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[shrimpyjackal]

continuation of da post !

Irep wasnt really buying that exuse even tho it`s kinda true... Missing moments of Peri ignoring Da Rules and other small changes is a tragic event, ya know!

[bruciemilf]

Rendering has left the building

[qutiepai]

muie ctp

[onepiece-polls]

Frequently used tags

Hi all, I just edited the pinned post on this blog, but I thought I'd share this in a seperate post with you all too. For anyone who is curious about the tags I use...

Frequently used tags:

#polls - for any non-tournament polls

#not a poll - for any posts that (you guessed it) don't include polls

#other tournaments - for all posts from other tournament blogs (polls, submission forms, and sometimes non-polls)

#submission form - for all submission forms (from this or other blogs)

#results reblog - for when I'm sharing results of a poll (usually polls from this blog, but occasionally other tournaments/polls too)

#reblog at another time - for polls I've (re)blogged before, without any additional propaganda or anything.

#news coo delivery - for propaganda on ongoing tournaments from this blog.

#not op - for the very incidental post that has nothing to do with One Piece (which I try to keep to an absolute minimum).

#ask - for any answered asks/messages.

#about this blog - for posts that are about the blog itself (like this one).

You can block any tags you don't want to see, of course. You can also search for them on my blog (in the app) or use tumblr.com/onepiece-polls/tagged/[# you want to look up, without the actual '#'] if you're on browser if you want to check the posts in one of those tags.

Besides these general tags, every tournament has its own tag too, but that will be announced at the beginning of each tournament (and you can see on those posts). The current tournament is going by #opla fan cast polls.

I probably forgot some tag I often use, so if you've noticed one or you got a question about a tag, let me know!

[ciochinaflorin]

222 I 2024. TREI MOTIVE POSIBILE PENTRU CARE S-A DAT PORUNCA ÎNVĂȚĂRII COPIILOR [Proverbe 22.6 I Proverbe 22.5 I Psalmul 32.8] 9 August 2024

222 I 2024. TREI MOTIVE POSIBILE PENTRU CARE S-A DAT PORUNCA ÎNVĂȚĂRII COPIILOR I Podcast I Pasaje Biblice : Proverbe 22 : 6 I Proverbe 22 : 5 I Psalmul 32 : 8 I Meditaţii din Cuvânt I Cezareea I Reşiţa I 9 August 2024 I Trei motive posibile pentru care s-a dat porunca învățării copiilor. Împăratul Solomon a poruncit învățarea copiilor. Dar trebuie să deducem că părinții erau ținta poruncii…

[bacony-cakes]

In Battletech, the Protomech is a type of mech that is roughly half the size of its mech counterpart, equipped with lighter weapons, engines, and sometimes ECM suites to cut off the mechs it attacks while allied protomechs assist.

Here we see the prefix Proto and Battle can be used to denote either larger mechs capable of extended combat, or smaller units that group up on a target to take it down.

The use of "Protogen" in the modern era thusly implies the existence of the "Battlegen", a type of protogen which is twice the height of its standard counterpart and capable of mounting sophisticated targeting computers, larger electronics warfare packages, and advanced weaponry. In this essay I will

[harmoonix]

Astrology Notes ☙

By Harmoonix ❣️

☙ The beauty people with Pluto in the 1st house😍😍 These people can be very pretty and can have a very Scorpio Energy even if they don't have Scorpio Placements at all. But if you have Scorpio Placements and Pluto in the 1st house omggg this is too 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

☙ Did i forgot to say that Taurus Moons signs can be very possessive of their partners 👀, they are not toxic but they can get very possessive and jealous, they can be overprotective too. They can be extremely lovely and protect you with their own life

☙ You know you are the IT definition when your chart ruler is the Sun or Venus, or if you are Leo and Libra/Taurus Risings. These people are so popular and liked by everyone around

☙ Do you can know how hot Capricorn Risings can be???🔥🔥👀👀👀 They are from another planet i swear most models are having this ascendant and they look 💥💥💥💥🤯🤯🤯 AMAZING. Capricorn Risigns you are BLESSED

☙ Mars square Ascendant is a very hot aspect, most people with with this aspect look very attractive they can have high succes in media, because they can get a lot of people attention, this will sound funny but they look gorgeous with sun glasses on 😍

☙ Jupiter - Mars aspects have a really big high drive, they can be very horny, can have a very horny personality, it depends what people are they attracted because they can manifest their partners and they love to explore their sexuality too

☙ Uranus - Sun aspects, you just know they are unique and strong, nothing can stop them, these people radiate electric energy, just because Uranus and Sun together can have a very big and warm energy 💞

☙ I have seen people talking so bad about the 8th house placements, and I want to confirm that they are not right at all. People with 8th house placements are very powerful people especially if you have luminaries (Sun/Moon in the 8th house) or the chart ruler in the 8th house. They are like a phoenix and they re-born themselves if they are hurt. Karma is coming back for you very fast if you hurt such people.

☙ Jupiter Retrograde in a chart can means that you need to focus on your self and your goals more and you can see the luck coming for you, especially on traveling, try to travel to explore to go in search of new things because there is a high chance you will find luck there

☙ People with Venus in Cancer Degrees: 4°, 16°,28°, can get attached very fast to their partners, they give such "mom energy" they might like to take care and protect their partners a lot, nurturing them, but these people wanna feel secure around their partners either they can be very anxious about their relationshis

☙ Cancer in the 5th/6th house can have a big big big love for pets, they can have a lot of pets around them and there is a big chance these natives grew around animals in their childhood, maybe they had a lot of pets at home 🙀

☙ Mars in the 2nd house can help you with getting money fast at your job and at manifesting money, Mars in the 2nd house can be very influential if you wanna have a big wallet 🤩

☙ Pisces in the 10th house is a sign that you can be very good at singing. singing can help you to develop a career in singing or voice acting. 🎸. Painting and arts can apply too and also if you have the Midheaven at Pisces Degrees (12°,24°)

☙ Aries Risings OMG these people are like born with fire in their eyes and hearts, i swear all you need to do is to look in their eyes. Their looks is very mesmerizing, the 1st house feels so good in the sign of Aries ♈🐏

☙Capricorn Suns are having a very warm side too, there are many people saying "Capricorns are cold", "Capricorns are mean".... These people are humans after all and still have feelings? And of course they a soft side like all zodiac signs do. They can be very sweet with you, if you start to know them better and better you see they are not cold. These people are very sweet in all the ways posibile 💎

☙ People with 2th house Stelliums are here to be rich and expensive they do not joke when they wanna get that cashhhhhhh, get that cash guyssss. Applying if you have the North Node in the 2nd House too focus on being financial secure and don't depend on anybody 🌈

☙ People with a 12th house Stelliums can be very spiritual and connected to the spiritual world. They can see spirits or shadows and they can get body sensations like goosebumps very randomly

☙ Mercury in Scorpio can be very hard and fast at cussing people, when someone does them wrong or dirty they can come very fast to cuss them 🤣

☙Can we all appreciate how Aquarius Moons can stay so calm even in bad situations? Their calm omg and positive mentality is helping them a lot trough their situations

☙Ascendant at Libra Degrees (7°,19°) gives natives a very natural charm, they can have pretty lips and big eyes 👀. They can also have a good fashion taste, they can be very organised and take things veryyy seriously.

☙Ascendant at Aquarius Degrees (11°, 23°) gives natives very unique features, they can have bulging eyes/the eyes can have a very nice shape. The natives can be very tall and intelligent, good at working in online media. They can also be very good at making friends and having a social group around them. ✨

☙ Ascendant - Mercury aspects natives can be very easily for them to talk and to express themselves, they can be social butterflies. They are very smart too and very wise. These natives have a good knowledge and they can mentor other people and help them by communicating their feelings.

☙ People with Sun and Moon harsh aspects they are not having good either because they can face personality problems and they can find themselves struggling a lot. This aspect is the definition of Brain (Sun) vs - Heart (Moon) fight, who you gonna listen and choose to guide you first? Your heart or your brain? They can also have family problems (Sun - father) - (Moon - Mother). But these people are very strong ones because imagine to have both luminaries aspecting each other, is definitely not for the weak 💎💎💎

☙ Virgo Risings are having a highly feminine energy and aura. Doesn't matter the gender,if you have a Virgo Rising you have a high feminine energy. It's a very nurturing placements in harmony with nature and Virgo Risings can have an amazing hair like omggg 👀👀👀 how does y'all's hair look so good ???

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☙ Mercury in 8th house might talk a lot about sexuality and taboo things, they try to communicate while using dirty talk and flirting too 👀😍 these people are having a very sexual of communicating and expressing themselves but they are also very powerful in talking. They can give good speech and make people to listen to them

☙ Venus in Leo/5th house might like/have a tendency to be naked a lot around their partners, not 100% naked but wearing clothes who can highlights their bodies and the same can apply to Venus in Sagittarius or in the 9th house. Let's just say that people with these placements might like to tease their partners a lot 🔥👀

☙ Jupiter in Capricorn/Taurus or Jupiter in the 2nd/10th house natives might get spouse/husbands with big...👀👀👀 You know what's coming after..🔥🔥🔥 your husband can have great body/bones can be muscular too

☙You just know that people with heavy Scorpio placements have a lot of kinks and BDSM, it just happens for them to like it rough

☙ Aquarius's placements (mostly in big 6: Sun,Moon,Rising,Venus,Mars, Mercury) are highly kinky too and very passionate, when it comes to 18+ in Astrology, Aquarius Placements are highly underrated, these people can make you feel like heaven, so they are 100% very hot people 🔥👀

☙Neptune in 8th/12th houses are very sexual OMG these people are MY people 😍. Because they can spend all day dreaming about their partners, they can also have a lot of dreams and fantasies about their partners these people are intense at a very different level. Very intense, very hot, very charming 😍

☙ NEPTUNE IN THE 7TH HOUSE OMG these people can create a very big soul bounding with their partners they crave for love from their partners and they love little things in relationships. But these people are blessed getting such attractive spouses 😭 because Neptune can mean attractiveness too and in the 7th house of relationships and partners omggggg

☙ HEAR ME Y'ALL: JUNO - NEPTUNE ASPECTS mostly harmonious aspects (Trine,Sextile, Conjunction) similar to what i said about Neptune in the 7th house these people create a soul bounding with their partners and they can attract such hot SPOUSES 🔥😍🔥😍🔥😍 their spouses can be very sensual too. I feel this is also a very karmic placement because is also spiritual you can be connected spiritual with your spouse if you have your Juno/Neptune in the 12th/9th houses 😍😍😍 y'all these aspects are sooo hottt i love them (Juno asteroid code 3)

☙ JUNO - MARS aspectsssss another intense placements it can show your spouse can be EXTREMELY SENSUAL AND PASSIONATE, a lot of kinks omg😍😍😍 they can make you feel like heaven. Spouse can be hella attractive, pretty charming flirting everything sensual...THEY HAVE ITTT ALL. YOUR spouse is having a very attractive personality. So far one of the best Juno Placements to have (Juno asteroid code: 3)

☙ I heard Gemini's Placements are very good in bed too 👀, they can be very focused on what are they doing, they might not have such as many kinks are Scorpios but they are more into positions they like to try a lot of things and to experience a lot, they might not have many kinks but they are highly ROMANTIC.

☙JUNO IN THE 1ST HOUSE 🔥🔥🔥🔥. Definitely one of the most sensual placements to also if you have Juno here.... YOU ARE VERY desirable, a lot of people can wish you for them to be their partners. I'm not joking people with this Placement are having many admirations. BUTTT THEIR SPOUSESSSS 🔥🔥🤯🔥🤯🔥🤯🔥🤯🔥🔥🤯🤯🔥🔥🤯🔥 OMG your spouse can be very needy of you very lovely, high attraction to eachother, good pleasure time too 👀🔥👀🤯👀🤯👀 y'all are luckyyyy your spouse can also be very popular and a lot of people can know him. I adore this placement 💋

I will make more and more notes about a lot of placements because i have many many ideas about it. Don't worry if you don't have any placement here i have more posts about it;

Here too part 1 and 2;

Here is part 2💋💋💋💋

Hope you gonna find something you like in these posts and i have a lot more to make and post 💋💋💋👀👀👀 just wait for it because i have so many ideas.

With love, Harmoonix ❣️

[amethystfairy1]

Amethyst… You can’t be doing this to me😭

No, but seriously, how am I supposed to get through finals while I have TT and TTSBC on the brain? That is to say, I absolutely adore your work! Reading it made me want to write again after… 6 years, I think. I’m debating participating in Beyond and I might just bite the bullet at this point.

Now let’s get down to business. You said you liked rambles, so I would like to offer my own thoughts.

First, for TT, does the hurricane have anything with a maybe missing siren/merman we haven’t heard of in a while?👀 I also remember you mentioning at some point that there might be a Xornoth appearance, so now my brain is full.

As for TTSBC, (I was debating for a while if I should even share this, but here goes nothing) I came up with a sub-species and was wondering what you would think.

I’m imagining there is a community of something called shadow mutants. They are like the second removed cousins of the voidwalkers. They are, first and foremost, living shadows. You know how when it’s dark and you can’t be sure if what you see (or more precisely, can’t see) is the darkness or just shadows? I’m basing them on that whole felling. A kind of mutant that is the boogieman of the under-city.

They are reclusive, much like blazeborns, they just do their own thing. They live in caves, mostly in the deep dark, making their homes out of the shadows and darkness. Their whole thing is that they can disappear in the shadows and live there their whole lives. When they are little, they have to learn to use glamor to maintain a “human” body, and even then, they have the shadows moving on their skin and pitch black eyes (I mean that the iris and the sclera are black).

They can take over shadows, be it that of an object or a person, but they have to be careful. When they take over a shadow, their “body” stretches or contracts to fill out the space and it can feel like breaking bones and tearing muscle. It takes a lot of glamor control to make it so that the mutant isn’t hurting in a situation like this.

They both worship and are afraid of lights, as light is the thing that creates shadows, but take the object away and the shadow effectively “dies”, so they have to think about when and what shadow to take over. The most powerful ones can even control the object or person in whose shadow they are.

If they chose to live between the folk in the under-city (a lot of them chose to never leave their shadows, never using their human body), they work odd jobs, but mainly as cave explorers and/or armed forces for some of the mobsters down there.

It’s a universal truth about them that in fight or flight situations, they hide. If they are felling threatened while in a shadow, they will either stay there and wait, or move over to another one, jumping from object to object to get away. If they are in their physical body, they will try to get to the closest corner and make themself as tiny as posibile if they don’t have shadows they can hide in. As a last resort, the shadows will peel of their skin and act as a distraction, moving on the walls or behind them, creating the illusion of something bigger.

So…

What do you think? I hope you enjoyed my rumbling and you take care of yourself.

Now I have to go back to finishing my project for todays presentation (I’m a procrastinator at heart, it’s my own fault, but I’m gonna get through it just so that I can post some of the works I have drafted).

I LOVE THE RAMBLING!!!

They sound so cool!? Shadow mutants? That's so spooky and awesome sounding! I love the concept of them moving between shadows and using glamor to materialize, that's such a fun dynamic!

Oooo does it have to do with a certain missing mer? Maybe, maybe, that's certainly a good catch there, not many people pointed it out because they were too busy worrying about Gem going after Scar's head 😆 Hope your presentation went well! Thank you thank you for sharing your subspecies idea, I loved it!!! 💖

[sitron-artblog]

Update: 16.07.2023

I've sort of been working on this a little on and off, but I stopped posting updates cause I stopped being as excited about it? But today, thanks to my Good Productive Day, I finally feel like I made solid progress, and I enjoyed it a lot :)

I've realized two things through this drawing (and one of them is quite stupid)

1. I realized that it's been ages, like definitely more than a year, since the last time I worked on a pencil drawing of this scale AND with this level of detail. Like, I can't even remember the last time. I do a lot of quite small drawings, and there's really only so much detail you can put into someone's face when it's the size of one of your fingernails. I've done larger drawings in charcoal and other mediums, but they just don't allow for the same degree of detail. Idk. It's cool to see how my skills have progressed :)

2. You... You can use... A kneadable eraser... With graphite..... (yes this is the stupid one). I don't fucking know why but I just never tried it? I was introduced to kneadable erasers in an art class I took as a little kid, and always in the context of drawing with charcoal so like, I just, never used it for anything but charcoal???? Which is so stupid, like why the fuck would you not be able to use a kneadable eraser with graphite??? there is no reason!!!! It just. never occurred to me to try it out. allll of these years. Anyways. It's revolutionised my life 💕 so. that's it for this update :)

Jeff Satur

wip - june 2023

(Rambling beneath the cut 💕)

Ok so the reason I decided to make this blog now, is yesterday I was working on this drawing for like three hours screaming crying yelling etc extremely fucking frustrated because it just would. not. happen. I'd done the sketch the day before and it went like. fine, I was happy enough with it, but then I picked up a pencil to render and... 💔💔💔 For like three hours. And then. Finally. It just loosened, and started to work and now I'm so excited about ittt!! Didn't have a chance to work on it today cause I needed to clean, and my energy was gone afterwards, but hopefully I'll get back to it tomorrow. It's joining the ranks as one of three jeff satur pieces that I'm currently working on actively, and I'm really excited about all of them, and truly feel like they're all going well, so! Yay!

[28octombrie-toamnadinsufletulmeu]

„Pentru că oamenii sunt ca oglinzile. Te așezi lângă unii și te vezi urat. Lângă alții te vezi prost. Iar lângă alții te vezi neclar și nu știi ce să crezi. Iar asta îți creează nesfârșite păreri de rău. Uneori însă, rar, foarte rar, sunt oameni lângă care te vezi nu neapărat frumos, nu neapărat ideal, ci doar întreg, sau complet sau pur și simplu într-un mod pe care îl găsești acceptabil. Nu e nevoie să îi cauți, ei apar dintr-o dată din mulțimea mută, trebuie doar să fii atent și, dacă e posibil, să ți-i apropii.”

SCRISORI CATRE RITA - Ștefan Caraman

[goodevilgirlintentions-blog]

Daddy's rules 😈 ~1~

1. Când ne vedem, porți doar rochița/fustiță FĂRĂ LENJERIE

2. Pussy pic zilnic

3. O zi pe săptămână să mergi cu buttplugul la muncă/facultate

4. Când vin la tine, să te găsesc goală, masturbandu-te, așteptând să intru în tine

5. O sugi oricând și oriunde am chef

6. Nu comentezi când vreau să te ling în locuri publice

7. Porți mereu vibratorul lush în tine, si o pot controla oricand, de oriunde

8. Nu te poti termina fara acordul lui daddy

9. De fiecare data cand te masturbezi, il intrebi pe daddy daca te lasa sa te atingi in locurile tale de printesa.

10. De fiecare data cand te masturbezi, daddy trebuie sa vada

11. Esti mereu la dispozitie cand daddy are chef de sextalk, facetime

12. Corpul tau este un "free-use" pentru daddy. Oricand te poate atinge, se poate juca cu tine, chiar si in somn daca vrea.

13. Orgasmul tau e proprietatea lui Daddy.

14. Daca il superi pe Daddy, te vei duce la colt, vei sta in genunchi cu limba scoasa

15. Daca Daddy decide ca ai fost obraznica, te va pune pe burtă la el in brate, iti va da chilotii jos si te va disciplina cu palme peste fund pana iti ceri scuze

16. Când Daddy îşi scoate centura, te pui doggy şi aştepți loviturile pe fund.

17. Când Daddy te penetrează în poziția misionarului, te uiți mereu în ochii lui, eye contact mereu!

18. Îl satisfaci vizual cu poze în lenjerii sexy cât mai des posibil.

19. Sugi orice îți pune Daddy în gură, indiferent că sunt degete, jucării sexuale sau pulă.

20. Dacă Daddy vrea să te plimbe în lesă prin casă, te pui în patru labe şi aştepți până îți dă comanda.

21. Îl vei trezi pe Daddy în fiecare dimineață cu un sloppy-toppy blowjob.

22. Înghiți, MEREU!

23. Daddy are acces la FIECARE gaură.

24. Îl laşi pe Daddy să filmeze cât de disperată şi udă eşti pentru el.

25. Te îmbraci în costume sexy ca să îl surprinzi pe Daddy.

26. Nu exista "nu" în vocabularul tău. Ce spune Daddy e sfânt.

27. Dacă Daddy te pune în genunchi, nu te ridici fără permisiunea lui.

28. Daddy îți alege ținutele!

29. In preajma lui Daddy, vei purta pe buze doar ruj roșu 💄!

[arhitectul]

am învățat că viața nu-i mereu îngăduitoare, și atunci e posibil să te lovească de două ori peste același obraz.

@arhitectul

[officialromaniantranslatiuni]

Am si o intrebare, daca nu e cu suparare (rhyme not intended 😅) Am o colega de clasa de etnie roma si a zis ca termenii "smecher" si "misto" vin din limba lor, dar cred ca vazusem la tine pe pagina ca sunt din germana si am adus vorba de chestia asta, ea a zis ca insinuez ca poporul ei sunt hoti si ca sunt rasista si... mda... Deci sunt cuvinte din limba romani sau din limba germana?

asta e ca o cearta pe cine a inventat sarmaua si se bat toate popoarele balcanice, est europene si de prin estul mijlociu

cuvintele la baza sunt din germana (mit Stock - cu baston; Schmecker - degustator, care aparent in slangul german inseamna si drogat haha felul in care evolueaza limba am i right)

si mie mi s-a spus candva sa nu mai folosesc ciutan/ciutanca, fiindca uwu sunt tiganisme uwu dar practic e cam ca kid (baby goat), fiindca vine de la ciuta (femela cerb) care vine de pe la altele si tot asa

daca cineva foloseste mai mult un termen si ii schimba sensul, presupun ca si-l poate insusi (gen nu stiu daca se mai foloseste neaparat, dar cingo e chewing gum, dar tehnic apartine limbii noastre sau cum americanii zic pepperoni la salam cand este ardei in italiana)

avand in vedere ca intelesul celor 2 s-a schimbat, e posibil sa fi fost adoptat de cei de etnie roma in vocabularul limbii lor, fiindca de la ala care degusta vin la persoana cu gust bun in general (parca asta insemna la un moment dat?) la baietas de cartier care face chestii, e cam drum lung, dar nu sunt tocmai o experta (stiu ca am disecat candva etimologia portocala pana am explicat tot parcursul portocalelor in europa de sud, dar m-am cam lasat de sportul asta)

[dismorfofobie]

Cross shaped tattoos of Aromanian and Megleno-Romanian women from Dobruja and the Balkan space.

Damca, Sigiliu or Crúțe tattoos in Aromanian language were used as a protection tool to prevent girls from entering Turkish harems.

Nicolae S. Minovici states that the act of tattooing was produced at a young age, in the context of survival in an area under Ottoman rule. "Parents used to mark children around 5-6 years old with a tattoo representing a cross, to prove the fact that they were Christian, and with the respective name to know who they are."

The sign of the cross appears even today at Aromanian weddings in the form of a hlambura (a cruciform wedding tree, with three apples stuck at the ends, decorated with various materials). Another meaning, re-semantized on a symbolic level, is related to the affirmation of the Orthodox Christian faith and protection against the evil eye and other diseases.

[tireddovahkiin]

CW: VENT POST!!! mentions of depression/indirect mention of suicidal thoughts/unhealthy coping mechanisms

Y'all I've come to a conclusion that seeing self ship doubles MAKES ME MORE SAD THAN SEEING CANON X CANON SHIPS-

Like bc- they actually dont bother me THAT much, I think of them more like a 'alternative cursed universe where there could always be a posibillity for crazy stuff' ship. Yk, like, how there COULD be an alternative universe out there where every president of a country have to wear a maid dress or something idfk-

the world is vast and we don't know SHIT about it

BUT THE FUCKING- ... DOUBLES...

It actually really really breaks my heart... Almost like I'm watching a "thief" take away my most valuable treasure, yk... No offense to any doubles out there, you're valid, and you're no thief, you cannot choose who you love.

But I dunno... I also am very scared of "shadowbanning" in the self ship community... Like VERY scared.

With "shadowbanning" I mean, there being some bigger, more popular users on social media who are famous for being the (character's) spouse. The character we both self ship with. But of course, the popular one is going to gain much more attention and interactions because they have been self shipping for longer time, or their art/ s/is are very popular and likeable.

So, if I tried to break the ice through and consider myself the (character's) spouse, and share my self ship stuff on the platforms, I would be DOUBLE IGNORED, and FORGOTTEN above all.

And I cannot have the same mindset with the canon x canon ships, because I know that person DOES exist in real life. And that they the character much longer than me... And have merch... And celebrate anniversaries... And treat the relationship as a real one.

It's literally like a war... where the more 'loved' one wins.

Don't get me wrong. I ALSO want to do that form my own f/os. I WANT to build the a shrine, I WANT to treat my ship serious, I WANT to draw us, and to gather merch, I WANT to love my f/os as much as I feel love for them.

But sometimes, people are not able to fulfill their needs because of the situation/environment they're in.

For example, they could either be financially unstable, the country they live in has no 'merch' of the said media, the family is unsupportive and abusive, or just... Be VERY busy with life in general. Not being able to give attention to even the smallest things, like stuff they love to do in free time, let alone their beloved f/o.

.. I myself am in that situation. My country is poor, I am about to enter university, I am still healing from my past traumas/trying to get better and fight off the problems on my own, even if it is VERY difficult, and no one understands. I should already work and have a job, have MY money, ACT like an adult should, and become independent. But I am not. I was emotionally scarred, which left big impact on my (concerning) social, (terrifying) future, and (nonexistent) work life.

I basically depend off my parents, and know absolutely nothing in general, like- I feel hopeless, dissapointed. Scared above all. Because I think a part of me is still not ready to move on and grow up, and I already did.

So, if I cannot take care of MYSELF, how can I take care of the sacred relationship me and my f/os have, love I feel for them? The attention I oh so, DESPARATELY want to give them, yet I don't even give attention to my life, and try to hide away from everything? How can I even think about them if I cannot think about anything else?

... I dunno. I'm just... I just sometimes think I am underserving of such recognition, and to be called the (character's) lover/friend/family. Because, not do I "ignore" us, but I ignore my life, too.

With ignore, I mean, I TRY to survive every single day as the best I can. Get over it, then repeat again. For quite some time now. Cope with "stress" (when there IS NO actual stress) with unhealthy maladaptive daydreaming methods and isolation. And the stress is just... Life, in general.

Being a depression survivor is hard, because you're supposed to find a purpose for yourself, when you didn't even PICTURE yourself being THIS far. Keep going, while you're actually still somewhat struggling to find the path, and will to continue.

You isolate yourself from the world in your mind, your safe, comfort zone. Where anything good can happen, there's no stress, no duties, adultery, no work. You ghost people, avoid everyone and everything, stay in your home, and LITERALLY survive the day to the best of your abillity. Try to avoid thinking about ANYTHING else but you, your f/os, your perfect little world. You struggle with most simple things like getting up, eating the right ammount, doing things you like, taking care of yourself, but you're supposed to be an ADULT. To already KNOW how to take care of yourself, because FAR more worse things are waiting for you out there.

I love my f/os. But I don't love myself, what I have become. And that is what makes me worried the most. I cannot become what I want if I already act this terrible.

[barbie0303]

31 Days of Dick (Grayson)

Day 22. Robin!Dick mini or Dick!Bats mini (mini meaning short comic run)

If it’s about which one I would prefer DC to publish… I choose Dickbats.

Just ahhh. Many posibillities:

- A mini showing Dick hanging up the cowl and suiting up as Nightwing for the first time, mainly because we never really go to see it. I’m also curious about Damian’s reaction to finally have that change be real, considering he didn’t have a positive reaction when it was first brought up

- Re-encounter with Shrike: Idk it would be interesting to have this two characters interact during this era. I mean, Boone took his dead mentor´s name, Dick moved on and took on a different name that while it honors his mentors, it is his own thing; but now it isn´t like that because now both are using the mantle that belonged to their dead mentors that also were like fathers to them…

- The actual follow up to this:

Batman (1940) #691

- As I said a couple of weeks ago, it would be cool to have a story with the Batman, Robin and Batgirl from the Reborn era