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juniperwoodwell · 1 year ago

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Dedication

Ch. 1 | Ch. 2 | Ch. 3 |

Kylo Ren x F! Reader

Word count:5k

Warning(s): I'm not sure rn, proceed with caution I guess.

Summary:As a Captain in the First Order, Y/N has never been one to bring attention to herself unless it was commanding her squadron. What happens when a personal hobby make's her prey to one of the most feared men in the universe?

A/N 1: I'm so sorry this took so long to get out! I had a hard time writing these few week. This is only half edited because an hour ago my mom went to the hospital, but I wanted to get this out for you guys. I will edit it in the future! ❤️

A/n 2: Btw, I decided to try something else for splitting up the scenes , any words in bold red letters is the beginning of a new scene. Lmk if you like that better than the dots.

"You're right on time."

The deep tone of his distorted voice sent shivers down her spine. She stared at the back of the mountainous man in front of her; swallowing her nervousness, she cleared her throat and stood beside him.

"What can I do for you, sir?"

Kylo turned his head slightly to analyze her momentarily, then looked back at his ship.

"Why did you disobey direct orders?"

"I-I don't understand-"

"You snuck onto my ship while I was away and after hours."

Y/n bit her lip and sighed;

Well, might as well get this over with.

"I know the risks, Sir, But the information I gathered was vital to my success. I don't want to disappoint you." Her last sentence was mumbled, admitting that hurt her pride.

Kylo hummed and nodded. "Well, since you disobeyed my orders, there will be a punishment." His tone darkened.

"I understand..." This was it; my desire to always succeed would be the end of me.

"You will do a pre-test. No data pad, no notes."

"What?" Her head snapped in his direction; she expected to be dead already.

"You heard me. Let's go."

The inside of the Silencer was cramped, to begin with, but now it was almost suffocating.

Kylo sat in the Pilots seat; his presence alone seemed to fill the tight space with a tense atmosphere. Y/n stood beside him so she could access the flight computer.

"I-Is this necessary, sir?"

Kylo had his hands folded in his lap and nodded. "I need to see you doing it. It'd be useless if I were down there."

Y/n nodded, rolling up her sleeves. "I do suppose so, Sir."

"You may start."

Kylo's POV: (-Example- : Y/n's thoughts)

"You may start."

He watched as she crouched down and turned on the flight computer; no better option other than the floor, he supposed.

He didn't care if she got it right or wrong. He was too caught up in his thoughts;

She was certainly strange. She's always so anxious around me but still manages to back-talk me.

He closed his eyes as he began listening to her rushing mind. It brought some sense of calmness to his constantly overwhelmed one.

- Shit, If he knows about last night, what else does he know? Does he know about my mother? -

He opened his eyes and turned his head, looking at her profile. Her eyebrows were knitted as she worked on the computer.

Her mother? Does she mean her biological or stepmother?

"Your father isn't your biological father isn't that correct?" He asked, watching as she turned to him.

Shock etched into her attractive features. "How'd-"

"I did a background check on you when you requested this assignment."

"Oh, well...yeah. My mother divorced him and left us both. My bio father is unknown."

Kylo hummed. "Does that mean your father's wife is your stepmother?"

Y/n nodded, Turning back to the computer. "She's more of a mother to me than my real one."

"Oh? And why's that?" He smirked as he watched her physically tense up.

-Oh, Fuck.-

"I...Well. My biological mother was hardly there for me growing up, and after she married Raife, my father. She only became more distant. Then divorced my father to join the new republic, and I haven't seen her since." She sighed. "My stepmother took me in as her own; she was super protective of me as a child and was against me joining the first order."

- Why am I spilling my secrets to him!?-

Kylo chuckled at her thoughts, though it came out as a distorted crackle, catching her attention. "Your mother joined the new republic?"

Y/n sighed,

-Too much information, dumbass. Way to dig your own grave. Again.-

" Yeah...She's some big-shot counselor now, but like I said. But as I said, I haven't seen her since the divorce- Oh, wait- Actually, that's a lie. She did try to reconnect a few years ago, tried to convince me not to join the first order, but I told her to politely fuck off."

Kylo sensed anger in her tone as she fiddled with the computer. "I see."

Silence filled the space; Kylo shut his eyes and listened to Y/n's mind, He searched for more information about her mother, but her mind was so filled with overwhelmed thoughts that it made it difficult to navigate. Kylo had never experienced such an active mind; It fascinated him.

The silence and his investigation were interrupted when a bang echoed in the cockpit, followed by a hissed-out curse.

"Fuck!"

He opened his eyes to see Y/n standing now, rubbing her head. Frustrated by something,

How is it that every time I'm one way, she manages to be the complete opposite? Like now, I'm the most relaxed I've been in weeks, and she's completely stressed out and frustrated.

"Are you alright?"

He asked suddenly. Startling them both, It's a very known fact that Kylo Ren is not one to care for others,

"Y-Yeah, Sorry, Sir. Low ceilings."

He stared at her momentarily, an idea forming in his mind.

Y/n's POV:

This whole situation is bull- Why is he asking so many questions? Why this freaking Pre-Test as a punishment? Does he really need to be here? Why is he asking about my mother?

-ERROR: INCORRECT-

The screen showed those words in bright red lettering; she groaned softly.

This is stupid.

She ran her hands over her face and stood up. Too frustrated to remember the low ceilings,

"Fuck!" She cursed when her head collided with the durasteel ceiling.

"Are you alright?" His voice startled her, making her gasp and turn to him.

"Y-yeah, Sorry, Sir. Low ceilings..." She was shocked by his sudden concern, but what happened next made her want to scream as if she'd just seen a ghost.

Kylo grabbed her wrist and pulled her onto his lap; Her back faced him as she straddled his right thigh. Blush crept up her neck and face; she turned her head to look at him. Unsure of what to do.

"Does this help?" He asked,

"What?"

"Does this help? With how you were crouched, I could assume that was uncomfortable, making it difficult for you to focus." He spoke calmly as if what he'd just done hadn't almost caused her to have a heart attack.

"O-Oh...Uh." She looked at the computer, the angle was better and would relieve stress from her ankles, but the warmth from Kylo's thigh made her believe crouching might be the safer option...

Y/n wasn't the most active woman in the world; she preferred to focus on her work over fulfilling any personal pleasures, Minus her Starship hobby. But this sudden contact with someone made her realize how touch-starved she was.

"Yes...It does help. Thank you, Sir." Kylo nodded, and she continued her work; in truth, being beside him earlier was nerve-wracking, but now sitting in his lap? Oh...It was worse. It was distracting and made it even more difficult to focus, especially when he'd move his foot, flexing his thigh. Or when he'd roll his shoulders, brushing his chest against her back, causing goosebumps on her exposed forearms. The proximity was becoming too much; she couldn't concentrate.

Y/n sighed and shut off the flight computer, running a hand through her hair.

"What's the matter?"

Y/n looked over her shoulder, shrugging. Could she tell him that he was causing her to feel slightly turned on? No! Of course not! He's her boss...Technically. So she went with the half-truth, avoiding the embarrassing stuff.

"I've done this test sixteen times now; It's much more than I thought it would be. I can barely remember any of the small details; I'm practically guessing half of it." She sighed again, her shoulders slumped as she spoke, "I give up; I'm sorry, Sir." She began to stand up, but Kylo wrapped his arms tightly around her front and pulled her flush against him. They were so close she could hear his breathing, undistorted. It was calm.

"You aren't allowed to give up, Capitan. You're here to prove that you are exactly as everyone says you are. You're constantly being praised for your piloting and engineering skills. You're apparently so good at what you do that the Supreme Leader permitted you to train a squadron of pilots from childhood, these children are orphans, and you're training them to be loyal to the first order by acting like a mother. Which is proving to work better than Hux's brainwashing method. It infuriates him; it's...very amusing for me."

He paused, his grip on her loosened slightly. Y/n was shivering; she wasn't cold, though...How could she be? Kylo radiated heat like a fire. It was from a combination of things, Fear, curiosity, surprise, and arousal. To name a few. He must have noticed this, she assumed, since his grip tightened and pulled her impossibly closer. "One little ship shouldn't be all that difficult for you." She sighed, nodding her head.

"I know.."

"Then why is it?"

She shrugged. "It's stressful; what you've asked me to do is...it's foreign to me. And you...Sir," She bit her lip to stop herself from digging herself a deeper grave. But he was persistent.

"Go on?"

She swallowed the lump in her throat. "I-...I am afraid of you. Sir."

"As you should be. But you aren't right now, are you?"

She shook her head, "No, Sir."

"Then what are you afraid of?"

"Honestly? Even though I am afraid of you most days, I have a lot of respect for you, and now that I have this assignment, I'm afraid of disappointing you and not meeting your expectations."

Kylo nodded, "I wouldn't have approved your assignment if I wasn't confident in your abilities. Unless...They're all lies, and you've somehow managed to fool everyone and are secretly a rebel spy?"

Y/n gasped, turning her head to gaze into the dark visor of his helmet. "I am NOT like my mother. I would never betray the First Order."

Kylo chuckled, "Good to know where your loyalties lie." Y/n could feel the vibrations of his distorted chuckle; she realized now that he was teasing her,

"Is this amusing to you?" She asked, turning her head to look out the windshield, crossing her arms over her chest, accentuation her breasts.

Kylo inhaled sharply, covering it up by teasing her once again. "Yes, very much so. You're something else, Captain Seinar"

She huffed and absentmindedly rested her head against his shoulder. "I could say the same for you?"

"Oh? How so?"

"Well...for one. You haven't killed me yet like I've expected you to...Multiple times-" "I have no reason to." "But I've sassed you, talked back to you, disobeyed your orders. I was late, and you destroyed a hangar terminal. You have literally killed for less."

It was his turn to shrug. "...I didn't destroy the terminal because you were late. I apologize if I gave you that impression. Hux had informed me that they lost the location of the scavenger girl. You just happened to show up, and I needed an excuse." Y/n put her hand over her mouth to stop herself from laughing. "Is this amusing for you?" His tone sounded playful as he mirrored her words from moments before.

She shook her head, but her expression betrayed her, unable to contain her smile.

He chuckled. "To be honest, you are a valuable asset to the First Order. You've managed to make yourself indispensable. It'd be a waste to kill you."

"O-oh..."

"So, what else then?"

"Well...For instance," She lifted her hands to accentuate her point. "It's very out of character for you, sir."

"Maybe for you and everyone else, it is."

"What? Are you saying you're actually kind and considerate?"

Kylo scoffed. "Not usually. But somehow, you've managed to bring out that side of me-" As he was about to finish his sentence, Y/n's watch beeped, indicating that the hour had finished. "You did well; I'll give you an extra hour tomorrow." Kylo let go and helped her stand. He lifted his hand above her head before she could bump against it again. "Thank you, sir."

When she returned to the lounge, the only one there was Miya; when she saw Y/n, she stood up and rushed over to her.

"Where the hell have you been?" She scolded.

"Miya-"

"You missed lunch and dinner, and you're back late! We were worried Sick! "

"A lot happened. Can I explain in the morning? I'm exhausted."

Miya signed, "Yeah, fine. But I want a full explanation."

"Yes, Ma'am," Y/n Yawned and trudged back to her room. She signed, "So many questions; why does he make everything so difficult." slowly, she peeled off her work clothes as her stomach grumbled. "Shit- I'm starving." She changed into something comfortable and then went out to the lounge.

As she was scrounging around for a snack, a heavy knock echoed through the room; y/n gasped at the sound and then quickly opened the door to find a trooper standing there holding a black cafeteria plate with a matching lid.

"Captain Seinar?"

"Yes?"

"This is for you."

"Uh? Are you sure? Because I canceled my meal delivery."

"Yes, Ma'am. But I was ordered to bring it to you."

"By who?"

"Kylo Ren, Ma'am,"

Y/n scoffed. Really? "ah, alright. Thank you." She took the food back to her room and sat it on her desk. She crossed her arms and stored at it.

"Why in the world would he have someone bring me food? Is he sorry he made me skip dinner? This man, I swear. one minute he wants to slice me In half, and the next he's acting as though he's my friend or something" She shrugged and sat down at the desk. When she opened it, there was a note written on real paper; this surprised her because It was rare to see actual paper since everything has become mostly digital. It read,

You did well tonight. Meet me in the hangar right after dinner tomorrow. You'll do your two hours then. Enjoy this; You deserve it.

Y/n stared at the note in awe, "This man is not who people say he is. Goodness." Cautiously she began to eat the meal.

The next morning went suspiciously well. Y/n woke up before her alarm, made it to breakfast, and taught classes. It wasn't until after lunch that things started to go downhill. She had gone to her office to do paperwork; the office was the equivalent of a large closet.

A knock on her office door startled her from the report she had been writing.

"Come in."

The door slid open to reveal Kylo Ren. She stood up quickly, "O-Oh, Hello, Sir. How can I help you?"

"I need your help with a ship."

"Your silencer?"

He shook his head slightly. "My command shuttle. Come, I'll explain more on the way."

She nodded and followed him out of the room. He explained what was wrong with the ship, and he took her to the hangar.

Y/n placed her hands on her hips as she stared at the large ship.

"Huh..."

"What is it?"

"Oh- Uh. Sorry. I just assumed it'd be in worse shape. You have a reputation for destroying things when stuff is inconvenient to you."

"I chose to find you first."

"Ah."

Kesta came down from the ship when she saw Y/n; her eyes lit up.

"Oh, Good. You're here!"

Y/n offered her a soft smile. "Mind if I take a look?"

"Of course, Though. We've practically torn the cockpit apart trying to figure out what's wrong with the damn thing. So watch your step."

"Thank you. I will."

Kesta was not kidding. There were wires hanging down from the ceiling. The control cover was taken off the dock and sat to the side. Wires were littered all over the floor as well. "Goodness..." She trudged her way through the mess and went over to the dock where the flight computer resided.

Y/n wasn't unfamiliar with the Upsilon class command shuttle. It had just been released the year she joined the first order, and when she did her engineer training, one of her tests was to program it. Her programming came in second to a punk who decided he'd steal her idea, which in turn made it look like she stole his.

So in truth, this was her creation, but no one knew. She nodded to herself, then exited the ship,

"Well?" Kesta asked, walking up to Y/n.

"I think It's the wing retraction gear. When it starts up, does it make a high-pitched screeching?"

Kesta nodded.

"Then...Yeah, somethings wrong with the wing retraction."

"Would you mind taking a look at it?" The older woman asked; y/n internally groaned. This could take hours.

"Yes, Ma'am. I'll need some tools, though."

Two hours of screwing and unscrewing bolts, rewiring the wing retractor, and then having to do it again because she forgot that it needed to be wired to a different input. Kylo had left as soon as she got her tools, and Kesta left after that.

Tiredly y/n sat at the bottom of the ramp on the ship; she wiped her forehead as she sighed. A shadow eclipsed her, and she looked up to find Kylo looming over her. Quickly she stood up, almost stumbling forward into him. Catching her balance, she spoke,

"I-I wasn't slacking, Sir."

The new familiar crackle sounded softly between the two. "No. I didn't think you were."

"Ah. Well- Is there anything I can help you with?"

He shook his head slightly. "Is it fixed?"

Y/n looked over her shoulder and nodded. "Yes, Sir."

"Good. You may go."

She looked at him confused but then shook her head. "Yes, Sir."

Before she could walk passed him, he grabbed her arm, Wo- Deja Vu. "Do not worry about Hux's order. Continue the way you have been."

She looked into the dark visor with an uncertain expression. "Are you saying that just because it would only piss him off more?"

"Yes. But also because I meant what I said. It works." She looked away and nodded; before He let go of her arm,

He said, "Go to the infirmary."

"For what?" She asked; he tilted his down, and she followed his gaze. Her dark grey shirt was stained a deep red on her side. "Oh- Wow. I didn't even feel that."

"Obviously."

She glared at him. "Thank you for noticing. I'll go now." He nodded and let her go.

"Are you kidding me?" A short, blonde-haired woman in a white doctor's coat walked up to Y/n as she entered the infirmary. "I swear, You're here every week, Y/n. What'd you do this time?"

"Hi, Sara...I was fixing Kylo Ren's command shuttle and must have cut myself. Not sure how it happened."

Sara rolled her eyes. "Must have is an understatement." She said as she slightly lifted up the hem of Y/n's shirt. "Come on. I'll fix you up."

"Thank you-"

"You'll be paying me."

Y/n laughed softly and nodded in agreement. "Yeah, don't worry."

Sara lead Y/n to a bed and closed the curtain. "Are you doing alright?"

"What do you mean?"

"I mean, You're the center of everyone's gossip recently."

"Because of my new assignment?" Sara nodded as she disinfected the small but deep gash in Y/n's side; Y/n gritted her teeth, "Y-yeah. It's...complicated. At least I'm not dead yet." She joked, earning a glare from Sara. "Sorry- It's nothing though. Just lots and lots of studying." The doctor hummed as she began to stitch up the wound, causing Y/n to grasp the firm mattress.

"...You must not know then."

"K-know what?"

"There's a rumor growing around that you're screwing him. Especially since last night."

"...last night?"

"Yeah, One of the engineers told me he saw the two of you inside his ship." Y/n groaned. "Is it true?"

"No, of course, it's not Sara. He found out I snuck onto his ship while he was gone and made me do a pre-test as punishment. He had to be there to observe my progress."

"But did you need to be sitting in his lap?"

"How much did this engineer see!?" Y/n exclaimed, wailing her arms around; Sara glared at her. "Sorry.."

"He saw enough to spread some nasty rumors." Y/n sighed and began to explain everything to Sara from the beginning, and by the time she was done, Sara had finished stitching and bandaging her side.

"Are you sure you can handle this?"

"I...I'm not sure. Tomorrow is test day, and I don't think I'm going to succeed; I'm too far in to back out now. This might be the last time we see each other."

"I want to say don't be so dramatic, Y/n...But who knows what he'll do to you if you fail."

Y/n scratched her head. "Yeah... I know."

"How are your nightmares?"

"Oh-...Good." Sara knew she was lying but didn't persist. They knew each other well enough.

"Okay, You're all set." The women stood and exited the area; a few of the nurses looked at Y/n harshly. She avoided their gazes, and Sara walked her to the door. "Just be careful. Rumors like these...They grow legs."

"I know. Thank you. I'll send you the money tonight."

It seemed as though everyone's eyes were now on her as she made her way through the long tiring halls. Checking the time, she decided she could change out of her stained shirt and then go teach her flight lesson.

Walking into the lounge, she bumped into Callisto,

"Hey! Where have you been?"

"I'll tell you later, Cal. I gotta change and go to my next class."

"Wait- No. Hang on. Is that blood?"

"yeah, It's nothing. I'll be fine."

"Did he do that to you?"

"Who?"

"Kylo Ren."

"What? No. I cut myself while fixing a ship."

Callisto sighed. "I swear-"

"Cal. He didn't do anything. Now I have to go."

"Fine. But you're coming to dinner, right?"

She didn't give him an answer as she went to her room.

"Captain!" Dante's voice alerted the woman as she wrote down a report on her data pad.

"Yes, Dante?"

"General Hux wants to see you. He said for you to go to his office in the command center."

"Now?" Dante nodded. "Okay."

Quickly she gathered her small group and told them they could go back to their dorms and that the training was canceled.

Nervous didn't even begin to cover what she was feeling the moment she stepped through the command center's doors.

Cautiously she knocked on Hux's door.

"Come in."

Taking a deep breath, she stepped into his office.

"You asked for me, Sir?"

"Yes. Take a seat." She nodded and sat down in a chair across from his desk. "Is your assignment going well?" He asked as he linked his hands together on his desk and leaned forward.

"Yes, Sir." She kept her expressions blank.

"I was informed that you snuck onto the Silencer after hours. Is this true?"

Shit. She nodded, "Yes, Sir."

"Why?"

"Because I needed more information."

"I was also told that you stole a copy of the ship's programming. Is this true?"

"Y-Yes...Sir."

Hux hummed and sat back in his seat. "I respect you and your reputation Captain. But this is something I can not allow to pass. You will be completely suspended for five weeks, Along with your personal project."

"Which one, Sir?"

"Your squadron." he paused as he glared harshly, making her want to crawl away and hide. "If you choose to do such things again, I will have you fired and your squadron terminated."

"But you can't-"

"You're dismissed." biting her tongue, she stood and left.

When she exited the control center, she got lost in her thoughts.

How could he have known? Did Kylo tell him? Maybe Cal's right. He is just toying with me.

She was stopped in her tracks by a firm hand grasping her shoulder; she turned to see one of the Knights of Ren. Cardo, she believed.

"Captain Seinar."

"Y-yes, sir?" She turned to face him as he let her go.

"Kylo Ren has ordered me to find you and bring you to him."

"O-Oh. Alright."

Anger slowly started to boil in her bones as they made their way to where every Kylo was.

The room they arrived in seemed like a recreation room. She noticed how the other five knights were there and turned to her as she entered. Cardo continued to walk through the room to another in the back; Y/n kept her head down as she followed him.

Kylo Ren stood in Infront of a large Transparasteel window that looked out into the vast expanse of space.

"Here she is."

Kylo nodded and waved him off. Cardo left the room, closing the door behind him.

Y/n stared daggers into the back of his helmet, her fists clenched tight by her side.

"Is something the matter?" His voice bounced off the walls.

"All that shit you told me yesterday was just a fucking lie. Wasn't it? You've been trying to ruin my life from the moment I requested to look at your damned ship."

"I do not know what you mean." He turned around to face her.

"Bullshit! You have changed my schedule twice already, stressed me out beyond compare, and told Hux that I took a copy of the ship's programming plus that I snuck on board after hours!" Her strides were quick as she made her way over to him, and her chest was heaving. She stared up at him, face red with anger.

"I did no such thing."

"Liar! He's suspended me for over a month and my squadron as well. He told me if I slip up again, he'll fire me and that he'd terminate my squadron. You can't fucking handle someone being better than you at something, can you!? You're getting exactly what you wanted!" She yelled colorfully.

Kylo took a step in, their chests brushing against each other. His voice was low as he spoke,

"Watch it."

She scoffed and rolled her eyes. "what're you gonna do? Kill me? Please, that'd be a mercy."

He chuckled darkly. "That mouth of yours...It could get you in some serious trouble." He grabbed her arm and slammed her against the nearest wall, caging her in. Her anger was washed away in an instant, and fear now occupied her mind.

"Come now, where's all that fire?" She took in a shaky breath, "What's wrong? Are you scared I may actually kill you?" She looked away, but he grabbed her chin, holding her in place. "I meant every word I said to you. I would never jeopardize your position; I know how hard you've worked for it."

"But-"

"I did not tell Hux what you did. That was between us, and It does not involve him." He sighed as he noticed the fearful look in her eyes. He let go of her chin; she seemed to relax some, but her mind continued to rush. "He has no proper authority to fire you or terminate your squadron, and if he tries, I will intervene."

"Why?" Her voice was soft and quiet.

"Because, as I've said, you're a valuable asset to the First Order. It'd be foolish to do away with you."

She nodded, biting her lip. "I'm sorry for practically screaming at you. It wasn't fair of me to assume you did those things without asking you."

"You're very good at that."

"At what? Assuming things?"

"No- Owning up to your mistakes."

Y/n looked down at her feet, but Kylo lifted her chin with his thumb. "This brings up a problem, though."

"...And that is? Sir."

"We possibly have a snitch." He let her go and pulled away, turning to the window.

Quickly she controlled her breathing and stood beside him.

"Did you tell anyone?"

Y/n had to think for a moment; she gasped when a name flashed through her mind.

Callisto.

"I-...Yes. My best friend. Special Forces Pilot Timothy Callisto, but he goes by Cal." She turned her head to look at Kylo, and he did the same. Her eyes were filled with worry and desperation. "He wouldn't..."

"It's a possibility."

"But-...We've been friends since the academy. He wouldn't betray me."

"You put too much faith into people."

She scoffed. "How would you know."

"I just do."

They stood there quietly for a while.

"What did you want me for, sir?"

He let her question linger as he turned away from the window and took a seat at the table that sat to the side of the room. "Join me." He said, motioning to the seat in Infront of him. Sitting down, she fiddled with her hands, suddenly anxious.

"I would like for you to join my division."

"Like the knights?"

He shook his head. "No. Like as my second in command, as in...Being my wingman and Captain."

She looked at him in disbelief. "I-...sorry. What?" she tilted her head slightly. "Why?" she asked.

"Because someone with your skills deserves to work with people of your same standard."

"Are you saying that my friends in the special forces aren't of my standard" Her tone had an edge to it as she spoke.

"That's not what I meant."

"What did you mean then."

"The special forces are the best of the best when it comes to the first order. But you, you're something-" His words are interrupted by the door opening.

"Apologies, Sir. But you're being summoned to the supremacy." One of the knights spoke. Kylo turned his head to the knight and then back to Y/n.

"Thank you, Ap'lek." The knight: Ap'lek. Nodded and closed the door.

Kylo stood, offering his hand to her. "Think about my offer." His voice sounded soft behind the mask, but she thought she had just imagined it; sighing, she took his hand and stood.

"Thank you, Sir. Do you know if you'll be back in time?"

Kylo hummed, looking down at her hand that was still in his own. "I am...unsure. If I am not. I will have Ap'lek accompany you."

Y/n froze, and her hand subconsciously gripped his. She stared into the visor, anxiety etched in her features.

"Is something wrong?"

She gulped and shook her head. When she went to pull her hand away, he grabbed it tightly,

"Do not lie to me." His commanding tone made her look away,

"...I'd prefer not to do it at all than have to do it without you." her confession surprised them both. "I-I mean the ship, of course; I...I'm just used to you now. It'd be awkward with anyone else." She explained.

A static crackle echoed off the walls. He was laughing at her. She met where she assumed his eyes were and rolled her own, a smirk on her lips.

"You should go. Don't want to make the supreme leader angry."

"How would you know it's the supreme leader?" He asked teasingly,

"Why else would you go to the big man's ship?" Another crackle and a nod from Kylo.

"You are right, though. I should. I will try to be back before our scheduled time, but if I'm not. Don't worry too much. Ap'lek is a man of few words, and he's the...Nicest. I suppose, but he'd deny it. He's just polite." Y/n nodded,

"I understand. Thank you, Sir. Good luck." She offered him a smile, and he gently squeezed her hand before letting go and leaving the room.

Tag list:

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joshscurlyhair · 2 years ago

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☽ 𝕖𝕟𝕚𝕘𝕞𝕒𝕥𝕚𝕔 - 𝕛𝕠𝕤𝕙 ☽

Summary: Meet Willow, she likes to spend her time in cafes and read. She likes to be her own person and is mainly introverted, what happens when she unexpectedly meets Josh in a cafe. Josh can’t seem to take his eyes off of her, there’s just something about her that’s incredibly intriguing. Will he go up and talk to her?

Warnings: language

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“For Willow?!”, the barista yells in the air as I subtly jolt going up to the counter where he set it on. I gave a nod and a smile then sat down next to the window.

I got out my laptop doing some assignments typing away on a APA paper I needed to finish writing. I took a sip of my iced drink and began to notice that the cafe was getting a bit packed for a Wednesday.

Hmm interesting

I shrugged it off and continue to type away on my paper. I took another sip of my iced macchiato but couldn’t shake my gut feeling of someone staring at me. I looked up and locked eyes with a guy who had curly locks, facial hair that was placed above his lips and below his chin. He was wearing light brown khakis, white shirt with a couple of layered necklaces over a brown winter coat.

He’s definitely attractive

He smirked at me and I gave a shy smile and looked down due to nerves and began typing once again.

“For Josh?!”, the barista yelled out

Josh, that’s his name

You saw he took his hot coffee and turned around searching for where to sit. He began making his way towards me, I looked down.

Oh shit he’s coming towards me

I could hear footsteps come closer to me until I saw white converse on the floor. I looked up and saw him give a cheeky smile. “Hi! Is this seat taken?”, he asked pointing to the empty chair that was in front of me. “U-uh no go ahead” I said giving a smile and adjusting myself in my seat.

Holy shit holy shit

He took a seat and placed his coffee directly in front of him. He adjusted himself in the seat then gave another smile. “I’m sorry if I’m disturbing you-“, “Oh no not at all! I was just finishing up” I say lying through my teeth. I closed my computer and placed it in my bag then adjusted myself in my seat once more. He clears his throat, “What’s your name?” He asks as he sipped his hot coffee. “Willow, I’m guessing yours is Josh?”, “Ah stalker huh?” He raised an eyebrow that I found attractive as hell. I gave a chuckle, “No I just heard the barista shout your name”

He gives a chuckle, “I’m just teasing ya” he says giving a wink. I began to instantly blush as I looked down. “You come here often?” I looked back up trying to keep the conversation open ended. “Yeah, I come here maybe like three times a week”, “Hmm how come I never seen you around then?” I raised an eyebrow as he chuckled noticing I was mimicking his movements. “Well, when you usually come here?”, “Only Friday through Sunday”.

“Ahhh that’s why. I come Monday through Wednesday.. maybe I need to start coming Friday through Sunday then” He says giving another wink. I chuckled and bit my lip nervously. “Well, Willow what are your hobbies?”. There was a slight pause to me thinking and gathering my thoughts. “Well, u-uh I like to read, write and maybe draw sometimes” I say giving a shy smile. “Mmm your very enigmatic”, you chuckle “I suppose I get called that a lot”.

He stared at my lips then up to my face analyzing me. “Yeah but, you’re very intriguing. Like something is pulling me to you”. You couldn’t help but start to blush again. He kept the consistent eye contact and smirked

This man has GAME!

There was a ringing in the air

“Ughh one sec”, he grabbed his phone out. “What? I’m busy”, “Seriously? Okay I’m on my way”

He hung up and looked at me. “I’m sorry I’m gonna have to go, my brother somehow lost our music sheet that we need for our next practice”

He’s in a band??

“Look I do find you very intriguing and I think I would like to get to know you. Would you like that?” He asks placing his phone in front of me with the new contact screen showed up. I began to type my phone number then my name in the blanks. I pushed the phone to him, “Yes I would Josh”

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kozykricket · 6 months ago

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for context ive decided i want to write a video essay (even if it ends up just being a script and not a video for a whiiile) about what bug fables does right. since ive gathered lots of notes on things i appreciate about it

but theres just something about Writing stuff that intimidates me so much . i think its just perfectionism…

honestly i just need to try and learn to Work On Things *without* overwhelming myself with making them incredibly big deals

…and also take things one step at a time. thatd be helpful. instead of just vaguely telling myself to Do It .

therrs… other things…

like how my brain goes to try and escape things .

i guess its jjst right now down to uh, “i dont want to just Not do anything regarding this project, but i dont want to stress myself over it”

like should i just let myself have a break from thinkin about how i Ought To get it Done and be Productive ?

or should i push myself to work on it

thing is from thinking about it, my brain feels fried. as hell.

…i wish i cojld analyze my issues with writing more. as in, my struggles… what they specifically are aside from trying to do everything at once and wanting structure and pacing to be perfect

but yeah this is just like … school. essays im passionate about doing but just destroy me because of my own mindsets of overscoping and doubting and other shit

uh. i guess im just gonna take a breather and when i dont feel like my brain is having a blue screen, i can try and work on it. when i want to.

…dont make something i enjoy into a chore, i know. but also i need to go through the tough chore parts of creation to get anything made at all

i dunno ig just, if anyone does have any experience struggling with writing because of overthinkimg, or any thoughts on Hobby Vs Chore , ig it might be helpful

god is it normal for things that you genuinely really want to do to feel like a chore to even start. like ... god...

#jake vents #vent #jake post

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klmwrites · 3 years ago

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Spoilers for The Batman movie up ahead!

The batman was surprisingly a decent movie and i really enjoyed the adrenaline and hype the story brought to its audience. I will be splitting this post into 2 parts: the parts that can be improved first, followed abt what i liked abt the movie.

So here goes:

Part 1: Parts that could be improved.

1) The movie makes assumptions. Understandable to be honest given that batman and the accompanying characters have been rebooted till the infinity at this point, but a flaw nevertheless. The movie plays on the assumption you know who batman and selena kyle is from the getgo, as well as the fact that bruce waynes parents were both killed by a gunman in the alley. If someone who is unfamiliar with the franchise comes and watch this they would probably summarize the movie as "a movie version of true crime solved by a man with emotional issues pretending to be a bat." (not my words, but a friend of mine who was unfamiliar with the franchise said so)

2. Selena as a character was severely undeveloped. She was portrayed as an individual who has no control over her emotions and did things out of impulse, albeit that her feelings were justified. At every step of the way batman had to "rationalise" with her, which furthers reinforce the stereotype of women being impulsive and emotional beings incapable of seeing and acting for the bigger picture. Also, her backstory of being Falcone's daughter was such a cheap shot: not that having that storyline was bad in itself, but it was bad because it was rushed into the movie, and therefore had little to no screentime to be developed as a peoper plot.

3. The pacing of the movie was too hasty. Even as it was 3 hrs long, the entire movie felt rushed, not in terms of budget cuts, but it felt like the directors was trying to squeeze more items into an already overflowing box. They tried to add so many paradigms and complexities that they failed to remember that quality triumphs over quantity. Instead they should have picked several parts and let the riddler and batman play cat and mouse (no pun intended.) That way each stage of riddlers game would be fully developed and there would have enough complexities to establish a proper relationship between the antagonist and the protagonist.

Part 2: What i liked abt the movie:

1. The subtle dark humour. From Gordon mentioning "(batman) is wearing gloves" when batman touches the evidence to Penguin's snide remarks abt Gordons and Batman's poor spanish, The dark humour hits the spot every time.

2. The part where batman jumped from the top of the building looking more like a flying squirrel rather than a majestic bat. This is an example of more explicit humour, and the fact that it was batman in a poorly designed suit trying to look cool scene made it even funnier.

3. The nolmacy of the villians. Often not Batmans villians are seen as characters who are high and mighty, and untouchable. But not in this movie. This is especially telling on two accounts: Bruce meeting Falcone and Riddler addressing his followers online. In the former, Falcone talks to Bruce like one would talk to a son on the topic of Thomas Wayne's murder and in the latter the riddler starts of with a "hey guys, thank you for subscribing to my channel and following..." as if he is some sort of twitch streamer. The nolmacy of it all is laughable, and is meant to be because this humanizes the villians. This is not done however to invoke sympathy from the audience, but to reflect one grim reality regarding todays society: anyone can be an influencer and that in todays society, one must be careful of the people you meet, for often they are not who them seem to be. This is in my opinion the motif of the film.

4. On that note, lets talk about casting. Riddlers casting was spot on! The actor had such an unassuming face and it was difficult for the audience to reconcile with the fact that he was the same maniac screaming over facetime at batman while coleson had a bomb around his neck. Once again, this goes back to the idea and motif of the film that the person behind the mask/screen is not who they seem to be. Patterson being Batman was not bad of a choice, but he did come of as kinda emo at times also at times i could not reconcile that this is batman all i saw was edward. Selena's casting was spot on as well, but i had to admit i wasnt the fondest of andy serkis being alfred. Too little screen time, and the vibe just wasnt there.

But overall, I would give this movie a solid 8/10. Despite its flaws and all, it was a batman movie that was worth watching in cinemas.

#the batman #spoilers #spoiler alert #robert patterson #andy serkis #movie reviews #dont be a dick and spoil it for others pls #over analyzing shit is my hobby i guess #selena kyle #catwoman #dc comics #KLMreviews

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highflyerwings · 3 years ago

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I know a lot of you think I'm against Mujin/Jiwoo, but you'd actually be wrong in that assumption. I'm very much interested in that dynamic, but specifically from Jiwoo's perspective. And I don't think anyone really analyzes their relationship from that angle enough (or at all really). So, if I may, for a minute, discuss my thoughts on the matter...

I truly don't believe Mujin would, or even could, return romantic feelings for Jiwoo. Regardless of his sexual orientation, I just don't think those feelings are in him for her. He cares about her very much, but there's a limit to how far those feelings reach.

But I very much think Jiwoo could, or maybe even did to a certain extent, fall in love with Mujin. Whether she loved him, or the idea of him and what he represented to her, I don't know, but I'm fully on board with the idea of her being in love with him. Because that makes sense.

Jiwoo was obsessed with her mission. First and foremost. She was angry, and revenge driven to the point of obsession, and I don't know how much she allowed herself to entertain thoughts of romantic love outside of that, but it's obvious she did. Look at her relationship with Pildo. She grew to trust him. She built a friendship with him, and love was very obviously in sight for the both of them, but she was so guarded emotionally it was a struggle for her to let in someone she didn't know. An outsider. But it was clear she was ready to try. She was ready to maybe let herself have one tiny bit of happiness.

There are a lot of years where we don't see Jiwoo's personal life, so it's absolutely within the realm of possibility she had sexual encounters during that time. But friends, and especially romantic partners were likely something she didn't have. Not that she didn't want them, but she didn't allow herself the luxury of that type of connection. The girl didn't even have furniture in her own apartment. She didn't have hobbies, or interests. She didn't let herself enjoy life, because she didn't think life was meant to be enjoyed.

She bonded with Mujin via her father. That was their mutual connection, and really the only thing tying them together. And call it "daddy issues" if you like (I will), but I think Jiwoo growing up in that type of environment, with the one man who truly knows her and her baggage, that's some intense shit. That'll get anyone attached. (Not to mention Mujin is just wildly attractive, physically speaking.)

So she trusts him, and she trusts his bond with her father, and she trusts that they're on the same page, and she trusts that he's got her back, and that trust builds over the years into love. She loved him, and then one day she found herself in love with him, and it just breaks my heart that she was deceived by him in so many ways, and emotions she never allowed herself to feel before, for this very reason, of being hurt beyond repair, she ended up giving in to (even a little bit) for him.

I don't ever want to see anyone use her reaction to his deception as proof that she was in love with him. Her pain would have been just as great if she wasn't romantically in love with him. But it's not hard to imagine that romantic feelings were there, and I kind of love that interpretation because I'm a sucker for a girl with daddy issues who falls for a hot older man. What can I say.

But let's end things on a less emo note. Because what I REALLY wanted to talk about was the parallel between Jiwoo bringing Mujin chamomile tea, and Geonpyeong bringing Jiwoo chamomile tea. I don't think that was a random coincidence on the writer's part, but that's just my guess.

Jiwoo brought Mujin tea to help his insomnia. It was a small act of kindness and gave us a little insight into her affection for him. And then there's cutie Geonpyeong, who was so kind and considerate to Jiwoo from day one (when some of her other colleagues were not), and I like to think he had a bit of a crush on her. So that day she gets out of the hospital, and Pildo takes her to the restaurant to meet up with Geonpyeong and Daesu, she's sitting there, and she's realizing this must be what it's like having friends. Then Geonpyeong hands over that tumbler of chamomile tea he prepared specifically for her, for no specific reason other than he knew she'd like it, and would need something comforting, and I like to think that was a moment of realization for her.

Did she look at that thermos of tea, so very much like the one she gave to Mujin, and immediately recognize it as a form of love? Did she see her own love for Mujin reflected in the same act of kindness Geonpyeong extended to her? Did she go "Oh...he likes me." Or did she go "Oh...maybe I like Mujin." Maybe she didn't realize her true feelings for Mujin until Geonpyeong handed her that tea, with that shy smile, and same cute, flirty way he'd been in the office every day. Maybe she suddenly realized, damn...I have a crush on Mujin.

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syubub · 3 years ago

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May 13th Reading

Definitely long awaited and way bigger than I intended it to be so buckle up.

Funky disclaimer: this is for entertainment purposes only and not to be taken as fact! This is my interpretation of the cards!

Oh boy. The continuation of yoongis soulmate saga.

(Note frome future me: it's not proofread but I'm hungry. Sorry for mistakes!)

So so so so

Let's start.

I started with all the normal jazz. Connecting with his energy and shit. Same as usual same old same old. Platform= same same. I was like, "hey, let's talk about your soulmate and the whole may 13th shit" and we connected via energy stringy thing to the forehead and such. I was intresting bc my end of the string was kinda my energy color! Neato. Looks like some rest has really done me good!

Okay, here's where I start actually asking shit. I made notes at this point before the reading as I usually do. I'm just gonna insert the screen shot here.

The 14 thing really fucked me up. You'll see later. Also, when I got the whole Pisces Jupiter thing I had to do me some googling bc we established that Jupiter went into Pisces ON May 13th so I was like?? Am I missing something?

I was. I forgot that it goes retrograde and then co.es back to Pisces on December 28th. And I do indeed think it to be significant.

The shit about temperance makes a lot of sense. In yoongis first soulmate read I flipped my shit bc he was like, "You're gonna get temperance reverse" in regards to a card for his soulmate and I was like "pft whatever. Don't play me like that"

And then I got temperance reverse. It's been a significant card from the jump.

I asked him if he had any advice for his soulmate and that's what "Don't wait for big things, you'll miss the small ones that lead you to bigger things" and "Look for facts before assuming" and "Don't try pushing it, forcing it won't make sense" and "A spade is a spade/ ace is an ace" and "Don't make ill informed guesses" all were

Now this part:

"Union has happened , yet to on the physical"

Gave me some hints thankfully because he straight up said no more hints.

This ties back into the whole Jupiter thing too. The seeds are/ have been planted and now they have to grow before they can be harvested.

Well Mr. Yoongi, I'm impatient and I don't want to wait. I want to see you in love pronto.

Anyways

He showed me a little dream box/ trinket box looking thing and a super vague Keychain with no further explanation... so... there's that I guess.

I can't quite decide if "Don't make ill informed guesses" was a tongue-in-cheek pike at me or if it was genuine advice to his soulmate? He just loves to not explain things.

Now let's begin the monster read.

So. The first row of cards

I asked the question, "what the fuck was May 13th and what was it's purpose in regards to your connection"

Important is what it was lol. I interpret this as them finding their footing and this being the starting point of the genuine foundation being layer. Like they've been manifesting eachother for a while but May 13th marked the start of them making the real life changes in their actual lives that will be the set up for them meeting.

The seven of coins is about thoughtful planning and creating security/ stable plan. The tower is essentially ripping away anything and everything that was built on unstable foundation and challenging/ testing your character (an extremely rude awakeing if you will). Judgement is releasing the past so you can rise above it and confronting yourself as you are (Also legit awakening) the queen of coins is financial security and self confidence in your abilities. Ten of coins is prosperity and abundance and most of all, stability. Eight of wands is explosion of potential and rapid movement. Temperance is awareness and balance between physical and spiritual. It's also that quiet peace where you find balance.

So. Seeing all those cards it really does seem like maybe his soulmate took on something new that could lead straight to union? Same for yoongi. I'd like to analyze and recent or new-ish habits or hobbies he's picked up?

Moving right along though. I asked what the 13th did for each of them in their personal life and personal journey. Kinda like what came as a result of that energy? Let's start with yoongles

This was really intresting to me. I think he definitely gained some form of clarity about the situation with that sun card. The 5 of cups tells me that either he was kinda forced to confront some of his flaws in a way that he was trying to avoid or he had to consciously let go of something dear to him? Could be something he had to leave behind because it crumbled with the tower moment but he didn't see it coming or didn't know that it was time to part with it? With that queen of wands though fits beautifully with the sun! Its like he's found warmth after a long winter. Definitely found a spark of compassion and generosity from a place of happiness and love rather than anger, fear, obligation or pitty.

I asked for clarity cards/ anything else that may 13th signified bringing in and we got the 2 of cups and 10 of swords. I have two thoughts. Either he let go of a relationship that he was already in because he didn't feel as though they were particularly compatible anymore (Also ties into the above section) OR the 13th had made him very much consciously aware of his soulmates incoming status and he is now preparing and working on himself for when this person comes. The 10 of swords would be him releasing the past and the pain and any ill fitting behavior that don't vibe with him any longer. Yellow really seems to be working for him by the way.

Soulmate time

Lol. All signs point to his soulmate genuinely starting a new venture. New creative pursuit that will bring them good money. 10 of pentacles is abundance, prosperity and stability. The ace of wands is a new creative spark and passion and it's the first big steps into something new. The 2 of wands is "the world is in the palm of your hands" vibes. Choices need to be made swiftly and with the ace of wands I think they will be. With the heirophant too, it will be a well informed decision because they've been manifesting this and has been searching for all the possible information.

As for clarity, we have the moon. Damn. Soulmates been doing that shadow work. Dredging up all their bullshit and getting rid of it while still taking the time to sit with it and release it so nothing is unresolved. Also probably extra creative due to all the emotional baggage being thrown out. (Definitely helping with the ace of wands vibes tbh)

Now for the bad boys in the middle

The question I asked is what those individual changes (detailed in the last two sections) will bring for the bond and I just can with them. These fuckers. I am so invested in their love story bc it's so... them? And just so fucking ROMANTIC. UGH I CAN'T.

Back to the point. High priestess, 4 of wands and the lovers. The high priestess is deep knowing and insane intuition, the 4 of wands is the purest joy and marriage and the lovers is well, the lovers.a magical union.

FUCK DUDE I NEED THIS TO BE A ROMCOM.

For the row of bottom cards

I asked if they had anything at all to add so I'm gonna explain each card individually bc I think they could be individual tid bits of shit.

Knight of coins is good news about finances/ money looking promising and organized work (also dependability!!). Death is all about transformation, the beginning of a new chapter and accepting in order to move foward. Ace of coins is spiritual and material abundance and also a reminder to keep grounded. Page of swords is confidence, important news coming and really good insight! Roots out secrets or hidden things like a truffle pig. The star is promising potential, healing and guidance from an enexpected place. The two of cups is a soul connection, love, intuition especially in regards to another person and a good bind. The emperor is self awareness, foresight, fearlessness to achieve a goal and confidence. Eight of coins rev is poor discipline and skating by on low effort.

Now to the sides!

Yoongi is the left, soulmate is the right.

So, let's begin with yoongi. The first two cards are anything he wants to say to his soulmate. Wheel of fortune and three of swords reverse. I take this as "its all in divine time/ it's destiny" (wheel of fortune) and "trust your intuition. It's okay to get hurt, you just need to remember you can always pick yourself up" (3of swords rev.)

We have now cards that I asked what he was learning through this process/ in this time. Be positive and first step.

The last two cards are affirmations he wants to give his soulmate.

"When I introduce joy to a situation, I change the vibrational frequency of what's happening around me" and "directing my focus onto what's thriving creates more of what I want"

Now for soulmates cards (same structure)

Strength and eight of swords. "You're stronger than you think. Take every part of yourself and acknowledge it. You're a force to be reckoned with" (strength) and (soulmate snapped at him on this) "the only thing holding you captive is you."

Now we have peer pressure (I think soulmate is learning to say "fuck you" and "fuck off" to people who have a set idea of how everyone should be living their lives), emotional healing and open your arms to receiving.

Then we have "its good to feel good" (lol I feel like yoongi definitely needs this one) and "when I connect to the spiritual realm, I open the door to recieve divine guidance, clear direction, and great wisdom"

The last stretch my friends.

So. Completion, leave behind the things that no longer serve you. Exist in the present and don't keep mulling over the past or any future happenings. Magic, pay attention to the magic around you. Listen for the signs of the universe and take them as they come (essentially listen to divine guidance) . Be open minded but logical as well. Luminous warrior, try focusing on the good in yourself instead of berating yourself for every small flaw. Spiritual path, self explanatory. The blade, your power can be a weapon when used willy nilly (most often wounding the wielder) or it can heal. Don't fear it but also consider how you choose to utilize it. The give away, be greaful for the sake of being greatful for it, not because you want something in return. The rain maker, manifestation station. Create with the tools you have because you have everything you need in order to manifest. "Don't take life personally"

Now we have heaven sent.

""Let yourself be helped" assistance is coming your way so act on it and say yes"

" This Oracle also comes with the message that you are to trust in the things that you feel and say to others without knowing why. It moves them. You might not understand, but through trust you are allowing yourself not to overthink and censor yourself. As such you are able to become a vessel through which the spiritual gift can be passed on to others. Don't block yourself. Let life happen through you. Only benefit can come from this."

And free from judgment, free to love

" If you have been asking life for a solution to a specific difficulty you have been having, this Oracle comes with the message that a solution is in gestation right now. This situation is already being sorted out and the resolution will come to fruition very soon. Hold tight and wait for the eminent birth of that resolution."

" This Oracle also brings you a message about love. You may find that you are loving, or soon will love, in a different way. You may worry about this love, given that it defies what you have known or been taught about love. Perhaps you are becoming able to love another tremendously, even though you don't have much of a personal relationship with them. You might question if this love is real. It is real Kama it is just happening at a different level to the love and attachment you experience when you are involved in a personal relationship with someone. It is not more or less, it is just a different facet of love. It may be that you are opening up to love the planet and her creatures, including the animals, the ocean dwelling life, your own body, the trees and so on, more than before period you may feel passionately purposeful about giving your time and energy to causes that protect and nurture the Earth and her creatures. You are affirmed in this love too. The universal mother is operating through you to nurture life. She will support you in your work, so that you can continue To come from love and not become drained, depleted or lost in despair or fear of futility. Instead, you will be energised and expanded by your dedicated service to life."

" Finally, this Oracle has a message for those who may be feeling alone or lonely in a need of greater nurturing from others. You are asked to stop, relax, centre and settle into your body to feel your connection with life itself. The air in your lungs is the same as the air that moves through the trees. The water in your blood is the same water that fills the oceans and is moved by the phases of the moon. The flesh of your body is the same substance as the body of the Earth itself. The heat in your digestive system is the same fire and heat as that from the Sun. Feel this connection, then do something nice for another without agenda. Make a donation, even if just a small one, smile, say a prayer, sent out a good thought or make a wish for another. That's it. You have connected to life again and in doing so, life can connect with you. And so it shall.

And that's all for the cards but but but.

Someone (either my guide or yoongi) was like, "do a song. Do a song. Do a song." And I was like, "oki doki, sounds good.

So I asked what numbers I should try refreshing and then it hit me. The number 14 came up before the reading and it seemed a bit misplaced? So I did 14 shuffles and look what popped up

You gotta be fucking with me.

Istg these fools will actually be the death of me dude. Euphoria is so romantic and I lowkey feels like it describes a bit of what their bond must be like.

YOONGGGIIII

Anyway,

I came back to the platform to be like, "thanks homie" and it was weird bc he was practically pure energy? Like usually I visualize his energy as what his physical body looks like because it's easier to comprehend? But nope, he was just a big shimmery glob of energy.

As I was going to disconnect, a few things happened. I felt tingly and the platform was vibrating almost? So I was like, "hold on, what the fuck is this?"

And then

It hit me

"MIN YOONGI IS YOUR SOULMATE HERE??"

I could tell this fuckin asshole was smug even in his blue glob form.

The color was... blue like yoongi but also a light lavender/ pink kinda vibe. Pretty damn distinct.

I was so stoked and I thought we'd all get to chat and I could yell at his soulmate for being an elusive asshat

But Mr smug butt had different plans.

My dude dropped a little marble thing in my hand and I was like ??? And he was like, "you'll know when you need it" and I was like ?????

My guide took pity on me and said, "it's just a representation on information that you've been given but it isn't the proper time to unpack it yet"

Cool cool so like and energetic zip file that will release itself whenever it damn well pleases? Cool cool cool.

(Asshole)

Anyway, I genuinely think that my excitement of this whole situation must somehow also influence how yoongis energy handles my prodding? Like what the fuck is this marble bullshit?

To top it all off, he gives me a friendly shove off of his platform.

Thanks, buddy.

Now we are here. And as always, I'm left with more questions.

My main take away is that amay 13th through July 28th will be all the foundation and ground work and December 28th 2021 through May 10th (11th? 9th?) 2022 will be a more likely time for physical union and actual relationship stuffs.

Anyone who knows more about astrology please feel free to chime in on this whole Jupiter in Pisces bit! My understanding is super surface level!!

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That was a big boi and now my thumbs hurt real bad. Hope you were entertained by the chaos.

#bts #bts tarot #bts reactions #yoongi #bts imagines #bts readings #yoongi imagine #bts suga #min suga #suga #min yoongi

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nerdskii · 1 year ago

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1. Are you named after anyone?

Sort of... my mom smooshed an aunts name + bible name into my middle name.

2. When was the last time you cried?

Two days ago because a relative is having some mental troubles and refuses help and it is just so hard to watch.

3. Do you have kids?

No, but I am a great auntie!

4. What sports do you play/have played?

I played tennis in middleschool, softball and soccer in highschool.

5. Do you use sarcasm?

Not really, I am autistic so I'm too up front to do it often. But I do know when others are being that way.

6. What's the first thing you notice about people?

I usually don't unless they are wearing a cool pair of headphones or a cool band shirt... something like that. I will never notice physical features, I literally don't give a shit what anyone looks like.

7. What's your eye color?

Brown

8. Scary movies or Happy endings

Happy, I guess. Scary movies are so corny because I don't believe in the supernatural

9. Any talents?

I pick up on languages *very* quickly. There was a Navy recruiter hounding me to take the ASVAB in highschool because they desperately needed cryptologists.

10. Where were you born?

Michigan USA, she is MidWest Mother, and Greatest of the Lakes!

11. What are your hobbies?

Video games, meditation, skateboarding, and reading fanfiction >__>'

12. Do you have any pets?

No, but there are a total of 10 pets I can visit at any time at my relatives houses!

13. How tall are you?

5'4 (164cm) the shrub in the forest that is my family. My mom is 6'1 (189cm) and everyone else is over 5'7

14. Favorite subject in school?

Literature, I love analyzing the themes of classics and looking at these little capsules of human behavior. Our collective motivations in any time period can be found on a page somewhere.

15. Dream job?

This is a trick question. No one should dream of work. Work should fill a space in your life for displaying your many skills and sustaining the kind of life you wish to lead but should not define you. Your dreams are for your heart and your spirit, while you can really want to apply your skills in a field, dream much more personal than a job.

15 Questions 15 Mutuals

The rules are: Answer the 15 questions and tag 15 of your mutuals.

ty @trvbblemaker for the tag :D

Are you named after anyone?

not that i know of

2. When was the last time you cried?

like last week after the orthodontist lmao

3. Do you have kids?

i have plants

4. What sports do you play/have played?

i did gymnastics and dance now i do nothing~

5. Do you use sarcasm?

it's somewhat of a coping mechanism

6. What's the first thing you notice about people?

how they dress/their hair

7. What's your eye color?

hell if i know

8. Scary movies or Happy endings

happy endings :]

9. Any talents?

i'm rlly good at overthinking and ignoring problems (like genuinely tho ig i'm good at art)

10. Where were you born?

america 🇺🇸 (i hate it here)

11. What are your hobbies?

crocheting, watching shows, drawing

12. Do you have any pets?

cat named otis <3

13. How tall are you?

i think technically 5'4 1/2"

14. Favorite subject in school

art

15. Dream Job?

something i don't hate hopefully in an art field

no pressure tags: @newtness532 @lirdgorl @rainysaturdayafternoon @justkeepwalkingnothinghere @snek-amiga @deusetco @crayonssmellgood @arshemelsoe @lizvi @bbreaddog @noworneverphantom + open tag

#tag game

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slutfor-fictionalmen · 4 years ago

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Seasoned

Ban X Punk! POC! Plus sized! reader

“Really ban? That’s the fourth time you’re making us stop, these stops are making this trip far more tedious than needed!” she looks at him with pure irritation. She places one hand on her hip and the other massaging her temples. ”Look, I get it, you wanna stop and see this town, i know you can’t help it! But could you let us get to our fucking destination WITHIN the time we need to be there?”

He smirks and looks back, “Why put up this front that you hate this extra time with me Y/n? You know you love going with me.” He stops and turns fully around, “but if you want you can lead the way so i can see the view~”

She scoffs and continues following his path. “I get you like to objectify women, I guess you see that as some hobby, and maybe the whores you’ve fucked have let you, but I won't. Yes you WILL go my direction but i’ll be damned if i let you ogle at my ass while you do it. So get your head out of the gutter,” she slaps the back of his head, “and stay on the road perv.”

He rubs the back of his head and sighs “you know i could kill you, so easily, but for some reason you still boss me around! It’s like you don't care that I'm a powerful being….. Do you?” She chuckles and shakes her head, ignoring his comment.

It took her a while to get over that fact when coming into this group. And it took her a while to get comfortable. She has had to put up with hate, told that if she fixed her attitude and lost some weight she'd be a golden goddess. But she didn't care, she never did, she left that small minded town and all the skinny judgmental bitches with it. She had become accustomed to a life alone on the road. She had actually met the group through ban, going to one of the few tattoo and piercing parlors, to get her nose pierced she ran into a 6’8”(210cm) man leaving with a small tattoo. He decided to chat her up despite her bitter demeanor. He was one of the few people to find out just how sweet she actually is.

He brought her back to the group with little to know fight from the others, all of them welcoming her into their group and traveling with her in their pack. And the rest is history. But all of them were afraid to hurt her, except for ban. The only thing he has been trying to do was get in her pants with stupid lines, making you realize, that he’s never had to work hard for a girl that didnt drop to her knees for him. Everyone said that it was a good thing, it meant that would be humbled, and she would get more confident. But little did they know, she was falling for him to. And this little errand they sent them both on wasn’t helping that. She never wanted to give him the satisfaction of knowing that he won her over.

She was pulled out of her thoughts by the next road sign, “It’s this next town up here, i can go in and get what they need if you want to wander around.” She pulls out her wallet and checks to see if she has enough.

He takes her wallet and looks at her with a smirk,“You see, i’m not going to let a beautiful girl-” “woman you mean” “sorry, a beautiful woman such as yourself to walk into town alone, and besides, i have the money now.” He looks as if daring her to fight back but she analyzes the situation and decides it best to have a cavalry in a town like this. “Fine, but we get what we need and get out.”

Surprisingly, he does as he’s told, a quick in-and-out shopping trip coming out with only what was needed(and a few trinkets he swiped from the guy who ripped you off in prices). And they were one town away to where they stopped to rest for a few days.

Ban hasn’t stopped talking since they left the town causing her to block him out while he said, “You know, I fell in love with you…..when we first met, when i saw you getting your nose piercing, i had never seen a girl get any sort of piercing, not until i saw you, i thought you were badass, and hot. But i know you don’t like me, i mean, why would a girl like you like me? I’m scarred up and damaged. I’m not worth it and I know you probably think the same. But i can't help but think how our kids would look, what would happen when this is all over and we could settle down, how pretty you would look if I made you mine. I’m sorry if this makes you uncomfortable but i had to say it, i couldn't keep it in anymore. I love you, Y/N.”

Y/N stopped walking and processed what he just said, replaying the whole thing in her mind, she didn't say anything until he started to defend what he said, trying to take it back. “You WHAT? I mean firstly, you shouldn’t assume a woman want’s kids simply because she can HAVE kids but that’s a nice thought. I won’t lie, I find you attractive and sweet, I mean you introduced me and my lifelong friends, you made my life so much better and i do often wonder how your abs feel- but don’t talk about yourself like that! You are not damaged, you are seasoned. You’re a person with a history, you’re not bland and boring, you are colorful and interesting. You are wonderful and I would be lucky to be with you.”

He blinked multiple times only to smirk and walk towards her, “You wondered how my abs feel?” he laughed while he wrapped his arms around her looking into her eyes. “Can i kiss you Y/N, or is that too soon?” She grabbed the back of his neck and gently pressed her lips to his, only stopping to hug him.

“If you try to pull some slick shit before I give you consent, I'll beat your ass. That being said, I feel the same as you do ban.”

She looks into the pond next to them and fixes her edges and hair, wanting to look presentable before heading back to the group. “Now come on, we have to get back before the sun fully sets!”

Ban watches her speed walk back to the group, smiling for the first time in a while.

this is for @lustfuldevils very own squishy, i’ve owed you this for a while, i admire you love!!! thank you for everything!

#plus size reader #chubby #chubby reader #poc!reader #punk!reader #plus size!reader #chubby!reader

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glitterandmoondustofficial · 3 years ago

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Lost And Found

Characters: Law, Lammy, Heart Pirates Rating: Teen Warnings: Language, PTSD, Depression, and Anxiety mention Notes: I know this has probably been done a million times but it’s my turn (: AO3 Link

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“Where are you going today, Cap?” Shachi grinned at Law. Law shrugged. “Wandering?”

Law grunted. He watched his crew walk off the Polar Tang. Not at the actual port, of course. Submarines were suspicious enough, let alone one sailing with a black flag. They found a quiet little beach to disembark safely. Law looked back at Shachi. “You know what they say about assuming things.”

“Pawn shops for coins, then.” Law rolled his eyes. “Well, I’m going to find some good grub.” Shachi rubbed his stomach for emphasis. “Want to come with? Or have you decided this is going to be a day where you ignore your own advice and not eat?”

“You’re being rather annoying this morning,” Law quipped.

“Just worried about my cute junior,” Shachi cooed at him. Law rolled his eyes again. Shachi patted his back with one hard pat. “I’ll see you later, Captain. Enjoy your day.”

Law muttered his thanks before adjusting Kikoku. He watched Shachi walk off of the Tang for a moment before sighing and moving to leave the submarine himself.

Shachi was not wrong. Law planned on wandering the island and then probably going to look at coins. Simple pleasures, Law supposed. After a life of whatever in the hell his life has been, it’s nice to have some form of hobby that doesn't involve violence or medical procedures…or both.

Law walked off the Tang and along the beach, watching the sea hit the shore. He watched a tiny crab scurry from the sand to the sea in some hurry that only crabs could be in. As he walked further down the beach he noticed that people were starting to appear. It looks like he made it to the public beach. Law made a disgusted face. He supposed it was time to look in the town, lest he be surrounded by a bunch of fun-goers.

Law made his way to the port town. Nothing special about it. He wondered if his trip would be fruitless. He might have gone to an island with no new books, no island-specific coffee, or worse, no new coins. He huffed. He wouldn’t know until he actually looked.

His shoes made a tapping noise as he walked on the stone ground. People walked past him, completely unaware of who he was. Or maybe they just really, really didn’t want to acknowledge who he was. Either way, Law didn’t care. He was on a mission. Buy stuff.

He walked past food stands and restaurants, not paying them any mind. He wasn’t in the mood for food, and no one seemed to be selling any quality coffee. He continued walking, looking for anything interesting. He caught sight of a bookstore. Finally. Maybe this place would hold his interest.

He adjusted Kikoku and walked towards the shop. He was almost smacked with the door when someone decided to exit at the time he tried to open it.

“Oh! Sorry!” The woman apologized.

“Whatever. It’s fine,” he grumbled.

He looked at the woman. Her light brown hair was in a braid. Her gold eyes met his and they stared at each other silently.

Of all the things that Law expected to find on this island, this was not one of them.

He stared at the ghost in front of him, not sure what to do. He swallowed bile in his throat, everything coming back to him at once. She looked like her. She looked like his mother. He took a deep breath and looked her over again. No, too much of his father. She looked like Lammy would have, had she had the chance to grow up.

“Law?” The woman spoke up and Law’s ears started to ring. It couldn’t be. “Law?” Her voice grew more anxious. “Is that you?” She knew him? Is that really her? He let out a shaky breath and felt himself reach towards her.

Law snapped back to reality and withdrew his hand. Of course she knew him. He was Trafalgar fucking Law, the Surgeon of Death. He looked at the woman’s face and noticed the tears running down her face.

“Law, it’s you isn’t it?”

“That’s not exactly a hard thing to figure out. I’m sure my bounty poster is everywhere.” He tried to sound calm but his voice was shaking.

“That’s not how I know you. That’s…” she trailed off. “You’re alive! You’re-”

“In the way,” a flat tone said from inside the building.

“Oh!” The woman said. “I’m so sorry. We’ll get out of the way.” The woman took Law’s arm and started to drag him away. Law was so stunned by the action that he didn’t fight back at first.

Once he realized what was happening he pulled his arm back swiftly. “I don’t know who you think you are but-”

She turned to look at him, tears still flowing down her cheeks. “You remember me don’t you? I’m Lammy. You’re my brother.”

Law felt nauseous again. “Lammy died,” he snapped. “She died in that fire.”

“I didn’t. Almost did, but I didn’t. I was saved.” Law eyed her, not believing a word she said, but as he did he noticed the all too familiar white splotches on her tan skin, just like him. Just like his splotches. But still - there’s no way she was saved. It was genocide. They set the hospital on fire on purpose. It was to kill everyone inside.

His chest tightened and it was hard to breathe. He felt a cold sweat run down his face. Anxiety. PTSD. His vision was blurry for a moment until he felt a hand on his forehead.

“You’re hot,” she said. “Come on. I’ll take you to my flat.”

She started to drag him off again and this time he couldn’t find the strength to fight back. Before he knew it he was laying on a couch in a small apartment with a cold washcloth on his forehead.

He stared at the ceiling and then over to “Lammy,” who was reading a book in a chair across from him. He narrowed his eyes at her and felt himself become nauseous again. He felt hot, like a fire was lit under his feet. He smelled smoke and corpses. He swallowed down bile again. He needed to get out of here.

“Don’t even think about it,” she said, not looking up from her book. “I know that look. That’s the “I’m going to run” look patients get.”

“What, are you a doctor?”

“Yep. It’s natural, isn’t it? I mean, Mom and Dad were.” Law sat up, the washcloth falling into his lap. He looked around the apartment. Not much to it, honestly. It looked very bare. “And you became a pirate captain, interestingly enough.”

“I’m still a doctor,” he said automatically, not thinking about it.

They stared at each other for a moment, scrutinizing and analyzing each other. Law realized how much this woman looked like his mother. It made him want to cry. An old buried ache in his heart that was long repressed.

“I can’t believe you still have the hat,” Lammy spoke up.

“My sister got it for me.”

Lammy smiled brightly. “Ah, I suppose that makes sense. I don’t have anything from that time.” She sighed and closed her book. “What’s with all the tattoos?”

“You did just state that I’m a pirate captain,” he said flatly.

Lammy chuckled. “Yeah. How exactly did that happen?”

Law narrowed his eyes and his skin prickled. “Why would I tell you that?”

“Ah, you still don’t believe that I am who I say I am.”

“You think I’m just going to believe anyone who says they’re my dead sister?”

“How many people know you have a dead sister?” She questioned.

Doflamingo, he thought to himself, very aware of the fact that this could easily be a trap and he was already shit out of luck. What an idiot he was! He was so easily taken away by some random woman because he had a little PTSD. He should be better than this. When was the last time he made a fool of himself like this?

“How about I tell you what happened?” Law didn’t answer so she took that as permission. “The hospital was set on fire and I was dying. Well, dying faster. I passed out from the smoke, knowing that I was about to die alone,” she frowned and rubbed her arms. “The next thing I knew I woke up in a bed by a window with a curtain blowing in the breeze. It smelled like honeysuckle. A nurse walked in the room and started taking care of me. I asked all the normal questions. “Where am I? Where was my family? What happened?” And the like. She didn’t answer any, she told me to wait for the doctor.” She went silent.

“And?” Law prompted.

Lammy blinked. “The doctor came to see me eventually. He told me someone had pulled me out of the hospital and took me to another town near the shore. The doctor had heard about Amber Lead and was trying to work with anyone who could help cure the poison. Turns out he was too late,” she said bitterly. “Everyone died.” Law didn’t say anything. “I was sick and dying. I couldn’t get out of bed and I barely had a voice due to all the smoke I inhaled. I felt like whatever had happened was just a bandaid on a bullethole. I was going to die. Amber Lead was going to kill me. And I was miserable. I endured too many surgeries when I was so young.” She sighed. “The doctor performed one last surgery and I was okay. I wasn’t dying anymore. Something about it being in my liver.” She shrugged

Law swallowed. “And after that?”

“I helped the doctor in whatever way I could for saving me, but over the course of the months I was there the Navy ran raids, looking for people from Flevance who may have escaped, and as you are well aware, the scars never faded.” Law looked at his hands and the white splotches on his skin. “So, I found my way off the island. I stowed away on a cargo ship, eating scraps and sharing space with rats. I hid pretty well for a recovering, sickly eight year old girl. I would stop at an island, stow away on another ship, and then do it all over again a few times until I found an island where I finally decided to stay. Found an orphanage. Stayed there. Went to school and got the best grades so I could do everything on scholarship. Became a doctor and found myself on this island. Uh, that’s it, I guess.” She sighed. “I suppose it’s not believable and sounds like any story book tragedy. I mean, why would anyone save me when they were killing everyone else and…”

Law tuned out her anxious rambling and stared at her quietly. He let out a breath, starting to become far too emotional for the cool and calm captain of the Heart Pirates. What if this wasn’t a trap? What if she was who she said she was? What if she really was Lammy? What if what if what if…

“If,” he spoke up and interrupted her. “If you’re really Lammy,” he continued slowly. “Tell me something I would only know.”

Lammy frowned. “Well, let me think that far back. It’s been years since we saw each other and I barely remember anything it was so long ago.” She tapped her fingers together. “Do you still collect coins? Do you collect the Sora comics? I remember us reading them together.” Law frowned and his bottom lip quivered a bit. “Uh, let’s see, you once got in trouble at school for bringing a frog to your class photo.”

“Okay,” he said quietly. He breathed in through his nose. “Okay.”

“Do you believe me?”

He wanted to. He so badly wanted to. “If I did, what would you do?”

“Uh, hug you, I guess.” She cleared her throat. “I heard about a Trafalgar Law becoming a pirate captain, but I thought “no way, that’s not my brother.” However…it is you and-”

“What’s my middle name?” He interrupted her.

“What?”

“What’s…our middle name?”

Lammy blinked. “Duh, I suppose that would’ve been the easiest way to figure it out. It’s “D.””

Law didn’t mean to make a tiny pained noise that came from deep within his throat, but he did. It was Lammy. Who else knew that secret information?

Lammy smiled softly. “Want that hug?”

“Shut the hell up,” he said, holding every emotion back and failing spectacularly at it.

Lammy walked over to him and wrapped her arms around his neck. Law immediately held onto her. Lammy was here. His baby sister was here and alive.

He blinked away tears to the best of his ability. He heard Lammy sniffle and his heart ached. He dreamed of this. He had prayed for this knowing that it would never be answered. Life was cruel and painful and yet she was here, crying with him.

They held onto each other crying, letting their pain out. Their hearts were bare for one another. Law had never felt this much joy and hurt at the same time. His head and heart were racing. He felt light headed and nauseous. Of all the things he ever counted on happening, this was one he knew was never going to happen.

After long minutes of crying like he hasn’t cried in years, they pulled out the wine. Lammy asked him what happened and he told her. He told her cautiously, but he told her. Of a twisted fate marked with pain and suffering. He told her how he escaped and of The Family. He told her about Cora-san. He told her about how he survived with his three companions for so long.

Lammy nodded. “A lot has happened to you,” she giggled after a moment. “And you became a criminal.”

“What else was I supposed to do?”

She shrugged causally. “It’s your life, you did what you wanted so that’s what mattered. You’re happy now, yeah?”

Law took a sip from his wine. “Ish.”

“Ah, yeah.”

“What about you?”

“Eh.” She shrugged. “Could be worse. Could be better.” She paused. “Tell me about your adventures.”

Law raised a brow. “Why?”

“What do you mean “why?” Because I wanted to hear what’s out there!”

Law chuckled. “Okay, I’ll tell you some.”

Law told her about the many islands and adventures he had been on, leaving out the more…violent parts. He didn’t need his sister to know everything about being a pirate. She listened eagerly, her eyes wide like a child being told an exciting bedtime story. They finished the wine together and were laughing by the end of the bottle.

“That all sounds amazing!” She exclaimed. “I wish I could see the world like that.”

Law hesitated for a moment before swallowing. “You could come with me.”

“Huh?”

“You could come with me.”

“To be a pirate?” She squeaked. Lammy looked at him with wide eyes. “I-I don’t know. I mean, we’re together again after so long but…to become a pirate…”

Law frowned. “You’re right. Never mind. I don’t want to put you in harm's way. If you stay here, I know where you are and that you’ll be safe.”

Lammy sighed slowly and nodded. “Yeah.”

They went silent. Law looked out the tiny window. It was getting dark. It wouldn’t be out of the question for someone to spend the night somewhere and off the sub, but it didn’t feel right staying over. Yes, they were reunited, but they were still strangers. It had been over a decade since they saw each other, they had no idea who each other were anymore. In fact, Law was sure that if Lammy really got to know him, she’d turn him away.

Law placed his wine glass on the coffee table and stood up. “I should probably head back to my ship.”

“Already?” Lammy frowned sadly. “We just…” she trailed off. “I’ll walk you to your ship.”

“You want me to let my sister walk alone at night?”

“I’ve got tiny safety weapons,” she pouted. “Besides, this island is safe, there’s never any issues here.”

That she knew of. Law thought to himself. Who knows what the government and Navy could be covering up.

“No, Lammy. I want you to be safe at home.” He reached out and ruffled her hair. “I will write to you.”

He watched tears fall down her face. She stood up and hugged him tightly. He wrapped his arms around her and frowned. He didn’t want to let her go again, but their lives were so different that he had to. He needed to let her live her own life and let himself live his own life.

Eventually they said their goodbyes and Law walked home alone. He was a mix of emotions that would certainly keep him up all night. He barely acknowledged anyone on the sub, stating he was tired and wanted to go to bed. He slinked into his room, placing Kikoku against the wall and throwing off his clothes. He laid in bed and stared at the ceiling, no longer willing to let his brain function for the rest of the night.

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“Where did you go yesterday? You disappeared.” Penguin asked Law early the next morning while they stood on deck.

“Nowhere,” Law grunted and sipped coffee.

“Okay. Why are we leaving so early?”

“Because I want to.”

“Okaaaay.” Penguin eyed him suspiciously.

Truth be told, he wasn’t wanting to stick around anymore. He didn’t want to leave Lammy, but he knew if he didn’t it would be harder to let her go. There was only so much heartbreak he could handle, and he’s had enough in his lifetime.

The crew was either coming back from a long night and/or getting ready to shove off. Law sipped his coffee and stared at the island. This was best. This was what was best for him and his heart.

He closed his eyes and sighed. He turned and leaned his back against the railing.

“Captain,” Bepo came up to him. “We’re ready.”

“Okay, let’s go and get ready to sub-”

“Waaaaaaiiiiiitttttttt!!!!” He heard a faint voice from behind him.

He and Bepo looked at each other confused before looking behind him.

A tiny figure was running towards the sub with a suitcase trailing behind them.

“Law!! Wait for me!!” They waved at him.

Law blinked. “Lammy?! What the hell are you doing?!” He called to her and ignored the various “Lammy?’s” and other such things the nearby crew members muttered to each other.

Lammy didn’t answer, she kept running and dragging her suitcase behind her. She heaved and puffed when she made it to the side of the Tang.

“I’m,” she took a deep breath. “Wow, I am so out of shape. I’m coming with you.”

“…” Law stared at her wide eyed. “What?”

Lammy took a deep breath and walked up the ramp to the deck. She looked around the deck and then to him. “I’m coming with you, brother.”

“Uh, Captain?” Bepo said anxiously.

“Why?” Law asked. “Didn’t you say-”

“I know what I said but…but screw it! I want to be with my brother! It’s not fair that we went through everything we did but can’t actually be around each other because of silly rules like “pirates are criminals!” If I have to become a criminal to not be alone anymore, then I will!”

Law stared at her while everyone else stared at him. Law looked around and then back at Lammy. He snorted. “You know this means I’m your captain, right? You have to do what you’re told.”

“Oh…well, whatever! Who cares!” She grinned and rushed over to hug him.

Law wrapped his arms around her with a soft smile. There was various confused voices that surrounded him but he’ll answer them later. For right now…he’ll just let himself be happy with his sister.

#op fanfic #one piece #trafalgar law #trafalgar lammy #heart pirates #op fanfiction #one piece fanfiction

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bratz-kitten · 4 years ago

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Hey girl, i need some advice and i hope you can help me. I don’t know if you’ve been through this but i guess so bc i saw some asks ago where you were talking about this and yeah

How do i deal with someone i love (ex partner) moving on so quickly and being with another girl?

And like, when that happened to you did you compare yourself to that girl? Because that’s also a huge issue of mine, im always comparing myself to her and stalking them like ugh HELP

OKAY FUCKING PREPARE YOURSELF

the first thing you’re gonna do is, hear me out: you’re not gonna get involved with ANYONE. not for a good while, not until you’re ready. trust me when i say that the one who moves on the fastest after the breakup is the one that’ll suffer the most. even though it might not seem like it now, even though he might be experiencing happiness right now, in some months reality’s gonna hit and it’s gonna hit him hard. why? because he didn’t process the breakup. he didnt allow himself the time to get over you and just moved on so he wouldn’t have to deal with the bad feelings. literally a few months after what happened to me, his best friend texted me saying how he tried covering up a huge hole with a quick bandaid and now he was realizing how it had only been a temporary solution to a permanent problem.

the second reason why you’re not gonna get involved with anyone else is because that’s what he’s expecting you to do. he immediately moved on to someone else in part to hurt you — and he WANTS you to move on with someone else so that he can feel the satisfaction of you trying to replace him. it’ll boost his ego and it’ll make it easier for him to warp his perception of you into someone who he doesn’t respect.

if there’s one thing i know is that men always come back, no matter how toxic or healthy what you had was. they come back when they sense you getting over them, they come back when they see how amazing you’re doing, they come back when they realize how much they messed up.

so what you’re gonna do is focus on yourself. im not just talking about a physical glow up, im talking mental. when i went through that i couldnt stop comparing myself to her, i used to have an amazing confidence but i let myself shatter it, constantly feeling like i wasn’t enough, like i wasn’t loveable, like i was replaceable just because he replaced me. you know what helped? working on my individuality. right now im focusing so much on developing my style, wearing things out of my comfort zone, things that make me happy, things that make me feel so sexy and confident. unique things. working on my makeup skills too and how to express myself with makeup. skincare and haircare too, there’s something so healing about taking care of yourself and being gentle and dedicating all the love and care you deserve and start seeing results. go watch hyram on youtube if you want to learn about skincare! it’s so much fun. about the mental part: astrology has helped me so much. you gotta be infatuated with yourself, with learning more about you and your past and your traumas and unhealed shit that you need to acknowledge and work on. also manifestation and saying daily mantras to myself about how pretty and smart and interesting i feel, and listening to music that makes me feel sexy. i find exercise boring bc i need to be constantly stimulated so what i started doing was dancing to just dance videos on youtube and now i cant stop LOL ITS SO FUN, gets my blood pumping makes me feel sexy when im dancing to rihanna songs AHDJDJDJ and makes me feel more energized. and for the love of god: PLEASE get a hobbie. you don’t need to do a lot right now, just ONE. hobbies give you so much self-worth and make you feel so capable and like you’re art creating art - i dont want to be cheesy but it is true that interesting people have interests, this is the time for you to get into something you’ve always wanted to do or that you used to love doing as a child but stopped because life got in the way.

i also want you to allow yourself to feel. don’t repress - whenever you want to cry, cry. whenever you miss him, allow yourself to. whenever you remember all the amazing things he did, or all the terrible things he did, or that YOU did, allow yourself to feel all that. time heals nothing, it’s you who’s gotta put in the work to heal yourself.

also, this is the time to focus on your friendships. join an online community or talk with your current friends, talk with them through what happened, be with people who can make you laugh just as hard as he did. communicate all that you feel to them, about your past, about how much you love them, doesn’t matter.

a thing that i did that helped so much was that i’d imagine him coming back and begging me to get back together with him, and i’d imagine being at a point that i felt so good by myself, that i was so confident and so focused on my shit that i’d tell him no. and eventually i became that girl, who was over him and deserved so much more than some childish kid who thinks i’m replaceable, and that’s exactly when he came back. so, please remember that just because you feel like he replaced you, it doesnt mean he did. you are irreplaceable, unfuckwitable, unlinkable, way too good for ANYONE.

and PLEASE STOP WITH THE STALKING LMFAO THAT’S THE WORST PART OF ALL, IT’S SO HARD TO STOP STALKING AND TO NOT ANALYZE EVERY LITTLE THING THAT HE LIKES AND TWEETS AND EVERYTHING THAT SHE POSTS BUT YOU’RE GONNA STOP THAT RIGHT NOW. you dont need to block them, there’s an option on twitter that lets you silence them so you’ll never see them on your tl, if it’s on other social medias where you can’t silence, unfollow and block. know that it doesn’t matter who’s prettier or smarter or hotter, SHE’S NOT YOUR COMPETITION. know that as much as you’re comparing yourself to her, she’s comparing herself to you ten times worse. sending your pics to her friends asking them if they think you’re pretty and shit. she’s not your enemy and it’s not her fault he’s an asshole. so you’ll just let them completely out of your life. also, out of sight out of mind. avoid seeing him. if you have work together or school together or ride the bus together or whatever, avoid all the places where you know he’ll be. make an effort to never be around the same places as him.

i wish you good luck my love, know that you’re the shit, literally the hottest and smartest bitch alive and that’s something he’ll never be able to take away from you. this is what helped me through the worst times, so take it with a grain of salt pls im not an expert. I LOVE YOU

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yandere-mha-blog · 4 years ago

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Chapter 8: Handy

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There was only one more thing hawks wanted to do at the moment, get your talon back, he was smart to keep one of his feathers on the guy he smacked against the door. Hearing the conversation on how he keeps his little “trophies” in front of the people he “interrogated”.

“I was so worried when I heard the news that Nighthawks somehow found a way to break in.” His wife said, “And to hear you were actually hurt.”

“I'm fine, nothing to worry about.” He said

“But dad, you have a large bump on your head.” His kid said

“Nothing time and some ice won’t heal.” he said “thanks for dinner honey.”

He gave his wife a quick kiss on the cheek before heading into his workroom and taking out your talon from a glass box before putting it back in and then going to the other trophies this man had collected, what a sicko. Three days had passed and it was about time Hawks got it back for you, then man was getting too comfy thinking that he was in the clear, sure Hawks moved quickly but he also knew when to wait for the right time to strike.

Hawks waited and waited till he saw all the lights go off in the house, all except for the office, Hawks feather finally floated out from under the guy's coat as he were none the wise and he didn’t even notice it undoing the window lock and slowly lifting it up, the man was so immersed in whatever he was writing down he didn't even notice hawks climbing in through the window with one of his primary feathers shaped out, hawks ave him a second and nope, man this guy instincts were awful, or Hawks was just that good at hiding his presents.

So it was really easy for hawks to over his mouth with his gloved hands and have his primary feather against the man throat only then did he notice

“Hi, guys.” Hawks said “How are you doing this fine night? Well, I guess you can't really talk, right now, now you are probably wondering why I am here, the answer is very very simple, even the score.”

Hawks had two of his feather an inch away from the guy's eyes

“Now look unless you want to go blind you will stay quiet and answer my questions okay.”

The guy just nodded and hawks uncovered his mouth

“Please, don't kill me, I was just doing my job.” He said

“Is that how you justify your actions, there is a lot to unpack there, now where did you put her talon?”

“On the second-highest shelf, third to the left.” He said as hawks used his feathers to lift it off and put it in his coat pocket “That's all you wanted right.”

“Hmm well, one more question, which hand did you hold to pilers to pull it out.” Hawks said, “And I don't know isn’t an answer.”

“I used, my left hand to hold them,” he said

“Good now place your left hand on your desk.” Hawks said

“Why are you planning to do it?”

“Just a taste of your own medicine.” Hawks said, “Look if you won’t put it down, maybe your wife would offer hers up.”

“What?” The man said

“Tell you what I'll let you decide, your wife's left hand, or yours.” Hawks said and the man was now sweating buckets

“I need my hands to provide for my family.” He said, “I can't lose them.”

“You know that was a rhetorical question, at least I don't feel as bad doing this.” Hawks said slicing the man's hand clean off, it took him a moment to process it seeing the numb he now had for a left hand and started screaming out in pain, Hawks saw him topple over to the floor before picking up the hand and leaving, he tossed it over his shoulder over who knows where, he sure was glad he locked the office door before he went, wouldn't want that kid of his seeing the blood sprayed all over the place.

Still, now he had one more place to go for the night, meeting up with his broker, someone who would do anything for you as long as you had the money w. Giran, the man who was not interested in anyone's plans, Hawks respected that part about him, not being tied down by just one person, the same man where he got his current gear. Hawks landed on the fire escape and walked down and into Girans' place.

“Well well if it isn't my favorite feathered friend.” He said taking in a long inhale of smoke “You got blood on your cheek.”

“Ah, it's not mine.” Hawks said, “Anyway I have a request for you.”

“Haha why else would you come and see me.” he said, taking out a pack of cigarettes “Want one.”

“I'm good.” Hawks said

“You're loose.” He said, “now you said you needed something different than usual, and I'm assuming it has to do with that woman you got from HPSC?”

“It does, they took out one of her talons, so I need a proteic so she will be able to wear it and use it again.” Hawks said removing the talon and placing it on the table

“Well, well, what do we have here?” Giran asked, “The root of the tail is intact so no way is she growing that back, also interesting this isn't regular Keratin.”

“I asked you to make it usable again, not analyze it.” Hawks said

“I know a guy, What will probably happen is he will put it in a fingerless glove that wraps around her wrist, a few never receptors and when she flexes her finger then this one will pop out.” Giran explained, “Still I'm surprised you went to him for help, whatever happened to you being a lone bird.”

“Can't just leave someone out to dry.” Hawks said taking out a wad of cash “And I only went to them on a one-time deal, they have their plan I have mine.”

“Hey, it lets me make money.” He said “Come back tomorrow ill have it ready for you. One more thing, they are planning something big tomorrow so watch the news.”

“I will.” Hawks said, “Oh one more thing, do you have any medical books laying around.”

“I'm sure I can come up with something, but why do you ask?”

“A housewarming gift.” Hawks said, “make sure they are interesting, none of that fluffy shit the gritter the better.”

“...noted,” Giran said, looking a bit perplexed at his request. With that said hawks left attaching his wings and head out back to his hideout to see you lunging in his twin-sized mattress reading a magazine he had laying around

“Hey I'm back.” he said as you put your hand up and waved at him “So, how are you doing?’

“Still healing, did you finish those errands?”

“Sure did.” Hawks said “I still need to grab some grub. Do you want anything?’

“Anything will do.” you said flipping the page “Also when I saw you had a magazine that said chick weekly I wasn't expecting it to have a bunch of baby bird photos.”

“Hey, we all have our hobbies.” Hawks said take the magazine out of your hand "And be careful this is my only copy.”

“Why do they even make magazines like this?” you asked

“Same reason there are millions of magazines for heroes, money.” Hawks said

“Do you have some weird bird fetish?” you deadpanned

“NO!” HAwks said, “where would you even get that idea!”

“That was a joke.” you said “Got pretty defensive there.”

“Find something else to read here.” Hawks said tossing you a flyer about the HPSC “You are smart enough to know that having information on your enemy is key to defeating them.”

“I already read this.” you said,” Still the fact it says we strive for a healthy relationship between the public and heros' makes me wanna barf.”

“Tell me about it.” Hawks said scratching his head “You are only allowed to your quirk for good, and the only way to use your quirk to work under them in some way, so they must be good like they haven't been brainwashing kids.”

“My dad never let me watch those PSAs about them or any advertisements that had heroes,” you said

“Well, your dad is a smart man.” Hawks said, “I mean that as soon as a kid turns 15 they can go through life-threatening training so they can work under them, and that's what they expect of them.”

“Then there is the fact that your worth is based on how powerful your quirk is.” you said getting up and walking over “and if you don't have a strong quirk you are seen as worthless.”

“Haha, we could go all night saying how horrible they are.” HAwks said giving you two quick taps on the head before stepping out “I’ll be back with some grub.”

“Okay I'll stay here,” you said and waved him off, maybe there was a more personal reason why Hawks hated them, still if he wasn't going to tell you then that was his right, still you thought at least now you wouldn't be bored, but being cooped up in a small room, wasn't exactly who you thought life on the run with a dangerous villain would be.

When Hawks came back with the food you happily indulge in as he smacked the top of an old tv, to get a signal.

“There has been an attempted break-in at U.A, the alarm system went off but there no report of suspense activity-” The reporter was saying before a scruffy looking teacher pushed the camera out of the way

“Go home.”

“Hey you can't just touch property like that, hey what are-” and it was cut off

“Gross.” Hawks said, “You know I can’t Believe they have schools for this.”

“Seems a bit excessive.” you said “you know before heroes came into view it was just the cops, can you imagine if people viewed cops and law enforcement the way they view heroes now,” you said

“I can.” Hawks said spreading his wings out “I don't like them having kids fresh out of MIddle school do training.”

“Well technically they choose this school, but on the other hand it has been installed in them to be a hero from a young age, you have seen all the toys marketed towards them, HPSC is more like a moneymaker, is that why you hate them?”

“Part of the reason, yeah.” Hawks said stealing a bite from your plate “Another part is personal, and I'm assuming it's personal for you as well.”

You looked down at your thumb and sighed “It is now, however, there is another part but it's long been forgotten to me.”

“Aww come on you can tell me.” Hawks said

“Hmmm.” you tapped your chin “well I guess there is no harm in telling you, but my mother was actually a hero but died soon after I was born.”

“Huh like during birth?” Hawks asked, you shook your head

“No, you see she had been out of commission for a while, with the whole baby thing, they were against her having me in the first place, but my mom wanted a family, so they had me and they wanted my mom to make this big come back, but she was hasn't been active for so long she died in the long of duty.”

“I can't begin to imagine the pain of knowing that.” Hawks said

“Well I never knew her, and my dad did everything he could to make me happy growing up, he explained it to me in middle school.”

“Well, you know anything about her?” Hawks asked

“My dad showed me a photo and said I'm the spitting image of her, and i got her quirk but mixed with my dads,” you said

“What's your dads' quirk?”

“Oh he is able to eject a tungsten-like material from his wrist.” you said, “my moms' talons couldn't retreat back in like mine and could chip easier.”

“Wait a second...you are the daughter of the clawed hero?” Hawks said

“That was her code name, why do you ask?” you said

“Oh, I've done research on all the past heroes who died in the line of duty.” Hawks said, “Most of the time it's, they died for the greater good, or they gave their lives for others.”

“That's adding insult to injury to their families.” You said, “Hawks, have you ever killed a hero?”

“I wouldn’t exactly call them heroes, have I killed people who got their hero listens, yes.” Hawks said, “Caught them doing something illegal, when I brought it up they said I was the villain and they were going to capture me.”

“So what exactly is your end goal here?” you asked as you finished up your meal

“To end the HPSC and their crooked practices, like abducting people and ripping their nails off.” Hawks said, “They have a firm grip on the narrative of everything, I'll get it done.” “Well can't wait to see it, it should be interesting,” you said

#yandere hawks #yandere keigo takami #yandere keigo #yandere takami #yandere my hero academia #yandere boku no hero academia #yandere

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yanderepuck · 4 years ago

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The mansion in the 21st century

For the sake of our sanity we are going assume they are all still alive in the 21st century since we don't know when everyone was turned (just that Will was first)

We're also gonna pretend that Sebas is still around(I don't think he'd accept being a vampire???? But for the sake of this he's gonna be here)

Arthur is his full whore self and is with guys and gals. He put the bi in bitch

Leonardo is also bi(historically there's no record of him ever being with a woman)

Imagine the shit posts on social media

Arthur has an Instagram and he posts about everyone's life, even using their names, but no one takes it series

A few times a week Arthur does something called "where is Leonardo sleeping today?"

Vincent uses tiktok for art

Theo has been able to get in contact with more artists all over and be able to sell their art. It's made it a lot easier for him and even though it's a lot more work he enjoys it

Dazai is also a shit poster, only he asks weird things that keep you up at night

But Dazai also publishes short stories. Probs has a blog.

I could also see Dazai basically running an animal shelter in the back yard. He gives off Disney princess vibes. Only it's like ducks, a bunch of birds. A horse or two and some sheep.

Will has probably moved back into the mansion since everything he has done has been forgotten by society.

He finds it odd how kids in schools study is plays and have to analyze it. He's just like "everyone's gay and every other line is a dick joke???" But he still doesn't speak normal.

LEONARDO GOT BACK INTO PAINTING.

Leonardo and Vinc would both have a tik tok and Instagram to show off their work and their hella popular

Isaac wanted to keep a low profile, but since the internet isn't face to face with people, he's able to publish his findings without having to actually deal with society. He's just social awkward okay

Sebastian also has a blog. He calls everyone his roommates and he's like "you'll never guess what my roommate did today"

Arthur collects mugs.

During that Italian hand meme, everyone paid more attention to Leonardo to see how often he does it

He does it too often and he doesn’t realize it

At some point Dazai HAS yelled “DO IT FOR THE VINE”

He was probably yelling at Theo

Want to know whats really dangerous?

Shakespeare learning modern slang

No one in the mansion knows what he’s talking about in the first place. Then suddenly he goes “For never was a story of more woe. O bard Alexa, play us Despacito”(I will not take credit for that. I remember reading that phrase LONG ago)

Isaac says “Me” “Same” and “Mood” a lot

He sees garbage on the ground and goes “It’s me”

Dazai is into anime don’t @ me

Also. Napoleon is also bi as all hell

Drunk or not him and Sebas have made lip contact at least once

Imagine what Mozart could do with music now.

He still loves his piano. Nothing is better than physically playing an instrument

He probs went viral for a hot minute when Arthur posted a video of him playing piano

Comte is even more of a tired mom.

HE’D SO BE A PINTEREST PERSON

You know how people make board for their friends?

He does that with everyone in the mansion

I honestly know nothing about Jean and Napoleon. I’m sorry for their lack of content. Plz add things for them.

Imagine everyone playing Mario Kart

Not every week because they all have lives outside the mansion. But at least once a month they have a game night

None of them are really TV people. They’ll watch movies but that’s about it

They’d all watch documentaries on themselves, and point out everything that is wrong, and even be like “where the fuck did they get that from?”

Because I have watched documentaries on him. Often a Da Vinci documentary will mention was arrest with sleeping with another guy. The rest of the guys are waiting for him to call that bullshit and he’s just sitting there eating popcorn.

Meanwhile Will is in the back like “Eyy! Me too!”

“Did that really happen?”

“What? Me getting arrested? Yeah”

“No, well yes, but did you sleep with another guy?”

“Yeah”

“Was he worth it?”

“I don’t know which one their talking about”

Chaotic bisexuals everywhere

Arthur however has watched the BBC Sherlock series.

Arthur and Dazai would probs watch the most tv out of all of them.

I say this cause Dazai would be into anime and Arthur got hooked on NCIS

Arthur write quite a bit of short stories that he’s gotten published

Will would love that goddamn Leonardo DiCaprio version of Romeo and Juliet. I hate that movie with a passion

Also, I can’t imagine how many jokes they’ve managed to come up with about Leonardo DiCaprio to Leonardo.

If Arthur and Mozart can stay up for days with coffee, imagine what an energy drink would do to them

All of them in modern fashion???? HOT DAMN

Will likes the Titanic

I see Theo being the one that’s into MARVEL and DC movies

Imagine showing Vinc Bob Ross

Leonardo and Isaac are Tony Stark(Ironman) and Bruce Banner(Hulk)

Everyone in the mansion is into conspiracy theories .

Comte himself is a conspiracy theory

One night Napoleon is like “Guys. Look. Aliens” and they all watch conspiracy theory videos.

It’s the one thing they can all agree on that they have in common

Vinc and Leonardo also enjoy pinterest because of all the art/crafting/diy things they find.

Arthur 100% listens to ebooks

THE MANSION IS A POKEMON GO GYM. But they aren’t all on the same team so battling can get serious some days

They all still have pets

Honestly. At any point in time, not just modern. They made fun of each others accents.

Lets be real. Will would end up liking anime too

SNapchat filters on the guys?? The dog filter on Theo??? Flower crown on Vinc??? Face swapping everyone with everyone???

One of them is bound to have a candle obsession and I want to say its Comte. Only he buys them and doesn’t burn them. Sebas ends up slowly taking candles from the stash and burning them in a few rooms.

The music room smells like chocolate but Mozart can’t find the candle.

Leonardo's room is even more cluttered. He has too many hobbies.

Vinc making his own paint??? I’d love.

Theo and Arthur cried a little when their favorite bar shut down.

Masterlist

#this is a long one but i know its gonna have a second part #there's no way i'm done with the guys in modern day #too many possibilities #also sorry about no Napoleon and Jean #I don't know their personalities at all #I only interacted with NApoleon in isaacs route #and i've never interacted with Jean #ikemen vampire #ikevamp #cybrid #ikemen series #plz add your own hcs #i like to read them

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beelsnack · 5 years ago

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Obey Me! Boys and the Hidden Talent You Wouldn’t Expect Them To Have

Lucifer: Honestly, they had thought it was just for decoration.

Considering how little the brothers actually used anything in the music room, they had just assumed most of the instruments in there were just for show. The only reason they were proved wrong was by sheer accident.

Their insomnia had been a hindrance back in the human realm, but now that the constant darkness of the Devildom had taken a hammer to their circadian rhythm, they found themselves wandering the halls of the House of Lamentation more and more frequently in the middle of the night. While they knew they weren’t the only one awake at this hour (they had made the mistake of wandering too close to Asmo’s room and discovered that his nights were very active) they typically were the only one out of their room.

It was their second pass around the first floor when they heard it. A faint, unfamiliar melody ringing softly down the hall. Before they realized what they were doing, their feet had brought them to the music room. When they peeked through the doorway, the sight made them freeze.

Lucifer was seated on a bench, eyes closed in an uncharacteristically serene expression. The soft candlelight shone behind him, making him look every bit like the angel he once was as his long, graceful fingers plucked skillfully at the strings of the harp. The song was hauntingly beautiful, much like Lucifer himself, and something about it made the human’s breath catch in their throat.

They hadn’t thought they made a noise, but demon hearing was something else. Lucifer’s eyes snapped open, hands halting over the strings as the two of them made eye contact.

At first, it seemed like Lucifer was preparing to scold them, and they felt themself reflexively tensing. Instead, Lucifer’s expression softened.

“You should be in bed.” his voice betrayed how tired he was, even if he appeared just fine.

“I couldn’t sleep.” they murmured. Speaking too loudly might break the spell, and this gentle illusion would shatter.

“Hm.” he motioned them forward, patting the spot next to him. The bench was small enough to when they sat down, they were shoulder-to-shoulder with Lucifer. “I couldn’t sleep either.”

“I didn’t know you could play the harp.” they blurted out. Lucifer, caught off guard by their bluntness, stared down at them for a moment before sighing. A nostalgic smile pulled at his lips, and they found themself wishing he would smile like that more often.

“A skill left over from the Celestial Realm. Playing always put me at ease.”

“Will you keep playing for me?”

He chuckled softly. “Of course. Shall I play a lullaby for the two of us?”

Mammon: “Are we done studying yet? This sucks!”

They didn’t even bother looking up from their textbook. Mammon had done more complaining than studying at this point, and they were honestly too worked up about passing this test tomorrow to worry about entertaining him.

“You can be done if you want, I’m going to keep going.” they mumbled. They talked big, but they had been reading the same sentence over and over again without taking in a single letter. They knew that it wasn’t really helping, but they were convinced that if they didn’t spend every last second studying the material, they were going to fail spectacularly. Honestly, after one semester of Potions, they were never going to complain about chemistry every again.

“You’re gonna ruin your eyes, at this rate.”

They nearly jumped out of their skin. When had Mammon gotten up? How had he gotten behind them without them noticing? Shit, maybe they did need to give it a rest.

“Alright, alright,” they sighed. “I’m not retaining any of this stuff anymore anyway - ow, fuck!”

“What’s wrong?” Mammon sounded unnecessarily terrified, the big worrier.

“Nothing, nothing, sorry.” they brought a hand up to the back of their neck. “Been hunched over for too long, my neck and shoulders are mad at me.”

“Damn, human, you had me thinkin’ you were dyin’ or something.” he breathed out. “Here.”

“What are - “ they cut themselves off as Mammon’s warm hands settled on their shoulders. His thumbs worked soothing circles on the column of their neck before sliding down to work on their shoulder blades.

They felt their eyes slipping close without their consent. “Holy shit, Mammon.” they probably should be a bit more concerned with how breathy their voice sounded, but he was working wonders on their stiff muscles.

He knew just how much pressure to apply, just how to move his hands. The warmth of his palms seeped through their shirt, and they let out a sigh that might have sounded a bit like a moan.

“Hey, you can’t go makin’ those noises while I’m doin’ this.” his voice had gone just a bit lower. “You’re gonna make it awkward.”

“Sorry.” they muttered. “But you’re really good at this. You should open up a massage parlor. You would make a killing.”

“Heh, I thought about it.” he pulled his hands away, and they almost whined at the loss of contact. “But I don’t want to have to rub my hands over some crusty old bastard.”

“Oh well,” they shrugged. “Guess I’ll have to just keep you to myself then.”

Leviathan: “Hey, normie, open up!”

They considered ignoring him in favor of finishing up this very intense Pokemon battle, but it was pretty rare that Levi came to their room without texting them first. With a sigh, they shut their DS and hopped off of their bed to let him in.

“What’s up?” they leaned against the doorway.

“Didn’t you hear? That new MMO is having an exclusive pre-release event. Only the first 300 can get in! Go get set up, people have been talking about this new totally OP armor they’re going to - “

Levi cut himself, peering over their shoulder and wrinkling his nose. “What’s that?”

At first, they thought he was talking about their DS, but when they looked behind them, they realized what he meant.

“Ah, yeah.” the walked over to their bed and picked up the old stuffed dragon toy. They creadled him gently to their chest and frowned a little. “He got a little roughed up on his way to the Devildom. I had to get creative.”

The toy was clearly well loved, but the real attention-grabber was the piece of duct tape holding its front left leg to the rest of it. Little bits of fluff could be seen beneath the tape and it was clear that the repair job wasn’t going to last for much longer.

Leviathan clicked his tongue. “That’s never going to hold. Bring him over after the event tonight.”

“Why?” the human tilted their head, clutching the dragon tighter like they were afraid Levi was going to mercy-kill him.

“I’m going to fix him for you, duh.” there was a faint dusting of pink high on his cheekbones, and he looked away quickly. “I don’t like to bring my sewing stuff out of my room, I’ll lose it for sure.”

“You can sew?” they sounded incredulous. “Since when?”

“Th-there was a contest a while back. Whoever made the best TSL cosplay got to have a meet and greet with the cast of the movie.” Levi looked like he was about to catch fire now. “Of-of course, I couldn’t just go buy stuff, everyone knows the handmade stuff is better, so I learned how to sew.”

“Levi, that’s amazing!”

Levi blinked. “I-It is?”

“Duh!” they beamed up at him. “I could never do anything like that! I definitely owe you one if you can fix him up for me!”

“It’s not that big of a deal,” he muttered, staring down at his feet. How was he supposed to handle getting compliments like that?

“It is!” they placed their toy back on their bed in favor of wrapping their arms around Levi’s middle. “Thank you so much!”

“Whoa, hey! You can’t just d-do that all of a sudden!”

Satan: They quite enjoyed their study dates with Satan. The two of them could sit in amiable silence for hours and just focus on getting their work done. It was peaceful, and Satan never minded if they took a rest on his shoulder

As they struggled to keep their eyes open (a coffee break might be in order soon) they caught sight of something in the margins of Satan’s notebook.

It started as idle pencil marks in the corner of the page. Little spirals that slowly transformed into vines winding their way down the side. Delicate little flowers soon began to bloom at random intervals until finally, in the bottom corner, Satan was in the middle of doodling a lotus flower.

“That’s so pretty.” they felt Satan jump as they broke the silence.

“What?” he blinked, refocusing. “Oh. Sometimes I don’t even realize I’m doing it.”

“I should have known you were a doodler.” they laughed. “I read somewhere that people who doodle in class actually retain more information.”

“Is that right?” Satan muttered, more to himself than anything. “That explains my notes in class. I wonder if there’s a reason I enjoy drawing outside of a learning environment?”

They nudged him before he got too deep in his own thoughts. “You’re allowed to just have a hobby, Satan. There’s no need to psychoanalyze it so much.”

Asmo: When they had admitted that they had never gotten their nails done, Asmo had wasted no time in whisking them away to his room. He insisted that everyone should have a manicure at least once in their life, sat them down on the chaise lounge in his bedroom and set to work.

Admittedly, they probably should be taking care of their nails better, and it was nice to have someone pamper them a little bit. They hadn’t really been expecting the hand massage at the end.

“Oh, you have earth hands, darling.” Asmo said as he worked his thumb into the center of their palm. “Reliable, stubborn, practical. Fits you to a T!”

“Huh?”

Asmo ignored them, continuing to analyze their hand. “Your love line starts under your index finger. Well, with seven partners, I should hope you’re content with your love life.”

“Asmo, what the hell?”

“Hm? Oh, sorry, darling.” Asmo laughed, tracing his finger in a circle in the center of their hand. “I suppose I should ask before I read your palm.”

“Is that what that was?” they asked. “I didn’t know you could do that.”

“Mm, there’s plenty of things I can do, my dear.” he practically purred. “An old lover of mine was a practiced chiromancer. I always thought it was fascinating, being able to read a person just by the lines on their hands, so I had them teach me. If nothing else, it’s a neat party trick.”

“Wow...” the human murmured, staring at their hand. “What else can you tell?”

Beelzebub and Belphegor: It had been decided long ago that Beel could not be trusted with cooking duty on his own. So the twins always had joint cooking duty.

It had also been decided that Belphegor couldn’t be trusted with waking up for cooking duty, so Lucifer tacked the human on as well.

None of them particularly minded it. Well, Belphie minded it a little, seeing as Beel had to literally fireman carry him to the kitchen. But all three of them worked well as a team.

It wasn’t terribly uncommon for Beel to hum to himself when he cooked. The kitchen was his element, and cooking always seemed to put him in a cheerful mood. It was uncommon, however, for Belphie to join in.

They hadn’t really been paying attention, simply registering the twins as background noise while they focused on their task. But soon, Beel’s humming turned to lyrics in a language that the human didn’t understand, but sent a shiver up their spine anyway.

Beel sang in a smooth baritone voice that they could feel thrumming through their chest. The human found themself closing their eyes and listening, nearly forgetting that they were supposed to be chopping up mandrake root.

They almost chopped their finger off when Belphie joined in.

When they turned around, the twins had their backs facing either other, but they had paused in their work. Both of them wore identical expressions of nostalgia - eyes closed, lips tugged upwards in a soft smile. Belphie’s soft, clear tenor mixed with Beel’s low timbre, and, despite not understanding a single word, the human felt goosebumps rise up their arms.

When they finished the song, the twins opened their eyes and looked at each other over their shoulder. Beel honestly looked like he was going to cry out of sheer joy.

“It’s been a while since we sang together.” Beel grinned.

“At least a century.” Belphie nodded, shaking his head. “I’m surprised my voice hasn’t broken.”

“I feel like I’m intruding on a family moment, here.” the human muttered. They honestly hadn’t meant to say it out loud, but by the time they realized, it was too late. The twins had turned their gazes on them like they had just stood on the table and started screaming.

“What’re you talking about?” Belphie drawled.

“You are family.” Beel smiled, crossing the kitchen in three strides to ruffle their hair. “So you can’t be intruding.”

They stuck their tongue out at Beel, ducking out from underneath his hand. “Can you two teach me that song?”

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E. Part IV

Hazel

The car ride home with Adonis was rather awkward for you. Either you had too much to drink, or you just couldn't stop thinking of Adonis being the nicer version of Erik. Adonis broke the silence, "You quiet, you sleepy?" he asked. "No, I'm okay" you said looking out the window as you rested your head against the window. "You hungry?" Adonis questioned. "No, but thank you Donnie" you said nicely, glancing at him. Adonis shot a smile at you as his dimples gleamed at the stop light.

You sighed heavily and smiled slightly. "There she is" he exclaimed. You chuckled as the car pulled off and turned into your complex. Adonis parked the car and you quickly got out and grabbed your keys out of your pocket. "Is it clean before I walk in here?" Adonis questioned as he followed you. "Of course it is" you laughed. Adonis followed you as you walked into the building and got on the elevator. Reaching your floor, you unlocked the door and he followed you inside. "Make yourself comfortable" you said locking the door behind him.

Taking your phone out, you connected your phone to your Google Home Mini and let your playlist echo throughout the room. "It's been a minute since I've been here" Adonis said taking a seat on the couch. "Looks like you got a good memory" you said. "I'm gonna get out of these jeans, can you give me a minute?" you asked. "Sure, don't go to sleep back there" Adonis joked. You walked to your bedroom and pulled out your favorite grey pair of cotton joggers and the matching long sleeve crop top to match. Quickly getting dressed you threw your clothes in the hamper and walked into the living-room to sit on the couch next to Adonis.

"Comfortable?" he asked. "Much better" you replied. Adonis moved closer to you on the couch, and noticed your stand-offish demeanor. "Too close?" he asked. "It's just a little awkward for me D." you sighed. "I'm just not in a good place right now when it comes to, you know who" you said looking around. "And what did I tell you?" Adonis asked lifting your chin. "And you asked if you were too close, and I explained why Donnie" you say moving away from him. "Look I'm home now, so if you want to leave due to my honesty that's okay with me; but I'm not gonna hold back how I feel right now" you admit. Adonis chuckled, "I hear you talking. You don't scare me at all Hazel. All this backbone shit you got going on, you need to use this on Erik. I'm not here for all that. I just didn't want you going home in an Uber aight?" Adonis replied. "And you're free to leave. Mission accomplished." You got up from the couch and walked into the kitchen to grab a glass and your bottle of Hennessy.

Adonis followed you into the kitchen, "Like I said you don't scare me. What you got going on in here?" he said taking the bottle. "Just something to put me to bed for the night" you say casually grabbing a second glass. "Go ahead and pour me a glass, you owe me remember" he smirked. You poured two small glasses of Hennessy on ice and walk back into the living-room to sit on the couch as you enjoyed the music playing.

Think About Me by DVSN

As the song loomed in the background Adonis took his shoes off. "Why Erik? I mean, why couldn't you and Vic work it out?" Adonis asked. "We tried D, I don't know; Vic wasn't too fond of Erik" you say. "We both know why Vic didn't care for Erik. But forget I brought this up aight?" Adonis said. You shot a confused look at Adonis and brushed your hair behind your ear. "Why did Erik have to give you $400?" you asked. "What are you talking about?" Adonis questioned. "Erik said that he had to handle some business the other night, I found $400 on his nightstand and he said that he had to give it to you" you said facing him on the couch sitting Indian style. Adonis smiled, "Hazel, my brother and I... we got some things going on at the gym right now that need to be taken care of. Trust me when I say we good. Don't worry about that" Adonis said in a deflecting manner. "But.. Erik doesn't have a job" you said confused. Adonis quickly moved in and pecked your lips. The kiss caught you off guard, your mind had no time for your body to physically react; let alone process this slick advance. He pulled away and looked in your eyes, "Why you thinking so much, Ma?" he questioned. "Just relax. I'm not here to talk to about him, you too pretty to be talking so much" he said in a calming tone.

"Excuse me?" You questioned getting upset. "Just listen Hazel, I can tell you right now, most dudes ain't gone tolerate you questioning them how you do. I'm not Erik, but I'm sick of you asking me about what he does and what he doesn't do. I'ma tell you right now if you keep it up, I gotta go" Adonis said. You felt offended by the comment, even a bit threatened. "I don't know another way to say it but chill the fuck out for a minute and stop over analyzing so much. Erik isn't here, I am. Can you handle that for a minute?" he asked caressing the side of your face. You shrugged your shoulders. "I guess" you say moving closer to him to lean your head on his shoulder. "Change this shit, you in your feelings. We get it, you can't stop thinking about Erik" Adonis commanded.

Leaning over to grab your phone from the table, you skipped to the next song.

Mood by DVSN

"What do you do when you're not with Erik?" Adonis asked. "Nothing really, just work." You said taking another sip of your liquor. "You don't have any hobbies?" Adonis asked. "I've watched just about everything on Netflix." Adonis chuckled, "Damn, you need to get out more" "D, it's not that easy. I'm still trying to adjust to not being with Vic. We did spend 3 years together" you say looking up at him. "Okay, and chasing Erik won't make your life any easier" Adonis chimed. You rolled your eyes, "Do you hate your brother or something? It's like no matter what I say you always find something about him to discredit" you said taking another sip. "I've seen what he's done, given the fact that you two have been at this for years, I'm not surprised that it's happening again" Adonis said finishing his glass. "Oh so you just come behind him and clean up the mess he's made huh?" you teased pinching his cheeks.

"I show up when my services are needed, unexpectedly" Adonis said with low eyes looking at you seductively. Confused at his response you got up and walked to your balcony to get some fresh air, and hopefully create some space between you two. You stood at the threshold of the balcony and went silent. Adonis walked up behind you and placed his hand on your shoulder. "What's on your mind?" he asked. "Have you ever wanted to do something that you usually wouldn't do?" you asked. Adonis looked puzzled, "That depends, what is it?" he asked.

"I wanna get high." You spoke softly. Adonis' eyes widened, "You know anyone we can link up with tonight to get something?" you asked. "You know I don't smoke Hazel", "But I know you do it from time to time. Don't bullshit me Donnie" you poked at him. A smirk crept to his face, "I think I know a guy" he said taking his phone out of his pocket. "Alright cool, let me get the money from my purse and put on some shoes and we can go" you said closing the door to your balcony and taking Adonis' hand, walking him to your bedroom.

"So you know when we do this, you know we're gonna talk shit right?" Adonis asked. "It's been a while for me, but I know we'll be a little more... relaxed if that's what you're referring to" you said going into your closet to look for your purse. "Exactly. So while we're sober is there anything you'd like to share?" Adonis asked sitting on the edge of your bed. "Not that I know of" you said taking out your Chanel purse, struggling to take your wallet out, it fell to the floor. "Well, what I wanna know is, since you're so uptight, when's the last time you let someone...." Adonis asked as you bent down to pick up your wallet, looking at how defined your ass looked in those joggers. "The last time what Donnie?" you asked opening the wallet, pulling out some cash; tossing it on the bed. "You let someone get this close to you?" he asks seductively as he rose from the bed standing behind you as his hand scooped around your lower half. You felt the bulge in his pants through your joggers and quickly stepped out of his embrace.

"I told you D, I don't wanna talk about that. I'm perfectly fine doing things my way" you say putting the wallet back in the purse and placing it in your closet. Turning around, Adonis stood in front of you, "You sure about that?" he questioned pulling you into a kiss, grabbing your ass. You moaned slightly at his kiss and pulled away looking into his eyes. His charm was overtaken by the Hennessy as he picked you up and placed you in the bed getting on top of you still kissing you.

Your eyes glossed over as he looked at you. "Don't think so much" he whispered and kissed you once more before pulling off his shirt revealing his abs with a teaser of his deep v. Biting your bottom lip, Adonis pulled off your joggers, his index finger trailed the lining of your black laced thong. He shared a naughty look with you, before tugging at them as a signal for consent. Nodding your head nervously, Adonis took off your socks and kissed you from the heel of your foot to the inside of your thighs generously. Careful to give attention to both your right and left leg, Adonis took off your crop top before staring at your hips again.

Adonis kissed at your folds through your underwear, causing you to claw at the sheets. Watching your movements, he pulled your panties to the side and ran his index finger against your slit. You moaned loudly and he knew he had you. He had you right where he wanted you. Adonis' finger trailed your flesh, beginning at your lips, to your collarbone, down your chest and to your stomach. Reaching your stomach, he placed soft kisses there, watching as your body jumped at his touch and admiring your smile from time to time. He studied your body intensely, and loved the results.

Going lower, his teeth latched to your underwear and he pulled them off swiftly. Taking them out of his mouth, he spread your legs and dove into your warm folds that patiently awaited him. Groaning at the intense pleasure he produced, Adonis sucked at your lips harshly. His tongue trailed the inside of your folds producing low moans from your lips. You couldn't take the teasing, and you wanted his attention. Taking your French manicured nails between your thighs, you lifted your hood to expose your clit to him. Adonis accepted the invitation, he flicked his tongue against your clit rapidly as you struggled to keep your clit exposed to him; the pleasure was too much. You wailed loudly at his progress and ran your fingers through his low hair cut. "Shit" you cursed lowly. Adonis sucked your clit and inserted his index finger to intensify the feeling. "Two please" you let out. Adonis winked at you seductively and added his middle finger, doing this at an angle he reached your g-spot causing you to cream within moments. "Oh God!" you yelled as your hips rolled on his face and fingers.

Gripping your breasts, Adonis slapped your pussy and quickly removed his pants. You sat up for a moment hoping to get a view of his member when he pulled you into a sloppy wet kiss, tasting yourself as his tongue slithered against yours. Moaning, you gripped his neck intensifying the kiss, Adonis pushed you back gently and entered you roughly. You moaned loudly as you felt all of him in you. Laying flat on your back, Adonis put your legs by your ears bending them so your knees are by your ears, he fucked you slow and deep. His thick dick massaged your walls generously as your pussy swallowed him, taking him happily with each thrust. He was balls deep inside of you and watched as his dick flowed in and out of you effortlessly. His body hovered you as he placed wet kisses on your neck, and you bit at his shoulders, gripping his back. "Damn you wet as fuck, tight ass pussy!" He huffed. You leaned up and pulled him into a kiss, biting his bottom lip. "Shut up" you groaned against his lips.

Skin by Rihanna

Your Google Home Mini continued to echo throughout the house as Adonis pleased you. Adonis picked you up and turned you over, sitting you in his lap. He unclasped your bra and showed great attention to your breasts while you slowly grinded on his dick. "Just like that girl" he encouraged. His tongue swirled your nipple rings, playfully, he flicked your nipples with his tongue to get a rise out of you. "Quit, playing D" you joked as you wanted to pick up the pace. "Lay back for me" you said. With one last kiss, Adonis gave into your demands and held your hips as you rode him faster. His dick was thick, long, and just perfect for your pussy. This monster hit your g-spot just right and is probably fucking up your cervix as we speak. You leaned over to hover Adonis to ride him faster. Your ass clapped against his pelvis as you picked up the pace while your breasts danced in his face. Adonis stuck his tongue out to graze your breasts, hoping you could feel the sensation. "Keep going babygirl" he whispered.

You smirked at him and slowly leaned back to readjust, keeping Adonis inside, you swung your right leg over his body and used your left leg to turn your body; as your right leg followed your body was now facing his legs and your ass was in his face. You leaned over and gripped Adonis' ankles and rode him reverse cowgirl giving him a show. "Oh shit!" he said slapping your ass as it clapped on him even faster. You could feel yourself dripping on him as you clenched around him. You didn't want to quit, his shit was too good. Riding him faster, Adonis couldn't taking it, he quickly sat you up on your hands and knees and plowed you roughly. "I don't cum first, you do!" he barked. Adonis spread your ass cheeks to go deeper, as his strokes picked up, you instantly got wetter and creamed on his dick immediately. "Mhmmmm" you let out feeling satisfied. Turning under him to lay on your back, you finally spoke, "C'mere" you whispered lowly. Adonis flashed his smile as his lips met yours.

He picked you up as you two continued to kiss, laying your head on the pillow, Adonis turned you over on your side, and ran his fingers through your hair. You broke the kiss immediately when you felt the slight grip in your hair from Adonis. He slid into you roughly and lifted your left leg, fucking you from the side while pulling your hair. The mix of passion and pain sent you through the roof as he let go of your leg and put an arch in your back from pulling your hair, he pulled you into a sloppy kiss and let go to stroke deeper. "Fuck!" you groaned as you felt yourself cumming again. Because of this, Adonis bit your shoulder and continued stroking you sloppily until he came, releasing into you, you felt exhausted; nonetheless satisfied.

Sighing, heavily you rolled over on top of Adonis and kissed him, looking up at him he noticed the gleam in your eye. The familiar gleam which revealed, he fucked up. From what he could tell, you hadn't had sex in awhile, so to give it to you like this, and cum in you; he knew he had you; but this isn't quite where he wanted you either. "Damn Donnie" you joked leaning up to kiss you. "I could say the same about you, you don't hold back at all do you" he questioned. "So much for doing getting high tonight" he joked. You smiled and sat up to kiss him even more. "Stay the night" you said straddling him. "I have a client in a few hours, you should stop by the gym tomorrow" Adonis said. "We can go in together tomorrow, stay the night" you teased kissing him.

"Babygirl, not tonight. It's an important client" he argued. Ignoring him, you continued to kiss at his neck , down to his chest, his stomach, and to his deep v. Kissing the divine v- that lead to his juicy member, you took all of his pleasure stick down your throat effortlessly. Your tongue sucked on the sides of his shaft while cupping his balls. Adonis groaned in pleasure as a handful of your hair was in his hands. You popped him out of your mouth and looked up at him. "You won't be able to get out of bed after this" you teased going back down on him, stroking him with your hand while sucking the tip. Moaning on his dick, you stared at him watching as his eyes rolled to the back of his head, his groans filled the air as the music continued to play.

Rocket by Beyoncé

You continued to stroke him, keeping him lubricated, Adonis released inside as you sucked him dry, leaving no drip left to drop. Swallowing, Adonis released his grip on your hair and pulled you into a kiss. He kissed you roughly, gripping your ass. He bit your bottom lip roughly, sucking on it. "I'm bout to put you to sleep, you'll be sorry I stayed the night" he barked slapping your ass.

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