#i didnt go into greater detail about the fact i still make phone calls at an attempt to make something small and snappy

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I mean I feel like a large part of the praxis I talk about is about using the current system and then building a framework of how to have a better system on top of it...

Like yea of course we are reliant on the current system! Like when I started helping organize our general strike (for yrs down the line mind you) one if my biggest concerns was replacing things like Medication distribution and mass electricity distribution. Currently we are almost entirely reliant on our goverment systems to provide things like proper internet access, medication, infrastructure building, etc... but our goal must be How Can I replace that? How do I improve that system (potentially within the current one?) I'm a big fan of building within the system and then knocking down all the bad things later. But how should we respond? That's not for me alone to build, that's for ppl to debate and refine and look for ethical harm and so forth. Those new system must be created by communities not solo actors.

Of course that's all theorical right now.

That being said, I don't work in strictly Theorical stuff like the first round of this might imply no one I know works in strictly Theorical.

Yes, I have anxiety over phonecalls- but I still helped organize and participate in Call in campaigns within my city ranging from housing (mainly zoning and rent caps), to food systems (community garden access, food bank funding,), fighting for libraries and public services etc... I still make phone calls to help my friend arrange Dr Appointments bc they are also anxious about them, I still call to check on friends and to yell at politicians who are doing harm in my community.

Yes, I have anxiety over public speaking- to the point where I personally turned down the Mayors office request for me to speak about the housing crisis - but I speak up at every community assoiation meeting, I force myself to be looked at like I'm crazy for suggesting unhoused ppl deserve their property back after being forced to relocate instead of police straight up burning it in front of them (something that came up during a CA meeting), I lead conversations in tenant unions and at community garden meetings and pride events and I will sit with someone after meetings to help educate and help ppl sit with certain concepts. I'll speak in place of my friend who'd rather go silent then speak up so their point is still said out loud.

Yes, I have had awful agoraphobia my entire life - I still go to community events and even help run them, I still go to out and map where little Libraries and pantres are. I go to soup festivals and share with friends and different networks about the other cool stuff going on and then they also go. I still gruella garden and sticker bomb and reno bus shelters in the middle of the night.

I'm anxious and scared to high hell the entire time, and I still do it. And thats entirely bc just bc something is hard doesn't mean I won't do it, and I will particularly do something hard for me if it means I can help someone else do it bc I would never ever demand someone else do something scared if I won't and I sure wanna make it less scary to us all.

But that being said, not everyone has the capacity to fight for survival and fight anxiety. For some this might be too much and all they can do is tiny acts to build up a tolerance or to help in a non-leader position which means they don't have to push their comfort level at every interaction. There is nothing wrong about that! They are still allowed to demand a better world even if my hands must create it for them bc I will fight my anxiety if it means someone else doesn't have to unwillingly.

You online: yes we need to overthrow the governmemt

You in real life: cant make a phone call due to anxiety

You got me there!

That's why we have ppl who specialize in different skills and it's important to have a network of well balanced skills in general. Like yeaaa I get anxious making a phone call.

But I'll organize events, I'll give you endless information for cool programs and stuff. My friend cannot find that info or just gets to tired to do both research and attend but she's the first person I'd have help me with a phone call.

Im pretty good at learning skills and relaying the info to ppl in general and im a storyteller and a craftsmaker. And I'll teach anyone something they'd wanna know! Or I'd be terrified to be a beekeeper. That's why I got a friend who's fearless of bees and has a hive and I give her extra snacks for handling it for the sake of the honey I use.

We aren't alone out here, and how the hell do you plan on taking down goverment solo?