#prob first time a post that escaped containment escaped first and THEN was posted here ajcbskdbsn

[fucking-relax]

It is fear they want,

so fear you will not give.

It is obedience they want,

so obedience you will not give.

It is your life they want,

so your life you will not give.

[jebazzled]

troubleshooting: common quandaries and thots to overcome

It's no surprise that people whose major hobby involves writing, the internet, and fandom are often people who carry a lot of anxiety and tension around with them. For many of us, writing is something we do to escape, relax, unwind, and flex creative muscles we might not get to use at work or school. I get it.

For many of us, however, it also seems like forum rp is a stressor, a cause of great anxiety and insecurity. We've all seen or known people who go through a major rp-related crisis.

Sometimes, these crises are truly major - catastrophic falling-outs and permanently damaging rumor mills and etc etc. But a lot of the time? Well. It's not that it's "in your head," because obviously what you are feeling is very valid. But I think sometimes the way we think of internet spaces fuels dysfunctional thinking.

This isn't quite a tutorial; it's more in the vein of my tough love re: writer's block. I'm going to talk through some common scenarios, anxieties, and other issues I see in the rp community, and offer my (fully unsolicited) thoughts and advice. As always, your mileage may vary, but I'm trying!

Topics covered, because this one is a LONGBOI:

Insecurity & thread reactions

Insecurity & completionism/ Being Liked

Jealousy (especially ship-related)

The server is not therapy.

So here's the thing about the internet: for better or worse, it's for everyone.

On the far end of the spectrum, this means that the internet is a great incubator for toxic garbage. See: right-wing radicals, etc. But for most of us, this means that there is room on the internet for weird little me and my weird little hobby. You can find a community to talk about virtually any interest. You, for example, found the rp community.

So here's the thing about the internet: for better or worse, it's for everyone. This means that while you can find a community to talk about virtually any interest, you are never going to find a community that is completely without flaws.

There will always be people who annoy you, rub you the wrong way, or who you think are mean-spirited and negative. There will always be someone you don't get along with. There will always be people who disagree with you.

I have been in servers where members come to me time and time again to complain about other members, as though I am going to boot someone for wanting to talk about x just because they, personally, are sick of hearing about x. I am not going to tell someone to change their personality because someone else, personally, finds it annoying.

Offline, you wouldn't tell your manager at Starbucks to fire Susie because you don't like talking to her. You would simply not talk to her outside of a professional context. You would simply not take your break at the same time as her. You would simply not make small talk with her when the store is quiet and would instead, like, read the liner notes on whatever CD is at the register. (Does Starbucks still sell CDs?)

There will always be people in your community who you do not like and whose logic does not make sense to you. If they are not doing anything genuinely abusive, they have as much right to be in your community as you do. There is, in fact, likely someone in your community who finds you somewhat annoying. C'est la vie.

A community is not an environment custom-curated to your exact specifications. It is a community. You are not entitled to it being perfect. You are entitled to a space free from harassment and bigotry. If the space is free from harassment and bigotry and you cannot enjoy the space because someone else in it is existing harmlessly in a way that you dislike or find irritating, you have the option to leave the community. Discord server links are not a binding contract!

This is all to say: I think a lot of us expect far more of our online communities than is fair. Remember that every single person in your server is an individual human being with an interior life as rich as your own, and a list of neuroses possibly as extensive. None of them, yourself included, are perfect.

Oh, speaking of that list of neuroses! Let's tackle it, babe.

Your neuroses are not anyone else's problem.

It is on you to work through and overcome your anxieties and insecurities.

It is kind of other people to accommodate your growth, or to modify their behavior so as not to trigger your anxieties and insecurities. They are by no means required to do so.

Note: they do need to respect your triggers, if you have them and list them.

So here we go: troubleshooting frequent freak-outs. Buckle up!!!

Insecurity & thread reactions (or lack thereof)

Some people experience a lot of anxiety and insecurity around how their writing partners react to their threads. This might surface in the form of feeling unappreciated/disliked if the thread partner doesn't drop an emoji react on the link in your server's tag channel, or in feeling like no one likes your writing because they aren't swooning over it in #affirmations/ #thread-shoutouts/ #quotables/ etc.

You are serving as both texters in this meme.

So... you don't actually know what's going on with your thread partner at any given moment, you know? Personally, here are some possible scenarios with me as your thread partner:

You tag me and I put a passage from your post in #thread-shoutouts: I am at my desk, on my computer, not engaged in active DM conversation with anyone, and your post either made me cackle or it made me emo

You tag me and I DM you to gush about it: there's a lot happening in the server right now/ I don't want to derail a public conversation

You tag me and I react with an emoji: I am at date night with my girlfriend and she is in the bathroom. I have had time to read your post. I probably haven't put it in my tracker and will try and remember later, when I find it in one of 100 tabs open on Safari on my phone.

You tag me and I don't react at all: I am swamped with work and read your post in between emails. Instead of taking a second to react I immediately jumped into my tracker to log your reply, and now I am back to emails.

You'll notice none of these rationales are: "I don't react at all because I dislike you as a human." "I actively chose to quote Susie in #thread-shoutouts and not you because I want to hurt you." "I don't DM you about our thread because I hate our thread."

It doesn't have to be that deep! Stop hurting yourself. Let yourself assume the kindest option. After all, don't you want people to assume the best of you, too?

If your thread partners know you value emoji reacts or thread shoutouts, it is kind of them to do them. But it isn't inherently unkind for them not to, either. You're better off trying to kick that need for public validation.

Overview for addressing thread reaction insecurity:

If your server has a thread shoutout/quotables/etc channel, mute it. Don't look at it. Stop giving yourself something to fixate on.

When you are worried that someone hates a thread because they aren't giving emoji reacts, instead of building a narrative in your head that may or may not be true - communicate! "What beats do you want us to make sure we hit in this thread?" is a good introductory question to see if a thread is doing something for either or both of you, and gives your partner a chance to say something if they do want it to go in a different direction and would be more excited.

If someone is continuing to write with you, regardless of whether they post an emoji, it is probably because they enjoy writing with you!

Be deliberate about your thread premises! In my experience, threads done "just because" without a specific purpose (e.g. building chemistry between ship partners, introducing a subplot about a cursed hairbrush, kidnapping a house elf) are the first to lose steam and lose interest. It's entirely possible that someone likes you, likes writing with you, and simply doesn't prioritize this thread above their others because there's nothing meaningful to prioritize!

Keep your eyes on your own paper and stop reading so much into what other people do or don't do. It's probably not that deep!

Insecurity & completionism/ Being Liked

You would not be the first person to exacerbate their own problems because of a sense of duty to the spirit of completionism. Here's the thing, friend:

You do not need to write with every member.

You do not need to plot with every character.

You do not need to be in every subplot.

You do not need to have a character in every member group.

People fall into this trap thinking that if they can be everything to everyone, it will make them popular/important/beloved/a truly included member of the site.

But quantity is not the same as quality. You might have a thread with every character onsite but if half those threads are under a "they're on the same bus" premise, then yeah, people aren't going to want to keep up with that thread, and it's going to contribute to your thread reaction anxiety!

Write characters you are excited about. But more importantly: write plots you are excited about. Write threads you are excited about. You can be friends with people in your server without writing with them! You are better off writing a smaller number of really well-plotted, juicy plots that everyone involved feels heavily invested in than in writing a lot of watery threads for the sake of writing with every single person. It's hard to believe, but many people would rather NOT have a thread and wait until there's a juicy reason to than write a thread that doesn't have any development relevance simply for the sake of it.

If you're finding that it's hard to find juicy or plot-driven reasons to thread with many people, that might be a hint to write different types of characters. While yes, people exist who are very self-contained and isolated, the purpose of rp isn't to be a direct mirror of real life. It's to have fun while writing with other people. If your character is not fun to write with other people, they are probably not a good fit for an rp setting.

RP is not a popularity contest. This is not high school. No one is voting for prom queen. Be kind and be open to ideas and collaboration and people will like you. People will enjoy writing with you! People might even go out of their way to write with you. And they will be writing things that matter to both of you. That's winning, dude.

You might be tempted to pinpoint a "popular group" in the server and fix your sights on becoming one of them. This is also a failing proposition: often the "popular group" you might first identify is incorrect, and you are mistaking "exclusivity" for "importance." Sometimes sites have a small, tight-knit group with intricate inter-group plots and a very visibly closed-off dynamic. Since that dynamic mirrors the popular girls you were raised watching in teen movies, I can understand why you would assume that these people are the most important people to befriend on a site. They're not. They're cliquey and exclusive, and trying to get them to make room for you when they have intentionally and performatively set themselves aside from many other members is like... lmao, dude, it's not going to work.

Not only that, but the fact that these people are hard to pin down? It's not a selling point! The most beloved members on any site are not the ones who make you beg for a scrap of their attention. The most beloved members are the people who are friendly and kind. THAT is who you want to Get In with.

Overview for addressing completionism tendencies and "what if I'm Left Out" woes:

This is not a popularity contest, and you are a grown up. Focus on having fun and enjoying writing. That is not something you can do if your first priority is Getting In with the people you think are a site's "Popular Crowd."

You do not need to be everything to everyone. You cannot be everything to everyone.

In fact, everyone will appreciate you more if you do less and you do it well.

Focus on the positive. Who cares if Susie and Sally won't write with you? Sarah and Sam love writing with you! Yes, it would make sense for Susie to plot with you because your characters work together - but again, this is a hobby, not real life, and if you and Susie don't vibe, your characters don't need to interact! Why write with people who make you feel insecure? Trick question; there's NO reason to!

I understand the drive to be well-liked. Trust! I, too, desperately want to be well-liked. You'll have better luck if you don't try so hard. Be yourself and make friends with people who genuinely like you. Stop worrying about what the site's yearbook will look like. There isn't going to be a fucking yearbook.

Jealousy (especially ship-related)

Do you ever find yourself feeling a spike of anxiety or resentment when one of your favorite writing partners writes with someone else?

This reaction is especially common where ships are concerned: when one partner writes AU ships with their character, or has a plot with their character's previous partners before their OTP, etc.

It's a bit territorial, and it's not a good look, friends!

Your writing partners get to write with other people. How much they enjoy writing with other people has nothing to do with how much they enjoy writing with you. How much they write with other people has nothing to do with you. What they write has nothing to do with you. It's not all about you!

It truly doesn't matter how anxious you feel when your writing partners write with other people. They are entitled to write with whoever they want! What makes you nervous about them writing with other people?

In a forum rp environment, the best way to secure fulfilling, satisfying character arcs for your character is to plot with multiple others. That includes you, on both fronts: your writing partner needs you for their character's development as much as you need them! They aren't going to just stop writing with you arbitrarily.

If they do stop writing with you, there is probably a reason! Are they still on the site? Are they still writing? Are they going through something in real life that might impact their muse? There could be a hundred reasons why they are writing more with Susie now than they were with you, and they could be anything from "Susie is out of town this week so I want to give her a lot of replies to come home to" to "a ladder fell on my head and I am recovering from a concussion" to, possibly, "your territorial behavior makes me uncomfortable, and I would rather write with people who do not make me feel bad about writing with other people."

This behavior is especially weird in a ship context, and is something worth unpacking. When you write ships, do you resent/get anxious about your ship partner writing AU ship threads? About their character having previous partners? About their character having crushes that they do not act on?

An AU ship is an alternate universe specifically because it is not real. Susie and Sally shacking up in a space AU has no bearing over whether or not Susie and Marco end up together as finals.

Just like human beings have romantic history, it makes sense for characters to have romantic history, and these plots give your writing partner an opportunity to write plots that they might not get with you. For example, your writing partner might want to write a breakup plot with weird friendship tensions, which might not be a relevant vibe for Susie and Marco. But your partner can explore that with Marco and Sally. Again: it's not all about you, and your writing partner gets to write what they want, and you do, too.

Sometimes I think we can trace the territorial side of ship-oriented plotting to toxic monogamy culture, as described here. Particularly relevant are the below:

the idea that you should meet your partner’s every need, and if you don’t, you’re either inadequate or they’re too needy

the idea that commitment is synonymous with exclusivity

the idea that your insecurities are always your partner’s responsibility to tip-toe around and never your responsibility to work on

the idea that your value to a partner is directly proportional to the amount of time and energy they spend on you, and it is in zero-sum competition with everything else they value in life

Your writing partner is not cheating on your ship by giving their character other ships. If it feels that way to you, you are getting too emotionally invested, and you should probably back off of ship-oriented plotting for a while to unpack why you are feeling this way.

That said, of course be clear about boundaries. This applies both to M-rated content and to parameters of plotting. For example, you might tell your partner that you are not interested in a plot whose core conflict is "will they or won't they." You want to write these characters with the longevity of their relationship never in doubt. You might not want a plot where one character is cheating on the other. You might want these characters to be monogamous. That's fair! It's not fair for you to expect your writing partner to limit the plots they do that do not actually involve your character to avoid triggering your insecurities.

Overview for dealing with jealousy:

It's not all about you! Your writing partners deserve to have a good time as much as you deserve to have a good time. They can enjoy writing with you AND writing with someone else.

Be very clear with your boundaries. If there are plots between your character and another character that you cannot write, let your partner know before they accidentally step in a minefield.

Be willing to step away from ships. There are plenty of plots that do not involve ships. If ships make you a jealous and anxious mess, you should stop writing ships and work on that journey. It is more important to be a good writing partner than it is to write romantic ships.

Writing is such a personal thing, and we all of course connect very deeply to our characters - it only makes sense that we be invested in their outcomes! But if your gut reaction is one of jealousy, this is something that you need to work on, not something your writing partners should need to tiptoe around.

The server is not therapy.

Because rp is an online hobby, it can be easy to forget that every person you interact with in the server or forum is also a whole ass person on the other side of the screen. Which is to say, your rp friends do not exist to be your emotional support.

Of course they can be supportive - some of my closest friends are people I have met through rp! But online as in real life, you need to remember that everyone is always going through something. You are never the only person in the world who needs support, and you need to be thoughtful in how you engage with your friends here.

Do you listen when they share their problems, or do you immediately change the subject to talk more about your own? Do they not share their problems at all - is this a one-sided close friendship? Are the majority of your DMs to them seeking comfort, advice, affirmation, validation?

If you need a text-based counseling service, BetterHelp can connect you with a therapist. A therapist is a person whose job is to listen and ask nothing from you for their own personal emotional needs.

Your friends - online as in real life - are not therapists. They will not always have the bandwidth to help you. They will not always feel comfortable helping you. The internet breeds a sense of intimacy, the idea that regular chat conversation makes for a deep knowledge of another person. And of course this is sometimes the case! But in many cases, the person you are asking for psychoanalysis in the DMs on Discord doesn't actually know you very well. And if you have been relying on them for emotional support, you might be wearing them out.

Overview for not treating your rp friends like therapists:

Be thoughtful. If you have something heavy you want to talk about, first ask if they have the bandwidth. For example: "Hi Susie! Do you have the energy to give me some advice on x work issue?"

Listen. If your friend wants to talk about their issues, stop thinking about how you can relate and it sounds just like that time you... and just LISTEN. If you want to offer advice, keep it about them. If you don't know how to help, commiserate. "That's rough, buddy."

Self-check. Look at your chat history as though it's between your friend and someone you've never met. What do you think of this person? Are they a good listener? Do they reciprocate the support they get from your friend? Do they remember things your friend tells them about their own life? Or is this a one-sided conversation? If you're realizing that you're leaning too much on this friend, give them some space. If you're realizing you've gone way overboard leaning on this friend, maybe apologize and promise to be more conscientious going forward.

Be considerate. Remember that every person you know from the internet is so much more than what you've seen - I don't mean that in a "all internet users are creeps" way, I mean that in a "even if you've chatted in a server with some every day for six months, you still don't actually know them super well." Think of other people you've spent Some Time with. Think of your lab partner in 8th grade bio. You shared a desk with them for an hour a day five days a week for two thirds of the year. How much of your life did you share with them?

This tutorial got LONG - sorry, friends! Lots to talk about. I'm always happy to give Real TalksTM like this one. Feel free to drop into my askbox if you have a topic you'd like me to cover. I'm full of thoughts and feelings, and it would give me great joy for y'all to ask for them for once.

I hope this is helpful, and wish all y'all the best. Happy writing!

[thelittlesttimelord]

The Littlest Timelord: The Death of the Doctor Chapter 18

TITLE: The Littlest Timelord: The Death of the Doctor Chapter 18 PAIRING: No Pairing RATING: T CHAPTER: 18/? SUMMARY: The Doctor’s death is looming on the horizon and Elise is growing every day. What the Doctor doesn’t know is that he has 200 years to teach Elise all he knows. Amy, Rory, and River let Elise in on their secret, because River knows she will keep it. What will Elise do when he’s gone?

[A/N - And we are back! I hope you enjoyed the one-shots posted this weekend, but now we’re back on track with the story.]

The Ganger Doctor cried out in pain.

The sound broke Elise’s hearts. She started to walk towards him, but both the Doctor and Amy grabbed her arms and held her back.

“What's happening?” the Ganger Doctor cried out. He grabbed his head. “I wonder if we'll get back. Yes, one day. Argh. Reverse the polarity of the neutron flow.”

“The Flesh is struggling to cope with our past regenerations. Hold on!” the Doctor told him.

The Ganger Doctor spoke in a voice Elise didn’t recognize… “Would you like a jelly baby?” …before switching back. “Why? Why? Why?”

“Why, why what?”

The Ganger Doctor spoke in another voice. But this time Elise recognized it. “Hello. I’m the Doctor.”

It was him! The Doctor who saved her all those years ago. The one who held her tight as the Timelords were sucked back into the Time War. The one she barely got to know before she lost him.

“No, let it go, we've moved on,” the Ganger Doctor whimpered.

The Doctor rushed forward and grabbed the Ganger.

Amy rushed forward as well, but Jimmy and Buzzer grabbed her. Elise on the other hand, broke away and ran over to the two Doctors.

“Hold on, hold on, you can stabilize,” the Doctor told him.

“I've reversed the jelly baby of the neutron flow. Would you like a…Doctor, Doctor, I'm…I'm the…I can't…”

“No, listen, hold on. Hold on.”

“No!” The Ganger Doctor threw the Doctor off of him, but Elise stayed.

This Doctor needed help. Just like when he was dying in the Naismith Mansion. Just like he did when they crashed into little Amelia’s backyard.

The Ganger Doctor stood there with his hands over his ears. Elise stood next to him, a small hand on his back to let him know she was there.

The Gangers were still trying to get in. But then they suddenly stopped for some reason.

“I think I liked it best when they were being noisy,” Buzzer said.

“Doctor, we need you. Get over here,” Amy told him.

The Ganger Doctor straightened up. “Hello,” he said.

“Doctor!” Amy snapped.

“Cybermats,” the Doctor said.

“Do we have time for this?” the Ganger Doctor asked.

“We make time. I'd like more proof that you're me. Cybermats.”

“Created by the Cybermen. They kill by feeding off brainwaves.”

Amy walked back over to Cleaves and her team. The banging started up again.

“Rory and Amy, they may not trust both of us,” the Doctor told his Ganger.

“Are you thinking what I'm thinking?”

“Inevitably.”

“I'm glad we're on the same…”

“Wavelength. You see, great minds.”

“Exactly. So, what's the plan?”

“Save them all, humans and Gangers.”

“Tall order. Sounds wonderful.”

“Is that what you were thinking?”

“It's just so inspiring to hear me say it.”

The Ganger Doctor laughed. “I know.”

The Doctors looked down at Elise, who was smiling. “What?” they asked.

Elise giggled. “It’s funny. You’re like twins, finishing each other’s sentences. You do the same with River.”

“Do not!”

“Doctor, Elise, come on!” Amy yelled.

“So, what now, Doctor?” the Ganger Doctor asked.

“Well, time to get cracking, Doctor.”

They walked up to the group. “Hello. Sorry, but we had to establish a few ground rules,” they spoke in unison.

“Formulate a protocol,” the Doctor explained.

“Protocol? Very posh,” the Ganger Doctor said.

“A protocol between us. Otherwise…”

“It gets horribly embarrassing.”

“And potentially confusing.”

“I'm glad you've solved the problem of confusing,” Amy quipped.

“That's sarcasm,” the Ganger Doctor said.

“She's very good at sarcasm,” the Doctor told him.

“Breathe,” they said in unison.

“What?” Amy asked.

“We have to get you off this island. And the Gangers too,” the Doctor said.

“Sorry, would you like a memo from the last meeting? They are trying to kill us!” Cleaves told him.

“They're scared.”

“Doctor, we're trapped in here,” Amy reminded him.

“Right, See, I don't think so. The Flesh Bowl is fed by cabling from above.”

“But where are the earthing conduits?” the Ganger Doctor asked.

“All this piping must go down into a tunnel or a shaft or something, yes? With us?” He walked over and found a grating in the wall. “Yowza! An escape route. You know, I'm starting to get a sense of just how impressive it is to hang out with me.”

Elise rolled her eyes.

“Do we tend to say yowza?” the Ganger Doctor asked.

“That's enough, let it go, okay? We're under stress.”

They all filed into the tunnel. It eventually led to a corridor and they climbed out.

The Ganger Doctor held out his hand and Elise took it as she crawled out. They starting walking down the corridor, but Elise didn’t let go of his hand.

“The army will send a recon team out,” Buzzer told them.

“We need to find a way to contact the mainland,” Cleaves said.

“What about Rory and Jen?” Amy asked, “They are both out there.”

“No, this place is a maze. Takes a long time to find someone in a maze,” the Doctor said, “I bet you lot have got a computer map, haven't you?”

“If we can get power running, we can scan for them. Be a lot quicker,” Cleaves told him.

Everyone started coughing.

“Doctor, you said earlier to breathe,” Amy said.

“Very important, Pond. Breathe.”

“Yeah, well, I'm struggling to.”

“Acid interacting with the stone.”

“Creating an asphyxiant miasma,” the Ganger Doctor added.

“A what?” Cleaves asked.

“Choking gas. Extra heavy. If we can get above it…”

“The evac tower. It's this way,” Cleaves told them.

They made it to the evac tower and everyone could breathe easily again.

“You okay?” the Ganger Doctor asked Elise. She still hadn’t let go of his hand. Elise nodded.

“Oh. I think I coughed so hard, I pulled a muscle or something,” Amy said, “It's okay, it's better. It's easing off.”

The church bell started ringing as they ran for the controls.

Elise sat in one of the chairs as the two Doctors worked.

They kept popping up and down that it was hard to keep them straight. But they were both the Doctor, so it really didn’t matter.

“Can you really get the power back?” Cleaves asked.

“Oh, there's always some power floating around.”

“Sticking to the wires, like bits of lint.”

“Can you stop finishing each other's…?” Amy asked.

“Sentences?”

“No probs.”

“Yes.”

One of the Doctors pouted. “But Elise thought it was funny.”

The other rolled his eyes. “She always thinks we’re funny.”

“No, but hang on. You said that the TARDIS was stuck in acid, so won't she be damaged?” Amy asked.

“Nah…”

“She's a tough old thing. Tough, old, Sexy.”

“Tough, dependable, Sexy.”

“Come on,” Amy said, “Okay, how can how can you both be real?”

“Well, because we are. I'm the Doctor.”

“Yeah and so am I. We both contain the knowledge of over nine hundred years of memory and experience.”

“We both wear the same bow tie, which is cool.”

“Because bow ties are…”

“And always will be.”

“But how did the Flesh read you? Because you weren't linked up to it,” Amy said.

“Well, it must've been after I examined it. Thus, a new, genuine Doctor was created.”

“Ta-da!”

“No getting away from it. One of you was here first,” Amy told them.

“Well, okay. After the Flesh scanned me, I had an accident with a puddle of acid. Now, new shoes. A situation which did not confront me learned self here.”

“That satisfy you, Pond?”

“Don't call me Pond, please.”

Both Doctor’s looked at her.

“What?” she asked.

“Interesting. You definitely feel more affection for him than me,” the one who Elise and Amy assumed was the Ganger Doctor, spoke, “What about you, Ellie?”

“You’re both the Doctor, so it doesn’t matter,” she said.

“Look, you're fine and everything, but he's the Doctor. No offense. Being almost the Doctor is pretty damn impressive,” Amy told him.

“Being almost the Doctor's like being no Doctor at all.”

“Don't overreact.”

“You might as well call me Smith.”

“Smith?”

“John Smith.”

Elise smiled. So that’s why her last name was Smith!

“Yes! Communication a go-go.”

Cleaves ran to the console.

“Find Rory. Show me the scanning tracking screen,” Amy told her, “Come on, Rory, let's be having you.”

“There's no sign of him anywhere.”

“Come on. Come on, baby, show yourself.”

“Saint John's calling. Emergency Alpha. Saint John's calling the mainland. Are you receiving me, Captain? Come in.”

There was nothing.

“We'll never get a signal through this storm. Saint John's calling the mainland. Come in, this is urgent.”

Then a voice came through. “We're just about reading you, Saint John's. How are you doing? We've had all kinds of trouble here.”

“Request immediate evacuation. We're under attack. The storm's affected our Gangers. They're running amok.”

“Your Gangers?”

“Yes, our Gangers are attacking us. We need you to take us off the island immediately and wipe them out.”

“Copy that, Saint John's. Shuttle's dispatched. Hang on.”

“You'll need to airlift us off the roof of the evac tower. And Captain, any further transmission sent by me must come with the following codeword. I'm typing it, in case they're listening in.”

“Got it. We'll swing in, get you out and decommission the Flesh.”

“We've got to get out of here. We are, we're going to get out,” Buzzer said.

“We're not leaving without them,” Amy told him.

“I want them found too, but it's about casualties, innit? Can't be helped.”

Amy turned back to the Doctor. “What are you doing?”

“Making a phone call,” he said.

“Who to?”

“No one yet. It's on delay.”

“Right. Not getting it. Why exactly are you making a phone call?”

“Because, Amy, I am and always will be the optimist.” He spun in his chair. “The hoper of far-flung hopes and the dreamer of improbable dreams.” He spun her around and turned back to the console. “The wheels are in motion. Done.”

Amy laughed and turned to face the Doctor who she assumed was the Ganger, going off his boots. “You know really there can be only one.”

“Hmm?” the Doctor asked.

“Oh, nothing. Carry on. Be amazing.” Amy stood up and walked towards a wall, but there was nothing there. She gasped and jumped back.

“Amy, what happened?” the Doctor asked.

She ran over to him and sat back down. “It's her again.”

“It's who again?”

“There's a woman I keep seeing. A woman with an eye-patch, and she has this habit of sliding walls open and staring at me. Doctor?”

“It's nothing.”

“Doesn't seem like nothing.”

“It's a time memory. Like a mirage. It's nothing to worry about.” He patted her on the knee and turned back to the console.

“It's in my head,” the Ganger Doctor suddenly spoke. He left the room.

“Hey, hold on,” Jimmy said.

“Don’t go!” Cleaves yelled.

“No, leave it to me,” Amy said, going after him.

[yutoaf]

Boyfriend! Yuto (Pentagon)

this is prob gonna be real lengthy lmaoooo

probably had the biggest crush on you for the longest time before y’all started dating

but because he’s a bit of a shy bean, he needed like wooseok to be your friend so you guys would become mutual friends

here’s probably how his confession went down:

you, wooseok and yuto were all hanging out together and you guys eventually lost track of time

so it got pretty late, meaning it was time for everyone to start going home

the members coincidentally call wooseok claiming something weird like that they need him “to dust off the ceiling fan, since we can’t reach it”

so wooseok left before you and yuto did

purposely leaving you and yuto alone

seeing how it was late, yuto offered to take you home so that’s what he did

when you guys got to your place, yuto couldn’t contain himself

he had so much fun hanging out with you today and now the lights were hitting you just right making you glow in front of him

so he kinda just let out all his feelings towards you, listing off everything he liked about you and he told you that he really liked you and asked if you would please please go out with him

when you said yes, the biggest smile possible adorned yuto’s face

he was so incredibly happy, he engulfed you in a warm bear hug and lowkey teared up

“i’ll be a good boyfriend, the best the world’s ever seen, to you. i’ll make sure you don’t ever regret saying yes to me”

after he said that he realized that it was kinda embarrassing so he buried his face in your hair

BUT he kept that promise, he really is a nice boyfriend :’)

if you ever can’t reach stuff, he’ll move it so that it’s always within your reach

when you’re working on homework/studying/work he clears away all distractions so you can work in peace and finish by your deadline

he’ll also leave you alone because you might be distracted by him

“yuto, where are you going? i thought you were going to help me”

“we both know that nothing will be accomplished if i’m here”

whenever you two hold hands, he always intertwines his fingers with yours so that you can’t escape him

at first he would kinda stiffen up if you initiated any skinship with him

but he quickly got used to it and now initiates like 80% of the skinship in your relationship

would much rather watch melodramas instead of horror movies with you

if you do somehow manage to convince him to watch a horror movie, he’ll switch between hiding behind a pillow and clinging/hiding behind you

y’all would have couple bracelets

several different kinds too

def will have those that have your names on it

really likes outdoor dates

that doesn’t necessarily mean like nature dates but he just likes being outside

for example: he’d rather sit at the tables outside at a cafe that’s all lmao

eskimo kisses are def a thing

loves just having his arms around your waist tbh

or just having any physical contact

lets you borrow/steal his clothes

just return them to him eventually

will eat whatever food you don’t like

like if you were at a restaurant and there was a food you didn’t like that came as a side or something

yuto would notice you eating around it

so he’d just take it from your plate and eat it for you

unless it’s spicy

when he gets something spicy as a side with his meal

he’ll just give it to you

always worried about your health and if you’re eating all your meals and what not

but he’s not gonna smother you and constantly ask you if you’ve eaten

if he noticed that you hadn’t eaten anything while you two were together (or if he heard your stomach growl) he would leave a snack in your bag/pocket for you

asks for your opinions when he’s trying to come up with lyrics

or he’ll ask if it sounds ok, like if his Korean was correct

his phone wallpaper is some cute selfie y’all took together

his password is prob like your bday lmao

his kisses kinda leave you breathless

during a make out session there is no room between your bodies

he likes getting as close to you as he possibly can

gets a little flustered whenever you watch him practice 

he’ll sometimes miss a word in his rap or miss a step in the choreo

when cuddling he loves to face you

he’ll even put his forehead against yours and just gaze lovingly at you

he could honestly do that for hours if you let him

if you get sick and he takes care of you, he’ll claim he doesn’t know what he’s doing but he knows EXACTLY what he’s doing

if you ever have a problem, he’ll always be there as a shoulder to cry on

he’d let you rant to him, always listening quietly and patiently before he speaks

he’ll try to give you advice if he can

he’d also understand that sometimes you don’t want to talk so he’ll gladly wait for you to open up and in the mean time give you a bunch of hugs

he also gives amazing hugs

always hugs you really tightly as if you’re gonna slip away

while he’s hugging you, he likes to put his head in the crook of your neck and bask in your scent

whenever you were sad he’d always be there to provide you with amazing hugs

if you were crying, he’d run his hand up and down your back trying to soothe you

every snivel you let out, in return he’d give you a reasssuring squeeze

you’d feel so safe and protected in his arms

he’d just feel like home

whenever he got homesick he’d go to you and snuggle with you because to him you’re his home away from home

doesn’t really mind sharing you with his members

he doesn’t really get jealous of his members because he trusts you and his members

but occasionally, he’ll want you all to himself so he’ll just causally pull you away

 playful baseball and/or soccer/football based competitions

“i bet i can kick that can farther than you can”

“you’re on”

“loser has to buy food”

he’s very good about not giving you spoilers about upcoming pentagon promotions

“c’mon yuto, can’t you just rap one line from the song?”

“nope. sorry, but you’re gonna have to wait just like the rest of the fans.”

lowkey likes aegyo and you being cute overall

he tries hard not to fall for it

but he can’t help himself, he falls for it almost every time

when he’s really trying to resist your cuteness, he tries to keep a straight face but ends up laughing or smiling and that’s when you know you won

always making sure you’re not too cold or too hot

wraps you in his jacket or himself when it’s cold outside

moves you to shade when it’s too hot out

thinks it’s one of the cutest thing when you speak Japanese

even if you butcher it

like if you don’t have aegyo just speak Japanese to him he won’t be able to say no

super slow at responding to text messages

like he’ll see them and leave you on read but then forgets to respond

sometimes dabs as a greeting

it’s kinda like your secret handshake

will rap and even sing for you if you ask just not early in the morning

willingly shares his food with you

the type to slyly slip your hand in his pocket when it’s cold outside

i feel like he’s not a very warm (like temperature-wise) person

like I feel like his hands are icy all the time

so when he randomly grabs your hand, he’ll claim that you’re “just really warm”

he uses that excuse quite often so he can hold your hand or cuddle with you

really good at remembering important dates

but he’s not the type to plan a huge event for it, he’d rather do something more simplistic

freaked out the first time you fell asleep on him

he got all stiff and wouldn’t move from his spot until you woke up

now he thinks that it’s super cute when you fall asleep on him

it also means a lot to him

because to him that means you are comfortable enough to show him the more vulnerable side of you meaning that you trust him

if you fall asleep next to him, he’ll lay down with you and move your hair out of your face

he’ll softly stroke your face and plant little butterfly kisses all over your face

whenever he tells you he loves you, he’s totally genuine and you can actually physically feel his love from those 3 words

this makes sense right

when he doesn’t see you for an extended period of time, he’ll message or call you when he can

usually his messages will be little updates like “didn’t get much sleep, but we’re going out to dinner tonight. i miss you”

or “had to act like a couple with wooseok for a tv show, but don’t worry i love you more”

asks you to approve his selfies before he posts them