#pregnancytransparency

[warbydavis]

34, overweight & pregnant.

Today I am 15-16 weeks pregnant, no one knows for sure. We are very excited!

It's not the first time in my life I am overweight, when on average, at 5ft9in, I am usually 160-170lbs.

The 1st month (unaware of pregnancy) I was on and off fasting, smoking, drinking, eating healthy and shitty.

The 2nd month, I find out I am pregnant and I am weighing in at 195lbs.

I immediately go low carb and exercise consistently. I also start suffering from morning sickness while still try to get my essential nutrients down.

Month 3, I'm kind of feeling better and am less strict with my diet and sticking to low carb. I also can't eat the quantities I was able to before. We will eat out and I will eat what I want. Thai, Mexican, Pizza, Burgers. I do like hot Cheetos, donuts and candy but nothing too crazy and not all the time. Old habits die hard.

Between the morning sickness, consistent exercise, low carb to being more mindful of what I am eating, Hot Cheetos and all, I lost 8lbs. I am still technically overweight but really happy I could shed some unhealthy weight before the normal pregnancy weight gain begins.

Going into 3.5 months, the nausea is gone and I am feeling normal.

I want to eat everything like I was 12 years old again. I feel like I have been making up for everything I wasn't able to eat in the previous months.

I am eating until I am too full at each meal at the quantities I did pre-pregnancy. The amounts that helped me gain this extra unwanted weight.

At first, I was worried when I got pregnant because I was overweight. Then, I felt empowered that I ate better, exercised and lost some pounds.

Now I am accepting that I will gain weight and that's okay.

Even though I didn't follow some strict diet I had in mind, I still was going in a positive direction.

While I am enjoying over indulging, I am becoming aware that I am using my pregnancy as an excuse to eat whatever I want.

It feels amazing to take it easy on myself and not be so restrictive but I also don't want it to get out of hand.

So instead of beating myself up, I am inspired to be more mindful and disciplined. Starting Meow.