#ppl make my phonecalls for me

[motherforthefamicom]

killing him with my mind (affectionate)

[scalpelsister]

im being very brave (making adult phone calls)

[mwagneto]

food ordering website just added a 110 forint service fee so im back to calling restaurants and i didnt even hesitate or get anxious before calling. you bitches cant even spell neurotypical

[transwolvie]

Me, crawling back to work after a 2 day breakdown: hmm I think maybe this is what they call that "doing bad" thing

[czterysta]

uni started yesterday and i fucked uo at work and had to work 2 days more but in secret and i have 6 exams to retry and two that if i fuck up i cant study it and the one exam im having this semester is about signals and i absolutely can mot do anything with that topic (i had. to ask chatgpt THREE TIMES to dumb an explanation down for me i hate myself) and its maths and im falling apart and im spiraling even though i KNOW im spiraling but thw thought of that integraltransformation makes me cry and i HATE it and augh i want it to stop goddd why do i keep wallowing in self pity stop stoo stop

[herotome]

Hi! I hope you're doing well! I was wondering... how would the ROs + Daeng if you don't mind deal with MC who's having an anxiety or panic attack? I'm pretty reluctant to reveal that part of me to others bc the ppl around who don't really take that stuff seriously or just see it as a nuisance. I can usually calm down on my own, but it's hard sometimes. I hope the cast are more kind about those sorts of things...? Thanks for such an amazing VN btw!

Aw man, me too. I still remember the first time I really sat down with my mom and discussed my anxiety with her and explaining how getting on medication was helpful. I knew that if I told her when I was younger, she wouldn't have taken it seriously or just hoped it would go away on its own somehow -- it was really up to me to pursue treatment as an adult.

Invisible illnesses can be difficult for others to imagine and understand. It was a little... "easier" for my mom to understand when she saw firsthand before & after of my panic attacks vs management via medication; it sucks that that's what she needed to really be empathetic, but that's how people are sometimes.

Anyway.

Warden: I don't think he'd know what to do...! Deer in the headlights. If MC can muster up the strength to ask him to fetch something, he'll provide it in a heartbeat. Or heck, best case scenario, give him a list of what he can do next time lollll. He wouldn't understand at all, but he'd be caring and want to help.

Griffin: Has a better understanding of anxiety and is interested in discussing preventative measures; how can she ensure MC is able to minimize situations that panic attacks? He'll find all the ways. Healthcare, therapy, all of it will be researched and organized for MC if MC permits it. Griffin will happily make all the phonecalls, too.

Mia: lol she kinda panics in tandem. Er, sympathy panic? Like how someone might experience the same symptoms when their partner is pregnant. 😂😂😂 She'd be Very Worried and checking on MC for the rest of the day, even well afterwards. Particularly loving and coddly once the panic attack has passed.

Dart: He will offer a hug and a calm conversation about how MC is feeling. (It's very nice.)

Jade: As someone with anxiety also, she knows all the anxiety hacks. Want to bite into a lemon? Do breathing exercises together (like in the game)?? Or do a 5-4-3-2-1 grounding technique?? She'll find something that works for you.

Daeng: ????????? What do you want from HIM??? Hahaha.... I guess he'll awkwardly fan MC with his hand and ask if MC wants water or something.. And will remind MC that MC still has to pay rent..

Best he can do is to offer to get "the furball" Katie for MC to hold, but it's unlikely he'll think of it.

[saxifactumterritum]

WEBSITE SAYS "RING NUMBER"

i RING NUMBER. IT KEEPS SAYING HANG UP AND GO ONLINE

i LOOK ONLINE AGAIN IT SAYS HERE IS A LIST

THE LIST MOST OF THEM SAY "NO MORE PPL WHO WANT DENTISTRY ALLOWED I AM FULL FROM EATING SO MANY OF YOU"

THE BIT ONLINE THAT SAID RING NUMBER SAYS ALSO "RING DENTIST OFFICE THEY MIGHT DO EMERGENCY OR REFER"

RIGHT WHICH DENTIST WHICH DENTIST TELL ME THEY ALL SAY NO ONE COME HERE PLEASE

also phone calls are terrible people have trouble understanding me on the phone and get cross with me A LOT

Gonna die of 'need to go to a dentist'. Why is it no medical professionals even working with anesthetic all the time have any even iota of knowledge about autism or sensory processing disorders?! Get educated bitch

[composeregg]

wanted to join in on that meta post by saying yeah, even if we view joker’s and akechi’s relationship as special compared to the others, akechi is still written under the constraints of p5, and an antagonist to boot. like. vanilla had his confidant as automatic bc (iirc) they thought they couldn’t fit it in properly! which is crazy, even tho the automatic rank ups have an interesting implication (such as, akechi will always be rank 10 by the end no matter what you do). i understand that ppl probably wanted someone to talk sense into the thieves for their unwittingly callous actions, but not by the guy who decided to go thru with his 11/20 plan lol

(this post)

YEAH like, I love Akechi. I adore him. But I have SO many OPINIONS about this mans. like. I'm not going berate anyone for how they write characters, that's the freedom of fandom, but I am going to stand over here with my opinions and contrary thoughts and chitchat about them in my space

I know that very often it is because people want someone to refute what canon has shown us (because canon's writing disagrees with it's desired goals as mentioned in that post). They want someone to go "Look at Joker, look at what's happened to him, don't you care? How risky this was?"

But okay I'm actually going to back up a bit!

(this got long)

What other choice was there for 11/20?

Because the answer is not "they could have taken Akechi in a fight."

The goals of the interrogation room/metaverse plan:

Escape with Joker alive

Trick Shido and the conspiracy into believing Joker has died

and you know? you know? you cannot do that latter bullet point if you just beat up Akechi

So enlighten me. How, exactly, were the thieves supposed to come up with a different plan in under 20 days? One where Joker would live, where the conspiracy would believe he had died, and importantly, one that at that point in time cannot count on Akechi being a turncoat. They have no reason to trust that he would

"Don't you care about how risky this was? There had to have been other ways."

We don't get Shido's name as Akechi's employer here until after the phonecall reporting the death, I believe. They cannot change Shido's heart in time to avert this because they do not have the information. The interrogation room plan, genuinely, was one of the smartest ideas they had. It accomplished exactly what they needed to. These are teens in a life-or-death situation, who notoriously have MANY trust issues with adults for good reason, especially since society is so corrupt that a hitman can easily walk into a police department and assassinate a high-profile criminal and get away with it with help (remember the guard at the door?) The other options are basically "change your identity and flee the country" or "literally actually die" lets be real here!

SO

Akechi, let's be honest with ourselves here, would primarily be pissed off that the thieves got one over on him! And if he is concerned about the lasting trauma of it all, or how risky the plan was, he is seeing this and approaching it from the angle of knowing it worked.

(Better options for sense-talking: Sojiro! Sojiro is right there! Takemi! Iwai! Kawakami! Yoshida! All important responsible adult figures to Joker and at least some of the thieves.)

In my opinion if Akechi wants to snark at the thieves about the plan in any way regarding how much it fucks up Joker and how it was risky, they are more than allowed to fire back shots at him for making it necessary and shooting Joker in the head in the first place.

I think people often use it as a shorthand, to show that Akechi cares about Joker, but also as a way to emphasize the importance of Akechi to Joker (compared to the rest of the thieves). It's easier to ignore the fact that he killed two of the thieves's parents when it comes to Joker being in a relationship with him, as long as it can be shown that he's the one that really cares. That he wouldn't put Joker through something so fucked up with his care (hilarious, laughable, he shot Joker in the head). It separates "Akechi and Joker" from all the phantom thieves in a way.

(Honestly sometimes it feels like ship bashing/character bashing but for ALL the phantom thieves with how intensely some people write it! beyond even the point of exploring Atlus fucking up characterization to pretend to have a blank slate silent protag)

BUT like I said in the post, it also points out a major flaw with convincing players that the rest of the thieves DO care in the game. Because the thieves are never really given a chance to show that. It's implied, and it's clear the game wants you to believe they care, but we don't get scenes addressing specific stuff like this enough.

Joker is confident, and cocky, we see that with that bastard smile in the interrogation room after getting "shot" in those cutscenes. It is genuinely a plan to be proud of, and it hails back to his original persona being Arsène. Arsène, who escaped from prison simply by disguising himself and pretending he had already escaped and put a body double in his place. Arsène, who pulled off a robbery while in jail. Arrogant and self-assured and cocky, the interrogation room plan is genuinely something the likes that would be worthy of Arsène's name.

He can be proud of the plan, and also traumatized by it. But he actively agreed to this plan, probably helped come up with it (where does everyone get the idea that it was Makoto's plan? genuine question). Joker is not a hapless victim of other's whims, he also had agency. So many of the parallels between Joker and Akechi are how they exercise what agency they have while being stripped of traditional power and victimized by society.

Honestly? Honestly? In my personal opinion, having Akechi berate the thieves for the plan is disrespectful to his rivalry with Joker, along with his own characterization.

He holds Joker as his equal. Equal in agency, in skill. If he looks at Joker and says, "why would you go along with such a foolish plan?" if he looks at the thieves and says "why would you ever put your precious leader through this?" he is taking away Joker's agency and choices. One of Akechi's focal points is agency. If he sees Joker as equal in this, and he denies Joker his agency, he is also taking it away from himself.

Akechi's cocktail of emotions regarding the assassination can manifest in so many different ways, and he can translate that to anger at the thieves rather than himself for putting Joker through that, but that would be his emotions regarding himself being misdirected more than anything.

Akechi has too much respect for Joker to deny Joker his agency in a plan that was good enough to fool him.

Respecting agency and admiring a brilliantly crafted plan also doesn't mean ignoring trauma that ocurred from actions taken under duress.

(At least, it doesn't mean that as long as you're not Atlus)

[liampaynemysteriousdeath]

This may not mean anything but in the 911 phonecall, Estaban (?) states no police and is adamant about that. In Maya's book (no I didn't pay for it, I wouldn't spend my money on her, downloaded free Pdf) - Mallory is also adamant about not involving the police when these same things that "happened" to Liam happened in her book. I don't know if that makes sense but pay attention to the small details as much if not more than the larger ones. Side note, Omg this girl loves herself. She can do no wrong. Don't buy, download

hmm interesting thanks for that...

I mentioned a little bit of mayas analysis here.

https://www.tumblr.com/liampaynemysteriousdeath/767390054336315392/maya-book-analysis?source=share

Yeah I heard from somewhere can't remember where that she's never been told "no" before so she flipped out once liam ended things. I can't remember if it was scandalous media video about her where it mentions she once again victimized herself for sympathy. Apparently liam didn't even cheat on her. The public timeline was off thanks to her and no one bothered digging further. They had broken up in private but it wasn't announced publicly til liam was with that new chic.

The video also mentioms her dad has ties to syco. Some other interesting stuff as well.

Also how her mom was there the first time she met liam *eyeroll*. That lady was around the whole relationship...

Speaking of her family, rumor is that maya/her family hired the two bouncers to beat him up while maya was laughing standing right next to him.

Wax unfiltered on yt has also been covering liam case. Some tiktkk lady analyzed her cover. Everyone says the Chinese symbol means pretend, but imo I personally think it might mean sheep. Aka leading a sheep to the slaughter. Aka the dead end sign.

Plus idk if you saw that maya low key copied liam for her book logo. He had lonely bug productions wjth a firefly and maya put a bee on her publishing company. Idk if she was trolling him.

I also found her website was created in January. She had been planning for a while.

Besides her wanting 100% of profits, I think no professional publishjng house wanted to touch her book because it had claims of abuse in it. And idk if a publishing company would want to take a chance on that.

I havery screenshots of most of this stuff scattered around on the blog somewhere. Or if you don'tbelieve me do a dns search or whois search on her website. I was looking at her website, and she used stock photos haha. Aka just basic photos, no creativity.

Her website is meant to look like a legit publishing house with "please send us your ideas" and then when you go to the social media pages of her publishing house they are both blank haha.

Also I posted on the blog somewhere of someone who claimed from years ago they were talking about maya and maya found the persons mom, and told them to stop posting about her lol.

Also, certain ppl in the investigation like that one tiktok lady who had the theory of maya roger business deal behind the scenes and him being in debt and taking her proposal. Supposedly a British person told her to stop posting,

Amd the el tribune article that talked about her and also rogers past is deleted.

Idk if you're new but also the family has been trying to buy fame for a while now. "Acclaimed tennis champion" and she played in like 2 matches somewhere haha. And their reality show. Anyways I'm talking too much again haha.

[dojae-huh]

Wow, I'm not that offended with ppl saying JD is not real bcs it's still funsie to me but the OP saying DoTae is just fanservice makes me kinda mad? Because I'm the one who hasn't met my close friend in the same city for 1-2 months maybe. Btw sometimes I see TY's recent photo in the navy and he oftens look melancholic (?) or emo to me somehow. The same look in the photo.

He does. He looked sunny in summer, but not now. He is a melancholic person though (it's enough to read the lyrics of his songs to know). Neos often comment how he drastically changes from his hype-mode when he hangs off of his friends and bounces from the walls to his reclusive-mode when he locks up in his room and doesn't talk to anyone. He is a sugar addict, it doesn't help mood swings.

Perhaps the loneliness and the routine is getting to him. Talking to friends can ease it but not completely alleviate. Precisely because the closest friends are super busy and stressed themselves, live by the different timeline, while the relatives didn't experience his world of being a celebrity. Maybe talking to Jaehyun and playing the role of an experienced sunbae in the military can help... if Jae gives him those 15-30 minutes out of his 1 hour of phonecalls during the weekend, heh.

DoTae is not a unicorns and rainbows friendship. There was an anon who said they trauma bonded, and as harsh and disrespecting those words were intended to be, I agree in part. Doyoung does "tough love", he isn't treating (openly, he does spoil backstage) Tae the way he showers his "children" with affection, so unless someone knows their relationship in detail and only comes across them at certain moments, it is possible to be mistaken. Even Taeyong needs to tell his fans "We are not fighting, it is love".

[psywife]

Manifestation Successes/Update Pt 2

Okay so like I said I had a long kind of dangerous drive I had to make and had to do it by a certain time and was manifesting that he would accompany me. He had mentioned it once but then not again as we had phonecalls but in the meantime I was learing SatS and scripting and using them voraciously.

Kind of too voraciously bc this was at a point where I didn’t know what was actually meant by using intensity to manifest nor did  I know how manifesting ‘to get something’ and reacting to the 3D would mess up your manifestation.

After a couple weeks and some more frustration at the ‘lack’ of result and some more flaky behavior on my SPs part I was tired of spiraling and bought two SP coaching /manifesation packets (a book and a session) from hes-already-yours and iamthatwhich on IG and they helped SO MUCH.

So as the month comes to a close I’m practicing and doing affirmations the whole deal and when ppl ask me about my drive (they know my SP as we are friends and the drive is to by where he was living) I told them he said he‘d go with me.

Fast forward to the day of the drive, I was holding out that it could still happen but in the 3D it didn’t. I was in the car and decided not to care. Mentally I visualized that he was there with me and just kept on, not being disappointed or bothered.

During the drive something happend and I realized I had made a legal mistake and would have to make a portion of the drive again and while I can’t give more details lets just say things got potentially legally and physically risky for me. So from that point on, he starts tracking my location, helping me with directions and being with me on the drive just not physically. I get to his place and he tells me he had been thinking the entire last month about flying to where I was and driving with me (when you affirm they think what you think! but I was going back and forth about believing he would do it so he didn’t make the decision in time) and then he says he‘ll go with me to take care of the legal issue so I have to re-do the drive and this time he is with me in the physical just like I visualized!!!

This was SO crazy to me, it happened even after it seemed like it would be ‘too late‘ in fact it feels like the legal issue manifested because by the time I left, I was 100% living in the end that it had happened even if it was after the fact. I revised it as it happened, and the whole timeline and circumstances altered to make it true!

Now, remember that 3P?

So before I even came he told me via a convo that he wasn’t seeing her anymore and in fact she ended up turning into a crazy stalker who really scared him with how far she went and the things she did, which I wont’ repeat, but she literally became a threat to his life in many ways.

I’ll just say it like I’ve seen other coaches say it: if there’s a 3p ignore them completely, live in your end and you won’t believe the ways they will turn into the most undesirable repulsive person to your SP! As you learn your lesson of confidence and self love the presence of the 3P made you aware of, their manifestation will turn into an absolute monster that eventually sends your SP into your arms!!

Don’t have clingy obsessive thoughts or dejected thoughts about your SP bc the 3P literally manifests from them and starts pursuing, clinging to, attracting etc your SP. But once you are solid in your end they lose all their power and reality will do anything required to conform to you and your SP loving each other!

So this really gave me a sign and I started really sticking with the law and learning and practicing it. As I’ve posted about  at this point I was living with my SP and a few times also vsited w his family. When I was with his family I would mentally affirm that they were my in laws :) When I first arrived at  his place he said I could stay for a month or so until I found a place, but I knew that was old him talking. After that he asked me to stay another month to ‘help watch the house‘ then after that he invited me to stay a month  more and I said I’d find a place the next month. After that he said I could stay more and by the time I felt like leaving (I love his place but I preferred another city further away-- wait for it) he was sheepishly telling me I didn’t have to go yet if I wasn’t ready. LOL!

There‘s more but this is getting ong again so I’ll come back later w part 3

[audiovisualrecall]

Brain things:

- can't make phone call with other people around, Someone will Hear me and Judge me at all whatsoever. Cannot be Perceived while making phonecall or cannot make phonecall at all whatsoever No. Feels like you Cannot put hand on hot stove burner. But Why? - making phone call and being Perceived is Not the same as Putting Hand On Hot Burner. But apparently It Is. to my Brain.

- didn't make phonecall in a timely fashion, forgot initially and then was off+then out sick, wasnt able to let customer know we had the flowers she wanted, she didnt call us apparently either, so she didnt come in to pick them up and that was last thursday. Since Friday have been afraid to make phonecall because I messed up and customer will be angry and yell at me or be upset and I will feel bad and also I have to make the perfect script with a plausible excuse/explanation bc 'I forgot' isn't good enough, and then suddenly it's 4 days later and officially a week since I was supposed to call customer originally, now it's really too late to call but also i can't just pretend nothing happened and also I put the flowers out for sale already so I can't even say we still have them set aside if customer still needs/wants them, and really what good will calling do, but dad is like but you should blah blah blah but maybe it's actually better Not to??? But also what if whether I call customer or not she calls my boss and gets me yelled at/fired???? AVOID SITUATION ENTIRELY.

- today got yelled at at 12pm for not sending an email at 10am to leadership about not knowing yet when the garden center would arrive, and/or not reaching out to regional, when u only got in at 9am and had to work on my 2 orders that were due at 12pm and had no clue the display was empty outside or that my boss hadn't considered looking into it himself when he came in at 5 or 6am since I wasn't in yet and letting them know himself??? Why would I need to send an email when we all suspect it's not coming till Wednesday? And again, I got in at 9, I was working on the computer from the minute I got in until like 11am at the earliest, possibly 11:30, then I took my 10 minute break, then I went to work on the floor and had him complain about my lack of communication, and about the windowsill under the plants not getting disted/swept a bit yesterday or this morning (I had to do the work of 2 ppl yesterday despite my team member being in bc she doesn't pull her weight anymore at all, so I had no time to consider the outdoor or the foyer, and then I cake in at 9 well after my other team member so I couldn't have reminded her to do that when I wasn't in yet?), and about how I should condense the display and take away the crates even tho we're getting more indoor plants tomorrow, etc etc.........

- can't communicate needs or issues bc they'll upset/anger the other person/cause a problem/cause a misunderstanding/take too long/it's easier to just say nothing and have a peaceful interaction even tho I'm pissed off at them for a legitimate reason, but I can't communicate it into words right so I'm not going to try anyway, and I shouldn't have to and I don't want to I hate itttttttt

- try to talk about brain thing that's causing problems. Person listening tries to offer Advice or Solution even tho the issue is not solved by those things because the issue is my brain won't let me do those things for these reasons, reply is ok but it's easier to just do the suggestion/thing in the end trust me :) like not the point it's not the point the point is my brain thinks doing the thing is equivalent to touching a hot burner pls understand I'm in distress about how my brain works and this issue at work is only a result of how my brain works and somehow getting myself to resolve the work issue would not fix the way my brain works or the distress I am dealing with. I need suggestions on how to not have my brain declare that making a phonecall is the exact same as putting my hand on something burning hot. It says Not Safe!!!!!! Don't do!!! Can't do!!!! Will cause harm/damage/pain!!!!! AVOID!!!! how do I make my brain Not do that?

- i know cause: mix of self-consciousness and anxiety (multiple types) on top of audhd. But also don't really get WHY. There must be a solution to that problem. There must be something that will make it not be incredibly upsetting to my brain to pick up the ringing phone and answer it or pick up the phone and dial and call someone. Not just work related, haven't called driving school to schedule lessons I paid for in August of *2022*. Can't do it.

- want comfort, not given it clearly outright in the moment, brain perceives as rejection bc RSD. Funtimes, not. :'c

- knowing I have problem, even knowing WHY more or less, does not allow me to magically not have the problem or logic around it somehow. Unfortunately.

- anxiety is main issue, but causing (autistic/adhd) burnout at work, which causing more anxiety which gets tied up in rsd and makes more anxiety. Yay! Want ppl to like me. Want ppl to not find me annoying.

[fangedsatyr]

yesterday was the last day w my gf and the most stressful one

we got up early for my brother's graduation and salem drove bc my mom was in pain. but then a cop yelled unclear directions and it made everyone in the car triggered. we rushed to our seats and took a while to cool down. once we did, me and salem tried to make fun of the event and we even talked to the ppl sitting inf ront of us

then we went home and had lunch and rested, and we knew we had to clean, but we took our time and apparently my parents didnt take kindly to that. i cried after a phonecall w my mom and salem held me and pet my hair. i shook it off and we cleaned the best we cld

then my gma had us repot some flowers and normally i wld b all over it, but my hands were hurting and my feet were swollen. then salem stepped in a dirty puddle and she went inside to change and cool off. we watched my parents fight abt whether to have the grad party inside or outside then went onto the next task

my parents let us rest for a bit before we blew up balloons which made my hands shake and bruise but i still had to help clean up. me and salem were asked to get ice so we went and got two bags and filled up my car. but we got home and mom made us go back out for two more bags even tho she told us to get two in the first place and didnt call me. me and salem got rly mad abt this and she related to my struggles w living my family

but we finally got home and we were finally able to relax. we ate and cuddled on the couch. everyone said nice things abt my brother and seeing him cry made me cry. i talked abt him and it made me cry even harder which made salem cry

me, salem, my brothers, and my soul sister all talked and hung out until we had had enough of ppl. me and salem went to my room and i fell asleep holding her legs

when i woke up she asked me to tuck her in so i went downstairs and gave her a big kiss... well. many kisses.

then today we had to get up at like 430am cos her bus left rly early. so we all packed into the car, got a snack for the road, and fell asleep. i said goodbye to her at the station and watched her board before leaving. i fell asleep in the car and now im home again

🫠

[occultdaddy]

My job has made me a lot more comfortable answering phonecalls. It helps that we have an app that shows the name of who's calling most of the time. Wether that be from the work phone or private. Like I have no clue who these ppl are but seeing the name makes it easier.

... yeah that doesn't make calling any easier. Calling ppl back or calling after request is ok. calling "out of the blue"? nope. hate it.

[solar-sunnyside-up]

I mean I feel like a large part of the praxis I talk about is about using the current system and then building a framework of how to have a better system on top of it...

Like yea of course we are reliant on the current system! Like when I started helping organize our general strike (for yrs down the line mind you) one if my biggest concerns was replacing things like Medication distribution and mass electricity distribution. Currently we are almost entirely reliant on our goverment systems to provide things like proper internet access, medication, infrastructure building, etc... but our goal must be How Can I replace that? How do I improve that system (potentially within the current one?) I'm a big fan of building within the system and then knocking down all the bad things later. But how should we respond? That's not for me alone to build, that's for ppl to debate and refine and look for ethical harm and so forth. Those new system must be created by communities not solo actors.

Of course that's all theorical right now.

That being said, I don't work in strictly Theorical stuff like the first round of this might imply no one I know works in strictly Theorical.

Yes, I have anxiety over phonecalls- but I still helped organize and participate in Call in campaigns within my city ranging from housing (mainly zoning and rent caps), to food systems (community garden access, food bank funding,), fighting for libraries and public services etc... I still make phone calls to help my friend arrange Dr Appointments bc they are also anxious about them, I still call to check on friends and to yell at politicians who are doing harm in my community.

Yes, I have anxiety over public speaking- to the point where I personally turned down the Mayors office request for me to speak about the housing crisis - but I speak up at every community assoiation meeting, I force myself to be looked at like I'm crazy for suggesting unhoused ppl deserve their property back after being forced to relocate instead of police straight up burning it in front of them (something that came up during a CA meeting), I lead conversations in tenant unions and at community garden meetings and pride events and I will sit with someone after meetings to help educate and help ppl sit with certain concepts. I'll speak in place of my friend who'd rather go silent then speak up so their point is still said out loud.

Yes, I have had awful agoraphobia my entire life - I still go to community events and even help run them, I still go to out and map where little Libraries and pantres are. I go to soup festivals and share with friends and different networks about the other cool stuff going on and then they also go. I still gruella garden and sticker bomb and reno bus shelters in the middle of the night.

I'm anxious and scared to high hell the entire time, and I still do it. And thats entirely bc just bc something is hard doesn't mean I won't do it, and I will particularly do something hard for me if it means I can help someone else do it bc I would never ever demand someone else do something scared if I won't and I sure wanna make it less scary to us all.

But that being said, not everyone has the capacity to fight for survival and fight anxiety. For some this might be too much and all they can do is tiny acts to build up a tolerance or to help in a non-leader position which means they don't have to push their comfort level at every interaction. There is nothing wrong about that! They are still allowed to demand a better world even if my hands must create it for them bc I will fight my anxiety if it means someone else doesn't have to unwillingly.

You online: yes we need to overthrow the governmemt

You in real life: cant make a phone call due to anxiety

You got me there!

That's why we have ppl who specialize in different skills and it's important to have a network of well balanced skills in general. Like yeaaa I get anxious making a phone call.

But I'll organize events, I'll give you endless information for cool programs and stuff. My friend cannot find that info or just gets to tired to do both research and attend but she's the first person I'd have help me with a phone call.

Im pretty good at learning skills and relaying the info to ppl in general and im a storyteller and a craftsmaker. And I'll teach anyone something they'd wanna know! Or I'd be terrified to be a beekeeper. That's why I got a friend who's fearless of bees and has a hive and I give her extra snacks for handling it for the sake of the honey I use.

We aren't alone out here, and how the hell do you plan on taking down goverment solo?

[loumauve]

rejection sensitive dysphoria has got to be one of my least favourite anythings ever jfc