#pao's fountain of dumbassery

[teenagebeautyqueen]

fall out boy: i became such a strange shape, such a strange shape from tryna fit in

my neurodivergent ass after years of forcing myself to act 'normal' to avoid mean acts from my classmates resulting on me not even knowing how to separate 'neurotypical' me from real me:

[teenagebeautyqueen]

i had spotify on shuffle and after Look Alive, Sunshine it played Goodnite, Dr. Death

i'm literally crying of laughter it's so fucking funny to me

[teenagebeautyqueen]

becoming mutuals with so many emo/killjoy blogs was simultaneously the best and worst choice of my life.

the best because they're all reblogging and posting pics of gerard and texts talking about how important they and their music are to them.

the worst because it's 2 am aka not the time to cry over gerard way looking pretty.

but here i am.

[teenagebeautyqueen]

maybe i'm gay and reading too much into it. but i can't stop thinking about "i held you close as we both shook/for the last time, take a good hard look". like. what does that mean. why does it attract me so hard. it's been DAYS since that specific lyric came into my mind and it hasn't left me alone ever since. i honestly don't know what to do i'll be vibing and i'll think of it and i'll be like "oh yearning time ok."

[teenagebeautyqueen]

id say its kind of accurate oof

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the light behind your eyes really hits different when you're quarantined and missing your friends huh

[teenagebeautyqueen]

why did no one tell me that bill hader AND jon bernthal were on night at the museum 2???? like, was i supposed to just scream their names like that "beyoncé!?!?!?!" meme in front of my parents???????

also i didn't like it. too heterosexual, not enough rexy. or teddy. or ahk. or wea. it fucking sucked actually. i liked 1) bill hader as a blond twink 2) jon bernthal as a mafia mob dumb of ass 3) jed and octavius were on fucking point and if they don't hold hands or kiss or call each other pet names or something on the third movie, im sueing them all

[teenagebeautyqueen]

i love the death valley mv because even if you watch it without knowing about the youngblood chronicles and don't know what's going on you can grasp the basic concepts:

pete and andy are with some random girl that gives them badass weapons that look like instruments, they all look at some pics in the most dramatic fashion, and they get ready to kick name, take ass, and everything in between.

patrick is in jail and without his fedora for some fucking reason, and he goes through the five stages of grief followed by a full mental breakdown & an existential crisis, all in three minutes or so, and then he gets kidnapped (again)

joe eats a donut and gets high. also he's in hell or somethin.

[teenagebeautyqueen]

not my best self, my hair is a lil bit clearer lmao buuut here i am, ready to drag @sunksunnyk and @festivefeathers into this!!! (and anyone else who might want to do It)

Picrew break

My disaster bi self has lost the original post, but I was tagged by @skybound2​ forever ago to make an image of myself in a picrew, which I guess is sort of like a virtual paper doll?  idk, I’m way behind the tumblr times.  But it was fun to play with.

Anyway, here I am, ready to class up your holiday party!  Because if there’s one thing I’m good at, it’s hiding the giant pile of chaos at my core.

And I’m tagging… @twobrokenwyngs​, @trashcangimmick​, @ihni​, @tracy7307​, @etterklang​, @brawlite​, @thisisnotmolchanka​, @gideongrace​, @suitofarmour​, @little-werewolf-oven​, @imneithernor​, and @neonelectriclady​.  Let’s see your avatars!

[teenagebeautyqueen]

tagging game!

i was tagged by @uh-oh-spooky!! thanks honey!

rules: tag nine people you'd like to know better

top three ships: heatherharringrove (heather holloway/billy hargrove/steve harrington) from stranger things, climbing class (chris hartley/josh washington) from until dawn, and symbiot3 (eddie brock/venom symbionte/flash thompson) from the venom comics

lipstick or chapstick: none

last movie: young frankenstein

last song: time to dance by panic! at the disco

reading: IT by stephen king, and pride and prejuice by jane austen

i tag: @transbillyhargrove @festivefeathers @amihoney @spiked-genderfluid @kingdacre @confusedcanadienne @angel-wings-and-broken-things @coffee-thyla @kay-lock-key-lock

[teenagebeautyqueen]

american beauty/american psycho – fall out boy

[teenagebeautyqueen]

alright y'all, let's do some analysis:

fact one: i've been in quarantine with my parents and brother since Wednesday

fact two: my adhd ass can't cope with this change of rutine without blasting music

fact three: i really, really love the emo trinity. it's almost all i listen to.

concluding: my family is exposed to my music taste and can't avoid it. they (will) have opinions and reactions, and i've decided to gather them all together on one big-ass post.

so i present to you:

my family's experience with the emo trinity + other bands

bought to you by the one and only emo dumbass on the household: me

[teenagebeautyqueen]

i wish i passed so much

tagging whoever wants to do it!

here’s the picrew i used for the harringrove comic: https://picrew.me/image_maker/81574

here’s mine! 

me staring at people not social distancing ^^^^^^^

this is so accurate it kind of kills me

tagging: @greyspilot @immortalitylostandfound @elysiumwaits @strangergrove @thesummerof84​ and anyone else!!

[teenagebeautyqueen]

should i make a danger days sideblog? i want to make content™ but also some people follow me for things that aren't anarchist trans homosexuals in a desert and i wanna keep my main as,, y'know,, my main

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QUEERPLATONIC ME THE FUCK UP

[teenagebeautyqueen]

so. tomorrow. it really is happening huh.

i'm literally. 30 minutes away. from our national day.

i think i might actually die before the clock hits 00:00.

holy shit. just wow. wow.

i mean my hopes are gonna get completely destroyed. but still.

wow.