching tv while (s/n) was out.

and yet, this person you had just met less than five hours ago seemed to understand you better than almost all of the people who had been your “friends” in the past.

it’s almost as if…

“so, what the hell’s been up with you?” the sudden voice from beside you made you look over, but you immediately looked away once you recognized the pink hair.

“nothing. i always look like this.” nahoya chuckled a bit at your reply, but you could tell it wasn’t a humorous type. he didn’t say anything for a minute or two, so you took a few peeks at him. the smile on his face was almost enchanting, and the way the faint light from the nearby street lights lit up his frame made you look away again in fear of staring too long.

you knew exactly what it feels like to have a crush on somebody, but somehow, this felt different, and it was the main reason your thoughts had started to overwhelm your brain while you were supposed to be eating. but in this moment, you had figured out the answer that you had been looking for.

you were starting to fall in love, and you needed it to stop right now.

“you have some guts trying to get away with that one. you and i both know that something’s up, so hurry it the hell up and spit it out.” his words might have been harsh, but the undertone to them was comforting to you in a way, and besides, the harshness was probably what was going to get you to spill in the end.

you weren’t even sure what to say in response; there was no way you were just going to outright say that you were feeling conflicted because you think you might be falling in love with him, but what other excuse could you give.

you hadn’t even really noticed it, but small streams of tears had started flow down from your eyes, making your blank expression a lot sadder, (which made it seem more you you supposed).

it wasn’t really like you were sad or anything...hell, you didn’t even know what it was you were feeling at the moment. you had never felt like this before, so it was safe to say that your confusion was a lot for you to handle.

without even saying anything, you could feel his hand push your head onto his shoulder. you were pretty surprised; what was he doing? you could feel your heartbeat quickening, and you could only pray that the boy beside you couldn’t hear it.

“y’know, you’re a pretty interesting one. let’s hang out this weekend.” looking up at him through your lashes, you could see the bright grin on his face, but it was actually genuine.

does he actually want to hang out with me?

“(y/n).” the sudden seriousness in his voice made you freeze for a moment, and the smile that was on his face a moment before was completely gone. there hadn’t been one moment in that day where you had seen him let the corners of his lips down, (and you had never heard of it happening either) so you couldn’t help it when the usual blank and sad expression on your face changed.

“you’re easy to read; don’t think i haven’t figured out what it is that you’ve been thinking about. so, let’s hangout this weekend.” you didn’t even know what to say, so you just nodded and moved a bit closer to him with a small blush painted across your cheeks.

maybe you had found someone who could understand who you truly were.

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maybe I'll delete this and redo it tomorrow idk man this is why I write headcanons LMAO

[woulddieforperrytheplatypus]

For whatever reason, I was thinking about Zootopia's deleted scenes and scrapped concepts, and that lead me to an AU idea. A lot of this is copy-and-pasted from a few webpages I've found on the subject to explain it as best as I can, with some creative liberties of course:

Whether this is OWCA's doing, villains have taken over OWCA, or some combination of both, agents are required (and by required, I mean forced) to wear mandatory collars to keep them in line by administering an electric shock when their emotions run high. It has a light that changes color depending on the wearer's emotional state: green meaning calm and/or relaxed, yellow (the warning color) when they are agitated, and red (the color that initiates the shock) when they are too overly emotional. Any extreme emotion will trigger the collar, basically forcing agents to suppress their emotions as much as possible, for fear of punishment.

Because I love involving him in things, Coby is obviously aware that the collars are universally hated by their hosts and runs a secret, borderline-illegal indoor sanctuary which is also an amusement park where many games, activities and attractions are held and operated using the scraps of his and Perry's owners' many inventions, only learned about by others through word of mouth. To keep it hidden, the club is deep underground, even below Perry's lair, where agents are able to be themselves and have their collars removed for the duration of their visit, allowed to be given a chance at freedom to roam and experience a taste of the wild life without the restrictions of their collars.

Oh, and drama with Perry ensues. If anyone else wants to add, feel free to give it a shot!

Wait omg this has been sitting in my inbox for months and I don't think I've ever actually finished reading it before and i just fkldshajfkhadsk

Okay, first of all: Coby the Capybara masterlist for anyone who doesn't remember him

Secondly...

This is such a cool idea holy shiiiit 0_0

I love that Coby put this all together himself (because if there's drama with Perry, I'm assuming Perry wasn't in on this from the beginning). He's just a lil capybara; he's presumably not an engineering genius. He must have put so much effort into learning how to make all of this and figuring out how to get all the materials he needed without raising any eyebrows.

Can we talk about how gutsy it was for him to literally build it under their backyard? And under Perry's lair? He absolutely would do that because he's a little shit who likes taking risks, but damn the lil dude's gotta use his brain sometimes.

I can already picture Perry following the collar rule to the letter. He learns to train his emotions to keep the collar green at all times. Hell, even in potentially life-or-death situations, it stays green; OWCA eventually takes a look at it to make sure it's working properly. Perry hates it as much as the rest of the agents, but he'll be damned if he's going to break the rules.

I'd like to think that Perry finds out about it by literally walking in there himself. Maybe someone tipped him off because they didn't get the memo that he was not, under any circumstances, to know that this place exists. Maybe he saw someone sneak in and got curious. Maybe they were just too goddamn loud. Whatever the case may be, he walks in to check it out and everything just goes dead silent. Everyone's always been wary around Perry (as we see a few times in the show), but this is even worse than running into him on a normal day. Perry is a well-known rule follower and OWCA's best agent, and quite literally every single person in this park is breaking the law.

Perry just walks around, not looking at anybody but acutely aware of the fact that they're all looking at him, until he finds Coby. Coby has to awkwardly tell everyone to go home and that he'll update them later (he doesn't want to flat-out say that this will be up and running again as soon as he can do it without Perry being on his ass 24/7, but that's probably what he's planning), and then he and Perry have a very intense conversation.

Coby's luck that the collars are so shitty that even Perry hates them, because it's hard for Perry to defend them when they have literally zero redeeming qualities. Maybe Coby strikes a deal with him that if he hangs out here for the night without his collar and he still decides the OWCA agents should be treated like your average, everyday animal, Coby will shut it down. He has no plans to make good on that promise -- he'll probably just move the whole operation and start again -- but Perry doesn't need to know that.

Naturally, it is enough to convince Perry that the sanctuary is okay, but Perry is never coming back. If they want to put their asses on the line, that's their choice, but he's not going to do the same.

Idk which idea I like more: that Perry does eventually warm up to the idea of a sanctuary from OWCA's harsh rule and starts spending his evenings with them, or that he keeps his word and stays away until OWCA finds out about it. They'd want to punish Coby to the fullest extent of the law to make an example out of him, and even though Perry literally told him that this was going to happen and he was cool with it, Perry can't just sit back and watch it happen. Coby was gone for one (1) day and Phineas and Ferb were already freaking out. He would hate to see how the boys would react if Coby never came back. (Also maybe he kinda likes Coby but he's not gonna admit it.)

If anyone could organize a successful revolution, it would be Perry. He would gather every single agent he could think of that would be willing to fight for freedom -- both Coby's freedom from OWCA's holding cell and their own freedom from their collars -- and together, they could absolutely take OWCA down. The agents still have jobs, though, and they kinda need OWCA around for that, so Perry and Coby would have to team up to get OWCA working again -- in a better way -- to keep the evil scientists at bay, and god only knows how them working together to make the rules would go 💀

[epcot-anthony]

ok since I need to invest my time in something Janthony other than the Anthony scandal because it’s still causing me anxiety here’s some reasons why and why not I think Jasmine is pregnant

Reasons why

new wardrobe that is noticeably looser than her previous clothes that she’s just now started wearing

^^^the above is significant because while she didn’t wear loose clothes very soon after coming back from budapest it’s rather recent. and if we’re going off of emmy’s night she’d be a little over 3 months pregnant (or 12 weeks) and on average first time moms usually start to show between 12-16 weeks. however I would guess she’ll start showing showing second tri if/when she’s pregnant mostly because if her height and body type

they’ve been providing less content and if u look closely almost every single picture she has posted in the past month has had something covering her midsection or the picture has been taken from the waist up. the exceptions including the beach pictures (in which she’s wearing noticeably looser clothing than she has in the past.) Looking at the pictures of her in the blind spotting pictures (where she has the braids i don’t remember what they’re called i’m sorry) her whole body is pictures BUT if you’ve seen meghan trainers pregnancy reveal she was 7 1/2 weeks pregnant and no one knew until her reveal because of the angles and clothes she used to hide it. (check her instagram or tiktok to see) so it’s possible to hide a pregnancy from the front, especially when you’re curvy which they both are.

Reasons why not:

realistically if she were to be pregnant I honestly doubt it would be from emmy’s night. mostly because they were both obviously exhausted, emotional and I can’t imagine the chances of them getting pregnant from that one encounter are very high

it’s always possible that she’s been pregnant for a shorter amount of time or even a little longer. but probably not by much since if it was much longer she likely would have been showing when she did her online concert (maybe i don’t know much about pregnant women or pregnancy in general.)

In the live with Jaylen she’s wearing a pretty usual outfit (the yellow crop top and black jeans) and we see a pretty clear side view with no noticeable bump, again though it’s possible this happened later than emmy night (if it’s happened at all) so she could be only a month or so and be buying loose clothes now so people don’t get suspicious later on

Thé consensus: I’d say it’s about a 75/25 or 80/20 chance that she’s pregnant. the deleting of that one black and white post was odd, and the change in wardrobe definitely makes me wonder buts it’s also possible she just wanted to try something new

Omg an entire analysis! All of these are wonderful points!! I may be wrong, but wouldn’t it be a bit more than 3 months if it was a Budapest baby? Maybe 4? Idk this month has also felt so long so I may just be confused lol. But I will say that an Emmys night baby isnt as possible, but I don’t agree that it’s impossible (like, that they weren’t doing anything). She left the next day I think, so I think *something* probablyyy at least occurred that day because they were about to be long distance for so long. But it is a good point that it would be very random for it to happen really at all right now. Very good points though!! We love an analysis!

[ahumansvoid]

The unofficial Follow up

Tumblr is a fucking nightmare. It deleted this entire thing when I edited the fucking tags.

Anywho.  This is a follow up to Commander Fox Deal With A lot which itself is a follow up to my Interviews fic. 

I call it unofficial because a) I’m not sure if this is really how it’ll go within the Interviews Universe and b) If this happens in the Interviews Universe, it’d be after the Anakin follow up (That I am still writing, Anakin doesn’t like me okay? He’s a dama bitch whenever I try) Hence I’m not putting it up on AO3 right now.

But I still want to share it because idk how long the Anakin follow up is gonna take and I like what I wrote. And am rewriting this verbatim because someone reblogged this so thank you because I didn’t want to figure out what the fuck I wrote up here.

Also, if you don’t want to read those two fics but want to try this one out, all you really need to know is that the Coruscant Guard has become a Daycare. Other than that, this is a pretty independent work.

Now Idk what I wrote down here so bear with me if you’re rereading this after April 4th because this has some slight changes I’m sure. Also. I edited the thing here so, let’s hope I remember my edits.

Characters: Commander Fox, Clone OCs

Words: 870 (or somewhere around there)

Warnings: Mentioned Character Death.

Mando’a translations:

Vod -> Brother

Di’kut -> idiot (lit. someone who forgets to put on their pants)

Utreekov -> idiot, fool, emptyheaded

Gar mirsh solus* -> your brain cell is lonely

Jorbe** -> Reason

Ade -> child

*The one on Mandoa.org is actually Kaysh mirsh solus (His brain cell is lonely) but Gar means your and I figured it’d work. Let me know if it doesn’t.

**Yes I named a clone ‘Reason’ in Mandoa. Take a guess at what’s notable about him.

Now the story

“Explain. Now.” Fox really wanted to know what Ink and Hive were thinking. 

Both troopers shuffle a bit, glancing at each other, before Hive starts talking, “So, the safety lady came by to check if our base was safe for kids because the Chancellor wanted to be certain. We knew it would be so we didn’t care, but it wasn’t. The lady gave us a day to clean up before she came back to ascertain it was safe. It is now. But there were dangerous things in reach of the kids that no vod would leave out. So, Ink and I went through the security footage to see what di’kut was leaving dangerous shit around.” 

Ink takes over the story, “It was one of the Chancellors aids. She had come down and put dangerous stuff in easily accessible areas for children. It was deliberate. So,” Ink shrugs, “we bugged the Chancellors office and set up hidden cameras. We needed to know if he was telling her to or if she just really hated kids.”

Hive cuts in, “While we recorded everything, we set it up so it only triggered our comms when she went into his office. And when she did, we got this recording,” Hive holds out a holorecorder and turns it on. An image of the Chancellor and one of his aids came to life, paused for a second before Hive played it.

”And?” The Chancellor prompts.

“I set up everything you told me to. Their daycare will be shut down before the days out.” The aid states.

“Good. Leave.” With that, the aid leaves the office. 

And the recording stops. 

This still does not explain the actions those two had taken. Fox looked at both for more of an explanation.

Hive speaks up first, “We went through the recordings later and found him in an upset over the daycare not being shut down. I don’t have it on me but he was talking about maybe sending a bounty hunter to attack the base. Make it unfit for kids. We couldn’t let that stand, vod.”

Fox sighs heavily, “Let me make this clear. You two assassinated the Supreme Chancellor of the Galactic Republic because he threatened our base and daycare?” Fox really wanted to make sure he was hearing this correctly.

“He debated to himself on whether to attack the base when the kids were here!” Ink protests.

Which, while a good point, changes little. 

Fox groans, “You two are true utreekov. Seriously, gar mirsh solus.”

Both troopers were silent, but were clearly upset with the insults. But not fighting them.

First smart action from both of them. 

Would it of killed them to go through more of their recordings from the Chancellors office?

Fox and Jorbe had gone through it and found some rather damning footage.

Fox pulls out his own holorecorder and played a clip that Ink and Hive’s bugs and cameras had picked up.

Chancellors Palpatine stands up from his desk and goes over to a holocaller, pulling on a robe and pulling the hood up to hide his face. After pressing the call button, Count Yan Dooku appears. 

“Lord Sidious how might I be of service?” Count Dooku asks.

The Chancellor answers, “There will be a Jedi battalion lead by Master Gallia at Bo’lim. Win the system, she will not be able to call in reinforcements.”

Count Dooku bows, “Of course, Master.” with that, the holocall cuts out.

Fox shuts off the holorecorder and levels the pair of troopers with a Look.

“Did General Gallia-”

“I requisitioned reinforcements and changed certain travel plans for other battalions so she’d have backup.” Fox states, it had been one of the first things he’d done upon hearing that, “Now, please explain why you assassinated our Chancellor who was a Sith Lord and working with the enemy?” Fox’s voice was hard. He wanted these two to get with the program. They weren’t. He was not happy.

He rarely was. But that was beside the point.

“We assassinated him because he threatened our ade.” Ink states.

Fox sighs again. Seriously?

“You two are fucking morons.”

“Are we in trouble?” Hive asks.

“Yes you two are in deep trouble for assassinating our Supreme Chancellor who was committing treason against the Galactic Republic.” Fox was pretty sure his sarcasm wasn’t coming through his anger, but he really didn’t care. “The fuck do you think?”

Hive’s answer was hesitant, “No?”

Fox sighs heavily, “You’re both on latrine duty. Get out of my office.” 

It wasn’t really a punishment. Not the one they should have gotten for assasinating the Supreme Chancellor.

But Palpatine had been a traitor to the republic. Jorbe was leaking the illegal footage, making sure it had no connection to the Guard.  

Soon everyone would know the Chancellor was a traitor.

And a Sith Lord.

Fox probably should of punished Ink and Hive harder.

 If anyone found out it had been them and all they got was latrine duty?

Fox would be decommissioned with them. 

But he couldn’t bring himself to punish them more.

The Chancellor was a Traitor to the Republic Fox was sworn to protect.

Also.

Fox really hated the man.

[5sosbitchfest]

Reactions to Luke’s IG Story 6/14/2020

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: I hate her as much as the next person but bi people in straight relationships are still bi

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: I call bullshit on Messy being bi. Sorry, if she was bi, why didn't she come out earlier? Her 'haters'? Where? Also, Luke needs to learn the difference between supporting Pride and celebrating it while PR dating a fake ass 'bi' woman.

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: I also don’t think it’s fair to say Sierra has never been in a same sex relationship we really don’t know who she’s dated. This is a big problem in the LGBT community, when a bi woman is in a relationship with a man her bi identity gets erased. Halsey has actually talked about this a lot. While I agree that Lierra is not a queer couple, that does not erase Sierra’s identity as a queer woman, and pride is absolutely still for her to celebrate too 🌈

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: *i understand that it was Luke’s post but obviously she had input to post it.

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: Does Messy’s journey of her sexuality excuse her transphobia? Bc I don’t think so. She sure is selective about who and what she celebrates then. She posted that picture for attention, like everything else she does. It sounds harsh and if she wants to share her journey then great but let’s recognize and call it out for what it is. She doesn’t need to have Luke in a post to talk about her sexuality. Happy Pride Month to that person she purposely misgendered and attempted to invalidate.

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: It’s not about disliking Sierra anon. She has only officially came out in a reply on twitter that she later deleted. That’s the only time it’s been mentioned. People struggle to come out and she tweeted and deleted it as if she actually wasn’t saying it. And now her boyfriend is the one essentially coming out for her? That’s what the issue is anon she has never openly said she was bisexual and now that it’s pride month she is? This is just the first time it’s being brought up& it wasn’t even her

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: I don’t care that Luke posted good on him but him posting something for pride halfway through the month makes the other boys look inconsiderate for not posting anything

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: I'm the anon that said the thing about "lets not make this into a mikey situation" I agree that it was a complete distraction tactic, and I also can not stand Sierra I was just trying saying that even with those two things in mind the post isnt harming anyone and so we shouldn't get mad at luke for making it.

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: I hate to admit it but I don't see Lierra ending anywhere near soon. Yes, couples don't last forever and still I don't think they will but let's be honest, he cares about her. Idk how things are in their life, and I hope he's happy, but I think she will stay around for this year and maybe a bit of 2021. 🙄

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: Okey but was the "biracial" necessary? It made me cringe...

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: I know luke can be cringy when it comes to Sierra but cmon haven’t we learn by now all the cringy stuff if from Sierra being on his account lol

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: Sierra wrote that ... no caps, her grammar, fave chosen emojis etc totes her 10000000000% although glad acknowledging bisexual biracial but Angel? Angel by day and to stans but I thought she was the “late night devil”

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: Something about Luke’s ig story doesn’t sit well with me... the fact that he felt the need to state that she’s biracial and bisexual just makes it look like he’s treating her like some kind of a trophy to show off, idk it just doesn’t feel right

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: Why do L and S feel the need to make everything about S? This isn't about you, so shut up and actually get a job.

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: “beautiful bisexual biracial angel” i’m gagging and laughing so hard yeah he 100% wrote and posted that himself /sarcasm

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: I love luke and I'm happy if he's happy but the way Sierra clings to him in that photo is so gross. It really just feels like she's using him to do her dirty work. Like that post didnt feel genuine at all and it really seems like luke isnt even trying to convince us anymore he just does the bare minimum to make her happy. I dont blame him tho. Just feels icky.

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: As a straight person, I hate straight couples and hope to never be cringe.

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: I'm sorry but that Instagram story that luke posted talking about his "beautiful bisexual biracial angel🥰🥺" does NOT (capitalize, underline and bold) sound like how luke would type something. The first part where he talks about how far we have to go sounds like him but not that that part.. not even close. Want to bet either sierra typed it, gave him the idea to say that OR did both cause we know she monitors him like crazy

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: "Bisexual biracial" is so unnecesarry. Luke, hon, shut up. People are out here fighting for their rights, and you feel the need and have the audacity to make it about your crazy ass girlfriend? Don't get me wrong, I love the boys, but making every fcking thing about your girlfriend-particularly luke- is not the point of these movements. So stfu Luke, stfu Sierra, stop making everything about S. That pisses me off, sorry I just needed to rant somewhere.

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: is it just me or does the whole “beautiful bisexual biracial angel” not sound like him or something he’d say??? idk I’m kinda new to the fandom but it felt cringey reading that come from him

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: Did you see what luke posted on his story? Seems him and Sierra are getting along great, smh. Also she's confirmed bi as well I guess. That's cool. Hope she doesnt use it as a weapon to defend criticism tho. Also did luke redo his hair cuz it seems very white again. Idk. Seems fishy. What are your thoughts? Do you think he was told to post that to distract from mike?

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: just when I was starting to forgive luke for his “response” to messy’s MESS, he goes and posts this... I’m TIRED

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: ok but as a lesbian it makes me sooo happy that Luke is celebrating pride and he's supportive of her sexuality 🥺 men never take bisexuality seriously and I love that he respects that. YET as someone who doesn't like s I'm like why....... like this week has been so frustrating and we were all like "they don't defend m bc they're in a sm break" and now he comes to post this and doesn't say anything? i just :(

allisonscarlett said to 5sosbitchfest: Honestly pride month came just in time cause I remember some stans saying that sierra is probably not bisexual and now there's luke insta story. I'm not trying to erase anyone's sexual orientation, I'm bisexual myself and I've found it weird that in the past years sierra didn't anything about her sexuality during pride month (and don't remember when she tweeted about being bi but I don't thing that it was in during pride month)

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: is anyone else getting"i can't be racist/homophobic because my gf is biracial and bisexual" vibes from lukes ig story or is it just me??? does he know he's digging a hole???

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: should we assume luke posted that in response to the insiders muke information? interesting timing on his part

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: I honestly can't stand Luke rn. Angel? Angel???? ANGELLL????????????

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: Okay but I don't think that counts as a "a straight couple thinking pride is theirs to celebrate". Just cause Sierra is in a straight relationship doesn't take away from the fact that she's bi, or mean she can't celebrate pride. And I think Luke wishing her and everyone a happy pride is actually a really supportive thing for him and again doesn't really count as a straight person thinking pride is theirs to celebrate, because he's focusing on her, not himself.

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: “my beautiful biracial angel” i hate it here

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: Gonna say something to MAYBE make some people happy. That picture was taken at a PROTEST. So they probably aren't together 😂😂 they were just together for the protest

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: The biracial part of his story post is feeding into him being a king for dating a mixed person

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: ok luke did look very cute tho

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: Every single time there’s any drama in the fandom, a new “cute” picture pops up and some people really think that’s goals? Like in what world is now the time for that kind of post, if it isn’t a direct pr response to the twitter mess of the past few days? Smh they’re not even trying to be subtle anymore

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: i think it’s fine for straight couples to go to and celebrate pride when one of them or both of them aren’t straight.

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: I was reading this blog a few hours ago and I read a post where someone said that everyone basically assumed sierra was bi bc of a comment and now Luke comes out calling her "bisexual" as if he was confirming it...Idk felt weird lol

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest:  Bisexual biracial angel😭😭 who made him write that and thought people will take it seriously

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: have you seen luke’s story? “especially to my bisexual biracial girlfriend” i fucking CACKLED like is it how she’s supposed to be known for?

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: thank you luke for that ig post for it will keep messy ass kissers away from m mentions for a while

Anonymous said to 5sosbitchfest: Funny how you just brought up everyone saying that Sierra was bi just cause she said she loved men and woman and woopty do guess what luke put on his insta story. “My beautiful bisexual biracial gf” Luke I love you but 🤢

[ayellowcurtain]

can you write one for elu where lucas sees some series of suspicious texts in eliott's phone and seriously thinks eliott is cheating on him (bc the texts are kinda obvious) which turns to him being kind of paranoid for a while (not long) and finding more "proofs" so finally he confronts eliott. crying and ofc eliott finds it ridiculous cause lucas is his everything.but it was actually idk just a classmate of eliott's texting their bf/gf from eliotts phone bc of some reason

can you write something april fools related? like prank goes wrong kinda thing? i mean i dont think any of them would make a break up prank but maybe they thought the other wouldnt take it seriously since its ridiculous for them to break up but then it gets a bit serious and sad but they're happy at the end ofc. 

Could you write something with maybe Lucas overhearing some girls saying how hot Eliott is and him getting all jealous and territorial

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Lucas loves Mika, but he doesn’t trust him completely. Sometimes he doesn’t think about consequences or doesn’t take things seriously. 

He needed some company to go out tonight. Apparently he had a bad couple of dates and needed to forget about it tonight, but everyone already had plans and Lucas and Eliott were his last hope. Lucas agreed to it last night when Mika texted him, but now he’s not in the mood, too tired after a long day. 

Eliott is excited to go out, so Lucas tells him to go with Mika and he will stay home, go to bed early if he can. 

Eliott checks with him a few times while getting ready to see if Lucas haven’t changed his mind. He gives Eliott a long, passionate kiss before he lets him go meet Mika. He smiles to Lucas and says he’ll be home soon. 

Lucas is relieved to be alone tonight. He woke up in a bad mood and had a stressful day at school, that’s probably why he and eliott were also in a weird funk, so it’s nice to he at the comfort of his house in complete silence. He takes a long shower, puts his and Eliott’s clothes to wash, etc.

While cooking something later, he puts some classical rock to listen to, looks around when he’s back to the bedroom, looking at their beautiful, comfortable, tiny oasis. Since he got his room back, he and Eliott redecorated (with Manon’s help) everything, bought some plants to hang on the ceiling next to the window, changed the beddings, donated some clothes so both their closets could fit into one. 

It feels cozy, warm, safe, a little bit like a jungle. 

Lucas already chose a movie to watch, crawling underneath the covers. Before he can press play, he decides to check his messages. Nothing yet. 

Don’t be a babysitter. He knows how to handle himself.

He presses play, adjusting his pillow. It’s not the best movie, but it’s not a waste of time either. He puts another one right after, an action movie to keep him awake. 4 a.m and the second one is over. Lucas had to fight to not fall asleep during this one, so he turns his notebook off, putting it on the table. 

Ok, his time alone could be over already if it was his choice, he misses Eliott and having his big, warm body to cuddle before falling asleep. But Lucas is happy that he’s out, having fun. He turns off his lamp, checking his phone and there’s some messages, all from Mika.

Mika sent him a bunch of photos. They’re apparently in a photo booth with a bunch of other guys and two girls. Eliott has his arm around some guy’s shoulders, seeming to fit it perfectly with the group, he’s really out going when he wants to so it’s not a surprise to Lucas how well he fits with Mika’s friends. The jealous side of Lucas doesn’t like how close the guy is to Eliott, but there’s nothing going on, it’s just him being possessive. And the other guy seems very young, younger than Lucas. 

The last picture ruins his entire night in a second, making him jolt on his bed, sitting and opening the picture, zooming in. His boyfriend with his wet, flat tongue out and the guy is really close, nearly sucking his boyfriend’s tongue. 

Mika posted something on instagram, tagging Lucas in it. He opens the notification and it takes him to the post. It’s a close up of that photo, only showing Eliott and that kid that he has his arm around, tagging Lucas and Eliott on Eliott’s tongue. 

As he freezes, looking at the photo again, he can see comments coming it, a bunch of guys and some girls asking who the guy in the picture is, someone already answering with Eliott’s instagram. Lucas’ vision is blurred, he’s trying hard not to cry or to freak out. 

This is what Lucille was talking about. 

He tries to racionalize but somedays it feels too much and he just needs to shove some sense into Eliott. Lucas types and sends his answer to all the thirsty people. 

He’s taken. 

A minute later Mika deletes the photo. Lucas suddenly feels sleepless. getting up from his bed and leaving his phone behind, rubbing his eyes with the palm of his hands, cleaning his face with his shirt afterwards. 

Lucas was naive to think he would be enough for Eliott and that things would be different from what they were with Lucille. Maybe he got it all wrong and Eliott is happier when single or when he’s able to have whoever he wants, whenever he wants to. 

And Lucas can’t do that, he’s too jealous and too insecure to be in an open relationship. He can’t seem to stop crying, a blue light enlightens his room, Eliott is calling but Lucas doesn’t answer, too riled up, he would probably say things he would regret. 

He doesn’t know what to do, would much rather not have to see Eliott or Mika again any time soon, but it’s the middle of the night, he can’t just leave. Where he would go? Manon is not home, Yann is probably sleeping and he wouldn’t have the courage to bother anyone else with his relationship drama. 

So he lets his feelings take over again, sitting on the floor, hiding his face on his hands. He can feel his heart shattering and once he cried everything he could, his walls start to build around him again.

Lucas feels tired, his body aching from crying for way too long. It’s just a stupid picture! He gets up from the floor, hoping to throw himself in bed and fall asleep for days, lock himself from the outside world. 

But before he can reach his bed, he hears loud voices. Eliott and Mika are back. Mika is screaming his name and Lucas feels like punching him, not looking at his face ever again. They both barge in to the bedroom, Mika calling for Lucas again, almost running into him, standing in the middle of his room. 

“Lucas!! Hi, baby!” He tries to hug him, but Lucas steps back. Eliott looks wasted and full of guilt and Lucas feels like punching him too. 

“Can you leave me alone?” He has to gather all his strength to form a single question, Eliott takes a step forward, in front of Mika. 

“Lucas...”

“Can you leave me alone?” He raises his voice, stepping forward too, ready to throw both of them out of his bedroom. 

“It was a joke!! Nothing happened!” Mika explains loudly, laughing but he’s the only one. 

“I DON`T GIVE A SHIT, MIKA!” 

Eliott takes another step forward, putting a hand on Lucas’ chest, kind of trying to calm him down, kind of trying to stop him from getting closer to Mika. 

“Nothing happened, Lucas. I swear...” 

“It was more than fucking enough, Eliott!” He nearly screams again, looking at the boy in front of him, trying not to cry again. “You’re such a fucking idiot!” 

Lucas can feel Eliott’s hand shaking on his chest but he can’t bring himself to care now. 

“We are done, Eliott. I can’t do this.”

“No, no, no, we’re not done, Lucas.”

“Yes, we fucking are.” He means it, says every word looking into Eliott’s perfect eyes. 

“Baby, we were just kidding, trying to make my friends’ boyfriend jealous.” Mika doesn’t seem to realize the seriousness of the situation, Eliott ignores him completely, freaking out inside, thinking that he’ll loose the man of his life because of a stupid joke. 

“Yeah, it worked out perfectly, didn’t it?” Lucas looks at him and Eliott can’t have this anymore, he needs to talk to Lucas, so he turns around, trying to walk Mika out of the room. 

“Get out, Mika, now. We need to talk.” 

“We don’t have anything to talk about, Eliott.” Lucas answers, but he ignores, closing the door as soon as Mika is out, locking the door. 

“We do, I won’t let you break up with me over some shit like that.” 

“It’s not “some shit”. You kissed someone else, posted all over the fucking internet and expect me to be fine with it?” 

“I didn’t kiss him, Lucas!!! I swear! Nothing happened. It was a stupid photo and as soon as I saw it I asked Mika to delete it.” 

“So if Mika hadn’t posted it, I would have never known, even better.” 

“No, that’s not it! He sent all the pictures to you!” 

Lucas can’t hold back the tears, he’s so angry he can’t even think straight.

“I hate you so much right now, Eliott!” 

Eliott is holding back his tears, desperate, holding Lucas’ face and trying to kiss him, put some sense back into his head, show him what they have and how Lucas doesn’t hate him but he pushes Eliott’s hands off of his face. 

“Please, Lucas, I’m sorry. I didn’t know you would get this upset.”

“I don’t care right now. I’m going to bed.” 

“Ok...” Eliott doesn’t seem to understand, going around the bed to his side. 

“No, you’re not sleeping here. Go cuddle Mika for all I care, I don’t want you here.” 

Lucas is a lot shorter, but he doesn’t act like it, pushing Eliott out of his room. The other one is still in shock (and too drunk) to fight back, when Lucas finally stops pushing him, he tries to turn around and stop him, but it’s too late, Lucas slammed the door on his face and he can hear him locking it from inside. 

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[MAFIA!ATEEZ] P.SH - Rouge Blade

# of Words: 1568 [About 1.5k Words]

Summary: When someone threatens his love, the blade that was once silver goes rouge.

Warnings: Mentions of Killing, Blood, Cursing

Note: Idk what happened but all of a sudden the whole thing deleted so this is a repost! But this is my first fic on tumblr and I hope you enjoy reading! @chasingatinydream and @parkseonghwa i told you both about this and i’m sorry lolol

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Hwaseong [13:48] || babe, where are you? you’ve been out for five hours.

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“What the hell? She left me on read.” Seonghwa muttered under his breath.

A quiet voice spoke up, “Who hyung?”

“[Y/n].”

Yeosang tilted his head in confusion, “Maybe she’s busy?” The female next to him shook her head, “My bestie is never busy for Seonghwa. She always answers him.” He nodded, “Yeosang, Jaerin, could you check her location? She has a tracker on her phone.”

“Yes sir,” Jaerin bowed then turned towards Yeosang, “Let’s go.”

The two left Seonghwa’s office and he seemed calm, but really he was just waiting to scream.

Smash!

He threw all of his stuff off of his desk and broke a wine cup that was also on his desk.

His fingers ran through his hair in frustration as he sat in his leather seat.

“Where the hell are you [Y/n]?”  He thought to himself as he closed his right hand into a fist tightly.

His fist quickly started turning white without him realizing before someone knocked on the door.

“Who is it?” He asked through gritted teeth.

“Hongjoong, Sir.” The person behind the door said, “Someone said they-” Seonghwa automatically got up and opened the door, “Someone said?” “Stray Kids… They have [Y/n].” He simply said, Hongjoong was shaking inside in fear of what Seonghwa would do.

Seonghwa growled and grabbed his knife and gun before stepping out of his office and going straight to Yeosang and Jaerin’s sector, which had all the weapons, computers, and data in it.

The door of the sector suddenly opened and Jaerin jumped out of fear.

“You two. Call Mingi and Yunho and get a weapons car ready for them. Hongjoong got a call from some idiots who have my girl.”

“Y-Yes sir!” Jaerin answered and went straight to work to follow Seonghwa’s commands.

“What about you though hyung?” Yeosang asked as he turned around in his dark swivel chair.

“Mingi and Yunho will follow me. They know where to go.” He said as he slammed the door shut and ran out to his car.

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You only saw darkness. You couldn’t tell where you were.

All you heard was blades being sharpened and guns being loaded.

“I can’t believe Seonghwa was able to get an innocent girl like her into his hands.” Someone chuckled, “It’s incredible how she even got together with him.” “I agree sir. [L/n] [Y/n], no criminal record, going to medical school, good grades, and everyone knows her as a nice soul.” Another spoke, “Too bad we have to use her as bait.”

You were so nervous and scared. Who was out there? Where were you? Why were you being used as bait? You tugged at the ropes that held you to a chair, desperate to get up.

You then felt someone touch your shoulder and you flinched.

“Ah. Good morning Princess. How was your nap?” The person said.

The voice was a male’s voice and his touch was gentle, unlike his way of speech.

He pulled of the cloth that blocked your sight and you saw a man with light brown hair and dark brown eyes in front of you. A gun was on the right side of his hip and a blade was on the other side.

“The name is Lee Minho, dear. It’s so nice to meet you, but I’m sorry it’s under these circumstances.”  He said as he motioned to another man who was cleaning weapons, “That’s Seo Changbin. He’ll be making sure your prince is dead when he arrives for you.”

You were speechless. Seonghwa must be already on his way because of how long you haven’t talked to him.

“Bin. Is your gun ready?” Minho asked with a smirk as he stared at you in the eye, a glint of darkness showing.

“Yes sir.” The male responded, “I’m ready to kill him.” “Wonderful!” He exclaimed and twirled your hair with his finger, “You get to see Park Seonghwa die in front of you! Isn’t that amazing?” Your eyes widened and you mustered up all the courage you had, “N-No! D-Don’t hurt him!” “Now my princess talks~” The nickname sounds disgusting as he says it, “Oh we’ll hurt him alright. He’ll most probably be begging for us to end his suffering once we’re done.”

You glared at him as he spoke. Seonghwa was strong and you knew it. He would be okay. He would be able to save you. He would be able to beat these gang members.

You looked around the room for something that could help you get out but you couldn’t see anything other than the knife that was on the left side of Minho.

Your arms were still tied up and you couldn’t figure out anymore ways to get out of the ties that held you to a metal chair.

“Princess, call Seonghwa for us?” Minho asked with a smirk, “We just need to make sure he knows that we have you..” “N-No! I’m not going to! You’re going to-” You stopped as Minho brought out his blade.

“What was that?” He asked as he gently slid the blade on the side of your neck, “Did I give you a choice?”

Changbin walked up to the both of you with your phone in his hand, the phone already calling Seonghwa.

“[Y/n]? Baby, is that you?” “Seonghwa!” You cried out as you heard his voice finally, “H-Help me!” “Aww.. Look how desperate she is for her Prince~” Minho chuckled, “It’s disgusting.” “YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE, LEE KNOW!” Seonghwa shouted on the phone.

You could hear the car speeding up in the call and you knew he already knew your location.

Minho sighed, “Stop stating the obvious Park~ That just makes me know that I’m doing my job right~” You felt the blade on your neck again, it was getting closer and closer to cutting you. “Her death is coming soon Seonghwa~ Better hurry~” Minho said, “Tata lover boy~” The phone call ended and he lifted your chin up with his spare hand so your eyes would meet his.

“Oh what fun it is to piss him off.”  He smirked and let go of your chin, walking away.

“I’ll watch as your face falls into despair as Changbin kills your knight in shining armor. Thank me later sweetie~”

Your heart sank and your eyes just stared down at your legs as tears threatened to fall out like waterfalls.

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Seonghwa sneaked around the warehouse, looking for the entrance. Mingi and Yunho were on their way so he was alone.

No one to fall back on except himself.

He finally found a unlocked door to the inside of the warehouse and grabbed his gun before kicking it open and looking around with his gun pointed.

“How nice of you to visit Seonghwa-hyung.” He heard from in front of him.

“Changbin.” He growled but then he saw you.

You were still tied to a chair and your wrists were turning red.

“[Y-Y/n]..” He stutter out.

“You’re too weak for her.” Changbin said, “You’ll be such an easy kill with your princess around.” Seonghwa smirked, “You sure about that, shortie?” The two launched at each other in a fist fight. Changbin was able to get multiple hits as he was a melee specialist and Seonghwa was a long range specialist.

Seonghwa jumped up onto some metal boxes and took out his gun. He shot at Changbin and the short boy dodged most of the shots.

You were staring at the both of them as they fought. You had struggled against the ties that were on your wrists.

Minho had come out of hiding and he kissed the top of your head.

“Don’t worry princess, I’ll help out the entertainment.” He said.

He joined in the fight and thankfully, Seonghwa was able to handle the both of them.

He did his best to beat the two boys who had taken you away from him and was able to knock out Changbin.

“Aww.. Changbin wanted to kill you.” Minho pouted, “Oh well~ I guess I have to!” He launched at him with his knife in hand. Seonghwa had also grabbed Changbin’s knife and blocked his attempts of stabbing him.

“Your skill is worse than your attitude.” Seonghwa muttered.

“And your looks are worse than your leadership.” Minho told him.

That’s was triggered the true darkness of Seonghwa.

He threw Minho to the ground and got on top of him, preventing him from moving as he punched him in the face.

“Say goodbye. Lee Minho.” He simply said as he stabbed him in the chest.

Blood was all over his hands and when he pulled out the knife, it was fully red rather than the shiny silver it was before.

Minho stopped moving and Seonghwa got up to untie you.

Once he did, he hugged you tightly.

Your tears fell like waterfalls as his arms were wrapped around you.

His hug was gentle yet desperate. He felt like you were about to disappear if he held you too tightly.

“Are you okay? Did they hurt you?” Seonghwa asked.

“I-I’m..” You paused and smiled at him, “I’m fine thanks to you.” “HYUNG WATCH OUT!” Seonghwa turned around and saw Minho lying on the ground with his gun in hand.

“G-Goodbye. P-Park S-Seonghwa.”

Bang!

[kyosohmastan]

FRUITS BASKET EPISODE 1 REVIEW

I just posted this but somehow there was a glitch and it got deleted. All those words...To say I’m pissed off would be an understatement. So here we go again. Forgive me if I don’t put a lot of effort into this analysis because I have to redo it again. My energy is spent.

I decided that I’d really like to start reviewing the episodes so I’ll start from the beginning with episode 1 going scene by scene.

Although not apart of the manga, I adore the opening scene with God and the animals at the banquet. It sets up the series perfectly. You’re left knowing that the zodiac applies to the story, but how does it apply to the characters? I like how the focus was on the cat since one of the main focuses of the plot is how Kyo is ostracized from the family because he is the cat. So from this, it’s clear that this will be a story that deals with betrayal and prejudice against the cat (i.e. Kyo). It’s just genius. 

I wanna talk about how gorgeous Kyoko is. I’ve heard similar opinions. Such a beautiful lady taken from us too soon. :(

Yuki looks so pretty in this version. In the original, he looked kind of creepy? I appreciate that his hair is grey instead of purple now since that’s the color it is in the manga. 

I didn’t expect to see Motoko so early. She doesn’t show up until a bit later in the manga so why they introduced her this soon? IDK. Maybe they wanted to establish her character early since there will probably be some episodes that focus on her. This remake did a good job with making me continue to hate the Yuki fan club. I wish they’d leave poor baby Tohru alone!

Uo and Hana are basically her parents which is funny and sweet. I like how their friendship dynamic is shown from the start. Uo crying and worrying over Tohru is adorable. She’s a tough girl, but has a soft spot for her!

One reason I don’t like Yuki: he hates the cat! The first time I watched this episode, all I could think was “No, the cat isn’t stupid. He SHOULD be apart of the zodiac!” But by episode three, I’m reminded why Yuki thinks this way. He wants out of the zodiac so he doesn’t know why Kyo, being the cat, wants to be apart of it. So I could let that go. However, it irritates me that Yuki dislikes my boy, Kyo-Kyo.

I appreciate how the flashbacks are conveyed. In the original, almost all the flashbacks were just still frames. But in this version, they’re acted out and I like that more because it gives more life and emotion to the flashbacks. Because of that, I think they’re very well done and make me feel for Tohru’s backstory more.

This version is sticking to the manga so much and I love it! One example is how Tohru’s grandpa calls her Kyoko. A lot of people think it’s because of dementia, but I actually think he does it on purpose, (I’ll explain that further in my review for episode 5). Either way, I think it’s cute that he calls her by her mom’s name!

Hmm...I wonder where you could find such a woman.

How convient.

The foreshadowing to Shigure and Yuki having something to do with the zodiac is spot on with Shigure knowing about the avalanche from the wolf’s howl and Yuki summoning the rats to help him dig up Tohru’s things. But I still saw that a lot of newcomers were surprised when they changed into animals lol.

Now for the most heartbreaking moment of the show. The great thing about Fruits Basket is every time I reread or rewatch it, I take something new from it. Tohru’s guilt over not telling her mom “See you when you get back” before she left for work and died in a car accident really resonated with me. It’s scary to think about our loved ones leaving us and not getting a chance to say “Goodbye” or “I love you” or even worse, leaving them on a bad note like saying something to them that we don’t mean and not getting the chance to apologize before they die. That’s a terrifying thought. This moved me to want to share my love with my friends and family because you never know when your last conversation with them will be your last.

It’s sad how Tohru feels so guilty over this. But it just goes along with her sweet girl personality.

I’m not going to touch much on this because I’ll talk about it more in another episode review, but all I’ll say is this...THE HAT!!!!

My first thought was that it’s so nice of Shigure to give her a place to stay. Then he follows it up with “You like doing chores right?” Sneaky dog. You just wanted a maid!

And then the legend pops in. The man of the hour. My husbando. KYO!!!! I love how vibrant his character design is. That orange hair is stunning. He was definitely my favorite part of the episode even though he was only in it for about a minute. :)

Speaking of vibrant colors, the puffs of smoke after the transformations are so pretty! Talk about some good CGI.

Finally, the funniest part of the episode. Tohru’s first thought after making Kyo change into a cat isn’t “WTF?” but “I LANDED ON HIM WRONG AND SOMEHOW TURNED HIM INTO A CAT!” The logic. Gurl, you can’t just land on someone a certain way and turn them into a cat HAHAHA.

So that’s it! I think I revived all I said in my original post. Close enough, I guess. I’ll review episode 2 soon!