#phew this was a rant. sorry anon

[onboardsorasora]

The way that f1 wants to enter American markets but is doing the exact opposite of what most Americans like in their sporting events — competitive and accessible.

F1 already competes with football, basketball, etc during the weekend, but by making tickets so expensive and having a convoluted schedule that makes each day a competitive session they’re just furthering the average, casual American sports fan from entering f1

they're trying to make the sport accessible while literally creating a new way to gatekeep. The amount of time I've seen, read, heard people ask 'is it quali?' 'wait, whats happening today?' in terms of sprint weekends is painful. and these aren't casual fans that ask these questions (no shade to casual fans, but if people who have been watching from they were young can't even grasp the new changes, I can't imagine how confusing it must be to new people)

you'd think they'd do some market research before attempting to plop a track in every major city right?

and its looking more and more like the US races (outside of COTA) are being initially funded BY Liberty and theyre then hiking the prices to recoup all the money they put in. thats why Miami and Vegas are so fucking expensive. youd think that the money theyre getting in sponsorship and rights and all the other stuff would offset some of it. but at the end of the day its all about profits and to be able to say that the attendance was x hundred thousand and it was super popular and profitable!

onto the next city!

I don't think theyre realizing that they've already passed the level of oversaturation. And i don't just mean in the US. In general. The season is too long, theyre doing too much with the sprints that don't reasonably make sense to the championship as a whole. Theyre introducing way too many new tracks, street tracks, instead of bringing back OG tracks that maybe haven't been on the grid since lockdown and before.

I'm sure we wouldn't be this upset with the new addition of all these tracks if instead of Vegas, Miami and Madrid it was Hockenheim, Sepang and Kyalami. Bring back race tracks built for racing! Stop making civilian life hell because you want to block off every street in the world and have drivers go vroom around them. Do you know how annoying it must be to randomly all of a sudden wake up to the noise of racing (and those bitches are LOUD) if this was never something you ever had to experience before?

Sorry this became a proper rant but yeah, I don't think they're truly thinking about the fans. theyre only thinking about the spectacle and even that is taking a backseat to the profits. We don't even need to go into how shitty the tv direction and actually just how poor some of the overall product has been.

[cheollipop]

About "love you goodbye"..

I was crying too like the other anon. A bit angry like "You can just wake her up, why not!! Imagine what she feels when she woke up and you're gone..😭" And then crying again lol me and my emotional thing.

Well that's mean your writing is goodd, simple story with detail explanation. I love it

I'm so sorry about the tears omg 😭 if it helps, I was sobbing writing it too sjdksbdk

I'm so glad I'm getting feedback on this fic despite the tags not working bc I really wanted to talk about it 🥹 -- I'm going to put a small cut here bc I'm just gonna rant for while dhiwhde

for the most part, I addressed reader's pov about seonghwa leaving, but only briefly mentioned how seonghwa felt at the end. I think it's hard as it is realizing that leaving meant the end of a relationship he's had with someone he loves so dearly, but knowing that his partner is suffering just as much (even though they suggested the breakup) makes it even more difficult. however, seonghwa realized too late that he'd been neglectful towards reader, and should've been there for her rather than ignoring the issue at hand. he wasn't the only one hurting, but he chose to disregard that because he didn't want to accept that the person he loves with every bit of his soul is suffering just as much as he was.

I think the way he broke down after he had her for the last time was the final goodbye he needed, and stretching the pain out even more by waking her up only to see her crumble once more... it's probably not something he would want to see. perhaps he wanted to preserve this peacefulness she must have been feeling in her sleep, even if it's only for another couple hours.

it's sad, yes, and probably quite unfair to reader, but I hope you kind of understand where he was coming from.

phew, sorry for the long rant hahaha. thank you so much for taking the time to send me an ask, I appreciate it so so much! I hope you have a lovely day/night annoniee 😚<33

[evilpenguinrika]

this is why i no longer actively involve myself in large-scale fandom spaces--because people clearly cannot understand the simple notion of "this ship is a NOTP of mine, so I'll just simply ignore and blacklist this ship so I don't have to see it". Like it doesn't take that long to blacklist or ignore??? Everyone is going to ship something because in their eyes, they see something between a character. I never really understood the need to actively start shipping war drama either? Like please, just leave it be, why waste your time when you could be doing something else that's cool like binge-watching a show, playing a video game, or staring out into the empty void of the ether as you have a mild existential crisis?

I personally did not mind Handon, I just didn't like the way the writers of the show took their story and sort of dropped the ball on the development if that makes sense? And, maybe a widely unpopular opinion, but I also didn't mind Jandon? I thought they were very cute despite the angst of how they actually got together. Another probably incredibly widely unpopular opinion, but I was also sort of rooting for a Handosie/Hosandon throuple to be honest because that would have been such an interesting dynamic to explore, especially in a mainstream media (i am a multishipper at heart so don't mind my peculiar ship tastes lol--also i wish the writers explored the Mizzethan throuple outside of the therapy box like pls we were robbed of a Mizzethan throuple 😭).

And i think that's what so many people don't seem to realize, like, again: you can have a ship you don't like and not harass the people who likes the ship that you don't. like it's not that hard people. I have ships in the fandom that I don't like or particularly care for but I can also understand why others ship them as well because they must have saw something in their dynamic to make them ship them. It's honestly all about subjectivity, imho.

To the anon: i'm so sorry that the legacies fandom space makes it really hard and terrifying to post hosie stuff because of stupid ship wars and people who thinks it's fun to harass others for their ships. you should totally be allowed to post your hosie gifs stuff cuz that's super cool and i know gif making/gif makers take so much time and care to make them like y'all are so cool and I would personally love to see them but honestly that's up to you if you're comfortable because again, the anti's in the legacies fandom space can be silly butt heads.

phew. okay. rant over.

also omg i'm so sorry Uncle Asad for hijacking your post rip 😓

hey, out of curiosity, do you feel welcome in the legacies comminity on tumblr? i’ve noticed because of ship wars that hosies seem to be shunned a bit. i guess more so when it comes to the gif making community

Hello, Anonymous Hosie Friend! 😀

I probably have the most uninformative perspective on that question, because I am nearly every bit as much an introvert here on tumblr as I am in the physical world 😂

I follow mostly the dwindling number of now-less-active fellow Hosie authors and don’t make an effort to interact with the larger Legacies/TVDU fandom outside of what those authors pull into my dashboard. (I even fell out of habit of checking the Hosie tag once Kaylee’s last episode aired; I don’t think I’ve checked it since this past Hosietober 😳) And I almost never tag my own posts Legacies unless it is broadly applicable, so I’m not pulled into the loop that way, either. (Probably not good for my reach, but my goal wasn’t to be widely known, so…)

Based on my run-ins with The Handon Troll™ on AO3, it doesn’t surprise me that the larger Legacies community here on tumblr isn’t entirely welcoming to Hosies—though it does sadden me 😢 Fandom is love, and we should live and let live, but that seems quite difficult for some folks 😢

Thanks for the Ask (my Asks are always open, y’all), and I hope in time you’ll be able to find a space here that’s as welcoming as it should be 🤞

[holdmyhopeinyourhands]

I agree with anon and your answet a lot as new fan of Ney! He seems like just a party animal and bad person when you just look at the news about him but when I learnt about his family, his friendships I started to admire him. Ngl, the relationship with his child and the mother of his child made me really surprised in a good way. He is an example of "do not judge with the package" people :)

I've been thinking about how to actually answer this for a really long time because the way you talk about him is so refreshing and makes me stupidly emotional, because you pointed out all the little things about Ney that people rarely notice, but are the reason why I love him.

Honestly I guess I never had the news issues when it came to Ney because I was a fan of him before social media really took off so the little things I knew and admired about him came from my own research. It made me love him not just for his football but for who he was too. Like I don't care if he rolls around six way to Sunday if that stops him from getting another season ending injury you know. That was never such a big deal to me.

Literally everything, everyone hates him for (and by everyone I mean the randos who don't know him unlike his teammates, family and friends) don't bother me one bit.

If he drops and rolls as if putting out flames, I'll just go "Fair enough. If the refs ain't gonna protect you from your next big injury. Fuck it. Swim baby, swim! Give those Olympic divers run for their money!!"

I genuinely laugh when people come on my blog to "politely" inform me they dislike Neymar for this reason and I should do it too like lmao. As if I don't know these things already as if I care. 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

So anyways, all the bad news about Ney and frankly insane lies and rumours kinda caught me off guard when I really became part of online football fandom. Like the whole "neymar bullies mbappe" or "neymar is jealous of mbappe" craze tripped me up for example.

The insanity of it and how everyone lapped it up like it was real told me everything I needed to know. People hate on Neymar because it's cool. It has nothing to do with his "antics" it's just pure hate. I mean, Suarez bit three people, drops like fly too and he never ever gets even the tiniest bit of hate that Neymar does. So at this point I just don't care. The hypocrisy is just astonishing and downright amusing.

Like Neymar wanted to leave psg last year and everyone started to hate him. The wholeass psg fandom included. As of the guy hadn't suffered two long term injuries here as if he wasn't tired and as if refs weren't refusing to protect him. They just wanted to hate on him, so they did. Like he owed us anything.

And then Edinson (bless his heart. I love that man) bails on us in the middle of the champions league and what? Not a peep from anyone. Like I adore Edi and would have probably thrown down with anyone who so much as looked at him wrong but again, the hypocrisy was astonishing.

The whole cl thing of "Neymar fake cries" also grinds on my nerves (at this point this is becoming a call out post rather than an appreciation post and I'm so sorry about that anon dear). Like people have seriously convinced themselves that he suddenly started crying only when he came to psg because he wants sympathy points or something. Fucking hell people, y'all really think you're that important to him? You really think he cares about your opinions that much? Last time I checked he was the player the whole psg crowd were booing during a home match and he still scored that bicycle kick at the last minute and won us the game. Last time I checked, he did another such last minute goal again, winning us the game again, aaaand walking away again because he was only there for his team. Last time I checked, Ney not being injured for once last season was what brought us to the final for the very first time in our history. So you know what? Pretty sure Neymar doesn't give a flying fuck about you people and your disgusting hatred.

So no, he didn't suddenly start crying for sympathy points. He's always been emotional. Literally unless you started watching football yesterday, you blind fools would know he cried his eyes out when Barca lost against Juventus (a game where he was the only one trying may I add) and he's done that over and over again throughout his career. Win or lose. Neymar has always been emotional. But hey, make fun of that. You all are pretty good at denouncing toxic masculinity only when it suits you, after all.

And the whole Neymar being jealous of Kylian thing that went on for a while. Like..... fucking hell. After we beat Lyon 5-0 with a Kylian hattrick (one of our greatest matches that season. We actually played well) this was posted by fucking ESPN:

Like..... wtf. And people ate it up. As if Neymar hadn't been the best player on the pitch that day. As of Kylian and him hadn't been absolutely magical together. As if Neymar hadn't been the one creating all those chances (and frankly scolding Kylian for missing so many. Like our Kylian should have had 10 goals ok!) And the fact that idiots who never even watched our game, fucking dared to post this shit and then idiots who just love to hate, jumped on it without hesitation..... Basically, sigh.

Because, this happened the same day:

This was Kylian and Neymar celebrating their victory together.

This was them literally being glued to each other's side because they were so freaking giddy and happy and proud and so high with adrenaline

Kylian taking a picture with Ney's son because the kid looked up to him and Kylian wanted to make his day

As if Kylian didn't give that same ball that you all thought their friendship could be reduced down to, to Davi (Neymar's son) because the kid looked up to him and Kylian is the sweetest guy. Because Neymar and him are amazing friends and have always looked out for each other, but hey..... from that stupid picture above, you can't quite tell that, can you?

In the end, I guess I'm just tired of trying to mediate. Trying to see things from both sides. Like it's ok to dislike Neymar. I don't fault anyone for that. But the bizarre level of toxicity, the way actual news paper go out of their way to spread misinformation and hatred. It's exhausting and I'm not willing to deal with that anymore.

Aaaaaaaand, let's get back on track shall we😅😅😅😅

I guess I just went a little bit crazy there, sorry.

*cough cough* Anywaaaaays. You're right that his friendships and family life tell a much better and clearer image about who he is then the media portrays. Like it's probably something not many people know, but news guys! Neymar was actually a teen dad (at 19 I think) and him and the mother of his son aren't together (weren't really together together ever) but he took responsibility as a 19? year old when she found the courage to tell him, and they've been like the most amazing co-parents since. Like we all see this immature side of Neymar a lot, so it's hard to believe that not only did he step up as a dad when he was barely an adult but he also managed to create (along with carol) a healthy family dynamic for his son to grow up in. Davi loves him, Carol adores him and she brings Davi over whenever she can. Even though they live in Brazil and neymar in France.

They have managed to become such an adorable and sweet family that it kinda makes my heart soft

Both Carol and Ney love Davi so much and it so evident by how much both of them try to give him all those important moments and share it together. Like Carol bringing Davi over during the CL final and Neymar being able to see his son. But more than their healthy family dynamic. I love Neymar and vini's relationship even more (Vini being Carol's significant other).

Like there is no resentment or annoyance or distance between them. They are practically best friends and hang out all the time. It's honestly cute as hell. Especially during this moment where Vini brought his own son with Carol (Valentin) and Davi to support Neymar and jkugjgkgjg look at them all wearing Neymar's number 10 psg kit!!! If that isn't a loving family I don't know what is.

Here they all are just being a family. And there are so many things you can claim is annoying or dislikable about Neymar but not this. Not this little family that somehow found away to work and love and adore each other. Just look at Neymar holding Valentin! He's not his son. Frankly, they aren't related by blood at all, but he loves that kid because he's Davi'a brother and the son of Carol and Vini. And I just😟😟😟 if that isn't literally the most wholesome thing ever

Neymar with both the kiddos!!! How can you not love that! How can you not respect that! Like loving your family no matter how complicated should be the norm and the expected, but so many people and especially famous people fail at that. So to see Neymar still, even after all these years just embrace his big family and just love every part of it. It's sweet.

I also find it precious that Vini and Neymar always seem to be hanging out. It's just what they do. And if you can't see how utterly sweet that is, I don't know what else to tell you.

I guess that's it for this post. It's practically an essay where I've vented my feelings and ranted and raved like a lunatic so sorry about that. Didn't mean to make your wholesome ask into this anon dear. But it also helped me put things into perspective for myself. I've kinda realized I've always walked on eggshells around all the Neymar hatred and frankly I'm tired of doing it. Despite how much people have right to do it, I have just as much right not to deal with it. And that's a refreshing realization. So thank you for allowing me to figure that out for myself anon dear.

Also, I hope for those who never knew about these things about Ney, that they might give him a chance now.

He isn't the worst person to have graced this earth you know. He isn't perfect of course but Neymar seems to at least be real. Flaws, problems and drama and all. And he tries. He tries so much and I love him for that.

And beneath that immaturity, drama and competitive spirit people hate, there is someone who stepped up when he was told he was going to be a father. There is someone who loves his stepson? (Would Valentin be his stepson? Or the son of his own son's mother and her----) anyways, you get the gist. Neymar is the person that Kylian idolizes, he is the guy Messi misses and the person Tuchel adores. He is the football player Ronaldo Nazario respects and the guy Thiago Silva sees as his little brother. He is the guy every young Brazilian player want to play alongside, he is the footballer that young upcoming players gravity towards in any team he plays in. He is the man who somehow manages to bond with the unlikeliest people. He isn't perfect, but clearly to those who matter, he is.

And to me, that's all that matters.

Mahky out!

[xeno-aligned]

I dont know if you knew this but Pupgender has been really taking off on Twitter lately. Someone made a flag for it and there's even an extended LGBTA wiki (NOT m*gai watch, thankfully) on it now :)!! It's really cool, + the person who made the flag and started circulating the gender on Twitter is nice. Im really proud of you!

(i’m sorry in advance about my answer, i know you were only wanting to let me know about this and you had good intentions!)

ok, im gonna vent/rant under the cut:

yknow, this is cool, and i’m glad people are liking and identifying with the term, but... i’m sorta miffed about how the term has been so changed and simplified? and also just how the flag maker (who knows im the creator since its in the carrd!) didnt... consult me... at all?

the wiki states the full, correct def, which is nice, though it does say “often considered the counterpart to catgender”, which ive never even heard of! the carrd and the flag/twitter discussion... that is, if i’m honest, almost unrecognisable as my original term. since when is it a neurogender? where did i talk anywhere about pupgender and gender alignments? why on earth did the flag maker put the meaning of the paw print as “autism acceptance”, when pupgender was made with system kids in mind?

(also where the flag maker says, “ this silly label and flag i made “, which i know it means “the label [that i didn’t make] and the flag [that i did make]” but it doesnt come across like that!)

i guess this is something i have to reconcile myself with as a content creator who is putting terms out on the internet for people to use. and yknow, that’s the purpose of a neolabel, isn’t it? to be used? to grow and become something personal? like it says in this post, “[terms], once they are released to the public for use, are no longer the property of the creator.” and yeah, that’s true, and i gotta remind myself of that. but just cause something became public use doesnt mean there cant be discussion! if the flag maker had came to me and said “hey im pupgender but i think its more [insert the carrd definition here] for me, can i make a flag for pupgender/my experience of pupgender”, i wouldve said heck yes thats fine. but that didnt happen, and i think thats a problem that happens a lot in our neolabel community.

[commanderserwin]

BEEEEE do you remember me 🥺 I hope you are doing alright. A friendly reminder again that L love you -✨Joy anon

OF COURSE I REMEMBER U MY JOY ANON !!! YOURE A FAVORITE GUEST HERE ALREADY !!!! NOTHING BUT LOVE HERE 4 UUUUUUUU

[reminaissance]

What's your writing schedule like? Recently, I've been finding it really hard to balance school/work with updating my fic :( I really enjoyed getting my story started, but I've been feeling a lot more stressed out lately, and even when I have time to write, it feels like the quality of my writing goes down just cause I'm not in the best state of mind.

Oy! my friend, I was there when this whole quarantine started. i could not focus on writing a single word because i’m so used to writing at a café with mild ambiance sounds. it also didn’t help that i had started classes online – i write best in the mornings, with a clear mind, right after breakfast. i do that for a few hours before i have to work on other stuff.. 

now i would recommend two things. one, try to set up a space for yourself that is different from your usual set up at the desk or your bed or the floor . just anything really. make it pretty for yourself. have a nice cup of tea or coffee. try to enjoy just sitting there, you know? i find that this can help getting your creative juices flowing because your mind goes, ok, this is different, and nice, and also sorta inspiring. and two, don’t force yourself to write. times are hard right now, and i can understand that the school/work balance isn’t exactly the best when you have a creative mind. if you need, you can DM me and we can discuss your story. i find that that also helps. 

but most importantly remember why you started writing your fic in the first place. distance yourself a bit from the story, remember that feeling, and let it come back to you on its own…

[jobethdalloway]

did you watch the PBS Little Women? My mom wanted to for mother's day, and I wanted to check it out with her bc I know how much you love the story but like...I really didn't like it? She and my sister loved it but I kept leaving to like clean up and other stuff. I'm sorry. Did you see it? Maybe it's just a bad version.

UGHHHHHHHHHHH IT KILLS ME THAT THIS WAS YOUR INTRODUCTION TO LITTLE WOMEN!!!!!!

My mom and I also wanted to give this a go for Mother’s Day but we could not make it through the first 15 minutes. We recorded it and later fast-forwarded to see some of Angela Lansbury as Aunt March, and she was (what a relief) great, but Lord have mercy was everything else ATROCIOUS.

In the first scene, I could only tell which sister was which because of the dialogue - I’m familiar enough with the story to know which lines go to who. But in the ensuing scenes, I swear to God I could not tell Jo from Beth from Meg and could only distinguish Amy because she was blonde. The acting was so FLAT. The March sisters are each so distinct, just in the first scene of that novel/other adaptations - making them distinguishable should be a slam dunk but they were all so bleh that I couldn’t tell and what’s more didn’t care which one was which. And the scene we watched with Angela Lansbury didn’t help!! wtf was that, Jo?! SHE WAS SO MUTED AND LEFT NO IMPRESSION WHATSOEVER. I’m not saying Jo should play that scene bouncing off the walls, but there are so many ways to get across the emotions she’d be feeling there - annoyance, discomfort, frustration, impatience, unhappiness - and instead all we get is the equivalence of the “meh” emoji. No, not even that, because “meh” could be construed as an emotion. These actors - with the exception of Angela - were just reading lines. They were not acting. (And this goes for Emily Watson as well, which is surprising because I know she’s talented and I had hopes for her Marmee. DASHED.)

Another problem - I was kinda like “ehhh okay” in the beginning when they show Mr. March writing his letter because in the book/other adaptations we don’t actually meet him until much, much, much later on in the story - and that’s powerful. It underscores his absence in their lives, and his distance is felt. As Marmee is reading his letter to the girls, then we cut to scenes of wounded soldiers and I’m like ?!?!?! wtF IS THIS???!!! Oh did the filmmakers not trust that we would be able to intuit from his letter about the war THAT A WAR WAS GOING ON?? Still I tried to overlook that (like, I think only 5 minutes had passed so far) but then. Then it’s like here’s Laurie, 2017 dreamboat guy, and his grandfather Dumbledore. Look at grandpa Dumbledore!! He’s strict and Laurie just wants to be a free boy :c STOP IT. THERE IS NO NEED TO CUT AWAY TO LAURIE AND INTRODUCE HIM AND GRANDPA LAURENCE LIKE THIS. LITTLE WOMEN. IS ABOUT. THE LITTLE WOMEN. I’m not saying one of them has to be on screen the entire time, but actually MAYBE THAT IS WHAT I’M SAYING. Jo, Beth, Meg, and Amy (and Marmee) are the heart of this story. We learn everything we need to learn about everyone else - their father, the Laurences, whoever tf else - through their relationships with one of those girls.

I have to imagine that cutting away to these other scenes is the show’s way of trying to differentiate itself from other (better) versions. But like, guess what, there’s a reason why the best adaptations don’t do that. Because it’s stupid and unnecessary. I’m not saying adaptations can’t make changes; heck, my favorite one swaps the ages of Beth and Amy - which to some hardcore fans of the book, makes it an unforgivable adaptation. But it’s their loss, because that version captures the heart and soul of the story, of the characters. It gets that Jo is a vivacious spirit, bursting at the seams with a lust for life, someone who - in the words of the novel - “found her greatest affliction in the fact that she couldn’t read, run, and ride as much as she liked.” Where is that Jo’s joie de vivre in this version? June Allyson is perfect. Janet Leigh’s Meg is tempered and desperate for better times; Elizabeth Taylor’s Amy is hilariously snobbish and self-obsessed; Margaret O’Brien’s Beth is so much the tender and cherubic child of the novel; Mary Astor’s Marmee is leagues ahead of any other I’ve seen. PBS did wrong by them all. 

If older movies aren’t your style, I have no qualms about recommending the ‘90s adaptation as well (although I understand if you need some time to get over PBS’ before giving any other film a shot). Winona Ryder captures Jo’s restlessness, enthusiasm, and boyishness so well. Claire Danes is a perfect Beth, shy and quiet but wise beyond her years. Kirsten Dunst is likewise a perfect bratty Amy - she knows just how to toe the line; she is at times a ghastly child but never in an unbelievable or over-the-top way. Trini Alvarado’s Meg is caught between love for her family and frustration with their circumstances, and she does a wonderful job of expressing that tension. Each sister is distinct in appearance and personality, which the PBS version just …. does not establish at all. Susan Sarandon’s Marmee does swing a little too often into ‘90s sensibility, but that’s because of the dialogue. In her mothering moments, she is a lovely Marmee.

From a technical standpoint? OY VEY. Please click this link and listen to the opening music of the ‘94 film. When I revisited this movie as an adult, ready to be skeptical because of my love for the first version I ever saw, this music won me over. Yeah I mean it’s kinda got that ‘90s period piece vibe, but it somehow also captures New England winter and, most importantly, WARMTH. The opening credits music of the ‘49 version is endearing to me as well (click here) in a different way - it has sort of a storybook quality to it somehow; it is sweet but not sickly and again, is warm. 

I found no warmth in what I saw from PBS. I’ve seen a lot of people praising its cinematography and I’m like, what? What. The scenery was shot like it was a Planet Earth episode set in Massachusetts - like sure, the imagery is beautiful, but this isn’t a nature documentary? The interiors/shots of characters are so perfunctory. So basic. So meh. There is no warmth and no love for what’s at play. 

These characters and this story have so much to give. What I saw of this adaptation did not do them justice.

[sebsxphia]

I’m sure I’ve read about 85% of bob fics out there… and I’m only wondering one thing. WHY is nobody calling him “bubba”??? To me bubba is such a cute nickname and it’s already so close to “bob” 😭 Like I feel like he fits the nickname so well

imagine early mornings with that man and everything is tranquil and quiet, coffee’s brewing, he just finished dressing up for work. You’re on the sink washing something, he comes and hugs you from the back, you greet him “goodmorning, bubba” and he kisses u on the cheek

Do we have any thoughts on this? (Sorry I’m ranting but that man drives me insane lmao)

no, no do not apologise at all, we love the thoughts!!! he drives me insane too, phew 😮‍💨 these ted talks are fantastic!

i do have thoughts. and the thoughts are, YES. absolutely we are calling bob, “Bubba”!!! give me the tranquil coffee morning with him any day now please 🥹

It’s the name you called him instead of Bob one night when you were a bit too drunk at the Hard Deck after only been dating a couple of weeks.

“Oh my god! What?” Bob couldn’t stop laughing, holding you up by your shoulder as you keeled over with laughter. “That’s it, gimme your phone.” You giggle handing it over, (Bob also totally knows your password).

“What are you doing?” You placed your hand on his chest peering over at him tapping away on your phone. “There you go. I’m now Bubba in your phone.” He said showing you the screen with a smile plastered across his face. And it stayed like that, stayed as “💞 bubba 💖” for the rest of your married life.

thank you so much for this dear anon! 💌 im absolutely in LOVE with this idea to the end of time! 💖 what else do you think he’s called?

[pinkbowsandprettyprose]

Lemme rant for a second because I just kinda love what they did for anime Kisshu? In the manga, the stakes for him just seem to be a little... Lower. Deep Blue doesn't really abandon him and he doesn't question too much neither does he really scheme behind his friend's back and doesn't betray Deep Blue until the very end to save Ichigo. He was fully counting on Deep Blue letting Ichigo live. His questioning of Deep Blue as a savior isn't something the manga really expanded upon, neither was the obsession for Ichigo.

Now in the anime we can have an idea why his mental state just degenerates as the story progressess. We can see him being more detached from Deep Blue and letting out some snide remarks here and there, and we can see how his infatuation with Ichigo just slowly descends into obsession as everything just goes wrong for him by the last act of the anime. I love that part in episode 39 where he's reminiscing about how things have gone wrong and remembers Ichigo, then proceeds to not let Pie and Taruto kill her because he wants to do it himself (but not before asking her to become his one last time or die, which is funny because it's never the last time he asks her that).

Episode 42 also shows us a snippet of what is going on back in their planet, and Kisshu looking at his people running away as the place falls apart. By the time of episode 45, imo, Kisshu is distraught over the fact he is continuously failing his people and their time is running out because the planet's condition is getting worse, already was abandoned by Deep Blue so he's outta the game and has to scheme on his own, and there's also his conflicting, too intense feelings for Ichigo he can't quite handle. So we get his absolute meltdown in episode 45. He's got nothing to lose by this point.

In episode 48 he literally says Ichigo was what hurt most compared to failing his people and being abandoned by Deep Blue. One would think an unrequited romance should be the least of his problems, but I guess Ichigo is the most feasible thing, the closest thing he has to an escape, a way for him to be happy, and he can't have that because she doesn't return his feelings.

So yeah I do think manga Kisshu is Neat, but OG anime Kisshu is just... A lot more developed, also loved how unhinged and intense they made him, both as a character and his obsession for Ichigo. Sorry for the long rant btw and if I'm wrong, haven't checked out the manga in a while.

PHEW this is a fantastic breakdown of the anime progression, anon! I truly adore this perspective and I think this makes a GREAT case for the preference for anime Quiche.

Thank you so much for taking the time to write this all out! You’re a gem!!

[glowingbadger]

hi sorry to bug you! but in regards to ur upcoming lumine x kaeya fanfic, I'm not sure if its 100% true but f! & m! travellers are underage ;;

I love ur other headcanons tho!

Hey anon! I totally appreciate folks chatting with me about this stuff- here's my take, because I do consider this kinda thing super seriously:

- the travelers appear to be semi-ageless world hopping magical fuckery of some kind. (Google says "around 2000 years old," for all the good that does us). We don't have a ton of info on this yet, but it's really the only reference to a life pre-canon that we get.

However! Those who know me will know that this alone wouldn't be enough to make me feel comfortable writing them. For instance, I don't buy the classic "this loli is secretly a 1000 y/o dragon so it's okay that I wanna smash" - so I feel obligated to look into it more.

- the only other reference to age we get for the Traveller is that they're apparently not old enough to drink in Mondstadt. This is SUPER complicated for a lot of reasons. One is that some people have argued that the Traveller tends to appear irritated by this like they're being teased, so some argue that they are of drinking age, but just look young. That's very shaky justification though. The only thing that makes me consider this even a little valid is that Venti is an absolute fetus and no one seems to bat an eye at his alcohol intake.

- The MORE complicated issue is that of cultural context and how much we simply don't know. What is the drinking age in Mondstadt? Their culture and economy is so alcohol dependent that a high drinking age seems unlikely. But that's assuming that the writing, world building and translations in this game were always ironclad- which they patently are not.

And now we get into the weirdest part, which is the enormous cultural gap that Genshin as a whole suffers from. In China, where the game originates, the age of consent is 14 (ew) and the drinking age is 18- meanwhile here in the US of A, we've got an age of consent of 18 (usually) and a drinking age of 21- so already we're dealing with very different developmental stages and a cultural gap that makes me feel icky. But lastly, consider that the US is extremely prudish about references to alcohol compared to most countries, especially East Asian cultures. The video game rating system is a fuck, and I would put money on the idea that the translators were told to specify that NO, NO, OUR YOUNG LOOKING PROTAG DEFINITELY ISN'T DRINKING WE SWEAR- regardless of any original intended indicator of age

So here's what it comes down to for me:

- this game refuses to make actual sense of the traveler's age

- everyone in this game has round baby faces so the visuals really don't help

- translation is a fuck (need I remind us of the charming kea-luc sworn brothers vs. brothers debate)

- the game constantly and actively encourages you to ship its characters, primarily with your Traveller

- I need a reader insert for a fairly involved Kaeya fic

- goddamnit fine I'll just use Lumine unless Mihoyo wants to give me an actual canon age.

- I am gonna write this goddamn character as an adult so there's no question about my personal intent.

Phew, sorry for the rant lol, but I really want to impress on folks that I don't take this sort of thing lightly and I do seriously consider things like this! I'm really, genuinely open to hearing other people's thoughts on this, and other characters. ❤️

[selfcareparker]

(lovely anon) i'm so happy to finally be answering this oh my goodness hi gorgeous human being i feel that it has been too long 🥲 SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED SINCE THE LAST TIME I'VE WRITTEN ONE OF THESE HOW HAVE YOU BEEN

to answer the things you have said most recently- i'm so mad that spring break is over bc now i have to go back to life??? like dancing and school and shit that feels so unnessacry 😭 and like i can't just do nothing anymore? i was so used to it and now...... ugh. i STILL haven't played sims (i think it's because ✨depression✨ be hitting sometimes) lol but MWAHAH IM SO HAPPY FOR YOUR NEIGHBOR!AU AND THAT THEY HAD LITTLE BABY LEO!! i feel the name thing.. i just come up with something that sounds nice? i think leo is a nice name, it makes me think about lea michele and the fact that her son's name is Ever Leo but anyway. i don't name my sims after what i want to name my children irl either... idk why though. (i don't know why i'm telling you this but for boy names i love Liam🥰 and if i had twin boys i think i would do Liam and Peter though i am not married to the name Peter.... anywho)

LMAOOO the therpaist coming made me laugh thank you :)) i hope it's helpful? this may be tmi but i've only really had negative thoughts recently and not many healthy outlets so i'm hoping crossing one thing off this sad list will make me feel better :') i think during spring break my anxiety and my depression really spiked? idk, it comes in episodes but yeah THIS GOT REALLY SAD

i think a lot of things when i read your posts but i never say them hahaha so imma say it now: i googled what bon appetit meant ( i also just had to google how to spell it ) but ur right, i feel like bone apple tea makes more sense than bone apple teeth.. the "th" is throwing me off bc how i say it bone appa (like app-a) teet (like you're saying tit but teet lol) so bone apple tea makes more sense to me lol

i never know really know the time difference for anything lmao but est to germany (that's not gmt is it?) is like 6 hours wOAH so it's like 9pm while it’s 3pm here? wowee

i feel mega weird after watching this show called hollywood (darren criss is in it, so is laura harrier and a bunch of other people) but i don't like it💀 i feel really icky rn and idk why but reading your last response to my ask (?) always makes me feel better :')

i am doing what you said btw, i'm typing this on my computer first then gonna transfer it to my phone's tumblr lol but when you said a digital detox, it's interesting cuz i feel like i've been having one since tom's new project was announced? gOD i don't wanna get into it bc i get so triggered but i've been off of instagram since then bc instagram stans literally stand by tom through whatever even when something ain't right- i’m just gonna leave it there bc i’ll continue the rant, but yeah so i took a break lol

also heard abt your driving lesson thing (?) was it that bad? i can't find the old post but someone asked if you hooked up with your lesson person and i was sOOO CONFUSED LMAOO LIKE OK ARIA GET SOME BUT UHH HUH?

now to address the actual response HAHA the way you touch my heart :') by :') bringing :') up :') halle :') being ariel :') (i honest to God don't remember if i brought this up first, forgive me if i did, it's been a minute lmao) i'm always talking about it and i'm pretty sure my family is so tired of me talking about it lmao, but YEAH when i found out they weren't twins i was so surprised but idk why i always thought they were twins? but YOU ARE SPEAKING MY LANGUAGE WITH THE DISNEY TALK- everyone is always like "tiana is my favorite princess" and yea she's strong and stuff but...... she was a frog. for almost the whole time. it's about time we got another one!! i do agree with some people on the fact that disney should just make another black princess but halle is adorable and i was ariel on stage so it's already really special to me :')

yeah lol there are good times with my brothers but they make me mad for a good portion of the time (there's the 12yo vincent and the 7yo daniel but vincent??? psshhh he is a piece of work and i'm not sure how much longer i can put up with him HAJAH AND YES VINCENT IS THE ONE WHO WAS 👁👄👁WHEN I CRIED AND THE ONE WHO DOESN'T LISTEN TO MUSIC- writing this now makes it sound like vincent is awful. which he isn't... we're working on him ig. not to add to the awfulness but no, he listens to obnoxious loud VIDEO GAME MUSIC and won't stop when we ask him to stop... he gets beat up a lot) anyway i imagine being an only child is really calming.. like you have time to yourself and its just you and your parents 😌

yeah let me know if you end up watching it (wandavision)! i think it's great but if you like it lmk!! tfatws is sooo good like PHEW i am honestly loving it. sidenote: j*hn w*lker makes me wanna jump through the screen and choke him to the ground. i was thinking right, and the falcon and the winter soldier (THATS SO MUCH EASIER FAJHKDAH) would techinally be like a 10 hour movie right? because every episode is an hour long and there'll be 10 episodes? like wow. i get what you mean though, abt the racism in the show etc, like looking forward to it but not like..... no i get what you mean i will not try and give another example lol but you make me wanna learn more languages like really badly (bc of what you said about the german to american translation) & if you end up watching hamilton PLEASE LMK ABT THAT TOO HAHAHA i love it so much, same thing with lion king lmaoo

speaking of germany, i was at lunch on saturday with my mom and her friend and we were talking about my schooling and like-- she planted this idea in my head lol like what if i just got my GED and went around the world (to england probably) to get a theatre experience??? and i think it sounds so cool but no where near practical lol, it's just..... the dream haha and i would then try and learn a language 😉

uh yes we absolutely should order basically a resturant meal at a cinema, how about burgers, chips (fries), and a large drink? any time next week works for me, should i pick you up?

also about cherry (which i still haven't watched yet lol) i got the timestamps from tumblr😌 i couldn't find them anywhere else, but i agree, i probably wouldn't even look twice at cherry if tom wasn't in it? like i liked tdatt a lot, but it's not a movie i would be itching to see ya know?

HAHAHAHA THE 24 HOUR NOTIFICATION- i think i have around 1030 hours on sims? but i've had it since 2019 lmao (reading the screenshots, yes u are 100% a genuis, i take screenshots too but on anon you can't upload them so i just read them and retype what i wrote lmao) i think the university experience in the game is fun, but time consuming and it's all work imo. idk why i do it so often tho 😭😭😭

and agreed!! when you're making good money in the game you have to find other ways to make it interesting. my cousins who play it just continously do "motherlode" and i'm like.... then what do you do in your game?? it just sounds boring to me... my current sims household, i had a famous comedian sim, her name was dylan, aND SORRY IM LAUGHING SO HARD WHILE WRITING THIS BC ITS A GREAT EXAMPLE OF THE UNI THING UNLESS IM JUST DUMB, she went to college for communications when i wanted her to be a comedian and when she graduated i realized that degree did nothing for the career 🥲 so yeah, i think i'm just dumb. but she had a kid in college, guy didn't stick around and she was pretty broke HA but then she got married to this (great) guy named steve, made good bank, had 5 more kids (two sets of twins and one more lol) but then she passed. uhm... yeah that's still an open wound . lol i'm kidding, but when you get rich like that, you have to find a way to make the game interesting and i chose a million kids.

(this was one giant paragraph until i broke it up uhh yeah) i seriously don't pay attention to the sims prices and just end up spending way too much money and not being able to finish the rest of the house😭 but then again, i'm so used to having sims live in apartments... if i end up building a house FIRST OF ALL it'll look like what you explained before lmao but i'll tell you if i actually end up building a house HAHA & planning out your sims game is so fun to me lol, did enisa and michael take in his daughter yet? i may be thinking too far ahead lol and i love that they fucked woohooed (i say woo woo lol) in celebration HAHA but when i was playing with this one couple i had them woo woo every night hoping the dude would have horrible pull out game and they would concieve, but one night they were too tired and i was like why? get back in there man. if i was in college and lived with my partner we would be fucking every night homie. be grateful. i have been talking a lot about sims, and like you said: enough 💀 i just love this game a lot 😭😭

SORRY LAST THING i think the sims romantic and sexual stuff is so nice bc its what i want?? LMAO IDK like the whole hot tub thing you're talking about- puh lease ITS JUST NICE TO SEE OKAY

i'm reading the german section over again and i said aloud "my german friend is so cool" lol (i was saying that to my brothers & i know they don't care LMAO) (& i'm glad the uni zoom call went well!!) so on a form, in german, it could possibily say Einführungsveranstaltungsteilnehmer because you would be a participant to an introductory event? i swear german sounds so cool 😌 but i love reading your german lessons!! it's really interesting, most of the time my brain can't comprehend it tho?? like that word makes sense to you, but i need a translation. like to be able to look at that and know what it says.... its just appealing and seems so cool lol i kinda wanna write something out in german but i feel that google translate will fail me. während googeln "google übersetzen" mein Computer war so verdammt langsam und es fühlte sich einfach wie etwas Gutes auf Deutsch zu sagen. ich bin nicht sicher, welches Wort ist "fucking", aber ich mag es lmao (did it fail me like i thought it would??)

LMAOOO THANK YOU FOR BRINGING UP JUSTIN BC WHILE AT THE RESTURANT THEY PLAYED A JUSTIN SONG AND I IMMEDIATELY THOUGHT OF YOU AND THIS STORY😭 lol i was thinking it's depending on your age but not even that either... i really don't know.... but tom's fans are hollanders💀 i would consider myself one? he's the only person i'm really into like that (like a lot lol) so idk lmao (directioners 💔💔the pain is real)

LMAOOO (both of these paragraphs started off with “lmaooo” smh) "i like my men when they look like they are on the brink of death" PLEASE, i don't like pete's blonde hair... i just don't. i'm not sure if i wasn't watching the most recent snls but yea. my mom thinks he looks like trash, but i think he's okay? like he said staten island people just look like trash LMAO and I STILL HAVEN'T SEEN KING OF STATEN ISLAND GIRL I ALMOST FORGOT ABOUT THAT!! now i'm gonna make plans to watch it lmao, & yes agreed i find pete hot, don't ask why i really couldn't explain it to someone he's just .

my favorite songs from rex are from pony oh my goodness 🥺 anywho i'm gonna go eat cereal (i ended up eating bun and cheese instead) and listen to the Stormzy songs you recommended... aria. aria aria aria. i would like to thank you for introducing me to stormzy i- i don't have any words or any emojis to express HOW GOOD STORMZY IS. i hope he's popular in germany/the uk because i haven't heard of him but GURLLLL

one second - delicious i love it. it's really good. it’s not my favorite from the album, but its great.

superheroes - at first i played the non-explicit one (on accident) and wondered why the words weren't playing but i was reading them in the lyrics??? THIS ONE THOUGH??? IS THE BEST SONG I THINK I'VE EVER HEARD. i am so SO SO into black people empowering songs (like brown skin girl by beyonce) and this song???? PHEW I CRYYYYY ITS SO GOOD.... i was gonna quote some lyrics BUT THERS TOO MANY I LOVE, "i am young, black, beautiful, and brave" "black queen, you're immaculate, it's coming at the world, they ain't ready for your magic yet, and that was never your fault" THAT WAS NEVER YOUR FAULT- I ALMOST CRIED THIS SONG IS SO BEAUTIFUL (i played it twice lol)

lessons is another beautiful one, like its slow and it feels intimate and nurturing and just OO chefs kiss, beautiful . like you can feel the apology and the regret... it’s so good

own it - OWN IT OWN IT OWN IT IS AMAZING!! swear you would catch me dancing to this song, this song is so fucking good i cannot comprehend like this one might be my favorite for real... "it's the way you wind up your waist, i'm so in awe, you never have to worry abt nothing, you know its yours, you know you own it" 🥲 i played it two or three times honestly

rachael's little brother - YES I DID LISTEN TO IT LMAO AND YES I LIKE IT, its a very complex song and it's very layered in terms of emotions i think and i really like that about it. i probably won't listen to it that often, but its really good. i would recommend this song to my "older brother" bc he would just absolutely love this

shut up - i was taking this song seriously (also very good) until i heard him say shu-T up LMAO, this one is good, i probably wouldn't listen to it 24/7 like rachael's little brother but honestly its still fire

before listening to blinded by your grace and vossi bop, i know you brought up the religion bit, i definitely don't mind that, especially because i'm Christian lol and i actually liked that he brought up God in some of his songs like idk i just like it🥰🥰

(i then went to bed after that lol but first thing in the morning i listened to superheroes and... that song is probably my favorite tbh, i was gonna write MORE quotes that i loved from it but, yeah no there's too many. if you want i'll tell you lmao but this is already so long i would just be quoting the whole friggin song)

VOSSI BOP IS A BOP (lol) I CANT EVEN LIE, i love a song that hypes up a dude's girl so the line- i love that my phone decided to fail to load the lyrics, lemme google it, okay the lyric "looking at my girl like what a goddess" i was like AYEEE its honestly just really good. and no one in america says "sauce" like "i've got the sauce" but now i do (thanks to love island and Nas from last season) and now stormzy so (also im gonna watch the music video for superheroes bc it looks great so 😛)

(because this is already so long i feel like i shouldn't finish the rest but . no i'm gonna do it)

now for blinded by your grace pt2 idk why i’m nervous lmaoo PAUSE I'M NOT EVEN DONE WITH THE SONG GIRL THIS SONG IS *chefs kiss* no words, speechless PHEW y'all gon make me start jumping around. why did i not know about stormzy before, he is amazing i- ok yeah i finished the song, all i have to say is that Stormzy is immaclucate. period. i am literally sending his music to all my friends he is..... amazing

you want my song recommendations 🥺🥺 hmm uh okay lol i listen to a lot of old music, whitney houston, marvin gaye, queen, celine dion, i love "more than words" by extreme uhmm okay, but for actual music i listen to on the daily? (this is a lot of different music like.... they do not go together lmao so be prepared) a song about being sad by rex orange county, betty by taylor swift and lover by taylor swift and... most of that album lol, treasure by bruno mars lmao, OOOO and versace on the floor by bruno as well, lazybaby by dove cameron, creep by tlc has been on repeat lol, deja vu by olivia rodrigo (i saw what you said about drivers license and AGREED LMAO but i like deja vu a lot more haha) and two albums that i listen to in general, rare by selena gomez and ungodly hour by chloe x halle 🥰 you don't have to listen to all of them or any of them lol but that's a sense of what i'm into :) so basically everything haha, i'm into literally every single kind of music really so i wasn't too surprised that i enjoyed stormzy :’)

HAHASBSJHAHA your h20 story cracked me up,, like "wow these actors are so dedicated, learning german just for us" 😭 the beauty of overdubbing

once again, math and maths, in my mind maths makes sense because its mathmatics, but saying maths doesn't feel right to me lol, like if i said maths i feel like everyone would look at me like ??? and yea i was taught it as math so its just more natural for me. but yes math/maths is disgusting, easily one of my least favorite subjects so .

mkay. i- the first time i read this i could not contain my laughter when you said the only pollen you know is sex pollen LMAOKOOSHBABJFAJF STOPPP I'M EVEN LAUGHING WRITING THIS,, anyway. wow! that's interesting, my dad (<<< mostly anything else) gets migraines from the sun and the heat and stuff, yesterday (sunday, i was outside for like hours watching my brothers play football, the american kind lol) i was in the sun for like ever and i got a headache😔

summer clothes🥲 i need to go shopping fr fr. for my birthday my mom and dad got me a giftcard like dedicated to a shopping spree and we've yet to go so..... i should bring it up to my mom lol, but!! i went bra shopping (ended up returning literally all of them cuz they honestly didn't work for day to day work? its a long story) and if i could i would walk around in this new "summer bra" i got, i would. it's so fricking cute and its really light fabric (which isn't perfect for my nipples but still) so i don't get hot in it, but that bra and some shorts would be perfect. its the closest thing to being naked so

IS THE BIRD STILL BOTHERING U ARIA, TELL ME NOW ISTG, i laughed really hard that the bird isn't stupid and is really trying to torture you LMAOO like i was rolling, it wants you to suffer, badly

when you said "mensus" it was still close to mens!!! latin speaking queen 😌😌

okay STORYTIME i was reading back your response and started (fake) crying bc i love you lol and my youngest brother (daniel) gon say "oh man, catherine's crying about something we don't care about, again" I--- i swear when i tell you about them they sound awful, but they aren't that bad, just the stuff i say about them is sounds really mean LMAO

but the thing you said about being kind, same, what i always say is: don't be the person that makes people say "i hate people" ya know? like there's no reason to be a jerk or anything.... but its true 🥺🥺🥺🥺 you are really kind and every time i talk to you i would like to personally fly to germany and give you a hug 💖💕💞💗💓💝💖💘

& i'm gonna show my stretch marks some love bc of you 🥺😭 i really hate how men have basically everyone conditioned that you can't love your own body </3 fuck them, y'all beautiful :')

also thanks for what you said :')) you literally are the kindest, sweetest person i think i've ever spoken to and i love you 🥰🥺🥲💓💗

READING YOUR TAGS HAHAHHAHA the spelling errors makes everything so much funnier. once again, i like your german lessons & yea!! i'm gonna play sims after writing this hahah

#catherine's tags are back #i don't think i've told you my name before?? #anyway it's catherine🥰🥰🥰 #i'm typing this on my computer (without emojis) and if i didn't edit this you would be reading shit shite like #heartface and pout and cry LMAO #yeah abt the tattoos #some stuff with my parents i'm like deal with it??? lol #my mom tells me "if there's something you enjoy or you like but i don't have the same opinion on it... why would my (my mom's) opinion matter? #and i love that #like i'm not gonna go and do whatever i want #but if my mom doesn't like that i swear (which isn't true just an example) #its like okay.... #but whatever #and your tattoo ideas sound really cute!! #and yeah @ your parents, i mean you aren't getting something wild #and the tattoo album>>> #i'm gonna look up ariana's butterfly tattoos just so i know what you mean lol #but i'm guessing you don't want something so incredibily simple, but not super like over the top? #correct me if i'm wrong lol #LMAO the tags were in order don't worry ! #and yeah lol ily2 <33 #and once again, again, sorry for this post JSHJS ITS A MESS AND LONG AS HELL #and you don't need to go in order of my post its literally longer than your german compound words #u're fine #also !!! while writing this the birds were chirping outside and i was like 😳 #and one of your fics (i’ve read all of them, i don’t remember lol) that valentine’s day one where y/n had lingerie on (the pancake one lol) #inspired me to buy lingerie #like when i look back on me “growing up” #that fic & basically you lol really helped with that #that made no sense and i don’t know how to make it make sense... but... yeah. like ily

hiiiiiiiiiii <3333

Dear catherine, 😌

(you have said your name before, but it wasn‘t like an introduction or anything i think you were talking about .... was it possibly the incident at the cinema??? And you said something like ‘calm down catherine‘ like you were telling yourself to calm down idkd dkdkkdkd anyway i didn‘t mention it cause i wasn‘t sure if it was an accident or not dkdjd but now i know 😌❤️ Catherine is such a cute and lovely name btw omg and so are your brothers‘s names 🥰

Sorry that I‘m answering this so late, it‘s been an emotional rollercoaster for me since last week but i‘ll get to that in a second lol

Sksklssk girl i haven‘t played sims in like 2 weeks now ekejdkdlldld ok that‘s not that long at all actually but i keep wanting to play but then i end up not playing for whatever reason, so no news about my sims game 😔 but i love the names Liam and Peter and for twins!!! That sounds really nice actually

okay i‘m trying to answer your ask in chronological answer even though i wanted to wait for the depressing stuff and write it at the end or something OKAY so. i thought that i‘d feel so good when i start uni and that i‘ll like... have a purpose in life again and just be happy (cause in the last year i didn‘t do much and i was depressed like half of the time lol).... anyway i kind of feel even worse now? 😭 i think it‘s because in my brain it‘s like: university!!! that means your life will change and it‘ll all be so exciting. and don‘t get me wrong it is exciting butttt..... idk the online thing is so weird cause you‘re not meeting any new people (i‘m introverted anyway but still lol) and it doesn‘t feel like you‘re listening to/talking to actual people cause it feels the same as just watching a video?

also i thought i‘d be busy again but i only have one lecture (90mins) a day and theres one day where i dont have any lectures at all and just one day where i have 3 hours but.... idk i mean i shouldn‘t complain about having so much free time but i just don‘t know what to do all day and in a pandemic there really is nothing to do but i also can‘t relax bc it‘s like during the week and i know i have uni the next day and .... yeah.

There‘s also this one assignment i had to do that took me AT LEAST SIX HOURS AND IM NOT EVEN EXAGGERATING????? so that was the only thing i‘ve been doing besides “going to“ lectures. for this one course we have to read two (really really long) texts (like it literally took me 3 hours to read them) and we‘re supposed to post it on this website that all the professors in our uni use. So after 5 days of anxiety (✌🏼) i posted mine this morning bc last night i realised that i didn‘t even know why i was having anxiety so i just posted mine today. The deadline is tomorrow at 12 and no one except me has posted theirs yet........ so i have anxiety again 🥰 cause idk if i‘m the only one who did it or if i even did it correctly

Edit while i‘m rereading this: my anxiety about uni is a lot better and i‘m not as d*pressed anymore maybe it was just hormones? idk but i‘m better so that‘s good

(I started writing this like 5 hours ago and then i randomly completely forgot lol)

I‘m in a better mood now though so let‘s move on from that (oh wait also, i think i‘m gonna see if i can find a psychiatrist bc with my anxiety symptoms (long story) i need to go to a psychiatrist, and so far i‘ve only gone to like psycholgists and it didn‘t help but i think that‘s just bc i was meant to go to a psychiatrist and not a psychologist so dldjdjsj

n e ways but yes you‘re not alone, ily, things will get better and yes i love you (i‘m not good at this type of thing🥲 but i‘d hug you right now if i could <3)

Yess i think the time difference between est and me is 6hours but gmt is uk time i believe? i think mine is called.... cet? For central european time? I could be completely wrong though lmao

Oof i completely forgot about hollywood, i remember when laura kept posting about it on instagram but i never actually watched it and i definitely won‘t now lmaodkdksjsn

Okay my driving lesson LEBDJDKDK I DID NOT HOOK UP WITH ANYONE AKSJSKSMMLM especially not my 40 or 50 year old driving instructor lol i like her but NOT LIKE THAT, the lesson was really really really good actually and i think i‘ll have my driving test soon, but i don‘t even remember why the anon would have thought that??? Oh wait now i remember okay KEKSKDLDL so during the lesson my instructor was like do you mind if i turn on some music? AND THIS WOMAN TURNED ON ONE DIRECTION I LOVE HER so i made a post about it and i said something about the song up all night and i guess i phrased it in a .... idk in a dumb way 💀 so the anon made a joke that i stayed up with my driving instructor all night and NO. No.

Wait did i read that right? YOU WERE ARIEL ON STAGE? SIALDBDJDKSLMSBDKDMDMDKDJSLSMDJFJJEDMBFEKLEFBJDLDVSIDLESKSKWKDKDJDOWNYUEKWNDUWLNSUFLWVSUDLEHDOENSIDBEISBEHENJELBSIEMWUDNRIW KB WOBE JO ON SBEUU HIII S HWS LV W ICH US KB okay this keyboard smash is getting out of hand but uh please do elaborate on that 💘😌???? Like you can‘t just drop that information and not say more??? I forgot if you‘re in like your school‘s drama group (is that a thing? lol idk anything about acting) or in an independent group? Either way - ARIEL that is so fucking cool

Your brothers loooooool, no i get it though obviously you love them and stuff but esp at their age children are so annoying so good luck with them 😭😭😭lmao

Yeah “anyway i imagine being an only child is really calming.. like you have time to yourself and its just you and your parents 😌“ yeah just me and my parents who constantly fight 🥰 lmao no i like being an only child, like i cannot imagine having siblings but i feel like if i had siblings i would be saying that i can‘t imagine being an only child so? but i do think it‘s quite different like i‘m trying to imagine having siblings and WHAT that‘s just so different omg i‘ve never really thought about it like properly ???

I saw a tik tok the other day that was like “sometimes i forget that my siblings have a life of their own. like i see them as side characters in my life“ and even though i can‘t relate obviously i felt that. lol, like i can really imagine how it feels idk what i‘m talking about like shut the fuck up, daria

(also my actual name is daria not aria but i dont like it, and also i wanted to be more anonymous on tumblr so now i‘m aria lmao. pls don‘t mention it though cause no one knows except for you and mel (peterbenjiparker) dkdkdkdnkdnd. but i‘m starting to identify with the name cause everyone keeps calling me that looool😭😭😭 (but i like the name, more than daria anyway? well it also depends on the accent, cause the way germans say daria is okay. the was Americans say it is also okay, but some of my family in England are from the north of england and i don‘t like how they say my name 💀 no offence to them(?) but yeah pls don‘t mention the name in your ask cause the chance of people seeing it is higher then (or if you want to say something about it just send a separate ask and i just won‘t post it (IDK what you‘d want to say about my name but yeah just in case slsldlldmsndnsns)

I‘m loving falcon and winter soldier so much but when i was watching an episode the week before last week (?) my laptop broke😭😭😭😭 during the scene where the dora milaje came at the end my laptop just shut down? And it had these lines all over the screen and i had to bring it to the shop where i bought it and they said it‘ll take 6-8 weeks to repair 💔💔💔 but at least it‘ll be for free, cause if i brought it back to apple it would cost like 400€ (i think that‘s nearly 500$) so yeah. but it sucks cause now i‘m “going to uni“ on a really old rusty laptop and on my phone which kinda sucks. oh yeah and also i can‘t watch anything on there 😭 i definitely want to watch wandavision but it‘ll have to wait🤧

Yessss you should def get your GED! I googled and I‘m still not entirely sure what it is dldks but from how you described it- YES!!!!!!

Idk if you know this? Like no idea if I‘ve told you this already (hmmm wait i feel like we talked about it actually?) anyway i was originally gonna go study in England, but for loads of reasons I ended up staying in Germany and I‘m def happy with my decision, but I definitely want to go to England sometime even if it‘s just for six months or maybe for my masters or something? And (obviously everyone is different) but i think everyone should go abroad and live in a different country once in their life, no matter if it‘s for school or what, and even if it‘s just for a few weeks. But i think that‘s something that you‘d never ever forget! And combining that with your acting/theatre??? You really would be living the dream 💘💘😌

how about burgers, chips (fries), and a large drink? any time next week works for me, should i pick you up?— sounds good see you soon 🥰🥰🥰

i used to be one of the people who‘d just do motherlode motherlode motherlode and just... what did i do? Why did i do that??? But not anymore lol. Like I said i haven‘t played sims in a few weeks but i‘ve been watching a few legacy challenge let‘s plays and usually i play with the aging off. So my sims just don‘t age 💀 but i could (should) turn aging on so that it stays exciting and i have limited time and everything. and once i get bored with my current sims i can just make them have kids and continue playing as their children when they get older- like recently i remembered that i haven‘t played the acting career in ages? and i haven‘t had a shop in ages? and i think you can even become a vet right??? like those are definitely some things i want to do in the next weeks!!! Also yes sksksjs i have a few hundred hours on sims as well (if not thousands 😭) it was just that one household that i‘d been playing with for 24hrs

AND GIRL SSKSKJD THE UNIVERSITY THING HAPPENED TO ME TOO, it was a while ago so i don‘t remember what degree and what job it was about but i made my sim study something for aaaaaages so she‘d get a better job from the beginning (you know what i mean like get in at a higher level)...... and i apparently studied the wrong thing cause i didn‘t get any benefits from studying and still had to start at level 1 and shit 🥴🥲

Oh also (this was like 2 weeks ago) Enisa and Michael did take in Michael‘s daughter and i think Enisa currently even has a higher/better relationship with the daughter than Michael but um💀💀💀 also i was hoping (since michael and enisa married (in their back yard i think lol) that the daughter (i forget what her name is😭) would have enisa as her step mom? Like you know how you can see the relationship and it says daughter or son or sister.. and i was hoping that it would say step mom but it doesn‘t say anything 🥲 but in my mind (and if the sims had proper family relations) she is her step mom😌 also Leo is a teenager now???? I mean I aged him up lol dkdk he was being too annoying as a toddler but i don‘t like children so i aged him up twice in one day and now he‘s a teen, but that means he can look after his half sister when she becomes a toddler which is good (the game recognises them as siblings tho even if they‘re just half siblings? why can‘t they have step family members in the sims🥲) okay i‘ve annoyed you enough with sims ✋🏼

I‘ve been a bit sick these past few days and now i‘m getting a headache so i have to finish this response tomorrow 😭😭😭 </3

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It‘s not tomorrow, it‘s 3 hours later but i‘m better lol

oooff when sims are ungrateful and won‘t woo woo (lol i like that) cause they‘re too tired like?? Be grateful that you‘re not living with your parents anymore 🙄 no okay dkdkdkdl idk if you play with mods (i don‘t) but i know there is a mod (or it‘s part of a mod idk maybe wicked whims?) where you can adjust the percentage of how risky a normal woo woo is, like you still click woo woo (3dksksks okay i‘ll say woohoo again— wait is that what’s it called? 😭) but there‘s like a 25% chance that your sim can still get pregnant just like in real life there‘s always a chance of getting pregnant even if you‘re using protection (just not 25% lmao) but yeah i personally don‘t play with mods sksk and you can always just click try for baby but it would be cool if you could add stuff like risky woohoo to the game without mods (i have no idea how to download mods and i play sims on a really really old laptop and sims is literally tje only thing that works on it anyway so—) i repeat my words from earlier: okay i‘ve annoyed you enough with sims ✋🏼

okay i‘m so sorry i‘m gonna watch fast & furious 1 now cause i need to watch f&f 1-5 until the 30th of april cause they‘re only on netflix til then (i mean i could watch them somewhere else but the quality is never as good) so i will finish this tomorrow after all😭

it is now 1 am, i finished the film, can feel a new obsession coming up again (i always have these f&f obsessions for six months before and after a new film comes out)

THE GOOGLE TRANSLATE wkekdjdj tbh it sounds like someone is speaking with some kind of foreign accent i guess that‘s probably because it just is a direct translation and so anyway slsjsj i don‘t know if you asked me what the word fucking is in german? like idk cause the translation is a bit weird but in case you asked lol sidjsjs theres not really a good translation like we just say fuck for fuck lmao, i don‘t know if you typed in fucking in google translate and it came out as verdammt? cause that means damn (or damned sksjjs) ummm yeah idek if/what you asked so imma move on🤧

I‘m not gonna comment on what you said about every stormzy song cause you already said all the important things but SKSKSJSJSKNSNDBDUDOENWBSLSKKHSULSLSKSBSJSKSK I WAS SMILING SO HARD WHEN I READ YOUR RESPONSE FOR THE FIRST TIME BECAUSE AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH finally i know someone who loves him as much as i do 💘💘💘 also since you brought it up, i‘m pretty sure he‘s considered the most successful UK rapper or if not then at least top 3 so he‘s defffffffffinitely big in the uk, in germany more and more people are listening to uk rap too but not as much stormzy cause theyre dumb apparently 🙄 but anywY i‘m sooooo sooo happy that you like him. i think hith came out end of 2019 (i could be wrong but i think it came out on the 13th of december so (in a european way) you‘d write the date: 13.12 and obviously i don‘t KNOW this but i can definitely imagine that he chose that date because ACAB and yes, Michael. Yes. But he hasn‘t made too much music since then so i hope he‘s working on some new stuff 🤞🏼

Also i ordered the stormzy poster😌 also a nicki minaj one bc i decided i‘m gonna have one wall with red-ish posters (i already have two kinda red ones) and one with blue/green-ish posters (already have two) and i can add stormzy to the blue one and nicki to the red one, but i think that‘s it cause if my walls are tooo full it could look cluttered? I‘m not sure how that type of thing works lmao but my room is generally untidy so i don‘t want the walls to look unorganised too so i think that‘s it for now

I really want to finish this now but my brain is getting kinda slow and i need to sleep soon so this will have to wait till later after all 🥺🥴 (not that it makes and difference to you bc you‘ll see this whenever i post it buttttt i wanted you to know that i want to talk to you again but with my slow brain i‘m just taking too long to do it in one day😭😭😭 and i‘m so busy tomorrow hmm but i‘m sure i‘ll have 30 minutes to finish this then <3)

Okay wait I‘m so dumb I didn‘t realise I‘d nearly answered everything i could have posted this yesterday 😭😭

Oooohh that summer bra sounds so nice like if i was confident enough i literally would just wear a top that resembles a bra (or really is a bra lol) cause my tiddies always be looking amazing i‘m just insecure about my stomach sometimes 🙄🙄🙄 but recently i‘ve been loving myself more and more tbh 😌

also i hope you can go shopping for some nice clothes soon ✨😌

I‘ll be honest I haven‘t listened to your song recs YET but only because i wanna take my time with them and i‘ve been so busy and slso AJ tracey‘s album came out last week and I haven‘t listened to that one yet either so ekdkdj (he‘s also a uk rapper like quite popular and successful as well, but i feel like i‘m not gonna like his album cause whenever i‘m looking forward to an album it ends up being really bad and the albums where you weren‘t expecting it turn out to be bangers.... so yeah but i‘ll let you know when i listen to your songs!!!! :)

Omg i keep having to scroll up all the way to see the next thing you said so sorry if I completely miss some of the things you said😭😭

So when you sent this the bird was still bothering me oh my FUCK DKDLDMMDMDMD but now i‘ve been going to bed at like 1-2am so the bird is probably still asleep lool

Okay and for the rest of your ask my response is: 💘💖❣️💚❣️💛❣️💛💕💞❤️💓💟💞💕💕💖💘💝💟💟🧡❤️🧡💞💛💚💓💚💚💚❣️🧡💖💘🧡💝🧡💕💘🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥺🥺🥺🥰🥺🥺💘💘💘💘💘 (okay that looked cuter in my head i don‘t really like the green hearts dldkkdksndnd)

[chaninfused]

Today, this mediocre blog turns one year old.

And it’s not much, but it’s something, for sure. I’m happy to be writing this, mainly because I didn’t expect to write it in the first place. Coming here, I had no aspirations for this blog. Write and post, that was my initial intent, but I’m glad to say I have found and created much more. As cliché as it sounds, I’ve learned and improved quite a lot, both as a person and a writer. Never in my life had I imagined myself writing y/n stories, yet here I am, and I’m content.

As much as I complain, I cannot deny that this place made this year bearable so far. Everyone, from my friends to my silent readers, made this experience fun, despite the various disappointments of 2020 (ahem, a ruined senior year). For that, I think it’s time to move to the important parts of this letter; all I have to say to you!

First, I must thank the friends that gave me something to look forward to each day. I am honored to have met you all, whom I have spoken to daily or spontaneously. Thank you for keeping up with my sucky person antics!

@luvhjs, I often wonder if we could’ve ever met if @skzwritersclub didn’t exist, or if you didn’t decide to join our fetus network, and I always conclude that it’s not something I want to think about. Simply because it’s horrifying. I might not express it properly, but our friendship is one I treasure beyond words. Thank you for panicking with me over silly things, listening to my nonsense rambles, and in all sincerity, being the best there is. A hundred ‘I love you’s randomly arriving in your inbox would never be enough, but I hope you know that I love you, and I wish you all the best, all the time ♡

@missinghan, I don’t know where to begin, and honestly, I don’t know where to stop either. I don’t regret screaming into your dms that day, although I’m deeply sorry for terrifying you (oops!). All jokes aside, I truly don’t know what I’ve done to deserve a friend like you. I’m grateful for each conversation we’ve had, even that one about maggot cheese or those depressing texts about our dying dashboards. I solemnly believe that I would’ve lost my mind during spring break had we not spent careless hours on Tumblr talking about anything that could possibly be talked about. I feel like I couldn’t thank you enough for everything you’ve done for me; for hearing my writing rants to handling my dramatics to just being there when I send a good morning text in all caps. You are incredible, it is not just a silly nickname. I love you, and I know affection is gross but I’m saying it again. I love you! ♡

@meiiyue, hey, remember when you told me you knew me from Wattpad? That was our first proper interaction, and I am so glad I had gotten to know you better after that. We often joke about it, but I love your love for all things murder. Please never let anyone’s opinions get in your way. You honestly have one of the most unique personalities I’ve ever known. I mean, where else would you find koalas and blood-chilling crime in one place? Thank you for being the cutest and most talented. I hope you know that you’re loved, and I love you, and it will always be that way ♡

@meanhly, oh, look, it’s my keyboard smashing partner! I’m glad you decided to panic about On track in my dms instead of my askbox. Thank you for birthing this beautiful friendship! Speaking of which, what friendship level are we at now, Selina? Okay, I’ll stop fooling around. Thank you for never failing to make me laugh, no thanks to your autocorrect for calling me fruit, though. I think one of the reasons I love the Songless Bird so much is, well, you! It was your excitement about the story that pushed me to explore the world more, to write more. I cannot even begin to express how thankful I am for that. I love you, so much, and I cherish our friendship just as much ♡

@smileylino, our ‘02 line is only complete with you, Rain. Thank you for being the best panic partner (hehe) and the cutest Minho stan. Talking to you is always so much fun, even if we’re just discussing memes or soft scenarios. I don’t know how successfully your Minho detox is going, but I miss your random declarations of love for the one and only. I hope you know that you’re really talented, and I’ll always be here to cheer you on whenever. You deserve only the best this world can offer. I know you’ll do amazing, whatever it is you’ll be doing. I love you! ♡

@lixiefe, if anyone were to see our first interactions, they wouldn’t expect us to become good friends. Yet here we are, and I wouldn’t change that for the world! I love talking to you, even if it’s about the strangest of topics. Thank you for making me love my own work. You make it out to be something special, which it isn’t, but I appreciate that so much. Thank you for handling my self-deprecating statements with hilarious poop references, even though I am still adamantly against them (kidding!). You’re special, I hope you’d know that. I love you so much! ♡

@scriptura-delirus​, we might not interact a lot but whenever we do, it’s always so much fun. I truly admire your work and your way of thinking. Thank you for writing the best fantasy to be found in this fandom, and for all the support you’ve shown my mediocre stories. If this were a follow forever, know that your url would be among the first. I love you! ♡

@jeonginks​, can I consider you a friend? I hope I can. The entirety of my first interactions with you consisted of me embarrassing myself, from that useless blurb to all that panicking. Thank you for not blocking me yet... I am very sure that without SWC, I wouldn’t have ever talked to you. And while I might not panic anymore, you are still someone I genuinely look up to when it comes to writing. I wish you’d know that you’re an inspiration, for me and many writers out there. Also, you can send me as many Liam memes as you want, I’ve become immune to them (phew). I presume this is called affection, but I love you! ♡

@scxrlettwxtches​, writing or not, you’re a dear friend of mine. I’m terrible at expressing things, but I’m glad we started talking. Thank you for listening to all the unnecessary writing things I say. I love your work, even though I don’t say it enough. You might not know but your enthusiasm motivates me to write; all the random questions and spoiler requests. I’m sorry for [redacted] in ‘Row, Row, Row Your Boat’. I hope I’ve been able to make up for that through the blurbs! All in all, I wish you all the best in everything you do, and I love you! ♡

@f3lixlvr​, you are the first person I have properly spoken to in his hellhole. I remember our first conversations and just how much joy they brought me, even though I was hiding behind an anonymous profile. Thank you for being the most amazing and making late 2019 fun and exciting. I love you! ♡

@wingkkun​, we only began directly interacting recently, but we’ve talked before. Your writing is great, beyond that, even. I’ll raid your masterlist one day, just you wait! You seem like a complete sweetheart, and I hope we can talk more in the future. Thank you for all the lovely tags you had left on my stories, I love you! ♡

@ammuqwer​, you are a friend I didn’t expect to make, but one I wouldn’t want to lose for anything. Talking to you brightens my day, and I can only wish I can offer just as much happiness in yours. You’re amazing, really. If you ever have a hard time, please know that you can always find me. I love you! ♡

@p2q3r4​, I often scroll through your blog and I have to say, you’re crazy talented. Your drawings are stunning! Thank you for all the comments you’ve left on my writings, I appreciate every single one of them. You’re also a complete sweetheart, have I ever told you that? And I love your love for languages, it never was annoying. Never stop being amazing, I love you! ♡

🌷 anon, I might not know who you might be, but you’re a friend I cherish so much, Tulip. I love talking to you, and I say that a lot, but hearing from you is always so lovely. Thank you for all the asks you’ve ever sent, those with tmi to those with Splatoon talk. I hope you know that I’ll always be there for you, whenever, wherever. I love you so much! ♡

Caeliman Minho anon, last but definitely not least. I’m afraid this short letter wouldn’t do you justice, but I hope you’d know that you mean a lot to me. Thank you for all the support you’ve shown my work, all the inspiration you’ve given me, and all the thoughts you’ve generously shared. I love hearing what you have to say, and I love you! Thank you for everything ♡

Second, to all my readers, those who always reblog, those who leave a trail of hearts behind, and even those who just pass by, thank you for giving my writings a chance. I am continuously motivated to write more and write better for you. I’m nowhere near that, but I’m slowly making my way up there. Thank you for being the best audience ♡

Finally, to you reading this, thank you for reaching this far. It has only been a year, and I hope I can continue to contribute to this fandom for much longer than that.

Today, a story was meant to be posted. Due to my poor management skills (yikes!), I will instead be posting the world-information edit for ‘Danse Macabre’. Please look forward to it!

That is all. Thank you for making these 365 days on this blog special, and here’s to many more! I love you all! ♡

[meraki-mark]

miss li fist things first, sorry for reducing your blog to that of a messenger pigeon, i swear that its a lot more than that

okay now miss tiffy im writing this off whatever i remember and phew i remember a lot, Aria- this fic's angst is good enough to make me turn in my own grave and ma'am i don't think you know how troubling that is

reading about m*rk and mc's relationship was like sailing in a cruise knowing that it was going to sink (shh bad analogy) and the pacing was beautiful!

smth about the mc and m*rk not satisfied with their majors hit home grr relating w a fanfic on such a personal level just got me staring at the wall for a good half hour (i hope this makes you turn in your grave)

well other than that renjun and mc's banters where very lively, mc and hyuck bullying m*rk made me choke on my spit and jeno was a wonderful ex now idk if there's a thing called a wonderful ex help this is just me whipped for my own bias

fav parts were all scenes which had fake-star gazing in jeno's bedroom in it haha i will never get tired of re-reading those

in short; *slams desk* now this is what you call pain

p.s. li im sorry for ranting in your inbox i tried to cut this as short as possible

I AGREE THE STAR GAZING WAS GREAT AND I LOVE YN AND RENJUNS RELATIONSHIP

okay uh @ tiffy from beyond the grave here’s the review,,, and anon if you have anything else to say to tiffy just send it in LMAO

[septembersghost]

looking at my askbox, there are three separate anons there right now (two of whom have warring opinions, it really is fascinating to me how much all of our perspectives vary), and I’m not entirely comfortable posting what’s been written in full context, so forgive me for answering them in this way -

♥ anon 1: I appreciate reading your thoughts and am here for any and all discussion, angsty, angry, warm, or otherwise, so please know you can speak your mind. the one thing I won’t do is publicly post character hate (except for that one time I ranted about that one character, but we don’t talk about that >___>). and this is just a me thing, really! everyone is free to say and do whatever they want on their own blogs, especially grappling with this like we all are, it’s understandable! 

my stumbling block with it is multifold. for one, when I actively, publicly participate in that negativity on my own page, it seeps into the little crevasses of my brain and begins to leech away my enjoyment of the story. this might not matter so much if I weren’t still braving a rewatch, but since I am, I’d rather...not focus on specific character dislike (since I can’t help but thrash around when the writing itself slashes at my wounds), and just be at home for a while. in truth, my very obvious bias notwithstanding, this really is a story where I care about SO many of the characters for different reasons, even despite the times when they might upset me, and I’ve been seeking reminders of that when possible. this doesn’t mean I don’t want to hear what you have to say or that it isn’t valid! the absolute raw nerve posts that I have here from the worst part of the breakdown were cathartic/necessary, but I’m trying to cope in a less damaging way atm.

the second reason, and the larger one (from me and my overly sensitive heart) is that I know I have mutuals/followers who might love a certain character, and I know how hurtful it can be to see one of your favorites attacked, and I never want to add to that hurt. heaven knows I can be critical and aching and mad too, things I’ve written here certainly indicate that, friends that have sat through my bitter rantings know it too lol, and I’m not denying that at all, but since this is such a tiny haven for me, I want it to be safe for other people as well. I’d tell you we can rant all day in private messages, but I know you want to stay anonymous and I respect that. 💚 so I’ll listen any time! 

♥ anon 2: you wrote, in part: “Just had a dive into your dean takes & fell in love with every single one,” and I need you to know that means the world to me. then you explain why you can’t follow me, and that’s fine, please take care of yourself first. I’m very sorry you’re suffering. even though our grief is different, it stems from the same place of abiding love and I empathize with your hurt.

you concluded: “alas I will love you + your dean love from afar until some of these wounds heal & the bitterness fades. Take care, dear heart.” I hope with time some of those wounds and that bitterness does fade for you (I hope that for all of us), because it causes me such deep sorrow knowing this story was taken from anyone who found themselves or a consoling/worthwhile place along its road. thank you for your kindness, you can always stop by and visit if you want to, and I’m sending soft wishes back to you. 💙

♥ anon 3: who sent me a bunch of rather specific little ficlets...that was unexpected, but I appreciate the distraction? phew. (and then the last one made me cry my eyes out?! love my boy so, so much.) 💖 thank you.

also to beautiful friends who have sent me non-anon messages, I am SO sorry for being bogged down and behind (as ever), colliding real life factors have not been helping me with keeping on top of things, but please remember you’re treasures, and even when I’m bad at responding, I’m here for you.

my blog’s metaphorical garden gate is always open, and I’m sending love to each of you.

[maevesdarling]

Are we gonna get armistice in season three ya think

I don't know if you follow Ingrid on Instagram but she said multiple times that she won't be in season 3 and as much as I want this to be a lie I actually think it's true.

We haven't seen her on set, she hasn't posted anything and as of right now I can't see any way the plot could make room for her character. The major problem this season is that most of the background characters are gone. Personally, all of my faves are either gone or had the smallest amount of screentime known to mankind. After two seasons and waiting two whole years I expected to see at least a glimpse of them, it's really not that hard, they could have shown Armistice and Hanaryo in the cold storage room or they could have send them to warworld as well, but not showing them leaves the viewer disappointed. Armistice was a fan favorite and yet the writers decided she wasn't useful for the story, at least not this time, even though we had to drag her through two entire parks, I'm wondering for what if we just don't show her afterwards.

And then there's the problem with the "modern" world, there is no room for the old characters because they don't fit the aesthetic. But what is Westworld's aesthetic exactly? Because when I think of it, I think of cowboys, wild west and the desert, I think of future technology paired with a vintage look, humans against robots, the old conflict of 'who's more worthy to live in this world, the humans who are destroying it, or the robots who are sick of being abused by the humans?'

But season three is nothing of the above. In fact, the way Dolores acts I kind of find myself rooting for the humans at times. She has lost any kind of sympathy I had for her, it's like watching a different character. Her look has changed, her attitude has changed, and I know it already changed in season 2 but back then she at least showed SOME emotions (when she was reunited with her dad, any interaction with Teddy she had etc) now she is like a empty hull that learned how to walk and shoot.

Also the lack of Maeve in this season is absolutely disappointing. I have the hardest time watching the show right now and I know lots of people do the same. Anon, I check the ratings regularly and last episode was seen by roughly 780.000 thousand people, meanwhile a regular episode in the past seasons had an average of 1.2 MILLION viewers. I'm bad at math but even I can see how bad this is, no one wants to see a show that isn't what it's promising to be. If I want to see a show about cowboys and robots because I love the aesthetic, I normally would turn to Westworld. The lack of all of this is really making me consider buying a PlayStation plus membership and playing red dead online because last time I played it it kinda had the same vibe to it.

Phew okay this isn't even everything, I'm probably going to make a longer post soon about my problem with this season but I guess that's everything. Sorry that I kinda hijacked your post to rant about S3 but I hope you can see now why I think we won't see Armistice in the near future.