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It's Always Been You | Origins!Logan Howlett x F!Reader
Warnings: Angst, Fluff, Reader has self-doubt, mentions of not feeling enough, mentions of being depressed,
Rating: PG
Word Count: 3K
Authorâs Note: God I hope this makes sense. I had an idea and ran with it, truly hope it was worth it.
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Life knew just when to hit you in the face, especially when you thought you were getting better. It was a cycle, a vicious bitch of one that truly only knew how to piss you off. At random it liked to come back and play, taking a good day and turning it on its side. You could feel when it was coming on, yet every time you thought it would get better. Just the hope for a better episode left you feeling empty, numb even, because you knew it was always going to be the same. No amount of faking it until you make it could save you from yourself. Left to your own devices, you always worked through it. But the road always was lonely.
You had everything. Everything you couldâve wanted, everything you needed. You had it all, so why now? Why when you finally found your footing in this new part of the country, did it have to come up? Why when you finally found solace in what you do day to day, did it all have to be shrouded in darkness? The air felt heavier, your soul felt confined. It wasnât a good start to such a beautiful morning â the sun cresting over the mountain range. The gorgeous sight at 6am on a Sunday morning was meant to give you peace of mind â the worldâs message that you are okay and yet â it threw you this curveball today. A lone tear slipped from your eye as you laid on your side, silently contemplating just how you were going to tackle today. You had to figure out how you were going to avoid him today. Being alone felt like the lesser of two evils; He was already dealing with a lot.
When you came to Canada to escape from those wanting to hurt you, you didnât anticipate falling in with Logan. He saved you, in more ways than one. That truck was coming up quick and you didnât have a chance to react, but he did. One second you were staring at the fender of the truck, next you were staring up at the snow falling, a grunting coming from underneath you. Not a scratch on his face, not a laceration on his body, just heavy pants and the constant question of are you okay? He was meant to be there in that moment, that is what Logan felt like the world had been telling him. It was destined for you two to meet, and this was the way of bringing you two together. Both of you dealing with the nasty repercussions of a broken heart. Only you could mend each others. After all, mutants stick together â right?
You could hear Logan in the back yard of your shared cabin, cutting up wood for the fireplace. The musky smell of his cigar wafting through the cracked window. This was the routine every day. Logan was out and about doing yard work on his days off whilst you stayed inside, doing housework. It was a comfortable dynamic you two created, a platonic friendship that worked well. Being able to teleport made things easier for you, going to and from without needing a vehicle to do so. It made days like this easier to disappear for a while; Logan always gave you your space. Sniffling away your silent tears, you tossed back the heavy comforter of your bed, slowly moving yourself off of your mattress. Being as quiet as possible was the best thing for you, the less Logan knew the better.
When your feet met the cold wooden floor, you jolted slightly â losing the warmth you had. Your eyes felt heavy and raw, your breathing ragged as you tried to hold back tears; They wouldnât stop, no matter how drained you were. Keeping the heavy thoughts at bay with the overgrowing anxiety â you managed to slip out of your pajamas instantly with a whimper of fear. Standing baren in your bedroom felt too tense for its own good, making your fingers tremble as you worked your sweatpants up your legs. Falling over you was your oversized hoodie, not bothering to add a bra and shirt underneath. You just needed to get away for a little while, you needed the space to breathe and come to. Slipping your boots onto your feet, you took a deep breath as you gazed out the window, focusing on the lip of the mountain before you. Just like that, in the blink of an eye, youâre standing on the curved edge â your solace, right under your feet.
Finding this spot near the cabin wasnât all on you, actually it was on Logan. You noticed it about a week into living with him â after the breakup with Kayla he would come up here and stare off into the range, watching how the elements traveled over the expanse. He was not one to show emotion with others but up here? He could scream, cry, do whatever he wanted without anyone seeing or hearing. Just far enough away where he could still run back down if you were in trouble, but you didnât hear his pain. Logan was a gentleman, he wouldnât subject you to his trauma â not if you didnât want to hear it. But that was the thing, you wanted all of him, to understand him. Which is why you started to come up here.
Looking down at the expanse of the mountain range, you could still make out the cabin you two lived in â not a single soul around for miles. Both his truck and bike sat on the gravel driveway, looking like they were made for a doll house. Being up so high wasnât as scary, not anymore in fact. You plopped down onto the stone below you, letting your legs dangle off the edge of the cliff. A deep breath in made the fresh wilderness air coat your lungs, relieving that painful tension in your chest. Each breath helped to get you through the thickness laying over your soul, push it further down until you couldnât feel a thing anymore. The cold nipping at your face and hands helped to aid in that, the pain steadily growing as you focused on it. Up here it didnât feel as though you were sad because life got you down â but because life was too much. Everything you had going for you, made you sad. To you it made no sense but, all the sense at the same time. Self-sabotage; You were pulling away from everything because you werenât used to it working out.
Closing your eyes you let the emotion take you over, letting the shakiness of your breath guide you to reclaiming control over yourself. It was scary, being left alone with your thoughts on the side of a mountain, a couple hundred feet up in the air, dangling your legs over the side. But you knew youâd stay put, you always did. Trying to time your breathing with the whisps of wind, you never noticed that there was a distant sound slowly creeping its way towards you, reminiscent of when your heart was broken. Your lover wasnât all that they said to be, loving you wasnât real at all. They needed to get close to you, needed to for Stryker. Youâre a mutant, you knew you were never safe but you didnât think someone would stoop as low as they did. Pretending to love you, cherish you, only to use you as a weapon. It was never real, you were made to be the problem â just like Logan.
The memory ran through you like a freight train, your body shaking due to the unshed sobs you were omitting. The sound of running through the gravel, spinning yourself in every angle to disappear, grew louder and louder the longer you sat. Pulsating beneath your fingertips, the Earth vibrating with the force of a thousand winds. Everything was crashing down, burning with intent of destruction, never peace. âHey.â Then it stopped. The wind. The voices. The memories. Everything stopped once that one word slipped out. Gasping as you brought yourself back into reality, you felt the racing of your heart in your chest, your eyes unfocused as you panned to your right. Standing at the edge of the path was Logan, his leather jacket open to expose the flannel underneath, his jeans and boots silent as he walked. Swallowing down the sob threatening to spill, you nodded at him. âHi.â
âToo loud?â Logan asked with a wince, the ache in his body worsening due to the colder months. Dropping down next to you, he groaned as the tension released from his body, sighing out towards the open range. You cocked a brow as you kept your vision forward, silently asking what he meant. You knew if you looked at him, youâd start crying again. You didnât want to put that onto him, you didnât want him to see you in that state. So you focused on the tree line cresting upwards, counting how many pine and maple you saw. Logan placed his calloused finger against your temple, tapping twice to ask again â too loud up there? The sigh that left your body was one of relief over sadness, knowing Logan understood made you feel better. Nodding against his finger, you gripped at your thighs, digging your nails into the plus fabric of your sweats.
Logan noticed how you were shaking, not from the cold but something else. He laced his arm around your back, pulling you closer to him. Gently he guided your head as much as it would go to his shoulder, the gentle whisps of his long hair falling over your forehead. Up and down his hand went against your back, rubbing soothing circles against your jacket. If you had it your way, youâd stay like this forever; Any contact with Logan, only grew the immense love you had for him. Saving your life did that, made you grow deep-rooted feelings for the man. Though you never wanted to let him know â not after what happened with your lover. It would be impossible to trust anyone like that again, there was no way in hell that youâd allow it to happen. Even if Logan was a mutant like you, Kayla using him for the same exact reason, youâd know it would be rocky to start. The fear of the unknown was worse than the knowing.
âWhatâs wrong?â Logan asks with concern, looking down at you from his angle. Brushing a few stray pieces of hair from your hair, he tucked his hand on your back against your shoulder, bringing it back to cradle your head. The small act of affection made your body shiver with delight; Being this close, this intimate with Logan was magical, if only youâd let yourself fully enjoy it. Shaking your head against his hand and shoulder, you snickered to yourself â loud enough for Logan to hear but low enough to where he couldnât hear the slight sob that slipped out. He couldnât feel the tears slipping down your face, he couldnât see how broken you were.
Logan didnât push, he noticed how quiet you got. With his hand on you, he could feel how you shook whilst you cried. He has super hearing, super smell â he could smell the tears falling before you even knew they were coming, could hear the sob threatening to fall with your snicker. The same heartbroken cries he omitted himself when Kayla betrayed him. This felt different; You stiffened under his touch, the whirlwind in your mind of the voices and constant anxious thoughts swirling as your eyes jutted from left to right. The sharp intake of his breath made you jump slightly, his hand reassured you by rubbing the back of your head. âDid I do something wrong?â He asked, lowering his head to your temple, laying a soft kiss there. His lips lingered on that soft spot, causing you to melt into him. The sigh of relief you let out reassured Logan that it wasnât his doing, but you still needed to state it. âNo.â It was one word barely above a whisper, but enough that he picked it up.
Nodding to acknowledge your word, Logan stared out at the mountain range, letting your head sink deeper against his collarbone. His grip on you never let up, keeping you where you needed to be against him, giving you that comfort of knowing you were not in this alone. âDo you miss them?â Sometimes he found himself missing Kayla â missing the love they had. He never experienced that until her, everything else being mere flings. But with her â it was everything to him. He didnât feel like he was a monster or a freak, he felt seen. He wondered if you missed your old partner too, even with how bad they hurt you. God knows youâd be preaching to the choir with that, but he wasnât too sure.
âGod no.â It was a laugh that slipped out of your mouth, that was the sound Logan heard. A laugh so infectious and lovely he wanted to swim in it. He missed hearing that every morning, ever since you started to pull back from him. He knew you werenât to blame, he could never blame you for anything. He knew how bad your mind could get, his was just as bad. But he never had anyone willing to help him through it â he wanted to be that person for you. Logan realized as he held you, as you laughed â you only started to pull back when the touches became more. When the hugs and smiles became genuine, not friendly. He realized that everything started, once that platonic line had been crossed â when he held your face in the kitchen last week, and gazed at you like he had with Kayla. It clicked for him in this moment as to why you were pulling back.
âThen what has my girl crying?â He let out with a breathy whisper, never pulling his lips back from your temple. He wanted to reassure you as much as he could, and hoped that you werenât frustrated with him on that. Hearing Logan call you his girl made your heart sink â your self sabotage getting to it before your heart could. Slamming your eyes closed you scrunched your brows together, trying to push out the invasive thoughts burrowing deep within your brain. You were over it; The endless nights crying, the reclusiveness, pulling back from Logan. You wanted to believe you deserved the goodness in your life. You wanted to understand that you could open your heart again. You wanted Logan.
In that moment you realized, it wasnât sadness clouding your mind, it was fear. The kind where you found yourself not truly believing you deserve the good of the world, where you feel safe and secure after years of living on the edge of it all. It was the kind of fear that made you second guess if you truly were meant to have this. It was never about it being a depression episode, but fear masking as that. Afraid that everything you wanted would not be enough to help you. But the thing is, it will. The day Logan looked at you with love in his eyes, was the day you felt everything creeping up. It was the day you guys silently gave up any platonic feelings you had for one another, and let love take its place. It all made sense now, and like the clouds after a thunderstorm â your skies started to clear.
Pulling your head back from Loganâs collarbone, you looked at him with misty eyes. He never backed away from your stare, instead matching it with his. His arm moved from your shoulder to your waist, his thumb rubbing circles against your clothed hip. That look, that damned look he gave you, it was all for you. âNothing in my life has ever felt this right.â There was no use in stopping the tears from falling, from holding back the sob needing a release. You wanted to stop running and feel, Logan was going to be with you every step of the way. Logan didnât have to think about anything in this moment, pulling you into his chest was the only answer. Pressing your face deep against his pecs, you sobbed openly into him, letting him absorb the rage, sadness, and anxiety you have been harboring. He wanted to take it all away from you and crush the doubt that made its way into your mind. âYou deserve a good life, sweetheart. You deserve all the great things it will bring you.â Logan was starting to cry as well, needing to hear those words himself as well. Neither one of you were broken, just lost. You found each other when you needed someone the most, and that was the worldâs way of converging your destinies.
âIâm not going anywhere, thatâs a promise. We are in this together. You and I, okay?â Logan spoke out loud, rocking you back and forth against him. The act itself made your heart burst, brighter and louder than you thought even possible. This love you had been harboring for so long, finally found someone to give it to, and there was no going back on that. Pulling your head away from Loganâs chest, he took the opportunity to bring both of his hands up to your face. Cupping your cheeks sweetly, he ran his thumb over your skin, reveling in how warm you are. The way you looked at him, made his life worth fighting for. âI will never let anything happen to you.â He growled with passion, bringing his face closer to yours. In that moment when your lips touched Loganâs for the first time, you truly felt safe. No more malice, no more fear â everything was right in your world.
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Origin [Logan Howlett]
Summary: Two people, one shared past, and decades apart.
Warnings: fem!reader, angst, fluff, longing, things get bad before they get better! WC: 14k - MASTERLIST
A/N: there are plot points that are inspired by Logan's origin story (thank u marvelwiki), but they are so non-canon compliant its funny so don't call me out tyyy đ
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Before he was known as Logan, or as Wolverine, he was James.Â
Your James.Â
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Itâs quiet in the Howlett estate, the kind of stillness that only comes when everyone has long retired for the night. But while the rest of the mansion sleeps, you remain wide awake. Dressed in your nightgown and nestled under the blankets, you glance at the small, brass pocketwatch resting on your bedside table. The hands read 10:22 PM. Any minute now, you think to yourself.Â
Then, like clockwork, you hear itâa faint knock on your door. Three slow, deliberate taps, followed by two quick ones. The secret signal never fails to make you smile. You spring from the bed, feet softly padding across the floor as you hurry to the door. You open it as quietly as possible, your grin widening the moment you see whoâs waiting on the other side.
James.
He stands there, dark tousled hair and that familiar mischievous smile that always manages to light up the dim hallway. Youâve known him your entire life, growing up together under the roof of the Howlett estate. Your parents, both loyal servants to the Howlett family, were fortunate enough to be granted permission raise you alongside their son.
From the moment you could walk, you and James were inseparable, sharing countless adventures in the woods, running across the estateâs gardens, and whispering secrets to one another under moonlit skies.
"About time," you whisper, teasing him with a playful glint in your eyes. "You really know how to keep a lady waiting, donât you?"
A soft snort escapes his lips as he grabs your hand, pulling you gently into the hallway. "My deepest apologies, Mâlady," he replies with mock formality, the corners of his mouth twitching in amusement. "I had to... attend to urgent business in the necessary."
You snicker, giving his hand a gentle squeeze. "Ah, I see. Was it a fulfilling experience, sir Howlett?"
He glances over his shoulder, rolling his eyes with exaggerated exasperation, though you catch the small smirk tugging at his lips. He doesnât respond, but his silence confirms everything. It was.
The rest of the trip is quiet, the two of you moving stealthily through the darkened corridors, careful not to disturb anyone or draw unwanted attention. After all, your mother would certainly disapprove of such late-night rendezvous. It is improper, she would say.
But what choice did you have? The day offered no time for moments like this. You were busy training to take over as the next chief maid, learning the endless routines of the household, while James spent his time with his family or other highborn friends. It was only after hours, when the mansion finally settled, that the two of you could steal away for these secret meetings.
Finally, you reach the gardens. The crisp night air greets you as you slip away from any prying eyes. Thereâs a familiar sense of peace here, among the fragrant flowers and the towering trees that shield you from the world. James leads you to your usual spot, a stone bench tucked beneath the shadow of the hedges. Wordlessly, he slips off his jacket, draping it over your shoulders before taking a dramatic bow.
"To keep you warm, Mâlady," he says softly.
"Hush, James," you laugh, finding his antics endearing.Â
Youâre grateful, especially as the cool night air nips at your exposed skin. The nightgown, while comfortable, offers little protection against the chill. You pull his jacket tighter around yourself, then pat the empty spot next to you, gesturing to him to sit, to which he does.
âHow was your day?" you prompt.
James sighs, leaning back on the bench, his hand casually resting behind you as he stares up at the sky. "Same old, same old," he starts, a familiar twinge of annoyance creeping into his voice. "You know how it is. Dinners with my parents, listeninâ to old men talk about businesses I'll never care about, trying not to fall asleep while they drone on about investments or land expansions. Itâs all so posh."
You stifle a giggle, nudging him playfully with your elbow. "Posh? You sound like you're living the dream."
He rolls his eyes dramatically. "If by 'dream,' you mean sitting there pretending to care while wonderinâ how quickly I can escape to see you, then yeah, it's an absolute dream," he quips sarcastically.
Sniggering, you bring your hand up to your forehead, acting distressed. "Oh, how tragic. The poor Lord James Howlett, trapped in a world of lavish dinners and fancy wine. Whatever will you do?"
"Mock me all you want, but itâs unbearable," he groans, leaning forward, his elbows resting on his knees. "I hate it. All the stuffy clothes, the fake smiles, the way everyone acts like they're better than everyone else." He pauses for a moment, then glances sideways at you. "You're the only real thing here."
The sincerity in his words makes your heart flutter, and youâre suddenly grateful for the darkness hiding the faint blush creeping up your cheeks. Looking away, you try to play it off. "Well, if thatâs the case, I guess I should charge you for my company," you tease coyly.
He lets out a huff of amusement, shaking his head. "I'll pay whatever price you want.â
There's a pause as you both sit in comfortable silence. Just then, a soft breeze sweeps through the garden, catching the edges of your nightgown and fanning it up slightly. Before you can even react, he swiftly moves his jacket from your shoulders to your lap, covering your legs. His hand lingers, making sure you're covered before he hastily wraps his arm around your shoulders and pulls you close against him.
The warmth from his body contrasts with the cool air, and you can't help but laugh softly at his sudden behaviour. "Wow, you really are a gentleman, James."
He tenses slightly, his grip on your shoulder loosening as he looks away, clearly flustered. "IâI just didnât want you to get cold," he mumbles, his usual confidence faltering.
You smile at how shy he suddenly seems, leaning your head against his shoulder. "Thank you. Itâs sweet."
For a brief second, he says nothing, but you can feel the way his heartbeat picks up just a little. Then, almost too quietly, he mutters, "Iâd do anythinâ for you."
Your breath catches in your throat, and you tilt your head to look up at him. But you canât respond, because he clears his throat, looking down at you with a small, sheepish smile. "What about you? Any exciting adventures in the life of a future chief maid?"
Grinning, you recognize his attempt to shift the conversation, and decide to let it go for now. "Oh, you know, the usual. A thrilling day of dusting, folding linens, and trying not to spill tea on your motherâs favourite rug."
He chuckles, pulling you a little closer. "Sounds way more exciting than my day."
You hum in acknowledgement, letting the moment linger. Neither of you speak for a bit, just relishing being in each otherâs presence.Â
"So, do tell," you say after a while, breaking the silence, "if you could get away from all the fancy dinners and boring conversations, what would you do?"
He smiles slightly, his gaze still fixed on the star-filled sky. "Iâd leave. Go far away from here, maybe somewhere quiet. Live in the countryside, where no one cares about wealth or titles." His eyes drop to meet yours. "Maybe youâd come with me."
You laugh gently. "And who would take care of your family if we both ran off?"
Shrugging, his expression grows more serious. "They donât need me. They need someone whoâll do what they wantâsomeone to follow in their footsteps. Thatâs never been me."
Thereâs a weight in his words, and you feel a pang of sympathy for him. Youâre about to respond, to tell him you understand more than he realizes, whenâ
BANG.
Your body stiffens instantly, heart beginning to pound in your chest as you straighten up, eyes wide.
"What the hell was that?" James asks sharply. He turns to you, his face mirroring the confusion and unease you're feeling.
Shaking your head, you swallow the lump thatâs forming in your throat. "It sounded like a gunshot."
The two of you stare at each other for a beat, then, right when youâre going to speak again, you hear itâhis motherâs scream. Itâs high-pitched, panicked, and it sends a jolt of fear through you both.
"Help!" she shrieks from inside the mansion. "James, help!"
Without a word, you bolt to your feet, the peaceful night forgotten as you rush back inside. Your heart is racing as your bare feet fly across the grass, nightgown fluttering behind you. James is ahead of you, moving fast, his expression shifting from confusion to pure fear.
As you reach the back entrance, your mind races with possibilities, none of them good. You burst through the door into the hallway, your breathing laboured from the sudden sprint. Something is terribly wrong.
"Mother!" He calls, his voice sharp with panic as he leads the way toward the main staircase. You follow close behind, anxiety coiling tight in your chest.
Once you get to the bottom of the stairs, you hear footstepsâheavy, hurriedâand then you see her. Mrs. Howlett, wide-eyed and pale, comes hurrying down from the upper floor, clutching the banister for support. Her hands are trembling.
"James!" she cries. "Your fatherâheâs been shot!"
The boy beside you freezes, face going white. "What?" he breathes, disbelief etched into every syllable.
"Heâhe was in his study, and IâI heard the gunfire. IâI donât know what happened. I donât know whoâ" Her voice breaks, and tears stream down her face as she struggles to speak. "We need to get help!"
He doesnât waste another second, taking off up the stairs, his long strides making quick work of the distance. You trail after him. How could this happen? Who couldâve done this?
When you reach the second floor, you see the study door slightly ajar, light spilling out into the dark hallway. James' hand wavers over the doorknob for only a moment before pushing the it open wide.
Inside, the scene is worse than you imagined.
There, slumped over his desk, is Mr. Howlett. His once pristine office now looks chaoticâpapers scattered, a window broken, and blood, so much blood. A crimson stain is spreading across his shirt.
"Father," James chokes out, rushing to his side, his hands shaking as he reaches for him.
You stand paralyzed for a moment, the sight rendering you speechless, but then the adrenaline kicks in, and you move further into the room. Your mind is screaming at you to do something, anything, but all you can do is watch as James desperately tries to wake his father, calling his name again and again.
Trying to make sense of the horrific scene, your attention is dragged away by the sound of footsteps shuffling behind you. Thomas Logan, the groundskeeper, stumbles in, his movements clumsy, his face twisted with drunkenness. His bloodshot eyes are manic, and in his trembling hand, heâs clutching a gunâthe same one that must have been used to end Mr. Howlettâs life.
"Thomas!" Mrs. Howlett yelps. "What are you doing?"
James turns sharply, still kneeling beside his fatherâs body, his expression hardening immediately. "What the hell are you doing here?"
Thomas lets out a low, slurred laugh, staggering further into the room. His eyes flick between you, James, and Mrs. Howlett, but his focus remains hazy. "Iâve had enough of this, enough of all of it," he mutters, waving the gun in the air. "Your precious mother thought she could keep the truth from you. But itâs time you knew the truth, boy."
"What truth?" The younger man demands harshly.
Swaying on his feet, he points the gun directly at James, his finger twitching dangerously on the trigger. "Iâm not just the groundskeeper, you idiot," he snarls venomously, "Iâm your damn father."
Itâs as if the room has been put on pause. You feel the air leave your lungs, your mind scrambling to make sense of what you just heard. Glancing at your friend, you see the disbelief wash over his features, his eyes widening with shock, denial.
"No," he whispers, shaking his head, backing away slightly. "You're lying. Youâre drunk."
But the older man just laughs, the sound hollow and bitter. "You think John Howlett was your father? That man never wanted you! He raised you because he had to, not because you were his. Youâre mine, boy. My flesh and blood,â he jerks his head in the direction of Mrs. Howlett. âGo ahead, ask your mama."
You hear Mrs. Howlett begin to blubber in the background at the accusation, but your attention is solely on the boy in front of you.
Betrayal is written all over his face.
His breath quickens, and his hands clench into fists at his sides. You want to reach out to him, concern puling you forward, but then he lets out a screamâa sound so full of pain that you stop in your tracks.
"James!" you cry, but he doesnât seem to hear you. His eyes squeeze shut, and his body convulses, as though something inside him is tearing him apart from the inside out.
The sickening sound of skin breaking fills your ears, and bone claws shoot out from his knuckles. They gleam in the dim light of the room, sharp and lethal. The sight of them is nauseating, but youâre unable to look away as James blinks, gazing down at his hands, dumbfounded.
"Whatâ" he rasps, his chest heaving. "Whatâs happening to me?"
âWhat the hell is this?â Thomas sneers in disgust. He stumbles, reaching for the wall to steady himself. âFigures... Of course my sonâs a freak.â
âYou were always a fuck-up,â he continues in his drunken rage. âUseless, soft... a disappointment from the start. Just like your mother. Look at you now, boy.â
âIâm not your boy,â James snarls through gritted teeth, rage building inside him. His eyes flash dangerously. Itâs as if something inside him has snapped, some deep, instinctual part of him that has been lying dormant, waiting for this very moment.
âYouâre right. Youâre no son of mine. Just a goddamn mistake. Shouldâve left you in the dirt with yourâ"
Before he can finish, a roar rips from Jamesâs throat. So raw, so animalistic, you get goosebumps. His entire body tenses, muscles coiled, and then, with terrifying speed, he lunges.
In an instant, his claws sink deep into Thomasâs chest with a thunk. The force of the blow sends the older man crashing back, disbelief and agony seizing his face as blood sprays across the room, spattering the walls and floor. His body thrashes, his hands weakly grasping at his sonâs wrists, but thereâs no strength left in him.Â
A gurgling gasp bubbles from his throat, and then it's over. He collapses to the ground, lifeless, as James stands over him, claws retreating back into his skin.Â
"James!" Mrs. Howlett screams, her voice piercing. "What have you done?!"
You donât know how to react. You canât process it, canât breathe. All you know is that you need to get out of hereâget James out of here, away from this nightmare before it consumes him. Without thinking, you rush to his side, grabbing his bloodied hand.
"We have to go!" you say urgently.
His eyes dart to you, frantic and unfocused but he doesnât resist as you pull him toward the door. His mother's cries echo behind you, but you canât stop, canât look back.
You runâboth of youâthrough the hallways, out the back door, and into the dark of night. The wind whips around you, stinging your face, but you donât stop. You run until your legs burn, until youâve entered the surrounding forest, and the Howlett estate is nothing but a distant shadow behind you.Â
All the while, Jamesâs hand stays locked in yours.
Branches scratch everywhere, at your arms, your face, and the underbrush tugs at your clothes as if trying to hold you back, but you push on. Only after the first light of dawn begins to creep in, does the exhaustion hit. Bodies aching and bruised, the two of you collapse beside a small stream.Â
Youâre on your back, catching you breath, when you tilt to your head to look over at your friend. Heâs sitting down, with his hands out in front of him, leering at them. He struggles for air, his breaths coming in short, panicked bursts, and his clothes are torn, stained with bloodâhis fatherâs blood, Thomasâ blood.Â
His claws are long retracted, but the scars of where they came out of his skin are there, fresh.Â
"James," you whisper, but he doesnât respond. Slowly, you crawl over to his side, pain flaring with each movement. When you reach him, you sit on your knees, looking up at him, trying to meet his gaze. You repeat his name, more firmly this time.
He finally looks at you, but heâs broken. His lips tremble as he opens his mouth to speak, but all that comes out is a choked, almost inaudible, "What did I do?"
Your heart aches for him. Reaching out, you gently take one of his bloodied hands in yours, and as soon as your skin touches his, he flinches, pulling back slightly. "I killed him." he whispers, more to himself than anything. âIâI didnât mean to, I swear I didnât mean to!"
"Hey, listen to me," you say. "You didnât know. You couldnât have known this would happen."
"I killed him," he repeats. "I killed Thomas. Iâ" He glances down at his hands, at the scars along his knuckles, and his expression crumples completely. âHe was my father.â
You donât know what to say, donât know how to fix this, but you know you have to try, so you wrap your arms around him. At first, he stiffens, but then he collapses to the ground, pulling you down with him. You land on top, your chest pressed against his as the weight of your bodies crashes into the soft earth. He squeezes you like youâre the only thing keeping him grounded, his face buried in your shoulder as his breath comes in short, broken sobs.
"I didnât mean to do it," he repeats, the words muffled against your skin. "Something just changed inside me. What am I? What am I turning into?"
âHush," you whisper, moving one of your hands to brush his hair. "Look at me. Just breathe, okay? Youâre not alone in this. Weâll figure it out together, I promise."
His arms tighten around you, pulling you even closer. Itâs overwhelming, but you donât push him away. Instead, you let him hold you as tightly as he needs, your fingers gently stroking the back of his head, trying to console him in any way you can.
"Iâm a monster," he whimpers. "What if I hurt you, too?"
"You wonât," you affirm, lips brushing against his ear as you whisper. "Youâre not a monster. This⌠this thing that happened, it doesnât change who you are. Youâre still you."
Beneath you, his body shakes, overcome by emotion he holds onto you. Your forehead is pressed to against his, your breath mingling with his while you continue to whisper reassurances, telling him over and over that itâs going to be okay, that heâs not alone.
Minutes pass, maybe longerâyou lose track of time as you lie there together. Gradually, his cries begin to quiet, his breathing slowing as the storm inside him starts to subside. His grip on you loosens slightly, but he doesnât let go fully, still cradling you in his arms.
Shifting, you raise your head to look at him. His eyes are red, his face pale, but heâs calmer. You start to pull yourself off of him, but as you're standing up, he grasps your hand again, and he looks at you with a tired, grateful expression, squeezing it gently as if to say everything he canât put into words yet.
Then, you continue. Hand in hand, you move deeper into the forest. And finally, after a few more hours, you notice something in the distance. Through the trees, there are rooftops, small and clustered together, their chimneys trailing thin lines of smoke into the evening sky.
âA town,â you whisper, the first word youâve spoken in hours.
He follows your gaze, his eyes narrowing slightly as he takes in the sight of the small mining town nestled in the valley.
In it, the peopleâs faces are etched with lines of hard labour and even harder lives, but still, you know youâll be safe there.Â
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Initially, itâs difficultâthis new life you and James have carved out is a far cry from the comforts of the Howlett estate. The town youâve settled in is rough and unpolished. You both share a modest shack on the outskirts, a place that feels foreign and strange, but over time, it starts to become home.
He finds work in the mines almost immediately. The foreman takes one look at him, his broad shoulders and strong arms, and practically shoves a shovel in his hand without asking any questions. The job is tough, but it suits him.Â
Every evening, he comes back to you covered in soot and dirt, his hands rough and calloused, his face lined with exhaustion. You can see the toll the work takes on him, how his body aches, but thereâs something else tooâa measure of peace that wasnât there before. Itâs as if heâs found a way to silence the chaos inside him, at least for a little while.
Itâs not long before everyone in town begins to call him Logan, a name he offers with indifference when asked.
A new identity.Â
Logan is a man who works hard, who keeps to himself, who doesnât ask for anything more than a paycheck at the end of the week.Â
Logan is a man who doesnât need anyone, who can survive on his own.Â
To you, heâs still James.Â
In the quiet moments, when itâs just the two of you, he lets down the walls, lets you see through the façade. And when you whisper his nameâJamesâhe closes his eyes as if that one word alone soothes something deep in his soul.
After weeks of watching him silently carry the weight of the world on his shoulders, you offer him a rag to wipe his face as he sits down at the small table youâve cobbled together from scraps. He takes it without a word, rubbing at the grime on his skin.
âYou donât have to do this forever, you know,â you say softly, leaning against the table as he tosses the rag aside. "Thereâs more to life than breaking your back underground."
He glances at you. "Itâs all Iâm good for now."
"Youâre good for more than that," you reply walking up to him, reaching for his hand. He lets you take it, like he always does. "You canât let what happened define you."
His jaw tightens, but he doesnât pull away. Instead, he gives your hand a small squeeze, his eyes drifting to the floor as he mumbles, "Whatâs inside me⌠itâs different. You donât know what itâs like."
You donât argue. How could you?
The changes in him, the way his strength has grown, how his senses have sharpened, it all impacts him. He can hear things no one else can, smell the rain long before it falls, and even in complete darkness, he sees as clearly as if it were day. His powers are evolving, changing him.
But you know, deep down, that the man sitting in front of you is your friendâyour Jamesâno matter what heâs become.
Youâve seen him wrestle with the fear of what he might turn into, the fear of losing control, but you also see the man who leans into your touch, who lets you bandage his hands after long days in the mines, who presses his forehead to yours when the nights grow too heavy with silence.
And as your time together in the town goes by, there is a shift.
It starts with small thingsâa lingering glance, a brush of your fingers as you pass each other in the kitchen, the way he looks at you when he thinks youâre not paying attention.
Then, it moves to bigger gestures. When youâd pack him his lunch fo the day, you slip in a small piece of parchment with a heart hastily drawn on it, or at night time, instead of falling asleep backs turned toward each other, awkwardly trying to ignore whatever tension is brewing, you fall asleep in his arms, and wake up the same way.
It gets to a point where you can neither of you can deny it.Â
Youâve fallen in love.
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Itâs late, and youâre sitting by the fire outside the small cabin, waiting for him to return from one of his now-frequent disappearances into the woods. You used to worry about where he went, afraid he was distancing himself from you, so one night you followed him. What you found took your breath awayâhim, sitting out on a ledge, with some wild animals surrounding him. There was something in him that they must have recognized, a mutual respect that seemed to transcend anything human.
Since then, youâve let him go without asking questions, trusting that those nights in the woods bring him the peace he canât find anywhere else. But tonight, when he returns, heâs different. He doesnât just brush past you to head inside. Instead, he sits beside you by the fire.
You turn to him, about to ask if everythingâs alright, but the words catch in your throat when his hand cups your jaw. His grip is gentle, hesitant, as if heâs afraid to break the moment, but in his eyes, you find a longing, a yearning, that mirrors your own.Â
His thumb brushes over your cheek, and for the first time in a long time, thereâs no hesitation in his movements. Your heart stutters, and when he pulls you closer, you let him. His lips meet yours, careful at first, but as you kiss him back, you feel the stress drain from his body.Â
The kiss deepens, slow, tender, and everything youâve ever wanted.
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The next few years are a kind of peaceful bliss you never expected. With each passing day, you and Logan seem to fall deeper into each other, the bond you share growing stronger, more intimate, like youâve finally found the rhythm of the life you were always meant to have together.
Mornings are your favourite. He always wakes up first, moving quietly so as not to wake you, and heâs gotten into the habit of making you breakfast. You always sneak out of bed and snake your arms around him from behind, pressing your face into his back as he grumbles about you not getting enough sleep. âYouâre always up too early,â heâd say.Â
âI like being up with you,â youâd mumble in response, and heâll turn around, his hands coming up to cradle your face, his eyes soft and full of that quiet, steady love heâs never really put into words. And then heâd kiss you like he has all the time in the world, even if he has to head over to the mines.Â
On your days off from your job at the pub, youâll spend hours together, finding little ways to enjoy the simplicity of your life. He will sometimes take you out to the woods behind the house, where youâd walk the trails together. He points out the different wildlife, the plants you donât recognize, and you tease him about being a mountain man. Heâd smirk, giving you that low, raspy chuckle that never fails to make your heart seize in your chest, and tug you closer to his side.
In the evenings, oftentimes, you sit together while you knit, something that started as a hobby but quickly became one of your preferred pastimes. He always pretends to be uninterested, but heâll watch you anyway. âYouâre getting good at that,â heâd say gruffly.Â
âWant me to make you a sweater?â You smirk, raising an eyebrow.
âMaybe,â heâd grumble, but you can tell heâs secretly pleased at the idea.
The town itself becomes part of your life together, too. Youâve made friends with the locals, joining a small knitting club. If he has time, Logan drops by the pub on your shifts just to check in, sitting at the bar with a beer and watching you work. When your gazes connect very now and then, he gives you that lookâthe one that says heâs proud of you, that heâs content.
âWeâve got a good thing here,â he murmurs one night, holding you close.Â
âYeah,â you agree softly, kissing his cheek. âWe really do.â
But, all good things must come to an end.Â
The mining town, though small and isolated, isnât immune to the tensions that fester beneath the surface. Harsh conditions, grueling work, and the endless grind wear people down, turning frustration into anger, and anger into violence. Fights break out often, especially in the saloon after a long day when men try to drown their sorrows in whiskey. You both have learned to keep your distance from such skirmishes, knowing nothing good ever comes from getting involved.
Still, one night, as you return home from your evening shift at the pub, you hear the unmistakable sounds of a brawl breaking out in the middle of the street. Shouts reverberate through the cold air, followed by the crash of breaking glass. Your heart races as you recognize the deep, guttural growl cutting through the noiseâa sound you know all too well.
On impulse, you rush toward the commotion, dread pooling in your stomach. You know this wonât end well. Not here. Not for him.
When you reach the scene, your worst fears are confirmed. He stands in the centre of the chaos, fists clenched at his sides. Two men circle him, their faces twisted with drunken aggression, goading him. The small crowd thatâs gathered seems almost entertained, too caught up in the spectacle to understand the true danger festering.
âJames!â you shout, trying to get his attention, but to no avail.
One of the menâa burly miner youâve seen around town a few times, always looking for troubleâlunges forward, his fist swinging. The punch connects with your manâs jaw, hard enough to stagger him back, but instead of falling, you see something shift in Loganâs expression. His eyes darken, his jaw tightens. Then, his claws slowly begin sliding out of his knuckles.
The crowd gasps, and the laughter dies immediately.
âDonât come any closer,â he growls, his voice low and full of warning. His chest heaves as he struggles to keep control, but you can see the fire burning behind his eyes. Heâs on the edge, teetering dangerously close to losing himself.
But the miner, too drunk and furious to notice or care, spits on the ground. âFreak!â he slurs, venom lacing every word. âYou think you scare me?â
He charges at Logan again, fists swinging recklessly. Your heart leaps into your throat, and you scream for him to stop. But itâs too late. Logan tries to pull back, to stop whatâs about to happen, but the man is too close, too fast.
Everything slows down, the world moving in fractured seconds. Claws slice through the air, meeting flesh with a sickening thud. The miner gasps, his eyes widening in shock as he stumbles, clutching at his chest where the claws have sunk deep. Blood blooms around his hands, staining the dirt beneath his feet.
And suddenly, youâre thrust back into the past. You see James as he was all those years ago, his claws dripping with blood after killing Thomas. The memory crashes into youâthe look of fear on his face, the horror in his eyes, the way he stumbled back, realizing what heâd done.
Just like now.
Loganâs eyes go wide, his expression mirroring that same devastation. He steps back, staring at the miner who crumples to the ground, gasping for breath. What follows is a deafening silence, the air thick with shock and disbelief. The townspeople that had been so eager for a show now stand frozen, eyes wide, faces pale.
The man gasps one last breath, then goes still.
Logan stares at the body at his feet, his claws still extended, still dripping with the manâs blood. His chest heaves, his breath shallow, and he mutters under his breath, barely audible, "Oh god⌠Not again."
You rush to his side, grabbing his arm in desperation. "Come on, letâs go home."
He doesnât move. Heâs locked in place, staring at the man heâs just killed. His hands tremble, the claws still out, and you can see the raw pain in his eyes as the reality of whatâs just happened sinks in.
"I didnât mean to," he whispers again, his voice cracking. "I didnât⌠I didnât mean toâŚ"
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That night, while you're sleeping, Logan makes his decision.
And when you wake up the next day, the space beside you is cold.
The shack feels too quiet, too still.Â
All you can do is stare at the empty spot in your bed. You tell yourself that maybe heâs outside, chopping wood or heâs already left for work. But deep down, you know.Â
Throwing on your boots, you donât bother to change out of your nightclothes, and rush outside. His name is the first thing out of your mouth, sharp and desperate. "James! Logan!" Your voice barrels through the small yard, bouncing off the trees and fading into the cool morning air.Â
Thereâs no answer.
Panic grips you as you search the familiar placesâaround the shack, the small trail he likes to take into the woods, by the creek where he often spends time when he needs to clear his head. Thereâs no sign of him.
No footprints, no lingering scent. Nothing.
The townspeople stare as you move through the streets. They know what happened. They saw the claws, the blood. And now, they see youâa reminder of the violence that tore through their quiet lives. But you donât care about their judgment right now. Youâre too focused looking for him, too frantic to worry about the whispers that follow in your wake.
"Have you seen him?" you ask one of the miners who had once shared a drink with him, but he shakes his head and pulls away from you, muttering something under his breath. Everybody keeps their distance, their faces closed off, avoiding your gaze.Â
By the time the sun climbs higher in the sky, the truth settles in your chest like a heavy stone. He left. You wander the streets a little longer, until exhaustion finally forces you back to the shack.
He didnât say goodbye. He didnât even leave a note. The man who you shared your life with, who you fell in love with, is goneâand he isnât coming back.
In the days that follow, everything changes. The people who once greeted you with a nod or a smile now avert their eyes when you walk by. They speak in hushed tones, voices thick with suspicion and disdain.Â
Nobody cares that you had nothing to do with what happened in the street that night. To them, youâre guilty by association.
It starts slowly, but the gossip spreads like wildfire. Saying thinks like: you knew what Logan was all along, that you hid his secret, allowed him to kill their men. Their anger turns to you, and before long, you become the pariahâcut off, unwelcome, the person responsible for the death of one of their own.
The day they decide to exile you is gray and heavy, the sky thick with the promise of rain. No one has the decency to say it to your face. Instead, you wake to a note slipped under your door, the word leave scrawled across it in angry, uneven letters.
You pack what little belongings you haveâa few clothes, some keepsakes from the life you left behind at the Howlett estateâand sling a small bag over your shoulder. Then, you walk away without looking back.
Stretching out before you is a desolate, abandoned looking road. Your legs ache with every step, your feet blistering inside your boots, but you donât stop. The memories of Logan, the town, the life you tried to build together swirl in your mind.
The sound of a a horse whinnying pulls you from your thoughts, and you turn to see a carriage approaching. The coachmanâa man with kind eyes and a weathered faceâslows as he pulls alongside you. His voice soft and cautious as he asks, "Need a ride?"
Nodding, youâre too exhausted to respond with words, and climb into the passenger seat. He doesnât ask many questions, sensing perhaps that youâre a soul in need of silence more than conversation. He drives in quiet companionship, the horses' feet against the dirt the only sound breaking the stillness.
He takes you to the nearest town, dropping you off with a quiet wish for better days ahead. You thank him and give him a few coins. Youâre standing on the edge of a new beginning, unsure of where to go next but knowing, with painful certainty, that the past is behind you now.
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In this new place, you slowly begin to rebuild what youâve lost. It isnât easyâthere are nights when the loneliness threatens to swallow you whole and days when the weight of losing your best friend feels too much to bear. Still, you find work at a small shop, rent a modest room in the quieter part of town, and painstakingly, you carve out a new existence.Â
Though no matter how hard you try to move forward, heâs always there. A shadow, lingering in the corners of your mind. You canât forget himâthe way he looked at you with those intense, searching eyes, the way he held you like you were the only thing keeping him tethered to this world, the way he left without a word. Your entire childhood, your early adulthood, revolved around him. He was the best part of your life. Every moment spent with him was cherished, imprinted in your memory like a brand you canât erase.
Nights are the hardest. When the world is quiet, and itâs just you and your thoughts, thatâs when the ache becomes unbearable. Each night, your mind drifts back to him. You tell yourself it wasnât his faultâhe must have believed he was protecting you by leaving.Â
Maybe he thought you would hate him for killing another man with his claws, for unleashing the violence he tried so hard to contain. Maybe he thought you could never forgive him.
But the more you think about it, the more you realize: if he truly believed that, then he didnât know you at all.
And that hurts. A lot.
You start to feel like him in some ways, burdened by secrets and anger with nowhere to go. More often than not, you slip out of the town in your nightgown and into the nearby forest, hoping the solitude will offer some kind of peace. It doesnât, not really, but itâs better than suffocating in your room, choking on memories of what was and what could have been.
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A year passes since the night he left, and you find yourself standing among the trees once again, lost in thought. Itâs not fairânone of it is. You lost everything, and for what? Because you loved him? Because you could look past his mutation?
All of the emotions youâve done a decent job at managing bubble to the surface, a torrent of grief and rage with nowhere to go. Mindlessly, you draw back your fist and slam it into the trunk of a nearby tree. The impact shoots a sharp pain through your arm, but itâs fleeting, drowned out by the rush of anger. You pull back to punch the tree again, harder this time, desperate for some kind of release.
But the tree doesnât just splinter. It explodes.Â
The force of your punch obliterates the trunk, sending shards of wood flying in all directions. You stagger back, staring at the destruction, stunned. What was just a tall, beautiful arbor is now reduced to nothing but rubble, the strength of your blow far beyond anything a normal person could achieve.
Your breath hitches when it dawns on you. Youâre standing in the middle of the forest, surrounded by the evidence of your newfound power. You arenât just grieving the loss of Logan anymore; youâre discovering that you are, just like him, a mutant.
Except, unlike him, youâre alone.
Heâs not here to hold you, to help you make sense of whatâs happening. Heâs not here to run away with you like you once ran away with him. You have no one to share this terrifying revelation with. You have only yourself.
Looking down at your trembling hands, the faint ache in your knuckles nothing compared to the pain in your chest. Itâs as if your heart is breaking all over again.
If you had knownâif you had discovered this power when he was still with youâwould things have been different? Would he have taken you with him? Would you still be together?
You canât stop the questions, canât silence the what-ifs that plague you.
Finally, the dam breaks, and you cry.
Pressing your fists against your eyes, you try to stifle the sobs, but itâs no use. The grief crashes over you in waves as the life you tried to build together all plays out in your mind like some twisted, unending loop.
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The days bleed into one another.
Each is marked by the slow, steady march of time. You continue to live, to survive, but the discovery of your mutant powers changes everything, setting you on a path you had never imagined.
You learn that you can channel energy through your body, whether that be your emotions, or external, and then amplify it for your own gain. Itâs a power that protects you, that makes you feel invincible, but the more you use it, the more distant you become from the life you once knew.Â
And then thereâs the other side of your mutationâthe ability to heal others by absorbing their injuries.Â
The first time you did it, it was an accident.Â
You were closing up shop, and as you walked along the cobblestone roads, you saw a man lying face down. Instinctively, you quickened your pace, and crouched down beside him. Was he drunk? Dead? Gently, almost hesitantly, you reached out, placing your hand on his back with the faint hope that he was simply unconscious. Your intention was simpleâjust to check if he was breathing, to see if he would stir at your touch.
But the moment your fingers brushed his coat, a violent surge of pain exploded in your mind, like a thunderclap within your skull. The agony was so sudden, so sharp, that it nearly knocked you off your feet.Â
It was more than painâit was as though the manâs suffering had become yours, pulling you into his darkness. Your vision blurred, and for an instant, you could feel it. Blood. Hot and sticky, trickling down your forehead in a slow, steady stream. You raised a trembling hand to wipe it away, expecting to feel the warmth of it on your fingertips.
But there was nothing. No blood. No wound.
Just the phantom sensation of pain that wasnât your own.
Then, just as suddenly as it had come, the pain vanished. You blinked, gasping for air, trying to steady yourself. When you looked down at the man again, he was stirring, groaning softly. His eyes fluttered open, and he sat up, as if waking from a long sleep. He looked up at you, confused but grateful, oblivious to the power you had just unleashed.
It feels like a curse, the pain of others transferring to you in ways that leave you gasping for breath. But over time, you learn to control it, to take on only as much as you can handle, and to let the rest fade away.
You never stay too long in one place. Town after town, you move, always careful to keep your powers hidden. The people you encounter are kind enough, but you never allow yourself to get close. You canât afford toânot when the memory of him still haunts you, his absence a constant ache in your heart.Â
What if they leave you too?
Every now and then, there are some nights of passion with a stranger, but you never find another lover, never allow yourself to even consider it.Â
As the years slip by, and you move through life like a ghost, always on the fringes, never fully there. In the beginning, you donât notice itâtime is something you stopped paying attention to long ago. But then, one day, nearly ten years after he left, you catch sight of yourself in a mirror.
Your reflection stares back at you, unchanged, unmarked by the years that have passed. Itâs as if time has forgotten you, leaving you suspended in a state of perpetual youth. This knowledgeâthat you could live indefinitelyâfills you with a sense of purpose you havenât felt in years.
So, when the First World War breaks out, you volunteer as a nurse, determined to use your abilities to save as many lives as you can. The troops who come to you are broken, their bodies ravaged by the horrors of war. You take their pain into yourself, healing them with a touch, until there is nothing left but faint scarsâa reminder of what they have survived.
Itâs during the Second World War that you first hear the rumours. Injured men speak in hushed tones of a man they sawâa soldier who seemed invincible, fighting with a ferocity that borders on the inhuman. They talk of clawsâlong, sharp claws that can cut through anything, and a healing ability that allows him to shrug off injuries that would kill anyone else.
Could it be him? Could he still be out there, after all these years?
You dismiss the thought almost as quickly as it comes. It canât be. He would be dead by now, just like everyone else from your past.Â
He is gone, and you are aloneâthatâs the truth youâve come to accept.
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Somewhere along the way, you meet Charles Xavier. You donât know how, but he knows you. He knows youâre a mutantâhow you helped in the war. And he wants you to join his team.
Youâve spent so long on your own, relying on your powers to survive, that the idea of joining a team feels foreign, almost impossible. But thereâs something in his eyes, something in the way he speaks of his vision for the future, that resonates with you. This isnât just about survivalâitâs about making a difference, about using your powers to protect those who canât protect themselves.Â
And, perhaps, itâs also about finding closure.
Maybe you can help mutants who struggle with their identity, like he did. Maybe this time, you can stop them from running away from themselves, the way you wish you could have stopped him.
So you agree.
And when you arrive at the mansion, youâre introduced to the others who will become your teammatesâJean Grey, Scott Summers, Hank McCoy, and Ororo Munroe.
The early days are challenging. Learning to work as a team, to trust one another, isnât easy, especially for you, after so many years of solitude. But a camaraderie that develops between all of you, and it feels right. Youâre no longer just a group of shunned mutantsâyouâre a family, united by a common goal.
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This mission is supposed to be simpleâinvestigate a remote facility rumoured to have ties to illegal mutant experimentation. Charles had briefed the team before sending you out, warning that there might be danger but nothing you couldnât handle as a group. Youâve faced threats before, so when you arrive at the facility, itâs with the usual caution but no real alarm.
The structure looks forsaken at first glance, the exterior covered in years of grime, windows cracked and dark. But as you all approach, something feels wrong. Thereâs an energy in the air, a hum of activity beneath the surface. You can sense it, and by the looks of the others, they feel it too.
âWe should be careful,â Scott mutters lowly as his hand hovers near his visor.
Jean furrows her brows. âIâm sensing...something. There are people here. This place isnât emptyâ
Your stomach twists, and once the team cautiously makes its way deeper into the facility, you start to hear itâthe muffled sounds of machinery, the low hum of voices, and then...a scream.
You freeze.
Youâve heard that scream before, in the dead of night, in memories youâve tried to bury.
James.
Without thinking, you push forward, your body moving on instinct as you race toward the source of the sound. The others call after you, but their voices fade into the background as panic claws at your chest.
The scream grows louder, more desperate, until you burst into a large chamber. And there, in the center of the room, suspended in a tank of bubbling liquid, he is.
His body is thrashing against the restraints that bind him, wires and tubes connected to his skin. Machines whir around him, injecting something into his bodyâsomething molten, silvery.Â
A team of scientists in lab coats and armed guards surround the tank, all of them focused on the cruel procedure unfolding before your eyes.
You can barely breathe. The sight of him, after all these yearsâbeing tortured like this is too much. Pain and rage surge through you, and before you realize whatâs happening, youâre moving again.
âWhat the hell are you doing?!â you scream.
The guards whirl toward you, but youâre already on them. The first one goes down with a single blow, your fist connecting with his chest and sending him flying into the wall. You barely register his body crumpling to the floor before you move on to the next.Â
Behind you, Jean and Scott rush in, their powers flashing as they help subdue the remaining guards, but your focus is on the man in the tank, whose eyes are squeezed shut in pain, body convulsing. You canât think straightâyou can only feel the overwhelming need to make this stop, to save him before the experiment finishes.Â
But itâs too late.
In a roar of destruction, he breaks free from the tank, glass and metal exploding outward in every direction. His eyes are wild, erratic, his mind lost to the pain and the transformationâheâs a force of nature now. A whirlwind of violence and fury.
You try to reach him, but Jean steps forward, her eyes glowing as she raises a hand. âIâm sorry,â she strains. Her telekinetic force slams into him, knocking him off his feet, and his body crumples to the ground, unconscious, the rage finally quieted.
Standing there, panting, your hands are shaking as you stare at his still form. Youâre overwhelmedâby the sight of him after so many years, by the pain of seeing him like this, by the fear that you might lose him before you even got him back.
Scott places a hand on your shoulder, his voice gentle. âWe need to get him out of here.â
You nod, unable to speak, and together, the team lifts Loganâs unconscious body and carries him out of the facility. The entire time, you keep your eyes on him, terrified that if you look away for even a second, heâll disappear. When you finally make it back to the jet, Jean lays him on a stretcher, her powers keeping him sedated for the trip back to the X-Mansion. You sit beside him, your hand hovering just above his, too afraid to touch, too afraid to hope.
The jet lifts off, and your mind races with a thousand questions.Â
How did he end up here? Why did they do this to him?Â
But above all, one thought consumes you: Heâs alive.
After all these years, after all the heartache and loss, LoganâJamesâis still here.
â
He remains unconscious for three days, his body healing from the horrific procedure he endured. You barely leave his side, watching over him as if your presence alone could somehow anchor him back to himself. His breathing is steady, but his faceâitâs both exactly the same and entirely foreign to you. He looks like the man youâve known and loved, but itâs what is on the inside that worries you.
You swallow hard, your gaze tracing the familiar lines on his skin. Where are you, James? you think. Are you still in there?
Jean had done a body scan soon after you brought him back to the mansion, and the results confirmed your worst fears: theyâve bound adamantium to his bones and buried his personality underneath the most powerful brainwashing youâve ever heard of.
Itâs devastating. Whatever relief youâd feltâif any at allâat finding him alive is now eclipsed by the crushing reality of what heâs become.
The day he is scheduled to wake, Charles calls a meeting. The team gathers in the briefing room, and you sit quietly in your chair, replaying everything that led up to this moment.
Following a seemingly endless stretch of silence from you, Charles clears his throat. âIf youâre ready, perhaps you could tell us more about your history with him. It might help us understand what weâre dealing with.â
A deep breath fills your lungs as your hands clutch the tableâs edge tightly. Talking about him, about everything youâve been through together, feels like peeling at old wounds that never really healed. But you know itâs necessary. If anyone is going to help him, they need to know the truth.
âI met LoganâJames, as I used to call himâover a hundred years ago, when I was very youngâ you begin, and you can see the surprise ripple through the room at the admission of your age. âWe grew up together. My parents were servants at the Howlett estate, and I spent most of my childhood by his side. He was my best friend⌠and eventually, he became so much more.â Your voice cracks, and you pause for a moment, collecting yourself.
âAfter a tragedy involving his family, we ran away together. We lived in a small mining town for years, trying to find some semblance of a life, but things fell apart. He left, and IâI spent years trying to forget him, but I never could. He wasâisâeverything to me."
Jean leans forward. âI canât imagine how hard this has been for you,â she says softly. âBut you need to prepare yourself for the possibility that when he wakes up⌠he may not be the man you remember, and not just because of how much time passed.â
You look up at her in confusion. âWhat do you mean?â
She hesitates, exchanging a glance with Charles before continuing. âThe brainwashing they used on him wasnât just designed to make him forget. It was meant to strip away his sense of self entirely. His mind was⌠broken down, piece by piece. What you saw back at the facilityâhis rage, his lack of controlâthatâs whatâs left of him right now.â
Hank speaks next. âWeâll do everything we can to help him, but Jeanâs right. You need to be ready for the possibility that he wonât recognize you. He might not even recognize himself.â
Nodding slowly, your heart sinks further and further with each word.Â
âWe have tools, ways to work through the brainwashing,â he continues, âbut it will take time. And patience.â
âTime,â you echo quietly. âIâve already waited so long.â
Ororo reaches across the table, her hand hovering near yours. âI know this is overwhelming. But you donât have to do this alone. Weâre here to help.â
âI need to see him,â you whisper, your voice firmer than before. âWhen he wakes up, I need to be there.â
Charles nods gently. âOf course.â
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When he finally stirs, itâs not a gentle awakening. His whole body jerks, his head whipping around in wild confusion. His breaths come in sharp, uneven gasps, and his eyes dart frantically across the room, taking in his unfamiliar surroundings, and just as his eyes finally land on you, he freezes.
And for a long moment, neither of you speak.
Thereâs a lump in your throat, and you wait with a bated breath for some flicker of recognition in his eyes, some sign that he remembers youâthat he knows you.
But it never comes.
Instead, his gaze narrows, studying you. âWhere the hell am I?â he grunts. âAnd who are you?â
It hurts more than you expected. You knew this might happenâJean and Charles had warned youâand you thought you had prepared yourself, but it doesnât make hearing it any easier.Â
He doesnât remember you.Â
âJust take it easy,â you manage to say softly. âYouâve been through a lot, James.â
His eyes flicker with confusion as he shifts in the bed, wincing at the movement. "James?" he questions.
You quickly correct yourself. "Logan."
His hand instinctively goes to his chest, fingers brushing against his side as if testing for wounds that arenât there anymore. âWhat is this place?â he asks again.Â
âYouâre at the X-Mansion,â you explain. âYou were... rescued. We brought you here to heal.â
âRescued.â he repeats dryly. âFrom what?â
You hesitate, unsure how much to tell him. How do you explain everythingâthe horrors of Weapon X, the brutal experiments, the torture that nearly destroyed him? You canât even bring yourself to speak the full truth, not yet.Â
âYou were taken,â you say carefully. âBy people who wanted to use you for something terrible. But we got to you before they could. Youâre safe now.â
Logan lets out a short, bitter laugh, though thereâs no humour in it. âSafe,â he mutters, his voice low and sarcastic. âRight.â He rubs a hand across his face.
âWhy do I feel like Iâm missing somethinâ?â he mutters, his irritation growing. âLike... like thereâs something important I should remember.â
Swallowing hard, your heart twists at his words. He is missing something. But you wonât tell him that now. Heâs already grappling with so much, and the last thing he needs is the weight of your shared past thrust upon him before heâs ready.
âDonât worry about it.â Your voice is gentle, coaxing. âItâs... normal to feel confused right now.â
Frowning, he runs a hand through his hair. âLike Iâm supposed to believe that.â
âI know itâs hard to understand,â you say softly. âBut itâll get better. Youâll remember in time.â
He doesnât respond right away, his gaze drifting toward the ceiling as if heâs searching for answers that arenât there. After a moment, he sighs, his eyes returning to yours. âAlright. Who are you, really?â he asks. âWhy do I feel like I should know you?â
Because we grew up together.Â
Because we were everything to each other.Â
Because you were the one person I never stopped loving.Â
âJust focus on resting,â you say, forcing a soft smile.Â
He studies you briefly, as if trying to figure out whether or not to trust you. Then finally, he nods, thought you can tell heâs still wary âYeah... okay.â
The awkward silence returns.Â
âI should go,â you murmur, standing abruptly. The chair scrapes against the floor, the sound jarring in the quiet room. âYou need rest.â
He doesnât stop you, doesnât ask you to stay. He just watches as you turn toward the door, and leave.
Your chest tightens painfully as you walk out of the room, the familiar ache of loss settling in once more. Itâs worse this time, thoughâworse because heâs alive, and yet, in every way that matters, heâs gone.
You leave the room in a daze, your mind swirling with a storm of emotions. Your feet carry you down the hall, and before you realize whatâs happening, you find yourself in the washroom.Â
The moment the door clicks shut, your stomach lurches. You barely make it a toilet before youâre retching. Tears sting your eyes, and you brace yourself against the cold porcelain, gasping for breath as your body shakes with sobs.
Standing up and flushing, you walk over to the sink, and press your forehead against the mirror. How did it come to this? You found him, after all these years, but the person in that bed isnât the Loganâit isnât the Jamesâyou once knew.Â
Wiping your mouth with the back of your hand, you close your eyes, taking a deep breath as you try to pull yourself together. It's not the time to breakdown, you think, and after splashing some water on your face, you turn toward the exit.
Pushing open the door, youâre met with the familiar gaze of Ororo. She stands in the hallway, her white hair cascading down her shoulders, her eyes filled with something that feels like both understanding and pity.
Your eyes widen, caught off guard, not expecting to see anyone, least of all her.
âI saw you come in here,â she whispers empathetically, âbut thought you might need a moment.â
You pause, trying to blink away the redness in your eyes, trying to pretend youâre stronger than you feel. But she sees through it. She always has.
âIâm fine,â you say, the words slipping out automatically.
Stepping closer, her gaze softens as she studies your face. âNo,â she disagrees, âyouâre not.â
The vulnerability youâve been trying to keep at bay rushes forward again, threatening to swallow you whole. You open your mouth to argue, to brush it off, but the moment you meet her eyes, the words die in your throat. The pity, the compassionâitâs too much.
Silently, she reaches out, her hand resting lightly on your arm. Itâs a small gesture, but it feels grounding.
âI saw him,â you whisper, your voice trembling. âHe doesnât remember me.â
âI know,â she says quietly. âIâm so sorry.âÂ
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The next few days are a blur. You keep yourself busyâtoo busyâhoping that constant movement will keep the gnawing ache at bay. If you let yourself stop, if you let yourself think about whatâs happened, the hurt would consume you, so you donât stop.
Most of your time is spent in your room or the garden, taking refuge in the places where you can hide from everything, everyone.
Sometimes, you train, pushing your body past its limits in a desperate attempt to silence your thoughts. Every hit you land, every punch you throw, never feels like enough.
Itâs easier this way, you tell yourself. Easier to avoid him, to pretend he never came back into your life. Because the alternativeâwatching him live here, knowing he doesnât remember you, doesnât understand what you once sharedâthatâs too painful.
Youâd rather pretend heâs still a memory than face the reality that the man you love is here, but not really.
When you walk through the mansion, you see him from afar. You canât help but notice how heâs begun to soften around the others, how the confused man who woke up in that bed is slowly adjusting to life at the mansion. He has daily appointments with Charles, who you imagine is sifting through his mind, doing his very best to retrieve something, anything.
While there is still a distance in his eyes, still a guarded edge to him, but you can see the small shiftsâthe way he listens when someone speaks, the faintest hint of a smile when Hank tries to crack a joke.
And sometimes, your eyes meet.
From across the room, youâll catch him watching you. In those moments, your heart skips a beat, wondering if thereâs a reason why heâs zeroed in on you specifically, but then he looks away, and it passes. You never approach him, never ask him how heâs feeling or if heâs starting to remember anything. Youâre too afraid of the answer.
One night, you sit in the garden, letting the soft breeze play with your hair, eyes closed.Â
âMind if I sit here?â
The voice startles you, pulling you from your thoughts. Your eyelids flutter, and as you turn, your heart jolts upon seeing Logan standing at above you. And momentarily, itâs like youâre teenagers againâsneaking out at night into the gardens to talk.Â
âSure,â you nod, gently patting the space beside you, as you always did.Â
He steps closer and sits down, though not without leaving a small space between the two of you. âIâve been seeing you around,â he says after a beat.. He doesnât look at you, his gaze focused on the flowers in front of him. âBut... youâve been avoidinâ me, havenât you?â
A small laugh escapes you, bitter and self-deprecating. âYou noticed, huh?â
âYeah, not much gets past me. Even that one guyâs attempts at being a leader.â
Despite yourself, you snort. âScott?â
He chuckles, shaking his head. âHeâs too easy. Guy looks like a human stoplight with those stupid glasses.â
You bite back a snicker, feeling like a teenager again. The banter, the lighthearted teasingâit makes it seem like maybe, just maybe, thereâs still something left of the man you knew.
He turns his head slightly, his expression growing more serious. âYou know, Iâve been trying to figure it out,â he says, quieter now. âWhy it feels like somethingâs missing. Every time I see you... I know youâre related to it.â
Shifting a little to look at him, you take in the way his facial hair is a little bit more kempt, how he still has his hair tufts. You miss him, and heâs right here with you.Â
âI... thought it would be easier,â you admit, staring down at your hands. âFor both of us. If I kept my distance. I didnât want to add to your stress.â
Frowning, his brows furrow as he processes your words. âAdd to it? How?â
âBecause you donât remember me,â you say softly. âAnd I didnât want to be a reminder of something you canât recall.â
He stares at you for a long moment. Then, âyouâre right. I donât remember everything,â he says slowly, âbut I know thereâs something about you.â
You nod, your throat tight, but you donât push him. You know itâs only a matter of time before the pieces fall into place. âYouâll remember,â you whisper. âI know it.â
He grunts. âI donât want you to keep your distance.â
âI wonât. Not anymore.â The idea of him wanting to spend more time with you, fills you with joy.
â
For the next few weeks, it becomes a quiet routineâthe nightly conversations in the garden. Itâs like slipping into an old rhythm, the two of you always finding a way to gravitate toward each other once the sun goes down. You talk about small things, but it's never too heavy. Sometimes he teases you, and you tease him back, exchanging sarcastic quips. Nothing and everything has changed at the same time.
Youâve started training together too, spending more and more time together each day. Itâs almost as if thereâs a magnet between you that not even time could weaken.
This night, youâre in the gym together on the sparring mat. Itâs the usual scenario playing outâdodging, blocking, throwing punches. Heâs fast and strong. And it means a lot to see you see him finally embrace his mutant powers and use them, rather than try to hide and run.Â
Youâre both breathing hard, the exertion pushing your bodies to their limits. You land a solid kick to his side, and he grunts, stepping back for a moment. Without warning, his claws extend, and your gaze locks in on them.
Of course you know about the adamantium, but seeing it like this, so up close, itâs different.Â
âWhat?â Logan asks, noticing your sudden stillness. His brow furrows, and he glances down at his claws, as if heâs only just realizing theyâre out. âWhat are you staring at?â
âDoes it hurt?â you question, clearing your throat. âWhen they come out?â
He tilts his head, his gaze flicking between you and his claws. âEverytimeâ he sighs. âBut not as much as the old ones.â
Your eyes snap up from his claws to meet his. â... What?â you ask. The old ones?
âThey were bone,â he continues, âHurt like a bitch.â
Your heart starts pounding in your chest. Could this be it? Could he be remembering?
Stepping closer, your voice trembles slightly as you push for more. âWhat else do you remember?â
His eyes widen, and then he blinks, his stare glazing over for a second, like heâs trying to chase down a memory thatâs just out of reach.
âI⌠I donât know,â he admits with a bit of frustration. His claws retract, his hand flexing unconsciously as he stares at the empty space where the blades once were. âItâs all bits and pieces. I get these flashes, but nothing sticks. Charles said... he said the barriers in my mind are cominâ down, but itâs slow. Like finding a damn needle in a haystack.â
But the fact that he remembers even a sliver, is enough to fill you with hope.
â
This continues, the small fragments of memories coming back to him. They come unexpectedly, at random times in the day. Itâs never anything big, never the full flood of memories youâre hoping for, but each time it happens, it feels like another piece of the puzzle falling into place.
You suggest a walk one afternoon. The mansion has felt a little too closed in lately, and you think maybe the fresh air might help clear his mind. Together, you wander along a little pathway that connects the mansion to a nearby river, the sound of the water in the distance a soothing backdrop as you walk side by side. Heâs quiet, more so than usual, and as you glance at him, you notice his expression has grown distant.
âLogan?â you ask softly, nudging his arm. âWhatâs on your mind?â
He doesnât answer immediately, his gaze fixed on the path ahead. His brow is furrowed, like heâs trying to fit together pieces of a puzzle, his thoughts distant, swirling. âI rememberâŚâ he starts, his voice quiet, as if heâs speaking more to himself than to you.
Your fingers begin to twitch at your side. Every time he remembers something, it feels like youâre standing on the edge of a cliff, waiting to see if heâll fall into the past, if this will be the moment he remembers it all.
âA cabin,â he says finally, his voice rough but certain. âThere was a shack. In a small town. I used to stay there.â
You nod, urging him to continue, anticipated building within your chest. âGo on.â
âIt was small. Cold most of the time. But I donât think I cared.â He lets a chuckle. âI liked it. Felt... peaceful.â
You canât help but smile a little at the memories heâs bringing up. His steps falter, and he stops in the middle of the path, turning to look at you. âMining,â he mutters, as if the word itself is triggering something. âI remember mining.â
âThatâs good,â you say. âIâm happy for you.â
â
The memories keep coming.
Youâre in the mansion, passing through one of the long hallways together on your way to eat, when he suddenly stops, his hand reaching out to steady himself against the wall. You turn, concern flooding through you. âAre you okay? What is it?â
He frowns, his eyes narrowing as if heâs trying to force something into focus. âThere was a girl.â
âA girl?â you repeat, not wanting to push him but unable to stop the question from spilling out.
âYeah,â he confirms. âIn a big houseâlike a mansion, I think. We'd play together. She was... she was always following me around. Always gettinâ into trouble.â
You know exactly who heâs talking about.
âDo you remember her name?âÂ
Shaking his head, you can see the frustration etched onto his face. âNo. But she must have been important, I can feel it.â
Tears prick at the corners of your eyes as you try to hold yourself together. It was me, you want to say. That little girl was me.
âItâs okay,â you say instead, your hand reaching out to touch his arm. âYouâll remember. Youâre already so close.â
He looks at you then, his eyes searching yours for somethingâanswers, reassurance. Once a few seconds pass, he sighs and shakes his head.
âI donât know how you put up with this,â he grumbles lowly. âWith me.â
âBecause I know you,â you whisper back.Â
To have a chance at another lifetime with him, youâd put up with anything.Â
â
Heâs busy with Jean and Charles this morning, the duo having started to work together last week, trying to finally break down the wall stopping Logan from recovering his memories. With nothing else to occupy you, youâve retreated to the mansionâs library, seeking solace in the endless rows of books. The familiar smell of paper and ink is comforting, and for a while, you manage to lose yourself in the words on the page.Â
Youâre curled up in one of the oversized armchairs, a book resting in your lap, when your ears pick up the sound of heavy footstepsâfast, purposeful, ringing out through the mansionâs quiet halls.
Concern rises in your chest. Those footsteps arenât casual; someone is rushing, and youâve been around long enough to know that in here, that usually means somethingâs wrong.
Setting the book down on the small table beside you, you stand and head toward the entrance of the library. The sound grows louder, the footsteps coming closer, and just as you reach the doorway, you collide with a solid wall of muscle.
"Hoâholy shâ" you gasp, stumbling back, startled. Your hands fly to steady yourself, and you look up, wide-eyed, to see Logan standing there. "Logan, you scared mâ"
âJames.â
You still.Â
"What?" you whisper, your mind racing as you stare at him. His face is differentânot just the usual irritated-by-himself expression heâs been wearing lately, but something else. Thereâs a certainty in his eyes, relief and maybe evenâ
âMy name is James,â he repeats. âI was born in Alberta. We grew up together. I... I killed my father.â His voice falters slightly at that, but he pushes through, his gaze locked on yours, unwavering. âYou were the little girl in the mansion. Youâve always been there. And Iââ His eyes brim with emotion. âI love you.â
The words slam into you, leaving you breathless. You can feel the blood drain from your face, your heart jumping so hard it feels like it might burst. âYou... you remember?â Youâre barely able to get the words out.
LoganâJamesâstares at you. âI remember everything.â
A sob escapes your throat, and you throw your arms around him, burying your face in his chest as the floodgates open. His arms come around you immediately, holding you tight, his chin resting on the top of your head.
âIâm sorry,â he murmurs. âIâm so damn sorry. I should have never left. I should have gone back to find you.â
You shake your head, tears soaking into his shirt. âIt doesnât matter,â your voice breaks. âNone of that matters anymore. Weâre together now. Thatâs all I care about.â
He pulls back slightly, just enough to cup your face in his hands, his thumbs brushing away the tears that wonât stop falling. Thereâs so much loveâso much everythingâin his eyes, your knees nearly buckle. All you do is hold on to him, as tightly as you can, afraid that if you let go, this moment will slip away.
But it wonât, because heâs really here, he remembers, and he still loves you.
For what feels like hours, you stand there in the hallway, wrapped in each otherâs arms. Eventually, you take a small step back, unwrapping your arms and instead grabbing his hands, squeezing them. âWe have a lot to talk about.â
He squeezes your hands back in return. âYeah, we do.â
â
You sniffle, wiping away the last of your tears as you lie in bed with him, pressed so close it feels like youâre trying to merge into one person. His warmth surrounds you, his arm wrapped protectively around your waist, hands drawing small circles. Itâs like all the years apart never happened, like youâre finally back where youâre meant to be.
âSo, what made it all come back to you?â you ask softly, your voice a bit hoarsefrom all the crying youâve done in the last hour.
James takes a deep breath, his chest rising and falling slowly. âI guess having two strong telepaths digginâ around in your mind will do the trick,â he responds. âShit was brutal, but... worth it.â
Tilting his head down, he presses a small kiss to your temple. If even possible, you nestle yourself further into his hold.Â
âI thought Iâd lost you forever,â you whisper. âAll those years... I never thought Iâd see you again.â
âSame for me. Thought I lost you too,â James murmurs, his hand running gently up and down your back. âAfter I left the cabin, I tried to forget. Tried to convince myself you were better off without me, but...â He trails off. âI was wrongâa coward. I shouldnât have been runninâ away. Especially from you.â
You look up at him, your eyes searching his. âWhat did you do all those years? Where did you go?â
He lets out a heavy sigh, closing his eyes. âI wandered. For a long time, I didnât stay in one place. Fought when I had to, drank when I couldnât forget. Got into a lot of trouble.â He grimaces slightly.Â
You frown. âWhat kind of trouble?â
âThe kind where people like me arenât supposed to be walking free,â he remarks bitterly. âI gave into the monster I thought I was.â
His words sink in, and you can feel the toll those years took on him, the way they left him scarred, not just physically, but emotionally. âIt must have been so hard,â you whisper, your hand reaching up to cup his cheek. âLiving like that, without... anyone.â
Leaning into your touch, âYeah,â he admits. âIt was. But... I didnât know how to live any other way. Not after everything that happened.â
Thereâs a long pause, the two of you lying there, bodies tangled together as you both process the weight of whatâs been lost and whatâs been found. Then, he kisses the inside of your hand, looking at you with a faint, curious smile.
âWhat about you?â he asks softly, tugging you closer. âWhen did you... ya know, find out you were a mutant?â
The question catches you off guard, and for a moment, you donât know how to respond. Youâve never really talked about that part of your life to anyone, at least not in detail.Â
âI didnât know for about a year,â you begin. âAfter you left, I was... lost. And then one day... I punched a tree.â
James raises an eyebrow, clearly not expecting that. âA tree?â
You nod, a small smile tugging at your lips despite the seriousness of the memory. âYeah. I was angryâangry at everything. And when I punched it... the damn thing exploded.â
He stares at you for a moment, processing your words. Then, a slow, amused grin spreads across his face. âExploded, huh? Guess thatâs one way to find out youâre not normal.â
You chuckle softly, shaking your head. âYeah, it wasnât exactly subtle.â
His smile fades slightly. âWhat did you do after that?â
Taking a deep breath, you let the memories of those early days as a mutant flood back. âI tried to keep it hidden for a while. Didnât really know what to do with it. But then... the wars started.â
Eyes narrowing, his expression changes instantly. âThe wars?â
Nodding, you continue. âYeah, the First and Second. I volunteered as a nurse. I figured if I could use my powers to help people, then maybe I could make up for everything I lost. I moved station to station, healing soldiers. I couldnât save everyone, but I tried.â
Heâs momentarily quiet, gaze never leaving yours, even as he processes what youâre telling him. Then, slowly, his features shift into disbelief.
âYou were on the frontlines?â His voice low, almost incredulous. He reaches out to brush a few strands of hair out of your face.Â
âYeah. I wanted to make a difference.â
Letting out a sharp breath, James sits up slightly in bed as he stares at you. âHoly shit,â he mutters. âI fought in those wars, too. In the trenches.â
Youâre speechless, and the realization washes over you slowly. The whisperings youâd heard from the troops, the rumours youâd chalked up to be nothing more than drunken tales, suddenly come flooding back. A man who couldnât be killed, who healed from every injury, who fought with claws that could tear through anything.
It was him.
It was always him.
âOh my god,â you breathe. âSo it was trueâŚall those rumours about the man who couldnât die... that was you.â
âYeah,â he says quietly. âGuess it was.â
All those years, all those battles... and you were both there, so close, yet so far apart.Â
âWe were so close,â you say, moving forward in to give him a kiss. âAnd we didnât even know it.â
He kisses you back, his grip on you tightening. Then, when you pull away, he sighs, leaning back against the headboard. âItâs all so different now,â he begins gruffly. âYouâre not the little maid in training anymore, runninâ around that mansion, worried about getting caughtâ
You smile faintly at the memories of your younger selves, the girl you used to be, and the boy who was so much more to you than just a young lord.Â
âAnd youâre not sir James Howlett or whateverâLordâanymoreâ you tease. âYouâve come a long way from the boy who used to sulk in the garden because he had to attend another dinner party.â
He lets out a noise that sounds like a mix between a huff and a laugh âYeah,â he agrees. âThat feels like a lifetime ago. And in a way, I guess it was.â
While neither of you are the same people you once were, in this moment, you can feel that connectionâthe one that has always been there.
âIâve thought about you every day,â he speaks up again. âAll those years.â
âJamesâŚâ
âI love you,â he confesses. âAnd Iâve loved you my whole life. Before we ran away, after I left, even after I thought you were gone... I couldnât forget. Didnât want to.â He sucks in a harsh breath, grabbing your hand once more. âI shouldnât have left. I should have stayed. We couldâve figured it out together, but I was so... so damn scared. I thought if I stayed, Iâd only hurt you.â
You feel tears welling up in your eyes again. âYou did what you thought was right,â you whisper, intertwining your fingers. âYou were scared, and so was I.â
âI wish I could take it all back,â he says, regret bleeding into his tone. âI wish I couldâve been there for you... We couldâve had so many more years together.â
âWe have time now,â you say softly, assuring him. âWe have all the time in the world to make up for it.â
He doesnât respond verbally, but rather he edges forward, brushing his lips softly against yours. âI love you,â he murmurs before closing the gap completely, kissing you passionately.
You smile against his lips, because while he may be known as logan, or Wolverine, heâs still James.
Your James.Â
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A/N: I'm going to have to either write some crazy smut or excessive fluff now because this took it out of me LOL also I hope none of you got confused with the name switching! Thank you so much for reading <3
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When Things Turn Green Again
SYNOPSIS: Hoping to mend the pain of your broken heart and bury the memory of your failed marriage, you turn towards the woods. A cabin was left in your name and itâs the exact distraction you were looking for. What you didnât anticipate is meeting a quiet, ruggedly handsome man along the way who helps you heal.
PAIRING: Logan x fem!reader
WC: 11k
WARNINGS: smut 18+; mdni; angst; mentions of cheating/divorce; emotional trauma; fluff; sexual innuendos; brief mentions of drinking; dirty talk; slight dom!Logan; oral (f receiving); fingering; doggy style; cock warming; sex with feelings; unprotected p in v
A/N: I pictured either Origins!Logan or Wolverine!Logan, but I think you can envision any Logan youâd prefer. And again thanks to @joelsgoldrush for the support through writing this â¤ď¸ I really do love this piece I wrote and I hope you do too. Feedback is always welcome and appreciated! And thank you to everyone who has read, commented, liked and reblogged both Soft Edges and Til The Sun Turns BlackâI never imagined either of those stories reaching over 1k notes.
The gravel crunches under your tires as you roll down the long driveway. Memories bloom deep in your chest as you near the cabin, of times simpler than this, unburdened by trappings of real life. You spent your formative years out here in the woods with your grandfather. Summers spent learning how to fish on the lake; how to recognize the poisonous berries from the nonpoisonous ones; and making fires, roasting marshmallows long after the sun had gone down.Â
Your grandfather had helped build this cabin. Heâd always preferred the outdoors and solitude from peopleâwith the obvious exception of your grandmother and motherâand heâd often come here to escape. Especially after he lost them both.Â
The cabin comes into view through the trees just starting to unfurl their spring foliage. Patches of snow still dot the landscape but the wet brown of winter is losing to springâs verdant hues. The structure has seen better days, last having been lived in over ten years ago.Â
A stab of regret pierces your chest. The cabin was willed to you when your grandfather died, but this was your first trip up here since the funeral. You planned to, of course, but as the old saying goes, life happened. Now, youâre hoping the old place can give you something to sink your energy into besides thinking about your failed marriage.Â
You park the truck and step out, surveying the property. The shrubs and flower beds are overgrown and choked with old growth and weeds. Years worth of leaves rest upon the roof and clog the gutters. The front porch has several loose or missing spindles and youâre almost afraid to step up onto the old boards. Proving yourself right, the wood groans and creaks beneath your feet, certain spots threatening to give way.
âThatâs going to be a fun project,â you mutter to yourself.
Opening the front door, youâre met with the damp mustiness of a long closed up space. A layer of dust seems to coat nearly every surface and cobwebs linger in the corners. Youâre hoping the repairs needed inside the cabin are more cosmetic than costly.
You open up the old blinds, letting the early morning light filter in the room. Itâs not a large space, an open kitchen, living room and dinning area with separate bedroom and attached bathroom. A small set of steps leads up to a loft, which also doubles as a sleeping space or bonus area.
You unload your belongings from the truck, tucking them away inside the bedroom, before opening all the windows to let in the fresh air. Thankfully, the glass and protective screens are in relatively good repairâa few need replacing, but an easy enough job. You feel a sense of purpose flourish within you, something you havenât felt for months and you wonder if this is just the reprieve you need to find yourself again.
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You spend the morning taking inventory of the repairs needed around the cabin to make it immediately livable. Jotting down a list of supplies, you hop in your truck and head into town to hit up the hardware store.Â
The owner, George, recognizes you from previous trips with your grandfather when you were younger. He greets you warmly and helps you find everything you need. As youâre checking out, he asks, âRun into Logan yet?â
âLogan?â
He nods his head. âShares a property line with you. Has a cabin of his own just about a quarter mile north of yours. Asked him to keep his eye out on the place.â
âOh, well, that was nice of him,â you comment, stuffing your receipt in your purse.Â
George shrugs. âFigured it would give him something different to do. Doesnât interact much with people.â
âGuess Iâll just have to introduce myself then,â you say, lifting your bags up off the checkout counter.Â
âGood luck with that,â George responds with a huffed laugh. âHeâs not one for small talk.âÂ
You give George a polite smile and leave the store, bags in hand. But the conversation sparks your curiosity and you find yourself thinking of the man who shares the woods with you. You promised yourself once you were settled, youâd make the short hike towards his place and introduce yourself.
Arriving back at the cabin, you park the truck and hop out, stopping short when you spot a lone figure walking around from the back of your property. You canât stop the prickle of anxiety that zips up your spine as the figure comes closer, but he doesnât see you yet, his eyes on the ground as he walks.
You shut the truck door with more force than necessary, the sound echoing off the trees. He looks up then and you suck in a short breath as his rugged features come into viewâwell trimmed but scruffy beard, wild dark hair and a fit muscular frame you can see even under the flannel of his shirt.
Butterflies flutter in your stomach and you canât remember the last time youâve felt like this. You can feel a blush creep across your face and you grip the bags in your hands tighter just to feel something other than the hammering of your heart in your chest.
He stops short of where youâre standing and jerks a thumb behind him. âTurned your electrical breaker on,â he says without introduction and you can only stare at him.
âOh,â you say dumbly. âI, uhâthanks.â
He tilts his head and looks at you and you feel like youâre on fire under his glare. Itâs an inquisitive one, like he canât quite figure out what youâre doing in a place like this and you shift uncomfortably under his gaze. And yet, you donât want him to stop looking at you.Â
âRight,â he says, reaching into the pocket of his jeans for something. He fishes out a key and holds it in your direction. âThis is yours.â
You shift the bags, so youâre holding them all in one hand and reach for the key. Your fingertips brush against his just briefly, but itâs enough to set sparks along your skin and you can feel the hairs on the back of your neck stand on end. As he steps back from you, you blurt out your name and then immediately wish for a swift death at your awkwardness.Â
God, this was embarrassing.Â
Itâs like youâve never interacted with humans before.
He gives the barest hint of a smile. âLogan.â
âNice to meet you, Logan,â you say, just so you can taste his name in your mouth.
Logan nods and turns to head down the path that leads away from your cabin and deeper into the woods. You watch him go, his figure fading further into the distance and you canât help but think, Iâm in trouble.Â
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You spend the rest of the day keeping busy around the cabinâwiping down dusty surfaces, sweeping up cobwebs, replacing broken light bulbsâbut your mind never strays far from Logan and the inexplicable pull you have towards him.Â
Youâve dated. You were married. You werenât a stranger to the opposite sex and physical attraction, but this felt like more. Like an unavoidable pull between you and him and youâve just been spun into his orbit.Â
And that attraction terrifies you.Â
Over the next few days, you try and shove him from your mind. It helps that you havenât seen him again, but your eyes inevitably dart towards the path leading away from your cabin as if youâre expecting him to come walking through.Â
Then, the idea comes to you late one night as youâre sitting in front of the fire, watching the flames lick higher. No matter how hard you had tried, Logan remained firmly planted in your mind, his roots stubborn and unyielding.Â
Your grandfather always said your grandmotherâs cooking was always something that warmed his heart.Â
But as you walk the small path towards Loganâs property you briefly wonder if youâve lost your mind. You carry the small pie dish in your hands and as his cabin grows closer youâre actually contemplating turning back and forgetting the whole thing.
Who the hell bakes pies for people any more?
His cabin is smaller than yours, a little more rustic and worn, which seems fitting based on the little you know about him. Several piles of firewood line the roofed porch and at the opposite end, a single chair and table sit in front of the window. With one last shaky inhale, you climb the steps and rap your knuckles against the door. From inside you hear heavy footfalls and then the door opens.
Logan looks down at you and then towards the dish in your hands, an odd expression crossing his handsome features.
âI made you a pie,â you blurt unceremoniously and you instantly wish for the ground to open up and swallow you whole.
Logan just continues to stare at you and you think you see the slightest twitch at the corner of his mouth. But maybe not.
âI, uh, my grandfather lived in the cabin next to yours and itâs mine now. Iâm fixing it up, becauseâŚwell, just because and he taught me to pick berries as a kid? So, I did that and I made you this,â you finish in a ramble, flames of embarrassment licking across your skin.
Jesus fucking Christ.
His eyes flick down at the dish in your hands again and you hold it up a bit higher, nudging it closer towards him. As he reaches out to take it, his fingers brush against yours and you again feel electricity tingle down your fingertips. If he notices it too, he says nothing, not that heâs said anything since you showed up on his porch.Â
Logan tucks the dish closer to his body and gives you a slight nod. You take that as a good sign and step back to leave. âOkay, cool, cool. Well, um, enjoy. I made sure all he berries were the edible ones so you donât end up throwing up everywhere.â
At that he actually huffs a chuckle. âGood to know,â he finally says, his voice warm and rich and just a bit gruff.
âRight, well, enjoy!â You turn to leave and can feel his stare against your back and it takes all your remaining functioning brain cells to walk normally.
You spend the next few days trying to forget all about your ill-fated attempt to play neighbor, figuring if he didnât want to know you before, he definitely didnât after that.Â
Youâre coming back from a hike when you spot Logan through the trees walking away from your place, hands tucked deep within his pockets. Your heart quickens in your chest as you walk up to the front door and find the baking dish sitting on the old welcome mat. Itâs freshly washed with a folded up piece of paper sitting insideâThank you.
Youâre certain your smile could rival the light from the sun.
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It becomes a routine over the next few weeksâyou bringing him food and him returning the dish, all without exchanging any words. Youâre thankful heâs not much of a talker because you canât seem to stop making a fool of yourself around him.Â
And you donât know why.Â
Heâs a handsome man, that anyone can see, but youâve never been so flustered around a beautiful man before.
Thereâs something else about Logan you canât pinpoint that sets your heart fluttering behind your ribs. He seems lonely in the same way you are, and you wonder if heâs out here to lick and heal old wounds just like you. You have an inexplicable want to help him, even if that means sharing your food leftovers with him and trying to chip away at the wall that surrounds him.Â
A part of you is hoping he can help break down your walls, too.Â
Youâre waist deep under the kitchen sink when a knock on the door drags you from fixing the leaking drain.Â
âAh, fuck,â you curse, trying to maneuver out of the space while also not spilling the stagnant water left in the sink trap. As you set the old drain down you call out, âJust a second!â
You wipe your hands against your thighs and swing the door open to find Logan standing there, your glass baking dish from yesterday in his hands. For a second you blink silently at him, unable to think of anything but the fact that youâre wearing grease stained overalls and probably smell like a swamp.Â
âLogan, hi,â you finally say, brushing your hair out of your face.Â
He gives you a strange look as he hands the dish back to you. You open your mouth to speak when he interrupts you, âWhy do you feed me?â
His question hangs in the air and you freeze. Of all the things he could have asked, you werenât sure why you didnât expect that one. His voice is a little gruff, but underneath thereâs something that makes your heart race. Something vulnerable.Â
You swallow and grip the edge of the glass dish. Logan stares at you, his gaze intense, and you feel exposed. Like heâs trying to dissect you with just a look.Â
âOh, well, I donât know,â you finally admit. âYou justâŚseem like you could use some kindness.â
He raises an eyebrow, but doesnât say anything else. The silence stretches between you, heavy and charged, and you can feel your pulse quicken. âI can stop ifâif you want.â
âNo,â he says, his voice rough, but with an undercurrent of tenderness. âNo, you donât have to stop. Just not used to people doinâ things like that for me.â
His admission catches you off guard being the first real piece of personal information heâs shared with you. Youâve gleaned certain things from Georgeâheâs told you about Logan being a mutant and a few pieces of his pastâbut you know thereâs still a world of history hiding behind his loner facade that he keeps hidden. Youâre hoping eventually he lets you take a peak inside.
âEveryone deserves kindness, Logan,â you say.Â
His gaze flickers, a shadow of something crossing his features that makes your heart ache. He shifts on his feet and stares down at the dish in your hands. âIâm not so sure of that,â he replies.Â
âWell, I am.â
Loganâs eyes drag back up to yours and you try to calm the nervous energy that bubbles under your skin as his stare presses into you. He gives you a small nod then before turning to leave.Â
He pauses as he hits your driveway and looks back at you, cursing lowly to himself. Scratching at the back of his head, he walks back up the steps and pulls something out of the pocket of his jacket. âI, uh, here,â he says uncertainly as he hands you the small cloth bag.Â
You can only stare as you take the bag from him, the gift surprisingly light in your hand, but the gesture heavy with unspoken emotion. Your mind races as you think of what could be inside and your heart hammers loudly in your chest.Â
Logan stands there, eyes not quite meeting yours as he waits for you to open it. Your fingers tremble slightly as you undo the drawstrings and peer inside, finding a mixture of different seeds. You canât help but trail your fingers through them, feeling the faint warmth they hold from where they were nestled against Loganâs body.Â
âOh, Logan,â you murmur, your voice thick with emotion.Â
You glance up at him and heâs looking at you, scratching at his beard, the faintest hint of blush staining his cheeks. âTheyâre wildflowers. Donât know what kind. But, I dunno. I thought you could use them for your garden.âÂ
Your chest tightens as you pull the strings close and tuck the bag in your pocket. âI love them, Logan,â you say, offering him a smile. âThank you.â
For a moment, you see the tension in his shoulders relax just a bit as he exhales. âJust seemed like something youâd appreciate,â he mumbles, more to himself than to you.Â
Something has shifted between you and you find yourself itching to touch him, but you donât. Not yet. The thread holding you two together is there, but thin, and you donât want it to fray. âI really do appreciate it,â you say softly, stepping just the tiniest bit closer.Â
Logan nods and his mouth tugs into something thatâs not quite a smile, but close. He looks at you for a long moment, the weight of his gaze pressing into you. âOkay. Good.â Shoving his hands in his pockets, he turns and jogs down the steps.Â
âGuess Iâll see you around then,â you call after him, a smile spreading across your face.Â
He glances back over his shoulder. âYeah. I guess you will.â
And maybe, just maybe, the walls around him are beginning to crumble.Â
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Sweat beads across your brow as you work, but you pay it no heed. Your attention keeps slipping to Logan as you pry another nail loose from the rotted board. Youâve fallen into an odd relationship with the elusive man whose property line you share, yet you still barely know anything about him.
Itâs been a week since he stopped by and gave you those wildflower seeds. A warmth still spreads in your chest when you think about it. And true to his promise, you do see him around, albeit not as much as youâd like. He seems wary, as if his gift opened up a part of himself he wasnât ready for you to see.
But at least he doesnât drop off your clean dishes and run anymore.Â
As you pry the last nail free, the rotten board comes free and you toss it down onto the grass along with the others. Thankfully, the porch isnât terribly large and you figure another hour or so to remove the remaining boards before you can start laying down fresh lumber.Â
The crunch of gravel pulls you from your work and you look up to find Logan walking down the path, a large leather bag in his hand. You look up at him, wiping the sweat off your brow and lean back onto your heels, trying your best not to stare at his forearms.
âOh, hey, Logan,â you say, wiping your hands against your jeans as you stand. âWhat brings you to my side of the woods?â
He actually smiles at you and nods towards the porch. âNeed help?â
You hate the little flutter you feel pressing against your ribs. âI couldnât ask you to do that.â
âWell, itâs good thing youâre not asking. Iâm offering.â
You blink, caught off guard by his directness. âOh, well, if you insist,â you say, trying to calm your nerves. âIt would be nice to have a second set of hands.â
He sets the leather bag down on the porch with a thud and you catch a glimpse of the tools nestled inside. Logan notices you looking and comments, âI know a few things.â His smirk makes your legs feel like jello.Â
âOh, I bet you know a lot of things,â you blurt, and your eyes widen at the double entendre of your words, heat flushing across your face.Â
Logan laughs, a real laugh, his eyes crinkling. âWell, itâs always good to be well educated,â he says with a wink.
Fuck, you feel like youâre going to spontaneously combust.Â
Shoving down your raging embarrassment, you lay out your plan to fix the porch and Logan gives a small nod. He starts at the opposite end, prying loose the first board with ease. You try not to stare at the way his muscles move and how his skin begins to slick with the first beads of sweat. You work in silence for a while, the only sounds those of the forest around you.Â
âSo, what actually brought you out here?â Logan finally asks.Â
You glance over at him and watch as he tosses another board onto the grass. He looks at you expectantly and you sigh. âI got divorced,â you answer honestly. âAnd I needed something pour my energy into other than wondering where the fuck I went wrong.â
You canât bring yourself to look at him, your openness leaving you feeling raw, and instead focus on the board in front of you. Anger begins to simmer in your veins at the thought of the last couple of years and you grab the next plank with just enough force to wedge a splinter deep into your palm. A loud curse falls from your lips as you drop the board.Â
You feel Logan next to you and you suck in a deep breath as he reaches for your hand, his fingers curling around yours. âLemme see,â he says, pulling you close and you can smell the earthiness of him, like damp soil and campfire smoke. You find yourself staring at him, his proximity intoxicating, as you drink in his long lashes and the slope of his nose.Â
He tilts your palm towards himself, his fingers pressing gently yet with firm enough pressure to push the splinter out of your skin. Pulling it out the rest of the way, his eyes flick up to yours. âSomehow I donât think youâre the one that fucked up, sweetheart.â His voice is warm and you want to melt into him.Â
âWell,â you start, clearing your throat, âI certainly wasnât fucking his mistresses.âÂ
Something in his eyes darkens and a shiver runs down your spine. âHeâs a fool for losinâ you,â he growls, and his words hit you with more force than youâd care to admit.Â
His hand still lingers on yours, steady and reassuring and warm and for a moment you think he might lean closer. You desperately want him to. To press his mouth against yours, to feel his breath against your skin, to have his taste against your tongue. But he pulls back, his expression one of thin control, but you can see the storm behind his gaze.Â
âA damn fool,â he mutters under his breath and you canât help but wonder if heâs talking about himself or your ex.Â
Logan lets your hand go, turning back towards the porch and you mourn the loss, your skin still tingling from the contact. You swallow hard, trying to shake off the intensity of the moment. Itâs Loganâquiet, gruff Logan, who never really sticks around for a real conversation and yet here he is, offering help and showing that maybe heâs not entirely as unaffected by you as you thought.Â
Your heartbeat drums in your ears as you watch him go back to work, prying up the next board, his muscles flexing beneath his worn shirt. His jaw clenches and thereâs a focused determination in his movements and you canât tell if heâs working out some anger or trying to keep himself in check.
You work in silence for several more minutes, the only sounds being the prying of loose boards and creaking lumber. Thereâs a tension between you now, more so than there was before, something palpable.Â
Itâs enough to drive you mad.
âWhat about you?â you finally ask, your voice somewhat hesitant. âYou donât talk about yourself much.â
Logan glances at you from the corner of his eye and his brow furrows, as if heâs weighing whether or not to answer. âNot much to tell,â he grunts, pulling up another board with more force than necessary.
âSomehow, I doubt that. You donât just wake up one day alone in the woods with forearms like that.âÂ
Logan looks over at you and smirks. âMaybe Iâm just really good with my hands.â His voice dips low and you canât help the warmth that pools low in your belly at his words.
You swallow, your throat suddenly dry. âYeah, noâŚyep. Iâm starting to figure that out.â
Heâs silent for a few moments as he goes back to work and the air between you hums with something charged. âYou really want to know?â he asks, his voice rough. âIâve been around for too long, longer than anyone should. Done things Iâm not proud of.â He tosses another plank aside and all you can do it watch him. âIâveâŚIâve hurt people I care about. People Iâve cared about have hurt me. Iâm not really sure I belong anywhere, so I justâŚdrift.â
Thereâs something raw in his voice, something broken and vulnerable, and it catches you off guard. For all his outward strength, thereâs man deep down inside whoâs lost, and your heart aches for him.
âYou belong here,â you say softly.Â
He doesnât look at you, but you can feel the tension shift as the weight of your words settle between you. Another board gets tossed aside. âYeah, maybe.â
He finally raises his gaze to yours and for a moment the world quietsâthe forest, the porch, all of itâas his eyes lock onto yours and his expression softens. You offer him a warm smile and then return back to the porch, hesitant to push him any further.Â
You work comfortably together after that. The old boards removed, Logan helps you place and nail down the new ones. Your conversation is limited to the project, but you donât mind.Â
As Logan packs up his tools, you glance over at him. âThank you.â
A half smile plays at the corner of his mouth. âYouâre welcome,â comes his reply as he steps off the porch and heads down the path back towards his cabin.Â
âLogan!â you call, lightly jogging after him before he slips out of view. He pauses and turns back towards you. âCan I make you dinner?â
He raises an eyebrow. âHavenât you already been doinâ that?â
âNo,â you say shaking your head, âI mean, yes, I have, but like a proper dinner? Fresh from kitchen to table. I can come by you, if youâd like.â
Logan studies you for a moment, his gaze intense and you can feel your heart beating against your ribs. Heâs silent for so long you wonder if youâve overstepped and you open your mouth to speak when he says, âAlright. Come by tomorrow, six oâclock.â
You canât stop the smile that spreads across your face. âTomorrow it is.â
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Youâre up before the sun, your nerves a tangle of raw edges. You lay there, staring at the ceiling and wondering what the fuck youâve gotten yourself into.Â
You werenât expecting to meet someone out here in the woods. You were hoping for tranquility, a distraction to quiet the voice in your head that kept nagging you for how your life veered off course. That maybe if you worked more, did more, loved more you wouldnât be a thirty year old divorcee.Â
Instead, you find a mysterious man who sparks within you a flame you long thought extinguished. A ruggedly handsome man whoâs somehow wormed his way into your life and has you wondering if maybe he canât help mend the pieces of your broken heart.Â
Except you donât know if that same spark is ignited within him and if his gesture of dinner is simple kindness. A response to the kindness youâve shown him over the last two months or if heâs feeling that same attraction you do.Â
God, you hope he does.Â
You spend the morning cleaning, trying to pour your nervous energy into something productive other than worrying about what the evening may bring. Driving into town, you agonize over what to make even though heâs been eating what youâve made without complaint for weeks now. You opt to keep it simpleâpasta with homemade meat sauce, a nice loaf of bread and a couple bottles of wine.Â
While the sauce is simmering on the stove you get ready. You dress for comfort, a simple pair of leggings and a flowy top that hangs slightly off your shoulders. You catch your reflection in the mirror and give yourself a silent nod of encouragement. Despite this just being dinner, the night brims with the possibility of maybe something more.Â
Once the food is prepared, you carefully pack everything in a large basket and begin the walk to Loganâs cabin. The night is cool, but still holds the warmth of day and the promise of summer to come. You feel your anticipation heighten the closer you get to his place and your stomach drops when you see it appear up ahead.Â
Itâs just Logan, you remind yourself.Â
Stepping up onto his porch, you give a hesitant knock at the door. He greets you almost instantly and you suck in a deep breath. Logan looks good and your heart does a flip as you take him inâwell fitting jeans, a clean white shirt underneath a soft red flannel button down, his hair is still slightly damp from a shower.Â
âYouâre early,â he comments, standing aside to let you in. You catch the slight frown tug at his mouth as he notices the basket. âYou coulda cooked here, you know.â
âOh, well, I didnât know if youâd want me invading your space,â you reply, following him deeper into the cabin and setting the basket down on the counter.Â
Logan turns back towards you, bracing his hands against the counter. âI donât mind you in my space.â
His words hang in the air between you and you can feel your pulse quicken. You glance up at him, and the way heâs looking at youâsteady and unflinchingâsends a thrill down your spine.Â
You clear your throat, trying to settle the nerves in your chest. âNext time then,â you say lightly, hoping he canât hear the slight waver in your voice.Â
Loganâs lips quirk into a half smile. âNext time,â he agrees.Â
He reaches into a cabinet above him, pulling down a couple of plates and glasses, setting a small table in the corner of the small kitchen. You keep yourself busy unpacking the food, arranging the bread, pasta and sauce on the table, working around him as he uncorks the wine and pours both of you a glass.Â
Logan joins you then, raising his glass and clinking it gently against yours. He nods in a silent cheers and tips his head back as he drinks, his eyes never leaving yours. You canât suppress the shiver that shoots down your spine.
Setting down his glass, he serves you and then himself, commenting, âThis smells amazing.â
âFamily recipe,â you reply, taking another sip wine. âRemind me to make it for you when I have fresh tomatoes. Itâs even better then.â
âIâll have to do that,â he says with a smile.
Conversation starts off slow, but not awkward, as you both test the limits of what youâre wiling to share. Loganâs answers are often short, reserved, but what he does reveal helps bring into focus the outline of the man before you. An outline youâre hoping heâll let you fill in.
âGeorge says youâre a mutant,â you start slowly and you donât miss the way his posture stiffens, his fork scraping harshly against the plate.Â
He goes still and you wonder if you fucked up. Crossed a boundary he wasnât willing to cross.
Eventually, Loganâs eyes flick up to yours and he lets out a small hum. âHe did, did he?â
You nod, chewing. âIt doesnât bother me.â
Heâs quiet for a beat. âIt bothers most people.â
âIâm not most people,â you reply, your voice soft.Â
Something in his face softens then, the furrow of his brow a little less pronounced. A slight smile plays at his lips. âNo. No youâre not.â
You feel a warmth bloom in your chest and your face flushes. Taking another bite, you ask, âCan I see?â
Logan studies you for a moment and you can see him deciding whether or not to show you that part of him heâd rather keep hidden. He sets the silverware down and he flexes his fingers before resting his palms back on the table. Then, he unsheathes his claws and you canât stop the gasp that falls from your lips.Â
You see him flinch at your reaction and he goes to retract his claws and you reach for him. âDonât,â you say, your fingers hovering just above the blades.Â
As he relaxes, you gently rest your fingertips against the metal, finding it surprisingly cool but still holding a faint warmth from his body. His eyes drop to where youâre touching him as you slowly begin to trace each blade with your fingers, following the slight curve down to where they emerge from his skin. You look up at him, finding his gaze fixed on you and you shiver under the intensity.Â
âTheyâre beautiful,â you whisper. You feel him shudder beneath you as he retracts his claws, leaving your fingertips nestled against the skin between his knuckles.Â
You pull your hand away from his, mourning the loss of his skin against yours. Logan clears his throat and pulls his hands into his lap, glancing down at them as if theyâre foreign, something heâs never taken the time to notice before. He flexes his fingers once more before dragging his gaze back to your face.
âDo they hurt?â you ask quietly.
He shakes his head. âNo. Not anymore.â
âThank you,â you say quietly. âThank you for showing me.â
Logan studies you for a long moment, searching your face like heâs trying to figure you out. You know heâs probably not used to this, someone seeing him as something other than a mutant, an aberration, someone who should be hidden away. Then, his face softens.
âPeople donât usually ask,â he says quietly.
You smile gently, feeling that flame inside you burn just a bit brighter. âI just want to know you.â
He leans back in his chair, his gaze still steady, but more open, as if some of those invisible walls he surrounds himself with have started to come down. If only just enough to let the light shine through.Â
An unspoken tension simmers, thickening the air, and you know he can feel it too, but itâs not uncomfortable. Itâs heavy with promise. You turn your attention back to your plate and for a few moments, neither of you speak.
âSo,â you say after a beat, âDo you ever use them as forks?â
Logan huffs out a laugh, the sound surprising you and his eyes crinkle in genuine amusement. âI canât say that I have,â he replies with a smile.
You grin. âYou should give it a try.â
âIf I do, youâll be the first to know.â
The rest of dinner passes with easy conversation and you feel your nerves begin to settle, just a bit. Logan seems less guarded too, more at ease than youâve ever seen him.
You help him clear the table, ignoring his request that you just sit and relax. As you stand next to him, emptying the leftovers into a container, you feel his eyes on you. When you hand him the container, your fingers brush again, but this time he doesnât immediately pull away. His fingers linger just a bit longer than necessary and your breath catches in your throat.
âThanks for dinner, he says quietly, voice low. âAnd forâŚunderstanding.â
You nod, feeling that unmistakable pull between you, the tug thatâs kept you orbiting closer and closer to him. âAnytime, Logan,â you answer softly. âYou donât have to hide from me.â
Thereâs a flicker of hesitation in his eyes, like heâs been burned before and is still figuring out if he can trust what youâre offering him. And you understand his turmoil, trust having shattered your heart into pieces, pieces youâre still trying to pick up and reshape.Â
Logan steps a little bit closer then and before you can say anything else, his hand gently reaches out and tucks a loose strand of hair behind your ear. The gesture is simple but intimate and it sends a shiver down your spine, heat pooling lowly in your belly.
âCâmon,â he says. âLet me walk you home.â
He grabs your basket before you can protest and you follow him out into the night. Thereâs a full moon hanging heavy in the sky, illuminating the path in front of you, yet you remain close to Logan. You curse to yourself as you trip over an exposed root and then you feel Logan reach out for you, his fingers wrapping securely around your own. The heat of his palm against yours is almost overwhelming.
Your cabin comes into view and Logan slows, his fingers slipping from your grasp as he sets the basket down on the porch.
âGood night, Logan,â you say softly as you walk up the steps.Â
As you turn from him, he reaches for your wrist, his fingers curling and pressing hotly against your skin. Your breath hitches as he climbs the steps to join you on the porch, and your gasps dies in your throat as he tilts your chin up and forces you to meet his gaze.Â
âDo I make you nervous?â His voice is low, breath hot and damp against your skin.Â
âYes,â you breathe, somehow inching closer to him, your fingers reaching for the hem of his flannel and twisting into the fabric.Â
âWhy?â He brushes his nose against yours and you chase after the touch.Â
Swallowing hard, you look up at him from under your lashes. You tilt further into him, your mouth hovering just over his. âBecause I havenât felt like this in a very long time and I donât want it to go away.â Donât want you to go away.Â
Logan nods and whispers, âIâm not goinâ anywhere.â And then he presses his mouth to yours.Â
Itâs soft, barely a hint of skin against skin, but when you whisper, âPlease,â against his lips, Logan growls and then heâs everywhere. His kiss claims you, his tongue licking in your mouth and you whimper as his fingers curl along the nape of your neck somehow pulling you impossibly closer.Â
You wind your arms around his shoulders, your fingers tangling in the short strands at the back of his head. Your entire world is focused down to the feel of his lips on yours and the press of his fingers against your jaw as he pulls you towards his hungry mouth.Â
Loganâs grip on you tightens, one hand splayed across your lower back and the other pressed firmly between your shoulder blades, anchoring you to him. The heat between you is palpable, each movement of his lips setting you further aflame. You lose track of time, lost in the sensation of his beard scraping against your skin, leaving a tingling trail in its wake.
When he finally pulls back, youâre both breathless and his forehead rests against yours, your shared breaths mingling in the space between you. His eyes are dark and intense as they search your face and you feel untethered, Logan being the only thing keeping you grounded.
âYou okay?â he asks, voice rough, but surprisingly tender as his thumb traces along the line of your jaw.
You nod, swallowing the lump thatâs formed in your throat. You donât trust yourself to speak.
His lips quirk into a small smile. âGood.â He brushes a stray strand of hair away from your cheek, his hand lingering at the side of your face. He presses one last soft kiss to the corner of your mouth before he steps back and walks down the path back home.
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You canât stop thinking about the kissâLoganâs lips against yours, the taste of his tongue, the press of his hands against your skin, hot and heavy, yet gentle.Â
You want to live in that moment forever. Want to know only his kisses for the rest of your life, for him to be the first person you kiss good morning and the last person you kiss goodnight. For him to kiss you just because he can, because he misses you, because he canât get the feel of your mouth out of his mind and he needs to feel you again pressing against him.Â
You also want to run away, hide yourself from these emotions that are overwhelming you and leaving you feeling raw and exposed and absolutely terrified. You havenât kissed another man in two years and he broke your heart, leaving nothing but shattered pieces and dust in his wake. Dust that still clings to you despite your best efforts to sweep it up. Those pieces of your heart are still sharp, jagged where they should be smooth.Â
Youâve always been trusting, choosing to see the light in others as opposed the darkness. Believing deep down that everyone deserves kindness, deserves a second chance, that one bad deed does not a bad person make. But he stole a part of that from you and you hate him for it. Hate that even now, after all this time, heâs able to worm his way into your brain and make you question the motives of the man whoâs made you feel more alive than you have in months.Â
Last night you felt unshackled, unbound by the fear that had chained you for so long. You felt as if Loganâs very touch, his presence, had set your soul on fire and instead of fearing the burn, you were ready to embrace the warmth.Â
But now, raw contempt begins to simmer in your veins and you need something to pour your frustration into before it threatens to consume you whole.Â
Throwing your hair up into a messy bun and throwing on a paint-stained shirt and ripped jeans, you head outside looking for a project to sink fingers into. In the small shed behind the cabin, you find a few gardening suppliesâa small shovel, trowel, bow rakeâand you drag them out and to the overgrown flower beds.
You donât even bother with the tools at first, ripping at the dead growth with your bare hands, pulling it from the earth in great clumps and tossing it aside. Your pulse beats loudly in your ears as you move from bed to bed, clawing away the old growth, your breathing growing ragged and your palms staining with dirt.
Grabbing the rake, you dig at the remaining plants, tearing at the roots, destroying the new growth. Tears run hotly down your face, blurring your vision and your throat aches from force of your breathing and screams youâve been holding back.
From behind you, you hear the sound of your name and you whip around so quickly, the rake goes flying from your hands. You can hear the snikt of Loganâs claws as they unsheathe and the splintering of wood as he deflects the rake flying at him. It clatters to the ground between you as he retracts his claws and looks at you, his brow furrowed in concern.
You wonder, then, exactly what you look like in that moment. Dirt caked on your hands and under your fingernails, cheeks flushed with exertion, hair a halo of disarray. The pure adrenaline youâd been running on wanes and your limbs suddenly feel heavy and you sink to the ground in front of him. You canât bring yourself to look at him, because youâre afraid of what youâll see.
Logan approaches you slowly, kneeling down in front of you and gently raising your chin to look up at him. The stark worry etched on his face makes you ache and fresh tears burn in your eyes. You wipe at your eyes, which only serves to smear dirt across your face.
âIâm terrified, Logan,â you whisper, wanting to reach for him, but afraid to touch him. âI terrified of how much I like you.â
âYou scare me too,â he confesses softly and your heart breaks.
He leans closer, fingers resting hesitantly against your knees. You reach for him too, grabbing on to the open sides of his jacket and pulling him to you. Logan doesnât flinch, doesnât push back and instead envelopes you into his arms, your head resting against the solid warmth of his chest.Â
Safe in his arms, you cry. Harsh, broken sobs as he rubs your back, the soft caress of his fingers along your spine anchoring you to him as he holds you. He murmurs into your hair that heâs got you, to let it all out, and you do.
Eventually, you calm and sigh, pressing your forehead against his chest, loathe to move just yet. âIâm broken, Logan,â you mumble into his shirt. You look up at him then, the softness and concern on his face making you physically ache. âI still have broken pieces where I should be whole.â
Slowly, tentatively, he brings his hands up to your face, cupping your cheeks in his hands. His thumbs brush at the dirt and tears under your eyes and he smoothes the hair away from your forehead. âMaybe some of my pieces fit,â he says, voice low, but steady.Â
His words send a flood of emotion through you, and for a moment, all you can do is stare at him. Then the gravity of what heâs saying hits youâheâs offering you himself, all his jagged and scarred pieces, the pieces no one else sees.
The pieces he wants you to see.
You lean forward, pressing the lightest of kisses against the corner of his mouth. His sigh is hot against your cheek, but he doesnât press further.Â
âThank you,â you whisper into his skin and somehow it feels like the most important thing youâve ever said.
âCâmon,â he says, âLet me help you get this cleaned up.â
You nod, wiping your nose with the back of your hand. Logan stands, offering you his hand. You take it, your fingers slipping into his and his grip is steady, yet gentle as he helps you up.Â
Without a word, Logan grabs the broken rake and begins removing the debris from the beds you laid waste to. You watch him work for a moment before joining in, pulling the weeds from the beds you hadnât gotten to yet. Every now and then your eyes meet, but you donât say anything. You donât feel the need to fill the space with words, his presence beside you speaking volumes more than he could ever say.Â
After a while, Logan pauses and looks over at you, wiping the dirt from his hands into his jeans. âYou still got those seeds I gave you?â
âOf course I do.â
âGo get âem,â he says nodding towards the cabin. âWeâll plant something new.â
You retrieve the small pouch where youâve kept it safe and come out to find Logan kneeling in the dirt, his fingers making small pockets of earth to house the new flowers. He looks up at you, a small smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. You join him on the ground, dropping a few seeds in each well as he moves to create the next one.Â
âIâm not very good at this,â Logan starts, covering the last well with dirt, âbut I promise I wonât break you. You donât gotta be scared of me.â
He looks at you then, his hazel eyes meeting yours and you reach for his hand, your thumb brushing across his dirt stained knuckles.Â
âNo,â you reply with a smile, âI donât think I do.â
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Itâs been three days since that moment with Logan in the garden and the air between you has been quiet. Logan hasnât come by the cabin, but you hadnât sought him out either. You werenât avoiding him, exactly. More a need for space, a chance to process the feelings you felt for him, to test if you were truly ready to open yourself up to him.
Your mind never strays far from him, though. An almost constant loop plays in your brain of the way he held you, the way he spoke, the quiet promise he made not to break you. Thereâs a large part of you that believes him; your heart is screaming at you shed your lingering doubt and trust him, but your rational brain is grasping desperately to the kernel of truth that vows can be broken.Â
So you turn to what you do bestâpour your energy into other things. The cabin is spotless now, cleaned of disuse and age, turned into a cozy place of retreat, a simple shelter turned into a home. And yetâŚ
Youâre sitting on the porch, watching the sun dip lower in the sky, the book youâd been trying to read long forgotten. The forest is peaceful, alive with the sounds of early summer. But as calming as it is, you canât ignore the ache in your chestâyou miss him. More than you thought possible.
Just as youâre about to stand, the sound of boots against gravel catches your attention. You look up and there he isâLogan. His hands are shoved deep into the pockets of his worn jacket as he walks up the path. His look is cautious, as if heâs unsure whether or not youâll accept his presence.Â
Your heart skips a beat and you stand, wiping your palms against your jeans as he draws closer. His hazel eyes meet yours and thereâs something softer about him, something open.
He stops a few feet away from you, gaze steady. âI wasnât sure if I should come by.â His voice is still gruff, but quieter than usual. âIf you needed space or not.â
âI did, need space. But not from you,â you clarify. You take a hesitant step towards him. âI missed you.â
Logan sighs then, his posture relaxing just slightly. âI wanted so badly to see you. I didnât know if I should stay away.â
Before you can second guess yourself, you step down from the porch, closing the distance between you. You stand in front of him, noticing the faint lines of tension around his mouth, the way his jaw is clenched as if bracing himself for your rejection.Â
âDonât stay away,â you say softly, âI want you here.â
You reach for him, your fingers brushing against his hands as you pull them from his pockets. Logan doesnât pull away and the warmth of his skin against yours feels like the most natural thing in the world. You feel it then, that familiar pullâthe one thatâs been there since the beginning, drawing you closer and closer into his orbit, his sun.
You brush your thumbs across his knuckles and look up at him. âYou wanna come inside?â you ask, your voice barely above a whisper. âIâll make you something to eat?â
Logan nods, a small smile tugging at the corner of his lips. âYeah. Yeah, Iâd like that.â
As you lead him inside, something in the air between you shifts, something subtle. But you know one thing for certainâyouâre not afraid anymore. Not of this.
+++
The sun has set, the food long gone and as Loganâs hand reaches for the front door, you slip in front of him. His scent overwhelms you, that earthy dampness youâve come to associate with him flooding your senses.Â
âWhat if you stayed?â you ask, the slight waver in your voice betraying your boldness.Â
You watch as his eyes darken and he leans even further into your space. âDo you know what youâre asking, sweetheart?â he replies, eyes searching your face.Â
Swallowing, you nod. âI do,â you whisper.Â
Then you slide your arms around his waist, pulling him closer as you lean in and kiss the hollow of his throat. You can feel him swallow hard beneath your lips and you smirk into his skin as you drag your mouth higher, over the long column of his neck to nip at the corner of his jaw.Â
âStay,â you murmur in his ear.
Logan turns, his nose brushing against your cheek as he seeks your mouth and you inhale deeply as his lips find yours. His fingers wind themselves into your hair, resting against the nape of your neck as he pulls you closer. You whimper into his mouth when he pulls back, eyes blown black.
âShow me where,â he says, his voice low.
You lead him up the stairs, his hand warm in yours and you barely make it to the top before Loganâs spinning you around, mouth finding yours. His is kiss is demanding, so different from that first one all those nights ago. This is urgent and desperate, like he canât possibly get you close enough to satisfy the need deep within him. And you feel it too, pouring yourself back equally into the kiss, moaning as his tongue finally slips alongside yours.Â
Your fingers fumble along the top of his jeans, pulling his shirt from where itâs tucked and sliding your hands up along the sides of his ribs. He rewards you with a deep groan of his own, nipping slightly at your bottom lip.
âChrist, sweetheart,â he rumbles against your lips, kissing you once, twice, âIâve been dyinâ to feel your hands on me.â
âMe, too,â you reply, gasping as his hands find the hem of your shirt, lifting it just enough to brush his fingers hotly along your skin.Â
Logan pulls back just enough to look down at your face, his fingers still clutching the fabric of your shirt, but lifting it just a bit higher. His gaze is questioning, asking for silent permission to continue. You nod once and he slowly drags the shirt up, his fingers skimming along your sides, over the swells of your breasts as he pulls the shirt over your head.Â
Despite the heat coursing through your veins, you shiver under the intensity of his stare. He kisses you again, inhaling deeply, before moving down, nipping over your chin, your throat, in between your breasts.Â
Loganâs hands follow his mouth, running a trail from your shoulders, down long your spine, easily flicking open the clasp of your bra on the way. He glances up at you as he moves to pull the straps aside, dragging them down your arms.Â
âDo you know how beautiful you are?â he asks, his hands coming up to cup your breasts, thumbs fanning out across your nipples.
A jolt of pleasure shoots down your spine and pools low in your belly. You feel like you might spontaneously catch on fire and heâs barely touched you. You canât remember ever feeling like this when a man has touched you, so consumed by want and need.
His fingers trail lower, brushing along the top of your jeans, popping open the button. You grab for his hand, stopping him. You see the concern flicker across his face and you smile. âYour turn,â you say, sliding your palms up his chest and pushing the flannel from his shoulders, his shirt following suit.
You revel in his muscular physique, your fingers tracing along his collarbones, down over the broad planes of his chest, feeling the wiry hair beneath your fingertips. His muscles flutter beneath your touch as you follow the trail of hair lower, down to the vee between his hips.Â
Loganâs arousal is evident by the tenting of his jeans, and your eyes locked on his, you dip lower, giving the faintest of caresses over the fabric.
âFuckinâ hell,â he curses. âTake your pants off.â
Itâs a command, not an ask, and one youâre more than willing to comply with.Â
Nervous energy licks at your skin as your fingers tuck into the waistband of your jeans and pull them down. Logan follows your lead, unbuckling his belt and shoving his jeans over his hips, kicking them aside. His cock juts out proudly, thick and heavy, nestled in a bed of hair.
Loganâs on you before you can kick away the last leg, hoisting you up under your thighs and forcing you to wrap your legs around his hips. His palms are hot against your ass and you can feel his cock trapped between you.Â
He moves you both to the bed, setting you down before crawling over you and slotting himself between your thighs. Leaning back on his heels, he stares down at you, skin flushed. He kisses you softly once, before dragging a single finger down the center of your chest, hooking it into the waistband of your panties.Â
âWhat do you like?â he asks lowly, eyes boring into yours.
You stare at him, unable to comprehend his question as he slides his finger back and forth across your skin. Electric sparks of anticipation crawl up your spine and you can feel the rapid flutter of your heart against your ribs.Â
âYou want me to touch you with my fingers?â His voice is low, so low and you shiver.Â
Your mouth has gone dry and you can only nod.Â
âYou want me to touch you with my mouth?â Logan leans down, skimming his lips across your collarbone, nipping lightly.Â
Your fingers stutter across his shoulders and wind themselves into his hair. Loganâs smirk presses into the corner of your jaw. âWant me to touch you with both?â
âPlease,â you whine into his neck, breath hot against his skin.Â
Logan trails back down your body, kisses peppering over your neck, both breasts, your belly before he presses a kiss to the top of your clothed mound. He hooks his fingers into the waistband and looks up at you, asking for permission. At your nod, he pulls he material down, eyes never leaving yours as he trails his fingers down your legs and tosses the fabric aside.
Youâre fully bare, exposed in a way you havenât been in a long time and your nerves blush across your skin. Instinctively, you try to close your legs, but he stops you, his hot palms curling against your thighs.
âYou donât gotta hide from me,â Logan says, kissing your knee and spreading your legs further apart. âYouâre so pretty like this. Flushed and wet and smelling so sweet for me.â
A jolt of desire zips down your spine. Nothing could have prepared you for the filthiness of words that would spill from his mouth. Or how much youâd enjoy hearing them.
âI donât want to disappoint you,â you murmur.
âThatâs not possible.â
âOther men haveââ
Your words die in your throat as Logan grips your chin, forcing your gaze up to his face. His expression is soft, but his eyes flash with a glint of something dark. âWhen I fuck you, Iâll be the only man in your bed, understand?â
The roughness and edge in his voice makes you shiver and heat pools between your thighs. You swallow heavily and nod.
âI want this,â he says, his tone softer. âI want you. Whatever youâll give me.â
Slowly, you reach for his hand and guide his fingers to where youâre wet and aching for him. At the first brush of his fingertips against your folds, you gasp and your fingers dig deeper into his skin.Â
âRelax, sweetheart,â Logan coos. âIâm gonna make you feel good.â
And then heâs touching you, fingers dragging through your arousal before circling around your clit. He caresses you like he knows you and youâre molten beneath him. One finger, then two slip inside you, pressing against that spot that makes you squirm and grip at the sheets beneath you.
âFuck,â you breathe, âYou werenât lying.â Logan quirks an eyebrow, fingers still curling within you, his rhythm picking up speed. âYou are good with your hands.â
His chuckle rumbles through his chest as he continues to move, this thumb working over your clit. Your hips jolt off the bed when Logan replaces his thumb with his tongue, drawing the sensitive bud into his mouth.Â
He continues to work your cunt, long, flat presses of his tongue against your clit punctuated by the short, sharp thrusts of his fingers. The dual sensation is enough to wind that tension in your core tighter, building you up higher and higher until you feel yourself reaching that inevitable peak.
âLogan, IâIâm so close,â you gasp, fisting your fingers into his hair.
His growl against your cunt is enough to send you over the edge, the vibrations rippling through your body as your orgasm washes over you. Through half lidded eyes, you meet his gaze from between your thighs, his eyes dark with desire and you shiver at the intensity of his stare.
Logan crawls over you, pressing a kiss to your lips. You can taste yourself on his lips, bright and sour, as he licks into your mouth.Â
âDo you trust me?â
Loganâs fingers are still moving against you, wringing out the last of your orgasm and you can only nod. He withdraws his fingers and you whine, but he just smirks and taps your hip.Â
âTurn over,â he commands lowly.Â
A shudder ripples through you as you willingly comply, rolling onto your stomach as Loganâs palm trails from your hip over the swell of your ass. His fingers kneed into your flesh and you squeak as he curves them over your skin, pulling you up onto your knees, drawing your hips flush with his. The thick feel of his cock presses into your ass and you canât help but push back, enjoying the strangled moan that falls from his lips.Â
âI canât wait to be nestled deep inside you,â he groans, slotting his cock between your thighs, running the length along your wet cunt.Â
You peer over your shoulder and smirk at him. âThen what are you waiting for?â
Logan lines up then and the air punches out of your lungs as he slowly eases himself in to the hilt. Heâs deep at this angle and you feel claimed, owned in the best way possible as he begins to move his hips. The drag of his cock against your walls is exquisite and youâre sure youâve never experienced pleasure quite like this before.Â
His fingers dig into the flesh at your hips, grabbing as much as he can to pull you back into him and you push back, meeting him thrust for thrust. His grip is enough to be bruising, teetering that line between pleasure and pain and yet you relish it.Â
âFuck, sweetheart,â he rasps. âLook so good stretched around my cock.â
Pleasure zips along your spine and curls along your limbs, each drag of his cock against you coiling that band in your belly tighter and tighter. Yet, you need more. You need to feel him, feel his arms around you, on you, feel his mouth hot and open against your skin.
âI need to feel you closer,â you whine. âPlease, Iââ
Loganâs arm slips underneath you, curling just under your breasts and pulling your back flush to his chest. He holds on, fingertips splaying across your ribcage as he fucks up into you, his breath hot and damp against your ear.Â
You turn your head just enough to capture his lips, your mouth pressing against his in an open-mouthed kiss. He steals the moan from your throat as his other hand dips to where youâre joined, fingers beginning to circle around your clit.Â
Slipping a hand into his hair, you hold him to you, your head falling back onto his shoulder. Logan groans when you rake your nails along his scalp and you do it again. Your mixed groans and the wet noises from where heâs thrusting into you fill the room and time seems to stop. There is nothing but the thick feel of him between your legs, the fervent press of his fingers against your clit and the tight grasp of his hand across your breast.Â
A litany of praise falls from his mouth and his words burn through you, setting you aflame from the inside. Itâs too early for thoughts of love and forever, but you can feel something real, something undeniable pulling you together, uniting you in a way more than just physical. Youâre bound to him.Â
Loganâs hand slides up your sternum, his fingers coming to cup your jaw, pulling your focus back to him. The pad of his thumb pulls at your lower lip. âCome for me, sweetheart,â he husks into your ear. âI wanna hear those pretty sounds you make.â
And you do, two more forceful thrusts sending you teetering over the edge, your orgasm ripping through you. Logan doesnât stop, fucking you through wave after wave, his thrusts getting sloppier as he chases his own release.Â
âLet me feel you, Logan,â you pant, your breath coming out in short gasps. âPlease.â
With a deep groan into your shoulder he comes, his cock spasming deep within you, painting your womb with his seed. His arm around your hips holds you firmly in place as he uses your body to wring out the last of his pleasure, shallowly thrusting as your walls caress him. When he finally stills, breath hot against your skin, you can feel your combined come slick against your thighs.Â
You donât know how long he holds you like that, back to chest, keeping you in his arms simply because he can.Â
Only later, when the sweat begins to cool on your skin and your flesh pebbles, does Logan lay you down, finally slipping from within you. He pulls you close and you rest your head against his chest, the comforting lull of his heartbeat echoing in your ear.Â
You lightly trace your fingertips over the crest of his hipbone just to feel him beneath you. His breathing evens out, approaching that blissful edge of sleep when you glance up at him. Logan opens his eyes, gaze meeting yours and he smiles.
âLogan?â
His hum vibrates through his chest.
âI think weâre healing each other.â
âYeah, sweetheart,â he answers, âI think we are.â
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Pairings; Logan Howlett x F!malereader Warnings; fluff, just logan and his girls!
A/n, Iâm gonna try to turn this into a series. So lmk if yall enjoy this ! Cause I loved writing it!!!
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You donât t know what time youâd woken up, but you reach out to feel the side of the bed where your husband had laid. But it was cold.
Opening your eyes, you see that the covers had been thrown back. Huffing you throw the blankets off your body. You sit at the side of the bed and run a hand down your face. To wake yourself up.
âLogan?â You say with a raspy voice.
When he doesnât answer back you manage to get up from the bed.
âOkay come on girl.â You say rubbing your swollen belly. Youâd been pregnant for almost seven months. It was your second baby. A girl.
Logan was over the moon. He couldnât wait to have another girl.
Your first daughter ivy was attached to Loganâs hip since the day she was born.
They did everything together.
It was adorable. It was Logan who insisted on having another baby. You couldnt say no. You were right there with him. You wanted to expand the family.
âLo?â You hum as you reach the living room. There was no one in there.
Your head whips over to the sound of a shrieking laugh.
Furrowing your eyebrows you make your way over to ivyâs room.
The door had been open a crack. Through the crack you see Logan sitting as ivyâs tea table. With a tiara on.
âHere you go daddy.â Ivy says giving Logan a plastic tea cup.
âThanks bub.â Logan took the plastic cup. You watched as he bought it up to his mouth and took a sip.
You couldnât help but awe at the moment that was unfolding right in front of you.
Without saying a word you fully open the door.
Logan lifted his head up and smiled when he saw you.
His smile was big. He was glad to see you.
âMommy!â Ivy shrieks and grabs your leg.
âGood morning!â You say ruffling her long brown hair.
Logan clears his throat. Causing your gaze to be on him.
âItâs actually the afternoon.â
You gasp and look at ivyâs clock that had been sitting. On her dresser. âWhy didnât you wake me? Did she eat did you give her a bat-â
âSheâs fine-â Logan cuts you off with a chuckle. âI figured I just let me two girls sleep. How is she doing today anyways.â
Ivy gives your leg one more squeeze, then goes back to her tea set.
âCome here.â Logan reaches out his hands of you to take.
You stand in front of him. Heâd still been sitting down. He puts his hands into your belly.
âHowâs my beautiful girl.â He kisses your belly. Itâd been covered by his t-shirt. Youâd used them as nightgowns.
Logan looks up at you.
âHow are you?â He hums rubbing a hand over your belly.
âMâkay just tired.â You say with a big yawn.
âThatâs why I let you sleep, I figured you needed it. And plus she woke me up at 9:30 this morning wanting to play princess tea party.â
He motions to ivy, who was feeling her stuffed bear a cookie.
You chuckle. You bring your hand down tj his hair and run your fingers through it. âYouâre a great dad Logan.â
You hum. You feel tears begin to spill from your eyes.
When Logan notices he quickly gets up. âHey, hey donât cry.â He hums flicking the tears away.
âSheâs lucky to have you.â
Logan pulls you into a hug, his chin resting on your head. "And she's lucky to have you, you're a great mom." Logan places a kiss onto your forehead.
He wipes the tears off your face. "I love you."
"I love you more." You hum.
"Mommy!" Ivy squeaks, "Play princess tea party with me and daddy!" She was jumping up and down with excitement.
"Okay okay." You giggle pulling away from logan.
Logan couldn't help but take in the sight that unfolded in front of him, he was happy. And he wanted it to stay like this forever.
Just Logan and his girls.
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THE DRIVE- L. HOWLETT
Pairing- Older! Logan x Mutant! Fem! Reader (Enemies to Lovers)
Word Count: 2.6k (an introduction to the series)
Summary: After being put on the goverments watchlist for being an "unsafe" mutant, Logan 'jumps' (tackles) to the rescue, taking you to the X-Mansion. However, you and Logan do not get along... at all.
Warnings: mentions of violence and guns, swearing, logan and y/n not getting along, crying, reader kinda thristing over logan (as one does)
**authors note/ things to note: this may not be lore accurate/ canon because i haven't watched the x-men movies since i was younger, so its roughly based off what i can kinda remember hehe. y/n has jean greys powers, and jean does not exist in this universe, this is nemies to lovers- but a slowww burn :)
"all this sympathy is just a knife, why I can't even grit my teeth and lie? ifeel all these feelings i can't control..."- sympathy is a knife, charli xcx
âI donât like you.â you stated plainly, crossing your arms with a huff. This was the most blunt you had been with anyone, ever. But you couldnât help it.
You had known Logan Howlett now for an hour, and it was an hour you would never get back.
âYouâre not sâpossed to like me kid. Youâre supposed to listen to me, which youâre failing miserably at.â the older man growled, barely looking over at you from the driver's seat. His hands tightened on the steering wheel, knuckles turning white as he slammed down on the gas.
You were thankful in that moment seatbelts were invented.
You bet ten dollars Logan was around when they came up with the idea.
He was an asshole.
He was tasked with the mission to get you to safety- as you were a ârogueâ quote on quote mutant as the public called your kind. It made your head spin, not only from Loganâs driving but the sheer weight of it all.
One morning you were pouring your orange juice, the next the national guard was surrounding your house, and a man who happened to have claws shoot out of his knuckles had dived and tackled you as the gunfire started.
Now you were here, in an old rusty truck- speeding down a back road through the woods with an old man who seemed to hate everything. On the run, on your way to the mutant academy- to start over, and to learn how to control your powers.
Or so you hoped.
Logan wasnât making the trip there very pleasant though.
âIâm listening to you. And even if I wasnât- do you blame me?! After what just happened I donât know- maybe an hour ago?!â you rolled your eyes, glaring at him hard enough to leave laser beams through his skin.
âYouâre a mutant. Get used to it.â
âGet used to it?!â
He shrugged. âThatâs what I said, ainât it bub? I was tasked to take care of you and get you to safety, so Iâm doing that. Doesnât mean you have to like me.â
You huffed, staring out the window at the trees that blurred together, dark leaves falling on the ground as you whipped by. âI donât like you.â
âYeah, I picked up on that kid.â
âIâm not a kid, you know.â
He snorted, running a hand through his tousled hair. âSure.â It was silent in the car for a few minutes, minus the crackly radio, the station starting to cut out as you ventured deeper into the woods.
You leaned forward, turning it off. Silence.
âSo⌠are you actually two hundred?â you asked meekly, darting your eyes over to stare at him. Even if he was a dick, he was handsome as hell. You couldnât even deny that.
âDonât you know itâs rude to ask someone their age?â he mocked.
âSorry, I forgot elders were sensitive to that kind of thing. Let me know if you need help getting your walker from the back.â you snapped back, as he showed teeth at you- growling.
Good. Piss him off as much as you could, so when you got to the academy he would leave you alone.
He muttered something under his breath, something about how kids these days have no respect (despite you very much not being a child), and you tuned out.
With a sigh, you leaned your head against the window, the events of today taking a toll on your body. You looked up at the clouds rolling by, until they faded away to black.
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Strong arms carried you, and you curled into the warmth they provided, hands clinging to a rock hard chest. You yawned, savouring the rocking motion, until it stopped.
Your eyes fluttered open, blinking quickly as you adjusted to the dimming light. It was dark out, stars replacing the clouds from earlier- and two dark orbs stared at you intensely.
You squeaked, stumbling down to your feet, backing away from Logan quickly.
âGood morning.â he smirked at your sudden reaction, your frown lines deeply etched in your forehead compared to how they were a few seconds previous.
âWhat are you doing?!â
âWalking you to our room.â
Your eyes nearly popped out of your head.
âOur room?! And I can walk by myself, thank you very much.â He snorted, jangling the keys in his pocket. âReally? I didnât know you could sleep walk.â
âDonât be a dick.â
âCanât. Already tried.â he said, unlocking the door with a click. 106 was scrawled across the wooden door, and the strong smell of lemon cleaning supplies nearly suffocated you as he stepped inside.
He must have stopped at a motel somewhere along the route- in the middle of nowhere. It was older, not as old as him- but aged. It must have been quiet, you assumed- because Logan didnât seem like the type of guy to willingly choose to be around people, especially not when on the run.
As shitty as the situation was, you were thankful for a place to sleep, and for a proper bed. The car seatbelt and window was not very comfortable, your neck aching from it rolling down during your nap.
You stepped inside, noting the very obvious couples room, a large bed in the middle of the room, with no pull out couch. You gulped.
âIâll take the floor.â you stated, as he closed and locked the door behind you. Unease lingered in your stomach.
Please god, do not make me sleep with the Wolverine. I do not have the strength, nor patience today.
âDonât be stupid girl.â And that was that. He shrugged off his jacket, tossing it on a little table, flickering on a little side lamp.
You were stunned into silence. You tried so hard not to look.
So. Damn. Hard.
But his muscles were on display, so much so they might as well be their own art exhibit.
His white tank top clinged to his tan skin tightly, and you watched his muscles flex, dog tags jangling on his chest as he snagged a pillow from the bed and tossed it on the floor.
You quickly looked away before he caught you staring, and taunted you for it.
âIâm going to shower.â
No reply. You bit your lip, turning around quietly and tugged your skirt down as you walked in the bathroom and shut the door.
No amount of scrubbing of the shit hotel loofa could get the grime of the day off your skin- soap foaming as quickly as it sputtered down the drain. You tried to stay in the shower as long as you could- dreading the awkwardness that the night would entail- but soon the water turned ice cold.
Shivering, you rinsed off your hair, cranking the taps until water dripped faintly. Wiping the mirror, you stared at yourself in the reflection.
A long scratch darted up your neck, little ones dotting across your arm. You wished you had Loganâs healing abilities. They were ugly, harsh and jagged- standing out like a sore thumb.
You hoped your pjs covered it, you thought, as you wrapped a thin towel across your body, acting as a corset the way it caused your breasts to pop.
Then it hit you. You didnât have pjs. You didnât have anything but the clothes on your back (bathroom floor).
Fuck. Could this get any worse?
Not only did you have to sleep in the same room as Logan, you had to ask him for clothes?! Taking a deep breath, you opened the door a sliver, its loud creak echoing throughout the entire room.
âUh⌠Logan?â
âMhgm.â
You poked your head out, eyes darting to survey the space- seeing your bed untouched, long legs poking out from the other end on the floor.
âI- uh.. kinda forgot pjs.â
Nothing, and then a loud laugh emerged from him, his body shaking from the sheer sound of it. âCourse you did kid. Here.â he tossed a black t-shirt your way, and it landed on the carpet with a plop.
It would be massive on you, you could already tell- but it was something. Usually you had to go on a few dates and sleep with a guy a few times before you got to this stage. Not an option this time.
You quickly stepped out and grabbed it before he could look up at your (barely) covered body, shrugging it on in the bathroom.
It smelt like him, like whisky and smoke, cider and fresh cut grass. It was comforting, in this moment of chaos. You breathed in the fabric, resting your head against the wall.
Your lip wobbled, hot, salty tears slipping down your cheeks as you gasped for air.
It hurt. Everything hurts.
You were exhausted, hungry and more anxious and overwhelmed than anything. The shock had started to fade, your hands had started to shake and you couldnât help but break down.
You didnât care if Logan heard you. The tears continued to fall, body heaving as sobs tore through your body. How was life so unfair? So cruel? Things had changed so fast- and you hadnât asked for your abilities. You didnât even know how to control them yet.
But that was what made you dangerous to the government. You thought, growing even more angry with yourself. But how was it your fault?
It made you sick. You just wanted to go home, lay in your own bed and eat your own food, to see your friends and go to work. You never thought those words would leave your lips- but it was true. It was routine, and it was normal.
You felt normal, when you were filing paperwork, talking on the phone to clients. As boring as it could be at times, it was steady.
And now?
You were bouncing around like a ping-pong ball. A coin had been flipped, your fate plastered on either side- and you had lost the draw. Taking a shaky breath, you attempted to regain your composure before facing the judgemental beast outside.
Your eyes were puffy, cheeks sticky and warm with drying tears. Wiping your face, you found the courage to slink back into the main room, flicking off the side lamp Logan had left on. If he had to shower, he could find his way in the dark.
You were sure he could see in the dark- all wolves could- couldnât they?
Slouching into bed, you gripped the thin sheets tightly- cocooning yourself to try and stay warm. The air was on full blast, despite it being chill outside- and you assumed you had Logan to thank for that.
Great. Iâm going to get hypothermia before I even get to the fucking school.
âDo you have to have the air on full blast?â you asked, looking over the side of the bed, watching as Logan crankly peered an eye open.
âYes.â
âWell could you I donât know, survey the scene and see itâs cold outside already?â
He huffed.
âIâm warm. Iâm always warm.â
âWell thatâs not my problem. Be considerate wolf.â you rolled your eyes, hugging the sheets tighter to your body.
âDeal with it kid. Itâs staying on- if you donât like it, sleep outside.â
Well that made you sit up.
âYouâre such a dick.â
âYeah getting a motel room and letting you have the bed- real dick move eh?â
You huffed, gritting your teeth together. This man was pushing your buttons more than they had ever been pushed before. You hated how much he got under your skin. It was like you had your own set of claws, that only he could set off.
âWell I shouldnât even be in this situation.â
âYeah we all think that. Shut up and sleep.â he growled, rolling over to face away from the bed.
âYou could at least have some respect.â
That was all you asked for, anyways. You had shown him it even when you were in deaths way, thankful for him for saving you. He didnât show an ounce of it back.
âIâm not giving you any sympathy, if thatâs what your asking.â
It felt like a knife had stabbed you in the back, twisting your insides. You whipped up again, throwing a pillow at his face.
âIâm not asking for your fucking sympathy you old piece of shit!â you yelled, earning nothing but silence in return.
He was over you.
Fine. You could do the exact same thing- but better.
Turning your back to him (a dangerous thing to do, you thought), you squeezed your eyes shut and listened to the hum of the air conditioning unit.
Not long after, the weight of the day pulled you back under the waves of sleep again.
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âWake up kid.â a gruff voice called out to you, a firm hand shaking you. You awoke with a start, blinking until the room came into focus.
Two beaded eyes stared at you narrowly from above you, rolling as you mumbled. It was still dark out, as no light showed through the thin curtains.
The clock read 5:00 and you sighed.
âBreakfast on the table. Get dressed and weâre leaving.â
âGood morning to you too.â you grumbled, rubbing sleep out of your eye. A very stale looking muffin sat on the table, next to Loganâs black coffee.
âWhy are you feeding me?â you asked, walking over to take a dry bite. You were famished. Eating anything completely slipped your mind.
âBecause Charles would kill me if I didnât. I said Iâd look after you. You canât starve.â
âJeez I thought that was the plan all along.â
It tasted like sand in your mouth as you took a bite. You were grateful for it, nonetheless. âI never said I wanted you to starve.â he grumbled to himself, taking a long sip from his mug.
âIt was heavily implied.â you spat, turning over the mini coffee bar, finding a kettle and a bag of earl grey. You waited for the water to come to a boil, the kettle screaming at you while you poured it.
You were ready for this day to be over and it hadnât even begun yet. You had a feeling you would have to get used to it- or else it would eat you alive.
Just like how Logan looked right now- like heâd tear your limbs from you and chew them. You wouldnât put it past him.
âWhen you finish that weâre leaving. You got five minutes.â he said, grabbing the truck keys from the table. âFive minutes? I havenât even had a chance to wake up yet!â
âToo bad. We gotta go kid.â He slammed the door hard behind him, rattling the frame as he unlocked the vehicle.
âDonât let the door hit you on the way out, asshole.â you mumbled under your breath, chugging down the rest of your tea as fast as you could. If you were back home you would have the morning to lounge around in a bathrobe, sipping your tea slowly with a book and some fresh fruit.
The odd time you would use your powers to move the toast to the toaster, or to move your slippers to your feet. But that was no longer the case.
The tea tasted bitter as you chugged it, burning your throat. You shrugged on yesterday's clothes, running into the bathroom to splash cold water on your face.
The front door swung open and before Logan could protest- you bolted out the room. âIâm out, Iâm out. Jesus.â Scrambling to the front seat, you watched as Logan glared over his shoulder, slamming the door.
It was going to be an extremely long drive.
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Needy
"You sure about that, darlin'?" he murmurs, looking up at you with a devilish smirk. "Doesn't seem like you wanna concentrate on work anymore."
Pairing: Logan âWolverineâ Howlett x fem! ReaderÂ
Genre: Smut
Word count: 4.5kÂ
Summary: After nearly getting caught with Logan by your brother, you try to get some work done but Logan has different plans.
Warnings: Oral fem receiving, over stimulation, multiple orgasms, unprotected sex, p in v sex, semi public.Â
a/n: This is technically a part two to my earlier Logan fic, but it can be read on its own. Iâll leave the link down below if you wanna read it first. Also I just feel like he'd be so into just constantly eating you out, eating like it's his last meal. As always I hope you enjoy and send any requests you have my way! <3
The first hint of dawn painted the horizon a soft pink as the weight of his arm grew heavier across your waist. Logan's hand trailed down your spine, the tips of his fingers leaving a trail of goosebumps as they danced along your skin. You stirred from the warm cocoon of sleep, the lingering scent of himâa mix of sandalwood and something uniquely hisâenveloping you.Â
The room was still, save for the occasional sigh escaping your lips in response to his touch. Your eyes fluttered open, meeting his gaze, and you found yourself lost in the depth of his blue eyes, which sparkled with a gentle mischief in the dim light. He smirked, knowing he had woken you, and leaned in closer to press a soft kiss to the corner of your mouth. "Good morning," he murmured, his voice a gravelly whisper that sent shivers down your spine.Â
With a gentle urgency, Logan pushed you against the mattress, his strong body sliding between your parted legs. You felt the heat of his morning arousal as he aligned himself with your welcoming warmth. A soft gasp escaped your lips as he entered you, filling you in one smooth, deliberate stroke.Â
Your nails dug into the taut muscles of his back, leaving dark marks that stood out against his skin, a silent testament to your desire. His eyes never left yours, a silent communication of passion and need passing between you as he began to move, setting a rhythm that echoed the racing of your heart.Â
The world outside the confines of the bedroom melted away, leaving only the two of you, lost in the symphony of breath and touch, your bodies moving as one beneath the soft, early-morning light. A knock on your door catches your attention instantly, Logan thrusts his hips into yours, ignoring the interruption.Â
âY/N?â Your brother's voice is slightly worried as he knocks again. The moment is interrupted as your brother's voice rings out through the door, bringing you both back to reality. Logan growls in frustration, clearly not pleased with the interruption.
His gaze lingers on you, a mixture of lust and irritation as he pauses his movements. "He's got damn terrible timing," he mutters, his voice a low grumble against your skin.
âLogan, hide.â you whisper softly, pointing to your closet. Logan grumbles in annoyance, clearly not thrilled at having to hide like a teenager caught making out by his girlfriend's parents.
"Fine," he mutters, rolling his eyes. "I'll hide in the damn closet." He untangles himself from you and climbs off the bed, grumbling under his breath as he heads to the closet, making a show of his irritation.
You slip back into your clothes, smoothing your hair as you open the door. âScott.â you smile at him.Â
Scott steps into the room, his expression a mixture of concern and curiosity. He eyes you for a moment, taking in your disheveled appearance, the flush in your cheeks.
"Everything okay, Y/N? Youâre usually up earlier than this." he asks, his voice laced with a subtle hint of interrogation.
âYes, of course.â you smile awkwardly, hand going to your neck as you notice him scanning the room, you try to hide the faint bruise from him.Â
Scott's gaze settles on you as he notices the faint handprint on your neck. It's a subtle mark, but it doesn't escape his sharp eyes.
"What's that on your neck?" he asks, his voice slightly harder now, concern edging into accusation.
âItâs nothing,â his fingers reach out to brush your hand away.Â
âLet me see.â Scott replies firmly, you reluctantly allow him to look at your neck, his calloused fingers still on your skin.Â
"This looks like something more than 'nothing'," he states firmly, his eyes now fixed on you with an intense scrutiny.Â
âScott, itâs nothing. But you should leave so I can get ready..â you murmur.Â
His hand falls from your neck as he turns to leave. âOkay, Iâll bring you breakfast to the infirmary.â he replies, leaving the room, you close the door behind him with a relieved sigh.Â
Once the door closes, Logan steps out of the closet. His gaze finds yours, a mix of possessiveness and worry in his eyes. He approaches you quietly, his fingers gently tilting your chin up to examine the faint bruise his hand left.
âItâs not so bad anymore,â you reassure him, fingers going to his wrist. He can still see the faint mark his rough grip left on your skin, and it ignites a small spark of guilt and possessiveness within him.Â
"Yeah," he mutters, his gaze shifting to the floor. You lead him into the hallway, hand in hand as you lead him toward the clinic room.Â
Just as youâre nearing the infirmary you see Scottâs back, quickly dropping Logan's hand as he turns to you. Jean is at his side, her eyes narrowing at the sight of the two of you walking together.Â
Scott raises an eyebrow at the sight of you and Logan together. There's a flicker of curiosity in his eyes, his gaze bouncing between the two of you. Jean is more observant â her gaze immediately narrows at the sight of you both, picking up on the tension between you.
You gesture for him to go back to the clinic room, Logan does as you direct him to. Scotts gaze locks in on the faint and fading marks on his back, his head turning to face you, clearly suspicious.Â
Scott's eyes narrow at the sight of the faded marks on Logan's back, his suspicions growing. He turns to face you, his gaze intense and searching.
"Those marks..." he begins, gesturing to Logan's back, "they look like claw marks to me." you ignore your brother's comment, cheeks turning pink as you hurry after Logan.Â
âY/N.â Scottâs voice is firm as he follows behind you, âWhere did you find him?âÂ
âIn the hallway..â you murmur, keeping your back to him as he questions you.Â
Scott's suspicion continues to grow as you remain vague, avoiding his direct gaze. His eyes narrow at your answer, clearly not satisfied.
"In the hallway? Just wandering around, huh?" he presses, his tone laced with skepticism. "That's a bit unusual, don't you think?"
âWhat are you suggesting?â you cross your arms under your chest.Â
ââScott's eyes narrow in on your defensive gesture, his mind racing as he connects the dots. He thinks back to your flustered appearance when he found you, the marks on your neck, and now the strange encounter in the hallway.
His suspicion grows, his eyes now drilling into you. "You're hiding something," he states firmly, his tone leaving no room for denial
âIâm not hiding anything.â you protest, voice raising in pitch with your lie.Â
You glance over to Logan, silently pleading for him to help you, to back up your lie. He catches your gaze and gives a subtle nod, stepping forward.
"She's not hiding anything." Logan chimes in, his voice as gruff as ever, but with an underlying firmness to it. "We just happened to bump into each other in the hallway. Nothing unusual." Scott raises an eyebrow at Logan's reply, his suspicion growing even stronger. He glances between the two of you, his eyes narrowing further.
"Just happened to bump into each other, huh?" he repeats, his tone dripping with skepticism. "You're telling me that's all that happened?" Logan's eyes flash with an unspoken challenge as Scott presses further, his protective and possessive nature emerging.
"She's an adult," he growls, his voice gruff and unapologetic. "She can do whatever she wants. It's none of your damn business.â
You step between the two of them, pressing a hand to your brother's chest, urging him to back off. âScott, all that matters is heâs not missing anymore, right?âÂ
Scott's frustration is palpable as you step between them, your hand on his chest a clear sign for him to back off. He lets out a frustrated sigh, his eyes darting between you and Logan.
"I... guess you have a point," he relents, his expression still skeptical. "But I'm keeping an eye on you two," he adds, his gaze lingering on Logan for a moment before falling on you again.
âRight, of course.â you grin, he mumbles something about getting Logan something to cover up with, leaving the room with his arms crossed.Â
Scott leaves the room with a huff, clearly still suspicious but unable to do anything about it right now.
Once he's gone, Logan turns to you, a small smirk on his face. "You know he's not buyin' our story for a second, sweetheart."
âI know,â you whine, hands covering your flushed cheeks. âIt's so embarrassing..â Despite the situation, Logan can't help but chuckle at your flushed cheeks and whiny tone. Seeing you so flustered is adorable to him, despite the circumstances.
"You're cute when you're embarrassed," he teases, taking a step closer to you.
âYou think so?â your hands fall from your cheeks as he wraps an arm around your waist, pulling you against his chest.Â
Logan grins as he wraps his arm around your waist and pulls you against his chest, his free hand coming up to cup your cheek. "Yeah," he mutters, his voice a low rumble. "All flushed and cute. Makes me want to do all kinds of things to you."
You gasp quietly as he closes the gap between you, pressing his lips to yours in a sweet kiss. The kiss starts sweet and gentle, but quickly deepens as Logan's possessiveness takes over. His hand on your waist tightens, pulling you closer against him as his tongue slips into your mouth.
He kisses you hungrily, his lips and tongue exploring yours as if he can't get enough of you. Your fingers dig into his side as you moan into his mouth, his hand traveling down your waist to your hip bone.Â
Your moan is like a catalyst, igniting a fire within Logan. His hand on your hip tightens, his fingers pressing into your flesh as he pulls you even closer.
He kisses you deeper, his tongue claiming your mouth as he pulls you against his body. The heat between you grows, his need for you becoming more apparent as his hand moves lower on your hip.
You pull away, gasping for air. âLogan..â you press your palms into his sides. âWe shouldnât, I have work to do.â you murmur as his lips move to your neck.Â
Logan groans in frustration, his lips reluctantly pulling away from your neck to meet your eyes. "Work can wait," he growls, his voice a rough rumble against your skin.
His grip on your hip tightens as he presses his body against yours, leaving no room for protest. "I want you, darlin'. I don't care 'bout your damn work right now."
âNot now,â you push him back slightly as you adjust your clothes. âYou're insatiable.â Logan growls in frustration again, reluctantly taking a step back from your touch. He runs a hand through his hair, his eyes roaming over you.
"Can you blame me?" he retorts, his voice still gruff. "With you lookin' like that? All flushed and gorgeous. Makes it damn hard to keep my hands off of you." you walk past him, sitting at the desk in the corner.Â
âWhy donât you come sit over here..â you smile sweetly, not really wanting him too far away from you. Logan raises an eyebrow at your suggestion, a small smirk on his lips. He saunters over to you, crossing the space between you in a few long strides.
He plops down in the chair next to you, leaning back casually as he looks at you. "This better?" he teases, his voice a rumble.
A couple hours pass with you typing away, Logan watching your every move. Despite your attempts to concentrate on your work, you can't ignore the feeling of Logan's hand on your bare thigh. His touch sends a shiver down your spine, making it difficult to focus on the task at hand.
His fingers push past the hem of your skirt, his touch slowly going higher, igniting a heat within you that's impossible to ignore.
You steal a glance at him, his eyes fixated on you, his gaze intense and hungry. âLogan, I canât concentrate.â your legs spread for him slightly, you place your hand on his stopping his movements.Â
Logan smiles at you, his hand slowly moving higher up your thigh. His fingers brush against the edge of your panties, the feather light touch sending jolts of electricity through your body.
He can see the effect he's having on you, your breath hitching in your throat as he watches you intently. "You're makin' this real hard, darlin'," he murmurs, his voice thick with desire.
You lean back in your chair, head falling back. âLogan, please.âÂ
Logan swallows the lump in his throat as you lean back in your chair, the sight of you so utterly helpless and wanting sending a wave of lust through him.
He leans closer to you, his breath hot against your ear. "You want me to stop, darlin'?" he whispers, his fingers still tracing light patterns on your inner thigh.Â
 âYes, I should concentrate.â You shake your head no, yet your words say the opposite.Â
A smile tugs at the corners of Logan's lips as you reply, your words saying one thing but your body another. He can sense your desire, your body quivering under his touch, your breath hitching in your throat.
He kneels in front of you, his head nestled between your thighs, his lips brushing against your skin. "You sure about that, darlin'?" he murmurs, looking up at you with a devilish smirk. "Doesn't seem like you wanna concentrate on work anymore."
Your fingers find his hair, tangling in the strands. âI really need to focus,â your head falls back as a quiet moan escapes your parted lips at the feel of his breath on your thighs.Â
Logan lets out a low growl, enjoying the feeling of your fingers in his hair, pulling at strands. He can tell you're trying hard to resist the temptation he's presenting, but your body is betraying you, your hips arching slightly towards him.
He grins as he hears the soft moan escape your lips, his eyes locked on yours. "Then why are your hips movin' like that, darlin'? Seems like they're tellin' me somethin' different."
His fingers slip under your panties, pulling them off your legs. âLogan..â you whine his name as he parts your thighs. As he pulls your panties down and parts your thighs, Logan lets out a guttural sound low in his throat, a clear sign of his growing desire.
"That's it, darlin'," he growls, his voice thick with lust. "Just relax. Let me take care of you." Logan's strong hands hold your thighs apart, his gaze unwavering as his lips connect with your clit, sending a jolt of pleasure through your body.Â
"Oh, Logan," you moan, your head falling back against the chair. He chuckles darkly, his eyes twinkling with mischief as he looks up at you.Â
"Thought you needed to concentrate.â he murmurs, his tongue flicking against your sensitive flesh. You try to focus on the task at hand, but the sensations he's eliciting are too intense, too overwhelming.
Logan's eyes never leave your face, a silent challenge to see how long you can last before giving in to the pleasure he's offering. With a hungry growl, Logan's mouth closes over your folds, his tongue delving deep and swirling around your clit in a relentless rhythm that sends your thoughts scattering like leaves in a storm.Â
Your fingers tighten in his hair, holding him in place as your body jolts into him, each stroke sending a pulse of electricity through your core. The keyboard beneath your fingertips becomes an afterthought as the pressure builds, your breath coming in ragged gasps that echo through the room.Â
The scent of your arousal fills the air, a heady aphrodisiac that fuels his desire. Work is quickly forgotten as the only thing that matters is the symphony of pleasure he's conducting, your body his willing instrument.
As the tension within you reaches a crescendo, your legs instinctively wrap around Logan's neck, urging him closer, your hips moving in tandem with the rhythm of his mouth. The chair squeaks under the pressure of your movements, the room around you becoming a haze of desire and need.Â
His tongue flicks and laps at you with an insatiable hunger, his teeth grazing your sensitive flesh just enough to make you squirm. You feel the beginnings of your climax building, a coil tightening in your lower belly, as he adds his fingers to the mix, sliding them inside you. The sensation of being filled and teased simultaneously sends you over the edge, and you cry out, your body shuddering with the force of your orgasm.Â
Logan doesn't miss a beat, his tongue and fingers working in unison to prolong your pleasure, savoring every tremor that runs through you. The world outside the office fades away, leaving only the two of you, lost in the throes of passion and pleasure.
Withdrawing his mouth from the sweet nectar of your desire, Logan smirks up at you, his eyes gleaming with satisfaction at the way your body responds to him, like it's made to tremble under his touch. You're panting, your cheeks flushed, and your eyes glazed over with pleasure.Â
He loves seeing you this way, so utterly consumed by the passion he stirs within you that you can't even remember why you were supposed to be working. His thumb continues to gently rub circles around your clit, keeping the embers of your climax smoldering.Â
"Look at you," he murmurs, his voice thick with lust. "So weak for me." His smugness is palpable, but it only makes you want him more.Â
You lean down, capturing his mouth in a desperate kiss, tasting yourself on his lips, and whisper, "More." It's both a plea and a command, one that he's all too eager to obey.
The moment Logan presses his finger inside you, your body responds with a jolt of pleasure, your walls tightening around the intrusion as your orgasm subsides. His mouth moves back to your clit, sucking and teasing it with a newfound urgency as his digit explores the slick depths of your core.Â
You can feel his thumb circling your entrance, pressing gently against it, hinting at the possibility of a second entry. The dual sensation sends shivers down your spine, making it difficult to form coherent thoughts. All you can manage is a series of incoherent whimpers and gasps as his tongue flicks and his finger moves in a tantalizing rhythm that threatens to send you spiraling over the edge again.Â
Your hips rock into his touch, riding the wave of pleasure as it builds once more. The room is filled with the sounds of your muffled moans and the wet, intimate noises of his mouth on your flesh. Despite the urgency of your earlier protests, you find yourself eagerly welcoming this new assault, your body craving the release he so expertly coaxes from you. The tension within you builds rapidly, and it's clear that this time, you won't be able to hold back for much longer.
As Logan's finger joins his tongue in their relentless worship of your body, you feel the coil of pleasure tighten in your core once more. The sensation is overwhelming, and before you can even catch your breath from the last orgasm, a new wave of ecstasy crashes over you.Â
Your legs shudder around his neck, and your moans grow louder as he expertly teases you closer to the edge. You bite down on your lower lip to stifle the cries that threaten to escape, but it's no use. Your body arches off the chair, your fingers clutching at his hair, as the second orgasm rips through you with a ferocity that leaves you trembling.Â
Logan's eyes never leave yours, his own desire flaring as he watches the pleasure claim you, making your pupils dilate and your breath come in panting gasps. His mouth and hand never falter, continuing their sweet torment, drawing out every last tremor of your climax, making sure you're left boneless and utterly satisfied in his arms.
With surprising grace, Logan stands, lifts you up with him, and sits in the chair you've just vacated. You straddle his hips, your legs still shaking slightly from the aftershocks of your climax. He holds you steady, his arms like steel bands around your waist, his eyes never leaving yours as you catch your breath.Â
His erection presses against you, a clear reminder of his own need, and you can't help but squirm slightly, sending a jolt of pleasure through him. "Easy, darlin'," he murmurs, his voice thick with lust. "We're not done yet."Â
His hands begin to roam over your body, rekindling the embers of desire that still smolder within you. You lean into his touch, your heart racing as you anticipate what comes next. His thumbs trace circles around your hardened nipples, his palms cupping your breasts as he leans in for another kiss, his tongue seeking yours with a hunger that hasn't been sated.Â
The world around you is a blur, your senses focused solely on the feel of his body against yours, the taste of him in your mouth, the scent of sex and sweat in the air. You're putty in his arms, and you wouldn't have it any other way.
The sight of Logan's arousal standing tall and proud only serves to stoke the fires of your own desire. You bite your lip, the anticipation of feeling him inside you again making your pulse race. With a sense of urgency that's become second nature to you both, he pulls himself free from his pants, his length brushing against your wetness.Â
You lean forward, eager to sheath him within your body, and with a gentle push, you lower yourself onto his shaft. Logan's eyes never leave yours as you take him in, his hands gripping your hips tightly to guide your movements. His hips buck upwards, meeting you as you sink down on him, a low groan escaping his throat as you adjust to his size.Â
You wrap your arms around his neck, your nails digging into his shoulders for balance as you begin to move, the heat between you growing with every thrust. His cock fills you completely, stretching you in the most delicious way, and you can't help but gasp into his mouth as your bodies move in a dance as old as time itself.Â
The chair beneath you creaks under the weight of your passion, the sound a testament to the intensity of the moment. You move in unison, each stroke bringing you closer to the edge of ecstasy, your hips grinding against his as you seek that perfect angle, that sweet spot that will send you spiraling over the edge once more.Â
Logan's breathing is ragged, his eyes never leaving yours as he watches the pleasure play out on your face. He whispers sweet nothings into your ear, words of love and desire that only serve to drive you wilder. And as you find that perfect rhythm, as your bodies become one, you know that there's nowhere else you'd rather be than here, with him, in this stolen moment of passion in the early morning light.
With a primal growl, Logan's hips surge upward, driving his hard length into your welcoming warmth. His teeth graze the sensitive skin of your neck, nipping and kissing as his hands guide your hips in a rhythm that matches the rapid beating of your heart.Â
The chair protests under the vigor of your passionate embrace, adding a symphony of squeaks and creaks to the symphony of gasps and moans that fill the room. His strong arms flex, holding you in place as he takes control, his thrusts growing deeper and more demanding. Each movement sends a jolt of pleasure through your body, making you cling to him tighter, your nails digging into his shoulders as you fight to hold on.Â
His scent surrounds you, intoxicating and wild, a reminder of the animalistic need that has taken over both of you. His breath is hot against your ear as he whispers dark, filthy words that only serve to stoke the fire within you, pushing you closer to the precipice of a third shattering climax.Â
The room seems to close in around you, the only reality is the feel of his skin against yours, the sound of your combined breaths, and the pulsing need that demands release. As you move together, you realize that nothing else matters but this moment of raw, unbridled passion, and you're ready to let go of the last vestiges of control and surrender completely to the storm of sensation that he is orchestrating within you.
Logan's hips continue to piston upward, his cock driving into you with a ferocity that leaves you gasping for air. His breath is hot and heavy against your ear, sending shivers down your spine as he whispers sweet, filthy nothings that only serve to make you wetter. You lean back, arching your spine, as he nips at your neck, his teeth grazing your skin just hard enough to make you moan.Â
His hands are a vise on your hips, holding you in place as he thrusts into you, claiming you with every powerful stroke. The chair beneath you groans and squeaks, the only sound in the room aside from the symphony of your ragged breaths and the wet slap of skin on skin.Â
You can feel yourself getting closer, the tension in your belly coiling tighter with every movement. Logan's eyes bore into yours, a silent challenge, as if daring you to hold out against the tide of pleasure threatening to consume you.Â
As you feel Logan's body tense beneath you, you grind down into him with a renewed fervor, your own orgasm building like a storm within you. His eyes blaze with intensity, his jaw clenched as he fights the urge to let go.Â
You know he's close, so very close, and the thought of feeling him come apart inside of you sends a thrill through your body. You rock your hips, taking him deeper, your inner walls clenching around him as your climax looms closer. His breaths come in harsh pants, his grip on your hips tightening as he meets your every movement with his own, driving you both towards the edge.Â
You can see the muscles in his neck strain, the veins bulging with the effort to hold on just a little longer. And then, with a guttural groan, he succumbs to the pleasure, his hips bucking upward as he releases himself into you. The sensation sends you over the edge, your own orgasm cresting and breaking like a wave, your body shaking with the intensity of it.Â
Logan's arms wrap around you, holding you tightly as you ride the waves of pleasure together, your bodies joined in a dance of passion and release. The room falls away, leaving only the sound of your mingled gasps and the frantic beat of your hearts, echoing the intensity of the moment.
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The way Logan would touch himself to the thought of you.
He wasn't the type to touch himself and tame his starvation, not when he was that like with women but being all around you cause of the x men, and still failing at tasting you triggered it. His lust got the best outta him.
He laid on his bed, hand behind his neck, leering at the ceiling and mulling over the long day he had, then his mind spotted you that stopped all the other thoughts.
He felt a flame in his abdomen, a desire, a craving towards you and how you wouldn't even look at his way twice. The way you were so busy with your work enough to not pay attention to anything else, the way you'd crease your brows whenever he'd talk to you.
His fingers hesitantly reached his pants, unzipping it. He adjusted his position on the bed, making himself more comfortable as his first movement was to play with the tip of his cock with one hand only, not even unleashing it, just beneath his boxers.
He hadn't done this in a long while, not alone so it took a while for him to feel at ease. He'd shut his eyes, hand creating a friction alongside his twitching cock, imagining your eyes, your mouth, the way you swayed your hips, laughed, all the lewd daydreams he dared to have about you displayed infront of his closed eyes.
He felt his blood rushing to his cock, small and rare groans escaping his mouth now and then, the way he needed to free his cock as it was only growing harder against his tight boxers.
After he let his dick out, his movements become faster and harsher on his sensitive tip. He had shut his eyes, imagined the one scenerios out of the hundred he had on his mind about you, the harsher he went, the faster he moved his hand down his cock.
His groans were filling the room with the way he imagined to be balls deep inside of your warm embrace. His chest heaving unsteadily.
He took a look at his cock, imagining your mouth around it, sucking as you arched your back on the bed, he'd get a view of your ass. He'd get a fistful of your hair, gently forcing his dick down your throat as your fingers gripped his thighs.
The way he'd thrust into you right after you sucked him, the way your walls would clench around his cock, him stretching it further and further. His firm grip on your waist would be permanent as he'd place kisses on your calf cause he'd make sure to have your leg on his shoulder. The way your pussy would coat his cock with all kinds of juices, making it easy for him to move his cock deep inside you, squelching sounds driving him insaner.
The way he'd go back and forth between watching your face and the way you take him inside you.
Change of positions would be sudden, one second you'd be laying on the bed and the next second you'd arch your back as your moanings were muffled through the sheets.
He'd wanna hear them, pulling your hair as you'd whimper and moan against his touch.
Back to the reality, this would be his climax, causing him to finish in a messy way as he'd have to throw his sheets into the washing machine shamelessly.
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one thing about logan howlettâ the man never does anything without his cigars! why does he make smoking so incredibly hot?
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Shadows of the Past
Youâd been in town for exactly one year, two days, and six hours when he walked into the diner. After that, everything changed. Logan became the love of your life and the two of you bonded over trauma in the past while trying to move forward. *or basically a wolverine origins movie AU of sorts.
a/n: decided to post this fic on here all in one go so yall don't have to go to ao3. i wrote this months ago when i first joined the fandom so it may not be the best or edited well and i don't feel like reading it to make sure.
lumberjack logan howlett x fem!reader - no use of y/n, no reader description but reader does have mutant powers, x-men origins au, evenutal smut, small town, memory loss, angst, eventual romance, softie logan
word count: 27k
In the heart of a remote, small town, ancient trees towered like sentinels over the quiet streets, their canopies forming a vast, emerald roof that seemed to stretch on forever. The few who lived here either cherished the untouched beauty of the wilderness or were lumberjacks, carving out their lives one tree at a time. It was the perfect place to disappear.
That was why you chose itâafter stumbling upon the town during a restless drive, searching for somewhere to lay low for the night.
People kept to themselves, though you caught the occasional whisper with your name in it. You couldnât blame themâany newcomer in a place like this would set nerves on edge. But over time, you proved you were just like them. You took a job as a waitress at the local diner and settled into the motel down the road, quietly trying to carve out a life for yourself.
No one thought twice about youâuntil he showed up. Youâd been in town for exactly one year, two days, and six hours when he walked into the diner. His rugged features and rough manner could have easily blended in with the locals, but something about him stood out like a dark cloud on the horizon.Â
Everyone could sense something was simmering beneath the surface. He had the look of a man itching for a fight, desperate to feel anything at all. The last thing folks wanted here was troubleâand neither did you. You had run from men like him before.
He slid into one of the booths, his eyes sweeping the room with a calculating gaze. A tight white tank peeked out from beneath an unbuttoned plaid shirt, as if he wore the local uniform but with a defiant edge.
You had no choice but to face him. Being the only waitress meant there was no one else to send.
With a steadying breath, you picked up a menu and cautiously approached the booth, forcing a smile as you set it down in front of him. He didnât glance up, didnât even flinch. His eyes remained locked on the large window, something outside holding his attention in a vise-like grip.
âWelcome to the Rusty Spoon. What can I get you?â you asked, your voice steady but tinged with an edge of unease.
âYou live here?â His eyes stayed fixed on the window as if the answer didnât matter as much as what he was watching.
You nodded slowly, then noticed his gaze shifted. âYeah. Whoâs asking?â You tried to sound tough, but the words came out shaky, betraying your nerves.
Finally, he turned his head and looked up at you, his brown eyes intense, pinning you in place. âSomeone whoâs trying toââ He stopped mid-sentence, his gaze locking onto yours. For a moment, his tough exterior faltered, and something in his eyes made you pause. There was a pain there, deep and raw, and suddenly, you realized he wasnât the man you first thought he was.
âItâs a good place to live,â you replied quickly, cutting him off before he could finish. âFolks keep to themselves, and hardly anyone passes through.â You could sense his unease, like a ripple beneath the surface, something unspoken lingering in the air between you.
He nodded, but his gaze remained locked on yours, intense and searching. You raised an eyebrow and gestured to the menu in front of him. âYou gonna order, or do I have to kick you out?â
A slight chuckle escaped him. âIâll have a coffee.â
âA man your size needs more than just coffee,â you teased, trying to lift the mood, though the tension still hung in the air. âI reckon you could use some breakfast.â
He shrugged, a hint of a smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. âSure, whatever you think.â
You grabbed the menu from the table and made your way back to the counter, tossing it into the bin with the others. Though you felt more at ease, you couldnât help but keep an eye on the mystery man. It wasnât because you thought he was dangerousâthere was just something about him, something different.
After placing his food and coffee down, you watched as he stared at it, lost in thought.
âSomething wrong? You donât like eggs?â you asked, raising an eyebrow.
He shook his head slowly. âNo, I mean... I like them.â
You chuckled, leaning in a bit closer. âNot a man of many words, are you?â
âGuess not.â
You hesitated for a moment, then sat across from him. âI can tell youâre running from something,â you said, your voice soft but probing. âI know the feeling. I ran, too, and this place has been my solace ever since.â
You werenât sure why you were sharing this with him. Maybe you sensed a kindred spirit. Maybe it was simple curiosity. Or maybe, after all this time, you just needed someone to talk to. It felt strange, but also comforting, to finally meet someone new in this small, quiet town.
âIâm not running,â he finally said, picking up the fork and taking a deliberate bite of his eggs.
You sighed, leaning back slightly. âEveryone runs from something. Itâs human nature. We run from our problems, our worries... maybe even from someone.â
He looked up, his brows furrowed. âLook, you seem nice, but Iâm not here to chat.â
âSorry,â you muttered, stepping back as you stood up, the brief connection slipping away as quickly as it had formed. âIâll be over there if you need anything.â You gestured toward the counter before hurrying away.
Why had you done that? Youâd let your guard down to some stranger.
Shaking off the thought, you busied yourself with work, tending to the two other customers in the diner, hoping the routine would steady your nerves.
But no matter how hard you tried, your thoughts kept drifting back to him. The way his eyes had darkened when you mentioned running, the tension in his voice when heâd brushed you off. There was something there, something he wasnât saying.
You wiped down the counter, your movements automatic, while your mind spun with possibilities. Was he in trouble? Or was he just someone who preferred to keep his past buried? You had a feeling it was more than that, though. The pain youâd glimpsed in his eyes felt too raw, too recent.
The bell above the dinerâs door jingled, snapping you out of your thoughts. You turned just in time to see him walk out, his steps rough and hurried. A pang of concern flared inside you as you rushed to the booth.
A few crumpled bills lay on the table next to a half-eaten plate. The food was cold and untouched, save for a few bites. His coffee was still steaming in its cup.
You lingered there for a moment, staring at the scene heâd left behind, a knot tightening in your chest. Had you driven him away?
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A few days passed, but your thoughts kept drifting back to the mystery man. You hadnât seen him around town since that morning, leading you to assume heâd left for good. Yet, despite yourself, something inside you longed to see him again.
You sighed, burying your face in your hands. The effect this man had on you was unsettling. You had never felt this way beforeâso drawn to someone you barely knew.
You got ready for work in a daze, your mind still tangled up in thoughts of the mystery man. His presence lingered in your mind like a half-forgotten dream, unsettling and yet impossible to shake. You barely noticed the routine of pulling on your uniform, grabbing your keys, and locking the door behind you as you headed out.
The drive into town took you down the familiar long, winding road, the early morning mist curling around the trees like ghostly fingers. Normally, you find this stretch of road calming, a moment to gather your thoughts before the day begins. But today, your mind was elsewhereâback at the diner, replaying the brief moments youâd spent with him. The intensity of his gaze, the way his voice had wavered when he spoke, the pain youâd seen lurking beneath the surface.
You were so lost in thought that you didnât see the truck in front of you until it was too late. Your car slammed into it with a sickening crunch of metal, jolting you violently against the seatbelt. The airbag deployed, the sudden impact knocking the breath out of you.
For a moment, you just sat there, dazed, your heart pounding in your chest. The smell of burnt rubber and the hiss of escaping steam filled the air. Slowly, you unbuckled your seatbelt and pushed the door open, stumbling out of the car. A few cuts and bruises marked your arms and legs, but otherwise, you were fine.
You looked up at the truck youâd rear-ended, your stomach sinking as you saw the damage. The back of the truck was dented and scraped, but what caught your attention was the man stepping out of the driverâs side.
It was him.
The mystery man turned around, and your eyes widened in shock. A large gash marred his forehead, blood trickling down the side of his face.
âAre you okay?â you blurted out, rushing over to him. Panic surged through you. âWe need to get you to a hospitalââ
He waved you off, his expression unreadable. âIâll be fine,â he muttered, his voice gruff. âItâs just a scratch.â
âA scratch? Youâre bleeding!â you insisted, your hands shaking.Â
As he turned away, something caught your eye. The gash on his foreheadâimpossiblyâwas healing itself. You watched, stunned, as the torn skin slowly knit back together, the blood drying and vanishing as if it had never been there.
You froze, your breath catching in your throat as you watched the wound disappear completely, leaving behind nothing but smooth, unblemished skin.Â
âWhatâŚ?â The word barely made it past your lips, disbelief washing over you like a cold wave.
He glanced back at you, catching the shock in your eyes. âI told you, Iâm fine,â he said, his voice low and steady, but there was a warning in his tone now.
Your mind reeled, trying to make sense of what youâd just seen. Was it a trick of the light? Or were your eyes playing some cruel joke on you? Yet the evidence was right there in front of youâthere was no denying what you had witnessed.
âYouâre one of them,â you whispered, your voice trembling. âA mutant?â
He didnât respond immediately. His intense brown eyes met yours, filled with a mix of resignation and something deeper, something you couldnât quite place. âYou need to forget what you just saw,â he said softly, his tone heavy with an unspoken warning that made your stomach twist.
âI canât just forgetââ you started, but your words died in your throat as he turned back toward you, his eyes still intense and dark.
He sighed, running a hand through his hair, a weary look settling over his face. âIâm just trying to start over, bub. I donât need folks knowing Iâm a mutant.â
You stood there, your heart pounding, trying to process everything. The man in front of youâthis mysterious, gruff strangerâwasnât just anyone. He was a mutant, someone with abilities far beyond the ordinary. Someone like⌠you.
âIâm not going to tell anyone,â you finally managed to say, your voice barely above a whisper. âIs that why you asked about living here?â
He held your gaze for a long moment as if trying to decide whether to trust you with the truth. Finally, he sighed, the weight of his past heavy in his eyes. âYeah,â he admitted. âI need a place like this⌠where people donât ask too many questions. Where they just leave you alone.â
You nodded, understanding all too well the need to escape, to find a place where the past couldnât reach you. âI get it,â you said, surprised by the steadiness in your voice.
He scoffed, a bitter smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. âWhatâs a pretty woman like you gotta run from?â
You hesitated, feeling an unexpected pull toward this manâthis stranger who somehow felt more familiar than he should. âStuff,â you said softly, almost confessing everything but you held back. âDoesnât really matter. I left it behind when I came here.â
He studied you for a moment, his eyes narrowing as if trying to see past the words, to the truth beneath them. The bitter smile faded, replaced by something more sincere, almost understanding. âWe all got our demons, I guess,â he said quietly. âPlaces like this are good for thatâkeeping them buried.â
You nodded, the words striking a chord deep within you. For a moment, the two of you just stood there, the quiet morning air thick with unspoken understanding. You felt an odd sense of comfort in his presence like you werenât as alone as youâd always believed.
âMaybe,â you ventured, breaking the silence, âwe donât have to keep them buried forever. Maybe we just need⌠time.â
He looked at you with a mixture of surprise and something softer, something that hinted at the man behind the guarded exterior. âTime, huh? Iâve got plenty of that. Trust me, it doesnât change a damn thing.â
The weight of his words hit youâthe exhaustion, the loneliness. It mirrored your own, a reflection of the life youâd been leading since you came to this town, hiding in plain sight. You sighed, turning to your car and rubbing your forehead. It was totaled, no doubt.
âWell, I guess Iâm screwed,â you muttered, kicking the tire in frustration.
âIt was my fault. I stopped because I thought I saw a squirrel in the road,â he said, stepping closer. âI can give you a lift. Where were you headed?â
You laughed, not because it was funny, but because you could see he was lying. It all felt like a stroke of bad luck. The kind that left you wondering if the universe was laughing at your expense. In the chaos, youâd completely forgotten about workâand the fact that you were now late.
âIâm supposed to be at the diner,â you replied, almost absentmindedly, as the reality of the situation began to sink in. Then you looked up at him, shaking your head. âSorry, but thereâs no way Iâm getting a lift from you. Youâre a stranger. I donât even know your name.â
He nodded, his eyes softening. âLogan.â
âLogan,â you repeated, the name lingering on your tongue as if trying to find a place in your thoughts, but instead of offering your own, you simply let his name hang in the air between you.
The practical side of you quickly took over. You glanced back at your totaled car, feeling a surge of frustration and helplessness. There was no way you were getting to work on time now, and the idea of walking into town was equally unappealing.
Logan seemed to sense your hesitation. âLook,â he said, his voice softer, almost gentle. âI get it. You donât know me, and youâve got every reason to be cautious. But Iâm not here to hurt you. I just want to help.â
You studied his face, searching for any sign of dishonesty, but all you found was a tired sincerity in his eyes. There was a part of you that still wanted to push him away, to keep the walls up. But another part of youâa part that had been growing quieter and more lonely since youâd arrived in this townâwanted to take the risk, to trust him, if only for a moment.
âAlright,â you said, your voice firm but still holding a trace of uncertainty. âJust to the diner.âÂ
Logan nodded, seeming to understand your need for boundaries. âFair enough,â he replied. âIâll take you to the diner. We can figure out what to do with your car after that.â
With a reluctant sigh, you agreed, walking around to the passenger side of his truck. The door creaked as you opened it, and you hesitated for just a second before climbing in. The seat was worn and the cab smelled faintly of oil and something earthy, like damp leaves. It was clear this truck had seen a lot of miles, just like its owner.
Logan slid into the driverâs seat and started the engine, the rumble of the truck vibrating through the seat. For a few moments, the two of you rode in silence, the winding road passing by outside the window.
As you got closer to town, the reality of the situation began to settle in. You were sitting in a truck with a man who, just moments ago, had been a stranger. A man who had revealed an impossible abilityâa mutant, like you. The thought sent a shiver down your spine, not from fear, but from the sudden understanding that your life might be about to change in ways you hadnât anticipated.
âYou mentioned you were trying to start over,â you said, breaking the silence. âI donât mean to be nosy, but why?â
Logan kept his eyes on the road, his expression unreadable. âYeah, well, you are being nosy,â he replied, though he didnât stop there. âJust seemed like a good place to disappear.â
Disappear. The word echoed in your mind, striking a chord with your reasons for coming to this town. You, too, had been searching for a place to hide, to leave the past behind.
 As the diner came into view, you found yourself hesitant to leave the safety of the truck, of Loganâs company. There was a strange comfort in knowing you werenât the only one with secrets, that maybe, just maybe, you didnât have to face them alone.
He pulled into the parking lot and put the truck in park, glancing over at you. âYou gonna be alright?â
You nodded, though the uncertainty still lingered. âYeah,â you said, more to convince yourself than him. âIâll be fine.â
But as you reached for the door handle, something stopped you. âLogan,â you said, turning to face him. âThanks for the ride.â
He nodded, his gaze softening again. âI owed you.âÂ
With that, you stepped out of the truck and into the crisp morning air, the weight of the day ahead pressing down on you. But as you walked toward the diner, you couldnât help but feel a spark of something newâhope, maybe, or the beginning of a connection you hadnât expected.
As Loganâs truck pulled away, you realized that, for the first time in a long while, you werenât entirely alone.
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You werenât sure how youâd get home, especially with your car left abandoned in the middle of the road. The thought gnawed at you throughout your shift but just a few minutes before the end of it, the door jingled, and you glanced up. Logan stepped into the diner, his presence both unexpected and strangely reassuring.Â
His eyes scanned the diner, searching until they found you behind the counter, wiping down a plate. You offered a small, uncertain smile, still unsure of what to make of this man who seemed to keep reappearing in your life.
He made his way to the counter, the floorboards creaking slightly under his weight. As he approached, the diner seemed to grow quieter, the hum of conversation fading into the background.
âGuessing you still need a ride?â he asked, his voice low, almost as if he didnât want to disturb the fragile peace that had settled between you.
You hesitated, glancing down at the plate in your hands, now spotless from your nervous scrubbing. The practical side of you knew you needed help getting home, but another part of youâthe part that had learned to be cautious, to avoid relying on anyoneâwhispered warnings in the back of your mind.
Still, there was something about Logan that made you want to take the risk.
âYeah,â you finally replied, setting the plate aside and meeting his gaze. âI guess I do.â
Logan nodded as if heâd expected your answer. âIâll wait outside,â he said, turning to leave before you could say anything more.
You quickly finished up your tasks, your mind racing. There was something about Loganâsomething you couldnât quite put your finger onâthat both intrigued and unsettled you.
You clocked out, grabbed your things, and headed outside, where Logan was leaning against his truck, hands in his pockets. The early evening air was cool, the sky tinged with the pinks and purples of a setting sun.
âReady?â he asked as you approached, his tone casual, but his eyes still held that same unreadable depth.
âYeah,â you replied, trying to sound more confident than you felt.
You climbed into the truck, the door creaking in protest. Logan started the engine, and the familiar rumble filled the cab. For a few moments, neither of you spoke, the silence filled only by the sound of tires on asphalt as he pulled out of the dinerâs parking lot.
As he drove down the winding road toward your place, you stole glances at him, trying to piece together the puzzle that was Logan. There was so much you didnât know about him, and yet, there was a strange sense of comfort in his presence.
Finally, you broke the silence. âThanks for this. I wasnât sure how I was going to get home.â
âLeast I could do,â he replied, eyes fixed on the road.Â
You nodded, though he couldnât see it. âWhyâd you come back?âÂ
Logan glanced at you briefly before returning his attention to the road. âFigured youâd need help getting home.â
A few minutes passed in comfortable silence before your place came into view. You directed him to pull into the driveway, the truck coming to a stop with a low rumble. Neither of you made a move to get out right away.
âThanks again, Logan,â you said, your voice softer now, almost reluctant to let go of this strange, unexpected connection.
He nodded, finally turning to meet your gaze. âIt was no trouble,â he said, his tone light, though there was a flicker of something more in his eyes. You hesitated, your hand resting on the door handle, sensing he had something else to say. His lips parted slightly as if weighing the words.
âI got a job,â he said, almost as if testing how it would sound out loud.
Your eyes widened in surprise. âThatâs great! I guess Iâll be seeing you in more plaid then.â
A faint smile tugged at the corner of his mouth. âHow did you know?â
You returned the smile. âMost men around here are lumberjacks. Itâs the best work.â
Loganâs smile lingered for a moment before he turned his gaze back to the windshield. âYeah, lumberjacking,â he said as if trying on the word for size. âItâs honest work. Keeps you busy.â
âHard work, too,â you added, leaning back in your seat, feeling a mix of relief and something you couldnât quite name. âBut I guess thatâs what youâre looking for.â
He nodded, the lightness in his voice giving way to something more serious. âKeeps me out of trouble,â he said, though there was an edge to his tone, a hint of the trouble he was alluding to.
We both fell silent again, the air thick with unspoken words. There was so much you wanted to ask him, to understand about this man who had somehow become a part of your life in a single day. But you held back, knowing that pushing too hard could drive him away.
Instead, you settled for something simpler. âWell, if you ever need a good meal after a long day, you know where to find me.â
He looked over at you, his expression softening. âI might just take you up on that,â he said, his voice carrying a warmth that surprised you.
You smiled, feeling a strange comfort in the idea of seeing him again. âIâll hold you to it.â
With that, the moment passed, and you both knew it was time to part ways. You reached for the door handle again, this time more decisively. âGood luck with the job, Logan,â you said as you stepped out of the truck, the cool evening air brushing against your skin.
âThanks,â he replied, watching you for a moment longer before turning his gaze back to the windshield. âBe more careful.â
You nodded, closing the door behind you, and watched as he pulled out of your driveway, the truckâs taillights glowing faintly in the gathering dusk. You stood there for a moment, your hands in your pockets, feeling the quiet of the evening settle around you.
As the sound of his truck faded into the distance, you couldnât help but wonder what tomorrow would bring. There was a sense of change in the air, a feeling that your life was shifting in ways you hadnât anticipated. But for once, it didnât scare you. Instead, it filled you with cautious hope, the kind that made you think maybe, just maybe, you were done running.
You turned and headed toward your front door, a small smile playing on your lips. Whatever was coming, you felt ready to face itâone day at a time.
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Sunlight peeked through your curtains as you sat up in bed, stifling a yawn. The quiet of living surrounded by nothing but forest filled your earsâan almost tangible silenceâuntil it was broken by a sudden knock at the door.
You groaned, reluctantly crawling out of bed to throw on an oversized shirt before heading to the front door. Cautiously, you peered through the peephole and saw Logan standing there, fidgeting slightly. He wore a dark blue plaid shirt, the top few buttons undone, revealing a glimpse of his chest.
Your brows knitted together in confusion as you wondered what he was doing here, especially this early. Slowly, you unlocked the door and pulled it open. âHey,â you greeted him, crossing your arms, both curious and guarded.
His eyes wandered over you, his brow lifting in question. âYouâre not ready?â
âWhy would I be?â you replied, confusion clouding your features as you looked up at him.
âI thought you might need a ride to work again,â he said, his tone casual but his eyes searching yours for a reaction.
âOh, I shouldâve told you yesterdayâIâm off today. Sorry about that,â you said, a hint of embarrassment creeping into your voice.Â
He nodded, a slight smile tugging at the corners of his lips. âNo worries. I was just passing by.â
âShouldnât you be chopping down trees?â you teased, a playful glint in your eye.
Logan chuckled softly, the sound low and warm. âYou caught me. Iâm on my way now. Just thought Iâd see if you needed a ride.âÂ
The gesture took you by surprise. It was small, but it hinted at a concern that you werenât used to, especially from someone youâd only just met. âThatâs... really nice of you,â you said, dropping your arms to your sides, your guard softening a bit more.
He shrugged, though the smile lingered. âFigure itâs the least I can do after yesterday.â
You nodded, appreciating his thoughtfulness more than you expected. âWell, I appreciate it.â
There was a brief, comfortable silence between you, the kind that felt less like an ending and more like a pauseâlike there was more to say, but neither of you was quite ready to say it.
âSo, you gonna be okay without a car?â he asked, finally breaking the silence.
You glanced back toward the driveway, where your car sat after being towed home, still banged up from the other day. âIâll have to get it towed into town,â you said, a hint of frustration in your voice. âBut Iâll manage.â
Logan nodded. âIf you need help with that, just let me know. Iâve got some tools, could take a look or maybe once I make some money I could help you buy a new one.â
âThanks,â you replied, touched by his offer. âYouâve done a lot already.â
âAlright, Iâll let you get back to your day. Donât wanna keep you.â
You gave him a small smile, feeling an unexpected reluctance to see him go. âGood luck with the trees.â
He chuckled, the sound easing the lingering tension. âYeah, thanks. Take care, okay?â
âYou too, Logan,â you said, watching as he turned and walked back to his truck.
As he drove away, you stood there for a moment, feeling the warmth of the morning sun on your face. The encounter had left you with a strange mixture of emotionsâgratitude, curiosity, and a faint sense of anticipation. Logan was becoming more than just the stranger who had helped you out. He was someone you were beginning to feel connected to, in a way that both excited and unnerved you.
With a deep breath, you turned back inside, closing the door behind you.Â
You hadnât expected to see Logan again so soon. Your day had been busyâcleaning the house, flipping through the phonebook, and using the landline to call local mechanics. The morning slipped into the evening quickly, the hours blurring together in a steady rhythm of tasks.
You had just finished making dinner, the scent of food filling the kitchen, a beer in hand, when a familiar knock echoed through the quiet, catching you off guard. Quickly, you made your way to the door, a sense of recognition washing over youâLogan. You could tell it was him even before you opened it, just from the energy he brought with him.Â
âHello again,â you greeted him with a grin, leaning casually against the doorframe. âI guess you just canât get enough of me, huh?â
Logan chuckled, the corners of his mouth lifting into a faint smile. âMaybe,â he replied, his tone light but his eyes still holding that intensity you were starting to get used to. âOr maybe I just figured Iâd check in. See how youâre doing.â
You raised an eyebrow, pretending to consider his words. âSo, youâre playing the concerned neighbor now?â you teased, though you couldnât deny the warmth his gesture stirred within you.
âSomething like that,â he said, leaning slightly against the doorframe opposite you. âPlus, I figured you might need some help with your car.â
âI wasnât expecting a mechanic at my door, but Iâm not complaining,â you said, your grin widening. âDinnerâs just about ready. If you donât mind a little company while you wait, youâre welcome to stay.â
Logan hesitated for a moment as if weighing his options. âI wouldnât want to impose,â he finally said, though his eyes betrayed a hint of interest.
âItâs no imposition,â you assured him. âConsider it my way of saying thanks for the ride yesterdayâand for coming back today.â
He nodded, accepting your invitation with a small, grateful smile. âAlright then,â he said. âI could use a good meal.â
You stepped aside, letting him in. As he walked past you into the warm, cozy kitchen, you noticed the subtle tension in his posture ease slightly, as if the atmosphere of your home provided a welcome change from whatever he was used to.
âMake yourself comfortable,â you said, gesturing toward the small dining table. âIâll grab you a plate.â
Logan took a seat, glancing around the kitchen as if taking in the details. âSmells good,â he remarked, his voice softer now, less guarded.
âThanks,â you replied, setting a plate in front of him before sitting down across from him. âItâs nothing fancy, but itâll fill you up.â
He nodded, picking up his fork and taking a bite. For a few moments, the two of you ate in comfortable silence, the quiet punctuated only by the clinking of silverware. There was something oddly intimate about the momentâsharing a meal, the easy quiet between you. It felt natural like this wasnât the first time youâd sat across from each other at the table.
After a while, Logan looked up, his eyes meeting yours. âYou didnât have to invite me in, you know.â
You shrugged, offering a warm smile. âI know, but I wanted to.â You paused, setting your fork down. âBesides, youâre not as scary as you try to be.â
âGuess youâve got me all figured out,â Logan replied, a playful glint in his eyes.
You watched him for a moment, the smile tugging at your lips growing a little wider. âMaybe,â you said with a teasing lilt. âAnyway, how was your first day? Chopping trees and all?â
Logan leaned back in his chair, a thoughtful expression crossing his face as he considered your question. âIt was⌠different,â he admitted, running a hand through his hair. âBut itâs honest work. That counts for something, I supposeâmore than what I used to do.â
There it wasâa crack in his carefully constructed walls. A small, revealing glimpse into Loganâs past. But was it an invitation to know more or just a slip-up?
âI donât know why I said that,â he admitted, shaking his head slightly as if trying to make sense of it himself. âSomething about you⌠makes me want to spill my guts.â
You chuckled nervously, your lips pursed as you tried to process his unexpected admission. Loganâs eyes narrowed slightly, picking up on the shift in your demeanor as your gaze flickered away from his. âI have a way of soothing peopleâcalming them down,â you offered, trying to deflect the tension.
His eyes studied you intently, a new spark of interest igniting. âYouâre like me, arenât you?â he asked quietly. âA mutant?â
You nodded, a wave of guilt washing over you. It felt like youâd been hiding something from Logan, even though he hadnât asked directly. âFigures. I moved here to get away from being called a mutant, only to have one find me,â you said, a wry smile tugging at your lips.
âI ran because I didnât fit in,â you admitted, your voice quieter now. âMy parents⌠they didnât understand. They wanted to fix me, cure this disease as they called it. So, I turned to people I thought did understandâother mutants. Except they didnât just want to live in peace. They wanted to rebel. If humans didnât understand us, then weâd make them.â
Loganâs expression hardened as you continued your story. âI thought I was making a positive change in the world. Who cared if people got hurt in the process, as long as we got what we wanted⌠power but I realized too late that wasnât what I wanted to fight for. By then, Iâd already created enemies, and killed innocent peopleââ
You trailed off, feeling your emotions spiral out of control, the weight of your past pressing down on you. Taking a deep breath, you tried to steady yourself, pushing the memories back down. âAnyway,â you continued, âI ran. I ran for a long time until I found this place and decided to call it home.â
Logan shifted slightly in his chair, his hand instinctively reaching across the table, but you shook your head, stopping him. âI make you feel calm because thatâs my gift,â you explained, your voice steady but laced with caution. âI do it without even realizing it. I can intensify any emotion, and if I were to touch you⌠Iâd feel your strongest emotion and amplify it. The same goes for memories. I can change the emotions you felt, manipulate them.â
Loganâs hand froze mid-reach, his expression hardening as he processed what youâd just said. His eyes, which had been soft with concern moments ago, now held a flicker of something elseâwary curiosity, maybe even fear.
âYou can change memories?â he asked, his voice low, almost as if he was testing the words on his tongue.
You nodded slowly, your heart heavy with the truth youâd just revealed. âItâs not something I do lightly,â you said, trying to ease the tension you felt building between you. âIâve learned to control it, to keep my distance when I need to but the ability is always there, under the surface.â
Loganâs gaze bore into you, searching for somethingâreassurance, perhaps, or maybe the boundaries of your power. âSo, if you wanted to⌠you could make me feel something that never happened?â
âOr change how you feel about something that did,â you admitted, feeling a pang of guilt at how vulnerable that made him. âBut I wouldnât. Not without reason. Itâs not who I want to be.â
He leaned back in his chair, his expression unreadable, a long silence stretching between you. It was the kind of silence that felt like a crossroadsâwhere trust could either be built or shattered.
Finally, he sighed, his shoulders relaxing just a fraction. âThatâs a lot of power to carry around,â he said, his tone softer now, less guarded.
âIt is,â you agreed, relief washing over you as you saw the tension in him ease. âItâs why Iâve been so careful. Why I ran. I didnât want to hurt anyone anymore.â
Logan nodded, his gaze softening again as he looked at you, understanding beginning to replace the earlier wariness. âIt sounds like youâve been carrying this burden for a long time.â
You swallowed, feeling the weight of his words settle over you. âYeah,â you said quietly. âToo long.â
There was another pause, this one less tense, more contemplative. Logan seemed to be weighing something in his mind, his eyes studying you with a depth that made your heart race.
âI guess weâve both got our share of secrets,â he finally said, his tone almost resigned, as if accepting the complexity of what lay between you.
You offered him a small, tentative smile. âItâs not easy to trust, but I can sense you understand better than anyone.â
He nodded a flicker of hesitation in his gaze. âYeah. I guess this is the part where I tell you why Iâm here?â
âOnly if you want to,â you replied, giving him a small shrug. âWe donât have to swap war stories just because I told you mine.â
Logan leaned back in his chair, his gaze dropping to the table as if he were searching for the right words. You could see the conflict in his eyes, the internal struggle of whether to share what heâd kept hidden for so long. Finally, after what felt like an eternity, he began to speak, his voice low and gravelly.
âMy brother and I⌠weâve been fighting our whole lives,â he started, his tone resigned but tinged with a weariness that spoke of years of battles, both literal and figurative. âWeâve fought in every major war youâve heard of, and plenty you havenât. Weâre oldâolder than youâd believe. Back then, it felt like fighting was all we knew, all we were good at.â
He paused, letting the weight of his words settle over the room. You didnât press him, sensing that this was as difficult for him as your story had been for you.
âAfter the Vietnam War ended, things changed,â he continued, his voice taking on a darker edge. âWe were approached by a groupâa mutant group called Team X. They promised us purpose, a place where we could belong. We were soldiers, after all, and thatâs what we did best. My brother, Victor, was all in from the start. He always had a taste for violence, even when it wasnât necessary. He thrived in that environment.â
Loganâs expression tightened, a flicker of pain crossing his features as he spoke about his brother. âBut me⌠I started to see things differently. Team X wasnât just about fighting battlesâthey were about control, about power at any cost. And Victor⌠he embraced that. Started killing people just because he could, because it made him feel strong. Innocent people. I couldnât be a part of that.â
He looked up at you then, his eyes filled with a mix of regret and resolve. âSo I walked away. Left the team, and left my brother. Tried to find some kind of peace, if thatâs even possible for someone like me. But Victor⌠he didnât stop. He kept going, kept killing, and Iâve been running from it ever since.â
You watched him in silence, the weight of his confession heavy between you. It was clear that Logan carried the scars of his past deeply, that his brotherâs betrayal had cut him in ways that were hard to put into words.
âI guess thatâs why Iâm here,â he said, his voice softening. âLooking for a place to hide, to forget. But itâs not so easy, is it? No matter how far you run, the past has a way of catching up.â
You nodded, understanding all too well the truth in his words. âNo, itâs not easy,â you agreed quietly. âBut it sounds like you made the right choice. Walking away, even when it cost you everything.â
Logan looked at you, the corners of his mouth twitching into something that might have been a smile, though it was more sadness than anything else. âMaybeâŚbut it doesnât change what happened. Doesnât change who I am.â
âI guess that makes two of us,â you replied, your voice soft but steady.
There was a long pause as the two of you sat there, letting the weight of what had been shared settle between you. It was a strange feeling, this mutual vulnerability. You had each opened up parts of yourselves that were usually kept hidden, and in doing so, had created a bondâfragile, but undeniably real.
The two of you sat there for a moment longer, letting the words linger in the air, before Logan finally stood up, pushing his chair back with a gentle scrape. âI should probably get going,â he said, though his voice was reluctant.
You nodded, standing up as well. âYeah, big day tomorrow,â you said, offering him a genuine smile. âAnd thanks for stopping by. Donât worry about fixing my carâI know you were lying about stopping to save the squirrel.â
Logan chuckled, the sound low and warm. âYeah, you caught me,â he admitted, a playful glint in his eyes. âI figured the squirrel excuse was better than admitting you were the one who rear-ended me.âÂ
You shook your head, amused by his honesty. You felt a warmth spread through you as he headed for the door but before he opened it, he paused, glancing back at you. âYou sure youâll be okay?â
âIâll be fine,â you assured him, your tone light but sincere.
Logan nodded, his gaze holding yours for a moment longer as if he was weighing whether or not to say something else. But instead, he simply gave you a small, reassuring smile. âAlright then. Iâll see you in the morning unless your car magically fixes itself.â
âOkay.â you smiled, watching as he finally turned the knob and stepped out into the cool night air.
You stood by the door for a moment after he left, listening to the fading sound of his truck as it rumbled down the driveway and disappeared into the distance. The house felt quiet and still, but it wasnât the kind of silence that made you uneasy. Instead, it felt like the calm after a stormâa moment of peace after the intensity of what had been shared.
As you turned away from the door and began to tidy up the kitchen, you couldnât help but reflect on how much had changed in such a short amount of time. Loganâs unexpected presence in your life had stirred up feelings and memories youâd long tried to bury, but it had also given you something elseâhope. Hope that you werenât as alone as youâd always believed and that maybe, just maybe, there was a way to find peace with your past.
You sighed, leaning against the counter as you thought back to the conversation youâd had. The way Logan had opened up to you about his brother, about the wars and the pain he carriedâit resonated with you in a way that few things ever had. There was a part of you that wanted to help him carry that burden, to share in the weight of it, just as heâd seemed willing to do with yours.
But you knew it wouldnât be easy. Trust was a fragile thing, easily broken and difficult to rebuild. Yet, as you stood there in the quiet of your kitchen, you found yourself more willing to take that risk than youâd ever been before.
With a final glance at the door, you turned off the lights and headed to bed, feeling a strange mixture of exhaustion and anticipation. Tomorrow was a new day, and while you didnât know exactly what it would bring, you felt more prepared to face it.
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A month had passed, and your whole life had changed. Logan showed up every morning to pick you up and drop you off at work. With him around, fixing your car seemed unnecessary. On your days off, heâd come over after his work, and the two of you would share dinner.
You began to forget what life was like before he showed up. The days without him seemed distant, almost unreal as if they belonged to someone elseâs story. Logan had become woven into the fabric of your everyday life, making the idea of going back to how things were feel impossible.
It wasnât just the routines that had changedâit was everything. The quiet of your home no longer felt lonely, the days were filled with a sense of purpose, and the nights were shared with someone who understood the weight of your past. Logan wasnât just a part of your life now; he was the anchor that kept you grounded.
The walls youâd once kept around your heart were slowly crumbling, and with each day that passed, you found yourself opening up to Logan more and more. He, in turn, shared pieces of his life with youâstories about his past, his experiences, and even his fears. The trust between you grew, a steady bond that neither of you took for granted.
One evening, after another quiet dinner, the two of you found yourselves lingering at the table, the conversation winding down but neither of you wanted to move. The night outside was still, the only sound was the gentle rustling of leaves in the breeze.
Logan broke the silence first. âYou know,â he began, his voice soft, almost contemplative, âI never thought Iâd find something like this.â
âLike what?â you asked, your curiosity piqued.
He looked at you, his expression serious yet warm. âThis⌠peace. After everything Iâve been through, I didnât think it was possible but you⌠you make it feel real like I can have a life without being a monster.â
âLogan. You arenât a monster.â You said reaching across the table to gently take his hand. âWe did what we thought was best and sometimes our best is all we can do.âÂ
Logan nodded, softly rubbing his thumb against your skin in a comforting manner. You sighed, leaning closer to him wishing moments like this never had to end. âYou know, I didnât think it was possible either,â you admitted, your voice just as soft. â To have a life without chaos but somehow, here we are.â
He smiled a genuine, heartfelt expression that made your chest tighten in the best possible way. âYeah,â he said, his tone almost reverent. âHere we are.â
The moment hung between you, charged with an unspoken energy. Your gaze drifted to Loganâs lips, slightly parted, as his eyes darkened. âWe shouldnât,â you murmured, though your voice wavered. Despite your words, you found yourself leaning closer, your arm brushing against his.
Every instinct screamed at you to leap out of your chair, to break the tension by jumping into his lap in a sudden burst of energy, but you stayed planted, caught between desire and restraint.Â
Loganâs gaze didnât waver, his eyes still locked on yours. The air between you seemed to thrum with the tension of what wasnât being said, the words tangled up with everything you both wanted but were too afraid to reach for. His arm brushed against yours again, the contact sending a jolt of warmth through you, grounding you in the moment.
âI know we shouldnât,â Logan finally whispered, his voice rough and low, as if he were struggling with the same emotions that were swirling inside you. âBut itâs hard⌠being this close and pretending thereâs nothing there.â
You swallowed hard, trying to steady your breath, but your pulse was racing, and it was getting harder to remember why you had even said those words in the first place. âLoganâŚâ
He shifted closer, the movement slow, deliberate. âTell me to stop,â he murmured, though his tone suggested he wasnât entirely sure he could. âTell me, and I will.â
But you didnât say anything. You couldnât. Instead, you found yourself leaning in, the pull between you undeniable, your lips almost brushing his.Â
And then, before either of you could change your mind, the distance disappeared.
His lips met yours with a quiet intensity that made your heart skip a beat. The world around you seemed to blur, narrowing down to the sensation of his mouth on yours, the warmth of his touch as his hand found its way to the small of your back, drawing you closer.
For a moment, everything else fell awayâthe doubts, the fears, the reasons youâd given yourself to keep your distance. All that mattered was this, the connection youâd been dancing around for weeks now, finally igniting.
You felt yourself relax into the kiss, your hand moving up to rest on his chest, feeling the steady thrum of his heartbeat beneath your palm. It was real, and for the first time in a long time, you allowed yourself to believe that maybe this was okayâthat maybe, in Loganâs arms, you could find something good, something that wouldnât be taken away by the past.
When you finally pulled back, breathless, you found Loganâs gaze on you, his eyes still dark but now filled with something softerâsomething that spoke of promises and a future that, for the first time, didnât feel quite so uncertain.
âWe should take this slow,â you managed to say, your voice a whisper, still trying to catch your breath.
Logan nodded, a small, understanding smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. âYeah,â he agreed, his thumb gently brushing against your cheek. âSlow is good. Weâve got time.â
You nodded too, feeling a sense of relief mixed with excitement. âTime,â you echoed, letting the word settle between you, a reminder that there was no need to rushâno need to force what was already building naturally between you.
Logan held his forehead against yours, his breath warm and steady, mingling with your own. For a long moment, neither of you moved, content to stay in that stillness, where words werenât needed. It felt like the world outside had faded away, leaving just the two of you and the quiet connection you shared.
You closed your eyes, allowing yourself to be fully present in the moment. You could feel the steady rise and fall of his chest, the strength in his arms as they wrapped around you, and the calm that settled over you as you breathed in his scentâearthy, familiar, grounding.
âIâve been alone for so long,â he murmured, his voice a low rumble that you felt more than heard. âI never thought⌠I never thought Iâd find something like this. Like you.â
His words sent a warm flutter through your chest, a sensation that you werenât entirely used to but were starting to crave. You opened your eyes, pulling back just enough to meet his gaze. The vulnerability you saw there mirrored your own, and it made you want to hold on to him even tighter.
âYouâre not alone anymore,â you whispered, your voice steady despite the emotions swirling inside you.
Loganâs eyes softened, and he nodded slightly as if acknowledging a truth that had taken him a long time to accept. âI know,â he said quietly, his hand moving up to gently cup the side of your face.
You leaned into his touch, feeling the warmth of his palm against your cheek, the comfort of his presence. It was a simple gesture, but it carried the weight of everything you both had been throughâyour pasts, your fears, your hopes for what might come next.
Eventually, Logan pulled back slightly, his hand still lingering on your cheek. âI should probably go,â he said, though there was a hint of reluctance in his voice.
You sighed, a wave of sadness washing over you. âWhy donât you stay? Please stay.â
He chuckled softly, raising an eyebrow. âWhat happened to taking it slow?â
âIâm not asking you to move in,â you replied with a small smile. âI bet you would get a better night's sleep here than at your place.â
Loganâs gaze softened, but there was a seriousness in his eyes. âI canât. If I stay⌠I donât think I can control myself.â
You held his gaze, your heart fluttering at the intensity in his eyes. âI trust you, Logan,â you said softly, your voice steady despite the emotions swirling inside you. âBut I understand.â
For a moment, he didnât respond, his eyes searching yours as if weighing his options. The air between you felt thick with unspoken words, with the tension of wanting something you both knew you needed to be careful with.
Finally, he sighed, a mix of frustration and restraint in his breath. âItâs not about trust,â he murmured, his voice rough. âItâs about wanting you too much, too soon.â
You nodded, feeling a pang of disappointment but also a sense of respect for his honesty. âOh,â you whispered, not pushing any further. âGoodnight, Logan.â
His gaze softened further, and with a gentle touch, he brushed a strand of hair behind your ear before leaning in. His lips pressed a soft, lingering kiss to your forehead, a silent promise of patience and understanding.
âGoodnight,â he whispered back, his voice barely above a breath, before he finally stepped back, his hand trailing down your arm as he moved toward the door.
As he opened it, the cool night air rushed in stark contrast to the warmth that had filled the room moments before. You watched as he paused in the doorway, glancing back at you one last time, a small, almost reluctant smile on his lips.
âIâll see you tomorrow,â he said, a promise in his tone.
âIâll be here,â you replied, your voice steady, though your heart ached just a little as you watched him leave.
When the door closed behind him, the room felt emptier, the silence heavier. However, as you climbed into bed, pulling the covers up around you, you let yourself drift off to sleep with a smile on your face, the memory of Loganâs touch lingering on your skin like a promise.
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The next morning, you woke up to the sound of Loganâs truck pulling into the driveway. A familiar warmth spread through you at the thought of seeing him again. You dressed quickly, eager to be near him.
When you opened the door, Logan was already standing there, leaning against the side of his truck with his hands in his pockets. As you approached, he looked up, a smile tugging at the corner of his lips.
âMorning,â he greeted you, his voice warm but carrying a hint of something moreâsomething that lingered from the night before.
âMorning,â you replied, matching his smile. Without hesitation, he pushed himself off the truck and pulled you into an embrace, pressing a soft kiss to your head.
âWhy donât you drive me to work and then use my truck to do whatever you want,â Logan suggested, his eyes meeting yours as you looked up at him.
You chuckled, the idea warming you. âNot much to do around here, but Iâll take you up on that offer.â
The drive was longer than you expected, but it gave you time to talk. Logan kept one hand on the steering wheel, the other resting comfortably on your thigh, his focus mostly on the road ahead. Now and then, heâd glance over at you, a small smile tugging at his lips, as if he couldnât help but be reassured by your presence.
When you arrived at the lumberyard, Logan parked the truck and turned to face you. âI left some money in the glovebox for you.â
âGee, maybe I can find something nice to buy,â you teased, leaning toward him with a playful grin.
Logan smirked, his eyes glinting with amusement as he leaned in closer, closing the small distance between you. âJust donât spend it all in one place,â he quipped, his voice low and teasing.
You rolled your eyes, but the smile on your face gave away your amusement. âIâll try to restrain myself,â you replied, the playful banter making the moment feel light and easy.
For a moment, neither of you moved, the proximity sparking a quiet tension between you. His gaze flickered down to your lips, and you could feel your heart start to race.
Logan hesitated, then pulled back slightly, a soft sigh escaping his lips. âI should get going,â he said, his voice still warm but now edged with the responsibility of the day ahead. âDonât want to be late.â
You nodded, biting your lip to keep from asking him to stay. Logan reached out, his hand brushing lightly against your cheek, a tender touch that sent a shiver down your spine before he pulled away entirely. With one last lingering look, he opened the door and stepped out of the truck.
You cursed under your breath, sliding over to the driver's side and jumping out. âLogan,â you called, your voice urgent. He stopped in his tracks, turning around just as you reached him. Before he could say a word, you grabbed him by the neck, pulling him toward you, your lips crashing against his.
Logan stiffened for a brief moment, caught off guard by the suddenness of your kiss, but then he melted into it, his hands finding their way to your waist, pulling you closer. The world seemed to fall away, leaving just the two of you standing there in the cool morning air, locked in a kiss that spoke of all the unspoken emotions that had been simmering between you.
His lips moved against yours with a tenderness that contrasted with the urgency of the moment as if he was trying to savor every second. You could feel the warmth of his breath, the steady beat of his heart as it pressed against your chest, and the way his hands tightened slightly on your waist, grounding you in the reality of what was happening.
When you finally pulled back, breathless, Loganâs eyes searched yours, a mix of surprise, desire, and something deeper that neither of you had put into words yet. His forehead rested against yours as both of you tried to catch your breath.
âWhat was that for?â he asked, his voice a low rumble, though the hint of a smile tugged at the corners of his mouth.
You smiled, your breath coming in soft gasps. âJust⌠couldnât let you walk away without doing that.â
His smile widened, and he leaned in, pressing another brief, tender kiss to your lips, this one softer, less urgent but no less meaningful. âIâm not complaining,â he murmured, his voice warm with affection.
âHave a good day,â you replied, your voice steady.
Logan nodded, his hand coming up to gently cup the side of your face, his thumb brushing over your cheek. âI will thanks to you.âÂ
Logan glanced at the lumberyard behind him, a reminder of the day ahead. âI do have to go,â he said, regret lacing his words.
You nodded, stepping back to give him space. âI know. Iâll see you later.â
He hesitated for a second, then gave you a final, lingering look before turning and walking away, his strides confident but with an underlying reluctance, as if leaving you was the last thing he wanted to do.
As you climbed back into the truck, the taste of his lips still lingering on yours, a smile tugged at your lips. You turned your attention to the glovebox, opening it to find a small stack of bills. He didnât have to leave you money, but it was a thoughtful gestureâone that showed just how much he cared.
Starting the truck, you pulled out of the parking lot, feeling a sense of peace as the early morning light cast a warm glow over the landscape. There wasnât much to do in town, but the idea of having a little time to yourselfâand the freedom of Loganâs truck at your disposalâfelt like a small adventure in itself.
As you drove, your thoughts drifted to how much had changed in such a short time. Logan had become an integral part of your life, his presence comforting and constant. The days of feeling isolated and alone were fading into the background, replaced by the warmth of connection and the promise of something more.
By the time you reached the small town center, you had a few ideas on how to spend your morning. You parked the truck and stepped out, breathing in the crisp air as you glanced around. The shops were just beginning to open, and you decided to take a stroll down the main street.
You wandered past the general store, the hardware shop, and the small cafĂŠ that was starting to fill with its usual morning crowd. Something was charming about the simplicity of it all, something that put you at ease.
The day passed quickly, the hours slipping by as you wandered through the town, enjoying the simple pleasure of a day to yourself. As the afternoon sun began to dip lower in the sky, you found yourself thinking about Logan and the quiet, comforting moments youâd shared that morning. A thought crossed your mind, and a small smile spread across your face.
With the money Logan had left in the glovebox, you decided to treat him to something specialâa nice dinner for the two of you. It wasnât much, but it was a way to show your appreciation for everything heâd done, for the way heâd been there for you, even in such a short time.
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After getting back home, you started on dinner while Logan went to take a shower. You thought you had more time, but soon enough, Logan stepped into the kitchen, looking pleasantly surprised to find you bustling around. âWhatâs all this?â he asked, his voice filled with curiosity and warmth.
You turned to face him, noticing his hair still slightly damp. âI decided to use the money you left me to treat us to a nice dinner. I hope youâre hungry.â
A grin spread across Loganâs face as he walked over to you, his eyes filled with appreciation. âThis smells amazing,â he said, leaning in to give you a quick kiss on the cheek. âYou didnât have to do all this.â
âI wanted to,â you replied, feeling a warmth spread through you at his touch. âItâs my way of saying thank youâfor everything.â
Loganâs gaze softened, and he reached out to tuck a loose strand of hair behind your ear. âIâm the one who should be thanking you,â he said quietly. âBut letâs call it even.â
You laughed softly, the sound mingling with the clinking of dishes as you finished setting the table. âDeal. Now, sit down.â You teased, gesturing toward the chair.Â
As the two of you sat down to dinner, the evening unfolded in a series of easy, comfortable momentsâlaughter, conversation, and the simple pleasure of sharing a meal with someone you cared about. The connection between you felt even stronger, the bond deepening with each shared word, and each exchanged a glance.
By the time the meal was finished, the night felt like a warm, enveloping blanket, wrapping the two of you in its embrace. Logan reached across the table, taking your hand in his, and you could feel the strength and tenderness in his grip.
âThank you,â he said, his voice soft but filled with meaning. âFor this. For everything.â
You smiled, your heart swelling with affection as you pressed your lips gently to his hand. âI want you to stay tonight,â you whispered, the words carrying both vulnerability and hope.
Loganâs eyes softened as he gazed at you, his thumb gently stroking the back of your hand. For a moment, he didnât say anything, just looked at you as if trying to memorize every detail of your face. When he finally spoke, his voice was low and steady, full of quiet sincerity.
âI want that too,â he admitted, his words heavy with the weight of the decision. âMore than you know.â
Relief washed over you, mingling with the warmth that had been building between you all evening. The simple act of asking him to stay had felt monumental, and now, with his answer, it felt like something had clicked into placeâsomething that had been hovering just out of reach, now within your grasp.
Logan stood up slowly, his hand still holding yours as he walked around the table to stand beside you. He helped you to your feet, and for a moment, you just stood there, facing each other in the soft glow of the kitchen lights. The world outside felt distant, and irrelevant, as if the only thing that mattered was the two of you, here and now.
Without another word, Logan pulled you into his arms, holding you close. You could feel the steady beat of his heart against your chest and could sense the calm that had settled over him. You knew this was a big step for both of you, but it felt rightâlike it was the natural progression of everything that had been building between you.
His hand moved to cup your face, tilting it up so he could look into your eyes. âAre you sure?â he asked, his voice barely above a whisper as if giving you one last chance to change your mind.
You nodded, your lips curving into a small, reassuring smile. âIâm sure, Logan. I want this.â
His eyes darkened slightly, with something deeper, more intense. Then, without another word, he leaned in and kissed youâsoftly at first, then with more urgency as the reality of the moment sank in. The kiss was full of unspoken promises, trust and desire, and everything that had been simmering between you.
When you finally broke apart, breathless, you didnât need to say anything. The decision had already been made.
âIâll clean this up later,â Logan said softly, his voice low and filled with warmth. âBut right now, I just need you, sweetheart.â
He took your hand, leading you out of the kitchen and down the hallway to your bedroom. The night outside was dark, the world quiet, as the two of you stepped into the room, closing the door softly behind you.
The space felt different nowâmore intimate, more charged with the energy of what was about to happen. You stood together in the dim light, your hands still intertwined, and for a moment, you just looked at each other, letting the anticipation build.
Then Logan moved closer, his hands sliding around your waist, pulling you against him. His touch was gentle, but there was an undercurrent of desire that made your pulse quicken. Slowly, he began to lift your shirt over your head, his movements careful and deliberate, as if savoring every moment.
âIâll go slow unless you tell me otherwise,â he murmured, his breath warm against your skin.
You smiled against his lips as your fingers worked to remove his shirt. He slipped it over his head, then cupped your face with both hands, his touch tender yet filled with intent.
âJust touch me, Logan,â you whispered, your voice carrying a mixture of need and trust. You had wanted this moment for a while, imagining how Loganâs hands would feel on you, how he would make you feel. After that kiss earlier, you knew there was no reason to hold back. Why take things slow when everything about this felt so right?
Loganâs gaze darkened with desire at your words, and he let out a quiet breath as if releasing the last of his restraint. âYouâre so beautiful,â he admitted, his voice rough with emotion. His hands moved over your skin with a mix of reverence and urgency, as if savoring each touch but also needing more, needing all of you.
His touch was electric, sending shivers down your spine as he explored your body, his fingers tracing the contours of your skin as though committing them to memory.
Loganâs lips found yours again, the kiss deep and unrestrained, reflecting the intensity of everything that had been building between you. His hands roamed over you with more confidence now, as if your words had unlocked something inside him, permitting him to show you just how much he wanted you.
âTell me what you want, sweetheart?â Logan murmured, his voice thick with desire as his lips trailed hot kisses down your neck, each one igniting a deeper longing within you.
In response, you pushed him back toward the bed, a determined glint in your eyes. Logan allowed himself to be guided, his breath hitching as you climbed on top of him, your hands pressing against his chest to steady yourself.
âI want you,â you whispered, your voice steady and filled with intent. âI want all of you.â
Loganâs eyes darkened with a mix of surprise and pleasure, his hands instinctively gripping your hips, pulling you closer as he settled beneath you. The roles had shifted, and you reveled in the feeling of taking control, of showing him just how much you wanted thisâwanted him.
âThen take it,â Logan rasped, his voice rough with desire as he met your gaze. âIâm yours.â
His breath came in ragged gasps as your hands traveled down his chest, stopping at the waistband of his sweats. You could feel the heat radiating from his body, the hardness beneath you driving your own need to a fever pitch. The anticipation sent a shiver down your spine, and you clenched around nothing, the ache for him growing more intense with every passing second.
Loganâs hands tightened on your hips, his eyes darkening as he watched you, his control slipping as your fingers toyed with the edge of his sweatpants.
âDonât stop,â Logan whispered, his voice hoarse, filled with both a plea and a command. His vulnerability in that moment, paired with the raw power he exuded, only made you want him more.
With a steadying breath, you slipped your fingers beneath the waistband, slowly easing his sweats down, revealing the full extent of his arousal. Logan groaned, his head tipping back against the pillow, the sound sending a rush of heat through you.
Your hands shook slightly, not from fear, but from the sheer intensity of what was happening. Youâd both been building to this moment for so long and now that it was here, it felt almost surreal, too powerful.
You gently wrapped your hand around his cock, stroking it slowly, deliberately, just enough to tease him. The feeling of him in your hand, hard and heavy, sent a jolt of desire straight through you, making your breath hitch.
Loganâs reaction was immediate. His hands slid up your thighs, his touch firm but reverent until they gripped your hips with a need that matched your own. His fingers dug into your skin, holding you in place as his hips bucked slightly into your hand, a low growl escaping his lips.
âFuck,â Logan breathed out, his voice thick with pleasure and restraint. His eyes, half-lidded with desire, locked onto yours, a silent plea and command mixed. âDonât tease me.â
But the teasing was half the fun, the control you had over him intoxicating. You leaned in, your lips brushing against his ear as you whispered, âI want to make you feel good.â
His grip on your hips tightened, and you could feel the tension in his body, coiled and ready to spring. But for now, you relished the control you had over him, the way you could make him unravel with just a touch.
But the need building within you was undeniable, and as much as you enjoyed teasing him, you wanted more. You wanted to feel him, to have him inside you, to bridge the gap that had been between you for far too long.
âLoganâŚâ you murmured, your voice a mix of desire and pleading. âI need you.â
His response was immediate and primal, a low growl rumbling in his chest as he shifted beneath you, flipping you onto your back with a swiftness that took your breath away. He settled between your legs, his hands framing your face, his eyes burning with intent before pressing a soft kiss to your lips.Â
âThen take me,â he whispered, his lips brushing against yours as he positioned himself at your entrance. âAll of me.â
His hands then worked to pull down your panties revealing your needy cunt and with one fluid motion, he pushed into you, filling you completely, the connection between you snapping into place as if it had been meant to be all along. The sensation was overwhelming, every nerve in your body alive with the intensity of it.
You wrapped your arms around him, pulling him closer as you both moved together, the rhythm natural and instinctive. Each thrust brought you closer to the edge, the pressure building inside you with a fierce intensity, mirrored in the way Loganâs grip tightened on your hips.
âLogan,â you gasped, your nails digging into his back as waves of pleasure surged through you. âDonât stop,â you cried, your body trembling as you clenched around him, desperate for more.
Loganâs breath hitched, and you could feel him shudder above you, every muscle in his body tense as he fought to hold back. His voice was a low growl, rough with desire and restraint. âDonât cum for me yet, sweetheart,â he murmured, his lips brushing against your ear. âI want to taste you.â
The promise in his words sent a jolt of anticipation through you, and your breath caught in your throat as you nodded, trusting him completely. Loganâs pace slowed, his movements deliberate as he pulled out of you, leaving you aching and yearning for his touch.
He kissed his way down your body, his lips trailing over your skin, each touch igniting a new wave of heat inside you. By the time he reached the apex of your thighs, you were trembling with need, your body taut with anticipation.
Logan glanced up at you, his eyes dark and hungry, as if savoring the sight of you laid out before him. He pressed a lingering kiss to your inner thigh, his hands gripping your hips to hold you steady. âYouâre so beautiful,â he whispered, his voice filled with awe and desire.
And then he was there, his mouth on you, his tongue tracing slow, tantalizing circles that made your whole body arch off the bed. The sensation was overwhelming, the pleasure so intense that you could barely think, could barely breathe. You clutched at the sheets, your moans filling the room as Logan devoured you, his touch both gentle and insistent, driving you closer to the edge with every flick of his tongue.
He was relentless, his mouth working you with a skill that left you shaking, your entire being focused on the pleasure he was giving you. The tension inside you coiled tighter and tighter until it was almost unbearable.
âLogan,â you gasped, your voice trembling. âIâI canâtâŚâ Your thighs pressed against the sides of his head. He moaned into you as if he wanted to be suffocated by you.Â
Logan didnât stop. Instead, he redoubled his efforts, his tongue moving faster, his hands tightening on your hips as he held you in place. âLet go for me,â he murmured against you, his voice sending vibrations through your core. âI want to taste you.â
His words were your undoing. With a cry, you came undone, your release crashing over you in a wave that left you breathless, your body shaking uncontrollably as you found your peak. Logan didnât let up, drawing out your orgasm until you were left gasping, your entire body trembling in the aftermath.
Only then did he pull back, kissing his way up your body until he was hovering over you again, his lips capturing yours in a deep, passionate kiss that tasted of you. âYouâre incredible,â he whispered, his voice thick with emotion. âIâve thought about this for so long.â
You smiled against his lips, your fingers threading through his hair as you pulled him closer. âMe too,â you murmured, still breathless, your heart full of everything you felt for him.
Logan kissed you again, his hands roaming over your body with a renewed sense of urgency. He shifted, lifting your legs higher and positioning himself between your thighs, his cock teasing your entrance.
âLoganâŚâ you whispered, your voice a mix of longing and need, your hips instinctively arching toward him.
His eyes met yours, dark and intense, as he paused, savoring the moment. âI need to feel you cum with me inside you,â he murmured, his voice husky with desire.Â
Slowly, he began to press into you, the sensation making you gasp as he stretched you. Loganâs gaze never left yours as he pushed deeper, his movements slow and deliberate, ensuring you felt every moment of it.
Your breath hitched, a soft moan escaping your lips as he bottomed out inside you, the sensation overwhelming in the best possible way. You could feel the tension in his body, the way he was holding himself back, giving you a moment to adjust, to fully take him in.
âGod, youâre perfect,â Logan groaned, his hands gripping your hips as he began to move, setting a rhythm that was both slow and powerful, each thrust driving you closer to the edge. The feeling of him moving within you was intoxicating, every nerve in your body lighting up with pleasure. âYour little cunt just begging for more.â
You wrapped your legs around his waist, pulling him even closer, urging him on as the need inside you built to an unbearable level. Each stroke pushed you higher, the pleasure coiling tighter within you, ready to snap.
âFaster,â you whispered, your voice breathless, your nails digging into his shoulders as you clung to him. âPlease, LoganâŚâ
Loganâs restraint shattered at your plea, his pace quickening as he drove into you with a newfound urgency, his grip on your hips tightening. The sound of skin against skin filled the room, mingling with your gasps and his low, rough moans, creating a symphony of pure, unbridled passion.
The pleasure was overwhelming, each thrust sending you spiraling closer to your release. You could feel Loganâs control slipping, the tension in his body mirroring your own as he neared his climax.
âCome with me,â he rasped, his voice thick with need. âI want to feel you cum around me.â
His words sent you over the edge, your orgasm crashing through you with a force that left you trembling beneath him. You cried out his name, your body tightening around him as the waves of pleasure pulsed through you.
Logan followed you into oblivion, his release tearing through him as he buried himself deep inside you, his body shuddering as he let go. He groaned your name, his voice filled with raw emotion as he spilled into you, the intensity of it leaving him breathless.
For a long moment, neither of you moved, both of you lost in the aftershocks of what youâd just shared. Your hearts pounded in sync, your breaths mingling as you held each other close, the connection between you stronger than ever.
Finally, Logan lifted his head, his eyes meeting yours with a softness that took your breath away. He brushed his thumb across your cheek, his touch gentle and reverent.
âI love you,â he whispered, his voice filled with awe and affection.
You smiled, your heart swelling with love for the man above you. âI love you too,â you replied, your voice soft but heavy with the weight of everything you felt for him.
Loganâs eyes shone with emotion as he leaned down, capturing your lips in a slow, tender kiss. He wrapped his arms around you, pulling you close, his warmth enveloping you as he held you. The rhythm of his heartbeat under your ear, steady and strong, lulled you into a sense of peace you hadnât felt in a long time.
As you drifted off to sleep in his embrace, you knew that this was where you were meant to beâwith him, surrounded by a love that felt real.
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âLogan?â you mumbled, turning over. Your hands fumbled around the bed, searching for Logan, but all you found was the lingering warmth he had left behind.
You sat up, sleepiness still clouding your eyes as you looked around the room, the eerie silence ringing in your ears. Slowly, you got out of bed and walked out of the bedroom, the soft glow of moonlight guiding you through the darkened hallway.
You knew Loganâs nightmares were bad. In the first few nights, he stayed over, he tried to hide them, keeping quiet and distant. Eventually, the truth became impossible to ignore. He would thrash under the covers, his body tense and restless, causing you to wake up and find him drenched in a cold sweat, haunted by whatever horrors his mind had conjured.
He was stubborn, refusing your help, convinced that he deserved the painful nightmares as a way to remind himself of who he was. No matter how many times you tried to reassure him, to tell him that he didnât have to bear the weight of his past alone, Logan was resolute. He believed the nightmares were a punishment, a way to keep himself anchored to the man he once was, no matter how much pain they caused him. He would insist that they were his burden to bear, and he wouldnât let you share in it, no matter how much you wanted to help.
It was frustrating, seeing him like thisâtortured, stubborn, and determined to carry the weight of his guilt alone. Every night, youâd lie awake, listening to his breathing grow heavier, waiting for the moment when his dreams would turn into something darker, something that would tear him from sleep and leave him gasping for air.
He tried to put on a brave face during the day, but you could see the exhaustion etched into his features, the haunted look in his eyes that never fully went away. And yet, he wouldnât let you in. He wouldnât let you take any of the burden from his shoulders, even though it was clear that it was tearing him apart.
It never got easier to watch, especially now as you fumbled your way through the dark, desperate to find him. Your heart pounded in your chest, thoughts swirling as you entered the living room, hoping against hope that heâd be there.
It was empty.
âLogan?â you whispered, your voice trembling in the stillness, even though you knew deep down he wasnât there.
Slowly, your feet padded against the wood floor toward the front door, which was slightly ajar. Your heart raced as it creaked open, the moonlight peeking through and casting eerie shadows on your face. For a split second, your heart stopped as you saw a figure standing outside, silhouetted against the night, gazing up at the sky.
However, you quickly realized it was Logan. His eyes were closed, his face peaceful as the cool breeze swirled around him. He was barefoot, wearing only sweats, as the moonlight bathed him in a soft, ethereal glow.
He turned toward you, a slight smile playing on his lips. âCome here,â he said, his voice gentle, inviting.
You stepped outside, the cool night air brushing against your skin as you walked toward Logan. He opened his eyes, his smile fading slightly as you approached.
âCouldnât sleep?â you asked softly, searching his face for any sign of what might be troubling him. âWas it the nightmares again?â
Logan nodded, his expression shifting from peaceful to guarded, the familiar shadows returning to his eyes. âYeah,â he murmured, almost as if admitting it aloud made it worse. âTheyâre always there, waitingâŚâ
You reached out, gently taking his hand in yours, offering him the comfort of your touch. âI can help you with them,â you whispered, your voice steady but tender. âYou donât have to go through it alone.â
Logan hesitated, his gaze dropping to the ground as he weighed your words. âI donât knowâŚâ he began, his voice trailing off. âIâm not sure if thatâs a good idea. I donât want you to seeââ
You squeezed his hand, cutting him off gently. âLogan, you donât have to protect me from this. Iâm not afraid of what youâve been through. I just want to be there for you.âÂ
He looked up at you then, his eyes searching yours, filled with a mixture of vulnerability and something close to fear. âWhat if itâs too much?â he asked, his voice barely above a whisper. âWhat if⌠what if it changes the way you see me?â
You stepped closer, bringing his hand up to your chest, letting him feel the steady rhythm of your heartbeat. âNothing will change the way I see you,â you said, your voice firm. âI love every part of you, Logan. Even the parts you think are too dark, too broken. Let me in. Let me help.â
âIâm not who you think I am,â he finally said, his voice barely above a whisper. âThe things Iâve done⌠I donât deserve your love.â
You reached out, placing a hand on his arm, feeling the tension in his muscles. âYou deserve love, Logan. You deserve peace. Iâm not going anywhere, no matter what you think you deserve.â
Logan stared at you for a long moment, the internal battle clear in his eyes. Finally, he gave a slow, reluctant nod, though the tension in his body didnât entirely ease. âAlright,â he whispered, his voice tinged with uncertainty.
You smiled softly, lifting your hand to cup his cheek. âI love you,â you promised, your thumb brushing gently across his skin, a tender reminder of your unwavering support.
You held Loganâs gaze for a moment longer, letting the warmth of your touch seep into his skin, grounding him. Then, with a soft smile, you gently guided him back inside the house, the night air giving way to the comforting stillness of your home.
Once in the bedroom, you pulled back the covers and motioned for Logan to lie down beside you. He hesitated for a brief second, the tension still lingering in his shoulders, but then he did as you asked, trusting you with the parts of him that were still so fragile.
You lay down next to him, pressing your body close to his, reassuring him of your presence. His breathing was still uneven, the remnants of his turmoil evident in the tightness of his muscles.
Slowly, you reached out and placed your hand on his chest, over his heart, feeling the steady thrum beneath your palm. Closing your eyes, you let your power flow through you, focusing on the connection between you and Logan. It was an ability you had refined over the years, learning to use it not just to bring back memories, but to soothe and calm the storm inside people.
A soft, warm energy radiated from your hand, spreading through Loganâs body like a gentle wave. You could feel the tension beginning to ebb away, his breathing becoming more rhythmic, more at ease. As the calming energy enveloped him, you whispered reassuring words, barely audible, guiding him into a state of peace.
âJust relax. Youâre safe. Just let go⌠Iâve got you.â
Loganâs body began to relax under your touch, the knots in his muscles slowly unraveling. His eyes fluttered closed, and you continued to channel the soothing energy, lulling him closer to sleep.
Before long, his breathing deepened, and his hand instinctively found yours, holding onto it as if it were his lifeline. He drifted off, the tension that had gripped him earlier now a distant memory. You stayed close, your power still working to shield him from the nightmares that had plagued him for so long.
But then, even in sleep, the shadows tried to creep in. Logan began to mumble, his brow furrowing as he tossed slightly, remnants of old fears threatening to pull him under. You tightened your grip on his hand and let your power surge a bit stronger, a soft, soothing balm that eased the distress in his mind.
The effect was immediate. Loganâs mumbling quieted, the lines on his forehead smoothing out as the calmness you projected enveloped him completely. For the first time in years, Logan found peace in sleep, undisturbed by the horrors of his past.
You watched him, your heart swelling with love as you stroked his hair gently, ensuring that the serenity remained. His grip on your hand relaxed, and a soft sigh escaped his lips as he settled deeper into the comfort of your presence.
As the moonlight filtered through the curtains, casting a gentle glow over the room, you allowed yourself to relax as well. You could feel the steady rise and fall of Loganâs chest, the peaceful rhythm of his breath, and knew that, for now, he was safe. The man who had once been tormented by nightmares was finally resting, his mind at ease, protected by the love and power you shared.
As you lay there beside him, your hand still resting over his heart, you felt a deep sense of fulfillment. This was your placeâright here, beside him, offering him the solace he had so often been denied. While it had only been a few months since your lives became intertwined, Logan meant so much more to you than he could realize.
His presence in your life had become a constant, a source of strength and comfort that you had never known before. The depth of your feelings for him had grown rapidly, surprising you with their intensity. There was something about Loganâhis strength, his vulnerability, the way he fought against the darkness within himâthat drew you to him like nothing else ever had.
Sometimes, in quiet moments like this, you wondered what the future held. Would you continue to help him heal, to be the anchor he needed? Would the two of you find peace together, or would the shadows of his past continue to haunt him? There were so many unknowns, so many questions that lingered in the back of your mind.
But as you listened to the steady rhythm of his heartbeat beneath your hand, you knew one thing for certain: you werenât going anywhere. Whatever the future held, you were committed to facing it with him. You had found something rare and precious in Logan, and you werenât willing to let it slip away.
âIâll always protect you, Logan. No matter what,â you whispered, pressing a soft kiss to his chest.Â
He didnât stir, but you knew, deep down, that he heard you.
For now, though, this was enough. This moment, with Logan safe and at peace beside you, was more than you could have ever hoped for and as sleep finally began to claim you, you knew that whatever the future held, you would face it together.
With that comforting thought, you allowed yourself to drift off, your hand still resting protectively over Loganâs heart, ready to shield him from the darkness, ready to walk beside him into whatever tomorrow might bring.
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Two years had passed since that night when Logan first told you he loved you. In that time, your lives had settled into a comfortable rhythm, one that felt as natural as breathing. Logan had moved in not long after, and together, you had built a life that was simple but filled with love and contentment.
The house had become a true home, with little touches that reflected the two of youâphotos from your adventures together, Loganâs tools neatly organized in the garage, and your shared collection of books lining the shelves. The days were spent in quiet harmony, whether working side by side in the garden, cooking meals together, or simply enjoying each otherâs company on lazy Sunday afternoons.
One evening, as you sat on the porch watching the sun dip below the horizon, Logan reached over and took your hand, lacing his fingers with yours. The air was warm, the crickets beginning their evening chorus, and the world felt perfectly still.
âYou ever think about the future?â he asked, his voice quiet but laced with curiosity.
You turned to look at him, a soft smile playing on your lips. âAll the time,â you admitted. âWhat about you?â
Logan nodded, his gaze thoughtful as he stared out at the fading light. âYeah, I do,â he said. âI never used to⌠not before you. But now⌠I think about it a lot.â
âWhat do you see when you think about it?â you asked, your heart swelling at the thought of a shared future with him.
He was silent for a moment as if carefully considering his words. âI think about us,â he began, his thumb gently stroking the back of your hand. âMaybe getting married, starting a family. A life where we can just be⌠happy.â
His words sent a thrill through you, a mixture of excitement and contentment. âYouâd want that?â you asked, your voice soft, almost disbelieving.
Logan turned to you then, his eyes filled with a sincerity that took your breath away. âMore than anything,â he said.
Your heart felt like it could burst from the love you felt for him. âI want that too,â you whispered, leaning in to kiss him softly. After a moment, you pulled back, a playful smile tugging at your lips. âThough I was kind of hoping youâd ask me to marry you more romantically.â
Loganâs hand moved to cup your cheek, his thumb brushing lightly over your skin. âIâm not a romantic guy,â he said but his voice held a laughter to it.
âLiar,â you replied, your fingers gently moving through his hair.Â
Loganâs smile widened, his eyes softening as he leaned in to kiss you again, this time with a mix of relief and joy. The simple exchange solidified the bond between you, a promise of a future built on love, trust, and the deep connection you shared.
The idea of marrying Logan, of starting a family together, filled you with a warmth that radiated through your entire being. It was a future you could see so clearlyâa future that felt right, that felt like the culmination of everything you had both been through to get to this point.
Over the next few weeks, the two of you talked about your future often, making plans, and dreaming about the life you would build together. The prospect of marriage and starting a family became a beacon of hope and joy, something to look forward to, something that made each day even brighter.
But then, everything changed. You always knew the past would eventually catch up with you, but little did you know that Loganâs had never truly gone away.
Logan was at work at the lumberyard, and you were home, going about your usual routine. The sun was high in the sky, and the air filled with the scent of freshly cut wood, as Logan went about his tasks. It was a day like any otherâuntil he saw him.
William Stryker.
Loganâs blood ran cold the moment he recognized the man standing at the edge of the yard, watching him with that familiar, calculating gaze. Stryker hadnât changed much in the years since Logan had last seen himâstill exuding that air of authority, still holding that unsettling glint in his eyes.
Logan stopped what he was doing, his entire body tensing as Stryker approached, his stride confident and purposeful. âLogan,â Stryker greeted him, his tone deceptively casual. âBeen a long time.â
Logan clenched his jaw, his fists curling at his sides. âWhat do you want, Stryker?â he asked, his voice low and edged with anger.
Stryker smiled a cold, calculated smile that told Logan everything he needed to know. âIâm not here to cause trouble,â he said, holding up his hands as if in surrender. âJust want to have a little chat. Thought you might be interested in rejoining Team X.â
Loganâs eyes narrowed, his entire being rejecting the idea before Stryker had even finished speaking. âNot a chance,â he growled. âIâm done with that life.â
Stryker tilted his head as if considering Loganâs words. âYou say that now,â he said slowly, âbut things change, Logan. People change. I know youâve built a life for yourself here, but how long do you think that will last? How long before you get bored⌠before you start craving the action again?â
Loganâs mind flashed to youâyour smile, your laugh, the way you felt in his arms. The life you were building together, the plans youâd made for the future. That was what mattered to him now. Not the past, not the violence and chaos of Team X.
âNot interested,â Logan said firmly, turning his back on Stryker and walking away.
But Stryker wasnât done. âYou think this little dream of yours is going to last?â he called after Logan, his voice cutting through the noise of the yard. âYou think you can escape what you are? Who you are?â
Logan stopped in his tracks, his muscles tensing with barely restrained fury. Yet, he didnât turn around. He wouldnât give Stryker the satisfaction.
âIâll be around if you change your mind,â Stryker continued, his voice now calm and almost friendly. âYou know where to find me.â
Logan forced himself to keep walking, his mind reeling from the encounter. He couldnât let Stryker get to him. He couldnât let him ruin what he had with you.
But even as he tried to push Strykerâs words from his mind, a sliver of doubt began to creep in. Could he escape his past? Could he keep that part of himself buried, hidden away, and focus on the future he wanted with you?
He didnât know the answer, but as he made his way back home, one thing was certain: he wasnât going to let Stryker destroy the life he had built. He wouldnât let him take away the happiness he had found with you.
When he walked through the door that evening, you were there waiting for him, your smile bright and welcoming but as you looked into his eyes, you could see something was wrong.
âLogan?â you asked, concern lacing your voice as you reached out to touch his arm. âWhat happened?âÂ
He didnât answer right away. Instead, he walked over to you, pulling you into a tight embrace, his arms wrapping around you as if he were trying to shield you from something. His heart pounded against your chest, a frantic rhythm that matched your own.
You pulled back slightly, searching his face for answers. âWhat is it?â
Logan sighed, his expression pained. âStryker found me.â
The name sent a chill down your spine. You had heard of William StrykerâLogan had told you enough about him for you to know that he was a man to be feared. A man who had once held power over Loganâs life in ways you could barely comprehend.
âWhat does he want?â you asked, your voice barely holding steady.
âHe wants me to rejoin Team X,â Logan said, the words heavy with regret and anger. âHe thinks Iâll go back to that life, but I told him no but he doesnât take no for an answer.â
A wave of fear crashed over you, chilling you to the bone. You had known that Loganâs past was dark, but the reality of it coming back, threatening the life youâd built together, was more than you could bear.
âWhat are we going to do?â you asked, your voice small and trembling.
Logan took a deep breath, his grip tightening around you as if he could somehow protect you from the storm that was brewing. âWeâre going to keep living our lives,â he said, his voice firm despite the turmoil you could see swirling in his eyes. âIâm not letting him take this away from us. Iâm not going back to that life.â
âHe's not going to stop, you just said so.â you pressed, fear and uncertainty creeping into your words. âHeâll keep coming after you.âÂ
Loganâs eyes softened slightly as he looked at you, the tension in his expression giving way to something more tender. âIâll handle it,â he promised. âIâve fought worse battles, and Iâve come out the other side. Iâm not going to let Stryker or anyone else take away what we have.â
His words were meant to reassure you, but the dread in your heart wouldnât completely fade. You knew Logan was strong, but Stryker was a force that wouldnât be easily deterred. Still, you nodded, wanting to believe that Logan could protect you, that he could protect the future you had planned together.
âLogan,â you whispered, your voice steadying as you looked into his eyes. You wanted to say a million things, but at that moment, nothing else mattered.
Logan shook his head slightly, as if to quiet your worries, before leaning down to press a tender kiss to your forehead. His lips lingered there, warm and reassuring, as if he could somehow transfer some of his strength to you. âI know,â he murmured, sensing the uneasiness that you couldnât quite hide. âBut I need you to promise me something.â
You looked up at him, your heart pounding as you waited for his words.
âIf things get dangerous, if Stryker makes a moveâpromise me youâll get out of here. Go somewhere safe.â
The thought of leaving him, of running away while he faced whatever Stryker had planned, made your stomach turn. âLogan, I canât just leave youââ
âPromise me,â he interrupted his voice firm but laced with desperation. âI need to know youâll be safe. Thatâs the only way I can fight this without losing my mind.â
You swallowed hard, the reality of the situation sinking in. Logan was willing to do whatever it took to protect you, even if it meant facing his past head-on and as much as it pained you. You knew you had to respect his wishes.
âI promise,â you whispered, tears welling up in your eyes. âBut only if you promise to come back to me.â
Loganâs expression softened, and he cupped your face in his hands, his thumbs brushing away the tears that had begun to fall. âI promise,â he said, his voice full of conviction. âIâll come back to you. Always.â
Deep down, a part of you couldnât shake the fear that the life you had built was about to be torn apart.
The days that followed were tense, filled with an undercurrent of dread that neither of you could ignore. Logan continued to go to work, determined to maintain some sense of normalcy, but you could see the strain in his eyes every time he left the house.
You tried to keep busy, distracting yourself with everyday tasks, but the shadow of Strykerâs threat loomed over everything. You found yourself constantly looking over your shoulder, jumping at every unexpected noise, your heart pounding with the fear that Stryker could appear at any moment.
And then, one day, he did.
You were at home, going through the motions of your daily routine, when a knock at the door sent a chill down your spine. You froze, your heart racing as you stared at the door, knowing in your gut that this wasnât a friendly visit.
Slowly, you approached the door, your hand trembling as you reached for the knob. You hesitated, your mind racing with thoughts of what could be waiting on the other side.
Taking a deep breath, you steeled yourself and opened the door.
There he stoodâWilliam Stryker, his cold eyes studying you with a calculated intensity that made your blood run cold. He was dressed impeccably, his posture calm and composed, but there was an underlying menace in his presence that sent every alarm in your body screaming.
âHello,â he said, his voice smooth and unnervingly polite. âYou must be Loganâs little lady.â
Your throat tightened, and you gripped the edge of the door, resisting the urge to slam it shut in his face. âWhat do you want?â you managed to ask, your voice steady despite the fear coursing through you.
Strykerâs smile was thin, more of a predatorâs smirk than a sign of friendliness. âIâm here to talk to Logan. I believe heâs been avoiding me.â
âHeâs not here,â you replied quickly, praying that Logan would stay away until Stryker was gone.
Stryker nodded as if he expected that answer. âI figured as much. He canât avoid me forever. Sooner or later, heâll have to face the truth.âÂ
âWhat truth?â you asked, dread settling like a heavy stone in your stomach.
âThe truth that no matter how far he runs, heâll never escape who he really is,â Stryker said, his voice dropping to a low, ominous tone. âHeâs a soldier, a weapon, an animal. Deep down, he knows it.âÂ
You shook your head, refusing to let Strykerâs words get to you. âLogan is more than that. Heâs not the person youâre trying to make him be.â
Strykerâs eyes narrowed, and momentarily, the facade of politeness slipped, revealing the cold, calculating man underneath. âWeâll see about that,â he said, his voice hard.
He turned to leave, but then hesitated, sighing as he turned back toward you. There was a faint, unsettling look in his eye, something almost resembling concern, but you knew better.
âOh, I almost forgot to mention,â Stryker paused, his tone deceptively casual. âSome of the guys on the team have⌠gone missing. I assume theyâre deadâbecause of Victor. Heâs big on revenge, I suppose. Anyway, do let Logan know. Victor will probably be here sooner rather than later.âÂ
Strykerâs words hung in the air like a dark cloud, their weight pressing down on you. You stood there, frozen, as the full meaning of his warning settled in. The mere mention of Victorâs name had always carried an edge, a hint of danger that now felt all too real.
Before you could find your voice, Stryker gave you a cold, almost dismissive nod and turned on his heel, walking away with the same calculated confidence he had arrived with. The sound of his footsteps echoed faintly in the distance, but the chill he brought into your home lingered long after he was gone.
You closed the door slowly, your hands trembling as you locked it as if that simple action could keep the world outside from crashing in. But you knew better. Strykerâs words, his warning about Victor, had already set things in motionâthings that couldnât be undone by a locked door.
You took a deep breath, trying to steady yourself, but the dread coiled in your stomach like a snake ready to strike. Victor was coming and if what Stryker said was true, he was out for blood.
Logan. You had to warn Logan.
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You threw the truck into the park, barely taking the time to turn off the engine before jumping out and running across the lumber yard. Panic fueled your steps as you searched desperately for Logan. He sensed you before he saw you, your scent unmistakable to him. He turned just in time to see you rushing toward him, a terrified look on your face.
âLogan,â you called, your voice trembling, barely above a whisper. âStryker came to the house.â
Loganâs entire body went still, his breath catching in his throat. âFuck,â he cursed under his breath, his tone hard as all traces of calmness vanished.
âHeââ you hesitated, the weight of Strykerâs words still sinking in. âHe warned me about Victor. He said some of the team members have gone missing, and he thinks Victorâs behind it. Logan, he said Victor might come here⌠soon.â
Loganâs jaw tightened, his eyes darkening with a mix of anger and fear. âDamn it,â he muttered, his mind racing as he processed the information. He turned to you, his expression grim, the weight of his decision clear in his eyes. âYou need to leave. Now.â
Your heart dropped at Loganâs words. The thought of leaving him now, in the face of such danger, was unbearable. But the look in his eyesâso fierce and determinedâtold you that he wasnât giving you a choice.
âLogan, I canât just leave you,â you protested, your voice shaking with emotion. âNot now, not whenââ
âYou have to,â he cut you off, his voice firm but laced with desperation. âIf Victor is coming, I canât let you be here when he arrives. I need to know youâre safe.â
Tears welled up in your eyes as the reality of the situation sank in. âWhere will I go?â
Loganâs gaze softened slightly, but the urgency remained. âThereâs a motel on the edge of town, near the highway. Go there, stay out of sight. Iâll come for you when itâs safe.â
You shook your head, feeling a mix of fear and helplessness. âWhat about you?â
Logan stepped closer, placing his hands on your shoulders, his grip firm but gentle. âIâll handle Victor. Iâve dealt with him before. But I canât focus on that if Iâm worrying about you. Please, just go.â
You could see the fear in his eyes, the fear of losing you. It mirrored your own. But you also saw the resolve, the determination that had always been a part of him. He wasnât just asking you to leaveâhe was begging you to trust him.
You swallowed hard, nodding even though every part of you wanted to stay by his side. âOkay,â you whispered, your voice breaking. âBut promise me youâll come back to me, Logan.â
Loganâs expression softened further, and he pulled you into a tight embrace, holding you as if he never wanted to let go. âI promise,â he murmured into your hair, his voice filled with emotion. âIâll come back to you. I swear it.â
For a moment, you held onto him, memorizing the feel of his arms around you, the warmth of his body. But the clock was ticking, and you both knew it. Reluctantly, you pulled back, looking up at him one last time.
âI love you,â you said, your voice trembling but resolute.
Logan cupped your face in his hands, his thumbs brushing away the tears that had begun to fall. âI love you too,â he said, his voice thick with emotion. âNow go. Donât look back.â
You nodded, biting your lip to keep from breaking down completely. With one last lingering look, you turned and ran back to the truck, your heart heavy with fear and uncertainty.
As you drove away, the lumberyard fading in the rearview mirror, your mind raced with thoughts of Logan, of Victor, of what might happen next. The fear gnawed at you, but you forced yourself to focus on getting to safety, on doing what Logan needed you to do.
The road ahead was dark, the highway stretching out before you like a path to the unknown. Every mile felt like a thousand, every minute an eternity. But you kept going, knowing that this was what Logan wantedâwhat he needed.
You reached the motel just as the first signs of dawn began to streak the sky. Exhausted and emotionally drained, you checked in, barely registering the details as the clerk handed you the key. The room was small and plain, but it felt like a sanctuary amid chaos.
Once inside, you locked the door, double-checking it as if that would somehow keep the world at bay. Then you collapsed onto the bed, your mind and body finally giving in to the weight of everything that had happened.
You wanted to sleep, to escape the fear that clung to you like a second skin, but your thoughts kept drifting back to Loganâwondering if he was safe, if he was already facing the man who had haunted his past and now threatened your future.
You curled up on the bed, wrapping your arms around yourself as if that could somehow replace the comfort of Loganâs embrace. The room was silent, but your mind was anything but. The uncertainty of what would come next loomed large, the fear of losing Logan gnawing at your heart.
And as the hours stretched on, you could only hope that Logan would keep his promiseâthat he would come back to you, safe and whole, so you could face whatever was ahead together.
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Hours had passed, each one stretching out longer than the last. You stayed at the motel, anxiously waiting for Logan to return, clinging to the promise he had made. But as the hours turned into days, the silence became unbearable. The weight of not knowing gnawed at you, a constant ache that you couldnât shake.
Logan hadnât come back.
You tried to convince yourself that he was okay, that he was just being cautious, making sure everything was safe before coming to get you. But as the days dragged on without a word, your worry grew into something moreâa cold, suffocating fear that something had gone wrong.
By the time the third day arrived, you couldnât take it anymore. You had to know. You had to find him.
With a resolve born from desperation, you packed up your things and checked out of the motel. The drive back into town felt surreal, the familiar road now filled with an ominous tension. The closer you got, the tighter the knot in your stomach grew.
When you finally pulled into town, the sight of the lumber yard where you last saw Logan filled you with both hope and dread. The place was eerily quiet, the usual hum of activity replaced by an unsettling stillness. You parked the truck and stepped out, your heart pounding as you scanned the area for any sign of Logan.
But there was nothingâno sign of him, no indication that he had ever been there.
You took a deep breath, forcing yourself to focus. If Logan wasnât here, then you needed to check the house. Maybe he had gone back there, maybe he was waiting for you. The thought gave you a glimmer of hope, just enough to push you forward.
You drove through town, your eyes darting to every corner, every shadow, searching for any hint of him. But the town was quiet, almost unnaturally so, as if it too was holding its breath, waiting for something to happen.
When you finally reached the house, your heart sank. The front door was slightly ajar, and the wood splintered as if it had been forced open. Panic surged through you as you hurried out of the truck, running to the door.
âLogan?â you called out, your voice trembling with fear.
There was no answer.
You pushed the door open, stepping inside cautiously. The house was dark, the only light coming from the early morning sun filtering through the curtains. Everything was in disarrayâthe furniture overturned, the walls scuffed as if there had been a struggle.
Your breath hitched as you took it all in, your mind racing with the worst possibilities.
âLogan!â you called again, louder this time, hoping against hope that he was somewhere inside, that he was okay.
But the house was silent.
You moved through the rooms quickly, checking every corner, every shadow, but Logan was nowhere to be found. The fear that had been gnawing at you for days now took root, sinking deep into your bones.
As you made your way to the bedroom, your heart nearly stopped. The bed was untouched, the sheets still neatly madeâthe way you had left them. But what caught your attention was the blood on the floor, a dark stain that hadnât been there before. Your knees nearly buckled as you stared at it, the implications crashing down on you like a tidal wave.
You forced yourself to stay calm, to think. The blood could be Loganâs, or it could belong to someone else. But either way, it wasnât a good sign.
You turned and rushed back through the house, your panic growing with every step. As you reached the front door, you paused, your hand trembling on the doorknob. You didnât want to believe it, didnât want to accept that something had happened to Loganâbut the evidence was all around you.
You had to find him. You had to know the truth.
Grabbing your keys, you ran back to the truck and sped off, your mind racing with possibilities. You thought about Stryker, about Victor, about the people from Loganâs past who might be responsible for this. You had no clear plan, no idea where to go or who to turn toâbut you couldnât just sit back and do nothing.
You drove to the lumberyard again, hoping someone there might have seen or heard something. The few workers you found there were no help; they hadnât seen Logan in days. The town felt like it was closing in on you, every shadow hiding a new fear, every corner holding a new dread.
Next, you tried the local barâone of the few places where Logan had gone to clear his head when things got tough. But the bartender shook his head when you asked if he had seen Logan.
It was as if Logan had vanished into thin air.
What else could you do? You had no idea where Logan had gone, and even if you did find Victor or Stryker, you knew youâd be no match against them.Â
You sat in the truck, gripping the steering wheel as the tears began to fall freely, blurring your vision. The weight of everything crashed down on you all at onceâthe fear, the uncertainty, the overwhelming sense of helplessness. You had done everything you could think of, but it felt like you were hitting one dead end after another.
You closed your eyes, letting the tears stream down your face, your sobs quiet but deep, shaking your entire body. You didnât know what else to do, or where else to turn. All you could do was sit there, trapped in your fear and despair, hoping that somehow, some way, Logan would come back to you.
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A year had passed since that terrible day. A year of searching, of moving from one town to the next, chasing down rumors and whispers, but finding nothing. Not a trace of Logan, Stryker, or Victor. It was as if they had all vanished into thin air.
You had driven countless miles, crossing from small towns to sprawling cities, hoping to catch even the smallest lead. But every time, the trail went cold. The hope that had once fueled your search had slowly started to fade, replaced by a growing despair.
Logan was gone, and no one knew where.
Some days, you imagined the worst: that Stryker had found a way to kill Logan despite his Regenerative Healing Factor, or that he was being kept somewhere being used as a weapon, far from the life the two of you had started to build together.
You tried to move on, tried to convince yourself that Logan was gone, that there was nothing left to find. Yet, deep down you couldnât give up, even when every sign told you that the man you loved was lost forever.
It was that stubborn hope that had led you here, to a small town on the border of Canada and the U.S. It was a place like so many others you had visitedâquiet, unassuming, the kind of place people went when they didnât want to be found. You had been here for a few days, following another dead-end lead, and you were ready to move on again.
However, something drew you into a local bar, a small, dimly lit place that smelled of stale beer and old wood.
You pushed open the heavy door and stepped inside, the murmur of conversations and the clinking of glasses filling the air. You werenât expecting muchâmaybe just a drink to help you sleep, to drown out the endless questions and fears that haunted you. But as your eyes adjusted to the dim light, somethingâor rather, someoneâcaught your attention.
There, sitting alone at the bar, was Logan.
Your breath caught in your throat, and for a moment, the world seemed to stop. It couldnât be. You had been searching for so long, and here he was, just sitting there as if nothing had happened.
He looked differentâmore worn, intense, but it was undeniably him. The same rugged features, the same broad shoulders, the same haunted look in his eyes that you had come to know so well. But something was off. He seemed distant, detached as if the world around him barely registered.
Heart pounding, you approached him slowly, your mind racing with a million thoughts and emotions. Relief, disbelief, hopeâall of them battled for dominance as you took each step closer to him.
âLogan,â you whispered, your voice barely audible as you reached his side.
He didnât react. His eyes were fixed on the glass in front of him, the amber liquid inside swirling as he tilted it slightly. You could see the tension in his shoulders, the weariness etched into his features.
âLogan,â you said again, louder this time, your voice trembling with a mix of desperation and hope.
Finally, he turned to look at you, his gaze slow and deliberate. But the moment his eyes met yours, your heart dropped. There was no recognition thereâno spark of familiarity, no hint that he knew who you were.
âCan I help you?â Logan asked, his voice gruff, with no trace of the warmth you had once known so well.
It felt as if the ground had been ripped out from under you. The Logan you had known was gone. The man before you looked like him, sounded like him, but had no memory of the life you had shared.
It took everything in you to fight back the tears. âSorry, you just⌠you look like someone I used to know,â you stammered, your voice barely steady.
Loganâs brow furrowed in confusion, and he shook his head slowly. âSorry, lady. I donât know you.â
The words hit you like a punch to the gut, leaving you breathless with sorrow yet there was no way you were going to leave not after spending so much time looking for him.
You swallowed hard, forcing a small, tight smile as you tried to play off the hurt that threatened to overwhelm you. âYeah⌠must be a mistake,â you murmured, your voice barely above a whisper.
Logan gave you a brief, puzzled glance before turning back to his drink, seemingly dismissing the encounter. He took another sip, his attention already drifting away, back to whatever thoughts were occupying his mind.
Your heart felt like it was being crushed under the weight of your emotions, but you fought to keep your composure. You couldnât fall apart nowânot here, not in front of him.
Taking a shaky breath, you moved to the stool next to him and sat down, trying to steady yourself. The bartender approached, wiping down the counter with a practiced ease. âWhat can I get you?â he asked, his tone polite but disinterested.
âA whiskey, neat,â you replied, your voice steadier than you expected. It felt strange, almost surreal, to be sitting here, ordering a drink like nothing was wrong. Like the man sitting beside you wasnât the love of your life who had somehow forgotten everything youâd shared.
As you waited for your drink, you stole a glance at Logan. He was staring into his glass, his expression distant, almost lost. He looked tiredâexhausted, evenâbut there was something else in his eyes, something you couldnât quite place. It was as if he was carrying the weight of the world on his shoulders, yet had no idea why.
The bartender set your drink in front of you, and you nodded in thanks, wrapping your fingers around the glass. For a moment, you just sat there, staring at the amber liquid, trying to make sense of the situation. How could this have happened? What had Stryker done to him but more importantly, how could you possibly bring him back?
You took a sip, the warmth of the whiskey spreading through your chest, grounding you in the moment. You needed to find out if his memories were completely gone. If they werenât, there was a possibility you could bring them back. It was risky, especially since you had never tried something like that before.
Logan glanced at you briefly, his brow furrowing again. âYouâre still here?â he asked, his voice low and rough.
âItâs a public bar,â you quipped back, the words slipping out more sharply than you intended. âIf you donât like it, then leave.â
You hadnât meant to sound so harsh, but the situation was fraying your nerves. Logan didnât seem fazed, though. He simply rolled his eyes and took a long sip from his glass, his expression unreadable.
For a while, the two of you sat in silence, the only sound between you the clinking of glasses and the low hum of conversation from the other patrons. It was both comforting and heartbreaking to be near him despite the divide that existed between you.
Finally, after what felt like an eternity, Logan spoke again. He glanced at you briefly. âYou from around here?â
âNo,â you replied, shaking your head slightly. âJust passing through.â The words felt hollow, a cover for the deep truth you couldnât share with himâat least, not yet.
Finally, after what felt like an eternity, Logan spoke again, his voice softer, almost hesitant. âYou said I looked like someone you used to know. Who was he?â
The question caught you off guard, and for a moment, you didnât know how to respond. How could you possibly explain? But you couldnât ignore the question either, not when it was the first real hint of interest he had shown in you.
âHe was⌠someone important,â you began, choosing your words carefully. âSomeone who meant the world to me. We went through a lot together, and I lost him⌠a while back.â
Loganâs gaze flickered with somethingâcuriosity, maybeâbut he didnât press further. Instead, he simply nodded, as if understanding something he couldnât quite put into words.
âIâm sorry,â he said after a moment, his tone sincere. âLosing people⌠itâs hard.â
âYeah,â you replied, your voice thick with emotion. âIt is.â
Another silence fell between you, but this one felt differentâless strained, more shared. Even if he didnât remember you, didnât know who you were, there was still something between you, a connection that hadnât been completely severed.
As the evening wore on, you both finished your drinks, the conversation dwindling into companionable silence. It wasnât the reunion you had hoped for, but it was somethingâa starting point, maybe. You didnât know what the future held, didnât know if you could ever bring Loganâs memories back, but sitting there with him, you knew one thing for certain: you werenât going to give up on him.
Logan eventually pushed his empty glass away and stood up, reaching for his wallet. âWell, it was nice talking to youâŚ,â he said, trailing off as he realized he didnât know your name.
You offered it, hoping the familiarity would spark something in him, ignite some glimmer of recognition. Logan just nodded, handing the bartender some cash. âNice talking to you,â he replied, his tone polite but distant.
He gave you a final, almost apologetic glance before turning and heading toward the door. You watched him go, your heart aching with every step he took away from you.
You drained the last of your whiskey, setting the glass down with a quiet determination. This was just the beginning of a new chapter and no matter how long it took, you were going to fight for him. Deep down, you believed that the man you loved was still in there, somewhere.
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For the next few days, you camped out at the bar, hoping Logan would return. It felt helpless, a long shot at best, but all logical ideas had vanished from your mind. How else could you find him, connect with him, or get another chance to help him remember?
You sat at the same stool each evening, nursing a drink and watching the door with a mixture of hope and dread. Every time the door creaked open, your heart would leap, only to sink again when it wasnât him. The bartender had started giving you curious looks, probably wondering why you kept coming back. But you didnât care. You had to be there, just in case.
On the third night, as you sat swirling the whiskey in your glass, lost in thought, the door opened again. This time, when you looked up, your breath caught in your throat.
Logan had returned.
He walked in with the same weary expression, the weight of the world on his shoulders. He glanced around the room, his eyes passing over you briefly before he moved to the bar. There was no recognition, no sign that anything had changed for him.
But it was enough. He was here, and that meant you had another chance.
You watched as he ordered a drink, his movements methodical, almost robotic. He looked like a man going through the motions, detached from everything around him. It hurt to see him this way, so far from the Logan you had known, but it only strengthened your resolve.
After a moment, you took a deep breath and approached him, sliding into the seat next to him as casually as you could manage. âBack again, I see,â you said, trying to keep your tone light.
Logan glanced at you, his expression unreadable. âYeah,â he replied simply, taking a sip from his glass. There was no recognition in his eyes, just the same detached politeness as before.Â
You hesitated, searching for the right words. You couldnât push too hard, couldnât overwhelm him, but you had to do somethingâanythingâto get through to him. âSo, do you come here often?â you asked, the clichĂŠ question sounding awkward even to your ears, but it was a start.
Logan set his drink down, his brows furrowing as he turned to you. âLook, lady. What do you want from me? Who do you work for?â
The abruptness of his question caught you off guard, and your heart skipped a beat. There was a sharp edge to his voice, a defensive suspicion that hadnât been there before. It was as if, deep down, some part of him sensed the truthâthat this wasnât just a casual conversation, that there was something more beneath the surface.
âI donât work for anyone,â you replied quickly, trying to keep your voice calm despite the sudden tension. âIâm justâŚâ
Loganâs eyes narrowed, studying you closely, his gaze sharp and unyielding. âYou donât just âtalkâ to strangers like this. So why me? Whatâs your angle?â
You swallowed hard, feeling the pressure of his scrutiny, but Logan wasnât easing up. He leaned in closer, his presence overwhelming, the familiar scent of him invading your senses. âYou think youâre clever, darlinâ? Iâve sat across the street watching you come in this bar for daysâwaiting for me.â
His words cut through you, and your heart raced as you realized he had been more aware of you than youâd thought. There was an intensity in his eyes, a mixture of suspicion and something elseâsomething darker, more dangerous.
âIâm not trying to trick you,â you said, your voice steadying even as your pulse quickened. You needed a lie, a good one. âIâm just lost. I thought maybeââÂ
âMaybe what?â Logan interrupted, his tone harsh. âYou thought you could just waltz in here, play nice, and Iâd spill my guts?âÂ
You shook your head, desperate to break through the wall he was putting up. âNo, itâs not like that. Iâm not here to hurt you.â You hesitated, feeling the weight of the truth pressing down on you. You couldnât tell him everythingânot yet.
For a long moment, Logan just stared at you, his eyes searching yours for answers he couldnât find. Then, with a frustrated growl, he pushed back from the bar, shaking his head as if trying to clear it.
âLook, lady, I donât know who you are or what you think you know, but Iâm not the guy youâre looking for,â he said, his voice hardening again. âSo fuck off.â
The harshness of his words hit you like a blow, but you nodded, too scared to even speak again. You watched as he turned away, your heart heavy with the realization that the man you once knew was buried even deeper than you had feared.
You decided you werenât going to leave, not yet. You needed to see if there was any part of the man you knew still inside him. Maybe if you gave him some space, and kept your distance, you could still figure out a way to reach him.
The bar was getting busier, more people trickling in as the night wore on. You wandered over to the pool table, where a couple of guys were already playing. One of them, a tall, broad-shouldered man with a cocky grin, caught your eye. He gestured toward the table with his pool cue, clearly inviting you to join.
You forced a smile and nodded, figuring it was as good a distraction as any. You needed something to take your mind off the encounter with Logan, something to keep you grounded in the here and now. Playing pool with some random guy would help pass the time and give you a chance to stay in the bar without drawing too much attention to yourself.
âMind if I join?â you asked as you approached, keeping your voice light.
âNot at all,â the guy said with a grin, handing you a cue. âNameâs Jake. What about you?â
You hesitated for a split second, before offering a fake name. âAnna.âÂ
âWell, Anna, letâs see if youâre any good,â Jake said with a wink.
You tried to relax, focusing on the game as Jake racked up the balls and took his first shot. He was good, but you werenât bad either, and soon you found yourself getting into the rhythm of the game. Jake kept the conversation going with light banter and flirtatious comments, but you brushed most of it off, keeping your responses neutral.
As the game went on, Jakeâs flirting grew bolder. He stood a little too close, his hand lingering on yours when he passed you the cue, his compliments becoming more suggestive. You tried to keep things light, laughing off his advances, but you couldnât shake the uneasy feeling that was starting to settle in the pit of your stomach.
Finally, after you sank a particularly tricky shot, Jake leaned in close, his voice low. âYou know, youâre pretty good at this,â he said, his breath warm against your ear. âBut I bet thereâs something else youâre even better at.â
You stiffened, pulling back slightly. âThanks for the game, Jake,â you said, trying to keep your tone casual as you turned to set down your cue. âBut I think Iâm done for the night.â
Before you could move away, Jakeâs hand shot out, grabbing your arm. âOh, come on, donât be like that,â he said, his tone still playful but with an edge that sent a shiver down your spine. âIâm just having a little fun.â
âI said Iâm done,â you repeated, trying to pull your arm free but Jake tightened his grip, pulling you closer. You tried to squirm your hands to make direct contact with him, but his grip tightened making your powers useless.Â
âDonât be so uptight,â he said, his voice darkening as he backed you up against the wall. âWe were just getting started.â
Fear spiked through you as Jake pressed closer, his body trapping yours against the rough wood. You could feel the tension in his grip, the predatory look in his eyes, and you knew this was about to go very wrong.
âJake, let me go,â you demanded, trying to keep your voice firm despite the fear clawing at you.
Jake just smirked, leaning in even closer. âI donât think you really want that,â he whispered, his breath hot against your cheek.
Panic flared in your chest, but before you could react, a hand suddenly clamped down on Jakeâs shoulder, yanking him back with surprising force. Jake stumbled backward, catching himself on the edge of the pool table, but froze as three long, metal claws pressed against his throat.
âGet your hands off her,â a low, familiar voice growled.
You looked up, your heart pounding, to see Logan standing there, his expression dark with anger. He didnât look at you; his eyes were locked on Jake, who had sobered up instantly, clearly not expecting to be interruptedâespecially not like this.Â
âWho the hell do you think you are?â Jake asked, panic seeping into his voice as Loganâs claws pressed closer to his throat. You watched in horror, realizing that something was different about Loganâhis once bone claws had been replaced with metal.
âWhatâs it matter to you, bub?â Logan snarled, his voice carrying a deadly edge.
Jakeâs eyes darted between the claws and Loganâs face, fear widening his eyes. âAlright, man, just⌠just take it easy,â he stammered, his bravado completely shattered. âI didnât know she was yours.â
âSheâs not,â Logan snapped, the metal claws glinting under the dim bar lights. âBut that doesnât mean you get to put your hands on her.â
Jake swallowed hard, nodding frantically as he tried to lean away from the deadly claws. âOkay, okay, I got it. I wonât touch her, I swear.â
Logan held Jakeâs terrified gaze for a moment longer before finally stepping back, retracting his claws with a sharp metallic sound that echoed through the now-silent bar. Jake nearly collapsed with relief, scrambling to get as far away from Logan as possible.
âGet out of here,â Logan growled, his voice still low and menacing.
Jake didnât need to be told twice. He practically bolted for the door, not daring to look back. The bar patrons, who had been watching the scene unfold in stunned silence, began murmuring among themselves, the tension in the air slowly dissipating.
Yet the tension in the air was still thick between you and Logan as he turned, his eyes scanning your face for any sign of injury. âYou trying to start a bar fight?â he asked gruffly, his voice still edged with anger.
You shook your head, your heart pounding as Logan stepped closer to you. He stared at you for a long moment, his eyes searching yours as if trying to make sense of the emotions warring inside him. Finally, he nodded, his expression softening just a fraction. âYou shouldnât be here,â he muttered, more to himself than to you.Â
He stepped closer, just inches between the two of you, as he brought his hands up, bracing them on the wall behind you, closing you in between his arms. The heat of his body radiated toward you, his presence overwhelming as his gaze locked onto yours.
For a moment, neither of you moved. The air between you crackled with tension, a mix of fear, longing, and something deeper that neither of you could fully name. Loganâs breath was warm against your skin, his closeness intoxicating, but there was a wariness in his eyesâa warning that this was a line you shouldnât cross.
âYou donât know what youâre getting yourself into,â he whispered, his voice rough, tinged with something almost vulnerable.
Despite the warning in his words, he didnât pull away. He stayed there, inches from you as if torn between the urge to protect you and the desire to completely ruin you.
âYou did that shit to get my attention, sweetheart. Go on, admit it.â
You shook your head again, pressing your body flat against the wall, but you couldnât deny the heat spreading through you. Desire was building, stirred by the way Logan had protected you, by the raw intensity in his eyes.
Logan tsked softly, his lips brushing against your cheek before he whispered in your ear, his voice low and teasing. âSo, youâre just wet for no reason?â
âIâIâŚâ You stumbled over your words, your mind racing as you completely forgot that Logan could smell your arousal. It had been so longâone year, two days, and three hoursâsince he last touched you. This was a terrible, horrible idea, but if you could make direct contact, you might be able to see if his memories were still there.
Loganâs lips curled into a smirk, his breath hot against your ear. âIf you wanted me to fuck you, all you had to do was ask, baby.â
Your heart pounded, a mixture of fear and longing swirling inside you. You knew this was dangerous, knew that giving in could complicate everythingâbut the thought of being close to him again, of maybe finding a way to reach the man you loved, was almost too much to resist.
âI want you to touch me,â you finally said, your voice a bit weak, but resolute. âTo make me feel good.â
Logan smirked, his arms wrapping around your waist as he pulled you toward the bathroom. In a blur of motion, he had the door locked and pushed you against it, his lips crashing against yours with a fierce, almost desperate intensity.
Slowly, you snaked your hand up his shirt, hesitant but determined, and placed it on his chest. The contact was electric, your palm pressed against the hard planes of muscle beneath the fabric. You could feel the steady rhythm of his heartbeat, unyielding, grounding you in the moment. For a second, you closed your eyes, focusing on the connection, willing yourself to find somethingâanythingâthat would prove the man you loved was still in there.
As your hand remained on his chest, something shifted. Recent memories flashed before your eyes, unbidden and vivid. You saw Stryker, his cold, calculating gaze fixed on Logan, and then Victor, throwing Logan against a wall with brutal force before stepping on his bone claws, breaking them in half.
You saw Logan submerged in water, long needles being injected into every inch of his body, before he broke out of the tank, screaming. Every recent memory was filled with regret, pain, and fear, flooding your mind until you could barely hold on.
Your chest tightened as the images surged through you, the reality of what Logan had endured washing over you in relentless waves. His pain, his anger, his confusionâit was all there, just beneath the surface, trapped within him. The memories were fragmented and disjointed, but they were enough to confirm what you had feared and hoped for the man you loved was still there, buried beneath the torment.
Logan pulled back slightly, his breath ragged, as if sensing the shift in you. âWhatâs wrong?â he muttered, his voice rough but tinged with genuine concern.
You opened your eyes, meeting his gaze, and for a moment, the intensity of what you had just seen left you speechless. The man standing before you was the same Logan you had always known, yet he was differentâburdened by new memories and experiences that had left him deeply scarred.
âItâs nothing,â you whispered, your voice trembling as you struggled to push the memories aside, to stay in the moment with him. âJust⌠donât stop.â
Loganâs eyes searched yours as if trying to read the truth behind your words, but then he nodded, pressing his forehead against yours. You gasped as his hand lifted your dress, pushing your panties aside before sliding two fingers into your entrance. âI wonât,â he promised, his voice low, almost guttural.
You nodded, swallowing hard as you tried to steady yourself. It was impossible to focus as his fingers thrusted in and out of you, the pleasure making your body tremble. But you pushed it aside, forcing yourself to slip back inside Loganâs mind, determined to find the man you knew was still there.
More images flickered byâscenes from his childhood, memories you had glimpsed before. Little Loganâor Jamesâwas sick in bed, his father comforting him by reading a story. You felt a pang of sadness, but you skipped ahead, not wanting to lose yourself that far in the past, knowing you needed to stay focused.
Then, suddenly, you saw it. A memory of you flickered by. Logan standing there as you danced around the living room, wearing his plaid shirt and grinning at him. You remembered that moment so wellâthe joy, the love, the simple happiness of being together.
Loganâs lips found yours again, the kiss slower this time, more deliberate, pulling you out of his mind. You sighed into it, letting the memory linger as his kiss deepened. Your desire was building, but you felt something elseâa flicker of recognition, a spark of the man you loved. It was faint, buried under layers of pain and confusion, but it was there. Logan might not remember everything, but at this moment, in this connection, there was a part of him that was still yours.
You pulled back slightly, your breath shaky, as the weight of it all pressed down on you. âLoganâŚâ
His voice, low and rough, sent a shiver through you. âYou take my fingers so well, darling.â
You closed your eyes, trying to anchor yourself in the moment, trying to hold on to that spark of recognition youâd found. âLoganâŚ,â you whispered again, your voice trembling with both need and the deep, unshakable love you felt for him.
He paused, his fingers still buried inside you, his breath hot against your neck. There was a beat of silence, thick with tension and unspoken words as if he was struggling to hold onto somethingâsome part of himself that was slipping away.
Your eyes flickered open as Loganâs fingers slowly slipped out of you, his expression shifting from raw intensity to something more distant, confused. His brow furrowed, and he took a small step back, almost as if he were trying to retreat within himself.
âWhatâs wrong?â you asked, concern threading through your voice as you tried to take a step toward him, but the space between you suddenly felt vast.
Logan shook his head slightly as if trying to clear it. âI⌠I donât know,â he muttered, his voice uncharacteristically uncertain. His eyes darted away from you as if he couldnât bear to meet your gaze. âI must be losing it.â
His words hit you like a punch to the gut, the raw vulnerability in his voice cutting deep. You reached out, your hand trembling slightly as you gently cupped his face, forcing him to look at you. âLogan,â you said softly, willing him to hear the certainty in your voice.
He closed his eyes, leaning into your touch as if seeking some kind of anchor in the storm raging inside him. Yet when he opened them again, they were clouded with doubt, the flicker of recognition you had seen earlier slipping further away.
âEverythingâs so messed up in my head,â Logan whispered, the words carrying the weight of his turmoil.
You swallowed hard, the pain in his voice making your heartache. âThen let me help you,â you whispered, your thumb brushing gently across his cheek. âI can help you remember.â
Logan searched your eyes, the conflict within him clear as day. For a moment, you thought he might pull away completely, and retreat into the walls he had built around himself. But then, something shifted in his gazeâa flicker of the man you knew, the man who had always fought for you, no matter what.
His voice hung in the air, rough and hesitant, echoing with uncertainty. âWhat if I donât want to remember?â
The question lingered between you, heavy with unspoken fears. For a moment, you were at a loss for words, caught off guard by the raw honesty in his eyes. You had been so focused on helping him remember, on bringing back the man you loved, that it hadnât occurred to you that maybe he didnât want to return to who he was before. Perhaps the memories heâd lost were too painful, too overwhelming to reclaim.
âLogan,â you began softly, your heart tightening at the sight of his troubled expression. âI know youâve been a lot, but I know the man you are deep down, even if you donât remember him right now.â
His eyes darkened, conflicted as if he was grappling with something he couldnât quite articulate. âWhat if⌠what if remembering makes it worse? I get a glimpse every night of what it feels likeâall the pain Iâve been trying to get away from.â
You felt a lump form in your throat, the intensity of his emotions washing over you. âI canât promise you it wonât hurt, but you donât have to go through it alone. You once told me that the pain lets you know youâre still alive.â
Loganâs gaze softened, but the uncertainty still lingered in his eyes. He took a deep breath as if steeling himself for what he was about to say. âI donât know if Iâm strong enough to face it,â he whispered, his voice barely audible.
Your heart ached for him, for the weight of the burden he was carrying, but you refused to let him sink back into that darkness. âYou are strong enough, Logan,â you said firmly, your grip on his face tightening slightly. âYouâve always been strong enough.â
Logan closed his eyes again as if absorbing your words, letting them settle deep within him. When he opened them, there was a glimmer of something newâhope, perhaps, or at least the beginnings of it. âIâm scared of what Iâve done⌠of who Iâve become.â
You could see the fear etched in his features, the same fear that had been lurking beneath the surface since the moment you saw him at the diner. âWhatever youâve done, whatever youâve become,â you said gently, âit doesnât change the fact that youâre still the man I love. And nothing is going to change that.â
Logan stared at you, his expression a mixture of disbelief and longing as if he was daring to hope for something he thought he had lost. âI donât deserve you,â he murmured, his voice thick with emotion.
âYou donât get to decide that,â you replied softly, a small smile tugging at the corners of your lips. âIâm here because I choose to be. Because I love you, Logan. All of you, no matter what.â
For a long moment, Logan didnât say anything. He just stood there, his forehead still pressed against yours, his eyes searching yours as if looking for something to hold onto. Then, slowly, he nodded, the smallest hint of a smile breaking through the storm in his gaze.
âFine,â he whispered, the word filled with a fragile hope. âAlright⌠weâll try.â
You felt a surge of relief, the tension in your chest easing slightly as you wrapped your arms around him, pulling him into a tight embrace. âWeâll try,â you echoed, your voice soft but filled with determination. âWeâll take it one step at a time.â
Loganâs arms encircled you, holding you close as if afraid you might disappear if he let go. For the first time in what felt like forever, you felt a sense of calm settle over you. It wasnât the end of the struggle, but it was a beginningâa chance to rebuild, to find each other again, and to face whatever memories surfaced together.
The dingy hotel room smelled of stale cigarettes and spilled alcohol as you walked in. It was clear Logan had been living like this for a while, drifting from town to town, drinking away his misery.
You sat down on the edge of the bed, the springs creaking beneath you, as Logan shut the door behind him. The atmosphere felt heavy, laden with the weight of what had happened earlier at the bar. It was strange to be here, in this small, dark room, after everything that had transpired between you.
âSo, how does this work?â Logan eventually asked, his voice gruff as he leaned against the wall. Despite agreeing to this, he kept a noticeable distance between you, as if unsure of what might happen next.
You sighed, rubbing your forehead, trying to collect your thoughts. This wasnât easy for either of you, but it had to be done. âI just need to have direct contact with you,â you explained, your voice calm and steady despite the uncertainty you felt. âI can go through your memories and hopefully bring them forward for you to see.â
Logan nodded, but his eyes were distant. âIn the bathroomââ His voice trailed off momentarily, making your heart race. âDid you⌠look inside my mind?â
âI did, but look, Iâm sorry,â you quickly responded, your voice trembling as you took a step closer to him. âI just wanted to know if you were stillââ Tears welled up in your eyes as the words caught in your throat. âI needed to know you were still my Logan. I wouldnât have done it if I wasnât desperate.â
Logan shook his head, walking past you over to the bed. âYou canât do that shit to people,â he muttered, his voice low and rough, avoiding your gaze as he sat down on the edge of the bed.
âI know. Iâm sorry,â you replied, wiping at your tears, trying to hold back the flood of emotions. âI was desperate. Iâve been looking for you for over a year, andââ
âWhat?â Logan spat, his eyes finally darting to meet yours, the intensity of his gaze startling you.
You went silent, feeling the anger bubbling up inside him, the tension in the room thickening. His posture tensed, his fists clenching as he tried to rein in his emotions. Â
You stood there, his gaze heavy on your shoulders, as the silence stretched between you. Loganâs chest heaved with restrained anger, his eyes burning with a mixture of betrayal and hurt that cut through you like a knife.
âYouâve been looking for me for over a year?â he repeated, his voice low and dangerous, the words laced with disbelief. âWhy didnât you think to tell me that before? Instead, you just⌠violated my mind without asking?â
His words stung, each one landing with the force of a physical blow. You wanted to reach out, to soothe the pain you saw in his eyes, but you knew he wasnât ready for that. Not yet.
âI didnât want to lie to you,â you began, your voice barely above a whisper. âI was scared and it wasnât like I could just dump all this information on you hoping it would jog your memory. I thought I lost you forever, so when I finally found youâŚI didnât know what else to do. I just needed to know if there was any part of you that remembered us, remembered me.â
Logan ran a hand through his hair, the frustration evident in his every movement. He looked away from you, his jaw clenched tight. âI get that you were scared. I do. But that doesnât make it right,â he said, his voice rough with emotion.
You felt a wave of guilt wash over you, knowing that you had crossed a line, even if your intentions had been pure.
âIâm sorry,â you whispered, your throat tightening with the weight of your regret. âI should have asked. I should have trusted that youâd come back to me on your own.â
Logan finally looked back at you, his expression softening just a fraction. There was still anger in his eyes, but there was something else there tooâconfusion, maybe even a trace of understanding. âIâm not good at this⌠at letting people in,â he said, his voice gruff but laced with vulnerability.Â
âI know,â you said, taking a cautious step closer. âTrust me. I know because you didnât let me in right away. It took time but Iâm willing to do whatever it takes to help you through this. If you need space, Iâll give it to you. If you need time, Iâll wait. Just⌠please donât shut me out.â
Logan stared at you for a long moment, his emotions warring within him. You could see the conflict in his eyes, the struggle to reconcile his anger with the love he still felt for you. His breath came out in a shaky exhale, and he finally nodded, though his expression remained guarded.Â
âSomething tells me I donât want to lose you.âÂ
âYou wonât,â you assured him, your voice firm with conviction. âWeâll get through this, Logan. One step at a time.â
He nodded again, his shoulders sagging slightly as some of the tension left his body. âOkay,â he murmured, his voice barely above a whisper. âBut no more going into my head without asking. I need to be able to trust you.â
âYou have my word,â you promised, taking another step closer until you were standing right in front of him.
Logan searched your eyes as if looking for any sign of doubt, any hint that you might betray him again. But when he found none, he let out a heavy sigh, his expression softening as he finally allowed himself to relax.
âAlright,â he said quietly, his voice still tinged with uncertainty but also with a glimmer of hope. âLetâs try again⌠together.â
You smiled, the tension in the room finally easing as you reached out to take his hand. He hesitated for just a moment before lacing his fingers with yours, the contact a small but significant step toward healing the rift between you.
âAre you ready?â you asked gently, searching his eyes for any last-minute hesitation.
Logan gave a curt nod, but the tension in his grip told you all you needed to knowâthis was as ready as he was going to be.
You took a deep breath, centering yourself before focusing on the connection between you. Slowly, you let your power flow through you, using the contact to delve into Loganâs mind, searching through the tangled web of memories that had been locked away.
âIâll try to go slow but sometimes the mind is an unpredictable place.â You said in a soothing voice.Â
At first, it was chaoticâflashes of scenes, emotions, and images that didnât quite make sense. But as you guided your power deeper, you began to find the threads that mattered, the memories that had shaped who Logan was before he became lost.
His breath hitched as a particularly painful memory emergedâa moment of betrayal, the image of Strykerâs cold eyes flashing in his mind. You squeezed his hand, grounding him, reminding him that you were there, that he wasnât alone.
And then, slowly, the fog began to lift. Loganâs grip on your hand tightened as more memories surfaced, clearer this time. Moments of his past life, of battles fought and bonds formed. And then, there were glimpses of you, moments that had once brought him solace and peace.
You felt his body start to relax, the tension easing as the memories became more familiar, more real. His breathing slowed, his eyes focusing as he began to piece together the fragments of who he once was.
When you finally pulled back, the connection severing, Logan let out a shaky breath, his eyes fluttering open to meet yours. There was a new clarity in his gaze, a recognition that hadnât been there before.
âHow do you feel?â you asked, your voice filled with hope.Â
Logan stared at you for a moment, his expression a mix of relief and lingering uncertainty. âI remembered... some things but itâs still a mess in my head.â
âThatâs okay,â you said, squeezing his hand gently. âItâll take time. Weâll keep working at it if you want to.âÂ
For the first time since youâd entered the room, Loganâs lips curved into a faint smile. âYeah. I saw those moments of meâŚwith you. I can see why you are fighting so hard.â he murmured, the sincerity in his voice unmistakable.
You returned his smile, feeling a sense of hope that hadnât been there before. It was a startâa fragile, tentative start, but a start nonetheless.Â
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Five years had passed since that night in the bar. The road had been long and difficult, but together, you and Logan had faced every challenge, every memory, every fear. Piece by piece, memory by memory, you helped him reclaim his past, using your powers to bring back what had been taken from him while soothing the pain that came with it.
Sometimes, you blinked forgetting so much time had passed. The two of you have built a life far away from the chaos that once defined both of your existence.Â
Nestled in the serene wilderness in the middle of nowhere you had found a homeâa place where the past was put to rest and the future was whatever you wanted it to be.Â
What surprised you most was how Logan had found peace in this quiet life and had blossomed into the role of a loving husband and father.Â
The sound of laughter filled the warm, sunlit kitchen as Logan chased your daughter around the table pretending to be a tickle monster. At four years old, your little girl was a whirlwind of energy and curiosity. You chuckled as her little feet pattered across the wooden floor trying to escape Loganâs playful clutches.Â
âGotcha, kiddo!â Logan said, his deep voice filled with joy as he peppered her face with kisses. Your daughter giggled uncontrollably, her tiny hands gripping his shirt as she wriggled in his arms.
âNo!â she shrieked through her laughter, her eyes sparkling with happiness. âNot the tickles!â
Logan grinned, the sight of his daughterâs pure delight warming his heart. He finally relented, setting her down on the ground and ruffling her hair. âAlright, alright, you win this time,â he said, his tone mock-serious.
She beamed up at him, her wide grin showing off the tiny gap where one of her baby teeth had recently fallen out. âI always win!â she declared, her voice filled with the confidence only a four-year-old could muster.
You watched from the kitchen counter, your heart swelling with love as you took in the scene. It was moments like these that made everything worth itâthe struggles, the pain, the journey you had both endured to get here. You placed a hand on your slightly rounded belly, feeling the gentle flutter of the new life growing inside you. The little one would be arriving in a few months, and the thought filled you with both excitement and a hint of nervousness.
âSheâs got you wrapped around her little finger,â you teased, smiling as Logan walked over to you, your daughter still clinging to his leg.
Logan shrugged, giving you a sheepish grin. âWhat can I say? Sheâs tough to resist,â he said, leaning down to press a soft kiss to your lips before placing a gentle hand on your belly. âHowâs our little one doing today?â
âSheâs been kicking up a storm,â you replied, your smile widening as you felt a little nudge against your hand. âI think sheâs excited to meet you.âÂ
Loganâs eyes softened, his gaze full of love and contentment. âI canât wait to meet her too,â he said, his voice full of wonder.
You reached up to cup his cheek, your thumb brushing over the faint lines that time and life had etched into his face. âI love you,â you said softly.
He leaned into your touch, closing his eyes for a moment as if savoring the simple, peaceful life youâd built together. When he opened them again, the love you saw there was so deep, so powerful, that it took your breath away.
âI love you,â he murmured, his voice thick with emotion. âI love you and our girls more than anything in this world.â
âWe love you too,â you replied, your heart full as you leaned in for another kiss, this one slower, more tender.
Your daughter, never one to be left out, tugged on Loganâs pant leg, demanding attention. âPlay with me again!â
Logan chuckled, pulling back slightly from the kiss to glance down at his eager daughter. âAlright, alright. What do you want to play this time, kiddo?â
âHide and seek!â she exclaimed, her eyes lighting up with excitement.
âHide and seek it is,â Logan agreed, lifting her again and spinning her around before setting her down. âBut you better hide good, âcause Iâm the best seeker in all of Canada!â
âDinnerâs almost done, so donât play too long,â you called as your daughter dashed off to find the perfect hiding spot.
You watched Logan, your heart brimming with love and gratitude. This life, this familyâthis was everything you had ever wanted. And knowing that Logan had found happiness here, with you and your daughters, made it all the more precious.
With a deep sense of peace, you turned your attention back to preparing dinner, listening to the sound of your husband and daughterâs laughter filling the house. It was a sound youâd never grow tired of, a reminder of just how far youâd come and how much youâd overcome together.
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Y/n: I think I just figured something out. I got to go.
Logan: Aren't you forgetting something?
Y/n: Uuh...*hesitantly kisses Logan's forehead before running out.*
Logan: No, pay your bill! Damn, who raised you?
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Selfish (Part 2)
Logan Howlett x Reader
Part One
Warnings: Smut. So much smut. Just an ungodly amount of filth. (Abandon all hope ye who enter here.), slight angst, self-loathing Logan, confessing feelings
âLogan, what the actual fuck do you think youâre doing?â Your brows knit together in a healthy mixture of concern and confusion. The office heâs pulled you into is crappy at best, but the desk seems clean enough. The scuffed hardwood harbors a lone ashtray, stacked to the brim with half-smoked Camel cigarettes. The light above you is yellowed from years of continued exposure to tobacco, the bulb flickers every so often. You have no more time to ponder the electrical workings of this establishment though, not when you have a 6â3 hulking Wolverine in front of you, hands running through his hair frustratedly.
âI canât do this anymore, baby. I just canât.â He steps closer to you, his warm breath fans over you. His eyes search your face, brows scrunched together, deepening the lines in his forehead. His lips are set in a narrow, straight line. Â
âWhat canât you-â
Logan cuts you off with a firm kiss, âI canât keep pretending that I donât want you the way I do. I fucking- God, baby. Do you even know what you do to me?â He cups your face in his hands and gazes on you like you hung the moon in the sky. His honeyed eyes trace the features of your face. He looks upon you as if he is gazing upon the Divine. The admiration behind his eyes surpassed that of centuries of people kneeling before their gods in awe.
âBaby⌠baby, you are everything to me. And if that makes me a selfish motherfucker, so be it.â He presses his lips to yours once again, passion flows between the two of you. The invisible string that connects you seems to wind around the expanse of your bodies and pulls you closer together. Neither of you can help it- the need for this proximity.
âLogan. Wait, wait.â You sigh out, attempting to halt the panting and pleading, almost putty in his hands already.
âYeah, princess? What is it?â His thumbs rub up and down your cheeks soothingly.
âI had no idea you felt this way. You always- you know-â You shrug, albeit a bit sheepishly. A smile appears on your face, and he kisses you, once, twice, and again and again. He drinks in the radiance of your grin; he relishes in the light of it.
âI know, and Iâm sorry. You didnât deserve that, and I thought I was protecting you by beinâ like that.â He stops for a moment, shuffles forward and places his hands on your hips.
The feeling is familiar, good. Great floodgates open inside your heart, it flows through your chest, out to the tips of your fingers and toes. It envelops you. Your nails rake over his scalp and your fingers thread through his thick locks. A strangled groan escapes his lips when you give his hair a hefty tug. âI thought itâd be selfish if I went about it any other way⌠butâŚâ Logan stops in his tracks, his need to taste more of you is completely overwhelming.
He licks, kisses and sucks down the expanse of your neck, stopping ever so briefly to graze his teeth along your collarbones. He steps back, succumbing to the urge to commit the marks he left on your skin to memory. âSo fuckinâ beautiful.â He mumbles, the words barely above a whisper. His eyes move back up to yours and with a quick, sharp exhale, heâs back on you.
âBut I donât care. I donât fucking care, baby.â Strong, calloused hands move under your shirt and Logan gropes your waist. He drinks you in, gasping, thirsting, yearning for you. Hazel eyes bore into your own, fierce desire barely concealed inside his steely gaze. âI need you so fucking bad⌠And I donât care that Iâm being selfish.â Logan lifts your shirt and discards it; his pupils dilate as more of your soft skin is exposed. âIâm a selfish bastard, and I want you all to myself. I canât fucking get enough of you, princess.â His mouth moves down to your own, he captures your lips in a rough kiss. Logan licks his tongue into your mouth, desperately trying to capture your taste. Heâs ravenous, a caged beast finally let loose. You moan out in pleasure into his mouth, his heart pounds against his ribcage.
Every fiber of his being burns for you. The very cells of his body scream out your name in worship. You are all-encompassing, you smother him in your splendor, and he still finds it hard to believe that you would even consider gracing him with your ethereal presence.
He is jagged, tainted. Fire and brimstone. All rough edges and serrated ends. You are soft, so fucking soft, he thinks to himself, and he has kept himself away for so long. But no longer. His cock strains against his dark wash jeans. A fiery blaze of need burns within his system, it crackles and frizzles, engulfing his very spirit. All he sees, all he smells, all he knows is you. He wants to fall into you and take you apart, just to put you back together again.
Loganâs hands move up to your breasts and he squeezes them once, twice, before slipping under your bra and rolling your peaked nipples between his pointer finger and his thumb. He drags his hands down, out, and to the clasps of your bra. The rough pads of his fingers leave a burning trail across your skin. Logan pulls the soft material off your body and discards with no more effort than a breath. His attention never falters, his gaze never strays. Heâs finally admitting to you what heâs kept inside since the day he met you. The rumbling, snarling, rabid possessiveness that he convinced himself was wrong spurts out from him in leagues.
He wants to taste you, feel you, mark your skin so that the world can see who owns you. His lips trail down your neck and onto your chest, he takes a nipple into his mouth and swirls his tongue around it. His tongue laps against your tit, his lips suckle on the pebbled skin. Loganâs hand moves to tease your other nipple, and you gasp. Your head falls back, hitting the wall behind you, gasps and pants escape your lips. You look up to the heavens, which is just a slightly water-damaged ceiling in this shoddy excuse for a managerâs office, knowing that no divine light could shine as brightly as his eyes when he sees you. No promise of all the worlds riches could coax you away from the pleasure he gives you. The thought crosses your mind that perhaps he craves you as much as you crave him. Your back arches off the cool, off-white wall of the office as his free hand moves down to touch you under your skimpy excuse for a skirt.
Your panties are soaked, and a rumble resonates from his chest upon discovering this. âWet for me already, baby?â He enquires, lips abandoning your tits for the soft slope of your neck, fingers moving under the thin material of your underwear and finding your clit. The tips of his index and middle finger circle over the sensitive bud. He presses soft, delicate kisses down from behind your ear to the expanse of your collarbones, his beard scratches along your skin delectably.
âDoes my princess need me to touch her?â Logan drawls, his head tilts closer to you. His brows furrow in faux concern. âHm?â
âOh, fuck. Lo-â You start, but are quickly, rudely, deliciously, maddeningly cut off by the abrupt feeling of fingers moving inside your soaked cunt. A lewd moan escapes you and rings out through the small room, muffled only the tiniest bit by the music spilling in from under the door.
âThis all for me? Huh, baby?â He teases, voice low as his fingers work your cunt.
All you are able to do is nod your head and let out a string of clumsily worded confirmations. Pleasure courses through your body. Your thighs shake from the intensity of it.
A smirk appears on his wickedly cruel lips, and he continues his ministrations on your clit. His fingers dip in between your folds every so often, gathering your slick to keep your clit wet. âThereâs my girl⌠Always so fuckinâ good for me, arenât you? So eagerâŚâ Logan continues thrumming your clit with the pads of his fingers, keeping a pace he knew you made you melt. Â
âAre you close already, baby?â He purrs, voice dropping lower. Lust practically spills from his words. He pumps his fingers into your sweet, dripping cunt. Logan shifts his gaze from watching his digits disappear into your cunt, over and over, to the blissed out, desperate look on your face. His rhythm remains steady as you start moving up and down on his fingers, chasing your high. He returns his focus to your clit, rubbing tight circles over the sensitive bud. Your hips stutter. The coil in your belly is taut- it tightens and winds and tenses and the burly man that looms above you, bound in denim and leather, talks you through your orgasm.
âThere she is⌠good fuckinâ girl.â He keeps his pace steady, fingers reaching that soft, spongy part of you that almost always made you tip over the edge. âAlways make me so proud, baby. You took my fuckinâ fingers so well, princess.â He cocks his head to the side and stares down at your trembling form, so clearly happy with the work heâs done.
Logan ushers you to the hardwood desk placed in the middle of the room, soon after you recover from the seismic orgasm he gave you. He lifts you to sit on the edge of the cluttered surface. âYou alright, pretty girl?â He ducks his head down and lifts your chin with two fingers.
You bat your eyelashes at him, a hazy smile on your face, âAlright is⌠certainly one way to put it.â
He grunts, satisfied, moving his hands down to either side of you. He traps you between him and the desk. âBaby? I need you to know something.â
You tilt your head upwards and give him an encouraging nod.
âYouâre not someone who should ever have to endure a casual relationship. Okay? You are⌠resplendent. You are everything anyone could ever want and infinitely more. I- I want to do so many fuckinâ things with you, alright? I donât want to fuck and go home- I need you to be my woman. I need you to be on my arm and I need you to fucking dance with me. Seeing you with that guy-â Loganâs voice catches in his throat and he brings his fist to his heart and beats it against his chest a few times. âI couldnât bear it. I cannot stand it to be without you, Y/N.â
âLogan?â You enquire, voice almost swallowed by your surprise. His name hangs, suspended, in the air for a moment before it is engulfed by the flood of his confession.
He couldnât stop talking, not if he tried, not if he wanted to. Heâd kept it all inside for so long and now, here you were- eyes wide and vulnerable, the most beautiful person heâd ever seen. âFuck- I just- I promised myself I wouldnât do this⌠You, baby, youâre so fucking good and pure, and Iâve got too much hurt on my heart to let you come close.â
âAre⌠are you scared I wonât be able to handle it?â
âIâm scared you will. Iâm fuckinâ terrified that you see it and take it on and that taints you- that it hurts you to see what Iâve done.â His tongue darts out to wet his bottom lip before his hand comes up to your face and cups your cheek gently.
âDonât be fucking ridiculous, Lo.â You sigh, leaning into his touch, almost making light of the monumental declaration.
Logan is slightly taken aback by your callous statement, but it comforts him all the same. Of course, you wouldnât shut him out because of his past, of course youâd be understanding and as wonderful as ever. He shakes his head, the corners of his mouth tilt upwards.
âHm. Thatâs not something Iâve been called often, princess. You sure âridiculousâ is the word you want to go with?â Loganâs thumb strokes your cheek softly- his touch, his eyes, everything is full of a gentleness that could only come from a man completely smitten.
âItâs a hill I am ready and willing to die on.â The bright smile on your face triggers an even brighter one on his. A rare sight. One that you hold close to your heart.
His heart swells, âI mean it though, baby. The only reason I kept you so far away was because of all of this shit.â He gestures to himself vaguely. Your stomach drops, the smallest amount.
âI want you, Lo. I want all of you.â His eyes shine, his heart soars upon hearing this. Itâs all heâs ever wanted, he thinks. Itâs certainly the thing heâs wanted most. âWill you let me have it, Logan?â
A quietness falls over the two of you. You smile at him, half-agony, half-hope. A blanket of heavy silence coats you and Logan in itâs warm embrace. He clenches his jaw, just once, before nodding. âYes. Yes, baby. You can have it. Have me. Iâll give you anything you fuckinâ ask for if you keep lookinâ at me like that.â
You break out into simultaneous, smiling sighs of relief. Your hearts feel tethered to each other, an intangible connection present and strong between the two of you. âLoganâŚâ
He nods, âFuck, baby. Thatâs the prettiest fuckinâ thing Iâve ever heard.â He draws you closer to him, his breathing suddenly jagged. âSay it again. Say my name again.â
You comply, the whirlpool of beautiful emotions swirling in your chest makes you stutter, âL-logan.â
âAgain,â He demands. âLouder, princess.â He bends his neck to bring his lips down to your neck, they brush against the sensitive skin just below your ear. His hands roam across the expanse of your body. He takes handfuls of you and massages, his skilled fingers kneading your flesh. You feel a familiar heat pool in your belly as he moves his hands around you, itâs intoxicating. You give him what he wants, you cry out his name to the heavens- a declaration to God and man alike that Logan fucking owns you.
He guides your hand down to the bulge in his jeans, moving your wrist ever so slightly, encouraging you to cup his clothed cock. âYou feel this, baby? Can you feel what you do to me?â
A desperate whimper falls from your lips at the utter filth heâs speaking. âF-fuck. Fuck me. Youâre so fucking hard for me.â
Before you know it, youâre leaning against the table, back arched up, moaning, whimpering and babbling- begging for Logan to keep fucking you. He pumps his thick cock in and out of your soaking cunt. Filthy, wet noises of pleasure echo in the small room. He picks up his speed, hand coming down to smack your ass a few times. âFuck, baby. Always so fuckinâ wet for me, arenât you? My desperate fucking princess. You need this, donât you? Tell me. Tell me how badly you need my cock.â
âOh, fuckâŚâ Your pussy clenches around him as those filthy words fall from his mouth and drip down onto you. âI fucking need- oh, God- I need you, Logan. I need you so fucking badly... Please, please make me cum.â Your voice is a mixture of wanton pleasure and fervent desire.
âYou wanna cum, baby? You want to cream all over my fuckinâ dick? Hmm?â
You buck your hips back into him, he groans. The sound is rumbling and gruff and wanting.
âFuck, princess.â He fucks himself into you harder, his dick hits your g-spot, and his hand moves around your body to allow his fingers to play with your clit. âYouâre gonna be good for me, arenât you? You gonna cum nice and hard for daddy?â His voice dips with the addition of the name he knew drove you wild.
He brings you right to the precipice with his rough, rhythmic thrusts and then, with all the power of a raging tidal wave, your orgasm hits you. Pleasure rocks though you from your core, you moan out lewdly. Loudly. You couldnât give a fuck who heard you right now.
He preens, spurred on by the spasming of your pussy around his cock.
âCum inside me, Logan. Oh God- pl-please.â
His hazel eyes go wide, and you swear you can feel something flip inside him. His thrusts become erratic, desperate. He wants this, he needs this. He would let himself fall into you a thousand times over. No amount of time spent with you would ever be enough. He feels something warm and light and pure and new spread through him. It ignites in his veins, seizes his muscles and courses through him. âFuck, what is this? Am I fucking in love with this woman?â He thinks to himself briefly. Logan leans forward, discarding his thought, too concerned with how good your luscious pussy feels wrapped around him. He presses hot kisses against your shoulder as he fucks you.
âBaby, baby Iâm gonna- Oh fuck-â He spills inside you, hips slowing as his orgasm washes over him. He keeps his cock inside for a while- fucking his cum into you, relishing in the feeling.
He turns you over and presses the gentlest, most soulful kiss onto your lips. âYouâre fucking perfect, princess. Did so good for me.â Logan praises.
You take a moment to catch your breath, your body sagging against his slightly. âY-you⌠Logan Howlett⌠Are a different kind of animal.â
âFuckinâ right I am.â You can practically hear the smirk in his words. He presses a tentative kiss to your forehead, then one on your cheek, and your other cheek and suddenly, your face is being cradled in his large hands, jaw nestled in the warmth of his palms.
âIâm yours, you know that, right?â your eyes lift to meet his.
âThatâs all I ever wanted to hear, baby.â His eyes soften, a smile falls onto his lips. His heart thumps steadily in his chest. This is right, this was always right. Logan knows thereâs no other alternative to this. Youâre it, for him. âAnd uh- just for the record, princess... Youâve fuckinâ got me. You are everything, fucking everything. And I swear to God Iâll be the man you deserve.â Your simultaneous admissions sit together, twisting into each other and solidifying into something glorious.
The height youâre soaring at is dizzying, the fact that you get this man all to yourself- it is almost too much to comprehend. One final thought sits in your mind as Logan holds you close to him, hands stroking up your spine and lips whispering sweet words into your ears⌠Thank God this man was selfish.
Hi hi! Here's Part 2 as promised!! I hope yall like it <3
Xoxo, Viv
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MASSEUSE LOGAN OLD MAN EDITION.
Logan leaned back, crossing his arms over his chest as he studied her. âYouâre not serious about this whole âmassageâ thing, are ya, sweetheart?â He huffed, eyes narrowed in skepticism. âDonât I look a little⌠clawed up to be your friendly neighborhood masseuse?â
She gave him a grin that was anything but innocent. âAw, donât tell me Old Man Loganâs scared of some hard work? Iâve heard rumors â best hands in the business.â She leaned in, raising an eyebrow. âMight even say youâre legendary.â
Logan rolled his eyes, muttering something under his breath that sounded suspiciously like, âLegendary⌠pain in theâŚâ
âDid you just call me a pain?â She tilted her head, giving him an exaggerated pout. âReally, Logan, I thought we were friends.â
âFriends donât guilt-trip friends into massages,â he grumbled, pulling out a faded, slightly beat-up massage table from the back of his studio. âNow get on the table, or Iâm charging double.â
She hopped on, barely hiding her smirk. âWouldnât dream of it, Old Man.â
He huffed as he started on her shoulders, mumbling about how sheâd be the end of him. But despite the grumbling, his hands moved with a surprising gentleness, kneading out knots with practiced ease.
âOw!â She yelped suddenly, and he barked out a laugh, unapologetic.
âYeah, thatâs what you get for callinâ me âold man,â sweetheart.â
âOh, sure â punish the client. Excellent bedside manner, Logan,â she teased, her laughter bubbling up despite the sting in her shoulder.
Logan just shook his head, fighting a smile. âYou want this done or not?â
âAlright, alright.â She settled back, sighing in contentment. âJust donât get too soft on me, Logan. Wouldnât want you to lose that tough-guy reputation.â
Loganâs mouth twisted into a wry grin as he pressed a particularly stubborn knot. âSweetheart, I donât go soft for anyone.â
She winced, half-laughing through it. âCoulda fooled me, Logan.â
Logan rolled his shoulders, eyeing her across the dim room as if sheâd just challenged him to a bar fight instead of a massage. âYou know, you coulda gone to a real spa instead of dragginâ me into this,â he muttered, his tone gruff but undeniably amused. âThey got candles and music and all that fancy stuff youâre always tryinâ to drag me into.â
She smirked, kicking off her shoes and settling herself onto the faded leather massage table heâd hauled in from who-knows-where. âBut whereâs the fun in that?â she shot back. âBesides, word is, youâve got the best hands in town, Logan. Iâd be a fool to pass up the legend.â
He let out a snort, crossing his arms. âLegend? Pretty sure thatâs just a word youâre throwinâ around to get a discount.â
âOh please.â She flopped dramatically onto her back. âLike Iâd ask for a discount. What do you take me for?â
Logan arched a brow, pulling out a bottle of oil from his makeshift supply shelf and popping it open. âAn opportunist,â he muttered, slapping a generous amount into his palms. He warmed it between his hands, then took hold of her shoulder, his fingers pressing with surprising skill.
âOh, thatâs good,â she sighed, eyes fluttering shut as his thumbs dug in. âYouâve got the hands of an angel, Logan.â
âAngel?â he scoffed. âLast time someone called me that, I was scrappinâ in a bar, and Iâm pretty sure they were beinâ sarcastic.â
She laughed, the sound relaxed and easy. âWell, Iâm not. Seriously, this is amazing. Do you moonlight as a miracle worker too?â
âDonât get any ideas,â he replied, shaking his head as he worked out a knot at the top of her spine. âIâm just gettinâ rid of some of that tension you build up from, yâknow⌠annoyinâ me all day.â
She gasped in mock outrage. âOh, annoying you? Whoâs the one grumbling about every little thing?â
âExactly,â Logan grunted, pressing deeper with a grin he couldnât hide. âIf I werenât around, whoâd keep you in line?â
âOh, sure, the old man keeps me in line.â She smirked, her tone dripping with sarcasm. âRight. You think youâre all grumpy and untouchable, but deep down, I know you love this job. Itâs practically a calling.â
Logan chuckled, the sound low and gravelly. âIâd watch it if I were you. Keep talkinâ, and I might go easy on the next knot. Make it hurt a little less.â
âLike you ever go easy on anything,â she teased, and he shook his head, unable to stop a small chuckle from escaping.
âIâm serious,â he said, leaning in, his hands working deftly. âYouâre pushinâ your luck.â
But she only settled deeper into the table, content, a small smile playing on her lips. âYeah, well⌠if pushing my luck gets me one of these every now and then, maybe itâs worth it.â
Logan let out a snort, pausing just long enough to mutter, âOne day youâre gonna pay for all this flattery.â
âOh, Logan,â she sighed in contentment, âyouâre already a softie.â
End.
#wolverine x reader#wolverine smut#deadpool and wolverine#captain america#hugh jackman#logan howlett#logan howlett smut#wolverine#wolverine xmen#x men wolverine#wolverine fanfiction#the wolverine#x men origins wolverine#logan wolverine#wolverpool#old man logan#logan howlett fic#logan howlett imagine#logan howlet smut#logan howlett fanfiction#logan fluff#logan smut#logan x reader#wade x logan
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Poolverine Fic Recs <3
Find more at @poolverineficrecs
I wanted to make a lil list of my favourite poolverine/deadclaws fics because I am losing track of my faves so I thought I could do it as a rec post!
I will be adding as I read. I have added a star next to my faves âď¸
Any fics with the ufo emoji are new fics to the list đ¸ If you want me to add any descriptions/warnings let me know Reblogs are always appreciated and please give me recs if you have them <3
luv ya!
One-shots
Will We Ever Learn? Weâve Been Here Before by ClowninAround
Gen 2k Origins!Poolverine
lithium by mikaminato
Mature 8k
The Language of Love by walkinginthewlnd
Teen 4k
âď¸ You Should Feel My Nature Too by sterlingstars
Explicit 10k PWP dancer!wade has my heart
âď¸I Knew You In Another Life. You Had That Same Look In Your Eyes. by Blondefir98
Mature 6k Origins!Poolverine
Soon to Be by mikaminato
Explicit 7k PWP
(despite my better efforts, it's) all for you by Edgebug
Explicit 3k
When The Drunks Start Singing by capitalismwasamistake
Explicit 27k DDDNE
Make You Mine by woof_verine
Explicit 8k PWP
âď¸ Save Me (Or Five Times Logan Needed Wadeâs Help And The One Time He Just Needed Wade) by Curupia
Teen 4k
listen for heaven by nicodiangelol
Explicit 8k
We Should Just Kiss (Like Real People Do) by afterhoursnika
Teen 8k
Completed works
An ear to listen, a heart to understand by Dtown_mp3
Gen 15k No powers AU.
We Could Just Kiss (like real people do) by LadyMidnight24
Mature 11k
âď¸ In Another Life by Flash_Bastard
Explicit 29k Origins!Poolverine this fic broke my heart it's my fave ever!!
âď¸The Canadian Lynx in Your Living Room by Bunaomi
Explicit 72k
âď¸Guess by handfulofteeth (s0norus)
Explicit 16k
Rocky(ies) Honeymoon by LaReineDuLune
Mature 11k
Adrenaline and Adamantium by RaysOccultBoobs
Explicit 15k
All I Want For Christmas is You (Deadpool Edition) by jenniferlawrencelover
Explicit 52k
happiness (like a bullet in the back) by handfulofteeth (s0norus)
Explicit 15k
âď¸đ¸ second nature to me by now by Edgebug
Explicit 36k
WIPs
âď¸(Ultraviolence) by uncle_swag
Explicit 22k 5/6 chapters No Powers AU Stripper!Wade
black irises in the sunshine by handfulofteeth (s0norus)
Explicit 10k 3/4 chapters
Kaleidoscope by Space_wanderer
Explicit 62k 12/14 chapters
Love shot by lillygoeson
Explicit 18k 4/6 Chapters No powers AU
Until you get sick of me, honestly by 3koboldsinahoodie
Explicit 75k 16/?
If you have written any of these works and want me to remove them from this post just let me know <3
#deadpool#wolverine#deadpool and wolverine#wade wilson#logan howlett#poolverine#deadclaws#deadpool 3#fic rec#masterlist#deadpool x wolverine#logan x wade#wade winston wilson#i love ao3#ao3 fanfic#poolverine fic#fanfic#marvel#x men origins wolverine#xmen#x men#i have too much free time
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Plagiarism
The account @/BriiiiGon_za_lez on Wattpad is translating full tumblr fics from various fandoms into Spanish without permission or credit to the original tumblr authors. They also stole a fic of mine so Iâm assuming none of the other fics are approved for reposting and translation by the original writers. I canât remember the original writers of any of the specific fics I recognise but the description of the work on Wattpad is this:
so I assume everything is stolen. I havenât reported anything yet because I donât know what to do tbh but I thought Iâd make a post and we can try to help each other and figure this out đ
hereâs the link (i think anyway idk how fucking wattpad works)
#Logan howlett x reader#javi peĂąa x reader#Wade wilson x reader#steve harington x reader#eddie munson x reader#joel miller x reader#Idk if anyone else has already made a post about this but#i hate wattpad so bad stuff like this always happens over there#i definitely recognise lots of the fics and i mean they literally admit that itâs all stolen off tumblr but i havenât found out any of the#original urls so pls tag people if you recognise any of the fics there
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VERONA- L. HOWLETT
pairing: boyfriend!logan x fem!reader
summary: you and logan are eachothers safe space, and you indulge in the comforts of eachothers arms during a storm:)
warnings: petnames and weed smoking, thats it thats all!
word count- 700 (self indulgent fluff session for my own wellbeing)
"the partyâs over and you tell everybody to leave/ you leave the windows open/ let the summer wind wash over me.... when youâre in my body/ feel you deep inside me every night/ i'm coming up empty/ tryna' find the words to describe you right/ here in my verona..."- ethel cain, verona (demo, unreleased)
i had to write this because i need to be cuddled and comforted by logan and im just so in love with ethel cain and everything she creates. i recomend listening to the song (only if u want, i love listening to music when i read) to get a sense of the vibe... or to create ur own
You could hear the tiniest little creak of the old wooden floors downstairs as you lay in bed.
A low murmur, before a door shut, lock clicking firmly. Your fingers curled, digging deep into the cotton sheets.
They were cool and crisp, the wind slithering in from the opened window to let the smoke out, and the fog in.
You had invited some friends over for the afternoon, everyone cozying up in your little cottage farmhouse to watch some movies during the storm, and to light a few up.
Your boyfriend, Logan, hadnât left your side, sitting you between his parted legs, large body taking up the entire couch as he let your upper half lay on his chest, while he stroked your hair.
A few hours had passed, the storm sputtering to a steady drizzle, as you grew sleepy on the couch, consciousness fading in and out, pulling you under like a wave.
That was when Logan had decided to call it for the evening, carrying you upstairs to your shared bedroom, sending everyone on their way.
His heavy steps creaked below you, and you heard him walk over to the windows, shutting them firmly.
You always wanted them open, just a smidge for the cool air. Tonight was no exception, and you turned your head to the soothing sound of the rain smacking the window pane, followed by Logan's steps up the stairs.
âDâyou want these blown out princess?â he asked as he stepped inside, almost having to crouch under the door frame to fit through it.
Old farmhouses were not meant for massive giants like him, but he refused to change anything that didn't need to be fixed from a safety aspect, because he knew how much the old charm pleased you.
He nodded to the few candles that were flickering on the dresser, the wax slowly trickling down the tall sticks, plopping down next to Logan's box of cigars and the fresh baby's breath he had picked for you.
âSâokay, no thank you Lo. Are you staying awake?â
He smiled softly, sliding off his plaid flannel before sliding himself next to you on the bed, it creaking under his weight. âCourse Iâm staying awake. Who would protect you from the monsters in the attic?â
âDon't you dare say that!â you huffed, curling into his side, his chuckles vibrating your whole body as his arms wrapped around you, engulfing you in their warmth.
The hard muscle was like a cushion for you, and you clung to him, breathing in the smell of him- tobacco and pine. You stayed in his arms, listening to the rain fall as he stroked your hair, giving you the odd murmur of reassurance and kisses to the top of your head.
It was like your Verona.
A sweet, angelic utopia the two of you formed together in this little bedroom, when it was quiet, just the sync of your breaths, nothing but eager, soft touches. It was one of the only times you found true peace, was with him.
When he made you feel protected, and cherished, and loved.
Something you had been eager to find your entire life, something that had only recently emerged two years ago- when you had found him.
Moreso, when he found you.
Now you were here, in his arms, listening to his sweet praises as you dozed.
Such a sleepy girl. You did so good today princess, my lil baby having all those people over. You did such a good job. Youâre so lovable, you know that bub? My sweet sweet lil girl.
You mumbled gibberish, trying to form words that sounded close to âLove you sâmuchâ, but nothing was able to get past your lips. He watched the candles flicker, the dainty, white lace curtains swaying with the breeze as you slept.
All he could think was how lucky he was to have you, to take care of.
All he ever wanted was someone he could pour his affections onto, and not only did you receive it with touch starved, opened arms- but you gave it back just as much.
He reached over to the side table, palming a Shakespeare book you had left dog eared and tea stained to read.
And yet as he got lost in the play, all he could think of was how Romeo and Juliet had nothing, nothing compared to your guyâs Verona.
#hugh jackman#hugh jackman fanfic#logan wolverine#logan x reader#logan howlett fanfiction#logan howlett imagine#logan howlet smut#logan howlett#logan howlett smut#wolverine smut#wolverine#hugh jackman smut#wolverine fanfiction#wolverine fic#deadpool 3#the x men#x men origins: wolverine
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