#our own future? that we dont know what happens next?

[pez3639]

Rockstar's Boyfriend

Luke Hughes x guitarist! reader

A/N: agh this took forever to put together yall. pls don't be a flop. this will be a fun series, but will probably have suuuuper slow updates (im so sorry 😭) the band poster was made by me with the three girls being from The Warning. all pictures are from pinterest as well. lmk if this is even readable or if there are any suggestions for future formats MWAH 😽

Lysistrata.Official: Crowd was straight up insane. Be on the lookout for our next surprise show. Love yall forever.

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penny.bangs: Who are those Divas??

↳Fan1: Literal Icon

↳iris_siri: My pretty pretty girl

↳y/n_riffs: why am i always third wheeling in my own band.

Fan2: that crowd diver was the coolest

Fan3: Need another show ASAP pls

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y/n_riffs: Pablo's the only one keeping me sane, the basement reeks of cheap wine, and we definitely DIDNT partake in illicit substances... also i got dragged into a hockey sidequest???

y/n_riffs tagged penny.bangs, iris_siri, and njdevils

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iris_siri: Give Pablo a kiss for me. AND YOU KNOW YOU LOVED THE BOY AQUARIUM!

↳y/n_riffs: boy aquarium lowkey went hard (need that man)

↳penny.bangs: that man needs YOU

lhughes_06: banger after banger

↳jackhughes: 🤨 📸

↳lhughes_06: am i not allowed to listen to good music

↳trevorzegras: bros down bad

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njdevils: Rock on! National Anthem happening soon...?

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↳fan1: crossover episode

↳fan2: PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

penny.bangs: smoke circle went crazy.

↳fan3: i love this all female, gay, stoner, loser band

↳y/n_riffs: @/Lysistrata.official new bio?

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penny.bangs: playing drums, kissing girls, blah blah blah, im so cool.

penny.bangs tagged iris_siri and y/n_riffs

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iris_siri: I LOVE YOU!

↳penny.bangs: i lobe you more

↳y/n_riffs: i hate happy couples.

↳iris_siri: And we love you

↳penny.bangs: need snoopy to hurry tf up and bag you so youre not miserable anymore.

↳y/n_riffs: i hate you even more now

fan1: cutest couple to exist

fan2: I just KNOW she was sweating trying to beat y/n in guitar hero

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fayewebster: dream openers

↳y/n_riffs: excuse me, WHAT?

↳iris_siri: 👀

↳penny.bangs: on my knees

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iris_siri: time of my life with my friends and my love <3

iris_siri tagged penny.bangs, y/n_riffs, and nyrangers

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y/n_riffs: i keep seeing pics from the party that i do NOT remember being in...

↳iris_siri: the pictures dont lie

fan1: She is the moment

nyrangers: this is why the lead singer is always the fave #letsgorangers

↳y/n_riffs: didnt yall lose to the devs that game...

↳iris_siri: dont be a hater miss ma'am

fan2: i dont know if i want to be her or be with her

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↳fan3: she has a gf already 😔

↳fan4: she liked it...tea

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lhughes_06: Celly worthy times right here

lhughes_06 tagged _quinnhughes, jackhughes, lysistrata.official, and y/n_riffs.

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_quinnhughes: looking good bro

↳jackhughes: wonder who he got it from

↳trevorzegras: Definitely Mrs. Hughes 😁

↳lhughes_06: blocked.

fan1: wait a minute...the concert...the tags...

↳fan2: why is this not being talked about more.

↳fan3: Maybe he just likes the music?

↳fan1: he is an avid country listener...someones cooking here

↳fan4: AND he only tagged y/n

njdevils: we ♥️ #43

iris_siri: @/y/n_riffs girl...

↳penny.bangs: hold on shes hyperventilating rn

↳y/n_riffs: im actually dead rn 🧍‍♀️

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[k-s-morgan]

What are your plans to the future? Do you think about moving to another country? At least for a while until this war ends? I hope you can undestand what i meant, english is not my first language but what i am trying to say its You have endure enough. You are strong for remaining yourself and keeping hoping for a better future but a better future sees unlikeable to happen. This world is insane. The people in it dont care about each other. I am worried by you. Every day.

Another ask: Me again. So as i said before, people dont care about anything that arent themself. Many countrys could help to end this insanity but they wont. I dont know if they even try it tbh. You have done enough Morgan. If its money the issue, i will send to you everything i can. If you have the chance to leave, please do it. You can always start again, and enjoy live again if you are alive. Your life and your mother and your family's life are important. Please, please think about it.

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Hello! Oh, thank you so much for worrying about me to this extent <3 I can't tell you how warm and reassuring this feels to me. Your asks touched me a lot, I'm so grateful to have readers like you - sometimes I can't believe how lucky I am.

I do think about moving - I've been thinking of it since the start of the war, but unfortunately, the choice always comes down to my safety vs. my family. To have both, I would indeed need money, but way too much of it. Like, tens of thousands of dollars. This is just not achievable.

Starting a new life elsewhere would mean that my mother would be automatically out of job. She won't be able to find anything even remotely good due to her age and qualifications, and if she leaves now, she'll lose her pension. 3 more years separate her from it. So, I'll become the sole provider.

In Kyiv, we live in our own apartment, but in another place, we would have to pay the rent, which is always expensive. Technically, with the job I have now, I would be able to support us anyway, but only barely. And what would happen if I were to lose my job? I lost it twice in one year already. What if someone gets sick, or another emergency happens, or I die? My family would be completely helpless - no pension, no jobs, no proper savings.

Selling the Kyiv apartment is way too risky - the money can lose value or disappear in other ways, and we'd be homeless. Renting it out is a possibility, but my stepfather lives here. He can't leave, or he risks getting drafted.

Of course, if the threat to our lives was acute - like if Russians were standing near Kyiv again and bombs were flying at us non-stop, we'd all flee. It would come to a life in uncertainty and poverty vs. death, and we'd naturally choose the former. But the threat isn't acute yet. Yes, the air raids happen daily, and it's terrifying, and things are getting worse, but statistically, not that many people die from it. We face a much bigger chance of being hit by a car than by a missile.

That's what makes this choice so complicated and nuanced. And I'm not even talking about emotional factors, such as this being my beloved home, a place where my relatives and pets are buried, a place where I take care of the specific homeless cats and birds - they depend on me, and leaving them behind is devastating.

If I had a lot of money, I would leave anyway, but I don't, so making this decision is next to impossible. Leaving alone would be easy, but it is not an option - my family is my lifeline. I'd rather live in horror with them than in happiness without them.

However, I also understand that such a life is impossible to bear. I'm so traumatized that I think even in the best-case scenario, I will die before my time due to some nerves-related illness.

This December, my father turns 60. After this, he will be safe to leave. If the war is not over and there is still no hope, I think I will move to another city, a safe one, with him, while my Mom and my step-father stay for 3 more years until my Mom's pension. I will come visit them often, maybe live in both places.

That's what I have in mind for now. It's a tentative plan, but it's there, and I'm holding onto it while still hoping that this nightmare finally ends this year. Justice will not come, but peace, at least a temporary one? Maybe.

[thewertsearch]

-- grimAuxiliatrix [GA] began trolling gardenGnostic [GG] -- GA: Are You Feeling Any More Cooperative In This Timeframe GG: password! GA: I See No Of Course Not GA: Please GA: I Know You Were Talking To Her Shortly Before GA: What Did You Say To Her GG: I SAID PASSWORD FUCKASS!!!!!

This is a pretty clever idea, actually. Usually when you message someone on Trollian, it lives up to its name by serving up a completely random timeframe, confusing your conversations with what I'm almost convinced is deliberate malice.

Employing a password system to keep things linear is a very creative countermeasure – although it’s not exactly foolproof, since Kanaya could request future passwords from her own older self.

GA: Past You Doesnt Care About Passwords What Happened […] GG: it depends, do you want to have a silly conversation or a serious conversation?

I’m really liking this no-bullshit incarnation of Jade. It’s an attitude we haven’t seen from any of these other jokesters – and as we've recently discussed, it’s particularly striking to see it from Jade Harley, who’s been silly since day one.

GG: you have to give me that password to start our next conversation GG: this ensures that past you cant jump ahead into the conversation and mess everything up, like you are trying to do now!

Like I said, it's not fully secure, since she could get passwords from her future self, or use Trollian’s viewport to snoop on Jade’s future conversations.

Luckily, this is Kanaya we're talking about. She's sensible enough to play fair.

I love that the Iron Man suit appears to be fully functional.

This is a much more versatile flying solution than the jetpack - but it pales in comparison to the majesty of Unreal Air.

GA: Im Appreciating Our Conversations From This Timeframe More And More GA: Past You Is Much Less Of A Taskmaster Than Future You Or Pre Blackout Rose […] GG: […] what do you mean by blackout??? GA: I Guess Youll Find Out Soon GA: And Then Report It To Me Under Extremely Specific Circumstances GA: Which Is Good Because I Sure Dont Know GG: hmm @_@ […] GA: Your Eyes Are Right To Be Swirled Letters

Love Kanaya’s continued fascination with ASCII typography. It might just be my favorite running gag in the comic.

[xvxnux]

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i : "i need you to be strong now, everything that's happening today will somehow serve to bring you to me... your best version. believe in what i'm saying now: we will still have sad feelings about this, it's something that marked us and made us suffer. i need you to dedicate yourself and not give up, make plans. always have a direction! always have dreams and look for things that make you want the best for all eternity. i know things are tough and you're tired of waiting for genuinely good things. there's something difficult for us to deal with besides all of this, you know? something from our inner selves that you refuse to accept happened and refuse to expose and talk about. you're right to preserve yourself, but know that everything you put effort into doing succeeds. our secret will be safe until you want it to be, and can i tell you something? we'll never tell. know that your future will be good, comfortable. you'll have time to feel the cool breeze in your hair and have moments of peace. you may be curious about your career, right? well, listen, you'll be successful. you'll have a stable and admired mind, you can do anything! i'm sorry if i confuse you when i say "you" at some moments and "our" at others. i see us as different people now, who suffer and feel the weight of the present is you, and you will always be proud of your story. i'm in the future, waiting for you to blossom! I'm sorry i can't give you more directions about our future right now, but i'm worried about you. oh, stop apologizing! i hope you'll be alright. with love, your future self."

i see that you might be going through a tough time at the moment. the cards mostly speak about stability. perhaps you're confused about your career, and you might wonder if this reality will change, which can cause you pain.

your future self didn't want to talk about other matters; they are concerned. you'll become even more responsible for yourself and your feelings. i can see that in the future, you may face emotional challenges, and your burden is heavy, but it's alright — you'll manage well and become even more amazing!

ii : "dont worry, your cup will always be full. you will have brilliant moments ahead, so don't lose faith. there's a new version of yourself about to bloom like a black widow flower. this version will be one of the four you'll experience. no, you won't cease to be yourself, but we agree that you need to evolve, right?! in any case, be confident, your next version will teach you cunning and how to handle malicious people, unfavorable situations, and moments of pain. you'll emerge from all the rough situations, knowing how to navigate them unscathed. don't hold onto this current version of yourself; you're feeling sorry for yourself! i apologize for being tough and cold with you; perhaps it's my desperation for having lived your pain and heard your despair without being able to do much. but i believe, you are me, and i once was you! you need to understand that feeling sorry for yourself will make it difficult to leave the past behind, the same lack i felt once and that you still feel: the missing hug, the support that was lacking... the stabs in our backs and the weight on our conscience. i understand it all. when i say not to feel sorry for yourself, i mean you need to detach from this version; it no longer serves you. but if by any chance you don't understand why you feel this way, i can point out a few reasons: you lacked support and didn't receive the value you deserved. always alone, my love? always. you learned through pain to rely on yourself, you supported yourself, wiped your own tears. You embraced your inner child; yes, you are a child. but this child needs to stay, and you need to continue this journey. learn from all of this that you will still be your own support; your inner child knows how to walk and needs to walk alone, take her off your lap. your version will bring you everything you need, and it's written for you. wait to discover that you are one of the most intelligent people someone could meet. know that you will still have the power of communication; know that you will be feared and respected. feared by enemies and respected by friends! you are loving, and you need to continue to be so, you need to find balance. you want to help people in the future, and you will, but to get to me, you need to nurture the love within yourself. you will stop looking at yourself with harsh eyes and discover new spiritual abilities soon. be happy, i'm waiting for you..."

for me, it was touching and straightforward. i see that currently, you might be experiencing moments where you doubt yourself and wonder if you will reach your desired destination, but yes, you will. much depends on us and our well-being, on how our mind is doing. i see you as an intelligent person with potential, but you have been neglected and diminished in the past. there may be psychological issues that hold you back and eat away at you from the inside. fear of not finding love? nah, you will find it. even though you may not have that next version yet, i see positive aspects in you that help you get through all the difficulties you have faced. you are strong and can protect yourself from many things, but there are still challenging things. your intuition and life situations will guide you to where you belong. don't swim against the current; if you feel like doing something, just do it.

iii : "luck is on your side now, and you need to know how to be rational and think about the future, so when tough moments come knocking at your door, you don't see everything as bad and against you. the friends you have today, few will remain by your side later, and the things you value now will lose their significance. cherish the present moments and prioritize those who are prioritizing you now, okay?! i need you to wake up and be more responsible about your future, don't waste time and money! the future is bright, and you will have everything you desire, but if you still think money can buy everything... stop. i don't have much more to say for now, have a good night."

[mummer]

HI! /post/779240791836114944/ made me want to know more about your novel. are there any details you're comfortable sharing about it (themes, broad premise, characters...)? and i hope this finds you well!!!!

woohoo!!! sure!! under the readmore so i can be as annoying as i want ⬇️

so here is the basic logline summary (i fucking hate writing loglines and idk how to get it to sound less tryhard but w/e):

“spiralling through time, DREAMCOAT follows the genesis of a teenage prophet and the summer camp bunkmates in her eternal orbit, who are haunted by her sudden disappearance and the foreboding messages she has left behind”

vibes wise it’s kind of everything is illuminated meets what happens next meets old testament meets twin peaks. If that makes sense. lol

basically at an all girls jewish summer camp a girl called esther reveals she can see the future and this messes up everybody’s lives forever. the book focuses on three of her bunkmates, rebecca (losergirl NEET who is obsessed with esther), amy (later alex) (pessimist who thinks esther is a lying freak) and alex’s twin dana (beautiful and disassociative). it follows those three throughout their lives with interludes from ancestors of the distant past and future like the bit you linked.

at the end of their last year at camp esther disappears. like, from existence. like no one else can remember her except the people she went to camp with. not even her parents!! rebecca tries to investigate. she finds herself in possession of a notebook of prophecies esther wrote and becomes obsessed with deciphering them and begins to upload them online in a bid for attention. unfortunately she gets it when everything starts to come true. uh oh!! now she has an online doomsday cult!! meanwhile alex transitions and flirts with climate terrorism and dana joins an actual wellness cult in search of her own spiritual power. eventually these things will collide but im not sure how yet. dont worry about it!

it’s meant to get across the feeling of all of time happening all at once if that makes sense. and it’s about the horror of bloodlines and determinism. and loneliness. and about the terror we have of the future and our cosmic smallness and the way we mythmake from symbols and search for god which in the end is time. yay!!! im not even halfway through a first draft so who knows how much of this will change but thank you for asking i need to get back to it!!!!

[chondrichthyes-x-mantodea]

My experiences with animal sciences and how practices within them signal issues with women's health. Another long one, sorry ya'll

So someone reblogged my post about the OBGYN field saying that animals in America are treated better than women. What a coincidence that I ran into this issue today! So I was in veterinary science for four years in high school. I had a vet assistant certification and was in the FFA (Future Farmers of America). And when I tell you this inference is not too far off, I mean it. I wouldn't say they're treated better, but the general attitude towards the female body is very much more visible, they dont try to hide it with animals. You can also see connections in many practices. When I got into it, there was also a slight uncomfortable tinge when our class came to reproduction and reproductive techniques that always targeted the female body. Well, first when we looked at endocrine systems, the male was always described as existing for himself. Testosterone was for muscles and strength. But with female, her endocrine was always surrounded with sex and offspring. Estrogen was for going into heat and "being impregnated". Progesterone was to "support a fetus" not help her survive a pregnancy. This really does connect back to the female body being seen as the reproductive tool of the male body. The sole focus in fertility. We still don't even know much about the female endocrine seperate from the focus on offspring. And that goes onto practices. Vaginal speculums, inducing estrus, artificial "insemination", much more. I dont wanna say too much, but my school bred animals. Once they talked about how they induced one of the animals into an estrus by implanting a hormonal device in the cervix. Something about it rubbed me the wrong way, because they never do that to male bodies to increase sperm quality. At most they collected sperm from a male animal, but usually willingly.

So what happened today? I shop on chewy for my pets, and I saw estradiol for animals. I was confused at first and wondered why someone would need that, but I remembered how animals are induced. So I clicked hoping it wasn't the case. Nope that's the case. However when you read further you see there's actually some benefits to estradiol for some individuals. So let's analyze this.

The first thing you see in description is: "Estradiol is used to induce estrus, a state of sexual receptivity during which the female will accept the male and is capable of conceiving."

So let's address how using estrogen for this purpose is just really weird. Excess estrogen can cause a lot of health issues, most notably (to me at least) CANCER. Animals go into estrus on their own. Also let's talk about "will accept the male". So sexual selection doesn't exist anymore? That's the thing with this crowd. They see female hormones as something robotic. They think estrus makes females bend over to any male they find. And again, why is there almost never something for males to decrease chances of sperm deformity?

Ok let's go down to uses: "Estradiol can be used to enhance estrus behavior and receptivity in ovariectomized mares and aid mares with estrogen-responsive urinary incontinence."

So they're saying you use this product to increase estrus symptoms in mares who have had their ovaries removed. Why? Fuck if I know. Could be behavioral, I doubt surrogacy due to a lack of ovaries (most responsible for hormone synthesis). So Imma go to the next part. When you get to the bottom you see that it helps urinary issues. So now we are FINALLY at the part where it actually benefits a female body and not just making a female into a breeding machine. So it does have a benefit, it can help female animals with incontinence! It's just that they are valued as production rather than a living being

Finally we get to precautions: "Estradiol is contraindicated during pregnancy as it can cause fetal malformations of the genitourinary system and induce bone marrow depression in the fetus. Estradiol cypionate should not be used to treat estrogen-responsive incontinence in small animals."

So I was actually kinda surprised they explained why (AND TESTED) why a hormone/medication shouldn't be used during pregnancy! Usually, with animals, they actually admit they never tested it with pregnant animals, of which I suspect to be the same with humans. They'd rather just say "yeah uh don't take it" instead of actually paying attention to female bodies, because again you are just a vessel. Also the fact that they never test how medications effect male reproduction, thats something that carries onto humans aswell. They would never limit a man even if he causes issues to another human. Anyways, my reasoning as to why they actually knew this time comes down to them paying close attention to female hormones... but only when it comes into play with a fetus. Trust, they know ALLLLLLL about the female body- WHEN ITS ABOUT A FETUS THOUGH! And again we see the death and malformation of a fetus as a negative for the fetus and not the female. They don't mention how this situation could ALSO effect the female animal. I would assume natural abortion would take place, which is dangerous. The thing is they'll study the effects on a fetus not a living breathing female. And throughout my experience with animals, I've learned that a reproductive adult will always be more valued by nature than a fetus. The health of your parent animal dictates success the most. However you always hear about how to stay pregnant or support fetal growth, the best thing to focus on is FEMALE HEALTH. We aren't vessels. However humans seem to have that twisted. I'll get into that on another post with prenatal vitamins.

So take what you want from this and run, if you've even gotten this far. I know it was long. Im still in science, just non-mammalian. I am by no means a professional but I feel the need to put my feelings out there. To all the feminists in medical or any other biological sciences, I wish you luck. Shit is so tiring.

[madeby-meru]

Episode 11 Review (Jason & Thomas)

I actually have rather little to say about this one, overall it was an okay-ish episode and it didn’t have much in it for me (still keeping it under the cut to contain the yapping lol)

beware of spoilers!

One of th few times I saw both routes fully, i usually only go see Thomas' special scenes and illustration but I was pretty curious about this one and I am starting to like him more and more, the scene felt so shooooooorrrrt I wish they had talked more and discussed his finger licking habits 👁👁 the ilustration was very pretty too, i LOVE his expression~ I was a bit sad when we couldnt go to the planetarium :c I hope its a hint for a future episode, maybe an actual date?

Now Jason's route... I am a damn broken CD repeating myself over and over but I really and i mean REALLY dislike Ysaline. She is such a brat and so rude and judgy for no reason.

The whole "uuuuggghh i dont want to have dinner with himmmmm but i gave my woorrrddd but i dont want to be with hiiiimmmm" was so silly cause... dont go? say no? whats he gonna do sue you for hurting his feelings? why are u acting like u have a gun to your head lmao and also why are you acting like spending time alone with him is a torture? the last few times you two spend time together he was sweet and kind, he opened up to you, he helped you and clearly showed you that he DOES like you as a person!! what is there to hate at this point i dont get it, and youre also obviously horny for him get your shit together

And just dipping from his house leaving the dinner there.... I'm sorry that is extremely rude I cant deal with that. The reasoning is, again, so stupid. No, she is not betraying her company because (like Jason says) the rivalry is between him and Devon, Ysaline is not part of the equation she is not even a variable to consider. And no, she is not betraying her "friends" either because she has none! the game is very focused on the route to the point of our MC not making friends, this is not HSL where you got to constantly interact with the cast, raise their LOM, get to know them, etc. Here Ysaline is alone with her LI (and I cant take the argument of "the friendship happens behind the camera" cause thats just lazy af and leaving up to the VIEWER to fill in plot holes, for all I know she could also be addicted to cocaine and thats why she doesnt have money to pay the groceries).

Anyway, her bullshit aside, I actually loved Jason this episode! He is funny, witty, bratty in his charming way, he is so gentlemany, he cooks for her, drives her in his car (sighs like a teenager). I really like his character these past few episodes (it does bother me tho that this ep is SO bland without the special scene :/) and i hope he continues this way !!

Back to bitching- Just to quickly comment on the whole cameo thing: I am not a fan. I dont really mind them per se and I am not bubbling with rage, the cameos are well placed and they make sense and dont feel super out of pocket (amoris is a small city after all) but... I want our own characters, I want our own NPCs to interact with semi-frequently, I looooved the introduction of Devon's brothers and that cap remains my fav up to date (i want to rewatch it on Thomas' route again just to see Tasha and the boys more~). I want more characters that Ysaline can befriend and forge friendships with :c

That's pretty much all, like I said a mid chapter, not bad but not good. Pretty curious about the next one and how Jason will fit there!

[prideprejudce]

im genuinely curious since i keep seeing this opinion, but i rly dont think hotd writing was bad? nothing is perfect but idk, unless someone points to me the times they had shitty writing im having a hard time seeing it. unless i dont actually know what "writing" means here. english is not my first language, i COULD be misinterpreting things lmao. i rly liked how they did things this season, i think it made sense with the last one, this one was just Tenser because at any second the war will reallyyy break out n we dont know when cuz we have two driving forces from opposite sides not wanting that to happen, thats the entire point of s2 i think: establishing that in war there is no clear winner ("strange victory" n all that), that everyone is going to die, that there is no point to any of it theres no point to war at all, that every character is "heroic" and "villainous" in their own right in the right pov. i think it was a fun season to flesh out the characters, have us not feel entirely happy to be fighting for one side cuz theres innocents in both sides but ultimately we all know they will all die and its all for nothing. thats the tragedy of it all imo. i loved it to pieces. i guess id say im sad some characters didnt interact but also i dont see how they would considering how this season went. n also i wanted more rhaena (i do hope she'll have a cool ass role next season, idc idc)

i personally think this season was truly a transition season to full out war. people are pissed because they wanted war to instantly happen after lucerys died last season, but in reality things arent that black and white and i think it would have cheapened the plot to fast forward through the political negotiations and underhanded scheming to try and win without fighting, to just full on nuclear dragon war.

I actually like the idea that this season was like standing on a cliffs edge where one wrong move led to oblivion with millions of people dying and the practical annihilation of half of house targaryen. I'm glad that the writers took the time to emphasize how dire this war could become before barreling us into it. the political battles and moral dilemmas are just as fun to watch as the actual battles

that being said, there are still valid criticisms of the show being brought up too: like the weird pacing and absolute dragging on of daemons harrenhal ghost adventures. on one hand I get it, because in the books daemon just disappears for weeks at a time, and the writers had to do SOMETHING with him this season instead of having him peace out for 7 episodes. but I agree that the harrenhal visions became repetitive, and I'm also not a huge fan of the back to the future magic being shoved in our faces instead of more subtle clues to it

overall, it was a transition season, not the absolute best season of television history, but it's definitely not the worst (and not even CLOSE to being as bad as got s8). I think in modern age media consumption, people now equate "i personally don't like this" to "this is all horrible and the whole show is trash now"

[iouinotes]

Heroic love (part 4) | Luke Castellan

pairing: Luke Castellan x female!reader

show: Percy Jackson and the Olympians

warnings: betrayal, dark romance, no verbal consent, angst, smut MINORS DONT INTERACTE

summary: Luke finds out your plan and you give in. After all, it is better to be with him than with the monsters that suround you.

authors note: The reader joins Luke rather unwillingly, even though she still loves him. I just want to say up front that Luke's threat at the end is not meant serious. He would never do something like that to her. He only does it so that she realizes that there is no other way than to join him. If it's too dark, I'm sorry... @qwertydddddddddd wanted to be tagged, so I hope you enjoy it <33

Sometimes you think to yourself, this is real love. I'm gonna marry this person. I will spend my life with them, building a home and a family.

Well thats the regular scenario, I mean for the people who are regular. Not demigods.

And you see, even though we dont have an easy life, fighting monsters, losing friends, being scared and anxious all the time, that some bad evil guy suddenly wants to rule the world- we live. Because we have to and because we have each other.

So, for me, I was prepared for it to become harsh. I always knew my life would be like sitting on a rollercoaster, never having the chance to exit.

But I found comfort in this reality. I would imagine being on this attraction, but holding onto something that grounds me. Someone that gives me strengh, so I don't lose myself.

For a long time, I held hands with Luke.

Then of course, something did go terrible wrong, as if they goddess Aphrodite wanted to watch an exciting, action packed romance movie, with the plot twist of I-hate-to-love-you-because-you-left-me trope. Something like this.

Well, I think the movie sucks. In the last months, everything was just not right- Luke leaving camp to join Kronos? Betraying everyone and kidnapping me? Showing up here, messing with me and then holding my own dagger to my throat? (Deja vu)

No, that just isnt what I Imagined to happen in the future. I didnt want my boyfriend to turn into the bad guy, who we swore to fight.

But now I guess, thats up to me. At least some part of it.

"I think Luke ist turning into Darth Vader." Sometimes I'm not sure whats going on in Percys head.

"I never heard of this monster?" Annabeths parents are so wrong for not watching Star Wars with her.

"Guys, after we discussed this, you can have your movie night. But please, let's focus." My voice sounds harsher than I intended, so I immediately feel bad about it.

"Sorry, it's just very complicated. I want to know what our next steps are, what we are planning to do with this- situation." I don't know how else to call it.

"We need information. Who is the spy? What are Kronos plans? Where will he attack? Who joined him? So many unanwered questions." Chirons voice sends a shiver down my neck. He's right, but how do we achieve it?

Percys gaze unnerves me and when I turn my head to meet his eyes, he immediately shakes his head.

"I am not letting you alone with him this time. Nope." I sign, conflicted how I would want to deal with this.

All eyes are on me and when I turn to them, I try to explain my plan. But I cant even finish my second sentence and already everyone seems to be against it.

"We cant let him out!"

"He will kill us!"

"His army is already searching for him, he would escape!"

Annabeth raises her hand and the voices calm down. As she looks at me, I sense her own doubts about the situation.

"They are right. How do you know he would trust you? Could you convince him?"

I nod my head, ignoring my doubts.

"I can."

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The moon shines beautifully in the sky, but it helps nothing to calm down my nerves. Im so stupid, why did I thought I could pull this off?

"Youre sure, you want to do this? You dont have to." Percy's standing next me, as always trying to comfort me.

"He will believe me. I always had dreams, where I thought he-" I need a moment to finish my sentence.

"-died. That he got hurt or is in pain. When I had this sort of dream, I would always sneak out of my cabin and came to him. I would walk into his cabin and he somehow always knew what happend. He would tuck me in his bed, letting me cry and cuddling me. Resurring me that everything is going to be okay, that he will live. That was always my biggest fear, that he would die and I would be helpless to do anything against it. He knows that."

We stand in silence for a moment.

"If you need me, I will be there. Just be careful." I smile at him.

I take a deep breath and go trough the doors, seeing that the only light he has, is a small lamp on the ceiling. I quicken my pace so he can hear me coming. When I stand in front of his cell, he is already on his feet. He looks alarmed.

"What-" his t-shirt is wrinkled and his eyes are sleepy. My breath catches and I don't even have to pretend to be confused and afraid, standing in front of him alone in the dark is enough.

The bars are the only thing that separates us.

At first I don't say anything, I just look at him with watery eyes. And just like I said, he knows it. He always knows.

"Another nightmare?" His voice is so gentle, it makes me remember the old days when everything was good. When he took me in his arms and wiped the tears from my cheeks.

I just nod, I don't think my voice is stable enough yet.

I have to play the role, I can do it. He has to believe me.

I slide down the wall and put my head in my hands, all the despair and pain I've been carrying for weeks suddenly coming out of me. I'm crying so hard that I'm almost afraid of waking up the others.

"Shit, princess- what can I do? Let me help, please." He sounds so desperate and it's only now that I realize, that I don't actually have to act. Because my tears are real.

"Y-you ruined everything! And I'm still s-so scared that something h-happens to you" I meet his gaze and see the remorse in his eyes. His heart hurts too.

"I didn't want something like that to happen- please, darling. Come here." Sniffling, I stand up. My knees feeling weak and unsteady. If I go in there now, I won't be able to defend myself properly.

“You hurt me, I shouldn’t even be here. You're an idiot, Luke. I hate-" but I can't bring myself to say it. I cant say that I hate him. Because I don't, at least not yet.

"I know, believe me. I hate myself too. Only your belief in me has always held me together." He grips the bars, I see the inner conflict within him.

"But you won't change. You've never been able to do that well." I know I'm right and he knows it too. Silence surrounds us.

"Let me hold you. Just for- a few minutes. Please. I can't stand seeing you like this. You've always been the sunshine in my life. I don't want my sun to be obscured."

The key jingles in my hand and I look at it uncertainly.

"I won't hurt you, never again, I promise. I also got an anklet. I can't escape." His eyes look so honest. I'm feeling nervous, my heart is beating way too fast.

I put the key in the lock and open the door, freezing in my movements for a moment. What am I doing here? But then I hear his voice and I know why.

“It’s not that comfortable on the floor, but you can sit on my lap." I close the door.

As I move towards him I see how thin he has become and how brown his eyes still are.

Slowly, he raises his hands and when I stand in front of him he puts them around my waist. My knees buckle and I sink carefully onto his lap. My hands rest uncertainly on his shoulders, then moving down to his neck. Playing with the strands of his hair, lost in thoughts.

His face is right in front of mine, both of our breaths are uneven. His hands linger on me, holding me tight to him. Warmth fills my chest as I look into his eyes.

"You're so beautiful. So, so beautiful." A sob tries to escape me, as I do something, I always loved. I put my head in the crook of his neck and wrap my arms around him.

He holds me for a few minutes, stroking my back and whispering soothing, sweet nothings in my ear.

Once I've calmed down, I'm basically lying on top of him and can hear his heartbeat. It's almost soporific.

"Luke?" my voice is calm.

His head turns to me. "Yes?"

"I...I want to be with you. I don't care how or- or where. I just know that I can't live without you." I see his eyebrows furrow.

"You dont mean-" I am silent. Just looking at him, sitting up a little, straddling him.

"I need you. I tried not to need you. But it's out of my control, nothing helps to ease the pain. Only you, only you matter."

Is it the truth if the words escape me so easily?

His hand finds my cheek and I lean into his touch.

"We're the only ones that matter. We will get through this, together and united. You don't have to fight my darling, you just have to be by my side." His hand around my waist pulls me towards him, the other one, he continues to lay on my cheek. Caressing the skin, drawing invisible heart-shapes.

Then his lips meet mine and my eyes flutter shut. The kiss so intoxicating, that I forget for a moment my real intention. Forget why I'm participating in this madness.

As he pulls away from me, I hear his whispering voice.

"You won't betray me, right? You won't do that to me?" He tugs on my hair, ever so slightly, to get my attention.

"No, Luke. I won't." Lie.

The key in my hand is no longer idle as I remove his shackles carefully.

"Then princess, let's get out of here." I slowly get off his lap, but before I stand up, he lifts me up in his arms.

"I promise you that I will never hurt you again. You deserve only the best." As cliche as it is, he carries me out of the cell, which isnt locked anymore.

He lets me down outside and breathes in the fresh air. It's still night, maybe 4 a.m. Everything is quiet.

His hands cup my face and place several kisses on my skin.

"You are incredible, I knew you would join me. For real this time." He takes my hand and intertwines our fingers. I don't see Percy anywhere.

"Let's go. I know where my troops are stationed. Nobody will notice that we're gone until it's too late."

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Joining Kronos' army was the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life, and that includes keeping the truth from Luke.

That I'm a spy for the camp, better hidden than anyone else ever could. No one would accuse or suspect the leader's girlfriend, because everyone can see how much I love him.

After all, it's the only reason I'm tolerated here. Because Luke would kill anyone who even came near me. He has already done it to a dragon lady who was too pushy and even when I tried to stop him, he showed no mercy.

Because he can't afford to do that, if he shows that he has a heart, it will be taken away from him.

Every day it is torture to witness this evil, to help maintain cover, to save my friends.

And every day I feel worse, because I lie to Luke. But it is the only way. I cannot help in the camp, if my heart is somewhere else. Here, with him, my thoughts are not always here, but my heart is.

At least it's enough for me to function. When Luke isn't distracting me.

When I wake up that morning on the Princess Andromeda, it is still quiet. In the presence of these monsters, I have not been able to sleep well for months. Even the dreams I have, make me wake up in the middle of the night and the only thing that calms me down is Luke's touch.

His fingers gently stroke my exposed skin, and as I turn my head and look at him, I see an emotion in his eyes, I've only recently noticed. There is a desire in his gaze, as if he wanted to consume my entire being, to have me just for himself.

My voice, my body, my thoughts, my feelings. Simply everything. He wants it all to be his.

"I wish I could erase every bad dream you have and send whoever is responsible for it to burn in hell. It should scare me that you make me think like that, but if I'm honest, it doesn't. Are you scared?" His eyes look into mine.

Slowly, my fingers intertwine with his. "Not when you're with me."

The next thing I notice is his lips on mine. The way his hands grip my hips and pull me onto him.

He leans towards me, his lips caress my ears and I hear his whispering voice. "Every day I hear one my followers talking about you. That they want to have you, to decorate your beautiful body with scars, with their initials." I freeze at his words, wanting to pull away and look at him, but he holds me tight. Makes me continue to listen to his voice.

"They want to see you bleed, to alternate between pain and pleasure when they push their cocks into you. Do you like that? That you are so desired? That you turn everyone's heads, when you go by and they start wanting to see my head roll? To get close to you, huh?" I want to shake my own head, but he holds me even tighter.

"Do you know how hard it is not to execute every single one of them? Do you know that? I would, if I could. I would kill every single one of them, in front of you, so that everyone knows that you belong to me. Do you understand? No one will speak to you anymore, because your voice is mine. No one will look at you, because your sight is mine. You keep your hands to yourself, no more help with injuries, I don't care if they die. Your hands only touch me."

As I start to sqirm, he leans back, keeping his hands on my hips until a finger strokes my cheek.

"No one will ever kiss you except me. And anyone who even thinks about fucking you, I will let die in battle. You may think my loyalty is to Kronos, but it is to you. My beautiful girl. Now think carefully about who you are pledging your loyalty to."

When his eyes look into mine, I fall silent. Then, even though I try not to, my voice trembles.

"What do you mean? I'm loyal to you, Luke."

His hands caress my skin, examining how the sun shines on me. I'm only wearing one of his T-shirts and my panties. His hands, stroke my bare thighs.

His eyebrows rise, slowly his fingers wrap around my panties, pulling them down until I am revealed to him. My heart is pounding so loudly in my chest, that it feels like it's about to give up. I hold my breath as he places the tip of his cock at my entrance.

What am I doing here?

"I think you're not being completely honest with me, princess. Let's try again. Who are you loyal to?" As he slowly enters me and his hands hold my hips, I moan. I lay my head back for a moment and enjoy the stretch, feeling his hands slide under my shirt and stroke over my stomach, to my breasts and to my neck.

"Luke, what's going on? I'm here with you, I'm-" But I can't finish my sentence as he plunges into me with a violent jerk, right up to the edge. My eyes roll back.

"These sweet lies that come from your lips. Of course you are here physically, but with the mind? Oh no, while I fuck you, your thoughts are on Camp Halfblood. On Jackson. Can you believe it?" His hands push my hips down until I am connected directly to him and can feel every inch inside me. I almost melt as one of his hands presses into my lower back and I move even closer to him.

When I try to answer him, my voice is a mixture of horror and pleasure. "Luke, that's not true. I only want you, I'm on your side- ahh-" Faster than I can react, he thrusts into me. Once, twice. So hard and ruthless that he hits the spot inside me, that makes me see stars. I can't concentrate.

"How I wish you would tell the truth. There's nothing to be ashamed of, sweetheart. Admit it, I already know. My girlfriend is the traitor. Behind my back, she talks to the person I hate the most and yet, she sits on my lap and rides my cock. What would Percy say about that?"

His hand wraps around my neck and holds me tight, his hips keep pounding into me and even though my brain tells me to stop, my guard is down. I want this.

"How-" But when I want to ask, he pushes me onto him again. So fast, too hard, it almost hurts, but it also feels so good.

"I have my eyes everywhere. It took me a while to figure out how to deal with it, how to deal with you. But I found a good solution. After all, Percy lets you be here, without cover, without protection. Hoping I wouldn't find out that you were passing on information. That I wouldn't hurt you."

His last sentence makes me tense up, but even though his face twists in amusement for a brief moment, he doesn't stop talking.

"Your pussy won't save you either. And since I have given you my word, I will not harm you. I found a better punishment. A choice."

He suddenly stops moving and I almost cry, wanting to move myself, but he takes my face in his hand, tightly. Focusing all attention on him.

"Either you stop your underhanded loyalty to Jackson immediately and serve me, or I will make the wishes of everyone behind this door come true and you will be used like a beautiful, little doll. From each one of them, I assure you. But after that, you won't be so beautiful anymore."

Tears well up my eyes, whether it's from the tight grip he's holding on me or from his words, I can't tell. And I'm scared, it feels like I'm being buried alive. With no prospect of ever being able to breathe or be free again.

Without me saying anything, he starts moving inside me again, letting my hips sink onto his. I breathe in loudly.

"Come on, move. Your choice. It's either my cock or anyone else's."

When I look at him, the person I once loved has disappeared. It's like looking at a stranger.

My heart feels like it's been stolen and in the back of my mind I realize, that I should have never gone with him.

But then I close my eyes, put my hands on his shoulders for support and sink down onto him. Again and again, even stronger. Until my thighs shake and tears run down my cheeks. Until I hear Luke's quiet voice again.

"If you think you are strong enough to be like me, treacherous, cold-hearted and ruthless, then I have to disappoint you. Your heart will be soft forever unless the world hardens it. I will protect you for that, princess. Forget camp halfblood, you only serve me now."

His lips are hot on my skin, a strong contrast to my heart, which feels like it's made of ice.

And when I receive the next secret sign from Annabeth a few days later, I ignore it.

[twopoppies]

https://www.tumblr.com/twopoppies/747389355237195776/hello-gina-i-hope-you-have-a-good-day-i-dont

You make some really good points here, especially about stepping away a bit and trying to just enjoy them as musicians. I’ve tried it with some success, but it’s not easy. I do honestly love both of their music and listen to it daily. Beyond that, it’s good to back off a bit for me.

I think for me something that has really become clear this last year, is that many fans feel entitled to what I would call Chapter 118 of the Harry/Louis WIP, and the reality is it’s just not coming. Now I love reading Larry fan fiction as much as the next person, but looking at it that way is so unfair to them. They have real lives and relationships and it’s not a story that needs to be tied up with a happily ever after. Lots of Larries - especially Twitter Larries - seem to use every interview or use of a primary color as a new chapter. I’ve never been a believer in the “mastermind” theory. And you are so right when you say the good vs evil is not really clear anymore. Yes, Syco and Cowell committed a lot of abuses, but those guys walked out of there with around $50M and tons of doors opened for them that wouldn’t have been possible without 1D , so the lines are blurred.

I think it’s pretty clear from Harry’s “corner of the internet ….it’s not real” interview to Louis latest, they don’t want our help in this - whatever “this” is anymore. It’s not underdogs vs overlords and I don’t like taking away Harry’s and Louis’s agency at this point.

It’s funny, because in 2016 if someone had said this is where you will be 8 years later I would have laughed in their face. But this is where we are and finding ways to deal with it and realizing we may never have more then we have today can be hard. Who knows what will happen in the future. Tomorrow the whole thing could blow wide open and lots of questions will get answered, but I just don’t think so and I’m ok with that. Sort of…. lol!

Anyway, thanks for the nice, calm commentary. I still enjoy reading it all!

Oh, I totally feel you on waiting for chapter 118. So many people treat their lives like an unfinished fic or a game to win. It’s super unhealthy for fans and I can’t imagine it feels good for Harry and Louis. And I very much agree that where we once were helpful, we may now be a hindrance at times. Saying that, I think it’s important to acknowledge that we’re not fucking making things up out of thin air and Harry/Louis/their teams often use Larry and larries for their benefit.

That makes it difficult to feel that they’re being completely honest when they say they don’t want a focus put on Larry.

Regardless, I’m tired of playing this game. I’d prefer to just chill in my own little circle and talk about Larry with my friends and go to concerts and have fun. But I don’t enjoy being treated like shit when it’s convenient and then sent flowers when I’m needed again, you know?

[glowstickhaloboy]

i mean its no secret who i am since i heavily advertised my audio drama on this blog, and thats written under my real name obviously, so im gonna talk about last weekend

my father offered to take me down to the cemetery and show me where all our family’s people are buried. as someone who has struggled with understanding my blood connections for a variety of reasons, i jumped at the chance.

he shows me a few branches of people from as far back as his father’s grandparents’ generation. while we’re walking, i make a joke about how all these people lived so i could turn out trans. (NOT self-deprecating. in the most literal and appreciative way, but still a joke because not every part of being trans is easy and my dad has been with me every step of the way. it’s its own separate post how much my dad loves having me as his son. anyway.)

so i meet clinton and elizabeth, and earl and hattie (yes im REALLY white), and then we go over and meet some of the pipers, who i actually knew when i was extremely little as my great-grandparents. i always knew my middle name came from this evelyn, so i brought it up, and my dad said, “yeah, you were named after both of them, her and her husband, james. but everyone always called him by his middle name fred for some reason. but because of them you were named jaimie evelyn.”

bro i was like what. do you ever feel like life sends in patch updates to retcon shit??

i was like you have NEVER told me i was named after this man. you have ALWAYS told me that you and [That Woman We Don’t Talk About] just liked the name jaimie?????

he was like no, you were named after both my grandparents on this side.

ok????? i guess thats canon going forward whatever, im named after two people instead of just my middle name

personally i always liked the idea of naming someone from scratch, for lack of a better term, and i always thought that was what happened with me, but in that moment it all kind of sunk in that at the end of their lives these people would’ve met this tiny little baby-blond brand new person who still needed lots of help with everything from eating to sleeping to speaking, and my parents made a gesture that said their time in this family will continue to shape the future of it

and jaimie evelyn grew up, found his way back to their graves, and stood there as a complete person. he weeded strangers’ headstones covered over with leaves on the way. from all the way back then until now, he turned out alright.

the thing that got me thinking about all this was how much i appreciate still carrying both those names forward through transitioning. i get nervous handing over my ID in public because even though i am typically correctly gendered by strangers, its always a gamble whether they’ll see “evelyn” now and take offense to that feminine tag. if the person im “supposed” to be will crumble before their eyes and they’ll start to see the rounded afab features. i dont want the name evelyn to feel like a “giveaway.” because. thats me.

but i was getting dressed for work this morning and thinking about how, when things were different, its possible my father thought his “daughter” would not want to have been named after a man. maybe! maybe it genuinely was an accidental miscommunication, too. maybe he did say it right once and i forgot. maybe the world is the matrix and im the main character and it got retconned. all equally possible!

i remembered him stressing the timelines of the women in our family when i asked about them. there are several different surnames to remember from wives like hattie and elizabeth. i was glad to be told their names and to honor that part of them, too.

so i was standing there in front of the mirror doing up my buttons and thinking about how much i adore being jaimie evelyn, named after james. it’s very satisfying to be who i am now and to know i was given the mantle of a male relative’s name. i’m accepted. i’m the next. but i also would not give up evelyn for the world. i’m all the men and women of my family. there will be others after me, but this time is mine and im living it to the fullest. while keeping both names.

i just think there is plenty of honor to be had in embracing males with explicitly feminine names, from feminine roots. not because “it could be a man’s name too!”

because its important that i was named after evelyn. if i hadn’t been named after her, who would have?

if someone sees the name jaimie evelyn on my license and thinks they’ve caught onto my cheap trick, thinks im a creep who can’t afford to get my name changed but would if i could, thinks im a liar who wants to bury the person i was and live life as an impostor — i wouldnt be able to explain anything to someone like that, but i just want the world to know that you actually couldnt pry jaimie evelyn out of my hands.

my family gave me permission to be here, to be myself, and they are letting me define what the mantle now is.

even if i didnt have their permission, it would be no take-backsies, so thats good. but im very hopeful for a future wherein these lines continue to be blurred in such a way that all the stigma of sexism and transphobia are stripped away and the notion of simple honor and pride are carried forward

lets all be who we are, okay????

[stychu-stych]

hello,

I was wondering how did you go about selling stuff on conventions? (also im asking from a polish perspective cause i know you are from here and most vidoes on the matter are from american perspective) how did you went about pricing? what were the first conventions you went to sell to? how do you go about stocking up? is there any conventions that you recommend avoiding? anything you could share

thank you for your time, even if you dont answer

That's so interesting question! I have to admit that most of the videos about being a vendor doesn't work for me JDBDJDH unfortunately there's tons of cute content with people talking about their super inspiring art journey that is just a content, and I'm talking about videos from all over the world. Also don't get me wrong, those videos still can be super enjoyable, but you have to be aware that most of them are not real. I learned much more on my mistakes than on videos on yt or tiktok and I can tell that being a vendor isn't really different from working in a casual shop (the main difference is that you're your own boss, manager and employee). Also I want to clarify that everything below is just my own experience which may be different from other people.

So basically the store MangoMilkStudio was created by my fiancée about 6 or 7 years ago. I helped her a little, tried to open my own online shop as well but it quickly turned out that we prefer to work under the one name and I decided to start adding stuff on, at that moment, our common store.

Our first convention (that doesn't exist anymore) was in Wrocław in 2019 if I remember correctly. It was a barter-like transaction, we made some illustrations in exchange for the booth. We didn't earn much but we both had different jobs at that time and we saw making merch as some kind of a hobby.

If it comes to being a vendor and what cons I recommend- it depends on where you live, how much money do you want to spend on sleeping and transportation, how much on a booth, what kind of con you're interested in. The good thing about Poland is that we have SO MANY cons so you can pick whatever suits you best. I don't want to point out specific conventions, because I know that some of cons work for us but don't work for someone else and vice versa. I think the best way of deciding which con you want to attend is just applying and then consider whether it's worth it after the con is over.

The one but very important mistake that people usually do on their first conventions is that they're expecting to earn a loooot of money and they are disappointed when it doesn't happen. Being a vendor, even as a small business artist, is still a work related to trade and that means you have to put a lot of money in your business before you'll start to earn money, you have to create your own base of customers, you have to know how to talk to the client, how to talk not only about fandom stuff but also about your own products, how to arrange your table so all the products are visible for a client etc. It works on the basis of trial and error and can take a lot of time and effort.

About the prices - if you don't know how to price your product, you should try to check other vendors' price lists and then analyze if that price sufficiently covers your production costs (yes, including your time and effort). And for a love of god DON'T lower your prices too much because of the competition. It never works and it only spoils the market.

After each convention we try to save some money for the next con but also for a restock (and taxes JDBSJSH""" yeah, we unfortunately have huge taxes). If it goes to restocking items like keychains or anything that is acrylic, Poland doesn't really have much good manufactures unfortunately (I hope this will change in the future) so we usually buy stuff in China. I'm not complaining, products are well made, people are super friendly, the only things that can be exhausting are - tariffs, super expensive shipping and long time waiting for a package. So be prepared with some extra money and make sure you won't place an order a week before convention.

Few more tips:

- don't restock merch in large quantities if you don't know if people would buy it. I did it with my Deltarune stickers, people stopped to buy them and I still have tons of them hidden somewhere dhdbdh

- home printers and plotters are great for making things like TY cards, packaging, single stickers but I recommend to find good printing house or manufacturer. It's just more cost-effective in terms of time, materials and nerves. Also if you make a mistake it's on your own, if manufacturer makes a mistake you can ask for a remake

- most people at cons are super cute and friendly but some of them can be weird as well, don't be afraid to set your boundaries

- keep your cash close to you

- don't eat food that was offered to you by someone you don't know (even if that person looks like con helper)

- write down orgs' phone numbers just in case

- remember to eat and drink a lot of water

At the end I want to say that it's hard to make a living from just one artistic job. We have an online store, we're vendors at cons, I make tattoos, commissions (from time to time), now I'm trying my best on patreon. Most of the people I know, that are vendors as well, have a "normal" job. So don't feel bad if you want to start earning money with your art but you still have to work in a second job

[kgirlgroup-stan]

Tired

angst, male reader

Luda POV

Being an idol wasnt easy when dating. Most people just wanted a part of the fame. Surprisingly, i met this guy online and he made me feel special. The way he was making me feel made it seem like he saw me as a person. 

His charm made it impossible for me not to fall for him like crazy and soon, really soon, He once told me that if i moved in with him we would be able to spend more time together. I couldnt be more happy with the idea so i agreed, the process was a bit of a hastle but nevertheless I made it happen.

The first few months of living with him were great, but something changed where things werent anymore. I had spoken to my unnies about how i felt and what was going on here at home. They always told me to talk to him or to just leave. But when i go to him to either talk about my feeling or about me wanting to leave, he has this way of reassuring me. I cant help but stay,

Today, i was waiting for y/n to come home. It was 1:32AM and i was sitting down in the living room. One of my members, Exy, told me that since he has been coming home late recently that i should make sure he wasnt lying.

My members dont really like him nor trust him, but they dont know him like i do. I trust him.

Lost in my own thoughts i heard a click. I turned my head to the door to be met with y/n's eyes.

"Hey, what are you doing up?" Y/N put his coat up and took off his shoes

"I...uh...I was waiting for you." I stood up rubbing my arm with the other, looking at him nervously.

"Oh, well you shouldn't have, go to sleep already." he glanced at me before trying to walk past me

"W-where were you?" I looked down.

"What do you mean I was at work?" He turned to face me.

"But these last few days you've been coming home later than usual..."I looked up to met his eyes "So i uh i called your offices to check up on you and they said you always leave at 9, that you werent there." I wrapped myself in my own arms" b-but you get home this late."

"you fuckin called my office?! What the fuck is wrong with you?" he came closer to me with every word. All i could do is look down. "dont ever do that again?! okay?! What are you ungrateful? Im working for us, for our future? Fuck Luda! Now look what you did, you have me all stressed out now." I was shaking as i took everthing in, he was right. This was all my fault then i heard him sigh.

He backed up and rubbed his face with his hands. "im going to bed.

"I-im sorry." I let of a sob

"no no no baby dont cry Luda baby. I'm sorry okay. I've been stressed about work and you. Im sorry okay, i shouldnt have taken it out on you. I just want to make sure your okay, that WE are going to be okay in the future. Okay, i love you." he hugged me and peck my lips.

"Im sorry okay." he wiped my tears and smiled at me,pecking my lips again.

"Okay, I love you too." I smiled up at him then he grabbed my hand as we went to bed.

**Time-Skip**

The next day Y/n was at work again, figuring he was going to be home late, some of my members came to visit. They asked me how the confrontation went and i couldnt help but lie. I couldnt have them hate him even more. I know they dont approve of hime but he means a lot to me. I know he does things that is best for us.

"I don't know Luda, I think he is hiding something." Seola sipped on her coffee

"Also i've been wanting to ask something. Why whenever we plan to do something you both somehow have things to do? Why cant you cancel, not even once" Dawons eyes squinted at me.

"uh well, y/n really plans out these dates and its an issue if I try to cancel." I looked down picking at the fabric of the pillow i had on my lap.

"what do you me-"Soobin was cut off with the sound of the door opening

O-oh, i didnt know we were having people over," y/n walked throught the door with a tight smile on his face. I stood up and quickly made my way to him.

"Hi i didnt think you would be home this early,S-sorry, i just wanted some company." I stood right in front of him, playing with my fingers but looking straight at him.

"Well I came out early because i wanted to do something with you but since your busy I'll find something to do" He looked at me a bit annoyed.

"I'm s-sorry." I looked down, I heard him sigh.

"It's okay, just tell me next time. Ill come back later okay." he gave a kiss on my cheek before walking out the door. I stood there, just staring at the door.

"is everything okay." I heard Exy say, making me jump before turning to face the girls

"y-yeah, I think he forgot s-something." I tried to dismiss their worried looks with a smile and made my way to sit down again.

"SOoooo I was thinkingggg we should do a movie night at our place." Yeoreum said with a wide grin

"Luda???"dawon looked at me expectantly.

Lost in thought, i figured that y/n wasnt even going to get home anytime soon. If i could make it back before he noticed I left everything sould be good.

"Yeah sounds good." WIth a nod and grin from all the girls, we started heading out

**Time-Skip**

Getting back at the dorms felt so refreshings, its been a while since i felt this.....this.....free?

Cozy in the couch with the warmth of the girls around me i didnt notice that we were on our third movie. I only noticed when i constatly felt my phone vibrate making me look at the time and the amount of missed calls and messages from y/n

❤️Y/N❤️

Where are you?

Why aren't you home?

You are with your members aren't you?

I came back with things to suprise you and now its all a waste

Do you think I  fuckin deserve this?

I'm coming to get you.

You better not make a scene.

Im outside 

Oh shit.

"uh umm, i have to go i-its late." I quickly got up, spookingall the girls

"No unnie!! we are in the middle of a movie sit down!!" Dayoung screamed at me.

Just then a knock came from the door. The girls looked at each other. This was bad but all i could do was freeze. Bona got up and went to check who it is.

"y/n??? what are you dong here??" Her confused voice made its way to the living room, making all the girls stand up confused as well. Seola looked up at me, but i still wasnt moving.

"Im here to pick up Luda." he stated with a harsh tone before walking past Bona. He filled my vison with an unreadable expression.

"Come on let's go." he grabbed my hand a bit harsh and started pulling to the door. There was no resistance from me, i just couldnt do anything.

"hey.. HEY DON'T FUCKING GRAB HER LIKE THAT!!!" Eunseo went between us and pulled us apart, pushing Y/N back.

"come Luda let's go." He ignored Eunseo being in his face and called me over with his hand. I could tell that he was holding back since he was in front of my members. He didnt want to cause a scene and i could tell he was getting annoyed.

"Yah!" Why are you coming in here like you havent been treating her like shit?" Exy was now in his face. He took a breath and rolled his eyes, looking at her with a very annoyed face. "like you havent been cheating on her" I looked at him when she said that, all he did was scoff with shaking his head.

"You literally have hickeys all over your neck, they werent there before now where they y/n" Eunseo jumping in. "You guys have no idea what you guys are talking about, this has nothing to do you" he pushed past him while they were still yelling at him.

"baby don't listen to them. You know I love you." He held my cheeks, making me look at him. I couldnt help but start to cry. Overwhelmed with everything going on.

"come on lets come home." he hugged me while petting my head. I was going to giving in until someone pulled him off.

"listen either you leave here willingly and never speak to her again or I call the cops and we handle this a different way." Seola crossed her hands 

"The choice isn't yours!" he raised his voice a bit, staring at her with a glare. He never looked at me that badly before.

"What do you want to do Luda, you know you deserve so much better but we respect you decision and we will always be here for you" Soobin back hugged me, her soft tone helping me relax a bit.

For once there was a moment of silence, the tension was still very high, they were just waiting for my decesion

"I-Im sorry y/n but I w-want you t-to leave." I cried, while looking at him.

"Are you serious, after everything I've ever done for you, your going to throw all that away for these stupid bitches you call friends" he walked to me with anger in his eyes and his fist curled up

Eunseo grapped his shirt and pulled him back, making him stumble a bit"you havent done shit expect make her life a living hell. Now get the fuck out before i call the cops!!"  she was yelling at his face. He stared at her before moving his glare at me. I couldnt help but shrink at his gaze. He looked back at Eunseo, scoffed then turned and left the dorm.

"Look this is the best thing you could have done. He is not good for you." Dayoung hugged me.

"We will stop by to get all your stuff." All the girls came and hugged me.

This moment made me realize that this is what warmth and love is. I didnt realize how tired i was at trying to make that relationship work. But sometimes family and friends are all you ever need in life.

[woahpinkhorsegirl]

Hi mlp tumblr and bluey tumblr! Im Pink! Im hoping to share my stuff on here and discover other stuff!

This is my sona! She's a changeling but stays in her pony form almost all the time, just her preference :)

Im gonna start posting OCs and whatnot for both fandoms soon, but i wanna put here the list of Deviantart basemakers i used from at various points, mostly early on when i forgot to credit them. Hopefully I'll make new refs eventually and they'll have proper credits.

I have a huge MLP and Bluey next gen thing to post too so either look forward to that or check it out if its out by the time you read this!

Other information about me, if you'd like to know:

I am 19 years old, white, American, and ace bi. I'm a ciswoman but I go by all pronouns, she/he/they/it and neopronouns are all acceptable, whatever you see fit or comfortable to call me!

Trans people of all kinds are welcome on my profile, alongside queer people in general! I am pr0-choice and pr0-p4lestine, I don't talk about my p0litical stances much but those are the two most important i can think to mention.

Disabled people, with both invisible and visible disabilities, are also welcome (these feel obvious but I've seen people who make it feel necessary)

Non-white people are also welcome (again, unfortunate that I feel the need to clarify that, but I use twitter so :/)

I also saw a random post about this but just in case, anyone with coping mechanisms (like age regression) are also welcome. I won't judge you for doing what you need to do.

If i look like im censoring some words by using numbers or symbols, that's a force of habit. I don't like appearing in search terms unless I actively want to, it usually invites the wrong people, so i "censor" terms that I think might draw the attention of bad apples.

Uh just some boundary stuff I guess? I love OC interaction and I also enjoy RP. I don't like giving my discord to people so any of that is gonna have to happen here. If that's inconvenient or not gonna cut it, then my apologies :(

Uh my rules for RP are a tiny bit strict but not in the way your probably thinking.

Im one of those "planning ahead" type of roleplayers who like to map out a scenario and key events before we begin and occasionally take pauses between major scenes to plot elements of the future. If you can handle that, then I'd say your golden! Im not picky with the length or detail in responses, as long as theres something to work with, I can usually move things along. The only other restriction i can think of is: when it comes to the sexualities of my characters, please respect them. Thats really it :)

I do platonic roleplays, adventure, romantic, and slice of life. I'm not much for action stuff unless its the spice thrown into the other types occasionally. I'm pretty flexible though, so we can talk about it individually if need be.

Oh, and no nsfw RP. I dont do s3x, and im not much for depicting "elicit substances" to put it lightly. Alc0hol might be the only exception, if its kept in small doses. If for some strange reason our characters end up in a s3xual scenario, we're skipping to the aftermath.

Edit: Some of my OCs have romantic interests made/owned by my boyfriend. This element can be removed for romance roleplays if need be (although they will still be with his OCs outside of the roleplay)

So yeah uhm I think thats it! Im not sure if you can edit things on Tumblr but if you can then I guess I'll update this as needed! Thanks for checking out my blog!!

[pop-punklouis]

Hi Hopie! I just saw a social media update from someone I used to be friends with (before they and that group of friends dumped me quite unceremoniously). And it has been years! But it still kind of hurt to see. Like “oh you’ve been doing things with your life and I am so far behind!” Really made me feel sad about the lost friendships and also really self hating for how I do not have my life together like they do. And I know they don’t have everything going perfectly, nobody does, but it sucked. Do you have any experience with this sort of thing and what do you do when that feeling strikes? Like my friend is now married with two children and I am not at all close to that (idk that I want that but still).

honestly, i know this is corny as all hell but i firmly believe in the phrase "trust your timeline" because i do think the universe has a way of working out for you exactly when you need it to, regardless of if you feel that way beforehand. every time i look back at friends or circumstances after something good happens in my life, i see what steps i innocuously did that led me to where i am now.

but believe me, i have been where you are and i still kinda sit with those emotions more times than i'd like to admit if i scroll enough online and end up in a pit of comparison and dispair over my future because i'm not doing what others my age seem to be doing. like! so many things i find myself being insecure about when i see old friends or acquaintances usually, in hindsight, end up being things i do not want (at least right now) like i dont want kids. i dont want to be tied down in a marriage. i dont want an onslaught of bills just to own my own house or have a better car etc. i don't want the job they have. like some of these things work for them but are not things that would make me happy, but we are conditioned to believe these things are natural next steps in adulthood and growing successfully... when that's not always the case. our timelines and our futures all look different. and what would be self-satisifying for some would be fucking miserable for others (like me!) and that's what i try to reason with myself when my brain ends up eating away at me about "what-ifs" and "should haves" and "missing out" that i sometimes find myself being a victim of.

for example: i have a masters degree and quite literally beat myself up every day about not being able to find a fulfilling job in the field right now and the downward spiral that ends up with me wishing i hadn't gotten a degree in what i love (and gone into debt over it) and gotten a degree in something practical and financially viable. like nursing which is insane to me because i cannot handle needles or blood or the intensity that nursing can bring to your schedule/work but my brain still will sit there and be like: you could actually be making money right now and have a stable career wherever you go being a nurse but instead you decided this other option and are suffering so lol we're all fighting our private battles and a lot more of us feel left behind or lost than i think we realize. we just hide it.

[larsonabarsona]

(spoilers for the ghostfuckers)

y`know, i think that new episode of Helluva Boss is pretty good, we have many good moments: like Blitzs breakdown in the beginning after apology tour, Blitzs and Millies talk, 1st hallucination (especially the scene in ventilation and with blitzs mother, its creepy), the development of Millie and her relationship with Blitz (and of Blitz himself of course, also some kind of Loona too, they had sweet interactions with Millie and Moxxie), i also like that finally they admitted in canon, that all around Blitz are suspecting that he will change/ let go of the situation by himself, because he always all that confident and bulletproof, but he cant take all of that forever and lead the company at the same time, everyone expecting from him too much sometimes. And that finally someone saw that Blitzs goofiness is not always just goofines, in the half of situations its his way to handle with the situation (and we know, that now all of IMP will know that. Well, except for Loona, i think she knew about that earlier already, at least that hes not that simple). Cool how Blitz gets his apologies too xd I really like all of this. But i think that episode have few problems:

Rolando. I like the idea of that character very much, but from that episode we didnt learn much about him, except for what we saw in our own eyes (that he a telepath, some kind of ghost and he can inhabit in the others. And that hes some kind of infestor demon that doesnt explain anything). Like, who is he? Why is he wastes his time on Earth in the hotel on some useless people, when hes apparently from Hell? Why is he doing all that hallucinations with people, like, is it just for fun for him (and its like no difference for him, who is seeing his hallucinations, people or demons like him)? xd. I hope that he will show up again in the future, hes just so interesting, i hope that he didnt just die like that. It wouldnt be a problem for me in that case.

I think that in that episode too much things just happen. Like, i didnt really understand, whats happening in the end xd

I didnt really understand why they split Blitzs hallucinations on the 2 parts, for me itd be more logical to see them at once but oookay (also Blitz calmed down too fast after first hallucination). And i think they....how to say it in english....didnt show much of the 2nd hallucination. Like i love the idea of it, but i felt like i didnt have enough of it and the frames are switching so fast.

And the last. Now, think about it: how much of the moments we didnt see in the trailer? How much of the moments we didnt know will happen? Uhhh beginning, when Blitz have a breakdown, its kinda unexpected that he will be in so depression (although Brendon spoilered it in some way too). Then i think the conversation of Blitz and Millie, like unexpected, that its so sweet, although it was expected that they will talk in some way. Aaaand that joke scene with running and guests? xd. The rest of the episode was expected: we knew about Blitzs hallucinations and about Blitzs mom presence in them; we knew about Rolando that he is the owner of hotel himself, that hes gonna send that hallucinations on Blitz (its just was obvious) and hes gonna possess of Blitzs mind and attack Millie. I even guessed that on that mission will be only Blitz and Millie, because we saw only them in the trailer in the frames for that episode. And thats why i fell like...unsatisfied to be honest. I havent surprised to the most of the moments. I just dont like see trailers, because they spoiler some frames from the episode in any case, but well made trailers only fuel your interest and i couldnt just ignore it for the half of the year when we had nothing but that. And I just feel happy that i absolutely have no idea about what will be in the next episode xd