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Haha bravo’s new hels sponsor am I right……???
#his shirt BARELY HOLDING ON#bravo is gay but also his relationship w instinct is as complicated as his one w timmy Siiiiigh#he loves making everything a problem#BUT ANYWAYS HOPE YALL LIKE INSTINCT/HELS IMPULSE!!! finally got his design all done!!#he lets way more demon features show including his scales (which make cool patterns when not fully armoring him)#and his horns-eyes-wings-tail etc#hels to pay au#htp art#instinctev#Timmy#bravo#impulsesv
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Prompt 270
Wing Au? Wing Au.
But see, ecto-contamination has an effect on those of Amity Park, even more so after their temporary stint into the Zone itself. They were there for hours, if not more, that has an effect on things. It’s like suddenly being transported in the middle of the sight of a nuke, there’s no way you aren’t getting irradiated.
So their wings might start to… mutate a bit. Just shift and adjust here and there, grow bigger than how they should, with how flight had been lost so long ago. Some now covered in a waxy sheen, others bioluminescent, more with flickers of scales like moths. Others even further changed, the tops opening into maws, eyes blinking amidst feathers, leaves growing from bone like it’s a branch.
And the Outside remains oblivious beyond the shields, unaware of the rising anger behind it as instincts of predators are returned and brought anew. Where the dead and the living meld into something new. Something Other to what they once were.
And the GIW are starting to become concerned with how the things inside are searching for a way out. It… might be time to ask for assistance.
#DPxDC#DCxDP#Prompts#Wings Au#Liminal Amity Park#Danny’s wings has star patterns but the longer u look u realize there’s Eyes#Vlad is like a biblical angel with how many he has across his body#Sam has leaves & ferns growing out of hers like a sloth’s fur#Tucker has the jaw wings like a morudomunto from monster hunter#It’s more and more eldritch the more contaminated one is#This includes the Fenton parents#Non-Parker’s wings are too small to actually fly & their predatory instincts are only remnants#The Amity Parkers practically phoenixes since they’re so ecto-contaminated that they generate it#And they are very much gunning for the GIW#Let them OUT dammit#GIW: Hey heroes can we have some help-#*Rabid Ghost & Liminal noises in the background*
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henlooo just wondering if you have any sketches of morax' parents? or you can describe them and who he'd taken after?
i did have a sketch lying around, so i've cleaned it up and colored it!
in this hc zhongli would've gotten his dad's facial features, but like,, all the colors from his mom save the skin tone. also her smile. his dad is a qilin and i gave him a tail bc 1) qilin have tails 2) ganyu has no tail but she's half-human so that tells me nothing and 3) i can do what i want lmao
remember the mom was a jewelsmith so all the dangling bits and everything gold was made by her. the only reason the dad isn't absolutely decked in baubles like a christmas tree is bc he thinks it gets cumbersome at some point n the mom is like "you're no fun". he does let her use his horns as hangers for necklaces n shit while she works tho. the dad was also the one who saved baby zhongli from being a christmas tree, too.
zhongli does get his androgynous swag from both of them
#spot zhongli challenge#the mom is average lady dragon height#the dad is above-average qilin man height#the dad isn't short it's just the mom is fucking huge#like yeah they can shapeshift but i do think everyone's first attempt at it kinda escapes their control#so like their first attempt at a human form is more or less by instinct#after that they can customize it all they want of course. like xiao#but most will stick to the general original shape n kinda tweak it from there#which is how there's certain common height patterns between shapeshifters#anyway odd rant#thank you!!#unnecesary detail but i kinda wanted the dad to give off like#vague dracula's wife vibes (i can't remember her name rn). from the netflix show. you know the portrait#it's so fucking funny#the face of the woman who fucked dracula#everytime these two would pose for anything the dad would be like yeah. that's indeed my wife (proud)#also yes they have matching jewelry they were disgustingly cute while they were alive
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tobio gets horny after a win btw
#he doesn't consciously recognize it#but he races home after yet another victory and heads RIGHT to you while he tugs off his team jacket#his bag dropped on the floor just inside the doorway to deal with later#he's on you in an INSTANT#and you know (of course you know) even if he doesn't. noticed the pattern almost immediately#but you don't tell him because you like how his first instinct after a success is to rush back home to you
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y'all got me all hyped to do more merfolk AU art so I finished the Love's Lights scene
#I GIVE YOU: MORE FUN MERFOLK AU FACTS THAT NOBODY ASKED FOR!!!#Ezra grew up on his own without the benefit of other merfolk to learn from and he's kinda out of touch with his merfolk instincts#so ezra THINKS he's bringing sabine to a pretty underwater light show that he thinks she'll think is cool#and telling himself ''i'm getting a good grade in platonic friendship; something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve!''#...except his mer-instinct is actually prompting him to bring The Love Of His Life to the site of the Annual Merfolk Love Festival#and merfolk bioluminescent patterns reflect their mood and communicate with other merfolk#BUT Ezra can't really control his markings#so he's putting on an involuntary light show that translates to#''SABINE!! HI!! LOOK AT ME!! I'M GLOWING REALLY BRIGHT!! IS THAT IMPRESSIVE OR WHAT?? P.S. I'VE FALLEN IRREVOCABLY IN LOVE WITH YOU''#also the pattern of Ezra's markings is inspired by Sabine's starbird!#mythical creatures au#jessica's art#sabezra#sabezra fanart#not 100% loving sabine's outfit in this tbh#I tried to do something simple that went with what the fic described her wearing but it turned out kinda boring...#and ezra's tail turned out weird too... sighhhh...#oh well ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#OOH WAIT I THOUGHT OF ANOTHER FUN FACT#the shell necklace Sabine is wearing is one that Ezra gave to her when he was 15#and for adult merfolk the gift of a handmade shell necklace is basically a marriage proposal#but he was a kid then so it's more equivalent to the time my best friend proposed to her crush with a ring pop
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Well THat doesn't seem right....
#pre-sleep STRIKES AGAIN#evry time i make stuff like this i wonder if i should put it under the ship tag or the individ tags#bc i am showing a pattern and it involves mashing kuya and yakumo into a paste (via traditional mortar and pestle)#*turns on the blender* we're having yokai stew today. and tomorrow. and the day after that. and the day after tha#i'm tellin u. if they introduced kuya lookin like kuya but with yaku's personality#i would have impregnated him ON SIGHT#and if they started the game with a kuya-personality yaku-looker i probably would have hated him more than anything in the universe#it gives me.....first love interest in every otoge where he looks like an edgelord in red-black and has control issues over protag#anyway i'm glad you two are the way you are... even if my instinct-to-impreg leads me astray#bc kuya in his purple pink flower motif (boss bitch) and yaku in his edgelord goth n bones aesthetic (too soft to live) is just. fun#yakuya#nu carnival yakumo#nu carnival kuya
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Part 26. Asynchronous Expectations (Oni-Chan 2.0, part C)
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Astrocat wings pattern from here.
Ladybug leaps through the air, swinging her yo-yo towards the Agreste mansion.
Ladybug: Those ribbons were coming from Adrien's place. Now where's the villain...?
Cut to Gabriel’s atelier, where Oni-Chan is throwing up her hands (one hand holding her sword upwards) in exasperation while looking at a sentimonster—the Unpublisher—as he holds up a single finger.
The Unpublisher: It looks like you want to know what my powers are. Would you like help?
Oni-Chan: Yes! I just said that!
The Unpublisher has an uncanny smile and holds up a hand in helpful explanation. (The Unpublisher is an unsettling inversion of Adrien Agreste—blue hair, dark blue skin, a black overshirt with a white undershirt, hair parted on the other side, and all line art with white lines instead of black.)
The Unpublisher: To delete a picture of Adrien Agreste: Hold my amok and order me to delete a picture of Adrien Agreste.
Oni-Chan picks up a photonegative that was left on the corner of the central platform of Gabriel’s atelier.
Oni-Chan: Is this it?
The Unpublisher: That is the amok belonging to the Unpublisher. Helpful tip: the Unpublisher is me! This amok can be used to control the actions of the Un—
Oni-Chan: I get it.
Oni-Chan holds the photonegative and points towards Gabriel’s computer. The Unpublisher looks at her with a large grin.
Oni-Chan: Look through that computer for Adrien Agreste photos. Delete all of them from existence.
The Unpublisher: Got it. Please be patient while I take care of that for you.
Ladybug throws the door open and leaps into the room, wielding her yo-yo. A couple black ribbons are starting to weave their way into the world.
Ladybug: Not if I have anyth—
Ladybug is abruptly swarmed by a dense slurry of the magical ribbons conjured by the Unpublisher as he deletes every image of Adrien that Gabriel owns.
Ladybug: —Mmph!
Cut to Rena Furtive looking through her telescope at Oni-Chan teleporting across the rooftops as the ribbons fan out across the world.
Ladybug (over comm): I can't get past these ribbons!
Rena Furtive: You might not have to. Oni-Chan’s mass-teleporting again. She’s holding something new—I assume it's an amok?
Ladybug (over comm): Then I’ll have to bring her to me...
Cut to Nathalie’s bedroom, where Nathalie sits on the edge of her bed as she speaks to Ladybug. Her room is largely untouched by the ribbons (though a few can be seen flowing past her windows). Note that Nathalie has a large map of the world on her wall.
Ladybug: Ms. Sancouer, I need your help. Do you have a picture of Adrien that Mr. Agreste doesn’t have copies of?
Nathalie: I believe so.
Nathalie (internally): As much as I want to find Adrien, I can't risk an akuma like Oni-Chan leading Gabriel to him first. If Gabriel asks, I’ll just say I couldn’t refuse Ladybug without rousing suspicion.
A closeup of Nathalie holding her tablet, on which is a picture of Adrien as he stole the grimoire. He has yet to be deleted.
Nathalie: Here.
Ladybug: Wait, don't look yet—
Oni-Chan teleports in and hits Nathalie (and her tablet with the offending image) with her sword, petrifying her. Oni-Chan looks towards Ladybug and waves an angry fist (which holds the photonegative amok).
Oni-Chan: Again, Ladybug? Why must you keep getting in my way?
Oni-Chan swings her sword towards Ladybug, who manages to deflect it with her yo-yo as she leaps back.
Oni-Chan: I just want to find Adrien! Don't you want that too?
Ladybug: Not like this! I won't let you hurt everyone just to get to him!
Close-up of Oni-Chan’s unyielding eyes.
Oni-Chan: Then perish!
Ladybug, on pure instinct, yells and throws her yo-yo.
Ladybug: Chat Noir, now!
Ladybug clenches her eyes shut, berating herself.
Ladybug (internally): Stupid reflex!
Ladybug yanks her yo-yo back before it makes contact with Oni-Chan.
Ladybug (internally): He's not here!
Ladybug uses her yo-yo to flee as Oni-Chan lunges towards her. But behind Oni-Chan, Catwalker has backflipped into the room behind her, his finger touching the amok with his Cataclysm.
Ladybug (internally): I have to fall back and try something els—
Catwalker: Cataclysm!
A closeup of Oni-Chan as she teleports away as the feather starts to emerge from the amok.
Cut to a closeup of the Unpublisher as he begins to dissolve, his mouth forming an ‘O’ as his final ribbon fails as it comes out his finger.
Cut back to Nathalie’s bedroom (she’s still petrified), where Ladybug raises a hesitant hand towards Catwalker.
Ladybug: C-Catwalker? Where’s the amok?
Catwalker: Oni-Chan took it with her when she teleported away.
Ladybug, face in panicked shock, clenches her fists.
Ladybug: No! That means I can’t heal the sentimonster’s damage!
Catwalker holds out an appeasing hand.
Catwalker: But it was only destroying Adrien Agreste’s modeling photos, right? No one got hurt. And I don't think Adrien would mind losing all that exposure.
Ladybug holds up her hands in infuriation.
Ladybug: Not mind??? Those pictures are incredibly important to Adrien and everyone who still cares about him! They were all anyone had left of him!
Catwalker slumps and touches the back of his neck.
Catwalker: I'm sorry.
Ladybug: What were you even thinking?
Catwalker: I thought... I thought I was following your orders...
Ladybug points her finger in accusation.
Ladybug: The only order I've given you is to stay out of my way. And you can't even do that! I am this close to taking that ring and giving it to someone else, screw what Mayura promised!
Catwalker backs up against the bedroom door, shamefaced, holding his baton in both hands in front of him.
Catwalker: You called for Chat Noir. Since he couldn't answer you, I just... did what I thought he would have done.
Ladybug shoves Catwalker through the doors, bursting them open. Catwalker loses grip on his baton as he tumbles backwards.
Ladybug: Don't you dare put the blame on him! You aren't Chat Noir! And me calling for him out of old instincts does not give you the right to act like you could ever fill his shoes!
Ladybug slams the doors shut.
Ladybug: Here's your new orders: Go home! You've put in your mandatory appearance, now leave me alone!
Cut to a conciliatory Rena Furtive calling over her comm, split screen with Ladybug as she answers over her comm, trying to get a grip on herself.
Rena Furtive: I'm sorry. I know how important Adrien's pictures have been for you.
Ladybug: I can't worry about what's been lost. I need to figure out my next move.
Rena Furtive: All the other heroes have been frozen by Oni-Chan. We're running out of allies. If we can't use Catwalker, I might have to expose myself and join in the battle.
Cut to Catwalker as he sits sadly on the floor on the other side of the door, hugging his knees and eavesdropping on Ladybug.
Ladybug (voiceover): I can handle this all on my own. I just need a...
Cut to the creation of a Lucky Charm. It’s a pair of gloves holding hands, one red covered in black spots with Ladybug’s emblem on the wrist, the other solid black with a red paw print on its wrist.
Ladybug: ...Lucky Charm!
Rena Furtive (over comm): What did you get?
Ladybug: A red glove glued to a black glove... holding... hands?
Ladybug looks frazzled and in deep denial as she lifts one of the fingers from the red glove and making it point somewhere.
Rena Furtive (over comm): I hate to say it, but that sounds like you do need to ask for help this time.
Ladybug: No! This can't mean that I have to use him! It's obviously just pointing towards...
Ladybug holds a pencil in the air, about to throw it, as she starts to cover her eyes with her other hand, one eye peeking as she takes aim.
Ladybug: ...This pencil! And if I close my eyes and throw this pencil at this map, it'll show me where Adrien is!
Rena Furtive (over comm): Uh... I don't think your Lucky Charm works like that...
A close-up of the map, where the pencil has embedded itself. Ladybug takes a picture of it with her yo-yo.
Ladybug: I've got the coordinates! Now I just have to follow them! Power up!
Catwalker watches Cosmobug flying through the sky via the window. In one hand, he uses his baton to take a picture of the map; in the other, he holds a purple piece of cheese to his mouth.
Catwalker (internally): I'm sorry, but I think I have to disobey you once more, m'Lady...
Catwalker (aloud): Power up!
A closeup of a pair of cuffed black gloves in front of magical green wings. He holds his baton in one hand and points at the picture of the map on its screen with the other.
Astrocat (internally): If I take a path curved away from the equator... I can get there before Ladybug does and—
Pull back to show Astrocat—the powered-up form of Chat Noir, not Catwalker—looking at himself in panic.
Astrocat (internally): Oh no. I powered up as Astrocat without thinking!
Adrien hides himself behind a wall and detransforms. Adrien closes his eyes and tries to focus. Plagg, meanwhile, helps himself to another piece of purple cheese.
Adrien: Claws in!
Adrien (internally): Focus! You're Catwalker. Perfect... Controlled... No more cat puns under any circumstances...
Adrien (aloud): Plagg, claws out!
Astrowalker—now in his proper form—resumes his flight to the location Cosmobug thinks she’ll find Adrien.
Astrowalker (internally): I really hope that no one saw that...
Cut to Rena Furtive, who Saw That.
Rena Furtive: Chat Noir...?
Below is the same image as above, only without text:
#runaway catwalker#ladybug#catwalker#astrocat#astrowalker#rena furtive#oni-chan#nathalie sancouer#spanner in the works nathalie#akuma#sentimonster#thanks to masilvi for creating the astrochat seamless pattern!#it made my life SO MUCH easier when coloring astrocat/astrowalker's wings#i think this page has the most panels since the maternal instinct fight#there's just too much stuff to cram into one page during these battles#but when you've got a final panel in mind you find a way to make it work :)
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hello everynyan. I've been alive and well and thriving with my boyfriend who's been at My House :] but other than thag IM ATTEMPTING TO MAKE A COSTUME WITH MY BEAR HANDS.... I sewed the hood a little bit.
this shit HARD!!! but very fun
#used to sew a lot when i was littol#instinct took over midway#just need to learn how to make patterns...#gutzz talks#zerogtuzz art#jester oc#jester#wip#art
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we all know that Goku and Vegeta's foil in terms of their divine transformations is literally just Freud's Id vs Ego, right
Like how id is raw instinct with no particular pattern and ego is the conscious command over one's instincts
like how Goku's body moves on its own without any conscious input, and Vegeta still has complete and distinctly conscious autonomy while flooded with immense power he has no experience controlling
like we must have talked about this, right? as a family?
#those chapters are several years old I assume this has been brought up#like instinct and ego definitely have their other fun meanings that apply too but like the core of it is -- I assume -- a direct reference?#I stand by my original breakdown about ego being a scary ugly thing in terms of common definition but also geets claiming to be tapping tha#instinctive destructive patterns but can't revert to it and instead spends the whole fight trying to talk down a man trying to kill him#that is also very definitively Freud's Ego. Command over instinct. The horseback rider in control of the horse etc#Which -- again -- makes it a FANTASTIC contrast to Majin Geets which was a panicked instinctive choice that sacrificed his autonomy#Majin Geets was the horse up until he overpowered Bobidi [insert old joke about horses only have two settings: murder and suic!de]#And ego despite his outward ferality and ferocity is actually calmly and confidently in absolute control of himself and his desires#the illustrated difference between arrogance and confidence which makes the characters calling it a weird ego boost both funny and ironic#media analysis#dbtag
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what is it abt me huh. you peopel want 2 kill me. oyu want 2 melt my organs and put it in a goddamn ice cube tray. this is what you want? are you crazy? are you sane and in your right mind? oh my god. you want 2 kill me. you want 2 kill me and you're LAUGHING
#spacie spoinks#FROM THE MOMENT I MEET SOME OF YOU TOO#THIS IS JUST LIEK??????? A PATTERN??????????????????????????????????#WHENEVER I GET FLSUTERED MY HEAD STARTS ACHEING#EWHAT IS IT ABOUT ME THAT INSTINCTIVELY MAKES PEOPLE WANNA FLUSTER ME?????????????#IM GONNA KILL EVERYTHING I SEE
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historically jordancon has been a venue for casting announcements - we got aviendha in 2022 and several s2 secondary characters in 2023. do you think we'll get any s3 casting announcements this year (april)? if so, who? my money is on faile, galad*, and GAWYN PLEASE GOD TELL ME WHO'S PLAYING HIM IN APRIL I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE
ahem anyway. my reasoning is that those 3 are in the same bucket as aviendha was in 2022. it's too far away from the new season's release to discuss anything substantial about the season's content or to formally announce the casting of older/better-known actors whose announcements could be saved to help marketing closer to the season's release (i'd put elaida & morgase in this bucket for s3, with the equivalent being verin for s2; and then forsaken castings i'd bet they want to keep secret as long as they can), but the castings of younger/lesser-known actors as major book characters would be a great New Season Treat to drop this early and in this book-fan venue. general audiences wouldn't care much about a few 27-year-old actors they've never heard of being cast as characters whose names don't yet mean anything to them, but book fans would be very excited about it! and that is why i'm putting on my clown shoes and hoping for gawyn casting news in april (or sooner if the leakers take pity on me).
*we do already know faile & galad casting from leaks, but i'm talking official announcements here!
#me: oh god but what if gawyn isn't even in s3 and that's why we've heard nothing??? what if galad absorbed him after all????#my brain: emily they literally namedropped gawyn in s2#me: ................oh right#the fact that i've had this convo with myself at LEAST 10 times 😭 i'm so used to gawyn getting screwed over that my instinct is to Worry!#ANYWAY based on past patterns i do feel pretty confident in expecting at least 1 casting announcement at jordancon#and faile galad and gawyn genuinely do feel like the most likely to me! but i'm curious to hear other people's predictions#wot#wot on prime#the wheel of time#wot book spoilers
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Speaking as a personal autonomy enjoyer I hate the way the fanon conception of “lazerus pit rage” not only treats Jason’s actions as not his own but also his feelings as not his own. To me personally even if there was no evil green Jacuzzi and no Talia, the question of “why is that clown not a funny ass corpse” would still come up and there’d still be some hard feelings about Tim. Just probably with less killing and maiming
#The conflict between Jason and Bruce cannot be resolved in a 5k hurt/comfort fic at any point. Also his ass is NOT Bucky Barnes#’free my mans! he absolutely did all that shit of his own free will tho don’t be mistaken 🙈’#Jason Todd#dc#Also people usually write lazerus pit effects as like a demon that whispers to you but i hc it as more of a roid rage sorta thing#like it enhances feelings at anger and paranoia and surpresses whatever part of your brain is charge of empathy which can lead to#destructive thinking patterns but it can’t put any ideas in your head. Just makes you more susceptible to your worst instincts#Canon cannot make its mind up about lazerus pit affects so I just hc that they wore off some time during the lost days era
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The optometrist is so fun it's just a bunch of mini games
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one thing that is complicated when doing Anything gerudo is how to cut away from some of the orientalism by making more specific cultural choices while also maintaining their identity as recognizable, which is inherently drenched in all kinds of orientalism
I'm trying to learn more about middle eastern musical theory to be more intentional in my soundtrack, but then I'm like "okay but will this *read* gerudo", and. yeah it's Constantly that with them isn't it
#thoughts#gerudos#thralls of power#learning about time signatures and the such#I'm not super good at music theory tbh so it's a little bit out of my wheelhouse#I'm a little too instinctive with music#to the point where it can become hurtful#I think I'd love to at least#associate characters and leitmotifs with kind-of coherent cultural patterns#another problem is that I do not know how to play neither the guitar nor chord instruments#and it's like#there's so much chord instruments#and virtual instruments of them are Not Good generally#doesn't capture the vitality of an actual instrumentalist#so uhhhhh yeah#we'll see
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This episode they really showed how Uea wants sex to distract himself to make the bad feelings go away for a while and King is the only safe option (not the best way of coping maybe atm but it gets better). Hope they will make him talk about it because I feel many in the audience still don’t understand the link between sex and comfort and coping especially for an abuse victim who always turns to it after triggering events (still think this part is more about the mom, cause whenever the stepdad is part of the trigger he can’t have sex or cuddles ... at least can’t enjoy it as we have seen in this episode). Shortly said, an orgasm gives you dopamine, and it’s all your mind and body focuses on in that moment. Reasons why this could end up in an addiction under the wrong circumstances. Under the right ones it can be therapeutic and have an antidepressant effect.
Uea is a bit torn with King. The caring side of King is an unexpected surprise for him every time. He doesn't really expect kindness from people. But he's glad whenever he receives it from people he trusts. Which King became a part of way too fast for Uea to admit (he’s a player after all). That’s why he rarely shows King his smiles when he’s fond of him. I think the cake scene was one of the rare moments he truly showed him this kind of vulnerability to him (him being truly happy, it’s a delicate feeling easily snatched away under his circumstances). He also took a long time to even understand that King really means it, that this birthday cake is really for him because King really wants to make him happy and he’s allowed to take it. I wonder if the little cake fight and unceremonial bite into the cake is an emotional defense from Uea to not get too deep into vulnerable emotions and turn it into fun / silly & sexy moment instead while still keeping the good vibe.
He’s not ready for an emotional bond with him yet when they clearly stated from the beginning this will just be about sex and they don’t even like each other (we all know that’s a lie). I suspect Uea has trust issues as well since his stepdad always acts nice, caring and misunderstood... so Uea needs a while to learn if people really mean it or if they just want something from him.
I bet that will become a big issue at some point, when they both think the other has no feelings while they secretly do have feelings. I fear Uea will push King away for a while when their feelings get clearer.
#bed friend the series#bed friend#ep4#king x uea#here have another round of trauma and coping rumbling#the reason why I can understand Uea that well is because I also have a dysfunctional fam just not THAT bad (not physical)#and I got to a few bad people outside of my fam#I have a big urge almost a survival instinct to learn human behavior since childhood#as self-defense and to navigate through this world of neurotypicals as a neurodivergent person#I basically suck up everything about WHY humans do what they do. like criminals. what trauma does to you and how mental illnesses work etc#also all the psychology and science behind sex and sexuality (including k!nk and erotic) is a big topic for me#i don't just read about that stuff I watch recordings and documentaries and interviews as well#basically down to the core of fac.ial expressions and body language and thinking patterns#learned a few things from my therapist as well#not saying I am a certified specialist I just learned a few things through my life#and while this is obviously just a tv show they still did some research
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do you ever think about the way Herod never stops looking at Enoch and seeing food. Do you ever think about how hard that habit must be to break? Do you think he tries? Do you think he even registers it?
#I do#i think about it constantly#Cannibalism as an extension of queer repressed love sure but also cannibalism as a habit as an instinct as a pattern you can’t make#An exception for
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