Life lately
It’s been a while since I last posted a text blog here and I can still remember how I felt back then. The pandemic has really impacted everybody and personally, as a front liner, it was really tragic. My job as an ER nurse has become really exhausting instead of fulfilling. I can still remember going to work with heavy weight on my feet. Esp during the peak of COVID delta variant, I can painfully describe how i felt like giving up. But it was also the time I realized that the support I was receiving from my workmates and friends back then has been really helpful. The team that I’ve worked with in Makati Medical Center Emergency Department has been very very lovely. I was happy.
But I still left. Why? I believed I was trapped with something that will never be in my favor. There were times that I also thought that I was contented with what’s being presented to me and didn’t ever think of what’s ahead. I wanted to achieve so much and even if I was happy, I will never get to reach them if I don’t leave.
I moved to the UK March 2023. It’s the scariest decision I’ve ever made in my life. I have been independent since I started working but the first few weeks living here has made me become like a toddler needing my mom everyday. Nobody taught me how to live abroad and when I got here, it felt like I had to discover everything on my own. Good thing that I have friends here from uni and previous work who guided me on what to do. It was a good decision choosing London over the outskirts.
4 months have passed and I’m still adjusting to the weather and culture. It is very hard to cope. I thought I have figured out my life and people think that i’m so put together when i’m actually not. There’s still a lot to discover and to explore. One of my friends told me that he was also a mess before but things will get better and that I will love London even more.
So far it has been better: Everyday has been a learning opportunity for me. I am slowly learning how to manage my task and time in my new workplace although it hasn’t been the same as the previous one and honestly, I still hate it. What’s keeping to stay is the team and people that i am working with. ;) I was able to buy things that I can’t afford before: my dream shoes, makeup, and gadgets. It’s not because I am splurging but I realized that I deprived myself to it and that I deserve and need it. (Char ngita og reason haha) I also got the chance to decorate my own bedroom and make it cozy as possible. And I get to enjoy my alone time.
I’ll be turning 30 in a few days and I just wanted to achieve peace of mind and genuine happiness. I just wanted to quote something from one of my favorite songs by Two Door Cinema Club:
“It took a little time to make a little better
It’s only going out
Just one thing then another you know
Let’s make this happen, girl
We’re gonna show the world that something good can work
And it can work for you
And you know that it will.”
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What a Girl Wants
GBC - Films - presents -
Legal - Permission -
Musical - Rodgers and Hammer -
Stein - Changing Title - Tentative -
'South Pacific'
(Asian Version)
(Back and Forth in Time)
Add Comedy - 2 - Romance
Musical - Adventure - Drama
Legal Permit - 'The King: Eternal
Monarch'
BACK AND FORTH IN TIME SO
2 - RESCUE - JOHN KERR - AS
MARINE - FRONT - LINES WW2
AS - EUN WOO CHA - ASTRO
'A GOOD - DAY - 2 B A - DOG'
THUS - PHILIPPINES' - THEIR
YOUTUBE - CHANNEL - 'JAN
AND - ANN' - THEY - ASKED IN
LATEST - VIDEO - 2 B - EXTRAS
IN - FILM' - I - CAN - DO - THAT
AS - MAIN - WRITER - OF - GBC
FILMS - STUDIOS - SECRETLY
MINE - ALSO - SO - GOT - THE
VERY - BEST - IDEA - LIKE THE
KING: ETERNAL - MONARCH
AS - THEY - WENT - BACK IN
TIME - BUT - PRETTIER
ITZY - AND - AESPA - HAD A
DRINKING - PARTY - NURSES
SOUTH - PACIFIC - ISLAND
SO - THEY - ALL - FAINTED
FUNNY - AND - WENT - 2 -
THE - SAME - AREA - AESPA
IN - LINE - ITZY - WENT - 1ST
JAN - MALE
ANN - HIS - PINAY - WIFE
THEY - LEFT - CANADA - 2 -
TRAVEL - WORLDWIDE YES
LET's - HELP - THEIR FINANCES
900 BILLION X 2 - PER - HOUR
CANADIAN - AND - IF - WE'RE
IN - PARIS - 900 BILLION - YES
EUROS - TAX - PAID - PER - HR
WILL - B - LIKE - FILM
'CHANCES - ARE'
ITZY - AND - AESPA
NURSES - WORLD WAR 2
GOT - DRUNK - IN - THEIR
PARTY - WOKE - UP - YES
TOGETHER
JOHN KERR - MARINE HASN'T
DIED - YET - SO - WHEN - YES
HE - DIED - SINCE - THEY WERE
GOING - BACK - AND - FORTH IN
TIME - ANYWAY - THEY - WENT
LATER - 2 - FIND - HOW - 2 - YES
RESCUE - HIM - LIKE - DELAYED
MONDAY - AND - SENT - HIM ON
THURSDAY - INSTEAD EXAMPLE
'UNTIL - THEN'
LIKE - INTERNATIONAL - YES
AIRPORT - BOTH - NECKTIES
IN - FULL - UNIFORM - LIKE
MALE - FEMALE - FLIGHT
ATTENDANTS & MARRIED 2
EACH - OTHER
ANN - GREETS - ITZY - GETS
THEIR - NEW - REALM - YES
PASSPORTS - WHICH - MAGIC
THEY - GOT - BECAUSE THEIR
CLOTHES - CHANGED - ALSO
ANN - SAYS - 'WELCOME'
STATES - LOCATION AND
GET - YOUR - 'NEW - REALM'
PASSPORTS - READY TURNS
2 - HUBBY - JAN - SCAN YES
THEIR PASSPORTS - FASTER
MATCH - WITH - THEIR - PUT
2ND - FINGER - ABOVE - NO
NEED - 2 - LOOK - INSIDE
PASSPORT - INCLUDES THEIR
COMPLEMENTARY - HOTEL
SUITES - STAY - FOOD - AND
DRINK - INCLUDED - PLUS
SPENDING - MONEY - WHERE
2 - GO - ADDITIONAL PLACES
2 - EAT - AND - MENUS - THEY
GIVEN - 3 SMARTPHONES SO
IF - THEY - LOOSE - FULLY
WORKABLE - FULL - DATA
INTERNET
AESPA - AFTER - PROCESSED
IN - CHARGE - OF - THE - TWO
MY - FAVORITE - NEW - PINOY
ACTOR - UNIFORMED - ALSO
TIK TOK - JUSTIN LUZARES
BRITISH - GOSSIP - HE - TRAINED
BOTH - THEIR - SUPERVISOR - AS
ITZY - AESPA - RETURNS - SAME
ANN - AND - JAN - AT COUNTER
BUT - THIS - TIME - THEIR -
EXIT - SUPERVISOR - 2 MAKE
CERTAIN - NEXT - DAY's WORK
DISCUSSED - IT's - JUSTIN YES
AGAIN - NEW - UNIFORM - BUT
THIS - TIME - AN - INDIA - TRUE
ACCENT - SAME - FACE
ANN - 'IT's - YOU - RIGHT
JUSTIN - IN - THE - START
WITH - A - BRITISH ACCENT
JUSTIN - 'OF - COURSE'
NEW - UNIFORM - NEW ACCENT
MAKES - US - LOOK - VERY
IMPRESSIVE - SOPHISTICATED
INTERNATIONALLY - FRIENDLY
ME - THE - SAME - PERSON
2 ACCENTS - SAVES - THEM
MONEY - INSTEAD - OF - HIRING
FR - INDIA - JUST - ME - FROM
PARANAQUE - POB - JUSTIN
JUSTIN - LIKE - A - VOICE
ACTOR - CAN - DO - BOTH
GENDERS - MANY - AGES
WITH - VOICE - SAVING $$$
WHY - HIRE - MANY - WHEN
JUST - A - FEW - WILL - DO
AS - ANIMATION - VOICES
GBC - FILMS - PRESENTS -
'SOUTH - PACIFIC'
(ASIAN - VERSION)
(BACK AND FORTH IN TIME)
WE'VE - CHANGED - SONGS
WHEN - ME - AS - MITZI GAYNOR
PERFORMED - 4 - AMERICAN GI
GOVERNMENT - ISSUED - MALE
SOLDIERS - SONG - OF - ANN -
MARGRET - 'STATE - FAIR' - YES
INSTEAD - GETTING - PERMITS
SO - INSTEAD - OF - JOHN KERR
MARINE - DEAD - EU WOO CHA
WE'RE - BRINGING - HIM BACK
2 - LIFE - SO - 2 - SCENES
SE-KYUNG SHIN - RECEIVING
NEWS - HER - MARINE - DIED
IU - SE EUN KIM - COUSINS
TOLD - EVERYBODY
SO - 2 GIRLS - WENT - BACK IN
TIME - 'JAN - AND - ANN' - SAME
TERMINAL - THEN - ITZY - AND
AESPA - WENT - BACK IN TIME
FRENCH - REVOLUTION - ALSO
SINCE - PASSIONATE - ABOUT
FASHIONS - BOTH - GROUPS
INTO - DESIGN - SEWING YES
MACHINE - SO - NOW - BOTH
GROUPS - WENT - BACK - IN
TIME - 2 - BRING - HIM BACK
IN - LIFE - LIKE - UNDERCOVER
JOHN KERR - RECEIVED ORDER
2 - LEAVE - THURSDAY INSTEAD
OF - MONDAY - THUS - HE WAS
NOT - BOMBED - THAT - DAY - 2
SO - EU WOO CHA - CAME BACK
SAME - TIME - AS - MY - TRULY
NEW - MOON DOGGY - THE YES
MALE - LEAD - 'LITTLE MERMAID'
MR KING - BOTH - ARRIVED BACK
ME - MITZI GAYNOR - AS -
CAILEY BAILEY
SE-KYUNG SHIN - THERE - 2 -
GREET - HER - MARINE - YES -
ASTRO - EU WOO CH - THUS -
AND - THEY - LIVED HAPPILY -
EVERY - AFTER - LEAVING THE
MAIN - LIBRARY - AFTER 4:30P
RESTROOM - LADIES
CLEANING - TIMES
11A - 11:30A
2:!5P - 2:45P
4 - 4:30P EST
THUS - I'M - PUTTING - MY
THINGS - IN - BAGS - LOVING
MY - 500 LB - CARRIER - THE
6 WHEELS - MAGICAL - BETTER
THAN - ANY - LUGGAGE - EVER
INCLUDING - SAMANTHA BROWN
LUGGAGE - I - BEEN - TURNING IT
AROUND - GORGEOUS - WHITE
MALE - CUTIE - 6TH - FLOOR HE
CAME - OUT - OF - ELEVATOR AT
1:!5A - HE - HAS - 24 HRS ACCESS
ANOTHER - NIGHT - HEARD - YES
AT - 1:30A - OR - 1A - MOST LIKELY
ITS - HIM - CAN - U - IMAGINE - IF
WE - BECOME - FRIENDS - MY -
NEW - FACE - AND - BODY FOR -
WE - NEED - CHEERLEADERS IN -
OUR - LIVES - MAYBE - HE LIVES -
IN - SOMA - AT - BRICKELL - AS -
HE - CLIMBS - BRIDGE - WITH -
HIS - ELECTRIC - SCOOTER 2 -
SO - IN - TERMS OF ROMANCE -
WE - WERE - BOTH - STUCK IN -
6TH - FLOOR - DAY - I - HAD 2ND -
APPOINTMENT - AT - LA FITNESS - HE - HELPED - AS - WE - WENT 2
ANOTHER - ELEVATOR - HE ALSO
TRIED - STARS - SO - I - WENT FOR
IT - BUT - TOLD - ME - WHERE ME
NEEDED - 2 B - HE - WENT - YES
AT - ONCE - 2 - NEXT ELEVATOR
WE - TALKED - LONG - IT - WAS
GREAT - MAYBE - HE - HAS - A
BLOND - GIRLFRIEND - BUT - A
FRIEND - DON'T - MIND - HIM
HE's - WHITE - AND - CUTE XO
WELL - SOMEONE - 2 - EAT
BEN's - PIZZA - WITH - YES
WHO - KNOWS - FUTURE 2
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Miracle of Giving Birth
Sabi ng kapatid ko. Interesting daw na topic yung sinapit ko nung panganganak ko kay Zayn. Dahil madami na daw siyang nababasa na mga Blogs and Vlog ng mga nag le-Labor sa Delivery room rants na halos grabe daw yung sinapit nila. Masakit, mangingiyak-ngiyak sila sa loob ng Delivery room. Kaya nagtataka ang kapatid ko at curious bakit ako na wala man lang naramdaman. .
Kaya dito ko na isusulat lahat.
Madalas magkwento ay ang mama ko. Pero ito yung side ko. Gusto ko sana na mapulotan ng aral ng magbabasa nito ang nangyari bakit binigyan ako ng Allah ng panganganak ng wala man lang naramdaman.
Nagsimula lang naman ang kalbaryo ko...
Nung kinasal ako ng taong 2016. Medyo malungkot din kasi di kami nagkakaanak. Akala ko may deperensya ako. Kaya inisip ko na di na ata tama kaya nagpatingin ako sa doctor. Kasi gustong gusto ko talaga maranasan panu magkaroon ng mumunting anghel.
Kaya di naging malupet ang tadhana at nalaman namin magasawa ano ang talagang problema. May Cyst ako, sabi ng doctor. Pag di yun matanggal. Lalaki at lalaki iyon na magiging sanhi ng pagtanggal sa Ovary ko. Sa madaling salita, hindi na ako magkakaanak. Mabait naman ang doctor ko. Pinay siya kaya napadali ang transaction ko.
Ang tanging paraan para maalis ang Cyst ay pag ehersisyo. Hindi ako nasawi at nawala yung Cyst o pumutok na siya.
Nabuntis din ako agad. Expected due date ay August 2017. Lahat ay atat, buong family ko. Parang sinigurado na namin na walang masamang mangyayari dahil sa ilang beses na ako nag bleeding pero lagi naman ok si baby sa Ultrasound. Halos gumawa pa kami ng group ng kapatid ko sa fb with expected first pamangkin. But the happy planning turns into my worst nightmare.
Hindi lahat ng ini-expect mo dito sa dunya ay masaya. Babalik din at babalik sa Panginoon(Allah) ang kanya. Walang perpekto dito sa mundo at lahat binibigyan ng pagsubok.
Tatlong rason:
Trabaho- Mahabang hagdanan, sa 3rd floor kami nakatira. Tarantandong driver dahil 10 hours nga kami sa trabaho. 1 hour kami sinusundo at kung magmaneho ang sudan namin driver eh parang nakikipag karerahan. Para siyang walang sakay sakay na buntis. Kahit ilang beses pagsabihan. Atat umuwi kaya parang naka-too fast too furious lagi ang sasakyan kaya 12 hours lahat ang oras ko sa office. Buong araw nakaupo. Puro stress kasi dami din trabaho.
Verbal Stress- May mga bagay na kailan din limitahan. Dapat kung may mahal ka sa buhay at buntis siya. Matuto kang wag muna sugorin o atakihin ang tao sa pamamagitan ng dila. Kasi minsan nakakamatay din ang dila. Kaya madaming nagsu-suicide o nagkakaroon ng sakit ng depression dahil sa nakakaapekto minsan ang dila ng isang tao o ang tinatawag na Emotional Torture. Pag buntis, hindi yan iisang tao kundi dalawang tao ang pwedeng mawala.
Careless Hospital- Isa pa ito. Yung doctor ko, nakukunbensi ng magulang ko na lahat ng nangyayari sa akin ay NORMAL gaya na lang ng pananakit ng tyan at bleeding. Kung ano ang nararamdaman ng pasyente mo, yun ang paniwalaan mo. Hindi yung kung ano sinasabi ng magulang niya. Dahil hindi naman katawan ng magulang niya ang katawan niya na sila nakakaramdam. Irresponsableng doctor! Kaya nung sa ER or Emergency Room. Ang tagal din niyang dumating kasi akala siguro niya nagkukunwari nanaman yung pasyente ng bleeding. Problema kasi na masyadong close ang doctor sa magulang kaya naniniwala na agad lalo na pag pinoy sa pinoy. Tapos isama pa ang tangang Indian Nurse na isaksak ang Vaginal Supository sa mismong pwetan na kinasanhi ng pagsabog ng panubigan.
Pero lahat nun, Na sabr ko...
Naalala ko pa yung isang araw bago ako makunan. Pumunta ako sa KFC dahil grad ng pamangkin ko. Nagpicture picture tapos ang dami humahawak sa tyan ko. Last hours din bago ako makunan, yung mga hajj din humahawak sa tyan ko. May mga signs. Ang pinakamasakit, yung halos nagpapanggap kang wala ka nararamdaman. yung nagpapanggap ka na masaya sa harap ng mga hajj kahit sakit na sakit ka na. yung kahit masakit, pinapagalitan ka pa rin kasi wag ipakita nasasaktan ang katawan mo kasi act daw yun ng immaturity at bawal kumilos ng ganun kasi nakakahiya sa in-laws. Na-sabr ko yun lahat.
Noong nawala ang first baby ko. Iniwan ako ng magulang ko after 2 months kasi nagbakasyon sila sa pilipinas. Inuwi din nila ang mga alaga kong pusa na tangi kong karamay tuwing umiiyak ako. Ako lang mag isa sa bahay dahil nagtatrabaho ang asawa ko. Dumating naman ang mga pamangkin ko, pero last complete family hours nila iyon dahil uuwi din sila sa pilipinas at final exit kaya matutunghayan ko nanaman ang kalungkotan bumabalot sa kanila na mas lalo nagdadagdag sa aking kasawian.
Hanggang sa may nanganak na buntis during marawi seige at ramadhan pa. Sinabihan ako ng pinsan ko na magbigay kahit kunting sadqah. Nagbigay ako ng 100+ riyals at hindi ko na iyon pinaalam sa mga magulang ko kasi sasabihin nila ay tanga ako at nagbibigay ng pera ng ganun ganun lang. Pero worth it ang sadqah ko dahila maganda ang kahihinatnan dahil sobrang nagpapasalamat iyong bagong panganak na babaeng apektado ng marawi seige dahil walang wala na talaga sila.
I forgive. Lahat ng iyon ay tiniis ko kaya may barakah ang Allah na hindi ako nakaramdam ni singko ng manganak ako. Kaya ang Allah lang ang pinakamakapangyarihan sa lahat. Walang hihigit sa kanya. Iyon ang sekreto.
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