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Anyway. I'm gonna start using, "None of These Words are in the Silmarillion," as a catch-all phrase to describe that phenomenon in the Silm fandom where some concept appears from nowhere, based on nothing, makes no sense, and is treated as irrefutable canon for 3-12 business years.
#making headcanons: great!#having widely accepted established fanon: also great!#however the silm fandom takes it to a whole new level#and every once in a while youll see something like. 'and as we all know elrond is actually the secret lovechild of galadriel and gil-galad'#and youll be like 'hold up wtf we do NOT all know that please explain'#and theyll be like 'well clearly you never finished the silmarillion because its very clearly established at the very end'#and if you continue to press them they will point to a passage that doesnt even mention two of those characters#and meanwhile you dont say this because you dont want to be rude but youre thinking 'why the fuck would you make this up'#like normally even when its annoying broadly accepted fanon clearly adds something to the experience of being a fan#theres some meat there and the issue is that everyones using the same meat. and maybe you dont like that meat but its still clearly meat#the silm fandom is unique in that many of these situations are uh#i mean theres no way to be polite about it i guess#many of these silm fandom headcanons are meatless#they are uninteresting in the extreme and change nothing#and im really baffled about how people get so invested in them#what would it change if elrond was the secret lovechild of galadriel and gil-galad?#i mean. weird incest plotline i guess but often you can tell that no one has even thought that far ahead#and by the time they do think to that point its too late. the random headcanon is too deeply ingrained in their understanding of the lore#and they dont know its not canon anymore#and you wonder if youre going insane#is this what it feels like to go insane?#you try to tell them that elrond isnt actually related to either of those people#and they say 'read the silmarillion rube'#this is obviously not a real example because i dont want to be eaten alive#but its not. that far off from a real example
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might be a hot take considering the state of the tag rn but, as an oscar fan, im glad mclaren didnt give team orders. they stuck to their guns and i respect that. do i think oscar had the pace to go catch max? probably. did i want oscar to win today? absolutely. am i glad that mclaren didnt give team orders and finally did what they said they were gonna do for once in their life? YES
#i truly dont understand why everyone is so mad#mclaren said they weren’t gonna do team orders#we knew this going in to the season#so why tf if everybody so mad that they didnt do team orders???#they literally did what they said they were gonan do#and can you IMAGINE what wouldve happened if oscar had caught max???#bro he would be getting like death threats#people would start calling it gifted bc he needed team orders to get past lando#and its still early in the season!!#we dont need to be throwing ourselves into a tizzy#its literally the 3rd race#there will be PLENTY other chances or both lando and oscar to win races and stuff#its literally fine#this race also proved just how important qualifying is#and obviously we knew that#but maybe it’ll be 1-2 or 1-3 in quali for the rest of the season!!#anyway can everybody be fucking normal please#mclaren did what they TOLD US they were gonna do#and we got a 2-3#which isnt bad#fucking christ y’all need to get it together#anyway#magpie yaps#f1#formula 1#formula one#op81#oscar piastri#mclaren f1#mclaren formula 1
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Help me my Jazz Emu obsession was supposed to be super low-key when I got back into his music but now every time I see a picture of him I'm kicking my legs and giggling what is happening to me
Like- HELLO?
HELLO?!?
HELLO?!?!?!??!?!!
#am I being deranged over a completely normal and regular looking guy?#yeah probably#but also like#hes strange and odd and he fascinates me#PLUS he has those big brown deer eyes#i genuinely don't understand how there isnt a bigger fandom for him#cause there's probably like-#max 5 people on here that frequent his tag and maybe 3 that post in it#dont even get me started on the 3 people total on tiktok (love you guys)#i don't get it he's perfect Tumblr guy material#and I KNOW there are lots of other fans of him cause of his follower count#but I swear all of them have gotta just be lurkers or followed him for a random video and never though about him again#please I'm desperate for a thriving fandom for him#anyway I'm a bit obsessed with him holy fuck#kit screams into the void#fuck it I'm gonna maintag this there's three of us no one cares#jazz emu
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i do know and understand that stranger things was never meant to get as big as it did and therefore a good chunk of the audience has no fucking clue what's going on half the time because they aren't the target audience but like. you'd think that at least SOME of them would have an ounce of media literacy. you know. like stranger things is far from the hardest show in the world to understand and yet everyday my mind is blown by people's sheer stupidity and ignorance when shit is being SPOON FED to them
#AND THIS ISNT EVEN JUST ABOUT BYLER OKAY. OTHER STUFF TOO#i know my tumblr mutuals who Understand shield me from what most of the audience seems to think but like. still.#how are we STILL calling will a whiny crybaby in 2025 . how do we STILL not understand will is gay#and like. honestly the mike hate too. it's gotten so fucking old man im tired#that boy is fifteen years old and gay. of course he's an asshole#im just. sigh. im tired. this isn't even covering half of the stuff ive seen and heard people say.#normalize actually Watching shows please#stranger things#bee.txt
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🤍🩷🌊 Sayaka + Mai 🪽🩷🤍
#changeman#*in my best kurenai otoya voice*: yuri#i love them i love them i lo#this is why its important to have two girls on the team#they wORE EACH OTHERS OUTFITS YOUR HONOUR#mai isnt normally in the helicopter she's only there because sayaka let her have a go flying it do yOU UNDERSTAND#they managed to turn a crying over a boy scene into THE MOST sapphic scene in the whole fucking show someone please help me#2024 the year of being normal about women
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tried to explain to my mother that while we both experience a similar level of Catastrophic General Depression (as in going to sleep every day hoping you wont wake up for over a decade), part of why im struggling so much at my current stage of life while she managed to find things to occupy herself is due to the difference in our situations.
I'm 26, and by this time my mother was married to her boss (an older man with an established life + experience she could glom onto) and employed by him at the only job she had ever had, where she was secure insofar as she couldnt be fired without divorce, and couldnt be divorced without being fired (small family retail) so she had managed to, in one "vector" of her life, secure herself both employment and a Life Buddy.
meanwhile, at this point in my life, i have made my peace with the fact that i am extremely unlikely to find a Life Buddy of any kind (romantic, sexual, otherwise) as i am asexual + other issues, and all of my friends are going to pair up and go off to have the more stereotypical future involving kids etc, which means i will never be anyone's Priority Person, bc at best i will be in 3rd place or lower. I have also made my peace with the fact that i cannot manage to function living alone or living with roommates, and that my odds of coping with employment are similarly low, due to the Everything about me.
so while my mother and i are in similar mindsets at similar life stages, in terms of viable options, we are worlds apart. i cannot think of anything i want for my future other than not to have one. i can think of things i do not want, but what do you do when you do not want ANYTHING? i would steer in a favoured direction if i fucking had one, instead of simply spinning in circles.
the only thing i want is something i fundamentally cannot have, so theres no point in wanting that. everything else sounds like hell. which path do i take if they all end in failure?
my mother's advice is to start doing things, make an effort, go after your interests, try new things, explore opportunities, as if i havent tried that before. as if im capable of doing that without support. as if needing the support wont hurt her or my father. as if i wont feel guilty over selfishly taking up time and resources doing something stupid for no good reason and i wont disappoint them when after all the effort and time and money spent results in fucking nothing. as if i dont fucking try already. i have plenty of "interests" that bore me to tears, and im too fucked up for social interests that might be more helpful.
i cant bear the weight of trying any longer. every failure adds up to yet another stone upon my back and im not atlas, i cannot hold the weight of the world. i am so tired. i just want to rest without the daily drudgery of life dragging like a noose around my neck at all times.
#personal#can we please invent a way out that isnt through bc i dont think i can make it#i dont know if i've ever been able to cope. lol.#my mother says to me that maybe if she supported me less i would succeed more bc she managed with much less parental support#and no matter how i try to phrase it she CANNOT seem to grasp what i try to explain to her about the security she found in her marriage/#employment with my father.#like yes your mother did not support you. i am not denying that. but when i point out that you were able to escape into adulthood#via MARRIAGE and EMPLOYMENT. two things I CANNOT DO#her responding 'yeah but my mother didnt help me as an adult' is MISSING my POINT#you replaced your adult parental support with a man 21 yrs older than you mum!!!!#you married into a family business and thus married into a secure employment position (insofar as the business succeeded)#i cannot do either of those things!!! i cannot work a normal job and i cannot marry into a normal relationship!!!#and yet she's like 'i just dont get it. i was married with kids by your age' like yea i know. that doesnt fucking HELP me though does it?#she's so confused by all her kids' life paths bc she cant understand why none of us have done what she did and its like -#Partially this is a different world and Partially NONE of us want to do those things!!!#she got lucky!! she got extremely lucky!!! and shes like 'why do all of you insist on doing things the Hard Way' like girl!!!#they shut down your ride decades ago!!! its not a viable option anymore!!!
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#please understand im understating when i say a deep dive will be LONG#i have a life however the reality is idk if i have time to do any of this but#i talk enough about it & have so many time stamps basically memorized#finding things isnt the hard part its explaining them#i REFUSE to be like that person who spent just. so long explaining the word sensei. its not that deep bro#i dont want to overexplain the obvious#but i also feel like a lot of it is obvious. its just kind of. stated. right out.#& it clicks the second u make the connection#so im like. is there really anything to even explain#BUT CLEARLY THERE IS IF U THINK ITS ABOUT FUCKING. ARGUING WITH THE SCIENCE EQUIVALENT OF ENE KAGEPRO#sorry. im calm. im normal.#the essays arent an option btw ur getting them. this is a promise and threat.#i dont care if theres an interest if i dont talk about it i'll explode.#but i do wonder if anyone finds them interesting to read
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ive been putting off writing this Ling & Greed character analysis essay for like a year, im at least in the note taking portion. i needed to flip thru a couple volumes with them but i got too excited seeing their interactions with others and felt this godly desire to finally start it since i have Oh So Many thoughts about their characters and im tired of them all being inside me. just their parallels alone could take me a day to get all this shit out
#fma#ling yao#greed fma#this isnt about shipping i dont do shipping. especially with them. fuck off#i have some problems with their arcs as well like i wish we got to see some casual bonding between them#ling is one of greeds best friends but we never really get to see them talking normally to each other#i wanted to see more interactions not just bc theyre entertaining to see speak to each other#but also so we could see more of their friendship beyond the necessary scenes to get a better sense of their bond#i understand fma is about ed and al's journey and its a super tight story as is#but i still think even one tiny scene with them talking about how their dads suck would be good enough#there are hints and implications that they do talk more but please... just one semi-casual conversation is all i want#admittidly this is just me craving more of my favorite characters#but i do genuinely think this is a tiny issue in fma
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like how am i expected to be normal about this like. fr
#listen. boxman cryptid!kip means EVERYTHING to me#i have that funky lil fucker tattooed on me for a reason. its not just the saying i have him there too like#hes a big fucking deal to me. and if hes finally coming back?#im never gonna be normal again i swear to fuck#i know hes only teasing it but knowing that he has talked about wanting to bring the box back and now this#like this isnt a coincidence. hes doing this and saying these things on purpose#god i fucking hate him (extremely affectionate)#he changed me and hes probably gonna do it again and im SO ready. i think#i need to get dinner oof#just. someone. please. you understand where im coming from right?#wrestling musing#box thoughts
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i really fucking bought these.
#remember when you were a kid and you had those planet things that hang from th eceiling? no?#well either way those things#im gonna regret giving out this much info but#for one. venus is fucking superior in every way to mars. im not a fan of mars im not sorry.#sure the speculation and sientific research is interesting. but personally? otherwise its a boring ass planet.#the only thing that makes it interesting is the 'face' on it and the possible prior life forms#which arent actually gonna be as interesting as normal ppl think#seriously why do so many ppl think that possible life forms means humanoid???#i personally am interested in the possibly prior flora anf fauna etc. thats fun.#but i swear people who are like “were gonna find aliens” have honestly ruined it for me.#plus i just like venus more. an eternal hell? baby thats my life sign me the fuck up#okay 2. we need better uranus rep. im not being sarcastic i genuinely think that as funny as uranus is. we need to have better depictions o#it.this set is the most accurate one i could find and uranus is fucking purple.#BUT it does have some white paint going around the proper way to simulate uranus' rings.#im gonna assume they couldnt out actual rings like saturns bc of where the hangy part is. yes this is copium.#seriously though. when i was a kid i had a whole argument with my mother on if uranus had rings or not.#it fucking does btw they go the oppisite way of saturn. fucking please look it up.#plus uranus is a really really fucking pale blue like its lighter than baby blue bro. though i can understand it being enhanced bc its pret#y. it should NOT in ANY CIRCUMSTANCE BE DARKER THAN NEPTUNE. neptune is THE BLUE PLANET.#oops im stupid#totally didnt get these mixed up first time round#also pluto and mercury are gray.#it has pluto being a light blue which just isnt true at all. pluto has a red spot for god sakes you did NOT need to make him blue to convey#it. hell its MORE confusing.
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SONG MINGI FIC RECS
You can find other Ateez fic recs HERE!
The behemoth part two 🫡🫡 fun fact at the time of me writing this san and mingi have equal amount of posts on this blog and thats what you call being double-biased 👍👍 once again unfortunately this will have another part as i could not fit all my recs in this post fuck tumblr but i hope you all enjoy reading about my sweet sweet princess 🥹🥹 and give a lot of love to these authors!!!!
DISCLAIMER none of these works are mine and majority are MATURE 18+, please read all warnings before reading!!!
Key:
✨ - My Favs
🔥 - Smut (MINORS DNI)
⛈️ - Angst
💗 - Fluff
🍑 - Humor
SERIES
Princess pt 2 - @choisanboobenthusiast 🔥
it probably won't be shock that a lot of the mingi fics i recommend are sub!mingi and this is just the beginning 🤤🤤 HOW HE IS WRITTEN HERE IS JUST SO FUCKING CUTE I COULD CRY 😭😭 hes just so needy i- 🫠🫠
Under the Radar - @everyonewooeverywhere 🔥 Fuckboy!Mingi ✧ Ongoing
like i said in my reblog i truly can understand mc because i would also be in love immediately with this man that it would be a concern for everyone around me 🙂↕️🙂↕️🙂↕️ her making him chase her too AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I LOVE THAT
Genesis - @songmingisthighs ⛈️💗🍑 Fashion Mogul!Mingi ✧ SMAU
i will say the main trope of this story isnt for everyone BUT IT SURE AS HELL IS FOR ME!!!!! what can i say about this author's smau's they are so interesting with dynamic characters and plotlines but still so funny and i love mingi in this 😭😭😭😭
Use me pt 2 - @hwaightme 🔥⛈️💗 Friends to Lovers
mingi is deeply in love with mc and offers himself up to them and i will cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 hes just so precious in this two shot literally the sweetest bub that deserves everything 🥺🥺
show & tell pt 2 - @jensthwa ✨🔥⛈️💗 Friends to Lovers AU
a friends to lovers trope will always get me especially when it starts with them "helping" each other which makes the realization that they love each other sosososososososoooooooo good 🙂↕️🙂↕️
the princess treatment chronicles pt 2 - @yuyusuyu 💗 Friends to Lovers AU
oh god everyone in this fic is absolutely adorable 🥹🥹🥹 mingi has a list of how to make him fall in love and mc is doing a real good job at completing that list 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 THEY ARE JUST SO CUTE THIS IS JUST FLUFFY FLUFF I LOVE IT!!!!!
Dirty Little Secret pt 2 - @xosannie 🔥 Friends to Lovers ✧ Sex Worker!Mingi
mc stumbles across mingis secret twitter account and cant stop thinking about it but same of course absolutely completely normal reaction to seeing videos of mingi getting himself off like???????? n e ways mc gets to help mingi in his career what a good friend 🥰🥰
ONE SHOTS/DRABBLES
Sweet Juice - @hongism 🔥 Magic AU
the patient in 206 - @frenchkisstheabyss 💗 Hospital AU
[5:04 AM] - @edenesth 💗
Untitled - @sluttywonwoo 🔥
Untitled - @kitten4sannie 🔥 Supernatural AU ✧ Ghost!Mingi
look at the way i ride - @biaswreckme 🔥
edging mingi - @1ovewoo 🔥
Untitled - @sluttywonwoo 🔥
realistic sex with mingi - @byuntrash101 🔥💗
[12:03 am] - @min-gis 🔥
steamroller - @fallinforgyu ✨🔥⛈️💗 Friends to Lovers AU
this fic..... oh my god..... if i wasnt already in love with mingi THIS JUST MADE IT 10000000% WORSE 😭😭😭😭 childhood friends to lovers, pining, unrequited love (not really but u kno asdfsdfgfddf) and just the sweetest exploration of each other as they decide to lose their virginities together AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA 😩😩😩😩😩 its just perfect ok i love them
Untitled - @thetypingpup ✨🔥 Dragon!Mingi
fucking sub dragon!mingi.... what else is there to say 🤤🤤 like him just soaking in the praise and possessiveness ohmygooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo😩😩😩😩
Tuesday | Seven - @sluttywoozi ✨🔥💗
we have 3 major hits in a row AND I AM LOSING MY MIND REREADING ALL OF THEM 😵💫😵💫😵💫 this is some of the hottest domestic smut ive ever read quite possible 🫠🫠 reader is so incredibly horny for mingi AND I LIVE FOR THAT SHIT and damn mingi is down 😩😩
Assert your Dominance - @everyonewooeverywhere 🔥 Mechanic!Mingi
Untitled - @k-hotchoisan 🔥
[The Pack Next Door] Mingi: Friends with Benefits - @gamerwoo 🔥⛈️💗 Friends to Lovers ✧ Wererwolf!Mingi
Yeehaw - @desirehorizon 🔥
Kinktober Day 30 - @ateezreactionsandscenarios 🔥
Face Sitting with Mingi - @beenbaanbuun 🔥
Use it. - @a-soft-hornytiny 🔥
NSFW Alphabet - @sxcret-garden 🔥
Sleepless Inquiries - @catkyunie 💗
mingi x chubby!reader - @sluttywoozi 🔥💗
Untitled - @sluttywonwoo 🔥
After Work - @ateezscupid 🔥
It's okay, baby - @ateezscupid 🔥
Make Up - @nateezfics 🔥💗
12:06 - @desirehorizon 🔥
booksmart - @byuntrash101 ✨🔥
i am probably a broken record at this point but god do i love sub!mingi AND NERD LOSER MINGI FUCK ME😩😩😩😩😩 mc is such a good tutor for him wowowow 🤤🤤
Killer Eyes - @pirateprincessblog 🔥⛈️ Prisoner!Mingi ✧ Doctor!Reader
[9:47 PM] - @edenesth 💗
most vulnerable - @taexual ⛈️💗 Mafia AU
Hibiscus - @desirehorizon 🔥
Dear Princess - @ateezscupid 🔥 Medieval AU ✧ Vampire!Mingi
Unspoken Desires - @yourlocaljonghoe 🔥
play hooky - @everyonewooeverywhere 🔥
under the sheets - @k-hotchoisan 🔥
save a horse, ride your best friend - @seonghwaddict 🔥💗 Friends to Lovers AU
pussy drunk w/ mingi - @beenbaanbuun 🔥
22:46 - @seonghwaddict 💗 Roomates AU ✧ Friends to Lovers AU
country boy w/ mingi - @beenbaanbuun 💗 Country Boy!Mingi
Hearts Awakened, Live Alive - @sorryimananti-romantic ✨⛈️💗 Fantasy AU Demon!Mingi
tortured cursed mingi my beloved 🥺🥺🥺 this was a fic i read early on into getting into ateez and it is so fucking good 👏👏 like the concept is so interesting (esp for someone like me who hasnt watched any ghibli movies) but catch me sobbing for erebos on a daily basis😭😭😭😭😭😭
Eyes Roll - @jjunieworld 🔥
Wave - @sorryimananti-romantic 💗 Teacher AU
Tired - @hongism 🔥💗
mind over matter - @mingisaddctn 🔥
worship w/ mingi - @beenbaanbuun 🔥
Untitled - @thetypingpup 🔥 Cowboy!Mingi
Untitled - @k-hotchoisan 🔥
Untitled - @thetypingpup 🔥 Dragon!Mingi
brainless w/ song mingi - @beenbaanbuun 🔥💗
butterflies - @hwaslayer 🔥💗 Parent AU
11:15 pm - @minranghae 🔥
backseat serenade - @k-hotchoisan 🔥
boyfriend texts 2 - @beenbaanbuun 🍑
sacrifices - @lustfuldevils 🔥
Rainy Morning - @nateezfics 🔥
Untitled - @sxcret-garden 🔥
Dry Humping - @gingersxng 🔥
Untitled - @dairyminki 💗
Fantasize - @2cupids 🔥
song mingi as boyfriend - @mybelovedwoo 🔥💗
skinny dipping - @byuntrash101 🔥 Swimmer!Mingi
Sour Candy - @0097linersb 🔥
Track 017 - 2Seater - @desirehorizon 🔥
please baby - @starminzoo 🔥
still your biggest fan - @byuntrash101 🔥
Untitled - @everyonewooeverywhere 🔥
situationship w/ song mingi - @beenbaanbuun ⛈️ SMAU
Untitled - @everyonewooeverywhere 🔥
Baby Fever - @everyonewooeverywhere 🔥
Untitled - @justaaveragereader 🔥
00:00 - @iannmin 💗
Untitled - @hrt4yongie 🔥
Untitled - @everyonewooeverywhere 💗 College AU
friends to lovers with mingi - @lxvemaze 💗🍑 Friends to Lovers
Untitled - @cheollipop 🔥
Untitled - @thetypingpup 🔥
Rings of Temptation - @crimsonbubble 🔥
6:52 pm - @323cutie 💗
Obsession - @everyonewooeverywhere 🔥⛈️
10:02 - @kwanisms 🔥⛈️💗 Hyena!Mingi
#happy comeback day!!!!!#i predict my favorite song on this album will be selfish waltz but i feel like enough could surprise me 🤔🤔#ateez#ateez fic recs#ateez x reader#ateez smut#ateez angst#ateez fluff#song mingi#mingi x reader#mingi smut#mingi angst#mingi fluff#merengue makes lists
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Chapter 8
So sorry for leaving you guys hanging for so long but I think this chapter is good i finally gave you what all of you were asking for!! HOWEVERR, this chapter is quite short cause i was kinda rushing to get this out cause i felt bad, but I promise next chapter will be better!!But if you guys want this series to go into college you have to expect that this happiness will change sooo…😏😏😏 PLEASE GIVE ME FEEDBACK AND IDEASS ILLYYY
Paige POV
It had been a few days since she talked to Katie and Paige had tried to go back to normal. She really had.
She had been sleeping in Azzi’s room. Trying to eat again. Trying to pretend to the whole Fudd family that she wasn’t slowing eating herself up inside. Trying to pretend that she wasn’t thinking about packing her bags and going somewhere else every night after dinner.
It had started to become normal – ish. Azzi had stopped pushing her to talk, stopped trying to break down the walls she had built. Instead she just tried to let Paige break them down herself. She’d taken a step back.
Even when she knew what Paige was doing. Pretending she was fine. And it might’ve worked on Katie and Tim. But Azzi knew her best friend. She could see it in her eyes. How her smile didn’t quite reach them. How when they sat next to each other, Paige tensed, then quickly tried to cover it up and go back to normal. But Azzi knew. Of course she did. She remembered how when the same thing happened just some months ago, they would curl up into each other. Heads resting on shoulders, blanket over both of them.
Now it was different.
But Azzi had to ignore it. She had tried so hard to reach Paige, but for the first time in the whole time they’ve known each other. She just couldn’t do it. And she didn’t know why.
She knew what Paige’s dad said. Basically that she couldn’t come back to her house if she wanted to be gay. Paige had told her that. But what Azzi didn’t understand, was why that had to change their whole friendship. How they couldn’t be what they had been for years. But it didn’t look like it was going to go back to normal anytime soon.
So Azzi accepted it. She talked to her best friend like she couldn’t see right through her every time they looked in the eyes (which, to Paige’s best efforts, wasn’t too often anymore). Like she couldn’t see how her bags were packed more than they had ever been.
Azzi POV
Azzi was walking down the stairs from her room in the late afternoon. She didn’t know where Paige even was, probably somewhere bouncing a ball trying to pretend she was fine. That’s how it went lately anyway.
“Hey mum, can I talk to you for a sec?” Azzi asked as she stepped into the kitchen.
Katie looked up from the plate of watermelon she was cutting to see her daughter, with a look in her eyes she didn’t quite know how to read yet.
“Yeah of course honey what’s up?” Katie said softly, placing the knife to the side.
“Can you please tell me what’s wrong with Paige. I need to know why she’s being like this. I need to know why she is acting like I fucking shot her dog.”
“Language,” Katie warned, not really caring though as the girls swear all the time.
“I’m sorry but I just can’t take this anymore. Something is seriously wrong, i know what her dad said to her and it was terrible but that doesn’t mean she would be acting like this to me. I’m worried about her, it’s either she looks like she’s dying or she’s pretending everything’s fine when it clearly fucking isnt!” Azzi’s voice was raising now, getting more frustrated with each word that came.
There was a small moment of silence. Both women looking at each other, Azzi searching for answers and Katie not knowing how to reply.
“I think you need to talk to her about it, i can’t tell you for her it needs to come from her,” Katie said finally.
“Mum trust me I’ve tried so hard but she just won’t say anything if she doesn’t just brush it off. I don’t get why she can talk to you more than me! We are best friends but i feel further away from her as ever!”
“I know, but I’m serious, you have to hear it from her. She will come around i know you’ve been giving her space which is good but i think it’s time for you to push a little bit but in a way you both can just be calm.”
It wasn’t what Azzi wanted to hear, but she did know how she was going to feet to Paige and when. She just needed Paige to stop with the bullshit basically.
Paige POV
There had only been two places lately that Paige really could just let herself be at peace and her mind just stop for a while.
One was the court, obviously. Basketball just let her be free and all she had to focus on was the ball and the rim.
But the other place was the roof. That was where she felt like everything just was still. Where nothing was on her mind.
Lately she has been going up there at night. Sneaking out of the bed as quietly as she could, not washing Azzi (even though Azzi was still awake), and just sitting up there for a while.
It was where she could just go out and let her mind not think about anything. Nothing about her father’s words, nothing about basketball and her future and the pressure she had. Not even anything about Azzi snuck in.
Just herself.
So that night she did just that. She ate with the Fudd’s, force herself to eat something, pretended that sitting next to Azzi and having their knees slightly didn’t bother her. Them politely say goodnight, hop into bed with Mazzini, talk for a while.
Then finally, go out to the roof and just out there.
But this night was a little different. She had only been sitting there for about 10 minutes when someone took a seat beside her in silence. The person who she went up here for hours just to stop thinking about.
Azzi Fudd.
They sat in silence for a long while. Just the soft tussle if leaves in the wind and the breaths of the two girls could be heard.
Until Azzi finally spoke up.
“I’ve seen you everytime you come out here, you didn’t think I would notice did you.”
Both their gazes didn’t move from the sky.
“Sorry I don’t mean to wake you.” Paige replied softly.
“You’re not waking me, I’m already awake.”
The silence returned for a moment. Both girls not knowing how to continue.
They weren’t sitting close, but it was close enough that Paige could feel the shiver off Azzi’s body. She quietly slipped off her hoodie handing it over without a word. Then the silence returned.
“Why are you out here Azzi.” Paige whispered after a minute.
“Could say the same to you.”
“And I would say that it gives me comfort. But what is your reason.”
“Because I’m worried about you.”
The conversation was slow but it was real. They still weren’t looking at each other, just at the sky. After a moment Paige responded.
“You don’t have to be worried.”
“But I can be, and I really am. Because I care about you, and I’m not going to stop trying to understand what is happening with you until you actually tell me.”
Paige didn’t reply, but Azzi caught how her breath hitched just slightly. Then Azzi spoke again.
“Cause I don’t get how my mum knows more about why my best friend is acting like this than me.”
Azzi finally looked at her. Really looked. Saw how her jaw was sharp in the moonlight but she still looked soft. How her eyes were beautifully blue and green, and her hair was in that slick back bun she always liked. Paige was stunning. She forced herself to look away.
“I think it’s time you actually tell me what’s going on in that head of yours.”
Paige took a deep breath, then spoke.
“When I tell your can you please not be mad.”
“Of course not.”
Paige took another breath.
“You know how I said it was crazy how my dad thought I liked you?”
Azzi just nodded, giving Paige the time to speak.
“Well i don’t think it was actually crazy at all. I think it was perfectly reasonable.”
She took a break then spoke again.
“I’ve tried to push it down for so long. Tried to make myself believe it want true even though I always knew it was. But when he told me that it just pushed me over the edge and I couldn’t do it anymore so I tried to distance myself. But it only made things worse it seems.”
Paige finally then turned to look at the girl sitting next to her.
“I like you Az. And I know i shouldn’t in the way I do but I can’t stop it anymore because I’m hurting both of us.”
Azzi turned to meet the blondes eyes. They held each others gaze for a moment.
Then they both leaned it and met each other in the middle. Their lips touched slowly at first, testing the waters.
But then Paige’s hand moved to the younger girls neck, turning her head slightly, deepening the kiss. Azzi did the same, one hand sliding up into the other girls hair, while the other moves to her tee shirt, tugging it to bring her closer.
Paige’s other hand then moved to Azzi’s side, moving under the layers to meet skin. She squeezed her hand lightly causing the younger girl to let out a noise in the back of her throat.
This went on for a long while, each girl deepening the kiss further every few seconds. Hands roaming eachother a bodies. Only pulling away just enough to take a breath.
When both girls finally pulled away, they were both dazed. Their lips swollen from making out with hunger, breaths heavy. They just looked at eachother for a moment until Azzi spoke up.
“I like you too P, I have for a long time now. I’m pretty sure you can tell by what just happened.”
Paige chuckled at that, a real laugh. Something Azzi hadn’t seen for a long time.
“Yeah, I noticed from the way we just made out for a solid 10 minutes.”
“Yeah, been thinking about doing that since we met at USA.”
“Yeah, so have I Az.”
They sat there for a little longer, hands still on eachother, eyes still locked.
“We should probably go back inside.” Azzi said softly, but making so effort to move.
Paige just nodded. Finally, they both separated, walking back over to the window to Azzi’s room.
When they climbed back into bed, they curled into each other, legs wrapped, heads close.
When they were both dozing off Paige whispered quietly to the room.
“I love you Azzi. I will never stop until I can’t anymore. Thankyou.”
She didn’t expect Azzi to hear. She actually thought she asleep. But then she felt a light squeeze on her hand.
“Me too P.”
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I came here to be a hater and hate on the minecraft movie trailer.
Get ready because this is probably the longest and the most autistic post ive made so far
I wont talk about the weird cgi and how unprofessional it looks but about how inaccurate the trailer is because it pisses me off and I have to be a nerd about it <3
ALSO IM NOT SURE IF TUMBLR WILL LET ME POST ALL OF THIS IN ONE POST so if it doesnt ill reblog with the rest <:3
first of all, those are NOT minecraft mountains.
Yes such seeds exist and you can find smt like that super easily in the game but it does NOT look so blocky
It should be a bit more smooth like here ⬆️
Next, what the fuck happened to the flowers.
Alot of the plants, trees, etc look like a disrespectful rip off of minecraft
Talking about plants, the trees are a big wtf
On the first pic you can see the log is SO THIN. LIKE THINNER THAN A TOOTHPICK. In the second you can see it is thicker, but because the block that fell out is so Itty bitty, you have to make the tree thinner.
The tree is as wide as the players, and when the block falls out its bigger than whatever the fuck this is. Yes I understand they have to carry the blocks and they can't make it too big, but you know what's a good solution? - make the blocks bigger when they fall out, but make them shrink when they get close/get put into a chest or inventory. SO EASY
Also I know you can find pink sheep naturally in the game, but oh come on.
You want to show how sPeCiAl the characters are and that they're sOoOoOo special they found a pink sheep on their spawn but oh my God you could have just let it be a normal sheep.
We stay with animals, and WHAT HAPPENED TO THE POOR WOLF. THE SNATCHED WAIST???? WHAT DID YOU DO TO HIM ☹️
and why is the creeper so, fluffy. Creepers are NOT made out of fur they are made of what alot of minecraft players suspect rotten skin like zombies or a skin-alike material, but it is NOT fur.
Also, *wrong buzzer sound* llamas don’t just spawn naturally. Unless theres a wandering trader (or however theyre called in english) they aren’t able to spawn just like that. They also usually have the carpet on their back.
EDIT: TURNS OUT THEY DO SPAWN NATURALLY IN MOUNTAIN BIOMES. still the Llama being here looks like they just put her there to try and "be funny" ykwim?
I also wanted to also say, this one character I feel that they're gonna be the most stereotypical, annoying one out of the whole movie and my ears hurt just looking at them
I wanted to say that the portal shouldn't be blue but like. Only the nether portal is purple, it's unknown how other portals look so... yeah
But still wtf is this cube??? What's the fuck are you holding young man???
Also, talking about mobs, piglins dont look like that, they dont have red light in their eyes, they dont have those drum-things because THEY DONT EVEN EXIST IN MINECRAFT which i will get to latur. They aren’t able to build like that, they aren’t able to get wood for trapdoors and for the fences and iron for the chains. Also they do not even know how to craft, they probably domt even know what a crafting table is. And ghasts also aren’t able to be in the overworld. I understand that theyre invading the land ans taking over but still Like Cmon >:(
I also wanted to say that this is not how nether looks but like. It does a bit, like where the piglins usually spawn ykwim? so ill give them that, the nether looks alr
Anyway TALKING ABOUT THINGS THAT DONT EXIST IN MINECRAFT: whatever this is, it isnt craftable in minecraft, unless there are mods installed. But the „mods” excuse can be used for everything in this post. It was the first thing i saw that pissed me off so badly that i had to make this post because like JUST USE ALL THE STUFF THAT THE ORIGINAL FRANCHISE HAS TO OFFER! NORMAL BUCKETS WOULD PROBABLY WORK JUST FINE!
Last but not least, if you think those two are the same character ive got some bad news for you buddy.
At least dye his beard brown. At least get the colours right. Please.
I think i mentioned everything i wanted. Lets hope the movie will get fixed or will turn out to be at least a bit better.
Thank you for letting me get nerdy about it <3
#pawl3ss#shitpost again#Rant#minecraft#minecraft movie#Honestly im so happy to talk about this because i absolutely love minecraft and talking about something that can -#- that can potentially ruin the fanbase of one of the most beloved franchises lets me yap about minecraft & it just makes me so happy :3#it makes me so mad that a movie about one of my favourite games is being so disrespected like#i bet my whole life savings that i could have made a minecraft movie post it on yt and it woulve been ten times better that this shit
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npd culture is i am trying. so hard. so hard to be just fucking normal about my chosen person. i have tried so hard to not be weird and clingy and co-dependent. and ive done a better job than usual. but they havent spoken to me in days. everything sent in the last fucking like. 5-ish days has just been from me. i have tried talking over those 5 days and the only time i got any response at all? is when one of us talked about listening to a podcast they liked (and tried to get us to listen to).
i am tired. i am being as benevolent as possible. i am trying to be as understanding as possible. but i have established that this is something i struggle with. i have expressed this incredibly clearly and still. still i get nothing. still i get nothing. still i get nothing. nothing!!!!!. i always always ALWAYS try to start conversations. i am ALWAYS the one leaving out lines and hooks for talking and i get nothing. i get nothing. i dont get anything. they "promise" they "read everything" but that doesnt MATTER if i get NOTHING. NOTHING. FUCKING NOTHING HOW IS THAT FAIR. YOU CAN SAY YOU READ EVERYTHING BUT THAT DOESNT MATTER BECAUSE ITS NOT LIKE I KNOW THAT. YOU DONT SAY ANYTHING TO ME. I HAVE NOBODY ELSE TO TALK TO. NOBODY ELSE I AM COMFORTABLE ENOUGH TO TALK TO. i dont have anyone else.
i love my chosen person. i love them, of course i do theyre my best friend. but i am so. so. so tired. im so tired. im so tired and i am so angry and like. what the fuck, man, yk? what are you waiting for me to do. do you want me to beg. please talk to me. please. this isnt fair. you know whats wrong with me, ive begged you ive cried to you ive said so much bullshit trying to get your attention. please. please. i thought you loved me. i love you. please.
-🐢. sorry. whatever, yk? honestly just fucking kill me at this point man.
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#im sorry man that honestly sounds like a them problem. theyve communicated as clearly as you can#npd culture is#actually narcissistic#actually npd#narcissistic personality disorder#npd#cluster b#-🐢
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FLOWERS IN DECEMBER !
୨୧. pairing - yang jungwon x reader
୨୧. CW - angst to fluff. hurt/comfort, yelling, established relationship, non!idol jungwon, you go to the same uni and live tg, suggestive at the end
୨୧. summary - you and jungwon get into an argument, and he accidentally raises his voice and yells at you, causing you to start crying.
୨୧. a/n - this is lwk really bad guys i’m sorry…
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december 20 was supposed to be just a normal day for you and your boyfriend of 3 years, jungwon. it was just another day of you overworking yourself at home, while he’s out with his friends. you don’t even check the time, too busy trying to understand punnett squares to care. the sun slowly disappears, leaving you to turn on a lamp so you can see the papers infront of you. your phone gets a call, but it is on do not disturb, so you wont see it.
two hours later, now one am, the entire dormitory silent, and here you are, still working. you are running on five cups of coffee and two oreos, but are starving and so tired. suddenly the door to your dorm opens, you can hear it through the thin walls but don’t get up because you already know its jungwon. you feel too dizzy to even move, just returning to your work. he comes into your shared bedroom, looking upset and worried.
“y/n? i was calling you. why didn’t you pick u—” he pauses in his sentence when he sees you hunched over your desk, taking notes on some stupid biology video. “y/n. we talked about this, okay? you can’t keep doing this, its so frustrating.. please. im worried about you. have you even eaten?” he says, his voice involuntarily getting stern.
you look up at him, letting out a soft sigh as your tired eyes meet his annoyed ones. “i’ve eaten a couple oreos. i’m fine, won. just.. go to bed okay?” you mutter, not wanting to argue with him. he isnt having it and snatches your pen out of your hand, earning an immediate “hey!” from you. he glares at you, actually getting mad you are doing this to yourself. “y/n a couple oreos isnt good enough. you need to be eating more then that. i’m not going to bed unless your coming with me.” he sounds pissed.. it makes you slightly nervous but you stand your ground.
you get up and off your chair, now standing infront of him as you cross your arms over your chest. “give me my damn pen.” you say defiantly, beginning to also get defensive but keeping your voice at a normal level. jungwon, however, is not as patient as you. his voice gets a bit higher, just ever so slightly. “no. your going to bed. now. i’m tired of this bullshit.” he protests, gripping your pen.
“jungwon come on, stop it. i’m almost done.. just-” you start, but he cuts you off. he really doesn’t mean to and doesn’t want to hurt you but raises his voice significantly. “no! stop it! just COME TO BED! i’m sick and tired of your shit, y/n! i already fucking told you! just stop this! god!” he shouts, but pauses and feels the instant regret once he sees you tense up and start to visibly tremble. he takes a step toward you and you take a step back.
“y/n, sweetheart, please baby.. i didn’t mean to yell.. i’m so sorry.. what are you doing..?” his voice is quiet now and his eyes are filled with fear as he watches you grab a pillow and a blanket from the closet and leave the room. he follows you like a scared puppy and his eyes go wide once he sees you setting up camp on the couch. he slumps against the wall and sighs quietly, deciding to try and give you space.
that night he lays restless in your bed, laying on the side you should be on, but you are passed out on the couch. he needs you in his arms, unable to even sleep without you, so he gives up trying to leave you alone and makes his way to the living room where you lie, asleep. he kneels down at your side and gently lifts you into his arms, bridal style, careful to not wake you. he brings you back into the bedroom and lays you on the bed, crawling in beside you. he immediately turns your sleeping body over and buries his face in your neck, his arms wrapping tight around you as he almost instantly drifts off.
in the morning, you are the first to wake, noticing you aren’t on the couch anymore, and instead in your bed, jungwon completely sprawled on top of you. he’s hugging you with an iron grip, as if you’ll leave if he loosens up. you sigh, remembering the events of last night, your head falling back on the pillow. your hand comes up to caress his hair, waiting until he stirs so the two of you can talk. eventually, he does, burying his head further into your neck and mumbling your name, his lips ghosting across your sensitive skin. you tilt his chin up to look at his face, which looks stressed and you can tell he was crying last night while he held you, dried tears on his cheeks.
“i’m so sorry my baby. i didn’t mean to yell at you. i’m just so worried about you and i want you to take care of yourself. i don’t think you understand how much i love you, sweetheart. i love you more then i love myself. i’d seriously take a bullet for you. please forgive me, y/n. i’ll make it up to you honey, i swear.” he says quietly, his voice laced with sleep, as he lays his head on your chest and caresses your neck. you let out the smallest sigh and kiss his head.
“you know i can’t stay mad at you ever, won. i forgive you. i’m sorry for always being a pain in your ass, always worrying you and being stubborn when you try to help me. i’ll be better, okay? i pinky promise.” you softly intertwine your pinkies and kiss it, giving him the tiniest smile. he sits up on you and leans down to kiss your lips, with a sudden fervor. it makes you whine with need, the way his touch feels so apologetic as he gently parts your thighs, nestling himself between them as he kisses down your stomach.
“let me make it up to you, yeah?” he murmurs, looking up at you with a knowing smirk, lust prevalent in his gaze.
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@vixialuvs . don’t steal my work !
#jungwon x reader#jungwon#enhypen x reader#enhypen#yang jungwon#yang jungwon x reader#enhypen x you#jungwon x you#jungwon x y/n#enhypen jungwon#enha x reader#enhypen scenarios#jungwon scenarios#jungwon comfort#jungwon fluff#enhypen fluff#enha fluff
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Holy fucking shit some of y'all need to understand that you're an internalized homophobe. I swear to FUCK y'all will look at two super shippable people and say "but i dont understand why people ship them 🥺🥺 they just cant let two men be friends 🥺🥺🥺" bestie have you considered that friends to lovers is a very popular trope which is an enjoyed delicacy in all continents of the world?????
You're free to ship whoever you want and dislike ships as well but DO NOT look at ships like satosugu, vanoe, johnlock, masterdoctor, chisataki, and tell me you DONT UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE SHIP THEM.
The fucking problem with y'all is that you refuse to see homosexuals as normal people. Y'all just consider every person is straight unless stated otherwise.
"oh, but vanitas has a girlfriend!" Literally nobody is denying that. We're just saying we dont like that ship because its being shoved down our throats.
"satoru isnt gay" stop saying "gay" like its an insult to his character. He's a living being first, a teenager second, a student third — as far as i see it being gay shouldn't even be a personality type. Its a sexual orientation, not a change of character. Be so fr rn.
"chisato and takina are just good friends" FRIENDS WHO WILL DIE FOR EACH OTHER CANNOT BE CONSIDERED ROMANTIC ???? HELLO????
"y'all hate to see healthy male friendship" y'all hate to see functional homosexual relationships which dont follow the traditional uwu girl and cocky boy dynamic.
"this is the reason why men are afraid of being friends" ??????? I don't even understand this statement lmao.
Im not saying you have to ship every mlm and wlw, but please PLEASE dont stand there and have the AUDACITY to tell me "i dont understand why people ship them" you dont understand that because you think being a homosexual isnt normal. You think there's this specific criteria homosexuals need to fit into. You think every character is straight unless and until the author outright says otherwise.
#i dont know how to better articulate this#ON THAT NOTE PEOPLE NEED TO STOP HATING GIRLS FOR “GETTING IN THE WAY”#proud jeanne lover here#shes my wife#vanoe#vanoé#satosugu#chisataki#johnlock#master doctor who#masterdoctor
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