#ough he sounds so good....... what a nice cover

[dendrophalaen]

my thoughts on godzilla minus one

tl;dr i had a religious experience (positive) and it may be my new favorite godzilla movie

i'm going to try to organize my thoughts lmao i have never done a film analysis or review

story

i went in knowing next to nothing, so i was very afraid this was going to be heavy on the imperialist propaganda and reminiscing on the "good old days" of the japanese military

however i was pleasantly surprised to see that it was quite anti-government :]

loved the delivery of the themes of "all lives being precious" and "living on for yourself as well as for the sake of others" – not hammy or blunt!

FORESHADOWING OF THE EJECTION SEAT? chef's KISS we love picking up what the movie is putting down and getting to see the payoff

speaking of foreshadowing:

dr. noda: [takes noriko's picture]

me: oh no she's going to die

i spent like the last quarter of the movie with a headache because i was clenching my teeth and holding in tears after noriko's death ("death") AND koichi planning to blow himself up and orphan akiko

and all the ex-navy guys rallying together to defeat godzilla

i am not immune to classic story beats

semi-related i thought noriko would be covered in radiation burns, but then i realized a depiction of that would probably be insensitive

also the guys measuring radiation in plastic costs? come on now i know we weren't fully educated in the risks of radiation but there must've been some sort of better ppe

characters

i enjoyed like every character which is rare for me in a godzilla film

koichi just can't catch a break. this man gained so much trauma in a short amount of time, like he doesn't have ptsd because the trauma is ONGOING. i think he's my favorite and it's very easy to root for him

his introduction is of him as a shaky baby-faced pilot and then you find out he was supposed to be a kamikaze pilot like goddamn

i liked noriko's assertiveness ("hey i'm staying in your house now :)") and her ability to see kindness in koichi and sumiko

her struggle of wanting to become independent is very relatable. you could see the bittersweetness in her eyes showing that she felt guilty yet grateful for koichi's support........

i was surprised how quickly sumiko agreed to taking care of akiko? but it makes sense since she was (is) a mother and could not bear to see another child suffer, and akiko gave her life a new purpose

i would've liked more focus on the female characters and i don't think it's fair to just blame it on the era :playdead:

i really liked the chemistry between dr. noda, captain akitsu, and mizushima

dr. noda in particular felt like a nice foil/parallel to serizawa from the 1954 movie; he's also a scientist but he's much more personable(?)/"human"

dr. serizawa was my favorite in 1954 but he was very anguished and set on making reparations by killing godzilla (and koichi could be a parallel to him in that regard)

noda focused on protecting the living, not avenging the dead

ough mizushima. being a Youth who feels useless sure hits home

i'd say tachibana is my least favorite just by comparison to everyone else, but he's honestly so valid for his whole deal

visuals and sound

very elegant color grading, costuming, and set design!

i don't know film girl help

GOOD SOUNDTRACK the music set the scenes so well

i joked about getting my eardrums blasted by godzilla but he really was that loud. as he should be

godzilla (design, abilities, etc)

SWEET JESUS THIS IS THE SCARIEST GODZILLA BY FAR

godzilla: [shows up in the first 10 minutes with blair witch shaky cam]

me: the filmmakers are not messing around they mean BUSINESS

the rampage on odo island was rightfully terrifying

i love his texture and face. the scrunkliness of heisei with the horrifying pain of shin

i think his head is a bit small for his body, like if it was 5% bigger it would be perfect

loved the visuals of his scales flaking off after getting bombed

the nuclear fallout when he used his atomic breath in tokyo was awe-inducing

great use of godzilla as a war allegory

i saw the movie in d-box so the shotgun-blast of heat ray was intense

also coolest godzilla death. sick decapitation

the plan to imprison him in bubbles and give him the bends felt a bit silly in the moment but highlighted how desperate everyone was for ANYTHING to work

really liked how godzilla was more like an animal or unstoppable force of nature without a clear motive

i mean the only emotion you could ascribe is probably RAGE

sidenote i did think it was a lil funny whenever an object was flung through the air from offscreen. there goes godzilla having another tantrum

[magpie-trove]

January Reads

Sailing Alone Around the Room • Billy Collins | poetry. I loved this one, he’s got thoughts and he’s having fun with them

Ain’t Burned All the Bright • Jason Reynolds | poetry with art. The combo was nice. I liked it. I think it had a powerful thought in it.

Worst Case Scenario Survival Handbook • Joshua Piven | what it says on the cover. I know how to best get out of a sinking car now. If it doesn’t work I’ll have to find a way to come back and tell the author it didn’t work tho.

The Q • Beth Brower | alternate history fiction. I remember it in odd moments. The pace was very slow. Unfortunately I have terrible taste because I would have run off with Crow. He was fun.

Mystery at the Ski Jump • Carolyn Keene | a great book to read at the tail end of liminal space winter break in warm house lights on the couch. I loved this one tbh

The Mythmakers • John Hendrix | graphic novel about Tolkien and Lewis. Really well done. The plot device of the narrators got a little convoluted every once in a while but overall would recommend.

Small Acts of Resistance: How Courage, Tenacity, and Ingenuity Can Change the World • John Jackson and Steve Crawshaw | got this for a free class I was taking on the history of nonviolence and it was interesting! I’m sure there are better written books on the subject but it was a quick read

Treasure Island • Robert Louis Stevenson | YES I did read this because of Skeleton Crew and I enjoyed it but I enjoyed Skeleton Crew more. Fun pirate adventures were fun! Not sure what Jim learned? But it didn’t matter cause there was pirates

The Orange and Other Poems • Wendy Cope | the orange was good and so were a couple of the other poems.

The Imperial Alchemist • AH Wang | what do I write about this? Whatever. She’s immortal I guess.

(This was a general adult fiction book that promised Indiana Jones-esque adventures following an Australian Chinese woman and Chinese Archaeology and as far as I could tell apart from the fantasy elements it was well researched. I loved the Asian history archaeology adventures! I wanted to read more about them! Not about her divorce and dead child and dating life >:( her secretary was fifty year old lady who watched too much tv and escaped situations using tv for inspiration and I liked her though.)

Lives of the Pirates • Kathleen Krull | this book made me tired of reading about pirates before it was over, and it’s only like 100 pages. It was the violence. None of them suddenly did something nice and it was boring cause they didn’t. Kids nonfiction. Too snide not enough peopling maybe

The Dream Thieves • Maggie Stiefvater | ough ough we r all in terrible agon—ADAM PULLED A NEW CARD OUTSIDE THE HAND HE WAS DEALT RONAN SIMPLY ASKED THE WOOD TO HELP HIM INSTEAD OF THINKING HE HAD TO STEAL STUFF HE WAS HAPPY AGAIN DO YOU GET ME. I honestly don’t know how I feel about a lot of these books over all but the prose is enchanting and I keep coming back

For Every One • Jason Reynolds | I did love this one tbh maybe cliche but it hit. I’d buy it. If you are in ur twenties and uncertain about life I’m putting this book in your hand

Dragon Pearl • Yoon Ha Lee | LISTEN this kids fiction had KOREAN FOLKLORE in SPACE but it was not well written the sentences were struggling and some of the plot but the worldbuilding game was crazzyyyyyy and also they saved all the ghost people by giving them a proper burial and I loooooved that lemme tell you!!!! But the sentences. Still!!!!!!!! This is one I think they should let me script into an animated tv series, a little editing and beautiful animation and it’d be off the charts

The Thrifty Guide to Ancient Rome • Jonathan Stokes | kids non fiction, he’s having so much fun writing these and I had so much fun reading and I think kids who hate reading and hate history will love them

Once Upon a Time Saints • Ethel Pochoki | she just knows how to tell a story, like how to say it so it sounds like a story and a good one, what can I say. Would make great read alouds

The Big Book of Mars • Marc Hartzman | adult nonfiction on this history of people’s imagination regarding Mars. Fascinating topic. The layout was beautiful. I think he slipped into being a little too snide sometimes too and he didn’t need to include some stuff he included really but overall it was fun I think

Amazons: The Lives and Legends of Warrior Women Across the Ancient World • Adrienne Mayor | technically I finished this this month but I read most of it in January and I want to talk about it. Well researched (so many notes!!!) academic book about women in the Eurasian Steppes. I loved learning the history and culture of that area a lot. I think she shouldn’t have been quite as obsessed with the women’s sexual image and roles as she was (it didn’t need to be THAT relevant, free them from the objectification of the freaky Greeks!) and some places just needed a picture instead of art described in text I thought but it was fascinating overall. However I did start questioning the idea of the patriarchy like was it even real?? The sheer number of historical and legendary women warriors queens admirals diplomats generals was literally so many and they told me there was none. There’s 500 pages about them and mostly it’s brief about each of them. Like!!!! Started wondering if men just weren’t allowed to do anything back then. Also I learned the Greeks thought women invented pants and so no man should wear them so. Fun stuff going on here. * for legal purposes I’m using hyperbole in here and joking in some places no one kill me

Still Reading: A Simple Path by Mother Teresa (I love, very sustaining) and Count of Monte Cristo (bought a pretty copy cause it’s 1000 pages and it’s going to take me a YEAR ok)

[colonelpancakes]

I am, at long last, getting around to watching the new season of The Dragon Prince so. Have some of my thoughts on the new episodes. Uh I guess this is kind of a liveblog thing? Idk, I wrote these down while I was watching the episode. Under the cut because this ended up getting quite long. Image IDs are in the alts. I'm new to this be nice to me-

Okay, is it just me or does this startouch elf look kinda like Sarai? I swear she does, she has like the same face shape. I don't know, maybe it's just me and my god awful facial recognition but... 👀

Also, "We are, all of us, stardust held together by love for an instant." is such a beautiful quote. It reminds me of the Minecraft End Poem.

Ooh, I love the twist on the previous Mystery of Aaravos intro. I wonder if this is gonna be the intro for the whole season or if it'll switch to something else after this episode?

Poor Terry he does not deserve to be dealing with all this shit. He's such a sweetheart. A little bit of a fucked up sweetheart but a sweetheart nonetheless.

Oh so Viren’s not dead. Huh. I need to rewatch the S5 finale because I’m gonna be honest, I do Not remember exactly what happened. Viren was going to die if he didn’t kill Sir Sparklepuff? I think? Or maybe that was just what they thought was gonna happen and there was a chance it wouldn’t? I don’t remember. Anyways, congrats Viren on your new will to live.

Claudia. Claudia what did you do Claudia?

Claudia, why is the sand covered in blood?

CLAUDIA!

Oh poor Terry... You can see the moment he spots the severed wing.

Hey, quick question, WHY IS THIS SHOW STILL RATED Y7? This would have fucking traumatized me as a seven year old! I thought there was a limit on how much blood you can show on a Y7 show, HELLO?? OUGH.

“It’s like you said. You do anything for family. However dangerous, however vile.” “No. No that’s… that’s not quite right. It’s never what I meant. You do anything for your children. Never the other way around. No parent wants their child to suffer for them.” Ough… Oh that hurts. Ohhhh. Also, “no that’s not quite right” is the same thing he says to her in the first episode when she says something weird. Callbacks to simpler times ow that hurts.

OH YEAH. JUST RIP MY HEART OUT WHY DON'T YOU? Augh.

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST GIVE CLAUDIA’S VA AN AWARD. NOW. That is hands down actually the most like. Realistic depiction of someone crying in any media I have ever encountered. The way she sounds like a child having a breakdown? She’s not crying quietly, she’s screaming and sobbing oh my god. I literally started tearing up watching as like a sympathetic response good grief. Who is Claudia’s voice actress? I looked it up and apparently it’s Racquel Belmonte. Give her like fifty awards right now

Viren. Viren listen. I appreciate that you are attempting to heal and face justice and become a better person separated from dark magic. I really do appreciate it. Good for you. HOWEVER. Perhaps, just maybe, abandoning your daughter, who has become an amputee less than a day ago, in the wilderness with no one but her boyfriend after she just completed a very traumatizing ritual AND knowing that she has severe abandonment issues after her mother and brother both left her. Is not the best move? Like. That girl is not mentally stable she needs support. She does not need her dad abandoning her on a beach, covered in blood and missing a leg as she screams and cries for him not to leave her. Viren, just caring about your daughter does not automatically make you a good dad. Viren. Viren you have to actually stay and support your child and NOT LEAVE HER IN THE FUCKING WILDERNESS. I do, though appreciate how they are creating a character who does CARE about his children so so much. And is still an absolutely god awful father to both of them.

Awww the baitlings are so cute 🥹

Pondering the Orb 🧙‍♂️

Callum… Callum you good? I am getting a very bad feeling about Callum being so adamant about destroying it. I feel like that is absolutely how Aaravos gets released and maybe he’s controlling Callum? This all feels like a bad idea. Also, I will admit the Lord of The Rings joke made me giggle.

Exactly what I was saying, Rayla! Destroying the pearl sounds like a terrible idea.

Ohhh… Poor Zym… He misses his mama. Also, I can’t remember if this was in previous seasons, but I appreciate the stitching in the painting where it was mended after being ripped apart. Such a good detail.

Hey Callum, why are you glowing with star magic? Is it because Aaravos is possessing y- oh nevermind it’s the monkey.

Mmmm the difference between Rayla and Callum. Rayla will put the safety of the world over her loved ones. Callum will put his loved ones over the safety of the world. Rayla refuses doing something that could potentially endanger the world even if it would mean getting her parents back.

Oh, so it’s not Aaravos influencing Callum it’s just Callum being anxious. Also, give Callum’s voice actor an award he's nailed the tone of "so filled with anxious energy you can't stop you have to do something, it's like you're driven by a motor." and that is a very specific tone.

[More in reblogs because I ran out of room.]

[nojean42]

BTS - You Never Walk Alone

happy new year and welcome to the first of all firsts! my middle school best friend introduced me to bts and that spiraled into getting hooked on kpop overall. but before branching out to explore other groups, i was invested in following bts, and this album is where it all began.

in future posts when discussing repackage albums, i will only cover new songs, but since this is my first one, i'll make it special and discuss every song on it.

I didn't make a spotify account until after I got a smartphone for christmas in 2018, so honestly i have no idea how i listened to these albums back then,, i remember making a playlist of those color coded lyric videos that i would listen to on my ipad mini, so maybe i was just being hopeful there was one of those for every song on the album and that i was listening to them in order.

anyway lets get on with my thoughts on each song from the album! there will probably be a lot of anecdotes about times i listened to them well after the release, which is a nice thing im able to do by posting this way :)

Intro: Boy Meets Evil i don't remember what solidified hobi as my bias, but i wouldn't be surprised if this song was part of the reason. great intro to the album and he slays the dance so much!!

Blood Sweat & Tears ough such a good song omg!! theres something so special and intriguing to me about mvs themed around art, just feels so elite and fancy,, i hope they do something like this again when they're back from hiatus <3 i remember yoonmin stans going crazy over that one scene in the video lmao, glad the insane shipping phenomenon has kinda died down tho (or i just became oblivious to it lol). ngl the ending where jins face started cracking freaked me out a little back in the day. but fr that bridge is transcendant omg

Begin tbh i dont have much to say about this one, jungkook is great at singing :)

Lie everyone and their mothers were obsessed with this song,, that one dance performance with the blindfold was so iconic!! love jimin <3

Stigma i just remembered there was insane lore going on that i really couldn't follow at all lmao. this one was about an abusive parent iirc? really vibey emotional song tho

First Love i remember my undiagnosed autistic ass reading a post about how emotional this song was and hiding in a dark closet to listen to this song and force myself to feel something. i get it fr now but back then i didnt understand my brain and was taking it too literally lol. yoongi put so much heart into this song and its beautiful

Reflection dang why are so many of the solos so deep and emotional :,) i wonder if "I wish I could love myself" is part of what nudged them towards making the love yourself albums

MAMA more hobi time lets goooo! vibey :)

Awake every time i hear this song i remember the time yoongi did a cover of it and that makes it very hard to take it seriously 😭 jin is such a lovely singer

Lost love this song so much!! its so underrated, i never hear anyone talking about it :(

BTS Cypher 4 iirc they promised taehyung he could be in cypher 5 and then just never did another cypher lmao 😭 anyway might be my favorite cypher but that also could be bias from listening to this album more often than the previous ones. wait i just realized they're singing "i love myself" right after namjoon was saying "i wish i could love myself,," accelerated character development ig

Am I Wrong this and 21st century girl were the first 2 bts songs i listened to (i forget the order i heard them in) my friend recommended them because theres a lot of english in them so it'd be a good entry point, so i have a special attachment to them :3

21st Century Girl ditto to the previous song comment lol

2! 3! fan song <3 also i should note i have been sining along to pretty much song on the album as i've been relistening to write this :)

Spring Day THE QUEEN!!!!!!! i am so mad the stage line distribution isn't the official one cuz hobi sounds amazing singing the intro in it 😭 at least he gets the pretty background harmonies in the choruses <3 i remember still getting jungkook and taehyung mixed up in the mv smh my head. very recent anecdote about this song: (TW: BUGS!!) it came on as i was getting out of the shower and i was passionately singing along and suddenly saw a centipede and FREAKED OUT. i literally went like: “눈꽃이 떨어져요 또 조금씩 멀어져요~ WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?!?!?” quickly googled and found it was harmless but it still startled me lmao 😭

Not Today HYPE!!! man idk what else to say really, its such a good fun song

Outro: Wings WAHOOOOOOOO this was like my favorite hype song of all time!! I used to have a silly video of me dancing to it but unfortunately i think it's lost to the void 😔 i never really listen to the interlude version cuz i miss the extended parts too much. i would listen to this on loop so much and could pretty much sing the whole thing. nowadays i don't go crazy bonkers obsessed over it anymore but i still really enjoy it and never got tired of it :)

A Supplementary Story: You Never Walk Alone nice vibes to close off the album :3

Hope you enjoyed my first post and expect more to come! the next few will be more bts but i will branch out to other groups soon :)

once again happy new year and hope your 2025 is off to a good start!

[kiwikiswia]

hey @9617saphs totally didn't forget about this but, sighs

first of all, *them (blasts you with spelling mistake gif)

second of all, you SHOULD'VE TELL ME THIS IN THE ASKBOX dumba dumma I literally just found this from scrolling the tags of the post (i don't usually check activities <- scared) and found out you rb'ed my post which i'm sorry for noticing it late but then again you should've send this to my ask it's literally an ask game!!!! dum

(/lh /nm at the fullest i hope the way i word it kinda funny/unserious makes me actually sound not mad at all, I just feel like this funny)

anyway back to the answer,

I actually kinda expect someone will ask this 😭but at the same time I have to thought of the answers like "how do I make you know that this character mean so so much to me" since wooooords are hard and idk if anything I say is comprehensible to people but aight I'll try.

ok what was the questions aga- okay.

long post ahead whoops!

1.) How do I feel about this character?

short answer, I have uncountable arts and comics ideas about them what do you think i feel about this character

long answer,

the "they look cool but tf is that goofy ass hair tie brah is that a feather duster 😭" -> "grumpy cold freak /neu" -> "wait actually. I need to learn more about them" (no reason, but full of spite and curiosity) -> "FFUCKCKFUFUXKCUDK WHY ARE YOU SO COMPLICATED" (trying to figure things out) -> "ough this is not normal I'm not normal actually. /pos" -> "self projection beam go" pipeline.

can a character I used to mock on turn into character I've written and theorized on a lot? Into a character I self project onto? apparently engel from the hit game pk2 can do this to me, and as one of the most mysterious character in the game engel gave me so much headache long time ago it's making me insane (still am) but worth it! but I can't escape now! i might be forever staying in this regalle hellhole! wow!

2.) /r pair you like of this character

Need I Say Anything next question

3.) /non r pair you like of this character

the above answer goes too here actually. i've ever mentioned somewhere they're like. a secret fourth thing to me. their love is something incomprehensible to the world it *can't* be classified as merely and only romantic. sure it can be seen as such but I don't rlly want to strict the two's relationship under a status.

but for other answers is of course the other two of the main 4, leif and especially evelynne

don't get me wrong I do am insane more about zefirengel and the writing I have about their dynamic is a lot more (yes i'm biased thanks to the past me and how I want to bring back that old spite. sorz), but

never forget that evelynne is canonically the only person in regalle that engel has positive relationship with. they're friends and lynne mentioned engel helped her since the early days she became a merchant and said multiple times they're nice despite that cold cover of theirs. how'd they get along in the first place? that's the question. there's so SO many things I thought of about their friendship story and her perspective prove a thing that engel isn't always a very quiet cold and meanie person and can be soft and nice if you actually get them right.

(though smth to note I see them as queerplatonic. I think lynne would shriveled up if she found out she's in a romance with someone for a second and. idk they fit better as that honestly I don't think they understand romance or want to aha)

and leif. goodness. if they interact more perhaps prism may fall into apocalypse they're too powerful. they could be a good student-mentor duo. Leif called them "librarian friend" and I believe he would ask for guidance to engel despite already have gwynelle. engel too would admire his bravery and determination to help everyone and just being so friendly with anyone. how's he's just. a contrast with the so-called arrogant and strict aegles. I can list MANY similarities they have esp like. their mindset. actually If i have to list what things are the main 4 share the same it would be uncountable since each second passes I would thought of a thing then another.

OH AND DON'T FORGET GRETTA THEIR SO-CALLED SISTER i can't even say anything here it would be a lot LOT. God what are you two hiding. what are your motives to hide on places? what. what. what. wh

engel why are you such a complicated character (i AM the one making it complicated) (i give too much a fuck)

4.) unpopular opinion of said character

bitches who call them librarian aegle version of peanut pk1 needs to be executed

(this one is [mostly] for me ->) also people mostly thought they're mean and "annoying" or just see them like "ok sure you exist but you're kinda nothing with that grumpy personality", which I get people see it that way esp when you aren't into the game deeply but you've got to know there's more than that about them and once you learned atleast their origins you realized you can make things up, interpret how they are this and that and how they act that and this, it was so much fun to figure out how their actual personality blend with the others. you can actually have so much fun with them considering the many things about them unrevealed. truly the character to self project onto. it's fun.

5.) what you wish happened to this character in canon (?? smth smth around this I forgot)

grabs kurechii devs' shoulders. hey.

I know they really just seem really want to stay distance and unbothered by the people in regalle but. c'mon. can you develop more interactions of the main 4 with each other. I promise I know how to get it right I can help you I can give you ideas. more things about gretta and engel please. where could this engel enthusiast get other sources to learn about them. hey. can you still make them able to befriend others despite have to stayed mysterious. do I have to stay making things up forever like this. hey. hey. are you really gonna make them stay mysterious forever. that would be so bad you know. hey. can zefirengel become the 2nd sapphic rep of this game. why did you make them terrible. can they be more developed actually whether it's onto the healthy yuri or toxic yuri or tension yuri lead but can you not just left them like that. hey. h

.

ok that's all for now props if you read all that and idk if what I'm explaining is accidentally out of topic or I fully don't answer what the question asked aka I go off with what the question asked or. I actually just yap nonsense or nothing at all but idrc at this point i. certainly talk about things. and. I think my brain's fried from typing all of this. have this little doodle okay bye

[mr-urple]

ALRIGHT BRO YOU ASKED FOR IT

LOVE THIS??? I don’t listen to Meiko that much but whenever I do end up coming across a song of hers it’s so??? Good??? I love the her tuning in this song (impossibly high notes my beloved BAHAHA).. I also love the hints of traditional oriental instruments… it matches with the song cover

This is the type of song that brings thoughts of homocide into my brain… /vpos. I love it when Miku has a more whispery tuning it’s so nice OUGH… and the electric guitar SLAPS AAAUGH

This is so unnecessarily cute what the hell 😭 man…. Miku and Rin…. They go so well together I love this song it’s so. AUGH ITS SO CUTE WHAT

EYYYYYY VIVID BAD SQUAAAAAD‼️‼️‼️🗣️🗣️🗣️ Bro the cover art is so RRRRRGH BITES THE WALLS.. also I love the chorus????? Their voices all go well together I CANT BRO HRHHRHRHHGH

This is so catchy… kinda feels like it follows something similar to swing at times??? Idk I’m not a music expert, BUTTTTTT I love how Miku sounds in this song (TUNING… RRRRRGH).. I love the beat for this one.. probably my favorite “new” song out of this playlist

Thanks to the cover art all I’m thinking about is a royalty au HELP…. I’ve never heard this singer before but HHRRRRGH he has such a nice voice?? I love..

LEN LEN LEEEEEN LEN MY BOY AAAUAGGRHEGAAGH THIS IS MY SECOND FAVORITE THE PERCUSSION IN THIS SOMG IS SO NICE.. listening to this makes me feel evil hue hue hue…. AUGGGHDHHDHWHHEHE LEN AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH LEEEEEEEEN SOBS EMOTIONALLY.. MY BOY IS SPITTING BARS IM SO MOVED

..alright @urplepurplegurgleturgle @atomic-rattz i wanted to make u playlists from your vibes tewww

don!!!!

tomi!!!!

just 15 songs for now but i miiight add more if any come to mind hehe

[spacehorrors]

tma review e161-180

every time I start these reviews I'm like we're really in it now folks but we're SO past that point now

top episodes

E169 Fire Escape: so this one came across quite strongly to be a Grenfell allegory which was disturbing to listen to, similarly to the next episode that deals with xenophobia and disease. As an episode I enjoyed it because I usually enjoy ones that play with houses and homes which turn against you. It was just horrible listening to all of the ways they could've escaped that were shut off.

164 The Sick Village: like the previous episode, this one was a lot to listen to because it was skating SO so close to real life and both of the episodes are examples of how horror reflects society's fears. I thought it was also good example of how the new statement style suited different types of stories.

E171 The Gardener: love love playing with structure and I enjoyed this one being like an instruction manual. The treatment of human beings like plants and flowers ough it was a lovely crossover of things I love.

E170 Recollection: so I was conflicted about this one but god hearing Martin say "oh hello!" to that tape recorder over and over and hearing him trying to figure out where he was over and over it was just devastating. like ouch and the chair that is never comfortable and the house that is never his.

E176 Blood Ties - just loved how this one was written to be honest not much complexity in my opinion lol! I just enjoyed how it sounded.

general thoughts

To get this out the way um I already covered my thoughts on the children episode in an ask but yes I thought that was messed up. I'm still not convinced on the children's fear is not as fully developed as adults? Like I thought they'd be easier to manipulate but I thought it was a good messed up idea. It also raised the issue of the moralities of the avatars again like I enjoy them toying with just how much these avatars are in control or have a choice in these matters.

THE DOMAINS. I already made this joke but uh lord of the rings? I think the domains are a good way to distinguish what makes this the end of the world rather than just a smorgasbord of fear it's like they're sort of in competition.

So. Jon ended the world. I think it's interesting to see the balance of blame in him like is he only blamed if he enjoys the aftermath? Did he know what would come at the end of the statement? Interesting. Especially since Jon's guilt is mainly seen through Martin, how does this change it? Very interesting.

The "knowing everything" aspect is interesting but my favourite part of it is grappling with whether Jon is enjoying it or it's destroying him or both.

So the changes to the statements themselves. Narratively I enjoy it because it allows for a lot more experimentation like that wild poem or the instructions in the gardening flesh one. It's super fun!

Smiting. Why do we have to call it smiting that's such a funny word for a not funny occurrence. I think it's like incredibly interesting because Martin and Jon clearly have very different views on what is actually being achieved via it. The KILL BILL line made me laugh a lot ngl especially with Simon Fairchild. but also the difference between vengeance and justice AND ALSO the fact that Jon is also an avatar. Like what's the line between him and the others yknow? And I think that's a line Martin is going to have to reconcile with pretty soon. Love his I love my murder boyfriend attitude though.

Last thing is that I was kind of impressed with how they managed to make the end of the world just a never ending depressing awful time because I thought that'd be bad but I think the balance they've stricken works well.

character thoughts

Basira and Daisy. Honestly? I found Daisy's death a little underwhelming but I'm not sure what I would have preferred. I thought Daisy recognising Basira was a nice touch and of course you had to have the little "is Basira going to join her" note that I liked. I thought they finished Daisy's arc quite well though I was a bit worried they would lean too heavily into the "oh yeah well she was good at the end" rather than focus on the whole brutal past. Um yeah! I'm sort of undecided but like Basira having to kill Daisy has always been on the cards and what's been built up.

Martin - the dog in the archives..... dear lord my boy. anyway I've been enjoying him this season. I think it's been nice to see how he handles things. Especially nice when he clearly states well no I don't want to do that or I don't like it when YOU do that like yes!! Character growth good for you.

:)..... YESSS Jon have conflicting feelings about your own part in the end of the world and your duty to save everyone and your vengeance. Literally more moral dilemmas please they're very fun to listen to. I particularly liked the bit with Jude Perry and like exploring if he's going to put other people's safety and comfort to one side to find out more, to avenge himself.

Jon AND Martin because they need their own section yes I think they're sweet yes I think they're doomed. Yes I'm enjoying their funny moments yes I think they're going to inevitably hurt each other. I want to walk into the ocean. Enjoyed the early season where it was just a bunch of eldritch monsters reacting to them dating like that was so funny. Listen I'm a sucker for romance ok I'm sorry this is a horror but love IS the centre of horror so.

Tim and Sasha THOSE RECORDINGS WERE MEAN. THEY WERE MEAN AND THEY HURT MY FEELINGS. >:( which I know was the point but god the idea that Sasha should've been archivist is such a CONCEPT. god. and Tim. sounding so happy.... puts everything is such a horrible context. the way Sasha was smart and competent but it wasn't enough to save her. god. head in my hands. that happy birthday recording.

Where is Melanie...... WHERE IS SHE. can I please see Melanie and Georgie soon I miss them so much.

predictions

my main prediction is sort of to do with uh a certain main character whose name rhymes with gone's death. um. I geniunely don't know how they're going to kill Elias apart from my Georgie theory because they've already said that killing Jon doesn't turn the world back. so maybe Jon is doomed to keep watch over wherever they imprison them? I don't know. I'm very worried about it.

CONFLICT BETWEEN MARTIN AND HIS IDEAL OF JON because like yes of course that's been erased away gradually but I feel like one thing is just going to push Martin too far and they're going to have a proper fight about it.

I also think prediction one and two might feed in to each other but I want to think no more about it 😭😭

I will not shut about this one but I'm still convinced Georgie is instrumental to all this. she literally doesn't feel fear how is she not instrumental.

I think I need to take a bit more interest in Annabelle Cain because I have a feeling the Web will be instrumental in taking down Elias. Like, they've got to establish a plan at some point that isn't just walk to London yknow.

THE LIGHTER. can we have some explanation. I also think they should burn the archives down in honour of Gertrude and trap Elias inside. :) I think that would be fun.

hmm. what else do I think. I really don't know to be honest I just don't see it ending with anything but devastation..

ok <3 that's all thanks everyone for tuning in. send me asks, are without spoilers etc whatever!

[faunusrights]

‘AFTER THE FALL’ - LIVEREAD

I say ‘liveread’ but there’s a pretty decent chance this’ll turn into a RWDEread.

So, After The Fall is finally out in the UK and my copy has landed arse-first on my desk, so I’m gonna read it and post my observations here so that you can experience it with me! And also experience whichever stages of grief I go through as we go!

I will preface this with a warning: as much as I love the characters of RWBY, canon is currently the target of all of my spite, so I’m approaching this novel with HANDFULS of wariness and also salt! Most people who follow me already know I don’t pay attention to canon, nor care for it, nor listen to it, and most of you also know I headcanon Velvet as a 6ft+ trans and queer beefcake who can bend your spine into a pretzel, so I’m already at odds here. As such, if it seems like I’m not approaching this liveblog with the benefit of the doubt: that’s because I’m not!!! Yay!!!

So with that said, let’s enjoy Murphy Wishing Velvet Were Big, But Isn’t, And So Suffering Never Ends:

FIRST IMPRESSIONS

Firstly, this book is thicker than I expected, whilst the font is bigger than I’d have thought. I know it’s for teens so it’s not as if this was gonna be, like, 1000 pages in a size 10 font, but this probably won’t take me long to read (although it’ll take longer by virtue of me adding to this as we go). There doesn’t seem to be a chapter list, though, so I have no clue how long each chapter is. Guess we’ll find that out when we get there.

Secondly, the cover of this book sure is, uh, a Thing. What’s going on with Velvet’s face?

Thirdly, the cover is Not Nice to Touch. This is a weird observation, but trust me, I’m tempted to laminate the cover just so it doesn’t feel so... dusty.

PROLOGUE

Velvet’s the narrator, and Murphy isn’t surprised! Velvet’s such a fan favourite that having her not be the narrator (at least for some of this book) would have been an absolute crime.

Okay, halfway through the first page and I did laugh at ‘a terrible place to visit, but you wouldn’t want to live there’. I may pass that line along to my dad, because it’s a, how you say, big mood.

Fox’s Semblance is Telepathy, which is... a thing, I guess? I’ve seen some pretty creative thoughts on what Fox might have, and this seems kinda lackluster, but the phrase ‘special teamspeak’ IS funny and I love the concept of them acting like it’s a voice channel on Discord. That’s good, and for that I accept this.

(I will note I trust the author of this novel. He seems neat and I already like the humour. I don’t trust M+K but we already knew that.)

‘As [Yatsu] stepped onto [Velvet’s] linked hands, she heaved upwards and stood, boosting his jump as he catapulted high over her head.’

Velvet, bridal-carrying Yatsu: idk he weighs the same as a couple of grapes

I will say, it’s nice having CFVY content at all. They might be Fools but I do love them,

‘[Velvet] pressed the stitched heart emblem to open it and then removed Anesidora, her high-tech camera that used special Dust--’

Anesidora???? That’s the name of her camera??? Of all the things I expected, that was probably the LAST thing I expected. What??? Wikipedia says it’s Greek for sender of gifts, but why that’s the name I am, Not Sure,

‘Combined with her Semblance--photographic memory--Velvet could wield these 3-D replicas with skills and moves that otherwise would have taken years of training to master.’

That’s no surprise, really (and I did already write a short about Exactly That) but I probably wouldn’t have called it photographic memory. Muscle memory, more like? But yeah, that’s pretty expected.

REESE GOT MENTIONED ILU REESE,,,, when will my gay child return from the WAR. LITERALLY. WHERE IS SHE.

Velvet’s thinking abt Weiss dustbun confirmed!!!!!!!!!!! But seriously when will Velvet kiss a small gay Schnee??? What must I do. Whomst must I kill.

OUGH VELVET LOSING THE PHOTOS OF FRIENDS SHE ISN’T SURE HAVE SURVIVED,,,, OWIE. THAT HURT MY FEELIES MR MYERS,,,, but I AM enjoying this angst and that I shall not lie about.

Ruby and Coco, leaders in arms... I will say that the moment of them kinda regarding each other as equals would have landed considerably better had they ever really, uh, interacted in the show. I tend to write Ruby being Coco’s little protege, but we don’t actually have a ton of canon evidence of that really being a thing? So even though I’m enjoying this li’l tidbit, it’s really lacking some foundation, alas.

Fox’s tonfas (is it tonfa time? I think it’s tonfa time) are called Sharp Retribution. Which MMORPG did he get that from?

“We’re Shade Academy’s newest star pupils.”

The sheer cockiness of it all. Ilu Coco.

Okay so, y’all know that Murphy’s about to say: I HATE that Velvet gets treated like a goddamn marshmallow. I’m trying my BEST, I SWEAR, not to complain abt canon Velvet because everyone knows this is my biggest sticking point, but god I hate that she’s written to have such a specific semblance and be so squishy. Aaaaaaaaaaaaa--

Also: we’re having a case of a jumpy POV, particularly with the conversation with Glynda. I know this tends to be something that happens with writing for younger audience, but woof am I noticing it.

I’m liking Yatsu!!!! He had like, no lines (at all) in the show, but he’s actually more of a smartass than I had dared hope for, so that Something.

Oh yeah, Fox is a Vacuan boye! I do like that he’s very chill with everything whilst Velvet is begging for seven different types of death (but could I make a comment abt my Velvet here? Yes. Am I going to? I’m trying not to).

CHAPTER ONE

Owie wowie this is already gettin’ kinda long. If chapter one causes a lot of commentary, I may have to add on in a reblog so the people don’t have to suffer.

Coco is our narrator now! Let’s see how many times the word ‘sunglasses’ comes up (hint: probably enough times that if I took a shot for every one I’d be very dead).

/sees the name Alabaster YOU aren’t a big chunky polar bear Faunus! Leave!

“Who’s your tribe?” “I’m from Kenyte,” Fox said. “But it’s been a long time.”

Vacuan tribes, baby! I’m tempted to see how I could work this into anything, but my lore is pretty stick-stuck so I’m probably just gonna jot this down as a ‘cool thing’. Oh, wait, they’re tribal nomads, which means it DOES fit the lore!!! Nice!!! Murphy guessed it!!! Cool!!

‘A perky Faunus waitress with a pig snout came over.’

With a what. Canon, where are we with traits? Also, like, I feel there are multiple childhood movies that scared the crap out of me with people getting pig snouts so I’m making the executive decision to ignore this line. Never happened.

Racism incoming, so I’m getting a cup of tea.

And we’re back! This guy also has a mace and a mohawk and is he just the combination of team CRDL or what?

‘Coco couldn’t take her eyes off the fit, dark-skinned woman.’

I presume they mean fit as in physically fit but my BritBrain is like ‘hell yeah shes fit’ and now I’m envisioning Coco as, like, maybe a scouser. Can you imagine her with a beehive? Anyway, moving SWIFTLY on.

‘--chain mail crop top--’

I’ve never seen a worse combination of words, which is impressive when I wrote Velvet as wearing bright yellow boardshorts with a neon-blue tank top that one time. And by one time, I mean, every time,

I’ve seen this outfit in pictures ‘cause of Amity Arena but god it sounds even worse in words like. Nobody is hot enough to pull off this absolute jumble of clothes. Nobody is.

I do enjoy big lesbian Coco though, so there’s that.

People have already mentioned the ‘could you picture me in a uniform’ line w/ Thirsty Coco so I won’t give it more screentime but it is a mood, and now we know coco has a uniform kink,

“We’re doing this for school credit,”

fox: i do not want money i want an a+

Velvet POPPIN OFF for Mysterious Reasons... is this gonna be like Qrow’s bad luck Semblance only someone has the Semblance of ‘Will Piss Everyone Off In Vicnity’? I think we call those anons,

CHAPTER TWO

I think I’ll stop after this chapter since this chapter’s a little bigger, and this liveblog is already too dang long. It’s a flashback!

‘Vale has been [Coco’s] home all her life.’

I’m quietly ignoring this line in favour of Atlesian Coco. You cannot stop me. But Coco does have a younger brother, so that’s neat! Kinda! IDK what to do with this information but it sure is there existing!

‘And to top it off, [Glynda] was also hot--’

This is the only bit of canon I will accept, because it’s true and Coco should say it.

‘[Velvet and Coco had] both come from Pharos Combat School--’

Another tidbit ignored because I favour Menagerie-born-and-bred Velvet, but I do like hearing the names of other combat schools outside of Signal. Looooooore.

OH there’s a GOOD PARAGRAPH HERE that I don’t really wanna type out, but Velvet is mentioning how she doesn’t like bunny jokes or puns (’hop to it’, she classifies as ‘harmless-but-hurtful’) and THANK YOU, oh my GOD. I’ve written about this before but if I see one more person have Coco make a bunny joke in a fic I will fight Them Myself,

Oh, Fox’s Scroll has an ‘Accessibility Dialogue Assistant’ (ADA)! That’s quite cool, actually. I’ve been wondering how tech might have functioned for Fox, so we have some confirmation about a Scroll’s use for accessibility stuff! That’s neat! I like that! Also, his telepathy also lets him sense people -- pinpointing them exactly the better he knows them -- so that’s a cool little side-effect, too. Although, I swear these Semblances are getting more poorly named by the minute.

Coco’s weapon is called Gianduja, which is... a type of chocolate! Unsurprisingly.

‘Besides, Coco wasn’t looking for a girlfriend--’

yet.

Coco and Fox have a fun dynamic, and I enjoy it immensely. They’re bros...

Also, how does Velvet procure this very expensive Dust for her weapon, anyway? I wonder if we’ll find out later.

“You’re from Mistral,” she said. Yatsuhashi blinked. “So?” “Your people don’t tend to like my people.”

That’s an interesting tidbit that Mistral as a whole has a reputation. I suppose they mean the Kingdom and not the continent (of Anima), but still.

“Don’t worry,” Velvet smirked. “I’ll protect you.”

ah, that is, how the kids say, hott,

“So it’s a Death Stalker den. Only an idiot would go in there.”

Jaune found dead from a sneezing fit.

Awh, I like Coco describing the temple bit. Already she’s looking out for her Best Boye. Also, playing cards are a cool thing, and they’re the King of Hearts! That’s ‘cause they’re gonna win a lot, too,

Okay, I now understand Coco’s Hype Semblance. It’s interesting! I’m curious how else it can be used, aka how versatile it is, but it’s a neat concept.

Velvet dabbled in fortune-telling when she was younger and I am enamoured with this idea. Also, picking the Queen of Hearts ‘cause it’s the only one w/ good vibes? Love it.

Okay, end of chapter! RIP Velvet who constantly looks like a squishy baby, and even though that still Irks Me As a Person And A Gay, at least it’s. Maybe gonna be a plot point or smthng idk. Anyway, I’m stopping here for now because this is slow going when I’m adding commentary, so I’ll probably reblog this and add onto it later. Less RWDE than expected, but it’s still early chapters yet.

[atomicbark-blog]

Sugar Fall and Morailegence

Plush (JS/MI)Yesterday at 6:08 PM

(blood ment.) 

Your name is Jay Harley and you have just started to wake up after being knocked out by Stitch. Clutching your bleeding head you lift it too fast and see stars, almost hurking right then and there. Some common sense has seemed to leak back into your head despite you laughing at this moment. You push yourself up onto the wall and teleport out into the hallway, you hit the floor immediately clutching your mouth. You won't be able to teleport this much like this. 

Crawling over to a wall you pull out your phone and shoot Doze a text before pulling yourself up the wall, your claws digging into the drywall. You start to stagger off, laughing manically under your breath, a raspberry red bloodstain following your trail against the wall.(edited)

Mabs (PI/02)Yesterday at 6:42 PM

Your name, or at least what you call yourself is Doze. John Doze usually...it's kind of a fun play on words. At least you think so.    At least you would if you weren't a bit upset right now. Upset at having been stuck in spot while everything has been going tits up, upset that you weren't fast enough to get far enough so you could be with Clover. Upset you aren't with Clover now and are making him worry even more probably.  And upset that you know you're on your way to do something stupid but here you go. 

It'd have been one thing if Jay had just been candy crush cackle-mad...but the combination of her messages was more than concerning.  You didn't know if these Tricksters were immortal...but if they were and Jay wasn't working right then perhaps not.  And you already have a life of regrets you have forgotten, letting Jay possibly bleed out in the manor alone was not one of them you wanted to add to the mist. 

Leaving your hiding spot, you begin to make your way through what felt like an empty manor, making your way to where Jay last said she was.

Plush (JS/MI)Yesterday at 6:52 PM

You had staggered farther down the hallway since messaging Doze, you had to stop to do that or otherwise you would of fallen down right there and you weren't sure if you could get up again from that. Everything hurt and hurt a lot, ever since Clover cracked you a good one you hadn't started to heal like the other tricksters and man did it suck to some point. You keep staggering on despite your pain, it's something you were trained to do. Keep on carrying on, you could even stagger home after getting shot if you really wanted too, but right now with the glitching back and forth and feeling like something.. someone was hunting you down again. You were way to terrified to focus on ignoring the pain, you just wanted to reach Doze. 

Your blood trail skids down for a second as you crouch/crawl your way to the other side of the wall so you can continue towards the Lounge. Having no idea what is keeping you moving or why you do keep moving instead of staying still, you keep trekking along. Making it to the start of the stair way you crumple to your knees an lean against the banister, "Fuck making it down those.. Hahhaha!" You chuckle under your breath and lean your head against the railing, "Please get to me furst Dozey.~" Churring you close your eyes for a second, you just need a breather, yeah. Just a few minute rest.

Mabs (PI/02)Yesterday at 7:00 PM

You see the bloodtrail first, momentarily wonder if this is how Trace feels when he's tracking folks down.  Probably more exciting for Trace. Less terrible for Trace. He gets to see people, you just get to see blood.    As you round the corner, you see the figure slumped by the bannister.   Wellp. Here goes nothing and everything as you get closer. 

"Ey. Ey Jay.  What do you say.  Lets go on out and have have a really nice day." You say softly as you get closer.

Plush (JS/MI)Yesterday at 7:11 PM

Your bent puppy ears flick as you hear Doze's voice an you groan, looking up slowly an over at him. One of your eyes is held closed, you didn't want to get blood in it. He gets to see it in full and somewhere in your mind that upsets you, having him see you like this. A new jagged wide scar from the left side of your fore head to your right cheek, and absolutely covered in blood. You grumble softly, and try to stand up, shaking tiredly as you do so and nod at Doze, stars flashing in your vision. 

"Mmm.." You stand up fully and rock back and forth before grinning brightly, "Oh really!? I would LOVE that!" Your being glitches for a moment and a more calmer tone takes place, "Anywhere away from Stitch and them would be fine with me honestly."

Mabs (PI/02)Yesterday at 7:18 PM

A noticable frown at the blood.  Oh no...you can't be mad at Clover for doing what he had to do...but its still painful to see. Pulling out a large blue scarf like you were some kind of magician, you start to wrap it around her head and injury.  "Ye ye...sure thing.  Lets getcha outta here.  Ye aint allowed to get anymore badass lookin scars today." 

With careful slowness, you lean down to scoop her up in your arms. "I gotta couple places where I do some of my other business that I can take ye to.  Stitch ain't the only one know knows his way about medical equipment. Kek."  It's true...while Stitch's job was patching people together....yours was often taking them apart.  As slow as possible. Making sure they stay alive for as long as possible.  Torture ain't worth it if the person bleeds out in an hour after all.

Plush (JS/MI)Yesterday at 7:28 PM

You are touching the scarf lightly a soft smile on your face when he scoops you up. You let out a yelp of surprise and cling to him before laughing. You grunt and shake your head at that, trying to keep the candy syrupiness out of your brain. You lean away from him an whine, "I don't want to risk turning you." Frowning an wobbling a little you set your head against his shoulder, your breathing ragged an chest shaking with each breath. 

As much as you wanted to make sure he didn't touch you because of the risk, you just didn't have it in you to fight against it. You nod and grumble softly, ears drooping, "Yeah.. That sounds Peachy! Urk sounds pretty good, I'm all there for it." You allow yourself to rest against him and you find yourself smiling again, man he makes you feel so safe  and calm it's absolutely wild.

Mabs (PI/02)Yesterday at 7:33 PM

"Iffn I'm gonna get all hit with this crazy kittykat bullshit, I'd rather do it helping ya get to safety than getting kerfuckle kissed by some sappy assed sons of bitches.  Priorities yo.  Maybe I'll end up being the act three goes out like a hero sucker kek."  You grin as you cautiously take her down the stairs and head towards the garage.  Fuck there's blood everywhere and while you have some tools here if folks are on the hunt and she's scared to want out...best not to push it in case she glitches bad. 

"Sides. Prolly ain't gonna work on me.  Know why?  Cause I already happy as shit.  Know why times two?  I already got everything I need to be fuckass happy. I got Clover. I got you. I got skills to pay the bills. And I even got a dumbass fuckface I get to dunk on once all this is over.  Bread and Circuses all the way.  Why the fuck would I need anything else to be happy."  Part of you is saying it for yourself, as you ignore how much her blood smells like raspberry taffy.

Plush (JS/MI)Yesterday at 7:48 PM

You genuinely laugh at his words an grin up at him through your daze, "Yeah it fucking sucked lemme tell ya." You glitch a bit, your grin more manic like, "Got my forehead SMOTHERED is kisses be DOC!!!!" You practically slap yourself on the forehead, right on the wound and glitch back, "Never thought I'd see the day he would do something like that. Shit felt cursed." You snort an laugh softly. 

You find yourself gripping Doze tighter as he descends the stairs, you didn't want to fall, in fact now would be the damn worst time for that. You look up at him surprised before nodding, "You got that right. Damn I honestly didn't want this." You feel yourself frown heavily before you glitch like crazy, grunting you hide your face behind your hands and mutter to yourself, "Okay, Okay. No sad feels I got it jesus FUCK!" You bury your hands and face into Doze's shoulder to get yourself to calm down again, "Oof.. Sorry sorry. Looks like trickster me doesn't like thinking about sad shit."

Mabs (PI/02)Yesterday at 7:57 PM

"Sounds like Trickster you is a godamn pussy." you snort.  "Do you think we'd be where we are without the sad and the bad?  It's that sad and bad shit that makes all the good shit special.    If I wanted something fuckin happy without purpose I'd just load up on a dozen how may i serve you mlord click with yo dick games or something."  Carefully opening the door, you note which cars are gone and which remain before getting a set of keys for yourself. 

"That said.  Think about some happy shit. This ain't gonna last forever. And then! We're gonna have some fuckin fine dining on the fanciest daki pillows.   Can watch the best of vine videos till we're cry laughing like dipshits."  A wide smile.  "Don't need no candy ass magic to have a great time.  We're gonna show that candy ass magic that its just a punk ass bitch that only wishes it could have as much fun as we do when you and I are in full swing."

Plush (JS/MI)Yesterday at 8:12 PM

You laugh into his shoulder and nod, your gummy like hair bouncing with the movement, "Such a pussy, gotta be what you eat." You crack up more and bite your lip, snorting and laughing though your nose. "God the way you say things are great, honestly never a dull moment around you." You purr, then stop and blink surprised that you can even do that. With a soft oh shit and a tail wag you go back to purring, looking out and watching Doze do his thing. 

"Hell yeah you tell it Doze. We are gonna have a damn good time." You glitch heavily for a moment as you grumble lowly, "I don't need no damn candy to be happy with the people I love an care about." Stars brightly flash in your vision again and your ears flick back and down, "Ough fuck that's bright." You squeeze your eyes shut for a moment and shake your head as you chill out again. 

Tilting your head you look up and blink at Doze with a confused smile, "Are we leaving the mansion?"

Mabs (PI/02)Yesterday at 8:15 PM

"Ye ye. Gonna have a good time."  You nod as you head over to one of hte cars.  "Also ye.  Gonna take ya to my baddass tat parlor. Show you my sweet as fuck studio.  Finally can give you a bonafide tour of the place." 

Helps that you also have some other tools there for your other jobs. Though thats a bit more of a hush hush matter.  "Maybe if some place is open we can get some snacks n shit. Just chillin about while I help patch ya up."

Plush (JS/MI)Yesterday at 8:25 PM

"Oh man that sound great. Gonna be honest my candy side has been wanting a tattoo on the fucking ass and I'm all kinds of fucked up to agree with her on that point." You grab onto Doze's shirt as you wobbly lower yourself out of his arms, with a grabby hands motion you more of fall onto the car than grab it. You glitch with that jostle and grin wide, "Honestly!!!! What's so BAD about tattoos!~ Doc won't be seeing my ASS and I'm all UP for some rule breaking FUN!!!!~" A huge part of you is glad you got out of Doze's arms at that moment. You really didn't know how much longer you could of held the fake candy happy side back. 

You adjust the scarf on your head, still grinning and teleport the Kitsune mask to your hand. With a wink at Doze you laugh, "You really don't need to WORRY about this side of me! When I promise something it goes STRAIGHT to my HEART." You do the cross my heart and hope to die sign and hope in the car, glitching as you do so. You sigh, "I'm a bit tired, I'm sorry I can't calm that side down as much as I want too." 

Mabs (PI/02)Yesterday at 8:36 PM

You give a nod as you close the door for her.  "Ye ye I trust ya Jay.  Like you've never lied to me in all yer life why would I think you'd do different now.  Candy or not yer still you."  With that you hop into the drivers seat, stirring the car's engine to life.  "Never understood why he was against you getting tats. Like shit I'm covered in em and most of the guys got'em.  Specially since what you were describin is pretty classy." Pulling out of the garage, you start to drive off at a fairly amicable pace. Go figure, you're the only person in the Felt who drives at the speed limit or under.  Noting the sky and grass, you shake your head.  "What a trip huh."

Plush (JS/MI)Yesterday at 8:44 PM

You hum and rub your head, you keep opening the wound up like and absolute idiot. "I don't know either." You grab the handle on the seat and lay back, enjoying the slow ride. "I said dick near him once and like-" You laugh before you can even finish, patting your chest lightly, "He fucking said I was banned from sex." You wipe your open eye, and shake your head. "I think he's trying to keep me...." You open your eyes wide and glitch out like crazy before sitting up quickly and gasping for breath. "Fuck fuck fuck, stop doing that... keep me to himself. Doesn't want my loyalties getting all fucked up and shit." You sit back again groaning, "Like I would even be able to with how damn loyal the animal side of me is." You scrunch your brow and nod, "You know what. Yeah! Let's get me a fucking tattoo! Damn prove it to him! I ain't no DAMN THIN LINED person! I don't fucking BREAK!" You pump your fist into the air.

Mabs (PI/02)Yesterday at 9:06 PM

There is a laugh as you turn a corner.  "That's the problem with loyalties really.  Make em too rigid they're gonna rebel. You'd think after raising a shit ton of kids he'd have figured that one out but he's always after his white whale of the perfect example."  There is a shrug.  "The other thing about loyalties, they gotta be about trust.  You can try day in day out to force loyalty but...if you can't ever really be sure they're loyal and trust them...yer gonna keep just putting that pressure on until they break." Another laugh.  "Well tell ya what.  I'll die on that hill with ya when this is said n done and you still want it.  Fuckit I'll take the tank for that why not.  I ain't gonna do it right now tho cause yer pretty damn hurt and I got some principles. Don't do tats when someone's drunk or doped up, also don't know if that'll end up causing some troubles in her state."

Plush (JS/MI)Yesterday at 9:23 PM

You nod slowly and sigh, "I, oof.. everything is so muddled in my mind I feel like I'm swimming through a swamp. I don't even feel like this after getting drunk what the hell. Yeah, I get what you are saying, I don't know if he trusts me or not to be honest. I think he just expects me to be 100% loyal to him, and like yeah I am but cutting me off from things that I want isn't the way to go on ensuring that I stay loyal. It's not like I'm gonna betray yall, I can't." You shove your kitsune mask onto your face and flinch when it pushes into your wound. You close your eyes behind the mask and laugh, "Thanks Doze, I do want it, a lot actually, but I won't let you take the heat for it. Can't in fact. My problem" You grin behind your mask, "I'd rather have you protected than deal with something I asked fur." You reach over blindly and pat his shoulder, "I understand that policy, be best too honestly-" You glitch, your candy brightness taking a hold again and gripping on hard. "Hehehe!! Yeah! Don't wanna mess up and get LOTS of tattoos!" Jesus give me a break can't she just come to an agreement with you already and mellow out. You touch the wound and tilt your head, perhaps that will be fixed when you are all fixed up. The crowbar seems to have split you in two like a damn cherub.

Mabs (PI/02)Yesterday at 9:34 PM

"Wouldn't be surprised if Doc doesn't trust anyone, even himself.  Ain't anything against you, just how he be I guess."  Or maybe he has a hard time trusting because he knows even if the ends justify the means the betrayals he gave are ever likely to return to his doorstep one day....but you don't voice that part.  That ain't your business to say. "Psssh." You grin back as you glance at the masked face.  "Bitch please.  We innit to winnit.  If I'm out here risking candy toxic shock fer ya you think I'm not gonna take a dunk in the tank if it comes to it.  I ain't lettin ya be the only one to take that heat."  Glancing at the streets, you dodge some rather huh...well ain't this getting crazy with the decor.  Be funny if those stuck behind when this was all over.   But you're just about to your parlor at least and this part of the city seems a ghost town.

Plush (JS/MI)Yesterday at 9:47 PM

You sit back up, dragging the seat with you as you turn and face Doze, some good ass feeling jams right here damn, gotta pay full attention. "Hmm!~ The tank? Oh those Goop Tubes! Hehe!! Snow put me in one of those before I forced myself out of the grey magics! Those things are ABSOLUTLY terrifying!!!!" You laugh and glitch lightly, "Damn things are hell thats what they are, first time in one." You shake like you are trying to get water off of you and stick your tongue out, your mask following suit, "If we get dunked together we can chill together then, the after affects isn't something to deal with on your own." You look over your shoulder to the world out side and it finally hits you how much everything has gone to shit, "Wow... I missed this? Where is everyone...?" You don't like this one bit, you feel yourself slightly shift towards Doze as you murmur out, "Thank you... for staying at the mansion and for coming for me.. I didn't know how bad it got."

Mabs (PI/02)Yesterday at 10:23 PM

The laugh turns to a cackle.  "Ye ye the goop tanks. They sure are something ain't they."  You give a nod as you pull into parking lot for the parlor.  Giving a slow glance for any trouble, you step out of the car with shotgun in tow.  You had no problems blasting some candy coated jackass across the wall if it came to it. As you get the door, you shrug.  "Ye ye....shits gone to utter fuckin hell. Rip in the sky's bigger too it seems." You comment as you point up.  "There's a few holdouts of folks trying to wait it out or stay safe but who knows how long its gonna last."  There's a frown.  "....think before I left I saw something about losing Trace to it.  Probably means we're all gonna be kerfuckled considering he can track us down one by one in time."

Plush (JS/MI)Yesterday at 10:31 PM

You hop out of the car and decide it would be easier to float then walk, in which you to. You float after Doze humming sweetly as you do, "Oh yeah!! That was my fault.~ I did this SICK NASTY move on Snowman and made her hit the pavement after she made me eat pavement! I was a cherub then though!! And my other side on that note is rather WORSE than this one." Your mask winks, the eye that opens is full of flashing different colours, it's rather hypnotizing actually. You straighten out and look around grinning, "Well hell has some interesting tastes!~" You turn back around and float into the Parlor, "Trace went mad happy then? That's unfortunate." You settle your tippy toes on the ground and drag them as you float around the place, "Hmm.. Wouldn't Nepeta and Fin be in trouble first. Do you know if anyone has gone to help them?" You look back at Doze.

Mabs (PI/02)Yesterday at 10:41 PM

You step inside after her before locking it.  It's a pretty nice setup, sterile and well kept with paintings mural'd on the wall.  You noticably frown.  "Hopefully. Maybe. Not sure.  It's Trace.  And he's got probably some similar setups to what ya'll been having so he can prolly chase forever."  The frown deepens but you shake your head.  "Nothing to do bout it here." You lead her to one of the backrooms.  "But I can at least getcha fixed up a bit, so that counts for something maybe.  Have a seat over there and we'll get this all started up."  The chair looks relatively comfortable, obviously designs with tattoo clients in mind who would have to likely be seated in themf or hours.

Plush (JS/MI)Yesterday at 10:48 PM

You put a hand on his shoulder worriedly and pap him, "Fin says my teleporting messes up the trails, If need be I can get us the hell out of here and keep you safe." You glitch and your mask grins as you float over and sit down, "Like I sai-i-id!~ I won't turn you." You tilt your head all cutesy like and look around, "What do you plan on doing? Oh uh shit You are gonna sew my face all up and shit huh? Oh damn." You clutch the mask tightly to your face before slowly taking it off, your thick syrup blood sticking to it, "Oh gross why the fuck did I put that on again." Saying fuck it to the mask and placing it in your lay you shakily reach up for the blue scarf, not really able to see what you are doing.

Mabs (PI/02)Yesterday at 10:57 PM

You're washing your hands before putting on some latex gloves. Gotta be pro and sterile about this stuff.  "That's good too know.  Maybe be the ultimate ace in the hole really.  Aight. Gonna try to get that cleaned a bit and see what damage we workin with.  Gonna sting for a few until the local antiseptics kick in. Then prolly just gonna feel weird as fuck." You roll up a wheelie chair along with a tray of tools, bottles, and a pan of water as you help carefully remove the blue scarf, taking time to try to dab and wipe away the blood on her face as you keep gauze on hand to apply pressure in case it starts pouring blood again.  "Gonna have to see what I'm workin with first but looking like you may need a bit of stitches as is.  Gotta say Clover kind of cracked ya good."

Plush (JS/MI)Yesterday at 11:09 PM

You move your hands out of his way and close your eyes so he can do what he needs to, "Yeah, Though I can't say that I'm mad at him. It helped me break through... and since my trickster ass lunged for him I say I deserved it yeah." You scrunch your face slightly as your pain receptors flare up from your wound being cleaned. With how thick your blood is at the moment it doesn't pour blood as much as it slowly slides down your face again like syrup on pancakes. "Stitch's meaty damn cherub claws got me on the shoulders too, I didn't mention those because they don't hurt as much as my face does. They can honestly probably heal on their own." You force yourself to sit rigidly still for Doze so you don't cause him to mess up. The would is deepest on the top left part of your skull and kind of just drags through across your face. The condition of your eye is unknown, you still have yet to open it, honestly fearing the worst after getting use to having it closed this long. With out her effigy healing her up, she would need stitches for the left side of her face, the right side could heal properly on its own.

Mabs (PI/02)Yesterday at 11:16 PM

You methodically rinse and clean the wound, applying a dab of numbing agent as you go.  The blood's a bit weirder than what you're used to...but almost in a good way since it isn't pouring out faster than you can clean.  "I'll give em a checkout once I finish up the worst of it here.  No sense in leaving a job half-assed n shit." There is extra precaution around her eye, probably would need her to rinse that out at the sink afterwards.  "Oof...ye....looks like her gonna need some stitches pupperoni.  Fortunately I can likely do it without it ending up looking like Stitche's face.  Gonna likely have a mark when its all done though. Gonna look like one of those baddass anime babes with the sword three sizes too big for her."

October 16, 2018

Plush (JS/MI)Today at 12:10 AM

"Oh alright, you gotta point. Plus I shouldn't just leave them to bleed everywhere huh." You pause an snort under your breath, "Is it weird that I kind of want to lick my blood, shit looks hella tasty but also gets all of your teeth rotten in under two seconds." You reach up and carefully tie your hair up and out of your wound. "Alright, I'm fine with that, needles don't bother me too much and with how damn fine your tattoo work is I trust that you will definitely hold to that." You tap your fingers on the chair, feeling honestly kind of bundled up, "Say, anything you want to do after this, can like.. satisfy the damn candy side of me and shit so I can mellow out." You flick your ears an look at him, "Honestly think you out of anyone would be able to help me mellow out so I don't cause any more trouble." You grab your tail and bap it between your hands, something to do so you aren't sitting still and jittering out, "I feel safe an calm around you." You laugh softly and grip your tail.

Mabs (PI/02)Today at 12:18 AM

"Can't deny its too weird. I mean be lying if I said it didn't smell fuckin delicious." You smirk.  "But then perhaps I ain't the best judge of what is delicious considerin my appetites."  You give some of the area near the wound a couple test pokes to ensure that the area was good and numbe before sterilizing the needle.  "If any of this starts to hurt lemme know and I can dab more numbin shit on it.  All about that comfort here." You slowly get to work, hands working with a precise smoothness to them that your powers have granted.  "Hard to say really.  Problem with things is yer gonna be a-ok no doubt no problem but pretty sure me being out and about is the worst thing I can do.  Trying to keep out of the radar in all of this shit.  Whatcha candy side hankerin for?"

Plush (JS/MI)Today at 12:40 AM

"Will do..!" You swipe some blood off of your mask and look at it, "Hm. What's wrong with your appetite?"  You raise the blood up to your nose and sniff, damn that did taste delicious. Like you just snorted a whole can of koolaid up your nose. Resist the temptation to lick it... You don't even flinch as he starts, you more of relax even more, glad to have someone stitching you up. "Hmm I don't know. Nothing to crazy honestly. I'm chill with just hanging out with you and letting myself mellow out and fall out of this trickster state. Kind of tired of it honestly. I only need one good head bashing for me to be done with something." You say fuck it and give the blood on your finger a little lick and scrunch your nose up, that was like opening a whole box of pixie stixs and downing them with the wrappers on. "If you want to go back to the mansion after this I'm up for that. The tricksters seem to be turning their heads from that place fur now."

Mabs (PI/02)Today at 12:51 AM

"Some folks get really nit picky about what is and ain't cool to eat.  Like sure no problem killin a pig or a cow and making ground up burgers.  But then folks are like can't eat rats. Can't eat this. That is gross.  But like...at the end of it all, meat's meat yanno?  Ain't no chicken gonna care what happens to it after its dead, same for every other thing.  Carapaces, trolls...folks...in the end we're all about the same."  As you talk, you carefully make small stiches up the wound, taking pauses to clean and dab and add a bit more numbing agent to it as you go. "Chillin sounds good to me. After this we can prolly vamoose to one of my layday locations.  Keep all my dvds there n shit. Watch some movies. Hang out in pillow land.  Take 20 naps.  Its my fav place to just go and pass time by doing shit all.   Prolly best not to get back to the mansion anymore.  Tho I'll understand if you wanted to. "

Plush (JS/MI)Today at 1:04 AM

"Yeah yeah I get that. Gonna be honest, when I was younger and not really uh hm.. mannerized? I would go in the back yard and dig up the moles an just-" You laugh, "Wasn't pretty. So I understand what you are saying, I don't think anything is wrong with that." As he moves away from your left eye you open it, it's entire colour has changed to a dark cherry red. "Hm." You pat your cheek under it and your ears flick back as panic races through you. "..." You close it again and say nothing on the note of not seeing your fingers from that eye. "Yeah that sounds good. I could use a good rest after this honestly." You smile softly at him, "It will probably be for the best to go there too. Does anyone else know about these layday places?" You shake your head slightly, "The mansion will be fine. I doubt anyone but us could navigate it honestly."

Mabs (PI/02)Today at 1:12 AM

"Ah hell I'm not younger and I'm still not mannerized.  Elbows on all them fuckin tables. Kek!"  You grin wide as you are starting to finish up the last of the stitches.  "Moles pretty alright, though small things got like not much good meat on em so they're a bit a pain.  Like the sunflower seeds of the meat kingdom." You dab up the last of the mess around the stitches before applying some Hello Kitty bandages over them.  "Nah.  Chances are once this blows over I'll move it again elsewhere.  Always good to have little somethings that you can call your own.  And ye ye...highly doubt that the mansion is in any danger. Prolly safer than most of the folks in the city."

Plush (JS/MI)Today at 1:33 AM

You snort and shake your head, "Yeah they are, no way would they satisfy me now. Little dirt creatures." You reach an gingerly pat your head and sigh, "Oh man, that is much better. Thank you." You blink a few times before wagging your tail happily. "I feel like I can think again- Though still being full candy decked out is concerning. How long does it take to go back to normal?" You wave your hand in front of your left eye again and make tsk noise when nothing happens. No worry right? It's just from the head injury, vision should come back soon enough. "Ohh alright then yeah, that sounds like the safest place to go right now." You nod with his thoughts on the mansion, agreeing. You place a foot under you and float up and back, away from the chair and reach back to where Stitch scratched you, "Hmm..?" Not feeling anything you twirl for a second trying to look before floating over to Doze. "So... I'm thinking... Wounds from the crowbar as trickster doesn't heal but wounds from other things do because even though I bled the claw marks are gone."

Mabs (PI/02)Today at 1:40 AM

"No problem.  Always glad to help...glad its helpin ya some."  You roll back a bit as you start to put stuff away.  "Not sure really.  Most grey shit tends to be like....few days. Week tops?  Who knows though.   It'll sort out when it does tho." "Oh?" You tilt your head and notice that yeah, despite the streaks of red there was no indicator that injuries were ever there..  "Huh...kinda cool.  Guessn' its a good thing to know.  Gotta admit, the outfit is kind of fuckin adorbs as well.  Though still think green is a way better color on ya."   You take a few minutes to clean up and wash some tools and offer to let Jay wash her mask, noting her eye.  "Ah dang looks like you may have bust a vessel in there.  Hows yer vision?"

Plush (JS/MI)Today at 2:30 AM

Your ears flick back as he asks what you didn't want to hear. "Uh. My right eye is perfectly fine but uhm.." You wash your mask and put it on easily afterwards. "As for my left eye, I can't see out of it at all." You look over at him and shrug as you touch the floor with both feet, "Oops? I hope it temporary... How do I deal with the busted vessel though uh hm that sounds more important." You let down your hair and bounce it around before curling your tail over it. "Mh! I like my original wardrobe but I wouldn't mind being this pink or having this fun gummy hair."

Mabs (PI/02)Today at 2:37 AM

"Ye ye. Prolly will be fine. Prolly just gotta wear a badass eyepatch for a while to let it rest up and shit."  You were hopeful if only because that was one of the many things you had no idea about.  With a smile, you lean over and whisper the location of your hidey hole. Appears to be an abandoned bunker just a bit outside the city. "The hair is pretty baller gotta say.  If it wasn't for the utter fuckwittery wouldn't have been against this whole thing but shit its just a fuckin mess."

Plush (JS/MI)Today at 2:52 AM

"Oh damn, look like a sick pirate. I even have a Halberd for it, go straight into conquer the sea times." You smile worriedly behind your mask and decide to throw the fear behind you. Best not dwell on it when you guys are about to chill the hell out and wait out the rest of this hell. You tilt your head as he tells you its location, your ear flicking and with a nod you put a hand on his shoulder. "Oh god yeah, I would be totally for this style if the manic shit wasn't behind it." You teleport to the location he told you, and blip back out for a second to teleport the car back home. Maybe that would fuck with the trails even more. Haha have fun Trace. You flash back in next to Doze and wobble a bit, "Damn that was the biggest fucking thing I ever teleported. Straight migraine damn, never teleporting a car again unless absolutely necessary." You look around the place as your vision stills and look around, "Ooh shit, maximum comfort, what movies do you have?"

Mabs (PI/02)Today at 2:59 AM

"Hell yeah.  If things go tits up we can just steal a boat and sail uh...actually we could steal a space ship and be badass fuckin space pirates."  You laugh as you finish cleaning up.

A teleport in, she's gone, then back...and looks pretty wobbley. You hold out an arm to prop her up.  So far you haven't been feeling any of the effects of sugarfication...who knows maybe your slow ass time shit is making it hard for it to stick in small quantitites.  The outside looks pretty ramshackle and barren, but after a couple corridors you find yourselves in a fairly comfortable looking room. Large throw pillows, some tacky beaded curtains for giggles and a nice entertainment system with fridge. "Ah shit I got a bit of everything.  Like to keep up on the Earth flicks going down. Guessn I'm already a pirate as is kek.  Got some cute Disney shit, some action movies, some crazy ass giant animal attack stuff, this kind of sweet ass nature documentary...even a couple rom coms though they're kind of fuckin tropey as shit."

Plush (JS/MI)Today at 3:49 AM

You pause at the beaded door way for a minute and tilt your head, pawing at them and laughing softly at the noise they make. You eventually get your arm stuck in them and have to teleport out to fix them, snickering as you do so, damn you gotta get some of these things. And I just realized you said beaded curtains but we thrive in idjit land here. You wonder around the place, getting yourself use to it before low floating back to Doze and setting down again to listen to his movie list. You snort at his joke and nod, "Pirate buds." You raise your hand for a fist bump but hesitate.. he's already touched you and not changed, this should be okay right? You look back down at the movies. "You got any tacky horror movies? I love those things."

Mabs (PI/02)Today at 3:59 AM

"BPBFs...Best pirate buds forever. Kek."  You smile and shoot her a finger pistol with your index and middle finger outstretched.  Two was your gimick, think of it as a double barrel pistol wink or something.  Bumping her paw digits with the fingers, you sit down next to her  to think. "Oh hell yeah.  The tacky ones are the best. So many of the modern ones are just way too fuckin serious. Gimmie that stupid schlock of dumb college kids summoning zombie devils anyday.  We can take bets who gonna die next."  Normally you'd recommend a drinking game of it but between bloodloss and her state probably not a good suggestion.  "Got a few that have like a whole series. You know you got the good shit when you have like 6 sequals each shittier then the last. Can just que up and marathon."

Plush (JS/MI)Today at 7:59 AM

You laugh an nod, the bestest of pirate buds. "Honestly, and yeah, I can already vote for all of them. The blonde hair girl goes first." You look over the movie titles an think about his idea, "Yeah a marathon of these should be time killing enough huh? I'm up for that, you can choose which to marathon since I picked the genre." You float away from him and around the room, setting things up to make this biggest and most comfiest looking pillowfort in the world. You even go out quickly to get some dope halloween bat and spider lights, absolutely halloweenpimpping the place out. You have to take a moment, your head screaming at how much you've done to it today. You'll soon be at your limit for teleporting for the day, better save those for more important things. Like escaping. You nest into the pillows, churring and getting everything more fluffy and comfortable for the movie. "You got any drinks or popcorn for the movies?" You hum and float back towards Doze, setting down next to him, the pillow fort finished.

Mabs (PI/02)Today at 3:26 PM

"Gonna suggest then hmm...critters marathon. Nothing like tiny lil monchy fuzzums from space. "  You grin as you pull out some soda from the fridge and get some chips.  "Way ahead of ya.  Aint a movie night without the snackrifices." You give a nod of approval to the halloween decor and pillowfort.  "Nice nice.  Ultimate Spoopy comfy town up in here now."  Sitting down, you use the remote to start up the first movie as you settle in close.  At this point you were pretty confident that being close by was not going to change you.

Plush (JS/MI)Today at 5:49 PM

"Hell yeah to both of those." You settle down next to him and tug a blanket onto you lap, your tail swishing slowly as you smile and watch the movie. When you watch movies you tend to blank out the world around you, even when you move your self you don't really register it. So as the movie goes on and you two talk off and on you don't pick up your drowsiness. You don't even pick up when you lean on Doze, draw your knees in and wrap the blanket tighter around you, your eyes drifting closed. You nod off for a few seconds and blink yourself awake, there was some things you wanted to get off your chest before passing out. You turn towards Doze with a tired hum and smile softly, "I wanted to thank you, truly, out of that crazed state of mind. You didn't have to risk yourself to help me at all and the fact that you did really means a lot to me." You rub your good eye as your tail thumps softly against the pillows. "And in the car with the tatts, sayin you'd go down with me, all the time you've calmed me down. Being there for me when few to no others were.." You rub a hand through your hair, pausing a moment as sleep starts to tug at you again. "You mean a lot to me Doze, I'm lucky to have you around." Instinct hits you straight in the heart as you use your left hand to hold up half a diamonds with your pointer an middle finger, the classic morail sign, and you don't even register you do it. "You're a damn great dude.." You continue to sleepily ramble as you move your other hand off your face an look at him with a genuine smile.

Mabs (PI/02)Today at 6:07 PM

This was nice.  At this point you've become so used to the faint smell of candy that it doesn't even register.  Just you and Jay, watching hokey movies.  After a bit you realize her banter is slowing as she slowly starts to drift, and you don't bother to try to stop that.  It's been a helluva day and fuck she probably could use fourty winks.  Need that rest to recover, heal, and all that jazz. As she starts to talk, you tilt your head and give probably one of the rare smiles that isn't a wide grin or an amused smirk.  "Ey.  That's what I'm here for.  We're innit to winnit. Better or worse. A daring duo.  And as I said, rather go down trying to do somethin than wait for the kickback in Die's fuckin closet.  Which, by the way...best hiding spot in the mansion.  Kek." You note the hand gesture, and reach up to match it.  "Pching!  Could say the same for you. Well not the dude part.  But yer amazing Jay.  Through and through.  Can't imagine the mansion or a world without'cha.  Clover has my hearts but yer a sparkly diamond in my eyes."  If the threat of candy dandification wasn't there, you'd prolly have given her forehead a kiss.  Instead you just ruffle the back of her gummy soft hair with your free hand.

Plush (JS/MI)Today at 6:43 PM

You laugh softly, locking this moment, this memory in your mind. Something to recall when you need to. Your tail thumps quicker as he ruffles your hair an completely accepts your pale feelings and returns them too. Your worst day turned to the best day. You churr softly, and just like that, being around him, realizing and being the best damn pirate morails, your sugar high self dissipates. Leaving behind good old Jay, just way more tired this time. You smile genuinely at Doze as you snuggle against him as you start to drift off again, "Hmm I wouldn't want it any other way, damn diamonds for life.. Best fuckin morail to have." Your breathing steadies and slows as you fall asleep snuggled against Doze. Your last thoughts before slipping into dream world are quick, you are going do your damn hardest to keep Doze safe from this trickster mess, you are so ever happy to have a morail and one you connect with on so many levels, you.. you are happy actually happy for the first time in a long time. You fall asleep smiling and for the first time in 15 years you dream something calm and something happy.

Mabs (PI/02)Today at 6:54 PM

You blink, as the sugar disspates and sitting next to you is the familiar Jay you know and adore.  "Same. Same here.  Besties for the resties of our lives."  You lean over to gently kiss the top of her now normal head.

"You get some rest. I'll keep an eye and ear out for trouble..."  You say as you gently pet her head while she drifts off to sleep.  Despite all the shit going down, you can't help but feel...pretty dang good.  Cause heck, this will all blow over eventually. For now, in the tiny little room in the nowhere land, things are alright.  And that's all you needed for now.

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In reference to this turns out I put it in the wrong folder!! That’s why I couldn’t find it ough

I’m gunna reread for typos but fair warning this note is OLD so the writing is likely questionable at BEST lol

He stumbled almost blindly through the snow. His thoughts were as blurry as his eyes as he hurried behind Snowdin and into the forest.

An ache consumed his entire body, but his hands...their pain was mind numbing. He kept them tucked under his arms, for what little good that did.

He had no plan of action, no idea what he could say, but the only one who could help him was the one person he could not reach. He’d tried with no success several times, there was no reason to believe this time would be different. Desperation was a good motivator.

The snow covering the trees merged them together, the darkness making it exponentially harder to navigate the path, but he’d been running for so long...he had to be close.

His legs weakened with every blow, he could feel them about to give out, when it finally pulled into view. The large, decrepit doorway looked the same as ever. He managed to force himself to the structure, collapsing to his knees in front of it.

Shifting awkwardly around, his hands and legs were useless, he would have to use his back. Throwing himself against the door, he went blind with pain, but it subsided quickly enough for him to stay conscious.

A small puff of snow fell on him from the reverberation, but he heard no other reactions from the other side. It was hard to imagine he would get one.

Three weeks.

He couldn’t use magic to heal himself, so he’d struggled along, depleting what little he had left. It felt wrong to ask for help, to drag her, or anyone, into this...but he was at the end of his rope. He would Fall soon. He could feel it in his bones. He was teetering on the edge...

It was hard to keep his eyes open.

With what little remaining strength he had, he leaned forward, and pushed back again. Hardly even a dull thud was audible over the static pain cluttering his mind.

Still, he waited.

Hope was the only thing monsters had left. It was all he had left.

Even if he didn’t deserve it.

He was desperate.

It started snowing again, slowly...it was nice to watch. He couldn’t recall the last time he’d seen it, but that felt even further away now. It was so quiet. It was so...dark.

A trickle of life breathed out in a sound.

A voice.

It was small, and unsure.

“Hello?”

But it was familiar.

“Queen Toriel?” His voice sounded ragged, even to him.

There was another silence...but she hadn’t left.

“I am no queen.”

He could’ve cried at how happy he was to hear her voice, even when it sounded so hollow.

“Toriel...I beg your pardon.”

“What do you want?”

It was his turn to hesitate. Her uncertainty reminded him of the guilt and the doubt he faced in coming here. Yet...

“I did not know where else to go.”

Words so quiet, he was unsure they had even reached the other side. Silence consumed him once again. The notion that she had left allowed a hollowness to dull his pain. Or maybe he was finally dying. Hard to tell.

His focus drifted back to the snow...when a heavy noise took him by surprise.

The door opened, ever so slightly, pushing him forward and onto his side. His body protested, but he couldn’t have gotten out of the way, regardless. This did not hamper her.

Carefully leaning out into the snow, fur almost whiter by comparison warmed his very soul. The larger monster noticed the limp skeleton in a heartbeat, gasping in disbelief.

“Wingdings?” She almost looked like she couldn’t believe it. Like he might be a mirage.

He hadn’t heard that name in a while.

“I...go by Gaster these days.” He smiled lamely up at her.

Moving with ample speed and delicacy, she took him into her arms. It was apparent he was in no shape to move, but it felt no less degrading to be carried like a child back into the Ruins. Although, out of anyone, he was grateful she was the one to do it.

Moving with intent, but not hurry, they headed down the long corridor.

“What happened to you?” Her staggering glances were of concern, not meant to demean him, but a flush of embarrassment still found him as she looked upon the unsightly cracks running through his face.

“That...is why I am here.” He watched her eyes, even when they were not on him. She was going against herself to do this, he could tell how hard it was. But her compassion outweighed her stubbornness.

After he tells her the truth, that may change.

She did not ask anymore questions as the made their way back to her home. Deciding on where to take him, she carried him to her bedroom, laying him down with care onto the first bed he’d been in for a month. Maybe longer.

Without waiting for permission, she sat carefully alongside him and began using healing magic on his chest and head. He didn’t say anything for a while, just closed his eyes and let her work, but he knew he would have to tell her soon enough.

He wanted to tell her.

He was naturally good at lying and keeping secrets, but he’d never intended for this to get as...well, out of hand as it had. The lies he told were to protect, the secrets were no different. But this was something else entirely. He was only protecting himself.

He was afraid of what she would say, but if anyone could understand his intentions, it would be her.

He slipped in and out of consciousness as she healed him, exhausted by the journey. He knew there was nothing she could do beside take the edge off, though. Still, it felt good to be able to hear his own thoughts over the throbbing in his head again.

Eventually, she moved to uncross his arms, but he flinched away.

“I’m sorry.” Slowly, steadily, he slipped his hands out from under his arms, bandages falling away to reveal two large holes in the center of each one.

She covered her mouth, staring in silent horror at the mutilation.

“What...what has happened to you?” Which really meant, ‘what did you do to yourself’. She still knew him very well.

Shifting to sit up, she helped him with gentle hands. He rested them over his knees, allowing her to cautiously put her hands over his and start again. She waited patiently for him to explain, keeping her eyes fixed on his.

As much as he wanted to savor the peace, he could not put it off any longer.

“I’ve made a terrible mistake.”

Her gaze was steady.

“I...I only wanted to help. To help everyone.” He closed his eyes again, focusing on her breathing.

“I needed to find an alternative, to breaking the barrier...it’s all I’ve worked on for so long...” his chest ached with every word.

“An idea came to me, like a vision. Perhaps...perhaps I could create a weapon. One that could harness enough magic and determination to destroy the barrier.” His breath hitched in his throat, it took a moment to regain his composure.

“I studied both monster and human composition...” his chest was tight enough to ache as the words fought to be kept unspoken, “If I could create something akin to...to a living being...without a SOUL....” his shoulders shivered under the weight of her gaze, “I don’t know where I went wrong...” He opened his eyes to find her watching him with worry.

“I ran test after test, study after study - humans possess a power we cannot utilize with their SOULS. Traits of inconsequential power. But there was no combination I could use. Every attempt went unstable. Nothing else was working, I had to-I had to try something...I was so close!” He flexed his hands, sending a shocking pain up his arms. Toriel reached to steady him, but he pulled back, unable to meet her eyes again.

“Is that...what happened to your hands?”

Screwing his eyes shut, he bowed his head, centering himself.

“Yes.”

He felt the mattress shift. When he lifted his gaze, he found she had repositioned herself to face him properly. She was determined to understand him with what little he was offering.

“I...decided to use my DNA. I could create a hull. A funnel, if you will. A synthetic monster that could harness more power than any singular monster before... Without a SOUL, it could not be corrupted, nor overwhelmed. Just...a weapon.” His eyes drifted, looking beyond her, “I...chose not to tell anyone about this.”

She looked sad, but not resentful. He was right to trust that she would understand.

“But it went wrong.” He was haunted by recent memories. To go into details of his progress up until the turning point was useless. But to admit what followed out loud was to accept the reality of his situation.

“It...developed one, somehow. Part of one.”

Subtle realization dawned on her, eyes going wide.

“It was so...so weak....deformed. But it was stable…” his face twisted into a pained smile, “So I tried again.”

He couldn’t control the strained laugh that shook him just before he collapsed in on himself.

“What have I done? What have I done?!” He gasped for air, only laughter finding its way out of his mouth. He could feel her hands wrap around his back and his shoulders...why? Why would she comfort him?

He choked as the manic laughter turned to sobs. Coughing, he stifled them. In an attempted to pull his face back up, he found it pressed against her neck as she held him against her. She was always so kind to him...he missed her terribly.

Trying his damnedest to get a grip, he shifted backwards, letting her sit back to face him again.

“...What happened..to it...or, them...?”

Staring down at his hands, he didn’t even know how to explain it.

“They...it...the first one. I’m not sure…it can develop further,” wiping away any remaining tears with the back of his forearm, he took a deep breath.

“But they....they’ve both started to develop SOULS. I did not think it was possible. Out of nothing but augmented DNA and...” he took a slow breath, “but...they went critical. They couldn’t fully develop those SOULS, and the bodies started breaking down- I...I....” He could feel her eyes burning into him.

“I couldn’t let them fail.”

A heartbreaking silence filled the air. Maybe it had just been cruel to tell her all of this. Maybe he should have lied. Why would he be so selfish?

He lifted his gaze to find hers elsewhere...her couldn’t even imagine what was going through her mind. However, when she looked back to him, there was sincerity, perhaps sympathy, in her tired eyes.

“So I fractured my own SOUL.”

A gasp escaped her, as she drew a hand to her mouth, eyes wide in shock. And honestly, he hadn’t believed it to be possible, either.

“My body did not take kindly to this,” he raised one hand to the lower of the two cracks on his face, “but it worked. They are stable.”

“You gave them...how?”

“I...” he clenched his jaw for a moment, “I don’t know. But...I could only give a small piece to the failure- or rather, the weaker of the two.”

She was taking it surprisingly well considering he’d just confessed to creating a living weapon and implemented it with his own SOUL. Them. Two of them. Christ.

An anxious smile crept on to her face as she rested a hand over his knee.

“So you’re telling me...” her smile faltered but it was quick to return, “that you’ve...does that not make you a father?”

He stared back at her for a moment, knowing she must be joking. How could that be the take away here?

“I’m not...I didn’t...” grasping at any train of thought that could take him away from that destination, he found no words to correct her misjudgment.

With another reassuring pat on his knee, it appeared she had convinced herself, though.

“That,” she cleared her throat, “may not have been your intent, but can’t you hear yourself? You’ve created life, my friend.”

He’d created functionally living bodies, yes, but life? It was increasingly apparent that he hadn’t correctly translated the purpose, nor current progress, of his experiment.

He hadn’t factored in any possibility they could’ve developed new souls around what was provided. The substitutes were meant to stabilize, not to be placeholders. But now that they were there, developed from uncommon components, there was no telling what would happen from this point out.

They may look like infantile skeleton monsters at this stage, but their bodies were compromised of recreated determination, skeleton DNA, and compressed magic harnessed from the core. Their souls were forged from his own and sheer will power. What they could become was beyond his comprehension. If they survived.

He’d considered the chance they might forge a bond with his DNA allowing them to resemble skeletons, but to have developed souls out of nothing more than the aforementioned components...wasn’t possible. In all of the simulations and calculations he’d done, never once had he been lead to this outcome.

“I...”

Would they have personalities? Would they have thoughts and feelings? Would they even be able to survive without constant support?

“I don’t know if they’re really alive yet.” He slid his hands under his arms again, almost habitually at this point.

He hadn’t been thinking clearly since he’d chipped away parts of his own soul. He hadn’t considered they might be...

Sitting back, Toriel took a deep breath.

“How long has this been going on?”

“6 months.” He answered too quickly, receiving another sympathetic glance. It made him feel dizzy. “Three weeks, since the...since they went critical.”

“You’ve been going around like this for a month?!” There it was.

She scowled at him as he averted his eyes. Even after admitting his...grievances, she was more concerned about his well being than anything. How odd.

“I don’t...” her scowl softened, something akin to guilt flashed across her face, “I suppose I understand why you could not ask someone else.”

A heavy silence filled the room. Years of things left unsaid flooded his mind. There was nothing more he could say or do, as he continued helping Asgore carry out his less-than-ideal plan.

As if she could read his mind, she met his eyes with an intensity he hadn’t expected.

“You must not tell Asgore of these monsters.” She looked to the doorway, like there was somehow a chance someone could overhear them, “He cannot resort to organic experimentation. He has harmed enough lives.”

The idea of trying this again was enough to make him sick, let alone with someone else.

“I do not intend to.”

When she looked back to him, her resolution faded, a sadness replacing it, “You are still very weak. Rest, now,” she moved back to the edge of the bed, “I will do what I can.”

He watched her for a moment, unsure if it was harder for her to have him leave or let him stay. But his body told him that did not matter. She was right.

It wasn’t hard to see her mind was still brimming with questions, concerns. While she may not fully understand the severity of the situation, she made a very unique, albeit important point.

He’d created two living organisms. He had not intended on doing so, but...they were his responsibility now. There was no telling what would happen once they were strong enough for autonomy. But in the microscopic chance they were sentient as well, he needed to be strong enough to continue sustaining them.

Easing onto his back again, he rested his hands just below his rib cage and closed his eyes. The buzzing of his thoughts kept him awake as he felt her magic course through his hands and chest.

It would take some time for him to succumb to his exhaustion. Maybe it was all a dream. Maybe he was still in the lab, or outside the Ruins. Maybe this was what dying felt like. It was...peaceful.

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I was initially going to make this a comic (pretty sure I still have the first two pages somewhere), but yeah. No idea where I was gunna go with it but I’m so glad the note didn’t get eradicated <3

I FOUDN THE GASTER THING

[imagines--harrystyles]

Imagine: You and Harry go to a bar and you get drunk and sing karaoke

The weekend was finally here, and you were ready to let loose. You had just started a new job and were overwhelmed with the amount of work they put on you first thing. On top of that, Harry was busy with meetings and events so you were both stressed out and a bit snippy with each other the whole week. You were so ready to just go out and have a fun Friday night and destress. 

Niall was in town for the weekend and suggested you and Harry join him and a few other of their friends to go to a karaoke bar tonight. It was super low-key and Harry had been there before so nobody was really worried about them being recognized. Especially on a Friday night when everyone there was likely going to be drunk. You usually weren’t one for going out and drinking, but today, you were craving it. And you were excited to spend fun time with Harry, finally. You both had gotten into a routine of not seeing each other all day while you were working and then just eating dinner and maybe watching a movie together before going to sleep in the evenings. Of course you both loved each other so much, but all the work and stress was getting to you both and you knew you just needed to get out. 

“Hot damn, little miss,” Harry commented as he looked up and down at you as you both were finishing getting ready to go out together. You had on tight leather pants and a halter top, your hair messy in a sexy-looking way, and your makeup was bold. Smokey eyes and a dark lip were the way to go tonight, you’d decided.

You smirked at Harry as he slapped your ass. “Um, excuse me sir, that is rude,” you joked, walking past him to grab your bag.

“How am I supposed to keep myself off of you all night, hmm? I’d take you right here right now if we didn’t have to leave.” Harry’s face told you he was being completely serious.

You smiled, satisfied at receiving this reaction to tonight’s look from your boyfriend. “Well you don’t have to be completely off of me tonight,” you told him as you snaked your arms up around his neck, and Harry let out a quiet hiss.

You were interrupted when you heard honking coming from the driveway, signaling it was time to go.

“Damn,” Harry muttered as he readjusted himself. One more slap to your ass and then you both were out the door.

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You weren’t planning on getting that drunk tonight. Obviously you wanted a drink or two but next thing you knew you had just downed three shots in a row. 

“Think you might want to slow down there, love? Don’t want you passing out 10 o’clock on a Friday night,” Harry joked, but he was also looking at you with his eyebrows raised, telling you that he wasn't totally kidding. 

“M’fine, babyyy,” you assured him before you and the other boys took another shot. Harry had had a few shots already too, but his tolerance was much higher than yours and he felt only slightly tipsy, whereas you were full-on drunk now. 

“Alright, babe, let’s drink some water now, though, let’s change it up,” Harry smiled at you as he pushed the glass of water towards you. 

But you weren’t feeling it. It was Friday night, you were drunk, and you were ready to party.

“Harry! I’m gonna go do karaoke!” You decided as you went to stand up, not realizing how drunk you really were until you were on your feet now. Harry had to grab your waist to keep you from swaying, and his brows were furrowed as he looked at you. 

“Love, I really don’t think that’s a good idea. You can barely stand up as it is.”

“Mm, no Harry. I can stand up now I just couldn’t at first when I first stood up, but m’fine now,” you slurred as you turned to start walking toward the stage.

Harry knew that there was no changing your mind once you had made it up, and combined with the alcohol now running through your veins, there was no stopping you. So Harry followed you, his hand on your waist, as you made your way towards the stage.

“Would you like me to join you?” Harry laughed before you jumped up on the small platform. He really was concerned you wouldn’t be able to stay standing on your own for the duration of a whole song.

“Nope babes, this ones for you, mister,” you told him as you poked his nose. Harry couldn’t help but smile as he helped you step up onto the stage, making sure to stand as close to the front as he could so he’d be there if you needed him. He turned around when he felt a hand on his shoulder and heard hollering behind him, seeing that Niall and the rest of their friends were joining him up front to watch your performance.

“Y/N gonna put on a show?” Niall laughed, himself fairly drunk.

“Looks like it, I just hope she doesn’t fall down,” Harry responded as the first notes of a too-familiar song began to play.

“Oh Jesus,” Harry murmured. 

“Not this shit!” Niall yelled, laughing hysterically, as you started singing.

You’re insecure, don’t know what for

You’re turning heads when you walk through the do-o-or

Don’t need makeup, to cover up

Being the way that you are is eno-o-ough.

Harry couldn’t keep himself from laughing as he watched you point out to everyone in the bar as you sang, a proper popstar move. And by the time you got to the chorus, everyone in the bar was singing along. And Harry felt his heart melt as he watched you do some of the moves he would do when singing this song back after the boys had just started performing the song, jumping around and moving your arms around like he used to do. 

You actually weren’t half bad at the singing part, too. The words may have been a little bit slurred and you started to sing the chorus instead of the next verse once, but your voice itself actually sounded quite nice. And Harry felt so much love for you as you finished the song, jumping down to him and the rest of the boys who were all whistling and giving you a high-fives.

“You are something else,” Harry laughed as you fell into his arms, exhausted from your little gig. “That was pretty great, actually,” Harry told you sincerely as he put his lips on the top of your head.

“Mm so drunk, Harold,” he heard you mumble into his shirt.

Harry laughed before moving to wrap his arm around your waist to keep you steady, his hand resting firmly on your hip, as you wrapped an arm around his torso and rested your head below his shoulder. 

“Let’s get my popstar home. Too much vodka for the baby,” Harry smiled as he helped you walk outside and down the street to where a car was waiting to pick you both up. 

“Hey, m’not a baby, youuuu are,” you responded, barely coherent anymore.

“No but you’re my baby,” Harry laughed. “And I love you so much, little one. Let’s get you home and in bed.” 

You nodded your head before pulling away from Harry as he looked at you questioningly, only for you to turn away and vomit all over the sidewalk. Harry held your hair back until you finally finished, turning around looking slightly embarrassed. Harry looked somewhat concerned but there was also a hint of amusement playing on his face.

“Sorry baby,” you mumbled, feeling like a pathetic child but also still drunk enough to not really care.

“S’okay baby, I’ve got you,” Harry reassured you as he picked you up into his arms, only after checking your face to make sure you wouldn’t hurl all over him, as he carried you to the car.

“I love you Harry,” you told him as he gently laid you down on the backseat before getting in behind you so you could rest your head on his lap.

“I love you more, baby,” he told you, stroking your cheek.

“Nooooo.” You drew out the word, making Harry laugh, and that was the last thing you heard before you were passed out in the backseat of the car. 

Harry smiled down at you, feeling so much love for his beautiful and extremely drunk girlfriend.

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Hope you enjoyed! Requests/feedback welcome as always :)