#pretend that it's 2021 september again ok?

[funkyposs]

everyone's mom

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H+L moments in 2022

I’ve seen these recaps before so I thought I’d make one with my favorite moments of 2022 since it was such a special year for them (and for us too):

1) I’m gonna start with probably my favorite moment (and this was just the beginning of everything) Louis wears the same blue and green shirt for his shows in Houston and Seattle (aka HS) 28 days apart of each other:

2) Louis pointing nonstop to a Larry sign during his show in Washington (here's the moment in different angles x, x, x):

3) Louis, during his Pittsburgh concert on Valentine's day, wears pants with a butterfly logo on them - a butterfly that was inspired by the movie Papillon, the same movie which inspired Harry’s butterfly tattoo:

4) Louis, on his Reykjavik show, wears a shirt that's written Maison - home in french - on the same day Harry announces his new album, Harry's House:

5) Ok, maybe this is my favorite moment. Harry, during his first concert of 2022, sings You're Still the One while wearing a rainbow jumpsuit (knowing exactly what this song means to us after singing it in 2018 and fonding way too hard while looking up at the VIP box):

6) Harry doodles an "H" and a subtle-ish “L” on his shoes while stunting in Italy:

7) The peace ring makes a comeback in May and then for a few days in September (worth mentioning that the first appearance in September was on the 7th, the exact same day the ring made a comeback in 2021:)

May 19th:

Sep 7th 2021 and Sep 7th 2022:

8) Louis and Harry being in Italy at the same time and Louis pretending he is not aware of it:

9) Harry dresses up as Danny Zuko (making him look a lot like Louis) aka a character from Grease aka one of Louis' favorite movie aka a character Louis played when he was young (a play so important to him that he still has the jacket he wore in it):

10) which leads me to this moment, because while wearing a Danny Zuko costume, Harry sang Hopelessly Devoted to You, a song that speaks for itself but that later on, Louis said was his favorite song from Grease:

11) After years of Harry telling us he's the little spoon, Louis finally confirmed that he is in fact the big spoon:

12) so many songs and lyrics from Harry's House and Faith in the Future (big, big, big, biiiiiig shout out to Keep Driving, Daylight, Written All Over Face and Lucky Again)

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I posted 17,452 times in 2022

That's 5,112 more posts than 2021!

214 posts created (1%)

17,238 posts reblogged (99%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@chaoticeddie

@ellynneversweet

@niimuue

@too-easily-obsessed

@derinthescarletpescatarian

I tagged 4,347 of my posts in 2022

#via shitposts - 202 posts

#frogs for liza - 197 posts

#if i had to see this then so do yall - 179 posts

#wwdits spoilers - 30 posts

#lmao - 29 posts

#omg - 20 posts

#i- - 16 posts

#:') - 16 posts

#gnu terry pratchett - 16 posts

#temeraire - 13 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#im no expert but pls my lived experience is v e r y different to that of a black person in america and i wish americans would stop painting

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

hmmmmm

interesting that my post on the cross-stitch subreddit about supporting the Etsy strike was removed... by a mod who is a very successful Etsy seller who is NOT participating in the strikes at all

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

(cross stitch peeps, i am tagging it as such in case anyone has insights, but please don't reblog, i really don't want drama. please do reblog the other posts you see about etsy strikes tho, and if you can think of some way to make it ~relevant~ for the subreddit, please do lmk and i'll try again)

idk im just like. our hobby seems so innocuous and harmless in every possible way but nothing exists in a sociopolitical vacuum and it's disingenuous to pretend that isn't the case. things that affect our small business owners are important to the entire community.

22 notes - Posted April 12, 2022

#4

everything everywhere all at once said "you'll push your kids to their breaking point for what you think is their own good but all you'll achieve is to push them away from you" and "no matter how hard you try to encircle them in traditional values and concepts you understand, they'll still pull away from you" and "the only way to move past this is for both of you to truly listen to each other" and that is so very, very sexy of them

25 notes - Posted August 7, 2022

#3

so an Observation TM I made recently is that in Western love poetry/devotional works/etc, the beloved or the divine tends to be referred to as a shining light or a feeling of warmth or something along those lines, whereas in the (albeit limited amount of) Indian art I'm familiar with, the beloved/divine is a gentle breeze or a cooling shade

I think this is a really good example of fundamental cultural differences that are baked in so deep that you'd never even notice them - I didn't until I was out with my family in one morning, already 25 degrees C at 9am, and saw a tree to stand under, and something in my brain went Ah

31 notes - Posted September 2, 2022

#2

ok so i know im very very late to the party but i can't stop thinking about isabela's line: 'he told me that my power would grow like the grapes that thrive on the vine', specifically the word 'grapes'. was this bruno's word or isabela's, chosen simply to sensibly rhyme 'vine' with 'mine' or with a deeper meaning?

remember, all we see isabela create until what else can i do? is flowers. beautiful, sure, but probably not useful for all that much beyond being decorative, whereas grapes are a food, can be used to make wine, and are considered to have minor healing properties (i'm referring to the idea of bringing sick people grapes to make them feel better or at least refreshed). so they're far more practically useful than just flowers, with aspects of hedonism (wine) and healing (perhaps a shout-out to isabela being julieta's daughter, though i acknowledge that that link is tenuous at best).

so is this actually bruno suggesting/isabela wishing for a role for her that's more than the perfect, decorative flower-growing golden child role that she gets pushed into? the 'something true' that she describes in what else can i do? a representation of something more meaningful and three-dimensional than just growing pretty, ephemeral flowers? what else can i do? does feature only flowering plants, it's true, but they're far more diverse than the traditionally elegant and pretty flowers she grows before that, (and she does grow strangling figs in what else can i do?) and it's not a great stretch to imagine that she continues exploring her powers to see if she can grow fruit, grains, herbs/medicinal plants, timber, etc etc, as well

31 notes - Posted March 26, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Bit late but I made Xmas presents for my whole family :)

@ellynneversweet i think u know what reminded me to put this up

53 notes - Posted January 13, 2022

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[a-wild-things-rambles]

I posted 3,096 times in 2022

That's 3,096 more posts than 2021!

453 posts created (15%)

2,643 posts reblogged (85%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@brutaliakhoa

@salzundhonig

@tumblingxelian

@nonius-the-ninth

@aaaaaarrrghhhhhh

I tagged 1,578 of my posts in 2022

Only 49% of my posts had no tags

#thebirdspeaks - 130 posts

#poetry - 126 posts

#thebirdreads - 89 posts

#violence - 85 posts

#thebirdwrites - 77 posts

#the sandman - 72 posts

#jason todd - 60 posts

#thebirdarts - 59 posts

#nature of stories - 59 posts

#thebirdwillwright - 48 posts

Longest Tag: 140 characters

#never even realized how lost i was without her. but i always was. just some lost soldier who forgot he ever had a home… until she gave me on

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

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88 notes - Posted September 18, 2022

#4

the one and only Talia al Ghul!!! Im so proud of the piece! plus bonus pink version!

massive thanks to @gooseyalghul-gumdrops​ for there Talia pallet. it was a lifesaver! There amazing recolours of Talia is what inspired me to finally do a proper Talia piece!

108 notes - Posted August 27, 2022

#3

small brain: dick grayson is bad at cooking

big brain: jason get fussy about cooking so dick pretends to be bad at it to rile him up cause jasons scowl is so cute

huge brain: dick now associates cooking w Jason so rarely cooks with others after his baby brothers death because its hard for him to cook alone let alone with someone else

massive brain: dick associated cooking with his mother and father and his family at halys circus so he avoided it but learnt to love it again through cooking with Jason

ginormous brain: damian enlists him to help cook some dishes Damian misses and damian helps dick get over cooking with out Jason and it become their thing

im runing out of size measurements for brains: Damian figures out why dick has complicated feeling to do with cooking and makes jason join them, and now all three do it together as brothers

168 notes - Posted October 21, 2022

#2

this work is inspired by @finalgirljasontodd​ ‘s amazing fic household autopsy , more specifically the line:

“And as they curl up against Gotham’s sodden ribs, she realises he’s as familiar with this way of living as she is. They both know how to pick at a city’s carcass”

please read the whole fic its amazing!!

under the cut is the progress and some ramblings and other pieces also inspired by the fic

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177 notes - Posted September 26, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

im normal about this im ok about this im normal about this(lying)

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

258 notes - Posted September 16, 2022

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[richardxoliverxmayhew]

I posted 1,075 times in 2022

That's 1,075 more posts than 2021!

348 posts created (32%)

727 posts reblogged (68%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@warrioroflondonbelow

@dontcxckitup

@henycavil

@thecreaturesofglen

@vxctorx

I tagged 1,072 of my posts in 2022

#the blog train goes queue queue - 227 posts

#ooc;the gremlin behind the curtain - 210 posts

#the warrior; - 163 posts

#there and back again;v - 139 posts

#meme - 129 posts

#answered ask; - 111 posts

#shaken not stirred;au - 69 posts

#musings; - 62 posts

#1920;au - 53 posts

#v;undetermined - 49 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#//im literally that person who's just like 'ok but there was this cool looking rock and i thought you'd like it cause its really pretty 🥺'

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

//I'm sorry but.... Can we-.... Can we just appreciate how damn soft and teasing and completely Richard this gif is like??? 🙈//

13 notes - Posted November 15, 2022

#4

HC:

Richard has a bunch of ugly, Christmas jumpers, all of which have some sort of seasonal pun to them. Some of his favourites are:

-"Takes one to snow one" -"But wait there’s myrrh" -"A rebel without a Claus"

14 notes - Posted December 2, 2022

#3

devilmass asked: roddy's going to shape Richard's hair into cat ears with the hair wax 🧍or tiny devil horns and then grab a cross off the wall and pretend he's performing an exorcism

Things for Richard: ALWAYS ACCEPTING

II @devilmass

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15 notes - Posted November 2, 2022

#2

( Sentence Starter! Spooky Edition )

” I’m not going into a bloo'y graveyard at night, are ye' mental!?”

18 notes - Posted October 26, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

-Neil Gaiman’s Neverwhere RP Blog

-Indie RP

-Semi Selective

-Multiverse/Multiship

HOME // RULES // VERSES // BIO // OPENS

25 notes - Posted September 9, 2022

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[unknowncallers-world]

About a year ago, I wrote things about my ex that weren’t true. I was just so fucking numb I didn’t know what tf was going on. About a year ago, she was with Alyssa. And Alyssa dmed me telling me I was treating Taylor like shit and I was saying things I shouldn’t be saying. At the time I was hanging out with Shannen and I told Alyssa I was taken, which she didn’t believe. I mean I wasn’t taken. I lied. I lied about everything because I felt like everyone was better off without me but at the same time I didn’t want to feel like I did anything wrong. I was such a shit person. I still can’t believe who I was a year ago. Last year I started my med school rotations. I was happy with Taylor. Then something changed and I just became depressed and I refused to admit I needed help. We broke up. Of course that wasn’t all my fault. But the rest of it was. I couldn’t give Taylor space. I fucking wrote her a love poem. I fucking stalked her on twitter and tumblr. I would type her name in on Snapchat and ig to see if she unblocked me. Everything was a fucking mess. I was a fucking mess. I was so depressed. Not even the gym could help. I was eating like shit and too depressed to workout because I couldn’t stand to be in my own head. But then I got help. I got meds. And I worked on myself. I got better. I tried to heal. But once that started, I realized all of the ducking mistakes I made were it’s Taylor. I saw how shit and wrong I was and all I wanted was her back. Then randomly in November, i was checking like I always did to see if I was still blocked and I wasn’t. I remember writing on here that I wouldn’t reach out to her after everything that happened in hopes she was still reading this and would reach out. That same night I was dreaming about her and tbh I love dreaming about her because it’s like the only connection I have left. But that night it was like 1am. She followed me and dmed me. I thought maybe this was our chance. The next day or maybe a couple days later she asked what I was doing. She randomly called me and we talked for a few hours. Right after that I had therapy and I knew I still loved her. I wanted to tell her so bad. So i did and she didn’t say anything. I tried so hard not to care. But eventually I just pretended like nothing happened. We started dming more everyday. We started being friends on switch and playing Minecraft together and we would talk on the phone. Then over thanksgiving she went to Arizona where I’m assuming she met her current girlfriend. I told her I loved her again. She didn’t say anything. About a week later she wrote me back. I still have that screenshot to this day, 8 months later. It was during the World Cup and all I said was that it was ok. She said she rooted for Messi for me and I said thanks. Then she started posting about Jackie more. One of the hardest things I did was to unfollow her. Eventually I went back to Illinois and I had a rough few weeks. I felt shitty. But eventually I started making new friends and going out more. I became happy. I met J who ended up being my girlfriend. I mean I asked her to be my girlfriend. I told her I loved her first. She visited me in Philly. I’m visiting her in Chicago in a few weeks. We talk about living together and all I can think is why do I feel more brave now to be with my girlfriend than I did with Taylor. Of course it was because taylor was my first girlfriend well my first relationship and I didn’t know what to do. But lemme say I haven’t gone one fucking day without thinking about her. We matched and talked on Snapchat in December 2020. I remember seeing her stories when she was in Greece randomly. I remember always liking when she would check out my story. Then when we matched again September 2021 and started talking again, i was in shock about how it was turning out. We don’t follow each other on ig but not a day goes by where I don’t randomly type in her name. Not a day goes by where I don’t miss her. Not a day goes by where I low key hope they break up because I want her back. That won’t change. It will never change.

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I posted 257 times in 2022

That's 219 more posts than 2021!

7 posts created (3%)

➡️ that’s what you get when your pc dies on February and every time you place an order for a new one it takes 1,5 months to find out it’s cancelled… 🙄 7 is a nice number, though. Wish me luck on finally getting a pc in 2023, please!!!

250 posts reblogged (97%)

💜Blogs I reblogged the most💜:

@radiodread

@kinbari14

@3-aem

@kudouusagi

@arinavah

I tagged 234 of my posts in 2022

Only 9% of my posts had no tags

#jujutsu kaisen - 83 posts

#jjk - 81 posts

#gojo satoru - 45 posts

#free! - 40 posts

#itadori yuuji - 39 posts

#fushiguro megumi - 34 posts

#nanami kento - 29 posts

#free! series - 29 posts

#yamazaki sousuke - 29 posts

#nanase haruka - 29 posts

➡️ I see a pattern here… hm 🧐

Longest Tag: 140 characters

#aaaaaaah~ i wanted to whatch them again now that it was re-airing which new visuals before i start the manga but pc be like ☠️ 6months nyaw!

➡️ Pal, there is a mistake in this 🏷️ but I’ll pretend I don’t freak out about it…😬 Kindly replace [which] with [with], ok?

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Ok, WHY is tumblr following blogs I don’t even know of???

I’m sorry if you had been unfollowed by me recently, but I never choose to follow your blog in the first place.

Thanks for your understanding…

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#4

Free! Birthday Boy

🎉Happy birthday, Sousuke-kun, our champion! 🥇 Congrats! Congrats! Congrats! 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

✨ You realised your dream and stood on the highest step of the podium🏆, surrounded by friends! Your unwavering character and kind heart ❤️ will guide you on taller heights for sure!🔝 ✨ Free!💦 may have ended but your story is still ongoing! May you always be strong and victorious in all your endeavours!!! 🔥🔥🔥

Let us meet again in the next fic! 🤗💕

🇯🇵【山崎宗介♍️ ❾/14】🏊🏻‍♂️🫧🫧🫧

2 notes - Posted September 15, 2022

#3

Free! Birthday Boy

Happy birthday, Haruka!🐬

💝 May the water 💦 to always favour you and your friends forever be with you!🫧 🎣 【七瀬遙♋️ ❻/30】🛁

5 notes - Posted July 1, 2022

#2

A Day Like Any Other

Yuuji → Megumi | Sukuna → Megumi

🥛📚

1507 words Itadori Yuuji, Ryomen Sukuna, Fushiguro Megumi SFW

Summary: Until Episode 16

Hello, guys! Missed me? Long time no fic, huh? Well, let me fix this. Although it’s from another fandom yet again, I still hope you’ll like it.😗

Anyways, as the summary says, this doesn’t include manga spoilers, but as I am getting spoiler-ed over on twttr and the net in general, I think I have stepped on some minor(?) things. So, yes, that’s it for foreword. I really hope you’ll N’joy this little something-something.🤗

Three months.

That’s how long it took for Itadori Yuuji’s cosmotheory to turn upside down.

In this short span of time, Yuuji had learnt that monsters are real. They get born from the negative feelings of humanity and hungrily prey and feed off of peoples’ fear, shame, hate, regret…

… blood.

They bring mayhem into the human lives in order to cause enough pain to illicit such emotions, so they can sustain themselves and grow stronger. With each passing day they remain unresolved, they become more dangerous and harder to deal with. Eventually, these voracious spirits — curses as they’re called — will evolve into these walking, talking, intelligent forms of existence that can take more than just the life of a human being.

These curses, savagely devour the very soul of their victim.

But Yuuji has also learnt, that there’s a secret society that has taken upon fighting these nightmarish things. It’s just a handful of humans with abilities that far exceed what once he considered common sense; the jujutsu sorcerers.

These people are just like any other. They laugh, they cry, they resent.

They however, put their lives on the line with every battle they fight, so that the rest of the world will be safe. 

They all do it without expecting anything in return or knowing whether they will be able to get back alive and are forced to silently suffer the losses of their friends in this ever waging war.

Yuuji, admires that kind of resolve.

But as long as it goes through his hand, he will never allow a curse to take anyone from him.

That said, in that same time, he’s gotten painfully aware of some things about himself he’d never admit would rather not have known…

For one, he’s still terribly weak. He’s nowhere near as strong as he considered himself to be when facing these abominations.

Then, comes the fact that he’s actually sane enough to be scared of dying, something he hadn’t been expecting to be of much effect on him since he had made his mind about taking responsibility for helping with Sukuna’s containment. 

And finally, there’s his shame over being unable to flatly adhere by his ideals, after having already been forced to cross red lines he’d promised himself would never cross.

And that all, circles back to his weakness.

In the end, he’s helplessly mortal…

Only human.

Yuuji has made these mental workouts several times throughout the past two months, and he’s always left feeling unsatisfied with his progress after reflecting on each breakthrough coupled with a new throwback.

Yuuji furrows his brows and squeezes his closed eyes until it’s nothing but complete blackness. 

‘It’s irritating.’

When will he finally be able to protect everyone with his own strength?

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6 notes - Posted August 14, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Gojo-san just checking Nanami out for injuries after getting back from his mission.

Also, “ What is a proper death drawing? I don’t get it!”

18 notes - Posted September 11, 2022

➡️ Why the heck is no.5 a top post???🤣🤣🤣 For no.4-3 I blame YOU, tumblr! I trusted you with my scheduled posts and you were late in posting them! 😤 No.2 was my first JJK post and no.1 is one I’m actually very fond of. 🤗 For the record, I’m super proud of no.2-1 considering how I made them without a pc!!!

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[aristocratic-otter]

Thank you to @bookish-bogwitch, @ivelovedhimthroughworse, @larkral, @palimpsessed, @faacethefacts-dead, @moodandmist, @whogaveyoupermission, @ionlydrinkhotwater, @basiltonbutliketheherb, @hushed-chorus, @nightimedreamersghost, @fatalfangirl @tea-brigade, @stardustasincocaine, and @artsyunderstudy for the tags today and Wednesday.

I managed to catch up with my work enough tonight to actually post something! I've not written a ton, just a few sentences a night. But here's some short bits. Ok, not really very short bits😆 :

Under the cut for length

From next year's COTTA contender, Baz POV:

Bunce sniffles hard, and swipes her arm across her eyes before nodding. “He was my best friend,” she says, her voice thick with more potential tears. “Or is, I suppose. It’s not like we had a friend breakup. But he moved away, a bit over two years ago. And he never called, or wrote.” She swipes at her eyes again. 

My heart aches for her. Whoever or whatever this boy is, he has a lot to answer for when I see him next. Who does that to a friend?

From my 2021 COTTA , Westward Son (help 😭), Shepard POV:

“What do you know of the trail ahead?” Baz asks. I can tell he’s striving to sound casual, like this news isn’t everything to us. We’ve lost time battling the demons, and the gruesome fate of the Donner party is constantly in our minds. 

The mustachioed Captain shakes his head solemnly. “It’s late for you to be heading west, I won’t lie to you, son. You’re looking at over two hundred miles just to get to the Blue Mountains, and then the crossing…” He shakes his head again. “You’ve got nigh unto 800 miles to Willamette valley and it’s nearly September. You’d probably be better off wintering here and trying again in the spring.”

I watch as my friends exchange glances. Then Baz (he’s apparently been designated the de facto leader of our little group. Henri’s English isn’t great, and Simon’s speaking isn’t good at the best of times) asks, “What of supplies? Are there supplies enough to support our group through to April?”

The Captain’s grim look answers for him.

From Raising Dragons, Chapter 8, Simon POV:

I’m nervous now, though. Things have gone well…but I’m not sure how he’d prefer to end the night. He and I are back home now, watching an old episode of The Great British Baking Show and I’m watching him while pretending not to watch him. There’s a particular thing he often does while watching telly, and I need him to do it so that I’ll have an excuse to suggest our next activity. 

So far, he’s just looking sleepy and content. Maybe I overdid it with taking him for Italian for dinner? Pasta does always make him sleepy. (And that old idea that vampires are repelled by garlic is bollocks; Baz inhales the stuff). 

But there! Baz stretches his neck and rolls it a bit from side to side; his tiny little tell that his muscles are stiff. He may be immune to germs, but he suffers as much as any human from sore muscles, and I kept him on the go all day today. 

“Sore?” I ask, striving to sound casual.

“Mmmhmm,” Baz hums. 

“Want a neck rub?” I offer, without looking up from the telly, so he’ll think that this isn’t at all premeditated. 

Baz turns to give me an unreadable look. I don’t look back. I pretend to be engrossed in watching Mary Berry eat yet more cake. 

“That’d be nice,” he says slowly. I nod, trying for nonchalance, and gesture for him to sit in front of me, between my spread legs. He complies.

And, SFW, but a hint at sexy times to come, from my Carry On Reverse Bang fic, Playing with Fire, Treading Thin Ice, here's some Simon fretting:

I’m eying the bed with a sense of unease. I’ve been wanting to have sex with Baz for weeks, and I think I pushed for an overnight getaway to psyche myself up for it. 

So, object achieved. Now if only I can keep my spark reined in long enough to consummate (heh) my goal…

The problem is, my spark seems as obsessed with Baz as I am. I’ve dated before, boys and girls, and it stayed firmly inside my skin the whole time. But all Baz has to do is touch me and it’s surging towards him like the tide. 

It's late, but I'll tag a few folks for Sunday:

@angelsfalling16, @bazzybelle, @carryonsimoncarryonbaz, @cutestkilla, @dragoneggos, @erzbethluna, @fight-surrender, @foolofabookwyrm-activated, @giishu, @ileadacharmedlife, @johnwgrey, @krisrix, @prettylightsbigcity, @raenestee, @urban-sith, @whatevertheweather, @you-remind-me-of-the-babe

[seungs]

every month of 2021 🥳 / i was tagged by @hyeongjunz​ to post my favorite or most popular set from each month this year. carly your timing is great because i saw people do this and said yesterday i’ll do it w/out being tagged cause it seemed fun dlkfjh doing it here instead of my main cause i giffed here more anyway 😈

tagging: @hyunsung @seungminhos @1zone​ @jizung @huiracha & whomever wants to do this really

ok so i actually didn’t open this side blog until april21 so i’m skipping jan-march

april / my most popular set was this 210218 hyunjin vlive but no one is surprised because it also entered my most popular sets this year so! my favorite set this month though is this get cool hyunjin fancam 🥲 will forever be one of my favorite hyunjins... love it when he’s silly

may / my most popular set was this seungmin shin dux3 stage and i’m honestly still surprised it took off like that but #deserved. my favorite set this month is this jeongin compilation, even though i don’t like my old coloring anymore making this set and looking for clips was really fun that guy is naturally hilarious 😭

june / is an easy month cause i made a total of 3 sets SDLKHSDLK but my most popular is also my favorite and it’s seungmin in mixtape: oh, genuinely one of my favorites fr fr 🧡🧡

july / again my most popular this month is no surprise cause it also made it to my year in review and it’s hyunjin on skz song camp. my favorite set this month is actually also from skz song camp and it’s seungmin during their intro. just some dudes vibing playing guitar !! what’s not to love !!

august / most popular set pretends to be shocked (pt.3) is minho literally just sitting there. my funniest set to take off personally, but i also get it. absolute iconic moment in time my favorite set is the seungmin be responsible stage 🥲 he was the star of the show having the best time of his life !!!

september / aaand most popular set is minho in cheese mv because well... naturally it is dlkfjh (i get it pt.2). for my favorite this time is hard cause i actually made a few sets this month i really love but i would have to pick jisung’s birthday set and seungmin’s birthday set for obvious reasons 😞😞💗 those sets were actually the literal death of me but i’m really happy with how they turned out in the end 😌 shoutout to ghosties ex mv set and jeongin in cheese mv

october / my most popular set is seungmin dance break in scars mv which!!!! love to see it honestly... literally no one expected this but here we were!!! my favorite would also be scars mv related actually and it’s this scars/levanter parallel set, truly parallel sets are my favorite things to do hoping skiz will give me a reason to make more of those 😎

november / my most popular set to be added to the list of sets i had no idea would take off like that but happy to see it anyway and it’s seungmin in christmas evel teaser. i love it when i gif my self indulgences and everyone agrees 😔 my favorite set is hands down i am who, probably one of my favorite things i made ever and i’m sososo satisfied with how it came out in the end 💛💛💛

december / my most popular set is minho vibing w/ cats and i couldn’t agree more.. this was so sweet and everyone in the tags collectively lost it over some wholesome minho cat content (i get it pt.3). my favorite is actually from the same video(ish) and it’s 2min’s hair salon antics kdfh genuinely the second minho started washing jisung’s hair it reminded me of seungmin and changbin 😭😭 (in my list of self indulgent sets)

aaaaaand this was it! i talked too much for no reason if no one read this i wouldn’t be surprised dkfhd ,, carly thanks again for tagging me, this has been fun 🥸

[desktopdonnie]

OK so my guys in TMNT and artists in the fandom you need to hear this.

There is a person called @hamsterandturtlesoup and @hamstermastersamster

Who is 40 something year-old.

They pretend they're younger and post a TMNT fanfic comic. On it's own I think that's not a big deal. Like maybe they're a super autistic dude right needing a outlet? But the plot thickens.

So the deal is I joined tumblr last year and through the Rise TMNT fandom I came to follow this hamsterandturtlesoup (HATS). In like a week after following I got an ANON message saying to avoid them because they're not whom I think they are. Curious yes? Someone has there eye on HATS and is warning people off following. Why?

I guessed this was spam. I ignored it until September 2021 when I got way too curious after school restarted. Yeh I were bored....

So.... I read the anon message yesterday and it got weird. That's where I read that HATS is middle aged. But it's worse. There's a load of screen caps and reddit history to put together, but I got reading and here's the plot:

The TLDR deal is they (HATS) went loopy in covid 2020 and had a psychological stress meltdown. They took out there angst on a friend of 20 years who was in hospital during covid (not clear if it was from covid). HATS axed the person from there life because HATS didn't like being inviting to online socials (during covid). Like what a crime lol. I don't understand if the friend was still in hospital at the time but it is weird to go mental at a friend when they're fresh out from major surgery....just because HATS was upset about a discord server the friend invited them to. I read the screen caps and you got to assume that HATS is mentally ill or deeply autistic because they really go all out on there bud's ass for inviting them to an online party.

No big deal you think? Personal domestic. But it gets weirder.

The person that HATS axed was a good artist that drew loads and was good friends to HATS for many years. They swapped art on deviantart for like 15 years. And the guy was pretty busted up over this weird behaviour by HATS so they posted for help in dealing with it. They're thinking HATS was needing mental help. The reply from reddit was to reach out to HATS to see if they were in mental crisis.

But by Jan 2021 that friend died after another big surgery and didn't get to speak to HATS again over the lost friendship.

This choked me up big after I looked at the art they made. Knowing they had surgery they made beautiful art in honor of Qinni but then died soon after themselves. It's kind of like they knew they were going to die....

So what happened next with HATS?

@hamsterandturtlesoup didn't care and didn't go to the funeral and acted like nothing happened. Twenty year friendship. RIP. Didn't react. On there deviant they even deleted the friend's name. That's damn savage af.

You might think they grieved privately?

I doubt. They then blocked everyone who ever asked about it. If you ask them they block you. Seriously try to ask them and you will get blocked!

Like no one knows the real reason these friends broke up. Is there a real reason? If the reason really is because of an online invite then I think HATS is not normal. I would never axe a friend over a discord chat. A twenty year friend is family.

Then HATS deletes everything online except the TMNT obsession. That's all they do. TMNT stuff on tumblr and deviantart (like who uses that anymore except millenials?).

Are they a predator?

It doesn't sound much when you break it down, but I read so many screen caps and stuff from so many different people on this. I had a session with two people who both confirmed HATS was middle aged and in a kind of denial about the death. It was mega dark reading how they behaved. Combined with HATS sadistic TMNT fic, they come off as really sinister.

I'm guessing HATS freaked out over more then just being invited to voice channels. Like why didn't they want to talk to other people online? I'm thinking because they wanted to hide there age or gender and predatory behavior. I think the dead friend had some sort of dirt on HATS that HATS wanted to stay hidden. Because who just deletes there online life and friends but keeps there creepy TMNT comic obsession?

HATS does.

Why cut all ties and people linked to them and there behaviour if not suspect?

Something is going on here that's deeper.

I think HATS might be one of those predators you're told to avoid by your teacher?

Before I get cancelled I did ask HATS what there side of the story was. They said nothing but blocked me in seconds. Seconds guys! So I guess I'm on the nail when I said they're kind of like a predator mingling with my GenZ in tumblr. They were chatting me up, but when I ask about em being 40 and the dead friend....I'm blocked.

I dunno what they're doing in there private chat history. But 40 years old and pretending to be a teen on tumblr isn't normal and I think it's gross. Erasing a good bud is gross. Not paying respects at there funeral is scummy. Blocking people who ask is sus.

Is this a true predator? Be careful who you talk to in the TMNT fandom.

[lilacheart30]

Asa (I know it means morning but it’s simple and sweet for me to remember)/Dawn 晨

A child from the isle of dawn, and a lightseeker+rhythm fashion kid

I really liked how Ly looks like in game so I decided to create a sky OC based on it

Tried using my very first digital art app again which is autodesk sketchbook, ended up liking how sketchy and pencil like it turned out

Also drew it on my phone this time, it’s a bit hard for me since I was used to my iPad but it turned out ok so yay

Now that I look at it the katana/sword looks a bit crooked, and I forgot I wanted to add a lightseekers pendant for her but sinve I’m lazy to edit it again lets just pretend her shirt is covering it

Since I’m horrible with backgrounds, I decided to just use a blurred screenshot from sky cotl wiki with a rectangle

^ and here’s how she would look like when she’s not wearing the bird mask

11 September 2021

[theycallmebecca]

Be My Valentine: Part 2

So you’re probably wondering why there was no post yesterday... and that’s because silly me was ahead of the curve and accidentally posted Part 1 on Sunday instead of Monday like I was supposed to. 🤦‍♀️

I’m sorry about the delay, but here is part 2 of Chris and Violet’s love story.

Be My Valentine is a drabble series that I wrote for the Week of Love prompts for the HBC’s Valentine’s 2021 celebration. This series is for @the-ce-horniest-book-club​​.

Pairing: Chris Evans x Violet Hanson (OFC)

Rating: PG-13

Warnings: some language

Series Summary: Chris and Violet meet when he stops to help her with a flat tire in September. After bumping into each other again and again, Chris’s asks her out. The series follows several firsts in their relationship.

Disclaimer: This work of fiction is not to be reposted, used or translated without my permission.

Because of how tumblr can be with links (even if they’re just to other tumblr posts), I will reblog each part with a link to the masterlist.

Part 2: First Date

Two Weeks Later

Violet frowned as she looked at the shelf above her head at the grocery store. Most of the time she didn’t mind being 5’ 1”, but sometimes it really sucked. Especially when she was wearing shoes without heels.

Sighing, she turned to see if she could see an employee nearby, but instead she caught sight of a tall man down the aisle.

“Excuse me,” she called to him. “Can you help me?” She pointed to the shelf above her head.

“Uh sure,” the man replied. He pushed his grocery cart over and grabbed a box off the shelf for her. “Here you go -”

Violet looked up at his face when he stopped talking and found herself transported back to the rainy day two weeks earlier. She hadn't recognized him in the middle of her car crisis, but his relaxed smile and those beautiful blue eyes had stayed in her brain long after they'd parted.

Looking back, she'd felt oddly comfortable in the presence of a complete stranger, but she supposed that her subconscious had known exactly who he was, even if she hadn't. It hadn't been until later that day, when her brain had been nagging her about him seeming familiar that she had searched his name and figured out that Captain America himself had changed her flat tire.

“Violet?” The guy asked, finally handing her the box.

“Yeah,” she replied with a smile. “And you’re Chris.”

He nodded his head and she thought she saw a look of relief cross his face when she didn’t say his last name.

“It’s good to see you,” she told him. “And in dryer circumstances.”

“Warmer, too,” Chris agreed, rewarding her with a small chuckle.

It was only as they stood side by side that she realized he was nearly a head taller than her. She hadn’t realized it before because she’d been wearing heels, but now, in just her tennis shoes, she came just to his shoulders.

They made small talk for a couple more minutes before they parted, both going their own ways.

Only to bump into each other again a couple days later at a local coffee shop.

“We have got to stop meeting like this,” a voice said from behind her.

Startled, Violet turned and then relaxed when she saw Chris’s grinning face.

“Are you stalking me?” She asked teasingly.

“Absolutely not,” he replied pretending to be affronted, but she could see the humor in his eyes. “It’s just a coincidence.”

“That’s what a stalker would say,” she replied, narrowing her eyes.

“Let me buy your coffee and we’ll discuss it,” Chris suggested, nodding his head towards the counter.

Turning, Violet saw that it was her turn to order. She told the barista what she wanted and then stepped aside so Chris could place his order and pay for both drinks.

If there was anything Violet knew about men it was that almost none were interested in an overweight thirty something woman who wore glasses, even if she did have blonde hair and an ample bosom. Especially the famous ones like Chris.

But then he smiled at her again and she felt her heart skip a beat. He was going to be dangerous.

Even knowing that didn’t stop her from saying ok when he asked her out on a date a couple days later after they bumped into each other again. This time at a local bookstore.

[high-on-stickbugs]

Long as fuck post, sorry

By this time, last year, I was having Crisis after Crisis

I would cry myself to sleep when I could, and stay up until ungodly hours before I passed out from exhaustion when I couldn't

I would feel sick and tired and like I was going to throw up all the time

It was my Normal

Around this time last year, I was diagnosed with anxiety, obsessive compulsive behavior and traces of depressive behavior

By March 2021, I was the worst I had ever been

My then-best-friend threatened to kill my then-girlfriend if he ever saw her, and he said she stole me from him (mind you, I was giving him my dawns, staying up until almost 4am to make sure he was happy, not having a crisis, not going to kill himself, a thing he always threatened to do, stepping on my boundaries and feeling disgusting and horrible to make him feel good)

I was too in quarentine, so my room was my world, and had no escape from it

I had the worst crisis of my life that year, being constantly on edge, always angry, always miserable, always tired

I wanted to run away; to kill the life, the me, I knew, and start over somewhere else where no one knew me

I couldn't leave my mum, nor my friends, nor my then-girlfriend

By june, some things were different

I was constantly tired, but I didnt talk with my former-best-friend anymore

I didnt wanna see him, or talk to him, never again

I finally had recognized how awful I was being treated, how toxic that was, and how i didnt deserve that at all

And I was really nervous, because I was going back to school soon and he would be there

And I was afraid I'd forgive him

I was bitter, and angry, and feeling alone

By August, I was back at school

He came to talk with me, I didnt look at him, but let he speak; I did not forgive him, but somehow, that conversation changed something in me

The next week, I looked at him, and, for the first time, i felt nothing at all

I did not forgive him, but I dint need to, it's not even my place to do it anymore, because what he did was worse for him

If he wants forgiveness, he better do it himself

By August, my girlfriend broke up with me

I thought I'd be devastated; I wasn't

We hugged, and she cried, and I smiled and said it was ok; I said "we'll still be frieds"

We're better friends now than we were before

By September, someone put a brick on my backpack, because they thought it would be FuNnY or some shit like that

My mum was livid, I was unimpressed, my school did nothing

By November, I had listened the school priest talking shit about Halloween and calling it a satanic holyday, had to raise my voice and protect a 10yo girl from a creep because the school did nothing because "he is a good man and we dont want to ruin the institution image", and endure my math teacher constantly diminish the students, making jokes that were both machist and racist and sometimes even homophobic, and saying we'd never make into university, and that, if we did, it would be hell

Now, a year since I hit the bottom of the pit, I am truly happy for the first time since I can remember

I don't cry myself to sleep anymore

My music changed, and I have a goal both in which course I want and which college I wanna go too

I still dont have a girlfriend, and I lost a best friend, and I moved schools because I was bullied again and I was being disrespected by one of the teachers and I was feeling deeply dismotivated as a student and the school was awful in general

But, for the first time in a while, I feel hopeful, without needing to fake it, or pretend

For the first time in a long time, even on Empty Days I still manage to gather the energy to wake up and do my things, and don't have that faint but constant thought of self harm and death (that I never acted on) in my mind

For the first time in so long, I stopped overthinking (most of things)

For the first time since I can remember, I am calm about going back to school, this time to my senior year, even if it's a completely new place and I know almost no one there

For the first time, I'm Me, and that's kinda Something

[paradox-gaming-network]

31 July - Weekly Blog

Remember a long time ago when I made that Jahlon On Video about only having 86,400 seconds a day and you have to spend each one like it's the most precious commodity (because it is)?

Ok, so I’m going to pretend like you don’t remember that video. So first and foremost that video is here:

Secondly, I will get back to making Jahlon On content.

Third, the reason why my content has been all over the place is because I have too many irons in the fire. Which is sometimes a good thing, but other times a bad thing. Sometimes you need to focus on one thing at a time, and getting enough of PGN Music’s files done to open the Spotify Channel was a big part of what I was working on. The channel is now officially open and you can check that out here:

https://open.spotify.com/artist/4qZWTa2bhoPr2AOsANBazT

So, if you like Jazz or Epic Orchestra Music, give it a listen. In fact, do more than that, share it with your groups, your guilds, your favorite creators (the music is DMCA Free). Next up is some Celtic Tavern Music. That’s going to be a treat.

With that said, now I can get back to working on things on a more cyclical basis, and one of those things is the monthly blog. I didn’t realize it's been two months since I wrote a blog entry. Sometimes I think the blog is a waste, but other people have told me they have missed it, so if it brings some joy to just a few people then it is certainly worth doing, since it also acts as a milestone marker for me as to what I’ve accomplished on a week to week basis.

Ashes of Creation

For those of you who have been watching Ashes of Creation’s development over the past few years, we actually managed to hit a major milestone while I’ve been preoccupied. Alpha 1 has been going for about three-weeks now and it has been a major success. Now, keep in mind that when you talk about the success of an Alpha you have to realize that it is not a finished product. An Alpha (especially a Western Alpha) is meant to be a testing ground to ensure different parts of things actually work.

I’ve had a lot of fun testing the game with the Paradox Community and we’ve had quite a few people both join us for testing and sign up for Ashes and help support the Network.

For anyone looking for the July Update for Ashes that is here:

And some in-game footage can be found here:

If you are just learning about Ashes of Creation and you have not made your account yet, please consider using this referral link: https://ashesofcreation.com/r/DE3PDNGIRSPVK7Q4 Costs you absolutely nothing to use, but it helps financially support the Paradox Gaming Network so I have money to do things like giveaways for subscription time when Ashes launches.

Fractured

Another game that we cover as a guild is the game Fractured. Fractured had some problems earlier this year with their Spring Alpha, mainly getting the siege mechanic out in a timely fashion. They sort of missed their window of opportunity; however, it looks like in the second half of September there is going to be another round of testing. If you want to check out what they have planned for a fall, check out their Roadmap to the Fall Alpha 2021 article.

https://fracturedmmo.com/roadmap-to-fall-alpha-2021/

They have made a ton of changes including changes to enchanting (now called imbuing), Enchanting (which is now something new) new abilities (including NECROMANCY!!!!!), and changes to the PvP rules, drop rules, etc.

If you missed my coverage of Fractured Earlier this year you can check out this video to get caught up on this Isometric Downward looking open world MMOARPG.

If you know anyone who is going to be buying into Fractured Testing, remind them that Code JAHLON or Code PARADOX will save them 10% at checkout.

On a special note, I will always be thankful to Dynamight Studios for setting me up with my first ever community discount code.

Elyon

Launching on 29 September is Elyon, and that makes for a special birthday present for me! If you missed my coverage of Elyon Earlier this year you can check it out here

Now, The Team at Elyon has done their very best to make sure there is no P2W. Sadly, however; they ended up offering up to a 3 day head start in the founder’s packages. This hasn’t endeared them to the player base who was counting on them to not have any P2W, and a lot of players see a three-day head start as major P2W.

I plan on covering the P2W vs Head Start issue when Closed Beta 2 Starts. Be on the lookout for some of that.

Steampunk Dreams

As I said earlier, all of Steampunk Dreams is finished, at least the music side of it. I only have 6 of the 20 songs on YouTube, but that’s because I’m waiting on the money to be able to pay the artists to cover art. The good news is that now that I’m on Spotify it opens up another avenue of zero cost income for the Paradox Gaming Network. Hopefully we can eventually get the songs to start to be utilized so they can generate their own income stream, which will then allow us to make more music, pay for more art, do more Stream Alerts and Emotes.

Fiction Reading Material

Another thing that has kept me busy and away from you guys is that I’m reading a lot again. Thanks to a great recommendation I’m reading the Belgariad series. I’m actually on the first book of the second series, but we can’t get ahead of ourselves.

If you like Fantasy Fiction (Magic) you might want to check out this book by David Eddings.

**Yes this is an Amazon affiliate link, and I do get compensated if you purchase it through my link. That’s another one of those zero cost income things**

https://amzn.to/2WI2lqv

Non Fiction Reading Material

For your professional development this week I recommend Leading Change by John Knotter. This is a change management meets leadership book. It's been a few years since I made my way through his 2 part series. Expect a Jahlon On on this book series sometime in the future. No promises for immediate fulfillment.

**Yes this is an Amazon affiliate link, and I do get compensated if you purchase it through my link. That’s another one of those zero cost income things**

https://amzn.to/3rN0RXp

Epic Games - Free Game of the Week

I know some of you are going to say you hate EGS and you’d never use it. That’s fine. If you REALLY hate them, claim all the free games they give away and never spend a dime there.

This week they have Mothergunship and Train Sim World 2 for Free.

MOTHERGUNSHIP is a bullet-hell FPS where you craft your own guns, fight huge bosses, and defeat a robotic alien armada that conquered Earth. Face off against overwhelming odds in brutal, non-stop combats where thinking on your feet is the only way to survive.

The evolution of train simulation! Master iconic locomotives on high-speed services, long freight hauls or precise commuter traffic, and get creative with customization tools in this advanced sequel. Climb into the cab in Train Sim World 2.

So, I mean if you are bored, and looking for SOMETHING you can get something to keep you entertained, and on the off chance you do make a purchase from EGS, if you don't’ already have a favorite creator, then use Code JAHLON27. Won’t save you anything, but it's another one of those zero cost income things.

Content Creation Advice

I hope to do a few more Content Creation Advice pieces here soon™ but if you are a creator and you need help you can hit me up on Discord at Jahlon#0001

[femalebookworm]

ps: review was supposed to be in Portuguese, but it turned into English after I wrote down OK. I am sorry. If you are looking for this review in Portuguese since the cover is in Portuguese, let me know in the comment section of this post and I will do my best to translate this review without editing too much what was originally said.

Okay, I have finished reading this back on November 14 of 2020. I picked this book for my 2020 reading list (at this point, as I’m writing this on March 14, 2021–, which makes the only book I have finished in 2020) after some wild dream that’s better left untouched where the internet is concerned. But to shed some light: dreamt of having this book as a recommendation from a late grandmother. When I mentioned this to my parents, they were like, “wow, fucking intense experience”, NOT, didn’t feel that way… but I asked if we had anything on the matter, and this was the only book that had Kundalini in the title.

This was not an easy read for me. Started it on September 28, 2020, and it lasted for a long time. There was much stuff I agreed with, many stuff I am glad to have been exposed to, and many I don’t agree with one bit, cause I’m a believer in the balance of all things (mind, body, soul).

I have told myself if I were to ever share a review, it would be to just state that I have read it, and my feelings remain: balance.

It was a great book, and it’s all about belief: I don’t even agree with the stance that if you want to learn and pursue more in-depth what and where spirituality is concerned, it doesn’t mean you have to become something else, to drop your habits just to fit in with a narrative, I don’t see as religion — and I also don’t see religion as religion: for me, it’s all about finding that spark, that knowledge within and be faithful to your own intuition. I agree with the clean diet thing partially, I think you just ought to aim to good health overall, to respect the body, so you can truly connect with the mind, but not in a way you start to create some sort of prejudice towards the guilty pleasures, we are humans after all.

** to delve deeply into the religious aspect of it: religion to me is a concept created to control, rule, people. Their teachings are solely made through writings from men long ago. It has lost its religious power, in my humble opinion.

Religious power, along with Political/Conquering power, is the true corruption of humankind. If you truly dive into it, historically speaking: The Crusades, etc. They were all wars in the name of either Christ or land property from either POV. In the end, that's what it is. And right now, it's owning people by their beliefs. And in my opinion, no one even preaches what it says anymore. It's just an excuse to continue being your hungry abusive self: in whatever aspect of life, it's the most important to you. In hindsight, I respect your choice of religion, but this is my view outside of indoctrination of the Church or any religion for that matter. I was raised to choose which one I wanted to preach, no pressure, and I picked none. At the age of 10, I was dedicated to respecting others choice, but I'd take no part on preaching texts from ages ago, that doesn't apply anymore to what we live in (even if at one point, a passage might come to be applied... cause around-around we go), I'd much rather knowing myself, then pretend to have found myself. If that makes sense.

Most of my thoughts align with Buddhism, but I seriously don’t adopt everything.

What I always repeat to those around me: “Each day, you make the choice to be good. Each day, you make the choice to be bad. Each day, you make the choice. Choice. Evil and Good lives within. You either balance them out (as all things are balanced in the world) or you tip the scales and lose yourself - whichever way, for being human is being flawed. We are all hypocrites. The lesson is to learn we can’t be one thing all the damn time. The lesson is to live with your darkness and your light in balance. To transcend this… Oh boy, impossible. Humankind is still a kid (pre-teen, or something). If we were that evolved we wouldn’t even be here, to begin with. Not even by choice. This would be child’s play: annoying and unnecessary in the big scheme of things”. Some people hate to hear all that. I don’t claim to know anything, not even that I am right. This train of thought resonates with me. Resonates with my journey. The rest falls short. The be kind and polite and treat people with respect is my motto and moral compass. Can I stray from it? Yes, but it’s hard to achieve it cause of the way I was always disciplined, even before being taught. Repeating: no one taught me this. My parents are still scratching their heads. HAHA, anyway, I took a tangent and forgot about the book. Read the 3rd paragraph again, that’s my review at the end of the day.

[zathuraroy5]

Supernatural Rewatch : 2x4

(queued 2021/02/03)

Main Canadian actor from Letterkenny!!!! My dude!!!. That just sukerpunched me holy shit (he’s playing the asshole boyfriend)

Uh oh she's gonna crash

Don't remember how that was Supernatural… (cause it wasn’t the crash that was supernatural)

She hunts the friend right… (nope, took a sec but I remembered)

Also wait wait, Sam just buried John's dog tags over Mary's grave, but Dean is wearing a chain. Something under his shirt. And it's not the amulet… what IS IT 4:40

Oh no wait... The guy raised her as a zombie… (there we go)

Ok 5:37, the chain is just literally a chain with nothing on it. Weird. I don't think he had that before?? (I completely forgot to look for it again so it’ll remain a mystery)

God Dean, so defensive

Lolol the sass they give each other just through looks, true brothers

But now I'm watching and it's fucking tainted... Like come on Jared why… (... for context I watched this the same day he gave that interview with the “success story for Dean” line….)

God Jensen had the Stare (still does, wtf am I talking about, “had”)

Also funny how Sammy is right that Dean is trying to Not Think about his parents, so finds a hunt, but turns out it's actually a hunt anyway lol. I have a feeling it was part instinct, part avoidance

Hey ex-boyfriend guy is gonna die

Oh god Sammy was watching "something something erotica 4: tales of two Latin beauties" XD

But like very pensive on the edge of the bed. Like watching any other show. Then Dean walks in and he shuts it off XD

And the fliers for the hot xxx pay per view is on the TV XD

Lol Sam can play the "I'm sorry for your loss" and "I'm a therapist" card way better than Dean for some reason (Dean I find is always a bit too straight to the point and a bit too eager to get info and it puts people off. Like he’s really good at fast balling when they’re trying to get somewhere or when they’re in trouble, but Sam is better with keeping people calm? Idk if it’s because it’s always different writers or if it’s something the brothers balance each other in. Knowing this show, it’s both)

Annndd there's no body in the coffin.

Ew zombie kiss (It’s creepy cause we know she’s not really herself anymore)

Fucckkk "no Dean you can't deal with it by yourself. And you're the only one that thinks that you have too. Let me help you." Fuck shit Sam just wants to help his brother but Dean doesn't want to burden his child. The way his dad burdened him. I canNOT

(comment from convo with @adhdeancas: I KNOW)

God Jensen was right when he said last September that a Walking Dead crossover would have been amazing. Sammy literally just said "there's hundreds of lore on the walking dead" in this episode I'm....

Also how does one student have that whole house.

LOL when there's a pan shot of the car driving on the road it's not even Jensen and Jared

Oh shit she killed him. (the guy that raised her)

Like, dumbass. He should have gone with the boys. Or at least pretend better. Jesus. Well he was already dumb enough to raise her...

Mmmmm interesting. "what's dead should stay dead". Yet who makes a deal to bring back his dead brother… This fucking show

Oh ya shit Jared actually sprained his hand and still acted through it

Oooo Dean apologies for being as ass

Oh fuck his dealing with HIMSELF not staying Dead. My boy so fucking smart tho like "we know Dad is dead because of me. Come on, at the hospital? Clean bill of health, was a miracle, then he dies 5 mins later"

How John and Sam were the most important people in his life and now he only has Sam.

God fuck that finale (Honestly this thought is going through my head all the time.)

"I was dead. And I should have stayed dead. You wanted to know how I was feeling. Well this is it" FUCK, DEAN, DARLING. Fuck you Jensen. Making me cry.