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and-claudia · 5 years ago

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Tightrope (Kylo Ren 8)

Okay a little different this go around. I put all the Lyrics of the song before the actual writing because the over all theme of the song is staying together even through all the hardships and taking risks together which is kind of like the whole theme for this part, anyways I hope you like it.

Also, Last Jedi spoilers.

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Word count: 4.281 (not counting lyrics)

Some people long for a life that is simple and planned Tied with a ribbon Some people won't sail the sea 'cause they're safer on land To follow what's written But I'd follow you to the great unknown Off to a world we call our ownHand in my hand and we promised to never let go We're walking the tightrope High in the sky We can see the whole world down below We're walking the tightrope Never sure, never know how far we could fall But it's all an adventure That comes with a breathtaking view Walking the tightropeWith you, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh With you, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh With you

Mountains and valleys, and all that will come in between Desert and ocean You pulled me in and together we're lost in a dream Always in motion So I risk it all just to be with you And I risk it all for this life we choose

Hand in my hand and you promised to never let go We're walking the tightrope High in the sky We can see the whole world down below We're walking the tightrope Never sure, will you catch me if I should fall? Well, it's all an adventure That comes with a breathtaking view Walking the tightrope

With you, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh With you, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh With you With you, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh

With you, ooh-ooh-ooh With you

The next morning I woke up with an odd feeling. Today wasn't going to go as planned. Something horrible was going to happen.

"Ben?" I called out to him as he was already making his way to bathroom to get ready for the day. I got off the bed and followed him, stopping to lean on the door frame as he stood in front of the mirror.

"Yeah?" He asked concern building up behind his eyes, he could probably sense my uneasiness.

"I'm going to go into work today, I know we planned for me to pretend to be sick. But I can't. I have a bad feeling something horrible is going to happen." I said and he nodded sadly.

"I feel it too." I said pushing myself off the door frame.

I went back to the bedroom to get dress while Ben got ready in the bathroom, then we switched off. When I was done in the bathroom I walked out to see Ben completely dressed, minus his mask. He was standing there just staring at it with his back to me.

"Hey, you ready?" I asked walking up beside him, resting my arm on his back.

He sighed grabbing his mask, "Yeah."

We walked do the door, before I opened it through he turned me to face him.

"I love you." He said leaning down to kiss me. It was a soft and short kiss, but that didn't mean it wasn't filled with love.

When we pulled away we both had smiles on our faces. "I know, I love you too. We should probably get going through."

He nodded in agreement. I let him put his mask on before I opened the door. Then we walked hand in hand up to the bridge. Before we entered I stopped and took a deep breath. I needed a clear mind to get through this. I knew it was going to be hard. But I couldn't avoid it, it would begin to look suspicious.

As we walked onto the Bridge I let go of Ben's hand as we both went opposite directions. I approached General Hux who was standing by the large window.

"Good morning, General." I greeted him.

"Ah, Lieutenant Yn. Good to see you this morning. Have you briefed your captains on their assignments yet?" He asked looking away from the window briefly.

"Not yet, sir. I wanted to run through the plan one last time before I headed down to the hangar." I said and he nodded.

"Very well. These orders are from Supreme Leader Snoke, himself. Make sure they are aware of that and failure to follow through with it will have catastrophic consequences for them. A soon as our ships drop out of hyper speed, we will be just outside D'Qar's atmosphere. We have received news that they are planning to evacuate, a spy is amongst us and fed them our plans, so we must work quickly. Once we are ready, Captain Canady will fire up his Dreadnought and incinerate their base and get rid of the Resistance once and for all. If they come at us with a counter attack all pilots need to be ready at a short notice to take off and fight... We will be ending the resistance today, Yn." Hux said the last bit quieter, in an almost sinister tone.

"Yes, General. I'll let my captains know immediately." I said turning on my heel.

I quickly made my way to the hangar that the captains and pilots under my control are based out of. I gave them the rundown, practically verbatim what Hux had told me. As I left the hangar I felt the ship jolt backwards a bit. We just dropped out of hyper speed. I ran through the corridors making my way back the bridge of the ship. When I got in the room was silent, and hue was walking on the area between the tow control pits.

"Hux, with an H." I heard a vaguely familiar voice say.

"Can he hear me?" Hux said clearly frustrated.

"Well look the General asked me to relay a message to him, so if you could find him that'd be great." I realized who was speaking, that pilot Kylo had interrogated awhile back. Poe Dameron. Something told me he could hear Hux clearly, he was just planning something.

"I believe the message is something.... something about his mother." Poe said, then the line went dead.

I rushed over to the front where the window was to see his X-Wing heading straight for the Dreadnought. If the given circumstances weren't being in the middle of a war, I am almost certain I would have laughed at the sight before me. A small, one manned X-Wing going up a massive war ship. What was he thinking?

I didn't have much time to come up with theories before he started shooting at and destroying the surface cannons on the ship.

"What is he doing?" Hux asked suddenly standing beside me.

"I believe he is taking out the ship's cannons sir. He's trying to make it useless in battle." I said suppressing the impressed smirk that threatened to creep up onto my face. Instead I stood stone faced, void of emotions.

TIE Fighters began to come out of the ship and chase him. He was a good pilot, but I wasn't too confident on his abilities to take out that many fighters alone. None the less, I silently cheered him on inside my head. I gaze shifted slightly from the scene before us that now everyone seemed to be watching. I saw, off in the distance, bombing ships approaching. I turned back to where Poe was and said nothing.

Once others began to notice the approaching bomb ships, everyone was ordered to release their fighters. I opened my holopad and opened up my units release button. I went to preset but hesitated. I closed my eyes and went to press it for real but it was no longer there. I looked up to see Hux starting at me with rage filled eyes. He had seen me hesitate and pressed the override button.

"What was that Lieutenant?" He yelled causing everyone to look up at me briefly before quickly going back to their work.

"I'm sorry I... I zoned out." I said. I was scared I had just jeopardized everything.

"You zoned out? We are in the middle of a battle, you can't just zone out and neglect your duties and commands." He continued to yell.

"What is going on?" I turned at his voice.

"I don't know, why don't you ask your lady Ren." Hux said referring to me.

"I zoned out and missed the command to release my fighters. I am sorry. It won't happen again." I said trying to sound strong but faltering a bit.

"This battle holds a lot of importance. Now is not the time to be getting distracted. Clear your head and focus on what you need to do." Ben said and little did Hux know that his words held a different meaning to me.

He was trying to remind me that we had to stay focussed on the big plan. And part of that meant going along with our usual work and not causing any suspicion with anyone.

"Yes sir." I said with a nod.

Hux still looked pissed as we both turned back to the window. Our TIE Fighters had taken down all but one of the Resistance's bombing squad. The last one was just over the front of the Dreadnought. I watched intently, chewing slightly on the inside of my cheek. Then it began to explode. It was like it was happening in slow motion. We all watched with a mixture of shock and awe as the massive ship went down. It had already destroyed the base down below, but it seemed like most of their ships had already left.

We all stayed glued to where we were. Everyone was waiting for the next command to be given.

"Destroy their fleet!" Hux yelled ruining the momentary silence that had taken hold on the room.

Everyone quickly jumped into action and this time I didn't waste time getting the command to my fighters, I just hoped they didn't actually do it. Thats all I could do was hope.

But before anyone could shoot at the Resistance fleet even once, they jumped to hyper speed. They were gone. I looked over at General Hux who seemed calm. Almost too calm.

"Sir, what do we do now? We cannot track them through light speed." I said and he gave me that same sinister grin as before.

"Oh Yn. We have a secret up our sleeve." He said to just me before elevating his voice for the room to hear, "Ready the new tracking device and track those rebel scum, now!" He commanded and everyone did as they were supposed to.

"Like I said, the Resistance ends today." He said turning back to me and I felt my heart drop.

Within no time we had their jump location and were readying the our own ship to make the jump. While we were flying through space I reached out to Ben through the Force. I need to talk privately with him.

"Were still going through with the plan, right?" I asked.

"Yeah, we're in this together." He said. There was a moment of peace between the two of us.

"Hey Ben, why couldn't you have been a farmer or something normal? Our lives would be a lot easier, you know?" I teased.

"Well where's the fun in that?" He asked and I could feel his smile.

Our light, happy moment was short lived as we both felt a dark presence approach us. Snoke. And sure enough when we dropped out of light speed his ship, The Supremacy, was looming over the fleet of First Order ships.

"Ren and Lady Ren, we have an incoming message from the Supreme Leader." A man's voice from down in one of the control pits caused both of us to turn around.

A hologram of the Supreme Leader's head was slowly coming into focus.

"Ah Ren and Lady Ren, how do you like the new name and title?" Snoke asked me.

On the inside the name made me want to vomit, but I lied to him saying, "I am honored by it."

"Good. Now the two of you are needed down in the hangar. Ren you will be setting out to help destroy their cruiser. Lady Ren you will be commanding the operation, alone." He said before disappearing.

I could feel the panic rising up in Ben. I grabbed his hand and lead him to the hangar.

We were off to the side while others were preparing his TIE Silencer and a couple of regular TIE Fighters to go out with him.

"It'll look suspicious if you don't fire at all, you're going to have to shoot some. And make sure they're not just blanks, hit the cruiser a few times just nothing lethal." I said.

He nodded. "She's on that ship. My mother." He said, he was scared.

"She'll be okay. Make sure the others follow your lead and everything will be okay." I said hugging him just as they called him over to his ship that was waiting.

I stepped back and looked up at him, he had already removed his mask and cape. "Good luck." I said with a sad smile. He nodded and made his way over to his ship. I walked over to the command room.

"Everyone out! I work alone." I said everyone quickly jumped up and gave a "Yes, Lady Ren!" Before filing out of the room. I hated this new name.

I walked over to the control panel and flipped a few switches, turned some nobs and pressed a couple buttons, making sure everything was ready to connect to Ben and the two fighters with him. Once everything was set and we could hear one another I gave the all clear to take off.

There was silence as the trio flew closer to the cruiser. During this time I felt something new in the Force. IT was sort of distance but there none the less. It was full of light. Then I realized what, or rather who it was. Ben's mother. Leia. I felt a strong urge to reach out to her but I knew that right now was not the time.

"We're aproaching firing range." Ben's voice snapped out of my slight daze.

"Okay, one moment." I said looking over at the diagram I had of the cruiser. I needed to find somewhere that would leave the ship relatively unharmed but still do some physical damage. Found it. I switched the controls to speak only to Ben directly.

"Okay, on your right, there is a small hangar on the ship... take it out." I said.

"What?" Ben yelled back.

"I know you don't want to but its fairly small, won't harm the main ship. We need to make this believable. Please Ben." I said.

I heard him sigh. "Okay, open the coms back up." I did as he requested and opened the coms back up to the other two.

"Follow my lead." Ben say and then I heard his ship speed up through the coms.

"Done." I heard his voice again it sound strong and commanding but I knew that it hurt to do what he just did.

"Okay, it looks like the ship is trying to speed up. Our ships are too large to cruise at that speed, you're going to have to pull back." I said. I received responses from the two unnamed fighters but not Ben. I switched the com controls again.

"Ben what's going on out there?" I asked him.

"It"s her. My mother. She's close. She knows I'm here." He said.

"Ben, honey, I know but you need to pull back before the other two get a chance to shoot. Pull back now!" I didn't want to but I had to yell at him to snap him out of it. I quickly switched the controls again for him to give the pull back command but he never got the chance to before both pilots shot the cruiser. I heard Ben yell in agony. This could not have gone worse.

"We're too far out. Pull back to the ship immediately." Ben said before shutting off his com.

I watched as the two fighters landed gracefully and Ben came in shortly after landing by nearly crashing. He got out and made his way straight to me in the command room.

"She's gone." He said tears already falling down his face. I was already standing up as he walked over and I opened my arms for him. He clung to me like I was his life line. I closed my eyes and hugged him back. I had never actually met her but I knew she loved Ben with all her heart, and that was enough for me to feel the loss.

Then I noticed something. Her Force signal hadn't faded. She wasn't gone. I pulled out of his arms and he looked at me confused.

"Do you feel it?" I asked.

"Feel what, Yn?" He asked trying to stifle his sobs.

"Her Force signal. It's still there. If she was dead, we would have felt it fade. Close your eyes and focus. Can you still feel it?" I asked hope building within me.

A smile slowly spread on to his face. "She's okay. But the room exploded ho-"

"Don't ask how just be grateful. She's okay. Everything will be okay." I cut him off and hugged him once again.

When we finally pulled away again I looked over him to make sure he wasn't hurt physically. I know I was on the coms with him almost the whole time but I couldn't help it. I worry about him. He looked fine except for the blood on his left hand.

"Whats wrong?" Ben asked giving me a questioning look.

"Your hand, it's bleeding." I said pointing at.

He looked at it. "Oh. I didn't notice. I didn't notice it had started to bleed. I punched part of the control panel in the ship when it happened." He said slightly embarrassed.

"Let's go get you some bandages." I said grabbing his uninjured hand already beginning to walk off towards Medbay.

"Are you'd sure you shouldn't head back up to the bridge?" He asked as I slightly drug him along.

"Yup, like you said we're in this together."

Once we were in the Medbay I stood out of the way leaning against the wall. I watched as one of the droids wrapped his knuckles. I quickly pushed myself off the wall when I saw her standing there blaster raised and ready to shoot. The girl. Rey, I had learned from mine and Ben's dreams. She fired her weapon straight at him without a second thought. I gasped sharply and turned to him excepting to see him dead but he was fine. We were both in shock. Then she was gone. Me and Ben shared a quick glance at one another before we both ran out into the hall. There she was again. This was weird.

"How is this happening? She's not strong enough to do this. It'd kill her." I said quietly to Ben.

"I know. Can you see our surroundings? I can't see yours, only you." Ben called out to her and she looked back at us enraged.

"Why would I answer either of you. You're both monsters!" She yelled at us before she was gone again.

Her words stung, for both of us. What she had witnessed was Kylo Ren and Snoke controlling me. I wish we could tell her some how that we're on her side now. We'd changed.

"Let's head back to the bridge." Ben said turning and grabbing my hand for me to walk with him.

There wasn't much happening on the bridge. The Resistance was able to keep up a great enough distance from our ships to where, with their rear shields up we couldn't do much damage. I had asked Hux why we were still firing at them he said it was to make sure they knew we were still here. I personally thought it was a dumb idea. Why waste power and energy on that, if it wasn't doing anything to them? But as he had said earlier, that wasn't quite my department. So I didn't say anything.

Me and Ben decided since there wasn't anything for us to do there to just wonder the ship. We said we were checking up on operations or something like that, but really we just wanted to be away from all of it. As we walked we stayed quiet, letting the thuds of our feet hitting the ground be the only noise we made. If we weren't in the middle of a battle I would have found peace in it. We eventually found ourselves in one of the observer decks of the on-board maintenance shops. We just stood there watching as droids worked on repairing different things.

And then we both felt it. The same odd disturbance that we felt in the Medbay. We turned around and there she was once again. Me and Ben shared a confused glance at one another.

"Why does this keep happening?" I asked. None of us were doing it ourselves.

"You're a murmurous snake." she spat at Ben before looking at me, "and you, you're probably just as bad as he is by now. You're both too late though. You've lost. I already found Skywalker."

"We don't care about finding him anymore." I said. She looked confused for a second.

"Don't try to lie to me. I know everything I need to know about him. And for you to stand with him doesn't make anything you've done any better than what he has." She said standing her ground on hating us.

"You don't the half about him. So much has happened since Luke last saw him." I began to defend him.

"I know enough." Rey said.

"You know what Luke wants you to know about my past." Ben said stepping forward slightly, Rey took a small one back.

She had an odd look in her eyes. It almost felt like she wanted to believe us, but something was holding her back from doing it.

"Look, Rey. I know its hard to trust either of us. But I am begging you to please see the truth. The three of us are all on the same team. Please, you have to believe me on this. I'm sorry for what I did to you, I wish I could undo it but I can't. But I need you to trust us, please." I begged her.

"Where'd she go?" I snapped my head to Ben just as the girl vanished before our eyes.

"I- I don't know." Ben stumbled.

"We need to figure out a way to get her to understand we're not against her anymore." I said.

"I know." Be said grabbing my hand with a sigh, "I just know how to do it."

Suddenly there was a a slight hum of something electrical turning on. We both turned to see a small hologram of Hux appearing.

"I need all high ranked Lieutenants to report to the bridge immediately." He commanded before the hologram disappeared.

We were practically on the opposite side of the ship. I told Ben to meet up with me later. I couldn't risk getting into trouble so I took off running for the main bridge. I was too late by the time I got there the others were already leaving. Still, I was order to report there, tardy or not so I walked in to find Hux and another man standing at a hologram of the Resistance ships.

"Oh, Yn. What brings you back to the bridge?" Hux asked me.

I was confused, "You ordered all Lieutenants to the bridge."

"Yes, but with the new title of, Lady Ren, you now hold the same rank as Kylo Ren." HUx said and my jaw went slack for a moment.

"I see this is news to you." I nodded, "I come closer I'd like to show you something." I walked over as he motioned me over. "The Resistance is still keeping their crosier out of range but, their medical ship just ran out of fuel and has drifted into range. Why don't you use your new found authority and give the order to destroy it." Hux said giving me a cunning smile.

All I could hope was that the crew and patients were off the ship. I had no choice but to give the command. If I didn't it would raise red flags and everyone would know where my allegiance now lies. Hux removed his com and handed it to me. I took and slowly brought it up to my mouth.

"This is Lady Ren. I command you to aim your cannons at the Resistance medical ship... Once the target is locked, fire and destroy it." I spoke into the device and got a chorus of "Yes, Lady Ren"s back in response.

It sent shivers down my spine, and not in a good way. I handed the com back to Hux.

"Now come watch, its the best part." He said placing a light hand on my lower back and leading me to the window.

I saw the small ship drift further behind the cruiser. Squniting I was just able to make out what looked like small escape pods heading for the main ship. A little hope returned. Then in the blink of an eye, a green blast hit the ship. It exploded almost instantly. It took every fiber of my being not to recoil.

"Well done, Lady Ren." Hux said smiling widely at me.

I nodded in fake thanks. "In my rush to get here, I left Kylo. If you'd excuse me I'd like to go find him." I said.

"Oh but of course." Hux said and I quickly walked away and went to find Ben.

I tried to reach out to him but something was blocking me from getting to him. Something told me to go to the training room. I quickly ran there and opened the door and stumbled in.

"Somethings going on. I could reach yo-" I stoped short when I saw that he and Rey had just been talking.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to interrupt." I said.

"Oh no you're not. And I believe you." Rey said as the three of us began to smile.

I went to walk towards them but I couldn't move. Ben saw my struggling and his face turned from one of confusion to one of terror. Rey had vanished. Now it was just me and Ben. I felt someone squeezing my neck. Tears ran down my face as Ben stood to run to me. The room quickly faded to black. Whatever was holding me in place rebased its hold and I collapsed. Deep down we both knew this was one of the risk that came along with what we were trying to do, but I don't think either of us expected it to happen. Not like this.

I willed myself to hold it together and used all my strength to tell him one last thing. I reached out and I wasn't blocked out this time.

"Keep going. I love you, Ben Solo." I said to him through the Force.

The last thing I heard were Ben's footsteps as he ran towards me.

A/N: Tis’ not the end. Do not worry. badly winks*

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