#personalne gadanie

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ok ive been playing spiritfarer for some time and- i knew uncle atul’s ‘’goodbay” would give me Feels because i got really attached but i did not expect for it to hit me THAT hard!

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I. BEAT. THE RADIANCE!

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i wish id been on tumblr in like 2012s-early 2015s i feel like i missed on something very important

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i found a recipe thats kinda like cake pops but without- like- cake, uses penaut butter as a base. so long story short thats how i managed to eat a whole jug of penaut butter + 4 bars of white chocolate in one day

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being polish and nonbinary is like- *misgenders myself outloud* *misgenders myself internally* *tries really hard to change the whole sentence to avoid using gendered form but still misgenders myself somehow* *is too tired to change sentence so uses default and misgenders myself* *thinks in english to avoid misgendering* *wonders why polish is so heavinly gendered* *everybody misgenders you in every sentence no matter what form they choose* *being aware that people dont even have many options to respect your gender even if they wanted to*

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i finally played pokemon swo\\rd for the first time (thanks to my cousin letting me borrow his game) and my love for leon started anew, yall i love him so much

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theres a lot of good dialogues in these episodes but this one:

“It’s something I picked up from mom side of family”

“The only thing I picked from my mom side of family is stressed. Out.”

“HaHa! Same...!”

is deffinitely up there!

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everytime i play as sandwich cookie i get so hungry, i just feel this sudden urge to make the most delicious sandwich hh

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can an Anime Girl simply exist without her self-worth revolving around her chest size.

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im thinking about sp/op season 5 again and how i feel similar to when i watched season 6 of vol//tron, in a sesne that i really do not care about canon or what creators say is or isnt canon, for me it just. exists on the same level as fanon.

(im putting my reasons “why” under the cut bcos its long and im just basically rambling to myself):

i mean. its not AS BAD as v*ltron.

and yes, i am thankful that we got gay kisses and gay relationships confirmed on screen, (netossa saying “my wife” on screen? very good) its really important and all that stuff but you know what, id love if they actually put effort into their endgame relationship that (supposedly) is a “heart of she-ra” (and didnt make a stereotypical villian out of their only (very alien like looking) nb rep from whom they made a big deal out of to just use them in one episode for comedy and then delete their existence until 5 second finale cameo (no im not still salty about dt what r u talkin abt)) i think we should expect more from show on streaming platform, especially from dreamworks that was met with outrage after their queetbaiting with v*ltron.

i know i may sound like priviliged bicz but i expected catr///adora kiss in one way or another, at very least in the background. i didnt expect for them to say “i love you” and to make a dope utena ass scene though. and i did like this scene, it was a little bit cheesy but i like cheese... i didnt really enjoy the journey to the shop to get that cheese though.

the line “you never gave up on me” makes me go “... :\ “ because... adora litterally did give up on her. remember how season 3 ended? remember the look adora gave catra? remember her punch? remember that catra almost destroyed reality and actually killed angella? remember that scorpia left catra because she couldnt bear catras abuse? and then forgave her after seconds without full apology? the redemption showed in season 5 works only if we forget about seasons 2-4, because. man. was that rushed and unrealistic. i believe there was too much focus on catr/////adora and too little on catra herself. like. i believe catra would benefit if she spend more time away from adora, maybe if she escaped from prime on her own or smth idk, maybe she would discover something about herself outside of “im in love with adora” maybe she could get redemption arc ala zuko or some szit. catra deserved to be her own person and not just “the girl that loves adora”. her whole being revolves around adora, its honestly not healthy (i mean she almost destroyed reality out of spite, if this doesnt say something about her relationship with adora idk what does). like, is this really a romantic story we all wanted? for me its very unsatisfying.

and i still think people forgave/trusted catra too quickly, and yes i think that about perfuma too. i honestly think it would be really good messege if at least one person didnt forgive catra and for catra to heal despite that, because! when u used to be a szitty person of course not everybody will forgive u! but u still can try to heal! u cant and shoudlnt aspire for all people to forgive you and writers had an oppurtinity to show that with catra but i guess not.

adora got a little more space to be her own person but it still feels like she didnt live up to her own potential and in the end her whole being ended up being revolved around catra anyway, even tho season 3 finale stated otherwise.

this cartoon could be a great show about forgivness and redemption but... its just not. just because it has gay kiss in it it doesnt make it automatically great, you know? there was a massive decrease in quality in the last season.

same with vol*ron, there was a massive decrease in quality in last seasons but just because they confirmed shiro to be gay and there was gay kiss at the end it doesnt make it automatically great. thats why these two shows feel familiar to me (and in its style kinda, also in advertising themselves with “diversity” (v*ltron saying “we have a queer character!” and then sidelining him, and shera saying “we have a nonbinary character!” and then sidelining them) but for some reason people seem to forgive shera for its shortcomings, maybe bcos it wasnt as tragic, and we got actual representation but my point still stands.

(also i see some people say that “shera will open doors for lgbt+ creators” and im just here looking at legend of korra and su like--- hey, doors are already open, shera may open them a little wider or make sure they wont close but this show isnt some gay cartoon jegus....  did we all forget that we got gay wedding and gay kiss on national television for kids, these cartoons did so much for lgbt+ creators and people seem to ignore it just because they prefer shera/dont like su anymore. i truly believe we wouldnt get such great catra////dora kiss without rub///pphire wedding)

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i just cant read davkat fanfics where they are in only one (usually red) quadrant, like. that just doesnt make sense and takes a lot of karakts character.

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man i LOVE my current haircut i look so good and ‘ambiguous’ (i told this to my mom and she told me “yeah, you look like not-so-bad-looking boy” also a lot of people call me per “sir” and they continue to call me mister even when they hear my voice! even this old lady who knew me before called me mister lately! :O the POWER the short haircut has!)

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can i. turn off tarantulas in new horizons. my arachnophobia doesnt let me enjoy the game.

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i was tagged by @softspacecat thank uu :D

last song: YONAKA - Own Worst Enemy

last film: Raya and the Last Dragon (i think?)

currently reading: honestly i don’t have energy to read new original work, i just read fanfics because hhhhhhhhhh (though not so long ago i read Talentless Nana manga does that count)

currently watching: im not watching anything currently, though i do wait for offiacial release of season finale of Amphibia and hope for season 5 of Infinity Train

currently craving: homemade pierogi, oh how i miss them so!

tagging anybody who wants to do it!

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im rewatching she ra and... ugh, is anybody else uncomfortable with how everyone used to treat kyle? ive always hated the “everybody makes fun of/doesnt respect the ‘loser’ character, even their closest friends, as well as the narrative, and everybody is fine with that” trope so even the first episode when lonnie said “seriously kyle?” after kyle failed i had bad feelings but i decided to trust the show but sadly.. this treatment continued till season what, 4? even bow, the friendliest person in the show who seems to be able to befriend almost everybody, treated him like a nuisance (i mean i get it he was prisoner and in a bad mood, we shouldnt expect him to be friendly aaaaaaall the time but- its more about that the narrative treated kyle like a cheap laugh in this moment, like- “look how awkward this kid is! look how he vents to prisoner because he feels like he can’t talk to his friends without being ridiculed and that makes bow annoyed! isnt. that. FUNNY!”) not to mention he is a nice character, a little awkward but overall he has good intentions and yet everybody treats him like garbage (even scorpia??) why this show about love and acceptance needs a character who is a punching bag i just dont get it.