#please remember to log off if you're getting stressed out

[trannydykes]

anyways, trans women, especially trans lesbians/sapphics. stay strong, take care of yourselves. these are hard times for you, i know, but we're here for you, and we always will be

[totaldramafan-lauri]

Hey, uhm i notice the last post.. sorry i didn't know you need feedback about your work :(.. I thought tha you were focus on your break and didn't want to bother you with what i think about the story.. so i didn't log in for a little while because the purpose this app was here was just logging in to see the anons asked about your work and stuff and maybe liking the ask about it.. and the talks about goldencheesecookie..

So if you like to have my feedback, i'll give it to you so don't be sad :D..

At first, I was happy at how things changed and you know? reader's happy and everyone happy.. But the thing that i didn't like, is leaving the kingdom after all that.. All that mess, all that suffering.. and the brutal backstabs only for reader to go out again?.. that kinda hit me in the guts.. I know that reader is trying to be benovelent and kind or had that kind of nature just not showing it in the past, but thats to much.. Reader see themself to the new outsider but that is to much to just leave.. leave so imeadiately after months of just staying... Meeting an outsider you just mer and go out of the kingdom that you tried so hard to protect, to be apart off, to be near her... to be her subjects also? its just hurt to leave yk.. I dont know.. im sorry if my feedback hurts you :(

and another one that is the most positive thing i want to say.. Reader having the time to talk to Her Radiance about what they wanted and how grateful they are.. makes me so happy that they can say anything that they wanted deep down without getting shame and timid. It made me a little emotional yk?... Its been months and all that waiting.. I didn't knew time pass so quickly that its reaching its end so quickly.. Golden cheese is very confident as always, but more loving and touching then the pass chapters.. Makes me wonder what it feels to get hug by her light and everything... Her hugs are warmth maybe?.. makes you feel like you're in cloud9 and feel so loved.. Im happy that i get to even read near the end of the story, that you even continue to write it..

I Remember your notes after all, that you just want to give up, tired.. exhausted because of the long plot you have to do.. and i appreciate that, i reallly do, you dedication of the things that you want in your story that you want it to be perfect.. I keep remembering and being worried, maybe she isnt feeling so good right now, maybe i should ask about her health and talk about a month break.. yeah i was the anon who asked you to take a break because i was getting worried that you were exhausting yourself just for us.. But im happy you aren't and was taking a break!... Dont tire yourself for us to much.. or exhaust you're energy writing and staring at the screen all day, just a hopeful reminder that you aren't overdosing yourself..

If the anons are writing weird ask about you and the story, just block them okay? :) if they make you uncomfortable.. just block them..♥️

So yeah, thats what i just wanted to say for what i've read.. Cool thing that Smoked cheese gor our stuff all along :O♥️

P-please don't worry about me....When I talk about how I struggle with writing this sometimes, it doesn't mean I don't wanna write. I DO wanna write, and I DO wanna finish this....Whenever I take a break, it only lasts a couple days before I-I hate myself for doing things other than writing....I-I DID take a break, but a small one, and even if it doesn't sound good, trust me, it is....I-I don't wanna spend too much time away from this. So, trust me, I'm fine. I know my limits, and how hard to push myself. I'm not overworked at all, I have a schedule, and....I-I wanna do this. I'm ENJOYING putting out these chapters....Th-thank you for trying to be considerate of me, tho! ^^

(Oh, and me stressing over the lack of comments is not ALL on you anons on Tumblr, so don't blame yourself! It also has to do with AO3, y'see, I have a couple regular commenters over there that haven't said anything about the new chapter, and they've been around longer, so....y-yeah, everything's fine, trust me! >__<)

Y-yeah, not liking the ending of the chapter is completely valid....b-but, I'm setting things up for the next one, OK? Everything's gonna make sense once that's done! You'll see why I did it this way! S-so, don't jump to conclusions juuuuust yet.....! I-I hope I still did a good enough job making it believable, tho.....Making Reader feel like they had no other choice but to make the choice they made....I also tried to lift their spirits as well, and to end on a hopeful note, so people will actually wanna see what happens next rather than be like "Why the heck did you end it like that" at me, pfffffff.....XD

But, yeah, I'm still sorry....I-I'm glad you enjoyed parts of the chapter regardless, tho....! And thank you for trying to be respectful of me....You're really too kind, and I don't deserve it, heheh....

[tinylizzzy]

🦢 intro post

hi everyone, my name is liz/lizzy, and i'm back after being t-worded the other day (used to be @/tinylizzz). this is a vent blog, not a "pro" blog, though i am not and have no plans to be in recovery anytime soon. if you do not have an 3d, please block instead of reporting. i am not encouraging anyone to do anything but recover. i am not evil. i am just so alone in this and need a safe space.

here's a random info dump abt me: i am 20 years old, i'm from the u.s., i'm currently getting my bachelor's and my master's degrees through my school's dual degree program and work as a server to financially support myself through that. i (hopefully) finish up my degrees next april and after that i plan to take a year or two off then apply to PhD programs. i'm also currently working on my thesis so needless to say school/student life is a huge part of my life and i will likely post a lot abt that (especially come september when i'm back to full time credit hours).

i've had disordered behaviors for as long as i can remember now but avoided diagnosis in high school bc i lied easily and was only barely underweight so no one was concerned. plus i was "too smart for all that" in the words of my mom, to my doctor. therefore i don't necessarily like to put a strict label on myself but i do tend to stick to restricting & counting c@ls, plus exercise but i wouldn't say i really overexercise. i am currently intermittent fasting/OMAD mainly out of necessity bc i am broke after paying rent & summer tuition & can't really afford groceries rn lol. i try to eat clean-ish & i have been vegetarian for about 7 or 8 years now. not sure if i'll post daily food logs yet bc that might have gotten me termed but i might post food pics for inspo from time to time.

anyway, tldr: i am a 20 year old student and server in financial stress so i relapsed for comfort and control. again, block don't report please. minors can interact but i won't follow you back, sorry. if you're an adult, let's be moots!

(stats under the cut, ik this is long asf i'm sorry)

height: 5'2-ish

sw: 118 lbs

cw: 107.8 lbs (as of july 30)

gw1: 105 lbs (reach by august 4)

gw2: 99 lbs (reach by august 31)

ugw: 85 lbs (reach by december 31)

[teneriadvos]

Teneri ad Vos

meaning "enthralled by you" in Latin.

💜

Vos || 19 yrs || He

Can't stress enough: MINORS, DNI. DO NOT INTERACT. THIS IS NOT THE BLOG FOR YOU. ALSO, I WILL BLOCK YOU IF YOU TRY TO FOLLOW ME AND YOU DON'T HAVE AN AGE IN YOUR BIO OR PINNED POST. THANKS.

💜 Fun Vos Facts! 💜

- College student

- Writer

- Total nerd (D&D, Video games, etc. Ask me about my collections!)

- In case you can't tell, I'm a Latin nerd too :)

- More holes than the average man

- Bi guy

- Happily taken :) I have a lovely girlfriend and she smokes weed

All of the other stuff is going below the cut. One more time, MINORS DNI. FINAL FUCKING WARNING. THANKS.

okay, let's get into the meat and potatoes of it all. i basically only log in to this acc when im bored out of my skull or looking to jerk off. there's like an 18% chance i'm asexual and i have days where the very concept of sex makes me feel physically ill. bear with me. whatever. here's what you're all looking for.

💜 Kinks 💜

i will usually sign my anon messages as [💜] or [💜🌀] depending on what's taken lol

[This list is subject to change or expand depending on what Tumblr does to me.]

💜 Limits 💜

YES: Hypnosis / Mindfuck, Puppyplay, Bondage / Shibari, Femdom, Edging / Denial, Dacryphilia, Royalty, Blasphemy, Monsterfucking... [Knifeplay, Bloodplay, Eroguro - but I will not post about these.]

NO: Piss, Scat, Vomit, Feet, Findom, Detrans...

💜 Vos Terminology Index 💜

Please call me...

- Masculine terms; man, boy, guy, dude, etc.

- Pretty, good, sweet, and baby boy.

- Dumb, empty-headed, pathetic, needy.

- Prince, puppy, dog, toy, angel, doll.

- Chest, dick, and hole to talk about my anatomy.

- If you're kind to me, I will be kind to you. That's the golden rule on my blog. Don't be a dick, and don't be a creep.

- ABSOLUTELY DO NOT ASK FOR PICTURES OF ME. I know I'm whoring myself out on the internet but I'd like to keep it to just words.

- Please don't open conversations by sending me nudes or spirals. It's kind of weird to me. Say "hi" or "hello" or even just ask me first!! Thank you!!

- I block empty, no-pfp no-name no-description etc. blogs on site. At least make your profile look a little lived-in.

- MINORS DNI. DO NOT INTERACT WITH ME. I KNOW I'VE SAID IT A COUPLE TIMES ALREADY BUT I AM BEING SO SERIOUS. THIS IS NOT A BLOG FOR YOU IN ANY CAPACITY. GO AWAY.

- I'm not looking for a long term dynamic. But DM me maybe and we can play around?

[These boundaries are also subject to change. If you're freaking me out, I will tell you. If you continue to freak me out, I will block you. If you're a robot, uh, go fuck yourself. Idk.]

If you're unsure about something, pop in and ask!

💜 Closing remarks! 💜

I'm a total nerd with a writer's background, and I tend to get really wordy. If I write some nerdy or horndog ramble, just bare with me. I like talking lol

Okay, that's all from me!! I hope all of this wasn't too boring! Remember, be kind and receive kindness in return.

Vos out. 💜

[newtonsheffield]

Molly!! I absolutely loved the latest chapter of offside! Any chance we could please get some celebratory we're finally together spice from Kate and Anthony? Also I know you're logging off next week in anticipation of season 2 finally gracing our screens but you will be very much missed!!

Ohhhh! So I'm not logging off here next week! Just next Friday.

My inbox is probably going to be closed for all of about 10 hours maybe a little longer while I sleep!

I just don't want anyone to bring something up that I might not be at yet so... yeah. I'll be logging out of tumblr, but only for a day. Next week I'll still be here!

Okay, now: I think we all deserve this.

"Doctor Sharma, fancy seeing you here." His voice was hot in her ear, chuckling as a shiver ran down her spine at the proximity of him, snuck up behind her, his hands on her waist.

"In my own office? Yes it was rather a gamble." Kate tried to say dryly, but her breath caught when he pressed a kiss against her neck, his tongue pushing through his parted lips.

" Almost makes you think I deserve a little reward." His hands spun her so they were facing one another, his eyes shining into hers, smile a little predatory as she pressed herself closer, unable to help herself at the closeness of him.

"I keep some lollipops in my desk if you want one of them." She forced herself to smirk, despite the fact that his lips were brushing hers, his eyes burning, tension thickening the air around them.

"No, that's not what I want." His lips found hers, moulding their bodies together in a searing kiss, his tongue sliding over hers, she could feel his heart beating steadily against her chest, a smile on his face as he pulled back.

"You know you said, my little bump to the head should resolve in a week." Something tugged at Kate's stomach.

She'd gone home with him that night, trying not to feel mortified when Anthony's mother had hummed Let's take you home Boy. And Anthony had grinned, Nah, My Kate's taking me home. In fact, they'd gone home together every night since, laying curled together feeling the closeness of it, the tension palpable.

"No physical exertions for a week." she'd hummed, even though she'd felt a little disappointed herself as Anthony whined.

"But! I've waited! And I watched you go out with someone else, and little Anthony is stressed!"

She'd chuckled, brushing her lips to his cheek, "Nothing happened with Jamie, okay?"

He had nodded, his hands still twisted in his shirt hanging from her loosely, pouting like a little boy, and she hadn't been able to help herself as she'd thrown his shirt over her head, and sighed as she pressed his hand against her chest, hips grinding against his thigh.

"Oh my god. You have a nipple ring. Holy shit."

Kate had nodded her forehead pressed against his "Would not so little Anthony like to watch?"

His voice had been strained minutes later when she'd collapsed against his chest with her hand between her thighs. "You are the most fucking beautiful thing I've ever seen in my entire life. Holy Fuck. Okay. Holy Fuck. Um. Oh my god, I wanna remember that forever."

There was something so sweet in it, the playboy of English football, grinning at her like an excited teenage boy, that she'd snatched his phone off the mattress beside him, her legs still shaking as she started grinding again, "Start filming then."

"Let's look at the calendar." Anthony cleared his throat officiously, steering them towards the diary on her desk, his hand using hers to point as he counted aloud. "One... two... three... four...five...six...oh mercy me Doctor Sharma, it's been a week."

She rolled her eyes, but couldn't keep the smile off her face, "Would you look at that."

"Indeed." His lips brushed hers chastely again. "So... maybe tonight, we could order in, and you could give me a... full physical. Just to make sure I've recovered."

Kate glanced quickly at the clock, five minutes to five, before she cleared her throat, Hooking her fingers in the waistband of his shorts tugging him from the room. "Well we better get started then."

Anxiety gnawed at Kate's stomach the entire way back to Anthony's, her mind racing, even as he snatched her hand from her lap, kissing her wrist before he intertwined their fingers humming happily.

What if it wasn't as good as he remembered?

What if she wasn't what he remembered?

What if-?

Anthony shot out of the car the second it pulled up, opening her car door, helping her from it his arm tucked around her waist the second she was standing, and every insecurity she had washed away at the smile on his face. Happy, and content and loving.

They barely even made it to the lift before Kate closed the distance between them, lips and teeth clashing roughly, her hands fisted in the front of his jacket, her legs wrapped around his waist as he pressed against the elevator wall, his arms tight around her, no space between them.

When the doors open, Anthony stumbled forward, grunting when she tried to right herself instead stumbling down the hall with her still wrapped in his arms, his breath coming in heaving pants as her lips moved over his neck, nipping and sucking his hips stuttering forward as he fumbled for his keys. "I want you to leave a mark there, so everyone'll know that I'm yours."

A startled groan left Kate's chest as her hips stuttered forward, a shiver running down her spine at the door swung inwards, Anthony slamming it behind him.

His lips caught hers again as he moved them through his home, keys abandoned on the floor, the silky strands of his hair slipping past her fingertips as he forced his bedroom door open, the feeling of weightlessness a little giddy when he let them fall against the mattress.

His eyes were burning into hers, his lips lightly brushing her forehead so tenderly it made her want to cry, even through all the tension simmering away between them.

"This is forever, okay?"

Kate didn't know why tears came to her eyes as she nodded, her fingertips on his brow, "Forever."

The next second Anthony had stood, ignoring her whine at the loss of contact, peeling their clothes off them, Kate's fingers awkward and fumbling as she hurried to comply.

He stared down at her for a long moment, even though he'd convinced her onto the shower more than once in the last week, their bodies pressed together under the hot water, tension hanging in the air all around them.

"You are so beautiful."

Kate nodded, taking his hand to tug him down on top of her, settling him in the cradle of her hips. "So are you."

He grinned back at her, eyelids fluttering closed as her hand ghosted over his chest. "Now, I promised you dinner, but for now, I think only I'll be eating."

His lips left a trail of fire as they trailed downwards, Anthony barely giving her time to recover, to catch up before his hands were on her thighs encouraging them wider, his eyes locked with hers as he bowed his head and

Oh Fuck Anthony!

It was even better than she remembered, than she'd thought about on those lonely nights when she'd tried desperately to tell herself it wasn't right. She'd been wrong. Obviously. There was nothing more natural than her and Anthony together. His hands were tight on her legs, his tongue relentless against her as she encouraged her hips to grind up against him. Her hands were grasping at whatever part of him she could reach, a startled gasp braking free from his chest as she clutched at his hair pulling tightly.

Ugh Kate you taste even better than I remember

She couldn't breathe, lost to the feeling of Anthony all around her, the feel of him, the smell of him pressed against her nose from his bedsheets and she just couldn't hold on.

She shattered with a startled gasp, shuddering against him, her arm covering her eyes instinctively.

Anthony hummed happily, his lips leaving a little trail back up her body, his hands tugging her arm down. 'Eye contact please, Kate."

Her eyes flew open. His hair was a mess from her hands, his face shining with exertion, his hum happy as their lips met, the taste of them swirled together on his tongue a little intoxicating and all she wanted was more.

"Please.

Anthony groaned against her lips, their legs intertwined his hips bucking against her. He moved so quickly it stole whatever breath she had left, rolling them until she was settled above him, straddling his hips, his hand pressing hers against his chest.

"Show me I'm yours, Kate."

Her eyes nearly rolled back in her head as his hips snapped against hers and again, it only felt right.

Just the two of them, nothing between them, no more lies or pretending, two people, happy and in love, giggling as their hips ground together, choked off into moans.

Anthony's hand was bruising her thigh, his other on her chest as her own fingernails bit into his chest again and again, their movements building to something hurried and desperate but filled with love, eyes locked together as they barrelled towards the finish, Anthony's voice cracking in his chest.

Holy- Kate. Fuck Kate! Kate! You're so perfect, it's too good babe, fuck Fuck!

His name falling from her lips again and again desperate whines breaking in their air between them.

Kate, babe, I'm so close I'm gonna-

A rough growl broke free of his chest, his hips stuttering erratically towards her His arms crushing her against his chest and the angle changed and-

fuck Anthony!

Kate fell over the edge again, clinging to him desperately as they shuddered together, and everything went still.

Anthony's chest was heaving as he held her against it, his face shining sweat coating his brow, dampening his hair, sticking up in all directions. "We are never waiting a week to do that ever again. Holy Fuck."

And she couldn't help it. "A week? Honey, you have about five minutes or I'm starting without you."

[bi-bard]

we could be the way forward and I know I'll pay for it - Din Djarin Imagine (The Mandalorian)

Title: we could be the way forward and I know I'll pay for it

Pairing: Din Djarin X Reader

Song Drawn: cowboy like me

Word Count: 985

Warning(s): mentions of killing/violence

Summary: Din and (Y/n) have been playing the same game for a long time. When a bounty is placed on (Y/n)'s head, their game changes dramatically.

Author's Note: I didn't realize that I was having trouble remembering this show until right now.

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It was a constant race whenever I found myself face-to-face with the bounty hunter that I called Mando.

We would always seem to find the same jobs at the same time.

Most buyers were happy to support the competition. Whoever got the job done first, got the pay. It was entertaining.

It started off as purely competitive. Over time, it almost became a game. We started showing off to each other.

I had started some light flirting. Mando would get nervous, which was always a sight to see. It was fun to see someone so badass become so nervous.

It felt like I actually had a friend. It was nice.

One day, things changed.

I had been doing a job like normal. I had just finished up but before I could collect my pay, someone shot at me.

After some very lucky dodging, I had found myself back at my ship. I logged into the system that I used to track jobs.

My heart stopped.

Someone had put a bounty on me.

"What the hell," I muttered.

I knew that it was bad.

I didn't know what to do besides try to continue working.

I spent far too long juggling hunting with hiding and trying to survive.

I took a big risk after one mission by walking into a cantina. I just needed to breathe and eat.

When I caught sight of a familiar silver helmet, I allowed myself to let out a sigh of relief.

"You're a sight for sore eyes," I tried to play it casual as I sat down across from Mando.

"(Y/n)," he asked. I nodded. "It's nice to see you. It's been a while."

"I know," I replied. I looked over at the silver egg-like thing floating next to him. I nodded at it. "Please tell me it hasn't been that long."

"Oh, no," he shook his head. "I'm on a job. Taking something back to where it should be."

"And here I thought you'd settled down," I teased. "I'd be disappointed."

Mando looked down and chuckled, "How've you been, (Y/n)?"

My face dropped. It must have been obvious to him.

"What's wrong," he asked. "What happened?"

I leaned forward and dropped the volume of my voice, "Someone put a bounty on my head."

"Why?"

"I don't know," I shrugged. "No one's giving me an answer."

"You should come with me," he said. "I don't want you on your own anymore."

"I'm just more stress for you and... whatever's in the egg," I shook my head. "I don't want to be a burden."

"I've known you for as long as I've been doing this job," Mando replied. "I'm not going to leave you alone through this. You... You mean too much."

"Are you sure," I asked. He nodded. I grinned at him. "Thanks."

"Come on."

Mando dropped some money on the table and started walking out of the building. I followed him and the egg. I put my hand on my blaster out of instinct.

"So, the thing in the egg-"

"I call him 'The Child'," Mando interrupted.

"The Child," I corrected. "How did you end up babysitting him?"

"I don't truly know anymore," he replied. "It was good pay. No one told me the risks that came with the mission."

"Are you just passing time by adopting dangerous crewmates," I chuckled.

"It's a good hobby to have."

I was stunned that he had made a joke like that. He didn't usually have comebacks to my jokes.

"Home sweet home," I muttered as I spotted Mando's ship.

"It's nothing fancy but it does the job."

"I think it's gorgeous," I replied as I followed him in. "Mine is a pile of crap compared to this."

"Thanks," he nodded.

--time skip--

A few hours later, Mando and I were relaxing in the first safe space I had found in weeks. I had just gotten The Child to sleep. It almost felt natural to fall into that rhythm.

"He finally fell asleep," I said as I sat in the other seat next to Mando.

"I think you interested him," Mando explained. "I haven't had that much trouble before."

"Then where's the top of this," I pointed to a piece of Mando's ship.

"He's still got it," Mando groaned. I chuckled at him.

I fell silent a few seconds later.

"Thank you... again," I mumbled. "It means a lot, Mando."

"Din," he replied.

"What?"

"My name. It's Din."

"Oh."

"I thought that you deserved to know after all these," he continued. "Especially if we're going to be working together now."

I nodded, "I like it. Din suits you."

He chuckled, "Thanks."

There were a few moments of silence.

"I'm gonna try to find a place to rest," I said. "Goodnight."

"Hey, will you wait for a second," he asked, standing up as I did. I nodded, looking at him. He hesitated.

"Din," I asked.

"We've known each other for a long time."

I nodded.

"We trust each other."

"I think so," I replied.

As Din moved his hands towards his helmet, I panicked.

"Wait," I grabbed his hands. "You don't have to do that. I promise."

"I want to," he replied. "I want you to see me as I am because I care about you and I trust you."

He tugged his hands out of mine and reached up to his helmet again. I watched nervously as he pulled his helmet off and looked at me properly for the first time.

"Hi," he said quietly.

I chuckled, "Hi."

There was a moment of silence.

I leaned over and pecked his cheek.

"You're very handsome," I smiled as I leaned back.

He looked down with a small grin on his face, "Thanks."

It was funny to see him so nervous.

Our cat-and-mouse game had drawn to a close. Now, a new path was opening up to us. And I was more excited than ever.

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[wanderingcas]

ok there's lots of jokes going around for all of us to cope with the drama but if you're stressed out/hurting from this potential fallout please remember to log off and get some rest this has been A Lot today

[wattpadscapcons]

I know no one wants to hear this from me. You can just skip this if you want to.

I just watched a playthrough of a video game that literally showed me what it's like to suffer for the sake of numbers and views. It's easy to lose yourself in the interaction you get online, regardless of whether or not it's positive. I've honestly felt that in a way that may be negatively affecting me and my writing.

I mean, I'm fine, don't worry. It's just the thought of me having to de-train myself from relying on the approval and praise of people I don't even really know, it's scary. You can often get lost in that feeling, it manifests into this ugly mass of guilt and self-hatred that can metaphorically suffocate you. The literal amount of stress it takes to stay relevant on any platform must be soul crushing.

-

When I first started making posts on this platform, I was receiving lots of that feeling. It hadn't quite become the overall sickening stress by the end of the first week, not even the second week. I just received so many likes that it became addicting to seek out others attention by writing. The whole "numbers game". Over 300 likes at my very peak of this "career"! Now a days I can barely hit 30 or on a good week maybe I'll hit 70 or more. That's still a lot of people, and believe me I'm very grateful for those who are still here.

-

I hate just how sick and disappointed that makes me feel. It fuels me with so many negative thoughts like:

"Do people not like my content?"

"Is the only way to get any kind of feedback is to do exactly what my followers ask me to?"

"Have I already become boring?"

"Have I been shadowbanned?"

"Why won't anyone talk to me? Did I do something wrong?"

The lack of interaction kills me. I hate how quiet it is here even when everyone's awake. It doesn't even have to be positive, tell me my work sucks! That you hate it! Tell me you liked it! Gush about the characters you like in my dms or comment section of my posts! I really don't care! Just say something so that I know you're reading and that I'm not slaying over the computer screen for hours at a time for no reason!

-

I know it's a needy, selfish request. Please don't hate me for saying it here. I know some people don't have the time, nor the energy to do anything. I have mutuals that are like that, busy people, parents even!

They can feel really stressed out and I always feel like I'm bothering them when I text them out of the blue after being silent for a few days. That's fine. I just hate the feeling of being ghosted. I'm not going to bite, I'm not some kind of god or celebrity that thinks they're above you.

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I have trouble reaching out to a lot of you myself, to tell you I like your work because I don't want to come off as awkward. So believe me, I know how it feels! It doesn't even have to be a long conversation! You don't have to wait for a reply before you log off. That would be fine.

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I've already had a major fight on this platform too. Well, not exactly major, nothing I would have to go to therapy over. It was upsetting, and I'm sure some of the followers I've had since the very beginning remember what I'm talking about. I bring this up because that had a negative affect too, as it was a simple misunderstanding that showed me just how cruel anons could be to people online.

I know this may hit kind of heavy coming from a small time tumblr user that not everyone is the biggest fan of, but I... I don't know. I guess I just feel a little better after writing this out? I know this platform is exactly the best for letting out all of this negative steam. I don't want to come off as needy or obsessive or self-centered. This is just how I feel.

[final-girl96]

Let's Save The World

Chapter Five

After getting Klaus a suit from dad's closest we headed back to Meritech. We went up to Mr. Bigs' office, the man Five had threatened early that day.

Like I told your son earlier, any information about the prosthetics we build is strictly confidential. Without the client's consent, I simply can't help you," Mr. Bigs said.

"Well, we can't get consent if you don't give us a name," Five hissed at him.

"Well, that's bot my problem. Sorry, now, there's really nothing more I can do, so...." Bigs said but Klaus cit him off.

"And what about my consent?" Klaus said.

I raised my eyebrow as me and Five looked at me curiously. Me and Five looked at each other then back at Klaus.

"Excuse me?" Mr. Bigs said.

"Who gave you the permission... to lay your hands... on my son and his girlfriend?" Klaus said dramatically.

"What?" Bigs said.

"Yeah, what?" I mumbled.

"You heard me," Klaus said.

"I didn't touch tour son or his girlfriend,"

"Oh, really? Well, then how did he get that swollen lip, then? And how did she he that handprint on her cheek?" Klaus asked.

"He doesn't have a swollen lip and she doesn't have a handprint..." but before Bigs could finish Klaus turned and punched Five in the mouth.

I gasped and stared in shock and then he looked at me and mouth sorry before he slapped me across the face. My head snapped to the right towards Five and my hand flew to my left cheek.

Five looked furious at what Klaus just did. I turned and looked at Klaus and glared at him. He turned putting his hands on the desk and leaning forward. "I want it. Name. Please. Now," he said.

"You're crazy," Mr. Bigs said.

Klaus chuckled "You have no idea," he said and pick a snow globe up. "Peace on earth," he read and shook it. "That's so sweet," he said before smashing it against his head. Glass, water, and glitter went everywhere.

I stood there shocked but I had a smile on my face. Klaus groans "God that hurts!" He yelled.

"No shit," I mumbled.

"I calling secur..." Mr. Bigs started as he picked up the phone.

Klaus snatched it away from him and put it to his ear. "What are you doing?" Bigs asked him.

"There's been an assault... in Mr. Bigs' office, and we need security, now. Schnell!" Klaus says into the phone and slamming it on the receiver.

Klaus leaned on the desk again looking at Mr. Bigs as blood dripped down his forehead. "Now, this is what's going to happen, Grant," he said.

"It's... Lance," Bigs said.

"In about 60 seconds, two security guards are gonna burst through that door. And they're gonna see a whole lot of blood, and they're gonna wonder, "What the hell happened?" And we're gonna tell them that you... beat the shot out of us," Klaus said dramatically.

He stepped back and looked at Mr. Bigs. "You're gonna do great in prison, Grant. Trust me, I've been there. Little piece of chicken like you. Oh, my God, you're gonna get passed around like a..." he said and paused. "You're just... you're gonna do great. That's all I'm saying," he said.

"Jesus, you're a sick bastard," Mr. Bigs said.

Me and Five stood off to the side smiling. Klaus could actually be useful when he had a plan. I wasn't too sure at first but now that I've seen he can come through if needed, I trust him more.

"Thank you," Klaus said smiling and he spits out some glass onto the floor.

Bigs lead us to the files and we stood on the other side of the filing cabinet as he looked up the serial number of the eye.

"That's strange," he said looking at the file.

Klaus walked around and stood behind him. "What?" Five asked.

"Uh, The eye. It hasn't been purchased by a client yet," he said.

"What? What do you mean?" I asked.

"Well, uh, our logs say that the eye with that serial number... this can't be right. It hasn't been manufactured yet. Where did you get that eye?" He said looking at Five.

"Well, this is no good," Five said.

We turned and left the building. As we walked out Klaus started yapping at the mouth. "I was pretty good, though, right? Yeah, what about my consent, bitch?" He said.

"Klaus it doesn't matter," Five said annoyed.

"What? What? What's up with this eye, anyway?" Klaus asked.

"There is someone out there who's going to lose an eye in the next seven days," I said.

"They're gonna bring the end of life on this Earth as we know it," Five said.

"Yeah, can I get my 20 bucks, like, now or what?" Klaus said.

"Your 20 bucks?" Five asked angrily.

"Yeah, my 20 bucks," Klaus said.

"Are you serious?" I asked.

"The apocalypse is coming. And all you can think about is getting high?" Five said.

"Well, I'm also quite hungry. Tummy's a rumblin'," Klaus said rubbing his stomach.

"You're useless!" Five yelled.

"Oh, come on. You need to lighten up, old man," Klaus said.

They both walked over and sat on the wall by the steps. I stayed out on the sidewalk and paced back and forth. It had become a habit I did when I was anxious or stressed out.

"Hey, you know, I've just now realized say you're so uptight, " I heard Klaus say. I was curious soon listened in but made it as though I wasn't.

"You must be horny as hell!" He said laughing.

"All those years by yourself," Klaus said and I stopped. What the fuck was he talking about I was there too. Except for the five years, we had gotten separated.

"It's gotta screw with your head, being alone," he said.

"Well... I wasn't alone," Five said.

"Oh? Prey tell," Klaus said.

That's when I spoke up "I was there, remember?!" I said pissed off.

They both looked at me and both flinched as they looked at me glaring at them. "I was alone for five years when Eight and I got separated but I had someone. Her name was Delores. We were together for those five years and then she stayed even after Eight found me. She was there for 30 years," Five said.

He talked about her like he missed her. Like he rather her be here than me. I felt my eyes fill with tears but blinked them away. "Thirty years? Oh, wow," Klaus said.

I felt myself start to shake with anger and sadness. I could believe him. I guess he only asked me to marry him because I was the only living girl around. I looked at the ring on my finger and started playing with it.

"God, the longest I've been with someone was... I don't know, three weeks. And that's only because I was so tired of looking for a place to sleep he did make the most fantastic osso buco, though. It was..." Klaus said but when he looked up me and Five were in a taxi.

Five had walked over to me and grabbed my hand and jumped into the backlit of the taxi going by. The Man looked at us in shock. "Don't stop. Just keep going," Five told him as we passed Klaus standing on the sidewalk looking at us as we went by.

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Here is the last chapter, and now we're all caught up, tomorrow will have the new chapter!

(Third pov)

"Umm log date, 126 3 56. Today marks the beginning of the third month of my pregnancy. It's been at least a couple hundred years since I have last done this, but I really need to talk to some things out."

I would talk to Yellow about this, but it'd probably poof her, and I would talk to Steven, but I don't want to dump all my problems on him, I definitely don't want to dump this on Spinel especially after all that she has been through."

Blue sighs

"So here we go. This is going to sound very very selfish, but I hate this. I hate being pregnant, I hate having to eat, I hate haveing to drink water, I hate feeling them move around inside me. I hate that whatever food that they don't like comes back up. I hate seeing Yellow, White, and Steven so happy about this when I'm not. I don't understand why can't I enjoy this."

"Why can't I enjoy the thought of feeling them moving around inside me, why can't I enjoy the thought of little gemlings running around, why can't I bare to enjoy the thought of Yellow being happy with them."

"Ah shit, I think I hear someone coming, I'll have to finish this later, umm Blue Diamond out"

"This is the continuation of log date 126 3 56, it's been one rotation since the last log and today Steven and Garnet came to visit us, I suspect they actually came for me, and not for White or Yellow."

They both seemed nervous, like they knew something that I didn't, which makes me feel even worse. However, it was very pleasant to see Steven again, whether or not he was acting suspiciously."

He invited me to go for a "stroll", I agreed and we walked around the palace, which was nice but he kept asking me how I was doing/feeling. I thought he meant physically so I said fine (which wasn't a total lie), but he kept on pressing, and I told him I was fine emotionally. Which was a lie? Maybe? I-i still can't answer that question."

But I quickly changed the subject until I dropped him off at Pink's old room (which is now Spinel's room). Then I came to my chambers and started this log continuation, so now I'm just talking to myself again, stars, I should really do something useful."

"But the further along in this nightmare called pregnancy, the less and less work I have to do. Yellow said something about it being less stressful for me and the 'babies', but with all this time on my hands, I've only been thinking about what's going to happen to me."

"When the crystal gem Pearl explained to us what happened to Pink when she was giving birth. Pearl said that as soon as steven's torso came out she disappeared in a flash without even saying a word to anyone."

"I-I don't want that, I don't even want this, I don't want to have to say goodbye, hell I don't want to fucking leave."

"But Yellow watching the gemlings develop and on the scanner is making her so happy, I don't remember when she was this happy, not even when Pink or I first emerged. Not when we learned she wasn't shattered and we found ( I think she was more relieved that the war was over than actually being happy), not even when we invited Spinel to live with us, although I think that's a close second"

"But this, I'm only doing this for her. I have to make it up to her, for all those times she was there for me when we thought we lost Pink. I have to do it even if it means sacrificing myself and if I'll never get to see her again."

"Well I have another appointment to get to, and this time Spinel is coming with us, I wonder what her reaction will be, it will definitely be better than mine."

"Blue Diamond out"

(Blue's pov)

I shut off my screen and I bang my head on my vanity, could I really go through with it? Could I really sacrifice myself? Why am I having these thoughts, this was...no is a big mistake?

I instantly perk up to the sound of my room's doors opening, I whip my head to look at the person that opened them.

"Hey Blue, we are ready to go when you are" Yellow diamond says with a smile on her face.

I try to match her happiness "yeah, umm I'm ready to go now" I push my seat back and I make my way over to the group.

This time Steven, Garnet, and Spinel is tagging along with me and Yellow to my appointment. Spinel is gleefully skipping in front of us as everyone else is going the same pace as me.

"Coome oon, can't you go any faster" Spinel whines. " Now Spinel, I am going as fast as I can" I smile at her as she groans.

We make our way to the medical wing, past the waiting area and into the same room where we first learned that I'm..pregnant.. I take a seat on the same same, pale blue, metal table.

Yellow picks up Spinel and sits down in her chair, she gently sets Spinel down in her lap.

"Ooh I'm so excited!" Spinel bounces up and down.

"Why? The medical pearl said it's going to be a normal check-up" I cross my arms in my lap.

"Well, this'll be the first time I get to see them" Spinels says with a big smile "were you just as excited and happy to see them as I was."

I open my mouth to say something but I just look down at my hands.

"I know I was" Yellow replies with just as much happiness as Spinel "I nearly cried when I saw them, even if they were just little grey blobs"

"Y-yes, I was very happy" I lie, I try to smile but it comes out as a half-smile.

"Anyways, how many little gemlings are there?" Spinel asks another question.

"Three" I answer dryly.

"Huh, I thought it was two" Spinel stops bouncing "oh well, I can't wait to see them!" She continues jumping with almost twice the amount of excitement.

I smile at her sheer silliness, the pale doors open as the small medical pearl wheels in the camera scanner.

"Wait, I thought you were going to use the regular scanner" Steven says, huh I almost forgot that he was here.

"No, every three months I will use this scanner to scan Blue Diamond" the small medical pearls pats the screen part of the scanner "and it has been three months"

The medical pearl turns to looks at me "you do remember how to do this"

I give her an unsure nod "I just lay down and phase away some of my dress?" The medical pearl nods.

I do as she needs and I get as comfortable as I can on my back, I carefully phase away the part of my dress to reveal my swelling stomach. The coldness of the room makes little bumps appear on my arms and stomach.

After the medical pearl sets up the screen, I have to help her onto my bulging belly, she then pours almost two bottles of cold gel onto me. I shiver from the cold gel and the room, it causes the tiny pearl to almost fall off.

"Sorry" I quickly apologize.

The medical pearl brushes her green hair away from her face "it's quite alright my dia-Blue Diamond"

Spinel lets out an excited squeal as the pearl starts to move the scanner around my abdomen. The screen starts making the same noise as before and I turn to look at it.

"Aww two little...well they're not little" Spinel as excitedly "and wait, I guess I was right, there is only two."

"Wait two" I say out loud "there is supposed to be three" I look at Yellow, she looks like she's about to cry.

I look back at the Pearl "what happened" I say angrily, why am I getting like this...?

"I-i don't know" the Pearl frantically tries to look for the third gemling, but she can't find it.

"Wait, I heard something like this happening with humans" Steven jumps up to get a better look at the screen.

I give him a perplexed look. "Well, sometimes if a woman has twins or triplets, one of the babies 'eats' " he makes air quotation marks "or absorbs the other baby, it's actually not as rare as people think" Steven finishes, he jumps back down and takes his seat next to Garnet.

"So, one of the...babies...ate the other one?" I ask "does that mean one of them died?"

"I really don't know Blue, I'm not an expert on this" Steven looks sadly at me "the only reason I know about it, is Connie's mom told us about women that had two babies then give birth to one"

I turn my gaze to the medical pearl, who is trying to silently pack the scanner away "does this mean I have to eat and sleep less?"

"Umm I don't know, I've never seen this, I think you should continue what you've been doing. But please contact me if you feel any different" the medical pearl finally gets the scanner ready to be put away.

"Okay" I wipe off the now warm gel on my baby bump with my sleeve, I sit back up and I look at Yellow. She still looks devastated, I wish I could cheer her up, but I'm not good at it, all I'll do is make her feel worse.

"Hey" Steven calls out, our gaze shifts onto him "were going to go back to Spinel's room, if you need to talk to anyone, I'm here" he looks at Yellow "that's goes for the both of you."

I phase on the missing part of my top and carefully slide off the table, I make my way to the empty chair next to Yellow and Spinel. As soon as I sit down, Spinel decides to move onto the floor to give us some room.

I place my hand on Yellow's, but she doesn't seem to really notice. "Yellow?" I try to get her attention, she slowly moves to look at me.

Her sad, watery, golden eyes stare into mine "what" she says miserably, she turns her gaze to hand.

"Why don't we go to my chambers and relax?" I stand up, trying to get her to move "I can start my extraction chamber and" Yellow angrily cuts me off.

"What's wrong with you?" Yellow quickly jumps to her feet.

"What's wrong with me? I didn't do anything" I raise my voice a little bit.

"Exactly, we just found out that we lost one of our gemlings. And you're just standing here unphased by it" yellow balls her fist, a small lighting arc coming from her elbow to her shoulder materializes "it's like you don't even care"

"Hey I'm just going to go now" Spinel's small voice cuts through the room.

"Me too" Yellow turns to the door, I grab her shoulder and turn her back around "Yellow i-" she cuts me off.

"I'm going to my chambers to think, don't try to send any messages to me" Yellow angrily turns away and heads out the door with Spinel.

Anger seeps through me as I follow them then turn to head straight for my chambers, I try to remain calm as I walk through the somehow crowded halls. As soon as the doors close behind me, I let out an angry groan. I summon a small white orb from my finger and throw it at the wall.

I curl my hands into fists, why couldn't I be sad? Or mad? Or something, other than feeling nothing at all?

I aggressively run a hand through my soft hair, I tear out any knots I come across. I begin to pace around my chambers, with one hand in my hair and the other one on my baby bump.

I yank my hand out of my hair, some clumps of hair is wrapped around my fingers, as I shake the hair off I summon my screen again "umm, log date 126 3 56, this will be my final continuation of this log" I stop pacing and I sit down on my bed.

"So it turns out that one of the gemlings has absorbed one of the other ones, I am now curious if that's going to have any side effects. But I doubt that I'll be able to see it if any occur"

I let out a long sigh "the reason I am finishing this is because I think I made Yellow mad, well not necessarily mad, just upset. But I don't understand what I did or didn't do"

"I would apologize but she said she needs some time to think, but I hope that she'll forgive me, but if not I still have about six months to fix my mistake."

"Stars, I don't know what's wrong with me, I should be devastated that we lost one of the gemlings. I should have tried to do more to cheer up Yellow, I should've done more to prevent whatever happened"

I lay my head in my hands "I need to fix this somehow, but I don't even know where to start, how am I supposed to fix something that started with something that I don't even want" I spit out angrily.

I lift my head out of my hands "Yellow, if somehow you find this, and I am gone, I just want you to know that I am very sorry that I put you through this and with the six months that I still have, I will try to make it up to you. No, I will make it up to you, no matter what"

"I still love you"

So im not very good at "angsty" stuff, so there is my attempt, hope y'all enjoyed it, see ya tomorrow!

[imagodwithnodess]

Moving-Park Jisung

Genre: fluff

word count:1,600

Whhyyyyy!!???. You thought as you look at your dirty room. Today you have to pack to move out of your room. You currently live with your aunt as you wanted to go to an American boarding school In Korea, but your sister and her husband recently moved to Korea so you and she decided that It would be best for you to move In with her. As you all know each other better, and you missed each other dearly. You sit and look at your room and wonder how you are going to stay level-headed through this process. You call the only person you know that can help you through such a stressful sItuatIon.

(M=mark lee

Y=you)

Y: heeeeeey

M:.....what do you want

Y: I can't just text my best friend to check and see how he's doIng????? I'm Insulted!

M: 1. No...no you can't 2….well what do you need!

Y: ok so I need a strong man (or men) to help me with my room

M: your room? You're literally stronger then half the boys…..also that sounds more like you need help with organIzatIon...not strength.

Y: but maaaark

M: just…….text him already

Y: ok but no….we are playing a game. Whoever texts or calls fIrst loses….I ain't no loser.

M: call hIm...bye

Y: you're the worst

M: call your boyfriend!!!

Y: fIne!!!

You close your textIng app and go Into your call logs and begrudgIngly hIt the phone Icon.

“Heelloooo”

“Shut up”

“I knew you would call me today”

“Shut up,I know I didn't want to….but I realIzed I have too”

“ so babe what do you need?”

“I'm movIng today and I need help keeping a level head”

“Fear not my lady for I will help you”

“.........”

“.......”

“you are so lame omg haha”

“Ok but so are you so...ok I’ll be there In 10”

“Ok, love you bye”

“ yeah whatever I love you too bye”

You put away your phone and start a prIorIty lIst with what you need to deal with.

10 or 15 minutes later you hear a knock on your room door, “Come In!” you say towards the door. JIsung leans In “someone order a mental paperweIght??” he says making you laugh as you turn around and get off your seat and walk towards him “hello love,” you say as you kiss him. “ hI babe,” he says after you finished your kIss. “So! I have a list of things we need to do...so let's do them” “wow I have never seen you like this” he says as you walk away from the list and he picks It up to read It. “Like what?” you say as you start to pack up your bed set “ so effIcIent, so organized,” he says as he walks over to help you. “Well, I guess there has never been a need for It” you say as you shrug your shoulders “yeah I guess not,” he says slowing down on the last couple words.

You 2 work hard to get your room all packed up…..well 1 of you anyways. If you took a tImelapse of that day It would consist of:

You running around like a mother that's kids were down for a nap and she only had 30 minutes to clean the entire house

jIsung sIttIng and gettIng up every now and then

You guys dancing to music that we put on the speaker

Your aunt peakIng In the room sometImes

You guys pIllow fIghtIng, and clothes fIghtIng, and wrestlIng

And you guys face timing dIfferent people like your family, you guy’s friends, and of course the boys at the dorms

“Hey, babe you need help with that” jIsung asked you as he saw you about to pick up a chair/reclIner “nah I got It” you say with a smile that melts his heart. You pick the chaIr up with eas and take It to the living room. JIsung Is left dumbfounded In the room, as you come back Into the room he asks “ have you always been that strang?”, you laugh and nod your head yes “ yea, but I like seeing you be all gentlemen like and manly so I let you pick things up for me” you say as your working on packIng up your closet “huh” JIsung said as he got up to help.

2 hours had passed since the chaIr. “Im hungryyy” you said layIng on the bed”    “well do you guys have any food?” jIsung says layIng on the bed next to you proppIng himself up on his elbow “nah aunt ray hasn't gone shopping this week” you say as you turn over “well….thats all my Ideas out the window” you chuckle at how easily he gives up “oh! Oh!” you say getting excIted searching for something “ what gIrl? what Is It!?” he says like your a dog trying to tell hIm someone Is stuck In a well. You find your phone and look at hIm” pizza!!!” you say as you dive on him from the floor. You both laugh and you lay there for about 10 minutes not realIzIng what you set out to do.

You remember the pizza call the pizza place. JIsung has never heard you talk to a place of business so he sits up and sees how you handle It. “Your staring at me” you say as the phone Is rIngIng “sshh order the pizza” he says wavIng his hand In a ‘shoo’ motIon. You were about to speak when someone answers the phone. All jIsung here's Is you talk In your professIonal voIce. “Hi can I get one large cheese pizza please” you say In a voice jIsung does not recognIze. After you get off the phone jIsung Is starIng lovIngly at you “what?” you say laughing through your words.

“You just...contInue to surprise me” he says smIlIng. You blush slightly even tho you can't really see It consIderIng your complexIon. You both ate as soon as the food got there. You then packed up the last of your stuff and sat down on jisungs lap In the one seat left In the room and leaned your head on his shoulder.

“Thank you for helping me today love” you say as you nestle yourself deeper In his arms “no problem baby,” he says then kisses you on the top of your head.

As he is about to leave he looks at you “ babe I want to tell you something” “yees??” then he walks back over to you and grabs your hands. He then says something that you will never forget “Y/f/n y/l/n I love you so much, I know we haven't been together very long but I feel like I learn something new about you that makes me fall more In love with you every day” he says then kisses your forehead and stares into your eyes. You were dumbfounded at how sweet and loving this state Is and how It came out of nowhere. “ I honestly don't know what to say other then I love you too babe, more then.. A Lot of things...maybe even more than pizza” you say the word pizza In the most dramatic way you can think of “whaaaaaat????” he says being as dramatic as you. You laugh and contInue to sIt there until he has to leave.

He gets In his car driving off and honkIng as a goodbye from the car. You wave from the doorstep then go back In the house when you can no longer see him. You run Into your almost empty room and laid there think about how lucky you are. As your sister calls “haay giirl” she says “so how was your day with boo??” “omg I can't even right now” as you start your story about how much you love your boyfriend.

Jisungs pov

I get to the dorms and am greeted by all of my bandmates in the living room. I guess since it's our day off they all decided to come to the dream dorm. “Hi hyungs,” i say taking my shoes off at the door. I hear alot of sounds and i assume it's because i was just at y/n’s “i'm sorry” i say being confused but still wanting to be polite. “Soo, how was the girlfriend?” Lucas says i start to blush just thinking about her “i know that face, come here and tell us all about it” teayong says. I sit on the couch and start to talk about her. Hyungs have only met jahrra about 5 times, shes really shy around newer people, so shes only just been coming out of her shell the last 2 times. So they know her just not nearly as much i do.

I didn't realize it but as i talk about her more and more they got more intrigued and slowly but surely they were all listening and looking at me “shes just, perfect, everyone has there flaws but hers pail in comparison to everything else about her.” i finish finally zoning back in “AAHHH! Our little maknea is in love!” yuta says “it sounds like you got it bad too” mark says “i guess i do” i say as they al start making fun of me (in the fun older brother way)

y/n pov

“dang sis you got It bad,” she says laughing at how her little sister fell In love “yeah….I guess I do”. you didn't realize how whipped you too were for each other till right now. LIttle do you know jIsung was realized the same thing at the dorms. You 2? Truly, t r u l y In love.

[cpknightly1]

Hello Surgey Buddies

Have you taken your Doctor's temperature lately? Not that thermometer THE OTHER ONE.

I hope you are healing and well and enjoying the emense and intense HEAT. Please stay hydrated. But slowly. Don't try to gulp liquid down when your very hot. Drink slowly a little at a time. But steadily. If not, your body will sure tell you. "That was too fast"! You'll end up tossing your cookies. Nice and steady is the way.

So here's a question for you.

Have you ever made a phone call and been confused with a phone solicitor? At least that's what I think they thought. "Wrong number"....(click). Holy Crap.

Now I feel it's better not to call them again. Unless they call me back. Sheesh.

Today marks the 7th month I've been in this wrist brace. I have to have ice on it 24 hours a day.

The diagnosis I got was, "It just happens " WTF?

Let me explain. They thought my injury was a condition called "Kenibocks syndrome" where the bone in your wrist is losing it's blood supply and eventually has to be removed. It usually happens because of an injury..they think.

Think?? I went back, he presses on the bone and no pain at all. The supply was back. However the pain still continues. For those of you who may get this it's best to keep the blood flow up. I was surprised that it can be done with wine. Or red grapes.

PARTY! I don't drink so I used massage and gentle pt.

Dr. Says it may be neurological. I've become exasperated.

Have you noticed it's very difficult to get an appointment right now? There's like a back log of patients. So your appointments are weeks or even months away. The belief is because of the backlog of effects on society and Covid.

Hopefully within the next 6 months things will adjust. It is very important to keep the appointments you make. Stay vigilant. Because you don't know when you will get another.

I may see some of you in recovery soon with this wrist. I'll bring enough ice packs to make an igloo!! Maybe we should try to play some pinochle or jenga (oh sure). And plenty of rubber bands to fling at the Doctors. Be nice to your nurses. Remember they put the bandages on.

It is true that the healing of wounds or surgery can move quicker with a lack of stress and anxiety. It helps the body to adjust in a healthy way to healing. Also very important to rest. Don't go ga-ga that the healing is finished. You could have a longer time to heal or have other complications.

Ok so someone told me that a show called "Peaky Blinders" was really good. I started watching and ended up not being able to stop. It was a marathon week. Give it a look. It is a true story.

Have you ever done that? Watched a show and you can't stop watching? It's a really great show. Hence the reason I haven't watched the final season of "Derry Girls". I hate when good shows are done.

I've started ideas for the next book. And have procrastinated with the publishing. With this wrist. You really don't know how much you use your hands together and forget to stop from trying with the injured one. "SOAB"!! has been ringing out through the entire house.

As the summer comes to an end..don't stop going to the gym. This happens to many people. And it's during these next months that your body will need it most. Halloween candy, Thanksgiving, Christmas. Even if you go twice a week you'll feel better and keep your weight in check.

I keep looking at my guitar and sighing. I'm counting on the process of the wrist to be over soon. Remember I still have 4 nodes in my throat that will be removed. Everything having to do with music is in the waiting room.

How am I coping? "Animal Crossing ". I play one handed but it takes my mind off. If you're in the game and you'd like to see my island send your amiibo#.

That's the story for now.

Always,

Chris

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[keanchantedtomeetyou]

sudden

it's chaeng's graduation and yeol's once in a while day off— an entry to #EXOPINKNarrationWeek

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"If you want, you can spend your free time outside." Dad stated. " You're mom and I had to go straight from the airport to school for your graduation and we both need rest, hun. We're old that's what we need, rest. Lots of rest." He quoted with his hands in the air to emphasize the last sentence.

"Dear, dad means if you have someone to spend your after graduation rites then go, you can meet him." Cheeks red, I turned around so that my parents wouldn't notice it.

After a few more words exchanged and after preparing my things, my phone lights up signaling a text. He must be downstairs. Should I let him in first? So what am I going to introduce him as? A friend? He is a friend. Someone close to my heart but that was all there is to it. Dismissing the thought of letting my friend meet my parents first, I gently locked the front door so as to avoid any noise remembering how the elders actually wants to rest from a tiring four hour journey.

"Chaeng, congratualtions!" Greeted by a single calla lily and a man 6 feet 1 inch tall, he opened his arms wide expecting our usual hugs. This is nothing new friends do hugs, right? So I went in to do so.

"You should have waited inside the car it's hot outside here."

"Don't you know we need our daily dose of vitamin D from the sun?" He defended.

"If you need vitamin D you wake up early and go for a walk. It's 2pm and it is freaking hot that you'll burn." This dude seriously.

"Aye! Aye! Miss maam! Starting tomorrow I'll take your advice so calm down." He surrenders far from the competitive Park Chanyeol the world knows. This guy is a wonder I can't seem to understand. He opened the front seat for me.

"You need to tell me first where we are going, Yeol." He laughed and mouthed 'it's a surprise, dear' then proceeded to start the car.

A month ago after the final list of graduates were released, Yeol asked me if I was busy on the day of my graduation. He says it's the same day as his day off so he'd like to go out. As I did not actually have plans after the ceremony, I agreed to spend his free day with him. Chanyeol is a good friend. A well-known musician who happens to be Baekhyun’s, my friend and the café owner of Delight where I usually spend my free time, cousin. Met him one time while he was trying to get away from his manager after staying up for two days while preparing for his upcoming album. He says he wanted to sleep so I let him.

It took an hour and half until he suddenly turned left to a familiar place. Surprised, I turned to him and there he was, grinning from ear to ear.

“I always wanted to go here.” I told him out of the blue.

“This is my graduation gift for you, Chaeng.” He states while trying to park the car. For the past 10 minutes my eyes were glued to the bright colors displayed as well as the exciting rides seen from outside. “You told me this was a dream for you, right? Let’s go inside.”

“Two all access tickets please.” He bought tickets and I can’t be more than excited to be able to try each ride. I’ve always been a fan of amusement parks. The kids’ all time favorite carousel, the vikings and so much more.

“We are definitely going to try log rides, Yeol. I don't care if we’re going to get all wet.” He nodded as a response.

“That is why I brought extra clothes, Chaeng. You don’t need to worry about anything. Try any ride you want, this is your day. No one is old enough for an amusement park, here every one is equal.”

28 isn’t old enough for here huh? I just recently finished with my masters and the next thing I do is go ride rollercoasters? I guess that’s a good idea to be able to get rid of all the stress the final paper caused me.

For the whole day we went on to try different rides. He suggested we do bumper cars first and it was actually fun seeing him so hyped up after losing control while being stuck in between other people’s cars. Chanyeol Park hates losing. He hates not being in control specially in games and he is now. After 10 minutes we decided to try another ride and I had to listen to him rant about how the management should have checked the car he chose as he ‘feels’ there is something wrong with it; or that’s just him trying to make himself believe he did not lose completely, he just was unlucky.

We decided to take on The Pendulum for our next ride. It’s a great ride for those who want to express their frustrations out. It was then when I realized how this day isn’t just about us celebrating my graduation but for him too. Yeol needs an outlet. Being a star, he’s expected to put on a smiling face no matter what people throws at him and it’s tiring too. I’m just glad he’s enjoying this as much as I do.

Theme park visits won’t be complete without trying their Haunted Attractions. “You don’t have to be scared, Chaeng. I got you. I’m the man, I'll protect you.” He states with shaking hands and feet. This giant does not go well with jump scares. He’s not easily afraid but easily gets surprised. I’m afraid we won’t be able to finish the whole haunted mansion journey as he suddenly gets physical when surprised. Which actually happened.

“My hand moved on it’s own!” He complained. “I did not do that on purpose, sir. I was surprised when that ghost suddenly appeared in front. It was a reflex action.”

“Okay Mr. but since now that you two are out I’m suggesting you don’t go inside once again as we don’t want our staff to get hurt.” He’s one big man so his hands definitely are huge.

He sighs disappointedly and it made me laugh. Chanyeol getting worked up because he was asked to leave the haunted mansion after he slapped a ghost is funny.

We then decided to move to the carousel, he says it's his favorite ride as a kid. I look at him the whole time and notice how cute he is as his dimple in the left cheek appears whenever he's smiling. During the whole ride he let me sit on the horses while he stood there in front.

"Are you enjoying this, Yeol?" I asked. He nods as a response and I give him a smile.

"You look beautiful when you’re happy, Chaeng. I love you.” Suddenly, upon realizing what he just said and surprised by his own words, he immediately covered his mouth. He turned away avoiding my gaze.

“I love you too, Yeol.” I answered. Slowly looking back my way wearing another surprised look as if he wasn’t just surprised by what he recently said, “YOU DO?!” He shouted. Surprised by my answer he suddenly lets go of the pole he's been holding for balance and was about to fall off the turning carousel, luckily I was able to hold onto him.

This man will forever not be funny. “I do, Chanyeol Park.”

[sae-you-sae-me]

Hello! If you're still doing headcanons, do you mind showing us what it would be like for RFA running into MC's ex? I know a lot of people probably did this one but imagine that MC's ex was like perfect like the most perfect soulmate to have with numerous skills, perfect looks, does donations and charities him/herself. And they question why they broke up?

Interesting one! Hope you like what we came up with. ;) 

Zen:

The fish bun truck was in town and Zen decided to grab some

A young man was standing by a nearby booth for some charity organization

Thinking he might be a potential party guest, he went to strike up a conversation

The man talks about the organization he recently took ownership of that helps several orphanages raise funds

The name sounded familiar and Zen realized it was the place you volunteered at before the RFA

He asked the man if he knew you

Turns out he dated you years ago

When he asks Zen how he knows you, well…this is awkward

He’s not jealous, but….Zen doesn’t extend an invitation to the next RFA party

When he sees you next time, he mentions it

He’s confused because the guy seemed nice and successful

He thought something went very wrong, and was ready to get protective

You explained that nothing went wrong, but you grew distant cuz of work so it was a mutual break up

Zen takes note and makes sure he always has time in his schedule for you

Yoosung:

You both were playing a round of LOLOL and one of the player’s names sounded familiar

You realized from the profile was from your ex

You laugh and tell Yoosung casually before logging off to cook some dinner

He’s curious, so he starts chatting with the guy

He’s surprised to find the guy is really nice

He doesn’t mention you, but asks a bit about the guy

Turns out the guy graduated college early and was settled into a good job

He just played games occasionally for fun

After Yoosung was done chatting with him, he told you what happened

He asked why you would’ve left someone who seemed so capable and well matched to you

You explained that your ex’s mom didn’t like you since she didn’t think you were well-off

Your ex broke it off to please his mother

Yoosung felt so bad, he pulled you into a hug

“Just to let you know…my mom really likes you.”

You smile, wondering how you got so lucky

Jaehee:

A customer came to the cafe and ordered coffee

Nothing was off about it, but Jaehee recognized it from the picture of your ex that you showed her before

You didn’t say much more about him, so Jaehee always respected your privacy

You never talked about him poorly and it seemed like he was an amazing person

She always wondered what happened

But when you asked to be excused from your shift early as soon as you saw him, she went into overprotective friend mode

He came to the counter to pay and asked, “Sorry, does someone by the name of MC work here?”

Jaehee replied, “Why do you ask?”

Apparently, your ex wanted to contact you again

He explained to Jaehee that you had dated a few years ago, but he broke it off because he needed space and to find himself

He wanted to get in touch with you again, but your old number didn’t work

Jaehee off-handedly dismissed him saying you didn’t work there

Later, she doesn’t say anything about it, but just makes your favorite dish and brings home chocolate

Jumin:

He had recently hired a few new employees

He was making some rounds to meet them and talk to them a little bit

He didn’t know when he had hired him, but you recognized one of the names as your ex

When he came face-to-face with him, he thought he was going to be arrogant or rude

It was quite the opposite

Your ex was skilled and very kind–similar to you

Jumin wanted to be mean to him, but really couldn’t because the guy was so nice

He asks you at home why things had been broken off

You said your ex was a workaholic that always put work above her when it came down to it

After awhile, you lost the spark

Jumin understood, but became slightly self-conscious of his own work habits

You reassured him that he never made you feel anything but loved

Still, he took your past relationship to heart and always made sure his work came second

Seven:

Work has been stressful, so he wants to start customizing another one of his cars

He knows a parts vendor in town that he’s bought from before so he goes for a visit

The co-owner comes by to check out the car model and make

He sees one of Seven’s keychains which holds a picture of you two together

He chuckles and says that you’re his ex

Seven remember you mentioning him before…but didn’t realize it was this guy

There’s some awkward silence before your ex asks how you’re doing

As Seven’s leaving, your ex tells him to say hi to you

Seven knew the co-owner before, so he knew how kind he was and successful and normal for someone so young

He wonders why you even left him in the first place

When he asks you what happened, you explain that you and your ex never connected really

He was a good guy, but he was too serious for you after awhile

You say that relationship changed you, and it’s why you saw life differently

He smiled when you say you’re so thankful for him as he and you click so well 

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