#pretend these lyrics are 1. good 2. work in korean

[cumberbatchedandproud]

Death note - Musical - The game begins - Lyrics comparison

The layers often hit quite differently depending on any Musical versions, but especially in The Game Begins imo? But yeah : good, both are good - I take it all !!! :)

The Game Begins (english version) - aka mostly the analytic side of L:)

[L: Verse 1] Empty your mind of any theories 'Til all the facts are in Start at the end of all your queries To learn where things begin You analyze by working backwards Effects reveal their cause For even perfect crimes have perfect flaws

[Verse 2] The calculus of a solution While changing, stays the same The stronger mind of evolution Determine who wins the game I poke and prod to find a weakness Where the bend becomes the break And make the most of Kira's first mistake

[Chorus] The game begins the same way I look for patterns on a screen Connecting bits of data Until I find out what they mean The game begins

[Verse 4] A kilobyte of information And soon a corner's turned Anticipate his adaptation By using all you've learned Some little thing, some minor detail Will draw you in, and then Another one will draw you out again

[Chorus] The game begins the same way I look for patterns on a screen Connecting bits of data Until I find out what they mean

The game begins the same way The chase is on, the die is cast I sift a thousand pixels Until I chase you down at last… The game begins!

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The Game Begins (korean version) - aka the more one track determined bloodhound on the chase side of L :)

Rage is a clear glass that reveals the heart The voice screaming 'justice' makes but a hollow pun You act like a martyr but you're a hypocrite / You are a hypocrite pretending to be a Martyr Inside your chest is just a fake cross Darkness hides your eyes from sight You wantonly color the world of which you know nothing But acting/showing off as if you know everything You pretend to be the savior of the world

You have met your match Let us enjoy a round of game Be careful of your shadow Once it is tread upon, death it is It's that kind of game

Arrogant fool hiding behind high ideals Playing with lives, but you only fool yourself You're afraid of nothing, as if you are a god Well, I will show you what hell is With numbers and data, analyses of graphs I will engrave the laws of the world on your bones A dangerous match with an unknowable end has begun A tactical game with no mercy, no pity The dice are cast

Let us begin / Shall we start?

(Translations not mine - mix from YT under the vids in general ...)

[9800sblog]

I wanna give my two cents, my perspective, what I agree and disagree

seonghwa is NOT a fuckboy or someone who is into casual relationships.

based on tarot, he has specifically said he doesn't even wanna try.

based on astrology, seonghwa has lilith in libra, one of the things he most run from is romance, his sensuality, and he fears decision-making. he is inherently not a leader, but a follower 1. he is not one of the youngsters that defy traditional korean culture and have casual sex, parties and tattoos; no, he likes when things are decided for him, he admires tradition and fears not being good enough. libras follow the more traditional, housewife route, very linked to childhood and ho their mothers raised them 2. he has too incredibly high standards to even consider having one nightstands, he fears being too picky but he also fears not being picky enough.

seonghwa has eros in sagittarius, eros is a sex god, literally, eros signifies eroticism. he is very open to sex, and very curious about it, wants to learn as much as possible and try all sorts of different things. but sagittarius is a very spiritually inclined sign, seonghwa is only interested in sexualizing those he feels connected to. sagittarius are GREAT actors and incredibly private, they are very very good at pretending to feel a connection, to feel comfortable around any and everyone, so seonghwa looks for someone who can see beyond that, someone that he feels intensely connected to on a soul level, that can see every detail of his soul and laughs about it.

moon in cancer makes for someone who romanticizes too much (taylor swift has moon in cancer, no wonder he likes her so much). these are the types of people to look for romance like the books and movies (mingi cries watching romance, taylor swift wrote an entire album inspired by movies, conan gray can write romance lyrics out of stories he made up in his head, etc). seonghwa needs consistency and peace to feel comfortable. here's the thing tho, ateez (and lots of other idols) lives romance vicariously through fans, it's a fantasy and it's their job, it's a safe space for them to test the waters and be disappointed without heartbreak (mingi, moon in cancer, has said multiple times that he says things to fans to test what works and what doesn't, what is or isn't cool). that's where I see the "toxic relationships" tarot readers often talk about coming from. seonghwa is the most romantic with fans, he likes to live a fantasy because it's safe but millions of fans are not his partners, it doesn't feel good inside, it's not fulfilling and makes him resent them when fans inherently mess up (specially those that cross a line).

venus in aquarius does not make him inconsistent! seonghwa needs consistency in the core, the basis, as long as he finds a soul he understands and connects to, he's good. his standards for romance and relationship are different from majority, but that's the thing, seonghwa is a man. men are expected to lead a relationship and usually want a partner that is malleable and submissive, while he wants the opposite. aquarius is another intuitive and spiritual sign, again indicating seonghwa has no interest for relationships or connections that are shallow. which is why "dating" fans is such an inviting habit for him, there's the feeling of destiny (atiny=ateez+destiny), there's consistency in the core, but there's also diversity and options, fans are in control in the kpop industry, which he likes in a partner, etc etc. plus aquarius is the weird sign, venus rules appearance and aesthetic, seonghwa has said he felt too ugly to look in a mirror when he was younger, he is not confident enough to go after relationships.

aries are social warriors, they look confident because they are intense but they are some of the most fearful and insecure people I have ever seen.. the relationship with the father (or boss or job) is very intense and defining. sun in aries, mars in aries, mercury in aries, saturn in aries. I can't speak confidently about this because I have never heard about seonghwa's dad, but I will say that's why he gets so well with hongjoong and didn't get along with mingi at first. the relationship with hongjoong currently defines who seonghwa is, what's his drive, his hobbies, etc. hongjoong is full of capricorn and scorpio, he provides exactly what seonghwa needs - independence, consistency and volatility; hongjoong is a workaholic through and through, traditional in his ruling, artistic in his expression, attentive and considerate in his communication and soulful in his connecting. seonghwa is never gonna be a fuckboy as long as hongjoong is around, I promise you. and he's not gonna waste time with relationships that don't fulfill him either, "did I teach you to dream small?", ateez have really high standards because they have a fantastic leader, I could not think of someone better to lead the youth than hongjoong, seriously, this dude is outstanding.

seonghwa's biggest red flag is just his lack of confidence and intense emotions. i agree that, when the right person arrives, he might take a while to understand, but I really think that his ideal partner would lead the relationship so he doesn't have much to worry about.. he just gotta have patience, which he certainly lacks

Hey there! I actually wrote a post about seonghwa’s birth chart on my astrology tumblr tumblr.com/theastromind/687260161693433856/seonghwa-astrology-observation in a way it basically says he idealises relationships and uses them as a way to escape. Also having an Aquarius venus he finds it hard to make connections sometimes. I was actually going to make another in depth post about it, but yeah if you’d like to know more let me know!

Hello Alice!!✨

Well i took a look and some aspects are really similar to what @whatudowhennooneseesyou said sometimes. From my point of view he really wants a soulmate, we even said this in another convos (on my profile, if you want to see, you can scroll down!). Back to the point, after some convos with anons and an analysis, i think that his soul’s longing is abou a soulmate, the person his soul calls. Yet i agree that sometimes he just want some love, physical intimacy, you know, feel loved and cared for.

I have some gossip about his relationships and they don’t tend to be healthy, like in the beginning it’s all flowers but then ???? I don’t know exactly what happens, but after reading both astrological analysis i believe that he idealize the relationship with the person and get frustrated when it isn’t like what he expected + the fact that deep down he will only can settle down with his soulmate. But doesn’t seem easy to him tho, looks like he always end in some sort of toxic relationship, like boy look at the mirror you deserve more YOU’RE PARK SEONGHWA!

i think he is very balanced both head and heart, doesn’t tend to be irresponsible and impulsive, but yet when he likes someone he tends to go a little blind. The problem is that everyone he have an some sort of relationship, he thinks is THE ONE, when is not, and then he frustrates himself when he realizes it. I swear i can see him like “okay that was the last one I won’t date again until the one appears” when he is at his lowest but then the sadness turn into angry and he just says “fuck it” and goes out there to have some …fun. But as Ruby said, doesn’t last too long because isn’t what he truly desires.

Beside what some people say about his xyz house in birth chart (I don’t understand) about him having tendencies to cheat, I disagree and make Ruby’s words mine. He is fucking romantic deep down. I think that his trouble with commitment is because what i said before: he always think he found the one when actually is just one more toxic relationship 🤡 so this way, he gets a little traumatized and in the end, can’t connect with a person who would treat him right, because he is used to toxicity, and a healthy thing would sounds so weird that he can’t go for it, the boy already got colorblind by the red flags. Btw you nailed in your analysis! I agree with everything you said about this topic

So when the right person comes to him, he might be the red flag one, not wanting something serious because “is going to be just like others”. He might can’t believe that actually the right person came and act like the fuckboy, i wish a lot of strength for his person. I think he will feel that this time it’s going to be different, but due his traumas and fear, he won’t accept it easily, but i think that once he realizes the truth, he’s going to change from the water to the wine. Fairytale romance, a lots of love and all!

I would love to discuss more, feel free to send me what you think in my asks or my dms! Thank you ✨🫶🏻

[danielxrk]

                        ✞ SELF WRITTEN RAP *   HEAT

( * mentioned, some very briefly: @rkxsungwoon @rkminhyun @rkkenta @rkpwj @haknyeonrk  @rkjeongin​  @rkeunji @joohyunrk @yuzurk @rkyuri @hyojinrk @rkpjy @jacksxnrk @rkjeonghxn @rkyeji @rksuwoong @rktaeyang @rkmason )

it’s like daniel doesn’t breathe from the moment the judges return from their deliberations. it’s not like last season, at least not yet-- no personal feedback and eliminations, and considering the sheer number of contestants, it makes sense, even if he didn’t consider how it would happen. he holds kenta and minhyun’s hands, and he doesn’t know if it’s to aid them or himself. he’s more nervous for them. daniel doesn’t know if he’ll make it, but he doesn’t really need this show-- doesn’t have the same talents to show as the others. he already got his experience from last season. this is what he tells himself to calm his nerves, anyway, and to quell that growing greed and hunger: i want this. this time i want to win.

sungwoon’s name comes first-- a given. daniel would probably leave the competition if he continued to the second round without him, but they don’t know if he’ll even get that far yet. minhyun’s name comes next, and daniel squeezes his hand in acknowledgement. next it’s woojin, and daniel lets himself get his hopes up. can they all continue on together? kenta is the one he worries for most. he doesn’t know how long kenta and woojin have both been dancing, but he doesn’t think it’s been long, and woojin’s dancing seems a little sharper-- a little more powerful, even to daniel’s untrained eye. his grip on kenta’s hand tightens, and he doesn’t know if it’s for his friend’s sake or his own. then his name comes, and daniel exhales, and it takes a moment for it to sink in. when it does, he throws is arms over both minhyun and kenta’s shoulders as best as he can and shakes them out of excitement.

they’re all going on together. he tells himself he won’t be greedy and hope for more than this; two rounds with all of them is more than enough-- a blessing, an honor, a privilege. he doesn’t know if they’ll get more than that, but he’ll enjoy it while they can.

it takes a moment to reel himself in and listen as they explain the next round, and there’s a pit in his stomach mixed with some intrinsic motivation. competing in your best skill. his mind flashes back to that room on audition day, of last year especially-- and the way his resolve shook more and more with each singer, undoubtedly more talented. the performances today only confirmed that fact. he knows he improved since last year, but he also knows it’s not enough. he looks from minhyun to sungwoon subtly-- both dear friends, and better singers than him. he doesn’t want to compete with that, not just because he knows he can’t, but because he doesn’t want to risk scraping by by the skin of his teeth and stealing a spot from one of them.

the singing category will be more competitive. he knows this, and among all of that talent, surely he’ll be below the cutoff. is there anywhere he won’t be below the cutoff? dancing is out, obviously, so his mind wanders to rap. it’s a new skill for him, and one he knows he has no right to believe he can win in, yet there’s a part of him that wonders. if he can put up a fight, does he have a better chance there than singing, among less contestants-- with more spots available to them? he was eliminated last year because in a team among singers, he was clearly the worst. he doesn’t know if his growth is enough to prevent that again, and the last thing he wants to do is go out the same way. he didn’t come back to repeat history. at the very least, he wants to go down swinging.

his thought process is broken by sungwoon getting up, and claiming he's going to switch to rap. daniel's brain short-circuits, expression going completely blank. can you even rap? he overhears from someone in front of them, inevitably one of the people cheering through the entire show, and sungwoon demands someone beatbox for him, and daniel is just caught in the crossfire of this. sungwoon then proceeds to drop an incredibly fire freestyle (see: horrible, even though daniel kind of thinks it's cute.) by the end, he knows he's just kidding, but daniel is also on his feet.

sungwoon makes it clear it's a joke, and daniel laughs but--

"no, but i'm actually switching to rap," daniel says, only to be met with blank faces all around.

sungwoon's why goes unspoken, so daniel's voice drops low, only for him to hear: "i got eliminated when all i had to do was sing." that's enough for sungwoon to understand.

daniel turns back to the others, smile on his face. "don't worry, guys. i've got this."

narrator: he does not got this (yet)

it's not that he regrets his decision upon beginning preparation for his performance, it's just that...he wishes he was better. he wishes he was better at everything-- that his singing was even remotely remarkable so he had a chance there, that he had more natural rapping talent that emerged when he picked it up for trc's triple threat challenge, just for fun. he wants more, and he can't help but feel where he's lacking will become abundantly clear next episode. but what can he do but try his best? it doesn't stop him from doubting, and there are more than a few times he wishes he stuck with singing, with all of the songs in his back pocket that would suit him singing with his trusty guitar. rap? he has nothing.

haknyeon proves a big help, not just in cleaning up his rapping itself, but in helping him find songs. he helps daniel narrow down the song choices he picked out among the "khiphop" playlist he found on spotify, trying desperately to latch onto anything relatable that he could regurgitate on stage. there were rap songs he heard when he lived in vancouver too-- english, but none of them stood out as something he'd like to perform. by saturday, he's narrowed it down significantly, and has an inkling of an idea.

his dad calls him after the episode airs; apparently mina convinced him to watch it with her, and daniel doesn't know whether to feel relieved or not that he and his sister's silent agreement to never speak of his time on the mgas last year is broken now. all of his family knows how much he loves music now, so it's fine, right? still, there's more pressure. to his surprise, he isn't met with harshness; it's more you did well and you wrote that song? and i wish they showed more of it and even if we wish you would've done different, i'll be supporting you and remember, glorifying god is the most important thing. it's better than daniel expected, and it's not like he's wrong. he wants to show a different side of himself than he did last round, and that's partially why he chose rap, but he doesn't know how to really display that and remain true to himself, too.

he showed different sides of himself last season too, from singing a worship song out of panic at his first audition to...whatever he did for troublemaker. even if he's distanced himself from his mother, and the kind of organized religion he couldn't untie from her, his faith is still strong-- an unshakable and undeniable part of daniel at his core, and it feels like if he didn't show that on this competition it...wouldn't be right. if he believes what the bible says is true, that's his primary purpose in life, so shining the light on god on stage feels like the least he can do.

it's what compels him to delve into the world of christian rap, even if the lyrics of it all is in english. that's an important side of himself too, so he isn't opposed to rapping in english this round, even if the meaning would be lost on much of the audience. katie lee at least knows english, right? would her name be katie lee if she didn't? he can probably get away with it. he settles on five different ideas, but he's not content with the songs alone. he knows if he wants to stand out, or have any chance against these rappers better and more experienced than him, he has to do what he does best: write lyrics.

he hasn't ventured into the realm of writing raps before, but now's the time.

his intention at first is to rap part of the original song of whatever he chooses in the end, and write his own verse to finish out the song, or maybe to start it out-- he isn't sure yet, but then he thinks...is that enough? he starts venturing out into the land of instrumental beats. he reminds himself that he doesn't have much experience with rapping-- that it's greedy to think he can write a full rap himself and stand a chance, and yet...what does he have to set him apart other than this? he doesn't have remarkable skill. if he writes one verse on his own, he has the sliver of a chance to stand out, but if he does more...

maybe everyone will wonder if he's capable of performing anyone else's songs after two weeks of original content in a row, if he truly goes down this path. but if he makes it further than this, won't he have the chance to prove it? he might not get the chance to share his own words again for the entirety of the competition. if he makes it further, he'll show that too. he has enough songs he wants to cover that aren't his own, he just needs to show everything he has to show, and in the end, all he really has to show are...his own words.

if he's going to rap, it needs to have impact. he needs to make up for anywhere he lacks with something hard-hitting, and it needs to be in the rap itself, but the instrumental is important, too. that sets the tone for the entire performance, and he can't even begin to work on the lyrics without settling on that. what he is settled on: this is what he's doing. he's going to write his own rap.

that train of thought is how he somehow ends up listening to girl groups-- entirely unfamiliar territory for daniel, outside of eclipse, whom he recently discovered and somewhat likes thanks to chase me. he knows luxe is that group sungwoon likes, or something, and k.arma is that group jeongin likes, but he hasn't listened to either of them before. he finds himself drifting to their instrumentals naturally, and he thinks...what better way to stand out than to rap over a girl group's instrumental? it'll be shocking in general, especially from someone like daniel, who seemed so trapped in the mold of singer-songwriter and guy in a metal band. i feel good is too fast, even for someone surprisingly capable of rapping at high speeds for how long he's been rapping. he can't wrap his head around how he would even begin to rap over news. every night is way more in the realm of possibility, but he isn't really sure if it suits what he wants. what does he want? a mystery. he ventures further into girl groups-- more obscure ones, ones he's never heard of, and he finds a song with a good instrumental, and luckily, when he searches for the instrumental itself, it appears.

next, his confidence wavers, and he bobbles back and forth on whether to use an existing rap song as his framework-- only writing a verse himself, or if he wants to go the full nine yards. he's painfully aware of the time he's wasting with each passing hour, so he enlists the help of empty enigma in deciding. kenta encourages him to rap over another beat, claiming daniel's good sense of rhythm will be able to make it sound cool, and if that wasn't enough, in asking, it becomes clear what daniel hopes they'll say. maybe he just needed an extra confidence boost to actually do this.

he spends the next days with his time equally spent between his own home and the empty enigma apartment, scrawling lyrics into his notebook that holds countless songs, well-worn. there, he raps them quietly to himself, under his breath. it's mostly just him, sungwoon and minhyun here, woojin and kenta out practicing their dancing in more appropriate places, inevitably. it doesn't stop him from pestering them all over which version of his lyrics sound better. (if jealousy is just your fate i guess that might be fine too or if jealousy is how you're made i guess that might be fine too?) but he doesn't rap much of it out loud, preferring to leave it as a surprise for the day of his performance, but they probably hear enough bits and pieces to add it all up into the whole song, anyway. in his own apartment, rapping his written lines over and over again as he goes about his daily routine until they're seared into his memory and flow off of his tongue as close to second nature as possible.

he needs all the help standing out this round that he can get. now he just needs to make sure it's good.

he trails into the venue after the rest of his bandmates, just like before, and something about the reduced number of chairs makes his stomach feel sick. it's a reminder that even if they all survived to this round, their chances of doing so again grow slimmer and slimmer, as that number of chairs lessens. their group hesitates, searching for somewhere to sit, and daniel and sungwoon make eye contact in a silent understanding that they don't want to sit near the people they sat with last episode. "hey, let's go sit over here!" daniel suggests good naturedly, leading them to the other side of the stage, and they take a seat in the same row as they did before, in a completely different area than previously.

sungwoon sits down first. "i'm sitting next to you this time," daniel says, no room for argument, and sits down right beside him. kenta sits in the seat next to him again, woojin next to him, minhyun on the end beside sungwoon, and that puts daniel right in the middle. it's what he deserves, for how much emotional support he's going to need for this round. much to daniel's relief, eunji's group sits where they sat last time, well away from daniel and the rest of empty enigma, and he feels some of the tension in his shoulders fade. as close as he is to joohyun, it's probably better they don't sit together too, if only for sungwoon's sake (and so daniel can hold his hand as long as he wants, guilt-free.)

he watches as more contestants fill in, the seats growing full quickly, but the ones in front of them remain open. that doesn't last for long. daniel watches in sheer and utter horror as the people he recognizes from the loud and overwhelming row in front of them from last round and kenta, of all things, motions them over. daniel and sungwoon turn, a staring-into-the-camera-like-they're-on-the-office moment, but staring at each other instead, and daniel sees the moment where sungwoon really considers getting up and leaving the rest of them by themselves to deal with this. really, valid reaction. maybe daniel could follow him, and sungwoon alone would be all the support he needs for this; he acknowledges that as a very likely reality, but it doesn't mean he wants to leave the others. "don't leave me with them," he whispers, eyes pleading, hand on his arm to make sure he can't so easily get away, and that seems to do the trick.

as if that wasn't bad enough, a girl he recognizes as yena comes over and starts talking to kenta, and-- actually, this part isn't so bad. he says hi to her with a smile, otherwise observing their conversation quietly, always the better listener than conversationalist. he knows yena, though-- met her at a festival a while ago and maybe...met her as cameo. that part, he doesn't entirely remember. she takes her leave soon enough.

the performances start up more quickly this time, and he supposes that makes sense with half the contestants. they'll start with the singers. that gives daniel some time to prepare-- or to sit through countless people better than him and psych himself out, depending on your perspective. he tries to distract himself with the performances to calm his nerves, but he reaches for sungwoon's hand almost as soon as they begin, and he doesn't let go. in it he finds comfort-- leverage, stability, something a little grounding that brings his head and flying thoughts back down to earth.

yena performs first, and she's charming, as he remembers her being. her voice isn't the best, and he can relate, but she still makes a nice performance, and he hopes he'll be able to do the same for the rap category. there's another performer he doesn't recognize, and then it's sungwoon's turn before he knows it. he squeezes his hand in encouragement, and smiles up at him as he stands. this time feels different than last round; he's less dazed and distant, and thinks he won't be as caught off guard, unless sungwoon decides to serenade him without him knowing again-- can he call it that? is that what it was? when sungwoon takes to the stage, daniel feels like those walls that they've been chipping away at since the end of march might finally be coming down. as always, sungwoon does well-- voice always prevailing above everything, powerful over any background noise, commanding all attention. if it's not that, it's his presence, and both go together to create an incredible performer. he doesn't even have to be doing anything, he can just stand there and sing. daniel wishes he could do that. it's just one of the many things daniel admires him for, and he always has, from the moment he met him. sungwoon's two minutes pass too quickly, and the brief respite daniel found suspended in his voice ends with it.

sungwoon returns, and when he does, daniel narrows his eyes. what the hell is he carrying? kenta catches on before daniel does-- ah, yes, shoelifts. daniel can't relate. "what...happened?" daniel asks. how did his shoelifts get from...his shoes to his hands? he just looks back and forth from hi to kenta wildly as the ensuing argument happens, eyes ever widening, countless words he could say on the tip of his tongue but never coming out as the conversation barrels on. "you're both--" not that short, he wants to say, but as a certified tall person, he has no right, and he also realizes he doesn't know how often he's seen them without insoles. he feels oddly betrayed by this realization suddenly, and sungwoon is hollering about seeing kenta's feet and kenta is talking about makeup on feet and daniel blinks in utter despaired confusion. "can we stop talking about feet.." he mutters sadly, and thank god, they do.

once they finally settle down, daniel utters a quiet "you did well," to sungwoon, and squeezes his hand one more time. he retracts it quickly though, out of fear of overdoing it, or making his attachment too obvious, or annoying him, or something else he probably has no reason to worry about but will anyway, as always. his hand is sweaty anyway. he rubs it on his pants, as subtly as he can.

a girl sings next, and daniel vaguely recognizes her-- maybe these performers stuck in his head more than he thought after all. minhyun is up next though; he knows this because he's been keeping track in alphabetical order as best as he can. if he's not up next it's soon, and he's just as quickly proven right. he leans forward far enough just to look at him and say, "good luck minhyun hyung!" somehow, he's surprised by minhyun's talent again, as he is each time. maybe he keeps getting better, or maybe he can't dissociate minhyun as manager of the band, always someone behind the scenes instead of someone deserving of the stage, and capable of filling one all by himself. he likes watching him, though, and he wonders if minhyun feels the same as he did last year: like the mgas are showing him he really does have a place on stage.

they need to get through several singers after that, and daniel zones in and out-- in for yuri, who stood out to him last round, and to hyojin, his unexpected collaboration partner, and in for jinyoung, whose performance he liked last time and who seems...vaguely familiar? he tries to pay attention to jackson too, if only for rockstar solidarity, and by then, the singers are already finished. somehow, it simultaneously went faster and slower than he expected, like some kind of time warp. he almost says something like you already performed, so now you get to be bored instead of nervous, to sungwoon, but becomes keenly aware of the cameras and dangling microphones and how unkindly that might paint him, so quickly decides against it.

besides, now that dancers are up, he has a new stake in this. joohyun starts off, so it's with a bang, naturally, and daniel finds himself far more nervous watching her now than last round, knowing she's dancing with an injury. he's on the edge of his seat the entire time, expression probably set in something close to a grimace, but when he realizes, he tries to control it, because that won't show well on camera either. then it happens: she stumbles, and his heart drops, and that grimace is back on his face, justifiably so, and he prays she makes it through safely from now on. he should've prayed for her from the start. he should've prayed for all of them.

she makes it through-- finishes as strong as she can, but daniel knows joohyun, and knows she'll be devastated. part of him thinks this is his fault; he didn't shut down her idea of joining the show again. he wanted her here with him, even if it wasn't the best for her, and now she's suffering for it. when she steps off stage, he stands up on instinct, without much thought, craning his neck to see her on the other side of the stage-- to make sure she's okay. he wants to do something. in his heart, he wants to run over to her to check for himself, to see if he can do anything to help. he doesn't even know if mnet will let him leave his seat, or if he'll only make things worse, but sungwoon says, "go check to see if she's okay," from beside him, and it's like that releases him to. he nods, and lets his feet carry him to her side, where he pulls her into a hug as soon as he can, suddenly immune to eunji's presence and everything else. "you did the best you could," he whispers, still lingering in the hug. "you're really brave and i wish i could be more like you." he knows he can't stay too long, so he pulls away, ruffles her hair, and just watches her for a moment. he nods at her, slowly, some silent message exchanged between them: i know you. you're strong and you can get through this. she nods back.

he heads back to his seat, and his eyes still drift back to joohyun across the stage from him once he's seated. he accidentally meets the gaze of the man beside her-- one of the people he saw comforting joohyun before he could. daniel doesn't remember his name, but his eyes bore into him so fiercely that something about it brings a chill to his blood, so he looks away.

daniel expects to dissociate through the dancers, if only because he couldn't tell the difference between dancers' talent if it smacked him in the face, but his cousin, yeji, performs early, and eunji after that. he feels too guilty to even watch eunji, even if he wants to, so he stares, unfocused, through the chair in front of him, painstakingly, through her full performance. he pays a little more attention to the others, but it all blurs together until he hears suwoong's name called, and he perks up, if only because he expects this to be interesting after trot ring ding dong. he isn't disappointed.

woojin is next up, and he does a silent "fighting" gesture to his friend as he stands up, even if he doesn't even know if woojin saw it. when woojin takes to the stage, daniel still can't believe he didn't even know woojin could dance. he's this good and daniel didn't even know. what did daniel miss? did woojin keep it that under wraps or is he just stupid? a mystery. when in doubt, assume both. he claps for him enthusiastically when he steps off stage, and makes sure to tell him he did a good job, too. kenta's performance is up next, and daniel somewhat roughly pats his back to send him off, big smile on his face, and daniel watches him just as intently. it's a performance that really suits kenta, more than he thought his last one did, truthfully, and he's so thankful he gets to show this side of him on the competition at least once. it's so sincerely kenta that it's only appropriate.

he pays attention to taeyang's performance after too, a little shocked by how many contestants in this show he actually knows-- a little worried about how painful eliminations will be from here on out. sometime-- maybe at the end of the dancers, or the beginning of the rappers --daniel's hand finds sungwoon again with the resurgence of his nerves. mason is in rap, of all things, and daniel didn't anticipate that much, for some reason. he's so good. daniel both has goosebumps because of the impactfulness of the performance and because he's suddenly terrified. when it ends, he looks over at sungwoon pointedly-- meaningfully, but eyes completely devoid of life. how do i follow that? still, he finds something comforting in sungwoon's gaze, and when he looks away, he lets out a long exhale and tries to recenter himself, still clutching sungwoon's hand like a lifeline.

he spends the rest of the rappers preceding him doing deep breathing exercises and detaching from this current plane of existence, making the executive decision that scoping out the competition before he performs will only cause his confidence to plummet. he hears their instrumentals start and stop in the background-- becomes distinctly aware of performances passing by --and he knows he should be about in the middle, realistically. he doesn't know the names of all of these rappers, but k is in the middle of the alphabet, and it seems like there are a lot of choi's. he spends much of his time leaning just a little bit forward, head hanging so he can stare at the ground instead of the stage, but he still holds on to sungwoon's hand. his gaze starts to drift toward sungwoon even more, like he's waiting for him to say something. he wants this to feel the way it does before empty enigma shows-- that confidence and adrenaline, that certainty that he was born to do this, that...not being alone. he half wants sungwoon to flirt with him, that trademark of squall and cameo that anchored him to the moment and who he needed to be before stepping on stage more than he realized, like that'll awaken something stronger in him. he looks at him again, like maybe he'll get the hint, slip him something small and unassuming, but his name is up too quickly.

yes, he needs something bigger than himself: an alter ego or divine intervention, so as he walks toward the stage, he prays. please give me confidence. remind me of all my words, help me stay on beat, calm my nerves. help me to do what you want me to do. let's do this.

they hand him the microphone once he steps on stage, and he bows, grin stretching across his face on instinct. he bows first to the crowd, then to the judges. "i'm kang daniel," he introduces himself on this stage for the second time. "and i'll be rapping for you. ah-- you already know that," he realizes, and laughs at himself, which also appears to be a common theme. "this is an original rap, and i...apologize in advance." smile fades to something a little more cheeky. he'll just leave it at that.

he turns around, back to the audience and the cameras, and pulls up his hood. his beat begins, and he has no time to waste.

i’m here with a new skill since the last time

i know i’m not the best; for now i’ve got a few rhymes

i only have two minutes but won’t start out with my best lines

i saved the best for last the way this beat climbs

he didn't actually write this portion of his lyrics first-- he wrote them all out of order, based on whatever popped into his head, then revised and rearranged. this part in particular is meant to be a buildup to the rest, as stated, but also as a build up for his confidence: a sign of things to come and a chance to be underestimated by the audience so his later lyrics pack the punch he wants them to. shades of season four's daniel: timid, unassuming, in over his head. he's not that daniel anymore, and he's about to prove it.

god told me to be strong for he is with me

so with your eyes on me i’ll pretend i don’t feel scrutiny

this battle isn’t mine, he’ll defeat every enemy

and i’ll still love you anyway, proverbs 24:17

if you want to live through this you better be holy

and be prepared to bow down, every knee

so go ahead and tear me up

i’ve already heard enough

every criticism is like my heart’s handcuff

the buildup of the beat kicks in halfway through this part, and the words roll off of his tongue quickly, like he practiced time after time, over and over until his tongue felt strange in his mouth. he makes use of the stage now, gestures along with the rap, nerves ebbing and dissipating entirely. he means all of this more than any rap he could've covered. this: a reference to his faith, still intrinsic to his nature, but more obvious last season given the song he performed for his first audition in a panic. maybe he added this because of what his dad said: make sure to glorify god. he knows he can't step on this stage within his own power, so this is a shout out to the one that really makes it all possible-- plus a little self-righteousness, of course, because who wants to hear a rap without confidence? when he says bow down he makes the gesture with his free hand: vertical to horizontal, but this is still the build up of his confidence. in this is still the admission that the criticism-- not just from the mgas, but from his entire life --still gets to him. it's a part of him now.

the drum kicks in, the beat builds up and up, and leads him into what may be his favorite set of lines:

i can be your idol rapper

i can be your firecracker

i can just stay quiet because my opinion never matters

i can work myself to death

i can give up my success

but i can never be enough

an ode to his willingness to be whatever anyone else wants him to be-- to the fire in him, from cameo or otherwise, to his mother's if you have nothing nice to say don't say anything at all, to sacrifice upon sacrifice upon sacrifice, and the end result: that unshakable feeling of unworthiness.

then the beat drops.

i have less experience

but i can already spit

heat, heat

competition has departed

i’m only just getting started

heat, heat

is my talent now surprising?

temperature is always rising

heat, heat

this year i have passion

i’m ready to cash in

heat, heat

heat, said in english. in the end, it's all about that fire. he said it in his thanks to for between fear and faith: thank you to my parents for raising me well and not supporting me doing music so i would know how much this really meant to me, and so i could take the fire that lit in me and put it into this album. there's so much that lit a fire in him that he couldn't put into this rap, but it fuels him. as much as he brags, however, there's something a little subdued about heat, like it's not quite a fire yet-- the feeling it gives off, but not the flame-- something with room to grow into something greater, just like him. he makes use of the stage, refusing to just stand in the middle, but playing to the crowd, and now that he begun, it feels natural, and it feels the same: that exchange of energy, between cameo and fans in an underground club, between daniel and his fellow contestants in the mga venue. he waves his free hand up and down, encouraging the audience to do the same like any decent performer at a concert-- reaches out  like he's about to touch one of the contestant's hands, but they're too far out of reach, so he turns and half-skips across the stage.

the beat stays strong and ushers in the second verse, and when his bragging truly begins, and by this point in the song, he's sufficiently grown into it.

i’m not supposed to do this so my mom won’t even watch me

music isn’t good enough, disappointment to the family

but you’ll still catch me on the stage, bass riffs every weekend

i deserve a world tour, self-made songs, best friends

it's all true, all self explanatory, and when he gets to the best friends part, he intentionally points to empty enigma on their side of the stage and smiles, though there's a bite to it. he embraces it-- lets cameo leak into this performance, because with all secrets exposed, there's no need to keep anything separate anymore. despite their differences, they're the same, and this performance requires more attitude than daniel was ever capable of on his own.

our god is greater, shaky voice, season four

now i’m back on every site, certified uproar

you’re tired of my face, right?

i’m too weak, i’m too bad, won’t put up a fight, right?

four fingers held up four season four, and a reference to his first abysmal, pathetic audition that still got him into the competition somehow, and he bounces across the stage, not unlike the way he does at empty enigma's shows. when he asks his questions, he smirks-- pauses in his movements briefly to put a hand on his hips, then nods toward tiger jk at the end before he picks up where he left off, still animated. (maybe he's out of breath-- maybe just a little. he didn't account for how active he'd be on stage during his practice, but he hopes his energy and commitment to the performance makes up for anywhere he lacks.)

he circles around the stage, searching for somewhere to land-- ends up right back in front of empty enigma, so he crouches down and raps to the row in front of them. who's loud now? you better cheer for me too.

you don’t even know that cameo is in my back pocket

bring the best of both and watch my album sales skyrocket

you wish fans would scream your name and buy your merch like mine do

if jealousy is just your fate, i guess that might be fine too

this goes out to cameo; he deserves his own lines. without him-- the lie he was crafted out of, the character and beast of his own he grew into, the spirit he carries with him on stage --none of this would've been possible. without cameo, there would be no daniel in empty enigma, none of his best friends, none of this newfound passion, none of this joy, and even if his identity is revealed now, and he puts cameo to a certain kind of death, he'll always be thankful for him and what he represented. (not yet, he thinks. he'll keep him around for a little bit longer.)

he points to empty enigma again, then stands up and works his way toward the other side of the stage. oh yeah, those increased album sales would be nice too. stream between fear and faith on melon.

i wrote 40 songs this year; it’s fine if you can’t beat me

write bad comments, feel like how i’ll win this-- free

you can hate me but i’m still right here on your tv

and i’ll still get more screentime than your faves, so watch me

they're the final lines, and the ones meant to pack the biggest punch, hence their position at the end: perpetual build up in his confidence so he can finally say through rap what he'd never be bold enough to in person. he doesn't really mean it, but what's a rap if not delivered with confidence, even when you don't mean it, or it's unwarranted? he hopes now, his audience is at least a little impressed with his lyrics, even if they aren't with his rap itself: tone nothing special, only good for rapping fast and little else. he doesn't think about it now. instead, he uses the signature crazy hand gesture near his head and turns in a circle to face away from the audience again, only to spin out for the return of the final chorus.

i have less experience

but i can already spit

heat, heat

competition has departed

i’m only just getting started

heat, heat

is my talent now surprising?

temperature is always rising

 heat, heat

this year i have passion

i’m ready to cash in

heat, heat

he soaks in the final moments: this energy, this electricity, and doesn't let himself think about how this hit, or what people think. the daniel in this moment doesn't care about that. all he focuses on is ending strong, and making sure he puts on a good show until the very end, because now, that's more important to him than showing off his skills-- more important than anything. heat, heat, and then it's over.

he bursts into a smile as soon as it is, and bows, twice once more, before handing his mic off. he practically bounds off stage, back to his seat, giving high fives to anyone that will accept one on his way back, and maybe, just maybe, it's fire after all.

[epikhightrans]

Epik High - Rosario (feat. CL & ZICO) (Keep reading for lyrics)

CL: You came as a rose And left me behind with nothing but thorns My dear

Tablo: Be good while I’m still around Shut up when I’m away and be good while I’m around If you truly wanted to sit back and relax F**k “rest in”, just keep saying “peace” You ain’t missin’ nobody You’re missin’ a heart Isn’t it as easy as an easy murder? Whatever I do, it becomes a sin As if everyone is so spotless? How come there are this many saints? Don’t even shed me a teardrop Afraid of the law but none of y’all fear God Pretending to be clean, trying so hard So what if you’re awake? With bloodshot eyes You do as you please, f**k out my way Little bastard, who do you think you’re talking down to? After all, my existence always assumed loneliness If you weren’t around when I shed tears, You don’t deserve me when I laugh

CL: Do what I wanna Say what I wanna Hurry, bite and yap away Don’t want your prayers Don’t want your roses Ain’t no one dyin’ today Out of my way I am a legend and I’m here to stay Did it my way Whatever I stepped on became the way When it rains, I’ll dance in the rain Yapping away Ain’t no one givin’ a f**k what you say

Zico: Thank you my haters The honour is all yours Handwriting my epic narrative with your malicious comments I’m Catholic; even on the verge of death, I desperately believed in art [1] I stoop to conquer While pretending to run away, I led the way You didn’t know? Don’t expect any failures I don’t take breaks That’s right, incapabilities are beyond my abilities Zico is finally cancelled Arrogance got him all screwed up Less than a year after, Swallowed the Melon whole, the rind and all [2] If you’re offended, punch in these coordinates Don’t even know what the book is about, just busy holding it You’d prefer anonymous, because whatever you see is all there is I’ve given everyone a chance to unbox this luxury item Here, unwrap it Bite me now

CL: Out of my way I am a legend and I’m here to stay Did it my way Whatever I stepped on became the way When it rains, I’ll dance in the rain Yapping away Ain’t no one givin’ a f**k what you say Mithra Jin: I hear mad dogs howling all day When they cross the line and get on my nerves, my flesh gets bitten off Those hands, hidden in the dark and dancing with swords Throw at me with ease, like a single word, A flower with nothing left but thorns Unrestrained and merciless Try shaking me, I wouldn’t budge With the rocks you throw, I build stairs My voice passes through walls and cross the border You’re still a speck of dust in my eyes Whether or not I shake it off, there’s no gain I don’t waste my time Even if I spend all my life working hard to build a tower The world would tear it down But I lay yet another stone

CL: Do what I wanna Say what I wanna Hurry, bite and yap away Don’t want your prayers Don’t want your roses Ain’t no one dyin’ today Out of my way I am a legend and I’m here to stay Did it my way Whatever I stepped on became the way When it rains, I’ll dance in the rain Yapping away Ain’t no one givin’ a f**k what you say Out of my way

Tablo/CL: Out of my way I am a legend and I’m here to stay Did it my way Did it my way Whatever I stepped on became the way I paved the way I paved the way For everyone that is pavin’ the way Yapping away Ain’t no one givin’ a f**k what you say Moment of silence

© epikhightrans [1]: “예술을 믿었었지 (I believed in art)” is homonymous to “예수를 믿었었지 (I believed in Jesus)” [2] Melon is a major Korean music streaming/downloading platform.

[hopelessromantic-juyeon]

august 8th 2021, 00:00 kst

there are billions of stars in the night sky . . .

. . . yet your smile shines the brightest

˗ˏˋ @chinchillateezboyz ´ˎ˗

[ ♡ ] happy birthday to the guy who can effortlessly make me smile whenever we're together and occupies all my thoughts whenever we're apart. the guy whose smile can singlehandedly brighten my day and whose laugh is so adorable it fills my stomach with a swarm of butterflies every single time. the guy who never fails to make my heart race, yet who also makes me feel safe and calm, as if everything will be okay as long as i have him. the guy who i wouldn't mind getting hurt for and by, even though he's assured me—and i wholeheartedly believe—that he never will hurt me.

talking about you and how much you mean to me, i can go on and on for forever, but then this post would be way too long and perhaps get sickeningly cheesy (not that you mind though, right?) so i'll try to keep this short and simple. it's mind-blowing, how much you've managed to change my life in so little time. but it's also almost scary, because it shows just how impactful you've been on me, especially how easily i started liking you. then again, you're so sweet and funny and charming in your own way, how could i ever resist? you told me before that you want to make me happy. rest assured that you have been doing exactly that and so much more, and i hope to be able to return the favor. especially today, on your day, a day that is all about you and appreciating you being here. i sure am glad that you're here, having you by my side, i wouldn't want it any other way. kim younghoon, you have my heart and i don't want it back. ever. once again, happy birthday my hoonie ♡

a little surprise for my baby under the cut 💕

**the video above was edited by admin (who actually isn't very good at editing ahsjaj) but she does not claim to own the clips and the song used, which is the original/korean version of rose by d.o.. full credit goes to the original owners. however, as this is still admin's work, please do not repost/reupload.

lyrics translation :

up above the clear blue sky, like a cloud following the wind, don’t go too far away, just stay where you are, my baby every day in my heart. you’re like a spring day, pretty and i love it, thinking what can i do to make you come to me, even though i look shy, and cheesy, i can’t help it, i love you baby. you’re the one that i think of when i wake up, i wonder if you know that, don’t pretend as if you don’t know, you know everything, oh maybe baby. even though i see you every day you’re still pretty and i love it, thinking what can i do to make you come to me, even though i look shy, and cheesy, i can’t help it, be my love baby. i go to a local florist, no matter how hard i think about, which flower i want to give you, the only flower i know is a rose, with courage, carrying an arm full of flowers, i’m coming to you. you are prettier than a rose actually, i can’t really express my feelings in words, even though i look shy, and cheesy, i can’t help it, from today we are lover

𝐢𝐦𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐭 @yanlee (og) @.chinchillateezboyz (my everything ♡, my lil buddy) @eunwoo-bot (best bro) @yanderetzuyuu (miss gotg) @wolfmina (1/2 of pack) @ahswitchescb @demigodyiren @lunaaofthemoon @loverboy-cb @realitystar-joy @stealerbots (close friendos)

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[commajade]

hii here's a nice/lighter ask, have you ever ranked an f(x) album? would you be willing to do pink tape or red light? id be curious to see!! have a good rest of ur day <3

YES THANK U!!! already did pink tape!! i like doing album rankings while i'm on a walk and my 12 year old brother came with me so there's 2 diff rankings for this now. we were on our way back and i made him sit at a park bench and watch the red light mv so he could get then complete ranking experience.

red light is truly an iconic moment in kpop history... pioneered the dark summer gg concept. remember when they released a halloween song in july. wow. also the mv is fantastic, tho i remember being upset they dressed amber so feminine this time around lol. baby gay me being upset in 2014.

1. red light - iconic iconic iconic and the rock version with luna's incredible solo bridge even more so. the military sounding clicking as percussion, the perfect build up, the buzzing sounds the rock guitar with the electro production. it's a very very korean song a very kpop song. honestly could be considered a perfect example of what to show when someone asks "what's kpop like?". the different sections are very different and distinct but put together with such slick confidence and it's a song that's meant to get u moving. amazing harmonies. and the song lyrics composition video all come together into a perfect cohesive whole.

2. dracula - i love halloween i love camp i love drama this song is so much fun. i love the harmonies.

when krystal pretends to bite that guy's neck!! perfection!! and released in july!!!!

3. summer lover - i love summer music... 시원해 it's all mountains and ocean road trip vibes i love it

4. spit it out - such interesting production honestly the most sonically interesting song in this album it's video game music and the central theme is clever korean wordplay. to gather courage in korean is "to eat your heart/put your heart in your mouth" and the song is like you were careless with my heart and ate it when you don't even want it, spit it out. not sure what genre of electro music the dance break is in (it's not quite dubstep) but i'm into it.

5. milk - love the analog sounds in the back and the experimental weirdness of the soundscape in general i can't say it's my fave but its v engrossing. that build up and back to chorus is so satisfying.

6. butterfly - reminds me of mr. boogie with the dark y2k club synths. the melody is soooo good i love the harmonies. sounds like a club bop but not quite. kinda sci fi space age sounding synths with i think repeated pentatonic scales?? deeply pleasing.

7. vacance - a little musical theater, a little rock, a lot retro, such refreshing harmonies and production. love luna's floaty effortless powerful high notes at the end.

8. all night - sooooo good such a good chill retro night time driving song. like a stripped down disco citypop sound. retro drumtrack and synth piano but has a lot of restraint when it comes to actual synths. i think the bass in this is real?

9. paper heart - very american sounding song

10. boom bang boom - i would put this on a work out playlist.

11. rainbow - 2014 clubbing song i don't think ever got any play at a club

my brother's ranking:

1. summer lover - feels 시원해, like refreshing

2. spit it out - the pew pew pew sounds r like they're spitting it out. sounds like a video game, 8 bit.

3. all night - i like this one because it reminds me of we ride by brave girls. i guess i like night themed songs and citypop. we ride is driving downtown in your car and all night is leaving the city at nighttime when most of the lights go out and streetlights and windows shining instead.

4. vacance - a montage song, a good one too. like they're getting their friends together to drive to las vegas.

5. dracula - halloween song

6. red light - the video was awesome. i like the lasers. and the projection. it has like a story. eyepatch. cat. the song was cool, it had tension. it was fast paced.

7. milk - the background beat is pretty cool.

8. paper heart - i wouldn't be good with a paper heart because i crease paper a lot

9. butterfly - sounds like an advertisement from a trampoline park.

10. boom bang boom - there's no explosions i was disappointed.

11. rainbow - i didn't like it. it didn't sound happy even tho it has rainbow as the title, i was expecting a happy summer song or a rainy song.

[letters-from-r]

I Burn: A Review

I'm not good at reviewing things but I thought I should say some things about (G)I-DLE's 4th mini album 'I Burn' since this is the first comeback I'll be witnessing as a Neverland. I know next to nothing about the technicalities of music, so I'll say what I want to say as easy as I can say it.

If you come across this post, please give the album a listen before reading my review. I recommend listening with headphones/headset! Here’s the link to the album on Spotify.

#1: HANN (Alone in Winter)

The first song on the abum is called HANN, which is a continuation to their previous song also called HANN. HANN 2.0 starts out exactly like it promises: chilling. A few piano beats that goes lower with each beat, a lone high beat followed by a lone low beat, all the while a strong wind blows in the background. It gave me the feeling of being isolated.

The song talks about a neverending winter after a breakup (one that happened preceding the events of HANN 1.0). Based on the lyrics, the main character seem to be in the middle of a very long winter, alone for a very long time. The line ‘Is it my greed to wait for your spring again?’ gives me the impression that the main character has not completely moved on from the ex yet, but there is an obvious negative feeling towards this ex as well.

I can tell that this song is supposed to be from the perspective of someone who is hurting, with Yuqi and Miyeon’s verses followed by a melodious shout (?) that seem to convey hurting. I can’t explain it very well but I can feel the emotions by the way they sing the lyrics.

The song is dominantly accompanied by piano, whose melody goes perfectly with the message the lyrics are communicating. Shuhua’s melodic ‘Lalala lalala’ adds to the overall melancholic feeling of the song.

When I first heard this song it didn’t have as strong of an impact on me as it does now, it’s a song that gets better the more you listen to it. I’ve watched quite a few fan edits of this song as well, and it goes well with period dramas and movies with sad endings. The title came from the Korean word ‘Han’ which is a feeling that cannot be directly translated to English, but from what I gathered it means something along the lines of feeling empty or void, alone, sad, the feeling of having lost someone, etc.

Overall, I give this song a rating of 9.3/10.

#2: HWAA (Fire, Flower) [Title Track]

I think even if Soyeon didn’t say beforehand that HANN (Alone), HANN (Alone in Winter), and HWAA were connected, just by reading the lyrics I would definitely know. HWAA starts out with a Soyeon singing verse, which is one of my favorite things ever (because I know her raps are fire but girl can also sing so well!).

The song starts out cold as well, and it gets warmer as the song goes on. I love how you can especially tell that the song is cold with Minnie’s first verse. She does this thing with her voice that will make you feel chilly. As the song goes on, it will become bass-heavy, which I love.

The message that I got from this song is that the main character is now in their lowest of lows (’The darkness gets deeper’ from Soyeon’s first verse), which means they can only go up from there. The main character has finally cried all their tears (’I can’t live any more tears’ from Soojin’s first verse) and is now ready to bloom again.

Soyeon’s rap verse gives me the idea that the main character is ready to completely erase the memory of their ex (’I won’t leave any traces of you, even the resentment I can’t say is far and wide’), or at least use this to fuel their rebirth (’It will release the cold, enjoy spring again, all memories become fire or fertilizer’). Soyeon’s genius is especially evident in this track, because throughout the whole song she will keep referencing the title (HWAA) with both of its meaning (Fire, Flower) without it feeling disconnected from each other. ‘Fire will release the cold, enjoy spring again (with flowers), all memories become fire (to further fuel fire) or fertilizer (to nourish the flower).’ I think it’s absolutely brilliant!

In HANN (Alone) and HANN (Alone in Winter) it was kind of evident that the main character is resentful of or angry at their ex for what happened, and in HWAA the main character is still angry but for a different reason: they’re angry at losing their ‘spring’ and is now using this anger to fuel their rebirth (’I get mad, get mad even more to regain the lost spring’ from Yuqi’s verse).

The chorus to this song is a harmonic, melodic, singing of ‘HWAA’ from all of the members (but if I’m not mistaken the chorus itself is mostly led by Shuhua). At first it seemed lacking to put such little words in the chorus, but after watching (G)I-DLE’s latest I-Talk episode where Soyeon talks a little about HWAA, it now makes sense. Soyeon said that the way the chorus is sang represents how the fire burns (you’ll get it when you listen to it, at least I did). In fact, Shuhua’s line before the chorus (’Set fire’) kind of says it all.

Honestly, I wish I was born speaking Korean, or at least knew how to speak Korean, because I can only imagine how impactful these lyrics are. Soyeon has said in a behind the scenes video that she used old Korean words for this album to properly convey the message.

Overall, I give this song a 9.2/10.

#3: MOON

This track holds a special place in my heart because it’s one of two tracks composed by Minnie (yes, my bias). Also because the track is called ‘Moon’ which I think is pretty cool. Plus, the lyrics are written by Soyeon, so it’s guaranteed good.

When I hear the word ‘moon’ I automatically associate it with emotions, maybe it’s the hidden astrology bitch inside of me but anything that has to do with the moon I immediately think ‘emotions’. This track is one of those things, and I know I’m right this time.

The song starts with a Minnie verse, and from the start you’d know it’s quite different from the previous two songs. Although personally I think all six songs are similar in such a way that they all seem to ‘take place’ at night, either on a night drive with friends or alone on a roof staring at the moon or alone in your bedroom staring outside the window, they all seem like the type of songs that you’d listen to at night.

Anyway, I kind of digressed there, but the point is this song is quite different from the previous two but also similar. It differs in the genre, since MOON is a pop track (as far as I know) while HWAA is moombahton (house music + reggaeton) and HANN (Alone in Winter) is more of a ballad. But it continues the story line of the previous songs.

The message of the song is basically the main character hiding from something, or the main character wants something to be hidden. ‘Do not shine on me, oh moon’, ‘Do not come near me, oh moon’, ‘Turn off the moon light, please don’t let it shine’, they all tell the same message. I think at this point of the story the main character is trying their best not to open up to emotions, after the very devastating break up they just experienced.

I can’t really explain the music properly, but the way this song was composed is just... so good. I love how it sounds, I love the lyrics, I love the voices the (g)irls put on for this track (I can’t pinpoint it exactly but when you’ve been listening to an artist a lot you’d know how different their voices can sound). Soyeon did not participate much in this track, only at the very last seconds, but I think that further reinforces the message that the main character is hiding something, hiding from something, or wants something to be hidden.

This track is the 10/10 of this album. I would recommend this song to anyone anywhere that’s asking for a song recommendation.

#4: Where is love

I think most people would agree when I say that this fourth track is the dance track of this album. ‘Where is love’ is under the retro funk genre, and although that sounds like it doesn’t fit the story line, trust me it does.

The song starts out with a Soyeon verse. The main character seems to be thinking about the ex in the dark night (see? it all takes place at night), but instead of getting hurt by the memories they laugh it off. ‘The crumbled memories slowly become dull, I let go of you and find myself, the lost smiles are filled back again, I forget you and find myself’. This is definitely a road to self-love song, even though the title seem to be saying otherwise. I think the title talks about how a love so strong was able to just disappear without leaving a trace, thus ‘Where is love?’. At this point of the story line I think the main character has moved on enough to be able to look back and not be hurt by the past.

Soyeon’s rap verse on this track is probably one of my favorite Soyeon raps ever (the next track might be a contender). The music is great, and I think if the girls will perform this song on a live stage this would be a carefree-type of song. It has a ‘come on, let’s vibe!’ type of energy.

Overall, I would give this song a 9.3/10.

#5: LOST

This fifth track is written and composed by Yuqi, our best and most hard-working girl. LOST is under the RnB genre. It starts out with Soojin’s beautiful voice, followed by Yuqi’s captivating one.

This song is also very, very beautiful. It talks about having lost somebody dear to you. The first verse was hard to get at first, but after some thinking I think I know what it means. ‘Dazzling sunlight, will it get dark if I cover it with my hand? Will it be forgotten if I cover you in stained memories?’ I think this mostly means that if you pretend something didn’t happen, did it really not happen?

This is somewhat of a u-turn on the story line, because it seemed like the main character was already moving on in ‘Where is love’ but here it seems like they’re remembering the past again. It might just be a final goodbye to this chapter of their life.

Like I said earlier, Soyeon’s rap verse on this track is a contender for my all-time favorite Soyeon rap. The music here is also great, something you can jam to at any time of the day. Catchy, somewhat upbeat, the voices are beautiful as it always is.

I think my favorite part of this song, aside from Soyeon’s rap verse, is Minnie’s last verse. I just love her voice a lot.

Overall, I would give this song a 9.4/10.

#6: DAHLIA

Ah, DAHLIA, everyone’s baby. DAHLIA is another pop track, written and composed by Minnie (again, yes, my bias). This song is another contender for a 10/10 on this album. Almost everyone on my Twitter timeline was obsessed with this song when the audio snippet came out. Not only does it exude major sapphic vibes, it’s also super catchy and just... beautiful.

The song starts with Minnie’s breathy, angelic voice. From the start, by the lyrics alone you’d know this is a love song. ‘So beautiful, just looking at you with my own eyes makes me fall in love’, ‘I’m drunk on a flower called you, no matter what they say, I’ll choose to love you anyway’  Okay, can we talk about the sapphic undertones? Pink and purple dahlias are said to represent feminine beauty, and flowers in general are mostly associated with women and femininity. Add to that ‘No matter what they say, I’ll choose to love you anyway’? Gay. I know it. Gay.

Also, I don’t know why but to me Soyeon’s rap verse here reminds me of their song last year called ‘Oh my god’ (which is also pretty gay, ‘Oh my god, she took me to the sky, Oh my god, she showed me all the stars’?). Maybe it’s the fact that she says ‘I’m in love again’ and then towards the end she calls out to god again ‘I pray to God, I hope this flower will be beautiful forever’, which are two of the major key points of ‘Oh my god’.

Actually now that I remember it, Soyeon did an intro rap for their last ‘Oh my god’ performance last year in December, and if I remember correctly that rap included something like ‘I’m about to sin again, fall in love with her’ (yes, with the female pronouns). I think DAHLIA might be the song that that rap was referring to, if my intuition is correct that DAHLIA is about a woman.

Anyway, aside from the lyrics which I am absolutely obsessed about, the music is also really, really good. Very catchy, beautiful vocals, and that beat drop that I like during ‘My love is dahlia’. It has that same build up as ‘Oh my god’, fast approaching the chorus and then a sudden stop just before chorus, and then a beat drop with the chorus. It is easily addictive (honestly, all six songs are easily addictive).

Overall, I give this song a 9.8/10.

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If you made it this far, thank you for reading my album review that is more like rambling and fangirling than anything. If you still haven’t listened to ‘I Burn’, please give it a listen! It’s beautiful, I swear.

[btsfan15]

Having Fun (Part 3)

The next morning, I wake up at 7:30 because we had so much to do for the concert. I quickly brush my teeth, get dressed, and eat breakfast. I wore a black crop Adidas hoodie, black leggings, and my converse sneakers.

I grabbed my car keys, put on my shoes and headed out the door. We were performing at the Kyocera Dome. Our concert was only in the evening, but we had SO MUCH to do before that. Once I got there, the other guys were by the entrance. I got out of my car and went over to them. "Good morning, everyone!" I say, waving. "Navya! You're here!" Jin says, running over to me giving me a hug. "Hey, Jin. So did everyone get a good night's sleep?" I ask. "Sure did." V says. "Let's head inside the dome." RM says. When we go inside, the dome is huge!

"Woah, this place is amazing!" Jin says. "Yeah, I can't believe we're gonna perform here!" V says. Everyone admired the dome. "Okay, let's get to practicing. Here are your mice." The staff says, handing them. "Everyone ready?" The staff asks. "Ready!" I say. Mikrokosmos starts playing. Everyone sings their part. I was feeling a little confident about singing. The chorus comes again. "You got me, nan neoleul bomyeo sum-eul swieo. I got you, chilheug gatdeon bamdeul sog-e." Me and Jin sing. The song ends. "Wow, that was really good!" RM says. "And Navya sang!" Suga says. 

"Yeah, I did, but I'm having second thoughts about this. I don't think I should be in the concert." I say. "Why?" Jimin asks. "Like I said before, YOU guys are the stars, not me! And besides, the fans don't want me to be there! They want you! BTS! The biggest Korean K-Pop group out there!" I say, pouting. "Well, if we have you with us on stage, won't ARMY be jealous?" Jungkook asks. "I haven't thought about that." I say. "Just think about it! All those girls out there want to be you!" V says. "Hmm...that is true. I AM pretty lucky, aren't I?" I say, smiling. "Of course you are!" Jin says. "Ok, I'll stay!" I say. 

Everyone cheers. "I think you guys should keep on practicing the song. And the dance moves. It has to be ready for tonight." The staff says. "Yes, we want the fans to enjoy it." RM says. So we keep on practicing the same song over and over again. We worked hard. After we were done, we were all exhausted and tired. "My throat hurts after all that singing." Jin says. "That's what singing is. It makes your throat dry and sore." I say. We drink water. "What about our outfits?" I ask. "We have all that ready for tonight. Don't worry." They say. "Wow, the staff has our clothes all picked out! Ooh, I can't wait to see what we're wearing for tonight!" I say. 

"I think we should practice more. We want this song and performance to be ready." Jimin says. "Good idea." Jungkook says. We practice until an hour before the concert. By then, we were all even more exhausted. "I think that was good practice." V says. "Yeah, I think we're ready for tonight." J-Hope says. "Man, I'm tired and hot." I said. I put my hair up in a ponytail. "Navya, I see your bruises have gone away." Suga says, looking at Jin. I blush. "Ah, Yoongi..." Jin says, embarrassed. "Okay, let's head home and get some rest." RM says. "See you tonight, Jin." I say. "You too, Navya." Jin says. We both wave goodbye and leave. Once I get home, I eat a snack and get some rest. 

A few hours later, I wake up and check the time. It was 8:00. Our concert was at 9:00. "Oh, I better get going!" I say. I put on a sweatshirt and jeans and go downstairs. I put my shoes on and head out the door. I get in my car and drive to the dome. I parked my car and went backstage. The guys were all getting ready. "Navya, you're here!" V says. "Yeah! Where do I get ready?" I ask. "Your clothes are on that rack. Get dressed and we'll do your hair and makeup." The staff says. "Okay!" I say. 

I grab my outfit off of the rack and go inside the changing room. I change. I was wearing a white t-shirt, jeans, and pink converse shoes. I come out of the changing room. "How do I look?" I say. All the guys turn to my direction. "Wow, you look great!" Jin says. "Thanks!" I say. "Guys, go and get dressed! We don't have much time!" The staff says. The guys all get dressed. I wait for them. "Oh, I have to use the bathroom. I'll be back." I say, walking to a room. "Oh, Navya! That's not the restroom!" The staff says. 

I open the door and see Jin, not wearing a shirt. He looks at me and I look at him back. I scream and close the door. I was so embarrassed! "Um, where's the bathroom?" I ask. "Over there." They say, pointing. "Thank you!" I say, running towards it. I close the door and take a deep breath. "Oh my gosh, I can't believe that actually happened! I literally burst into Jin's changing room! He must be so mad at me right now! Okay, I'm just gonna pretend everything is fine and enjoy the concert." I thought. I open the door and walk out of the restroom. I see the others getting their makeup done, including Jin. They were all wearing white t-shirts, jeans, and converse shoes.

I ignore him and walk to my seat to get my hair and makeup done. The staff curls my hair, puts foundation on my face, powder to set the foundation, mascara on my eyelashes, blush on my cheeks, and lip gloss on my lips. "You're all done!" They say. "Thank you!" I say, getting up. "You guys are on in 2 minutes!" The staff says. "Navya, stay here and when we perform Mikrokosmos, we'll introduce you and then you can come out." RM says. "Okay. Good luck!" I say. "Thanks!" Suga says. Everyone puts on their ear pieces and grab their mics and heads to stage. RM had a blue mic, V had a green mic, Jungkook had a purple mic, Jimin had a gold mic, Jin had a pink mic, Suga had a black mic, and J-Hope had a red mic. I had a silver mic.

ARMY screams when they see BTS. "Welcome to Love Yourself Tour in LA!" RM says. "We're so happy and excited to be here with you guys!" Jungkook says. ARMY yells again. "Are you ready to have some fun?!!!" Jimin says. ARMY screams yes. "Alright, let's do it!" V says. BTS performs their first few songs, DNA, IDOL, and Boy with Luv.

After they finish, ARMY cheers and they come backstage to get ready for the next few songs. Everyone was sweating and tired. The staff was giving them water, fixing their makeup, and wiping their sweat. Imagine how hard it was to sing and dance at the same time. I know how hard it is for them. Also, I was a nervous wreck. I've never sang in front of people. I've only sang by myself. What if I can't do this? What if I forget the lyrics? I don't wanna let the guys down. After the guys rested up, they went back on stage and performed the last two songs before Mikrokosmos, Airplane pt.2 and MIC Drop.

"For our last song, we have a special someone to sing with us today. Please welcome, Navya!" RM says. I come out and ARMY cheers and claps. "What is up, ARMY?! Are ready to rock and roll?!!!" I say. ARMY answers yes. "I can't hear you!" I say. ARMY screams even louder. "That's better! Now, before we sing our last song, I just wanna say thank you to BTS for inviting me on stage. I've always wondered how it's like to be on stage with thousands of people and now I will know. So, thank you." I say, smiling. Everyone claps. "Are you guys ready to sing?!!!" Jin says. "Yes!" ARMY says. "Let's get it!" J-Hope says. Mikrokosmos starts playing and ARMY cheers when they hear it.

[Verse 1: Jungkook & V] Banjagineun byeolbitdeul Kkamppagineun bul kyeojin geonmul Urin binnago inne Gakjaye bang gakjaye byeoreseo

[Verse 2: J-Hope & RM (with) Suga] Eotteon bicheun yamang Eotteon bicheun banghwang Saramdeure bulbicteul Modu sojunghan hana

Eoduun bam (Oeroweo ma) Byeolcheoreom da (Urin binna) Sarajiji ma Keun jonjaenikka Let us shine

[Pre-Chorus: Jimin & Jin] Eojjeom i bame pyojeongi itorok tto areumdaun geon

[Chorus: Jimin & Jungkook] You got me Nan neoreul bomyeo kkumeul kkweo I got you Chireuk gatdeon bamdeul sok Seoroga bon seoroye bit Gateun mareul hago isseotteon geoya urin

[Hook: Jimin & Jungkook] Gajang gipeun bame deo binnaneun byeolbit Gajang gipeun bame deo binnaneun byeolbit Bami gipeulsurok deo binnaneun byeolbit

[Verse 3: RM] Han sarame hanaye yeoksa

Han sarame hanaye byeol

Chilshipeok gaeye bicheuro binnaneun

Chilshipeok gajiye world

[Verse 4: Suga] Chilshipeok gajiye sam doshiye yagyeongeun Eojjeomyeon tto dareun doshiye bam Gakjamane kkum Let us shine Neon nuguboda bakge binna One

[Pre-Chorus: V & Jungkook] Eojjeom i bame pyojeongi itorok tto areumdaun geon Jeo eodumdo dalbitto anin uri ttaemunil geoya

[Chorus: Jin & V] You got me Nan neoreul bomyeo kkumeul kkweo I got you Chireuk gatdeon bamdeul sok Seoroga bon seoroye bit Gateun mareul hago isseotteon geoya urin

[Hook: Jin & V] Gajang gipeun bame deo binnaneun byeolbit Gajang gipeun bame deo binnaneun byeolbit Bami gipeulsurok deo binnaneun byeolbit

[Bridge: V & Jin & Jungkook] Doshiye bul, i doshiye byeol Eoril jeok ollyeobon bamhaneureul nan tteoollyeo Saramiran bul, saramiran byeollo Gadeukhan baro i goseseo We shinin'

[Chorus: Jin with Me] 😉 You got me Nan neoreul bomyeo sumeul shwieo I got you Chireuk gatdeon bamdeul soge

[Outro: Jin with Jungkook, All] Shine, dream, smile Oh let us light up the night Urin uridaero binna Shine, dream, smile Oh let us light up the night Uri geu jachero binna Tonight

Na na na na na na Na na na na na na na Na na na na na na Na na na na na na na na

Na na na na na na Na na na na na na na Na na na na na na Na na na na na na na na

We all dance and enjoy the song. This was one of my FAVORITE songs. As the song was moving forward, I was getting even more nervous by the second. I practiced so many times last night before going to bed. I wanted it to be good. I don't wanna disappoint the fans. Finally, it was a verse before me and Jin together. Then, it was time. Jin and I both walked up to each other. We were both very close to each other. ARMY screams.

 "You got me, nan neoreul bomyeo sumeul shwieo." We both say, looking and smiling into each other's eyes. Then, Jin tucks a piece of loose hair behind my ear. ARMY screams again. He then puts his hand on my waist and pulls me closer to him. ARMY screams so loud seeing us. I put my hand around Jin's neck. "I got you, chireuk gatdeon bamdeul soge." We both sing again. Then Jimin sings his high pitch and we all sing the last lines of Mikrokosomos. ARMY claps. "Did you guys enjoy the concert?!" RM asked. "Yes!!!" ARMY yells. "Thank you guys so much for coming. We all had a such a great time tonight." Jungkook says. "We hope to see you again at our next concert!" Jimin says. "ARMY, WE LOVE YOU!" V says. ARMY cheers. 

"Before we go, I just wanna say thank you to my friends, BTS for inviting me on stage. I had so much fun today and I hope to do it again someday." I say. Everyone claps and cheers. "I also wanted to say that I always wanted to sing with BTS but I never had the confidence to do it. I would get so nervous and my heart would be beating so fast." I say. "Awwww!" ARMY says. "But, that changed cause all my wonderful friends right here, helped me conquer my nervousness and I sang! Thank you guys so much for believing in me! You are the best friends ever! Saranghae!" I say. ARMY cheers and claps. "Wow, I wasn't expecting that!" Jin says. "Me too! Navya, we're all here for you, too!" V says. ARMY cheers again. "Well, ARMY! We'll see you at our next concert! Annyeong!" RM says. 

We say goodbye to our fans. "ARMY, I LOVE YOU!" I say. ARMY cheers. "Navya, do a heart with your arms!" Jungkook says. I do a heart with my arms and ARMY cheers. We say our last good byes and the stage takes us down underneath. We all put our mics away and start packing our clothes. "That was an awesome concert we all did!" Jimin says. "Yeah, and Navya sang!" Suga says, looking at me. "I was so nervous, but I did it!" I say. "I knew you could do it! You believed in yourself and sang!" Jin says, smiling at me. I smile back. "And it was all thanks to you guys! You all helped me with it!" I say. "And that speech you said made ARMY go awww." J-Hope says. We laugh. "Yeah, I did." I say. 

"Okay, everyone. Change back into your regular clothes and get going to the cars." The staff says. We all change back into our original clothes. Then I remembered about bursting into Jin's dressing room. I completely forgot about it. I guess the concert distracted me from it. I don't know if Jin remembers about the incident. Anyway, we pack our stuff and put our coats on. Then we head to the cars. I get into one. I wait to see if any other members are joining me but no one did. "I guess I'm riding home by myself." I say. Then, someone gets in the car sits right next to me. It's Jin. "Oh no! It's Jin. What am I gonna do?!" I think. 

My heart was racing and pounding out of my chest. Jin looks at me and smiles. "Hi, Navya." He says. "Hi, Jin." I respond back. The car starts moving. "So, did you enjoy the concert?" Jin asks. "Yeah, I did. It was so much fun! I can't wait to do it again!" I say. Jin chuckles. "We're always excited to have you on stage with us so you can come anytime!" Jin says. "But, I first have to tell you guys that I'm coming on stage." I say. "Maybe you can surprise us once. Like, without telling us, you can just come up on stage." Jin says. I laugh. "Maybe. I'll think about it." I say. We both smile at each other. Then it gets quiet. It was awkward, especially for me. "Um...there's something I wanna ask you." Jin says. "Oh, what is it?" I ask. "It's about when we were getting ready." Jin says. I froze. "Oh, yeah. I forgot about that." I say. 

"When you thought my dressing room was the bathroom." Jin says. "Yeah, about that...I'm sorry, Jin! I didn't mean to barge into your room! I should've just held it in and waited! I'm sorry, Jin! Please don't be mad!" I say, looking down with my eyes closed. I look up and peek out of one eye and see Jin smiling at me. "I'm not mad at you, Navya." He says. "Wait, really?! I thought you would be. That's why I ignored you." I say. "Well, I'm not mad." Jin says. "Not even one but?" I ask. Jin nods. "Well, alright then. Just so you know, it was just an accident." I say. "I know you wouldn't do that to me. And I wouldn't do that to you, too." Jin says. I smile at him. "Jin, are you sure not mad? I just feel so bad and guilty!" I say. "Navya, I already told you. I'm not mad. Really! It's okay!" Jin says. 

"What if I barged in when you weren't wearing pants?! Oh, how embarrassed and ashamed I would've been!" I say. "But, that didn't happen, did it?" Jin asks. "No..." I say. "Then don't worry about it! Accidents happen, Navya and we learn from them, right?" Jin asks, putting his hand on my shoulder. "Yeah. Thanks, Jin. You're an amazing friend. I know I can always count you." I say. Then smiles spread across our faces. Then it gets quiet and awkward again. The car stops in front of the hotel. 

We all go to our rooms. "Good night, guys." RM says. "Good night." We all say. Before I could go inside my room, Jin calls me. "Navya, just a minute." Jin says. "What?" I ask. "I just wanna say...I love you!" Jin says. I laugh. "Seriously, Jin? That's what you wanted to say?" I ask. "Well, yeah. I do love you. A lot." Jin says. I giggle. "I love you, too. A lot." I say. "And, if you need any cheering up, I'm here for you." Jin says, with a smile. 

Then he winks. I laugh. "Jin, what am I gonna do with you? And thanks. I'll make sure to call you." I say. "Well, good night." Jin says. "Good night." I say. I go into my room and Jin turns around to leave. Then I remembered something. I hesitated for a minute but I went back outside again. "Jin, wait!" I say. Jin turns around and walks toward me. "Yeah?" He says. We both lock eyes. I hesitated again but then I grabbed Jin's face and connected my lips to his plump lips. I break the kiss and look at him. "Just a good night's kiss. I'll go now." I say. Jin looked shocked.

I turn around but Jin grabs my hand and pulls me back to him. "My turn." Jin says. Jin leans closer to me and he connects his soft, plump, juicy lips to mine. I slide my hands from Jin's chest to his neck and wrap my hands around it. Jin puts his hands around my waist. God, his lips were so god damn soft. Then Jin breaks the kiss and we both gaze into each other's eyes. I see he has a smirk on his face. "You're in the mood, aren't you?" I ask. He winks. "I'll take that as a yes." I say. "I think you're also in the mood." Jin says. 

"Yes, I am and you're coming with me." I say. I grab Jin's shirt and pull him inside my room. I close the door and lock it. I turn around. "So. How do you wanna do this?" I ask. "Like this." Jin says. He walks up to me and carries me. "Hey!" I say. He takes me to my bed and drops me. "Be gentle, Jin!" I say. "I won't be gentle when it comes to things like this, so get ready." Jin says. He gets on top of me and kisses me again. 

I put my hands on his face and Jin puts his hands on my waist. He breaks the kiss and looks at me right in my eyes. "You want more?" Jin asks, softly. "Yes..." I say. He then starts kissing my neck. Jin gets the sweet spots. "More, Jin, more..." I say. I start moaning and groaning. Really loudly. I cover my mouth up. "I hope the other members don't hear." I think. I start moaning and groaning again. I couldn't help myself. Jin was good at this stuff. Then breaks and looks at me again. "Why did you stop?" I ask. "Because I think it's time to take it to the next level." Jin says. He removes his sweatshirt. "Wait, what?!" I say. He then starts to removes his t-shirt.

I sit up. "Jin, I'm not ready for this yet!" I say, stopping him. "You said that before." Jin says. "I know I did, but I just don't feel comfortable yet." I say. "Don't worry. Nothing is gonna happen." Jin says. I sigh and get off my bed and walk to the door. I open it. "I think you better leave. It's past our bedtime." I say. Jin stands up. "Don't be like this." Jin says, walking over to me. "What? I'm just asking you to leave cause it's late." I say. "You don't have to be mad at me about this." Jin says. "I'm not mad, I'm just annoyed." I say. 

I walk inside my bathroom and turn on the light. I gasp. "Oh my god!" I say. Jin comes into the bathroom. "What? What is it?!" Jin asks. "I got bruises again! Jin!" I say. "I'm sorry!" Jin says. I had red bruises all over my neck! "What am I gonna do tomorrow?! The other guys are gonna know that we made out!' I say. Then I sigh and cross my arms together. I pout. Jin wraps his arms around my waist from the back. He rests his chin on my shoulder. "Navya, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to give you bruises again." Jin says. I don't respond. Instead, I walk out of the bathroom. Jin follows me. "Navya, can you forgive me?" Jin asks. I turn around and raise an eyebrow. "Please?" Jin says. Then he pouts at me.

He looked so cute! I couldn't stay mad at him. I sigh. "Fine. Jin, I forgive you. Your pout got the best of me." I say. "I knew you couldn't resist my pout. I do look pretty cute when I pout, don't I?" Jin asks. He puts his index finger and thumb on his chin. "Yes, you do. Now, get going. I'm tired after tonight." I say. "Okay, then. Good night." Jin says. He heads for the door and opens it. Then he stops. "One more thing." Jin says. "What?" I say. He comes back over to me, cups my face and kisses me. He breaks the kiss. "Another good night's kiss." Jin says. Then he winks. I smile. "Thanks. Now, shoo. Good night." I say. "Good night." Jin says. He closes the door and leaves. I sigh and change into my pajamas.

I brush my teeth and get into to bed. I turn off the light and lay down. I couldn't stop thinking about what just happened today. "Man, was today amazing. I got to perform on stage for the first time. It was an amazing experience and I can't wait to do it again sometime. But, I wasn't expecting Jin and I to make out. Again. It just happens unexpectedly. Whatever. At least I enjoyed it. I got bruises, though. I just hope the other members didn't hear me moaning and groaning. I also hope that they don't notice my bruises again cause they've already found out once. They're probably gonna find out tomorrow. Anyway, today was crazy. I can't wait to see what tomorrow has in store for me." I thought. Then I remember. I take my phone and text Jin. I get a response back.

Me: Thanks for believing in me. You're an amazing boyfriend. 💜💜💜💜 Jin: Anytime. Also, Navya? Me: Yeah? Jin: I love you. 😘 Me: I love you, too, Jinnie. Jin: Good night. I'll see you tomorrow. Me: You too. Good night.

I put my phone down on the table and fall asleep.

The End.

[localminstrel]

Stray Kids reaction : Kiss them out of the blue in a public place but when no one is looking and their crush/gf/bf pretending nothing happened just for fun

Warnings : none

Tag : gender neutral!reader

Words : 2 700

Notes : i know i’m veryyy late for this one but I hope you would like it ! Also, they are going to have a lots of typos and grammar mistakes and i’m really sorry about that, i try to improve my english !

Gifs credit to owners !

Chan :

You and Chan are in a secret relationship since the last six months. You met because JYP hired you to work wih 3racha for Stray Kids’s new album. Chan and you talks about mutual feelings after two weeks and both are agree to keep this a secret for both compagny and members before this begin to be serious. Well, you began to be but for this moment, you two are a secret and, unfortunally for Chan, you’re a biiiig teaser. Even more now, because you say « i love you » to each other for the first time one month ago. And, to be honest, the whole secret situation thing kind of turn you both on.

So, with your job, you are really often in the 3racha’s studio with Jisung and Changbin and one day, you really wanting to tease your boyfriend. The four of you are siting on the couch’s studio in this order : you, Chan, Jisung and Changbin, working on tablature and lyrics on the table in front of all of you. At a moment, Changbin was writing something while talking, Jisung was speaking to him, his back half facing Chan, so you give your boyfriend a big peck on his lips, while making it as soundless as possible. He turns freeze.

« _ So Chan, what do you think about incorporate some spanich here ? It’s gonna match the rythm more than english or korean i think. » Then you flowing to seems less suspicious.

_ Where do you want to put it, Y/N ? » Asks Jisung while bending over the paper on the table in front of Chan. «  Hyung ? Are you okay ? » The younger asks to his non-talking hyung.

_ Hum ? Oh yeah yeah, i am. What are we talking about ? »

Jisung talks but Chan didn’t listen to him, just sigh at your winning face.

Minho (non idol!) :

All the kids were silent when you step in the classroom. Some of them lift their heads to look quickly at you before getting to their test again. It was the last test of their highschool year, the famous Suneung. Minho smiles at you while sitting at the desk at the end of the classroom, grabbing the coffee cup you take for him.

You two were teachers in this highschool and also, a couple. But you keep it secret for the students because they doesn’t need to know your personal lifes. In fact, only the headmaster knew about it and he’s not really a fan of it because he’s concerned about the good relationship if you break up one day. Well, you are now married for a year so… it’s quite unlikely.

You were on the monitoring team for the maths exam this time, the two of you being at each corner of the classroom : you at the front, Minho at the end. So, when you give him the coffee, you put a little peck on his lips, knowing that all the students turning their backs at you. Minho were shocked before throwing you a dark look and a disapproval face.

You just give him a questionable look, like « i did nothing why are you looking at me like that ? » and walks to the front desk, can’t resist to have a little smirk on your face.

Changbin :

As usual, Changbin is sleeping when you’re doing his make up and hair. The room was really quiet because half of the Stray Kids members are asleep, during their make up or just waiting on the couch. Nobody really paid attention to everybody. Unlike the habits, you were on time on the planning so no did to rush. Gently, you’re applied eyeshadows on Changbin, can’t stand but looking deeply in love with your boyfriend. You two are still a secret, even between the members so you can’t be touchy with him all the time. But you can be on purpose while doing his make up.

Next to you were your colleague doing Minho’s make up, in the arms of Morpheus too. They excused us and leaving to the bathroom, making you the only staff member at the beauty tables.

With a quick glance, you check if anyone looks at you (spoiler : no one did) and you quickly kiss Changbin, who just startled, eyes wide open.

« _Y/N, what are you doing ? » He whispers while you’re back at your beauty supplies, faking choosing a brush.

_ Nothing, what are you talking about ? Go back to sleep ».

Hyunjin :

You are in the Stray Kids’s dorm for the annual video games tournament and Hyunjin, your boyfriend, is eager to beat you at Mario Kart, because he never did. The living room is a fucking mess, full of yelling and foot tapping everytime something happenned in the game. Rapidly, all of the Stray Kids member got eliminated, remains you and Hyunjin. Everything like relationship, love and other sweets things is gone between you : only victory remains. At this point, you are really perfect for each other. Chan makes the two of you checking hands and wishing each other good luck (« _ you better need luck, looser / _ watch me ») and, joysticks in hands, the first run begins. When the last one begins (the famous rainbow run), you’re winning 2:1 and no way you gonna gave him a tie. Especially because it’s almost 1am and the members got tired (Jeongin, Seungmin, Felix and Changbin are already in bed. Such loosers, you think). Only remains Jisung, Chan and Minho but they’re not focused on the game like earlier. Jisung just try to not fall asleep on the couch next to you, Chan is working on the floor and Minho, sating on the floor as well, just looking at some cats videos. So, for the sake of the members, you need victory, of course. For the sake of the members and, obviously, to tease your boyfriend until forever.

So, it’s the last ride, the last bend before the final line, Hyunjin is second but really close to your first ass. So you need to employ your final weapon. When you two finished the last bend and it’s just remain the straight line before final line, you crashed on Hyunjin’s mouse to kiss him so deeply the poor boy drop his joystick on his lap. You free your innocent boyfriend only when you ear the wining music. Hyunjin looks at you, panting and red, while you jump on your feets and give him a winning dance.

« _Hum… Oh ! What’s happen ? Y/N finally win ? » Jisung says, wake up by your victory celebration.

_ Yes ! Call me the master of games ! And i’m hungry now, so the winner gonna steal all your fridge’s food ! » You say as you walk into their kitchen.

Chan just smile and giggle before focus on his laptop, Minho follows you (but still looking at cats pictures or videos), Jisung gets up of the couch to go to his bed and Hyunjin is still shock, don’t know if he reveals your cheating move or not.

Jisung (non idol!) :

You and Jisung are dating for two years and he gets used to your non PDA, even if he loves this kind of attention. So in public, he loves to tease you with holding hands, hugs and stuff like that because you get embarassed right away and he laughs a lot about that. One day, in the summer, you two takes a walk in a park when you decide to buy ice cream. You choose rapsberry and him chocolate, then you decide to sit on a bunch to enjoy it. The park was quite empty, even more where you are. As usual, Jisung teases you a lot, with tickles this time. Half laughing, half out of breath, you ask him to stop because you are afraid to drop your ice cream. And nothing is more important than food (even more when you paid for it). In a last laugh, he obeys and a sweet silence sets up between you two. Jisung contemplate the small wind in the trees with a absent look, while liking his ice cream. Obsiously, this dummy gets a small account of it on the corner of this mouth and doesn’t seems to care or to know. However, you finised your ice cream and begin to move close to your boyfriend. Quickly, you kiss him to get a taste of his dessert before get back to your inital sitting on the bench. Jisung startles a little and blinks several times while looking at you before open his mouth. But you are quicker that him.

« _ Where do you want to go after, babe ? I want to drink something ». You say casually.

Felix :

It’s been 7 years that you’re dating Felix. Fans knows about your couple, obviously and you receiving nothing but endless amount of love. Stray Kids was still a thing, even if all the members  have a solo career. You, in an other end, are in their staff member (in the sound team to be specific). This day was the day of a countless solo concert for Stray Kids, an important one because this is the first together since a long time. Felix was stressed as fuck. Be as serious as he’s always be, you see him dancing and lipsyncing everytime he could before the concert begins. You can’t talk to him as much as you want because you were so overworked with all the soundchecks to make that you barely can’t talk with anybody but your crew members. You know he knows his job, he’s doing it since a long time, his korean is better than ever, etc. but you see him nervous and you can’t but want to hug and confort him, cause you’re an amazing signifiant other (and i guess… a normal one ?).

Two hours later, it’s the rush, the concert begins in like 2 min so all the last things to test are testing. Stray Kids planned to appears on the stage with a rising launch pad so all of them were crouching on it, stylists, make up artists and all the staff checking them a last time. As well, you’re doing their check ups and keep your boyfriend for the end. He smiled absent-minded at you, while you reached for his mic. In the same movement, you give him a long kiss, hoping to give him all the strength you wanted to gave him. You knew no one gonna watch you because they know your relationship (and you were right, no one gave attention to you). Even if he startles a little bit, Felix respond to your kiss with eager but you have to break it and get out of the launch pad because all the signals for the concert’s debut are ringing.

« _Thank you for the help babe ! », Felix sceams at you while the launch pad are rising, above all the fans’ screams, the electronic mess and the staff’s bustle around you, the flashs and the artificial smoke.

_ I don’t know what you’re talking about ! ». You reply to him with smile and irony.

Seungmin (non idol!) :

You and Seungmin were bestfriends since middle school and the first year of high school, he began to have a crush on you. But he also don’t want to ruin your friendship so here we are, last year of highschool and a poor boy deeply in love (but that he don’t know, it’s that you are deeply in love with him too but you say nothing for the same reason).

One day, he was at the school library, searching for a book in the shelves, deeply concentrated. He don’t catch you getting at his side. He was so cute, pouting that you can’t but putting a little peck on his lips. Seungmin jumps really high, shallows a gasp and looks at you like you are ghost.

« _ Y/N ! What are you doing in the school’s library ? » He whispers, trying to hide his happiness wih admonition.

_ Just looking for books. Oh, it’s the one i search ! Meet me at the usual table to study ! » You say, smiling at him and turning away, leaving the poor boy really shocked.

Jeongin :

Jeongin was stressed, you can see that like the nose in the middle of the face. His ears were red like a tomato and he can’t but bit his nails, almost at blood. You glance at him quickly, before reporting you eyes on the road, turning the wheel.

« _ Are you okay dear?

_ Hum? Oh yeah, Y/N, i’m okay, don’t worry.

_ Honey, I know you and it’s like I’m driving you to the purgatory. Come on, tell me what’s wrong.

_ Really it’s okay, I…. I’m just afraid your family doesn’t like me. »

You were dating Jeongin for 2 years now and this night is the night you finally introduced him to your family (parents, siblings, aunts and uncles, grands-parents) and the poor baby is really stressing up. You are also a foreigner and this is the first time he travelled to your country.

« _ Don’t worry, I tell them about you and they already love you! How can they not? You’re the sweetest person I know.

_ I… I just don’t want to messed up. You’re important to me and I don’t want to make mistakes! Like, what if I struggle speaking your native langage and I end up insulting someone?

_ Baby, trust yourself! You are basically fluent! And don’t worry, they gonna be nice about it. »

To appease him, you put one of your hands on his knees. Jeongin looks at you and smile, locking your fingers.

The dinner happens to be really good ; your family were really nice to Jeongin, even if you can tell the boy is not fully at ease yet. While the table is cleaned up and the chairs’s empty, you called him.

« _Honey?

_ Yes? » He said, turning his head to you.

You catch his lips and you feel him being breathless but he can’t returned the liss because you’re already parting away.

« _You’re doing great.

_ Oh Jeongin, are you feeling alright ? You’re very red! » Your mother asks, just back in the living room with the coffee.

_ Oh yeah, don’t worry about him, he’s just a little hot. » You smile while catching the hands of your boyfriend under tha table and squeeze it.

[lgcmax]

            𝐌𝐀𝐗 𝐂𝐇𝐎𝐈 meets solo performances, 09242020  !                                                ↪ performing what’s good ! [ credit ]

wow, this felt nice.

it felt good to have control of what he was to perform for once, and when given the chance for his solo stage max knew he needed something that ... screamed max choi. so what does he decide to do ? rap a song all about having a good time, living without worries, and having no regrets. better yet ? the chorus was catchy as hell, and he felt confident he could carry the whole song on his own. the nerves were for backstage - and there was no room for them anymore. looking forward to the crowd in front of him, he grins. the anticipation is deadly, but once he’s on stage ? the attention energizes him, and as per routine goes, he yells a “ let’s get it ! ” into the mic before starting.

play this song and bounce, it’s your favorite song, get down.  on repeat for, 1-2-3-4, 5-6-7-8 hours.

the sound of the beat causes max to sway with the rhythm, feeling the music as the opening  verse starts. rarely does he feel this invigorated, so if any song was to introduce everyone to max choi, this one would be it. it’s casual but fun beat allows him freedom, having some time to interact with the crowd, as he’s always dreamed to do. 

go with the flow, 흐름에 맡겨 좋은 게 좋은 거 get down or get outchea arrive depart arrive depart yes yes y’all, and you don’t stop !

it’s no surprise max loves to be the center of attention as he stands on stage, basking in the sense of being the star, grinning to the audience as he makes his way across the stage. he even beckons them to sing along with him. sure, this isn’t his concert, and some of the audience members might not even know his name. but for max choi, standing up on that stage, on his very own ? you couldn’t tell him he wasn’t the rapper of legacy.

멈추지 마 더 춤추자 지금 이 순간 zen, uh ! 콩글리시도 일단 지르고 보는 거야 유남쌩, yeah ! 

this particular verse of the song lets him use the foreigner card, the verse using a play-on of a konglish word to rhyme with the korean. it only makes it more ... him, a near half and half blend of canadian and korean after living here for a year. though the english may wow some viewers, but to him, it’s the korean he’s most proud about - practicing enough that he was now able to rap and keep a flow while speaking in his second language. while it wasn’t foreign to him, it definitely was harder, and he couldn’t help but be proud of himself for his growth.

열 올리지 마 It's 감정 낭비 What's good 주윌 둘러봐 뭘 놓치는지 What's good 아깝잖아 우리의 청춘이

though max still is no dancer,  he has gained a better control of his body, not feeling quite so awkward as he does a fun freestyle between lines. he also has to thank seojin, for even though this song’s slight vocals are very forgiving, he would’ve probably squeaked with nervousness if it wasn’t for the fear that seojin might hunt him down and claim his hard work was for nothing. so he keeps going, keeping a cool front, though there is a slight feeling of anxiety. were they smiling ? singing along ? enjoying it ? max can’t entirely tell.  

make it worth it, make it worth it, make it worth it, make it worth !

with his contacts out and the blinding flash of lights in his eyes, he can hardly see right in front of him. but beyond that, max tried not to look too hard at faces, anyways. then, the nerves might kick in, and he liked to pretend that some distant seat in the back was someone he cared for cheering him on. depending on the day, it changed - sometimes it was hunji, recently he’d imagined yeseo, but most often, as was today, he envisioned his parents. the ones who never saw him, shining brightly on stage, proving that he could become something of himself. he gives a special smile to the seat he’s claimed for them in the back, and as his mind starts thinking of them, he feels himself grow sad. no, no, no. you gotta finish strong, max. keep going, keep going. you’re doing so well.

항상 말하지만 매사 일이 best는 아니라는 것 가끔 떨어지는 눈물 흘릴 때도 한 번씩 존재한단 건 우리가 인간이란 아주 작은 증거 머릿속 풀리지 않는 큐브도 풀면 시원한 기분 웃음으로 그러니까 걱정 말고 크게 웃어

he takes his sadness and quickly turns it to his fuel, the lyrics perfectly mirroring his situation. max has commonly acknowledged that “ what happens happens ”, nothing that’s already happen can be changed, so he had to make the most of it. the second portion of the lyrics he isn’t quite as enthusiastic about reciting, but deep down he knows it’s true - crying a little helps, and it is a good reminder that we’re all really human.

눈치코치 없어 보여도 돼 너의 삶인데 허락을 왜 맡는 건데 되도록이면 집에 두고 와 늦어졌다 싶음 늦은 거야 넌 뛰지 마 What’s good what’s good 참을 인 세 번은 왜 필요해 흐르는 시간을 잡아 줄게 날 믿고 놓아봐 날도 좋은데 good day

the last verse, he gets his stamina back, allowing himself a metaphorical power-up as he yells the words into the mic. he can go wild with this part, assuring those who are willing to listen that it’s okay to do things for yourself, and act on impulse. that was both the idol and the person max choi speaking, desperate to live in a reality that was all in favor of himself and his own needs. he finishes the song with a “ woo ! ” of accomplishment, just almost slamming the mic to the floor as he lifts a victorious first in the air. he sees someone laugh in the front row, and it makes him let out a small chuckle of his own. being on stage, doing something he loves, makes him realize just how much he wants this. for once in his life, he’s realized this really is his dream.

wait, i want this. holy shit, i really want to do something ?

he thanks the crowd, and a sea of applause does the same.

no, i don’t want to be a rapper. i’m going to be a rapper. i am a rapper.

[hd-learns-korean]

Musical Mondays week 1: 위잉위잉 by 혁오 Hyukoh

안녕하세요! Hi all 🙋 I hope everyone is doing well.

Today I'm starting a new (hopefully) fortnightly section on my blog which is musical Mondays, the idea is to create study posts using the vocabulary found in the song chosen for that week. I'm actually a little nervous tbh because this will be the first time I've properly started to write a lot in Korean, so please bear with me as I am a beginner and they're probs will be a few mistakes. (Side note if you do spot my mistakes please lemme know so I can fix them 🙏 thanks.)

So with the waffle outta the way let's get cracking with this week's song!

SONG OF THE WEEK: 위잉위잉 (wi ing wi ing) by Hyukoh

MY THOUGHTS ON THE SONG: This was the first time I had heard of the band or the song, and I'm glad I got it recommend! When I'm listening to it, I can pretend I'm sat in a downtown coffee shop drinking overpriced and over-sugared coffee whilst I people watch. (Reality: people watching now consists of me holding a cheap mug of instant coffee whilst I look outta my window and rant about people walking on the street who are clearly flouting the social distancing rules!)

The song lyrics are actually pretty dark and melancholy considering the upbeat tune. I really like this song as it's totally different to what I usually listen to.

GENRE: Korean Indie

STUDY: for my study section I thought I'd do things a little differently, I've chosen the vocab from the song and created my own sample sentences. For verbs I have found the conjugations for them because I think it's important to also learn how the verb conjugates, in order to make it easier later on when using it in conversation.

VERBS:

🚶걸어가다: To walk, to go by foot:

How it's used in the song: "비틀비틀 걸어가는 나의 다리" My legs are stumbling, stumbling as I walk.

🎁 Present tense: 걸어가, 걸어가요, 걸어갑니다.

Examples: "난 커피샵에 걸어가" I walk to the coffee shop. "저는 커피샵에 걸어가요" I walk to the coffee shop (informal polite) "매일 아침에 선생님은 학교에 걸어갑니다." Every morning the teacher walks to school.

🕰️Past tense: 걸어갔어, 걸어갔어요, 걸어갔습니다.

Examples: "넌 먼 길 걸어갔어!" You walked a long way! "우유와 계란을 사에 저는 먼 길 걸어갔어요." I walked a long way when I bought milk and eggs.

🔮 Future tense: 걸어갈 거야, 걸어갈 거예요, 걸어갈 겁니다.

Examples: "야 알아! 난 주말에 운동 공원에서 걸어갈 거야!" Hey I know! I'm walking in the exercise park at the weekend. "저는 주말에 빵집에 걸어갈 거예요." I will walk to the bakery on the weekend.

🤷 Conditional tense: 걸어가겠어, 걸어가겠어요, 걸어가겠습니다.

Examples: "난 발이가 안 아팠으면, 매일에 5km 걸어가겠어." I would walk 5km everyday if my feet didn't hurt. "눈이 안 왔으면 학생은 할아버지의 집에서 학교한테 걸어가겠어요." If it doesn't snow, the student will walk to school from his grandfather's house.

⏳흘러가다: to pass, to go by, elapse:

How it's used in the song: "오늘도 의미없는 또 하루가 흘러가죠" Another meaningless day goes by today.

🎁 Present tense: 흘러가, 흘러가요, 흘러갑니다.

🕰️ Past tense: 흘러갔어, 흘러갔어요, 흘러갔습니다.

Examples: 

"어제 시간이 빨리 흘러갔어요!" Time flew by yesterday!

🔮 Future tense: 흘러갈 거야, 흘러갈 거예요, 흘러갈 겁니다.

Examples: "시험 다음 주에 빨리 흘러갈 거예요. 걱정하지 마요." The test will go by quickly next week. Don't worry about it.

⛪🙏믿다: To believe, trust, believe in, give credit

How it's used in the song: "사랑도 끼리끼리 하는거라 믿는 나는." Love is just for those who are all the same.

🎁 Present tense: 믿어, 믿어요, 믿습니다.

Examples: "난 널 안 믿어!" I don't believe you! "저는 외계인 있다 믿어요!" I believe there are aliens!

🕰️ Past tense: 믿었어, 믿었어요, 믿었습니다

🔮 Future tense: 믿을 거야, 믿을 거예요, 믿을 겁니다.

🧐 inquisitive tense: 믿어? , 믿어요? , 믿습니까?

Examples: "하! 넌 진짜 그 남자의 거짓말 믿어? 그 남자는 정말 바람둥이야!" Ha! Do you really believe that man's lies? He's such a player! (flirt) "신이 믿어요?" Do you believe in God?

🤭 비웃다: To laugh at, mock, ridicule, sneer, make fun of:

How it's used in the song: "처량한 나를 비웃듯이 멀리 날아죠." It flies away as if laughing at my sadness."

🎁 Present tense: 비웃어, 비웃어요, 비웃습니다

🕰️ Past tense: 비웃어요, 비웃었어요, 비웃었습니다.

🔮Future tense: 비웃을 거야, 비웃을 거예요, 비웃을 겁니다.

➡️Nominal "-ing": 비웃음

Example: "비웃음 하지 마!" Stop mocking me! Don't laugh at me!

💯 좋다: To be good

How it's used in the song: "차라리 듣지 못한 편이 내겐 좋을거야." The side I have heard would be better for me. "차라리 보니 못한 편이 내겐 좋을거야." The side I have seen would be better for me.

🎁 Present tense: 좋아, 좋아요, 좋습니다.

Examples: "와 수진아! 만든 음식이 진짜 좋아!" Wow Sujin! I love the food you made! "이 영화는 좋아요" I like this movie.

🕰️ Past tense: 좋았어, 좋았어요, 좋았습니다

🔮 Future tense: 좋을 거야, 좋을 거예요, 좋을 겁니다.

Examples: "보는 그 영화를 것 같은 좋을 거예요." It would be nice to watch that movie.

🤷 conditional tense: 좋겠어, 좋겠어요, 좋겠습니다.

📖 side note: when 좋다 is used in the conditional tense it gives the meaning of "I wish..." It would be good if.....

Examples: "크리스마스 아침에서 눈이 온을 좋겠어!" I wish it snows on Christmas morning! (I'm not too sure if this sentence I've written is correct, I'm slightly struggling with choosing the correct conjugation for "it to snow" do I use "온는? 왔?" If somebody could tell me I'd be so happy!)

💩🙅 못하다: 1.) To be bad at, poor at, be weak in. 2.) Cannot, be unable to, impossible.

How it's used in the song: "듣지 못한" I can't listen, "보지 못한" I can't see.

📖 Side note: -지 못하다 cannot. -ㄹ 못하다 bad at

🎁 Present tense: 못하, 못해요, 못합니다.

Examples: "저는 요리해를 못해요." I can't cook.

🕰️ Past tense: 못했어, 못했어요, 못했습니다.

Examples: "이 남자는 노래를 못했어요." This guy couldn't sing.

🔮 Future tense: 못할 거야, 못할 거예요, 못할 겁니다.

Examples: "왜 주말에 공원에서 넌 운동이 못할 거야?" Why can't you exercise in the park at the weekend?

🙈덮다: To cover (sth with sth), close shut:

How it's used in the song: "눈물이 언젠가는 이세��을 덮을거야." My falling tears will someday cover this world.

🎁 Present tense: 덮어, 덮어요, 덮습니다

🕰️ Past tense: 덮었, 덮었어요, 덮었습니다.

Examples: "이 아침에 너무 처웠어요, 그래서 저는 이불을 덮었어요." It was cold this morning, so I covered myself with a blanket.

NOUNS:

🤸 다리: Legs

How it's used in the song: "비틀비틀 걸어가는 나의 다리" My legs are stumbling, stumbling as I walk.

Examples: "와! 그 배우의는 다리가 진짜 길어다!" Wow! The actor has really long legs!

🌎 세상: World

How it's used in the song: "비잉비잉 돌아가는 세상도 나를 비웃듯이 계속 꿈틀대죠." Bing Bing, the world spins. It squirms as of it's laughing at me too.

Examples: "어머 왜 이세상에? 넌 뭐 해야!" Oh my God! What are you doing? (What in the world/ what on earth are you doing?)

🚇 지하철: Subway

How it's used in the song: " 사람들 북적대는 출근길의 지하철엔" In the subway filled with busy people on their way to work.

💁 모습: Figure/ form/ image/ reflection/ features/ appearance.

How it's used in the song: " "내 모습 너무 초라해서 정말 죄송하죠." I'm so sorry that I'm so pathetic. (I'm so sorry for my pathetic appearance)

Examples (I found on naver) :

단아한 모습 a graceful figure, 아버지의 모습을 닮다 to look like one's own father, 처량한 모습 a lonesome/ wretched look.

🤕 상처: Wound

How it's used in the song: "상처난 내 마음을 어머니는 못헐거야." Can't do anything about my scarred heart!

📖 Side note: when 상처 is used with -를 입다 it means "To get injured".

Examples found off naver: 가벼운 상처 minor injury, 깊은 상처 deep wound, 오래된 상처 old wound.

Examples: "야! 하지마! 넌 상철 입을거야!" Hey don't! You'll get hurt! "저기어! 조심하습니다! 아저씨는 상처를 입을 겁니다!" Excuse me, Mr! Be careful! You'll get hurt!

ADVERBS:

😴 뒹굴뒹굴: Rattle around in, roll around in, someone with nothing to do, idle away.

How it's used in the song: "집에서 뒹굴뒹굴 할 일없어 빈둥대는" Rolling around at home, lying around with nothing to do.

👯 끼리끼리 : In groups, in pairs, by twos and threes.

How it's used in the song: "사랑도 끼리끼리 하는거라 믿는 나는" love is just for those that are all the same.

Examples: "사람들은 끼리끼리 이야기 있다." People talk among themselves. "4 명 가수들은 끼리끼리 아름다운 노래했어요." Four singers sang beautiful songs together.

There we go everyone! The end of this week's musical study session! I hope you enjoyed reading it and find it useful. Be warned though I'm a total newbie to writing a lot in Korean so there will be some mistakes even though I checked the translations using papago and naver. I found the lyrics for this song on genius.com. For the conjugations I found them on koreanverb.app, and Wiktionary, also on Naver.

I don't own the rights to the song, all credit should go to the original artist. I've just use the song as a source for study material 🙂.

Also Side side note! Uggh I’ve had so many technical problems today! It’s only taken me 5hrs to write this lol! :D

If you want me to create a study post from a song you like just give me a message and I'll see what I can do! 💃

Thanks everyone and I hope you have a good week ahead! x

[dc-translator]

[ENG TL] 201905 Haruhana interview

Welcome to a seven-member Wonderland!

Dreamcatcher

Photo/ Michiko Hasuo Text/ Hiromi Kuboya

When we're on the road, we listen to music, and sing too. (Laugh)

What I want to do if I had a magical flute is...

Dreamcatcher reached 8th place in the Oricon chart on the release day of their 2nd Japanese single, 'PIRI ~Fue wo Fuke~-Japanese ver.-'

---The Japanese version of your latest Korean song, 'PIRI', was received well in Japan as well. How do you feel about it?

Sua: It was unbelievable that we reached 8th place on the Oricon chart. It was the first time we got a top 10 spot. It made me realize how loved we were, and made me very happy.

JIU: I'm glad that we were able to come back to Japan. I'm also very glad that we could deliver diverse songs, including the Japanese versions of PIRI, GOOD NIGHT, and Wonderland to Japanese audiences.

---What are the points worth noting in PIRI?

Yoohyeon: The addictive part within the chorus that goes 'Pirireul Burora'.

Sua: There are dance parts that look like we're playing the flute. Please pay attention to those parts.

---The synchronized dance where all of you move in unison was great to watch!

Gahyeon: It took about three days for me to get used to the choreography this time round.

Siyeon: The choreography was changed until 4 hours before the music video shoot, so the shoot was somewhat challenging. (Laugh)

---Who is the member that memorizes the choreography the fastest?

All: Sua-!

Siyeon: She's in charge of all the details.

Sua: When we're working towards the details, we first look at the overall formation, then move on to the angle of our hands, where we need to stand, and the like. Doing so lets the members firmly remember the choreography, and we can get it done quickly.

---What moment sticks out in your memory during the Korean promotions for PIRI?

Siyeon: I was glad that we were chosen as candidates for first place in the music program ‘Show Champion’, but the most memorable moment was when we sang our 2nd anniversary fan song ‘Over The Sky’ on ‘Music Bank’. We only finished memorizing the choreography 3 hours before the stage, so we were worried. But so many fans came to the recording, and I felt very happy. My chest felt like it was about to burst.

---We heard that you played with CLC during the wait times in music shows.

JIU: We got along well. Playing games and the like together, we had a fun time.

Handong: Even outside of music shows, I often meet up with Elky. We eat good food together, take photos… Everyone in CLC is nice, so we get along nicely.

Gahyeon: I often chat with Ye-Eun who I became friends with in Idol Stars Athletic Championships. We send photos to each other, and are very friendly.

---If you had a 'magic flute', when would you use it?

JIU: When I'm hungry. (Laugh) Food appears right in front of me when I play the flute.(Laugh) It'd also be great if I could play the flute when all of our schedules are over and find myself washed and lying on my bed.

Dami: Once I play the flute, everyone ends up liking us, that kind of magic. (Laugh)

Yoohyeon: I'd like a flute that I could play when I'm tired or when I want to relax and stop time.

Handong I want to teleport~!

Sua: I also want the Anywhere door from Doraemon. We often go touring overseas, so it'd be great if I could open a door and be in Japan, or something like that.

Gahyeon: I also want the Anywhere door. I want to reduce the time we spend on the road and use that time doing something productive, resting, or doing something meaningful.

Siyeon: I'm the same. When we're done working and want to get back home quickly, I want to teleport.

---How do you spend your time in the car when you're on the road?

JIU: Sleeping or listening to music.

Siyeon: I listen to music, and sing when I feel like singing.

Gahyeon: Siyeon can get excited really suddenly. (Laugh)

---You held shows for your Asia tour in Tokyo and Kobe.

Yoohyeon: There are songs that we haven't performed yet, so I want to be hold lots of special performances in Japan in the future as well.

Emergency! Trying to solve the gesture quiz!

In view of the word 'emergency' within the lyrics of PIRI, we had the members quiz each other about their critical moments with gestures. Can the members answer the quiz?

All: We'll do it!

Round 1 JIU

JIU: What do I do?!

'Something' discomforting appeared~

JIU covers her mouth and pretends to run away in a hurry. Sua answers 'a cockroach!', but JIU tells her to be 'a bit more accurate'. Dami correctly answers, going 'A house centipede appeared in the practice room!' JIU and Dami give each other the thumbs up and smile.

JIU: Dami, correct!

Round 2 Yoohyeon

She turns her back in embarrassment…

Yoohyeon indicates she has a backpack and walks. Sua goes 'you forgot to bring your passport out to the airport'. Dami also says 'You left your passport on the plane', getting a more detailed and correct answer. Yoohyeon seemed to be embarrassed, turning to the wall and laughing.

Yoohyeon: I'm embarrassed…

Round 3 Siyeon

It's something that happened at a concert

Siyeon: I fell…

Siyeon gestures crossing two large flags as she lowers them. Gahyeon shouts 'Ah-!!!' and answers 'at Dream Concert, it rained so the stage got slippery!' Siyeon says 'Exactly.'

Gahyeon says 'We know each other too well~'.

Round 4 Sua

After sleeping… She kicks someone for some reason?

After a sleeping pose, Sua indicates that she suddenly kicked someone and got surprised. Gahyeon immediately says 'You had a nightmare!' Almost immediately, JIU and Siyeon also go 'You had a nightmare and kicked Yoohyeon in the leg (Laugh)', getting a quick correct answer.

JIU & Siyeon: It's Yoohyeon's leg, isn't it (laugh)

Round 5 Gahyeon

I really want to do it after I wake up!

Gahyeon: Sound asleep…

After opening her eyes, Gahyeon puts on a surprised expression. Sua answers 'Sleepwalking! You woke up to find yourself sleeping in the corridor!' but it's X. After the hint that it's 'something that I say often on the car', Siyeon correctly answers that 'You woke up hungry, but nothing was ordered'.

All: You do say it often~

Round 6 Dami

One day, Dami got caught by a monster…?

Dami indicates that she has earphones in, and then seems to be bothered by something around her face. Sua jokes 'I got it! You were listening to music at Hangang river and got caught by a monster!', making everyone burst out laughing. Siyeon says 'during the Fly High promotions, your mic got broken', excellently getting the correct answer.

Siyeon: The mic broke!

Round 7 Handong

Handong: Huh?

I didn't realize it at all but…

Handong sees something on her hand, and opens her mouth wide in a surprised expression. Sua goes 'you turned the switch on the lightstick and found your hand bleeding', giving the correct answer. The other members also went 'ah~' and nodded, remembering the situation.

All: We answered all of them~

[riarushi]

you as the female maknae of nct. (updated ver)

So apparently a lot of you wanted me to update this, so I hope you enjoy! (I added in our new members as well~) ALSO, I’m starting to need new ideas for the Twitter posts, so if you have any, feel free to send them in and I’ll try my best to make it into a post! ~Ness

Profile:

Member Interaction:

Taeil

The one you can always run to when you need immediate assistance.

Loves it when you do.

Will unnecessarily teach you all his lines in every NCT song he sings in.

“What happens if I’m sick? Y/N can fill in my spot.”

Doesn’t want to spoil you but finds it hard not to once you’re around.

When he hasn’t seen you in a while, he’ll make sure to send a text to check up on you.

Johnny

SM won’t let you guys share a room anymore.

Last time, the two of you filled the room with plushies to the point where neither of you could sleep on your beds.

A prominent big brother figure, loves giving you life advice.

You’re his favourite model for photos.

“Just keep doing that, you’ll look even cuter than usual in this picture.”

Would totally start picking fluff off your clothes while you guys stand on stage.

Taeyong

You’re totally his favourite member.

He just won’t admit it.

Has a little shelf in where he keeps all the handmade presents you make for him.

Probably makes something for you in return.

“Look! It matches the bracelet you made me, too!”

Would want to wear the matching bracelets during SMTOWN shows.

Yuta

Can’t restrain himself from wrapping his arms around you every time he sees you.

It doesn’t even matter if you’re filming a variety show or you’re doing a live.

“Y/N~ My small girl~~~”

Takes you out on runs with him sometimes.

Chatting during runs is relaxing and calm, and definitely quality bonding time for the both of you.

You bet he’s not speaking anything other than Japanese with you.

Kun

You’re one of his three (3) children.

Helps you do things without you needing to even ask.

“I looked over your Korean homework, do you want me to help you with that question you didn’t finish?”

Zips your coat up before you leave the dorms, before shoving your bag in your hands.

He made sure not to forget anything you would need for the day while packing it.

Turns off your lights for you before you sleep.

Doyoung

Comes to visit you while you record in the recording studio.

He likes it when you wave at him through the booth window.

Knows the most pointless trivia about you out of all the members due to all the small talk he makes with you.

“Y/n wouldn’t like that. She thinks that colour doesn’t suit her.”

Sends you a lot of aesthetic posts or motivational quotes.

You’ll wake up to see that he’s sent over forty (40) since last night.

Ten

You guys are literally inseparable dance partners.

Takes you out to go get something to eat or drink after practices.

Always teaches you new words that he learns in Chinese.

Would literally squeal if you wanted to learn Thai.

“Wait, say that again! Your pronunciation was almost better than mine.”

I can see him jokingly fitting Japanese into his conversations with you.

Jaehyun

Unintentionally babies you, but immediately apologizes when he realizes.

Always willing to listen to you vent and give advice.

He would take you out to go grab a drink together on your off days.

“Hey, Y/N. I’m gonna go get some coffee, you wanna come?”

Remembers your usual order, but offers to buy the special if you seem interested in it.

Literally the best big brother figure.

Winwin

Despite the fact that he hates skinship, he finds it cute when you grab his arm.

Has definitely gotten closer to you since you moved in, and likes going out with you sometimes.

Probably takes you to dog cafes a lot.

“Do you think that big fluffy one will remember me if I visit it everyday?”

The two of you feel at ease with each other, so you’ve started dropping the polite speech and honorifics with him.

Still continues to choose to be on your team for variety games.

Jungwoo

Showers you with compliments and refuses to stop unless you take them.

“You’re the cutest,Y/N! Just accept it!”

Comes to you for support, and always reminds you that he has your back too.

Buys you things that remind him of you when he’s travelling with 127.

Gives them all to you once he gets back.

Almost half of your plushie collection is contributions from Jungwoo.

Lucas

Always greets you by messing up your hair and attempting to give you a fistbump.

It’s his goal to always keep you out of a bad mood.

Very joking, I can see him always smiling and cracking jokes around you.

“WAIT NO I HAVE AN EVEN BETTER JOKE, LISTEN TO THIS Y/N.”

Absentmindedly grabs your hand and starts playing with your fingers while on stage.

Considers you one of his closest friends.

Mark

Your teacher in lyric writing and other musical aspects.

Can’t resist looking at your notebook whenever he can.

“Oh, Y/N! Y-You’re back... I wasn’t looking at your lyrics. Or anything. Just sitting here and waiting for you.”

Invites you to come watch him record no matter what unit he’s recording for.

He gets excited when you walk in with a cup of watermelon juice for him.

The two of you made a playlist full of songs you both like, and it gets updated often.

Xiaojun

Wants you to join him in his health adventures.

“We can start today! Let’s go get some vegetables and create a delicious and nutritious dish.”

Still continues to wake you up at 3 in the morning to get something sweet to eat.

Also enjoys spending late nights playing video games with you and some of the other members.

Scrambles to turn off the computer and cover the two of you with blankets when he hears someone shuffling outside the room.

It’ll be a while until the both of you develop that healthy lifestyle.

Hendery

Has kept himself somewhat polite and courteous around you.

If he’s joking around with another member and notices you, he’ll get embarrassed.

“Y/N! I didn’t see you there just now.. How are you today?”

Really wants to be close with you.

To show how much he cares about his relationship with you, he’ll buy you a little cactus.

Puts it on your desk and leaves a little encouraging note.

Renjun

Helps you study Korean mostly, but will help with any subject you need assistance with.

“Oh, this one? It’s actually pretty simple, pass me your pencil and I’ll show you how to do it.”

Casually starts doodling Moomin on the side of your paper while you do your work.

He won’t erase his doodling even if you ask him to.

If your sad, he lets you wrap your arms around his waist and pull yourself into him.

Gets so soft and pats your head.

Jeno

Also regular participant in the 3 AM video game party.

Is literally fighting Xiaojun for his favourite gaming buddy back.

“Please stop teaming with him! I’ll play support if you play with me~”

Finds it so hard to not agree to do anything you say.

He’ll get you anything you need. Cuddles? Of course! Something to drink? Take all the water bottles he could find!

You might want to team with him as soon as possible before he spoils you too much.

Haechan

“Who’s Mark Lee? My favourite member is Y/N~”

He’s your number one fanboy.

Begs you to do aegyo on the daily, using his own aegyo to try to convince you.

Is always hugging you and resting his chin on the top of your head during fansigns.

After all the NCTzens are done getting their albums signed, he’ll get up and walk over to your part of the table to pretend to get your autograph too.

Casually initiates a lot of skinship.

Jaemin

Your first and closest friend in NCT.

He shares and does everything with you.

Loves to watch movies with you, the two of you have a movie-watching tradition.

“What should we watch today..?”

Keeps an arm around your shoulders whenever you’re chilling beside each other.

Sometimes surprises you with quick pecks on your temple as he walks by you in fansigns.

Yangyang

One (1) of your two (2) siblings.

Teases you often, but will always side with you when you’re arguing with someone else.

During practices, he’s completely different and is quite serious.

“Try doing this sort of rhythm instead. It’ll sound more natural.”

Gives really good advice to help you improve your performance.

Despite all the teasing he does, he really cares for you and loves you like a little sister.

Chenle

One (1) of your two (2) siblings.

The two of you bicker a lot, but are always comfortable with it because of how chill you are with each other.

Just like real siblings, to be honest.

Usually doesn’t complain when you sneak a bite of his second helping of ramen.

Unless he really doesn’t want to share.

“Hey! That’s the last bit of noodle, give it back!”

Jisung

Likes to point out small little habits he notices you have, and gets embarrassed when you do it back.

For example if you point out his scrunched nose, he’ll quickly cover it up with his hands.

“Don’t talk about it like that! I can’t help it...”

While overseas, he’ll constantly look at you for encouragement while speaking in a language you know well.

In return, he’ll help you with perfecting your dance moves.

Finds it to be extremely cute when you wear his caps.

[2idiots]

N.flying plz i have so much to learn

Well you're in luck I like to pretend I'm qualified to talk about n.flying: (heads up this turns into a love seunghyub post quickly)

1. Rooftops: I know this is their win but this song is special to me (and them). They had to work to get it released and they only performed it at concerts until FNC was finally like "oh maybe this is good?" and it was actually released off seunghyub's SoundCloud (starlight is kinda like this too)

2. Flowerwork: it's a bop and the megaphone sounds 😚👌 also the lyrics are all about just having fun and doing your own thing... Also Seunghyub growls in it. And we don't talk about this live performance because 🥴

3. Leave It: it's so catchy and I will dance in my car on my way to work and get looks but guess what: I D O N ' T C A R E Y O U T A S T E L E S S O T H E R C O M M U T E R S

4. Starlight: I know it seems like the newest song but it is really heartbreaking and the lyrics made me almost cry at work but it doesn't sound as sad as it is. Seunghyub just does a really good job at showing his (and his grandma's) grief and anger. He is an extraordinary musician. (Also Dongsung is on the "official" recording 🙏)

5. Kick-ass or Doll: only these boys would name their song kickass? Like what? Also these songs are not in korean but Japanese heads up. They're also on the same special release. Honestly two more bops. Kickass is about taking advantage of life. And doll is about trying to keep dancing even though you feel like someone is pulling your strings.

I know you didn't ask for a novel but here is my essay and I hope everyone realizes that my love for Lee Seunghyub and n.flying is not just because he is a beautiful man on the outside (he is 🥴) but also because he is beautiful on the inside.

Send me a group/band/soloist and I'll tell you my top 5 favorite songs and maybe not write a book for every ask

[fmdlyna]

Days 1 - 9

Day One: Introduce your muse. Are they solo or in a group? What is their position in the group? Consider this day the day for writing the basics. According to her birth certificate, Lyna was born Jung Ahyeon on November 2 of 1990 in Anchorage, Alaska. Her stage name 'Lyna' is a combination of her English name Lynn and her Korean name Ahyeon, which is meant to signify a synthesis of all she ever was. Lyna is where the paths of Lynn and Ahyeon merged back into one. She's a soloist who debuted in February 2012 under Gold Star Media after working on some collaborations and appearing on a few TV shows to get her name out there and has since come to be known for her powerful vocals and stage presence.

Day Two: Talk about your muse’s childhood. Where did they grow up? Did they have any dream jobs besides being an idol? When did they realize they wanted to be an idol? Lyna grew up in an orphanage in Anchorage, where she spent most of her formative years. Although she dealt with some discrimination there, she would describe her childhood as rather normal. Average. She had friends and people she disliked, good days and bad days. The older she got, the more dissatisfied she grew with the fact that she wasn't getting adopted, however, and decided to follow her ethnicity and move to Korea in 2005. Growing up, she dreamed of becoming a lawyer one day to defend justice. It sounded perfect to her, the little orphan girl who shows them all where hard work can get you. But as time passed, she came to realize that there were many rules she didn't want to enforce or defend, rules that made no sense to her, and that the law and justice could be two very different things, and her dream changed. At age 14 (a few months from 15), she joined a church choir and discovered her love for singing through it, which is when she began to seriously consider idol as a career.

Day Three: Take us back to when your muse was either recruited or auditioned to become an idol. How did that go? How did they feel getting up on stage for recruiters? If your muse could give their younger selves advice before the audition, what would they say? It took her many auditions to make the cut, too many to keep count of. In fact, she never quite did, in a traditional sense. After failing time and time again, Lyna was scouted while busking with a group of friends, which led to a private audition and that one, she finally passed. Since she'd stood in front of recruiters so many times before, she wasn't as nervous anymore at that point. It had become somewhat of a routine and wasn't so different from a busking session, where she would try to get strangers to stop for her, to allow her to take a few minutes of their time. Sure, these people would have to invest more into her than a few seconds out of their lives, but the premise was the same.  And that's exactly the advice Lyna would like to give her younger self. They are just people too, only in important positions. The worst that can happen is that they say no, and then what? Then you get up, dust yourself off and try again.

Day Four: Remember the trainee days? What are some of your muse’s memories of being a trainee? How long were they a trainee? Were they worried about potentially not making a debut? Talk about any challenges they might have encountered. When Lyna finally managed to get into a company, her trainee period was a little different from the usual, as far as she knows. Because she had already gotten collaborative offers prior, she wasn't completely unknown and fairly certain Gold Star already had an idea of what they wanted to do with her, which the TV appearances they granted her further cemented. She trained alongside others, but was never asked to work with them or put in a project group. It was clear to her (and most anyone) that she would be a soloist.  The biggest challenge was one that she thinks is universal, which is maintaining a body that fits the strict beauty standard. Lyna is far from tall and has always been on the curvier side, so she struggled with reaching a weight that was considered acceptable for a female idol. Something under 50kg, at most. That, and all the things about herself that counted as imperfections too that she couldn't change but was ruthlessly criticized for. As someone who believed in hard work more than anything, it frustrated her to no end that there were ways in which she fell short that she simply couldn't influence. A challenge more personal to her was that her special position made it harder for her to bond with other trainees, as it was clear early on that she would not debut with them, which made the 11 months she trained a rather lonely experience.

Day Five: Recall your muse’s debut. What was the song they debuted with? How did it feel performing for the first time on stage as an idol? Feel free to bring up their thoughts about the concept, choreography, lyrics, music video, or other components.  Lyna debuted with 'Heaven', which wasn't very challenging performance-wise but capitalized on her vocals instead, which she appreciated because that was the one thing that set her apart from the innumerable other debuts that happened every year.  Because it was not her first time performing in front of an audience or even on TV, she wasn't as nervous as she imagines some others are, especially because she was already a grown woman (21, internationally) at the time. Despite that, her first music stage performance is a moment she doesn't think she'll ever forget. The moment her dream came true, all adrenaline and giddy smiles she had to suppress for the sake of a frictionless performance.  To this day, she's still fond of the song. Although it's one she didn't participate in creating at all, she thinks 'Heaven' manages to show off her own colors while still being easy to listen to and digest.

Day Six: What concept does your muse think they can pull off best? Cutesy? Manly? Sexy? What concept do they have a hard time pulling off? What kind of concept would they want to do at some point? The concept she's best at has always been a confident one, with sexy undertones. A more mature version of 'girl crush'. That's also evident in her title tracks, as she hasn't strayed from it very often. Ballads are a close second, however, because she loves when people focus solely on her voice and she doesn't have to play any role, just sing.  She has a hard time pulling off anything cutesy, since that's just not who she is (or ever was). It's more than simply feeling too old for it, it clashes with her sense of self. She's short, yes, but she isn't cute and would hate to sell herself as such.  It's not very far from the things she's already done while promoting ballads, but Lyna would really like to try an acoustic song at some point that just has her sitting on stage with her guitar. No frills, no glitter. Something that allows her to reminisce about her busking days.

Day Seven: Which era is your muse’s favorite in their career? Why is it their favorite (think concept, promotions, choreography, etc.)? If your muse has recently debuted, talk about what they would want to do for their next comeback. Lyna's favorite era was 'Mind Your Own Business', as she not only released her first full album then, but it was filled with songs she'd written and composed herself. 'Vivid' is the most personal album she's released to date and thus holds a very special place in her heart.  More than the title track itself (which she likes just fine), she's proud that a song she worked on mostly by herself, 'Insane', got an MV too. It felt like the next big step in her career, and one she likes to look back on with pride.

Day Eight: Talk about your muse’s strengths and weaknesses as an idol. Feel free to discuss their own personal thoughts regarding these components. Think of qualities such as vocals, dancing, visuals, acting skills, and variety show skills, for example. Her most obvious strength are her vocals, where she excels not only in technique but also with a vocal color that seems to appeal to the general public. She maintains it through hard work and constant practice and takes great care not to damage her vocal chords.  Her dancing, while certainly advanced, is something she doesn't get a chance to use or show off often, as her songs are usually impossible to perform if moving around too much, but if she were to promote as a regular idol, it would likely be counted among her strengths as well.  What she would personally name as her biggest strength is her work ethic, however. No matter the circumstances, she's never allowed herself to get lazy or complacent and keeps herself sharp by training with coaches and colleagues whenever possible. It stems from her love for what she's doing, but it's also a mindset.  Acting skills definitely count among her weaknesses, as she has none. Lyna is the type to do fine if she wants to pretend for something like a joke among friends, but at some point, she inevitably breaks into laughter. It feels stilted and not quite right, so she doubts she'll ever go beyond what her MVs demand of her.  Her variety skills are a mixed bag, as it really depends on the type of variety show. Some, she works well on because she's bubbly and bright, which guarantees good reactions. For anything sports-related or requiring too much physical labor, she's a rather bad fit because she's not particularly athletic or enthusiastic about sports that aren't limited to dancing or swimming.  Her biggest weakness might be her bluntness, as honesty is not always welcomed and could potentially even spark a controversy, if she isn't careful. She's also not afraid to call out an MC for a question she deems unacceptable, which isn't always a good idea either.

Day Nine: What is your muse’s fashion style? Talk about what kind of clothes they love to wear. To them, what is the essential thing to have in their closet? What is their favorite outfit? Lyna's fashion style consists to a large part of A-line dresses that show off her body shape but not too much skin, but she often wears simple jeans and blouses or t-shirts, too. It depends on the occasion and her mood. She tends to choose only one colorful item and pairs it with neutrals or goes for subdued colors all over, nothing blindingly bright or too much of a statement. She prefers feeling comfortable to standing out among a crowd. As she's fairly short, she has a rather large collection of heels she doesn't find uncomfortable and often opts for those instead of flats, unless she knows she's going to have to walk long distances or do sports.  What she considers most essential, however, are hair ties, since she likes to wear her hair either in a side-braid or a high ponytail so it doesn't bother her throughout the day.  She has no single favorite outfit, but is particularly fond of the asymmetrical dresses she owns that are shorter in the front and longer in the back, because she thinks they flatter her legs.

[fresh-outta-jams]

Signed, Sealed, Delivered - Part 9

Namjoon x Reader Author: Admin Mo Summary: You’re in college when your soulmate tattoo arrives, an address. Sending a letter couldn’t hurt, right? Note: Super sorry it’s been so long since my last update. Morgan and Morgan and I just got settled back into school with our new classes and everything, so I should have more time now that I have everything figured out. Warnings: Some swearing, soulmate fluff Word Count: 1.8k

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, Epilogue

Your new film classes were kicking your ass. Most of them were three hours long, so one of your greatest challenges in them was not falling asleep at eight in the morning or late at night. Your...distractions the previous semester had prevented you from signing up for your classes on time and therefore, you had the worst schedule on the face of the planet. You woke up too early, got home too late, and barely had time for naps in the middle. However, you did have a window for talking to Namjoon, which was about all you could ask for.

Somehow, it seemed like he got hotter every single day. You more than dreamed about him now; his face floated around your thoughts during your classes, his voice filtered through your earbuds as you walked around the snowy campus. It definitely soothed your pain at least a little bit, that and getting to see your face every time you unlocked your phone or got a call from him. The way his eyes crinkled when he smiled breathed the life back into the very drained half of your shared soul.

“Baby.” Namjoon waved his hand to snag your attention. Your mind had been wandering again. “You okay? You seem sort of distracted today.”

“I’m fine, Joon. Exhausted, but fine. What were you saying?”

“I asked you how our Sims are doing.”

You burst out laughing. When you had talked to him a few weeks prior, you’d made the mistake of mentioning the Sims game you’d been plugging away at, creating a perfect little life with your soulmate. Luckily for you, there were several talented Simmers who had uploaded their own Namjoons to the Gallery, so you could just download one that looked pretty close to the real thing. (Even closer with a dimple mod.)

“Joon is a scientist now.”

“A scientist? I thought he was an actor.”

“Well, he was, but I want to try to contact the aliens.”

“Ah. Understood. How are our kids?”

“They’re doing great. Added some new rooms on the house, got them a bigger TV, and I’m thinking about putting in a pool, but considering that they’re vampires, maybe that’s not the best idea…”

He chuckled softly, shaking his head at the absurdity of the little world you had crafted. “Yeah, maybe not, then.”

“Oh!” You blurted, sitting up straighter as you remembered what had been on your mind. “I have a bone to pick with you.��

Immediately, his eyes widened and his face reddened. Whatever this was, he had a feeling it wouldn’t be good. But then again, he couldn’t remember doing anything that would upset you. “U-um, jagi-”

“Uh-uh, don’t you ‘um, jagi’ me. You have no right. You have NO RIGHT...to go around looking this fine, what the hell, Namjoon. Your hair? So fine. Your face? SO FINE. How am I supposed to keep the girls off of you at this rate?”

“Jeez, you scared me. I thought something was wrong.”

“Also, don’t think I don’t see you lurking on my Twitter, you creep.” You laughed, causing his face to flush an even deeper red. “I have like twenty followers total, so someone with the username ‘rm_fan_94’ is going to raise some eyebrows.”

“Is it my fault you ReTweet all of the BTS Tweets gushing about how handsome you think I am? Sometimes a guy needs a little confidence boost from his beautiful girlfriend.”

That was new. You couldn’t remember him ever using THAT word before…

“Did I say something wrong?”

“N-no, you just, uh, caught me off-guard is all.” You coughed, cheeks burning probably the brightest red they’d ever glowed before. “Can I get that one more time?”

“What, ‘girlfriend’?” Namjoon smirked softly, his dimples prominent. “Well, that is what you are, isn’t it?”

“Yeah.” You exhaled a sigh, something warm settling over your heart. “God, I really am, aren’t I?

“Shit, I never asked, did I? That’s a thing in the states, right? I’m supposed to ask you to be my girlfriend?”

“Well, I mean sometimes that’s how it goes, but not always.”

“(Y/N),” he suddenly got very mock-serious, “will you be my girlfriend?”

“Let me think about it.” You laughed. He pretended to wait with bated breath as you ‘thought about’ your answer to his very important world-changing question. “Yeah, I think I will.”

“Awesome.” He smiled. Namjoon was about to say something else before he was interrupted by someone walking into his and Tae’s room.

“Namjoon-ah, breakfast.” You recognized Hoseok’s voice as he entered, his face lighting up when he caught sight of what their fearless leader was doing. “(Y/N)!!”

“Hi Hobi!” You waved excitedly, hyped to finally meet him after watching him in videos for so long. “Nice to meet you!”

“Nice to meet you too!”

“I’ll be out in a sec, alright?” Namjoon told him in Korean. Hoseok nodded and then waved one last time before leaving the way he came. He looked back at you and sighed, torn. Obviously, they were all really busy working on their next comeback, even though they were still coming back down to earth after the Christmas/New Year’s Eve rush. You knew time was tight, but you always ached when it was time to say goodbye. “I’ll talk to you tomorrow, baby. I love you.”

“I love you too.” You blew him a kiss, and then he was gone, leaving you waiting for the next time you would get to see his beautiful face.

***

“Dear Namjoon,

I read your book. Cover to cover. Well, I guess because it was in digital format, from the top of the Doc to the bottom of it. And let me just say I am blown away. I’ve known you’re a good writer. You write the best letters ever, and also you literally write lyrics for a living, so obviously you’re good, but this was so much different than any of your songs in the best possible way. There’s so much character, so many heartfelt moments, but it’s also funny and lighthearted and then it tugs at your heartstrings. I ended up crying three times while I read it.

That said, there were a few phrasing things I noticed, and a few typos, but I think you’re way more fluent than you realize. I usually end up with waaaaay more mistakes in my NaNo books than you have in yours. I marked the ones I caught in pink and left some comments.

These new classes are killing me. My film analysis is boring and we have a pretty heavy workload. Not to mention it’s like three hours long. Draining isn’t the word. However, it’s not all bad. I still go to the K-Pop club and learn new things about you and the guys from all of my K-Pop-loving friends. One of them got me a Koya sleep mask for Christmas! They all know I’m super whipped for you (but they don’t know why, no worries!).

Did I tell you I have Moonchild set to my wake up alarm? Ironic, I know, but it’s my favorite song on Mono. You probably know that. I probably told you that. I don’t remember. I’ve kind of had a lot on my mind recently. I’m seriously counting down the days to spring break. My brain hurts so much, but hearing your voice and talking to you and looking at your face makes it a little bit better.

I love you so much,

-(Y/N)”

*** Namjoon had a plan. Granted, it wasn’t a very solid plan; he didn’t have all of the details worked out, nor anything scheduled, nor had he even asked permission yet. But, it was a plan no less.

Over the past few weeks, in your ongoing letter correspondence back and forth to each other, Namjoon had been collecting details, thinking through logistics, and going around to the camera crew and asking them some questions figuring that they of all people would have the answers to them. And for the most part, they did, and they were all very friendly and nice to talk to. Based on the conversations he’d had with them, it seemed like Part 1 of his plan would work out just fine. That left him to figure out parts 2 and 3.

Part 2, he figured, would be the second-easiest thing to accomplish. Actually, maybe the easiest, considering that Part 1 had required some digging and research. Whereas with Part 2, it was only the idea of it that was scaring him. In theory, actually pulling through with it would be easy.

So, once he had scraped together as much courage as he could manage, he went to the office of none other than Hitman Bang and knocked on the door.

***

“Dear (Y/N),

I’m sorry to hear your classes are so rough. I wish I could make it better. Thinking about you in pain pulls at my heartstrings in more ways than one. I really, really wish I could be there to comfort you somehow, but even then, I don’t think I would know how to fix the problem aside from supporting you and encouraging you to keep going because you’re almost there. Just a little longer and it’ll all be worth it.

As for my book...I’m super, super glad you liked it. Part of me was really afraid it maybe wasn’t as good as I hoped it was. We all have a tendency to look down on our own work, I guess, and sometimes we’re blind to our own mistakes. Thank you for helping out with mine, though. It means so, so much to me that you took the time out of your busy schedule to look over it and give me feedback. I’m also very sorry I made you cry. Thinking about that hurts me inside too.

I’m glad you’re having fun in your K-Pop club and making new friends and learning things! Just know that if you ever want to know ANYTHING, I would be more than happy to tell you anything you want to know. Also, I’m really sorry you have to keep me a secret, at least for know. Just know it won’t be a secret forever. Someday, you won’t have to hide who I am. I just hope that ‘someday’ comes sooner than it seems to be coming.

You definitely did not tell me Moonchild is your wake up alarm. God, you don’t know how happy that makes me. I’m glad you like it so much. Again, I’m so sorry this semester has been rough on you so far. And I’m sorry I couldn’t kiss you on New Year’s Eve. And I’m sorry I couldn’t be with you on Christmas morning. I’m sorry for a lot of things. I’m sorry we’re so far away from each other. I’m sorry it’s taking me so long to get to you. I promise I will soon, though. As soon as I possibly can. Every minute I’m without you burns, and I know you feel it too.

I love you to the moon and back,

-Namjoon”

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