#posting in this acct because it’s the only one i use nowadays

[tedbird]

would anyone like to see the gang (my clown collection)

cw for clowns if you’re scared of that

these were all either gifts, from charity shops, or from antique shops.

this is danielo next to a deodorant bottle for comparison, he’s the largest clown

this is jack and charles. i got them first from my nini, she named them after my uncles

these are mimsy and moe and they live on my side table

this is grape and mustard, they’re a pair despite being nothing alike

this is curly and he’s a demon from hell. i love him very much

this is blue and he’s an aspiring artist (he isn’t very successful and it drove him to drink)

this is milton, he’s middle aged, divorced twice, and is one of blues drinking buddies

this is sangiuliano and he’s very dusty because i’m too scared of wrecking the paper mache to use liquid near him

these are strawberry and pistachio and they’re married with a pet chicken. i keep them near a porcelain house light and that’s where they live

this is benny. he’s precious and i love him. my mam didn’t want him so i kept him and got her a teddy instead lol

these are jingle, bingle, and bob. bob does fuck all but the others still care about him because he’s their brother from another mother. they’re triplets except they aren’t related, but will get very offended if you tell them that

this is george, who my mother named after my other relative

these are pinky and brian, they’re new additions and they mostly js chill by themselves

this is jed, he thinks he’s better than the others (hes not)

this is coco, he’s very nervous and a bit of a klutz but tries his best

this is jester, he’s off his noodle

these are tilly and timber, they’re twins and they judge the other clowns from their place on the top shelf

as a bonus here’s scarlet, she’s my pride and joy and i love her so very much. her hair is a bit wild because it was like this when i bought her and i don’t know how to fix it. i have more dolls but scarlet is the best one

also here are the two clay clowns i made that aren’t ugly (i have like five clay ones but they’re hideous lol). they aren’t painted yet and they don’t have names

[storiesofsvu]

Hii! I love your stories and writings!

I love to write as well but I kinda scared to post it online.

Can I ask what/how you decided to post your very first story online?

awwe thank you so much!!!

posting online can definitely be intimidating, but the biggest thing to remember is that you're doing it for yourself, and to have some fun/have some creative output. even people who have been posting for years and have a decent following (or 50 ppl on a tag list) still might not see the notes climbing on fics. esp reblogs and comments. people have gotten into a habit of just liking nowadays and it's super annoying and dis-motivating lol.

The VERY first thing I posted online was back in like... 2003, it was either a LOTR, POTC or HP fanfic over on fanfic. net. I didn't know about reviews/comments/anything. I just knew that me and my friends were all writing and having fun reading each others stories. i took a VERY long hiatus and started up in the SVU fandom over 2020 cause there was nothing else to do lol. the very first multichapter story i wrote is currently taken down as i'm re-working it (and it was IMO terrible). there was little to no context to the plot, smut was underwhelming or a little cringey, and it topped out at like 9k words or something).

My one shots are all still there. For reference check Casey/Barba/Carisi's masterlist, the oldest fics are at the top of said lists.

i decided to post because i was having fun writing and wanted to share it. I'd been reading/commenting/reblogging for a month or so and thought i could definitely do it, so why not? I also started writing cause there was little to NO Casey x reader content. so i figured i had to do it myself.

I'd say the best thing to do is: #1: do a lot of reading, check out what styles you really like, what you think you'd like to write/what others would want to read. Check out the way other authors are formatting their posts (ie; are they using a gif, a header image, a moodboard, nothing? are they posting the whole fic on tumblr or just a blurb and a link to ao3? etc)

then #2: create an acct on tumblr that is related to/focused on the fandom you want to/are writing for. Follow releated blogs, Reblog gifs, random posts, other people's work, comment on stuff, get some mutuals, make some friends, etc. make some of your own posts, once you're out of the "are they a bot?" phase and your original posts are showing up in the tags, you're good to go. (and the best part is you can still keep yourself totally anonymous doing this. you don't need a name or picture, just make sure you have a bio and say whether you're 18+ or not)

write! #4: post some stuff! make sure it's tagged properly (ie; only tag the actual pairings "Emily Prentiss x reader" "past!jjx reader" don't start tagging all the characters just cause they have one line in the story...) -if it's over 1000 words, put it under a readmore -make sure to tag all appropriate warnings at the top and in the tags (and don't censor them!) (ie: "alcohol consumption" "smut" "oral, f receiving" "spanking" or "angst" "character death" etc)

-i find most blogs don't mind if you tag them in stuff, esp if its a fandom/character they enjoy.. (some people DO though, it normally says in their bio/pinned post, so be careful). I personally think a tag is easy enough to ignore if i don't like it. HOWEVER, don't go into people's dm's/inboxes unsolicited trying to get them to read your fics

it will likely take a little bit to build a following/get some reactions to your fics, so don't stress about that, just write, post, and have fun!

<3

feel free to come back/dm with any other questions!

[strawberrystainedd]

Hi!! Got excited when I saw your comment on the Queer Christians unite post, about sharing christianity through a queer lense!! Exactly what I've been looking for as a bi Christian looking for the vouch-for-queer-community-through-the-bible :):) Any tips?

hi so sorry for taking so long to answer!! this ask makes me so happy:) i’m answering this one on this acct but just btw i have a religion sideblog @blessedjudas which is what i usually post all my christianity stuff on!

my biggest tip is to look up churches in your area, find a queer-affirming one (they will usually say it on a website/have a flag in front of the church), and join a group there. my church in san diego is AMAZING and honestly the diocesan events and youth group in hs saved my life and relationship with god!! truly i doubt i would still be a christian if it wasn’t for them!!

if you can’t find a church community near you that is queer affirming, finding a community online is the next best thing!! just finding other people who are queer christians (and queer religious people in general) is the BEST thing you can do- it reminds you that queer christians exist!! and can love god fully!! without sacrificing any part of yourself!! and you also end up learning SO much from them. if you feel safe to do so, you can also try to create a group in your town!! i’m sure it would help other people in the area who might not feel comfortable being the first to reach out.

reading books is also great! there are so many that analyze the bible from a queer lens. here are just a few:

- called out by e carrington keith

-tenderness by eve tushnet

-god and the gay christian by matthew vines

- this i know by jim dant

-hearts ablaze by rolf nolasco

if you have instagram, following people on there is also such a comforting thing. some of my fav accts:

-belovedandqueer

-belovedarise

-marymagdalenestan

-liturgy (my old youth leader from hs/ms actually:))

-andhersaints (who also has a tumblr!! @and-her-saints )

-blackliturgies

-liberating_christianity

when you surround yourself with people who are deconstructing a very white, cishet pov of christianity, you start to realize how anti-jesus that rhetoric truly is. there are so many bible stories and quotes that just aren’t even taught because they aren’t deemed “important” (they are). nowadays i read passages of the bible and find so much more LOVE in it than i used to, because i’ve joined communities of people who truly care about love for the sake of love. once you realize it’s ok and holy to love always, you find so much more love in the bible in so many places!! (you also get a reality check on how flawed the bible can be, and how not everything should be taken literally as it was written by ancient human men in a different language. doing research to find true translations is also a great, if difficult, thing to dig into!!) it just makes me feel so much more connected to jesus and god and the holy spirit, and that feeling of true love is what keeps my faith.

when i was younger i kind of felt like i shouldn’t take the bible very seriously at all because it was so fallible- but now i view it differently, because the more i studied it with other queer people, the more i realized how truly wonderful it is and how warped it had become in translation by american christianity. context is sosososo key when reading such ancient texts and it should not be taken lightly!! pretty much all of those passages that alt-right christians use only make sense in certain context or have been mistranslated. i view the bible as a diary of christians in the past, and in a way i find that even holier. it’s a treasure and the gospel feels even more real to me because of that!!

things just started to make so much more sense when i looked at the bible with a queer eye. when two women who lived together are blessed, that turns from a seemingly pointless story into a story about a romantic couple being blessed by the lord. when it’s mentioned that two men who live together are very close and do everything together, it makes so much more sense to think that they were together. everything just clicks into place! and it fits the image i have in my head of jesus so much better: someone who preached radical love and kindness of COURSE would never say it was a sin to love ANYONE, no matter who it is.

ok this was really long post and honestly i could go on for so much longer but i hoped this helps!! ily and if you have any other questions/musings feel free to ask!!❤️

[aranarumei]

tagged by @hua-fei-hua! it’s been ages since I’ve done one of these it was kind of fun lol! sorry for the delayed answers...

1. are you named after anyone?

a couple of ppl assume my name is kiri because it’s like, referencing kirishima from bnha. i haven’t kept up with bnha properly since. honestly since the dabi reveal ch dropped so that’s… nov 5th 2020 lol. I’ve got residual feelings abt it but not much interest in actually reading it (sorry). nowadays I don’t get as much of that anymore—my name is just like. digimon dusk only lets your character have a 4 character name max so I hit various syllables together and keysmashed until it sounded good. im attached to it now.

2. when was the last time you cried?

…today lol. i cry easy when i'm frustrated.

3. do you have kids?

no. I have a Feeling this will be rather unrelatable to whoever I tag so. electing to present my own question:

3 (again). [FREE SPACE] recommend a song?

im gonna recommend Tsuru (en: Bowstring) by koyori / denbolP bc it’s great. I love this producer actually.

4. do you use sarcasm a lot?

mm I think im probably averagely sarcastic but like. I do have a habit of like. ex: someone will be like oh where’s [kiri]? when I’m literally right there and I have the immediate impulse to say, completely straightfaced, like “oh [kiri]? sorry they’ve been dead for seven years. they’ve never been in this room in your entire life.” so essentially I like doubling down on things when I think it’s funny.

5. what sports do you play/have played

i played basketball for six years!

6. what's the first thing you notice about people?

i think the first like, physical detail I pay proper Attention to is earrings. just cause I like em. apart from that it’s probably their voice and what they find funny.

7. eye color?

brown. comparatively I think it’s rather dark to the point of looking black.

8. scary movies or happy endings?

i mean I feel like this is a. false dichotomy but I really don’t have a good stomach for horror and stuff so. happy endings ig.

9. any special talents?

talents… I’ve memorized my squares up to 30-ish, so like if for example if someone says 28 I can rattle off 784. I’ve been told I have a talent for talking abt media I like but that’s also something said by my lovely friends lol.

10. where were you born?

on earth. im also electing to replace this with my own question:

10 (again). what made you make a tumblr account?

if ppl look at my blog they shall think I showed up in 2020 but I’ve actually been here since 2015. I just… deactivated my acct by accident when I meant to delete a sideblog. ok. so obviously I remade in that case. I made one back in 2015, though, because I was like, really into hxh and ran into some hxh blogs I was like. in love with. also some fairy tail fic authors I rly respected were on here. and I wanted to discuss hxh and post fic. so I joined.

11. what are your hobbies?

writing! and reading! and drawing! and playlist making. im basic. writing is probably #1 to me tho I rly enjoy it. like for all I complain about it I actually really enjoy the act of like putting down words and crafting stuff and editing. I’d actually love to beta fic more regularly. and get reallllly good at grammar (seriously if anyone has any resources on that chuck it at me) and action scenes. those r my big two dreams.

12. do you have any pets?

nope! i do have a depressing amount of wips I have not taken care of, tho…

13. how tall are you?

5’2” or about 158 cm, i haven't measured myself lately. I’ve been told my various sources that I have “tall person energy” tho. im not as good abt it nowadays but I tend to be a bit careful abt keeping my back straight. at the very least I’m pretty aware of it. I wanna say it was just cool of me to be that way bc I was into having good posture but I’m like 90% sure it was because I read skip beat and I really liked that kyoko stood that way.

14. favorite subject in school?

math by farrrr. literature is dependent on the teacher for quality imo and while I enjoyed it I was always a bit sad that we never did any creative writing. math is just very nicely methodical.

15. dream job?

honestly I don’t have one. like I’d love to publish a book some day but I don’t want it to be my Job. im pretty satisfied just doing smthing productive-feeling and where I have enough free time tbh.

no obligation to answer ofc to anyone tagged. also if you don’t want to answer any of the questions just reject them... I just provided alternates bc I felt like it. i think this is supposed to be 15 questions for 15 mutuals but i dont want to tag that many people... @icharchivist @sunnnfish @dirtbra1n @mxddyhero @heartsdash @watcher-ofthe-sky @estradasphere

[elaichoi]

the v v v first time i saw ur acct was when u had the yeonjun prive alliance layout ^3^ those reincarnation aus made me saur emo T^T

i luv that for u agghh<3 not that there's anything wrong w it,but i find it most satisfying when ppl get into kpop from kpop-genre songs rather than western-sounding kpop songs lol my first kpop artists were b2st (highlight) and t-ara hehe

mhm yea mayybbe! i know 100% why i don't post them and its cos i used to be consistent w posting on both kpop & personal socmed accts but mental health happens and i kinda stopped bc numbers make me want 2 cry lmfao

except im slightly less mentally ill since that time now and yk i actually genuinely do rlly want to start all my socmed accts up again but im putting it off bc im a bit of a perfectionist and so im lazy to be doing all dat... all of nothin :D don't call the orderly i'm fine ^_^ /lh

2019-21? ah probably not then i'm pretty sure i was in and out of the school roster (pls tell me if i am oversharing/trauma dumping/crossing any boundaries bc i genuinely do not know i no longer have any social skills T_T /gen /srs)

hm i'm not sure tbh i only followed the one 😭😭 i haven't been on wattpad in a long ass time and i remember i tried seeing what wattpad was like nowadays and was v disappointed w the ads and paid stuff (i think i don't remember). booooo 👎👎

omg wait that's so cool aaaaah!!! i changed my user a lot so i honestly could not tell u bc i have goldfish memory ;__; i do remember i had a user like taempons(_) i think it had an underscore idk don't remember but i changed it (kinda wish i saved it ngl) and oh one i do remember was peachyjihoons (my wannaone phase lmao) but yeah im pretty sure my most recent user was some based on some tumblr shit like svnshine or something idfk 💀💀

u are already a talented writer save some for the rest of us 👺 /j if u could also draw u would be too powerful 👁️👄👁️

omg THAT WAS MY FIRST LAYOUT TOO!! this account isn't that old tbh i still haven't gotten the feel of writing smuts as of yet that's why i havent been much active on it BUT WAIT REINCARNATION AU?!? from my main???

DUDE I LOVE B2ST!!!! and t-ara!!!!!!!! i really got into kpop slowly because i fell for kdrama at first (found replay in one of the kdrama edit lmao) so like my music journey has been very, very kpop ish. i think the global influence in most of kpop songs started to become mroe prominent during 2018?

bro i get you like the fear of starting the stuff you love because you feel like you won't be able to give it all and starting it and feeling it like you're gonna disappoint yourself. i hadn't started anything since like 2017 until recently because i was scared i was gonna stumble, or it won't be good ( well mostly that) or i won't be able to finish that. me and my bff still has this one project we started around like 2018 lmao we both still haven't finished it or picked it up bc we developed the idea sm and got so close to it that we fear writing it now.

not OVERSHARINH I WANNA KNOW!!! NO but like FR wattpad went through the biggest glow down IVE EVer seen like. it's legit LEGIT inhabitable. like at first you take away the newsfeed?!? like how am i gonna pine over other accounts now?!? and then everything became paid and shit like wtf is that?!

omg i wonder if I ever saw you on my explore page or tags bro fr this is so interesting my ig handle has always been one tbh it's @celestialsoo ( my intense love affair with kyungsoo era) like since the dawn of the day.

YOU LIE!!!!! i wish i could fr draw tho i want to draw my muses :///

[akookminsupporter]

Idk how much you agree with this but you are in the fandom longer than me so maybe you might have noticed this that the fandom definitely treats jikook different than other pairs. If i have to give recent example then it's when jm said "i miss you" and jk commented under it "me too" now everyone thought it's for armys then jk just went live and watched that cover then went with watching jm's content like he watched toughly around 90 mins of jimin's content. Now if this was jk watching nj content or any other member it would have been so much like "omg he's missing xyz", "omg he's so in love with xyz", "jk can't even be away from xyz for too long" and i saw only one big (not that big but like follower around 10k+) ot7 army acct saying that "i think jk is missing nd another one which is kind of jim biased acct saying"i think that miss you wasn't for us". Although armys were saying that"who's he exactly missing" under jk's me too translation post but yeah others were like he went live so he's missing amrys. Now I'm not stating that jk was missing jm but i do kind of think he was missing jm. Cause he didn't have to say that me too. He also said that "why you guys are commenting I'm not even reading" nd he actually didn't read any comments that time. Also saying that he has watched that pixid episode of jimin (mind u even i didn't watch it even the suchwita ep, he watched both before me) He didn't even talk much he was only paying attention to whatever he was watching.

Another one is everyone talking about jk changing colours during nj's part in gcfh but literally in the same video he changed colour for jm's part too. And let's not even start with gcft cause literally ONLY jkkrs talks about it and no big accts. U know initially i thought maybe they don't want to get into this jkk n tkk shipwars so they stay away from mentioning it but nahh i was hella wrong big accounts do talk about taekook like "boyfriends" this that type alot even when moment is nothing much. And u can always compare the likes to tkk post and jkk post by any big ot7 it will tell u alot. Every time any acct gets exposed they turned out to be tkkrs. It's like a record n clockwork at the point. We all know that tkk is the most popular ship and the fandom is filled with it and there's no denying it.

Sometimes i think they might be used to jkk doing these kind of things alot that they're at a point where nothing makes them feel it's out of the blue or if it's "boyfriend-ish" but every single compliment any other duo throw at e/o and they starts with their "they're flirting", "they're dating" bs. Them turning every normal interaction of any duo into this mess is very frustrating to me. And i actually don't even follow big accts Cause of many reasons but they still end up on my tl and i can still see their hypocrisy. It's like jikook have to do some extreme stuff and only then they'll ever talk about them in a sentence...

Oh Anon, are you a new army or jikooker? Because believe, we have been saying this since ever. You are literally preaching to the choir. What you described is nowadays call the jikook oti7icacion.

[topicprinter]

I'm making this post partially to help you all avoid making the same mistakes I did, but also as a way to catalog the failures while it's fresh in my mind, so I can look back when I start working on the next one.Two years ago, I became utterly fed up with my situation. I had graduated and found a pretty decent job in my field, done all the things you were supposed to do. But the working environment was horrible and I found myself miserable and doing exactly what I didn't want to be doing with my life. So I moved in with my mom and started saving and planning for a trip overseas.I had a blast traveling and exploring life for 3 months, but savings were coming to a close and I would have to go home and figure out a source of income. Until, an acquaintance approached me about starting an import/export business.The deal was that he would fund things while I did most of the work. I couldn't pass up the opportunity, especially since I'd been wanting to start something for a quite some time. So we committed to each other and founded our company.Mistake #1 I went to work right away, drawing up a business plan, creating a budget, and so forth. I shared these with my partner who sort of just brushed them off. That sort of stuff is just way over his head, but I just sort of ignored it and thought I could figure it out. It's turned out that at the time, he actually had a MUCH longer timeline for making this thing happen than I thought. I was ready to go, had a plan to launch in 3 months and everything. But he wasn't, and we didn't communicate this to each other. Therein lies mistake #1: not being communicative about how we saw this business unfolding. Unfortunately, it's hard to communicate these things when you're halfway across the world from each other.Mistake #2It became more and more apparent that things were moving far too slowly. It wasn't until 2 months later that we actually got our LLC established (the bank acct didn't come until like 4 months after this). But I wasn't giving up, I had faith in the idea and he had the funding (or so I thought).After months of dicking around and way too much stress, we finally made it to the same place at the same time. He showed me his bank account, and it was like 10 times less than what I believed it to be. The budget I'd created was equal to the entire cash savings he had. I should have realized at this point that there was no way this was going to work, but I didn't want to give up. Therein lies mistake #2: not being clear about what this business would cost, and depending on a financially irresponsible person.Mistake #3By this point, (5 months after we committed to starting this business) it should have been so apparent that this was not going to work. But I was afraid of failure and believed I could make this thing work even on a limited budget. My partner was there and we were finally working together, making progress. We sourced a bunch of awesome products and had a good team. But, he had to leave after only a month (2-3 month timeline for sourcing, building website, shipping etc.) leaving me on my own. I couldn't get it all done on my own in time and had to return home, leaving the products behind because they were not yet import compliant. 9 months after we had started the business, we had no products on the way, an unfinished website, and no revenue. We'd sunk a good 20k between the two of us and had nothing really to show for it. Therein lies mistake #3: not accepting reality, and stupidly believing I could make a failing business work on my own. Also, sinking my own money into a business that was supposed to be fully funded by my partner.Mistake #4 After returning home and taking care of business (renewing my green card), I made it back to our products and started getting them ready and finishing all of the stuff we needed to do to sell them. The stress of not having money started eating away at me, and I fell into bad habits and was not as productive as I should have been. I set a deadline for myself, and in the stress of figuring it all out myself, took the easy route of shipping everything courier, because I just could not sort out air freight. I thought I did all the calculations, but in the stress and tension of the moment, I forgot an essential detail: dimensional weight.When the products arrived, I was stoked. Even though we were way in the hole, we had solid products on a solid website with solid content: if we could even sell half we were on our way to at least breaking even and having a functioning business.And then the bill came. The dimensional weight was 3x the actual weight, and the bill 3x what I calculated. That was it, nail in the coffin. Both me and my partner were broke and there was no digging out of the hole. Even if we sold everything and paid the bill, we'd be left with essentially nothing to reinvest, and as we were both broke, no way to put more money in.Conclusion It became clear to me last night that the business was over. The stress of trying to figure out how to pay that damn bill while keeping everything running drove me to consider suicide, and that was a very clear signal to stop.Do I regret it? No, I don't regret taking an opportunity and trying to make it work. It's not everyday that someone comes knocking on your door and says they'll fund a business if you run it.Yes, I regret not listening to advice and being a lazy bum half the time when I couldn't get in touch with my business partner because he was off having fun or doing something else. I regret not sticking to my guns when I KNEW what it would take to start this business, and acquiescing when my partner wouldn't listen or didn't hold up his end of the agreement.Have I learned a ton? Oh, yes. I feel infinitely more prepared to start another business. What was the cost of that? $15k extra in CC debt that I now have, arguably worth it considering the cost of school nowadays. But I'm still back to square one. I've got $1000 left that will cover minimum payments for 2 months. My mom said I can stay with her and eat. I'm there now, and going to look for a job tomorrow so I can start making an income again before I default on all my credit. I've hit rock bottom. Time to pull myself up, get a job and an income, and start another business. This time, I'll do it the proper way: starting small on the side and building it up. It was a fun time, but the free ride eventually ends and that's that.Thanks for reading this sloppy mess. Happy to answer any questions.