#part of me feels it wont work anyway because its the world that makes me feel this way

[triglycercule]

Thoughts on mtt

they should travel the multiverse together and see and experience a more peaceful life than all of them ever have (⁎˃ᴗ˂⁎)

also they should get to gnaw at each other like rabies infected dogs 🧡🙏

[doctorwhoisadhd]

there's a certain quality the harmonies of like... early to mid 2000s alt rock has. which i am obsessed with... like i wanna do that. i NEED to figure out how to write harmonies that sound like that

[mejomonster]

despite any bad shit happening, i refuse to succumb to thinking we're doomed. there's always been bad stuff happening in this world, and good stuff. there will continue to be. i make myself stay alive, i fight to keep myself alive, and i keep trying to contribute to the good things. whether that's small or big, just being kind to those around me or if i have the ability to do more. the world will not just 'end' and release people from suffering, it's pointless to want intense destruction, someone will survive that destruction and have to deal with the pain it causes, and death doesn't guarantee you'll be free from the pain (and even if it did - why push for destruction that everyone still alive would have to keep suffering in? why not just want LESS suffering in the world?). it's never the 'end', it's never 'over'. Every day you're alive, it's getting up in a world that's got good and bad, and existing despite the bad, your existence adding to some relief in kindness and safety and care for yourself and others.

[radiotorn]

having to restrain from saying anything when my dad dares to say that men get paid LESS than women. in what world. are you out of your fucking mind old man.

[letters-of-libertas]

Building confidence as a conventionally unattractive woman part 2 [with context]

In the first part I spoke about why it's important to build confidence as a conventionally unattractive woman & briefly touched on why low confidence can be caused and this post will focus on how to build confidence despite being conventionally unattractive that goes beyond ✨️just glow up✨️

Summary here

Know that this is going to be an uphill battle, saddle up partner - this wont be overnight work and will require consistency.

Speaking of battles, learn to pick the worthy ones - confidence is not about fighting everything & being the big girl. Sometimes the most confident (+ beneficial & safest) thing you can do is leave people in their delusion, their words don't determine you.

Carve a safe loving environment/space for yourself - Tough but most crucial advice here. When you're younger you have less control over your environment but as an adult you have slightly more control over where & who you want to be around. Gravitate to spaces that see you beyond your looks, stay away from negative places/people. Contrary to popular belief, strength & confidence doesn't always come from abusive environments but loving, safe, and secure environments. You're used to a level of standard so you're not going to be willing to accept less. Being in spaces where you're loved, defended, and appreciated can improve your confidence. You wont take shit knowing it doesn't have to be that way. I remember seeing a reddit post on a guy who tries making this attractive woman feel bad bc she wont date him. He brought cookies to an event & didn't give her any to make her feel left out but other people offered her some & she refused. This only made him feel worse. Bullying & toxicity only thrive in environments that allow it so if you're in a place with high amounts of negativity - find another place or build your own. There are always options.

There are always options - Following from the above. Know that there's always alternatives. Other people, other places, other environments, another choice, etc. Dont feel chained to a specific place, easier said than done but keep it in mind you dont have to take crap from places. Give yourself permission to explore.

Work on coming to terms with trauma you've endured due to your looks - Learn to handle your trauma either by therapy or another means because your trauma is going to keep interfering with your life when you least expect it.

Come to terms with being unattractive - If you own it, it can't effectively be weaponised against you. Traits of confident people isn't that they're perfect but they own their shit & know others aren't perfect either.

Learn to do things on your own/upskill - before the community commies come after me like iTs NaTuRe tO fOrM cOmMuNiTy; 1. I address a lot of this in this post but I'll highlight one point which is that whether you like it or not you're not going to have community. You're not going to receive support anyways. Dont waste time on others, focus on yourself. You only have yourself so give yourself what you can.

Be comfortable being the villain - Dont aim to be liked or disliked, have a purpose; stand for something and focus on that instead. Other people don't have to understand you anyways. It sucks but people will view your actions in a bad light (opposite to the halo effect) no matter what you do so own your shit instead.

Understand the impacts - The world aint kind to many but it's especially cruel if you're deemed conventionally unattractive. Know the impacts of this (such as more of your actions being perceived negatively) so you can navigate them better.

Be less apologetic - Truth is, when you're physically ugly all of your actions will be seen in a bad light no matter what. Made a mistake? Got a partner? Helped someone good? Did something good? Got an achievement? Got a good job? It will be seen as negative anyways and at some point with this constant negativity some will feel apologetic about their very existence. Instead, don't be apologetic & turn the spotlight back to them. You did xyz, so what? They can shut up & stay seething.

Learn to be witty - Many people are going to try and humble you or start shit with you even as you mind your own business. You'll be more confident when you're able to own your shit & shut others down.

Be adaptable - Being able to wing it & wade through situations will boost your confidence. Most things in life aren't planned, the more you're able to adapt the better you'll get at handling thing which can improve your confidence.

Accept & realise some most things are out of your control - this sucks but can also be an advantage. You can do everything right, have powerful cards and still lose. However you can also do everything wrong and still win. This takes me to the next point.

Learn to detach - Tying yourself too close to things or people leads to dependency which leads to anxiety. Learn to do things without attaching yourself too much. Do things for a higher purpose than the individual or just purely for the hell of it. Get used to doing things (either positive or negative) without attaching yourself to the outcome.

Dont take things personal - 9/10 times people will treat you based on factors you cant control. This isn't to say to not feel a type of way about how people treat you feel but try not to internalise it. Internalising it only knocks your confidence down. It sucks but it is what it is.

Find a source of strength & confidence - This will be your answer to why you SHOULD be confident. Why you should speak up. Why you should put yourself out there if you want. Why you should be okay when you get push back, etc.

Be okay with silence. Pause - You dont have to respond to or acknowledge everything especially if it doesn't serve you.

Study & mirror traits of confident people - Self explanatory, fake it till you make it & doing this will point you in the right direction.

You don't have to always justify yourself - This is important to bear in mind cause when you're conventionally unattractive your actions will always be seen in a bad light. It doesn't matter what good you do it's the opposite of the halo effect. When you dont care to be defensive & justify your actions, people have less ammo against you. Over explaining and trying to make people understand will do more harm than good. If people want to understand you they will, if not they wont & nothing you do will help.

Focus on the now over what was or could be - Mindfulness gets a lot of hate but a degree of it is honestly helpful for some situations.

Turn the spotlight back on others - As mentioned nobody is perfect anyways. If it comes to it, dont justify yourself focus on others instead. Take the focus away from whatever they're trying to highlight on you. I remember when a woman posted on twitter & people came for her size, she obliterated them by insulting their life circumstances over justifying her size. After this happened with a couple selfies she posted, trolls greatly reduced.

Move with purpose - Have focus and deprioritise the rest. When you have no solid concrete purpose you're prone to caring about everything including irrelevant stuff.

Own your shit (even if you're wrong) - People can tell when you're not confident & will take advantage of that in most cases. Also learn how to present a confident fromt until your confidence actually improves.

[the-s1lly-corner]

I’ve read through some of your old posts and I gotta say…I love me some angst. May I kindly, pretty please with a plastic cherry on top, ask for TADC gang with an S/O who abstracted a while back, but then they ‘respawn’ one day with a glitch affect about them, and their memory was totally wiped? Like it was their first day in the digital world? The glitch affect doesn’t hurt them or anyone like what happened to Ragetha and Pomni btw.

TADC cast x mended!reader

so funny story i was about to sit down and work on this about 4 hours ago but then my parents said they were going to watch the fnaf movie in the garage and i literally dropped everything and watched it so uh uh. the reason the grind stopped was because of fnaf movie and now im kinda tempted to pick up my fnaf fic again anyways! i did a similar post, here! jax and caines parts here will be short, really only focusing on the glitch aspect for them in this post, since the other half has already been written!

CAINE:

just got flashed with an image but you know that scene where the iron giant is trying to pick the boy up but hes like limp or something and the giant pulls back (ive never watched iron giant i just know this clip from a meme) i think it would be like that if he tried to poof your glitching away; but like. in an emotional way, if that makes sense. like its the same kind of carefulness and worry, i think... bonus if he does more damage than not

JAX:

honestly a little too scared to even touch you out of the deep seeded fear of getting all glitchy as well. like he knows it wont spread to him, but you know...

POMNI:

similar to jax i think she would instinctively avoid touching you even though she knows its fine... the whole hand thing making her overly cautious for future scenarios, you know? i think she would slip up and accidentally bring up something you and her did before you abstracted, or call you an endearing name before abruptly stopping herself and trailing off, sad stuff. grief makes her tear between wanting to find an exit faster and trying to make you remember/stay for you

RAGATHA:

poor girl :( i think she would genuinely try to make an effort to re/befriend you and try not to have her hopes too high for the two of you to get back together. if you hear about your past relationship and want to learn more about it, shell tell you what you want to know, but i doubt she would instantly start dating you again if you suggest the two of you trying to give the relationship a second shot... i think that would need some time

KINGER:

bro is gonna be going through it, first he loses his possible wife to abstraction and now he lost you.. got you back, but you dont remember anything. on top of that you look.. off.. sure it doesnt hurt you but it still looks like it would be uncomfortable, even if it isnt

stuck between longing to rekindle your old relationship and letting you go in order to allow himself to process this grief; the third option is potential abstraction for himself

ZOOBLE:

tries not to care. they want to forget everything like you did, they were finally starting to be normal after your abstraction. but now your back in a clean slate, mind wiped and memories gone. how does someone cope with that? as much as it hurts them they think it would be best for them to pretend you were a stranger again

GANGLE:

saying it again, poor girl. mix of pomni and ragatha here i think, like she keeps messing up and verbally reminiscing before realizing you cant relate to what shes saying anymore. will tell you anything you want to know about the past, but i think it would take a lot longer for her to consider getting with you again than ragatha. for both its kind of a "i dont want them to feel obligated to try because we were together once" type deal

[weaselandfriends]

you gave pretty high grade to Dead Dead Demons on your MAL, I can see some bavitz-isms in the show and very much loved the manga, but it would be very interesting to know what you personally have to say about it

So in the years leading up to writing Cockatiel x Chameleon (2020 or 2021), I was in a group chat with an aromantic person who liked to post this out-of-context panel:

I had no idea what this panel was even from, but the quote stuck with me as an encapsulation of the contemporary mood, and so it wound up appearing three times in Cockatiel x Chameleon, first in Intermission A (the first letter from Mimmy's stalker):

real girls wont even look at me anyway so why not just beat it to drawn chicks rofl. just masturbate fearlessly to death lol.

Only a couple of chapters later, Gramme (as part of the doubling between him and Mimmy's hatemailer) echoes it in his footnote to the term "guro":

The Japanese porn game is too strong; although that hasn't helped their birthrates, which are below replacement. Why bother with other people when you have porn? Why not fearlessly masturbate to death?

Lastly, Harper -- remembering, at least subconsciously, more than she lets on -- says it during the climactic HELL OF SWALLOWED?! chapter:

Everyone else was dying too, the whole world; it was simply time to masturbate fearlessly to death.

Fast forward three years, to 2025. My webfic friend Lurina (read The Flower That Bloomed Nowhere!) has put up for a groupwatch the arcanely titled anime Dead Dead Demon's Dededede Destruction, which I have never heard of before. We start to watch, and after about five minutes a character appears who looks vaguely familiar. Black hair, thick eyebrows, twintails...

I realize it's the girl from the masturbate fearlessly to death panel. Immediately, I get excited.

And the anime did not disappoint. Dedede is perhaps the pop cultural work most befitting the current moment in history, dealing adroitly with mass media, the internet, misinformation, cultism, activism, cult activism, the complete impotence of all stations of authority against encroaching crisis, the fact that no matter how many crises seem to crop up life continues to trudge along with a shrug, war crimes, COVID, Trump, and the breakdown of interpersonal communication, among many other things. The story is maximalist in presentation, spanning a massive ensemble cast that covers every stratum of society, while also depicting quiet, interior, and deeply personal feelings of ennui and isolation. This, in my opinion, is what the great artistic works of today should strive to be, and what I tried to make Cockatiel x Chameleon be. Dedede puts a particularly anime twist on the idea, juxtaposing ordinary slice of life with the extraordinary apocalypse occurring around it, often to unsettling effect when these two worlds do collide.

Dedede also has some setpiece scenes of staggering artistic achievement on a purely aesthetic level. The scene that particularly stands out to me involves a commercial airliner flying past a UFO full of aliens that the Japanese government promptly guns down. There's an incredible shot as the airplane passengers stare out the window while hundreds if not thousands of alien bodies come tumbling out of the exploding craft into the water below, an image which ends with text that proclaims 30 DAYS UNTIL THE END OF THE WORLD.

I also appreciate the show's willingness to actually get dark and dirty with its characters. One character, initially presented as major, unceremoniously dies in an early episode. Another character puts a gun in his mouth and shoots himself dead on TV broadcast. Meanwhile, one of the two main characters is in a relationship with her teacher. A soldier grapples with the war crimes they automatically committed because they were ordered to. Politicians and low level staffers wonder how complicit they are in atrocities. Every character capable of acting seems to act badly, either by choice or because there is no other option; the only characters with clean hands are those who dwell in complete, almost superhuman ignorance of the annihilation slowly enveloping them.

There are a few missteps, though. There's a part of the story that's basically an edgy, adult take on Doraemon, where an alien gives a child charming gizmos which the child then uses, following an incredibly facile philosophy of justice, to enact Death Note style murders. I thought this idea was done a lot better in Death Note and was pretty limp here in comparison. Likewise, I have some issues with the ending. (Ending spoilers in the following paragraph.)

I could tell as soon as the timeline shifting technology was introduced that there would ultimately be a timeline shift out of the apocalypse. The reset timeline/universe has become a common tool in Japanese pop media that is otherwise actually willing to slaughter its cast en masse, a sort of having-your-cake-and-eating-it-too maneuver. When I first saw this done in Higurashi, I'd never seen anything like it and found it an incredible moment of catharsis. When I saw it in Mirai Nikki, not so much. (It's also, of course, a major aspect of PMMM, though at least PMMM has the decency to leave a good chunk of the cast dead/nonexistent after the reset, dodging the overly sentimental and happy tone these types of endings tend to engender. Rebellion goes a long way toward making the show's ending work for me.) I'm 50/50 on how it's handled in Dedede; there are aspects of the ending I like (we get a pretty extensive epilogue set post-apocalypse) but also a lot that feels cheap and perfunctory. There's a part of me that really, really wishes the show ended after Episode 16, with the final shot being the two leads watching as Tokyo -- and half the cast -- are wiped off the face of the planet, and the only mollifying conciliation being that due to some heroic efforts, this is only a partial apocalypse rather than a total one.

Ultimately, my immediate impression is that Dedede is my fourth favorite anime, behind PMMM, Blood-C, and School Days. It's not quite on the same level as Blood-C or School Days, but it feels a step above a lot of the other anime I like. It was certainly worthy of the multiple references to it I unknowingly put in Cockatiel x Chameleon.

[stevenbasic]

Growing into the Job, Post 440: GRWM Dr. J

Re: Why haven’t you checked this out?

An old subject line from my friend Rich had mocked me in my inbox earlier, the email unable to be read. I now stood in front of the cheap, full-length mirror hanging on the wall in my disheveled apartment with the new phone - my Bebihon - that my girlfriend Melissa had gifted me. I’d just got the alert that she’d…jesus what’s happened to my life?… finally given me permission to open the message. The fact that I was naked and supposed to be getting ready for this grand opening event that was already half-underway downstairs didn’t seem to be registering with me at that moment. The clothes they had rented me still hung in my small closet, and I’d been told to be ready by 7 o’clock…and it was now 7:13. My mind, as it was wont to do these days, had drifted. 

It was, of course, humiliating it was to have to request access to my own email on my own phone. It was kinda ridiculous. I had to wait hours fort Melissa’s consent before I could even open a message. It was for my own protection, she’d said, that she’d bought me this phone, along with all its restrictions to keep me safe. They all seemed to think the world was becoming too big and too dangerous a place for a ‘vulni’ man like me, and any unmonitored communications from the outside world could prove to be risky. After I’d requested access to the message, I’d had to wait for her assent and it had taken her all this time to acknowledge it from her own Mazafon. Maybe she was off preparing the event, getting herself ready, and when she had finally approved it, allowed me to open it, it had come with a text from her, a briefly ominous caveat: We’ll talk about this laterrr. 

The email from Rich, a fellow geriatrician, was a reply to what I’d sent him earlier this week. I’d told him about the changes in my life since we’d seen one another at the conference - changes at work, changes in my love life, changes with my health. It was my shrinking that seemed to concern him the most, and he’d obviously gotten the vibe that I wasn’t doing much to pursue investigating it, or seeking treatment. As I read his email - being a physician himself, it got kinda jargon-y, and he was offering to help - I began to feel a bit funny, lightheaded, even nauseous. I think it was stress. Maybe I was just getting old and needed some reading glasses because as I came towards the part about how he’d done some research and work on his end to find me a local specialist that could help, my vision had become blurry. I was just barely able to make the final bit out, right at the end:

‘I made you an appt with their endocrinology clinic. It’s still run by guys, so you can trust them. It's this coming Tuesday. Be there.’

I felt my world had been becoming more and more insular every day, by leaps and bounds, and the idea of seeking out care away from hom…away from clinic here was making me feel weird. I considered starting to research it myself - what kind of endocrinology clinic was this? Was it just for men? That’s weird right? It gave me an immediate bad taste in the back of my mouth. Why was Rich doing this, anyway? Butting into my life? I mean, I knew he was worried about me, but…c’mon. In fact, when I considered looking up this endocrinologist online I began feeling bad, anxious, even nauseous. This was probably just not the right time to do it; I could search them up later. Yeah, later.

I let the hand that held my phone hang down at my side, and I looked at myself in the mirror. I shivered, seeing the reflection of the naked man that looked back at me. 

Fuck. 

I was…what? 4’7”? I weighed 73 lbs this morning. I looked like a skinny child… well, not like a child. Children had different proportions, and certainly didn’t sport schlongs that hung down to their knees. I looked like a…admit it, dude…like a man that was shrinking, withering. I knew this should be filling me with existential horror, the reality of it, but it didn’t. Well, at least not as much as it should have. It sort of weirded me out that I wasn’t more aggressively afraid. 

There were other thoughts, though, swirling up into my mind, rising from some inner depths. Deep secrets that I had never shared with anyone surfacing, bubbling to life. I’d always realized that society's old definition of masculinity was being strong and confident, and that it didn't include being attracted to taller, dominant women. So I’d played that part all my life, in my career, and in my marriage to Sheryl - the man, the masculine guy, or at least my version of it. In my deep underwater grottos, though, hidden fantasies had always lurked. In the past I was afraid of allowing these to rise and show themselves, knowing I would be judged, ridiculed, or worse. It had actually happened after the breakup of my affair with Rina, four or so years ago, when my whole staff at the time had gotten an earful from her, in her anger, summarizing my, uh, proclivities for all to hear. It was humiliating. It had even happened when I was a young teen, when my uncle (who’d raised me after the death of my grandparents) found my picture stash under my bed. So, I’d learned the hard way to keep my secrets to myself, tucked into the caverns of my inner life.

But now things were different.

Society had started to change, and I had started to change. I could see it in the mirror, in the thin, shrunken man looking back at me. He seemed to recede further and further away from those old notions of masculinity, more “vulni” every time I looked, and maybe it wasn’t horrible. He was different, he was new. 

I took a deep breath. 

Everything was different…but was it actually worse? I mean, before…had it really been all that great? What was it about my old life, the old ways, that were better? Did I really miss it? Being responsible for all my patients? Organizing the practice, taking care of a home? I missed what I’d had with Sheryl, maybe...but the times I missed were from years gone by, ancient history.  Really, the most exciting thing to me from the old days had been the women. The affairs with the younger women - Rina, Deanna before her - had been intoxicating. Equally so, just having women all around me at work - back then it had been Marisela, Lakshmi, even Hilda and the others that had quit - being surrounded by females had always been the only thing I truly loved about my old life. My new life, and in fact this new world, now had so much more, more of them. Not just here at work, but even outside. In government, in business, seemingly everywhere, female authority was eclipsing the old ways. The new world was being filled with, and run by, women - and my world was being filled with her. 

Melissa.

Oh my god, Melissa. 

My heart fluttered, my throat caught as I thought of her. I was flabbergasted by the fact that we were together, in love in fact. She was utterly gorgeous, getting so tall, becoming some sort of superwoman and - look at me, naked and pale, dick the size of my forearm -  I was becoming this.

I’d been telling myself that finding a diagnosis, finding treatment and putting an end to my shrinking was the rational choice. That, though, would put an end to this dark thrill I got waking up every day and finding myself sunk another inch deeper into the stygian depths of my old fantasies. I was being pulled down in their slow vortex, their warm, swirling pool - couldn’t I just let myself sink? Give myself up to it and drown in pleasure? What was rational about fighting it, making myself miserable for no gain? I knew, full well, that the smaller I got, the bigger Melissa seemed. And the bigger Melissa became, the more enraptured by her I felt. When I was able to push all these existential fears out of my mind, I knew that a life of getting littler in Melissa’s strong arms could be the greatest bliss I’d ever known.

Barely even realizing I’d done it, I’d brought my phone back to life, and swiped to an old picture of her...

Nnngh. Oh god.

Along with the gift of my phone, Melissa had filled an album on it with pictures of herself, old and new, to…what had she said?…”keep me company”. Where before I’d had to hide them from my wife - and they’d been the eventual undoing of my marriage - now pictures of the tall, busty brunette were something I was obviously being encouraged to ogle. 

Christ. She is so perfect. So fucking perfect. 

I looked up, into the mirror, and then down. I took a step back, so I could watch.  My cock, the monster of a thing that lived between my legs and increasingly ran my life, was stiffening. I’d always had a large penis, more than nine inches, the most impressive thing about an otherwise nondescript body. Back when I was nearly six feet tall it was a stirring sight when erect, but now…my god. Watching myself harden was a total spectacle, something between a horror movie and a circus freak show. I had shrunk, it had not. Rising from my withered frame to point up to my chest, it was nearly a fifth of my total height, thick and snaked with pulsing veins. It was becoming iron strong where I was more and more increasingly brittle.

Aside from the dread of it, though, there was something secretly rousing about the idea of becoming progressively smaller while my manhood did not. I watched in the mirror as my erection grew and grew and grew, impressing even myself, and I imagined it ballooning further, soaring in proportion to my still shrinking body. Suddenly I found myself gripped by the notion of being totally overwhelmed by my own sexuality, my legs failing, my entire self being pinned to the ground helpless underneath it as it throbbed, thicker nearly than my entire torso. And then, from above me, a huge, elegantly female hand reached down to-

The door to my apartment <clicked>. 

“Dr. J? Are you in here?”

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thx to RiF for help in editing

[calebwittebane]

i had a dream id gotten conned into becoming a god and proceeded to try and design a world without suffering or pain. i really really struggled with this one. no matter what i did, it seemed like bouncing between endless suffering and highly sheltered sensory deprivation state with all functions for every person reduced to a minimum. eventually the author--it turned out i was in a fictional work, and the author was a sneering cynical asshole who enjoyed seeing me suffer--started mocking me, saying that a real demiurge really in control of things through unlimited possibilities wouldve figured that out, but i'm just a loser who spent a long time being human and therefore my mind has very human limitations. i started arguing with the author, saying that theyd written me this way and have no right to mock me, that despite this attitude they have this clearly is some form of venting theyre doing through art, and they need to take something seriously for once. my limitations are simply a reflection of theirs, and their mockery is their pained wailing in disguise. they were like well i dont like your attitude so because youve decided to be a little bitch about it i will now punish you by making you experience every death that ever happened to anyone and WILL have happened to anyone. so i did. it was awful. the prophetic visions of what sort of carnage famine disease and freak accidents the future has in store for humanity, they were almost as bad as the historical part. reminder: i feel pain in my dreams. anyway once that was done, and it did in fact feel to me like actual centuries were passing, actual centuries of nothing but agony, i told the author they were a vindictive bitch, incapable of comprehending the suffering theyre inflicting. if they ever felt even a fraction of what they dish out without much thought, they would curl up and cry and never do anything again. they told me i just objected to the way i'd sculpted my own consciousness. that to be a human, advanced and philosophy oriented as we are with our proportionally large complex brains, is to reject all inevitability as barbaric. i said that was stupid--humans are still, despite our unique traits, simply part of the animal kingdom, and more broadly made of the same matter as the rest of the universe, a continuous lattice of reactions among many other, a sustained chain that hasn't stopped since the very first instance of reproduction occurred between two organisms. the author just favors the human perspective because theyre biased and write what they know.

then the author felt like doing something petty once more so they decided to put me in a situation where im trying to buy art supplies but my dad is also there undermining everything i say. i said: this wont get to me--author, it seems you dont know me all that well, for buying art supplies was indeed one of the only type of occasion where my dad Would just let me do what i needed to do and would more or less trust i knew what i was doing. the author laughed and said, and yet you were able to summon a version of events where he does act poorly in this context. how cruel and unfair of you, to imagine something so uncharitable. how can you be sure of anything you remember? and i was going to give a reply but things around me started glitching out. people got spaghettified and turned into like. ok imagine a coral reef but its people.

i think i mustve argued with the author about some technical accuracy in their depictions of trains? i got to experience some train crashes as punishment

so yeah im awake now and i dont feel like ive gotten a lot of rest considering i just escaped time prison

[fictionfixations]

tamashina-mina event (aka the sunset savanna jp event)

so anyway because i cant read jp (the translated vid is in parts so thats why im posting multiple links)

leona brushes it off but

so LISTEN. The chamberlain whatever his name is isn't happy with Leona for not putting his intelligence to help the country

but when he DOES provide an idea (aka actually mining the mineral resources) its shrugged off because they're all for being with nature

so what im understanding is leona is proposing to actually make use of what the land has to, yes, make a profit, but also it could help with all loads of things? like spreading water to be a little more easily obtainable once having the funds to idk throw away money for the good of the people (i mean. they're already rich aren't they? i don't really get it but also the world runs on money. i dont know if there are any benefits to it just sitting there, or if there are cons to digging them out or not but leona seems very passionate about it.)

but so its like this then

where if its not modernized then people will just. not live modernized. and i get that ig, wanting to live with nature (well not really but i mean its all down to preference isnt it? which im not an outdoor person so uh)

maybe it'll make more sense in the EN version (whenever it comes). or maybe i need someone to dumb it down to me like im 5.

but anyway you see my point right?? Leona provides an idea (is very invested in it) that goes to the good of the kingdom (making more profit but its also like they dont have to mine ALL of it he at least just wants them to make use of it at least instead of not even touching it)

and then it gets shot down because. basically. tradition. ???

anyway heres my idea: if someone like Ruggie Bucchi can exist (i mean as in someone born in a poor environment) in the Sunset Savanna, then clearly there can still be something done to keep people healthy and in comfortable situations without compromising idk the beauty of also being able to live with nature at the same time? to help make it a bit more convenient in the process at least? (like there could be a system that brings them water, but it could still be in a well so they can still do that process by hand, there will just be more water so they dont have to worry about idk running out? i dont know how wells work but i imagine they can run out eventually)

and if anyones like 'oh but we wont make a profit' then propose ANOTHER way we can make big income. aka MINING the MINERAL resources so it could be like nothing even changed or that we might be even making more than we usually are (but also probably supervised so they cant take advantage and just i mean get rid of the entirety of it? cause. its.. important right? so some but not all.)

maybe i just dont understand this, maybe im biased towards leona who knows, but i kind of also feel like its dumb to just brush it off. and i mean who knows maybe hes proposed it many times before, maybe hes shown them so many ideas and proofs and proposals related but they mightve been flawed in some way i dont know and thats why they refuse. who knows. it just rubs me the wrong way

its also kind of related to people brushing off leona just as being lazy and stuff like that (also did you know he only failed ONE year? he joined NRC a year late) but leona isnt really doing anything to try to change peoples perceptions of him because 'thats what they think of me, why should i bother?' like people hating on him for being [something something] compared to falena so then just. takes that in and is like 'okay so people think of me this way. if thats how they view me, then whatever.' hes still very competitive and all that stuff but theres also apathy in 'people will think whatever they want of me, why should i even try to change it?' (and hes probably heard all kinds of things at a young age that really stuck with him and shaped who he was. which goes from being really hurt by it to not even caring about peoples opinions anymore. dont get me wrong it can still affect him because the part of him that got hurt by it the first time is still there but yknow)

but so then the chamberlain is like 'why dont you use your smarts for the country'

and leonas just like

THEN SAY SOMETHING TO MAKE HIM NOT SAY SUCH THINGS??? (you knew him as a kid surely you could do something) like. theres. just. such an utter lack of trying to convince him otherwise. and i guess to him it would sound so fake so he might not be convinced at all. but then if you stop trying at all then he'll think that he was right in what he thought people thought of him and wont try to correct anyone. or in fact will correct anyone if they think positively of him.

i mean theres also not wanting to say it in front of other people. but. listen. if youre afraid of what the people think then it will affect the other negatively.

like for example if you try not to do lovey-dovey stuff in public then your lover will naturally feel like youre just trying to hide them away. or that you might feel ashamed.

so if the chamberlain tries to convince him when they're in private but in public he doesnt. then you can see what kind of conclusion leona would come to, right?

its kind of a tough situation because i honestly dont know what youd do in that situation. its just. i feel like they could communicate better. that there could be things to be done and it just frustrates me.

yes he does go on to say that leona is strong

and that he believes in him basically but

it just. doesnt feel like enough. and it could definitely be on leona for also not being willing to listen so hh. and i also get the chamberlain has a lot of responsibility so he cant just be there all the time and everything hfeuishfdi

[babsggordon]

((I decided to rebrand this blog, a lot of the lore would stay canon (Like sebastians existence) and other things wont (Like revived nightwing arc) . My way of roleplay wont change, neither Babs personality.

But like, i need a rebranding to keep going. I love this blog, but after revisiting my first posts i realized i was living to post for something its not gonna come back. Most of the blogs i interacted with are deleted or doesnt do rp anymore and- it makes me sad in some way (specially after you-know-what where i dont knlw who to interact to because i really dont know anything of what happened)

I get back again at the dilema of deciding if her past relationship was canon, its a tough desision but i realized keeping a blog that would definitely not comeback (again) in her history is holding her back in a lot of ways. Now that Babs is not that pending on Jacyn is a lot easier to think about it.

But i still would like to make some tribute to my friend's blog. I still need to figure out how (amd give a coherent explanation to Sebastian if im removing that part of her lore)

ANYWAY.

Here's the old intro:

From the moment that I close my eyes, take a deep breath and feel the sun kissing my skin delicately until the moment I open my eyes again with a clearer mind. And there's always one though that is in the back, watching me over every step and reminding me everything I've been through. And its the fact that I would never change a thing in my life. Because every point converges in the epitome of the current moment I cried, I smile and I will appreciate. Whenever I close my eyes I find myself, I find the thirteen year old girl who lost everything. I find the girl who got adopted by the world's greatest Dad. The same girl who saved Bruce Wayne from kidnapping, in a silly old custome which I thought to wear because having a female version of Batman at the time was unthinkable. That same event that lead me to what would became the career that gave me my whole life and everything I cherish for. From my beloved friends which I love to see and help everyday, the kind man who extended his hand to us all, and the man who taught me that romantic love is only a thing I can experiment with trust from years. I fin that girl, who watched her adoptive mom die, the one who got paralized and standed by for months by an hospital bed, hoping every day her Dad recover his self afteer being pushed by the limit. All done by the same man. I find the girl who decided not to let the man win, and still find kindness in life. Working everyday to help and seek the truth for the sake of the few good people in gotham. I find the girl who recovered, I find the girl who succeeded. I find Barbara Jean Gordon, I find me.

Thanks for tunning me in all of these months, stay tunned :] ))

[blackvahana]

Thankyou for answering my question about mindscapes and mental spaces. A follow up question:

How would one go about creating a portal from your mindscape to the astral then? You mention ‘birthing’ it of sorts, would that be a lengthy process? If I don’t set up a portal, can I still make like a temporary one?

The last question is, people mention having homes and pocket spaces in the astral, is this the same as mental space but in the astral, how does one go about obtaining an owned space in the astral that they can alter and change like a mindscape.

Sorry for the lengthy ask, I appreciate your time 💙

No problem at all! Hope it helps, and I'll try to answer this best I can.

I think... it's important first and foremost to solidly understand the difference between the two, and what both feel like.

The issue with answering questions like these is that... well. Look at magic on this plane: One person's answer to "how do you curse" would be rotting froth sea water and whispered sea goddess curses, and another's would be to write their name on fire and burn it. One, both, or neither - more likely neither - is going to suit the person asking especially if say the person asking is a nature witch. Well, they could make it work, both saltwater and fire strangle nature, but... The ways to get things done naturally involve pushing your own self and elements to the cliff between you and the world at large, and another persons way of pushing themselves is probably not going to be yours - especially because elementally, energetically, we all have very different selves

That... Is amplified in the Astral. This is why I sort of... have a "dont teach people unless its in person and in a way I can possess and give visions to directly show" - part of why I made my realm lmfao. I can give you a basics rundown answer to your questions, but its not really... its not like giving baking steps where we both have flour and both have cups and both have ovens

the Basic answers are: yeah. First and foremost practice getting a solid grip on what is astral and what is mental. both exist in the same ALL/universe, like fire and oil, disparate but transmutable into one another if you know how to rearrange atomic structures and... many other things. or you could just set fire to the oil lmfao. Anyway.

Birthing the portal: When you grasp both astral and mental, it's important to understand the link. This can be done through existing in the astral and trying to manifest things, taking thought and idea and weaving it into reality. In the astral, you believing you can fly wont make you be able to like what happens in the mental, to birth wings out of yourself you need to stitch thought with substance. You need to give reality programming - which means you need to be able to grasp reality and walk the path between mental and real.

It's... yeah. hard to explain to someone if theyre not already used to portal work (maybe you are! Im just presuming a baseline level of understanding because i dont want to miss any important details). But the idea is... there is a point where the mental and astral touch. There is mental in the astral. The mental - referencing for a second how i talked about reality shifting and mindspaces and such - is very... accepting of programming. The key issue though is that if you programme "a door to the astral" in the mental without actually literally linking it to the astral, you'll end up with "a door to the astral" that takes you to a simulated astral reality. Thats why i say understanding what the astral feels like and the differences is key

The idea is... to birth a nothing. The astral compared to the mental is a lack of mental. Theres a phrase that Hermes impressed on me with great importance lmfao regarding the mental: "Do not assign features to it." This is essentially saying... just that, if you assign it personhood it will become a person. If you assign it reality it will become real. If you assign it a doorway itll become a door - and you will still be interacting with unreality, just now with a mask. But if you grasp both mental AND astral, and use their shared elements, you can birth a point in reality rather than the mind where... the mental gives way into externality

its. yeah. Its rough to explain. You basically want to create a place where the mental stops having a say in things, and you want to create that in the mental, which means you dont want to Create anything you want to more so make your mindspace a sighing body with you as the breath.

Is it a lengthy process? No, it can take place in an instant if you know what youre doing - Ill say when you know what youre doing because it genuinely is just a matter of practice and getting familiar with the two things. It can happen in an instant because mindspace is... extremely reactive, and mental creation can happen even backwards in time - you could have a portal to the outside thats built by your future self lmfao

I just. would recommend really to leave this kind of thing and just try more so to project or bilocate. The reason I have a portal in my mindspace is uh. it actually goes to the sky in mongolia, which it to say the gelatinous-crystalline window in between God and Creation, which is why the portal exists in the first place. Its way easier - and better for the brain to avoid becoming confused - if one just projects from real to real aka physical to astral - the portal is specifically uh. theres a psychological benefit to going from unreal to real wrt this portal specifically

Yes, you absolutely can make a temporary one! To be honest as much as this might sound counterintuitive, i think its actually both easier (that parts not counterintuitive) and more effective to make a temporary one. Itd be way easier to skirt the mentals tendency to take on the properties of the external (as in to stop it from making a pretend portal outwards) by making it temporary and purely for utility. The mental would probably react more "yes on it boss ill collapse and invert" if you arent trying to forge something mental.

Homes and pocket spaces... I personally - just so we're on the same page, you dont have to agree w this use of the word or use the words like this - i see pocket realms/spaces and realms proper differently. Not even based on size, but function. Effectively.... Theres more types of spacetime than atomic, realms are their own sort of... realities with their own spacetime, pocket realms/pocket spaces are... specifically sort of... uh. Realms are dresses, pocket realms are pockets on those dresses. Dens under trees, in that they tuck into spacetime thats tucked into spacetime

Its definitely possible to realm weave or pocket space weave. I.... im gonna be honest I wont recommend it at all before one's familiar with astral-mental spectrum things. Specifically if you cant tell with pretty high certainty when somethings mental youll probably end up weaving a mental realm which. is. devastating or can be. its devastating to find out your entire territory, people you know and love, and so on are all masks of the mental lmfao ie nonexistent. part of why i want to shoo people away from reality shifting before they have a huge grasp on the mental and the "reality" creation function.

Theres several ways to do it though. My realm is actually woven through... what im going to call gateworking, and chronomancy. Using reality itself as a system of gates, utilising my aspect of the fabric of spacetime to stitch a pattern on my own fabric.... insert one of my selves answering to Yog-Sothoth here, I Am That Which Is And Is Not. Knowledge/data/code-weaving and shit. this is to say that my own experience is. not. going to be applicable to everyone. Ive seen others weave tapestries, or plant seeds in the folds of reality, but at that point you need to know how to programme thread and seed.

I think seeds are... not necessarily the easiest method (realmweaving a stable realm beyond a mental flimsy movie set of a place is already not easy lmfao) but i find them actually the most intuitive type of magic to teach others - as in someone brought it up and im like "huh, yeah, thats good actually". But... then you need to know legitimisation and shit. The process (in my eyes) would be programming a seed, slipping it between the cracks of non-spacetime where theres a necessary gap and set of substances, and "watering" it - this is a good method because it allows the ability to grow something one cant more consciously guide and grow and allows magic to spread virulently into a self-sustaining realm...

But - you specifically asked how one may obtain one... I would really just suggest getting a realmweaver to make you one or... making a claim on someone else's territory lmfao. Obviously that last one is a human social faux pas at best, horrifically selfishly violent at worst, but look. we gore others for their territory all the time over there lmfao

Either way... im sure theres more beginner guides to making these things? But... I genuinely dont recommend beginners get in on this. I kinda do, Ive said before and Ill say it again that for certain species (fae especially, and I am part Void Fae so that checks out) its a third function like growing ones own body and conceiving/growing a child, and... people have a right to their own bodily functions without having to be super knowledgeable on shit

however... theres so much that can go wrong that its... it is possible to grow a realm/pocket reality without -

actually. hold a minute. I hate when people presume competence and skill levels over text. I need to actually clarify what Im talking about here because Im not presuming youre "just some lousy beginner haha im soooo much better than you" type shit I loathe that. So specifically: Im presuming you dont have access to libraries of information in the astral with records of realmweaving + what realms are + the differences between mental and astral, i presume you havent been brought through testing learning by spirits to show you the differences between mental and astral, and i presume you dont have the ability to talk with spirit teachers to have them guiding you along the process... Which is all absolutely possible to get, its just this is basically the level I would suggest being at before realmweaving, and uh. when youre at that level - hence why i presume you arent - generally you learn from those means rather than tumblr. Meant totally neutrally here, i still learn shit from tumblr (and hey i mean clearly im ON tumblr im typing on it right now, this isnt a bad thing)

The dangers specifically are just... Hermes' warnings were specifically about the Mental and oh my god did he impress that on me and boy do i get why. The astral? Worst thing you can go through is probably for the average person being hunted down and having your family slaughtered in front of you and then being killed and having to come back to your body and live with it. Worst thing on average for that same person mentally? Ohhhhh fucking boy. way worse. You could go through all that and have to cope with it not being real - or never find out it wasnt real, and then keep going through it, and then start becoming psychotic irt hallucinations, and then completely lose yourself, lose your ability to interact w any reality, etc. the Mental is..... If you lose your body, you still have your mind. If you lose your mind, you have nothing - and youre still forced to live through having nothing, because if you cant sever your connection to your reality because youre no longer able to tell what reality is... its fucked! Mental is extremely dangerous lmfao

Dont take this as discouragement. Chemicals in a lab can do horrible fucking things to you and fuck you up for life, but you can learn chemistry quite easily if you just. take the steps to do it lmfao. Same with this, skill here is just. learning to navigate risks. Also honestly if you do fuck around to find out you probably wont have anything hugely awful happen, its just... when you get stuck in the mental and cant tell the difference between simulated reality and the mental - which are, 100%, indistinguishably, identical because we perceive reality through the mental, the feeling of and experience of "real" is a mental function uh. anyway

[irrigos]

been thinking about motr again (as is my wont) and i think one of my complaints about it is that i think it's kind of weird that no one is antisemitic??

not that im like. "boo i wish there was more bigotry in the world!!" or smth lmao. it's just that it feels like maybe there was supposed to be some but then they chickened out

like. archie is accused of murdering david, and we know immediately that he didnt do it because he's our friend (and also thats just how stories work.) but i still dont understand why everyone else is so convinced he did it, when they never bother to give him a motive

when I heard the pitch for motr, I had assumed the motive would be bigotry. even if archie himself isnt antisemitic, it would make sense for Harjit or David or anyone who thinks archie did it to at some point go "well the victim was a marginalized person, so we just assume the motive was bigotry" but no one ever says that, even as just. a possibility?? but they ALSO dont have a different, stronger motive for Archie to have done it?? if Archie and David had some sort of enmity, this probably wouldn't be a problem at all, but since they dont have anything, it really feels like the only possible motive would have been prejudice, and yet no one will ever say it, even as a possibility that gets refuted

it just seems really weird to me!! ive posted before about how i understand why FBG writes stuff the way they do (writing period-accurate bigotry isnt like. fun. and also i dont think it would be commercially successful, especially if you want to court an audience of non-bigots) but it just kinda. lacked some verisimilitude for me on this one, especially because they made such a big thing about how much research they were doing and how they were consulting experts so they could write their first explicitly Jewish characters in the universe?? like... did you guys just. forget. why did you even bother researching that much when it's never really part of the story?

(also, my incredibly minor complaint is that i think its a missed opportunity to not have one of the Landaus comment on how golems are real apparently. like sure i guess they never actually cross paths with Moss but. yknow... cmon)

anyway this is also just kind of a matter of taste, because i know that bigotry free fantasty worlds are very popular with some people, and i definitely get the appeal!!! it just does very little for me, especially in what is technically a period piece. for me personally, it doesnt hit as like "oh cool a fun fantasy world that im welcome in :3" it just comes across (TO ME) as. very fake

.... but actually now that ive written the whole post, i think the real problem is that they forgot to give archie even a POSSIBLE motive, but also wouldnt suggest, even as a possibility that gets refuted, the most obvious motive, which wouldn't even require them to change any of the story beats at ALL. its just a really weird writing decision and i don't get it

[wildcardsoul]

a more in depth background of my persona 3 oc...

the one linked here! It's a lot so its gonna be under the cut but it's much more than what i had before!! idk how many will see this but it would be so cool and awesome if you read it because these two give me such intense brain worms i need to tell everyone about them (will include p3 spoilers)

touma hiroya was born as a surprise to an, all things considered, normal family. a mom, dad, and a brother, teijo, 10 years his elder. his family was not expecting another child but welcomed him anyways

the pregnancy caused a lot of complications, but they thought they were in the clear during his birth, unfortunately more issues arised and his mother passed away shortly after, devastating the others. a new life was brought into the world but at the cost of another.

both grew bitter towards the newborn, silently blaming him for the death of the mother. it took until his father shouted at the now-toddler for teijo to realize how foolish he was being. touma was completely innocent.

but things only got worse as time went on, their father having resorted to drinking since the passing of his wife and quickly developed an addiction. obviously i wont be going into abuse detail but their situation gets Bad, but teijo always makes sure to protect touma always

he manages to get accepted into a college, with an insane amount of hard work he is able to gather enough money to get an apartment and take in touma, pretty much raising him. teijo finds himself leaning more towards science, while touma starts picking up his medical books

years pass, now roughly 20 and 30, teijo gets himself into the kirijo groups scientists, and touma is in medical school. all things seem to be going well for the two, teijo sending touma extra money to support him every once in awhile.

that is, until, again, things take a turn for the worse. teijo gets sucked into the deeper parts of the group, seeing the experiments theyre doing on the shadows, and worse, people. but hes too far into the group now he cannot back out without being in danger

it becomes obvious, though, how he hesitates. and soon enough they turn on him. they realize teijo has a strong potential, and try to force-summon a persona from him. it works, but he is unable to control it, and his own persona kills him.

touma is clueless. he stays clueless, it wasnt uncommon for months to go by without hearing from his brother, he is busy after all. then the accident happens, the explosion. he is told his brother died there. and hes alone in the world.

touma tries to go on, tries to keep going in school but he struggles. he finds himself skipping classes, sleeping in, after some years he runs out of money, he has no choice but to drop out. he tries getting jobs, but none last too long. a few more years and hes out of money and jobs that will accept him. unable to afford his apartment anymore, hes stuck wondering the streets. its now he discovers the dark hour, terrified of it, but able to use it to his advantage. he felt awful, breaking into places and stealing, but he would starve otherwise.

its on fateful day that he is found. he had fainted on the street during the dark hour, after not having had enough to eat the day prior. shuji finds him, clothes torn and dirty, trying to get him to awaken. after a bit, he does.

during this time its early spring, a month or two after makoto had joined SEES. seeing the potential in touma, shuji decides to, at the very least, help him through the night. he can see what else can be learned about him, if he'll be useful to his cause.

after bringing him to his home, getting him showered and fed, they talk. shuji realizes he's heard of touma before, the younger brother to one of the scientists. it feels like fate, his brother had an extremely strong persona, if touma was any similar, perhaps he could be useful

if things were handled differently. with the plan in mind, shuji offers him to stay with him at his home. he even pulls some strings and allows touma to be an assistant nurse at the school.

months pass, and touma never awakens to his persona. but its alright, he is proving himself to be extremely useful by having the medical knowledge he does, helping out the kids after tough fights and long tartarus trips.

touma is EXTREMELY grateful towards shuji, feeling as if he saved his life. during those months he can't help but find himself falling for him. sure, it helps he saved him, but he genuinely adores shuji. he finds him so charming and funny, he feels like a schoolboy with a crush

meanwhile shuji is finding himself feeling the same. which complicates things a lot. he can't have feelings for someone right now! the world is destined to end, its unworth saving, theres no point in dealing with love. he tries to keep up appearances but shuji is stressed as hell

hes in heavy, heavy denial he could love someone in this cruel of a world, trying to find any reason to justify it. and he does. it all makes sense, why the pieces would fall into place so neatly. touma was destined to be the avatar of nyx. it was so clear!

shuji would be the god of the new world, with touma by his side to help bring it to fruition. no other reason would he be so drawn to him, right? so his plan continues in motion, until all 12 arcana shadows are defeated, and shuji starts his plan.

touma watches as someone who he loved betrays him, betrays them all. he tries his hardest to reason with shuji, to beg, to plead to listen to him, that killing these kids he cares for won't do any good, that the world is still worth saving, but shuji's delusions have taken over

shuji raves about how this is destiny, how this is what they wanted, right? to be together, and they will be, with the creation of the new world everything will be perfect. and the rest plays out in canon, aigis saving everyone, and shuji getting shot.

despite it all, the betrayal, touma still loves him. as shuji walks backwards towards the edge of the roof, touma runs over to him, trying to save him from falling, but it's too late at that point. shuji had fallen. without a second thought touma goes after him.

he doesn't think about it, if this is how he dies..then let it be. he'd rather die with shuji than live with losing someone else he loves. through the rush of doom, its finally now touma's persona awakens, eos, the goddess of dawn.

touma, who had managed to grab hold of shuji's hand, pulls him closer against the wind, and with eos' wings they're able to safely make it to the ground. what i have after this is pretty..up in the air, but pretty much it comes to shuji realizing he was fucking crazy and a LOT of therapy. a lot. touma and shuji stay away from the kids for awhile because..well they kind of doubt theyd want to see them. again still nothing concrete after this but. they end up being okay one way or another.

this is just like. toumas in-canon story how it would go In Canon but i also love pretending everything is fine and that theyre silly and in love but also ouch ouch ouch ouch they hurt me to think about sometimes

also sorry if not all of this makes a lot of sense within canon its been awhile since i beat the game.. but uaugh. augh. uahg. they mean so much to me.

heres a little lamb touma doodle for ur troubles <33 i doubt it but if anyone has any questions PLEAAASE ask me i need to talk about themmmm

[crazy-hazy-sims]

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No offense to Americans but you guys really never learn you see the state of your left party and how they will not move their ass for anyone or anything that's not "big companies and celebs virtue signaling on twitter" how the fuck did any of you expect a person who shot the healthcare CEO to be leftist?? I swear it feels like yall (see: People who keep getting surprised pikatchu face that things are not going their way, not the general yall) intentionally blind yourself every single time anything happens just to act surprised and proclaim "Howww are they not left like ussss???" What do you mean how? Look me in the face and answer me truthfully are YOU left like you claim to be?

You refuse to march for and defend black people and brush off every police brutality and racism victim you police their tones and refuse to do the work and educate yourself expecting them to do the work for you and then you shut them down anyway because fighting back is too violent for you, all you did was post a black square a few years back and called it a day

You claim to be pro LGBTQIA+ but are extremely transphobic and create so much in fighting about who belongs in the community and who doesn't and who is queer and who isn't (aro/ace, intersex, middle easterns you name it)

You claim to support women yet you give space and argue all day with misogynists and sexists and keep rebranding gender norms as cool and hip every 4 weeks, and you would rather die than support sex workers and give them rights

You claim to want to bring down the patriarchy yet you are so hateful towards men its your whole personality by now

You wont even move when several genocides are happening in the world because it will require you to give up a luxury of sorts and its too hard not to watch the new shitty marvel movie or consume the Starbucks gloop or not buy the newest phone every 3 months

The environment? You think you care?? You refuse to Stop using chatGPT as a search engine and will not stop making AI art

Human rights????????? You cant even view people from the opposite political party of yours as human deserving of rights let alone people from other ethnicities

So let me ask again: Are you ACTUALLY part of what you claim to be?? How do you expect the people who fight back to be part of your group when your group wont ever fight back?

Your biggest failure is viewing this as a political war and romanticizing it as such when its a class war where people starve and die regardless of their political affiliation because of the greed of the rich

I said before you will not hear me talk about anything like this ever again I'm not American i don't want to fill my head with American politics when i could be focusing on local communities because clearly no one will help us but us but yall baffle me YALL BAFFLE ME

This is the last time I'm talking about anything American/ world wide politics I'm done I'm tired I'm done.

[fruttymoment]

Whoa linux user

Do you have a guide on how to switch to it? I have zero coding knowledge (i think that's required) and I trust you with my life

I perfectly understand the "linux is scary and requires very big brain and coding its too hard to use!" thought coming from a Windows/Mac guy, i really do! But in the end, a linux distro is just a computer kernel that also has a desktop environment and just does what you want it to do like an operating system

Coding on linux is not required. Linux has so many distros at this point that designed to be beginner friendly, requiring "no knowledge but TO gain knowledge while using it"

The linux terminal is the thing that scares most of the users, but trust me once you get used to it you'll realize how efficent it is to operate your computer and do certain tasks from THE terminal instead! In the end, the cold looking white text with black background terminals are the REAL face of computers. Desktop environment is made so EVERYONE can use computers!

The terminal of gnu/linux uses the bash language. In a nutshell, it is pretty easy to learn basic commands actually!

Super beginner friendly linux distros are designed for people (YOUU) who has no experience whatsoever with linux! They are designed and engineered so you dont have to use the terminal much! For example, Linux Mint is the best distro you should start with. It looks and feels like Windows, even! And Mint does not require much terminal usage. That is also their mission, to make an linux distro friendly enough that no terminal usage is needed!

As easy as this sounds, i actually do not recommend staying this far away from the linux terminal. Please start with Linux Mint if you gonna, its just the best for beginners, but also please dont avoid the terminal much! The linux terminal is important to learn because it also teaches you how a computer really works, and certain operations are much more efficent to do via terminal anyway!

Push yourself to interact with the terminal, even. Learn very basic commands like "shutdown now" , and the "sudo" privilege and how it works (linux always asks your password while doing stuff and you also cant do muc without the sudo privileges!)

"sudo" is the command that gives you the REAL admin privileges to do ANYTHING. With your password and sudo, you can even delete your bootloader lol. Linux wont stop you

This means to be extremely careful while using sudo, though! You can do ANYTHING with sudo privileges, and that also contains accidently trashing your computer! Unlike Windows, that doesnt even let you uninstall Edge, linux has no boundries. Its like "we are gonna assume you know what you are doing."

Of course, friendly distros DO warn you on certain stuff, so dont worry too much!

So ye. U can use linux with no coding knowledge, but i dont recommend staying like that. After starting to use linux, you GOTTA let it teach you stuff!

And to the "switching to linux for the first time" part;

I recommend not deleting your main Windows, actually. For first time using linux i heavily recommend the "dual booting" , which simply means booting operating systems more than one in an computer! You can use BOTH linux and windows in thay way! Although, you need to shudown your pc if you want to switch between them and do it in the booting menu

This is because if something goes wrong, or you get very confused, just let Windows be ready in there. Only make the switch the moment when you feel you can operate linux with no issues and easily!

Dual booting basically slices your disk and creates partitions for operating systems. For example if you have an 512GB SSD, in dual booting you can slice it and make Windows use 256GB and Linux use 256GB too! Ofc u can change the numbers here (linux mimt will help u,.)

Before completely switching to linux; be aware that its a bit of a different world. Sure, very popular softwares exists in linux too but some softwares may not suppor linux. Adobe products dont support linux, for example! You can of course just emulate them with Wine software heh, but that would be a bit of a work!

Another problem will be certain online games. Online games does not like linux becuse how easy it is to manipulate the system, so they just either dont run on linux or they ban/kick you when you try to emulate it on linux

An example is Valorant. Valorant does not tun on linux!

And any online game that has a cheap anticheat system will be a problem!

With that being said, linux now supports every single game from Steam, with the Proton software. Just be careful about them online ones! If an online game natively supports linux (TF2, for example!) , it wont be a problem! Check the steam game's info thingy for it!

Oh and official Minecraft works in linux lol

Discord, Spotify etc. popular softwares also work on linux!

Linux in fact has an "app manager" software in their distros, making you install stuff with no terminal whatsoever! Think like Google Play Store but on le pc!

Anyways hehe thats it fo me bascallya! If u wanna switch to linux with no experience, start with the Linux Mint distro i say and explore it well! Tamper everything before fully installing it, dont worry about it! Linux is free. Linux does not care if you want to kill the entire system, even. Linux is freedom

Also please research the dual booting! You'll gonna be needing an 4GB+ USB for it, and a software like Rufus!

The site of Linux Mint has everything you need in detail, step by step ^^ good luck!