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hey guyz its star or panic welcome back to another youtube video

weird dude, a little bit bi. contrary to popular belief you are not allowed to call me by the name "sus" yet my friends do so anyway

im 99.9% sure i have adhd and depression but im still on the journey of getting diagnosed, i reblog about those things fyi i am diagnosed with ocd and anxiety but those two things manifest less recently and are instead me being normally plagued with my not so normal actually kind of awful life

i like a lot of stuff my interests always change CURRENT BIG INTERESTS (last updated december 15 2024): PROJECT SEKAI, MILGRAM, SOUTH PARK, VTUBERS, CHAINSAW MAN

wont be interacting that much with nsfw seriously but there will be some freaky jokes

also the point of this blog is for me to find tumblr posts i found a few years ago at the peak of my tumblr usage (i didnt have an account then) and reblog them here because theyre funny. and i dont like having as many screenshots in my storage as i do rn. those posts will be in the archive set to roughly the date that i found the post but those dates are before i made this blog so you cant navigate to them- instead you get to scroll through my struggles in reverse chronological order

what else idk i joke about mental illness and suicide i block for petty and small reasons and i think the concept of cringe is dumb

ALSO. IF YOU ARE ON MY CUSTOM URL. CLICK THE INFO TAG ON EVERY POST I AM FUNNIEST IN MY TAGS BUT DIDNT KNOW MY TAGS GET HIDDEN LIKE THAT IN THE THEME I PUT IN UNTIL AFTER I ADDED A LOT OF CUSTOMIZATION

pinterest: starsxandxguts youtube: stars-and-guts anything else i either havent touched since i made the acc OR its related to vtubers and doesnt have anything to do w/ this blog

IMAGES USED IN MY BLOG: piplup forgot are you lost background sorry i dont remember where my pfp of piplup laying in the sand is from

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Holy shit yes

Gender is not real cry out your shit you are all girlypops to me

Proving a point to my boyfriend.

PLEASE REBLOG if you (male or female) believe it is perfectly okay and natural for a guy of any age to cry

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idk

reblogs: #ppanicrblgs (reblogs with words also have: #ppanichaswords or #ppanichastags) posts: #ppanicposts ask answers: #ppanicasks playlists: #ppanicylist archive / sorry i found this before i was cool: #pubescentppanic

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Welcome to Hell You Sons of Benches

Sup, they/he/she, agender, bisexual fem preference

I'm not officially diagnosed but on the process to be with: ADHD, depression ~ I will talk a lot about relating to / having symptoms of ADHD especially, so if that is uncomfy then no worries im diagnosed with: anxiety, ocd (lowkey im not feelin the symptoms of either compared to when i was a really little child but i digress)

VTUBERS -> 2434:🤟/💫💜/👟☯️/👻🎼/🎭🕒/👻📌/🐠/👼⭐ | indie: ⚡(quinn)/����🪼(kai) | vshojo: 💍 KPOP -> skz: 🐶 | twice: 🐶 | txt: 🐻 i also like a lot of other stuff but my interests are ever changing ‼️

Someday when I am brave enough + the internet doesn't feel like a spawn of hell for content creators I hope to post my art and writing. I always kind of wished to be a content creator as a wee youngin so yk- I will keep yall updated on that

My exact age is none of your business but I won't interact too much w/ 18+ or NSFW content (on this account anyway lmaoo)

I actually started to browse tumblr w/o an account years ago on specific tags and was always saving posts like "someday when i have a tumblr ill be able to interact w/ them!!!", then like exactly a year ago tumblr started stopping me like "yo you need an account for access clearance" and then i stopped using it UNTIL NOW

Join me on my adventure to rediscover every single blog I looked at as a degenerate prepubescent to postpubescent!!!! This means that my reblogs will sometimes be very random, from years ago, and/or from communities I am no longer in.

I slap reblogs on around the day that i think i found the post, so just check in my archive and you can see my life struggles in like reverse chronological order! :D

Queue posts will post at 6 am, 12 pm, and 6 pm CST/CDT for now yes american please point and laugh

Always remember, don't kill the part of you that's cringe, kill the part of you that cringes!

Uhhhhh DNI if you disagree w/ me a lot ig bc then why would you interact w/ me that sounds like extra stress for you

Twitter: you found me through the vtuber twitter didnt you Discord: dm me somewhere if we're moots Pinterest!!!: https://www.pinterest.com/suspanicattac/ Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/user/31gv2xb67qcn46sobmmyyrhabipu Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@sus-panicattac/featured

if you find me on this through other places not listed above this blog probably does not feature any part of me that is remotely like where you found me

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read through each and every one of these walking around in 92F heat (which isnt that awful but if youre in a place with a range of seasons the adjustment is ASS)

id like to make an addition

@pussysidon

Post corrections/clarifications are my favorite genre of humor: a compilation

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HE LOOKS LIKE HES SCREAMING I LOVE HIM SO MUCH UES I DO CARE SJKSSLSK

obsessed w/him actually

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These days its cold but it doesnt look cold it just looks fucking gray

Christmas as a cultural icon is starting to get really dystopian in a climate sense, december has historically been a time of year in which there would be snow in a significant portion of europe and north america, and the fact that its not even icy this time of year and all the christmas songs and decorations reference a time of year that will likely never exist in the same way again in my life time is so strange.

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the day i stop seeing something about actual historic authors and going omg so bungou stray dogs is the day that peace will return to our hell

furious that i am not a playable character in this game

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i dont even know this character i just love this so much tf

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being allowed to use literal human as some kind of mascot or symbol in general is fucking insane

thats literally a dude

"oh this is making so much money so we will casually ignore the opinions of the man who is literally the source of it all" what the fuck

the story of kfc fucks me up man. the colonel founded this gas station that expanded to restaurant, the chicken at the restaurant gets popular, makes KFC, it gets big and he sells it to a corporation for a lot of money. realizes he got sorta scammed out of the true worth of kfc so tries to get more money and they refuse and the courts side against him. then he starts a new chicken restaurant claiming the corporate people were not making chicken to his standards and kfc sued him because kfc owned the colonel's likeness and the courts agreed. a corporation owned this man's name and appearance. he wasnt allowed to use either, thus legally erasing his reputation making it harder for him to get taken seriously in any food venture. the man, to the day he died, was going into kfc's and throwing fits because the food had fallen into such bad shape he hated it was associated with him. and it's like, whether he's a bad man or a good man or whatever, a corporation owned his identity, stopped him from using his reputation and identity in other businesses, and refused to acknowledge his outrage that they changed his recipes and still attributed it to him. this is literally the obnoxious plot of a jay and silent bob movie, but it was this dude's real life. what the fuck.

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this reminds me of my parents so much in an odd way

my dad explained to me once (he had a shitty childhood) that he could have ended the generational trauma by staying childless but he wanted to pass down positivity. he wanted something good to come from the hell, almost. im putting this into my own words and mildly translating so with a grain of salt ofc

the way i see it? hes basically trying to stop the trauma on hard mode. its a video game thats titled something like CRAWL OUT OF THE HELLHOLE and easy mode is going my bloodline ends with meee raaaaaahhh (which is what i will probably be doing) and hard mode is doing all of that this ends with me but also having to raise a child. greater reward, much greater challenge

my mom i think is similar to my dad in the sense that her parents tried their best to stop the trauma in their household and she wants to continue into a positive cycle

anyways thats so fun for them because im still a wee bit affected from being the test rat in this situation and getting all the genetic mental illness / neurodiversity that they refuse to acknowledge

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im so so so convinced that people who fucking hate vegetables with a burning passion simply did not have them cooked well for them as a child

like if you grew up with white family dinner smushy peas every night yeah i dont blame you like you hating vegetables was a learned trait

if you werent growing up with creatively cooked and well seasoned veggies then im sorry you were robbed

You know what blows my mind is when you meet someone who literally does not eat vegetables. #scurvy

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I THOUGHT YHIS wS ABOG SOUTJ PARK

Tolkien is having his first ever egg. It’s. Not going well.

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penis is my favorite term involving the male genitalia

in spirit i am a 7th grade boy

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yeah hot take if people stop reaching out i think they dont want to anymore and i also stop

If you're the person in your friend group who initiates conversations 90-100% of the time, it can feel tempting sometimes to just stop contacting people to see if they will reach out, and therefore if they actually like you or if you are inflicting yourself on them. The problem with this is there are multiple flaws that can't be overcome in this type of test, including the fact that if you always reach out and suddenly don't, people will assume you're busy rather than that you want them to reach out, or just the fact that some people genuinely enjoy your company but hate or are terrible at remembering to reach out. So basically don't immediately assume that silence always equals disinterest or disdain; that's your own hangups talking, not the people you care about.

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genuinely dont know if ive reblogged this before im sure i have my blog is slowly falling apart

(ADDING ON TO THIS)

my ways of finding a specific post from random screenshots i have, theres so many and whenever i feel like i cant find a post its usually because ive forgotten a method:

IF YOU KNOW THE USERNAME / URL OF THE POST, LISTEN UP (IF YOU DONT, KEEP SCROLLING)

IF YOU KNOW SPECIFIC TAGS THAT OP HAS, LISTEN UP

if its a commentary tag that you dont think they have on another post such as a keysmash (#ASGDKSGKSD) or a whole ass sentence (#this tutorial from sus-panicattac sucks ass dude), look for posts tagged that on the blog, the blog custom url, and/or the archive

narrow down by any mistyped tags or uncommon looking tags

go into the archive, filter to around the time you found the post + older, and narrow down by tags or what type of post it is

IF POST HAS A DECENT AMOUNT OF WORDS, LISTEN UP

this only works half the time but just look up little chunks of the post in search eg. ("Character a: i fell off the fucking building!!!"). if it doesnt show up after searching a few different chunks, stop and try something new

IF YOU DONT KNOW / CANT FIND OP, LISTEN UP

IF YOU KNOW ANY SPECIFIC TAGS, LISTEN UP

1. tags are gods greatest soldier. look up unusual looking or commentary type tags on tumblr itself. THIS ONLY WORKS IF THE POST HAS A SPECIFIC COMBO OF TAGS OR REALLY UNIQUE TAGS. tumblr can find your post if its tagged something like (#my oc held hands with your mom this morning inside the freezer of my basement), but not if its tagged something like (#oc, #mom, #basement)

IF POST HAS A DECENT AMOUNT OF WORDS, LISTEN UP

look up words in little chunks using quotation marks in tumblr itself. ("and she fucked off happily into the sunrise with my girl scout toffee-tastic cookies"), make sure to use a more unique sentence.

some chunks will pull up posts that have nothing to do with what youre looking for, especially any chunks that have words commonly used in fanfic

IF YOU CANT FIND YOUR POST WITHIN TUMBLR, LISTEN UP

take a chunk and google it with quotation marks and mention tumblr. ("suddenly my amazing post straight out of khaenri'ah turned into a fucking egg" tumblr). this is good if youre sure the op has deactivated / moved urls because this will find reblogs of the post on different blogs, especially ones with custom urls

sometimes this will only get you results from those weird tumblr copies that no one talks about like fucking tumbig or whatever its called- ignore that

at the end of the day some posts you just cant find anymore, usually posts from deactivated blogs that didnt end up getting much attention or posts where you only have the image itself and nothing about the op or actual post

for the sake of if someone is like omg i gotta find this tutorial again (im fucking delusional no one is going to see this) i will tag this post with all the hypothetical tags that i spit out of my ass as an example

how to find literally any post on a blog in seconds (on desktop)

there are so many posts about ~tumblr is so broken, you can’t find any post on your own blog, it’s impossible, bluhrblub~

I am here to tell you otherwise! it is in fact INCREDIBLY easy to find a post on a blog if you’re on desktop/browser and you know what you’re doing:

url.tumblr.com/tagged/croissant will bring up EVERY post on the blog tagged with the specific and exact phrase #croissant. every single post, every single time. in chronological order starting with the most recent post. note: it will not find #croissants or that time you made the typo #croidnssants. for a tag with multiple words, it’s just /tagged/my-croissant and it will show you everything with the exact phrase #my croissant

url.tumblr.com/tagged/croissant/chrono will bring up EVERY post on the blog tagged with the exact phrase #croissant, but it will show them in reverse order with the oldest first 

url.tumblr.com/search/croissant isn’t as perfect at finding everything, but it’s generally loads better than the search on mobile. it will find a good array of posts that have the word croissant in them somewhere. could be in the body of the post (op captioned it “look at my croissant”) or in the tags (#man I want a croissant). it won’t necessarily find EVERYTHING like /tagged/ does, but I find it’s still more reliable than search on mobile. you can sometimes even find posts by a specific user by searching their url. also, unlike whatever random assortment tumblr mobile pulls up, it will still show them in a more logically chronological order

url.tumblr.com/day/2020/11/05 will show you every post on the blog from november 5th, 2020, in case you’re taking a break from croissants to look for destiel election memes 

url.tumblr.com/archive/ is search paradise. easily go to a particular month and see all posts as thumbnails! search by post type! search by tags but as thumbnails now

url.tumblr.com/archive/filter-by/audio will show you every audio post on your blog (you can also filter by other post types). sometimes a little imperfect if you’re looking for a video when the op embedded the video in a text post instead of posting as a video post, etc

url.tumblr.com/archive/tagged/croissant will show you EVERY post on the blog tagged with the specific and exact phrase #croissant, but it will show you them in the archive thumbnail view divided by months. very useful if you’re looking for a specific picture of a croissant that was reblogged 6 months ago and want to be able to scan for it quickly 

url.tumblr.com/archive/filter-by/audio/tagged/croissant will show you every audio post tagged with the specific phrase #croissant (you can also filter by photo or text instead, because I don’t know why you have audio posts tagged croissant) 

the tag system on desktop tumblr is GENUINELY amazing for searching within a specific blog! 

caveat: this assumes a person HAS a desktop theme (or “custom theme”) enabled. a “custom theme” is url.tumblr.com, as opposed to tumblr.com/url. I’ve heard you have to opt-into the former now, when it used to be the default, so not everyone HAS a custom theme where you can use all those neat url tricks. 

if the person doesn’t have a “custom theme” enabled, you’re beholden to the search bar. still, I’ve found the search bar on tumblr.com/url is WAY more reliable than search on mobile. for starters, it tends to bring posts up in a sensible order, instead of dredging up random posts from 2013 before anything else

if you’re on mobile, I’m sorry. godspeed and good luck finding anything. (my one tip is that if you’re able to click ON a tag rather than go through the search bar, you’ll have better luck. if your mutual has recently reblogged a post tagged #croissant, you can click #croissant and it’ll bring up everything tagged #croissant just like /tagged/croissant. but if there’s no readily available tag to click on, you have to rely on the mobile search bar and its weird bizarre whims)