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Sharing my perspectives on life
Hello! For todays post, I do want a little help to find out what philosophical perspective I align with the most. I think my perspective falls within the scope of existentialism, but I need some confirmation. It would be lovely if you guys could provide me with answers, it’s fine if you can’t, I’m sure I’ll figure this dilemma myself eventually :) My beliefs and experiences are what influenced this perspective, I don’t really dismiss these existential thoughts; I try to find more truth to it; now look what happened ‼️
I believe we were put here for a purpose albeit no purpose at the same time. However, we still don’t know the answer truly, so we try to make sense of it all by endeavouring to live on and do our search for both individuality, and finding true meaning/purpose in life
For more understanding on my point of view, I’m trying to live so I can completely experience the full spectrum of life, even if it’s still incomprehensible I can still try to make something out of it. Nonetheless, I often feel no sense of purpose and worthiness in life, therefore making me feel a little despondent sometimes. I feel as if I am trying to cope with the meaninglessness of life by saying that I will try to find meaning and make my own worth
But then us humans compared to the entirety of the universe, we are nothing, and consequently that makes us ultimately useless. Our existence is extremely confusing and illogical. Therefore, us humans aren’t needed. But knowing this “society”, we try to find something to fill what is devoid of meaning by giving ourself what our rightful positions are in this existence.
I’m sure that this is all I can say for now! My views will keep improving and changing, so I might make updates on this post? 😭 Let me know what you little philosophers think
#Philosophy#perception#understanding#reality#meaning#phenomenology#Philosophical perspectives#paradox of human existence#What we mean#peculiarities
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anyone else soooooo fucking normal and sane
#zero escape#vlr#virtue's last reward#zero escape phi#phi vlr#I KNOW the reasoning of the first one like the rad6 and everything but it still makes me crazy. she still feels that way at one point#something something who else having the most fucked up existence ever#being a double clone who only exists because of an experiment. an accident in a way. she isnt supposed to exist#and her role in the grand scheme of things is largely out of her control. what agency does she have in any of this? to have her body be#cloned and frozen and poisoned and burned and etc etc#im normal#i promise#trevor.txt#tl;dr she makes me insane#girl who is so normal#the point of this is like. highlighting how weird her existence is if it wasnt clear#what she is is not a normal human being. she is a paradox and an experiment and an accident. its iust. a Tad crazy to me#phiposting
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Does it count as clone if someone raised to be a vessel fulfilling the purpose of medium with no memories outside of their duties get their very little sense of self and their identity slowly rewrote over with the spirit/conciousness of other as their body changes to accept the will that has embody it. Or is that just another level of demonic posession
#hahaha merlin oh you silly boy#(the boy mention is questionably ages unknown)#paradoxes between being as old as before the birth of theplanet he was born on and as old as the age he stop existing#arguably the current Merlin is present years old with how much he went through transformation#his identities being rewrote over erased fused cutting off plastering on over and over#the previous year you and the you now are differnt taken to extreme#in the end Merlin is just an idea. a vague description. something like that can't be enough to be human#oh the dilemma of a very human inhuman character quesrioning their humanity and existence#alternative name of Merlin “identity crises the series: electric boogaloo”#oc#hsr oc#merlin
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every time i see an oz mutual mention the tin woodman in passing i'm like HRGK I KNOW THAT GUY and i have to hold myself back from tacking a thousand rambling tags on their post that only tangentially has to do with the tin woodman. literally seeing the words right now i am trying to not say the same things i have already said a million times but like THATS MY GUY HES ME HES MY FAVORITE THING EVER AUGH AUGH AUGH!!!
anyways. the masculine urge to hijack every oz post that says the words 'tin woodman' for my own ulterior motives (convince everyone to make nick chopper their favorite guy ever).
#he's a queer icon. he's emotionally conflicted. he has self-image issues that stem from a feeling that he's inadequate#due to a physical difference#that is compounded by his knowledge of his perceived potential (he used to be human but now he's missing something)#so he's even more convinced of his own inhumanity#to the point that he has a WHOLE ENTIRE NOVEL dedicated to finding a person from his past to let them know he can't reconnect w them#WHICH IN THE PROCESS PROVES THE VERY HUMANITY HE BELIEVES HIMSELF TO BE INCAPABLE OF POSSESSING!!!!!!#he's a self-fulfilling prophecy who believes himself to be a paradox and i just. i just.#please do not the post. the post is not about nick chopper it's about boq or dorothy or the scarecrow or a group of characters#or it's someone sharing their art or their headcanons or their opinions. that is not the time to infodump about my blorbo#but rrrgghrghrhrg have you ever considered the tin woodman#he is everything to me augh augh augh augh#anyways. this post will now serve as my infodump post for incoherent Thoughts about nick chopper the best character to exist in my head#holding him gentle like hamburger....... hsfkdhs#wizard of oz#tin woodman
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oh god what do we call a world that simultaneously exists as two mirrored versions at once
#we figured out some confusion with sources#bc we'd get an introject that would say 'I'm [Guy A] from [World A]'#and then we would get Guy B who is actually just Guy A and also from World A but they're. separate people. with different memories#turns out there's two worlds that exist in the same place at the same time on top of and within each other#the thing that got this to click was the echoes because of course#bc in source: the echoes are fragments broken from a god's soul and the fragments got placed into bodies to grow and heal#until the fragments could reunite (which; fuck that we're not erasing ourselves for a father we never knew)#and the Percy fragment was placed into Maxwell's body and they coexisted for years#until Percy was separated from the human body and given their own leaving Maxwell on its own#and a lot of people we know on Paradox (where Percy is from) have copies on Voidworld (the two mirror worlds' old now less accurate name)#so we have Paradox Owen and Voidworks (aka Voidworld Owen) or Ro (paradox) and Lucas (void)#but then we found ANOTHER voidworld owen with a DIFFERENT BACKSTORY and a different home and everything#and we thought we solved that problem (oh yeah Helios made a paradox machine maybe that split Voidworks in two?)#but no the WORLD is split in two. because we already had a Void Percy (aka Ochre) and we know them well in sys#but just recently we found a Void Maxwell!#which- because of the fact that Maxwell and Percy shared a body for so many years there SHOULDN'T BE a separate Void Maxwell#in fact there shouldn't be a void percy AT ALL considering they're not FROM EARTH (these are all different versions of earth)#Ochre logically should be MAXWELL'S void version not Percy's#but Ochre is NOT Maxwell. Ochre is Percy.#We've found Nate#who seems to be Void Maxwell#specifically Maxwell#but like#WE HAVE THE SAME BIO FAMILY IN EVERY EARTH HOW IS THERE TWO OF THEM WHEN ONLY ONE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE BORN#and Nate and Ochre aren't like. twins or something. they aren't even RELATED. WHO IS NATE'S FAMILY?????????
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Are We Truly God? Exploring the Divine Paradox
In the quest for spiritual enlightenment, a profound question often arises: Are we truly God? The answer, paradoxically, is both affirmative and negative. This might seem bewildering, but it encapsulates the essence of our being and the nature of existence itself.Yes, We Are:At the core of our being lies a spark of the divine. Every moment of clarity, every act of compassion, every intuitive…
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#Consciousness#Divine Paradox#Enlightenment#Existence#human limitations#Interconnectedness#Mystical Experience#nonduality#Self-Discovery#spiritual awakening
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The existence
The Unknown known existence....
Failure is the result of the steady perservence. It is a milestone that a person achive while they exert towards a goal. What we do when we achive a milestone? . We keep working cause we know we are moving forward. Failures are the sign that progress has been enhanced.
Did you remember when you first started to master a bicycle, What happened?. You fallen again, again and again , as a kid what we did at that time? we learned new things and try again and keep trying till we mastered the bicycle.
What would've happened if you conceided defeat at that time?
Beliefs are the most prime component of an human being .
If you believe that I just can't , so this will become your reality. If you believed that you can, it will be your imperishable reality. When beliefs and thoughts are assembled together new thoughts are formed which leads to consciousness .
"If you believed that something is impossible, then even god can't help you. If you believed that it is possible then even devil can't stop you. "
Reality don't exist, everything is illusion you will die one day. No one knows when that day will come. The majority of the people's biggest guilt at their final moments of life was that they didn't lived life to fullest. Living life to fullest is impossible due to ability of unlimited potential that human possess.
So does it mean life is worthless?...
There is nothing worth and worthless in this world, you can't measure anything in your existence. So how can you decide something is worthless... You just can't. You are not born to live a worthy life, cause it don't exist. So why the heck you are living. So now I will stop twirling the point...
The answer is know one knows why you exist...........
#existence#emotions#meaning#reality#human behavior#psychology#Theisis#Intellectual#Paradox#philosophy#life#spilled truth#god’s truth#truth#ideology#society#sociology#Kaifphilosophy
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oughhhhh
#oc rambling incoming Sorry#okay i am thinking of how to translate pianos story into genshin bc so much of her character revolves around this contention between#reality and fiction and the ways that fiction (art specifically) often paradoxically transcends reality#and how the two are presented as diametric opposites despite that not being the case at all; theyre reflections of each other and are#carefully intertwined as each builds upon the other#art and artist; creation and creator; author and audience; all being part of one huge ouroboros#in which each party constitutes the other i.e. ''we are what we eat''#and this concept is juxtaposed with the concept of connection and humanity i.e. we are collages of each other#we are every little fragment from every little moment that passes us by and we carry bits and pieces of all the people we have ever loved#we constitute each other#and this can be used for incredible connection and kindness and fulfillment#as well as facilitation for unimaginable hurt and violence#SO. with those as the core concepts.#i think pianos story can be translated into something similar or adjacent given the existence of irminsul#literally being able to turn reality into fiction and vice versa#and the really obvious thing of how teyvat's ''true reality'' or original timeline can only be preserved using fables#piano as a ghost because she is a work of fiction brought to life via irminsul?#something compeltely artificial only given meaning because it is observed by others?#because someone else wanted it to be there...#huh okay. add that one to the list (throwing her in a box with scara and albedo)
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love is so beautiful yet so debilitating
#love between humans is so confusing#love between humans is the biggest oxymoron its the biggest paradox to exist#love is both things: the good and the bad: the new and the old: the hot and the cold#love is yes and love is no
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Exploring the Paradox: The Convergence of Heaven and Nihilism
In a seemingly paradoxical twist, the concepts of heaven and nihilism intersect at the edges of human understanding, offering contrasting perspectives on the nature of meaning and perfection. While heaven is often associated with ultimate fulfillment and perfection, nihilism challenges the inherent meaning of existence. In this thought-provoking blog post, we will delve into the intriguing convergence of heaven and nihilism, exploring how these seemingly opposing viewpoints shed light on our quest for meaning.
Heaven as the Culmination of Meaning: Heaven, often portrayed as a realm of perfection and ultimate fulfillment, represents the pinnacle of human aspirations for a meaningful existence. It embodies the ideal state of being, where all desires are met, and harmony prevails. From this perspective, heaven is viewed as the endpoint of the search for meaning, encompassing abundance and fulfillment in every aspect of existence.
Nihilism: The Perfection of Nothingness: In contrast, nihilism challenges the very notion of inherent meaning and purpose. It posits that life is devoid of objective significance, highlighting the absence of inherent value and purpose in the universe. From a nihilistic perspective, perfection lies not in abundance, but rather in the recognition of nothingness as the ultimate truth. Nihilism embraces the idea that in the absence of imposed meaning, one is free to define their own sense of perfection.
The Paradox of Perfect Nothingness: The convergence of heaven and nihilism reveals a paradoxical perspective on the nature of perfection. While heaven embodies perfection through abundance and fulfillment, nihilism perceives perfection as the acceptance and embrace of nothingness. This paradox challenges our conventional understanding of perfection, inviting us to contemplate alternative interpretations of meaning and fulfillment.
Meaning in Imperfection: A deeper exploration of the convergence of heaven and nihilism prompts us to question whether perfection is inherently tied to meaning. Nihilism invites us to find beauty and significance even within the imperfections and limitations of existence. It challenges us to seek meaning not in an idealized state of perfection but in the acceptance and embrace of our flawed and finite nature.
Embracing the Journey: Rather than perceiving heaven and nihilism as irreconcilable opposites, we can view them as complementary aspects of the human experience. Heaven represents the longing for transcendence and the pursuit of ultimate meaning, while nihilism reminds us of the importance of questioning and critically examining established meanings. Both perspectives contribute to our ongoing journey of personal and collective discovery.
The convergence of heaven and nihilism challenges our preconceived notions of meaning and perfection. While heaven embodies the quest for abundance and fulfillment, nihilism questions the inherent meaning in existence. By exploring their convergence, we open ourselves to a richer understanding of the complexities of the human experience and the diverse interpretations of meaning. In this exploration, we find room to contemplate the significance of imperfection, the power of individual interpretation, and the ongoing search for personal fulfillment in the face of existential uncertainty.
In embracing the paradoxical nature of heaven and nihilism, we embark on a profound philosophical journey, questioning traditional assumptions and exploring the intricacies of human existence. As we navigate this intellectual exploration, we gain insights into the diverse perspectives on meaning, purpose, and perfection, ultimately enhancing our understanding of the intricate tapestry of the human experience.
#philosophy#ontology#epistemology#metaphysics#knowledge#learning#education#chatgpt#Heaven and nihilism#Meaning and perfection#Paradoxical perspectives#Quest for fulfillment#Exploring existential uncertainty#Philosophy of meaning#Embracing imperfection#Convergence of contrasting views#Human quest for significance#Challenging conventional beliefs#Philosophy of existence#Search for personal fulfillment#Alternative interpretations of perfection#Questioning established meanings#Navigating the complexities of meaning#Philosophy of transcendence#Embracing nothingness#Perceptions of abundance and nothingness#Interplay of heaven and nihilism#Diverse perspectives on meaning and perfection
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thinking about created gods. about gods created from peoples hopes and dreams. from belief. you exist because of them. because they created you. your power, they gave. your divinity, they gave. your task, to protect, to care, to nurture, to punish, they gave. and how wretched of an existence that must be. to exist only to serve. a beacon of light higher than anything and everything, and they curse you, and they beg for you, and they revel in your light demanding demanding demanding. and yet not to answer is to die. is to cease. is to disappear like forgotten hymns. and perhaps the desperate wish held in gritted teeth and knuckled fists to live, to live to live to live and hold existence and life and peace in your hands is the most universal trait of every living thing. because you serve. there is no other choice for you. can't you see? can't you see? you made me. you made me.
you made me in your image.
#having some feelings about CREATION and GODHOOD and PARADOXICAL PARENTHOOD in midnight at tumblr dot com again i see.#this was spurred by the fact ive been reading zelda fics again n their finicky relationship with the gods. hylia in particular. idk.#something about gods and humanity and the blur and dinstiction of the two fascinates me. and add in the gods r created from man trope i lik#2 ping pong my head once in a while n yeahh.#n comes my Feelings about parenthood and expectations and purpose. idk#if gods rlly were created by us. and they were sentient n entirely dependant on us to exist. wouldnt that be fucked up or what?#we created a living being for the sole reason to serve us. answer our prayers n whatnot. that in itself is already fucked up.#and then u get the ones who curse the gods. or rlly just Not Like them. n that would add another layer of fucked up wouldnt it?#you made me. you made me in a way that i could never be anything but what you made me. you made me this way.#gah i wish i can write. something w this premise. group of protags confront a god. confronted with the wretched understanding it has always#been us. it has always been us at the root of it all. another metaphour for children n parenthood yippee. lol
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Lore Drop!
Thank you both so much for your submissions! I can't tell you much about Stanley all that much yet (I'm still deliberating over some details that I want to iron out before revealing!!) but I sure can tell you more about the Bill & Ford situation :] especially about Bill's death.
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Bill's death was a bit of a... fickle situation. Simply put, Bill didn't really die, but also kinda did! Let me explain:
After Bill "died", he was sent to the "In-Between".
The "In-Between" is basically a void of space sandwiched between the planes of reality/life/existence and "The After" (AKA. death and nothingness!) It can essentially be considered the digestive track of the multiverse, breaking down everything and everyone that's kicked the bucket so that they can be ready to be transferred over to "The After".
It, in a sense, "digests" everything physical about a (formerly) living creature. It decomposes it piece by piece, atom by atom; each particle paintakingly "digested" into fine stardust. The process supposedly takes a very long time, but that's okay, because Time doesn't exist in the "In-Between", since it ate it. Hunger is greedy, after all, and the "In-Between" is very hungry.
Bill, however, didn't belong there. His death was an odd case: dead within the mind of Ford, and yet still technically alive in every other sense. It didn't help that Bill wasn't as simple as a human mortal, and death was much more of a gamble for more complex beings like him. He was a paradox; an error! Usually, when the dead don't accept their death, they remain amongst the plane of existence until they come to accept it, instead of being processed through the "In-Between".
However, in Bill's case, it was the universe itself that rejected his death. So, he was tossed to the "In-Between" as a anomaly, still technically conscious and awake.
Anyways, fun stuff!! Hope you liked the lore dump :D
#I really appreciate all the questions you folks ask#it helps me organize my thoughts a lot :]#digested alive wasn't on my bingo for this year's AU predictions!!#gravity falls#gravity falls au#bill cipher#stanford pines#ford pines#gravity falls bill#HWINEBHABWNAJCAHOWEEATOWEUB AU
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If you were a sci-fi writer, how would you solve the Fermi paradox? That being the discrepancy between evidence for alien life, versus the likelihood of their existence? (basically. If alien so likely, why we not see?) The Dead Space series has an amazing cosmic horror solution, but i'm curious what you're brain could come up with!
There's a lot of possibilities, some more interesting than others.
The speed of light and the distance between inhabited stars makes it prohibitively slow to detect, make contact with, or reach any star with alien life. It doesn't matter if we're not alone, our corner of Space Reachable Within A Human Lifetime is so comparatively small that we may as well be. We're all blindly wandering through an infinite desert, calling into the void. Space exploration is a long game, and on that timescale, even whole civilizations blink out very quickly. If we manage to catch a signal and follow it, we might find nothing on the other end but ruins - or an asteroid field where a planet's orbit used to be.
The universe is too young for us to find anyone else out there. We're the first. How will we shape the galaxy to make life better for those who come after us?
The life that formed on Earth is terrifyingly invasive. The atmosphere and ocean is choked with monocellular life, and its surface is coated with a mass of multicellular organisms finding new ways to devour one another. Even extinction events don't keep down the biomass for long. If life on other planets looks anything like us, the problem isn't going to be detecting it. It'll have gotten everywhere. The problem is going to be not immediately getting colonized and eaten alive by it. And if life on other planets DOESN'T look like us, our whole planet is probably a class 1 biohazard and contamination risk. Multicellular earth organisms contain microcosmic ecosystems that proliferate explosively when they die. If anything inside them can find ANYTHING to eat, it's over.
Life evolves frequently, but always in oceans. It is extremely rare for any alien life to leave that ocean and adapt to life on land. Without this step, the jump to space exploration - even space contemplation - becomes infinitely more unlikely.
Monocellular life is seeded on planets from an outside source and allowed to self-cultivate and grow until the biomass reaches a certain volume. Then the farmers return to harvest it.
There is not a single other species on our entire planet that humans can actually reliably communicate with. It takes tremendous amounts of training to make an animal capable of recognizing even a handful of words, and very few of them can use them. Humans can't even communicate with other humans with 100% clarity, even if they're using the same language. When we find alien life, if we even recognize it as anything resembling life as we know it, we have absolutely no way of communicating.
Space colonialism has been disallowed by the space geneva conventions due to massive past tragedies, parasitic exploitation of worlds and senseless loss of life. Human expeditionary efforts are being watched warily through targeting sights.
We've known about radio communication for less than 200 years. We haven't yet figured out the medium through which all advanced civilizations communicate.
Alien life exists in abundance, but the vast majority of it is extremely tiny. We wouldn't spot an anthill on a satellite photo, and none of their ships are large enough to survive passage through our atmosphere.
Earth's oxygen atmosphere is an anomaly, and our first and most enduring extinction event. The explosive proloferation of cyanobacteria and their oxygen photosynthesis irreparably altered the planet's prebiotic atmosphere and wiped out everything that couldn't handle the sudden massive increase in a highly reactive and flammable gas. Earth is considered highly toxic and unstable, though recently detected increases in methane and CO2 might signal that nature is finally beginning to heal.
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Respawn in: ❚❚❚ seconds
...respawn as a union of machine and flesh. The unity of man and his creation. This is a rather sacred concept, but on the other side is the fact of the immorality of how this device violates death and disrupts the natural process of human existence. This breaks the original cycle of life, goes against nature, but is something very close to the absolute of man. What a paradox, right?
Genes and code. Wires and veins. Program and mind. Everything is one and inspired by man as a being. This same person becomes like God, wanting to recreate a new organism just as God once created it.
The cycle will never be interrupted.
#tf2#team fortress 2#tf2 sniper#I can't do anything with this religious overthinking#I don't think that sniper likes my thoughts about respawn
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Voicing the Vastness
The Paradox of Expressing the InexpressibleIn the realm of human experience, the concept of expressing the totality of existence, often referred to as “The All That Is,” presents a fascinating paradox. While our minds and souls may feel intimately connected to this infinite expanse, our means of communication, especially spoken language, often fall short of capturing its essence. This dichotomy…
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#Artistic Communication#Expression#Human Experience#Infinite Existence#Language Limitations#Paradoxes#Self-Understanding#The All That Is
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Wicked Games
Pairing: Sukuna x fem!reader
Word Count: 3k
Synopsis: From the second Ryomen Sukuna appears on the surface on earth again, you are bound to each other. Until the Shibuya accident. Until Sukuna gets confronted with the fear of losing you first-hand.
Warnings: angst to fluff y'all, enemies to lovers in a kind of rushed way, this made me think about doing a series with like 5 chapters and a slow burn enemies to lovers with Sukuna x curse!reader - how do you feel about that? <3
Inspired by this prompt:
You remember it as if it was yesterday. The night was cold and eerily quiet when you sprinted through the dark streets, your body buzzing with the vibrations of cursed energy.
The reports had come in just an hour ago: a powerful curse had manifested, and it wasn’t just any ordinary curse. The whispers and especially Gojo spoke of something ancient, something nearly forgotten. Something that had slumbered within the shadows of legends until now.
“Guess what, (y/n)? Megumi found something that might interest you”, Gojo jeered at you through the phone when you already felt it.
Ryomen Sukuna.
You had heard his name your entire life - a dark deity, a figure so terrible that entire villages had been wiped out by his bare hands centuries ago.
Since you were a child, you've been obsessed with him, the so-called "King of Curses." Not because you were drawn to the death and chaos he brought, but because of the mystery he posed. The idea that something so cruel, so powerful, could exist outside the boundaries of human comprehension. As a sorcerer, you committed yourself to understanding curses, to studying their origins, motivations, powers. And there was no greater paradox than Sukuna himself.
But now, he wasn't only a paradox anymore. Now he had returned. They had found one of his fingers. Apparently, someone had consumed it.
“I’m in the middle of souvenir shopping and guessed you wouldn’t mind stepping in and helping little Megumi out.”
"Normally I'd scold you but today...thank you, idiot."
Yuji Itadori, the boy who had swallowed Sukuna’s cursed finger, who brought Sukuna back into the world after centuries of slumber, stood right in your sight along with Megumi Fushiguro. But you couldn’t let yourself worry about the boys; your focus was on the curse now staring straight back at you.
Your fingers tightened on the hilt of your sword, the cursed energy crackling around you like lightning in the dark night. You had prepared your entire life for this moment. The countless hours of sickening training, the sleepless nights spent poring over ancient texts and scrolls, and the battles fought against nameless curses. All of it had led you here, to your first confrontation with the King of Curses.
As you reached the completely destroyed school building where the cursed energy was originating from, you could already feel it. The overwhelming, tyrannical weight of Sukuna’s presence. It was unlike anything you’ve ever felt before, so thick it felt as though it was suffocating you.
You pressed on, despite the nausea building in your chest. There was no time to second-guess yourself. You moved swiftly through the corridors of the building, your footsteps echoing in the empty halls. The cursed energy grew heavier with every step, your breathing becoming uneven when the spiteful aura grew stronger. And then, at the far end of the hallway on top of a roof, you saw him.
At first glance, it was a boy, a teenager no older than Megumi. His body was rigid, standing in the middle of that roof, shoulders squared as though fighting an internal battle. But the look on his face, the wicked smile stretched across his lips, told you otherwise. The way his dark eyes gleamed with wicked amusement confirmed what you had feared.
This wasn’t Itadori anymore.
This was Sukuna.
“Interesting...” Sukuna’s voice rumbled from the boy’s throat as his gaze locked onto yours.
His smile widened, predatory and cruel.
“What do we have here? Another little sorcerer, so eager to die?”
You held your ground, your body tense but steady. This was no ordinary curse you were facing. Every instinct screamed at you to flee, but you couldn’t, you wouldn’t, allow fear to take control. Your entire life had been building up to this.
“You’re not getting out of here,” you said, your voice firm.
“Not while I’m here.”
Sukuna chuckled, the sound low and dangerous. His eyes narrowed, taking you in.
“Brave words, but foolish. Do you really think you can handle me, girl?”
You didn’t respond with words, Instead, you shoved Megumi behind you and let your cursed energy flare to life around you, the air crackling with power. You moved swiftly, launching yourself at him, your blade drawn and poised for the strike.
But Sukuna was fast — faster than you had anticipated. With barely a flicker of movement, he dodged your attack, his grin never faltering. He countered with a swift punch, sending you flying across the air and crashing into the opposite wall. Pain exploded in your chest, and you gasped for breath.
“Is that all?”, Sukuna taunted, his voice filled with mockery as he stalked toward you.
“I expected more from someone who’s been chasing me.”
You coughed, blood trickling from the corner of your mouth, but you forced yourself to your feet. Your body ached from the impact, but the adrenaline was stronger. You had trained for this. You wouldn’t go down so easily.
As Sukuna advanced, you focused your cursed energy into a powerful barrier, your eyes blazing with determination. You wouldn’t let him win. Not today.
“Let the boy go,” you demanded, your voice sharper now.
“I’m your opponent now.”
Sukuna’s eyes gleamed at the challenge.
“Bold. But you should know better than to give me orders.”
The battle was swift and brutal. Sukuna’s strikes were relentless, his movements impossibly fast and deadly. You could barely keep up, each of his blows a near-fatal attack. But through it all, you fought with everything you had, refusing to back down.
You’ve studied Sukuna your entire life. You knew his techniques, his fighting style, the cruel unpredictability of his power. But even with all that knowledge, facing him in person was something entirely different. His cursed energy was overwhelming, suffocating, a malevolent force that pressed against your very soul.
And yet, you stood your ground.
As the fight wore on, something shifted in the way Sukuna looked at you. What had started as amusement, as mockery, slowly turned into something else. Curiosity. Interest. Even a hint of admiration.
“You’re not like the others,” he jeered at one point, dodging one of your attacks effortlessly.
His eyes flickered with something dangerous, something… intrigued.
“You’re still standing. Most would have died by now.”
You spat blood onto the ground, your body screaming in agony but your will unbroken.
“I’m not most people.”
Sukuna chuckled, the sound dark and throaty.
“No. You’re not.”
That was how it began. The first encounter — your first dance with death and the King of Curses. It didn’t end with your victory or his defeat. No, you knew better than to believe you could win against him in a single battle. But it wasn’t a defeat, either.
It was the beginning of something bigger.
After your first encounter with Sukuna, something within you shifted. Yuji Itadori regained control, but you knew it was only temporary. Sukuna wasn’t gone. He was still there, lurking beneath the surface, waiting for his next opportunity to take control. And when he did, you were there.
Every. Single. Time.
Every time Sukuna resurfaced, you fought him. It became a twisted routine, an endless game of cat and mouse where neither of you could claim absolute victory. You learned his techniques, his fighting style, and the nuances of his cursed energy. You pushed yourself harder, training longer, grew stronger. And with every battle, Sukuna’s interest in you grew as well.
He began to speak to you during the fights, taunting you, teasing you, but always with that glimmer of intrigue in his eyes. He never seemed eager to kill you, not really. In fact, there were moments, brief, fleeting moments, where he seemed to hold back, almost as if he was enjoying the challenge you presented.
“Why do you keep coming back?” you asked him one day, your voice strained after yet another brutal fight.
“Why haven’t you killed me yet?”
Sukuna’s grin was feral, his eyes glittering dangerously as he wiped the blood from his lips.
“Because you’re amusing,” he replied, his voice low and menacing.
“And because I’m not done with you yet.”
You hated the way his words sent a shiver down your spine, the way his gaze seemed to pierce straight through you. But more than anything, you hated how much you wanted to beat him, to prove yourself against the King of Curses.
As the months passed, you found yourself drawn deeper into Sukuna’s world. You fought him, studied him, and slowly but surely somehow began to understand him. He wasn’t just a mindless monster, not like the other curses you’ve faced. There was something more to Sukuna, something ancient and calculating, a mind sharper than any blade.
And Sukuna, in turn, began to learn more about you. He observed your fighting style, your strategies, your strengths and weaknesses. He pushed you, challenged you, forced you to grow stronger with every battle. There was a strange, unspoken connection between you: a mutual recognition of each other’s strength, a respect born from the countless times you’d clashed.
But there was something else, too. Something neither of you wanted to acknowledge. Something that simmered beneath the surface of every encounter.
You hated him. You despised everything he stood for, the chaos and destruction he brought into the world. But there was a part of you that couldn’t deny the pull you felt toward him — the way his presence ignited something fierce and primal within you.
And Sukuna? Sukuna had grown attached to the thrill of facing you. You were unlike anyone he’d ever fought. Strong. Determined. Unyielding. It was no longer about crushing you under his heel. It was about keeping you close, about testing your limits and pushing you to your breaking point.
But neither of you were willing to admit what was truly happening between you.
You smile weakly to yourself, blood spilling from the corners of your mouth. Not even now.
The Shibuya Incident is chaos. The city is overrun with curses and the streets are filled with blood and screams. You dispatched alongside other sorcerers to contain the situation, but things quickly spiraled out of control. The curses were too many, too strong, and the collateral damage was catastrophic.
Your focus was on protecting your students, the young sorcerers under your care who had been thrust into this nightmare far too early in their training. You were always their protector, their guide, and you would do anything to keep them safe. But the battle was relentless, and the curses were closing in fast.
In the midst of the chaos, Sukuna reappeared, his presence like a dark shadow over the battlefield. He took control of Yuji once again, his cursed energy crackling through the air with terrifying force. You felt it the moment he arrived, your senses attuned to the overwhelming hatred that accompanied his presence.
You barely had time to react before you were caught in the crossfire. A powerful curse lashed out at you and you moved to shield your students from the blow. But the attack was too fast, too strong. It tore through your defenses, the cursed energy slicing through your body like a hot knife through butter.
Pain exploded in your chest when you collapsed to the ground, blood pooling beneath you. Your vision blurred, your breath coming in ragged gasps. You had suffered injuries before, but this… this was different.
This was fatal.
The world around you fades almost instantly, the edges of your vision go dark. You can feel your life slipping away, your body growing cold.
Out of all people, why does it have to be him you long for the most? Why do your eyes start watering by the thought that you'll might never see him again, that you were never able to feel his lips pressed against yours? Are you really so naive, so dumb? Fuck, you really fell for the King of Curses, the root of all evil.
But then… you hear his voice.
“Get. Up.”
Sukuna’s voice cuts through the haze of pain and exhaustion like a lightning strike. You blink, trying to focus, trying to understand what is happening. Is he really there? Are you hallucinating?
“Get up,” he repeats, his voice sharp and commanding.
But then you feel it. His hand pressed against the gaping wound in your abdomen. No, he's really there. It's really him.
“You’ve suffered bigger wounds. And if you don’t get up, I’ll destroy everything that’s left of this world.”
You force yourself to breathe, your chest burning with the effort. But your body isn’t responding anymore. The pain is too much. You simply can’t move. The only reaction you're able to build up is a weak smile.
Is this really how it ends? With another empy threat?
Sukuna growls, crouching down beside you. He can't let you die here. Not like this, not after this short time. There's still so much more he needs to show you, so much more he needs to say.
Before he realizes what he's even doing, his hands are on you, cursed energy flowing into your body, patching up the worst of the damage. It isn’t healing, not really - more like forcing your body to hold together for just a little longer. Just enough to keep you.
“Please…”
Sukuna’s voice is strained, his eyes narrowed in concentration.
“Please get up. Don’t die on me.”
You blink, your heart stuttering in your chest as his words sink in. He’s asking you. Pleading with you...Not to die?
“Please don’t die on me.”
With his cursed energy coursing through you, you really feel your strength returning, your wounds slowly mending under his influence. The pain fades away, replaced by a strange warmth that spreads through your body. You gasp for breath, your chest rising and falling as life surges back into you.
Did…Ryomen Sukuna save your ass? Your heart pounds so roughly against your ribcage that you feel like fainting all over again. This can’t be possible, right? You have to be dreaming. After all, Ryomen Sukuna is your greatest enemy, responsible for at least half of the mess here.
“I’m not… done yet,” you rasp, your voice weak but steady.
Sukuna’s lips curl into a smirk, his eyes gleaming with something dangerous paired with a hint of relief.
“That’s more like it.”
He helps you to your feet, his hand lingering on your arm for just a moment longer than necessary. You can feel the weight of his gaze on you, the unspoken bond between you stronger than ever.
"What, were you worried about me, dumbass?"
Faster than you're able to react, he grabs your arm again and pulls you in. When his lips press themselves against yours, you forget how to exist for a second. Out of instinct, you open your mouth, allow him to enter, close your eyes when your whole body starts to burn up all over again.
Oh, you imagined this more than once. How do his firm arms feel against your touch? Are his lips softer than his cruel words? Is Sukuna a good kisser?
A desperate moan escapes your lips before you can stop yourself, your arms now roaming all over his muscular frame.
This...this is so wrong. You shouldn't do this, shouldn't even dream about something like this. But as sudden as he appeared, he's gone again, leaving you with nothing but your swollen lips as a proof for what just happened.
Are you actually going insane?
Bonus:
After Shibuya, things changed between you and Sukuna.
The battles continued, of course. The fights, the challenges, the taunts, the unnecessary deaths and killing - none of that stopped and you still hate him with every fiber of your being for all those horrible things he did. But there is something else now, something that neither of you can ignore. The second Sukuna saw you lying there in a pool of your own blood on the edge of death, he started to realize it.
You aren’t a simple enemy for him anymore. You are his obsession.
Sukuna’s possessiveness over you grew, but so did the strange, unspoken understanding between you. You weren’t just another sorcerer to him anymore. You were his: his opponent, his challenge, his equal. And though neither of you would ever admit it out loud, there was a twisted sort of affection in that.
And you?
You’ve found something unexpected in the King of Curses. Not love, not really, but something close. Something raw and powerful, a connection without any logic and reason.
You didn’t know where it would lead. But you knew one thing for sure:
As long as Sukuna was in this world, you would be right there with him.
And that was enough.
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