#peter was erased from existence and I fucking cheered

[stackthedeck]

What are your thoughts on the new Spiderverse run? I'm only reading it because of Cooper and I managed to find some bits here and there.

Have a good one!

I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS! First off, there's never been a spider verse that I didn't enjoy because I just love all the creative spins that writers and artists put on the spider mantel!! And usually, a spider verse run means that at least one of the new spiders will get their own mini series or even a full run (Spider-Gwen and Spider-Punk my beloved)

okay this got long specific thoughts and minor spoilers under the cut

And I love the five issue series of end of the spider-verse because all the new spiders are so cool!! And I think the evil wasps work really well because it allows us to check in on the other spiders we know and love but they're turned evil so that we can focus on the new spiders! It's a very visually engaging villain and it really doesn't need to be that complicated for an end of the multiverse story you know

I love Web Weaver more than words can I express I have not stopped thinking about Cooper since I read his issue!! I just want him to have a mini series after all this is over marvel please I will write it!! I think he honestly has the strongest introduction out of all the new spiders because he actually does stuff and it's not just his origin story. His design is gorgeous but also his panel layout was so engaging like that beautiful web page that summoned up his origin story!!! I love his writing and the jokes he makes, you can tell that a gay man wrote his dialogue like yes!! (Steve Foxe, sir I hope marvel lets you write more of this character please Slott can't be trusted with him!) But like he'd have such an excellent mini series because there's a plot hook established before he leaves for the multiverse and it's his relationship with Albert Moon!! It's a love square with two people I'm literally gaging yes please marvel please I need to see how this goes!! Like Cooper and Albert are exes, but Silk and Web Weaver have crushes on each other and Albert kissed Web Weaver! Like oh my god the drama and if I don't get a comic for either of them soon I'm going to fucking write it myself

I also adore the other new spiders!! I like the new spider UK, she's an interesting character with a cool design, but her writing was a little clunky but I think that would have been fixed if she had a whole issue rather than like a quarter. Same with Sun Spider, love everything about her but the writing could have been stronger but also this isn't her first appearance so idk why the felt the need to go over her origins again. I would love for both of them to get their own solos. The character I'm really excited about is Spintress!! I thought her universe was so creative and the way they translated the typical spider man villains into Disney princess stuff. I hope she gets like a children's book or since Disney owns marvel maybe a little animated short in the traditional 2d style like I'd literally kill for that!!

Okay, I love this spider verse, but its whole is less than the sum of its parts. Like it moves into Slott's Spider-Man run and it instantly stops being charming and exciting. It immediately focuses on Peter despite the fact that this whole series started with Anya Corazón and Julia Carpenter! And they started calling Peter the chosen one which fuck no!! The whole point of spider verse is that Peter Parker isn't special, that anyone can take up the responsibility of spider-man, that anyone can be behind the mask!! And then they take away the tension of the evil wasp turning the spiders by saying that 616 citizens can't be turned which like way to bring down the stakes! Noir now has a sword that erases people from existence which fuck fine okay whatever. But the new spiders are instantly pushed to the background so that Peter can have the spotlight! He makes a homophobic comment to Web Weaver, he's nasty to Spintress, and he hates Felicia for no fucking reason!! Like he's so out of character, but it's Slott so idk what I expected. I'm going to read how it ends, but fuck I wish like the core of the story actually cared about the new characters introduced because what's the point of having them there if they don't do anything

[propertyofkylar]

So in modern Spider-Man comics, they introduced this fella named Paul who was added solely to cuck Spider-Man and steal MJ. They really want you to think Paul's better for MJ for some reason, and he got his children erased from existence in an attempt to make you feel bad for him but everyone cheered when that happened, savoring the panel of him hugging his children one last time as they fade from reality making everyone who didn't know about Paul think Spider-Man fans are sociopaths (we are). Anyway, in the latest issue, Spider-Man has taken 0z serum or something and has green goblin powers and tendencies (earning him the title of the Spider-Man who Gobs) and it ended on the cliffhanger of "oh no, Peter's gonna kill Paul like Norman killed Gwen don't you feel bad for Paul? OoooOooOoooooOoooo..." But of course no one fucking cares, kill Paul, we all hate him, hance, go goblin mode on his ass

i mean. okay makes sense paul sounds like he sucks for real

i guess i am just confused as to why i am getting asks about spiderman when i have never said anything about it but i suppose i should be expecting this kind of stuff at this point

[themadlostgirl]

Not Dead Yet (Part 83)

*Fuck it. This is what we’re doing.*

Pairing: Reader x Peter Pan

Warnings: language

I wished I could have stayed asleep forever. In my dreams I was blissfully unaware of all the pain reality had. But even on Neverland you can’t pretend that much. I woke up and ran my hand along the upturned earth next to me.

Peter…

I couldn’t bring myself to leave the spot for a long time. It wasn’t until Candace flew overhead and landed in front of me that I even stopped staring at the grave. “Hey girl,” I placed her in my lap, “I’m glad you’re still around.”

She gave a small chirp and nestled her head against my chest. I took a deep breath and stood up with Candace still cradled in my arms. The island was cold. Why is it--right--I’m the new tie to the island. I focused on the warmth Candace was emitting and forced it out into the world until everything was balmy again.

I made my way back to camp and saw the boys were quiet and subdued. Upon my arrival they watched as I passed by. I came upon Peter and I’s tent and set Candace down outside it. I looked back at the boys and drew myself up as tall as I could.

I’m the leader now. I need to be strong.

I saw Felix in the shadows glaring. He stood up and made his way over to me. “It’s you now huh?” he said.

“Seems so. Is that a problem?” I asked.

He shook his head. “God knows I don’t want to be in charge of these idiots. Sorry you got stuck with it.”

“I will be needing a second in command if you’re interested.”

He gave me a small smirk. “It could be worse I suppose. At least I’m not taking orders from Verne or Devin.”

“I’m right here, Felix.” Verne grumbled.

“I know.” he kicked him lightly, “What’s your point?”

“Okay then. Boys!” I stood up on a nearby rock so I could see the entire camp, “My brothers. Last night I made a horrible mistake and it ended in our leader, Peter Pan, dying. I cannot bring him back though I wish with every fiber of my being I could.”

“The ones responsible for this unspeakable loss think they are safe back in their little town of Storybrooke. They think that we are dead. But we are not! We are here. We have survived. We will continue to survive for we are more than lost children. We are more than brothers in arms. We are the family we sought. Here we were granted a new life away from those that shunned us or abandoned us. We are feared! We are deadly! And we will not go calmly into the night! We make our own rules and break them again!”

The boys cheered.

“I am going to go back to Storybrooke and I will eradicate the miserable lives of those that wronged us. For this is more than retribution for the death of our leader. It is a personal slight against all that he created. Peter gave us a home here. He gave us a family among one another. I will not let those heroes’ efforts to destroy that go unpunished. Who is with me!”

The boys cheered louder and louder until it turned into a thunderous chant.

“Y/N! Y/N! Y/N!”

“Devin!” I shouted and he was at my side.

“Yes my leader?” he smirked and gave an exaggerated bow.

“Shut up. Felix, you get over here too.” I motioned for him to get closer, “First thing is first, with Peter dead and me as the new leader we need to keep the peace. I know I wound them up with that speech but that doesn’t mean we won’t have defectors. Felix, I want you to take Ben and try and weed out the bad seeds. Nip that shit in the bud. Got it?”

“Understood.”

“Good. Devin, you are coming with me to Storybrooke. Before that I want you to get Nick and Cubby. Give them the magic bean to start a new crop. After we have things settled here we’ll head out to Storybrooke. I think my shadow should be able to get us there without any issue.”

“Of course.”

The boys split up and I went about the camp keeping on a brave face and twirling my club in hand. I passed by Peter and I’s tent and sighed. I can’t bring him back but killing an entire town would definitely make me feel better.

~~~

When I was satisfied that things on the island were in order I called my shadow. It grabbed Devin and I and lifted us into the sky as it flew us out of Neverland. The fact that I have this power so suddenly is gonna take some getting used to. Maybe after I destroy all of Storybrooke I’ll come back and practice.

“This is where you were?” Devin looked around at the town.

“Yep.” I felt no bittersweet emotions stepping foot back in this place. The familiar streets only served as a reminder of all that had been stolen from me for twenty eight years. “Follow me. There’s someone I need to pay a visit to.”

We walked down the street until we got to an apartment building. I told Devin to wait outside and went in myself. I knocked on the door and waited. When it swung open there was Emma who took a step back when she saw me.

“Marigold!” Emma clasped me in her arms, “You’re here! How? We saw Gold push you over the ship.”

“Yep…he said that he wasn’t going to wait to kill me like he did last time.” I spat, “Next thing I know I’m over the edge of the boat and falling to my death. Peter caught me and brought me back to the island.” I walked around the apartment. Mary Margaret, David, Regina and Henry were looking at me like I had risen from the dead. “Not that any of you turned around to get me or anything.”

“Marigold, I swear we--”

“My name is Y/N.” I snapped and she shut up. “I am the Lost Girl and now that you killed the love of my life I am the new leader of Neverland.”

“You remember?” Henry asked.

“Yes I do. Rumplestiltskin also shoved me over the edge of the town line so I would forget who I am. You brought me to Neverland to betray the one person I care about most in this world. Now because of you people Peter is dead!” I yelled unable to mask my fury, “I am not here as a friend. I am here to massacre this town and all your miserable lives. Thought you’d like to know why. So make peace with yourselves for nothing can stop me now.”

“Wait, Marigold--” Mary Margaret started but even sooner stopped, “Y/N, please, that was not what we wanted.”

“Yes it was. You knew that I was from Neverland. You knew that Peter was important to me. Then you brought me home and turned me against the person I love to save your brat. The only use that little shit had was to die and save Peter and you screwed us out of that!” The lights in the room popped casting the apartment in darkness.

“Y/N,” Regina approached me. “You need to calm down.”

“No.” I forced my anger out, “I need to avenge Peter’s death.”

“And an entire town of innocent lives is worth the life of one?”

“He’s worth so much more. Shouldn’t you know as much, Regina? You are the reason this town exists. All in revenge for the love that you lost. It’s like a poetic irony that it should be destroyed for the same reason.”

“It won’t make you feel better. Trust me.”

“Maybe you’re right. Maybe this won’t make any difference but I’d like to test the theory for myself.” I flew back out the door slamming it shut behind me. I met Devin at the end of the stairs and grabbed him.

There was fire in my veins and power in my step. I felt something like a gut reaction settle in me and the next moment I was standing in Regina’s vault. I only knew it because sometimes I would need to fish Henry out of here while I was babysitting him.

“Oh geez,” Devin hunched over looking like he was about to hurl, “How did you do that?”

“I’m not sure. It was like an instinct.” I shrugged, “Guess I was used to it from how often I teleported around with Peter.”

“And the feeling of wanting to puke my guts out? Is that normal.” he took a deep breath to force down the nausea.

“I think you just have a weak stomach, buddy.” I pat his back, “You gonna be okay?”

“Yep. Yep, I’m good.” he gave me the thumbs up.

“Good. Now let’s stop talking and find something to help us destroy this place. Regina has got to have some massive curse or poison for the water supply lying around here somewhere.”

“Yes ma’am.” he gave a mock salute and started rifling through the drawers of the vault.

As I was looking through things I could feel Devin watching me. “Spit out whatever it is you wanna say, Devin.”

“I was wondering how you were doing.” He said.

“Doing?”

“With Pan being gone. I know what he meant to you. How are you holding up?”

Shit. I was hoping I didn’t have to do this. But Devin is my best friend. If I can talk freely to anyone it would be him.

“It hurts. It hurts a lot.” I muttered, “Peter’s dead and I’m the reason he is. I can blame these assholes as much as I want but in the end it was me. If I hadn’t gone to Neverland with them then he wouldn’t have put his guard down. If I could have remembered who I was sooner then I could have helped him instead of betraying him.”

“What are you talking about?”

“I guess you didn’t know.” I sighed, “The adults brought me to Neverland to trick Peter and rescue Henry since my memories had been erased. I didn’t know who I was and they made me believe that I was doing the right thing. I got my memories back too late though and it killed Peter.”

“I’m sorry, Y/N. I had no idea.”

“You couldn’t have. It’s okay. I don’t want to talk about it anymore. Keep looking.” And with that the subject was closed.

As we were looking I could feel a dark energy coming from inside a box. I opened it to find a little scroll inside. The language was strange but it seemed to translate right before my eyes. This was magic. Not regular magic either, dark magic.

“Find something?” Devin asked.

“The Dark Curse.” I showed him the scroll, “It’s the curse I got trapped in for years.”

“So much trouble from one little scroll.” he tsked, “Can we use it?”

“Yes, I believe this will be perfect for wiping this town off the map.” I tucked the spell away and gathered the ingredients to go with it. “We have everything we need. There’s only one more thing to do.”

I grabbed Devin again and we were transported back into town. We were out at Granny’s Bed and Breakfast. Devin looked at me as if he was going to ask what we were doing here. I shushed him and handed him the ingredients for the curse. “Stay out here. I’ll be right back.”

I walked inside and the attendant smiled across at me when she saw me approach. “Hello, I wasn’t sure you were coming back for your things or not, Marigold. Did you find a place in town to stay?”

“Oh no, I’m looking for a friend right now. Wendy Darling?”

“Yes, she’s in room four. Just walk right up.”

“Thank you.” I sped up the steps and knocked on room four. There was some shuffling and the door opened to reveal some older man.

“Can I help you?” he asked.

“Is Wendy here?”

“Why?”

“Come off it,” I shoved past him. Wendy and another man were sitting at a table and ceased their conversation when they saw me barge in.

“Hey you just can’t come in here.”

“Shut it.” I brandished my dagger at them and shut the door. Wendy stumbled back in fright. “Don’t be scared, bird. It’s only me. I won’t hurt you.”

“Y/N?” She rushed to me and crushed me in her arms, “B-But how are you here? What are you doing?”

“I don’t have a lot of time to explain. I’m giving you a chance.”

“What chance?”

“I needed to know before I leave. Do you want to come with me?”

“What are you talking about? Come back to Neverland? After I’ve finally been reunited with my brothers?”

“They could come too so long as they don’t cause too much trouble. You’re my friend, Wendy, I would like it if you came back with me.”

“No. I’m sorry but I can’t. Even if my brothers were with me I just couldn’t. I’ve been young far too long, I want to grow up. I can’t expect you to understand.”

“I do. The life of a Lost One isn’t for all. It certainly wasn’t for you. I understand.” I gave her a tight hug, “If you won’t go with me then I can only warn you to get out of town as fast as you can. Bad things are going to happen and I don’t want you involved in them.”

“What bad things?”

“That’s not your concern. I’m going to go and I want you all to load up and head out of town as soon as possible. Can you do that for me, bird?”

She nodded solemnly. “Will I ever see you again?”

“Who knows.” I stepped away and opened the door, “See you around, Wendy-Bird.”

“See you.” She whispered softly. I left the room and walked back outside.

I grabbed Devin again and he braced himself as I transported us into the woods to the old well that which spouted the town’s magic. We started unpacking all the ingredients for the curse and laying them out on the mossy stones.

“You know how to cast this?” Devin looked down into the well.

“Kinda. I’ve never done this before but there’s something in me that does. An instinct like with the teleporting. I can’t explain it.” I fumbled with the vials. I wish there was a simpler way to do this.

With a heavy heart I started dropping the ingredients into the well. A small burst of magic exploded from deep in the well with each vial. When I had run out of things to put in I stopped and stared down into the dark depths of the well. I could feel the magic swirling and pulsing, waiting for the final ingredient that would unleash the curse.

“Did it work?” Devin asked peering over my shoulder to look inside.

“Not yet. There’s one last thing to add.” I stepped away.

“What?”

“The heart of the thing I love the most.” I whispered.

“But Pan is--”

“Yes I’m aware. Which leaves only one other option.” I turned to Devin tears in my eyes. He read my mind and bowed his head. “You’re my best friend. You’ve always been there for me and I love you like a brother...which is why this is going to be the hardest thing I’ve ever done.”

Devin grabbed my hand and placed it on his chest right above his heart. I could feel the faint thumps beating rapidly through his ribs. “I want you to be happy and if that means cursing this pathetic land for what they did to Pan then I’ll gladly oblige.”

“This sucks.” I choked out.

“Yeah it does.” Devin’s voice trembled as he tried to joke.

“You’ll die.”

“I know.”

“Devin, promise me something.” I bunched my hand in the fabric of his shirt.

“Anything.”

“If you see him down there tell him...I’m being the best I can.”

“Of course. And promise me you won’t go getting into anymore trouble.”

“Never.”

“There’s my sister.” He took in a deep breath and nodded, “Let’s get this over with.”

I reached into his chest and pulled his beating heart out. We both stared at the dark glowing organ in amazement. I held it over the well and squeezed. The tighter I squeezed the tighter I shut my eyes so I didn’t have to see Devin’s pained expression. If only I could have shut out the strangled sound of pain he let out when I did so. The heart broke and I dropped the dust into the well. Devin’s body had collapsed to the ground. “I’m gonna miss you.”

I waved a hand and my shadow appeared to take Devin’s body and I back to Neverland. I wouldn’t let him be buried here.

Green smoke started to erupt from the bottom of the well and float up over the sides. It’s done. I watched the curse billow around my feet as it started to wind its way through the forest and towards the town.

I looked back at my shadow which cradled Devin’s body in her arms. I nodded to her and grabbed the shadow’s ankle. We ascended into the air and flew back home.

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[boasamishipper]

endgame review (spoilers!!!)

okay so now that i’ve finally stopped crying and had a good night’s sleep here are all of my thoughts on avengers endgame:

things i liked:

the opening scene with clint losing his wife and kids -- my heart was in my throat the whole time; i felt so so bad for him

nebula and tony bonding

steve getting rid of that beard like thank god

tony and pepper reuniting

tony FINALLY telling steve off for everything; as a lifelong tony stan this was super cathartic

scott reuniting with cassie; in fact, all of scott’s scenes were awesome

bonus - the fact that the only reason any of this was able to happen was because a rat accidentally turned the machine back on

the fact that tony got married to pepper!!! and had a daughter!!! he was such a good dad to baby morgan i loved it

carol’s new haircut  👌 👌 👌

tony looking at peter’s picture  😭 😭😭

“shit :)”

“i love you 3000″

all of the time travel scenes. did the rules make sense? nope. did i love seeing the crew go back in time to all of the previous avengers movies and see their past selves and fuck around with the timeline? absolutely.

going off that -- getting to see all the minor characters like jane and frigga and hank was awesome. i loved the entire time heist plot.

loki making fun of cap by transforming into him

“hail hydra” followed by that smirk (and the fact that they made fun of the whole hydra!cap thing was awesome)

the cap vs cap fight

thor getting to talk to his mother

tilda swinton’s character and bruce talking. seeing her again was def a surprise.

nebula and gamora talking and teaming up to fuck thanos over. karen gillam was great in this film.

tony getting to talk to his father (and the fact that the code name he used was howard potts like??? i cry)

“we’re a long way from budapest” be still my 2013 clintasha heart

the new infinity gauntlet being made out of tony’s iron man hand

the fact that they brought everyone back without fucking up the timeline. i was so worried they’d have to erase tony’s kid from existence but they didn’t so thank god.

steve wielding mjolnir. ngl that was pretty cool.

EVERYONE COMING BACK!!! (i knew it was coming. everyone knew it was coming. but it was still great to see.)

steve saying “avengers assemble”

PETER AND TONY’S REUNION!!! (i waited an entire fucking year for this and it was WORTH IT)

PEPPER FIGHTING ALONGSIDE TONY!!! HOPE FIGHTING ALONGSIDE SCOTT!!! battle couple goals :D

“hey peter parker”

“i am inevitable.” “i am...iron man.” S O B B I N G

tony’s death. like am i sad that tony died??? 150%. but it made narrative sense, he got to be happy with his kid and pepper (for however brief of a time), he found the loophole in time travel that allowed him to save everybody, and he dusted thanos. “you can rest now.”  😭😭😭 a fitting ending for the strongest avenger.

the entire funeral scene. the viking funeral wreath thing with the “proof tony stark has a heart” on it??? GOOD SHIT. i was bawling.

happy and morgan. that kid’s going to have happy wrapped around her little finger.

tony’s final message

the thorkyrie scene (even if i didn’t like what was being said i’m glad they shared some screentime.)

harley coming back!!!

sam becoming captain america (THANK GOD)

the end credits with rdj (the man who singlehandedly made the mcu amazing) being billed last. the theater was cheering and crying at the same time and it was amazing.

the final bit at the end with the noise from tony making his first suit. 😭😭😭

things i didn’t like:

the way they treated thor. taika made thor so amazing in ragnarok and the russos (and the screenwriters) got jealous and shit all over it!!! wtf!!! (and all of the fat jokes and jokes about his ptsd were NOT cool. didn’t like rocket slapping him out of his panic attack either.) can’t believe they made him an alcoholic who sits on his ass and plays fortnite all day. wtf.

for that matter -- i CANNOT believe that he would just up and fuck off with the guardians of the galaxy and abandon his people. is valkyrie a worthy leader??? absolutely. but so is thor!!! that was his entire arc in endgame like WTF!!!! (also the fact that we didn’t get a thorkyrie kiss is fucking CRIMINAL)

also why couldn’t he keep the short hair??? why did he have to get mjolnir back when taika went to all the trouble of showing he didn’t need the hammer to be a hero? did they just want to fuck up EVERYTHING that taika did?

the ending for steve. ‘nuff said.

no you know what? i’m going to go into this further. do i like steve? no. i never have. his actions toward tony in civil war put him on my shitlist forever, and that’s all i am willing to say about that. but you expect me to believe that steve fucking rogers (who KNEW that peggy moved on, lived a good life and had a husband and kids) really went back and fucked up the timeline just to be with her? he barely knew her!! they barely bonded in the first avenger at all!! also there are so many plotholes with how in the world he managed that (what happened when the other cap woke up from the ice???) also does this mean that his ‘romance’ with sharon is technically incest??? and did he just live out the rest of his life with peggy knowing that bucky was being tortured by hydra? insert “it’s bad writing” gif here.

(i am glad that he passed the shield onto sam though. bucky would have been a terrible choice for captain america.)

ALSO. you know who would have been a better choice to go back in time and live the rest of their life with the people that they loved and could not be with due to reasons outside their control? CAROL MOTHERFUCKING DANVERS. let her go back in time and live a happy life with her wife and kid. #carolmaria4evr

the fact that natasha died instead of clint. i literally cannot fucking believe that they fridged the first female avenger just for clint’s (and everyone’s) man pain. it was bad enough when they fridged gamora for thanos’s man pain. clint should have died in nat’s place and the fact that he didn’t is a huge fucking cop out and that’s the that on that.

for that matter -- clint’s entire storyline prior to going back in time was WILD. his only explanation for killing all those people was “thanos snapped half the universe and you didn’t die so imma kill you.”  FUCKING WHAT????

the fact that the russos are patting themselves on the back for their “woke lgbt rep” that was actually just a “leave for the bathroom and miss it” extra. you know what would have been better? a stucky ending. a sambucky ending. carol going home to monica and maria. valkyrie kissing a girl. ANYTHING would have been better than that.

speaking of carol -- she was CRIMINALLY underused in this movie. she was barely shown mourning fury (and also!!! why did we get no confirmation about monica and maria????) and barely spoke to the team in general. i thought she was going to have a major role (and would help them go back in time) but she didn’t and that disappointed me.

did i like the fact that she destroyed thanos’s fleet? yes. but i wish she was used more. she’s the most powerful avenger ever!!! and i wish that she got to speak more with tony as they’re friends in the comics.

(BRIE LARSON IS AN ACADEMY AWARD WINNING ACTRESS AND THEY BARELY USED HER!!! LIKE WTF)

i won’t even get into the makeup thing bc that’s already been said and done. actually no i will. there was no reason for her to have perfect hair and lipstick and makeup. that’s not who she is. please let butch ladies continue to be butch please and thank you.

the fact that they didn’t bring gamora and natasha back :(

this might be controversial but i didn’t love the fact that pepper and tony suddenly retired to a lakehouse and became stay at home parents. i was totally expecting pepper and tony to keep running stark industries and make it into a charity organization that helped people in need/those affected by the snap.

the fact that they never fucking explained how time travel worked and WHY they couldn’t just go back and kill thanos as a baby (that was a good suggestion!). and the thing where nebula shot her past self and somehow lived??? it made no sense. i mean. i know it’s bad writing. but i was expecting it to be at least a LITTLE better. where are my explanations.

speaking of bad writing -- did the avengers ever come out and say the reason that everyone got dusted? did everyone know it was bc of thanos? why are some places in such states of disrepair and others are not? who ruled wakanda since shuri and t’challa were dusted? so many unanswered questions. rip.

the directing of the final battle was on par with the throne room battle scene in the last jedi in that both are chaotic and messy and that’s the that on that. as was the scene where hawkeye was beating up the yakuza. messy. lame. yawn.

the scene with all of the female superheroes. was it cool? sure. do i wish natasha could have been there? YES. do i wish that the mcu had more female superheroes? DOUBLE YES. was it a blatant attempt for the russos to pat themselves on the back and be like “sEE!! WE’RE FEMINISTS!!! LOOK AT US!!”?? definitely.

honestly, i was expecting the acting to be way worse than it was based on how all my mutuals were going off about it. overall, though, it was clear in some scenes that the actors had no idea what the context of their lines were and the acting was pretty meh throughout, and for the biggest marvel movie of the year the acting should be a damn sight better than “meh”. but this just reinforces what i know already, which is that the russos are shitty directors. get them as far away from the mcu as possible please and thank you.

things i wish we got:

a carolmaria reunion

a peter&may reunion

a fury&everyone (and esp a fury&carol reunion)

clint sacrificing himself instead of nat sacrificing herself

valkyrie talking to thor about overcoming alcoholism and ptsd

thor staying in new asgard with his people

steve going back and dancing with peggy like he promised and THEN going back to the future (where all of his friends are) and retiring or helping fury bring back shield.

better writers

better directors

an end credits scene that set up phase 4 (tho i assume we will be getting that in spiderman far from home)

tldr - thor got fucked over. tony is a hero and the love of my life. steve shouldn’t have gone back in time to be with peggy. nat shouldn’t have been fridged. the writing was meh and the directing was worse. not the complete and utter shitshow i was expecting, but not the so-called greatest movie in the mcu. give rdj an honorary oscar. 6/10.

[chokememrstark]

Happy New Year, Peter // Starker

Words: ~ 1,9k

Summary: While everyone else is at the big New Year's Party on the Times Square, drinking and having fun, Peter decides to spend the day in Tony's lab to work on one of his projects instead. What he doesn't know yet is that the way he enters the new year will be much better than everyone else's.

Warnings: new year’s eve, first kiss, first time, drinking, underage drinking, underage peter

Note: As promised, go into the new year with some cute and smutty Starker. Happy 2019!

[Read on AO3]

Peter sits on the floor in Tony's private lab, legs crossed and a candy cane between his lips, a leftover from the Christmas party last week. He wears his oversized Iron Man shirt and some fluffy socks and that's pretty much it, but it doesn't matter. No one is there, everyone is going to celebrate New Year's on the Times Square, so until morning he will be alone and can do whatever he wants.

Well, almost. He's not sad to be alone, he prefers it this way because at the party everyone will just be drunk and loud and no one wants a kid around anyway to spoil the fun. So, he decided to use the privilege of being allowed in here, where he sometimes works with Tony, and keeps Friday as his company - a quiet one, but at least she's nice.

He's working on one of Tony's spare gloves, a project he's been at for a few weeks now and since he got nothing better to do, he thought why not? If it failed, Tony wouldn't see at least and he wouldn't embarrass himself.

"Dammit, where did I put the shooter now?" he groans and looks around, rolling the candy cane over to the other side of his mouth.

"Behind you, Peter, on the table," Friday helps him out and he laughs at forgetting that he put it up there.

"Thanks, honey!" he says quickly, wondering when he fell into the habit of calling her that. Maybe when he heard Tony do the same he picked it up, he wouldn't be surprised.

When the shooter is finally put in place and he closes the glove again, half the candy cane is gone and he's smiling happily.

"I did it! Friday, I did it!"

"Well done, Peter,” Friday congratulates him. "Would you like to test it out?"

"Oh yes! Activate the dummies for me please."

Peter puts the glove on and gets into position. If he calculated everything correctly, the liquid metal he used should shoot out and create a web similar to his own shooters, which he could then energize with enough power to knock everything out.

Friday rolls out the dummies they use to test new weapons on and Peter aims.

"All or nothing, here we go!"

He presses the button. With a buzzing noise the glove shoots out something that looks like quicksilver that drapes over the dummy in an almost perfect web. Peter makes a mental note to calibrate it a bit more later because it's good, but it's not yet perfect and then presses the button again for the final test. He can see the sparks of electricity shoot along the metal, but before he can break out in cheering the dummy suddenly catches fire and his euphoria is gone.

"Shit!"

He darts forward and grabs the fire extinguisher from the wall, aiming at the dummy to not let it get any worse than it already is. Tony would kill him, fuck.

"May I suggest turning down the power on your new addition to the glove, Peter?" Friday asks cheekily when Peter finally managed to put out the fire and he snarls at her, but without any real anger.

"Thanks for the tip, honey. My next guess was to turn it up."

Despite almost setting the lab on fire and managing to cover his feet in white while putting the flames out, Peter's excitement over his invention is still as strong and by the time he's back at his workplace and picks the candy cane back up, he's laughing again already.

"Do you think he can actually use it when I worked out the kinks?" Peter asks without looking up as he puts his tools back away.

"Whose kinks?" A new voice suddenly asks, causing Peter to freeze in place and rip his eyes open. The candy cane drops onto the table.

Fuck, Tony! What is he doing here?

"Who's being kinky in my lab? Only I'm allowed to be kinky in here!"

Peter forces himself to turn around and immediately realizes Tony has been drinking. He's not completely drunk, but the gleeful look in his eyes and the way he sways ever so slightly as he walks over are a clear sign. Well, that, and the bottle of champagne he holds in his hand.

"S-Sir! I-I didn't expect you to be back so early, I'm sorry," Peter stammers an apology, quickly hiding the glove under a pile of papers in hope Tony didn't see it. "W-What are you doing here? Why aren't you at the party?"

"Smells like someone forgot to turn off the stove," Tony scoffs, completely ignoring Peter's question as he walks over to his own desk. “Nice shirt, by the way. Glad you grew out of your Cap phase.”

Peter watches Tony for a moment, not sure what to make of this compliment because his shirt sure as hell isn't anything special. He likes it though, that Tony likes it. And that he noticed because it's his favorite one and it always reminds him of Tony.

"Honey, it's too quiet, play something for me, will you?" Tony says eventually, without looking up.

Friday puts on one of Tony's playlists he sometimes listens to when he works and Peter figures it might be better to just disappear because it doesn't look like Tony is even fully registering he's there. The moment he tries to sneak out, though, he suddenly speaks again and Peter stops in his tracks.

"What are you doing here, kid?" Tony asks and somehow gets two glasses from his desk that he fills, looking at him. "A bit sad here all alone, don't you think?"

Peter bites back a sarcastic comment about Tony being here too and just shrugs. "I don't like big parties, I'd rather be here."

"You'd rather spend New Year's alone in here than with me?" Tony asks with a voice far lower and huskier than Peter is used to, making the boy blush as he leans back against his desk.

"I-I didn't think... that party isn't for kids, Sir. I can't even drink, it's no place for me." He comes up with a stupid excuse because he has no other and knows it's blatantly obvious. He wanted to spend New Year's with Tony but he knew he'd only ruin it for the other.

"Well, I've got a surprise for you then," Tony says and holds up one of the glasses in front of Peter. "Tonight, you can. I'll allow it."

He knows he shouldn't take the glass but it's in his hands before Peter even realizes it. "T-Thank you, sir," he gulps.

"For the last time, Pete, it's Tony, not sir," Tony rolls his eyes and smirks. "Sir sounds like I'm old."

Peter can't suppress a smirk and when Tony holds out his glass, he tips against it slightly with his own. He mimics Tony and puts it to his lips, smiling at the sparkly and sweet liquid. Not bad, that's a taste he could get used to. When he puts the glass back down he chuckles into his other hand, he just can't help it.

"Did I miss something?" Tony asks and raises a brow, but Peter just shakes his head. “What's so funny?”

"No, I... it just... feels funny, that's all," he explains, his cheeks flushing pink.

There are a few seconds of silence and then, before he even realizes what happens, Tony's lips are pressed against his own and the half empty glass drops from his hand. Peter rips his eyes open, but they refuse to stay that way when Tony suddenly pushes him back and his tongue slips into his mouth.

There's a quiet moan against the man's lips before Peter brings a shaky hand up and buries it in his hair. God, he feels so good, so light, it's like every nerve in his body is exploding. Tony tastes of champagne and strawberries - Peter doesn't know why and he really doesn't care either - and it's everything his dumb and silly teenage brain imagined he would taste like.

When Tony finally pulls back, Peter is completely wrecked and speechless, fighting for air and looking up at him with the biggest and most stunned eyes possible. He only now realizes he's not standing anymore, but sitting on his workstation. Did Tony lift him up? Fuck, he can't remember.

They look at each other for over a minute without saying a word, then Tony suddenly lifts a finger to his lips and brushes over them.

“You taste sweet,” he says quietly, surprised even, and Peter blushes even harder. “And you're sticky.”

“C-Candy cane,” he mumbles flustered and shyly. “From… the Christmas party…”

Tony leans forward and kisses him again without a word, less demanding this time and without tongue, but it's absolutely delightful and gentle and leaves Peter shuddering when he finally pulls back.

“Friday, honey… what time is it?” Tony asks after a moment, voice low and ominous.

“23:41, Sir.”

Tony gulps and looks back at the boy with dark eyes. “Peter, do you want to start the new year with a bang?”

Peter's mouth runs dry and he's actually at a loss of words. Nineteen minutes. And a bang. He knows exactly what Tony is talking about and he knows he'd never ask him something like that if he weren't drunk, but quite frankly? He doesn't give a shit. This is his chance and Tony wants him, this isn't one of his wet dreams he will wake up from any minute. And he wants it.

Fifteen minutes later, Tony is on Peter, drowning him in a passionate and longing kiss and buried so deep inside of the boy that he feels like he will burst from it. When he finally moves, Peter believes he's dying with every thrust and nothing else matters anymore. He holds onto the man so desperately his nails leave marks on his back and Tony just goes faster, takes him harder and Peter is trapped in this deep and overwhelming pleasure that erases everything else from existence.

When the fireworks outside start going off, Peter is a bubbling and panting mess, writhing under Tony's forceful thrusts and he whimpers, desperately cries out for even more because he feels so good and perfect and so alive and he never wants it to end.

It's over two hours later that they finally collapse on the bed, breathless and exhausted and completely fucked out. Peter's smile is carved onto his face, it won't disappear anymore. Then, Tony rolls over and kisses Peter's chest and he lets out a quiet sigh, too drained for more even though he loves it so much.

“Happy New Year, kid,” Tony whispers, his breath hot against Peter's skin and the boy just pulls him up to kiss him again, still needy, still blown away that they do this and still absolutely loving it.

When they part, the smile is still there and Peter's eyes are filled with nothing but sheer bliss and adoration.

“Please let me start every day of this year with a bang, Mister Stark,” he says softly and the answer he gets is Tony's lips crashing against his own, taking away all doubts and worries and leaving him the happiest he has ever been in his life.

Oh, this year couldn't have started any better!

[thebicanary]

seriously big spoilers, don’t read on if you haven’t seen or don’t want to know about endgame

i’m pleased with endgame, i really loved it and i didn’t realise that is apparently an unpopular opinion until i got onto old tungle dot com here. everyone i know who was also at a midnight launch was happy with it, people came out of it extremely satisfied so... idk. but here’s why i loved it:

- it was funny. and i have issues with the comedy and comedic timing of a lot of marvel movies not giving time for dramatic moments to fucking breathe before going into a joke or a wise crack but both infinity war and endgame balanced the comedy and drama well imo

- let’s not lie to ourselves, it was complete fanservice for a good chunk of the movie. but it was the best kind of fanservice. there were so many moments people fucking CHEERED AND CLAPPED in the cinema when i saw it, like cap wielding mjolnir against thanos, when the avengers and the armies of wakanda and so many systems thanos destroyed came to help fuck him up, on your left, pepper in the rescue armour, the mcu ladies gathering for a big showdown while carol is transporting the stones etc.

- tony’s death is utterly heartbreaking, especially in light of him and pepper having a child and tony trying to forge a life with a family in the wake of the snap. but it was a satisfying and fitting end for his time in the mcu. this all began with iron man in 2008, this all began with tony and rdj, it would not have felt right for anyone else to defeat thanos in the end, and i think we all knew defeating thanos would require the sacrifice or a life or two. most expected it to be steve, but tony fits better imo. his decision to use the stones to save the world while knowing his body would not be physically capable of handling it was heroic, and heartbreaking, and he got a beautiful send off. It was a great way of honoring tony and rdj’s contributions to the franchise and i was sobbing.

- i’m actually glad carol was not the big weapon to be used to defeat thanos in the movie like was teased in promo material. the fact that the majority of fighting against thanos was from the big three original tentpoles of the mcu (tony, steve, thor) working together was exhilarating, satisfying, and ultimately how it should have gone. i also like that they’ve established carol as not just a defender of earth - that the snap affected many other planets and she is choosing to help all of them as best she can, not just earth. she only properly comes back to earth when thanos arrives with his army to help with the fight. would i have liked more of her present after enjoying her so much in her solo outing? yeah, but this was the end of 22 movies, a lot of characters deserved and needed time, and she is the newest addition. it’s fair that she didn’t get too much focus when this was essentially a love letter and goodbye to characters who have been around in the mcu (NOT THE COMICS, OK. YOU GOTTA TREAT THE MCU AS OBJECTIVELY SEPARATE BECAUSE A LOT OF PEOPLE ARE WATCHING THESE MOVIES WITH LITTLE TO NO COMIC KNOWLEDGE, THEY’RE ATTACHED TO THE MCU, NOT NECESSARILY MARVEL COMICS). also the new haircut is big sexy and i hope they keep it.

- BIG UNPOPULAR OPINION TIME: i liked steve’s ending, fucking sue me. people saying he abandoned bucky, bucky clearly knew he as at least CONSIDERING remaining in the past, if he had not outright told bucky that was his plan. steve choosing to retire from the fight makes sense for his arc. people hating him for going back and not doing anything with hydra/shield/bucky/etc. did not pay attention to the (admittedly flimsy) laws of time travel established. steve could not go back and change their pasts to directly affect the present, it would simply create an alternate timeline. THIS IS WHY THEY HAD TO DO A SECOND SNAP IN THE FIRST PLACE. STOPPING THANOS FROM DOING THE ORIGINAL SNAP WOULD NOT CHANGE ANYTHING IN THE TIMELINE THEY RETURNED TO, BECAUSE IT WOULD JUST BE A BRANCH FROM THAT MOMENT. the whole reason the stones had to go back in the first place was so those extra timelines weren’t created. it’s not hard to theorise and imagine steve actually did save bucky and stop hydra if you want to, but by the laws established in the movie, it would not directly impact the timeline of the already established movies. feel free to imagine that old steve was from another timeline where he did all that - but he unfortunately can’t save the bucky standing next to sam and bruce there. him going back to live out the rest of his life in peace with the woman he loves does not erase what he has done in all previous movies. it gives him a fucking break and allows him to do one thing for himself and his happiness that largely has little consequence, and means we get to see an end to steve as cap without him dying. i’m ignoring the icky sharon situation simply because it hasn’t been acknowledged anyway since civil war and it wasn’t properly built up to before then anyway so fuck it. and peggy gets to be happy too - whether she would have been happy or not without steve, does it really matter? there’s a timeline where she gets to be happy with him like she did want at least at one point, so fuck it.

- on that note as well the ancient one didn’t say changing the past would doom the alternate timelines, she said taking the time stone from them would doom them in that timeline, because they wouldn’t have the time stone anymore, it would never be given to strange and he would never be able to defeat dormammu. which is WHY. THE AVENGERS WERE GONNA TAKE ALL THE STONES BACK TO THOSE POINTS IN TIME, SO THAT THINGS CONTINUE ON THE COURSE THEY ORIGINALLY DID

- as with anything involving this much time travel PLOTHOLES ABOUND but i can largely ignore them just for the fun the movie had with it, and i don’t care enough to really see them resolved. nebula killed her past self but is still around? the thanos dusted at the end is actually past thanos as are all his lackies and so won’t be around to create infinity war which is required for endgame to happen? fuck it, i guess it’s just another branching timeline. idc, love karen gillan as nebula can’t wait to see her as a permanent gotg. thanos getting dusted was a nice satisfying fu. loki just up and disappeared with the space stone when they failed to get it from the avengers point in time (LITERALLY Y’ALL TWISTING YOUR NICKERS ABOUT STEVE AND IGNORING THAT THIS WOULD ERASE LOKI BEING THERE FOR DARK WORLD BECAUSE HE WOULDN’T BE THERE FOR THOR TO TAKE HIM HOME, AND SUBSEQUENTLY THEN NOT BE THERE FOR RAGNAROK.) but again, this is a movie that is largely serving as fan service/a love letter, so i’m electing to ignore it. this is a superhero movie, for gods sake, i don’t need it to make sense 100% of the time. we don’t question a lot of the other rules this universe has established in the past, and also in this movie (like y’all they just up and survived thanos bombing the avengers compound til it was dust. CLINT SURVIVED THAT. HE’S A HUMAN HE HAS NO SUPERSUIT OR POWERS. HE SHOULD’VE DIED. BUT AGAIN. DO YOU GIVE A FUCK THAT THAT IS IGNORED? NO. BUT YOU WANNA GET PISSED ABOUT STEVE GETTING A HAPPY ENDING).

- clint finally having plot relevance and a good storyline in an avengers movie hell yes. he opens the movie and it’s a great way to frame just how fucked the world was thanks to thanos after infinity war. his decision to go on a killing spree is kinda understandable - thanos’ snap didn’t differentiate between good and bad, he’s bitter that his entire family was wiped out but asshole murderers and drug dealers still exist? it’s an approach to vigilantism that i enjoy unpicking in superhero stuff, it’s why i like heroes like red hood.

- it’s a shame nat had to die, and that her and gamora won’t be coming back from the soul stone sacrifices (unless they pull a “actually they got brought back too” thing later. star lord was running a search for gamora at the end after all). but makes sense narratively that she was the one to go rather than clint. he had his family, it would just be one more depressing thing to have his family come back with him not there and nat the one to break it. seeing her go is sad, for a character that largely unfortunately hasn’t got much focus or (well written) development in the avengers movies, but it was a fitting end to her whole “wanting to wipe the red from her ledger” deal, and her and clint’s friendship was beautiful.

- i love hulk!bruce. i love bruce embracing the hulk, not being afraid of him, or his nature as the hulk anymore. it was a nice way to end his arc too.

- ‘nother unpopular opinion, i don’t hate how thor’s arc went either. i would love him to be the leader of asgard, and maybe that can be his future. i’m disappointed it’s not him now, but i think it’s a reaction to the unexpected popularity ragnarok got, and as a consequence that his mcu character got where previously his solo outings had been considered some of the weaker instalments. there’s not much big superhero action to be had in him ruling new asgard, but the potential for another thor outing, or a stint with the guardians, offers more chance for marvel to rake in some more millions with his popularity. doesn’t mean he can’t become ruler of asgard later, and i hope that will be his fate eventuality. but it also nicely rounds out the core three passing down legacies - steve leaves his legacy as captain america with sam, tony leaves his legacy as iron man with the ironfam and peter, thor leaves his legacy as ruler of asgard with valkyrie. we know peter continues on as spidey in his next movie, rhodey will likely at least have a supporting role in future avengers stuff/other heroes’ movies going forward, sam will likely be captain america in the sam/bucky tv show, and valkyrie was a popular side character with potential for stuff going forward (that rumoured lady sif show could be about new asgard or involve valkyrie in some form?). thor probably got the least out of the core three, but i think it’s because they now want to keep the potential for more thor in the future.

- the final fight was epic, and it put into context the line up for the future of the mcu we have and how exciting it is (spidey, captain marvel, black panther, doctor strange (never thought i’d say that but infinity war and endgame really made me like him and the mystic arts element of the mcu more), potential legacy characters like sam, rhodey/pepper, valkyrie, wanda, because i don’t think her story is done yet, the guardians, scott and hope).

- the final credits with the original 6 avengers getting special sliders with the actors signatures was a real nice touch i got goosebumps.

- it was a good way to wipe the slate semi-clean for a next generation of the mcu, without completely killing off and erasing all that came before. the mcu isn’t like comics where it can just perpetually exist in an undefined era where characters don’t age for years on end, there do need to be definitive ends to some of these characters and their arcs unless you just wanna recast them every 5 years so they can remain ageless.

[skychaser787]

Love, Simon novel vs. movie comparison. Spoiler Alert! (180710)

So this is going to be a 70% factual comparison (and of course because this is tumblr i’m going to sprinkle my opinions and rants here and there) of the movie “Love, Simon” vs. the novel “Love, Simon” (originally “Simon vs. The Homo Sapiens Agenda” by Becky Albertall). The list is definitely incomplete and i may add some more stuff in the future but these are the more “important” comparison of the things that caught my attention.

So here we are, my what’s-probably-going-to-be-really-awful comparison of the novel & the movie:

Where’s Alice?: Alice is Simon’s older sister who’s absent in the movie. Btw, she doesn’t normally come home for christmas, and she’s dating Theo, who’s Martin’s older brother.

Regarding Lyle, Suraj and Mr. Worth: They don’t exist in the book

and Ethan and Sophie: They were implied in the book. But in the movie Ethan got his own character and Sophie was shown as a text message

and Jackie: She doesn’t exist in the novel but i love their exchange in the movie.

as for Taylor: The opposite. His character is slightly more well developed in the novel.

Email address: Simon’s email address in the book is hourtohour.notetonote@gmail.com. It’s frommywindow1@gmail.com in the movie. Both are referencing to different songs (Ok so a search from the web told me that it’s Elliott Smith’s “Waltz #2″ for the former and The Kinks’ “Waterloo Sunsets” for the latter)

Starting scene: In the novel, everything started when Simon forgot to log out from his email. But i found the introductory scene in the movie to be very refreshing.

Scenes that got cut: There was this part in the novel where Abby, Nick and Simon went together to Atlanta and they entered a gay bar / restaurant, and Simon got picked up by this college guy named Peter and got drunk. (And grounded for 2 weeks for the matter). As a sidenote, this was the key event that led to his parents’ acceptance in the novel, as opposed to him talking separately to his mum and dad in the movie

Scenes that got cut 2: In the novel, Simon did 2 theatre performances.

Eyeliner: In the movie it just got shown briefly that Simon performed with eyeliner. But in the novel, before the entire Martin saga, Abby drew eyeliners for Simon and (according to Abby) Simon looked “fucking hot”. Abby redrew his eyelines during their final show when they’ve patched up

Scenes that got cut 3: In the novel, after Simon and Bram were officially dating, there was this talent show where Leah played drum and Nora played the guitar (as helped by Nick). And since Alice was there it led to a pretty different ending which i’ll discuss later.

Martin is blue?!: The novel mentioned explicitly how Simon thought that Martin could possibly be blue. And the emotional havoc that follows thinking that he has fallen in love with someone who has blackmailed him and publicized that he’s gay.

Lack of interaction with Calvin?: The novel was more explicit in explaining how Simon kinda liked Calvin too (esp his bangs). The scene where he asked Calvin if he’s blue is only in the film. In the novel, Calvin fooled around with him and pushed him down the hallway in a rolling chair before the entire Martin saga happened. But after, Calvin casually mentioned that he’s bi and that they should hang out sometimes. (PS: I do think that Miles Heizer was a great choice for Cal. That bang is on fleek)

and lack of interaction with Blue...: I think the novel did a better job in developing the story on how Blue and Simon liked each other. Their exchange of emails, their convos, and how they fall for each other, romantically and “physically”.

Blue didn’t erase his email in the novel: He didn’t know anything about the tumblr saga nor did he let Simon know that he knows him. He never checks tumblr and they kept on talking. (PS: In the novel, Martin claimed that he deleted that post on tumblr before the admin could even remove it)

English test: There was this part in the novel where his teacher gave out Bram’s test results to Simon instead and it got full mark. Hint: In the novel, it was mentioned that Blue was a language genius and Simon vetted his email countlessly before sending it to him. And they tried to guess each other’s identity based on their english teacher.

Eliott Smith shirt: Blue (Bram) left an Elliott Smith tshirt on Simon’s locker with a little message (and it contains his phone number too) that Simon only found 2 weeks later as he kept that shirt under his pillow. On a side note, Simon’s parents found out that Simon was drunk bc Simon insisted to Abby that they go back to his house first (after getting drunk in Atlanta) because he needs to get that shirt. And he got grounded. (PS: The last line of the message says “So if you think i’m not attracted to you, Simon you’re crazy” AND ISNT THAT JUST THE CUTEST LITTLE THING ON EARTH OMG WHYCANTIHAVEASWEETHIGHSCHOOLLOVESTORYTOOTHOIMLATEBY1.5YEARSNOW)

Bram’s subtle hint: In the movie Brant drop some subtle (i forgot if it was oreo or halloween) hint to Simon when the gang ate together. But in the novel, that never happened and Simon was trying hard to find out who Blue was. Instead, Simon dropped some subtle hints to Calvin (which is obv not blue) and Simon also asked Blue some stuff that indicated that he thinks Calvin is blue.

Halloween party: It did exist in the novel but it was not a central event like it was in the movie. Also, Leah’s sleepover scene and John Lennon getting drunk scene were only in the movie

Waffle house: The 3 of them visited waffle house more than once in the novel. Also that screaming scene didn’t exist in the novel.

Simon making up with Leah: He carjacked Leah to waffle house in the novel. He ran up to her while she was walking her dog in the movie.

Simon’s involvement: Simon was much more subtle in getting Leah and Martin together in the novel, it’s as if he doesn’t do much. Simon didn’t make up lies in the novel, and the waffle house thing was Martin’s idea in the novel.

Martin’s public confession: Nope that didn’t exist in the novel. But i do think that it’s better to have such scene as it makes more sense why he decided to leak Simon’s secret. I found that the reasoning in the novel (Abby was disinterested in him before christmas) was rather weak compared to the embarrassment he got in the film.

The bullies: In the movie the 2 jocks were publicly mocking Simon and Ethan in cafeteria and Ms. Albright sternly scolded them. In the novel it was more like a series of subtle harassment and she dealt with them by revising some school policy conduct of anti bullying and tolerance before the theatre show, in front of the audience (because they crossed out Simon’s playwright character name (Fagin’s child) to become “Fag”). I liked the movie version better tho. The flow was better.

Coming out to his parents: There were more interaction and emphasis on how Simon came out to his parents in the movie which i found to be more heartfelt. Also his dad’s original line in the novel was: “Let me guess, you’re gay, you got someone pregnant, you got pregnant”.

Simon and his friends: I was also quite moved with the scene where during the day when school started again, this entire blackmailing saga “costs” him his friends. In the novel, Abby and Nick got together because they spent the new year together after Simon got drunk and grounded and that’s what pisses Leah off (in the movie it’s because Leah liked Simon but Simon set him up with Nick). But the novel delved deeper on how Simon felt like a jerk because he doesn’t even know simple trivia about his friends and ended up finding out more about it.

Ferris wheel scene: The part when Bram joined Simon and they kissed together at the top (and cheered by everyone) was only in the movie (EVEN THO THAT IS ALSO EQUALLY AS CUTE). In the novel, the carnival was almost over and the park was rather deserted and they just hold hands together. They shared their first kiss in Bram’s car (during one of their lunch break) where they decided to go out on an oreo date (and it was winter and it was raining too) AND IT WAS ALSO EQUALLY AS CUTE I AM JEALOUS

Bramon: They were quite cheezy as a couple in the novel AND YES I STILL FOUND IT CUTE 

Ending: The ending in the movie was Simon, picking up Nick, Leah and Abby as usual, and they got 5 coffees this time, and he picks up Bram, and Leah moved to the back seat, and Bram got into a front seat and they give each other morning kiss (AND I’M JEALOUS WHY CANT I HAVE A CUTE LOVE STORY AND A BOYFRIEND LIKE THAT TOO sorrynotsorrytoethanandcasper). In the novel, Alice, Nora, and Simon’s parents are off to this restaurant called The Varsity leaving Simon and Bram alone in his house for 2 hours where they made out.

Appearances: In the novel it said that Simon was blond, had grey eyes and wore spectacles. (Hey but Nick Robinson was a good choice nevertheless. At least he got his specs on during the flashback in middle school). PS: i was imagining Martin to be this thin, somewhat nerdy, bespectacled guy with curly hair but oh well.

PS: And i think Keiynan Londsdale (Bram) is pretty cute. Way to go Simon. Great choice.