#pastor in training

[mothmiso]

Yurihonjo (2) (3) by murozo

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(1) Many flowers are blooming on the sides of rice fields. The train passed by this field. Mt. Chokai in the back, but it was mostly hidden by clouds. 田圃の周りにたくさんの花が咲いていました。その脇を列車が通り過ぎて行きました。 奥には鳥海山が見えるのですが、ほとんど雲に隠れていました。 (2) Apple garden. These are probably the flowers of Ohrin (one of varieties of apples). / おそらく、王林の花。 (3) I found this buckwheat field yesterday but it was cloudy. The night passed... This morning is fine! I visit this place again! 昨日この場所を見つけたのですが、昨日は曇り。一晩明けて今日は晴れ！再訪して撮りました。        

[kyumisyumi]

Genuinely cannot stop thinking about a Pastor!König scenario where he tries to fuck God into you.

(He a lil confused but he got the Holy spirit)

[ice-devourer]

i’m not too fond of tkd anymore however, the queer kids confiding in me at the training center makes it so damn difficult to leave can i just adopt them T — T

[sunshineandrosesnoraincamemyway]

It is 3 am and I am still awake, but I slept all day because of my migraine and had a coke at like 7 pm so what did you expect?

[gemstarstarlight]

Two IMPORTANT things I’ve decided in this conference I’ve been going to:

I love it and am going to be processing it for a lot of days. 2 most profound observations so far are submission and obedience are not the same thing and require different attitudes, and our culture is actually moving towards a more biblical understanding, even though we might not see it. Will expound on both of those at some point.

I’ve decided to start a series on this blog I’m vaguely calling Theology Thursdays. I doubt it will be every Thursday, but I want to post about religion, particularly Christianity and even more particularly evangelical Christianity, regularly. Part of it is the season I’m in (I’m training to be a campus missionary), but honestly I’ve been wanting to write about religion, theology, and Christ and the church for a while. I feel like it’s something people aren’t doing on Tumblr, and if they are it’s more in a “processing and venting” sort of way. I want to do research. I want to make essays. I want to make content you can cite and think about.

Now, I COMPLETELY understand if that’s not content you are up for. I will be tagging my content as #christianity and #theology thursdays so you don’t have to follow it. Will not be offended if you unfollow: it’s up to you. But I’ve been feeling a real call (pull from the Holy Spirit) to do it in the last few months. So I’ll be doing it. Partially because I think that’s what God wants me to do, but also because I think I’m going to need to write so I can process what I’m learning.

And again, I just don’t think there’s a voice for people like me. People who are queer but also are Christian, people who are both conservative and liberal, people who really want to see God’s will in the world but are unsure how to do it when our immediate heritage is not working. People who stick out and know they do. People who are anxious when they walk into a room of Christians or queer people because they don’t feel like they fit or agree with either group.

But if nobody speaks up, if nobody chooses to create space, who will?

I’m not claiming to be an expert. I’m not claiming to be perfect. But I love Jesus. I love the people who love him. I want to see reconciliation between queer people and the church. I want to see reconciliation between Gen-Z and the church. I want to create a space where people can learn, where people can grow and ask questions, and where people can feel safe being confused and hopefully find some clarity. And I want to actually do researched takes, rather than only talking based on experiences. I want to be creating a theology by going back to the Bible and what it truly says and means, rather than what culture (Christian and secular) says. Most importantly, I want you guys to know Jesus, my Jesus, not who you may have met through culture or your family or your experiences. You don’t have to love him or accept him, but I hate watching people reject a God that isn’t really him.

So I invite everyone who follows me to go on the journey with me! You’ll probably get something from me soon. I hope we can all grow and think together about such topics. And, most importantly, it can be a place that destigmatizes Christianity and provides information.

[pastored123]

A Flood, An Umbrella, and A Bridge

An chapter excerpt from my new book, To Be A Pastor To better understand one of the more essential roles of being a pastor involves caring for others as they find themselves in immediate, temporary, and long-term need of spiritual and practical needs. My personal experiences in this category of service were more than a little challenging to me because for years I lacked experience in evaluating…

[rowenabean]

oh GOSH the person at church yesterday said "isn't it nice that we lve in a time when having chronic illness doesn't mean being ostracised from society" and I was like. yeah that would be nice. sad that we don't.

[tayloralisonswift]

i’m at my parents’ church (they’re having a cookout) and my anxiety is at an all time high

[zairacarrerabg]

Rocky, pastor belga M.

[gemstarstarlight]

Here is an article that talks more about the validity of The 5 Love Languages. I'd recommend reading it (and, if you're a Christian, highly recommend all of Sheila Gregoire's stuff), but if you don't want to, here's a TLDR:

The Five Love Languages are not scientifically valid, for a host of reasons.

People still found it useful, and that's not bad. They can be tools to help your marriage/relationships. It's never bad to think, "How can I love and understand my partner better?"

Christians are fond of gimmicks/magic bullets that solve all your problems. That's bad, and we should be better than that. Tools can be weaponized, because they aren't inherently good or bad. What matters are the people using them, and the attitude that they have towards their partner.

To me, using the Five Love Languages isn't inherently misogynistic, patriarchal, or heteronormative. I've used it, and figured out that I actually HATE acts of service or most gifts, both giving and receiving them. I'd feel a sinking in my chest if someone gave me a gift or someone gave something to me. That was helpful for me to know when I was younger, and gave me language that helped other people love me better.

Having done more inner work, I've also realized it's because both require awareness and paying attention to detail, both of which I am bad at and have been punished for being bad at. So everyone knows that gifts are not my love language, and they don't have that expectation. However, when I do know someone loves acts of service or gifts, I try to show them that love, and they feel extra special because they know it's hard for me. It's a way for us to understand and communicate love, and we both feel more known at the end of the experience, which is the goal.

The point is, it's not a bad starting place, and it's not inherently evil.

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[poisonedtealeafs]

spencer stepped into their living room. a cup of fresh coffee in his hand, his hair still unruly from just getting out of bed. it was six in the morning.

his eyes caught a silver shimmer from the window sill. it came from the metallic ornaments adorning a black leather bound book.

"where did you even find that?" spencers eyes flick to xenia who had made herself comfortable in the black loveseat. she too was drinking a cup of coffee.

"in your backpack."

"and how did it get there?" he stepped around the table looking at the book in disbelief.

"probably when we run from the cops." the witch answered. "i just threw it into the next best backpack."

"and we haven't used it since?" the young pastor picked it up from the window sill, it was heavier than he had remembered it to be.

"apparently. well the most important notes i had copied already and you knew most of it from the top of your head."

spencer flicked the book open, the title page read "a guide for" and the rest was ripped of. either by the original owner, someone who had gotten their hands on it before them, neither he or xenia knew.

[pastorjeremynorton]

Bridging the Gap Between Discipleship and Leadership Development

Is something missing in your church’s leadership? Discipleship alone isn’t enough. Discover how bridging the gap with mentorship and practical leadership training can transform your church’s future. #ChurchLeadership #Discipleship #Mentorship #Faith

Discovering the Missing Piece in Church Leadership Have you ever felt like something was missing in your church’s approach to leadership? If you were raised in an evangelical church, there was likely Biblical teaching, programs for all ages, and a strong focus on the Gospel—a standard discipleship model in Western Christianity. However, a crucial difference has emerged between discipleship and…

[bristolchurch]

Profit Pulpits: The Divine Dilemma of Pastors and Church Finances

Introduction: The role of pastors in churches is undoubtedly crucial. They serve as spiritual leaders and help guide their congregations towards a path of righteousness. However, in some cases, pastors may overstep their bounds and begin to view the church’s income as their own personal property. This attitude can be problematic, and this paper aims to explore this issue further. The…

[dadiaso]

On a Journey Towards Jesus

One of the highlights for us this last year was the evangelism training we helped lead for pastors and leaders in Tijuana. We teamed up with a friend, Steve Dueck who works with Cru.

Evangelism Training in Tijuana Evangelism training course for pastors and leaders in Tijuana I hope that you enjoyed a wonderful Christmas with your family and friends. Dawn and I celebrated Christmas at home this year, and we spent the afternoon with some good friends for an outstanding meal and a fun time. It’s hard to believe that 2022 is almost over. One of the highlights for us this last…

[inkonparchment]

American Wedding | Part 1

Leon Kennedy x f!Reader

You've never seen him, you’ve never met him and yet here you are, Mrs Kennedy, a fate that was always to be yours since the day you were born. The golden band on your finger catches dust at the train station, hoping that at the very least, he's kind.

warnings: this is set in late 1800s. reader is described as having long, silky hair. allusions to mental and physical abuse (not by Leon). misogyny. marriage of convenience. arranged marriage. implied age gap. absolute zero research for era appropriateness.

word count: 3k

a/n: ink write something normal for once challenge = FAILED. i saw an edit of Leon to the song american wedding where the lyric goes "M-R-S dot kennedy" and thus i went insane. enjoy whatever the hell this is. or dont idk man sometimes i confuse myself.

next.

You’re alone.

There’s not a soul in sight at the train station, the bench creaking under your weight when you had sat down, hot wind blowing up the dust. There’s nothing but barren land stretching on for miles, littered by small rocks and shrubbery. A tumbleweed had passed when you had been the only person to get off at the station, heavy suitcase in hand, tugging your hat firmly on your head. Steam had exhaled from the engine, the slow rumble of the wheels startling you as it took off.

You has pursed your lips, squinting against the harsh sun as you scoured your new environment. Signage indicating the town you’re in, a decaying wooden shed with old benches and a bored looking clerk snoring behind the barred opening indicating ‘Ticket Counter’.

So you sit and wait. Because what else can you do? You take your hat off, afraid it will blow away by the strong wind, placing it on your lap, hands neatly folding on top of it. Your hair has loosened up from the neat bun your mother had made for you, the strands tugged and pulled by the winds. You glance down at your hands, the gold band glittering on your finger, the familiar sensation of nausea burning at the back of your throat.

It’s a stark contrast against the pure white of your most perfect dress over the most delicate looking corset you had ever seen in your life. You think back to this morning, almost feeling like a lifetime ago, numb to it. It flashes by in your mind in messily taken snapshots; the church, the white dress, your father standing over your shoulder with a stern look on his face, watching like a hawk and ignoring the way your hand shook when you signed the papers.

It was the most luxurious ink pen, black with silver indentations, acquired by your father from his travels. It was perhaps his most precious belonging, cradling it with much care and only brandishing it out to sign all his important deals. And wasn’t that what you were? A deal to be signed away?

So you wrote your name next to the man's who was to own you now, in the pretty cursive you had painstakingly learned under your father's tutelage. You flinch, remembering his screaming when one single line would be out of place. I will accept nothing less than perfection, he would bellow at you, vein throbbing at his temple.

And that’s what you do like the perfect daughter you are.

M-R-S dot Kennedy.

You’re confused why you felt so remorseful, sitting like a hollowed out version of yourself, unable to register your mother’s congratulations, her tears wetting the shoulder of your pristine dress as she held you, your father triumphantly receiving his congratulations from the pastor. You knew this was going to happen, the idea reinforced since the day you could understand words. After all hadn’t your mother met your father like this too?

Your mother had done your hair, delicately twisting your long locks up and decorating them with flowers. Men are kind to pretty things, she had said to assure you, glancing at your blank expression in the vanity of your room. She had softly patted make up on your face, stumbling over her words as she tried to explain what to expect at night. Just...try not to move much, it’ll be over soon.

Your mother had given you a lick of girl hood, doing what she could to let you live past your teenage years without a husband to weigh you down. You were allowed to frolic in the estate on your horse, but not for too long. You have to keep your skin perfect, you don’t want to look like a wrinkled prune for your husband.

You had learnt the ways of the kitchen, mastering dishes after dishes, a reprieve from your father’s tempers, a room he would dare not venture in, instead choosing to snap his fingers at his wife to fetch him whatever he wished.

It was a sanctuary for you and your mother, a place where the shadow of her past self would glimmer, a version you had never known, the version who would tell you stories of the Greek heroes and their tragic ends. She had fought hard for you.

At least that’s what the blue and black bruises on her skin would say.

Your father had glanced at you with pride flashing in his eyes and that had soothed you. Finally you had done something to please him, the soft, awkward pat of his hand at your shoulder, snapping you awake. You couldn’t even revel in it, suddenly finding yourself standing at the train station, ticket in your hand. Your father had said that your husband would pick you up, gruffly saying that it would not be wise to run, to attempt to escape your fate. There would be no kindness then.

Tears gather in your waterline, difficult to discern their cause. The barren landscape makes you want to vomit, a stark contrast from the grassy green pastures of your home. And you consider running, your father’s warning echoing in your ears, just taking off in the direction of the sun, abandoning your suitcase. You won’t survive if you do, with no money or precious jewellery on your person, knowing that you would collapse under the scorching sun. But perhaps that end would be better than whatever life waits for you with your husband.

Leon Kennedy.

The man- your husband, that was supposed to pick you up. Your grip tightens on your lap. Maybe he has forgotten, owing to his graying years, his memory not the way it used to be. You’ve conjured up an image of him, someone old and graying, hair missing from his head but his eyes still full with his youthful lust, scouring his prize up and down like a hungry dog. It makes you retch, panic bubbling in the pits of your stomach. That has to be it. Someone who is too old to be on horseback. Why else would he not be present at the church? To whisk you away himself? To have you as soon as he could?

But its fine, you soothe yourself, you’ll be fine. You’ll keep your head down and be a good wife, no delusions of romance set in your mind. What use was it anyway? Love never saved those Greek heroes, you would be a fool to think it could save you. Maybe if you play up the role of a perfect little wife, swollen with his children, he may allow you some breathing room, some books if he is generous. But its okay, you’ll steel yourself and survive, you’ll leave no room for error. You’ll be his most prized possession.

The sound of crunching gravel makes you snap your head up, the sun piercing in your eyes through your tears. You turn your head to see a horse pulled carriage come to a stop. The man commandeering the vessel hops off from the seat, dust clouding around his pristine shoes. He is sharply dressed, you notice, clad in his black suit. The hat hides his face from you, holding it down with his left hand on his head as he walks over, the shimmer of gold catching your eye. You feel your heart hammer in your chest. The wooden floorboards creek as the man steps up on the platform, taking off his hat when he does and straightening up to his height.

Your breath catches in your throat. He is beautiful, glittering in the afternoon sun, his sun bleached hair falling perfectly across his face. He sports a small stubble, face sculpted like a devoted art piece, cool blue eyes stark against the bronze of his skin, wrinkles decorating the corner of his eyes. His suit is pristine, the white of his inner shirt nearly blinding, hiding a well muscled torso from your view, arms bulging against his jacket. He holds his hat against his chest, standing with his hips thrown out, one thigh straddled with a leather holster holding an ivory black revolver. He regards you calmly, eyes stuck to your form before flitting to your suitcase.

You look away, tearing your eyes away from his enraptured form. You feel yourself already failing your promise to be the perfect wife, enamoured by a strange man when a husband awaits for you. So you sit prim and proper, back straightened like you had been taught, ignoring how your heart leapt with every single step he took.

You hope he saves you, takes you roughly by the arm and force you on his carriage, never to be heard from again. After all isn’t that what angels do?

You hold your breath when he comes to stand near you. But still you don’t dare to look at him, hurriedly tugging your hair behind your ear. It’s the way he says your name that freezes you, fingers still against your hair. You’ve never heard it like that before, almost in disbelief, convinced that you heard him wrong. It sounds...sweet, like it means something in the low baritone of his silky voice.

You turn to look at him, the pink of his lips catching your eyes before you avert your eyes, instead focusing on the golden band wrapped around your finger. You nod, spine stiff.

Wordlessly, he picks up the suitcase and shuffles to the side, gesturing towards the carriage with his hat. A world of confusion explodes in your mind, limbs arrested as you struggle to decide what to do. He can’t be him just because he knows your name. Maybe your husband sent someone else in his place, his ranch hand perhaps. You purse your lips, palms slick with sweat as you heave yourself up and begin to walk with shaking steps towards the carriage.

You fix your hat atop your head before stepping into the sun, hiding your hands from the harsh rays should they taint you. You admire the stallion, graceful in his poise, its brown coat gleaming under the afternoon sun, walking around it and reissuing the urge to trace his coat against your fingertips. He looks well loved, well taken care of. You’re too busy staring at the brilliant creature that you don’t notice the man stowing your luggage in the back, hat back on and taking in your dazed form.

He approaches you like how a person would approach an easily startled animal, slowly and silently. He watches as you stiffen up at his presence, holding out his hand to you to help you up. You take it, your soft hand a contrast against his roughed skin, slotting perfectly in his palm. He hold you steady as you climb up, sitting demurely in your seat and wait as he rounds up and joins you. And with a click of his tongue and a tug of the reigns, the two of you begin to move.

This is it, a ball forms in your throat, my last moments of freedom. You close your eyes, feeling the wind fan against your cheeks, savouring the dust that catches in your eyelashes. You blink, watching as the landscape remains unchanged, jostling in your seat against the rough landscape of the road. The man’s presence is burning against you, the cloth of his suit brushing next to the sleeve of your dress. Your eyes flit to his tan hands, fixating on the ring on his left hand. You glance down, admiring how similar it looks to the one you are wearing, yours just a bit thinner than his.

You dare to look up at him, focusing on his side profile. Freckles dot his sun kissed skin, his hair long and caressing his high cheekbones. His eyes are what take you, so blue that it makes you want to drown into them, cool contrasting the suffocating heat. He turns his head and locks gazes with you, heart stuttering in your chest.

“Who are you?” You blurt, unable to stop yourself.

He releases the reigns from his hand closest to you, tipping the brim of his hat, “Leon Kennedy.”

You blink, your heart stuttering. “I… I thought you’d be older.”

He smiles faintly, his gaze turning toward the dusty horizon. “You’re not the first to think that.” There’s a pause. “I suppose I expected…different too.”

If the shock is evident on your face, he doesn’t acknowledge it. But you can feel it in your bones, flooding your whole being. This man is your husband and he is so far beyond from how you imagined him. Your insides twist, forcing you to look away, heat burning your ears.

At least he isn’t hideous to look at. But you don’t let it sway you, knowing that sometimes the prettiest faces hide the ugliest facades, stomach lurching at the thought of various women that he must hide under his arms. And suddenly you find yourself praying that some kindness falls your way.

“I’m sorry for being late,” Leon addresses you softly.

All you can do is meekly shrug your shoulders, mumbling out a “It’s alright.”

The rest of the ride is silent, the sun moving down as the hours pass by, now turning the sky into a deep shade of orange, wisps of cool air around you. Fences start to come in view, the outline of a house appearing in the distance.

Leon pulls the reigns, bringing carriage to a stop, pulling up to grand looking house, clean and proper, the walls a deep shade of brown, looking heavenly against the backdrop of the sky. Your mind is abuzz, throat dry, hoping and pleading that the sun does not leave . You’re frozen in your seat, curious looking laborers gazing at you, suddenly feeling at display.

The carriage jostles as Leon steps off, immediately at your side, looking at you earnestly, more kindly than what you’re used to. He hold out his hand to you and it takes you a few moments before your brain spurs into action, your hand once again enveloped by his. You stare at how your golden ring clicks against his, cool to touch and shining together. He helps you down and you stand like a good wife, waiting as he disappears to grab your luggage, waving away the ranch hand who comes up to offer.

Leon comes to stand next to you, watching you as you watch the house. He clears his throat, your eyes finding his, jutting out his elbow to you. You gulp, slide your hand in the nook of his arm, fingers splayed against his strong bicep, his eyes searching for something in your face before he leads you inside.

Your heart is thundering in your chest. The material of the dress agitates your skin, nervousness grabbing a strong of you. Your mothers words come back to haunt you, remembering what she had said when she laid out the corset and dress on your bed. I...chose this so that it’ll be easier for him, men tend to get...impatient.

You see nothing, smell nothing and feel nothing, eyes rigidly on the floor as you feel yourself slip away like with practiced ease when your father’s loud voice could be heard echoing in the walls, the soothing sensation of paper under your fingers enough to satiate your nerves.

When you blink, you stand in a decent sized room, a four poster bed with cloth draped over it on one side of the room. The colours of the curtains are a soft, pastel blue. There is a  dresser, the most beautiful and intricate designs decorating its surface, its size more than sufficient for you to stow away your belongings.

There is a vanity too, grand and delicate looking, a row of expensive looking perfume vials sitting atop the desk, a silver hair brush and a humble selection of make up. Leon sets your suitcase down without a noise, standing at the doorway, hat now gone as he watches you glide around the room admiring the paintings decorating the walls.

A breath hitches in your throat when you finally approach your bed side, eyes widening at the bookshelf tucked away in the corner with a cushioned chair next to it. You trace your fingers against the spine of the books, gasping and pushing your hair behind your ears to get a better look when you spot the book of Greek fables. You clutch it to your chest, tears once again collecting in your eyes as you twist around to look at Leon.

He offers you a small smile, nothing but fondness and gentleness behind it. He grasps the doorknob, beginning to close it behind him. “This is your room. I hope everything is to your liking.”

He glances at you, a flicker of concern crossing his eyes. “If there’s anything you need… anything at all…”

You stiffen at the gentleness in his voice, uncertain of his meaning. “No please, this all is more than enough,” you murmur.

His notices the tear that escapes your waterline. “Rest. You must have had quite the journey to come here.”

And so you dare. “Mr. Kennedy," You call out, making him stop in his tracks, “I...Are we to not...” You lose the strength, letting out a shaky breath as he patiently waits for you to finish your sentence, “We are husband and wife, are we not?” And you hope he understands, mortified at even thinking to speak on the subject with him. 

His expression softens, looking at you tenderly, understanding dawning on his face. “Yes, we are. But that is not something you need to worry about. I will never force you to do anything that you do not wish to do.” His smile returns, reassuring you. “And it’s Leon. Only Leon.” 

The door shuts and with it you crumble to the floor, pressing the book closer to your chest, the rug soft under your fingers. And you can’t tell if these tears are of despair.

Or if they’re of relief.

[pastored123]

The Terrible Effects Christian Isolation

A chapter excerpt from Malignant Normality in the Church: A Modern-Day Plague The Terrible Effects of Isolation. Chapter 6 I cannot state with any more critical emphasis the inherent malignancy provided on the subject of the evil of isolation than the quote extracted from a sermon of mine. It was presented at a regional Christian education summit, and I was privileged to address what happens…