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[andreeds]

this comment on afterthoughts last fm page:

[selcouth-vast-poet]

OUUGH THE COMPLIENTS ON THE ART POST IM GONNA ACTUALLY TEAR UP

[vamprnce]

scribble from yesterday of something self indulgent, I think abt uncle Arthur and older Jack a lot 🥲 (let's pretend nothing ever bad happened in canon 😁✌️)

also I like to think they both bond really well w writing and they go out fishing and hunting together too!

[iced-souls]

So my English teacher had the worst story to tell a person who is getting their wisdom teeth taken soon.

Ha, at least it wasn’t me ha ha

[finnitesimal]

When the unerringly loyal right-hand men are referred to as dogs in the canon text

[princyvish]

oooh rain!!

the original!!

[butchdykekondraki]

uh huh okay yeah mhm okay ! normal about this

[whimsicalcotton]

Hi it's me the mf with the polluted marrow brainrot, and I bring you semi-coherent rambles about Marrow Max that were brought on by a song I recently found that just fits her like a glove IMO.

(CW: mentions of suicide & suicidal ideation. Just to be safe.)

The other day I discovered a song called Gifts For The Earth by Deafheaven and idk if it's just me but it gives HEAVY marrow max vibes to me. It's a metal song & the vocals are VERY screechy, so I don't know if you'll like the song itself? Although I think the music itself is really good, but the vocals are still a bit distracting to me even after like 20 plays lmao

ANYWAY yeah my main point is the lyrics feel so fitting to Marrow Max's mental state at her lowest point. The song itself is basically about someone giving up their life and surrendering to death through suicide, depicting images of an angel of Death comforting them as they sink to the bottom of the ocean to become one with the Earth once more.

These metaphors make me think of Marrow!Max so much, like I can perfectly imagine her looking over the cliff during the storm at the start of the fic, feeling drawn to jump into the ocean, as Chloe had done once she found out about the time loops. Feeling beckoned to end it all just like her; to let the ocean waves take her in so she can finally stop the suffering.

(Hell, maybe she actually does in a nightmare she has later on, when she thinks she's gonna lose everything in the new reality… Of course she wakes up, and the terror she feels over losing everything might just make her realize how much she needs Rachel and Chloe, and it pushes her to stop running from them. Or maybe they find her and wake her up from her nightmare, as she sees a figure appear through the darkness of the ocean waves, and then Max wakes up, and realizing they're there, eyes filled with concern for *her*, she fully breaks down in sobs)

It could also be read as a metaphor for Max drowning under the weight of all the responsibility she's thrust onto herself, to save Chloe and the others. Plus the ending lines about the flesh disintegrating into consumption for the earth fits how she can no longer see any benefit to her existence beyond what she can do for others, and how she can save or help them. Completely divorced from any sense of self-worth, she gives herself entirely for the sake of others with no concern for her health.

There could also be a read of the song where it's about Max basically killing off/shedding any part of her that is irrelevant to saving Chloe & Rachel, as everything she once was is drowned in the ocean of her subconscious, letting her become single-minded in her purpose. I guess the angel of death in this case would be Chloe, whose safety she puts above everything else? This one is a hell of a stretch but I find it fascinating nonetheless sfhsdfjkshdl

Anyway uhh sorry about the rambly essay in your asks 😅 I just love this AU & fic and cannot stop thinking about it and wanted to share some of the brainrot with you while waiting for the next update; hopefully you enjoyed reading! & if you like the song too even better!

i see what you mean abt the vocals but i am Also a big enjoyer of good percussion/tonal whiplash music/songs that go on for a Really long time so i had a good time w this one actually! thanks for the rec ^^

also don't even worry about it i dearly dearly love reading ppl's rambly essays about this AU sjdkhfsjhfk <3 (that goes for anybody btw never worry abt being rambly in my inbox bc i am probably sitting here uncontrollably happy-stimming abt it)

👀👀👀 to all of these scenarios/readings also. good fucking food

[sparklehoard]

This spiced pear redbull is tasty but I had forgotten how bad I actually deal with insane amounts of caffeine

[panhelleniios]

what subtle way of saying "i love you" are you?

"I'll wait for you."

you're a restless person, always moving from one place to another, perpetually occupied with something or other. people call you impatient. hell, you might even call *yourself* impatient! and that's fine, that's just who you are. but you'll wait for some people. you'd sit down and wait for them if they needed you to, and the first time you do, the first time you show them you'll stretch your limited patience to something limitless for them if they need it, it feels almost like a confession. you might not be very patient with the world, but there are exceptions you're more than willing to make. you're so good at making people feel like they're not a burden.

stolen from: @chth0nia

tagging: steal it!

[hollypies]

Little froggy we saw at the science museum for you!!! 💜💜💜

YESSSS!!!!! HE IS JUDT!!! SITTING THERE!!!!!!!! YIPPEEE!!!!!

ooughh look at those eyes.. thinking about nothing.. sitting peacefully... what a life to live

[ech0light]

see the thing about mcdonald’s fries is that you’re lulled into a false sense of security by how goddamn tiny and thin the fries are so you just stuff your face absolutely full of them cause they’re small and what’s the worst that could happen? when in reality you’ve just been tricked into eating an entire oversalted potato in the span of 5 minutes and now your poor innocent stomach has to deal with the consequences of your actions

[today-i-am-thinking-about]

puff paint

[selcouth-vast-poet]

late but 9, 19, 27, 33 for the pride asks

YIPPEEE

9. When did you realize you weren't cishet?

at the ripe old age of 12 baybey!!! up until then i actually didnt even care id be called whatever i was called. but at that age i was like. Wait a Minute.

19. Do you feel safe and accepted in your local community?

No!!!!!❤ it depends though i do feel accepted by my friends!!! they are queer too and helped me realize lots of things

27. What gender-neutral terms for yourself or others do you use (i.e. joyfriend)?

cowboy voice Pardner!!(partner) i love using that word for myself or others if they want. also i dont know but does Eldritch Horror count???

33. What about your LGBT identity do you feel proud of/ want to recognize/celebrate?

how versatile my gender idenitty feels. its just so. such a Mystery at times and i absolutely adore it!!!!

[hurrakka]

Ouughg I miss them so much had to draw em again real quick

[swampbangle]

Brain decided it wanted to tell me a raw ass Dusknoir line so I had to get out of bed to make this at 3am.

Ouughg my wrist hurt