#pesu

[anokha-swad]

[muchanmocha]

Our girl is worth 6,000,000,000,000,000 pesue I'm so proud of her

[poppetsisters]

#makeaterriblecomicday2024

[nattikay]

newomum oe: tumblrmì lu polpxaya numeyu lì'fyayä leNa'vi? pivängko ko ;)

[rockchomper]

tiny little pesu

[josephtrohman]

on the drive to school today love from the other side came on the radio (on a station i stg they never play it) and i think it was a good luck charm from fob for my huge presentation today going well <3

[casmybelovedass]

my recommendations just made me read the words peter pussy drunk benjamin parker and now I want to die

[jussinmakinet]

Fure autonhoitotuotteet - Jussinmaki.net

Fure autonhoitotuotteilla teet autonpesusta mielekästä ja helppoa. Fure tuotteet ovat Suomessa kehitetty laadukas autonhoitotuotteiden sarja, joka kattaa kaikki tärkeimmät autonhoitotuotteet aina esipesusta loppuviimeistelyyn. 

Fure tuotteet ovat suunnattu kuluttajille, jotka arvostavat helppoutta ja laadukasta lopputulosta. Tästä huolimatta Fure autonhoitotuotteet sopivat erinomaisesti myös vaativille harrastajille, sekä ammattilaisille. Kaikki Fure tuotteet löydät verkkokaupasta

FURE® Esipesuaine

vaahto on vahaturvallinen ja tehokas esipesuaine auton ulkopinnoille. Fure Snow Foam ei sisällä värjääviä aineita, vahaa tai muita kiiltoa tai suojaa lisääviä aineita. Snow Foamia voidaan käyttää painepesuriin liitettävällä vaahdottimella tai painesumuttimella / sumutinpullolla. Se tehoaa kesän itikoihin kuin myös talviseen suolaan. Fure Snow Foam on myös todella riittoisaa, koska yhden auton pesuun kuluu noin 1 – 1,5dl ainetta. Fure Snow Foam on Biohajoava

Vahaturvallinen

Paksusti vaahtoava

Tehoaa kesäisiin itikoihin

Herkullisen purkan tuoksuinen

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FURE® autoshampoo Raikkaan sitruunan tuoksuinen, vahaturvallinen ja tehokas autoshampoo. Autoshampoon koostumus tekee pesuvedestä erittäin liukasta ja vaahtoavaa, joka estää lian hieroitumista maalipintaa vasten. 1:1900 laimennussuhde tekee autoshampoosta erittäin riittoisaa. PH – Neutraali autoshampoo takaa turvallisen pesun kaikille pinnoille, jättäen jälkeensä kiiltävän pinnan.

Runsas vaahtoavuus

Hyvä liukuvuus

Todella riittoisaa

Ystävällistä herkälle iholle

Käy kaikille auton maalipinnoille, myös mattapinnat

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FURE® Raudanpoistoaine  Tehokas vannepesu- ja raudanpoistoaine.

Sitä voidaan käyttää kaiken tyyppisille vanteille sekä muille auton ulkopinnoille rautahiukkasten ja lentoruosteen poistoon.Reagoidessaan raudan kanssa aine muuttuu tumman punaiseksi. Aineen koostumus on myös hieman geelimäinen ja antaa aineelle lisää vaikutusaikaa ja puhdistus tehoa. Fure® Raudanpoistoaine on käyttövalmis seos.

Käy kaikille vannetyypeille, myös kromipinnoille.

Geelimäinen koostumus

Todella riittoisaa

Käy kaikille auton pinnoille

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FURE® Pienpoistoaine  Erittäin tehokas hiilivetypohjainen pien-, tervan- ja liimanpoistoaine. Sen avulla puhdistat maalipinnalta, vanteista, lasilta ja muovilta piki- ja liimatahrat.

Poistaa tehokkaasti pikeä, liimaa ja pihkaa

Erittäin riittoisa

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FURE® Hyönteistenpoistoaine  Vahaturvallinen, mutta tehokas puhdistus aine hyönteisten ja orgaanisen lian poistoon auton ulkopinnoilta. Tarkoin valitut aineosat pureutuvat likaan tehokkaasti pehmittäen sen. Fure® Hyönteistenpoistoaine on käyttövalmis seos.

Erittäin tehokas

Vahaturvallinen

Ei sisällä ympäristölle haitallisia aineita

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FURE® Pikavaha Helpoin ja nopein tapa suojata auton ulkopinnat. Se antaa autollesi loistavan kiillon sekä vettä ja likaa hylkivän pinnan. Fure Pikavahan ansiosta auton puhtaanapito on vaivatonta. Tuotetta voi käyttää maalipinnalle, muoville ja lasille. Sitä voi myös käyttää nykyisen vahan tai pinnoitteen päälle tuomaan lisää kiiltoa ja suojausta.

Helppo käyttää ja levittää

Antaa upean kiillon ja liukkauden

Mahtava veden ja lian hylkivyys

Suojan kesto: 2-3kk

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FURE® Lasinpesuaine Poistaa tehokkaasti ja vaivattomasti rasva- ja öljypohjaisen kaikilta lasi ja peili pinnoilta. Lasinpesuaine on helppo käyttää ja tuote jättää lasille suojaavan kalvon joka hylkii likaa ja vettä. Lasinpesuaine on turvallinen käyttää niin autossa kuin kotona lasille, peileille, muoville ja kiillotetulle metallille. Ei vahingoita tummennettuja ikkunoita.

Jättää likaa hylkivän pinnan

Todella riittoisa

Sopii lasille, muoville ja kiillotetulle metallille

Ei vahingoita tummennuskalvoja

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FURE® Sisäpesuaine Raikkaan tuoksuinen ja tehokas yleispuhdistusaine auton sisätiloille samalla tappaen bakteereja. Sillä puhdistat tehokaasti niin tekstiilit kuin kovat muovi- ja vinyylipinnat. Fure Sisäpesuaine tulee käyttövalmiina seoksena ja on heti valmis käyttöön.

Jättää pinnat alkuperäisen näköiseksi

Ei sisällä kiiltoa lisääviä aineita

Todella riittoisa

Turvallista käyttää kaikille sisätilan pinnoille paitsi laseille

[ruttotohtori]

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Se, missä Pilkaman ja Valion mielestä ei ole järkeä, on EU:n kaavailema uusi pakkaus- ja pakkausjäteasetus ja sen juomapakkauksia koskeva uudelleenkäyttövelvoite. Sääntely voisi siirtää myös maidot, mehut ja mehukeitot nykyisistä kartonkipakkauksista lasi- tai muovipulloihin. Tavoitteena on vähentää pakkausjätettä lisäämällä pakkausten uudelleenkäyttöä. Kaikista alkoholittomista juomista 10 prosenttia pitäisi komission ehdotuksen mukaan pakata uudelleenkäytettäviin pakkauksiin vuonna 2030, ja vuonna 2040 osuus nousisi 25 prosenttiin. Lokakuussa parlamentin ympäristövaliokunta otti vielä tiukemman kannan: se nostaisi osuudet 20 prosenttiin vuonna 2030 ja 35 prosenttiin vuonna 2040. Parlamentin ympäristövaliokunta myös ulottaisi uudelleenkäyttövelvoitteen kaikkiin juomapakkauksiin, kun komission alkuperäisestä ehdotuksesta maitopohjaiset tuotteet oli rajattu pois.

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Valiolle kyse on myös elintarviketurvallisuudesta: etenkin maitopohjaisista tuotteista pakkauksiin jää proteiini- ja rasvajäämiä, joita olisi vaikea pestä riittävän hyvin – etenkin kun pesu ja kuljetus kuluttavat vettä ja energiaa. Sekin mietityttää, onko kartonkitölkkien vaihtaminen muovisiin lopulta ratkaisu jäteongelmaan.

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Pakkauksia käyttävät yritykset ovat kritisoineet sitä, että asetusehdotus katsoo yksisilmäisesti uudelleenkäyttöön kierrätettävyyden kustannuksella, vaikka sama ratkaisu ei välttämättä toimi kaikissa käyttökohteissa. Esimerkiksi kartonkitölkit ja panttipullot kiertävät Suomessa tehokkaasti.

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[lovinqmils]

ꜰᴀʀ ꜰʀᴏᴍ ʜᴏᴍᴇ┊ avatar x human!reader

warnings: panic attack?, self- inflected wounds, use of y/n, small spoilers of atwow, sfw

can also be found in wattpad: @lovingmils

part 1 | part 2 | part 3 | part 4 | part 5 | part 6

dictionary: pesu si nga fpìl nga lu - who do you think you are | sempu - dad | win säpi - hurry | keyawr fya'o - wrong way | kehe - no |

PART 6: “BLAMED”

your heart rate was increasing rapidly as you approached the shore. you hated being in huge crowds. in fact, ever since you appeared this planet gave you had the underlying sense of fear. a sense of deja-vu grew in your stomach as you recognised the same panic you felt on your arrival, but you brushed it off and climbed out of the water, standing far behind lo'ak.

it was late at night, later than you thought. clearly you had explored with lo'ak longer than you should have. only the light from the village and the torches held by the na'vi in front of you allowed you to see. your eyes darted around the crowd as you tried your hardest to find someone that wasn't looking at you like you were some...monster.

you couldn't even look at neteyam, not because neytiri was right beside him but because his gaze was equally full of distaste.

the hateful aura reminded you of his mother.

you hadn't even noticed lo'ak being harshly scolded by the village elders (mainly jake and ronal). you distracted yourself by digging your nails into the palms of your hands in a poor attempt to calm your breathing.

'its not that serious, you're fine y/n' you repeated the phrase in your head, closing your eyes as you hoped it would—

"and you!"

your eyes shot open as the loud voice snapped you out of your thoughts.

lo'ak had joined his siblings in the crowd, looking at you empathetically as he stood next to his mother.

ronal's eyes held nothing but fury, she held an accusing finger in your direction and angrily stormed towards you.

"pesu si nga fpìl nga lu!?" her shouting screaming switched from english to na'vi as ronal tried to convey her negativity in the strongest way possible."we give you shelter and you repay us like this!?"

wait a minute.

you hadn't heard much of what ronal said to lo'ak but there was no way it was this intense.

what was going on?

surely she wasn't this mad because her own child left you in the ocean?

however, your confused face only fuelled ronal’s anger.

"do not act fool, tawtute! you dare try to trick our children into exploring beyond the reef!? what authority do you have?!"

oh.

ao'nung had blamed you so he wouldn't get in trouble...

you turned to look at ao'nung, eyebrows furrowed as you awaited an explanation. your eyes widened as he refused to meet your gaze, his eyes glued to the floor in embarrassment.

you then looked at lo'ak with pleading eyes, begging him to defend you. instead, you watched neytiri's grasp on her son's shoulder tighten, forcing lo'ak to bite his lip in dejection and avoid your eyes regretfully.

…and no one was willing to defend you

ronal started walking closer towards you, forcing to stumble backwards. you were too shocked to speak so you stood in silence.

‘how could they abandon you so easily?’ thoughts of this sort overflowed your mind.

but how could you forget?

you were different. you had no place here. no matter how strong you thought your friendship was, you were always going to be the last choice.

I mean, when was the last time someone mentioned spider?

ronal's resentful words had been drowned out, it was replaced by a loud ringing throughout your eardrums

had your heartbeat always been so loud?

"sempu!" neteyam whispered, looking at you in worry. your head was down making it look as if your neck had gone limp. thick red liquid seeped from the nail-sized wounds down your palm, dripping onto the sand below.

he couldn't tell exactly what you were feeling but the moment your eyebrows furrowed in confusion, he knew something was up.

jake's serious demeanour faded as he allowed himself to view you as a 14 year old, a child and not an 'extra person'. he took a deep breath before placing himself in between you & ronal.

neteyam stepped forward and gently grabbed your wrist, pulling you away from the centre of the crowd. you lifted your head up and stared at jake and ronal, curious of the type of conversation they were having. you kept your silence as you allowed neteyam to inspect the wounds on your palms.

the ringing noise eventually died out and you turned your attention to the na'vi in front of you.

"they lied." you muttered. neteyam looked up at the sound of your voice, but froze at the meaning of your words. he had a feeling what he heard wasn't the whole truth when he watched lo'ak try to explain the situation, but was interrupted by the scolding voice of his father.

"nobody said anything. they just..." you breathed out, shaking you head in denial. "you...you knew he lied! I know you did! so why—" you breathing had become heavier and your chest was tightening as you spoke.

"y/n...." neteyam started. there wasn't anything to say, but he couldn't just stay silent.

"I'm your friend...aren't I? am I..not...somebody who...matters to you?" you harshly rub your neck in an attempt to make breathing easier.

"you must understand...my mother—are you okay?" neteyam took hold of your wrist, pulling it away from your neck as it was doing more harm than good.

you open your mouth to speak but no words come out. now you were really struggling. nonetheless, you stay stubborn and rip your hand away from neteyam's hold and continue to rub your neck as you try to find some relief.

after defusing the situation, jake walked over to the pair of you, "y/n, we decided it was best if we continued this in the morning..." he trailed off as he noticed the current situation.

the harsh rubbing eventually turned into hitting your chest firmly. your legs buckled beneath you, forcing you to fall onto the sand below. the two na'vi immediately kneeled down in front of you as they tried to make sense of what was happening.

"y/n! y/n!" jake called, grabbing your attention. "calm down, just take deep breaths."

your eyes narrowed at his words and you weakly hit his shoulder (it was clear you wanted to hit him way harder), as if you were saying, 'can't you see I'm trying to!?"

neteyam attempted to help you stand up, but was surprised when pushed him away. '

"win säpi! we need to get some help," jake easily picked you up and started running towards the scientists' maui (it was really a make-shift lab).

suddenly, you let out a series of coughs and finally took a deep breath. jake stopped running and gently placed you back onto your feet, making sure to hold onto your shoulder in case you fell again. neteyam caught up to the two of you, placing a hand on your other shoulder as he watched you catch your breath.

"I'm fine...tomorrow morning it is," you panted, slowly starting to walk in the opposite direction, towards your maui. "keyawr fya'o." neteyam sighed, taking hold of your arm and pulling you towards the scientists' maui.

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after spending 45 minutes being examined, they concluded that the unknown device placed in your trachea had malfunctioned. jake and neteyam had stayed the whole 45 minutes, but with the tension from earlier in the evening it was just a long awkward silence.

once the scientists had finished, you rushed out of the maui not bothering to spare even a glance. at this point, you just wanted to sleep. this evening was a harsh wake-up call, making you question everything and everyone.

“y/n!” you heard a voice call out, you saw your maui ahead and wondered if you should just make a run for it; but you decided against it and stopped walking.

neteyam stopped in front of you, it was obvious he wanted to talk to you about what happened. “i knew ao’nung lied about you trying to trick them because you told us you were scared of the ocean,” he explained, pausing as he expected you to say something.

when you stayed silent he cleared his throat and continued, “lo’ak tried to defend you but was ignored, and i couldn’t say anything because—“

“don’t worry about it.” you interrupted, sighing deeply before looking up at him. “i don’t really care anymore, we’ve been friends for a short time. i’m not expecting anyone to go above and beyond for me, a strong friendship is enough,” you shrugged slightly.

friend? neteyam felt his heart drop to his stomach at the word. but what was he expecting?

he could tell you had no interest in this conversation anymore, so neteyam decided to drop the subject. “i guess we became close friends in a short time, huh?” he smiled, glad to see the tension between the two of you was finally settled.

“yeah, yeah” you chuckled, shaking your head slightly. “whatever happens tomorrow, i’ll make sure i’m not the only one suffering.

“am i friend if i let you suffer alone?” he wasn’t worried for tomorrow, whatever rules are set he knows you’ll break anyway.

“goodnight neteyam! oh, and make sure lo’ak is okay, too. your dad is scary” you waved goodbye and started walking away

he grinned at your words, he was glad you forgave him so quickly. he didn’t want to lose your friendship over a single evening, you were your friendship was too valuable to him

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“2 weeks in isolation?” you looked at jake in confusion. it was early in the morning and you had been, rudely awakened from your slumber by jake’s heavy footsteps.

“it was the tsahík’s decision not mine,” jake sighed, not even understanding your punishment himself.

“what is this? jail?” you got up from your hammock and started walking out of the maui, you wanted an explanation.

jake quickly pulled you back inside, “2 weeks of isolation…in here.”

you stared at him speechless for a few seconds, trying to figure out how this was the final conclusion. “why am i being put in house arrest for something i didn’t do!?”

“y/n the decision is final, it’d be easier for you to just accept it. just think of it as a rest, after yesterday you’d probably benefit from it.” jake explained calmly then left your maui without a word.

“wait—! but how am i meant to eat!?” you scoffed at the lack of reply, sitting back on hammock in defeat.

— ——- —-

after a few hours two people walked into your maui. you shot up in excitement at the sight of other people, being in solitary confinement made you crave social interactions.

“kiri!” you squealed, hugging her tightly. you had seen tuk more times then kiri so you were especially glad to finally get to talk to her.

“ahhh y/n! i feel like i haven’t seen you in forever!” she matched your energy, bending down to return your hug.

after releasing the hug you noticed the metkayina girl standing shyly behind kiri.

“you’re…tsireya, right?” you desperately hoped that was her name, you had only talked briefly before but never got the chance to have a full conversation with her.

“mhm!” tsireya nodded excitedly when you remembered her name. she then gently placed down a tray of food and drinks on the floor and sat down beside it, gesturing for you two to join her.

- - — - — —-

once you & kiri had sat down she looked at you apologetically, “y/n…i’m really sorry about yesterday, if ao’nung got in trouble again he knew the consequences would be worse so he…blamed you.”

“yeah…lo’ak managed to tell our parents in the evening, but neither of them wanted to interfere..” kiri added on, her ears dropping slightly.

“it’s fine, i was just really startled yesterday.” your heart ached as you recalled the overwhelming sadness and shock that struck you the previous night. “but i don’t want to dwell on something negative, which is why neither of you can leave me yet.” you started, ready to lighten the atmosphere.

“don’t worry, everyone is quite busy so we can get away with staying here for at least an hour” tsireya smiled playfully, her eyes gleaming with mischief.

the three of you feasted on the tray of fruits and juices, laughing together as you shared stories from each of your backgrounds.

“we are the literally the best mix of people! i can’t believe we hadn’t talked like this sooner!” tsireya exclaimed, placing a sweet berry into her mouth as she leaned back contentedly.

“hurry up!”

“we’ll get caught at this rate!”

the atmosphere became tense once again, as you heard three sets of footsteps stumble into your maui. you braced yourself for the worst but you were happily surprised with familiar faces.

“lo’ak! neteyam!” you eagerly called them over to sit with the three of you, a stupid smile plastered on your face at the appearance of your friends.

you awkwardly stared at the final na’vi who stood in front of the entrance, “uhh…”

you watched tsireya’s face burn with rage at the sight of her brother, but you didn’t want to waste time arguing. instead you took a deep breath a smiled kindly, “ao’nung, come sit! my house-arrest officers will come for me soon enough,”

“anyway, how did you guys know i was in isolation?” you asked, leaning in curiously.

“…all of the elders made it a huge deal for us to stay away from your maui unless we were giving you food,” neteyam explained, sheepishly scratching the back of his head.

“but since all the adults were all occupied, we came to hang out!” lo’ak added,

“until we get found and kicked out that is…” kiri reminded, getting a harsh shove from lo’ak in return.

“y/n…” ao’nung started, looking at you in embarrassment. everyone immediately went quiet, turning towards ao’nung to awaiting his next words. “…i’m sorry, i…shouldn’t have blamed you like that. i’ll—“

upon hearing his (makeshift) apology, you could truly let go of the situation; you decided to revisit those feelings later.

“you’re forgiven!” you cheered, smiling brightly. your bubbly tone earned many baffled expressions from around the room.

“y/n, you understand he could’ve gotten you kicked out? are you seriously going to forget about it so quickly?” lo’ak muttered, his eyebrows furrowed in confusion.

“i never said i’ll forget about it,” you said, glancing at ao’nung. “but i don’t see a reason to hold a grudge. now, let’s all move past this and play a game!”

——— - -

“okay, does everyone understand the rules?” you asked, standing by the entrance of your maui. the game you had decided on was hide & seek, it would be in teams of two and in the dark (since you would attract attention if you were holding a torch). the decided teams were: tsireya & kiri, you & neteyam and lo’ak & ao’nung.

“still don’t see why i have to be paired up with him…” lo’ak sighed, looking at ao’nung from the corner of his eye. ao’nung scoffed at his action rolling his eyes in disdain.

“count to 100!—or zam, ugh i never can understand how you guys count,” you ignore lo’ak’s complaints and quietly sneak out of your maui with your partner. you ran in the opposite direction to kiri & tsireya to make it harder for the seekers to find you.

“here!” neteyam pointed to a large wood structure behind a group of mauis.

“they’ll never find us here, i bet they won’t even look this far,” you said, peering through a gap in the structure. you and neteyam were sat in opposite corners, enough to be hidden from view but you were still able to see if anyone came close.

neteyam nodded in agreement to your words, but it was evident something else was on his mind. “do you ever miss your old life?” he blurted out, awaiting your answer curiously

“my old life? so like earth?” you adjusted your position to face him. “of course! i think about my family and friends everyday…why do you ask?”

“oh, no reason,” he shrugged, “i was just curious”

as the conversation died out, you let your imagination take over; letting you enjoy the tranquil silence of the night. neteyam however, took your distraction as an opportunity to study your appearance. something about the way your features complemented eachother so harmoniously gave him an overwhelming sense of longing peace.

his gaze trailed from your hair, to your eyes, to your nose and then your lips. he wanted to feel all of them.

technically, he wasn’t the son of the olo’eyktan anymore so…to think this way isn’t—

‘kehe! i can’t get carried away. thinking like that is useless.’ he got up from his position and started to creep out of the hiding spot. “lo’ak and ao’nung don’t seem to be good seekers, i’m going to check where they are. i’ll be back soon.”

—-

a few minutes passed and there was still no sight of neteyam. “i bet he got caught..” you jokingly rolled your eyes at the thought. just as you prepared to get up to search for him, you felt a tap on your shoulder.

“finally! i thought you got—oh.”

jake towered over you, clearly unimpressed. stood behind him were all five of your friends, looking at you apologetically.

———-

after two days your punishment stood strong, and sadly none of your friends were allowed to deliver your food. you sat on your hammock staring blankly at the ceiling, when you heard loud commotion outside, you peaked your head at through the window and saw the whole village on the shore pointing to something on the horizon.

“the humans have returned with our spirit brothers & sisters!” tonowari exclaimed, diving into the water to greet his tuklun.

“everyone seems quite occupied…i’m sure the won’t mind if i get some fresh air,” you shrugged and quickly snuck out of your maui. as you approached the coast you saw a small white speedboat parked by the dock, you raised your eyebrow at the sight and took a few sly steps to get closer look.

“now i think about it….ronal did mention something about two other humans that had lived in the village before me. would hurt to say hi—” you froze in you tracks when you spotted a boy (clearly no younger than 16) strolling along the beach.

he looked so familiar.

as you made eye-contact with the familiar figure to felt the air be knocked out of your lungs.

“…b/n?” you whispered, stumbling backwards. you were unable to catch yourself and fell onto the sand below. however, your eyes were glued to the figured in front of you, tears welled up in your eyes at the possibility this situation being what you tirelessly hoped for.

“y/n!” your older brother smiled, running towards you open arms.

well it’s here now…we gonna ignore what i said earlier

tbf i was putting it off posting it because when i copy and paste it to wattpad i have to do paragraph by paragraph which is so tedious

so i have to write it on a different platform and paste it because…that is not for the weak

i’m so excited to write the next chapter! it’s how i came up w this book yayaya

[spirallingstarcases]

nothing but love and respect for MY pesus christ

[dirtytransmasc]

No thoughts just Spider getting his revenge on Lyle when he sees him again.

Wait does Quaritch know what happened to Spider? Or did he only find out when he first saw him on the battlefield field all blue and tall.

so I'm gonna answer this in the context of the recoms not getting a redemption (rare for me). this ficlet is centered around the things that, to me at least, make spider, spider. it is his sense of mercy and empathy and overall kindness to even his enemies, I can't see him being cruel or particularly violent.

spider, being spider, tries so hard to find mercy within himself, wanted to kill only out of duty not out of vengeance. but part of him, is so angry, that demon took so much from him, from his family; years of his life, witnessing his siblings grow up, his family's feeling of peace, his body of all things.

so while he refuses to straight out claim his goal for vengeance, he does claim lyle as his kill, that unless absolutely necessary, he be taken in alive. he vows to eywa that it would be a clean, merciful kill, promises himself that as a means to protect himself from the rage he feels.

he isn't like those demons, he does not take pleasure in the kill, he does not hunt down other humans or na'vi like they are an animal, and he does not disvalue a man's life as all life is sacred no matter his personal feelings on the matter. now that he could truly connect with eywa, he practically swore pacifism outside of necessity, in her honor, following her beliefs to the word and with great passion; life is sacred, killing without need is shameful, and now he feels the calls of a personal vendetta forcing the cravings of blood on him? eywa have mercy.

he goes into battle each day waiting to see his face, waiting to hear his name. he almost feels shame in how ready he is to take that man's life, to drain the light from his eyes. he prays to eywa after each battle, each night that passes with that man's heart still beating, that he finds it in himself to quell the flames that roared in his belly, burning his heart, his lungs, his everything.

when lyle is captured, they make his execution public. a warning, the tsamsiyu pesu 'awnim tspang (the warrior who avoids the kill) executing a prisoner, is a force to be reckoned with. spider treats him with honor, despite the flame flickering in his throat.

during his capture her makes sure he is fed and given water, his restraints don't become tight enough to cut him, watched over him as he slept so he could be in loose bonds.

he talked, a lot, lists every bit of pain, from losing his body, being in a coma for years, stuck in his own head completely and utterly alone, to losing the opportunity to watch his little siblings grow up, the one thing a big brother cherish's most.

he may not have tortured lyle physically but he did emotionally. he speaks of his mother and father, the pain they suffered, his siblings, growing up next to a glorified corpse, all the lives lost to save him. he knows lyle's a family man, remembered how much he had loved and taken to spider back during his time in captivity. he knows that every word he speaks, of his own pain, his family's pain, breaks lyle down bit by bit, knowing he nearly killed the kid he began to consider his own weighs on his chest like a pile of boulders, cutting off his breath.

the execution itself is simple, lyle is tied to a stake and spider makes a speach to his people;

"I kill this tawtute ‘ongokx nìmun mìfa tsleng Na'vi tokx (skyperson born again inside a false Na'vi body) as a testament of my people, of how we will continue this war. this man nearly took my life, took away years of my journey I will never get back, devastated my family and my people. I had every right to destroy him, to have him tortured or left to wither as he left me; it was my right to make it personal, to take out my rage, to devalue him like he has devalued us. but I didn't, because in the eyes of Eywa that is wrong. his life mattered, even if he has hands soaked in blood, my blood. this is how we fight this war, we fight them as if they are our equals, we kill only out of necessity. brother's and sister's I know your pain, it has touched me as well, lit a fire in my stomach that licks at the top of my mouth as I speak, but we must find it in ourselves to honor our enemy. we must not be like them, we must not take joy and glory from their deaths, but only our victories, we must have mercy so that when we judge ourselves in peace times, we don't feel the weight of our mercilessness on our backs. we must fight the way Eywa intends. let me be that example." he spoke calm and true, like a true leader, one who has met eywa and returned to tell the tale.

he looks to lyle, blade in hand. "oel ngati kameie, vrrtep, tsunslu nga run fpom nìronsrel Eywa, (I see you, demon, may you find peace in Eywa)"

"'oeru txoa livu," its the first and only words lyle had said willingly during his entires, not "I'm sorry" but the much heavier "may their be forgiveness for me" tearing spider's heart in two. when spider urge's him to talk again, he only flash's a sad smile, eyeing the knife and nodding.

spider didn't want to do this, he did and he didn't, the fire was threatening to consume him if he didn't, but his heart, the heart everyone claimed was too good for a child touched by Eywa to be a tsam kxìmyu (war commander), wanted nothing more then to let him go.

but he did it anyway, sliding the blade between his ribs, hands becoming flush with the man's skin, piercing his heart instantly. spider swears he felt its last panicked beats against his knife, felt sick as it twitched for just a second before going eerily still. lyles death was just as instant as the knife was, he didn't even get the chance to make a sound, but he died with a sense of peace on his face that he didn't carry before.

"Oeru txoa livu, ma oeyä tsmukan. Kä set ne sa'nok tirea. Ngari hu Eywa salew tirea, tokx 'ì'awn slu Na'viyä hapxì, (death prayer)," his words shake as the flame's simmer down to hot embers and he pulls the knife from lyle's chest.

he hear's the somber cheers of the crowed, he doesn't hear what they're saying exactly, as he's too busy cutting the man down from the stake, gently guiding him to rest on the ground, feeling every emotion possible all at once. he felt both relief and agony at once, like the weight of this mans sins were taken off his shoulder and replaced with his own grief. this man may have hurt him but first he befriended him, took care of him, and as much as he was a demon there was good in him, deep down, practically eradicated, and spider had to live with that knowledge, that he was the one who rid him of that chance to uncover it, embrace it, no matter how unlikely it was.

spider would hand the body back over, even if it displeased his people, it just felt right. honor was worth more then his image, any day, but especially now with eywa looking over his shoulder, guiding him to be the best he could be.

he hadn't seen his father face to face, refusing to go near him, but he knew he was out there, watching, no doubt with contempt;

it was quite the opposite really, miles watched his boy grow to be someone even the RDA respected, a boy full of honor and grace, who fought fair and with mercy, every breath calculated to cause as little death as necessary to achieve his goals and protect his people. the boy he had feared he lost, waited years with a gut feeling he was out there, only confirmed by sully's raids, to appear in the battlefield. to see him in a na'vi body was odd, it took a few encounters to piece it together in his mind completely, but that was his boy, big and blue now. he couldn't bring himself to see him as an enemy, even as he lead thousands of warriors, fought and killed soldiers with ease, held speeches and rallies, called for the fall of the RDA. that was his boy, and he watched on with pride.

spider knew returning the body would only lead to its senseless burning, like all sky people were burned upon their deaths, no matter how noble. no one cared enough to take time to bury their dead on the opposing side anymore.

miles buried lyle in a clearing, the man like to watch eclipse begin and end, could watch it over and over. it wasn't much of a looker, but the spot gave him a perfect view of it. he'd miss his right hand man, his corporal, his other half. lyle had been his bald bastard come hell or highwater for the last god knows how many years, it hurt to lose him.

the war would continues till it was father against son, the last remaining soldier versus an army of warriors, led only by his own kin. his son would spare him with the threat of a death worse than to all the flames and tar in the world. it would have to be spider to make that kill, after everything, and that was a kill he couldn't make. with the RDA gone for good, what remained innocent of the human race settled, and no hope for any insurgency again, spider was finally allowed to give the mercy he so longed for to his father. it was a risk, one he ran over and over in his head till it felt heavy with thoughts, so heavy it threatened to rip right off his neck, but he decided it was the right choice; his father, in this body anyway, wasn't given a choice, and even if he did willingly do what he did, it was because he was a back into a corner. spider knew better than to kill an enemy that stood no chance of escape, it was cruel. he could never atone for his sins, but he could live them out in solitude, never to be taken in or accepted by any clan.

they would never meet again, but spider found comfort in knowing his dear old dad was out there, probably watching him grow, watching him lead beside his big brother. for once there was comfort in feeling eyes on your back and turning to see no one there. this was true peace, getting to live with your mercy, it felt good.

[oneleggedflamingo]

Noista eduskuntatalon pylväistä: ne on jo puhtaat???? Kuvista pitää kattoo niin tarkkaan että huomaa mitä pylväitä oli käsitelty ja mitä ei???? Mutta joka uutisessa museovirasto/muu taho miettii että kuinka paljon jatko pesu maksaa, ja ne on jo puhtaat. :D Kuulostaa vähän rahastukselta ja keinotekoiselta asian pahentamiselta.

Oon kotoisin äärimmäiseltä haja-asutus seudulta, joten ehkä siksi mulla ei riivi sydäntä kun jonkun kaukaisen kaupungin rakennuksien julkisivuja töhritään, MUTTA NE ON JO KUVISSA IHAN PUHTAAT. Eikö sadevesi muka riitä huuhtomaan niitä syvälle päätyneitä pigmentti jäämiä.

Miten voi olla näin suuri huoli rakennuksesta, joka ei ole kenenkään koti. Ei tollanen väri voi vaikuttaa siihen, voiko eduskuntatalossa pitää istuntoja, joten mitä väliä sillä on?

[mscolorsplash]

My sonic character that will forever have a special place in heart cause she started it all in terms of drawing and pesueing my art career.

And almost a decade later she goes under a new redesign. FINALLY HAVEING JUST 1 TAIL

(I've had her sense 2010)

I was like 12 when I made her and the very original me at the time wanted her to ' be just like tails so she can understand him!" but now its just a bit cringe and I wanted her to be more than just an insert for a tails love interest.

Im really pleased with this design. I try to make her seem like she belong in the sonic universe and I feel i nailed that. I dunno how many other times ill redesign her but shell always be my special baby.

[hildegardladyofbones]

Ma ei hakka end kahekorra painutama mingisuguse luulelisuse nimel, et anda sellele kirjandusobjektile mingi teine näiline eesmärk. Kui sa tood valemisse metafoorid, siis on justkui põhjus teksti lugeda. Siis on mida analüüsida. Ei, seda ma ei tee. Siin lihtsalt puistan südant, sest buss rapub piisavalt, et päevikusse kirjutamine on mõeldamatu.

Ma pagendasin ennast 50 kilomeetri kaugusele kodulinnast. Olen vähemalt kaks päeva kodukülas, kus see kõik algas. Põhjus on lihtne vaid siis kui seda lihtsalt sõnastada. Ma olen kaotanud haarde oma elu üle ja ma lähen aktiivselt hulluks. Miski ei paku enam sellist tõmbejõudu, nagu varem tundsin. Ma füüsiliselt ei suuda midagi teha. Ma kõdunen. Mu mõistuse taga nurgas mürgitab mu meelt tinapomm. See halvab kogu mu keha. Reaalsuses on igal puueteta inimesel füüsiline võime teha mida iganes. Jah, ma saaks minna välja. Jah, ma saaks joonistada. Või koristada. Või süüa teha. Või pesus käia. Aga see tina justkui piirab mind, teeb mu ümber ringe, kuni olen kinni oma toas. Miks siis sama hästi mitte olla kinni oma lapsepõlve toas. Ma olen igast otsast tuim ja elu elamine ei tule seega kõne allagi.

Ma ei ole hetkel päriselt... olemas. Mina sõidan küll praegu bussis, mul süles on kott ja millegi pärast rinnahoidjates 20€... aga mind pole olemas. Inimeste silmad võtavad mind arvesse ja võibolla isegi saadavad signaali ajju, aga nad ei näe mind. Nad ei räägi minuga. Ma ei ole siin maailmas. Ma olen igavikus. Mitte kusagil. Kõikjal. Ma ei taha midagi, kui et siis võibolla paremat isu (jätan kõik viimasel ajal järgi) ja minna metsa. Ma igatsen metsa. Nüüd, vähemalt. Iga suvi ma luban, et veedan pool suve metsas vähemalt, aga iga suvi jääb mets mulle võõraks, kuni siis olen nii meeleheitel, et ei tänav ega meri mind vastu võtta. Kuhu mul siis minna, kui mitte metsa? Isegi öö salgab mind. Libiseb mist üle nagu vaakum.

Ma ei taha enamat, kui üksindust ja vaikset elu. Ma ei taha enam naisi, raha, narkootikume, unistusi, kuulsust, küllust. Ma tahan, et saaksin tahte järgi ära kaduda.

[paskanmarja]

taisi mennä pesu lapsiveden mukana