#p167

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"I tell him that a virus need not do harm. That not all self-propagating code is malicious. Our father's virus would never delete files. Would never steal passwords or spy on the intimate moments of strangers. Would not spread like cancer, but like a story. Would slip through fibre optic cables to cross oceans, would pass like radio waves through the walls of houses that nobody even knows are haunted. A ghost story that computers tell one another in the dark."

—from Malagash, by Joey Comeau

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[amphibious-thing]

This is maybe a dumb question, but looking at the portraits of Hervey, I have a hard time noticing anything about how he's dressing that seems out of the ordinary or especially more 'feminine' for the time period (barring that one where he just has his coat buttoned super low and his whole shirt out?). Am I missing some obvious detail (material they were made out of maybe?) or was the his effeminacy/the perception of him as effeminate just more based on behavior than 'presentation'?

Not a dumb question at all. It was combination of his sexuality, his diet, his androgyny as well as his clothes & makeup. While Hervey's femininity was almost certainly exaggerated in satire written by his enemies there was some basis to this satire.

Sexuality

In the 18th century there was an association between effeminacy and sodomy. I don't think we can discount the role the rumours surrounding Hervey's sexuality played in the public's perception of him. William Pulteney's 1731 pamphlet A Proper Reply to a Late Scurrilous Libel satirises Hervey as Mr. Fainlove. Pulteney describes Fainlove as a "delicate Hermophrodite", a "pretty, little, Master-Miss" and insinuates that he's a pathick who "enjoys every Moment and Fruits of his Guilt". The 1739 pamphlet The State of Rome, Under Nero and Domitian satirises Hervey as Sporus (an allusion to Pope's satire of Hervey) describing him as a "Male-female Thing," who is "Fit only for the Pathicks loathsome Trade".

Pope's choice to satirise Hervey as Sporus in An Epistle from Mr. Pope, to Dr. Arbuthnot (1735) was itself a comment on Hervey's sexuality. Sporus being the boy that Nero is said to have castrated and taken as a wife.

Diet

Hervey was epileptic and suffered from a chronic colic. He details his medical history in An Account of My Own Constitution and Illness. At the recommendation of his doctor's George Cheyne he adopted a milk and vegetable diet. Cheyne believed that such a diet was "absolutely necessary for the total Cure of the Epilepsy” and also prescribed milk and vegetable diets in cases of “extreme Nervous Cholicts”. (The English Malady, p167 & 254) Hervey ate no meet for three years before reintroducing white meet. This diet was seen as effeminate by his contemporaries. Lady Louisa Stuart cites his refusal to eat beef as an example of the “extreme to which Lord Hervey carried his effeminate nicety”. (Stuart wrote this anonymously in the introductory anecdotes included in the 1837 edition of The Letters and Works of Lady Mary Wortley Montagu.)

Hervey also drank "ass’s milk with powder of crab’s eyes and oyster-shells" for his heath. This is mocked in the poem The Lord H-r--y's First Speech in the House of Lords (1733-4) that calls him "a perfect curd of ass's milk." Alexander Pope included a similar line in An Epistle from Mr. Pope, to Dr. Arbuthnot (1735) describing him as a "mere white Curd of Ass's milk".

[Certain City Macaronies drinking Asses Milk, print, c.1772, via The British Museum.]

The association between effeminacy and asses milk features in the satirical dialogue The City Macaronies drinking Asses-milk, at the Lacteum, in St. George's-fields published in the November 1772 edition of the Oxford Magazine which was accompanied by the above illustration. The dialogue mocks macaroni for drinking asses-milk as a treatment for "nervous cases" and "hysterics" claiming that it's "delicate men" such as the macaroni "whose fine feelings are sensible of the slightest pressure, that are acquainted with hysterics". The son of the milk woman wonders aloud whether the macaroni are men or women. His mother tells him "they're neither, they are a kind of half and half breed."

Androgyny

With his slim figure and a bit of a baby-face Hervey was considered to be naturally androgynous. When Lady Deloraine said to him and Miss Fitzwilliams that "in her opinion a woman could never look too much like a woman, nor a man too much like a man" Hervey admitted that "considering the two people she said this to, it was certainly well said; and I can forgive her having bragged of it to every creature she has seen since" (Hervey to Stephen Fox, 18 September 1731)

Satirical descriptions of Hervey liken him to a cherub or a fairy describing him as pretty, little, soft, dainty, delicate.

In A Proper Reply to a Late Scurrilous Libel (1731) Pulteney satirises Hervey as "pretty Mr. Fainlove" who he describes as a "delicate Hermophrodite", a "pretty, little, Master-Miss", a "pretty, little Scribbler", and comments that he shouldn't "sully those pretty Fingers with Ink" that "a Fan would become them much better than a Pen."

The Lord H-r--y's First Speech in the House of Lords (1733-4) describes him as "the softest, prettiest thing". In An Epistle from Mr. Pope, to Dr. Arbuthnot (1735) Pope describes him as having a "cherub's face". Tell-tale Cupids (1735) satirises him as the "pretty baby fac'd Lord Dapper".*

In A Fairy Tale (1743) by Horace Walpole depicts Hervey as a literal fairy describing him as a "Dainty little Figure", "most delicately Fair and light" who "would have been vastly Pretty if it’s cherry-lips had ‘nclos’d any Teeth".

*quoted in Lord Hervey: Eighteenth-Century Courtier by Robert Halsband

Clothes & Makeup

Pope didn't describe Sporus as a "bug with gilded wings" and a "Fop at the toilet" because of Hervey's natural androgyny, clothing & makeup absolutely played a role in the public perception of him.

The Duchess of Marlborough described Hervey as a having "a painted face, and not a tooth in his head". Pope described him as "painted Child of Dirt that stinks and stings". And the The Court Garland refers to him as "Thou powder-puff, thou painted toy". (see The Opinions of Sarah Duchess-Dowager of Marlborough p42, An Epistle from Mr. Pope, to Dr. Arbuthnot & Lord Hervey: Eighteenth-Century Courtier by Robert Halsband p138)

The fashionable look of the period required pale clear skin, flushed red cheeks and dark eyebrows. While washes and creams were used to achieve clear pale skin, white cosmetic paint could also be used to lighten and smooth the skin. Rouge was used to give colour to the cheeks. Burnt cloves could be used to darken the eyebrows. While some of these cosmetics contained lead or mercury not all of them did.

[Lord John Hervey, oil on canvas, c.1741–1742, by Jean-Baptiste van Loo, via Art UK.]

It's hard to know how reliable the accounts of Hervey's makeup use are however his portraits do depict him with this fashionable look (in particular the rosy cheeks of the Jean-Baptiste van Loo portraits and the Enoch Seeman portrait). While modern depictions of 18th century fops will sometimes exaggerate makeup depicting men with pure white faces and almost perfectly round red circles on their cheeks, Hervey's portraits are more accurate to the look these cosmetics were trying to achieve.

The use of cosmetics are highlighted in satirical depictions of effeminate men throughout the 18th century century. As early as 1691 Mundus Foppensis: or, the Fop Display’d was mocking men for the "wanton use" of "Spanish Red, and white Ceruse". In 1773 The Old Beau in an Extasy depicts a "Fop at Sixty two" who uses "Chinese Paint for Artificial Bloom". In 1812 Regency A la Mode depicts the Prince Regent applying rouge to his cheeks while he gets laced into stays. The Court Garland's satire of Hervey is just another example of a satirical depiction of a fop in makeup:

Thou powder-puff, thou painted toy, Thou talking trifle, H----y; Thou doubtful he, she, je ne sçai quoy, By G-d, the K--g shall starve ye.

[Left: The Old Beau in an Extasy, print, c.1773, by John Dixon, via Lewis Walpole Library.

Right: 1812, or, Regency A la Mode, print, c.1812, by William Heath, via Lewis Walpole Library]

As for clothing I have to admit I'm better at late-18th century menswear. That being said material and colour seem to have played a role in what was considered effeminate.

A letter to the Read's Weekly Journal or British Gazetteer published on the 8th of May 1731 complains; "Rich and coloured Silks are in themselves effeminate, and unbecoming a Man; as are in short, all Things that discover Dress to have been his Study- 'Tis in vain for a Fop of Quality, to think his Title will protect him." In particular the article criticises poke sleeves and green waistcoats. While poke sleeves are absent from Hervey's portraits the Seeman portrait depicts him wearing a green waistcoat.

Green waistcoats are also mentioned in a story published in the Universal Spectator and Weekly Journal on the 18th of October 1729 describing and effeminate man's clothing as follows:

He had a flower’d pink-colour Silk Coat, with a Green-Sattin Waistcoat lac’d with Silver. Velvet Breeches, Clock’d Stockings the Colour of his Coat, Red-heel’d Pumps, a Blue Ribbon at the Collar of his Shirt, and his Sword-Hilt he embrac’d under the Elbow of his Left Arm,

This green waistcoat is laced with silver. In the Jean-Baptiste van Loo portraits you can see a embroidered silver waistcoat peeking out from beneath Hervey's coat.

[Left: Lord John Hervey, oil on canvas, c.1737, by John Fayram, via Art UK.

Right: Lord John Hervey, oil on canvas, by Enoch Seeman, via The Collected Verse of John, Lord Hervey]

While the quality of the photo leaves much to be desired I wonder if the coat from the Seeman portrait is supposed to be silver. The coat he wears in the The Hervey Conversation Piece could also be silver but it might simply be grey. Sarah Osborn thought that silver coats looked effeminate. She wrote to Robert Byng on the 2nd of June 1722:

I believe the gentlemen will wear petticoats very soon, for many of their coats were like our mantuas. Lord Essex had a silver tissue coat, and pink color lutestring waistcoat, and several had pink color and pale blue paduasoy coats, which looked prodigiously effeminate.

Hervey wears a "prodigiously effeminate" pale blue, possibly paduasoy, coat (possibly a long sleeved waistcoat?) in the Fayram portrait.

The low buttoned waistcoat is somewhat interesting and consistent throughout his portraits, buttoned particularly low in the Fayram portrait. The effeminate Captain Whiffle from The Adventures of Roderick Random (1748) is described wearing his waistcoat "unbuttoned at the upper part to display a brooch set with garnets" but Hervey is broochless and looking at other portraits from this period the low buttoning doesn't seem to be unusual.

[Left: Detail of The Hervey Conversation Piece, oil on canvas, c.1738-40, by William Hogarth, via Fairfax House.

Right: Lord John Hervey, oil on canvas, c.1741, by Jean-Baptiste van Loo, via Art UK.]

Fur-lined suits like that worn by Hervey in the Jean-Baptiste van Loo portraits were imported from France or Italy and could be very costly. Mary Delany describes Lord Baltimore wearing "light brown and silver, his coat lined quite throughout with ermine" at a ball where "finery was so common it was hardly distinguished". (Mary Delany to Ann Granville, 22 Jan, 1739/40)

Fur-lined suits were somewhat of novelty in England and would become a feature in Grand Tour portraits. Peter McNeil explains in Pretty Gentleman (p123):

The novelty and glamour of new fashion goods generated excited responses to Lyons silk waistcoats, Italian velvets and fur-lined suits. There was a well-established tradition of wealthy men acquiring clothing on the continent and then having themselves painted in them, either in Italy or back in England.

(see Benjamin Lethieullier 1752, Lord Archibald Hamilton 1755-56 & John Scott 1774 all by Pompeo Batoni an artist well know for his Grand Tour portraits)

Hervey's buckles in the Jean-Baptiste van Loo portraits look to be set with paste (glass) or gems (buckles could even be set with diamonds). While it's impossible to tell what Hervey's buckles are set with these buckles could get very expensive. Later in the century macaroni were mocked for their expensive taste in similar buckles. (see McNeil p90)

[Left: Shoe buckle, metal & paste, 18th century, British via The MET (83.1.103).

Right: Detail of Lord John Hervey, oil on canvas, c.1741, by Jean-Baptiste van Loo, via Art UK.]

While Hervey was certainly a fashionably dressed man he doesn't take it to the extent you might imagine of the archetypal fop. Satire exaggerates. Hervey's enemies chose their words deliberately to humiliate him. The amphibious thing of Pope's poetry was in reality a chronically ill queer man with a taste for fashion.

[bloopitynoot]

Reading SVSSS: Chapter 9

For those who don't know, I am reading SVSSS for the first time and sharing my thoughts!

If you have not read it, there will be spoilers! Consider this a warning.

Also- if you want to follow along, I am aiming to post updates daily. You can find all the posts in the tag bloopitynoot reads SVSSS. You can also check out the intro post for context on my read.

I feel so weird sitting here in the morning reading this, this has been my night-time routine for 8 chapters!

In all honesty the fic I was reading this morning just wasn't it/my brain kept coming back to my boy Shen Qingqiu, so here I am 8am on a Sunday heading into the Borderlands.

My teas are for evening- so this morning, hazelnut coffee!

ah, okay, intro to this chapter. I have been wondering how the afterlife works in this series. I hope we find out more than "the border of human and demons realms" p167

JK lol this is a physical place and not an afterlife p168

oh gosh, this is quite a mess! (Re: the political upheaval within the Cang Qiong Mountain sect as well as vs others) I kind of want to know what the side quest Shang Qinghua went on in the demon realm. p169

Oh baby Luo Binghe keeping Shen Qingqiu's corpse :( p169

okay but he also took Mo Qingfang with him so maybe they were trying to figure out a way to bring Shen Qngqiu back? p170

I would have loved to be privy to the Tea that Lu Liu was about to spill about his theories of Luo Binghe and Shen Qingqiu ahaha but instead we got a knock on the door interrupting p171

who is this newcomer??? Wait who's the second one?? The anticipation!! pp172-173

wait. "what year is it?" New character or??? p174

I fucking cant. Yes it is Shen Qinqgiu. but also the dramatic flair is too much RE: "faking your death is overdone, I must therefore actually die :)" p174

omg SQQ had a backup body made from the mushrooms! This is so wild. This was definitely Shang Qinghua's side quest for sure. p175

omg I can't stop laughing. What is with MXTX killing the leads and then twinkifying their new bodies. p176

it's been FIVE YEARS?!?!?!?!? p177. Oh damn, bless that he has an abundance of spiritual energy now!

He really told them his name was peerless cucumber- oh my. p178. Can we talk about how they then immediately stated he was a bottom with the Peerless "chrysanthemum, crown, flower.."p178

The hypocrite lol "It is wrong for you to profit from their misfortune" after he literally stole all the clothes on his back and a fancy fan for fun (and cultivating, but let's be real mostly fun). p180

why does everything just come back to SQQ just fantasizing about Luo Binghe's dick? We went from SQQ ranting about demon naming conventions to what he would call Luo Binghe's actual dick LOL p181

HEAVENLY PILLAR-JUN - pls end me XD stooop. p182

Meanwhile we have these demons sweating because they think this man is incredibly powerful and very unstable as SQQ laughs maniacally then slaps himself. p182 I really don't think they are wrong TBH.

oh no! I need to now what Liu Mingyan has been doing in the badlands! p184

but also SQQ assuming that Liu Mingyan is Luo BInghe's wife.

OOOOOO Sha Hualing is back! p185 I like love her as a villain, but hate her as a character. She's in a weird place for me, but I appreciate her LOL

Who the heck is this youth? p186

Jesus christ. the fact that in this moment SQQ hates Sha Hualing's nails- not because there is a kid about to get slice and diced, but because in the novel she uses them to tear up Luo BInghe's back when they fuck. I cannot with this man *face palm* p187

okay we have a name for this young master- Yang Yixuan, and this little baby is Liu Qingge's disciple! p188

learning about how Luo Binghe's cultivation works with his need to basically dual cultivate to level himself out has me officially believing that the system basically allowed SQQ to build the ideal body for Luo Binghe. he definitely has the excess spiritual power LOL p190

This interaction with Sha Hualing and Liu Mingyan tho...I really love Liu Mingyan! Wait- oh no! Not her clawing her face!!! p194

okay she did not get her face clawed

Well, my theory about SQQ building the perfect bod has more merit with the nuns now out of the picture. p197

Holy shit. he actually is strong enough to break through immortal binding cables!! p199

NOW he notices the script change LOL p201 "Shen Qingqiu had certainly never planned to fill in the gap they left behind himself. He had that old feeling of having accidentally picked up the wrong script- it made him vaguely suspicious that the scam of a System was still around"

Dang! he broke the net too! p201

and we have a small appearance by Luo Binghe!!!

Yay! I am so excited i've missed the system, glad it's back. even though it seems kind of broken lol p203

Well "peerless xiangsheng" and "senior peerless" are certainly better than peerless cucumber LOL p205

oh my. Well I mean, he's not entirely wrong is he? Re: Lu Liu's epic tale of the tragic one-sided love between Luo Binghe and Shen Qingqiu. (and this is the Tea I wanted at the beginning of the chapter, I am so happy about it). pp206-207

oh my sweet summer child "Those details aren't the slightest bit reliable, okay? 'The Truth' your sister! Even if I had no girl to fondle for twenty years, no matter how wretched I became, I wouldn't get so desperate that I'd get gay with a guy! Let alone get gay with the male lead!" p212

This Chapter LOL

This was definitely a needed pick up after we had that wretched death. But now I am so curious! I need to know how this turns into their weird but epic love story. When do these two collide??? What happens next???? (do not answer any of these questions LOL no spoilers, but I am very excited to read on).

[ineffectualdemon]

"Out of selfishness, Shen Qingqiu managed to lift a hand and pat Luo Binghe on the head"

SVSSS Vol 1 p167

What I love about this is it really shows how much Shen Qingqiu really loves patting Luo Binghe

To the point he thinks it's selfish of him to do so. Because he just wants to pat him so fucking much

The fact that his comes just after he complains in his head about not getting enough compensation for having to take on the role that originally belonged to Ning Yingying just is icing on the cake

It's essentially: "well if you're not going to treat me I'm gonna do it myself!" *Pats Binghe*

[gima326]

Protocols と Datatypes をば

『Programming Clojure』(3rd Edition) Chapter 7 の "Protocols and Datatypes" (P167 〜) 。 内容は２版と同じ。 ・・・なので日本語版を開いてたんだけど、内容が濃いためか、めずらしくタイポ（原著由来のもの）がてんこ盛り。 ま、ともあれ、これまで斜め読みしてたけれど、ちゃんと手を動かすといろいろ理解が深まった。ここで出てきた道具が（Java 的なオブジェクト指向言語での）「デザインパターン」を、足ツボマッサージのように、ぐりぐり、ごりごりとほぐして（デザパタを悶絶させて）くれそう。 （言語の制約など、色々な要因でそうなるのだろうが、）ある「パターン」がコードのなかで何度も何度も出てくるのは、抽象化が甘いんだろう、とゆーフレーズをどっかで目にしたけれど。 これらの道具がデザパタという言葉を消すんじゃないかな？ へー、余談だけど definterface だとメソッド名が Java の命名規則に縛られるが、defprotocol はそうじゃないんだねー（横棒 '-' が使える）。

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Hi Lord,

I appreciate you so much. Never mo ako pinapabayaan although sobrang kapos na kapos na ko ngayon. Last week ko pa iniisip paano ko mapagkakasya yung natitira kong 2k. Iisipin ng iba, malaki pa pala pera mo e, dalwang libo pa. Nakakatawa na malaki pa nga pero malaki din kailangan ko para sa gamot. Yun 1k, naka alot na sa gamot at may sukli lang na P1.75 (take note, kulang pa ko ng 71 tablets x P30+ na presyo nito). Yun another 1k, iniwan ko sa guard ang P440 kase may parcel na darating ang kapatid ko, tapos nag bayad ako sa laundry ng P167, nag pamisa ako (P100) dahil 5th year anniversary ng tatay ko nang July 15, nag offer ako (P50 nalang...) may natira saken na P243. Nag pa-gas pa pala ko worth less than P300 (hindi ko na alam san ko kinuha yung pera, basta galing sa wallet ko). Bumili ako ng 1/4 kg ng pork giniling worth P83, sibuyas at kamote worth Php 50. Meron nalang kong P110, kumain ako sa canteen today na worth P60 na good for one whole day na at meron pa kong P50. Lahat ng alkansiya at naka subi ay nakuha ko na. Yun P50 di ko alam hanggang kelan aabot, July 18 palang bukas, di ko pa din alam kung maaga ang sahod o sakto sa abente. Pero another blessing, since monday na, dumating na ate ko may dalang isang piling na saging na saba, panglaga at inabutan niya ko ng isang chicken asado buns. Good na ko bukas, Lord!

Napaka buti mo Lord, salamat sa kabutihan mo, never mo ko ginutom, never mo ko pinabayaan. Salamat sa kabutihan mo AMA! Hindi ko pa man nakukuha ang pinag darasal ko alam ko na kumikilos Ka na para katuparan nito. Lord, I know You're an awesome God. You are a powerful God in Your name, nothing is impossible. You are my provider and You are my Father! AMEN

[lemon2sang]

(사진 출처 : Photo by Lisa Larsen/The LIFE Picture Collection via Getty Images / https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poets/william-carlos-williams ) 29- 초록은 위안 / 평화의 약속, 하나의 요새 / 추위에 맛서는 (비록 // 그렇게 말하지는 않았지만) / 눈의 딱딱한 표면을 넘어서는 / 어떤 도전. 초록(우리가 아마 / 말했을 텐데)은 그렇게, 거기서 // 작은 새들이 숨고 또 피하고 / 재잘재잘 애처러운 새들의 / 울음을 들어 올리고, 새들을 위해 / 폭풍우의 보이지 않는 // 총알들을 막아 주고 또 때려 부순다. (p41) - 윌리엄 칼로스 윌리엄스 , <크리스마스 초록 나무들 불태우며> 중에서 윌리엄 칼로스 윌리엄스 <봄 그 쓰라린 세계> 젖은 포장도로 위로 하얀 하늘이 물러나고 붉은 느릅나무의 뒤집힌 기둥들로 거뭇거뭇해진 하늘, 제대로 보면, 나무 기둥들은 욕망의 엉킨 그물을 떨어지는 빗속으로 단단히 들어 올리고. 갈��� 연무가 밀어닥쳐서, 다리 지키는 사람의 좁은 방 지붕 위로 물처럼 흘러넘치고. 또 늘 그렇듯이 시의 본질에 관한 그 싸움이 -철학자들은 그걸 포착할까?- 계속되고. 또 물속으로 시선을 던지며, 거기서, 하얀 꽃 덤불의 침묵으로 공표되고. 가까이 다리 아래로, 청어 떼 올라가고, 수면과 진흙 사이 중간쯤으로, 또 당신은 볼 수 있지, 붉은 지느러미 그 몸들, 검은 물속에서 상류로, 가차 없이, 돌진하는. (p77) - 윌리엄 칼로스 윌리엄스 , ' 패터슨 ' 중에서 105 135--------------- 그렇게 나의 해가 끝났어요. 내일은 4월이 뒬 것이고, 영광은 가고 그 뾰족한 빛은 흘렀어요. 내 안에 3월만 없다면, 그 차가운 태양의 강렬함, 나는 견딜 수 없었어요 그 질질 끄는 시간들, 그 무게와 아주 다른, 나중에 오는 그 풍성함과도, 너무 늦게 오는 것. 나는 이미 그 빗장 사이에서 헤엄쳤어요, 그 각진 윤곽들, 나는 이미 그해를 다 살아 버린 거예요. (p167) - <귀걸이 펜턴트 둘에서> 중에서 그리고 세 번째 줄에서 / 옆으로 기운 바이올린들은 /  그 장면을 손끝으로 뜯는 음으로 /  더 생기 있게 만들고. 짧은 / 기억을 되살리거나 / 듣는 이들이 그 주제를 / 귀 기울여 듣게 하려고 / 변주를 반복하여 강조하고: / 주제를 반복하는 것 /  그것이 음악의 원칙이지. 반복하고 / 또 반복하고, / 흐름이 고조될수록. 그 / 주제는 난해하다 / 하지만 그 사실들이 / 마무리되어야 하는 것보다 / 더 난해하지는 않다. 반복하라 / 주제를 반복하라 / 그러면 그 모든 것이 고조되어 / 마침내 사유가 녹아내리지 / 눈물 속에서. / 우리의 꿈들은 / 계속 공격받아 왔다 / 잠들지 않는 / 기억에 의해. 그 / 프랑스제 뿔피리들이 / 그 목소리들을 / .   .  끼워 넣고: /  사랑해. 내마음은 / 정직해서. 이 날이 / 세계의 첫날! (p193) - <오케스트라> 중에서 우리 시대에 상상력은 / 애석한 사실들을 가로질러 / 우리를 들어 올려 / 장미들이 / 가시 앞에 설 수 있게 한다. (p215) - <담쟁이 덩굴 왕관> 중에서 243- 서문 "아름다움의 엄밀함은 바로 탐구다. 하지만 아름다움이 마음속 지난날 모든 불만에 갇혀 있다면, 당신은 어떻게 아름다움을 찾을 수 있겠는가?" (p345) - <패터슨 제1권에서> 중에 373 461 <작품에 대하여: 사소하고 따뜻하고 분명한 '접촉' (정은귀)> 어떻게 일을 하면서 시를 쓰냐고 묻자, 윌리엄스는 "어렵지 않아. 둘은 다른 각각이 아니라 하나의 두 부분이지. 둘은 서로를 보완해 한쪽이 나를 지치게 하면 다른 한쪽이 나를 쉬게 하지"라고 말했다. 즉, 그는 의사로서 보고 진찰하는 사명을 충실히 이행하며 패터슨의 가난하나 소박한 삶을 사는 이들을 보았고, 그 찬찬한 시선을 그대로 시로 옮긴 것이다. 또 자기가 지도하던 학생에게 들려준 이런 고백도 있다. "회진 돌면서 혹은 가정 방문 진찰을 하면서 정말 많이 배워. 그런데 가끔은 내가 도둑이 된 것만 같아. 사람들의 말을 듣고 사람들을, 장소들을 보니까. 또 그걸 내 글에다 써먹으니까 말이야. 내가 그 얘길 사람들한테 한 적이 있는데 아무도 놀라지 않았어. 거긴 더 깊은 무언가가 분명 흐르고 있어. 모든 만남이 주는 힘 같은 것 말이지." (p482) 윌리엄스는 다른 어떤 시인보다도 시의 행간과 단어의 배열에 신경 쓰면서 엄밀하고 정확한 이미지를 구사하였지만 불확실성과 불일치, 어긋남을 사랑한 시인이다. 이 세계가 그 자체로 불확실하기 때문이다. 윌리엄스에게 아름다움은 완결된 아름다움이 아니고 끔찍하고 불완전한 형태로, 뭐가 될지 모른채 돋아나는 새로운 생명 속에, 또 무너지는 쇠락 속에 있는 그런 제멋대로의 아름다움이다. (p486) 윌리엄스의 사실주의가 날카롭게 예민하고 기발한 것은 그 시선의 집중에서 비롯되며, 무엇보다 그 근저에는 "관념이 아니라 사물 그 자체"라는 유명한 시론이 있다. (p488) 490 발달이라는 미명하에 피폐하게 오염된 도시, 가난과 범죄, 강간과 간통 등 온갖 파괴적인 현대 도시의 그림자가 우울한 사람들을 포획하는 패터슨의 초상은 시에서 매우 거친 호흡과 울퉁불퉁한 리듬으로 그려진다. 남자와 여자, 자연과 인간, 과거와 현재가 유기적으로 연결되는 바람직한 관계를 맺지 못하고 분리되는 현실에서 언어는 타락되었고, 현실의 비참상 또한 그런 분리가 가장 큰 역할을 한다. 그래서 윌리엄스는 시 곳곳에 '단절(Divorce)'의 문제를 강하게 제시한다. <패터슨>은 19세기에 시인 휘트먼이 그려 낸 미국의 서사시가 20세기에 완���하게 실패로 끝난 미국의 현실을 생동감 있게 재현한다. 윌리엄스는 패터슨의 다양한 인간 군상과 먼지 속 역사적 사료 안에서 발견되는 이야기들을 재치 있게 녹여 냈다. (p493) 495==== "화가들이 색채의 해방을 꿈꾸었다면, 시인 윌리엄스는 언어의 해방, 형식의 해방을 꿈꾸었다." - 윌리엄 칼로스 윌리엄스 , ' 패터슨 ' 중에서

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[sandra-sun]

维罗妮卡决定去死（三）

P147，爱德华想：

什么是苏菲派的冥想？什么是上帝？如果世界真的需要拯救，那什么是拯救？如果这里（维雷特）或外面的人都可以按照自己的心意生活，并允许其他人也这样做，那么上帝便存在于每一个时刻之中，存在于每一个芥子的颗粒之内，存在于每一片或隐或现的云朵之上。上帝就在那里，然而人们却依然相信应该继续找寻，因为对于他们来说，接受生命就是信仰未免太过儿戏。

P167，伊戈尔医生：

“好了。现在说说你的病：每一个人都是独一无二的，有自己的特质与天性，追求快乐与寻找冒险的方式也各不相同。然而社会却把一种统一的行为方式强加给人，而为什么需要这样行事？人们居然连问都不问。他们只会接受，就像打字员把 QWERTY 视为最好的键盘一样。为什么钟表只能朝着一个方向走？为什么不能逆着走呢？你认识的人中有这样问过的吗？”

“没有。”

“如果谁敢这么问，肯定被扣上‘疯子’这顶大帽子。如果他刨根问底，人们会随便给他找个理由，然后迅速转移话题，因为除了我刚才的解释之外，没有其它理由。

“现在，我们回到你的问题。请再问我一次。”

“我的病治好了吗？”

“没有。你与众不同，却希望与别人一样。我觉得，这可称得上是一种恶疾了。”

“与众不同这个病很严重吗？”

“希望与别人一样才是个严重的病，会引发神经官能症、神经病和妄想症。强迫自己与其他人一样才是个严重的病，因为这既违反了人的天性，又对抗着神的法则。在世界的每座森林里，每棵树木上，神创造的每片叶子都不尽��同。但是你却觉得与众不同是一种疯症，因此选择维雷特来逃避。因为在这里，每个人都与众不同，你也就变得与别人一样了。对不对？”

玛丽点了点头。

“因为人们没有勇气与众不同，只能选择违抗天性，这样机体便会产生类矾，或者说苦病，这是这种毒药更为人所知的名称。”

✍ 谢谢保罗有理有据的鼓励，很受用。

[bloopitynoot]

Reading SVSSS: Chapter 3

For those who don't know, I am reading SVSSS for the first time and sharing my thoughts!

If you have not read it, there will be spoilers! Consider this a warning.

Also- if you want to follow along, I am aiming to post updates daily. You can find all the posts in the tag bloopitynoot reads SVSSS. You can also check out the intro post for context on my read.

oh, that's good, he's (Shen Qingqiu/Shen Yuan) not dead p135

also not related to my read, but this time I am actually writing at my table (instead of cocooned in a blanket on my couch) so hopefully these note are easier to read (Read: I am trying to have neater handwriting for ✨aesthetic✨). All I need with my notes, book, and tea is a candle and i'd be living my ancient academic fantasy.

If anyone wants to know this chapter is accompanied by a white tea that tastes like loquats. It's my favourite nostalgic tea. My family used to travel south when I was small and my grandparent's house there had a loquat tree. I haven't had loquats in over a decade (canada lol) but this tea tastes jut like them.

Anyways! Back to SVSSS!

Give me patience: the amount of dislike I have anytime Ming Fan is present p135

oh dang, this boy can cook! p138

Re: this boy can cook- Bye LOL "Luo Binghe's excellent cooking skills were his foremost lady-killing technique." p138

boo, I am upset that the Abyss scenario still needs to happen (But I get it, of course it can't be that easy- we do need plot for this book) p139

I can't XD he really is falling into the plot/character of Protagonists Love Interest. First the congee cooking and no the "Poison cure" p142

WAIT. THE CURE FOR THE POSION. wut p143

RE: WAIT: I am crying LOL

But like could he 👀 "Like, he knew that the going at it with the protagonist could have cured the poison, but like he could do that! Could he? Ha ha ha ha..." p145

Not Liu Qingge over here thinking Shen Qingqiu is possessed (not really wrong though) p147

once again we have Ming Fan -> honestly I would not be surprised if he ended up the new villain/scum character role p148 there is nothing likeable about him

this line is killing me "Shen Qingqiu was astoundingly oblivious to the fact that, thanks to the divine wingman abilities of his useless teammate, Ming Fan, Luo BInghe's favor has again risen to a new high" p.150

Oh god, he's in Luo Binghe's dream world. I am so nervous for this. p. 152

Dang. Why so many deductions for failure -1000 is a LOT for him p154

okay but this dream subplot is feeding my theory that Shen Qingqiu is switching character roles from villain to Love Interest p155

Oh no :( not his childhood bullies p160

omg and now his mom's death p161

Shen Qingqiu has been taking a constant beating for 164 pages- how is he not dead p164

LOL Shen Qingqiu really said "i'm not paid enough for this emotional labour" p167

Also Shen Qingqiu "I finished my friendship performance; I can finally leave work now" p169 what a vibe

Even the Dream Demon Lord is over how much Luo Binghe talks about Shen Qingqiu (p172)

uuuugh the foreshadowing RE: if you don't learn the demon path and the seal breaks you are basically fucked p.173

You tell that demon, Luo Binghe! RE: "right now, you are discussing terms with me, and you are free to say anything...but if you harm Shizun, any agreement is void!" p177

LOL "Aura of Badassery" p177

Shen Qingqiu after a very bad no good series of days "pls I dont want to see you omg leave me alone I am v tired" p179 this guy can't catch a break

The dichotomy of Shen Yuan acting in this though. Outward: I definitely can handle this. Inward: I'm so fucking scared, I do not got this. Is so real p180

Shen Qingqiu "I want this kid to remain optimistic and feel positive with his heritage (so he does not turn evil and mass murder me and everyone else)"Luo Binghe "I am going to be the strongest of strong possible so that I can protect Shen Qingqiu" p182

Oh gods, not him asking him to move in with him (to basically have a servant but like Luo Binghe has just had his entire life changed) p185

okay so age check- suddenly he's 15??? I thought this kid was 14 like 3 days ago?? p186

Points to Shen Yuan though for noting that how Luo Binghe was being treated was child abuse. p188

YAY! He's going to train with Meng Mo (also it made me laugh at how pissed Meng Mo is about not having the teacher title) p190

That's all for this chapter!

next one aiming for tomorrow :D

[leatherbounded]

The problem with trying hard not to think about something was that you thought about it even more.

Benjamin Alire Sáenz, from Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe

[nusumigaki]

人間でも動物でも、目の前で起きていることは見えないものなんだ。

[readinginmars]

"The curious thing about etymology, they soon learned, was that anything could influence a language, from the consumption habits of the rich and worldly to the so-called vulgar utterances of the poor and wretched."

Babel - R. F. Kuang