#pls talk to me about persona im lonely

[philistiniphagottini]

Pspsps. Persona 3 fans, please come to me. I bring a small, humble offering of this Akihiko smut while I'm busy working on other things ((this fandom needs more smut and I am here to provide, pls interact with me I beg))

cw. smut, oral ((male receiving)), gn! reader, aged up characters, 1.2k words

A wistful sigh blew past Akihiko’s parted lips, his breath shuddering and a pleasant tingle racing along the curve of his spine when you wrapped your pretty lips around the weeping head of his cock. Warmth twisted tight in the pit of his stomach, his skin searing to the touch as your tongue gently lapped at the drooling slit of his dick, a pleased hum tickling the back of your throat as you gently sucked. Akihiko trembled from his place above you, strong thighs caging your head into the mattress as his cock slipped past your lips into your warm mouth.

"Aki" you moaned softly, his taste dancing on your tongue and lingering in the back of your throat as you swallowed thickly.

The way his name sounded in your mouth should have been illegal with the way your voice dripped like warm honey. Another violent shudder wracked his spine as he grunted softly, hands gripping the headboard of your bedframe like a vice. The wood groaned beneath his harsh grip, threatening to splinter beneath his unyielding grip as you dragged the flat of your tongue along the prominent vein lining his cock. He twitched between your kiss swollen lips, the tip wet with your saliva as you swirled your tongue around the fat head of his cock like you were indulging in your favourite sweet. Sweat dotted Akihiko’s forehead as he struggled to keep the cant of his hips still, every hair lining the nape of his neck standing up in anticipation as your hot breath tickled his perspiring skin.

Another sweet hum rumbled in your chest as your hands idly curled around his hips, fingers dancing along the tantalising v-line as you dragged your thumbs along the sensitive skin. The muscles in his stomach jumped at the featherlight touch, a soft groan clawing at the back of his throat as he stared down at you with eyes just as dazed as his mind. Fair lashes brushed against his burning skin; cheeks flushed a dark shade of red as he stared at you with rapt attention. He couldn’t tear his gaze from the way your full lips sucked his cock, tongue occasionally peeking out from the plump skin to tease the sensitive skin. The fire coiling deep in the pit of his gut refused to die down as you continued with your ministrations, laying comfortably idly on your back as you happily buried your face between Akihiko’s warm thighs.

Your fingers suddenly dug into his hips without warning, nails biting his skin and leaving behind crescent shaped marks as you pulled his hips, urging him to slip deeper into your mouth. His eyes widened, the tips of his ears turning red hot as you stuffed more inches into your mouth.

"Wait-!"

His words were cut off as a strangled noise was wrenched from his lips, his words garbled as his cock slid along your tongue. Another happy noise reverberated in your chest as the tip of Akihiko’s cock nudged against the back of your throat, the sticky taste of him sliding down your throat as you savoured the flavour melting in your mouth. The fire in Akihiko’s gut was fanned into even hotter flames as you continued to suck on him, teeth just barely grazing his skin and setting every white-hot nerve in his body on edge. His jaw set as he hissed through clenched teeth, unable to contain the jolt of his hips as your greedy hands encouraged him to tilt forward with each harsh tug. His teeth chewed on the dry skin on his bottom lip as another shaky sigh escaped his kiss swollen lips, his intense grip on your headboard yet to ease.

"Shit" Akihiko groaned. "I’m not going to last if you keep this up…"

Hearing his words only encouraged you further, arousal spiking in your stomach as you pressed and rubbed your sticky thighs together to temporarily relieve you of the dull ache building in your core. Thin strands of saliva dripped down the corners of your mouth and stained your chin as Akihiko’s cock slid back and forth along your tongue, his strained noises of approval gracing your ears like a chime from a shimmering bell. He could barely hold onto the fraying edges of his sanity any longer, mind fogged over in a haze of lust as he continued to stare at your face. He could feel the crown of his cock being squeezed each time he reached the back of your throat, the hot, wet cavern of your mouth coaxing the most arousing sounds to crawl out of the back of his throat.

"Shit, shit" Akihiko stuttered. "Gonna cum."

He half-heartedly tried to pull away from your alluring mouth but he severely underestimated your strength. Your eyes fluttered close as you moaned around him, fingers pinching his hips as he tried to pull away only to have his cock bury straight back into your mouth. Akihiko swore something foul under his breath, headboard creaking in protest as his hands curled into fists around the shaky frame and the boiling coil inside of him shattered into tiny pieces. You moaned in delight as thick ropes of his hot seed filled your mouth, painting the back of your throat as his cock pulsed and twitched.

Akihiko pulled his softening from between your soft, pillowy lips with a loud pop, the drooling tip painting your plump flesh with pretty pearls of white as he pulled back. Your eyes fluttered open as your tongue poked through the seam of your lips, Akihiko’s eyes tracing the movement as the slick appendage lapped at the remnants of your meal. His heart fluttered wildly, pulse droning loudly in his ears as he struggled to calm his harsh breathing. He felt like he had just run a marathon with how his muscles stung with a satisfying ache. You rubbed your hands along his thighs, fingers dancing along the hardened muscles as a soft smile tilted your lips.

"Aki, could you please let go of the headboard? I don’t want it breaking."

Akihiko’s eyes widened in surprise and he immediately wrenched his hands away from the wooden frame before his unbridled strength accidentally snapped it. A soft chuckle breezed past his lips as he swiped the back of his hand across his forehead, dabbing at the sweat that clung to his clammy skin.

"Heh, sorry about that."

His hands fell back to his sides as you wriggled out from beneath his legs, carefully sliding out beneath him until Akihiko was the one situated between your parted thighs. You sat up, placing a fleeting kiss to his chin as his body still continued to buzz in the aftermath of his pleasure high. He leaned into your soft affection with a smile tilting his lips, strong hands curling around your hips as he pulled you close.

"Though, would it be such a bad thing?" he mused with an amused smirk.

You snorted softly as your hands danced along his toned torso, admiring his physique beneath your wandering hands as you quirked a bemused brow up at him.

"Do you want to be the one explaining why my bed would need replacing?"

Akihiko looked thoughtful for a moment before he eventually shook his head with a small sigh.

"No. I suppose you’re right."

You chuckled with a cheeky smile, loosely coiling your arms around his neck as you brushed your lips against his.

"We’ll find another way for you to expend that boundless energy you have~"

[roseillith]

Pls don’t hurt yourself. Deleting a blog is one thing but pls don’t hurt yourself. So sorry to hear you’re feeling this way. You put so much joy and beauty into the world via this blog im one of many recipients of that and no matter how you feel you look like externally, i and many others get a chance to see your soul and it’s beautiful, expansive, smart, inspirational and full of humour! As a black person I also sometimes feel alienated and off key when my fam speak ga of twi around me and yet haven’t taught me, sometimes I feel so disconnected from everyone and feel like I’m floating away with nothing to hold me, no anchor to any sort of real meaningful life. Betrayal from friends or from love, broken heartedness, loneliness strike but still there is a lil bit of light, there is the wind blowing on my face, a glass of water, a favourite song, some sun. There are small joys that remind us we are not alone. And You are not alone and I hope that one day soon you receive all the joy light and good energy you put into this harsh world. Pls don’t give up. We love you, keep your head up

tyvm I appreciate your message deeply, I feel a constant push n pull whenever I log on & post on here, the things that I’ve posted recently (including this) has made feel ashamed in that I have spilled out all of my thoughts n feelings out on this public platform, the same place that I’ve been constructing as way to separate my physical& literal self and run towards things that I have stored inside me, all of the stuff the I carry along with me whenever I’m out in public, that I know I can’t share w/ any nigga that I know out there instead I try to avert my eyes from all other dudes out there cuz I know I don’t fit in and feel physically gross when I’m around w/ a bunch of dudes, me failing to be a man in general and avoid man-to-man convos irl and instead retreating those inner stuff into the girl that I want to be, the kind of girl where I know I can apply all the totality of myself out there into the world.

Now I’m just staring at this public persona that I have made of myself feeling increasingly distant day-to-day and I wonder why I put all my all into this blog w/ gifs,pics,anime stuff, film stuff, music stuff etc. when I can’t muster up the courage to talk about all that shit outside out aloud without having to be disgusted from hearing the sound of my voice or/and how the person/s I’m saying it to is even viewing me physically & as a person/“grown up man” having the courage to go out and transition to the girl that I can see in the distance.

The one rule I had when making this blog was to never spill out my personal shit of actually being a man irl who’s found solace and significant more ease in being a woman online cuz I know that if I ever did that it would be embarrassing & the end for me personally, I wouldn't be able to look myself in the eye, all the shit that I had posted on here it all being a lie to me, and worse of all I never really took in any support from anyone else here I had this lone wolf-esque mentality where I always try and not get close to anybody I was mutuals w/, never share anything abt my personal shit, always looking through the window seeing other ppl chill with others, and when I look at myself on here I’m feel still as alone as I do irl & tbh much of it is my fault from not being able to put myself out there and feeling disassociated from myself in whatever I do on here and irl

[i-have-dots-in-my-brain]

ayup mates, its me (that one fucking guy that shows up in your fever dreams to offer you garlic bread then fucks off into the void) (i think you need to get a therapist btw)

Call me dots or dot (not correct but when saying something belongs to me you use "dot's". idk why don't ask me)

My cara page (for art): https://cara.app/ihavedotsinmybrain

They/them she/her it/its ( welcome to the mad lab we do experiments with the funny goofy hjinks with the genders here)

TAG GUIDE : my art (self explanatory), dot's thoughts (mad ramblings) (extra note, there are two versions of dot's thoughts, the other one is with the phone version of ' so you can go look for that if you wanna see me posting from outside the comfort of my room and computer), dot’s travel journal (me on holiday), my persona (obviously just my persona) *prone to updates

dumbass who likes to draw ocs and shit. (posts like there is no tomorrow but also like i have all the time in the world) (oc x canon stuff also) (some fanart ig)

if you wanna find my (mostly serious) art, check out @dots-in-my-head (send me asks and dms on this blog) also i have started putting fandom stuff there too so if you want to get my fandom doodles you can look to there as well

still questioning sexuality but currently aro/ace? (idk i'm not in a rush lol) (i WILL dabble in the arts of questioning me sexuality on internet if you got problems with that shoo)

my loveley husband (@octoxxt, pls ignore this blog dude its embarrassing)

why do you need to know my age, ‘you a cop?

will not draw smut or NSFW bcs i will start howling with racous laughter and melt. (i don;t even read smut in fic dude what do expect me to be able to draw im a cartoonish obviously anime style inspired semi-realism but not really shitty doodle artist you put your hopes too high if you think i can draw a dick without making it look like a piece of middle school desk graffiti)

i've got a bit of a dirty mouth but everything is pretty vanilla . (i make edgy dumb jokes sometimes, but it's not my actual personality peace 'n love on planet earth okay) (any time i say i wanna kms IT IS A JOKE) (most of my posts are /srs i will mark it if its a joke i know the pain of not knowing if it was a funny joke or not i gotchu other autistic peeps)

please talk to me god i am lonely (i am serious about this i love it when people rb and scream in the tags it genuinely makes my day) (send me asks send measkssendmeaskssendmeasks—)

Absolute art machine(whether the art is good or not is a big question that i am not ready to answer) makes shitty animations sometimes idk.

Uses lol too much. Chinese, knows mandarin (translate the random messages for maximum brain damage) i don't know simplified but i do know traditional (please talk to me i need to practice my chinese reading skills) am i a furry? idk but if you're mad about it you can fuck right off (i have a couple ocs and my darling fursona)

am currently inbetween fandoms, fandoms i am (kind of) active in are hetalia, scp, dnd, genshin, pjo, bg3, apothecary diaries, jrwi riptide and csm (list is prone to updating because fandom is my support system) (you wont see my art for most of them but the brainworms are there and sometimes i let them take over)

old fandoms or the fandoms i lurk in (i visit them often): eddsworld, demon slayer, pokemon, vocaloid and wof. (also prone to updates as i remember stuff)

note : i am still in school and have a life outside the internet so stuff will be delayed (which is why i am only kind of active) (i go missing sometimes i am not dead life is just lifing for me)

Do not say anything about how cringe I am I know trust me (it’s a coping mechanism lol)

if you're concerned, you're very right to be. I am very incoherent (most of my life updates have actually devolved into cries for help, please talk to me)

also if you don't like my art or ships just leave(any critique about anything i make shoots a bazooka straight into my heart and behind the screen i crumble into a cartoonish pile of ashes and bones as i stare at the screen blurred by tears) (unless I ask for critique then i brought this on myself and i’ll walk it off don't worry)

(Both of my personas)

My flags (might be updated)

[sunnyyflowerrs]

whoever you are to me

oh god so for those of u who didn’t know i recently came back to tumblr after not being here for like 3 years and i found some drafts from my miraculous ladybug days that i wanted to post because they’re kinda cute … if you’re here for me rambling about anime then pls ignore them lol but i thought i should share them as me from 3 years ago would have wanted so here is a fic idea i never executed that happened right after gang of secrets (2021)

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i can’t stop thinking about this fic idea so im going to brain dump it here. 

- marinette and adrien are basically as they are right now (meaning right after gang of secrets) 

- as we know with that art scene from kagami, adrien isnt really sure who he is. he thinks his true self is cat noir, but we know its actually somewhere in between shy adrien and his boisterous superhero persona.

- marinette at this point is just trying to get over adrien, after her relationship with luka. alya tries to encourage her to pursue chat noir, but marinette says that she can’t because they are superheroes

- cue ms. bustier being Master Matchmaker (tm) and assigns a partner project to get to know one another better, where you get assigned to someone and you have to do a report on who they are and what they are like 

- of course, our two idiots in love are paired with each other, and they have to do good because they have been behind in assignments since shadowmoth started showing up and being as terrible as possible .

- marinette is super assured in who she is. she’s marinette, she loves design, pink, macaroons, and her parents, so her report is finished fairly quickly

- but when they sit down to do adrien’s report, he can barely name his favorite color, much less what he likes to do or what he wants to do when he is older. he ends up oversharing a bit, and marinette begins to see adriens life as he sees it: lost and lonely

- this completely shatters adrien’s pedestal in marinettes eyes - she realizes how wrong her paradigm of his life had been

- resolving to be the ultimate friend (because she totally doesnt have feelings for him, no way) , marinette works super hard on “Project Adrien” so they meet every week and just talk about who he is, what does he want to do in life and stuff like that, so that they can get a great grade on the project, of course. 

- and just like that she starts to actually fall in love with the boy who laughed in the rain that day, not the model boy she had created in her own head 

- in turn, adrien grows closer to marinette and sees the spitfire confident takes no bullshit marinette that she had always been to shy to be around him. yeah buddy she may not be just a friend..... 

- cue mounds of adrienette fluff as they both slowly fall in love with each other and realize that there is more to the other than what they see...