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[sunsetbridge555]

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[serqphites]

VICTORIA NEUMAN X ASSISTANT!READER

format: blurb

warnings: nsfw content at the end

word count: 700+

not proofread! y/n used!

- the second you came in for your interview she pretty much decided she was hiring you LMAO

- now i’m not saying she only hired you because of her crush, because your resume genuinely caught her eye, but i’m also not saying it had nothing to do with it 🤷‍♀️

- she definitely asks you to do things she could easily do just as an excuse to see you

- “y/n! can you come here please?”

- “can you pick up this pen i dropped please? i’ve got suchhh a bad back” she’s so dramatic i love her

- you honestly think she’s just being a bitch and she’s messing with you

- that is until one day she comes to you in the morning, saying today she only has one task for you

- “will you eat lunch with me?” and she has the dorkiest smile of all time on her face

- lunch together becomes a regular thing, going from talking about your favourite tv shows to her telling you about her daughter zoe

- she’s so sad when you eventually tell her you thought she was just like every person you’ve ever worked for, just messing with you for the fun of it

- “no no never! i could never do that, especially not to you” OOOOOO it’s blush city for you both

- things are going great! you love your job. that is until something changes, and victoria randomly stops asking you to do things for her

- i mean you’re her assistant, shouldn’t you be getting her coffee? shouldn’t you be organising her files? shouldn’t you be having lunch with her and not hughie?

- to say this has you down is an understatement, you can’t seem to understand why she has randomly shut you out

- it’s not like she’s not speaking to you, she’s still asking you to do things but they’re all tasks that require you to be away from her. you haven’t even been in her office for nearly two weeks now

- after your hurt builds and builds, you can’t hold it in anymore. you storm into her office demanding to know why she’s avoiding you

- she plays it dumb at first but she knows what she’s been doing so she fesses up

- “fuck… i’m sorry, so sorry. it’s not you i promise, it’s me. i- i like you, okay? like a lot and i know it sounds stupid and i know it’s sooo inappropriate because you’re my assist-“ SILENCED BY A KISS WOOOO

- you’re discrete about it at first, sneaking around and making out in the bathroom stalls like you’re high schoolers

- her bringing you lunch everyday<3

- she so leaves post-it notes on her desk with cute lil messages whenever she has to leave for meetings because it’s where she tells you to just relax

- you don’t bother asking why you’re not allowed to meetings that involve voughts CEO, it’s probably just a confidentiality thing right?

- a bit random but whenever you’re standing talking to somebody i feel like she’d just squeeze your butt?

- canon she’s a butt squeezer

- you don’t fight much but oh boy is your schedule full when you do

- she gives you the stupidest tasks she can think of LMAO

- “can you walk someone’s dog please?” “someone’s dog?” “yeah, just go around asking who has a dog that needs walking” “are you being serious, vic?” “yes i most definitely am, it would help me soooo much you have no idea!”

- I LOVE HER SO MUCHHH

- dating your boss can be annoying at times, but you wouldn’t trade it for the world <3

NSFW TIMEEEE

- officesex!officesex!officesex!

- this honestly deserves its own blurb if i'm being honest

- i feel like she's already dominant in bed anyways but because she’s your boss it’s elevated TO THE MAX.

- “i have one really special task for you today, so listen closely”

- you can barely stay stood up with how weak your knees go (real)

- “i need you to be a good girl for me, how does that sound? you think you can do that for me?” in her husky voice im DECEASED

- one time she cleared her desk by pushing everything on the floor, she immediately regretted it when she realised she had broken almost everything

- “i always see people do it in movies and this doesn’t happen” she’s so upset while she’s picking up a broken picture of you both on the beach

- she’s so silly

- she definitely buys you lingerie to wear underneath your work clothes 🤭

- the amount of flirty texts she sends you during the day just to watch you blush uncontrollably is concerning (when is it my turn)

a/n: requests are always open, hope you enjoyed :)

[icanseethefuture333]

PAC: Urgent messages from your shadow self 🕷🕸🖤

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Trigger warning: These tarot cards contain graphic content (gore, syringes, etc.) and in this pac there is mentions of trauma, substance abuse, inner child wounds, etc. The tone of the words will also sound blunt because the shadow self is brutally honest. Viewer discretion is advised.

Pile 1:

Beautiful Liar by Beyoncé & Shakira

Special by Ashnikko

Black Swan by BTS

Four of Fire, Two of Air, & Daughter of Air.

(Clarified by Adjustment)

Your shadow self wants to urge you to find balance within yourself and your life. Perhaps you are someone who is constantly juggling with tasks, hobbies, or responsibilities. You are being a "jack of all trades, but a master of none". You don't know how to multitask and yet you are still trying to do it - why? You are overwhelming yourself. Take smaller steps vs trying to finish everything all at once. You are making yourself sink into this hole of frustation on your own. In the future, you will just make things more difficult if you persist in this charade of yours. Your shadow self is giving you a kick in the butt because you rely too much on charm when you mess up or to get away shit. Also your "white lies" could turn into big lies. If you needed a job per say, this behavior could have you looked down and be seen as unprofessional. There's a lot of visuals regarding the circus. Such as the acrobats or fire tamers. You are talented and witty. Use your wits to find ways to accomplish your goals. I am also being reminded of the scene from Mulan where she unsheaths her swords and you can see her reflection. Perhaps you have a duality to yourself that you are unaware of. You need to look into the lightness and darkness of your soul. What are your light or shadow attributes? Your strengths or weaknesses? Think of what they are and write it down, then create a plan. Once you have decided what to do or how you can make better decisions. You will start to make progress in your journey. The girl is walking on a tightrope with a stick and bowls(?) on her head. This could mean you literally need to "tighten up" which is an expression of handling your business basically. There is birds flying behind her. Your spirit guides and higher self are supporting you as you walk towards your destiny. Be patient and grounded. You will feel proud of yourself in the end and feel grateful you learned this lesson. (Clarifying song: Libra by The Deli) You could be someone with Libra placements or you need to surround yourself with people that are this sign. This could also mean embodying the traits of Libra. They are known for their balance, diplomacy, fairness, friendliness, & charm.

Pile 2:

Assassin by Au/Ra

Cellophane by FKA Twigs

Go To Sleep by Bearson ft. Kailee Morgue

Five of Water (reversed), Seven of Air, & Son of Earth

(Clarified by The Magus (reversed).)

Tsk tsk. You're self sabotaging. What's going on, pile 2? I feel like you're trying to get over past disappointments but things keep crumbling and falling apart in your very eyes. You could be dealing with depression right now or you're avoiding the world because of this fear of yours. You could be laying in bed a lot or sleeping more than usual to cope. Some of you could have gotten rejected by someone you really liked and are thinking the worse as if it's the end of your love life. There's over 8 billion people in the world, it's not the end unless you act like it is. There could be so much abundance ahead of you if you would just stopped being so inconsistent and indecisive. Reflect as to why you're afraid, why are you self sabotaging, why are letting your life past you by when there's a whole world out there ready to be explored? (Clairifying song: NO PROBLEM by Nayeon ft Felix of Stray Kids) Whatever you dealt with is not happening to you right now. You survived baby. Sometimes it's good to be single because you can focus on putting that love towards your own heart. Try to focus on having fun vs finding the "one". You'd be surprised by how many people will be knocking at your door when you realize how much of a catch you are. Also stop comparing yourself to people on social media. Learn to see past people's illusions and understand they only post the positives of what's going on their life because they're scared of being vulnerable or seen as a failure. You are gonna do just fine if you focus on your own happiness.

Pile 3:

Dëserve It by Yeat

I'm Not Sorry by imagine Dragons

Element. by Kendrick Lamar

Three of Earth, Eight of Water, & The Universe

(Clarified by The Fool)

You usin' work and self achievements to cope huh? You're always working so hard to accomplish things, but have you ever took a minute to realize that you are already accomplished even if you don't succeed? (Clarifying song: No L's by Smino) Why do you always need to win? What's so bad about losing? Loss can be scary, but it can teach us valuable lessons in life as well. You fear of being seen unsuccessful, a failure. You don't want to be the gossip in your town, at your job, or family functions. Everything you do, you just work and work. You not addressing the problems in your life. What are you working for? You have money, you have trophies, you have awards, you have a long list of achievements, you have your own place, but that is not healing you. Your valuables are just things. They are not fulfilling you emotionally or mentally. For some of you, you need to stop being a doormat just for the sake of a paycheck or being provided for. This could be someone at your job, school, etc, who is stressing you. Your shadow self wants to tell you to not let anyone make you act out of character but it also gives you permission to put a bitch in check and in their place if needed to. Start setting boundaries. You need to start treating yourself with love and care as if you were a baby. You deserve to be taken care of. Nurture your soul. Nurture your heart. Nurture your mind. If you're not protecting yourself then what is the point? Don't fall into the system of being a worker bee or give into hustling and grinding culture, to the point it's gonna harm your health.

Pile 4:

UNFUCKWITTABLE by Stunna Girl

Team by Iggy Azalea

Player by Tinashe

Ace of Water, Mother of Water, & Eight of Earth

(Clarified by The Star)

Okay so I had to reshuffle for this pile because I didn't take a picture of the first cards I got so I had to redo this, so this is the last spread I finished out of all the other piles. What's interesting is that since it's getting dark I had to turn on my led mirror and use it as a lamp. It was illuminating a light onto The Star card, which I find interesting. A wish fulfillment is on its way. You guys could be manifesting something or reciting affirmations in the mirror. In the song, Stunna Girl keeps saying "I'm a stunner girl" repeatedly, stunner means to be "a strikingly beautiful or impressive person or thing". Stunna Girl has also went viral and become more popular after appearing on the show "Baddies West". You could be growing into your confidence soon and learning to love yourself unconditionally and unapologetically. You could even become more popular or go viral on social media. For some of you, you are healing generational trauma for your female ancestors. They are so proud of you! Or you could come from a family with a lot of powerful, strong, independent women. In a patriarchal society, a woman who is outspoken, knows her worth, and is self assured, is looked down upon because they are less easy to humble and manipulate. Insecure men could paint you as a "bitch" or that you look "mid", to try to humble you when that is just lies. You need to know that you're a bad bitch and that you deserve the best. Your shadow self wants you to stand tf UP! Stop giving a fuck about what other people want you to do or think of you. Make them uncomfortable with your glow up. The women in your family worked and yourself as well have worked too god damn hard for you to sit on your ass and wallow in your tears. You are smart enough, you are strong enough, you are pretty enough, you are ENOUGH. Straighten up your spine and fix your posture. Walk into the room as if you own it. I don't care if you just rolled out of bed with a pair of stained sweatpants and dirty Chuck Taylor's on, you better rock it as if it's designer. Your shadow self will back hand your ass harder than Maddy slapped Cassie from Euphoria if you keep getting in your head and overthinking about shit that's not even that serious. Also, you can have anybody you want, if somebody is stressing you out - Drop their ass and move on. You deserve to be treated like royalty. Stop settling for dust! For some of you, this message could be specific, but your mother is very proud of you or you will be set free from a mother wound. You need to read a book (48 Laws of Power and The Art of Seduction for example) or head to the books if you are a student. Also in your love life, you will not be getting played anymore, but you will be the player (not talking about breaking people's hearts or cheating, calm down Karen 😮‍💨). You will stop chasing love interests and they will be chasing you. Secure attachment for the win 💪🏽. (Clarifying song: Eat It Up by Kaliii ft. BIA). Eat this shit up, pile 4. All this is yours. You are gonna be living your best life soon. NSFW message but some of you will also feel more pleasure in your sex life and will feel more confident about demanding what you want in the bedroom. People will live to please you. There is a lot of fertility here, so be careful if you are able to get pregnant.

Pile 5:

For The Record by Sophiya

Up All Night by Drake ft. Nicki Minaj

Energy by Beyoncé ft. BEAM

Father of Fire, Four of Air (reversed), & Nine of Water (reversed)

(Clarified by Seven of Fire)

You have a lot of passion, pile 5, but you seem to get burnt out easily when it comes to trying to achieve your desires. There is a goal that you are reaching towards that you so desperately wish to achieve to the point its keeping you up at night and causing you to feel restless. Some of you could smoke, you need to cut that down or quit all togerher because it is making your nerves really bad or making you even more anxious (could cause you to age physically faster as well). Some of you could have been ghosted by someone you fell in love with pretty quickly. Possible love bombing? There is a lot of highs and lows in this relationship. Is this a friends with benefits situation? You could have a crush on someone but you are too afraid to state your feelings, so you use your sex appeal to keep them around. You need to voice what you are wanting out of this relationship because this flame will only last so long if you keep going this way. (Clarifying song: My Strange Addiction by Billie Ellish) there is so much about "fire", "lighters", "matches", "fuses", and "smoke" being mentioned in this pile. Are you guys pyromaniacs 😂? I would hope not, if you are please seek help for that lol. If not, you guys could be drawn to the "fire" as in things that intentionally just burn you in the end. It's almost as if you get off to this toxic behavior but then when it ends, you act unstable. You need to find the courage to stop engaging in behaviors that are bad for your mental, emotional, or physical health. Also be brave when expressing your needs in a relationship, if they agree then maybe you can work it out, if not, then it's time to leave. Some of you also could have an anxious attachment or have a fear of abandonment due to a absent father. You need to do shadow work or talk with a therapist to heal that. Learn to find emotional fulfillment and security within yourself.

Pile 6:

Skinnydipped by Banks

Don't Recall by KARD

Sober by Mahalia

Are you overcoming an addiction, Pile 6? Or wanting to go sober? Either way, I commend you for the strength in wanting to do so, since I know that isn't easy. This could also mean your shadow self wants you to quit doing drugs or drinking alcohol because it is making you act manic. I feel like you were treated harshly growing up or you were left with the "vultures". You could have been neglected growing up and had to learn to survive. You could of used maldaptive daydreaming to cope. Your fantasies gave you comfort in a time of stress and turmoil. I'm so sorry for that, pile 6, but you have to understand you no one is out to get to you. You can choose a new story for yourself. You dont have to be a victim anymore. You are free to start a new life for yourself. Some of you came from abusive households or were put in the system at a young age (either you were adopted or was in foster care). You could have lived in multiple places or went from house to house as a child. Did you run away as a kid? Why were you running, sweetheart? You can stop running now, take a new route. Just peacefully go towards your new journey. There is no need to rush. (Clarifying song by Come Down by Anderson .Paak & They Reminisce Over You (T.R.O.Y) by Pete Rock & C.L Smooth) October is significant for some of you. There is going to be growth and prosperity in your life. You need to take time to nurture yourself and practice some self care. I heard "sprout" so you need to look inwards and have a conversation with your inner child. Can you remember your childhood? Do your memories seem blurry or you can't recall anything that happened? Be kind to yourself and be patient. I know it can seem nerve wracking at first but overtime you will be grateful you did it. Think of your younger self as this seed, if no one watered the plant, gave it sunlight or natural light, or fed it with fertilizer, then you can be the first to make that seed grow. Tend to your garden. This will help you build character and gain optimism. You will start to think "Hey, you know what? Maybe life isn't so bad. Maybe I can be a somebody!" And you will :) ♡ You could also be feeling very nostalgic or reminisce your youth. People could also see your growth and remember as a kid, they are going to be surprised how successful you've become to overcome your hardships. Also try to seek the professional help of a therapist or counselor if you try to unpack childhood trauma, or if you can't remember your past, it can be a sign your brain is possibly blocking you out from remembering something traumatic. Be safe and take care, pile 6 🙏🏽

Pile 7:

Run by SAAY

Monster by EXO

Just A Girl by No Doubt

Nine of Fire, Five of Air, & The Empress (reversed).

(Clarifidd by Son of Water)

Oh my 😃! Wow pile 7, do you hold a grudge against the entire male population or a masculine in mind, it seems? You are acting mad bitter. I feel you have the tendecy to be a misandrist out of the trauma from your past. You feel angry that men can get away with their wrong doings while women are forced to suffer. Ironically, you are still attracted to them. You could be struggling with your divine feminine energy. You are also resenting what it means to be a "feminine". You wish to create this on your own terms. Are you apart of the LGBTQ? or consider yourself a feminist? Maybe even both? If you are someone who is a man or identifies with masculine energy, it could mean you behave feminine in a negative way (as in you "nag" or are too "sensitive"). This also reminds me of Jules in season 2 of Euphoria when she cut her hair, started wearing black, and began to feel comfortable in her androgynous style. Some of you guys are really mixed up emotionally and mentally. Like no offense, I take that back, your shadow self wants to say "full offense" - you are acting crazy. Slow down, take a deep breath, and let it go. You are valid in your pain and your emotions, but you cannot let this world make you bitter. You can't inflict pain onto other people just because you were hurt. You are not a monster, you are not the person who hurt you. Do better and be better than them. (Clarifying song: Close Your Eyes by Kim Petras & The Hills (remix) by The Weeknd ft. Nicki Minaj) I am being reminded of the scene from Doja Cat's Streets music video when she was like this spider crawling on it's web, catching their "prey" (the love interest). You are like a black widow. Beautiful to admire from afar, but dangerous to interact with up close. There is someone who is head over heels for you. You could like this person or are pushing them away out of fear. You could be the type of person who warns people before they fall in love with you (Watch the movie "It's A Thin Line Beyween Love & Hate"). You could have even sworn to never love again (Your shadow self: "bffr" 💀). You need to harness this hatred, anger, and darkness for a better cause. Use your pain as a passion to transform yourself and become someone magnificent. Like a spider, you are resourceful. Use your sources and use your intelligence to begin this new transformation. You're lashing out of fear. You're pushing people away because of your trauma. You deserve to be treated tenderly, you're not some scary creature. You are actually so empathetic, intuitive, creative, sensual, and enticing. A mystery that people want to unravel. You are a going to be a femme fatale in it's purest form.

Pile 8:

By Any Means by Jorja Smith

Feelings by Tinashe

Human by Sevdaliza

Five of Fire, Nine of Air, & The Moon

(Clarified by The Hierophant)

Pile 8, why are you ripping yourself apart to fit into society's pressures and demands? When will you realize that you are beautiful in your own way? I remember when Kendrick Lamar said: "If a flower bloomed in a dark room would you trust it?". Not every flower grows in the sunlight or the spring or the summer. Some grow during the harsh, cold weather of the winters or when everything falls in autumn. You are in competition with no one but yourself and you are not going to win this game if you treat yourself like shit. If you wanna be a winner, then you need to start acting like one vs acting like a sore loser. When things go wrong, you are so unnecessarily rude and hard on yourself. Why is that? Ask yourself these things next time you catch yourself thinking that way. You're not anything of the mean things you say about yourself or what people have said to you. You struggle with your insecurities and cling to what gives you comfort even though you know you want better than this, you want better than what you are currently doing. Why do you stick to the same routine everyday even though you know you want change? Sometimes you have to be uncomfortable so you can be comfortable. You may compare your beauty to other people but you need to realize no one is perfect. You are human, as the song goes. A human with "flaws, veins, scars". Embrace your imperfections. You don't want to look back at your past and regret you never took action on anything because you weren't "pretty" enough. Look past your appearance and look inside. (Life Goes On by BTS) What are you are clinging to, pile 8? Are you holding onto something? You're holding sanding at this point and it's slipping through your fingers, you are stuck in this hour glass, wishing to be released. Time keeps ticking and life passes you by. Break free from the perceptions of time and start living your life to the fullest without limitations, doubts, and fears. Life has its up and downs but you have to learn to find hope in dark times. Seek help from your shadow self or the universe when you are in need of faith. Trust the divine that things will always work out for you, no matter what.

Pile 9:

Let It Out by Rico Nasty

UCKERS by Shygirl

Ghetto Gatsby by Brent Faiyaz ft. Alicia Keys

Two of Love, Three of Air, & Eight of Water

(Clairifed by Ace of Air)

Time to end it with a bang 🤬🥊💥! Did you just go through a break up, pile 9? Whether it was with a friend or partner. You are internalizing a lot that happened from this relationship, honestly, you interalize everything. Your shadow self wants you to let out whatever you're feeling. Scream, shout, yell, etc. It is time to stop turning the other cheek and speak up. You also need to confront something or someone who hurt you. (Clarifying song: Fingers by Zayn & Roman's Revenge by Nicki Minaj ft. Eminem) Ugh this person is so LAMEEE 😒🙄 Once you finally get over this connection, they will want to come back and talk to you about what happened. You or this person could have been writing text messages but never sending them. This conversation will be your chance to gain clarity and communicate about how you felt in your relationship. This will help you move on and also allow you to learn to stand up for yourself.

[midwestmade29]

Collaboration 🤠

Part 3

The 3rd and final part of mine and @madhatterbri’s collab is here! Thanks for reading along…enjoy 🖤

• You can find @madhatterbri’s masterlist here • My masterlist can be found here

Disclaimers: Cursing, intimidation, threats, unprotected sex, angst. Read at your own discretion.

GIF credit: @cowboyshit

Divider by: @saradika-graphics

Word count for part 3: 937

This is 100% pure fiction.

All the color from your face drained when you grabbed your phone and pulled up the text messages Hangman was talking about. Your stomach was in knots as you read over Swerve’s words! “Y/N, talk to me sweetheart. What’s going on? Who sent you those messages?” Hangman asked, his voice full of concern. There was a battle going on internally between your head and your heart as you sat there trying to figure out if you should stay or if you should go. Your first thought was that you should leave and spare the cowboy the trouble of having to deal with you and your past. Leaving right now would break you, but you felt like it would be the best choice to protect him and get him off Swerve’s radar. It pained you to pull your hand away from him, but you did it anyway. You couldn’t bring yourself to look at the beautiful man in bed behind you as you stood up, your voice cracking as you uttered your goodbye, “I-I have to go. This whole thing was a mistake. I never should’ve let things get this far between us. I-I’m so sorry.” Panic started to set in as Hangman watched you pick up your discarded underwear and put it back on. Everything was happening so fast that it didn’t register in his brain to stop you before you walked out the bedroom door. “Shit!” he cursed under his breath as he jumped up, pulling the bedsheet with him. As he caught up with you down the hallway, he wrapped the sheet around his waist and tucked it in place, his voice echoing through the quiet as he called out for you, “Y/N! Stop, please! Stay and we can work through whatever is going on. Just talk to me, please don’t go!”

“Adam don’t make this any more difficult than what it already is. Things will be better and safer for you if I go. You have to let me go!” you pleaded as you pulled your shirt over your head. His rebuttal was straight and to the point, leaving you dumbfounded when all he said was “no.” “What do you mean, no?” you questioned. “No. I’m not going to let you go. I don’t know what kind of hold Swerve has on you, but I’m not going to let that dumbass ruin what we have together. I have no idea what is going on between you two, but it’s clear that you have history. I don’t give a shit about any of it! All I care about is you. Let me in, Y/N. Let me calm whatever storm is going on in that beautiful head of yours!” You were taken aback by the assertiveness in his voice, but it still had a tenderness to it at the same time. The longer he looked at you, the more his blue eyes broke through your defenses that you were using to shut him out.

He opened his arms to you, and it was like you were a moth to a flame as you ran right into them. Tears stained your cheeks as you stood in the hallway embracing each other tightly. Hangman placed his hand on your head, holding it in place against his chest as you released things you didn’t even realize you had inside of you. “Hey, it-it’s okay. I’ve got you sweetheart. Everything is gonna be okay,” he reassured you. “I’m such a mess!” you cried out, only to have the cowboy leave you stunned once again. “Maybe, but you’re my beautiful mess.”

The rest of that night was spent in deep conversation about you and your past with Swerve. It was painful to rehash and explain the things he had done to you over the course of your relationship and how he still found ways to cause you distress. You showed Hangman the texts he had sent you previously, and explained how he continues to keep tabs on you. “So that would explain the night when we were in medical together. The asshole thought he could scare off the Hangman! Ha, it’s going to take a lot more than his empty words and imitation prince to keep me away from you!” his words were dry, but they still made you laugh! Hangman listened intently and never interrupted you as you opened your heart to him, and you found that it wasn’t so bad letting him in after all. Hangman turned out to be your safe place, your refuge from any storm. “No more worrying about him, sweetheart. I won’t let him hurt you anymore,” was his promise to you before you both drifted off to sleep.

It took some time for karma to catch up with Swerve, but you were so grateful when it did. Hangman had presented several things to Tony Kahn that showcased just how toxic and dangerous Swerve truly was. He explained to Tony that he not only was a flight risk for the company, but also for anyone that encountered him. Once the internal investigation was complete, it was a no brainer to let Swerve go. Gone were the days of walking around your job on eggshells. Gone were the days full of constant worry and anguish where Swerve was concerned. You no longer feared him when the cowboy gave you strength and encouragement to get a restraining order against him. Hangman made you feel whole again and spent every day trying to erase the lies and bullshit that Swerve had filled your head with for so long. He was your cowboy and the keeper of your heart.

[loulooser]

Please use discretion when you’re messing with the message, man. These lyrics aren’t for everyone only few understand.

[shmackhaystack]

The Queen and Her Levi- Chapter 1: The Debt

King!Levi Ackerman x fem!reader

Description:

"All my life I have never known what it was like to love someone, if anything, really. Until I met you, and everything changed, you brat."

"Reader" has a name, if you don't like it, then change it to your own, the world is your oyster.

Will contain VERY mature and triggering content. Viewer discretion is advised and minors please DNI.

Posted on Tumblr April 2024, also on Wattpad. If you would like to message me please feel free! I would appreciate and encourage any feedback, as well as messages if you are wanting more! Hope you enjoy.

Prologue here!

Next chapter here ;)

[word count: 3.4k]

Chapter 1: The Debt

Levi woke up in the master bedroom of his castle within wall Sina, alone, as usual. A lot of the time he has occasional women who he decides to use for the night, whom he sends away after getting what he sent them there for. Most of them fall in love with him and wish in their heart they could marry him and become his queen. Their wishes were always just dreams, though, Levi did not care much about who he slept with nor what they wanted. He was frustrated, only feeling like he needs the pleasure of sex but feeling nothing more emotional than that. 

Most of the time he wishes he could feel like sex meant something to him, but it never did. 29 years old and he never felt anything. Was it his mind? Does he think it's something messed up in his brain that he thinks he could never feel any different when it comes to some girl in his bed. Who knew, and who cares. He had a kingdom to run.

He thought he was alone, in fact, most of the time he preferred it, but he turns to see a girl in his bed. Ah, of course. It was the handmaiden who he ran into after an all-nighter of paperwork and research, he was honestly disgusted with himself. 

"Why are you still here?" he says, to blonde haired girl who he doesn't remember the name of.

"Sorry... I was just leaving" she responds.

"I thought I told you to leave right afterwards-"

"Sorry, your Grace, I just thought-"

"Thought what?" he snaps, with a more passive tone than usual. 

The girl looked at him with fear, as he stared her down and gets up to put his clothes back on and get in the shower. She doesn't say thing, too petrified to answer. She knew it didn't mean anything, she knew that the King didn't give less of a rat's ass about what she felt. He didn't even look at her as he got dressed. She attempted not to cry as she got up, put on her handmaiden dress and walked out, without a single glance from the man who was just inside her the night before.

Levi took his daily morning shower and got dressed into his fancy clothes, ready to put on a show to those he couldn't give less of a shit about. 

"Morning, your Grace!" says the Military Police guards who watch his bedroom door every night.

He doesn't respond. He walks by with his casual stoic expression that engrains everyone's mind every once in a while.

As he walks by people to get toward his office, he sees all of them looking and bowing to him as if he was some sort of God. He wasn't a God, he was just a man. A man who somehow managed to become the King of the life as we know it. As if everyone knows, this is the only life in existence, nobody around him knew if there was life beyond the walls or if this was it. If they were stuck in a nightmare that was impossible to escape. 

Levi always dressed professionally and casually, except for when he was in his Scout uniform, he was a clean and professional person anyway. Nobody would ever see him look his worst, nobody would ever see him cry or look like he's been defeated, he refused.

As he walked to his office for his meeting with Commander Nile Dok of the Military Police and Commander Keith Sadis of the Scout Regiment, he runs into one of his closest colleagues, Section Commander Hange Zoe. 

"Leviiiiiii!!!" Hange says with passion. She didn't bother to call him 'your Grace' or 'my King' because it didn't matter to her. Whatever she says to him, he wouldn't punish her anyway. 

"Huh?" he says without looking at her. "I got somewhere to be."

"With Nile, right?" she responds. He actually looks at her with confusion. Hange shouldn't know about his meetings with commandments she has nothing to do with. 

"Yeah, about that," she continues. "It's about Dan Reiss."

The thought of that name made him fuel with rage, but he hides his anger deep inside him. Everyone he is surrounded with knows that he can visibly get angry, almost furious like he is about to murder everyone around him, but he stays calm this time. 

"What happened now?" Levi questions with a sigh. 

He knows all too well the name of Dan Reiss. A nobleman who is particularly rich within the walls. He has two other brothers as he knows, but never met them at all. Dan Reiss was the only Reiss who actually had a relationship with King Levi. They didn't make much of a friendship, but they had a particular type of business relationship after all. Reiss' money was scarce for a long time, and with his power hungriness, it became almost nonexistent. 

Dan Reiss is an alcoholic, and gambler. He spends most of his days drinking or playing poker at the local village next to his estate, without a care of the world towards his caretakers of his land or even his only daughter. He believed that his money and status would save him from anything. Though, when it came to his relationship with the King, he didn't have much luck anymore. 

"So, yeah" Hange laughs. "He's absolutely bankrupt! All the money he owed you is gone, I think?"

He looked at her with furious rage. Why did this man get to him so much? He was a nobody. Levi had all the money in the world yet this man continues to aggravate him to his limit. Maybe it was the reason that Dan Reiss had claimed numerous times that he would pay him back, and that he would help the kingdom with the constant famine and poverty that lies within it. Not to mention the orphans that continued to roam the street unwanted, the thought of all those kids out there with no family makes his blood boil. There was plenty of men and women who owed him money, but he didn't give them a second glance. For Levi, his anger was all put towards Dan Reiss. He kept betraying Levi at every turn, and Dan was going to pay for it. 

Levi gathered up all of his closest comrades and guards to his office. He didn't care about what he had to do that day with other political business that he secretly couldn't care less about. He was ready to storm Reiss' front door and make him pay for what he owes. 

Erwin Smith, commander of the scout regiment. Hange Zoe, section commander of the scout regiment. Hange's assistant, Moblit Berner. Nile Dok, commander of the Military Police, and all of his closest guards had agreed to accompany Levi on his trip to Dan Reiss' estate. 

Dan's estate was within a safe haven village of wall Rose, it took about half a day to ride there on a horse. Levi still didn't understand why he chose to pursue this man. It wasn't much for him anyway, Levi was rich, the most powerful man in existence for all that everyone around him knew. He didn't need to pursue anybody, maybe it was fate, because it led him to something he never thought he would ever be led to. 

It took longer than expected to arrive at Dan's estate. Levi with his many guards and colleagues arrived on the land of Dan Reiss's estate. With roughly 20 some men surrounding the estate, with Levi and Erwin at the front. Levi's eyes looked more upsetting than usual, which makes Erwin look at him in curiosity. Even Erwin didn't understand what Levi's motive was. Perhaps Levi was done with people taking advantage of him.

He stops at the front of the estate. Putting his hand up to let his men know to halt. He looks up at the estate to see the man himself looking at all of the royal men at his doorstep. Surprised, and drunk, Dan Reiss gets up from his seat on the porch deck of his estate, absolutely shocked to see the King himself with his men glaring at him on his property. 

He walks towards the men, stumbling and not being able to see clearly. He stands there without saying anything.

"Lord Reiss!" Erwin Smith says loud enough for everyone on the land to hear. "May we have a moment?"

Levi says nothing, he just stares the poor man down with his familiar stoic glare. Dan is terrified, though can sense why Levi and his men are here at his doorstep. 

"Your Grace!" Dan says with excitement. "Wasn't expecting ya!" 

Levi stops his silence. "Reiss, you and I both know that this isn't a friendly visit. Why do you continue to defy me?" 

Dan is absolutely terrified at this point. He knows why Levi is here. His gambling addiction has finally gotten the best of him. He used all the money he meant to sent to the King to use for himself. He doesn't even try anymore, he knows that him and his power are now gone. He expects execution. He expects a brutal beating from Levi until his brains are on the ground. He drops his glass of whiskey that he poured 5 minutes before they arrived. He gave up.

"I know why you're here, King Levi" Dan says quietly. 

"Do you now?" Levi says. Erwin and his men look at Levi and expect the worst. Levi walks toward Dan while he sits there defeated. Dan is ready for Levi's wrath, he doesn't expect any less of him.

"You owe me a debt." Levi continues. He pulls out his knife from the sheath stationed on his right hip, damn, it was sharp. 

That is when a girl he had never seen before walks out of the large house, with a basket of fruit to harvest. She looks at Levi and all of his men with confusion, wondering why the hell they are at her doorstep confronting her father. She continues to look at these men, and looks at her father as if she's asking a question without words, but looks right back at the King.

Levi's eyes widen. He did not expect to see a young girl during all of this confrontation that was about to be violent. She is wearing a casual dress, a pink and white layered outfit that seems to be soft silk fabric. It looks like something that would be worn when doing yard work or handling cattle. He doesn't take her eyes off her as she looks with confusion at him and his men. She puts down the bucket and looks right back at her father.

"What the hell is this?" the girl says. 

"Go back inside, honey." Dan responds. 

The girl doesn't do what she's told, she continues to look back at all the men who look like they are from the royal side of town and glares at them. 

"I'm sorry?" Levi interrupts, "Who is this, Reiss?"

Dan Reiss hesitates to respond at first, but knows that he is screwed either way. "Your Grace, this is my daughter, Asuna. She manages most of the work around here."

Levi sits there listening to every word. His eyes do not leave the girl in question. She looks back at him, not with lust, but with disgust. He isn't used to a girl looking at him like that. He wasn't used to someone not looking at him with fear or desire. Most of all, he wasn't used to being fascinated by a girl he has never seen before. 

Few seconds after she walked out of the house, another young man comes from behind the estate with a rake and some yard supplies. He stops in shock and quickly runs up to Asuna and stands next to her in a protective stance. 

Asuna had emerald green eyes that glowed in the sunlight, her dirty blonde hair was put up in a side braid that went down past her shoulders. The bags under her eyes made it look like she didn't get much sleep. She must be working nonstop on the estate and the land that came with it. She must be too overworked while her alcoholic of a father sits back on his ass and drinks day and night. She was a short girl, Levi guessed that she was slightly shorter than him. 

Dan stops and turns to his daughter. "Honey, I really think you should go back inside," he continues. "This isn't something you want to see." 

"You got in more trouble, didn't you? What the fuck did you do?!" she shouts at him. "And who the hell is this?"

Levi is shocked at her boldness, her strength, he doesn't think anyone had disrespected or stood up to him like this before. 

"You better watch your mouth, girl!" Nile Dok shouts at the girl for her defiance. "You're talking to the ki-"

"Nile- stop" Levi cuts him off. "If the girl wants to act that way then let her, it won't do her much good anyway." He smirks at her. She immediately backs off and continues to glare at this so called King of the Walls. 

Asuna didn't need Nile to finish his sentence, him about to say that she was speaking to the King gave her the answer to her question already. She realizes her mistake and quickly backs off, refusing to give eye contact any longer to Levi or his men. Though the expression on her face showed that she was more angry than scared. She denies her father's wishes for her to go back in the house, she just steps back and stands next to the unknown boy who appeared shortly after her. 

"Your Grace," Dan speaks up. "If you're going to arrest me, chop off my head, torture me, because of my poor actions, please, just do it already." He pleads with an almost crying emotion to his voice. "Just don't hurt my daughter." 

Asuna looks at her dad with a silent plea, tears forming in her pretty green eyes. The unknown man who stood next to her put his arm around her as she attempted not to cry, she didn't want to look weak. She was taught by her father and others in her life to be strong. Despite her external strength, deep inside she doesn't know what to do at this point. If this raven haired man who stormed her property was the King, then there was nothing she could do to change her father's fate. Levi doesn't take his eyes off her, almost feeling sympathetic for her feelings. Is he really about to take this poor girl's father away from her? He didn't know why, but he was infatuated by her, the way she defied him and kept looking at him with a glare, he had to be honest, he was slightly attracted, most would say turned on. 

Levi contemplated quietly, looking back at Erwin with a look that Erwin was all too familiar with. Levi was asking him without words on what he should do, but this was on him. He needed to make a decision now. Was he about to kill Dan Reiss in front of his daughter? For the first time in a long time, he was unsure what to do. 

"Dad?" she cries. Dan turns to look at his only child and gives her a soft smile. "It's going to be okay honey," he replies. "Be good, okay?" 

And with that Dan walks down his porch stairs and towards Levi and his men, preparing for the worst and sighing in defeat. Asuna turns around, hugging the man who stood next to her as he held her, she didn't have any wish to see what is about to happen to her father. He was a good man, except very flawed. The fact he is the oldest of the Reiss sons who came from a noble family life with a good amount of money. He became careless towards his estate and grew socially distant from his daughter and workers as the years went by. He became a struggling alcoholic who owed debts to countless merchants and noblemen, and eventually, the King himself. 

"Wait." Levi suddenly speaks. Dan, Erwin, Hange and all of his guardsmen look at their King in confusion and shock. Dan stops in his tracks, Erwin and Levi both glare at each other as Levi smirks back, he knew Levi better than most, almost every time he could tell what he was about to say or what his next action would be, but this time, he hadn't the faintest clue. 

Asuna turns around, wiping the tears from her face as she looks at Levi patiently waiting on what he is going to say. He turns his back to Erwin, then to Dan, then lastly, to Asuna. 

"Asuna, right?" Levi asks with curiosity. She looks at her dad in confusion for a couple seconds, took a deep breath and responded.

"Yeah." she replies. Some of the guards gasp as her response, mainly on how she responded first of all. Almost everyone responded to Levi as 'Your Grace' or 'My King'. Most people would consider not saying that to him as an act of defiance, and deep down she knew that. But the disgust that she felt towards this man fueled her with every inch of her being. Knowing that he was about to take her father away from her, the only family she really had left as she knew it, she didn't care at this point, she just wanted him to say what he was going to say and get on with it. 

"Okay, Asuna. How old are you?" Levi questions. 

She was surprised at this random question, secretly trying to find the true motive on why he was asking how old she was. She holds her chin up high, without losing eye contact with him, and doesn't say anything. Though deep down, she was terrified. 

"She's nineteen, Your Grace." Dan answers for her. Making her cuss him out under her breath. 

Levi doesn't say anything, he just looks down at the ground and sighs. Everyone awaited for him to respond. Erwin, still looking at him, still doesn't have the fainted idea what is on his mind. He sat there for almost a minute and stayed lost in thought. He knows what he wants to do, and knowing that he is the King and can basically do whatever he wanted in the world, he was going to do it. Suddenly, Levi looks back up with ease and looks right back at the pretty girl, then right back at Dan Reiss. 

"Reiss, I never liked you." Levi begins. "I always hated how you continue to push my buttons despite knowing all too well what it would cost you. You want to know why I traveled all this way today? I was going to kill you. I was going to make you pay and finally rid myself and my kingdom of your impulsive habits. You continued to defy me and my people, maybe you just want to be punished. Not sure. But now I realize killing you may be too kind for you, and for that, I will pardon your crimes and debt that you owe me."

Dan's eyes widen with shock. Did the King really just pardon him for his crimes? After everything he did? What the hell is that supposed to mean? Everyone else looked with shock and confusion. Levi wasn't the type of man to forget those who have wronged him, nor was he the type to travel half a day for no cost whatsoever. Finally, he speaks up.

"I will pardon your crimes, and your debt, if you give me your daughter's hand in marriage."

And just like that, everything changed for Asuna Reiss. 

AN:

[3500 words :0, good lord I really went overboard haha. Thank you for reading, it means the world to me. Honestly I am really proud of myself for finally writing it down and showing it to everyone. &' yes, her name is Asuna. It has nothing to do with SAO or anything I have just always loved the name I think it is very beautiful and unique. Yes, she has dark blonde hair and green eyes. This is mainly meant to be a Levixreader story, so if her features don't match with yours then feel free to change them to your own! In fact, I encourage it. I just think it's easier if the girl has a name. Some may think that this story with Levi as a king may be kind of dumb, but I believe the story in my head is actually very sweet and touching, especially if you love Levi Ackerman as much as I do, not to mention this story very brutal but what's the fun if its not? I'll make sure to include trigger warnings when the story gets dark! 

- Kat

[kagsboyfriend]

Now go stand in the corner and think about what you did, pt 1 (Akkun x male reader)

Summary: "Hey, it's me, leave a message, make it hot"

High school, the perfect place to fall in love, some people say. Romanticism at its finest. Well you're WRONG, and this is the example why.

After (Y/N) and Akkun's breakup, Akkun is been sought after a blonde freshman, upsetting (Y/N), who in the process of getting to the bottom of the barrel discovers all techniques used by said blonde to trick Akkun into her hands. But she doesn't know, there's nothing that (Y/N) can't do better than revenge

author's note: ive been thinking of writing this for a long time (since speak now tv came out) and finally i've had the guts to put it in a word doc, and now i get to share a bit of it, as i am kind of proud of it.

as said in the tags above, this has been inspired by listening a bit too much taylor swift.

warning of a cringe breakup, viewers discretions adviced

“I need to tell you something…” Akkun asked, looking down with a pout, tears strolling down on his face and off of yours. He needed to tell his boyfriend what happened, how he now loves somebody else, another person, a woman.

 

“What’s wrong babe?” You inquired, genuinely wanting to know what your love wanted. He woke you up at midnight, telling you about how he needed to see you as fast as possible, and cited you in your neighborhood’s park.

 

It honestly startled you his sudden movement, as you knew he was partying with his gang in Shibuya. You first thought that he got into a fight and that he was injured.

 

When you arrived, you saw him in a swing, his head hanging low, sobbing, and you couldn’t see his face. Worried, you made your way to him, almost falling, you kneel in front of him. You cupped his face with your hands, now looking at his eyes.

 

You saw he was sobbing.

 

He hugged you.

 

And that´s where you both are now

 

“We need to break up” He said rapidly, trying to wipe the tears off his face.

 

Huh.

 

Huh

 

HUH?

 

“Wh- what?” you replied, confused and surprised. You looked back at him, eyes wide open and mouth agape from the shock. “R- repeat that” you demanded.

 

“We need to break up” He replied, in a more serious tone. He was now standing, you behind him, crying your eyes out in the ground. “I’ve found someone else” He deadpanned.

 

Akkun was now looking behind his back, in his signature pose, to you. You, a crumbled up mess, crying to your forearm, just asking what had happened.

 

“Did I mess up with something?” You cried, in between sobs that you were trying to control, but alas, the feeling broke through. “P-please tell me, did I fuck up?”

 

“It wasn’t you… it’s me” The redhead declared. Rage was now filling your body, standing, fed up with his bullshit. “THEN WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING THIS, IS THIS A FUCKING JOKE” You grabbed on his t-shirt collar, shaking his body, waiting for a response.

 

Akkun pushed you forward, making you lose the grip on his shirt. Your fist was gripping harder by the second, and you catched in your glance he was still looking at the floor.

 

“DON’T JUST LOOK AT THE FLOOR YOU BITCH” You lost self control. All the rage, sadness, indignation, hopelessness consumed your body whole. Your brain didn’t think straight anymore, you just wanted him to feel the same pain you’re feeling.

 

Your right fist swung forcefully, aiming towards his cheek. The hit tumbled him, but didn’t made him fall down. You continued to punch him in the face.

 

The redhead was now in the floor, you in top of him, punching his face without mercy. Blood was staining your knuckles and sweater, but that didn’t stop you. In fact, nothing did. Akkun didn’t plead for you to stop, he just stood supine in the ground, taking all the punches in.

 

Hot tears were streaming down your face swiftly, sniffing and gulping were the sounds you made as the beating happened. After quite some time, as your punches weakened down, you stood up to leave, but your gaze stared at your ex’s face. Blood was all over his face, nose crooked and possibly broken, eyes swollen shut and violet, lips cut open, splurting blood.

 

As sobs fell down your crooked mouth, you quickly left the playground, leaving your ex boyfriend behind. Quickly, you made your way into your house’s balcony.

 

Tears were still coming out like a damn river, feeling overwhelmed and just plain sad. You made your way onto your bed, sitting on it. You still could not believe what just happened.

 

What you did to him

 

What he said to you.

 

You were still in awe, still processing what had just happened. So were not a couple anymore, you thought as you glanced at your bloodied hands. Those same hands that a moment ago were beating up… him, were now burying your face, getting wetter by the second and muffling your sobs. And that’s how you slept the night away, tears in your face, blood in your hands, and heartbroken.

 

3:21 a.m.

 

You woke up sore from all the things that happened last night. A glance was sent onto the alarm clock, seeing the time.

10:21 am

You rub your eyes and make yourself sit on the crook of your bed. You wanted to forget, you really did, but you couldn’t. All the memories came flooding to your mind, how you nervously confessed to him in the back of the school’s gym an April afternoon, on how you both went on that date out of town, secret of anybody who knew them both on that June summer night, your first summer festival together on August, the first time both’s carnally induced sentiments were shared on his bedroom an October morning, or now, December’s foggy mornings, filled to the brim with snow and cold, you were sitting in your bedroom, mourning the now non-existent relationship.

You heard someone knocking the door, and you wondered who could’ve been, as your mother left the city for a week for work purposes. You walked out to your tiny ass balcony, still half-asleep, and when you rubbed your eyes again, you saw them.

Takuya, Yamagishi, Makoto and Hinata.

“Hey uhh… we need to tell you something…”

[dmmyring]

a loser hides behind

a mask of my disguise

and who i am today

is worse than other times

you don't know what i've done

i'm wanted and on the run

i'm wanted and on the run

so i'm taking this moment to live in the future

release me from the present, i'm obsessing, all these questions

why i'm in denial that they tried the suicidal session

please use discretion when you're messing with the message, man

these lyrics aren't for everyone, only few understand

[crowsontheloose]

Please use discretion when you’re messing with the message man

((The last one was also supposed to have lyrics but I got lazy) yea, I’ve been listening to tøp a little too much again)

[gmanwhore]

"Please use discretion when you are messing with the Message Man

These lyrics aren't for everyone, only few understand"

-Gimeur Paspor i think

YEAH REALLY!!!!!

[karla-the-elemental-dreamer]

2024 NYE Q and A: Dream Guides - Riku

I don't know where to begin as 2023 has been a strange year. I remember looking so forward to it at the start, and it's just spiralled into something unbelievable. Like there have been no shortage of good moments and growth opportunities, but has been overshadowed by chaos, tiring and exhausting days, and the world constantly throwing hands at each other with a continuing amount of immaturity and animosity towards our brothers and sisters.

I have marked the end of each year as a time to reflect and let my honesty be shared regardless of what anyone else thinks, so that for the following year, my bucket is emptied and I can start again. Please excuse me as I write from a very emotionally exhausted state. Each of the boys will be sharing some thoughts on the year 2023, and on this page, it's Riku's turn.

Please give each boy a chance as each of them provide a different flavour and may have some discrete messages for those who are still on the path of unity and love, and the hopeful outlook for a better and brighter world. Including some personal stories from the boys if they have anything major to share.

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QUESTIONS:

How do you feel 2023 has been overall

What positive experiences have you had in 2023?

What challenges have you faced in 2023?

What challenges do you believe your dreamer has faced in 2023?

What is one memory that stands out to you in your dream guide duties?

Is there another person you’d like to recognise for their contribution to 2023?

Do you have any final thoughts in the lead up to 2024?

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ANSWERS:

(1) Riku: "Hoooo boy, it’s been one hell of a year… Sorry I don’t usually swear, but the amount we’ve all been stretched to the limit like toffee. All the times I’ve had to keep the ship sailing in Karla’s life, both with her waking life surroundings and also with Jak, Terra and myself. And don’t get me started on the amount of absurdity I’ve seen with different people all over the place on the internet. Sorry, I’m sure you can tell how exhausted I am, being a Keyblade Master and also the dream guide leader; I’ve cleaned up more messes this year than you can possibly imagine".

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(2) Riku: "Well from the few positive experiences I can dig out, Karla and her mom had a week long getaway at the start of the year, and I was privy to enjoying that. And then also in September, when Terra went away with Karla’s parents, I stayed home with her and decided to let my hair down a bit at this real estate water-park. You could say that I’ve been the driving force and sort of the balancing act of this dream guide group, which I’m actually proud of”.

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(3) Riku: "Now the challenges of 2023 are endless that I’ve got to be careful in not maximising their impact too much. I guess when it comes to just myself, there was this episode during the year where Karla was trying to retrieve Sora from Quadratum in, I guess, an early fashion. Just a little sneak peek that she believes Kingdom Hearts 4 won’t give Sora the opportunity to be saved [ie the game released] until after the timeline shift, and obviously by then, it’d be too late for Sora to come with us. So she’s been carrying out what she calls this operation, and I was just extremely anxious as she tried to scare Sora to his senses and I guess hoist him home.

In terms of myself though? I actually haven’t had too many personal challenges, or I guess negative experiences. It’s been more trying to keep everyone else together, and as I said, sometimes being Karla’s saving grace when everyone else [Terra, Jak, etc.] has been wiped out due to these constant energy attacks. Oh, there is one before I forget. Don’t get me started about Karla’s father, that guy’s a doozy. I was assigned to him and he wanted nothing to do to me, so I’ve just had to laugh off a love-hate relationship when it comes to him”.

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(4) Riku: “Now in terms of the challenges that Karla has faced, I’m actually surprised she’s still here. It’s pretty straightforward when you've got all these friends to talk to, who are on the same wavelength as you, and understand what you’re about. But with Karla, that’s not the case. If it weren’t for her family and us, she’d have no one. Like any person who reads this can maybe think they’d understand her if she just let them in on all her thoughts and feelings, but she’s actually an entirely different kettle of fish. Some wouldn’t get her because she’s too deep, and others would be offended because she’s honest when she needs to be. I’m looking at you, March men and women; you started the trend for this year, and something we’ve mastered this year is that shifty guys work behind closed doors. I guess back in 2021 and 2022, she took a lot of abuse online, even if it wasn’t directly aimed at her… Like, you know, how people work behind a screen, or sneakily around the bend. So 2023 was all about protecting herself and not getting herself into situations where she was second-best or less. But that had consequences in itself because she had to make a lot of sacrifices. Believe it or not, people still mistreated her in 2023, only she never showed herself as a direct target. In-fact it was my job to block their energies and send it back to some of them, which is part of the reason I’m so worn out right now. The other half of the equation is how some of her days would feel so twisted due to these constant etheric attacks that would hit her, be it in the form of tiredness, headaches or even bad dreams or compulsive lack of sleep even when asleep… Iiiiif you get my drift.

She has this special book where she issues these sort of fines for every inconvenience her mind causes her, and this year, she’s collected over five hundred thousand alone. 2021 and 2022’s amounts were nothing compared to that”.

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(5) Riku: "In-terms of a specific memory, I don’t really have one at the moment. I feel I’ve been more active in Karla’s waking life, and like I said, being the glue for that. I bet Terra or Jak might have one though, because they’ve been the ones switching in and out with her sleep. Now that I’m writing this on a different day, I sort of wish I spent more time with her in the dream world. It’s fun where in the past, we hung out on the Destiny Islands or in Twilight Town. But yeah, due to those etheric attacks I spoke about which also interrupt deep sleeps, we didn’t get up to much this year”.

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(6) Riku: "I’ve got to give this one to Jak. This year put him in a very rough place, more-so than Terra and myself. Like there were times where Jak wouldn’t even show up, and if he did come back, he’d get very angry and dismissive. But with where he’s at now and what we’ve found out, he’s actually been undergoing a huge amount of personal battles. I actually wouldn’t be surprised if the etheric attacks were affecting Terra, Jak and myself as well. Because sometimes, Karla would be undergoing a certain energy theme, and we’d also seem to be in a situation of that sort as well.

But back to Jak. He’s another case of ‘it’s a miracle that he’s still here’. The fact that he’s had to deal with the expectations placed on him from his life in Haven City, and finding out he’s the descendant of an ancient king. Like with everyone who wants to move on, he’s had to come to terms with his past and I guess really be put through the wringer in whether he should ultimately stay with that crowd or come with us. I’ll let Jak share the details, but he made a major decision late last month, and as his friends, Terra and I wanted to make him feel seen and supported”.

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(7) Riku: "Look this time of the year, and even the whole year has been a bit of a strange one. I’ve noticed that I’ve been touching on a lot of darker themes than light. But that isn’t to say that Karla has good moments. I just think they occurred with her immediate surroundings rather than any sort of friend network. I should mention that she has one good friend that has stuck with her in waking life, and I forgot to say in Question 2 that Karla has been asked to be a bridesmaid for the wedding. Only it’s bittersweet because that friend is also very unhealthy and has ended up in hospital on almost a fortnightly basis sometimes. So… Yeah. In summary, 2023 has been a mix of ducking and dodging bullets from nasty people and energies on the internet; praying for a number of sick people in her friend and family-friend circles; battling to keep Terra, Jak and myself in one piece; but also discovering a new passion of sewing up garments, which is what the bridesmaid friend has also been joining in on. Basically, this year has really been about finding out who and what is most important to Karla’s life. The people who will be there for a whole season rather just when things suit.

I’m not really too sure what to expect in 2024, but let’s just say that in 2023, she’s been let down a lot just in general… So I honestly don’t have any exciting spiel for 2024. I think one thing that Terra, Jak and I can all agree on is that we hope it doesn’t get any worse than this year. She needs to have space to grow and be a happy person without the hydraulic press being in effect, which means also not being hit by constant energy attacks and tiredness that really put a stop to the massive amount of creative pursuits that she undertook in 2022. She was designed for art, music, craft, and anything else that helps her express her true and creative nature. So my hope is that 2024 will be a lot kinder in that sense and allow her to proceed in such a manner”.

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SUMMARY:

The internet and it’s networks may be a dead avenue, and the exhaustion of rising global tension has hit hard. But Karla’s immediate life has seen generous health, love and abundance. Any achievements of Karla’s have been acknowledged in private, because in the greater scheme of things, they have been only very small in the year of 2023.

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                    ❝ slept in a ꜰ ᴏ x ʜ ᴏ ʟ ᴇ last night for the first time. three of us were together. it was about 𝚜𝚒𝚡 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚝 𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐 and about 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚎𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚊 𝚑𝚊𝚕𝚏 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚝 wide. we slept in our ꜰ ᴀ ᴛ ɪ ɢ ᴜ ᴇ ꜱ and ᴄ ᴏ ᴍ ʙ ᴀ ᴛ ꜱ ᴜ ɪ ᴛ ꜱ plus our blankets. we could look up and see 𝚎𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚢-𝚎𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚖𝚒𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚜𝚑𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚜 going over. 𝘲𝘶𝘪𝘵𝘦 𝘢𝘯 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦. ❞ ─ 𝚕𝚝. 𝚖𝚊𝚛𝚢 𝚜𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚣𝚎𝚛, 𝚞.𝚜. 𝚊𝚗𝚌 ₍ ₆₋₁₉₋₁₉₄₄ ₎

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Different anon from before but yes fuck the Seraphims control hierarchy!! All my homies hate the Seraphims control hierarchy!! (I'm still hoping Oda give us a proper explanation about why the rules work like that™️)

I agree the best part about the arc has been the lore! (Tho me and my friends have been joking about how it feels like "Lore dump amusement park" at times lol) and like you said I pray for more Straw Hats interactions! Please Oda I'm begging you here!

But I'm also kinda annoyed that CP0 has made like every mistake possible since they arrived Egghead (God forbid characters associated with the WG are competent!), I'm still confused as to why Kizaru/Saturn didn't traveled with them in the first place, do you think there's a reason for that or just because plot? I've read some people theorize about the WG also wanting to get rid of CP0, and I guess it makes sense with Stussy being a spy but what did the furries do?

On the other hand I kinda understand that it was probably build up for their temporary alliance, do you have any predictions on how that's going to play out? I'm hoping that it last enough to give more character development to Lucci and Kaku, if not, I don't see the point in bringing them up again in the story, since I assumed, like many other people theorized before, that CP0 was going to fight SWORD (?) But now who knows really! There's to many questions!! Sorry for bothering you with my ramblings and my bad grammar! Thank you for sharing your read-through, it has been a delight to read!! ❤️

No worries! I love long messages like this!

Yeah, the Seraphim hierarchy is...really a mess and I feel like that's a pretty common complaint because while I can understand the need to have a kind of command chain, when there's no failsafe and no real logic to how it can be overridden it just makes it really confusing to try and figure out.

The lore has been great, especially since a lot of it has been building up for a long time now--including Vegapunk himself--but it feels like the Strawhats have just kind of been dumped into it instead of being a part of it. I'd say that particularly Franky, Chopper and Usopp could benefit from being there (and maybe they still will but right now it barely seems like they'll get a moment to breathe before they all need to get out).

Part of me feels like CP0 is suffering from what I'm going to call 'The Scooby-Doo Effect' in that both here and back in Water 7 they probably would have been fine with their plans if it weren't for those meddling Strawhats, though as far as Kizaru's concerned it's mentioned he was already on the way to Egghead for a 'prior operation' so my best guess there is that CP0 was sent both to assassinate the Vegapunks and find out what happened to all of the previous Cipher Pol agents that had disappeared. Kizaru traveling with one of the elders is bound to get noticed so if they wanted to take out Vegapunk discretely it makes sense to send assassins to do it. I suppose it's also possible, going back to the whole Seraphim hierarchy, that Saturn's coming along for that since they have the highest authority but need to be there in person for it to work.

As far as the WG's feelings on CP0 they...seem to consider them expendable, at least based on what happened in Wano, and while I'm not sure if they ever suspected Stussy--because by all accounts she's apparently been part of that voluntarily for over twenty years--they've already gone after CP9 after Enies Lobby so I feel like any trust there might have been between them is shaky at best from both sides (though, again, I feel like all of this would be much clearer if Oda would tell us how they ended up back with the government in the first place but I keep repeating myself on that one!!).

I really hope this leads to some good development for Lucci and Kaku and there's been this...loose narrative thread running through the last few arcs that for the most part at least the higher ranking Cipher Pol agents have no freedom and no agency of their own, and that basically the three options they have in life are do their jobs properly, rot in Impel Down, or get eliminated by the very people they, for the most part, had no say in working for in the first place. So it's been set up to be a very...bleak existence, and seems especially interesting given that one of the big themes of One Piece in general is freedom.

So while I'm not sure if that's actually going anywhere, I'd like for it to and it would make sense for Lucci and Kaku to be involved if that was the case. I know a lot of people had made the shield-and-sword connection but after what Guernica said to Drake about how he 'envies' that Drake gets to choose his own destiny, and now that we know SWORD are kind of...Marines that follow their own code of honor regardless of what the government believes, I'm more inclined to think that instead of physically opposing each other it's more of a clash of ideals as to what both CP0 and SWORD represent within the story.

...I hope some of that made sense but that's where my thoughts are at the moment!!

[ofvoid]

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The Queen and Her Levi- Chapter 4: The Queen, of all this?

King!Levi Ackerman x fem!reader

Description:

"All my life I have never known what it was like to love someone, if anything, really. Until I met you, and everything changed, you brat."

"Reader" has a name, if you don't like it, then change it to your own, the world is your oyster.

Will contain VERY mature and triggering content. Viewer discretion is advised and minors please DNI.

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Prologue | Previous chapter

This is home? Asuna thought to herself. It seems way too big to be somebody's home. How on Earth do people live here without getting lost?  

"You're probably wondering how none of us get lost in this place all the time!" Hange suddenly puts her arm around Asuna's shoulder, which startled her a bit. "Don't worry! In no time you will be walking around this place like a pro! Almost like if you owned the place! Even though you basically already do." She laughs.

Own the place? Are you serious? I could barely manage my own place back at the estate.

"Now! Let's give you a brief tour of the ol' place and get ya settled." Hange then grabs his her hand from Levi's and leads her to the front. Levi not following behind them. Hange is probably a better person to guide her around the castle, he'll see her soon enough, anyway. 

Asuna turns around to see Levi speaking with Erwin. She hasn't even entered the castle yet and he is already setting her off to the side. Damn, this is going to be hard. 

Asuna and Hange both entered the castle with guards following behind them. Now that Asuna is going to be the future queen and Levi's wife, she is going to be guarded whether she likes it or not. 

The moment she walked in she was in shock, it was way more beautiful than it was on the outside. With pink and red carpeted floors and beautiful white walls that were designed professionally. This looked like it was one of the many entrances in the castle, and not the main one. She was intimidated to see the rest. Asuna did not let go of Hange's hand, for the past several hours that she was able to talk and get to know what kind of person Hange was, she could tell she was a trusting, sweet, person who she can stand beside when she gets scared. 

"Now, where you like to start?" Hange smiles at Asuna. Letting go of her hand and holding hers out in excitement. "We can start with the main throne room! We could see the mess hall where most of us eat, or the kitchens! I'd love to introduce you to my squad! You'd love Nifa, don't tell anyone but she's my favorite!" Hange rambled on and on, Asuna wondered why she was so excited for her to arrive, they barely know each other, after all. 

"Or we can check out the Scout Regiment offices! They are so beautiful and spacey! Or we can-"

"Hange, you are so sweet." Asuna interrupts. "I would love to see everything, but right now I think I just want to settle in and get some rest." 

From the past experience of the carriage ride with Hange talking her ear off and giving out countless amount of information that she probably won't remember the next day, she knew that she should probably stop her now before she goes overboard again. 

"Oh yes! Of course! Apologies, my Lady." Hange puts her hand over her head realizing that she may be too much for this scared right at the moment. "I tend to be a bit overwhelming sometimes without meaning to!" That's an understatement. 

"Here, let's get to your room! It is on one of the highest floors in the castle, also one of the biggest rooms. To be fair, I'm quite jealous!"

"Oh, is it my own room?" Asuna replies with denial.  

"Oh gosh no!" Hange laughs. "It's Levi's room, you're going to be his wife! His Queen! It sort of defeats the purpose if you both don't stay in the same room!"

Gosh that was a stupid question. I should have known. My bedroom is going to be the same as Levi's, duh. What is wrong with me? 

"Right..." she responds, forcing out a small chuckle. 

With that, Hange leads her to up to her new room, it felt like forever to get up there. Countless amount of stairs that left her tired by the time they made it to the floor. They finally got up there and introduced to her room. 

It had two doors instead of one, when they walked in she was actually quite surprised and excited to see her room. There was a large king sized bed that was perfectly made, a large bookshelf to the right that had countless amount of books that can help her pass the time. She could immediately tell which side was Levi's, his shirts and uniforms were hung up against one of the closets, ironed and cleaned. To her left was the large bathroom with a built in shower and bathtub, with fruit scented soaps and shampoos, must be Levi's doing. In the corner of the room there was a small table where he most likely had his morning tea and worked in peace without interruption. One thing that captivated her was the large balcony to the left, next to an empty closet behind her suitcase that seemed to have already been delivered to her room. Damn, that was fast. 

"This is beautiful," Asuna says. Walking towards the balcony and opening the tainted glass door, walking out to see that it was larger than she expected. There were even porch chairs out there. She looks out to see the enormous town that stood below her, lighted up in different places with torches and with the moonlight acting as a spotlight. It was huge, and this was only one of many of the large towns that were within the walls, she couldn't imagine how big life within the walls actually was. How the hell am I going to be the Queen of all this?  She thought. 

"I knew you'd like it." Hange smiles. "Is there anything else I can do for you? You must be so eager to get settled." 

"No, thanks.. It's just... it's overwhelming." Asuna replies. "I just... have no idea how the hell I ended up here in a matter of just one day." she laughs. 

"Ha! That's what Erwin and I thought!" Hange states.

"Erwin?"

"The tall blonde man with the bushy eyebrows that came with Levi and us when we met you! He's the commander of the Scouts, I am basically his unofficial second in command. You can come to him with anything also, he may be tall and intimidating, but inside he's a sweet guy who just wishes the best for you!" she finishes.

Asuna nods and thanks Hange. She doesn't know what she would do without all of her help. Probably shaking in a corner terrified to even move. And with Levi no where to be found since they arrived, it really seems like she could use a good friend like Hange right now. 

"I'll leave you to it, then. Perhaps sometime tomorrow, I can finally give you that tour of the castle like I promised!" Hange bows to Asuna, as she nods and thanks her once again. She was more than grateful at the help and support that Hange has given her, but right now, she just wants to settle in and get some sleep. Hange steps out and closes the door behind her and hears her walk off, but after a few seconds, she hears the doors lock which alarmed her greatly. 

Curious, she walks towards the door and attempted to open them to try and make sure that her ears didn't lie to her, but she didn't, she was locked in. Backing up in shock, she tries to calm herself and just try to relax as much as she could, though it was very difficult to do so. 

She felt disgusting, she desperately needed to bathe and get out of her dress that she has been wearing all day. She wanted nothing more but to put on a soft nightgown and get freshened up. She opens up the large closet drawers which she assumed was her new wardrobe because of her suitcase standing right in front of it, but found nothing. There was no clothes in there at all, completely empty. Sighing in defeat, thinking how this day could not get any more unfortunate, she just chooses to shower instead, at least there was fresh towels and soap that she was able to use. 

The shower felt so good, the warm water was almost endless, something she wasn't used to at all. She may have grown up in a decent middle class home, but the water was scarce and not usually this nice. It felt so nice to finally freshen up, as she got out of the shower she was reminded that she doesn't have any other clothes to wear at the moment. So she had no choice but to put on one of the dresses she had packed in the suitcase. I knew these would come in handy. 

Brushing her hair out, brushing her teeth, and getting into a new dress. She looked at the bed and groaned on how excited she was to get some sleep. She laid down for a little while but simply could not get herself to fall asleep. It must have been the nerves, normally when she was this tired she could fall asleep almost immediately. 

Defeated, realizing that she probably wasn't going to get any sleep anytime soon, she looked at the time on the clock on the nightstand on Levi's side, it was almost 3am. Jeez, have I ever been up at this hour before? 

She soon realizes that she literally has a balcony with an undeniably beautiful view now. She goes out there and collects her thoughts. She didn't think she would ever get used to this new reality, still no sign of her future husband, she stands alone out there. The breeze felt so nice, the soft Autumn air calmed her down a bit. She thought of what her dad is doing right now, what Harrison was doing. Probably passed out drunk and asleep. She missed them already, she wondered if Levi would invite them to the wedding. When was that going to take place, anyway?

It didn't seem like she was out there for that long when she heard the door unlock. Turning around immediately, the door opens to see the only person she expected to see, and it was him.

"Levi..." 

[Originally this chapter as well as the next chapter was going to be one ;-; but I decided last minute to change it into two parts because it was going to be too long. Please get ready for the next chapter, its gonna be a real one...

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