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the most difficult thing about growing as a person socially, as in getting out of your shell and noticing that you are, is that there will still be times when it doesn’t feel like you’ve grown at all! times when you can’t really connect with anyone around you, times when you fail to enter into an existing conversation, times when you say the wrong thing (or nothing at all when in hindsight you probably should’ve). but that’s also kind of the best thing, because that’s the thing that helps you realize that sometimes, it’s not you or your lack of skills or any shortcoming. sometimes certain environments just aren’t for you and certain people aren’t your people, and that’s okay. that’s human. it’s okay to not feel the progress you have made all the time.
#and that goes for every type of growth#backstory of this post:#after I came back after a few months of doing my international internship I felt so much more confident#it was easier making friends and walking up to people#i took more chances#and generally just heard it a lot from those around me who kept telling me how much i’d changed#this was further supported by my first office job that went pretty well#but then came my grad internship. and while i love the work and have met some great people I noticed it was difficult again#there was one office lunch where no one spoke to me at all! it was my first week and I didn’t know what to say#if i should even say anything#we were all sitting at the same table#not one person even glanced my way#it made me doubt myself; i was doing so well before#was that even real? why can’t I just speak up? this is not the way to connect with people#especially in my first week!#but you know what#i was still doing well. i just had to factor in the fact that these were all middle aged people talking about reality shows i didn’t watch#and bikes i knew nothing about#as well as people who knew i was the new intern yet didn’t speak to me at all even though I’d introduced myself to them all individually#and even so#people I couldn’t really talk to about MY interests outside of work either#my point being:#it’s okay to not feel a connection with everyone you meet#it’s okay to fall back into old habits even though you’ve developed new ones#it will never unravel the process you’ve made and the connections you’ve built#you’re doing fine#after this internship I will surround myself with people who reaffirm that belief#growth in the self#self love#positivity
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it's been exactly a year since the last chapter of Operation Walburga's Arbitrary No Kissing Ever Rule and I still miss it. This scene is probably one of my favourite things I've ever written and I've wanted to draw it for forever, so now seemed like an appropriate time
#jegulus#jegulus fanart#marauders fanart#regulus black#james potter#james x regulus#marauders#regulus black fanart#james potter fanart#starchaser#sunseeker#regulus x james#marauders era#jegulus fanfiction#fic: operation wanker#hp#mine#my art#ngl this drawing specifically made me realise why i prefer writing over drawing#i think too much in concepts to be able to capture a scene in a way that i want#you cant draw the same thing from several perspectives at once if you dont wanna go for cubism#(tho honestly cubism fanart sounds like a concept i could get behind mmmmm)#anyway i stayed up far too fucking long to finish this in time for today (and by too long i mean until 8am too long)#because originally i had planned to start posting ritardando as my anniversary celebration. yk more fake dating and all that...#but alas i scrapped the whole thing so drawing happened instead#not 100% satisified with how this turned out cause i dont know how perspectives work. or people. or backgrounds outside. you get the idea#i really very much like the second one tho i think its very pretty
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Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will
#svsss#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#the fact that people think scum villain#-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction-#is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me#especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater#heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series#he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters#(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy)#I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters#like example off the top of my head-#the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx#I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes#side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me#i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation#but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years#like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right?#being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain#the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too#+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu#as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing)#bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people#another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does#also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be#he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students#and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing#+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this#but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy
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I find it funny that Wild, who has basically a couple years ish of full life experience, comes up with the most insane theories for everything
He assumed that the only other explanation to Four being able to split in Four was. That he was quadruplets who'd been hiding this whole time???
Also apparently he believed that his wolf companion Twilight in botw was a diety (and felt very uhh shocked upon finding out that he was not)
Malon made things worse, telling him about her aliens theory
What's even FUNNIER is that every time Wild expresses any sort of confusion at magic stuff that he's never seen before, everyone else in the chain acts like it's crazy for him to be weirded out by it
Honestly maybe Wild's the only one with his head on straight, rather than everyone else who are just like 'it's magic bro' like no he's right this is weird
I appreciate this because it's very considerate of the fact that he woke up with no memories not too long ago, so he doesn't have much experience to explain the stuff that's 'normal' for the chain. Plus the explanations he comes up with are funny.
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Art and comic and adorable character by Jojo @linkeduniverse au :D
#I hope this made sense I didn't edit much#linkeduniverse#linked universe#Lu wild#djdjdjdkdjdkckdkxkgg#the 'this is normal it's fine' chain#and 'why is this tree speaking to me' wild#it's just. I mean. I'd have some pretty insane theories too ok#he has no idea why someone could split into four but he has seen two identical twins at a stable once so surely that's an explanation#he's literally so smart tho. like creativity and stuff? being able to pick up on new skills and concepts? he's a genius. a very goofy genius#aahh for his age I said 2 years of life context because he says he's 117 + Jojo said Lu is less than a year after his journey#also mental memories maturity and time awake is all so complicated#so I just said a couple years as kind of a base number idk#(aaaaand if i said anything offensive im sorry of course and none of this is meant as a criticism of wild but I love his crazy theories)#everyone's thoughts matter so much and I love you guys /gen <33#:)#and. I like this and it's funny and fluffy but if my angst writers wanted to get a hold of this O.O
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MAN THAT REALLY COLORS THIS RESPONSE IN THIS CONVERSATION SO DIFFERENTLY FOR ME
#bg3#like here my silly ass that doesn't know shit was thinking 'wow i'm actually surprised he's pretty chill with this'#JOKES ON ME I'M BOOBOO THE FOOL#IT'S P R O B A B L Y MORE LIKELY THAT HE JUST ASSUMES IT WON'T LAST AND HE HAS NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT#WOW............DAMN............GOT ME#CAUGHT ME SLIPPIN CAUSE I AM A LORE NOVICE HERE....................................#like SURE you could ASSUME that astarion would be flippant about having multiple partners like why wouldn't the flirty one be that way righ#but no no no there's much to think about here i'm unpacking the fucking layers i can feel my mind peeling like an onion#woag mama#i'm not articulate today b/c brain fog but i hope that made any sense#and hey maybe I'M even making assumptions but calling it a 'harmless affair' just.....that hits different#astarion
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Excuse me im just gonna spam all of these over here...(part 1 [yes there's more])
#sketch#digital ilustration#loonatics unleashed#loonatics fanart#loonatics#tech e coyote#rev runner#lexi bunny#ace bunny#slam tasmanian#danger duck#redraw#looney tunes#??? do i tag that too??? idk tecnically its a looney tunes show :|#they're so hard to draw too i wasnt ready to have to learn (and still habing to practice) how to draw in the looney style (how do i call it?#tech x rev#gotta love how half of the fanart i've drawn is just ship art of those two too#main reason i got into the show in the first place (kind of also the only thing that kept me watching...)#they're the best#if you're wondering by the way why they look so different its cause i made my own AU/take on the show#i most noticeably made slam a pup and a clone made by tech#and i swapped ace and lexi's ancestor/great grandparents?#the runners are pretty much the same (peak character design)#and duck and tech are mixed#do i tag as an AU?#au#I ALSO CHANGED THE POWERS OF TECH (and made the others be able to do more things)#tech can heal inmediately and can use his blood/idk to heal others#if rev runs fast enough he combusts into fire which lets him fly and do cool fire stuff#and i cant add anymore tags so the rest will be shared for another day..
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My friend said “Missouri Gale” and I couldn’t get him out of my head
#He’s pretty much our oc now JHDJANSMAN#It’s okay I can fix him#gale of waterdeep#gale bg3#gale#gale dekarios#bg3#baldur’s gate 3#Fan art#my art#AU#I’m a Missourian the thought of Missourian Gale horrified me#That’s why I made it
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listen im ace and im pro kink at pride and whatever, but the way some of yall are wording your posts in response to the backlash against it is uh. really taking me back to the ace shitcourse era.
yall know theres nothing wrong with being a "virgin", right? that its not inherently shameful to have not had sex, to never have sex, even if youre not ace, even if you do want to have sex someday, like, its fine that you haven't had sex?
maybe if your problem is that theyre trying to police your behavior and shame you for expressing your sexuality, you can say that? instead of resorting to "haha stupid virgin gets no bitches" like my god. do you not hear how fucking regressive that attitude is? i know, i know, youre "joking".
get a better joke
#toy txt post#god im going to regret this post im gonna regret it so much i can feel it in my bones#let it flop..........pls#internalize my message let it sink in and understand what i am saying and then let the post flop#i say. knowing the ppl who need to see such a message are the ones who will make me regret this post and regrwt not having#1 million bajillion disclaimers#virgin is in quotes bc its a bullshit made up stupid purity culture concept anyway and quite frankly i hate even seeing the word#disclaimer: the previous sentence is not me saying that it is a slur for asexuals. it is me a single individual saying this specific word#grosses me out to read and see everywhere when its a stupid bullshit binary made up or at least historically largely used#to shame largely women and i dont know why we're still using it in 2023#and ive just been. seeing such an uptick in this whole like. attitude? lately and like#im ace im minorly sex repulsed. mostly about anything sex at me bad. other adults sex at each other consensually? go wild#i like to think im pretty chill about it. i try to be. i think its fine ig to be like 'my meat is huge i fuck so much so good'#like okay not my thing but good for you. love that for you#but then some of yall have started turning it back around back to. 'haha your meat so small and shriveled you get no bitches'#'haha stupid incel virgin' like okay. didnt realize we all went back to fucking. middle school but okay#god im gonna run out of tine to get ready for my thing writing this stupid post UGH evil#but like idk we've kinda circled back to being like haha being a virgin still is stupid and silly and shameful#and if im quite honest. i do think the acecourse played a part in that bc i felt like we were making good progress in like#hey guys is fine to not have sex ever if you dont want to its fine to not want sex its fine#and then aphobes went fucking rabid on us and splintered and destroyed online communities all over but especially on tumblr#and so many aces went back in the closet we stopped talking about it we stopped spreading awareness and now this stupid goddamn like#and now this stupid bullshit attitude is back where its like funny to call someone a virgin as an insult but like no bro trust me its okay#its okay for me to do it bc im a hot queer person with huge meat instead of a cisstraight frat bro with huge meat#? like you know the issue was the behavior right? not the fact that it was straight dudes saying it? its bc the thing being said was shitty?#you know you can dunk on the puritan bitches trying to police your behavior at pride without getting us as collateral damage right#stop making me read that stupid ugly ass word ur not cool or funny#whatever#if you come on to this post to start shit i will not only block you but as many of your mutuals and followers as i can find. i will scroll#i will block this entire fucking website if i need to do not test me. i am exhausted and the acecourse ate up all my tolerance in 2015.
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UM. MASS ATTACK
it's been a hot minute since i've done a big group shot like this (and by "hot minute" i mean like 5 years) so uh. zoo wee mama that's a lotta hedgehogs (plus one (1) warrior cat and a porcupine)
individual groups under the cut. i'll be putting character names & owners down there too :]
this attack has a whopping 33 characters in it so um....... long post warning
group #1 (also known as Mandatory Vacation in my files):
Archie ( @interstellarchaosss )
Astraeus ( @simpalert )
Zonic of PZSFI ( @ciphergrowl )
group #2 (aka Beast Pack in my files. look i had to name the folders to keep everything organized ok)
Agartha ( @sa2ration )
Werehog Spikes ( @hyper-cryptic )
Monster AU Sonic (Rougelynesdisco on ArtFight)
Halcyon ( @mystigaron )
group #3 (silly billies)
Blurfoot ( @guiltypandas )
2000s Web Sonic (Prismsonic on ArtFight)
Nicolas ( @zzcarnotauro )
Prism Sonic (also Prismsonic)
group #4 (Therapy)
TDC!Sonic (donnie on Artfight)
Virtuosity!Sonic ( @minecraftfan11onscratch )
Nikopulous!Sonic ( @bensbean )
group #5 (da bench)
Frost ( @simpalert )
Tactile (ULTRAVIXLENCE on ArtFight)
Dreamwalker Sonic ( @the-cosmic-blogger )
group #6 (nincombots)
Murder Drones Sonic ( @cat-dragron-arts & @cherbearsz )
SD-C (also cat-dragron & cherbearsz)
Dr. Needlemouse ( @lilcrazybat )
group #7 (eeeek a spider - also mva sonic's quills are cut off a little sorry)
Undertale Sonic ( @gettingfizzical )
MVA!Sonic ( @weirdozjunkary )
Mach Spider ( @chaosspear )
group #8 (oooooo spooky)
Rise ( @mercurymarine404 )
Taxidermy!Sonic ( @cxrpsehub )
group #9 (gender)
Sonic the Squidhog ( @stormloup )
Nikki ( @transgirlsonic )
Crystallized AU Sonic ( @12neonlit-stage )
Arrow (SparksSystem on Artfight)
Vi (also SparksSystem)
group #10 (no silly folder name for this one. sorry) :[ )
SOMA!Sonic ( @citystreetfunk )
Vampire Sonic (the-cosmic-blogger)
group #11 (actually not a group it's just speedy)
Speedy the Porcupine ( @jays---wing )
and some bonus doodles from while i was working on this. as a treat :] (feat. zonic having The Day Ever)
hehehehaha i love an excuse to draw a niche character that i really like for some reason. anyway hooray yippee my adhd ass completed a large project!!!! ^_^ time to write a whole novel in the tags as per usual
#i really wanted to add mva sonic because stumbling across weirdozjunkary's mva au like..... unlocked a major childhood memory for me???#which is to say i was obsessed with monsters vs aliens. like it was the only movie i would watch for a solid year#and i would just watch it over and over#and yet somehow people still thought i was a totally neurotypical child lol#but anyway somehow i totally forgot that the movie existed until. like a couple months ago when i found the mva au#anyway i rewatched it an honestly it's a very okay movie but also i see why small lee loved it so much (girlboss protag & kaiju battles)#this was originally going to be only sonics but my scourge bias made that pretty much impossible. there are 2 scourges in here#and 2 zonics because again. bias#and also a chaos sonic because come on!!! i couldn't draw drone sonic without his boyfriend!!!!#i think there might be more sonic fanart in my future turns out mobians are like. really fun to draw#i'm a fan artist now. it was bound to happen eventually i guess#toonagi art#digital art#artists on tumblr#mass attack#artfight mass attack#artfight 2024#artfight team seafoam#sonic#sonic the hedgehog#zonic the zone cop#scourge the hedgehog#sonic au#i guess sonic aus plural. there's a lotta them here
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broken mirror
#twilight#alice cullen#bellice#bella swan#twilight saga#my art#okay so sometimes i wonder what how alice would have felt about Bella's vampirism change if Alice remembered her human life#because a large part of Alice is that she only remembers what its like to be a vampire#and so if she didnt her brain scrambled as a human#would she still want bella changed?#she and Jasper and Emmett and even Edward are missing a lot of humanity#And that's part of why they care less (except edward) about her transformation#anyway I wonder if Alice would feel guilty#because she pretty much made her vision become a reality on purpose#teehee
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The Nobleman or 양반 (yangban): The smiling face represents the bluff and composure that an aristocrat is often known to have. The chin is a separate piece from the top of the mask, and the actors can lean forward and back to make the mask smile or frown as needed.
This monk who abandons his doctrines, or 취발이 (chwibari): Chwibari was originally a monk, but he had no intention of joining the monastic order, so he came down to the world and wanders. Represented with a forehead full of wrinkles and spots.
The widow or, 부네 (Punae/bune): represented to be a widow, or a kisaeng ( a woman who sang, danced, or played an instrument to provide entertainment for company at a drinking party), or a mistress of the Yangban. She has a very small mouth, round cheeks and forehead- giving a general look of happiness good-humor.
#skz#stray kids#skzedit#bystay#obligatory i am no expert take it with a grain of salt blah blah#theres no changbin bc you cant see the mask clearly and no hyunjin because as best I can figure his mask is a General/high ranking official#but most of those are modern productions and dont have any real descriptions or anything.#these plays were made to mock the upper classes so the nobleman is p much always treated like a fool or bastard lol#also these all change depending on the location- so like the chwibari is usually a negative portrayal of a monk who drinks and parties#and isnt very... monk-ly lets say- but then theres a story where he saves his lover from a lecherous monk and they get married so 🤷♀️#he wasnt a monk that iteration though or he abandoned his studies ?#and then the widow/concubine varies from sympathetic young widow to a kinda femme fatale who seduces the nobleman/scholars#Will any of this play into the concept? probably not. they dont really commit to concepts lbr#but still! it was interesting to look into and the masks are pretty to boot so this was fun :)#it'd be cool if they did a mask dance. i always loved thunderous for the traditional elements so i hope that happens#also YEAH a korean seungmin girl saying she was sad the foreign fans wouldnt get the significance bc she wants to see 'secondary art'#did inspire this (of course i'd wanna know why he was the only one given a womans mask dont act surprised)#bc im pretty sure i know what she means by secondary art and LMAO#i see right through you.... and into myself maybe#long post
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little poster for the fic Operation Walburga's Arbitrary No Kissing Ever Rule :) 10 things i hate about you, but make it jegulus
#jegulus#jegulus fanart#marauders fanart#regulus black#james potter#james x regulus#marauders#regulus black fanart#james potter fanart#starchaser#sunseeker#regulus x james#marauders era#jegulus fanfiction#fic: operation wanker#hp#mine#my art#i feel so so conceited every time i post one of these with the title in the fanart ngl like holy shit is this even legal#but also. i am pretty proud of this? because it is very clearly inspired by the 10 things i hate about you poster but it is changed A Lot#because this fic isnt a perfect replica of the movie. it is its own story. things are very different#note the polaroids and the poem and the love bites and the star necklace for sirius :3 hehe#i spent So Much Time getting the font right idk why they made it this difficult for me with the poster it was So Much Work
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Your posts about wen ning are making me very sad. He just wants a hug 😔 can we wrap him up in a weighted blanket instead of chains? Much more comforting and still deadly when thrown at others!
He has been blanketed and given a mug of hot coco.
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#ask#wen ning#WWX made the hot coco so it contains pepper flakes#(I also enjoy hot coco with Added Spices. I love adding cinnamon and pepper flakes. But it's not for everyone...)#I've had people try my hot coco and say things like 'Why' and 'what did you do?' and 'There's no way you enjoy this'.#but I do ! I love hot coco! I just make good on the promise of 'hot'.#Anyways. Wen Ning has a very dulled sense of taste (thats my headcanon) and can tolerate pretty much anything#If he ever has to eat anything it would be scavenged. Like a raccoon. You'll find him rooting through your trash.#Hitting you with those sad wet eyes to stun you into silence as he makes his escape#Anyways! 1 reblog is 1 refill of hot coco for this very cold and wet boy. 1 like is a blanket. Let's see how he fares.
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I carried this thing for MONTHS with the EXPRESS PURPOSE of putting Raphael in it (knowing full well Larian wouldn't let me do that, mechanically) and I had one major miscalculation.
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[[ All Croissant Adventures (chronological, desktop) ]]
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#Ok I'm gonna ramble in the tags about all this get ready:#I KNEW Larian wouldn't let me actually pull this off but I PROMISE you that stupid flask sat in my inventory since the moment I grabbed it#WAITING for when I could write this little bit about putting Raphael in it#I even threw it at him in the fight with a 30% hit chance and it succeeded so I considered that Larian giving me permission to say it workd#But as I was reading up on it again when I was sketching this I saw the bit about native planes and I cried LMAO. But it's dnd-#so I rewrote is as it would've happened in a game. U kno.#Also I have been waiting to use that fox line for SO LONG bc of Croissant's dad being a fox-like fey creature#So much backstory that's slotted in PERFECTLY with the BG3 narrative#Anyway absolutely wild that we managed to take out this ancient powerful devil - and on the first try!#Lae'zel with a potion of speed did WORK. Gale came in clutch with hold monster. Astarion gave Raph stage fright. Croissant made him dance#(I'm pretty sure he just doesn't have a dance animation in ascended form lol)#Hope didn't even need to use divine intervention - this party is terrifying#Croissant hated him but in the end I loved Raphael I see why all you people like him#bg3#baldur's gate 3#bg3 spoilers#act III spoilers#house of hope#croissant adventures#tav#raphael#lae'zel#iron flask#comics#ALSO shoutouts to you if you both noticed and knew which worthikids animation I borrowed the expression in panel 5 from
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I thought tumblr might appreciate this
✨Hatsune Miku South Park ✨
I think I’m hilarious 
#shitpost#also ignore how bad the drawings are compared to my usual stuff#I was lazy 😡#I don’t know why I spent all day making this but I did#pretty sure this is why god made me#I hope tumbler loves this just as much as me#guys I love miku#hatsune miku#south park#south park fanart#fanart#sp stan#stan marsh#southpark#kyle broflovski#sp kyle#kenny mccormick#sp kenny#eric cartman#sp cartman#princess kenny#im sorry I made this
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ghost in the machine, for caroline appreciation day
#caroline appreciation day#portal 2#cad24#caroline appreciation day 2024#glados#caroline portal#glados portal#portal glados#i put so much work into the background details and then proceeded to cover most of it up with glados' massive ass#i think this is pretty good for my first foray into this style#i also now understand why most people use the lasso tool#I ALSO KNOW THAT THIS ISNT EXACTLY IN THE SPIRIT SO I WILL REMOVE THE TAGS IF ASKED#my original idea was much closer but as i drew it it kind of got out of hand#im happy with what i made but its definitely more glados than caroline innit#autodesk sketchbook
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