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The type of guy to hand you a doc leaf if your stung by stinging nettles without saying a word and have both drinking and rubbing alcohol on him at all times.
gonna make Will the wildest bitch around watch me
#idk what definition ofnwild were going for here#lile woooooh partyyyyy wild#or pan god of the wild#wasnt sure so covered all bases 😎
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Cernunnos - A Confusion of Aspects
Introduction
This was supposed to be a simple bit of research that I was going to do as a devotional act to Cernunnos, but over the course of the night I kept encountering the same dead ends that pointed to the same singular source of misinformation. So do not expect this to be entirely objective.
Let's begin with a simple question: Who is Cernunnos?
A Gallic deity, with difficult to trace roots. Depicted sparingly, there is debate on whether or not various depictions can actually be attributed to him. Particularly, one of the most famous supposed depictions – the Gundestrup Cauldron – has been theorized by Celtic scholar John Matthews to depict a Shaman and not the god himself, according to his book The Celtic Shaman. Depiction variation and debate is not uncommon in discussion of older religions and cultures, particularly when Romanization and Christian censorship were at play. Not to mention Wiccan appropriation and repurposing of beliefs without regard for earlier context.
Others have made fantastic deep dives into potential depictions and discussed them at length, and I am no historical scholar, so I have little to add in this case. I highly recommend the essay The gods of Gaul: Cernunnos by @mask131 [1] for a piece regarding depictions through history.
Upon reading the previous essay, I was inspired to dig deeper into Cernunnos, from historical contexts to meditating on my own UPG via my connection with him. My own connection with him was something that happened casually over time, ranging from dreamlike interactions to conversing directly through divination. I am an incarnate Fae, and worship him as the King of the Fae, in addition to other aspects and epithets such as:
Cernunnos
King of the Fae
Master of the Sacrificial Hunt, The Horned God, and other Wiccan Concepts
Master of the Wild Hunt
Pan
The Green Man
Herne the Hunter
This list is influenced by a resource post of druidry.org[2], but I will be researching each of these titles for further insights into their sources and how they do or do not connect to my own practice ahead.
[1] mask131, Tumblr
[2] https://druidry.org/resources/cernnunos - this is not a reliable resource
^ Cernunnos depiction on the Gundestrup Cauldron
Cernunnos
As learned in the previously linked essay, the name “Cernunnos” originates from the “Pillar of the Nautes” or the “Pillar of the Boatmen”, where the name is placed directly above a depiction of an antlered figure on the Block of Four Divinities[3] alongside the deity Smertrios. Many Gaul artifacts can be found in French museums. The Pillar of the Boatmen is attributed as a Roman-era inscription[4], so that gives us only enough information to hypothesize.
My takeaway from this is that the name Cernunnos is a modern approximation because of lacking, provable historical records, but rather serves a purpose as a modern placeholder. I came across information claiming that worship of Cernunnos as a deity was brought into modern belief by neo-pagans and popularized by Wiccans, particularly through Margaret Murray’s writings. During her studies of folklore in the early 20th century she put together a Witch-cult hypothesis that stated how a variety of horned deities were aspects of a “proto-horned god”[5]. In addition, this belief was adopted by Gerald Gardner and formed the basis of the concept of the Horned God within Wicca.[6]
“Sometimes also known as Carnonos, his name has firm Proto-Indo-European origins. It stems from the PIE word *k̑r̥no-, and is thus cognate to Germanic *hurnaz and Latin cornu, all meaning “horn”. In the Celtic Gaulish language, this word was karnon, and the connection with the name of Cernunnos is clear - it reflects the deity’s stag antlers, growing from his head. Thus, Cernunnos literally means “the horned one”.”[7]
Gallic history is sparse and difficult to pin down due to a lack of written records or literature. Multitudes of visual depictions dating from the Roman era have been attributed to Cernunnos by Archaeologists, having been retrieved from northern Gaul. These depictions are hypothesized to be this deity or others of similar archetypes. In addition, sites tend to use the words “Gallic” and “Gaelic” semi-interchangeably, despite the regional difference. Gael meaning a Celtic tribe from modern Ireland-Scotland, and Gaul meaning a tribe located in modern France. There is speculation that Cernunnos was a proto-Celtic deity, and could have had roots in any or all Celtic practices and beyond, but that is speculation because there is a lack of evidence to support the theory in any substantial direction.
[3] Name sourced from Athena Review, Vol. 4, No. 2, which also sources Huchard, V. (ed) Archéologica. 2003. “Le Pilier des Nautes Retrouvé. Histoire d’une Métamorphose.” Dijon, France. Éditions Faton S.A
[4] An observation attributed to Hatt, Jean-Jacques who recorded that the artifact was originally erected in 1st century AD.
[5] Margaret Murray, The God of the Witches
[6] Kathleen Sheppard Forced into the Fringes: Margaret Murray’s Witch-cult Hypothesis 21 April 2017
[7] According to Aleksa Vučković via ancient-origins.net
^Cernunnos's face as depicted of the Pillar of the Boatmen
King of the Fae - UPG
This title is predominantly UPG and relates to my own existence as an incarnate fae.
I find him similar but above other more location-based wild gods, beings like boar lords, and other guardians and rulers of nature. There is a loose hierarchy within fae politics, for lack of a better word, that is predominantly power based. Not as in subjugation over other beings, but rather quantified by expanse of control or domains. Finding the words for this section proves difficult, but he is simply above all of us, with a connection to all Fae. Cernunnos does not view himself as better than any of his subjects, he is not preoccupied with anything like that.
Does this title equate him with the concept of Oberon? No, I don’t believe so. He also exists outside of the seasonal courts, as he goes through a physical shift with the seasons instead of remaining in one form.
Master of the Sacrificial Hunt & The Horned God
Many modern depictions and associations with Cernunnos took their form via Wicca, as previously mentioned. The now heavily discounted Witch-cult hypothesis led to the adopting of the name as a common main aspect of Wicca’s concept of the Divine Masculine or the Horned God that absorbed many horned deities into one being, losing their individual status and becoming “aspects” of a central pillar. This is a theme often seen within Wicca and expands to their depiction of a central Divine Feminine deity as well, the pair often referred to as The Lord and The Lady. This is a simplification that I do not agree with. The epithet “Master of the Sacrificial Hunt” is unable to be sourced beyond the previous essay on Druidry.com and a repost of the same write-up on witchesofthecraft.com, so this title isn’t possible to verify. Although, mentions of Cernunnos identify him as a being that has a seasonal cycle of death and rebirth, which this epithet may be indicating. This belief appears to also have its basis within Wicca and lacks historical evidence. To quote from Wikipedia, “Within the Wiccan tradition, the Horned God reflects the seasons of the year in an annual cycle of life, death and rebirth
and his imagery is a blend of the Gaulish god Cernunnos, the Greek god Pan, The Green Man motif, and various other horned spirit imagery.”[8][9]
While I am large proponent of UPG, I do not abide by stating such concepts as strict facts. I will explore this further in future sections.
[8] Farrar, Stewart & Janet Eight Sabbats for Witches
[9] Doreen Valiente The Rebirth of Witchcraft pg 52-53
^The plaque I'm sure we've all seen in our local metaphysical store
Master of the Wild Hunt
The Wild Hunt is a concept that permeates the history of many European cultures, including the Celts.[10] Myths of Wild Hunts would most often include a central figure flanked by hunters all in pursuit of some kind of special quarry. Within Germanic legend, the mythical figure is often Odin, but there were many other figures that have been featured across cultures and belief systems, sometimes historical and other times religious. The hunters were often depicted as fairies, the souls of the dead, or otherwise inhuman participants. Witnessing the spectacle as a mortal was thought to bring calamity[11], death, or abduction to magical realms. The concept and term were popularized by German author Jacob Grimm, originally as Wilde Jagd.[12]
This mythological concept existed in various aspects of Germanic and European folklore, across multiple cultures. Despite this, the lack of Gallic literature means that we are unable to directly connect Cernunnos to any historical uses. The prevalence of this type of myth, though, presents the obvious opportunity to incorporate our modern understanding of him into the framework to explore our own UPG. This is a topic I may meditate on further if I do further research into the concept of the Wild Hunt.
My own personal experiences with the concept are much more play oriented. If you’ve ever been to a Beltane festival, you probably know the heady feeling of being chased through the woods before being caught and celebrating the season. This interactive ritual-made-game is a fun staple you may find on the schedule of any fertility event these days meant to drive up sexually charged, excited energy. It’s a simple enough concept to incorporate into any individual practitioner’s holiday plan, if it suits your preference. Especially as a Fae, I find the concept of the Wild Hunt to be something fun to engage in with a special partner or community, and find no harm in inserting anyone into the role of Master of the Wild Hunt, as the prevalence of the format leaving the form of individual story to expand into a genre.
[10] Stith Thompson (1977) The Folktale University of California Press pg 257
[11] See, for example, Chambers's Encyclopaedia, 1901, s.v. "Wild Hunt": "[Gabriel's Hounds] ... portend death or calamity to the house over which they hang"; "the cry of the Seven Whistlers ... a death omen".
[12] Deutsche Mythologie (1835)
^Johann Wilhelm Cordes: Die Wilde Jagd (The Wild Hunt)1856/57
Pan
The conflation of Pan with Cernunnos appears to be predominantly based in the view of all male horned deities being simple aspects of a larger presence – the Wiccan Horned God. As previously stated, I do not support that concept and will use this section to study Pan as a separate entity and cover where in my UPG they overlap.
Pan is the Greek god of the wilds, music, and a guardian of shepherds and their flocks. He also was usually in the presence of nymphs.[13] Unlike the Stag depictions and associations of Cernunnos, Pan sported the legs and horns of a goat and appeared similar to a Satyr. His domain expanded to agricultural and wooded areas, as well as the realms of sex and fertility. The sum of those parts was to present him as a god of the season of Spring. He had a Roman equivalent in the god Faunus, and was also conflated with another known as Silvanus at times. Pan became a popular god during the 20th century neopagan revival[14].
Even before that, worship of him was brought back by a festival originating in Painswick, Gloucestershire by Benjamin Hyett, who also constructed various holy places in the god’s name.[15] Other popular occultists of the early 1900’s such as Aleister Crowley also crossed paths with Pan, as he built an altar to the god and wrote a ritual play about him.[16] After that point, his image and general description was absorbed into the Wiccan Horned God concept after Margaret Murray’s The God of the Witches posed the idea that he was simply one part of an overarching whole.
But who was Pan outside of this, particularly who was he before the Witch-god hypothesis altered how future generations would see him?
Pan is considered by some scholars to be a reconstruction of a Proto-Indo-European pastoral deity[17], as well as Pushan, a god originating from Rigvedic that also shared goat traits.[18]
Beyond these source hypotheses, there is evidence that Pan was first worshipped in the mountainous, isolated area of Arcadia. In that area, if a hunt wasn’t satisfactory, disgruntled hunters would scourge, or whip, the statue of Pan.[19] At this time, there were no formal temples to Pan, and worship was instead pursued in woodlands and other natural spaces. While exemptions from this rule did exist, they were few and far between.[20] He predates the Olympians, like many Grecian nature spirits. I won’t go too in depth regarding direct mythology, as its difficult to do that with the Greek pantheon without tangents.
Pan was viewed as a height of sexual prowess, and agricultural success. He had a history of dalliances with Nymphs, to put it lightly, often depicted as being controlled by his lust and anger. Such as in the myth of the Nymph Echo, whom he ordered killed when she denied any man. In some versions, the pair even have two children, or perhaps chose Narcissus over him, no matter the variation he is usually painted as rash and jealous. I’m sure we’ve all seen that statue of Pan and the goat that resides in the National Archaeological Museum in Naples.
The word “panic” can trace its sources back to him, but I was surprised to find that “pandemonium” does not.[21]
In my personal view, Cernunnos ages with the seasons, being at his most virile in the Spring, then maturing into his form as a guardian of the dead come winter, appearing dead himself. This is relevant in that I find the depictions of the lustful, energetic Pan to be inspiring of how I see that Spring form. Beyond that, the agricultural and animal connections are similar, but seem to take very different forms upon closer inspection.
Within actual historical context, there doesn’t seem to be anything connecting Cernunnos and Pan in any way beyond neo-pagan labelling.
[13] Edwin L. Brown, "The Lycidas of Theocritus Idyll 7", Harvard Studies in Classical Philology, 1981:59–100.
[14] The Triumph of the Moon: A History of Modern Pagan Witchcraft, Hutton, Ronald, chapter 3
[15] Hutton, Ronald. The Triumph of the Moon: A History of Modern Pagan Witchcraft pp 161–162.
[16] Soar, Katy (2020). "The Great Pan in Albion". Hellebore. 2 (The Wild Gods Issue): 14–27.
[17] Mallory, J. P.; Adams, D. Q. (2006). The Oxford Introduction to Proto-Indo-European and the Proto-Indo-European World. Oxford, England: Oxford University Press. p. 434
[18] H. Collitz, "Wodan, Hermes und Pushan," Festskrift tillägnad Hugo Pipping pȧ hans sextioȧrsdag den 5 November 1924 1924, pp 574–587.
[19] Theocritus. vii. 107
[20] Horbury, William (1992). Jewish Inscriptions of Graeco-Roman Egypt. Cambridge, England: Cambridge University Press. p. 208.
[21] Coined by John Milton in his poem “Paradise Lost” coming from the Greek pan- “all” and daemonium “evil spirit”
^Mask of the god Pan, detail from a bronze stamnoid situla, 340–320 BC, part of the Vassil Bojkov Collection, Sofia, Bulgaria (It is shockingly difficult to find art of Pan where he's not rock hard.)
The Green Man
Viewed as more of a motif or concept than a deity, the Green Man originated in England and was usually depicted as covered in leaves and sometimes armed with a club. One might encounter these visuals in parades, festivals, or painted on the signs of many pubs come the 17th century. This changed with the introduction of Julia Somerset, who claimed in the Folklore journal that the design often seen on church walls actually had pagan origins as some kind of fertility deity.[22] There is no evidence to support this claim, and it has been contested by many folklorists.[23] This assertion by Somerset was then absorbed into the Wiccan Horned God despite being described as distinctly “20th Century Folklore”.[24]
That’s pretty much the extent of this one and was honestly one of the most shocking to read about. The Green Man was at best a regional icon used in local festivities but was never any kind of deity. That title was misrepresented and incorporated without research.
My personal association would be the visuals of Winter, but Cernunnos’ Winter form appears very differently to me. More skeletal stag, less old man with a holly beard.
[22] Centerwall, Brandon S. (January 1997). "The Name of the Green Man". Folklore. 108 (1–2): 25–33.
[23] Livingstone, Josephine (2016-03-07). "The Remarkable Persistence of the Green Man". The New Yorker.
[24] Olmstead, Molly (2023-04-08). "Is the Green Man British Enough for the Royal Coronation?". Slate.
^A sign for the John Barras Pub Company
Herne the Hunter
After the last section, it is a relief to move on to something that has always been presented to me with its original fictional context intact. Herne the Hunter was a character originally depicted in The Merry Wive of Windsor written by Shakespeare in approximately 1597. Supposedly, Herne the Hunter is an antlered spirit that occupies the Royal Forest in England, occupying himself with tormenting cattle and rattling chains. While the character may have been based on local legends to some degree, it is unknown just how much verifiable connection has ever existed. Attempts to connection him to other deities or legends were made often after he was written.
There is an old tale goes, that Herne the Hunter (sometime a keeper here in Windsor Forest) Doth all the winter-time, at still midnight Walk round about an oak, with great ragg'd horns; And there he blasts the tree, and takes the cattle, And makes milch-kine yield blood, and shakes a chain In a most hideous and dreadful manner. You have heard of such a spirit, and well you know The superstitious idle-headed eld Receiv'd, and did deliver to our age This tale of Herne the Hunter for a truth.
— William Shakespeare, The Merry Wives of Windsor, Act 4, scene 4
Despite Herne being a location-based character appearing only in the areas Windsor Forest occupied, certain books published in 1929 and 1933[25] attempted to identify him with Cernunnos and other horned deities. This is again the connection through which Wiccans incorporated Herne into the Horned God.[26]
[25] The History of the Devil – The Horned God of the West by R. Lowe Thompson; The God of the Witches by Margaret Murray
[26] 'Simple Wicca: A simple wisdom book' by Michele Morgan, Conari, 2000
^Illustration of Herne the Hunter by George Cruikshank (1840s)
Romanizations
There are theories mentioned in mask131’s essay regarding attempts at identifying what Roman deity or deities was meant to be the equivalent of Cernunnos, but there is sadly only speculation on that front. Opinions vary from person to person, but parallels are often drawn to Dis Pater and Mercury for shared traits. I did find instances such as the Lyon Cup and an altar from Reims that feature Mercury and Cernunnos depicted side by side, so I believe it is safe to say that they were at least at some point considered fully separate beings.
^1st-century CE altar from Reims with Cernunnos, accompanied by Apollo and Mercury. Mercury has a cornucopia, while Cernunnos spills grain.
Aside – Misinformation is Rampant
This one book, this one fucking “hypothesis”, changed the entire face of what would eventually become modern neopaganism. The damage of the Witch-cult hypothesis is far reaching and permeates every resource I could find while writing this piece aside from the explicitly scholarly. It is extremely discouraging how quickly you can trace something that feels off back to this one woman’s massively disproven theory that was adopted by a man that wanted to make a religion based on occult foundations because he admired ceremonial magic. The frustration I feel as someone trying to do research now after this misinformation and pseudohistory has seeped into every aspect of the path has me constantly on edge and second guessing everything I read until I can find a source.
Stating UPG as undeniable fact that others must agree with isn’t great at the best of times, but the sheer level of ignorance to historical record seems to be running rampant within the modern Pagan community. I’m all for believing something unverifiable, something that’s only true for you, or for the world from your perspective, but there is and must be a difference between that and presenting easily disproven statements as unbreakable law, especially with they come hand in hand with any dressings like, “this is actually true because I was told so by this person, who learned from this other person.” And the process is traceable to the source they borrowed from and how it was completely disproven.
We must think critically within paganism, research beyond the books with flashy covers in Barnes & Noble and question the things we are told by others are just the way things are.
Your relationship with the gods is yours alone and can take any form you want it to. Don’t let yourself be trapped by ignorance. Learn about historical contexts, question sources, seeking mentoring from those who revel in your questions and help you find the answers.
Conclusion
Cernunnos is a deity that is beyond valuable to communicate with directly due to the lack of concrete historical and folkloric information, and the prevalence of blatant misinformation that uses his name. Context is important, and even if you choose to exist outside of it, which is a perfectly valid choice, it should be a conscious one.
In addition, while attempting to research this, I actually stumbled upon sites not just with AI generated cover images, but what fully appeared to be AI generated writing. Be vigilant against information that looks like someone just skimmed the surface and made an assumption, this page had a lot of almost correct or just flat out made up information that contradicts historical fact. Especially in this modern era where people use automatic programs to make summaries of summaries for a game of unverifiable internet telephone, be aware. No matter what your personal stance on AI is, I'm sure we can all stand against information atrophy.
To me, Cernunnos is a supportive, ever-present god that helps me through things in his own way, meaning that its usually something intense and then coming out the other side putting out a fire on the back of my head. He's hands-off, and wants me to admire the turning of the seasons from new angles. He's opened my eyes to a deeper respect for other belief systems, and encouraged me to do this research so that I could better understand him as well as our own connection. He wants me to be observant and always keep learning and questioning and growing in my faith, in my magic, in my role as a faery.
When it comes to the belief systems that you rely on in life, ignorance is not bliss. Seek knowledge deep in the forest and on the frozen boundaries of a lake or standing barefoot in a grassy meadow, but also in historical records. Anyone who wants the best for you will want you to research and learn more.
Genuinely as I was finishing this up last night, adding this section to the post version the next morning, I considered becoming a YouTube essay person. Maybe someday! Perhaps an actual blog. Researching and writing this kind of thing was actually very fun. I never even did something like this while I was in school, so maybe I'm just not traumatized by the concept. Anyways, I hope this was informative and you enjoyed a peek into the journey I took while putting this together.
Now I'm gonna go light up some green in dedication to Cernunnos ✌︎︎♡⃛
^The Lyon Cup, sometimes identified as Cernunnos
#witch#witchcraft#magic#witchblr#witchy#me#pagan#personal#cernunnos#celtic paganism#paganism#herne the hunter#pan#the green man#wild hunt#fae#fairy#faekin#fae kin#the horned god#wicca#margaret murray#witch-cult hypothesis#the witch-cult hypothesis#the god of the witches#gerald gardner#wiccan#history#folklore#essay
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You guys don’t UNDERSTAND how cool Su Daji x Erlang Shen is
They’re what could have been.
But she had to die because otherwise Erlang would have kept following Heaven’s orders blindly. It took seeing her death for him to realize that, fuck, maybe he is a pawn for Heaven to manipulate and order around. He watched her get executed for something she was sent to do and it changed the trajectory of his fucking LIFE
ERLANG WATCHED SU DAJI DIE AND DECIDED THERE AND THEN THAT HE WOULDN’T LET HEAVEN USE HIM AS A PAWN ANYMORE LIKE BRO
And the fact that if Erlang’s sister or mother ordered him to kill Daji then he would. Because he loves no one more than he loves his mother and sister. So it wouldn’t have been endless romantic heaps of love— it would’ve been just as tragic
How more poetic can you get
#oughhhh#think pan#blindjustice#‘oh theyre like shadwpeach’ WRONG#theyre unique in that Erlang would’ve absolutely fucking HATED her but then grow to realize#shes manipulative and vindictive and opposite to his ideals and what he was taught#he’d loathe her to the CORE then want to worship her even tho hes the god between the two#she’d abuse this knowledge and use it to her advantage#and then feel some type of way when he treats her with the barest hint of kindness#BECAUSE SHES A WILD ANIMAL AND HES HELPLESSLY WATCHING HER KILL TO SURVIVE#AS ALL ANIMALS DO#HE’D LOVE HER AND HATE HER IN THE SAME BREATH#DO YOU UNDERSTAND-
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Mikhail Vrubel (1856-1910), 'Pan', ''Mikhail Aleksandrovich Vrubel'', 1911 Source
#mikhail aleksandrovich vrubel#mikhail vrubel#russian artists#russian painters#pan#god of the wild#greek myth#greek mythology
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books I've gotten recently
#ray talks to void#the white devil's daughters#the bittersweet soil#sui sin far#china#chinatown#the tea dragon society#tomie#junji ito tomie#the great god pan#arthur machen#the girl who fell beneath the sea#peanuts#charles schulz#lady tan's circle of women#lisa see#the wild robot#peter brown#books#reading#college#university#studyblr#late nineteenth century#nineteenth century
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I'm looking for fic recs, as I've read all the ones I could find easily.
I want fics where Percy, preferably grown up, but a little kid is cute too, goes out to the ocean or local waterways, and clears out pollution and debris.
Something that I've come across recently is videos that divers take while they're down there, explaining about the native species as a voice-over. Some of them are just cleaning out the pollutants, but then there are a lot who clear out invasive species like Giant Sea Urchins. I can totally imagine Percy diving down and doing that kind of thing, accidentally becoming famous.
He was blessed by Pan, and I think this and other fics where he becomes a conservationist are great ways to explore that.
#percy jackson#pan God of the wild#grover lord of the wild#environmental conservationist#demigod percy jackson#annabeth chase#grover underwood#sally jackson#poseidon#camp half blood#adult demi-gods
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I address infinite and earnest praise to the showerer of benefits, the cherisher of all, the white-complexioned; adore the consumer of sin, with prostrations; we glorify the illustrious name of Rudra. Firm with strong limbs, assuming many forms fierce, and tawny-colored, he shines with brilliant golden ornaments; vigour is inseparable from Rudra, the supreme ruler and lord of this world. — Rig Veda 2.33.8-9
#Windigo#Wendigo#Rudra#Shiva#Rig Veda#The Retreat#The Retreat movie#The Retreat 2020 movie#Grant Schumacher#Cernunnos#Pan#The Wild One#The Horned God#Horned God
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Anyone else sense an animal conservation theme with Percy Jackson Episode 4?
(I’m surprised Echidna didn’t try exploiting Grover’s fear of his kind disappearing. Something they have in common.)
#there’s the whole subplot about humans eradicating the natural world#centaurs and other creatures disappearing once Pan ‘the god of the wild’ disappeared#and of course Echidna avenging her monster children the demigods killed#Percy Jackson#episode 4#Percy Jackson episode 4#disney#disney+#rick riordan#Percy Jackson and the Olympians#reaction
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When I say fr. I mean FR
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I wanna be a dude
#like. ive said this before but. oh man dysphoria has been getting WILD lately#im... tired? i dont know#ivs been so weird lately. like really happy but then really sad#things have been getting better this year but. something's wrong#maybe is the fact that i dont wanna came out?#but honestly. what if im not really trans? like i know there are people who detransition but.#ugh i hate gender. lets burn it down#...am i gay? like. i love women but. men...#i know im not really bisexual. im pan. i just dont like the extra step to explain it. so i just say bi most of the time.#but...#oh my god i hate my thoughts#i need a hug#and an autism diagnosis /hj#vent post#vent#ignore this post. really. i just needed to talk into the void
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Apollo shut his eyes and yawned heavily, shuffling on the bed. Hades and Hythlodaeus exchanged a look. ‘If you ignore the problems right under your nose and just carry on, when has it ever,’ he mumbled sleepily, ‘not ended in fire?'
just going through Amaurot gives me feelings about these three.
#apollo#emet-selch#hythlodaeus#valentian calestri#warrior of light#warrior of darkness#ffxiv#apollo is val only#i haven't gone into hishe at all yet but he will likely be pan#a god of the wild amongst other things
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Mint tea, iced lemon tea, caramel frappe!!! :3
Mint Tea: usually i play videogames!! the ones i like the most are the exploration ones, the puzzle genre or some of those really grindy rpgs/roguelikes!! and usually if it's not story-heavy i listen to some music or one of those 5-hour-long essays while playing
Iced Lemon Tea: i don't really listen to many bands, but if i had to choose a favourite it'd probably be SIAMÉS!! i really like their songs, every now and then i go on a listening spree and listen to all of their songs in one go! i gotta look for some similar bands sometime as for a favourite song, Avenger by Stellagram has to be my current fav!! AAAUGH IT'S SO GOOD!!! "ON YOUR MARK GET SET GO" IS STUCK IN MY HEAD!! i hope they get more recognition, they release banger after banger!!
Caramel Frappe: i already answered this one here, BUT since this one came up again I CAN SAY THAT OUTER WILDS IS MY SECOND FAVOURITE!! BY A REALLY REALLY SMALL MARGIN!! GOD i love LOVE the worldbuilding in this game!! the whole concept is SO UNIQUE, all the mechanics are SO CREATIVE and the story makes me TEAR UP even after years since i played it!! also the dlc is BASICALLY A SECOND WHOLE GAME WITH THE SAME LEVEL OF QUALITY AS THE BASE GAME. PLAY IT PLAY IT BITING YOU BITING YOU UNTIL YOU PLAY IT
#qrevo.txt#thanks for the ask!!#GOD I LOVE OUTER WILDS SO MUCH GRGRGR GRRGRRRG#i think i have more intense feelings for outer wilds than hollow knight#BUT i can still play hollow knight and it's got a sense of comfort for me; so it still takes the first place lol#OK EVERYONE HIT MY HEAD WITH A PAN SO THAT I CAN FORGET OUTER WILDS AND PLAY IT AGAIN COME ON#also the one kind of game that TRULY makes me relax is minecraft modpacks. the really grindy ones. while listening to random essays#best way to relax i can physically feel the tension and anxiety evaporating
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Year 12 Films ranking
1.City of God(2002)
2.Beasts of the Southern Wild(2012)
3.Pan's Labyritnth(2006)
4.This is England(2006)
5.Trainspotting(1996)
6.Blade Runner(1982)
7.No Country for Old Men(2007)
8.Vertigo(1958)
#film studies#a level#city of god#beasts of the southern wild#pans labyrinth#this is england#trainspotting#no country for old men#vertigo#blade runner
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🌊°🔱𝙳𝚈𝙻𝙰𝙽🔱°🌊
His Voice by young Hercules
| Mythic Mode | Bioluminescent | Royal | Arrival | Old-Self | Dj Outfit | Causal | His weapons | Demon Mode | War |
DeadName: Phillip Vase Aukai
Name: King Dylan the Aquatic Alpha
Name Meaning: Son of the sea. Sea. Toward the tide. Born from the ocean. Son of the wave. Son of the ocean. Influence.
Nicknames: Dyl, Dilly, Danny, dyldo, Dyl-Dyl & dilly bear (by Harper)
Birthday: June 25
Cause of Death: murder by his own biological father
Age: 188 (die at the age of 17)
Species: a hybrid of Human, Black River Dragon, Anglerfish, and Hippocampus.
Race: Polynesian or Hawaiian and Greek 🇬🇷
Gender: Male ♂
Relationship status: married
Sexuality: Pansexual
Roles or Jobs: God of water. Pasty chef. Bakery chef. Club and mobile DJ. Keyboardist and vocalist. Leader of Aquatic Alphas. Ruler of Aquatic animals. Water bender master. Holder of Crown Jewel pieces.
Home World: Earth (Formerly) Miracle Region (Currently)
Kingdom: Crystal Reef, The Calmest Gulf, The Pleasant Abyss, and The Deepest Abyss.
Home: Azuri keeps
Facts: Dylan is the most talented DJ in the kingdom, besides he is part of a group with his brothers and sisters, he is a master of pasty. Dylan has many half-siblings, he even knew they were uncomfortable with others because of the same father problems, but he doesn't see them as half-siblings, just his real family. When he was young, his mother told him "try to make someone happy, but sometimes people struggle, and perhaps your act of kindness may be their day. Our purpose in life is to enjoy your life—to be happy. It's all that matters. "He is a more happy and cheerful animal, a ridiculous pranker, but he rarely gets angry unless...
Bonding Partner:
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Partner:
Queen Harper the Seal Alpha (wife)
Parents:
Cassia Aukai (Biological mother)
Anwin Aukai (Ex-biological father)
Sibling:
Poseidon the Orca Alpha (Half-brother)
Mano the Shark Alpha (Half-brother)
Victor the Octopus Alpha (Half-brother)
Cornelius the Crocodile Alpha (Half-brother)
Hudson the Otter Alpha (Half-brother)
Calypso the Sea Turtle Alpha (Half-sister)
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Relative:
Tutu Wahine Kaimana Aukai (paternal grandmother)
Abilities:
Greek Deity Physiology
Hippocampus Physiology
Human Physiology
Hybrid Physiology
Lophiiformes Physiology
Merfolk Physiology
Mythic physiology
Stomiiform Physiology
Mythical Bestiary
Aquatic Adaptation
Aquatic Breathing
Aquatic Empathy
Aquatic Telepathy
Bioluminescence
Chimerism
Cold Resistance
Companion Connection
Declaration Aging
Enhanced Lung Capacity
Enhanced Senses
Enhanced Swimming
Enhanced Weapon Proficiency
Entity Bonding
Expressive Ears
Fin Manifestation
Gill Manifestation
Glowing Eyes - only when the power is active or glows in the dark.
Hair Growth
Infinite Digestive System
Lure Protrusion
Omnilingualism
Marine Biology Mastery
Mode Switching - Mythic, Demon, and Rage Form.
Pointed Ears
Prehensile Tail
Pressure Resistance
Regeneration Healer Factor
Scale Manifestation
Spear Proficiency
Speed Swimming
Swimming Tail
Symbiosis
Tail Manifestation
Trident Proficiency
Underwater Combat
Underwater Hearing
Underwater Senses
Underwater Smell
Underwater Strength
Underwater Taste
Underwater Touch
Underwater Vision
Unique Eye Coloration
Unique Hair Coloration
Weapon Summoning
Zoolingualism
Zoological Mastery
Powers:
Aquatic Life Lordship
Aquatic Life Manipulation
Dehydration
Flood Creation
Hydro-Telekinesis
Hydrokinetic Cloning
Hydrokinetic Combat
Hydrokinetic Constructs
Hydrokinetic Invisibility
Hydrokinetic Regeneration
Liquid Surveillance Communication
Ocean Communication
Ocean Embodiment
Ocean Lordship
Oceanscience
Ocean Magic
Ocean Manipulation
Pure Water Manipulation
Sea Monster Manipulation
Tidal Wave Generation
Water Absorption
Water Artillery
Water Attacks
Water Augmentation
Water Aura
Water Boundary
Water Defense
Water Detection
Water Embodiment
Water Empowerment
Water Exoskeleton
Water Generation
Water Immunity
Water Imprisonment
Water Infusion
Water Magic
Water Maneuverability
Water Manipulation
Water Negation
Water Portal Creation
Water Pressure Generation
Water Purification
Water Sealing
Water Sense
Water Separation
Water Solidification
Water Strike
Water Teleportation
Water Transformation
Water Wall Generation
Water Weaponry
Whirlpool Generation
#pansexual#pan#end of her wild side au#end of her wild side oc#artists on tumblr#digital art#eohws#sketchbook app#my art style#emilythehybridwolf#oc info#reference sheet#png art#King Dylan the Aquatic Alpha#Dylan the God of Water#my art 2023#redesign oc#my ocs do not steal
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A little late but still relevant
#green man#saint patrick#cernnunos#paganism#Gundestrup Cauldron#folklore#mythology#the horned god#serpents#pan#wild souls#emma marris#ireland#saint gertrude#matron saint of cats
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autistic boys when they realise the egg theyre eating feels like Egg
#what is it about eggs that taste so good but sometimes you remember its an egg and they get SO GROSSSS#like it starts tasting Too Much like egg#its the whites for me......#which is wild bc first year uni me would just eat a fried egg on its own (NOT A NUTRITIOUS BREAKFAST)#but one of my flatmates had a tiny pan that a fried egg would fit perfectly in and it was so nice eating it that way#i cannot elaborate on why that made it tolerable#anyway#also im the worst bc my favourite type of egg is poached but poaching eggs without one of those special pans is like trying to play god#they should invent an egg that is just yolk#wait yolk throwback to the og how does an orca pray opening that was like#the moonlight yolked through the curtains#like Runny Yolk imagery#LOVED THATTTTT but had to cut it out bc the editors thought i meant yoked#and was like Girl thats not what the word means#and i didnt want to cut it out but also i was like i have enough on my plate (lol) im not going to try and explain#the yolk imagery#(i asked friends if it made sense and most of them didnt like it BUT THEY WERENT WRITERS SO????)#anyway tangent. justice for my yolk imagery. i need to put it back in somewhere
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