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javierduffy · 6 days ago

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oh my god i’m about to bare my entire soul to you guys real quick

but i just remembered that IVE ACTHALLY THOUGHT OF THIS BEFORE !-?/?: I SHIPPED THEM BACK IN 2020 AND DREW JOVIERIAN WITH MY RDR2 FURRIES IM INSANE HOW DID I FORGET THIS 😭 I USED TO THINK ABOIT THEM ALL THE TIME 😭😭

furries because i’ve been drawing them since the day i was born (almost literally) and it was easy and i sucked at humans at the time </3

height difference chart which is so funny to me because i was literally just thinking about how i would portray their height difference in my style now and it looked exactly like this (but as humans)

literally how did i forget them i even wrote their relationships on their toyhouse profiles 😭💛

I MISS THEM SO BAD

has anyone ever thought of shipping john with kieran ? is that a thing ? what’s their ship name ??

#having a memory disorder as bad as i do is insane because i feel like i just found the motherload of content for my rarepair ship BECAUSE TH #IS INFORMATION IS LITERALLY ENTIRELY NEW TO ME BY NOW #IM LIKE DAMN THIS SHIT IS HEAT ‼��‼️‼️ 🔥🔥🔥 AND ITS MY OWN WRITING FROM 5 YEARS AGO #please this is lowk embarrassing but to be cringe is to be free #i think a big reason of why i’ve slowly posted less and less and wrote less and drew less on this account is because it started with me just #having fun basically alone and now that i’ve got my tiny minuscule demographic ive become terrified of their perception of me and my skill #does that make sense ?#im discouraged (by my subconscious self who wants nothing but to be accepted and insecurity) from creating or even wanting to create because #my fear of looking stupid or writing a character a little inaccurately or drawing ‘badly’ now that i have people who are looking at me #especially since my current following is essentially made up of 5 or so people who see every single post i make and interact with me frequen #tly and even some of whom i respect and think are incredibly smart and skilled and generally i admire the creativity of. and i want to impre #ss everyone but that leaves no room for what *i* want to make because what *i* want to make is 90% of the time just. pure self indulgence #it’s hard to balance the desire to be accepted by a community and the need to have fun with creation #um. wow that was a tangent sorry but yeah enjoy my furries. i’m gonna try to post more and allow myself to create more even if im scared #because i remember this being so fun and these characters are so important to me and i just want to enjoy indulging in my hyperfixation agai #n #so ummm #more bad stuff coming soon !#text #hero talks about himself for 4 hours #iirc that’s the tag

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