#phewww done!! i hope you like these!!

[frostfall-matches]

[ hello autumn - paired ♡ ]

@daemontargaryennn : spending fall with…

✧ Takeru Danma

-> [ Going to a haunted house is definitely on his must-do list. ] A lot of them might be cheesy, not very scary at all, but he wants to go to at least one each fall as a test of courage. He definitely gets a bit competitive about it, claiming that he won’t even flinch once while you guys are making your way through the haunted house.

-> [ He insists on planning the biggest Halloween party. ] The man loves a good party, and it’s all the more entertaining given the spooky theme. He pulls out all the stops. His place is completely decked out, there are plenty of snacks and beverages and candy, and of course he’s going to be dressing up. Part of him wants to do a couple costume with you, but another part of him wants you each to pick your own so you can surprise each other the day of.

-> [ Of course Hatter isn’t going to let anything seasonal or limited edition pass by without trying it at least once. ] Maybe it’s a bit of FOMO… But hey, even though pumpkin spice and spiced cider roll around every fall, there are often slight variations to the things that bakeries or cafés bring back each year. In any case, you’ve got someone who will indulge in these seasonal treats with you.

-> [ Sometimes Hatter can be a bit of a baby when it comes to cold weather. ] Definitely the type to prefer the warmer months, feeling much more alive and energetic when the sun is out and the breeze is warm. If he doesn’t have to go out for the day, you’ll find him dressed warmly and likely bundled up in a blanket on the couch or the bed. If you get too close, he’s going to latch onto you and you’ll be stuck getting cuddled for a while.

✧ Robin

-> [ She absolutely adores decorating with you! ] Robin loves switching up the decor to suit the season, and there’s something special about decorating a place with a loved one so each of your styles and preferences are included. She has a great eye for detail and aesthetics, and she is able to seamlessly blend your preferred aesthetics as you two get your shared space ready for autumn.

-> [ Robin loves bundling up in cute, cozy outfits and heading out on walks with you. ] While it may get a little chilly with the cool, late autumn breeze, the temperatures are still comfortable enough to enjoy getting some fresh air. She loves seeing the warmer outfits you put together, knowing how much care you put into your appearance and style. On a side note, she loves whenever your outfits end up similar to hers - you two look all the more like a picture-perfect couple when out and about together.

-> [ She wants to try baking with pumpkin or squash, given they’re harvested in the fall. ] You can find plenty of pumpkin pies and breads at bakeries, but Robin really wants to try making something at home with you. It’s a plus that you rather enjoy cooking and baking! The two of you can adjust recipes to your tastes, and it’s just so rewarding being able to have a tasty treat after putting in all that hard work.

-> [ If you wanted to dabble in a bit of photography as the season changes, Robin doesn’t mind being your model. ] She’s so gorgeous that any photos you snap of her will look amazing. Leaves in reds, oranges, and yellows create the perfect backdrop for Robin, bundled up in cozy clothes. You’re not the only one taking photos, though - she insists on returning the favor, and she’s able to capture a lot of beautiful shots of you, too.

✧ Itadori Yuji

-> [ The best person to watch horror movies with. ] He loves horror films, from cheesy to gorey to psychologically unsettling - he’ll watch anything from any subset of the horror genre. Definitely down to have a horror movie marathon with you as Halloween approaches. And, if there are any horror films coming out through the month, you two absolutely make it a point to hit the cinema to watch them.

-> [ Putting together matching costumes for Halloween is very fun with Yuji. ] He loves the idea of matching costumes and thinks they’re super fun. Honestly, he could go for either a cheesy and lame couple costume or something a bit more intricate and cool. Just let him know if you have any ideas or suggestions! He might need a bit of help putting the costume together, though, if he insisted on his being up to your standards.

-> [ You two load up on discounted Halloween candy the day after Halloween. ] It’ll probably take ages for you two to actually eat everything you bought, but hey - cheap candy! Yuji isn’t really picky about what he eats, either, so if you have any candies you really dislike you can just leave them and he’ll eventually snack on them.

-> [ Coffee shop dates are frequent throughout the fall. ] The seasonal drinks are something you both look forward to, and it’s nice to warm up in a cozy café if you’ve been out and about for a while. Yuji insists on trying out a different drink each time you guys go somewhere, wanting to figure out what his favorite is. He’d love it if you two ordered different drinks so you could each try the other’s and compare.

[anaconamor]

telepathy - jude bellingham x reader.

quick sum: business is business. what happens when certain business is now in a twist when a new stranger comes along? let alone when there’s tension with your now boss who’s a very known stranger in the past?

wc: 7.5k | masterlist | jude’s masterlist | part one

psa 🗣️: phewww it’s been a while since i made a long fic, but it’s a christmas miracle!! here’s part two to the long awaited ceo! jude fic!! this fic does contain smut so minors dni!! 🔞 like always i hope you enjoy!! 🤍 i do apologize in advance for any spelling errors…

“let’s call a twenty-minute break, i need to rest my eyes for a bit,” your co-worker called out, everyone in the room letting out a despaired sigh of relief. you push your glasses up, grab your water bottle and wallet, walking out the room to the nearest vending machine to buy snacks. you greet some employees as you pass, twisting the cap to refill with ice and water. 

by instinct, you turn your head to the side looking at the huge double doors that lead to his office. you see him on an appeared work call, frustrated as he speaks loudly and with his hands, brows pulled in with a tiny frown playing on his lips. he hangs up, writing a quick note before looking up and locking eyes with you. taken at back you looked away quickly, focusing on how you almost overfilled your water bottle. 

you quickly pay for some cookies and salty crisps, avoiding how you feel a pair of eyes following you as you return to the workroom. you trip on the tiny door frame as you look back to jude, feeling two arms holding you steady, a quick thank you escaping your lips at your clumsiness. “sorry that was my fault, i wasn’t looking straight,” you laugh off. 

“it’s all good! don’t stress it can happen to anyone. i blame this doorframe for making it have a step,” the stranger jokes, looking up to see a guy dressed in a white tee and leather jacket combo, dark wash jeans, and a pair of sneakers. very much giving book-coded. “i-i didn’t catch your name? i’m matt,” the green-eyed man extends your hand, and you shake it out of respect. 

“i’m y/n, it's very nice to meet you,” you smile and walk off not thinking much of it since he was either new or already worked here. you open your crips offering your friends around the room, sipping on your water as you hear lilly say something, “oh you met the new guy! that’s matt, he’s joining us at the end of the year.”

“yeah i did, right when i walked in, he seemed nice,” you shrug going back to the notepad and crossing of the items you had done and highlighting the ones you wanted to finish before the end of the day. “you didn’t hear from me, but he apparently demanded to be hired,” lilly whispered raising her brows and pursed her lips. “demanded?” you ask curiously, thinking of jude right away and how he would’ve reacted.

“yeah! which is infuriating since we went through the whole process of interview after interview, background checks, and even a test! suddenly just because he’s a man and demands to work here he gets accepted? yeah, i don’t like that,” lilly stressed typing harsher on her keyboard. “well to everyone else he’s perfect on paper, but to us, he will have to get to know us for us to trust his word… we will see if he can fit in, we’ve become a tiny family,” you say softly sending a smile to lilly where she nodded. 

💌 — judebellingham@*****.com

Good Evening Ms. Y/n, I hope you are well. 

your eyes shot up, pulse-raising as it had a couple minutes ago. the email notification caught you completely off guard making you lower your brightness immediately and scramble around. 

💌 — judebellingham@*****.com

We have a scheduled meeting in 5 mins, just a quick update on the project. Your team members requested you to speak to me. 

💌 — yournamelastname@*****.com

Will do! See you then! 

💌 — judebellingham@*****.com 

I take it you met Matt? 

your brows pull in confused, wondering why on earth he’s asking this, especially on the company's email, knowing everything could be checked and traced back. your fingers hesitate to type back a response, not knowing the outcome or why all of the sudden you felt eyes boring into you. 

jude leaned back in his chair, seeing his latest email being read yet no response back. was his question appropriate? to HR, yes. but to you? maybe not so much. jude knew how you would read this in a different manner, but he couldn’t wait to ask. he saw how he stared at you, where his hands traced, how his smile wasn’t anything friendly and more of flirtatious manner. so yes, he was going to ask. 

💌 — yournamelastname@*****.com

I did! He was very lovely and professional! Great choice for the group!

while jude chuckled almost angrily, a knock interrupted his typing, looking up to see his assistant bringing in printed paperwork he had to sign off. he knew in a few minutes you were to step into his office, just the two of you. jude gripped his pen harshly, aggressively signing off with his signature, mimicking your words because he knew you were pushing his buttons. 

“your meeting with ms. y/l/n starts soon, would you like me to bring anything?” his assistant asked, stacking the paper and organizing them in the folder. “lock the door and just make sure no one comes in and disturbs us,” jude said, looking back to his screen and seeing you hadn't replied yet, rather met with a new email from a different company. 

“hello good afternoon mr. bellingham,” you spoke professionally, greeting his assistant as he walked out, the door clicking shut. your legs felt wobbly as you walked over and sat on the chair, taking out your notebook and your favorite black pen. “ms. y/n it's nice to see you,” jude smiled leaning back as he stared at you. “we discussed the course last tuesday as a group but to my understanding there were a few changes made, along with an update on the january project correct?” jude spoke, his voice stern and serious which intimidated you. 

why you? why couldn't someone else be up here right now?

jude watched you intensely, how your legs crossed, your fresh new set of manicured nails flashing and catching his eyes instantly, your voice soft but full of professionalism, your new hair now slightly shorter than last time, but what caught his attention was the new charm on your bracelet, the letter ‘a’ with a tiny heart on the bottom, something anyone could miss but not jude. 

his mind immediately wondered to what it could be, what it stood for, or whose name. question after question and theory after theory was driving him insane. “we believe the january campaign will be finished by the end of next week, and we would begin the february one starting the new year after the break,” you finished seeing his brown eyes on you. “mr. bellingham?” you whispered jude humming as he interlocked his hands and placed them under his chin. 

you grew more and more intimidated, afraid that you were just blabbering and not actually giving him the new information, or worse he disagreed with what you and the group were working on. you had confrontational issues and this wasn’t helping at all. the familiar race of your pulse, your stomach dropping, what was it that you were more scared of, him, or the idea of failure. 

“i told you to call me jude,” he said, making you almost roll your eyes. “and i thought i told you i wouldn’t because we’re at work,” you defended knowing it wasn't proficient to do so. 

jude squinted his eyes slightly before speaking again, “the new changes sound amazing just remember to be updating the timeline as you do and make your team aware that once this is done there no updating or fixing any longer. we delayed it a week because of the site crash but we can’t delay anymore longer. as for the january campaign send tomas with the contract and i'll sign it for my approval next week when i see a close-to-finished presentation…”

you nodded your head paying attention as you wrote on your sticky notes his reminders. “i will let the team know, thank you for your time,” you flashed a smile, gathering your belongings and wanting to rush out the door, not because you were uncomfortable, but the last time you two were alone he had kissed you and his assistant walked in. you’ve kept your respective distance since then, knowing you wouldn’t be able to control yourself around him. 

“what are your plans for break?” he asked suddenly, you paused your movements afraid to look up or even answer. you were indeed ignoring him, but not on purpose, maybe a slight bit. when it came to being around jude there was this indescribable tension, where no words had to be exchanged, just a single look and you both knew. 

since the shared kiss in this office, all you felt was the taint and taste of his lips. the desperation of wanting him back in your arms, and having nights like those from the past summer. it drove you insane, knowing you spent hours in the same building yet you were so apart from each other. the looks could deceive anyone but not you or him. 

you knew you were being naive and just trying to protect your image and his. though if word got out you had slept with the boss, hell would break loose. you were caught that day in his office, by his assistant, had it been anyone else you don’t know what would’ve happened. you let yourself be careless and free and it almost faced you with consequences. 

there was nothing more you wanted than to at least attempt a relationship with jude. but the partnership was risky business. being in here was already risky with his assistant knowing what happened a few weeks ago. how would people react to you and him? the rumors or just overall overwhelming sense of being judged? you knew yourself, and you couldn’t handle that mentally. 

“so far catch up on some well-deserved sleep, i’m also hosting a friendsmas at my apartment, besides that stay-in, no travel this year,” you smile at him, jude walks over and leans on his desk. “sounds like an ideal break,” jude offered back a smile handing you the folder you had brought, your fingers slightly grazing his. 

“and you? what are your plans?”

you didn’t want to be rude but the curiosity got the best of you and you had to ask. despite being CEO you pictured maybe he would also have some time off. “i have to work, but if i wasn’t i would go back to visit and spend the holidays somewhere hotter then this cold weather,” he said. 

you frowned, “not at least one day off? you need some time for yourself, especially for the holidays,” you almost insisted. you loved and cherished the holidays. the traditions, the lights and trees, the weather, the food, the time off for friends and family. you felt bad for him, he had expressed that summer how he appreciated the days he had off. 

“unfortunately not this year. my parents decided to travel for christmas and new years and my brother got stuck at work as well. the company is also behind on some due dates and i have to be here to make sure everything goes in order,” jude sighed, watching how you shifted your weight from one foot to another. 

from times you spoke with jude he never mentioned his family, hell even his friends, so this was definitely a surprise coming from him. he was always serious and only focused on his company's success. a knock on your door made you jump, your head swiftly turning to see lilly walk in, jude instantly scowled, standing uo straight. 

“i'm so sorry to interrupt but we need her back because the vender came in and were planning the host,” lilly said rapidly out of breath. “don’t worry we were done here?” you asked curiously, jude nodding, “let me know if anything changes, i will be here!” jude dismissed. you let out a breath of relief, lilly gushing “i know he’s our boss but damn that man is so fine.” 

if only she knew… 

the next week flew by quick, and before you knew you were having a christmas lunch to say bye for the break. you all pitched in to bring food and items, some warm cookies and hot chocolate, sandwiches, and fruit layed out. relief and finally some relaxation ran through everyone, knowing after a long couple of months you finally got some well deserved rest. 

the encounter with jude didn’t leave your mind, in fact it kept you up day and night. he wasn’t in the office apparently due to some business outside town, but he sent his regards and thank you for our hard work. you often kept looking back to the empty office, wishing that maybe you could see him one last time before you all went separate ways. 

“what do you mean he was caught kissing someone? when was this?” lilly yelled, unable to control her raging emotions. “the jude bellingham? mr. perfect? he was caught kissing someone in his own office?” clarified julian, tapping his chin thinking, “where did you even hear this?” lilly asked chris. 

“it's could be just a rumor, for all we know it could be false. i overheard one of the 15 assistants he has during the lunch break today,” chris said nonchalantly, but your blood ran cold. it's as if you had seen a ghost or were caught again in his office. the same gut-wrenching feeling at the possibility of them knowing it was you. how could you be so careless?

“do they have an idea of who it could be?” lilly further asked and you were so close to shut her up, the walls closing in on you, and afraid that the sandwich you had eaten would make a reappearance. “they do know, but couldn’t say who because they signed an NDA. my guess its someone from this office or a celebrity. why would you force someone to sign a contract over a silly kiss? it’s weird,” chris continued, grabbing a cookie and taking a bite. 

“well, you guys know mr. bellingham, and his private life is completely private, if anything i don’t blame him. the world he’s in, all eyes on you watching your every move, its very eerie. a small slip up like that can cost him many ups and downs, so we shouldn’t even be discussing or else were next on that NDA contract,” julian defended, yet all you could do was stay silent. 

you trail your thoughts to that day, remembering how his assistance almost begged for forgiveness and swore he wouldn't say anything. the fury look on jude’s face but also the concern he had knowing every thought raced your mind. the fact you were new, your first real corporate job, the consequence of already fucking up your career because you let yourself be careless. over a damn kiss. 

your muscles tightened yet your hands shaked, you were angry not only at yourself but also the assistant who lied to his face and yours, knowing you were in jeopardy if people looked into it. you didn’t know how many people he had told during lunch or if had told other people in the past. the nerves and fear at everyone poking fingers at you worrying you. 

“i really want to know who it is! this is gonna keep me up at night because it happened here! right where we work,” lilly groaned sitting down and pushing her glasses up. the five of you looked at the door when someone knocked and walked inside. “hi everyone, i just came by to sign off the rest of my paperwork but i wanted to properly introduce myself, i’m matt!” the same guy who you accidentally bumped into last week walked in. 

“it's very nice to meet you, we hope everything went well and smoothly?” lilly said sarcastically, to which matt nodded, “very smoothly, i expected it to be difficult but they worked with me and what i was looking for.” you rolled your eyes a part inside you was glad he came in so the focus shifted around him rather than the kiss. 

“must be nice, no?” you offered a fake smile, you knew it was wrong but overall he was in the wrong for buying his way in. matt looked at you confused squinting his eyes and walking over to where you all stood by the cookies and sweets table. “what do you mean?” he smiled confidently. it seemed like you somehow manifested it, because before you could respond, jude walked in. 

“sorry i’m late everyone, but we just closed in on the february term. don’t worry,” jude’s smiled dropped at the sight of you standing next to matt. what the hell is he doing here? jude thought but gained focus again, “don’t worry this will all be planned once you come back, just wanted to pop in person to thank you for your incredible hard work and wish you all happy holidays!” 

jude would be lying if he said he hadn’t been rushing. he was called into a meeting on the other side of town to confirm and present details about a case, but all he could think of was you, and not being able to say bye. he knew it was the holiday party today and he wanted to get a last goodbye. he wore his best suit and favorite tie. 

yet that same jealousy feeling returned when he’d seen you with matt, he needed to keep his cool but this guy was already getting onto his guts. 

“thank you mr.bellingham, it’s been a pleasure, please help yourself to some cookies if you please,” lilly offered and he gladly took some. you distanced yourself from matt and pretended to grab your items, giving the message you were headed out. “ju- mr.bellingham, do you think i can speak to you really quick, it's about the project,” you lied, wanting to be alone and explain to him the situation. 

“sure follow me!”

“what’s up?” asked jude, his body language more relaxed as he unlocked his office. you waited till the door shut fully, “they know. they know about what happened,” you deadpanned, jude froze looking up and seeing your wild eyes. “how do they know? what do you mean by that?” jude whispered loudly. 

“chris was telling us how he overheard your assistant talking about it during their lunch break. i don’t want to seem like a tater tale but i’m scared jude… i’m scared about people finding out it was me,” you whimpered your eyes glossy as tears began to brim your eye sight. the anxiety getting to much and having no other option than to break down right here infront of him. 

“ssh it’s okay, listen it’s okay! i’ll take care of it,” jude ushered you, bringing you into his embrace, a quiet sob escaping your lips. “it’s not okay! jude people know what happened here. they know what took place because someone caught us, that person went around after they signed a contract and told people,” you tried to explain with a heavy heart and knot in the back of your throat. 

“i know that baby, i know you’re scared, but you just have to trust me on this one and that i will handle it. i’m giving you my word that nothing will happen to you. i know how hard you’ve worked for to be here, i won’t let this be the end of your career. just trust me,” and just like that his voice soothed you, just as it once did in the almafi coast. 

“just let me handle it.”

“jude we can’t. i know you wanted to try, well we wanted to try but it’s too risky. too risky for you, especially with the deal you signed off on, and too complicated for me. we’re back to square one, and i can’t threaten losing it all over this,” you spoke softly, jude stiffening, clearly not expecting this from you. just when he thought he could have you, you’re pulling away from him. 

“i can sue, you forget who i am.”

“do you not realize where that is going to get us? i am going to have to be present when it's what i’m trying to avoid. he knows who i am, if you threaten to fire him or even get near that idea he’s going to expose it all,” you exclaimed pulling apart from now a hurt jude. he stood quiet, thinking how you had a point but he wasn’t afraid of anyone let alone some assistant who was barely qualified for the job. 

“you should go… have an amazing break,” jude said after a minute in silence, you looked at him confused, still trying to find ways to help each other. 

“jude-”

“y/n just go,” jude stressed, your shoulders fell, feeling defeated and discouraged. how were you supposed to drop it and leave for three weeks and be unaware of anything? just wait like a sitting duck till you came back? you looked at jude who turned his back from you, removing his blazer, knowing he wasn’t going to say anything. you wiped your tears and walked out, not caring to say bye, just wanting to be alone to cry away the dread and sadness. 

your friendsmas was a success, a small get-together to just eat and chat, which ended up being amazing after the sorrowful week you had. you couldn’t sleep, as the conflict taunted you, being reminded that people out there knew what had happened. and you just had to wait. sadness turned to being impatient, impatient turned to anger, and that anger led to frustration. 

you wanted to know what he was doing if he truly was just working like he said. to see how he was solving the issue. you just wanted to be with him. this time alone made you realize maybe he was right, maybe you just had to trust him and see where things went. you couldn't just think of the worse, but the worse was already done. 

“y/n please tell us you're gonna go out! it’s saturday and we traveled all down here to be with you. you can’t stay here,” your best friend pleads for the third time, and you have no reason other to cave in, knowing they would take no for an answer. “now hurry your ass up we leave in an hour.”

a long sleeve black lace top, and a black denim mini skirt with boots, with makeup and hair done, you walked together downtown to where they wanted to go clubbing. it was a while since you last went out, so hearing the loud exhausts and smelling the familiar smoke of weed was like a deja vu. 

you forgot the adrenaline rush it gave you, the cool chills as they checked id’s and paid the fee. they wasted no time rushing to the bar and ordering a round of shots and drinks. you all stood near the bar, dancing sometimes talking as a mix of music played. it was a good vibe and you slowly felt yourself letting loose. the worries escaping as your favorite songs played and danced away with the girls. you didn’t want to drink much, wanting to stay aware of your surroundings in case anything happened, along with being sober enough to drive back to their place. 

“i need some air, wanna come with me?” you asked your friend who nodded, grabbing her drink and her pack of cigarettes for a smoke. “you okay? you were quiet during the dinner and at amy’s house,” she asked, the flame from her lighter lighting the cigarette. “just thinking, you know me. i'm a yapper but also an overthinker,” you giggled.

“someone on your mind?”

“yes actually…” you knew she would keep this confidential and take it down to the grave until you decided to tell the other girls. “i met a man last year, after graduation in the almafi coast. it was the best week i had. i mean like the best. we had sex, lots of sex, we went on small dates, watched the sunset, woke up together and had breakfast, danced, you name it. i can’t help but think, we also had this i don’t know? connection?” you spoke.

“and i am just now knowing of this? y/n!”

“listen to be fair, you guys ditched me so, it's your loss.”

“touche.” 

“never in my life have i met a man like him. he is straight out a book, tall, handsome, charming yet he  has this dominate side that just makes me,” you groaned in desperation, the flashbacks in your head not doing any justice. “i got too attached, and overthought what we had. we lived different lives, he had this quota status while i just had finished school. he was already successful while i just began my path to find future me. so i left…”

“you left? what do you mean you left?”

“while he was out doing a meeting, i managed to sneak out, i left him a letter and i apologized…i was scared, i felt like i wouldn’t ever be enough especially with his lifestyle. i tried to be positive but all i kept picturing was the absolute worst, i let myself leave and i regret that…” you smiled painfully as your friend stared at you with the biggest and widest eyes ever. 

“a letter? a damn letter? y/n you left that man hopeless and with questions unanswered. he probably blamed himself and wondered what he’d done! who even is this man! y/n i’m trying so hard not to smack you right now,” she took a smoke letting out a shaky puff. “that’s the funny thing, i ended up seeing him again, but under different circumstances…”

“meaning?” she said slowly. 

“i can’t and don’t want to say much, but we somehow work in the same place together… and he ranks higher than i’ll ever be…” you frown, thinking back to jude. jude here, jude there, you felt like he was everywhere and you couldn’t find an escape from him. a silent second was shared, your heat beating out your chest and head fuzzy from everything. 

“y/n… you should-”

“guys? come back in, we just ordered another round of shots! c’mon!,” your friend who was inside came out and dragged you back in. you gave your friend a pleading look to not say anything, and she understood right away. 

you felt two eyes stare behind you, and you looked back to ensure your friend was there, but instead those brown eyes that haunted you stared at you with a serious and tension gaze. your friend smiles and took your hand, as you quickly turned back and went to your group, this sense of uneasiness laying on you once again. why the hell was he here?

you downed the shot before they could cheer, not feeling the burn or bitterness from the lime and salt after. you tucked yourself away from his view, dreading being here, and wishing this instant you were cuddled up and watching a k-drama. “oh my god, new plan! let’s go to the jazz bar a few restaurants down from here! live music and drinks!” amy spoke, the group immediately agreeing, the wash of relief spreading through you. 

as soon as the tab was paid, you grabbed each other’s hand and walked out to the exit. luck was on your side as you made out with any complications or slurred walks. “y/n? where’d ya headed?” matt tugged you to the side, his breath reeking from alcohol. “we’re leaving!” you lied quickly and pulled away from him. it was enough seeing jude but matt as well? had you been cursed?

“hold on, hold on, why you leaving so fast? the night is just beginning, join me and my friends!” matt slurred, tucking your hair behind your ear. you pulled away, “no thank you, we’re leaving. have a good night,” you tried to seem nice as possible so you could avoid an altercation but he wasn’t taking no for an answer. “c’mon i want to get to know you!”

jude who was back inside had been watching you the minute you locked eyes. was it really possible you were in the same place he was? or was it just a vivid image of you? it was you, dressed so elegantly yet seductive. he had replayed the scene in his office before break over and over. hating how the empty void in his heart wouldn’t dissapear especialy at the thought of you. 

the once loud music was no longer there in his ears, he was just enamoured by you. your hair, your smile, the way you laughed, yet you were being the same naive and stubborn y/n he knew. the same one from italy, from work, and the one now. he just wanted one more look of you. but you were no longer there. jude panicked, ditching the vip booth in a second and waving though the bodies on the dance floor to look for you outside. 

“like i said, we were leaving-”

when the fuck was this man ever going to take a hint? matt pissed him off more and more as days passed. and jude was livid as he couldn’t take a hint and continued bothering you. he knew you were smart but a man like matt was a attachment not even he could get rid of. with his stupid blue eyes and blonde hair, jeans so tight he cringed at the sight. 

“is there a problem here?” jude said angrily, you got a whiff of his cologne, standing still as he approached you closer and closer. “seems like you’re bothering her when she wants to leave… not very gentlemanly like from you, hmm?” jude got between you, bringing you behind him and acted as a shield. 

“jude it’s okay, just drop it, he’s drunk-”

“jude? what the fuck is this? why did you call him jude, when he’s mr. bellingham,” matt chuckled angrily, a hand waving in the air trying to get sense of what was going on. “oh i see, i know what is going on here! you're the bitch who was caught kissing him in his office! makes total sense now,” matt mocked, your blood running cold at the reveal. 

“watch your fucking mouth. you may not be sober but you need to control yourself,” jude spat angrily coming closer to him. “you can pull all the stunts you want in my building but not here where you’re gonna make a fool out yourself, remember it’s easy for me to call off this stupid contract,” jude sneered. “i should’ve known the second you two were alone, the boss and his employee, what a coincidence! no wonder you got the job, you slept with him and now you’re here!” 

you don't see jude’s next move, all you see is matts face twisting with pain as jude punched him straight and square on his jaw, immediately towering over him when matt gained consciousness and threw a punch back. your body froze, watching the scene play out as they man handled each other, before feeling your friends drag you away and ask if you were okay. “who the fuck was that?” your friend asked, looking back as a chill ran down your spine. 

“my boss.” 

it was the afternoon, having slept in till late from the vents that took place, thankful you were alone after having complained. you weren’t in the mood to speak to anyone or yet be interrogated by your friends. all you said that it was your boss and a random guy who was trying to bother you. despite it all, you still wanted to protect and cherish the tiny bits of jude you had. 

you couldn’t contact him, not through email either, left wondering how he was and if the cops got involved. you felt guilty, guilty because of the mess that was created, guilty for leaving him when you most wanted him, and guilty for making yourself suffer like you had. if things had gone differently maybe this would’ve never happened. maybe you should've just walked away and let fate take control. 

this wasn’t a good image for either of you, and despite it hurting, the truth was bound to come out, whether you liked it or not. 

you looked at the clock, a brow raising in confusion when two simple knocks were heard at your door, followed by shuffling. you removed yourself from your blanket and took careful steps to the door, looking through the peephole and seeing a familiar set of curls facing you. 

you panic, running a hand through your hair, and mouth, adjusting your top and batman pj shorts. you silently yelp and get the urge to jump from either excitement or nerves. 

after a quick breather, you unlock the door and open to reveal jude, who stood in a black hoodie and pants, the soft boyfriend look reminding you of his normal side. not the harsh ceo, or business look, just your jude. 

“hi,” you smile, jude walking in when you open the door further. “i-i- was in the area, and i wanted to check in on you to see how you were from last night,” he said simply, as if those words didn’t make your heart jump. “in the area or did you see my file?” you taunt, jude scratching his head knowing he was caught. “both?” he smiled. 

“i’m doing okay, thankfully we got out of there, but i’ve been worried about you. i wasn’t sure if i could communicate with you, but i’ve been worried sick,” you admit, your heart slowly piecing its way together at the sight of him. “i’m fine, believe me i am, just a couple of scratches but i’m okay now that i’m here with you…”

you sigh deeply, jude pursed his lips, “i hate how we said goodbye. i felt like an asshole just pushing you away when all you wanted was reassurance. i hated seeing your smile drop and leaving you taken at back, i’m not proud of that,” jude confessed, stepping closer. “i’m attached to you, yet all we have is this painful distance. i just wanted to simply try y/n, i am not a man full of words but i almost begged, begged for you to stay. after you left me that letter i looked for you for weeks, imagine how i felt when i saw you in my own office?”

you stay silent, letting him know you were listening him pour his heart out. you weren’t going to push him away, you were tired of this miscommunication and back and forth. “you know what the hardest part was, watching you live your life knowing i’m not apart of it. having this idea that we could’ve been something instead were just known strangers who cross each other like nothing. i hate that you can’t be mine, i hate the fact you can’t even look at me in the eyes because you’re scared,” his voice broke. 

“what is it going to take? why can’t we just try?” jude pleaded. “because it wouldn’t be easy! i would hate the idea of seeing each other behind closed doors when all i want is to spend it next to you and not hide it. it isn’t easy when i have everything ahead of myself, everything i’ve worked hard for and you have it all already! I can’t easily say ‘fuck what they have to say’ because it does matter.”

“jude its been equally as hard for me as for you as well. you think i don’t want to try? that i don’t wish and dream were together in the almafi coast even if its for a day? i want to more than everything, i want to try but there’s so much on the line. people know about us already, and matt was just a taste of what would be headed our way if we did…” you cried, hating the feeling of your stomach turning. the idea of jude no longer with you. 

“i want you more than anything y/n, i’ve never wanted something so bad like this in my entire life. i have enough, i want to be enough for you. i want to show you the positive rather the negative that you envison, please just let me. i promise you there’s more than just the bad with me…” 

“jude…” you whine.

“we can work our way through this, i’m giving you my word. my all to you. please just let us try and we can be jude and y/n from that summer together… please baby, just let us try,” his hands reached for your, his thumb running delicatly over your knuckles. you caved in, you knew and felt like the whole world was at risk but you couldn’t care less. you also deserved to be loved, and being loved by jude was special in so many ways. not because of the status or money, but because of the tenderness and cherishment he laid. 

“promise me that no matter what, you won’t leave. i can’t lose it all and you as well jude…” you plead, and a smile of relief spreading across jude’s lips. i give you my word, i’ll even sign a contract for it, whatever it takes as long as i have you…” jude whispered along your lips, “no more contracts, just us,” you say softly.

“do you know how long i’ve wanted this? how much i missed this? how much i missed you?” jude said with a rough and raspy voice. your lips trembled, focusing on his lips kissing down your jaw, his hands running down to your hips to your ass where he gripped it firmly. “you denied me, rejected me, and wanted to pretend like nothing happened, what happened y/n?” he continued. 

“maybe i just finally caved in to what i truly wanted, and what i want is you,” you say breathlessly, his fingers burning your skin as he trailed them against your skin. “you bluffin or are you being serious?” he quoted making you giggle and press your lips against his, feeling as he smiled. “i’m being serious jude.”

he carried you to your bedroom, removing the tanktop you had on, “tell me what you want from me,” his voice low and groggy. you clenched your thighs, a hand running up his chest to pull him into a messy kiss, hearing a slight groan escape from his already plump lips. “i want you, all of you, all of you always and forever,” you say between the kiss, your one hand on his chest now palming him through his black pants.

jude stepped back, admiring you before his fingertips grazed your shoulders as he slowly removed both of your bra straps down, your chest revealing himself, he sucked in a breath, his eyes drawn to you, just you. “so fucking perfect,” his pupils dilated, leaning down to press a wet kiss on your collarbone all the way up to your jaw, a small suckle before catching your lips once again. 

every single nerve in your body is alive and active, awaiting jude’s next move as you helped him remove his hoodie and shirt. his tone and tanned body shinning against the warm light from your night lamp. there’s no space left when he crashes his body with your, lips tangled as he slowly places you onto your sheets. “i want to hear you, can you do that for me?” jude said, his eyes dark and full of lust. 

“anything you ask me,” you nodded, he smirked, jude placed faint and subtle kisses down the valley of your breasts. you shifted around uncontrollably, letting out small pants as he traced his tongue down your naval. he looked up ensuring you wanted this much as him, and when he got that confirmation, he slowly removed your shorts. “cute, took you more for a marvel gal though,” he snicked. “quit it! i didn’t expect you.”

your eyes fluttered closed as he blew cold air against your core, “so wet, just for me,” he kissed your clit softly, a small kiss that drove you to your breaking point and you were just getting started. jude’s tongue separated your folds immediately, drawing out a loud moan, your hand clenching your sheets as he continued his movements down and up. 

you almost lose it when he places the tip of his tongue right on your entrance, bitting your lip as you cry out in pleasure. you forgot how good he was at this. how he knew all your weak points and could drag you to there in just seconds. his heavy breathing and knowing he was enjoying this as much as you were made the thrill even bigger. 

the intrusion of his two fingers and licks against your core are enough to make your hips lift from the bed, “please jude, please,” you moan, your hand resting on the back of his head, so he doesn’t pull back. “can feel you, almost there for me, holy fuck y/n…” jude grunted. he dove back, wanting to feel you cum against his tongue, not getting enough of how sweet you were. 

you sobbed as your orgasm ripped through you, slightly embarrassed at how quick you came but it had been a while since you were with anyone. that last person being jude. he rode you out to the last drip, cleaning you up effortlessly, coming back up to press a small kiss on your neck before slowly undoing his pants and removing his boxers. 

his cock sprang out, hitting his abdomen as pre-cum leaked, you swallowed harshly, jude gently getting between your thighs and holding you by your waist, “you sure you want this?” jude asked, wanting to be a hundred percent sure, “fuck me, jude,” you said with confidence. he slowly entered you, your back arching and pressing against his chest, jude kissed your chin softly, watching your body unravel with his. 

“holy fuck, forgot how tight you were, how tight you are just for me,” he said lowly, pushing back his hips and thrusting into you. “it’s okay baby, just breathe for me,” he ushered, as you squeezed his girth. “doing so well for, always such a good fucking girl for me,” he moved his hips thrusting deeper as you moaned his name. 

jude's eyes squint close, his lips shaking a smile as you rub his cheek in full appreciation. he’s taking this slow, wanting it to special, he kisses you deeply as he began to move and thrust into you, your bed squeaking as you both stiffle out a tiny laugh. “go faster jude,” you whisper in his ear. jude lets out a tiny ‘fuck’ before slamming into you harsher and deeper. 

your moans mix together, eyes shut as you felt your pleasure become closer and closer. his thrusts move in a pace that has you wanting to see stars quickly, his skin burning yours with his touch and slips. “oh my god, shit, shit, shit,” you let out, jude smirking as he moved faster, his cock hitting that spot inside you that makes you melt into your bed. 

“you have no idea how fucking amazing you feel,” jude says, pinning you down, his forehead touching yours as you share a feverly kiss. his tongue entering your mouth and tracing yours, pulling back and fully blurred on making you cum. the closeness and messiness of your bodies had you overwhelmed with pleasure, looking away from him as it became to much. “eyes on me, i want to see you, see you when i cum inside you,” jude stated, and you obliged. 

“so fucking close, can feel you squeezing me, i know it baby, just cum for me,” jude praised you, and thrusted faster, making you squeal and clench your legs around him, pinning him down. jude was on the bridge of bursting, the intensity becoming unbearable. “there we go baby, cum, cum for me,” jude said as he felt you reach your climax, your body slightly trembling in shivers of bliss. 

you felt your walls coat with his warm release, his cock twitching as he let out pants of air. He kisses you one last time, enjoying the moment as you let the afterwaves pass. jude pulls out slowly, laying next to you as he brought you to his chest, his hands running down your back and soothing your slick and warm skin. 

“you okay? still here with me?” he spoke still out of breath. “i am? are you?” you draw small shapes on his chest. he grabs your face getnly and makes you face him. his thumb runs down your brows and cheek, “as long as i am with you, i will forever be okay….”

“be mine y/n…”

[she-ismysun]

The Rookie 6x06 Live Blog Thread

Obvious spoilers ahead 🫡💫

I can't . for your own good. LMAO Angela !! First off, why is tim just leaving his car unlocked. Second, how long has he been in his car?? I didn't strike tim as a man to leave that many wrappers in the front seat of his car

"If I get fired.. I start living off my husband's trust fund :D" i love you angela

Oh boy. RIP Nolan, getting turned left and right with disaster. Unsolved murder, escaped convict, BAILEY WANTING A KID

I do really enjoy ad breaks for live Television. it gives me a minute to breathe and process and pee LMAO

Really? You're gonna walk away from your job, your relationship with Lucy.. angela's saying what we're all thinking. She's the realest.

*reminder to look for that Tim gif

"This is very annoying" [angela look]

PFFFF "I'm a grown man, I don't have a bff"

why confess to the murder by lie about the method indeed...

anyone else think this mom and daughter look wayy too close in age to be mom and daughter? No shade to teen moms, she just looks so super young and good for a mom

CUNTY? WHY HE COME OUT THE CAR LIKE THAT?? A good ol twirl and all. Slayful

oh yeah. timothy "the reaper" bradford

ok what the hell is the tea. it can't have just been lying on a report says Angela.

"I put my career above my oath" 💔

OAHDLK NOT THE "expecting mommy" book. Bailey, this is the whole reason he didn't continue dating Jessica (well there was more but he didn't want more kids!) "The longer you let me have hope, the more painful it'll be"

welcome back lucy. its been the whole half episode HEUHFDLJAKS WHAT THE FUCK. RAY? GE THT EFUCK AWAY FROM HERE. YOU CANT JUST COME IN

the way my heart just dropped. chat i am NOT ok

"YOU HAVE TO TELL ME WHATS GOING ON RIGHT NOW. NOW!!!! STOP TRYING TO PROTECT ME!"

I am DONE being the good girlfriend! You don't have to tell me everything but you HAVE to let me in *cue ad break*

PHEWWW. Nyla and Aaron are always beefing bro. I mean fair! Fair maiming from Nyla but whew.

I'm so used to watching on Hulu and being back to rewind every 5 seconds because i Didn't catch everything. lmao nice moves Nolan with da soap

also i desperately need captions and there are *none* rewatching tomorrow in class <3

oh what the fish. my stream FROZE . AND i got spoilers for Greys 😭

OH HELLO???? IA INVESTIGATION. Timothy?!?! why the HELL are you lying?! to IA!!! and how the hell is this going to come back to bite him in the ass. Tim *knowingly* falsified reports. Lying through his damn teeth. Not something I wa slooking forward to or expecting.

NYLA PRETENDING TO NOT KNOW HOW TO SHOOT A GUN IS SO FUCKING FUNNY.

so IA investigation closes without a hitch. No one gets in trouble. Not Tim. Not Angela. Not Lucy.

OU. THE HUG. THERE WAS SO MUCH HURT IN THAT. QUICK. -

UM SO. i quickly had to abandon this thread beacuse I couldn't even enjoy a chenford comfort hug. because it wasn't that. TIMOTHY BRADFORD. WHAT IS HAPPENING

[cherrycola27]

I’ll give u my thoughts on all opinions on who she would choose and why cause I’m bored

“Ima put myself in the situation on why it why not I would or wouldn’t end up with yk who”

Reader ends up by herself- well she stays with herself and her son bc she healed and realize she doesn’t need any of them and is much happier just traveling around the world

Reader ends up with rooster- of course this would be the ending I’d want only because I believe reader will never stop loving her first husband and well joe was kinda there for her but because she was grieving they got together to quickly and of course she fell in love with him quickly. Like he was my first love and husband of my first child of course we fought and for example it’s like greys anatomy okay WAIT here me out when (spoiler) Derek died that was Meredith’s love of her life and yes she fell in love with Andrew but like she said it before if Derek were to magically to be alive again she would leave Derek in a instant bc no one compares. Which I think it’s somewhat like this yes she fell in love with jake but rooster will forever be her first love and if he dies she would want him to be alive. Hopefully that made sense but like I worded it weirdly.

Reader ends up with jake- now I think this one would be a little bit hard bc I do believe jake broke her more and if she did truly love him she would have noticed before she married rooster and had a kid. But I wouldn’t say she can’t end up with him bc it is possible bc maybe she fell out of love for rooster but in this case she didn’t. So I don’t think this would be an option only because from the chapters I have read I don’t think she would end up with him.

Reader ends up with both- okay so rooster and Jake have actually spent these weeks or months trying to get used to eachother while reader travels and they realize they both love reader and would do anything for them and they start apologizing to each other for having those fights between them and reader ends up picking both and rooster and Jake bc very close and protective over reader and the little one.

[of course in my opinion if I physically put myself in her position…I think I would chose Bradley BECAUSE like I said if my husband died and I fell in love with someone else and then a year later I found out he was alive yea I do love this other person but that love would never compare to the love I had for my husband the father of my child and would leave that other person and go back to my husband. Yes the both hurt me in ways but in reality Jake had no right to threaten us if he truly loved us he wouldn’t have done that and what rooster did was also not nice but he never threatened us all he did was no tel us about his life WHICH he left the instant he found his memory’s again and if that doesn’t show he doesn’t love us what does. He could have gotten his memories but stayed over there in his new life but he didn’t. He came back to us. I also don’t think I’d ever forgive Jake i can forgive rooster bc what he didn’t wasn’t bad yes he has anger issues but look at it from his point of view he lived a different life bc he didn’t know who he was but he found out and came running back. You see what I’m trying to get here?? I don’t think I’d stay alone bc I love both and the one I’d chose would be Bradley my husband. So out of all those options I’d chose Bradley.]

PHEWWW THAT WAS LONGGG ASF

Babe, I feel like you were defending a thesis, and I am here for it! I hope you enjoy the epilouge when it comes out!

[angelprinz]

hi laven ! sorry for the lsck of asks, college is so stressing for me,,, i had so much shit this week and the worst thing that couldve happened was my lighter and cigs running out and not being able to buy any.

anyways, so i was scrolling on twt (ykkk httpdaddy👀👀) and something popped up into my mind.

!!! corruption kink , mayb? and some hcs scaramouche, childe, diluc, zhongli and ayato r in this!!

y/n and genshin boys in a? doing a ? whatever, just - bukkake. if you dont know what a bukkake is, its like all the dudes cumming on ur face!! your mouth is open, and your eyes are ready to close - youve never done this, no, but you were still acting like such a slut. looking up at the men all right in front of you stroking their dicks so lovingly at the sight of you on the floor, looking so innocent yet so naughty with how you were clenching your thighs, and how your hand was so close to touching yourself. :((

when they finally cum, your face is absolutely covered in it. white paints your face and some even landed in your mouth. you greedily wanted a taste of it and licked it all up. your hair needed some washing now, though,,

i feel like diluc nd zhongli would b so nice,,calling you pretty petnames and moaning and groaning your name in such a needy way... i am a firm believer of switch zhongli and diluc !!! soft when dom and whiny and obedient when sub :(((

childe? totally in the middle of degrading your slutty, whorey face but also praising you and whining like a bitch. his cock is so big and his balls are so full of cum, and hes also so so pent up !! he wants his ass to be fucked too while he can also get his dick into something. but hes fine wit cumming on ur face !! he'll have something so pretty to look at while fucking <\33 hes the type thay goes " youre my slut, yeah?" "be a good little whore for me,, god u make me feel so good" yk yk

scaramouche and ayatoooooo... mean. so mean. very mean. INCREDIBLY mean. theyre so so so very mean with u :(( but u like it, dont you, little whore? you like it when he makes you seem like youre just- nothing, a simple toy, a plaything. they edge you, they insult you so much for writhing and begging to just have ur ass fucked already, they call you such distateful things and it almost makes u cry (it also turns u on. a lot).

phewww that felt so reliving? relieving?? whatever, nevermind that. so, tell me, what have you been up to laven,?? me? ive been just rlly busy with my studies <\\3 i dont even have time to fantasize ab my genshin boys. i hope youve been having an amazing week !!!

- with love, 🕊

uwahhh same dove, i‘be been super stressed abt studies and uni.. all i ever do is think abt diluc to deal with it. i quit smoking like a year ago? though sometimes i do wanna pick it up again and you know relax, but ugh moNey!! hopefully the upcoming week for us is manageable n filled w tons of delicious thirsts!

recently i’ve been digging thru twt for dark content videos and ugh, is it hard to find. but it’s so yummy when i do find it hehe~

the switch agenda in positions for all of the genshin boys ugh!! so true, they fuck ass and get fucked in the ass!! i similarly would love to see their faces dripping with cum, facials are just oh so cute! (my fav that i wanna see with a face painted in cum is venti, i just… ugh to see it clinging to his eyelashes and with his cute fucking face and teasing voice i can’t- he makes me so turned on.)

[lokiprompts]

38, 45 and 47

Hurt or comfort

Phewww thank you so much for your patience with this!! Combining with @avarose06 since you had similar requests.

I have a bunch of requests and will hopefully be tackling more this week. Hope you enjoy <3

“You’re safe now, I’m here.”

You’re hurt. Please just let me heal it.”

“I told you to take care of yourself.”

Kiss me

Summary: Can you learn to control your powers and not hurt the ones you love? Warnings: ✨trauma and death✨

Words: ~1700

A Fresh Start

It had been almost a decade.

A decade without any incidents. A streak that you held near and dear to your heart and now, as the energy poured out of your fingertips, out of every pore of your body and ravaged the Avenger’s Training room, it was all over.

You had failed, yet again.

Just as your power flowed from you, consuming the very room you were in, the memories from your last incident came rushing back just as quickly. It had been a long week for you. You had pushed yourself way too far, both mentally and physically. All you wanted to do was dive face first into your bed and drift off into wonderful, sweet dreamland. But your irritating older sibling wasn’t having any of that.

“And where do you think you’re going?” They sneered, blocking your path to the sanctuary that was your bedroom.

“Not now,” you replied, trying to get around them, “I just want to go to bed.” But they weren’t having it. You had a normal sibling relationship. Full of love and equally filled with rage. They loved to tease and torment you and you knew, in your mind, it was only temporary. If you pressed to be let go, they would have. But that’s now how it happened.

Instead, you snapped.

The stress of your life, your exhaustion, and everything else that weighed heavily on your soul burst out. Your mind went blank, and you woke up in a pile of rubble that used to be your house, your siblings lifeless body buried underneath the debris.

From that moment on, you had vowed to be in control. Every action, every thought, every aspect of your life was carefully calculated. Every negative emotion you felt was buried deep and covered with a smile and some deep breaths. That was easier said than done, as you were on the run since the incident, but that is also how you found your place with the Avenger’s.

You were a relatively new recruit after thankfully dodging a life sentence in jail for inevitably exploding and destroying an abandoned building. Turns out, burying your emotions wasn’t the healthiest thing. Your power caught the attention of genius playboy billionaire philanthropist, Tony Stark, and his power of money, got you off scot free.

In exchange for your service to the Avenger’s, of course.

You knew your position there would change everything for you. You had to face your fears and learn to control your emotions and your powers. The last thing you expected was to fall in love.

You fell in love with Loki Odinson; the God of Mischief himself and your teacher. You quickly bonded over how you both were recruited by questionable means and less than heroic pasts. With each training session, you opened up more and more to him and he with you. He shared his pain of guilt of his mother’s death. That day, he let you hug him as you whispered that it wasn’t his fault. He echoed your words back to you and your heart exploded. The realization that you loved him hit you like a freight train and ever since then, you fell into old habits and buried those feelings, deep down within your soul.

            “You’re distracted!” He yelled at to you as you struggled to fight off his blows and seidr during another training session.

            You scoffed, too deep within your delusion to even admit your feelings, “I am far from distracted!” You blasted an energy ball at him, but he dodged it with ease.

            “Oh really?” You whipped your head around at the sound of his voice coming from behind you, his breath tickling your neck and stealing your breath away. Before you could even register that the Loki that had dodged your blast was merely an illusion, the real Loki behind you sent you flying through the air with a blast of magic of his own. You landed sharply on the floor, the hit tearing at the flesh of your arm as you slid and crashed into the wall.

            “I told you to take care of yourself.” Normally, you would roll your eyes at his preaching. He knew that, like most magic users, your magic was connected to your emotions. The God would lecture you at each lesson to take time to take care of yourself, both physically and mentally. Who knew that the God who tried to take over the world, was so into self-care?

            But his words were drowned out by the static raging in your ears. Your chest started to heave as your breath quickened. Every bit of your body began to shake as the weight of your suppressed emotions started to surge forward like an erupting volcano.  

            You kill everyone you love. You kill everyone you love. You kill everyone you love. You kill everyone you love. You kill everyone you love. You kill everyone you love. You kill everyone you love. You kill everyone you love. You kill everyone you love. You kill everyone you love.

            The mantra of your traumatized mind was relentless. Suddenly, you felt hands on your face. Somehow, Loki had shielded himself from your burst of energy. He was talking to you, frantically, but you couldn’t make out what he was saying.

            Then you finally heard him.

            “Kiss me.”

            Without a second thought, you surged forward and crashed your lips to his, your energy swirling around you both along with the debris of the destroyed room.

            But it was the distraction you needed. The kiss was hungry and full of passion and longing. Every movement of your lips shouting out your love for him. Just as you broke for air, all the energy that had come from your now frail body was spent. You slumped forward, your head landing on Loki’s broad shoulders.

“You’re safe now, I’m here.” His deep voice was the last thing you heard before you passed out in the comfort of his arms.

Pain is what woke you up. You twisted and groaned in your bed, not realizing where you were at first. You tried to jerk your arm away from the searing pain, but your arm did not move.

“You’re hurt. Please just let me heal it.” It was Loki. Your eyes caught his as his hand so carefully laid on your injured flesh as if you were too precious to hold too tightly. His seidr worked to knit your body back together and you couldn’t help but sigh in relief when it was all over. Silence filled the room, except for the thudding of your heart that beat loud in your chest. Even though he had finished healing you, his rough hands still laid on your skin.

“Are we going to talk about what happened?” He asked, gently.

You did everything in your power to avoid his gaze, “There isn’t anything to talk about.”

The feeling of his fingers, gently gripping your chin and turning you toward him forced you to look at him. His eyes were filled with so many emotions. Worry. Guilt. Tenderness.

“You don’t have to hide from me.” His voice was just above a whisper. The care and affection were too much for your guilt-ridden heart as silent tears started to cascade down your cheeks.

“I am so sorry for everything, Loki. I failed you.” You choked on your words in between sobs. Immediately, Loki wrapped you up in his arms as your body shook with the overwhelming feelings of sadness, guilt, and anger that was your life.

“You didn’t fail me, Dove. You could never fail me.” You felt his lips gently caress the top of your head in a sweet kiss. It all came back to you.

“Why did you kiss me?” You asked, slowly recomposing yourself and looking up at him. His eyes were unreadable. After all this time, you had learned to read him like your favorite book, but now? Now, you had no idea what he was thinking, and it was unsettling.

“I know about the emotions you have been suppressing.” He answered simply, but your confused look prompted him to continue, “The emotions and feelings you have…. for me.”

            Immediately, you stiffened in his arms, horrified that he somehow found out about your love for him. But he only held you tighter.

            “I am afraid that we are both similar in the way that we can’t share our feelings,” He huffed out a dry laugh and you couldn’t help the twitch of a smile that ghosted your lips, “Ever since I met you, I admired you. I admired your strength. Your tenacity. And as we got to know each other, that admiration turned into something more. It turned to love.”

            Your mouth hung open in shock at his confession and for a moment, words were lost to you. Until that fiery spirit of yours took over for you.

            “Why didn’t you tell me?!” You all but yelled at him and now, his body shook as he freely laughed at your reaction.

            “Why didn’t you tell me, Dove?” He countered. You looked away, ashamed that you let your past control your life and your future. It haunted you for years and as guilt, depression, and anger became your life, any hope for being loved died. You didn’t deserve it.

            Loki gingerly ran his hands through your hair, “You are far from a villain, love. If there is anything that I learned from my experience here is that we all deserve to be redeemed. We all deserve happiness. We all deserve love. And I want nothing more than to have all of that and more with you.”

            As Loki spoke the secret desires of your heart, you couldn’t help but reach up and kiss him again. This time it was soft, tender, and full of promise.

            A promise of a fresh start for you both.

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[kanthypantsalltheway]

Can you analyse how Book!bridgerton siblings and show!bridgerton siblings are different?

Thank you so much!:)

Ooooh alright! So I have lots of thoughts about this because we can all agree that book!characters and show!characters are quite different despite the actors putting their best efforts. Afterall they can only do so much when the scripts persist on creating another image altogether. Let's get into it.

Anthony Bridgerton- phewww, the way they butchered him, im- Alright so, first things first, Anthony Bridgerton NEVER neglected his family. He is always portrayed to be obedient despite his life being in tatters and his fear of death hovering over him. I know, I know, it was for character development, but they could have taken a better approach. He was lost, depressed, dripping with sadness and fear, true, but he never talked back to his mother (and violet was never a bitch), never thought about anything else other than his siblings's wishes. He would have NEVER forced Daphne to marry to someone like Nigel. He would have been worried, a bit stern even but never so cruel as to ignoring her wishes. Also, he was never 'attached' to one lady before Kate. Again it might have been for his character arc, but it was a bad attempt at the end because people started romanticizing his and Sienna's toxic relationship. He would never have been jealous of her mingling and seducing other man, because frankly, he is a rake ever since he sneaked out of Oxford for a quick shag. He knew his duties since he was eighteen, and he sure as hell knew who to stay away from. Besides, it doesn't take much time for one to know that even he KNEW how frustrated and hopeless their arrangment was. Book!Anthony was always logical. But thank god for Johnny, he literally made me want to kill show! Anthony and want to comfort him all the same.

Benedict Bridgerton- Book!Benedict wasnt such a bad boy, but hey, I'm not complaining. Luke Thompson didn't have THAT much screentime, but he slayed his fifteen minutes there. I do think his character, although a bit different is quite similar to book! Benedict. A bit shy, in the shadows at time, but sensible when required. A voice of intelligence when Anthony's concern overtakes his sanity. I know the book didn't show much about his feeling towards the working class, but show!Benedict seems to be aware of the society outside of upper-class, which is a relief and a good gradual progress of the show hinting towards at Sophie too.

Colin Bridgerton- Colin has always been humourous and a foodie. How could they butcher my boy and NOT include those qualities???? I mean that's peak Colin right there. Always sneaking food, always talking even when he has one of hands holding food to his mouth, and the other on his belly. He has the most amazing sense of humour and would lighten the situation, NOT MAKE IT WORSE BY MARRYING A WOMAN OUT OF NOWHERE. He was the closest to Daphne. He always was her favourite brother and they had a good chance to focus on that instead of torturing Marina and making Colin look like a fool. Also, he never proposed to any woman other than Penelope. It's crazy how they ruined so many things in one season. Let's hope for the best going forward. Luke Newton could have brilliantly done Colin being the cheeky part, because he just plays it wonderfully. What a missed opportunity.

Daphne Bridgerton- The main reason she wasn't attracting suitors was she was too friendly towards the men of the ton, that they could only portray her as a friend and not as a suitor. She wasn't a Diamond of the first water, she was never even shown having a friendly relation with the men of the ton. She also had a good sense of humour as compared to show!Daphne. She remarked how men were idiots when she saw her brother and Simon fight, she shared how much she loved Colin. Despite Daphne being a bit plain as was her charcter and also being problematic, (which again the writers and showrunners had ample chance of removing the rape scene altogether) she was portrayed beautifully by Phoebe.

Eloise Bridgerton- the show butchered Eloise the same way they did Anthony. Book!Eloise was yes, always bold, sure she was going to be a spinster, but she was never a feminist. I mean, show!Eloise isn't a feminist either, she has a long way to go for it. But the show tried to portray Eloise as this insufferable woman who was always against marriage where other woman were concerned, when she was infact not. Book!Eloise didn't hate Daphne, she didn't mind at all that Daphne was getting married. She and Benedict weren't that close, but again, i am not complaining that they are in the show. She considered herself more so as a spinster than anything else, but she never criticised others for marrying. Although, Book!Eloise was quite ignorant at times. They did portray the difference between the marriage prospects of Eloise and Penelope quite well. How, Eloise WAS a pretty Bridgerton, she had money, prospects and her family support. While Penelope, as shown, her family was suffering from a debt, no prospects for her, and her family couldn't care less about her. Book!Eloise didn't want to unravel Lady Whistledown's identity, she was curious, as was her nature and wanted to have fun. It wasn't her motive. It was Colin's motive. But either way, Claudia saved Eloise's ass, made show!Eloise look like this talkative and curious person, which she is.

Francesca- GIVE MY GIRL FRANCESCA MORE SCREENTIME. But also, isn't it marvellous how Ruby Stokes, with her two minutes of screentime caught Francesca's personality so perfectly? Maybe it is because her screentime was short for the showrunners and script writers to ruin her character in the show, but I'm immensely grateful how much similarities both the book and show Francesca have! Whimsical, introvert, sweet and a keen eye. Perfect. Now bring her back from aunt Winnie's, but don't ruin her character.

Gregory and Hyacinth- ah my babieeeesssss, they are too young to be portrayed as their individual books!character but the small tidbits that we saw in other books of young Gregory and Hyacinth really did match with that of show!Gregory and Hyacinth! Both insufferably cute and cheeky. But what made me sad was how they missed the opportunity to show little Gregory who was so excited that he slipped in the water of Thames and Hyacinth who literally flirted with Simon! Either way, I love Will Tilson and Florence Hunt, they are like real life Gregory and Hyacinth!

Honestly, so much good would have served if they stayed true to the book and it's humour rather than its problematic scenes.

[kbetacygni]

Lawrusso 👏🏻 fic 👏🏻 recs 👏🏻 please 👏🏻

LETS GO KNOCK ON THE DOORS OF A COUPLE OF MY MUTUALS here we go trick or treat!!!!

(funny how this rec list made me realize i tend to enjoy kk-era lawrusso possibly more than ck-era lawrusso. idk the boys are just good kids)

what kind of man doesn't by menocchio

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absolute ultimate lawrusso fic. so much so good beautiful writing beautiful mastery of chapter structure and order. if you haven't read it then here's the plot (but also what rock have you been living under): johnny and daniel's accidental road trip where johnny develops a profound understanding of His Own Identity and the boys are so good and perfect together. writing so good that you feel like you're there in the motel room with daniel and johnny-with-a-concussion

Ma Nishtana by mimsywerethe

4.3k

such a tender sweet thing. its like i said about that sterek fic but it’s like a single moment folded in on itself and then expanded to the size of the universe. fills your mouth with sweetness and warm companionship. daniel and johnny on the beach, before, after, and during. 

a sharp kiss to the throat by honeyvenom

27.4k (so far)

is this lawrusso with silverusso or silverusso with lawrusso? anyways i hope johnny k-words terry silver. unsettlingly erotic-thriller-mystery, deep heart-felt love but also johnny’s like “hey man im not gay but i want to protect larusso from terry silver and also kiss larusso on the mouth” and bobby’s like [pensive face emoji] 

RIP to Orpheus but Johnny Lawrence is Different by the_sound_of_inevitability

2.8k

crying I JUST REALIZED THAT’S YOU anyways thanks for this fic. 

one of the themes that hits me like a foot to the face: someone one begging you to keep going even though they’re being hurt kjhgkdghkfhgkdgkdjfg anyways. thanks. thank you. thanks. [loud sob] 

little extra fighter's chance by indigostohelit

9.0k

oh phewww letter writing. amazing handle on the characters. funny sad tender sweet. the strikethrough bits are the best. johnny and daniel form a friendship following the 1984 all valley when daniel starts writing johnny letters (okay, daniel writes like the first 4 before johnny even responds because lawrusso is Like That). the characterizations are done so well. 

[suga-kookiemonster]

Wow i discovered you blog this week! i just got done with Satisfy and phewww 😮‍💨 “Grown women grow hair and i like grown women” 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 this should not have been hot as it was and that was before the main course! I am so hooked on this! I was definitely team tae since he’s my bias but there’s just something about Seokjin that makes me feral 😩

I’ve read one fic and i can already tell you’re a great writer! I can’t wait to read your whole masterlist, I’ll try to read your other fics slowly cause i read that way too fast 😭

it absolutely should be as hot as it was, because a man with that mentality is SEXY 🥵 at least to me, anyway! and doesn't help that said man is kim seokjin, amirite 😏 i've been pleasantly surprised with the amount of people who go feral for satisfy!seokjin, but i wouldn't have it any other way!

so glad you found me and took a chance, and so glad you enjoyed my fic! thank you so much for sending this sweet note and for checking out my other stuff. i hope to update satisfy soon, but i also hope you find something else on my masterlist to keep you busy. thanks again!!! 💜

[captnjacksparrow]

Character Commentary - Sasuke Uchiha - Part 1

PART 2

I really started this blog just to write about how I feel about characters in Naruto series. And I feel Sasuke should be the first pick since he really subverted all my expectations time to time. Since this is a lengthy series which spans more than 500 episodes, I would like to divide into many parts since a single post won’t do any justice. While this is just a commentary, I am just going make a series of posts without my shipping goggles ON and as it progresses you can see how I started to ship gradually. Let’s go.

Me : Ahhh!!!! Here we go... A typical hero who is cold and cool just like the ones you see in K Dramas, C Dramas where girls fawn over him and he simply ignores everyone. Since this came out in 2002, probably Naruto set this trend???? Anyways, not my cup of interest. I have seen 100s of characters like this and am tired, man. I’ll probably stick with Naruto who just graduated against all odds. 

Since he is a No.1 Rookie, probably he is better at ninja skills than Naruto which makes up an interesting dynamics.

My reaction for Sasuke is exactly how Naruto looks below:

Me : I, too, want to know. Naruto!!! What’s so great???

By the way who is that annoying girl, fawning over this guy who clearly don’t even returns her Good Morning but pushing Naruto away like a garbage!!!! Phewww!!! A guy glaring at another guy with enmity. Why is she annoyed with that? What’s her beef anyway? It’s a guy thing, you dumbass. Oops!!! this is not a Sakura commentary..

Aaaaaand then this happens......

Me: It’s an unexpected twist, even to me who have seen Game of Thrones. 

And not only that what’s more surprising was this

Me: Yo Sasuke!!!! With your looks and attitude, I was hoping that you are going to punch him to pulp. Not to give him an empty threat.

As expected, Naruto clearly doesn’t like Sasuke in his team. And Sasuke doesn’t care either way. 

Me: By the way, Naruto, Why do you keep bugging Sasuke anyway? You even went as far to instigate a fight??? Anyways, Sasuke tied you up finally.

Ahh Sakura!!! Why don’t you be nicer to Naruto?? He is just asking for you to have lunch together.

Me: Ahh Jerk!!! So that was all an act to be cool and aloof while in reality you are playing Tsundere. Shit!!!! I am tired of this type of characters even more!!!

Me: Ohooooo!!!!! So That was Naruto!!! A deadlast beat a top rookie.... Hmmm Interesting!!!! But funny.

Naruto!!! Your pranking ability is way beyond what I can Imagine!!! 

Me: Hmm!!! Naruto... Sasuke is just going to beat up the shit out of you and looking for you!!

Me: Sakura... You Bitch!!! Do you have any idea what you are talking? You are just badmouthing your teammate to another one regarding a sensitive topic which offends both of them. If you really want his kiss, I imagined you would be familiar enough to know that Sasuke is the sole survivor of his clan. So, clearly you don’t know anything about him but already expecting a token of love!!! Pathetic!!!. And yet if, by any chance, you do know about his tragedy and yet badmouth like that, you are even worse than garbage. Even a 8 year old me, knew not to talk about something when others don’t have it. Geez....Annoying!!!

Also Me: Woooow!!!!!! Sasuke..... You really are not a jerk or some aloof person. I like the way you gave a murderous stare and put that annoying bitch in her place. Well done!!! But wait........ Why are you standing up for Naruto??? Didn’t he just kissed you in front of your classmates and openly voiced his dislike for you being in his team and beat you up for no reason???? Maybe you know about him after all. 

Me: Sasuke!!!!! You really are a good guy... Atleast I hope so for the rest of the series... You just spoke my mind...

Me: Are you really not going to beat him up???? Sasuke??? If I were you I wouldn’t have openly stood up for Naruto. Maybe a disgusting glare at Sakura for her mean comment and that’s about it. And definitely not leave Naruto off the hook for what he did. Anyways..... My opinion of you was subverted by a wide margin. Interesting!!!! Unlike those girls, who were vying for your attention, whom you were clearly annoyed with.....for you it doesn’t seems to be the same case with Naruto  even though I feel like he is bugging you!!!

Thanks for the read!!!!! :-D

Disclaimer: Since this episode gave me a variety of emotions in a span of 20 minutes, It seems like an episode review. But as I progress I will include what’s only necessary instead of spamming screenshots.

[secundati]

I agree that mc isn't completely blameless but that they don't deserve most of the blame, like mc knew marco was with someone and still talked to him after he started making his feelings apparent and that wasn't cool, but marco and taylor are both pretty manipulative too, they used what leverage they had over mc to drag them further into their own problems while constantly pushing mc to the side. Marco constantly bringing up how much he cares for mc as soon as mc seems like they're tired of everything, and then getting mad at mc for feeling that way or for trying to stick with taylor, and then taylor using the whole "I need you!! if we don't stop this they're gonna be unhappy, is that what you want??" thing on mc to keep them around.. like it's all so messy, and the whole plot makes me a bit uncomfortable but God I just want to know how this shit ends. I am kind of hoping for mc to be able to just walk away, especially after this last update, I personally don't think that any of them deserve mc and I want them to suffer because of it lmao

There needs to be an option to turn both men down in the end, it’d be insane though, because irreparable damage to this relationship has been done and the idea of coming into their lives, turning everything upside down just to walk away at the end would be nuts but also kind of hilarious LMFAOHDSSALJFGH

MC developed feelings for a man already in a relationship, and continued to speak and flirt with him despite that fact, but it really seems like they are the only person with a guilty conscience sometimes because they TRIED to cut Marco off, TRIED to set up boundaries and he just simply wouldn’t have it.

I’ve been thinking about it and I’m starting to feel the reason who Marco acts this way is because of Taylor. He KNEW his best friend was pining over his fiancée for TEN YEARS and said nothing because Taylor was able to keep his feelings somewhat in check and still be a great friend to him and Sally. I think he figured that if Taylor could pull that off for Sally, then mc could be able to do the same for him. That they can have a special relationship without ruining his other one.

It’s like, he was able to accept what Taylor and Sally have (despite it like making him uncomfortable, seeing as he said he tried to ‘rationalize’ those looks of longing for Sally away for ten years), so he probably expected for her to do the same for him and mc, and if she couldn’t he could just call her out and make her cut off Taylor in exchange for him losing mc.

Like, the man just sat on that like a secret weapon or smoking gun instead of just being honest and admitting he wasn’t okay with their relationship in the first place. Honestly with how long they’ve all known each other they should have been able to have that mature group conversation before mc even stepped in the picture.

And Taylor... PHEWWW

He likely thought that if he confessed his feelings everything would change, he knew he couldn’t go back to the way things were when it didn’t, so he had to go big or go home: either he successfully breaks up this relationship or he gives up on Sally once and for all.

That’s probably why he insist on mc going through with his plan, it’s his last desperate attempt and while crummy of him to do, if he fails it means he loses the both of them because no way he’s sticking around after all that even if they forgive him.

All of this is a disaster, there was a big ol’ elephant in the room that the three managed to ignore for years, then all of a sudden mc waltz in and points at it like ‘hey!!!! What the hell?? are y’all seeing this shit??’ Now everyone is one serious conversation away from a mental breakdown

[mengyan]

Sooo i saw you review someones carulia fic befpre so uh heres mine, if i could have some pointers?🥺For context; its supposed to be an angst to fluff comcerning how Carmen & Jules make up following the ACME interruption..

Carmen POV:

The rain relented for no one, not even for those who were in mourning. It was a single drop and a million all at once, thundering down in sheets ftom a confident stormy sky. Carmen Sandiego shivered, the tiny droplets assaulting every shred of skin she had dared to leave exposed.

Her red-brunette hair was drenched a shade darker, now existing as a thick, sopping mass glued to the back of her feverish neck. Carmen’s cheeks were ice cold and slick with water, aside from two thin trails of tears with fading heat.

That was one plus side of being out in the storm, she supposed. It was easy to cry in the rain.

In Carmen’s hands were an arrangement of Peonies and Hydrangeas, the water hammering at their petals. They had been Shadowsan’s suggestion and she took it, because, how the hell would she know what kind of flowers Dexter Wolfe preferred?

The makeshift grave had been Shadowsan’s idea, too. Apparently it would give her closure. Carmen admitted it did, to some extent, help to have some way to mourn her late father. But the fact that she knew his body wasn’t anywhere near his headstone dulled any respite it might have provided.

They had chosen a grave in Poiters, France. It was the only place the team frequented aside from San Diego, and it held the only funeral home that agreed to not ask questions about birth and death records.

Team red hadn’t visited the place in months what with her falling out with Julia and ACME, until today. It was the anniversary of his death, after all.

Carmen’s hands quivered as she lowered the flowers to the wet earth. Tension pulsed in her veins with a thousand emotions flooding through her. She was so, so angry! At the world, at Shadowsan, at Chief, at everyone for taking away what could’ve been a beautiful life with family she now knew nothing of.

She wanted to hurt someone, to scream. And so she did. A guttural roar escaped Carmen’s rouged lips, disappearing into the night. She took a deep breath, trying to calm her erratic breathing. When she looked down, she realized she had crushed the flowers.

Not caring anymore, Carmen plopped down against the headstone, the mud squelching beneath her. Tears began to flow beyond her control and she let them, for once allowing herself to truly feel all the hurt she kept pent up inside in favor of her suave exterior.

Her fingers dug into the earth, and she flung a fistful of mud into the rain. Carmen was tired of running from everything, tired of chasing her past, tired of hiding from the people she cared about.

Maybe the earth’ll open up and swallow me, she mused. Or better yet, maybe I’ll get struck by lightning.

Carmen sighed, moving her back to rest against her father’s grave. “Oh, dad.” She whispered softly. “I’m so sorry.”

The lady in red began to relax despite the rain, curling up in a fetal position and feeling sorry for herself. It wasn’t like Zack, Ivy, Player, and Shadowsan were here to see her so vulnerable, after all.

The sound of two feet approaching caught her attention, their light tread a very familiar sound.

No. It couldn’t be-

The lady in red looked up, her hair strewn haphazardly and her eyes red from crying all while every inch of her body was drenched.

“Miss Sandiego?” There stood Julia Argent with a sky blue umbrella, a mix of horror and concern painted over her delicate features.

“How many times have I told you Carmen is fine?” Carmen whispered as usual, only this time the flirty playfulness was amiss. Her voice was hoarse and raspy, not a sliver of emotion present as she stared dead ahead, right through Julia.

“I’m.....sorry.” The petite woman replied, stressing the underlying meaning.

“What are you doing here, Agent Argent?” Carmen asked tiredly, refusing to call her Jules any longer.

Julia flinched, as if the missing nickname was like a blow to the gut. “Please, you don’t have to be so formal. But, um, I live here, remember? So I think I I should be ask you that.”

“I was just passing through.” The lady in red stood, refusing to meet the other woman’s eyss.

“Where are you going?”

“Anywhere but here.” Carmen said coldly. She couldn’t believe she had ever been stupid enough to begin to trust Julia, much less begin to fall for her. “It’s a long walk to the train station.”

For once, she thought she had someone who believed in her, someone who was on her side wholeheartedly.....and yet...

Stockholm.

“Carmen, you won’t be able to find your way in this weather.” Julia said tentatively, pity filling her beautiful doe eyes to the brim. “Please, um, my apartment isn’t far from here. You can stay until the rain calms down.”

A dark, humorless laugh escaped the Latina’s lips. “What, do all you ACME agents bunk in the same place or something?”

“Excuse me?“

“So they’re waiting for me then,” Carmen continued, her anger and feelings of betrayal peeking into a tirade. “I bet they all have they’re guns propped up at the door already in place. I think I’ll pass, Jules.“

Carmen spit her nickname out like some vile insult she was hurtling at an enemy.

Julia sucked in a sharp breath, sadness touching her features. “Carmen,“ The petite woman began, pleading “I know you won’t forgive me for what happened in Stockholm, but I promise you I didn’t know.“ She paused, waiting for some form of acknowledgement, no response. “I-I told Chief to back off and let me talk to you, she-she said it was okay! I had no idea they were moving in. Please, please Believe me.”

“Oh yeah?“ The woman in red whispered, her voice barely audible over the downpour. “And what if I don’t?“

...

And thats all i have sooo far---

AIJSIDKDKJDKFJDJJSJDFJ OKAY THIS IS LATE BC I WAS NOT IN THE EMOTIONAL HEADSPACE TO DECONSTRUCT THIS BUT. ANON HOW DARE YOU? I AM IN IMMEASURABLE PAIN

i’ll just add notes as i go, thank you for allowing me to read this and offer pointers :D

your descriptions are so good omg!! i love the first sentence SO much?? “the rain relented for no one, not even for those who were in mourning” PHEWWW that’s poetry

i’d say the only thing about the following descriptions is that you don’t have to describe everything, if that makes sense? like, you can leave it as just “a stormy sky” for example. descriptions are amazing, but too much of anything can be harder to read and get your point across!

“it was easy to cry in the rain” anon WHO let you hurt me like this!!!

i feel like if i look up those flowers i will cry so i’m not going to but. shadowsan knowing what flowers to bring is just.... help i’m in pain

NOT THE GRAVE BEING IN POITIERS GOD GIVE ME STRENGTH

instead of “so, so, angry” you can say furious, and replace the exclamation mark with a period. it makes it more solid (if that’s the right word...?)

it’s probably a tumblr formatting thing but italicize the words when it’s her inner thoughts for better distinction!

CARMEN RECOGNIZING JULIA’S FOOTSTEPS

“a mix of horror and concern painted over her delicate features” i’m in LOVE with this wording??

REFUSING TO CALL HER JULES ANY LONGER@,#)&()&)&&)&:&:; LORDDDD

NOT THE. NOT FUCKING STOCKHOLM ANON?? me: brings it up 24/7 and then me when anyone else brings it up: WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS

THE ANGST IS KILLING ME

side note, don’t refer to characters by their race/ethnicity, go with the thief, lady in red, the other girl etc

probably a typo but **their instead of they’re!

“AND WHAT IF I DON’T?” I AM INCONSOLABLE ANON I AM SO SCARED TO READ THE FULL THING WHEN YOU’RE DONE BUT I ALSO CAN’T WAIT AHHHHH THIS ANGST IS SOOO GOOD

thanks again for the submission 🥺💕 i hope my notes were okay!! this was such an emotional journey to read and now i’m going to be fueled by stockholm angst all day when writing <3

[fe-husband-heaven]

fluff with dimitri except we're married to him?

Phewww! I wrote something a little lengthy hee hee

but i couldn't help it dndndn I loved married life asks so much, they're so cute! My hoe side for Dimitri shows up a little in this so pardon-

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“Dimitri.”

…Perhaps if I stay quiet…

“Dimitri...Dimitri, ignoring me won't make me relent.”

He sighed like he was giving up, but his grip around your waist only tightened.

“...Must I truly?”

“Yes, I'm sure Seteth will be quite cross if he finds out we've done nothing but laze about all day in bed.”

Dimitri made a displeased face, clearly not happy to relinquish the warmth of your body, or his bed.

Tangled together on the bed, the two of you were a mess of limbs and blankets. He very much preferred it this way, with you trapped nestled in his arms, and the sun filtering through the gaps of the blue curtains.

Laughing lightly at his expression, you playfully punched his shoulders, encouraging him to let you go. He did not,rather, in response, he buried his face in your hair, closed his eyes, and inhaled your scent blissfully.

“..Surely, there must be some rule against pulling the King from his spouse before twelve.” He murmured.

“Dimitri, It is noon.”

A pause.

“...Before two.”

You shook your head amusedly at his antics, and he reflexively pulled back a little when your hair tickled his chin. Taking advantage of this, you pressed a kiss to his lips before rolling out of his arms. Dimitri has an absolute death grip. Were he not a King with duties, you are quite sure he'd keep you locked in his hold, he had really come to love sleeping by your side.

He has told you before how he had been tormented at night by horrid nightmares. Sleep had become torturous, and he had begged for daylight to come sooner.

Now, he had someone to keep those very dreams away. Someone to thread their fingers through his hair and lull him into a peaceful rest. 

There were still times where we he awoke in a cold sweat, the abruptivity of the way he sat up would wake you as well. Without fail each time, he'd apologize for it instead of worrying about himself. He was still as selfless as ever and it only made you want to care for him more.

Dipping your knee a little into the bed, you tugged lightly at his arm, careful to stay just far enough away to escape if he tried to pull you back into bed before stepping away fully just to be sure.

"Alright, c'mon! You had plenty of fun last night, it's time we get to work!"

He flushed and a look of minuscule shock at your unflinching mention of something so intimate had him sputter a little.

"T-that's rather unfair, Y/N…I.."

He looked away, finding the white walls of the bedroom more interesting.

"..I should hope you also..um...e-enjoyed..Oh for goodness sake, I am King..!..Heavens, what would the people say if they saw their ruler blushing like a schoolboy…"

You struggled to hold back laughter at the image, especially when Mr.Blaiddyd grabbed a pillow to shove his face into, in hopes of hiding his reddening face. Though, the way his blush crawled to his ears, gave him away.

You sighed your laughter away, and relished in how relaxed he looked. How long it had been since he was given rest…The war had taken its toll before, during, and after.

The bed creaked under Dimitri when he finally decided to leave the comfort that was his bed. Now, it was your turn to turn a little red. He was toned, no doubt from the arduous battles he'd endured but it didn't make his abs any smaller…

He was also half dressed (Your doing) and the little clothing he did wear gave a tiny peek past his navel. His hair was an absolute mess but for whatever reason, it only added to your attraction.

If you squinted, you could almost see sparkles surrounding him-

"P-please stop staring."

It seemed Dimitri's day was to start with a constant stream of blood rushing to his cheeks. He was never good at handling blatant affection, let alone the unhidden gawking of the person he loves so much. Normally, he'd be nothing short of oblivious to other people's attraction but after having spent so much time by each others side, he knew you like the back of his hand.

He stood in front of you now, and you stepped forward to wrap your arms around him in a hug, your chin rested on his chest, you looked up at him, smiling.

"Oh? But what am I to do when my husband is the handsomest man in the land?"

His own arms found their way around your waist, a hug being his reward for getting out of bed.

"Handsomest? Oh, Y/N, you exaggerate, but thank you regardless."

"Uh, excuse me??"

Your sudden change in tone, surprised him a little, but his smile returned when he heard your next words, in the most sarcastic of tones.

"That's my husband you speak of, I shall allow no further defamation, hmph."

Dimitri laughed softly and craned his neck down for a kiss. His hand traveled to hold your cheek in place for it to last longer before he held your hands in his own.

"How is it that I always feel as though I were on top of the world when I'm with you…"

He was speaking more to himself, but his eyes were looking into your own, lovingly. If he could see just how lovestruck he appeared, he'd be embarrassed all over again but instead, his view was filled with you returning the same swooning look.

He was gently thumbing your knuckles now,  and coupled with his expression, it reminded you of the day you were wed.

He'd had that same absolutely adoring look, albeit he was a little more tearful laying his eyes upon his bride in white then than he was about his wife in pyjamas now...Regardless! He had held your hands in the same fashion, surrounded by the cheers of his old classmates and the whistles of Sylvain, he thumbed your gloved hands and wished the priest would simply hurry so he could kiss you already.

It had been a grandiose event, blues, golds, and a crying Dedue (the best man) adorned the reception. Ashe had assisted Dedue in cooking for the wedding guests, Duscur's finest dishes were served that day. Alois had prepared a toast full of corny jokes that had Dimitri bellowing in laughter and Felix scowling in disapproval. Mercedes and Annette had done their absolute best to doll you up and they had their own fit of crying when they saw their dear friend's finished look. 

Ingrid had helped organize most of it and yelled at Sylvain whenever necessary to get him back on track whenever tables were to be moved.

(Reminding him also that it was strictly FORBIDDEN to flirt with the bride)

Many of the old students originally from other houses visited as well. Petra had brought souvenirs from her homeland, Ignatz came with a promise to paint the new queen and king and gift them the piece as a wedding present, and Linhardt...well he fell asleep midway through but he came!

The night had been filled with merriment and it only got more chaotic when Claude had made his grand entrance, insisting that Dimitri simply must dance with the bride though Dimitri suspected he only wanted to see him squirm as he had not danced with anyone since before the war.

Manuela had gotten drunk alongside Hanneman which was a huge surprise until they started bickering even in their alcohol induced states…

The disorder was quelled when Professor Byleth threatened detention to his old students, and not a peep was heard thereafter other than Alois's bellowing laughter and mention that the professor never changes.

All in all, it was to be expected that a wedding with so many...ahem, colorful characters would also display the same amount of personality.

Even then, though the very view of you being lead down the aisle by Gilbert was imprinted on his mind for eternity, the moment when the festivities ended and he could have you all to himself was his most treasured memory of that night.

Away from everyone who wished to steal you away for a dance, he could at last be alone with you and revel in his beloved's company. 

You still tease him every now and then about how he fumbled in removing your dress before eventually tearing it with his monstrous strength but at that time he had certainly made up for it afterwards.

Regardless of his inexperience shining through beforehand, he still found the memory of your first time as husband and wife, precious.

Not much had changed since then other than Dimitri's upgrade from Boar Prince to Boar King but it seemed the honeymoon phase had yet to pass either of you if the way Dimitri's lips were once again being moved against your own was any indication.

For a moment, you thought you might have lost and he might just have gotten you back into that bed but a knock on the door interrupted the two of you.

"Y/N, Dimitri, I know you're in there! It is high past morning now, I have let you rest long enough. Your duties await you, your subjects will not rule themselves."

Seteth-

And an annoyed sounding Seteth too-

Perhaps it was the way you panicked but Dimitri was incentivised to scramble for his clothes when you started to.

Only for you to both trip when you heard Manuela walk by,

"Oh Seteth, leave them be. We have to have an heir to the throne eventually~"

[chittapornswife]

MISS GOOOORL.. remember how i said id keep u up with the boy tea with the CCC, aka chaotic crush chronicles.. phewwwe ur in for a whirlwind. recently the BLUEPRINT for all my crushes suddenly spawned back in my life after not seeing him for a long time and I said huh 😀 .. he even uses the 🥺 emoji.. MY LITERAL ONLY WEAKNESS. teach me how to raise the bar queen i be slipping up to EASILYJSUXJDJD. but how’s life bb? u safe healthy n good? - infatuated anon <3

MAAMMMMMMM U KNOW I LIVE SOLELY FOR THE CCC ALSO PLS MISS GORL😭😭😭

ok um not the blueprint coming back to CONFUSE U MORE😭😭 also i am WEAK hearing that he uses the 🥺 emoji bc i’ve never seen a guy who uses that 😭 your blueprint is just...💔 my heart goes out to you😭 I wish I could tell you how to raise the bar but i slip up at the slightest kind gesture myself 😭✋🏼

My only advice I can give is let urself feel those happy and exhilarating emotions bc it makes u feel nice!!!😎🥺 but still be careful and protect your emotions tho!🥺♥️

I’ve been doing good!! just busy with six classes and i got a new piercing!!! it’s a cartilage/helix piercing? and it’s my first step into getting all the piercings ten has on his ears! I’ve always admired his ear piercings and I want to get similar ones like his 🥺 Other than that i’m just enjoying the rainy weather OFC NCTS NEW ALBUM BB SHOTARO getting used to sungchan who is baby too but looks not baby if u get what i mean 😳 And just rlly rlly trying to motivate myself to get things done :)

besides the ccc, how are you? I hope you’ve been staying happy, healthy and safe too especially during these times and make sure to rlly rlly take care of yourself because it’s flu season now too! :( sending lots of love your way as always and lots of kisses *3* 😚💗😚💗😚💗😚💗😚

edit: forgot to add the pic of the earring but here u go *3* it’s standing out of my ear rn bc of the way i slept last night 😭

[cupofteaguk]

Hi hey helloooo~ I’ve recovered and am now here to SCREAM at you about Battle of the Brains. First of all, I love HP so the whole reputation series has been a RIDE. Park Jimin as a whole ass nerd is sending me!!! Hahaha I love this characterization of him- confident, cerebral, hard working, and so so sexy!! And I really love mc, she matches Jimin perfectly with her wit and intelligence. I love that she isn’t afraid to put him in his place throughout the whole fic! The whole confrontation

(i decided to put the rest of ur wonderful wonderful truly incredible review underneath the cut bECAUSE IT IS SO LONG AND I AM SO ABSOLUTELY IN LOVE ? WITH YOU ? AND I DON’T DESERVE THIS?)

between the two at the very beginning really set the tone for the tension between them. “’I’ll see you around, Park Jimin.’ His gaze trails down your backside as you leave.” I’m SCREAMING, the sexual tension is so thick, so delicious. I really enjoyed the way you spent all this time building up their frustrations. Their dynamics remind me of James Potter and Lily Evans a bit?? The rivalry, the competition, the TENSION. I loved the Hogwarts references, especially with McGonagall haha “I just happened to open the door because it’s the time both of you should be here for your meetings anyways. Regardless of who is offering to bend over for whom.” HAHAHAHA I’M ROLLINGGGG!!! I’m 10000% here for sassy McGonagall!!! The library scene where Jimin can’t help but look between her parted thighs?! Phewww that boy is confusing the physiologic feelings of anger and arousal if you ask me and the twitching in his pants. I love how she doesn’t take jimin’s crap and dishes it right back to him while they’re bantering in the library. Ok, now the smut. Are YOU KIDDING ME. The first time they fuck in the head boy study?? The way he actually cares about foreplay to make sure it’s good for her too? Yeah, ok he TOTALLY hates her 😉 and the way he pockets her panties had me raisin my eyebrows okkkk I see you Park Jimin… I see. “Gonna prove to me that you’re a one dump pump or something, Park?” HAHAHAH I love that they keep up their banter, even while fucking. Multiple sex scenes?? There was sex on a table, tie sex, prefect bathroom sex. My soul has ascended, catch me in the 9th dimension after this. “Meeting in Yoongi’s office” HAHAH I love that that’s their code for: wanna fuck? Damn I hope Yoongi never finds out about how much they got it onnnn in his private study room haha and as pussy quivering as the sex is, my fave part is actually the scene where OT7 throws a pre-holidays party in the room of requirements and Jimin attempts to convince her to come and he proceeds to get drunk and refuses to leave until he sees his girlfriend. “At once, his eyes turn into half moons with how brightly he is smiling at you… his eyes and his cheeks rounding out… ‘Baby, you showed up!’ He cries, managing to untangle himself from Taehyung and latch immediately onto you… ‘I thought you weren’t coming!’” Omgggg my HEART!! The way it… straight up melted?? I love love love the way you incorporated the way Jimin hugs people, just throwing himself into it!! The scene where Jaehyun helps her get Jimin back to their common room and he confesses uwu my poor heart. The dialogue in this scene is pure gold. “Wait, you’re not my girlfriend? But… I really like you, so I thought that something was going on.” And when they have intimate sex in the prefect bathroom? And when jimin is sucking on her nipple and making eye contact?? I AM THE BIGGEST HOE FOR NIPPLE PLAY JUST FLING ME INTO THE SUN IT’D BE COOLER THERE. I love how she rides him, how they take their time with each other, how softly they kiss for the first time, how he back hugs her in the tub. “Sweetheart, I’ve been chasing you around for a month and a half- emotionally and physically. Do you really think I’d be able to keep my feelings a secret in front of other people?” and “Plus when I kick your ass in our classes, I think that it's more satisfying to hear that I beat my girlfriend instead of that transfer student from Ilvermorny.” HAHAHAH I love this couple!! They are the perfect balance of sweet and spicy- the nerd power couple of Hogwarts!! Battle of the Brains is the perfect dish to serve up for romantics and hoes alike. You really killed it with the sweet ending while they were DTR'ing and cuddling in the tub... and then interrupted by Yoongi. Poor Yoongi who's gonna have to scrub down his whole private study now that their secret is out! Well done boo!! I know I’ll return to re-read this again 😊 Sending you all my love!! Ps can’t believe “girth” didn’t show up even once in 3 sex scenes HAHAHA

HOLY FUCKING COW WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO TO DESERVE SUCH A THOROUGH COLLECTION OF ASKS THAT SPELL OUT SUCH A WONDERFUL SWEET THING YOU’VE SENT TO ME WTFFFFFFFF. WOW OKAY. thank you so much for this !!!!! i am really really so happy that you enjoyed the read and honestly let me kiss u because you inCORPORATED QUOTES FROM THE FIC IN THESE ANSWERS ?? i swear to god i have read this at least 5 times and it makes me grin every single time i finish reading through. i seriously need a special tag for this specific ask so i can continue to scream over you screaming. i’m so happy you enjoyed the smut!!! and am even happier you liked the ot7 pre-holiday party! that part was originally meant to be really short, so i’m glad me extending that scene was worth it! thank you again sososo much for taking the time to write this and send this to me omfg i can perish happily now. 

[renticat]

Phewww... Yuck?

Lol you're not going to believe me that I'VE BEEN DELETING ALL MY POST, again. Its the second time I'm doing it. First one its my blog, tifanyaprilia.blogspot.com and please don't ever visit that site again because I've just happen to know that google shut down the google + and my name Tifany Aprilia become "unknown" (well I actually kinda like it because its nice to be nobody when everybody says that nobody is perfect; which is me lol) 😅

I wrote so much about my HEARTBREAK TRAGEDY in my old blog and one of my friend told me it's a SHAME, you can't be too honest about your feelings especially online (you know internet are full of fake things so you better get yourself some security) then I thought about it and yeah I agree so I just left some poems that actually didn't relate with myself at all (okay, some are related to me but not every pieces) and I honestly dedicated those poems just to be a book written by me because I joined the writing club in campus but no more... I'm just in very ill feeling two years ago and now (I mean right now) that finally I can come out a little bit from my shell.

Don't ask me why? Its complicated and I ever wrote it here if somebody ever read it... (Sigh, I made all the perfect same mistakes again but different times with same-different people and I hope I can do better to overcame my own insecurity) -complicated childhood PTSD, a little bit depression and suicidal imagination cause I am not brave enough entering the hell for eternity of course I mean it- if you wondering why there are so much difficult words to understand go googling yourself-

Second, my tumblr is back! Finally... I personally like tumblr more than instagram because here you can share many things like gifs, re-blog content from other and writing your ideas like a blog but I never update my entry about a year ago because I can't open my tumblr app anymore on my phone so here I am. Well instagram is cool but when I write too many words for caption is just not seem good looking and fyi I didn't like to post picture of myself too much ex: selfies but I've ever done it so I think its enough -thanks to Luluk; she made my instagram account when actually I didn't really want to just so my friend can tag me but when I have insta they don't really tag me -_- so I thought I better upload everything on tumblr again, bye insta and blogspot-

My instagram just for stalking cute cat photos, cool outfits or maybe laughing at ex-boy when I am still single. Lol I didn't want to delete my insta acc because there were so much memories... Not that much but still...

So thanks for visiting me again. I am still learning English and for sure I knew my grammar was not that good but at least I try, (and the importanter;cough; I have to expand my vocab babe, the more important yeah does my writings sound dull?)

My Mother tongue eh, mother language is Indonesia. If you don't know its near Malaysia and Australia... Haha (its sad some people really didn't know where Indonesia is) and Im just still shock that BMTH going acoustic but whatever I still love them.

With heart,

(If I don't forget where it was)

Tifany Elok Aprilia

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