#p.s. I'm taking vitamins for it

[mcwexlerscigarette]

just me and my calcium deficiency against the world

[togament]

⤷ ume, sakura, nirei, kiryu, kaji, togame, suo, endo.

"he wants to make you smile so he left you a little note. What'd he write and where'd he hide it? I got you."

⤷ 𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐑𝐄𝐃𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐒: FLUFF FLUFF FLUFF!!!!, g/n reader, suo's kinda scares me ngl, I feel guilty for togame pls be patient with him He Is Trying, ENDO IS SCARY, nirei is very sweet oh MY GOD, all the fluff all the fluffies!!!!!!!

♯ 𝐔𝐌𝐄

"You found it! ◡̈ I just wanted to drop a little sunshine for my sunshine while I go get some sunshine ☼ You're my favorite person in the world and I hope this note makes your heart do a little happy dance like mine does whenever I see you. If you find this (and you did!! Yay!) it means you're awesome and that I'm so lucky to have you in my life. I love you!!!!! Your Number One Fan, 🍑"

Little doodles and happy scribbles!!!! You can tell he was smiling so widely when he wrote everything out for you -- it's like you can feel his happiness radiating from his writing it's very infectious. He just loves you that much.

(hid it in your favorite mug for you to find in the morning when he's out tending to his garden.)

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♯ 𝐇𝐈𝐑𝐀𝐆𝐈

"Hey, love. Just a quick note to remind you how much I appreciate everything you do. For me and the boys. Your support means the absolute world to me. Don't forget to take your vitamins today -- gotta take care of yourself too, alright? I love you. - T."

Thankful and doting!!!!!! Vaguely smells like him too so you know he kept the note right by his jacket pocket for a while before sneaking it into its rightful hiding spot. His handwriting is sharp and you know he wrote it quick. He probably wrote it while on patrol.

(hid it inside your vitamin case that you use daily so you find it easily.)

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♯ 𝐒𝐀𝐊𝐔𝐑𝐀

"I'm not really good with this whole cutesy stuff, but I wanted to let you know I'm thinking about you. You make my days better (even if I don't say it right). Love you. Lots. - S. P.S. there's chocolate for you in the fridge :)"

Clumsy and cute, the note has little writing indents of past notes he's written and promptly thrown away. He settled for this one because you're stirring awake beside him and he doesn't wanna get caught lmao

(Has the note hidden in one of the books you're currently reading, right where your bookmark is.) ────

♯ 𝐍𝐈𝐑𝐄𝐈

"Whoops. You found me. Wanted to leave you a little surprise! I'm planning on something fun for us real soon, but until then (tonight!!) I hope this note makes you smile as much as you make me smile every day. You're the best! I can't wait to see you. - your bunny."

Bright and cheery, much like Nirei is. Of course he has something planned for the both of you by the end of the day and he's keeping it a secret... But you know him. Something's bound to slip from his lips when you meet up with him tonight. Promise to act surprised?

(He hides it inside your pencil box because he knows you use it on the daily.)

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♯ 𝐊𝐈𝐑𝐘𝐔

"Sweetheart! ♡ Surprise! I just wanted to leave a little reminder of how much I adore you. If you find this note, it means you didn't wait for me to play with you ( •̀ - •́ ) kidding! Can't wait to start our new game tonight. I love youuuu!! - forever your Player Two ♡"

Written on a purple and pink post-it, it's spritzed with his perfume. His penmanship is remarkable too. Playful and sweet!!!!! It makes you extremely giddy and excited to meet up with him later. You know for a fact he's got his space set and decked out in fairy lights for your game night. Gotta wait for a couple more hours though UGHHHSHAS

(has it neatly hidden inside the game case of the new game you both have been dying to play.)

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♯ 𝐊𝐀𝐉𝐈

"Before anything, don't get mushy on me. Just wanted to say you're pretty great and I'm glad you're around. Found this album at the shop. Remembered you saying you wanted to listen to them, so I guess that's my way of saying I care. Listen to it with me later. - Ren. ♡"

neatly written on a post-it note, you kinda think it could be printed out. It's crazy. Short and concise, you can tell he had his brows furrowed when he wrote this for you. He's trying!!!!!! He really is!!!! You know he'd bring some food for the both of you when you meet up. He's a romantic at heart.

(has it taped to the CD he bought for you right next to your player.)

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♯ 𝐓𝐎𝐆𝐀𝐌𝐄

"I'm probably late again, aren't I? Big surprise. I promise I'm working on it, but in the meantime, I thought I'd leave you a little reminder that you're amazing and that I promise I'll always be worth the wait. Thank you for being so patient with me, doll. I love you. A lot. Bringing your favorite dish tonight. Kame Special. -🐢"

HE'S TRYINGGG AAAASJKDKJASD!!!!!! As you read, you can practically hear the slight purr in his voice and he sounds so apologetic too. HE'S TRYING HE'S TRYINGGJAKJDS he loves his sleep a bit too much, you see. Pepper him in kisses when you meet him tonight. He deserves as much.

(Snuck it inside your planner the night before your date so you'd find it when you go check on your schedule for the day. He's not late for your home date later, by the way.)

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♯ 𝐒𝐔𝐎

"My dove. Consider this a little hint: I've got a little something special planned for you, but you'll have to find more clues first and follow them. I promise you won't be disappointed. I'll be waiting for you tonight. Wear that dress that I love so much, yes? - Your Hayato."

uH OH. UH OH UH OH. Your man has you working for the surprise but that's such a him thing to do. At least he has something super cute planned by the end of it!!! If he says you won't be disappointed, he means it. HE MEANS IT.

(hid it inside the pocket of your coat that he knows you'll be using today. It's something you'd naturally reach into. Such a Suo thing to plan out.)

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♯ 𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐎

"Hey there, gorgeous. I know you're in the middle of pretending not to miss me while reading up on this chapter. It's my favorite one, by the way. If you find this note, it means I'm missing you too and totally not hiding underneath your bed or in your closet ᕙ( •̀ ᗜ •́ )ᕗ See you in a sec. - Only Your Yams."

Ominous and teasing, much like Endo is. You kind of wanna check under your bed and in your closet but you know your boyfriend's just out to grab some coffee for the both of you. His handwriting is legible and super neat and he spritzed some of his favorite perfume on the note too. Mmmmm. Sandalwood and smoky vanilla.

(hid it between the pages of your favorite book with your bookmark replaced with a new one he bought for you. One of those fancy ones that can mark the words and stuff. Has to match his.)

a/n: I FINALLY WROTE SOMETHING I FUNALLYNJASDJKASD HUHUHUHUHUUASHKAS thank you for reading through this. I feel very rusty.

[loveswrites]

Do you know when you’re going to post your next Poly Volturi? (Absolutely no rush btw take your time and always focus on you and your health first🫶) I was just wondering cause i miss you 🫶

(i don’t have any intention of sounding rude or anything im just wondering and i definitely dont wanna rush you and i ofc want you to take your time and ofc it’s important to focus on yourself first ALWAYS🫶🫶)

Nightmare Poly Volturi x reader

Time it took me: 5 hours

Word count: 2023

To anon: Hello lovely! I'm sorry for the wait it's been like a month since my last post but I've come to give you a little gift! Hope you like it! Thank you so much for your reassurance, You didn't sound rude at all I understand I was gone a LONG time. I'm surprised I even wrote this today my mind was so foggy I haven't really had a good day so I thought I'd put a smile on someone else's!

Love <3

p.s I also tried to find that spongebob meme in a gif but I couldn't find it for some reason lmk if you get it when you read it!

Turning a sharp corner your hip grazed against the cold cobblestone walls of the castle. Causing you to suck in a strong gasp of air. Rubbing your hand against the throbbing pain you felt something wet. Twisting your face up in confusion you couldn't tell what it was. There was a storm and the castle was as dark as it's ever been. The candles Cauis ordered to be lit every set of the sun for you weren't lit like they normally are. If one candle blew out, rather you were there or not he would have someone's head not long after.

"You smell delicious." You heard from no other than the exact one you were thinking about. Caius.

Still a little confused, your eyes widened. Blood. You were bleeding and Cauis was chasing you.

Resuming your slow steps turned into a fast pace run. Well as fast as you could. Your eyes burned with tears as you could hear Caius' steps quicken. Why was he doing this, you thought. Doesn't he love you? 

"Are you frightened little human?" Cauis hissed out with so much venom you could taste it. 

"Please stop-" You were cut off with a scream crawling out of your throat as a strong sound of thunder and lightning struck.

"Your fear reeks a phenomenal scent. I can't wait to taste you." He sneered out letting out a chilling chuckle. 

You couldn't stop the tear that ran down your cheek with his statement. All you could feel was your heart pounding in your chest, So much you thought it would run into overdrive and stop. With the halls darken you ran with what little memory you could collect right now.  Your brain was foggy. Your heart was hurt. And your face was stained with tears of fear. You never thought that you would die like this. The more you ran the more you realized that this was a loop. You had been running around in a circle this whole time and Cauis was still chasing you. 

"Help Me! Jane! Alec! Please don't do this Caius! You're scaring me!" You screamed out looking back for the first time since you started running.

 He was right there. 

Pricing red eyes stared back at you menacingly.

The only sound you could get out of your mouth was a gasp. He grabbed you by your arms in a tight unbreakable grip. So tight you thought your bones would snap. You never did take your vitamins as a kid you thought. Before you could say another word he bared his fangs and snapped down on your neck. You let out a strong scream. It was so loud it echoed and bounced off the walls. You could feel your own blood wetting your skin rolling down your once warm body. As much as you struggled you couldn't move. As much as you screamed you could no longer make sound. All you felt was your life being drained from your body. Mustering all of your strength you screamed the loudest you could with little life you had left. 

"Mio caro!? Wake up è solo un sogno!" A voice sounded.

Snapping your eyes open, you saw him. Screaming once against you pushed off of him blinded to your surroundings. You fell down onto a cold marble floor it hurt but you could care less right now. Anything to get away from him.

"Don't touch me! S-stay away from me! J-Jane! Where are you!?" You screamed out tears already rolling down your face. Still crawling away from Caius you kept your eyes on him the best you could with blurred vision. 

"What-" Cauis started but was cut off by your words.

"Don't talk to me, leave me alone! Jane! W-where's Jane!? Jane! Jane!!" You cried screaming at the top of your lungs. 

Everyone's attention snapped to the door as Jane busted through the door. Her piercing red eyes were filled with anger ready to unleash hell on anyone that dared to hurt what is hers. 

"What happened!" She snapped sharp eyes staring down everyone who was in the room. She saw no threat but that didn't mean there wasn't one.

You were in the throne room as you always were half the time. Everyone knew you loved laying upon the throne with Caius. You were often there with him during most trails. It was convenient because most of the time all of your mates were there also. So hearing your screams come from this room of all places put Jane on guard. 

"We don't know she was just resting as she always is, then woke up screaming." Marcus stated.

"She's very frightened and the first one so called out for was you. Go to her, Slowly.” Aro said making sure to speak softly.

She listened, making sure to take slow and soft steps towards you. When she was finally in front of you she kneeled down to your level as you had backed yourself into a corner. 

“Who scared you?” She asked, trying her best to not sound too demanding but failing miserably. 

You reached out and wrapped your arms around her tightly, crying hard.

“Please don’t let him hurt me.” You whispered into her neck. A whisper so low that she had to try to listen. 

“Who is trying to hurt you?” She whispered back wrapping her arms around you. Doing her best to console you as physical touch is still a hard thing for her.

“C-caius he bit me he was trying to kill me.” You said still shaking as the scene replayed in your head over and over again.

“Well I guess we know who won't be turning her.” Felix snickered, earning a shove from dem.

“Silence!” Cauis ordered, making Felix shut up immediately. His loud tone made you jump and brung more tears to your eyes. Jane continued to comfort you, whispering calming and promising words in your ear.

“Go on, tell me what else happened.” She beckoned.

“I was trying to run away from him b-because he was chasing me. I didn’t know why until I realized that I was bleeding and he wasn’t chasing me to help me. He was chasing me to bring more h-harm to me. I was going in circles and I couldn’t find a way out! There wasn’t a way out but I kept trying and trying but he still got me and- He drained me of everything inside of me.. I can still feel his bite. It hurts, why does it hurt?” You whimpered out sniffling every few words. You held onto Jane tighter in fear she would let you go.

It was silent for a while. No one in the room knew quite what to say. Or what you needed to hear. But the one thing they all knew was that no matter how much Cauis would threaten or yell at you he would lay down his life for you. And if he ever laid a harmful hand on you the rest of you mates would deal with him no matter the consequences. One little human held so much power. 

“It was just a nightmare, you're safe. He would never hurt you. And if he did I’d kill him myself.” Jane said firmly. 

Her words brung comfort to you. Jane never lies. Especially to you.  She always says that she has no time for lying. To which you always say she technically has all her life or death to lie. 

“Jane let me see her.” Cauis said leaving no room for arguing.

“Caius.” Marcus said in a warning tone.

“Do you want to face him? I’ll take you away if not.” Jane whispered in your ear. It took a little while for you to answer but eventually you did sadly. You truly weren't ready to face him but you didn’t want Jane to get in trouble for your newfound fear.

“It’s okay..” You said slowly as if you were trying to convince yourself. 

“Are you sure?” She questioned.

“I’m sure.” You said taking a deep breath when Jane parted from you. Though Jane was freezing cold her cold began to feel warm to you. So when she let you go you couldn’t help but feel naked under the eyes of everyone in the room. A shiver ran down your spine when you finally made eye contact with Caius. His red eyes were intimidating but not as threatening as the ones in your nightmares. In fact his eyes looked.. Concerned, confusion and hurt. That one was a kick to the chest. You hated seeing him hurt but you hated seeing you hurt more. 

“Come here.” Caius said watching you as you took very slow steps to you. Realizing your fear was truly real as you'd normally run to him full of joy. But now you shake with each step. You were never even this scared when you first met. 

Once you were standing in front of him he closed the gap between you two holding onto your hands. Your warm soft ones colliding against his cold hard ones.  

“You truly think I’d ever hurt you on purpose if at all? I’m offended by how lowly you think of me amore mio.” He frowned looking down at you. 

“It was- it felt very real.” You whispered looking down but that didn’t last long as he put his hand under your chin and tilted your head back up to face you.

“If you're frightened do not be cowardly in fear I will not accept it. Especially when I am aware of how fearless you are. It was a horrible dream, a nightmare. One that will never come true.” He said watching you with close eyes.

“I-” You were cut off with his next words.

“You should know that I would never hurt you on purpose. But eventually for you to be with us forever you will have to be turned. But it won't be painful for you. We will ensure it. Alec will use his power to make sure of it.” Caius stated as if this would make you feel better.

“You’ve been conspiring about my death behind my back?” You questioned furrowing your eyebrows.

“More like preparing. You're not getting any younger.” Felix said from behind you.

“Are you serious?” You questioned.

“We’d rather have you dead and with us rather than dead and gone bellissima.” Dem voiced softly in hopes you wouldn’t get upset with the rest of them.

“I feel like this is some type of gaslighting or manipulation.” You said, shaking your head.

“Nevermind that, do you feel better?” Alec asked, deterring your thoughts from this topic.

“I kinda do. I’d still like a little space from you though.” You said looking up at Caius. 

“Only a few days after that you're asking for ungiveable things.” He said letting you go but not before kissing you on your forehead making you freeze momentarily.

“Go get some rest.” He dismissed you.

As you walked away after standing there for a while Jane followed you and right when you grabbed the door Caius words made you stop in your tracks.

“ You shouldn’t be scared of me in that sense. You wouldn’t even be filling, you refuse to take your vitamins Carlisle insists you take.” He yelled out so you could hear. 

You couldn’t help the small laugh that came out of your mouth knowing how true that statement was. For the next few days Jane followed you everywhere. Always on your heels. Sleeping with you, feeding next to you, If she knew you were having a bad dream she’d wake you up right away and take you out for a walk. All until you felt comfortable to be alone with Cauis she was right there by your side. 

And when you finally felt comfortable enough you saw how bad Cauis was taking it through his paintings. He was afraid you would see him as a monster. He knew he was but he never wanted to be that in your eyes. You spent the next few nights showing him how fearless you were of him. Wink wink.

[h3lfaerie]

I just made the coolest addition to the World-building in PoA.

If you recall, in Chapter 9, we established that iron is highly harmful to the Fae; a trait found both in Celtic and in Nordic Folklore.

Now as you may know, iron is the fourth most abundant element, by mass, in the Earth's crust. The core of the Earth is thought to be largely composed of iron with nickel and sulfur. But aside from iron ore, the element is also naturally found in abundance of foods like molasses and seafood.

It is also found in the blood.

So.

Yours truly did a little research.

The red colour of human blood is due to the red blood cells containing haemoglobin, a protein containing iron, so we can presume that blood without haemoglobin is not that bright (I know this firsthand, I'm anaemic). But if we take all red cells out of the blood then the remaining fluid is called plasma.

And you know what colour plasma is?

Yellowish or golden.

It's because of the presence of bilirubin in that, which is a breakdown product of iron containing the heme part of haemoglobin.

There are also other iron-containing proteins like transferrin and vitamin-A derivatives like carotenoids, that contribute their part in imparting the same colour. 

But again, having iron subunits in the blood wouldn't make sense for the Fae seeing as iron can kill them, therefore we can assume that their blood does not contain any traces of that element. No part of their body would.

So, we do a second wipe down.

If we were to remove every single possible iron subunit from the blood, it still leaves other pigments like the carotenoids, but no hemoglobin, no bilirubin, and no urobilinogen, which are all components that give blood its colour. As they are derivative from red blood cells, we can presume that they were never present to begin with in species like the Fae.

The remaining plasma would be mostly composed of water and other proteins, which are typically colorless or very pale. A faint golden hue would still be present due to the small amount of pigment remaining, but overall we are left with a pretty much translucent colour.

Now add some lore-typical whimsy. Say "magic in the blood", which I can colour however I please.

And the Fae bleed gold.

Incandescent, fucking gold.

And it makes sense.

The groundwork was already there with the base plasma fluid being yellow and/or golden, but I've essentially stripped it down to a colorless ichor by removing every single ferrous component. Which means I can then build up the fluid with whatever properties I please.

And I'm choosing an obnoxious glittery gold. Because duh.

It's Faeries.

If that ain't the coolest thing I've added to the lore so far, I don't know what is.

P.S. I recommend watching this scene from Gods of Egypt for a visual of what gold blood would look like. Obviously spoiler warning for the movie, and it is a fight scene, therefore injury, hence blood.

P.S. (2) Sett, a.k.a. the villain in this movie, is played by Gerard Butler, a.k.a. Stoick the Vast.

P.S. (3) I am actually so giddy over this. I made gold blood make sense.

[underworld-park-offical]

assuming you met ask in the inbox,

gregory! how do you keep your skin and hair so beautiful? do you possibly using korean skincare and indian haircare? you are absolutely stunning and way better than craig. we shall form a craig hate club! anywho, please do let me know how you look so young and ethereal all the time.

Oh my! That's so sweet of you!

My skincare routine requires a LOT, but if you're that curious, I'll share my little secrets with you:

My morning routine:

Cleanser

Toner

Serum (Vitamin C)

Eye Cream

Moisturizer.

Sunscreen

Makeup <3

My evening routine:

Makeup Remover/Cleansing Oil

Cleanser

Exfoliation (2-3 times a week)

Toner

Sheet Mask (1-2 times a week)

Serum (Hyaluronic Acid, Retinol, or other targeted treatments)

Eye Cream

Moisturizer

Face Oil

Exfoliating Mask

Clay Mask

Overnight Mask

Now for my hair care!

Shampoo

Conditioner

Scalp Massage

Leave-In Conditioner/Detangler

Heat Protectant (if i'm using heat styling).

Scalp Exfoliatio

Pre-Shampoo Treatment

Deep Conditioning Treatment

Protein Treatment

Hair Gloss or Color Treatment

Now you too can have fabulous locks! Me personally, I reccomend using Pantine as your shampoo <3

-Gregory_Cutie_Pie_3rd

P.S. I'm willing to take your offer on the Craig_The_Real_Tucker hate club.

[not-gonna-lose]

Leavanny mail!

Perhaps surprisingly, a certain Leavanny is on a mission today; the second she spots Kieran, she'll gently trill to get his attention and go up to him with a letter and...some kind of drink? Upon closer inspection, it seems to be some kind of drink with extra added vitamins. Huh.

The letter reads as follows, in likely very familiar handwriting. ...Neater than usual, at least--

"Kiki,

I don't know how to start this. I've gotten the gumption to try and write something multiple times, but every time I've tried, it just feels like it's not enough. But I'm going to try.

I want to apologize to you, first off. For...I guess to start, for everything that happened during the Festival of Masks--I lied to you. I...deceived you, whether I thought it was that at the time or not; the only thing I had been thinking of was trying to keep you safe, because I was worried about what could happen to you. I didn't think about anything else, and I never wanted it to spiral out of control so bad that it'd hurt you. But whether I meant it or not, I hurt you deeply, and I want to apologize for that. If I'd known how things could have gone, if I had a bit of faith, maybe things wouldn't have turned out like this.

Which...I guess brings me to this: I'm sorry I thought you weren't strong enough. I'm sorry I never realized just how much I was hurting you. Or coddling you, or--just not letting you get the chance to spread your own wings. I know I'm not the easiest person to get along with, to put it lightly, but the fact that I took all of that out on you--that's wrong. That's so wrong. I thought for the longest time because nobody said anything that it was all okay, but I let my ego get in the way of your own feelings. And I'm sorry for that. I'm sorry for ruining your friendship with Juliana, too, because of that. I got so focused on what I thought was needed, without even thinking...

...I don't know what else to say, if I'm going to be honest with you. I keep wanting to bring this to Briar, to Amarys, to someone to make it sound less like a moron who doesn't know what she's doing is writing this, but--I'm sending this to you as is. If you want to read it, feel free to. If you want to just get rid of it...feel free to, too. I screwed up, and I've been screwing up for years, but--if I can't make this truly right, I want to at least apologize from the heart. Or something.

If you ever want to talk...I'm kind of withdrawing from my extracurriculars a bit, but pick the time and place. I'll meet you there. But if you don't, I accept that, too.

...Please take care of yourself, Kiki. I really hope that you beat her.

-Carmine/@ribesrubrum

p.s. Leavanny should have brought you a drink, too. I went with Briar on the mainland and was checking things out--you said you've been having trouble eating, right? I don't know if drinking has become difficult for you too, but I found something that said it's supposed to help with missing nutrients. I don't know if you've tried this already, but...I wanted to help. Or at least try."

Know I haven't really- I haven't... Haven't made it easy, either... Been a real jerk this whole time... I just- I've been tired of it... For a really- Really long time, even before that... Hated just being some- Some scared little kid who couldn't... Couldn't do anything for himself... Or being- Being brushed off that much... Was- Was building up for a long time... That's just- Just what finally did it, I guess...

It all still feels like- Like my own fault, anyways... I shouldn't have... Shouldn't have been such a weakling... I just... Just wish I could've been braver- Been able to speak up more... And been strong enough to- To not let it get to me... Even now, I've still been... Been too much of a coward to talk to you... So I- I'm sorry-

Drinks are- I can still handle that okay... That- That does help... Thank you- I'm really... I'm sorry again- For- For all of this...

[sukimas]

i'm not gonna reblog this post because it is overall quite good and i just have a nitpick with this part but actually the way the body processes food is pretty much combustion. like it produces CO2 and water from hydrocarbons. that's all combustion is.

food (kilo)calories are also just a measure of energy present in the food. you'll notice if you go to europe that the big label at the top of nutrition facts says Energy and not Calories. but actually, all levels on nutrition facts are theoretical; you are not going to necessarily absorb all the iron, protein, or ascorbic acid in the food either, but the amount present there is still labeled.

a calorie is defined as the measure of energy it takes to heat 1 g of water up 1 degree celsius. why we use that (x1000) to measure food calories is because a number of foods are mostly water, and so are you, but your body is of course measured in kg so it's useful to use kcal. also calorimetry measures energy of complete combustion by the change in temperature of water surrounding the combustion; many bond dissociation energies are reported in kcal/mol still rather than kJ/mol. we use bomb calorimeters because if we don't allow the internal volume to change, we can get a more accurate estimate of bond dissociation energy. calorimetry is not a hack nutritionist's plot against you, but simply the best measure we have of measuring the energy present in materials. we cannot know exactly what's in food structurally or even chemically, so we can't run molecular dynamics simulations to estimate the energies present in catabolism.

now, are energies measured by bomb calorimetry misleading as to how your body processes food? yes. your body does perform combustion on anything it can break down into glucose and co., but it doesn't necessarily perform complete combustion. some small amounts of carbon monoxide are produced in the digestive tract due to this, even! it depends on the type of food you eat how completely it combusts. for example, if you eat a tablespoon of sugar, it'll probably be processed into almost all the calories, whereas if you eat a tablespoon of rye with the same amount of theoretical glucose, it probably won't. this is a significant gripe i have with the quote unquote health food industry, actually- a lot of things are estimated as having higher amounts of accessible calories than they really have, so people end up calorie-cutting by labels in order to diet but then it's compounded by the fact that a number of the calories are entirely inaccessible. so if you calorie-cut to 1600 kcal/day but you're only eating fruits, vegetables, ancient grains, and lean meat, you're probably processing those "1600 kcal" into 1300 or less kcal!

but kilocalories aren't the only misleading thing on food labels, and while eyeballing nutrition facts can help you get enough of essential nutrients like vitamin A and K and the like, in many cases it won't be in the most easily accessible form, so you might malnourish yourself. iron is a big problem here, and why i recommend impossible foods so much to people who are vegetarian and especially vegan; heme is one of the few types of iron that the human body can process, so that impossible foods contain it without being meat makes them extremely important to a non-iron-supplemented vegetarian diet. anyway, digression aside, are the beauty and food industries intentionally being misleading about how accurate kcal are? almost certainly. is the utilization of the kilocalorie (and bomb calorimetry generally) for measurement of energy in foods due to this? almost certainly not.

(P.S.: if you'd like to know why your body isn't constantly on fire due to the fact that you're combusting all the time, that would be because thermodynamics of combustion (a reaction where the products are ludicrously heavily favored) are distinct from the kinetics of combustion commonly (in the atmosphere with so much available oxygen, the rate laws dictate that combustion goes really fast. in your body with enzymatic processes, it goes fairly slowly). everything that can combust is combusting, just very slowly, from paper to gas to sugar- if you leave glucose out in the air, it'll slowly slowly slowly burn even without heat applied; the enzymes in your body get over that initial heat/energy barrier, though, and burn it quicker. however, since there's no continual heat applied, it won't set off a chain chemical reaction and burn very quickly unless something's extremely wrong with your body. eat your antioxidants)

[asktolys]

I just heal a little slower, is all! Last Christmas, I fe- er, the ground attacked me while I was stringing up lights, and I came back fine! I'm not some fragile little baby, Laurinaitis, I can take you any day >:D

Besides, I've already beaten Doom (the original, not the lame-o 2016 one) thirty times. Martial arts, though... Now there's an idea... You can be my test subject to see how well I've learned all my new moves!!

-Looooooove Gilbert >:3

P.S. Eh, I won't bully him. Too much, anyways. Watching Ivan stretch out that kid's spine was enough... Eugh.

..... Your mortality heavy self detrimental lies aside- fine. The martial arts I can do, but we need a binding contract to avoid unnecessary force. Or else I won't teach you anything. Doom... that is one of the gross gratuitous games isn't it? You are just admitting that on the internet? You sound like a teenager, aren't you embarrassed? You are a grown man (shockingly). I am going to be ignoring the word love when it leaves your person for now. I know you won't stop unless I stop reacting. What does more than colon three mean? Let's please... not talk about that part of our lives. I ... will end up tearing up my home again for things to throw out. Please. Please. For both of our sakes. Side note, I should probably try and get him to take some vitamins, yes? Would they even help....?

[a-kaash-me-outside]

TORIIII TORIIII~ ♡

i just read abd OH MY GGHSHS this is just a snippet of my feels but i will be back with a better reaction ask after i read ch 2 tomorrow

OMGGGGG IT'S SO GOOD!!! YOU GOT ME KICKING MY FEET IN THE AIR AND SCREAMING INTO MY PILLOW IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT!!! SAMU IS SO HOT I CANNOT 😭✊🏼 AND THE PET NAMES??? PLEASEEE 🫠🥵

ACCKK CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW TO COME!!

p.s. i'm glad that you're all better now! it's also flu season here in our country. not sure what medications westerners take, but here, honey ginger lemon tea works wonders for sore throat and colds. also, don't forget to drink vitamin c and lots of water~

lots of love~ ( ◜‿◝ )♡

hello babe! AH! can't wait to hear your thoughts now that the new chapter is out!!!! i hope you love it <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

AND YEA. i took vitamin c and had a lot of honey lemon tea for my sore throat. my dad used to make it for me a lot whenever i was sick. it's my favorite. i am like clearing out all the yuckies still but i am feeling okay now! <3

[write-feel-live-love]

Welcome to the Happiness Project

So I don't know if you're familiar with Gretchen Rubin, but she has this thing called the Happiness Project. She also has a great podcast called Happier. I highly recommend it.

Anyway, if you want to learn more about her, go for it. I'm writing about my own Happiness Project, based off of hers. The gist of it is that you need to pick a theme per month (some aspect of self-improvement) and then pick mini goals to achieve that lead you closer to that theme.

So here's my first entry:

Month #1: Heal

I learned in therapy recently that I have been depressed for 6 years. Yes, this was news to me. I'm apparently really good at denial. Like.. Pro Level. Even more recently I discovered I've been depressed since I was 12. Again, Pro Level of denial.

I've always been someone to take my labels seriously and when I heard this news, I spiraled for a hot minute. I didn't know how to adjust this new label into my current life: Mother. Wife. Teacher. Where does Pro Level Depression Denier fall?

So I decided maybe it was time to step back and heal. Before I get too deep, you need to know one thing. It's been almost a year since I had my second child and post-partum depression/ anxiety has kicked my ass.

Goal #1: Start a new vitamin to combat the hair loss that my beautiful baby caused. Surprisingly, this one might actually be working. I showered tonight and not nearly as much hair fell out of my head as usual. Still could have been a wig for a small doll, but we're getting there!

Goal #2: Do a session of yoga or walk on the treadmill for 15 minutes every night. This one has also gone surprisingly well. I've only missed one might when depression hit a little harder than normal. But with the support of my fantastic husband, we got back on track the next night. Again, I started this project mid-way through March so this might not actually be THAT impressive, BUT I have 2 children under the age of 5. I think it's a pretty fucking great start.

Goal #3: Continue to work on banishing oil. I'm working my way into a new religious path. Part of which values protection. Right now, I'm working on banishing negativity from my life. Hence, banishing oil. Currently basking in the moon light charging up so I can actually use it in a ritual this week. (P.S.- No judgment please, I'm not here for it.)

Goal #4: Make Spring Break plans! I'm a teacher. I'm a burnt out teacher. Who has two small children I still have to watch over Spring Break because I created them and am responsible for them. Hence, we need to get the fuck out of the house next week or I'm going to go fucking crazy.

Goal #5: Identify the Top 3 things bugging the crap out of me at work (bonus if you can make a plan to work on them). I'll be honest here. I haven't gotten to this one yet. Work is hard right now. State testing is upon us, the kids know Spring Break is coming. Every one is burnt out and checked out. I still have a week left of March. I got time!

Goal #6: Make a list of the things that make me feel sexy. My sex life is in the trash. Post-partum and regular depression have taken my will to bone. I used to be a machine. So, to combat this, I need to find what makes me feel sexy again. So far, and pathetically, clothes have been it. Until I thought about it, and realized that somehow dancing also works. I need to give this some more thought, but yeah. We're getting there.

Last Minute Goal #7: 24 for 24. Also stolen from Gretchen Rubin. As indicated by the disclaimer. This one is last minute. So I don't have an update for this yet. It's coming.

So yeah. If you've read this, thanks. If not, it's all good. This is more for me than for anybody else anyway. I've been told that if you want to be a writer, write. I used to write all the time to express my thoughts and learn how I really feel. (Kind of informs the name of this blog, which I'll explain some day.) So here I am. Writing to figure out who this new person is, if the old me is in here somewhere, and how those two people are going to get along for the rest of my life.

[okflower999]

‧͙⁺˚･༓☾　day 5　☽༓･˚⁺‧͙

hello there,

the sleep is slowly getting better. i didn't take so long last night. i did wake up after a while though. perhaps a little more melatonin. i didn't feel rested.

i got ready and made myself feel cute. i went out and did my errands and didn't worry. i got vitamins and seasonal coffee creamer and cooking oil and got them on sale.

i went through the the fridge and made this pasta. i sat alone and ate it and didn't go on my phone or anything. i did three whole loads of laundry that were only a couple days overdue this time. i'm going to restock on detergent tomorrow.

my throat is sore. i think it's because i don't drink enough water. i hope i'm not sick. it's usually just the water thing though. i drank hot water with honey and lemon and just a bit of whisky. it felt good for a little while.

i watched frances ha for the second night in a row. i thought greta gerwig was a lesbian, but i'm wrong. that's okay. i think tomorrow i'll be able to get up and go for a walk again. here's to tomorrow.

p.s. listen to ghost by the indigo de souza

‧͙⁺˚･༓☾　okflower999　☽༓･˚⁺‧͙

[taeyamayang]

hahah yeap everyday unfortunately. on good days though it only takes about an hour 20 or an hour & a half so i cross my fingers & hope for the best each time lol 😄. it ends in August which seems long to me but i'm hoping these months will pass by in a flash 😆. other than the travel time, the work culture & environment is not so bad so i guess that's a plus, but, you never really know what life has in store for you ╮(︶︿︶)╭

i'm in mech engineering! it does include math but if im being honest not much of it is being used rn 😬🫣

congrats on graduating omg!! idk why but that is so you to be studying even after graduating and going to grad school. i wish you all the best and good vibes in your exams~

ahhh i took japanese lessons too! didn't get to finish it bc the classes were always full (╥_╥) i rmb getting excited every lesson bc it was a chance for me to show off my verymediocreveryelementarylearntfromanime pronounciation skills to my sensei ＼(＾▽＾)／ (yeah it nvr went well but she'll always say i did a great job👍😭). i hope you have fun learning the language as much as i did and maybe if i find the courage to pick up my notes again we'll be able to talk in 日本語 . . .(・・ ) ?. jokes aside, what's your favourite part about learning this language so far?

i've heard sooo many people talking about genshin lately. i'm not a big fan of rpgs (actually very bad at them) so i tend to observe from the side. what do you like the most about the game? and ofc i have to ask this, who's your favourite character?

as for me, i'm currently in love with yakuza 0! its my first of the series and i'm enjoying it to the fullest. i've been playing on the weekends to release some stress & it's the perfect antidote for me. i mean come on, it even has a karaoke and disco dancing minigame!

anyways, take care my love. remember to drink water and take your vitamins. you are loved <3

🌻 (p.s missed you too lol)

lmao its so funny that i was so shocked of your travel time when i suddenly remember that during my senior year i used to inter for a company outside the city so i literally have to cross borders before the crack of dawn which was wild bc how did i survive that?? anyway, it was just a month a half or two so it wasn't much. the job was okay too so fatigue all came from the commute (tho reading a book durinf a long ride kept me company, maybe you should try it to!) i'm glad that the work didn't add to your problems tho i'm sure you can handle anything thrown at you ;) and yes i agree, nature has its way of rocking our steady boats but im sure youll be able to cope and overcome it (if it gets too tough always rmbr that my asks is always open for rants!)

really?? i have this belief that engr have to solve math problems their entire lives and i just 😭 (i have math traumas, its speaking loudly rn lol) idk why too but "studying after uni and going to grad school is so you" makes me feel happy lmaooo. well, you are right that is so me ig i love keeping myself busy plus idk it may should rlly weird coming from me but... learning can be fun too 😭 i lit sound nerdy rn but who cares 😭

OMG REALLY! THATS SOOO FUN japanese people are very respectful so ig thats why your sensei always praises you or perhaps you were good. contrary, my sensei was sassy 🥶 lmaooo he points out mistakes and is very particular with pronunciation and clarity of words so when we recite in class it always gives me the nervesss. the only time i was able to connect my classes to anime is through the characters names like yuki means snow and yuki from fruits basket has gray-white hair and is deemed cold or yoru means night asa means morning and that shows the duality of yoru and asa in chainsaw man lol smth like that. WE SHOULD! lmaoooo tho i am not fluent in N5 i got to warn you ahead of time!! im not sure about my favorite part bc i enjoyed it sm lol i love learning languages, to begin with, so altho it gave me a high blood pressure whenever were to recite in class i enjoyed it sm heh how about you? あなたは 日本語 べんきょう たのしいですか。lololol

if you ever pick up genshin or smth YOU GOTTA TELL ME alright? cause im willing to guide you all the way and share the obsession lmaoo my fave characters... god theres A LOT but i mainly played genshin for zhongli and venti and later on liked itto tighnari and kaveh. you dont have to be good at rpgs bc coming from a no brainer in games, dude im surviving lol wait wait so yakuza 0 is a game? where do you play it? karaoke and mini dance games oooo that sounds interesting. tell me more about it and u might find a buddy

you are always so sweet. i hope the same and more for you too sunflower anon :)

take care! love seeing u here :D

[dolleminas]

First of, making assumptions about strangers on the internet looks more wilfully ignorant. You are acting like a child, and furthermore, a holier-than-thou asshole.

I am an ex-vegan, which you would know if you 1; are familiar with me and 2; if you didn't start throwing around accusations like a monkey throws around shit. I am also not from America, which is shocking I know, since the majority of you all really think America is the centre of the universe. Since you know I'm 24, you probably also could've read that I'm *European.*

Now, my personal philosophy around veganism is that the majority of vegans shout it from the rooftops because y'all love acting like self-righteous bastards because it makes you feel good in your ego place. For me personally, I know I am not the only person on this earth and I am not so self-absorbed that I'm not aware of the fact that people in different countries, with different lifestyles, with different incomes, and different health needs *do not have the ability to follow every diet.* I know this must be a shock for you, so feel free to take a few minutes to let that all sink in, okay? Eat a snickers if you're still frothing at the mouth.

Now, for me veganism is about doing as little harm as you can. Not everyone is able to only eat plant-based, because again, not everyone lives the same life. And not every body is the same. Sorry, but vegans who claim everyone can go vegan are at best ignorant, or at worst liars. I had to stop being a vegan because I have a condition called PCOS which means that I do not absorb nutrients well. In particular, Vitamin D3 and B12. I was vegan, and my body started shutting down. And if you are unaware how a severe lack of B12 looks like;

I could no longer walk. I needed to use a wheelchair. My hair started falling out. Etc. Even with B12 injections into my thigh every day. So, I came to the conclusion that my body can't survive on veganism, and at the time it pained me very much. I'm sure you can't imagine that, since you think every non-vegan is an ignorant animal-hater.

I could also list some sources about how your imported vegan foods harm the environment, how it chases animals from their habitats to make room for the quinoa fields, how beekeepers are more in tune with animals since it's a mutual beneficial relationship (which in my humble opinion we should all strive for) but since you are already acting like this I'm going to assume you just enjoy talking big words on the internet and not doing anything for the animals in real life at all.

P.S. If you wanted to reduce animal slaughter you will change people's minds more if you are kind instead of acting like a douche, but I'm sure you know that, and you just shout at everyone because it makes you feel better.

this might piss off even some beloved mutuals who I respect and adore, but it is unbelievably aggravating seeing animal welfare issues equated as feminism. things can be different and still important. things can be related and still separate things. the harm that comes to female animals doesn't have to be a priority to a woman who is devoting her life to abortion, domestic abuse, or the political autonomy of women, or other human women and children issues.

[luminous-letters]

So for context. Superhero! AU though there isn't any battle thing. Just you and Jack trying to get out of a mansion. And lemons. P.S My english isn't that good so I apologize in advance for having grammatical errors. Anyways, please enjoy a fic I wrote on a whim (again)

Word count: 980

"Ah~ Finally. The hero, the legend. The fabled hero, Captain Howl! Whatever brings you to my evil lair?" Shrimpy cooed, taking a sip from their 100% organic, freshly squeezed lemon juice.

"I do love myself some exquisite lemons, and also the juice kind by the way."

"Your twisted plans end here!" Jack gritted, annoyed at the 'threat' the department was asking him to stop. All he's seeing here is a masked, juice loving bastard, though they seem pretty familiar.

"Oh my how could I have forgotten! I still have to introduce myself." Shrimpy exclaimed, throwing the empty glass away, a loud explosion briefly rang in the air.

Jack remained still and kept on his poker face, he shouldn't be caught off guard. Truth be told he doesn't know a thing about this 'Shrimpy', only that they were a dramatic asshole and they enjoy lemons.

"Allow me to start." A snap of their fingers and a giant floating screen appeared.

"Anyways. I am Shrimpy, genius and supervillain prodigy. I intend on conquering the world or maybe open up a little juice shop, I don't really know lol. But for now I'm going to stick to world domination. And you Captain Howl, are going to help me achieve that goal, either of the two is nice though." Shrimpy declared boldly, turning off the screen to end their presentation.

Jack raised his brow in genuine confusion. This person is insane, he thought.

"I won't let that happen." Jack replied plainly. Trying to wrap his head around Shrimpy's logic.

"By persuasion of course. Consent is sexy after all." Shrimpy said, drinking another cup of juice in hand.

Clank. The loud boom of the heavy metal doors caught Jack's attention. He's going to be here for a while.

"..."

"..."

"Alright we're going to the third floor."

"Why the hell am I supposed to listen to you."

"Because *sips* I put traps all over the place and the security is on high alert. I need to turn it off."

"Why can't you turn it off yourself?"

"It's on the third floor duh. How am I supposed to turn it off here."

"You locked yourself in."

"..."

"That part was...miscalculated."

"Huff, fine."

"Cool, now get in the car."

"What?"

"A car? You know....four wheels...a door....entitled drivers."

And by some sort of miracle or whatever divine intervention there was indeed a car. Jack couldn't believe his eyes. How the hell is there a CAR indoors. What the fuck.

"I call shotgun." Shrimpy chimed, hopping into the car.

"Are you expecting me to drive?"

"Yeah, I don't know how to drive."

"You're insufferable."

"Why thank you."

-After a while of driving-

"Alright, now go towards that hallway the stairs should be there." Shrimpy said, tapping away on their laptop.

"Slow down we're not in a hurry." Shrimpy replied blankly.

Rows of classical portraits and antique vases passed by the two while regal music played in the background. Just how long was this hallway?

A beeping sound caught Jack's attention, looking over to Shrimpy, who was looking rather amused while sipped their lemon juice.

"Alright speed up, I accidentally activated the machine guns."

"WHAT??? HOW???"

"Meh, I don't know either."

"You're going to get us killed."

"I have a nice response for that. But we've got to pass that door before the machine guns activate and pulverize us." They pointed to a dark oak door with golden linings.

Jack stepped on the gas and hoped for the best. Like Shrimpy said, guns started to appear from the walls, and winding up.

"We're gonna die lmao."

"Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck."

By the time the guns were wound up and loaded, the duo managed to pass the door, the car only getting grazed by a few bullets.

"That was nice."

"No it wasn't."

"Howl get the lemon"

Jack manuevers to reach the lemon.

"Vitamin C."

"Oh my Seven, Jack avoid the incoming cars."

"?????"

-After a while of avoiding cars, Jack questioning reality and collecting lemons-

"Alright, we've finally reached the staircase." Shrimpy sighed in delight. Lying down on the red carpeted floor.

"What the hell are you doing?"

"Resting. It's been a rough 3 hours and 7 minutes."

Jack said nothing. Instead, he looked at the giant painting of a fluffy dog.

"Look at that dog 75% fluff, 13% angy and 12% chonk." Shrimpy lazily stated, still lying on the floor.

"And you, Captain Howl. 42% godly muscles, 29% brains, 12% tsundere and 17% floof. "

"Uhh...thank you?"

"I'm Yuu by the way. You probably don't remember me...we used to go to college together." There was a shift in their voice, it's much more...sad?

"Yuu??? Of course I remember you." That explains a lot of what happened today. He does really remember them. He wouldn't be able to forget them even if he tried, they're too...important to him.

"Wait how did you know my identity?" Jack wondered.

"Jack, honey, sweetie, fluffball. Your last name is Howl. You go running around with your ears and tail in shouting justice in a sexy costume that gives me a clear outline of your abs. Of course I know it's you. Also because I looked into the department's files and found yours lol."

"Hey, my costume's family friendly."

"I really hope that what I'm seeing isn't the outline of your dong, also damn that thing's huge."

"Alright not family friendly. I'll ask for a new one."

"That's nice. Now let's kill the security system."

"Yuu wait."

"Hm?"

"You...uh...wanna go out sometime? After this, I mean. I know a place...they have uh...nice steaks and...um. Just say yes."

"Ok? Yes I do."

"Good."

After walking up a few steps, Jack wanted to clarify something.

"Are you still planning on taking over the world?"

"Meh. I already lost interest a few hours ago."

"Ok that's nice."

"Now I have the strange desire of frolicking in the woods in white robes, chanting ominously to scare the crap out of tourists lmao."

"That...could be arranged."

[annicaax]

Oh my, finally a weekend dose of Vitamin Matsunaga is here! Oh man after so long... Though I read all the routes, I dunno why but I enjoy Eiichi's stories the most, even when he was brushing us off, I was enjoying plus annoyed. and perhaps, in my heart I knew he was a good ossan with a heart of gold, secretly loving us MCs, in his own way and can't express because he has his "issues"

so it was a delight to see him and MC getting together in his MS2. the epilog was the butterscotch sponge cake I longed for and... now this event story is the icing on top of that! <3 He, MC, Hawaii are perfect! and that kiss on the beach! oh my goodness finally! eiichi still thinks he might die any day but he still wants to love and cherish her for as long as he can...

now this is a sentiment which I just can't take... my heart is so full ugh...

p.s. sorry this was more like a rant will share more posts of the story. lmao the guys are all great and... I do have a soft spot for Sen lol, and ofc Ekuni. and I love how much of a gossip lover and nosy perv (kind of) Kasumi is lol lol. what am I saying? love all my doctors! and the screenshot here is kinda an error in editing, but it was still a very beautiful and meaningful sentence, thats why I'm sharing it here. so while normally I'd be annoyed with editing mistakes, I always overlook them when the story is good. so yeah, all is well.

[slackergami]

Hey....i just wanted to pop in and see how you were doing. I know this year has been rough (trust me lol..been there done that, went a little crazy last October lol). Sometimes it's hard to hold yourself together especially when life jumps out of the bushes and kicks you in the face. I know you and I don't know each other much, but if you ever want somebody to talk to I'm always around!

You seem like an awesome person and I really hope that life becomes gentler for you soon 😊 drink water, take your vitamins/pills, stay awesome bud ❤

P.S my daughter wants you to know she really likes the way you draw the "purple lady" (sylvanas is apparently hard to say lol)

oh man thank u. legit im kicked in the ass by life everyday and im used to it 😂😂 though everyone of us gotta go thru sum crazy shidd aye. but thank u really for the well wishes and i try my best 🥺

also v glad that ya kid likes my silly purple lady 👌🏼👌🏼👌🏼👌🏼