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viktor ; arcane. [ rbs very appreciated, click on image for better quality. ]
hi tumblr, please take this viktor doodle from november!!! so sorry for the lack of content, i watched arcane and i’m going to start spewing posts soon because of brainrot soon enough, trust me
#arcane#arcane fanart#arcane art#viktor#viktor arcane#viktor fanart#league of legends#arcane league of legends#arcane netflix#implied transmasc viktor#or not idk u get to choose#digital art#artists on tumblr#fanart#lol fanart#riot games#small artist#viktor league of legends#i’m so sane about him i swear#keich0w#oobling oobles 🦅
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while teen while goblin while aroace while injured while doing your best
#fantasy high junior year#fhjy#riz gukgak#figueroth faeth#sklonda gukgak#dimension 20#this. mmmmhhh this is so. I did Not know how to draw this really.#I am very normal about riz (<- lying)#it's a brennan-dm d20 campaign the bad guy is always capitalism (I am saying this with clenched teeth)#riz out of all of them being aroace fucks with me SO bad. bc its also established that elmsville specifically and probably the#majority of solace is not. made for goblins. and that becomes sklonda being worked to the bone and pok dying on the job#and riz spending all his time trying to keep his friends together. maybe to the point of it being injurous#like. do u get what I mean. its an economy of time it takes your time it eats up your time#not just the gukgaks but everyone you have to spend time to get to live and you don't have a lot of time left in a day#and you have to spend it carefully. you have to prioritize#you're somewhere without an established community and companionship is bought with your time spent working#this place doesn't take care of you. at the end of the day who do you have who'd prioritize you. do you understand me#the evolved aroace loathing where if your friends and family are granted more time nobody would have to choose. we live in a society#holds ur hand we live in a society. idk if Im making any sense#anyway . uhhh riz is my favourite that's my statement thank you for listening. au revoir
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HAHHAHA JOKES ON YOU I WON EITHER WAY./j, lh
I love toxic yuri… thanks for blessing us 🧎♂️🧎♂️
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#YEAHAA TOXIC YURI#i feel like sadie having a ran//ma half thing would b cool.. i basically get to choose what gender he would be#// bc it might show up in the tags#anwy fem sadie would b a he/him lesbian bc i said so#idkk i think i just like ppl who are just masculine in general bc im super femme ? so sadie kinda reflects that#but ehhh i like feminine guys and other femmes too if theyre like........... idk dom?? enough?????#basically if they seem like they can order me around i would be 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍 okay whatever u say my liege 🫡🫡🫡🫡🫡🫡🫡#ok im rambling whoops#franswers#froodles#sadie#macy#frayocs
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if you have the feeling this arc may feel incomplete or something is off, take into consideration fujimoto is doing it on purpose
From this 2021 interview with Da Vinci magazine. Fujimoto doesn't spoon-feed you the content, he never has and I think the charm resides in that he never will
#you can argue that this being done on purpose doesn't automatically make it good. but to me fujimoto can cook whatever he wants idc#you can like it or you can hate it. but that's how he chooses to narrate his work and again. i feel like i need to get inside his head#i like the way he thinks outside the box with stuff that some may not. again it doesn't make it “good” to you. but AGAIN that's subjective#so far i like this feeling of “that was IT?” because somehow it never quite is just that. idk how to explain it#part 1 felt messier in a way that somehow things made sense. part 2 is more structured but at the same time it isn't#things are happening. u kinda know why but suddenly they are not. and suddenly there's a clone somehow but maybe not#idk. i like stuff like that. ofc not everyone is gonna like it. but that's the beauty of art me thinks#now im gonna watch that movie because idk what it's about... sighs. i dont like movieessss i can't believe this man is making me watch movi#chainsaw man#csm#tatsuki fujimoto
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ok ok but despite all its flaws as a show tf armada had a pretty meaningful scene (at least in my opinion) that ties together the ideas it was exploring re "fathers and sons". on the one hand you have starscream struggling to earn a single ounce of recognition and respect from megatron, in a way that is so painfully reminiscent of a neglected child trying to gain affection and approval from a shitty parent because that's all they've been taught to look up to. starscream is beaten and humiliated for even making suggestions in the interests of the decepticons, despite following every order and trying his best to fight for "the cause" even though it no longer makes sense to him. he returns to megatron despite declaring that he no longer cares about what megatron thinks about him, because he does still care---megatron literally blames starscream for having a "conscience." all megatron wants is to hammer down the nail that is sticking up, the "problem child" who can't just take a few hits and move on, and all starscream wants is megatron to just acknowledge him as a person, just once.
on the other hand, you have the scene that i want to talk about: rad waking up his parents in the middle of the night to tell them about the existence of cybertronians and their civil war, and looking like a crazy person as he's rattling off about how he needs to go with the autobots into space while standing in his jammies. and the fallout of that interaction ends up being that his father (at least how im understanding this scene), while not necessarily believing in the substance of what rad says, believes in his son. he sees his child's determination and optimism and he knows that rad is being truthful. he reminisces about his own childhood, about having to give up on his own dreams and excitement about the universe in order to move on in life, and understands where his son is coming from. all he asks is that rad comes home safely.
it reminds me a lot of a scene in madoka magica, when walpurgisnacht is attacking the city, and madoka confesses to her mom, junko, that she needs to leave the emergency shelter in order to save homura, and that only she can do this. even though madoka's mother is confused and distressed at the idea of letting her only daughter follow through with her plan (she even slaps madoka, something that is shocking to see knowing how much the two love each other), she ultimately puts her faith in madoka and lets her go. i don't think that situation was meant to be taken in a literal sense (i.e. that the show was literally trying to say that parents should just let their children do crazy shit like run into a natural disaster), but rather, i think the point was that the relationship between child and parent must be formed out of trust, and that even when the urge to "govern" a child arises out of genuine affection and a desire to protect what the parent believes are the child's best interests, it must be balanced with the parent's trust of that child's capabilities and good intentions, something that can only be done when there is acceptance of the child's autonomy as a person and recognition of their beliefs, attitudes, and values. the central conflict for junko leading up to that confrontation was her sense of gradual alienation from madoka---despite being a "girlboss" role model and an emotionally nurturing figurehead for her daughter, junko implicitly expresses the fear that she no longer understands madoka or is as connected to her, at a period when madoka is developing and becoming her own person. in a few scenes, junko resembles a traditionally overworked father figure, similar to rad's father (who literally looks like he has lost a lot of his passion and interest outside of his work). thus, when junko agrees to let madoka go into the storm, she is essentially telling madoka, "i do trust you, and i see you, and i hear you, and i love you. though i will always be your parent---and therefore will do everything to protect you---i cherish your trust in me as a parent more than i cherish whatever authority i have and my own sense of pride in that role. i believe you."
so when rad's father ultimately accepts that his son's wild story that he needs to go somewhere far, far away to help the autobots, i see his reaction not as a plot device (because why include the scene anyways if rad's parents don't show up for the other 99% of the series?) but as a parent coming to terms with what they also need to do in order to preserve and develop their bond with their child. and, idk, the whole scene is very touching to me while keeping a level of nuance in the interaction (compared to an equivalent, but less nuanced, scene in tf cybertron where the human protagonists literally need the autobots to physically reveal themselves before their parents can believe them), and it makes sense why rad displays that sense of empathy and trust in the minicons later in the time loop.
overall, i think this scene was very bittersweet knowing that this parallel could be drawn between rad's interaction with his father and starscream's desire to have that kind of trust placed in him (making his interaction with alexis, whom he thanks for trusting him despite his betrayal, all the more impactful). idk armada might be goofy but sometimes it gets the emotional beats in a way that just isn't there in the rest of the unicron trilogy.
#transformers armada#tf armada#transformers unicron trilogy#starscream#armada starscream#rad white#alexis thi dang#madoka magica#rambles#that scene with madoka and junko gets me tearing up every time#like idk man ill never be a parent myself but can you imagine#the fear of letting your child go and the weight of choosing to trust in them instead#megatron#armada megatron#idk ignore if u want#transformers
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that first post was supposed to be a one-off but warden hybrid riley glued himself to the inside of my brain so i had to draw him again
i fuckign love worldbuilding with minecraft as the setting its so fun so anyways i imagine hybrids in general would be uncommon- not rare but you wouldnt see one on the streets every day either. boss hybrids (ender dragon/warden/maybe creaking ??? dont know much about it, could also just be a hostile mob) anyways boss hybrids would be like super rare among hybrids cause in my universe they wouldnt occur naturally. so like normal hybrids (hostile/passive/neutral mobs) could occur thru like maybe genetic mutations?? or mutations brought on by magic??? its minecraft whatever. so like hybrids are born all the time they happen normally is what i mean.
boss hybrids however arent made naturally u have to go thru Some Shit to become a boss hybrid, whether on purpose or not. all this to say riley would become a warden hybrid fully on accident. he and the mining team he was on discovered a deep dark biome but they didnt know what it was cause theyre so rare and the average person doesnt go that far into caves. so theyre fucking around and logging their findings when UH OH warden appears and beats the shit out of them. with riley in particular, the warden keeps attacking him even after hes dead. warden hybrids happen when a bunch of skulk debris gets into the corpse before respawning, so when the warden kept attacking his corpse, that preventing him from respawning for a bit and mixed a bunch of skulk into his corpse. thus, he respawns and hes suddenly blind and taller and uh oh hes a hybrid now. fun times!
so anyways hes not like Completely blind but he sees everything VERY blurry so everythign is just very vague blobs of color. also his pupils are constantly huge so hes very light sensitive. thats why he wears the cloth over his eyes so theyre not randomly hurting cause he looked at a light source without realizing
this couldve been in the tags but View My Wall Of Text Boy
#shrikes ocs#riley#i imagine ender dragon hybrids could be similar like a bucnh of dragons breathe gets into the wounds before respawn ? idk#withers would be different cause theyre completely man made and unnatural. like wardens/dragons spawn naturally but u gotta choose to make#a wither#anyways i imagine wither hybrids would happen when something goes wrong during the summoning process and it generally would Fucking Suck to#to be a wither hybrid#character limit my beloathed#like ur constantly withering away and regenerating#constantly hot like the nether and cold like a corpse#anyways enjoy my beast ive been daydreaming about him all day#i love tormenting my ocs#myart#art
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she red on my stoner until the red sun never sets IT NEVER SETS I AHVENT SLEPT
#just some doodle ideas of redstoner yk how it iss#idk hair tho ill prilly change it#but i was thinking about him & thought OH BOY what if his derpy eyes were bc of goggles#?? then got carried away but not 2 much#i dont reeeeeeeaaaaaallllllllyyyyyy like this design all 2 much but it is my 1st doodle#i started rewatching it…. i havent watched this since i was in @ least middle school#im getting flashbacks from me pausing 2 read the trxt like HELP#does any1 even care about redstoner?? hello… HELLO??#im thinking back on it & this might b the 1st like edgy angsty minecraft rp thing i got in2#FUCKING REDSTONER IS MY FOUNDATION & ITS GOOD#i love u redstoners#redstoner#i dont wanna put this in the ross tag tbh IDEK IF THERE IS 1#uhhh#yourpalross#mcyt#puppee art#get me out of the minecraft hole pls some1 save me#if im not careful i might actually choose 2 suffer & rewatch donot laugh again#shout out 2 ross gaming who gives me 2 much gender & i was rlly close 2 changing my name 2 ross or daniel bc of him#((i did 4 a bit but thats not the point))#im pretty sure ive been watching this guy 4 like way 2 long IM ORETTY SURE HE SHAPED MY PERSONALITY#SOME1 HELPPP
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can i be honest. being an "anti-" of literally anything sounds soo fucking exhausting. ur expending energy that could be used on literally anything else on hating people.. for literally zero gain? just for the sake of being hateful? you could use that energy to love. why would you ever want to hate?
#🌿🚬#it sounds so exhausting to be “anti end0” or “ant1 tr4ns1d” like who cares. they aint doing anything to u and ur only wasting ur own energy#what if instead of using all that time and energy being hateful online you watched the sun rise and told your friends you love them?#i promise it will always be a better use of your time to love than to hate. it also feels better#also u get funnier when ur less stuck up. like if u make jokes with people instead of at the expense of others its funnier.#its just. so much nicer to get the fuck over your hateful beliefs and be kind to everyone.#and its EASIER!! ITS EASIERRR I CANT EMPHASIZE THIS ENOUGH#IT TAKES MORE ENERGY TO HARRASS THAT GUY YOU DONT LIKE THAN TO NOT GIVE A FUCK#I DONT KNOW WHY ANY OF YOU WOULD EVER CHOOSE THE MORE DIFFICULT AND ENERGY CONSUMING AND HATEFUL OPTION OF GOING THROUGH LIFE#ID SMOKE WEED WITH A BABYFUR AND A TRANSID AND A ENDO SYSTEM AND A PARAPHILE ANY DAY AND ITD PROBABLY BE REALLY FUCKING AWESOME#idk this is a massive tag ramble and im rlly high i just. dont understand why u all hold so much hate in your hearts. get over it
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“why would elaena marry a dornishman when they’re nasty evil people who murdered her poor innocent brother daeron”
maybe because once elaena grew up she realized that there were better ways of bringing dorne into the realm than violent conquest, and that daeron got the death he deserved from not just a nobility that is valid for fearing subjugation from valyria but also a smallfolk sick and tired of these people showing up every few decades to set their principality on fire, and put aside any anti dornish sentiments she may or may not have harbored as a child to see the way her family had directly attributed to their suffering, eventually even falling in love with and marrying a dornish man??
also, considering daeron ii attempts a type of proto-reparations act in bringing dorne into the kingdom, it’s not out of the realm of possibility that someone as intelligent as elaena would recognize the inherent racism in the targaryen conquest of dorne and especially considering the very loud anti-dornish, deeply anti intellectual faction in the blackfyre rebellions, realized they wouldn’t be kind or understanding of an intelligent woman like herself and had no interest in herself or her daughters (of which she had four!!) getting shoved back into the maidenvault again?
like, daeron i is on some andrew jackson manifest destiny shit, and if it makes me an asshole for thinking “god i wish someone had merked jackson before he genocided & displaced my ancestors, good on the dornish for realizing you can’t negotiate with imperialists” than i am perfectly comfortable being considered an asshole right next to my girl elaena.
#everyone discoursing about the young dragon. listen. they should have tortured him before they killed him too.#anti daeron i targaryen#valyrianscrolls#anti house targaryen#idk just in case. clearly i’m not anti everyone i’m complimenting elaena & daeron ii#elaena targaryen#daeron the good#daeron ii targaryen#getting on my soap box#dorne#also when i say ‘my ancestors’ i mean that jackson passed the indian removal act specifically to remove my tribe (and several others) bc#white people in the midwest didn’t like that we wouldn’t leave.#my tribe managed to work somethjng out and only had to move a couple miles away from our homelands. others in our area were forcibly mkced#*moved. look up the potawatomi trail of death. they marched them thru illinois’ capital. dozens including children died.#also read about the fort dearborn massacre. and rising up from indian country which makes the argument that it wasn’t a massacre#but a battle bc white americans had been raiding potawatomi villages for weeks. so the potawatomi struck back and people to this day insist#it was a massacre just bc the potawatomi were better at fighting than the americans. nah.#u don’t get to wage a war of conquest on an innocent and indigenous population just to turn around and say they were mean for fighting back.#i’m sorry i woke up today and decided to choose violence. i’m in an awful mood aksjdjd
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if I'm being honest palace/theme park/beach were all bogus options to me I wouldn't really want any of them all to myself
#palace: literally who gaf#theme park: this is a horror movie scenario whether you choose to have the location to yourself or decide to bring friends#beach: i just personally dont really care abt the beach. hot usually nothin to do. always ends in a nap or getting anxious about the tides#im also too scared to get on any real coaster outside of like 3 off the top of my head waterpark or like universal would be chill tho ig#also also palace is only good if u get the staff that works there too and thats an additional question idk#kae.txt
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I have so many thoughts on the vote today because there are so many layers. All talk about the characters not the creators obviously :D
First off, I’m wanna say that Forever is literally doing his best XD he is trying to give the islanders say in the mods/rules etc and wanted this to be a silly test run just to wet everyone’s feet with the concept. There is no way he could have prepared or predicted how it would turn out.
Now, from Bad’s pov, it is very important that he started criticizing the way the vote was set up before people started voting. The only reason he got so angry is because no one was taking him seriously and so many people chose to punish him specifically for something harmless ie stealing furniture instead of removing an item that is a danger to the eggs and is 10x more destructive towards peoples builds. Yea replacing furniture is annoying but not nearly as annoying as having to replace roads constantly or rebuilding parts of ur base. The school was literally just destroyed due to mines and yet everyone is complaining about their furniture.
Then, on top of all these people - who Bad has given items to without question and dropped everything for to help in the past - dog piling on him, Roier gets to vote three times. This is what pushed Bad over the edge because at that point, this wasn’t a democracy anymore. Roier was literally rigging the votes in his favor.
The reason Forever’s current system is flawed is because you give the voters 5 options to give them the illusion of choice but if all the options are bad and they can’t choose to vote for these things to not happen, then they don’t actually have a choice. They are being complicit in their own oppression. Bad’s example was extreme but it gets the point across.
Does Bad blow up Cellbit’s base or Forever’s base? He’s giving you a choice so it’s democratic. It’s an extreme example but this is a method of slowly poisoning the people so they are complicit. If you give them four options that are obviously bad so everyone votes for the fifth then that wasn’t democracy. That was the illusion of choice.
That is a terrible system! I trust forever not to abuse it but Forever is a puppet for the federation! Do you know how easily they could manipulate this voting system? Very. Very easily.
So, going into Bad and Forever’s conversation, Bad was already flabbergasted at how bad this voting system was in addition to blatant voter fraud and the pain of a bunch of his friends betraying him. Bad is a powder keg ready to explode.
Forever comes over and they try to talk it out at first but it quickly becomes evident that neither of them are listening. Forever thinks Bad is upset because of the furniture thing and that’s why he’s against the voting system but that’s not the case! These two have completely different methods of approaching a council/democratic system and neither is willing to listen. Once Forever brought up meta reasons for shooting down Bad’s ideas, the conversation was effectively over.
And what I think people forget is that Bad has been an anarchist since day one. The only reason he ran for President was so he could dismantle the office aka so there wouldn’t be a President. He is willing to work with forever to try and make it work but Bad is constantly fighting his desire to dismantle it entirely - and that has nothing to do with Forever.
I see a lot of people taking it personally and acting like Bad has a grudge against Forever but that isn’t the case. He doesn’t want a president. The fact Bad hasn’t demolished the fed presidential office is a testament to his and Forever’s relationship. Bad knows and is trusting Forever that he is doing his genuine best for the people… the problem is is that Forever is a federation puppet whether he likes it or not.
The QSMP made the no stealing furniture law an actual law against Forever’s wishes and behind his back. My guess is they wanted to drive a wedge between Forever and Bad, a known anarchist and #1 federation hater. That’s why they made it law even though Forever thinks it’s still a joke.
Bad was the only one taking this vote seriously and actually thinking about the consequences because - on one hand - he was literally the only person who would be directly negatively impacted by this vote - and on the other hand - he wants what is best for the island as well and he immediately saw how this voting system could very easily be turned into a method of oppression by the federation. Unfortunately, no one else approached it with the same level of seriousness and when Forever talked with Bad, Forever was primed to assume Bad’s grievances were because he was being punished. They were set up to fail and the feds took advantage of that by making the law a Law.
Tomorrow(or whenever they meet next), after they both have time to cool off and gather their thoughts, they might be able to talk it out. This is communication smp after all. But there is no right answer here. This is politics and in politics, you will never make everyone happy.
People in the fandom are always gonna hate but if both Forever and Bad decide to go on opposed villain arcs, I will be sitting on the side lines munching popcorn and having a blast. They both deserve to go ape shit and I, for one, am looking forwards to the drama ;D
Just stay off Twitter maybe cuz everyone over there is insane…
#qsmp#crimson speaks#I want them both to get worse#I want forever to go corrupt and bad to go full revoltution#just don’t go on twitter#block people who are idiots#when it comes to voting on things and politics#many things in the us are like this#u get a number of bad choices and u gotta choose the lesser evil#it’s fucked up#at least#it’s mainly like that for picking political offices#most of the laws we get to vote on are yes/no individually#which is what bad wants#and is so much better and more accurate to what the people actually want#then giving them five options to choose one from#idk#politics are complicated#and I’m tired
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i miss being excited about anime announcements :( i feel like everything these days are just season 2’s for anime i don’t care abt😭 and there will be a new original anime once in a blue moon which just doesn’t happen to interest me :( like what happened to shit like steins gate, psycho pass, death parade, terror in resonance, charlotte, march comes in like a lion etc etc why is everything just sooooooooooooooo boring now 😭
#i’m sorry but i couldn’t care less abt skip and loafer ☹️ nor abt dandadan or that vampire anime that got a s2 too#like why can’t buddy daddies get a s2 that was so freaking fun#idk all these new anime just lack heart? or am i just too stressed to enjoy them now😭 they don’t intrigue whatsoever#the soundtrack doesn’t slap#it’s just so boring#sooooooooooo boring#tokyo ghoul s1 was so life changing man#watch psycho pass made me so akddbdjxbdjsbdb#and vinland saga#and moriarty the patriot AGHHHHH was so good#anime these days lack so much substance#and there’s barely any new releases there’s just so much less option to choose from i feel#every new release is just a season 2 or whatever#so annoyingly boring :(#i miss liking anime can u tell lol
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i’m so obsessed with the thought of a threesome with hybrid!jake and hybrid!heeseung, like they both are in heat fighting over who owns me by trying knot in me first. ( PLEASE ELABORATE IN THIS IDEA)
hihi! first of all, please do not tell me to elaborate on an idea (especially in all caps)!!! sorry, but i struggle with tone comprehension and with a lack of tone tags this seems very demanding and pushy and i don’t like it T_T i will elaborate on an idea if i want to, and a demand doesn’t really make me feel like writing for it because if you can’t be bothered to take the time to be kind when asking, why should i take my time writing a full drabble?
second of all, i do like this idea but what kind of hybrids? i know you included knotting but i cant be expected to know what type of hybrids you’d like me to write about (if i decide to write for this)
#♡.signed. sealed. delivered.#sorry to everyone if this seems mean of me :( but i have feelings too#and writers are not just meant to fulfill your ideas! yes its fun interacting with u all and exchanging thoughts n stuff#but we have feelings too and just bc we choose to post our works doesnt mean you have a right to disrespct#disrespect* us and demand things from us#especially when i stated earlier that im struggling with writers block :T idk its kind of rude#/gen#anyway ill reply to asks tmrw maybe#probably gna get off for the rest of the night :/ love all of u sweet ppl out here
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breathing underwater pt 32 is now live!!
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ft ed's first night as a human, and stede using that as an excuse to pamper the hell out of him!!!
#mine#ts4#sims 4#the sims 4#simblr#sims#ofmd#gentlebeard#ofmd sims#breathing underwater#i guess that title does not rly go with the fic anymore huh??? 😂#not that ed's never gonna be a mermaid again#but u kno#when i first started this fic i had nooooooo direction no plan and i just used some closure in moscow lyrics for a title (as usual)#pondering if ed should be able to choose his human bits at will each time he transforms#once he learns more abt human anatomy#uncertain at this point but man that's the dream isnt it??? to me anyway 😂#idk how many more chapters this fic will have!!#but i have a sequel all outline already lmfao#getting so ahead of myself!!!
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#hi and hello i love when my friends choose for me like i am mindless doll (haunted)#i wish i could haunt jeonghan ANYWAY 🩶#dragana ognjenović vest that was made FOR me#also tried to show u my boots but alas. U get to see the top#i got them in 2018 they are insane and so beautiful i will wear them until i die#also i’m wearing shorts idk if u can tell literally fx red light shorts.#face#fits
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its wild just realizing how much people have done and experienced and how prepared they are for what's to come when i am . very much not . lmao
#having my daily ''oh my god i need to change my program'' crisis#its just idk . i feel like im woefully underprepared for doing any of this kinda stuff when everyone around me already knows#what theyre doing and what they wanna get out of it. idk.#and i have a slightly better idea of what i want to do but i havent figured out how im gonna get there.#and idk.#we were talking about what we want to do with this line of study after graduating and the only thing i could think of#was that i didnt choose this specific field because of what it had to offer#i chose it because it was the easiest way to get out of the situation i was in for a LOT of fucking reasons#and now that im out i guess i can start thinking abt what i really wanna get out of all this. idk.#probably gonna need to wait till next semester anyway but thats fine. ive been waiting for this for 20 years i can wait a little longer#but idk i guess its just a little frustrating feeling so Behind everyone else.#but i guess this is what happens when u pack ur whole life into 2 suitcases to escape a high control cult. who knew!!!#its time for dinner and i crave my daily portion of chow mien. and then i will watch show 3 inches from my computer screen so i can see.#winter speaks#overall i am vibing. a little frustrated with myself but it cant be helped. i am vibing :]#personal
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