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one of my best friends is about to have a baby today........... so weird to be on the periphery of something so life changing. I want to go "life is going to change forever" as if it hasn't already
#I was thinking last night about how different we both are from the versions of us that were being young and active and busy and fit in pgh#before the pandemic and before her very targeted focused dating efforts yielded her the result she wanted (her now-husband)#[also I don't say that cattily lol she had the most coolheaded and down-to-business approach to dating bc she knew what she wanted.#and it worked!]#anyways I think back on that halcyon year of 2019 when we went to spin classes and spent every weekend doing something#or hanging out in her tiny mt. washington studio where we could watch downtown buzz at night#truly it was such a short period of time in retrospect. she convinced me to move here + then a year and a half later the whole world changed#and so too did we#I miss the her of those years (and I miss the me) but I'm making peace with not getting her back. it's cool to see her on this new journey#which she has worked so very hard for. like I cannot overstate the methodical and intentional way in which she has shaped her life to be#what she wants out of it. accounting for many bumps along the way that she's weathered admirably.#anyways within the next 48 hours she should be a mom. that's crazy#I feel weird when everyone around me is making lifechanging moves while I'm ''ho hum where should I go on vacation in the next 2 years'' lol#ay yai yai. strange to not want things other people want and being fine with that until you start losing touchpoints with your peers#then you're like. hang on now. what am I supposed to be doing right now
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#im glad i went today to hang out with my friend c:#it was nice to just hang out with another person and talk and stuff#i also just like how considerate she is#and she's accepting and chill. i can like tell her that oh im sorry if im low energy now im just overheated bc of the weather and im feeling#sad. and she'll be like dont worry thats ok! and it also is ok she doesnt get annoyed or anything#plus she doesnt look at me weird when there's awkward pauses and i cant express myself properly lol#i overanalyze too much i know :c but anyway it is always nice talking w her so it was nice today#we walked to a sushi place and then to the library#i only stayed for like 30min at the library even if i wanted to stay longer#i realized that it's bc like she had sushi which gives her energy#but i cant afford to buy things out lol so i never eat and refresh my energy#so after 3hrs i got so low energy and just wanted to go home#i should try to find smth easy and cheap i can bring to snack on so i can stay longer!! T-T ugh.. next time!!#we also met a dog! :o she was just standing alone outside a house and stared at the gate#and we came by she walked up to us and looked at me and was like 'get me inside :)'#so my friend went around the house and the owner came and was like omgggg she ran away again!!!#im glad it was so easy to help the dog bc i could not have left her alone by a street w cars and stuff#but she was so sweet and cute and let me pet her đ#hmm yeah! then i walked home in the heat that killed me... and now im sitting in front of the fan ^-^#im not cut out for summer!!! anywaysss it was just a nice time#i wish i could've stayed longer. i'll make sure to bring a cheap snack next time so i can hang out more
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my dad looked through my sketchbook without my permission and he was like "are u not doing well? a lot of ur drawings are about feeling bad and worthless" which makes me feel really weird because those types of drawings were not drawings i wanted anyone to see and like i don't go through his notebooks and shit, so why is he allowed to look through my sketchbooks (he has a history of this and it's one of the reasons i ended up going to therapy because i used to draw a lot of pictures of people, mostly myself, being mutilated and he looked in my sketchbook and saw that and was like "hm i think my kid is unwell") and when i got upset with him, he was like "well u just left it on the kitchen table and u said u had been drawing more so i wanted to see what u had been drawing!" which like fine ok but like it's an invasion of my privacy to do that???? i'm 26??? don't go looking at my personal sketchbook without my permission?????
#upset gremlin noises#like my sketchbook is very personal to me#i don't like people just looking at it all willy nilly#it makes me feel REALLY weird#like great my dad has seen my psychosis creatures and vent art about being schizoaffective bipolar that i didn't want anyone to see#like i'm not like Unwell unwell but like sometimes i still feel depressed!!!!!#mostly due to like my dad and older brother being in bad moods and having it leech into the vibes of the house thus making me feel shitty#or like if the weather is making me feel weird or if i had a nightmare or something#and like everyone has bad days and the art i make on those bad days is PERSONAL and i don't want people seeing it without my permission!!!#and my dad got like upset that i was upset with him for looking through my PERSONAL sketchbook#idk if i'm making a mountain out of a molehill but like to me it's an invasion of my privacy
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đ What inspires you and your writing?
this is a real marketing major-ass answer (from your local marketing major), but i love sharing knowledge and telling stories. writingâs one of those things thatâs a bit of a compulsion for meâiâm always writing something. i took a five-year break from fiction writing before i stumbled ass-first into fanfic last year, but even in those years when i was focusing on my career, i was writing guides and trainings and a ton of other stuffâjust not anything fun, lol.
writing is also so cathartic. sometimes i set out to tell a specific story, but at other times, a particular emotion gets me in a vice grip and i have to put it to words before itâll go away. my stories tend to wind up as emotional dumping grounds as a result.
i donât write things pulled directly from my own life, but there are bits and pieces of myself and things that have happened to me scattered throughout stuff iâve written, and usually when iâm about 75% of the way through a piece, iâll realize itâs absolutely related to something iâm currently going through. funny how art works that way, even when you donât intend for it to.
and occasionally i just have a fire lit under my ass about an issue and i get so hot about it that i gotta compile my thoughts. looking at you, silver snow
đŚ What sort of endings do you prefer to write: ambiguous, bad, happily ever after, etc.?
look, i would love nothing more for them girls (pick whichever girls you please) to have a happy ending where they kiss and are stupid in love for the rest of forever. i love reading those kinds of stories. but in my heart of hearts, i love an ambiguous ending. i like when there are still questions after the story ends. i like thinking about where things could go or how the characters will go on after the events of the story. like, shared space could be read as having a happy ending, but i donât really think it is. and with the victors; the vestiges, well. youâll see :0)
come to think of it, iâm not sure iâve ever written a happily-ever-after, but i donât think iâve ever written a 100% bad ending, either. i read too many bury-your-gays stories and watched too many sad european queer coming-of-age films in my youth to ever be happy putting that kinda thing out into the world. i want to write about love with all its ugliness, but not despair or hopelessness. i think what most appeals to me about an ambiguous ending is that lingering feeling of hope. itâs not the same as the kind you get from a happily-ever-after, and something about it speaks to me.
đ What is the most impactful lesson youâve learned about writing?
honestly? how to take criticism. i took a creative writing class in high school where we had to read our work out loud and then receive feedback on it from the other writers in the class, and that did a lot for me. going into that class, iâd already been writing for forever and had won some little local writing contests and such, so i was a wee bit of a pretentious douche. but iâd never gotten real critique before beyond, essentially, spelling and grammar checks. it humbled me lol. it made me grow so much as a writer, and i could see where i needed to improve or where my head was wedged way too far up my own ass for others to follow. it also helped me recognize strengths i didnât know i had, and that was huge. itâs easy to get into a self-doubt spiral when making creative work, and good, constructive criticism can do so much to help avoid that.
to this day i love critique. i like knowing what worked or didnât work so that i can continue to improve as a writer and do better next time. did my themes land? did something really work, but another part fall flat? iâd love to know!! i try to treat everything i write as practice for the next thing, and frankly thatâs helped take some of the pressure off so i donât go into total Perfectionist Mode.
i know critique is kind of a sensitive topic in fan spaces, but i think thatâs because a lot of people have gotten unsolicited criticism that is purely critical and isnât constructive. but getting good, constructive criticism will do so much to help a person grow as a writer. itâs scary, and sometimes it hurts! writing is very personal for most people, and it stings when things arenât received the way you think they will be. but i know iâve grown more from having my failures pointed out (and, very importantly, having the good things about those efforts acknowledged) than anything else.
đ Is there a favorite trope you like to write?
actually Just answered this in another ask!
#sterge.eml#foxyjeongin#thank you for playing my little game and letting me talk about stories (and about me lmao)#sorry this is kind of a long post#i talk too much#i think i sound pretentious in this ask whoops. sorry#unfortunately i kind of am. iâm working on it.#⌠âi guess the short answer to that first question is âemotions and mental illnessâ lol#if you follow me on twitter (not recommended as itâs just me complaining about the weather and not being able to ride my motorcycle)#you know that every time i bring up my writing in therapy my therapist rocks my shit by revealing the story is#in fact.#NOT about what i thought it was about#or more accurately âitâs ALSO secretly about whateverâs going on with me in real life lmao#yâknow whatâs really fun? looking back at something you wrote in a manic or depressive episode and going ah. hm. interesting.#the signs were. in fact. there.#(this is in fact not fun and i donât like it. but it always happens.)#everything i write is accidentally Also about being bipolar. no getting around that#i tend to have issues organizing my thoughts and feelings to even figure out how tf iâm feeling#(forget making any attempt at doing so verbally. i have chronic foot-in-mouth disorder and accidentally say shit i donât mean all the time)#but writing stuff down has always helped me sort through whatever mess is going on in my noggin and i love it for that#learning how to take critique is my no. 1 piece of writing advice but no. 2 is to read#read the classics. find out why theyâre classics. read weird shit. read shit you donât like. find things you like about em anyway.#and importantly: figure out WHY you do or donât like it#itâs funny to re-read a book i havenât read in a long time and discover OH. thatâs where i get that technique from.#or thatâs where i got that idea. or thatâs why i had X thing happen in this story.#or why i like this type of character or scenario#nothingâs truly new and original#weâre all an amalgamation of influences and that ruuuuules#celebrate it!!!
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Urg I feel like crap, but at least no Covid (for nowâŚ). I want to run the dogs so badly, but Iâm also part of this team and need to give myself the same grace Iâd give the dogs. I hate it.
#dogblr#working season 22 23#i tell myself that if one of my dogs felt this way Iâd never ever ever make them run#the human brain is so weird sometimes#the ambitious parts of me feel like this season has âbeen a washâ#but it hasnât been the weathers just weird#we had a great 16k not that long ago and the dogs have been fit and very consistent#slash has run single lead#I need to remind myself of these things to rid myself of the toxic parts of my brain#always pushing me to do something the parts of me that feel like rest is a waste#Urg.
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#diana's music diary#good evening!! feeling sick agaiiin#once again... just relaxing yesterday and today... I had some really weird dreams last night though!#Was being chased and at one point ended up in an Alice in Wonderland costume and had to shoot at monsters using fireworks?#there was some weird time loop stuff too so I ended up with two more of me dressed as Alice after the last loop#also had a dream before that one where I was at some pokemon speedrunning event and had this really fucked up handheld console#that was only able to run pokemon if you used like 7 different convertion ports on the cartridge#and the game we were playing was a really really weird rom hack which had like.. auctions and joe biden weather events?#I think the handheld I had was designed by Big Yellow and they complimented it. it could run tekken and some transformers game too#anyway I'm very tired but today I'm downloading and setting up an account for a private mmo server! playing with a friend ^_^#let's beat the eepiness and sickyness and make today nice and good :3#Youtube
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Daily Log 2
Trying out (probably just temporarily) making short daily-ish notes about things, in an attempt to see if it helps me be more reflective or productive lol.
Activities: Much less than yesterday, felt sick and sleepy so barely got anything done. It was also warmer inside today.. Very much dreading summer. I still feel like the people who ~~ love warm weather sooo much~~ must also have central heating and air and are able to escape the warmth, or at least have cool airy houses where they can get cross breezes or something.. I just fail to see how ANYONE could enjoy sweating all day because it's like 75F indoors, etc. grrbb,,, the headaches, sleepless sweaty nights, constant physical discomfort, etc. The next few days look cloudy and rainy though so.. yEs.. haha HA
Got a new charger for my old 2004 nokia phone so it actually turns on now, and recorded myself going through the ringtones and games. I might add the footage to a currently not fully edited video of me also looking through other electronics (old phones, turbo twist math, etc.). I love old ringtones actually and if I were rich, I would love to collect old phones specifically just to have a catalogue of what they're like and all of the sounds they contain.
Managed to have a tiny burst of energy and take photos of 3 outfits before my arms and shoulder started hurting and I got too warm.
Sent email to one doctor.
Translated like 3 words for the Avirrekava poem thing I mentioned yesterday. My language document is not organized very well at all so I've kind of lost my flow of working on it. I've heard about people making searchable dictionary type things for their conlangs, so I'd like to look more into that maybe. As well as making a custom font, though I don't know if that's more difficult for syllabaries (so wouldn't be directly linkable to a plain english alphabet keyboard?? eh?). Anyway, I need to finish the tapestry/painting thing/etc. soon though since I have no good place to put it. The canvas is warping a little just laying haphazardly on my closet floor lol.
Made one quick mspaint background image for the next batch of song snippet things for my jokey music youtube.
Edited like 10 minutes of the Giant Worldbuilding Slideshow Project.. couldn't focus on that either since being at the computer today irritated my shoulders and arms.
Notable sights: Saw 6 baby ducks and their parents swimming in a nearby pond!! It's interesting how their colors seem to change so much, and the young ones have the little spots on their back. Not much else, I was not very active lol..
Goals moving forward: Still working on consistent sleep schedule. Focus on social activities, finding new friends in the places I want to move, communicating with ones I have. Physical therapy exercises. Plant nasturtiums. Finish and upload videos, edit pictures, post the poll adventure thing that has been sitting in a draft for weeks (I thought I would get it done today, but alas.. I don't even have to do much, just proofread and post it, I just keep having no energy/being preoccupied with other things/hurts to be on computer.. grrr.. I want to continue the story lol >:T).
Notable foods: HAD ASPARAGUS YEaaaaaghhhHHHH!!!!!!!!! Asparagus SQUAD!!!!!!!!!! ... Also a few pieces of smoked gouda with lunch, one of my favorite cheeses.
#just posting these publicly since it feels more like I'm doing something or easier to hold yourself accountable if you make public#declarations of goals and progress or etc. .. perhaps.. for now..#I'm just curious to see if it helps. I know some poeple do diary style stuff or etc. on social media to help with productivity so#worth trying for like a week at least lol#tired and sleepy of being tired and sleepy though. Every day that stuff like chronic health problems or weather or etc.#interfere with me getting stuff done and it's all stuff that I've also had on my todo list for like.. weeks at this point it's like.. oughh#insurmountable tasks ever looming piling upon my shoulderes...#I've been 'supposed to call a lab to shedule blood work' for like a week and a half now and everyday I get the number#out and look at it and just go 'hmm.... sooon...' and then suddenly it's 10pm and I didn't#You Know How It Is Folks. I'm going to write myself a script of exactly what to say and also tape it to my computer screen#Sometimes that helps. lol#I dont' feel like I need a full on caretaker or something at this point but someitmes I do think like.. in a few years with my various#physical and mental issues it would be nice to have a Person Who Functions Normally Socially come visit me like once#every two weeks to help me plan things and make phone calls. Same with creative stuff too though. I bet I'd be doing something creative as#a career by now if I had like. an Assigned Neurotypical Extrovert to network for me and help me navigate things like that bjhbhj#hashtag hermit problems. etc. etc. (not just like 'a little weird and asocial' but like.. 'near complete inability to function in society'#type hermit problems lol..#ANYWAY.. ..#Also fighting the urge to have another personality typing phase. I can feel it creeping up. My 'once every 3 months when I get very#interested in the enneagram and other stuff again' type of thing. distracting myself with worldbuilding paintings instead ghgj#why don't you do a phone call for your blood work first maybe then you can spend 3 hours reading about tritypes or whatever#I have so many interests and hobbies but a handful of Main Ones and they never go away I just seem to take turns with them#Except worldbuilding I think that's always there. Genuinely again.. wish I could find some way to work that into a career. that is the only#thing I could to 1000 hours straight at any time of day under any circumstance. Kidnap me and lock me in a basement and I will be passing#my time thinking about what type of cheese elves make and all the things I'm going to write once I escape captivity ghjhj#EVEYRHTING else though lol.. kind of comes and goes. but can be annoying when it's suddenly the only thing my mind#wants to focus on. BUT yeagh.. ANYWAY... rambling again#daily log
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âAnd youâre the one who taught me to be brave Iâve never spent a moment loving anyone but you And maybe thatâs just something that people say But I hope that you know itâs the truth
Because I went downhill at such steep incline That my rearview mirror showed me only the sky And I laughed about it all nightâ
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âAnd I said âHey man, isnât it poetic That the sky is what we leave behind?â Because I was born into the world on a silken cloud And I got bored of the world before I hit the groundâ
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#had a mental breakdown and all I could think about were these lyrics and they made me cry even more for obvious reasons. - đĄ#(đĄ) marz/nep#tagging Freya because sheâd get it right away. - đĄ#Iâm doing slightly better now but I had a huge mental breakdown that almost damaged me mentally and emotionally.#whatâs even weird is that when I cried so hard the rain came crashing down on us while we were in the car and the sky finally became bright#and sunny again after I stopped crying. Itâs still not as bright but itâs bright enough to make everyone feel better.#A rainbow just formed into the sky. itâs bright and colorful. Just right now.#It felt like me and the weather suddenly became one with each other. We became the same person. We felt the same pain. We felt the same#tears and aching and suddenly as the aching stopped a pretty rainbow formed in the sky reminding both of us that weâll be okay again.#reminding us both that weâre okay. - đĄ#sorry for the. weird vent everyone. I hardly like venting on here and I donât like venting to other people in general but I had to share#this weird experience I went to. It felt oddly comforting to me. - đĄ#Spotify
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i feel like life right now is me trying to juggle approximately 127 different things, and none of them are life-or-death but theyâre all equally important to me, so those 127 things are like simultaneous balls in the air that i am holding up while the adderall shortage makes it harder to remember what they are let alone keep from dropping them, and at this point even my to-do lists have lists which got so out of control that i stopped even keeping lists but also iâm so tired every day that iâm lucky if i get a single thing done and if i donât set alarms then i depression-sleep for fourteen hours because oh yeah my adderall was also the only thing that helped my bipolar meds work all the way so iâm crying and thinking about everything that makes me sad 24/7 while i try to keep juggling
#...so if i owe you a reply that would be why#also i need to review the enola holmes sequel and write a huge disenchanted rant (watched that one last night)#but i don't know when i'll have the energy#today at least i did get some things done--returned stuff to a store and got my flu shot and covid booster#...i was actually out to return things and get my adderall but at least those vaccinations were also on my general to-do list#it's just a lot less stuff than i NEED to be doing#and so much of it comes down to the fact that i sleep a lot i wake up i feel so tired it's like i didn't sleep#and then i just spend the whole day waiting to go back to bed#and under those conditions it's really hard to accomplish anything else#but i genuinely can't tell how much of my exhaustion is depression-based#and how much is physical because i've felt under the weather and had weird symptoms in one way or another since the summer#and at this point it's like...my doctor brushed me off when i tried to get help in the summer so i waited like she advised#for things to improve on their own#and they haven't but i'm so tired physically and emotionally and psychologically that i can't say i have any more self-advocacy fight in me#like it's obviously bad that the alternative is me continuing to feel like i'm maybe slowly wasting away and just letting it happen#but depression makes it pretty hard to care#randomness#mental health#depression#bipolar disorder#adhd#life stuff#health#/tag abuse
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#i really need to take the time to thank myself today. i was looking around the house at all the chores I put off. i want more pizza and did#not do grocery shopping today. but i did give myself clean laundry and I should thank myself for that. i got ill but i moved myself to L.A#from the place where i had no health insurance and the weather kept making me sick all the time - i should thank myself for that too. I'm#grateful that i gave myself all the tools I'm using today to get well#and I'm grateful to my past self for giving me an interesting life lol - i just found out my roommates are friends with some mk1 voice cast#and even went to the wedding of one of the actors who voices one of the characters I'd been writing smut about. apparently one of my buds#officiated the wedding even. I like knowing that it's a small world. And I like feeling like I'm finding my place in it. Every little weird#coincidence like this just makes me feel comforted#like yes I'm in the right place at the right time here's a little sign. and stop worrying about the unbuilt ikea shoe rack and pile of shoes#that you didn't get to - you're still doing good enough for yourself just surviving and enjoying a silly kombat game. you know you'd be dead#if you'd stayed behind but you fought your way out and landed in a good place. it is important to acknowledge the effort rather than focus#on the stuff I'm failing to do. just get through this round of antibiotics and unlock all the kontent from the seasonal kosmetics store#and that would be enough. quit pushing and rest. and be grateful to yourself that you gifted this opportunity to yourself for that rest!#hope if anyone is reading you'll think about something you're grateful to yourself for giving you-hope you see your own worth and appreciate#yourself more and more each day
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summary: lando begins to panic when you don't want to cuddle with him
author's note: it's really hot rn where I live so i just wanted to write a cute little blurb inspired by my own suffering. vote here for who i write my next fic about!
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Lando was confused. He didn't think he had done anything wrong, and you didn't seem to be upset with him until now, so he couldn't possibly understand why you were refusing to cuddle with him.
It started off as most of your evenings did. After dinner, he washed the dishes while you dried and put them away, then you both moved into the living room to watch some tv before bed. Only, when Lando tried to pull you closer, you pushed his arm off you, moving away and leaving your boyfriend staring at you like a kicked puppy.
You didn't seem to think anything of it, settling back down on the other side of the sofa and pressing play on your favourite show. However, Lando was still frozen, mind reeling from your rejection. He wondered if you were ignoring him because you were mad or if it was just a mistake and you genuinely couldn't feel his eyes on you.
At last, the uncertainty became to much to bear and he decided to speak up. "Um...baby?" He asked tentatively, watching your face closely to see your reaction.
"Yeah?" You answered, glancing away from the screen.
Huh. That's weird. You didn't seem mad at all, and you obviously weren't ignoring him, so what was this about? Maybe you weren't feeling well suddenly?
"You feeling okay, sweetheart?"
Turning your body to face him, your equally as confused expression only eased his worries slightly. "Yeah, I'm alright. Why?"
Deciding it was probably best to be direct, Lando spoke again. "You pushed me away!"
You couldn't help but giggle at the adorable pout on his face, suddenly feeling bad for not explaining your behaviour earlier. "Lan, my love, I'm so sorry! I promise I'm not mad at you or anything, it's just because of the weather."
"The weather?" His expression changed, a slight frown settling into his brow as he waited for you to continue speaking.
"It's too hot," you explained. "It's my first summer in Monaco, I wasn't expecting it to be this warm. I didn't want to cuddle because I knew I would overheat."
Lando mentally slapped himself for not thinking of that as a possibility. He had lived here for a few years so he was used to the unrelenting sunshine by now, but you had only moved in with him recently so of course you weren't. He couldn't help but laugh at how much he was stressing over something so small.
"You idiot, making me panic like that!" The brunette scolded you playfully. You stared up at him innocently, batting your eyelashes with a smile.
Lando suddenly grabbed hold of your waist, and you shrieked loudly. You wriggled helplessly in his grasp, as he tickled you sides, leaning down to whisper in your ear.
"I'll stop if you say sorry."
"Never," you gasped, swatting at his hands. He merely shrugged, tickling you harder.
"You sure?"
"Okay, okay, I-I'm sorry!" You managed between breathless pants.
Lando grinned cheekily at you, allowing you a moment to catch your breath before he leaned in to kiss you softly. You threw your arms around his neck tilting your head slightly to deepen the kiss. When you finally had to pull away for air, he rested his forehead against yours.
"I thought you were too hot," he teased, causing you to groan again and smack his shoulder. Lando pressed another quick kiss to your lips before continuing, "and for the record, I am definitely buying you like 20 fans tomorrow."
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Perfect Fit
Day 5 â Size Difference đ Oscar Piastri
Warnings: 18+ content
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âYou sure she doesnât snap in half when youâre together?â Landoâs voice rings out over the steady hum of the paddock, casual, like heâs asking about the weather.
Oscarâs head jerks up, his eyebrows knitting together. âWhat?â
âYou know âŚâ Lando gestures vaguely with his hand, as if the meaning will somehow fill the air between them. âYou and her. Sheâs, like, tiny. Canât imagine itâs easy for you.â
Oscar frowns, confused for a second before the meaning of Landoâs words sinks in. Lando is grinning like heâs delivered the worldâs best punchline, but something twists in Oscarâs chest. The words linger. Too long.
âMate, seriously?â Oscar scoffs, trying to laugh it off, but thereâs an odd tension in his voice. âThatâs what youâre thinking about?â
Lando shrugs, all casual, like he hasnât just dropped a grenade between them. âJust making conversation. Didnât mean anything by it.â
Oscar doesnât respond, choosing instead to shove Lando lightly in the shoulder, pushing past him. His heart beats a little too fast, and he finds himself suddenly hyper-aware of the weight of Landoâs comment.
He tries to shake it off, but the thought is like an itch at the back of his mind, one he canât quite reach to scratch. Size. How could he have never noticed it before? Of course, he knew you were smaller â he had to lean down to kiss you, had to watch his step to not bowl you over in tight spaces. But heâd never really thought about it. Not like that.
Now, though ⌠now he canât seem to stop thinking about it.
Later that evening, heâs at your apartment. Youâre sitting cross-legged on the couch, flipping through some magazine, while he stands in the kitchen, mindlessly sipping from a water bottle. His eyes keep drifting over to you, studying the way youâre curled up. Small, Landoâs words repeat in his head. So much smaller.
You glance up and catch him staring. âWhat?â
âNothing,â he says quickly, too quickly. You squint, unconvinced.
âOscar,â you say, drawing out his name like youâre prying for a confession. âWhatâs going on?â
âNothing,â he repeats, but the tension in his shoulders betrays him.
You set the magazine down, leaning back against the cushions. âYouâre staring at me like Iâve grown a second head or something.â
Oscar clears his throat, still not moving from his spot by the counter. âItâs not â I mean, Lando said something stupid earlier.â
You raise an eyebrow. âLando always says stupid things.â
He chuckles, but the sound is half-hearted. âYeah, but this was, like, extra stupid.â
âWhatâd he say?â
Oscar hesitates, scratching the back of his neck. âItâs dumb, really.â
âNow you have to tell me,â you say, tilting your head, that teasing smile starting to curl at your lips. You always get that look when you know heâs holding something back, and he knows you wonât let it go until he spills.
He sighs, finally pushing away from the counter and walking over to sit beside you on the couch. âItâs just ⌠he made some joke about, uh ⌠about our size difference.â
Your brows furrow. âWhat about it?â
Oscar pauses, trying to find the right words. âHe basically said ⌠I donât know. That it must be ⌠hard. You know, because youâre, uh, smaller than me.â
Your lips press together, a faint blush creeping up your neck as the meaning hits. âOh.â
âYeah.â Oscar lets out a breath, rubbing his palms over his jeans. âI didnât think much of it at first, but now I canât stop ⌠noticing it.â
Thereâs a beat of silence between you, the kind that feels heavier than usual.
You swallow, shifting a little on the couch to face him. âIs it weird for you?â You ask quietly. âOur size difference?â
Oscarâs head snaps up, eyes wide. âNo â no, itâs not weird. Itâs not like that. Iâve just ⌠I never really thought about it before. And now itâs in my head.â
âSo itâs in your head that Iâm small?â You ask, a teasing edge to your voice, though thereâs a hint of nervousness underneath it.
He laughs softly. âItâs not just that youâre small. Itâs ⌠everything. Like, I never thought about how I have to be careful with you. When I hold you, or when weâre ⌠close.â
You tilt your head, curious. âYou donât think about it when weâre close?â
âI mean, I think about it,â he admits, his voice dropping. âBut not in a bad way. I just-â He falters, searching for the right words. âI donât want to hurt you.â
Your heart skips a beat at his honesty, the vulnerability thatâs starting to seep through the cracks. You reach out, placing a hand on his knee. âYou wouldnât hurt me, Oscar.â
âI know that,â he says, his voice softer now, almost a whisper. âBut I guess ⌠sometimes I just worry that I might. Without meaning to.â
The air feels thick between you, charged with something unsaid. You chew on your bottom lip, considering his words, the way heâs looking at you now â like heâs seeing you in a new light, or maybe just realizing something thatâs been there all along.
âI donât mind that weâre different sizes,â you say quietly, and your voice is sincere, even if thereâs an underlying nervousness. âI actually ⌠I like it.â
Oscarâs eyes flicker with surprise. âYeah?â
âYeah.â You nod, your hand still resting on his knee. âI like that youâre taller, and that you can hold me, and that I feel ⌠safe with you.â
Something shifts in Oscarâs expression. Itâs subtle, but you see the way his shoulders relax, the tension thatâs been building all evening starting to fade away. He reaches out, gently tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. âYou feel safe with me?â
âOf course I do,â you reply, your voice barely above a whisper now. âYouâre ⌠I donât know. Youâre so careful with me. I can feel it when weâre together.â
Oscarâs hand lingers by your face, his thumb brushing lightly over your cheek. âI just ⌠I donât want to screw this up,â he admits, his voice raw. âI care about you too much to mess this up.â
You feel your breath hitch in your throat. âYouâre not messing anything up, Oscar. Youâre being ⌠you.â
He leans in closer, his forehead almost resting against yours. âI donât want to be weird about this,â he says softly. âBut after Landoâs stupid comment, itâs like ⌠itâs stuck in my head. And now Iâm overthinking everything.â
You let out a small laugh, shaking your head. âYouâre overthinking it because Landoâs an idiot.â
Oscar laughs too, the sound breaking the tension a little. âYeah, he really is.â
You shift a little closer to him, your knees brushing against his. âYou donât need to worry about our size difference,â you say gently. âI donât.â
He nods, though thereâs still a flicker of hesitation in his eyes. âItâs just ⌠Iâve never been with someone whoâs, like ⌠so much smaller than me. I donât want to ⌠I donât know, hurt you.â
âYou wonât,â you assure him, your voice steady. âI trust you, Oscar. I wouldnât be with you if I didnât.â
Oscarâs eyes search yours, as if heâs trying to find some reassurance in your words, something to silence the doubts that Landoâs careless joke planted in his mind. Slowly, he leans in, pressing his lips to yours, and for a moment, everything else fades away â the worries, the overthinking, the stupid comments.
Itâs just the two of you, and in that kiss, thereâs no size difference, no hesitation. Just you and him, connected in a way that feels effortless.
When he pulls back, his forehead rests against yours, and you can feel his breath, warm and steady. âYouâre sure?â He whispers, his voice laced with vulnerability.
You smile, your hand finding his. âIâve never been more sure.â
Oscar lets out a breath, his lips curling into a soft smile. âOkay,â he murmurs. âOkay.â
The tension between you melts away, replaced by a quiet understanding, a mutual trust that wasnât spoken but was felt in every word, every touch. You rest your head on his shoulder, and he wraps his arm around you, pulling you closer, as if to prove to himself that he can hold you without worry.
And for the first time since Landoâs stupid joke, Oscar doesnât think about the size difference. He just thinks about you, and how perfectly you fit in his arms.
***
As you and Oscar walk through the doors of your hotel suite, the adrenaline from the day still buzzes between you both. The aftermath of the Hungarian Grand Prix win feels almost surreal, hanging in the air between his excited glances and your proud smiles.
Oscar drops his race gear bag on the floor, exhaling loudly as he runs a hand through his messy hair. âGod, I still canât believe it. I actually won.â
You grin, closing the door behind you. âI told you, didnât I? Youâve been ready for this. Youâve always been ready.â
He turns toward you, his face lighting up in a way that makes your heart skip. He looks different tonight â his usual quiet confidence magnified by the thrill of victory. Thereâs a hunger in his gaze, something deeper than just excitement for the race.
âIt feels ⌠different now,â he admits, stepping closer. âLike, I knew I could win, but doing it? Crossing that line first? Hearing the crowd?â He trails off, his eyes locking on yours, and for a moment, everything else in the world disappears.
You step closer, resting your hand on his chest, feeling the steady thrum of his heartbeat beneath your fingertips. âYou were incredible out there.â
Oscarâs hand comes up to cup your cheek, his thumb brushing over your skin. His voice drops lower, more intimate. âI couldnât stop thinking about you. After the race, I just wanted to get back here. With you.â
You bite your lip, the tension between you sparking to life. Thereâs something in the air tonight, something that feels inevitable. The closeness, the energy â itâs all leading somewhere.
Oscarâs lips hover just above yours, his breath warm against your skin. âI need you,â he whispers, the rawness of his voice sending shivers down your spine.
Your response is immediate, instinctual. âThen take me.â
His mouth crashes against yours, urgent and heated, and suddenly, all the restraint heâs ever shown around you evaporates. His hands are everywhere â on your waist, in your hair, pulling you closer as if he canât stand the space between you. Youâre breathless as he backs you up toward the bed, his kisses growing more fervent, more desperate.
When the backs of your knees hit the edge of the bed, Oscar pulls away just enough to look at you, his eyes dark with something deeper than youâve seen before. âAre you sure?â He asks, his voice thick with both desire and hesitation. âI donât want to rush this.â
Youâre already reaching for the hem of his shirt, tugging it over his head in one swift motion. âIâve never been more sure of anything.â
The sight of his bare chest, muscles taut and glistening under the dim hotel lights, makes your stomach flip. Youâve seen him shirtless before, but tonight it feels different. Heâs yours tonight.
Oscar stares at you for a moment, his eyes raking over your body as if trying to memorize every inch of you. âGod, youâre beautiful,â he murmurs, his fingers grazing over your hips, lifting your shirt just enough to slide his hands underneath.
You shiver at the contact, leaning into him as he slowly works your shirt up and over your head, tossing it aside. His hands linger on your skin, tracing patterns that leave your skin tingling.
As his fingers move to unbutton your jeans, Oscar hesitates for a second. âI donât want to ⌠hurt you,â he says softly, his eyes searching yours for any sign of doubt.
You shake your head, reaching up to cradle his face in your hands. âYou wonât. I trust you.â
That seems to be all the encouragement he needs. Oscar quickly strips you of your jeans, his hands trailing up and down your thighs, his gaze fixed on you like youâre the most important thing in the world. And then, for a moment, he pauses.
His eyes drop lower, and when he sees you in nothing but your underwear, something primal flashes across his face. You can see the shift in him â the boyish uncertainty replaced by something darker, more insistent.
âFuck,â he mutters under his breath, almost to himself. His hands tremble slightly as he runs them over your hips, then slowly slides your panties down your legs. The sight of you bare, exposed for him, seems to steal his breath.
You reach out, your fingers brushing over the waistband of his jeans. âYour turn,â you whisper, your voice barely audible over the pounding of your heart.
Oscar quickly complies, undoing his belt and pushing his jeans down. But when he finally kicks them off, and his boxers follow, you feel your breath catch in your throat. Heâs ⌠big. Much bigger than you expected. The sight of him has your heart racing, a mix of nerves and excitement flooding through you.
His size suddenly makes Landoâs stupid joke replay in your head, but instead of fear, you feel a strange sense of anticipation building inside you. The sight of him, hard and ready, only makes you want him more.
But Oscar hesitates, his eyes darting between you and himself, concern flickering in his expression. âI-I donât want to hurt you,â he says again, his voice more serious now. âYouâre so ⌠small.â
Your lips part, a flush creeping up your neck. You swallow hard, trying to keep your composure, but the truth slips out before you can stop it. âI can take it,â you whisper, your voice shaking with need. âI want it.â
Oscarâs eyes widen, and for a moment, he seems at a loss for words. His hands shake slightly as they slide up your thighs, his fingers brushing over the sensitive skin between your legs. He takes his time, his touch slow and deliberate, like heâs savoring every second.
âTell me if itâs too much,â he says softly, his eyes locked on yours as he eases a finger inside you. You gasp at the sudden intrusion, your body tensing for a moment before you relax into his touch. âAre you okay?â
You nod quickly, your breaths coming in short, shallow bursts. âIâm okay,â you manage to say, your voice breathless. âPlease, Oscar. Donât stop.â
He doesnât. He adds another finger, his movements slow and steady as he works you open, his thumb circling your clit with just enough pressure to make you writhe beneath him. Your body arches off the bed, your hands gripping the sheets as you try to hold on to the edge of your sanity.
âYouâre so tight,â he murmurs, almost to himself, his brows furrowing in concentration. âI need to make sure youâre ready.â
âIâm ready,â you breathe, though your voice is shaky with both nerves and desire.
Oscar leans down, pressing a soft kiss to your temple as he continues to stretch you with his fingers. âI donât want to hurt you,â he repeats, his voice a mix of concern and restraint.
You bite your lip, your body trembling with anticipation. âI know. But I want you, Oscar. I want all of you.â
His jaw clenches, and for a moment, he pauses, as if weighing the gravity of whatâs about to happen. But then he nods, his eyes locking on yours as he finally positions himself between your legs. His hands grip your hips, his touch firm but gentle.
âAre you sure?â He asks one last time, his voice barely above a whisper.
âYes,â you breathe, your heart pounding in your chest. âPlease.â
Oscar takes a deep breath, and then, slowly â agonizingly slowly â he begins to push inside you. The stretch is immediate, and your body tenses as you feel the overwhelming pressure of him filling you. Itâs more than you expected â more than youâve ever felt before. A sharp gasp escapes your lips, and for a moment, you wonder if itâs too much.
Oscar freezes, his eyes wide with concern. âAm I hurting you?â
You shake your head quickly, though your breath is shaky. âItâs just ⌠a lot. But Iâm okay. Donât stop.â
He bites his lip, clearly unsure, but he keeps going, inch by inch, until heâs fully inside you. The sensation is intense â painful at first, but as your body adjusts, the pain quickly morphs into something else. Something deeper. Something euphoric.
Oscar is still, hovering above you, his chest heaving as he struggles to keep himself in check. âGod, youâre ⌠youâre so tight,â he whispers, his voice strained. âI can feel ⌠I can see it âŚâ
You look down, and your breath catches in your throat. You can see the outline of him, pressing against your lower stomach, and the sight is enough to send a shiver down your spine.
Oscarâs eyes are glued to the sight as well, his hands gripping your hips tighter. âHoly ⌠I can see myself inside you,â he breathes, his voice thick with awe. âIâm not hurting you?â
You shake your head, your body trembling with a mix of pleasure and disbelief. âNo. It feels ⌠it feels incredible.â
He lets out a shaky breath, his eyes darkening as he slowly pulls back, only to push into you again, the movement sending a wave of pleasure through your body. You moan, your hands gripping his shoulders as he begins to move, his thrusts slow and controlled at first, but growing more urgent as the pleasure builds between you.
Oscarâs breath comes in ragged gasps, his eyes never leaving the sight of himself inside you. âYouâre so ⌠perfect,â he groans, his voice thick with emotion. âI canât believe youâre real.â
Each thrust sends waves of pleasure through you, pushing you closer and closer to the edge. His movements grow more desperate, the tension between you building to an almost unbearable intensity. Your body is on fire, every nerve alight as he fills you completely. You can feel him so deep, every inch of him stretching you in ways youâve never experienced before.
And then, just as the pressure becomes too much, you tip over the edge.
Your orgasm crashes over you like a tidal wave, your body convulsing around him, muscles tightening and pulsing in rhythmic waves. The pleasure is blinding, sharp, your breath hitching as you cry out his name. Youâve never felt anything like it, the intensity of the release leaving you shaking beneath him, your legs trembling as you clutch at his shoulders.
The sudden tightening of your body around him pulls a deep groan from Oscarâs throat, and you feel him lose control. His thrusts falter, becoming erratic as he buries himself inside you one last time. His jaw clenches, his eyes squeezed shut as his own orgasm rips through him. His release is overwhelming â hot and thick, spilling into you with an intensity that leaves you both breathless.
Oscar collapses against you, his forehead resting on your shoulder as he gasps for air. You can feel him still twitching inside you, the last remnants of his orgasm making him shudder against your body. Heâs still buried deep, his cock pulsing inside you as he fills you so completely it almost feels unreal.
Youâre both silent for a moment, just breathing together, the weight of what just happened settling between you. Then, slowly, Oscar lifts his head, his eyes hazy and dazed as he looks down at you.
âAre you okay?â He whispers, his voice rough, concern flickering in his eyes even as he struggles to catch his breath.
You nod, a breathless laugh escaping your lips. âIâm more than okay.â
His gaze softens, and his hand moves down to your stomach, where you can feel an odd fullness, a strange weight that wasnât there before. His palm rests over your belly, and when you both look down, you see it â the way your stomach has a slight bulge, rounded out from how much heâs filled you.
Oscarâs eyes widen, his hand pressing down gently as if he canât believe what heâs seeing. âI ⌠did I do that?â He asks, his voice barely above a whisper.
You bite your lip, heat flooding your cheeks as you nod. âI think so.â
A low groan escapes him, his eyes glued to the sight of your swollen belly. âJesus ⌠thatâs ⌠fuck, thatâs so hot,â he mutters, almost to himself, his hand rubbing slow, gentle circles over the small bump.
His obsession with it sends a new wave of heat through you. The feeling of being so full, so utterly claimed by him, is intoxicating. You reach down, covering his hand with yours, pressing it harder against your belly. âYou like it?â You ask, teasingly, though you already know the answer.
Oscarâs eyes flash up to yours, dark and filled with something primal. âAre you kidding? Iâve never seen anything like this. I canât ⌠I canât stop looking at it.â
He keeps rubbing your belly, his fingers tracing over the slight rise, his gaze fixed on the way your body holds all of him. You shiver beneath his touch, the sensation of his hand against your skin sending jolts of pleasure through you. You can feel him starting to soften inside you, but thereâs still a delicious fullness that leaves you squirming, your body craving more despite how completely wrecked you feel.
Oscar seems to notice, his eyes narrowing slightly as his hand trails lower, his fingers brushing against your sensitive clit. You gasp, your body jerking in response, and he smiles softly, clearly enjoying the effect he has on you.
âYouâre still sensitive,â he murmurs, his thumb circling your bundle of nerves with gentle pressure. âI can feel it.â
You bite your lip, trying to suppress a moan as he continues to tease you, his movements slow and deliberate. âOscar âŚâ you breathe, your voice trembling. âI donât think I can âŚâ
But you can. The tension in your body builds again so quickly, itâs almost dizzying. His touch is relentless, his thumb rubbing slow, firm circles that drive you insane. The combination of the fullness in your belly and the stimulation at your core is overwhelming, your body teetering on the edge of another orgasm before you can even process it.
âI can feel how tight you still are,â Oscar whispers, his voice husky as he watches you squirm beneath him. âGod, youâre so perfect.â
His words, his touch, the sight of him above you â itâs all too much. Your body arches off the bed, a sharp cry escaping your lips as you fall over the edge again, your second orgasm hitting you harder than the first. The pleasure is intense, bordering on painful as your muscles contract around him, your body shaking with the force of it.
Oscar groans, his hand still rubbing slow circles over your belly as he watches you come undone beneath him. âThatâs it,â he murmurs, his voice filled with awe. âYouâre so beautiful like this.â
You gasp for air, your body trembling as the waves of pleasure slowly subside, leaving you feeling utterly spent. Oscar finally stops his teasing, his hand still resting on your belly as he leans down to press a soft kiss to your forehead.
âAre you okay?â He asks again, his voice gentle, almost tender.
You nod, a lazy smile spreading across your face. âYeah ⌠more than okay.â
He chuckles softly, shifting his weight to lie beside you, his arm wrapping around your waist as he pulls you close. His hand remains on your belly, though, still fascinated by the slight swell heâs caused.
âI canât believe youâre mine,â he murmurs, his lips brushing against your temple.
You turn to face him, your fingers tracing lazy patterns over his chest. âIâm the lucky one,â you whisper back, your heart swelling with affection for him.
For a while, you both just lie there, wrapped up in each other, the weight of what just happened settling in. Thereâs no rush, no urgency â just the quiet intimacy of being together after something so intense.
Oscarâs hand continues to rub slow, soothing circles over your belly, and you feel yourself slowly drifting toward sleep, your body completely relaxed and satisfied. Just before you drift off, you hear Oscarâs soft voice in your ear, filled with quiet wonder.
âI donât think Iâll ever get over how perfectly you fit me.â
And in that moment, you know that nothing has ever felt more right.
***
The morning light filters through the curtains, casting soft rays of sunlight across the hotel room. You stir in the bed, blinking your eyes open, the haze of sleep still thick in your mind. As you stretch, your entire body reminds you of the events from the night before. Every muscle feels heavy, a delicious soreness radiating from deep within you. You smile to yourself, the memory of Oscarâs hands on your body, his whispers in your ear, sending a pleasant shiver down your spine.
Your bladder protests, urging you out of bed, but as soon as you shift to swing your legs over the side of the bed, a sharp jolt of soreness runs up your thighs. You pause, blinking in confusion, then try again â more gingerly this time. Your legs are stiff, the muscles weak and uncooperative as you push yourself to stand.
You barely make it two steps before your legs give out beneath you.
The floor rushes up to meet you, and with a soft thud, you crumple into a heap on the carpet. A surprised gasp escapes your lips, and before you can process whatâs happened, Oscar is jolting awake beside you.
âShit â what was that?â He mumbles groggily, but the second he sees you on the floor, his eyes go wide, panic flashing across his face. âOh my God, are you okay?â
Heâs out of bed in an instant, rushing to your side, his hands gripping your shoulders as he kneels next to you. âWhat happened? Are you hurt?â
You canât help but laugh softly, though your body feels like itâs been through a marathon. âIâm fine, I just âŚâ You bite your lip, wincing as you try to shift. âI guess my legs donât really work right now.â
Oscarâs brows furrow in concern, and he gently lifts you, pulling you into his arms and carrying you back to the bed like you weigh nothing. âWhat do you mean your legs donât work?â His voice is tight, laced with worry, and he lays you down carefully, as if heâs afraid youâll break.
You groan softly as you sink back into the mattress, your legs still trembling from the effort. âIâm just ⌠really sore. Like, everywhere.â
Oscarâs face pales, and you can see the guilt washing over him in an instant. âOh my God, I hurt you, didnât I?â His voice is barely a whisper, his hands hovering over you as if heâs afraid to touch you again. âI knew I was too rough. I knew I was too big. Iâm so sorry, I-â
âHey, no,â you interrupt, reaching for his hand and squeezing it. âItâs not like that. Iâm just sore from ⌠you know.â You feel a flush creeping up your neck, but you manage a small smile. âItâs a good kind of sore.â
Oscar shakes his head, his jaw clenched tight. âNo, no, this isnât okay. I shouldnât have pushed you like that. I shouldâve been more careful.â
You let out a soft laugh, though itâs strained as you shift slightly in bed. âOscar, Iâm fine. Really. I feel amazing, actually. This is just ⌠the aftermath.â You wiggle your toes experimentally, and while the soreness is still there, itâs more of a reminder of the pleasure you felt last night than actual pain.
Oscar isnât convinced. He sits on the edge of the bed, his head in his hands. âYou couldnât even walk this morning because of me,â he mutters, his voice low and filled with guilt. âI donât ever want to hurt you.â
The tenderness in his voice makes your heart ache, and you sit up slowly, reaching out to touch his arm. âOscar, you didnât hurt me,â you say softly. âYou made me feel incredible. Yes, Iâm sore, but itâs because of how good it was. Not because you did anything wrong.â
He looks up at you, his eyes filled with uncertainty. âAre you sure? I mean, you literally fell out of bed.â
You bite your lip, holding back a grin. âYeah, well ⌠maybe thatâs just proof of how well you did.â
A flicker of amusement crosses his face, but the worry still lingers. âYouâre not just saying that to make me feel better?â
You shake your head, your hand moving to rest on his thigh. âNo. Iâm saying it because itâs true. Iâve never felt like that before, Oscar. You didnât hurt me â you made me feel alive.â
His expression softens at your words, but you can still see the guilt etched in the lines of his face. He exhales slowly, his hand covering yours on his thigh. âI just ⌠I donât want to ever do something that makes you feel like you canât even move the next day.â
âWell,â you say, biting your lip playfully, âif itâs the kind of thing that leaves me this sore, I think I could get used to it.â You wink at him, trying to lighten the mood, but Oscarâs eyes widen, and he groans.
âYouâre impossible, you know that?â
You laugh softly, wincing at the tightness in your hips as you shift again. âI mean, there are worse ways to be sore. Besides, this is kind of your fault. You can make it up to me.â
Oscarâs brows furrow in confusion. âHow?â
You give him a mischievous look. âBy doing it all over again and making sure I can never walk properly again.â
He blinks at you, momentarily stunned. âYouâre joking, right?â
You raise an eyebrow. âDo I look like Iâm joking?â
Oscar stares at you for a moment, his mouth opening and closing as if heâs trying to find the right words. âI â but ⌠youâre already sore.â
You lean back against the pillows, a satisfied smirk playing on your lips. âExactly. So you might as well make it count.â
For a second, heâs speechless. Then, his lips twitch, and a slow smile spreads across his face. âYouâre serious?â
You nod, biting your lip to hide your grin. âVery.â
He laughs, the sound low and warm, and you can see the tension start to melt away from his shoulders. âYouâre unbelievable.â
You shrug, your eyes sparkling with mischief. âI have a high pain tolerance. Besides, I think I deserve a little reward after surviving last night, donât you?â
Oscarâs smile fades slightly, and he looks at you with a mix of affection and disbelief. âYouâre really okay?â
You nod, your hand squeezing his thigh again. âMore than okay, Oscar. Iâm serious â I want you again. Even if it leaves me sore for a week.â
His expression softens, and he leans down, brushing a gentle kiss against your forehead. âYouâre something else, you know that?â
You grin up at him. âI try.â
Oscarâs hand trails down your side, his fingers brushing lightly over your skin as if testing how much you can handle. âI donât want to push you too hard,â he murmurs, his lips ghosting over your temple.
âYouâre not pushing me,â you whisper, your heart pounding in your chest. âI want this.â
He hesitates for a moment, then nods, his hand moving lower, tracing over your stomach and down between your legs. The touch is featherlight, testing, but even that small contact sends a shiver through your body.
âTell me if itâs too much,â Oscar says, his voice low and serious, but you can already feel the heat building between you again, and the soreness fades into the background of your mind, overwhelmed by the need rising in you.
âI will,â you breathe, already arching into his touch.
Oscarâs lips find yours, soft at first, but quickly growing more urgent as the tension between you sparks back to life. His hand slides lower, teasing you with slow, deliberate strokes, and you can feel yourself growing wet again, your body responding to him despite the lingering ache.
He pulls back, his eyes searching yours. âYou really want to do this again?â
You nod, breathless. âI need you.â
Thatâs all it takes for Oscar to give in. He shifts above you, his body pressing against yours as he positions himself between your legs. The weight of him is comforting, familiar, and despite the soreness, you crave the feeling of him filling you again.
Oscar moves slowly, carefully, but the stretch is just as intense as last night. You gasp as he pushes inside, your body still adjusting to the sheer size of him, but itâs not painful this time â just overwhelming in the best way.
âOh my God,â Oscar groans, his head dropping to rest against your shoulder as he pushes deeper. âYouâre still so tight.â
You can only moan in response, your body trembling as he moves inside you, the pleasure building quickly despite the soreness in your muscles. The mix of discomfort and ecstasy is intoxicating, and soon, youâre lost in the rhythm of his thrusts, your mind blank except for the sensation of him filling you completely.
Oscarâs hands grip your hips, his movements growing more urgent as he finds his rhythm. You can tell heâs holding back, trying not to hurt you, but even with the restraint, the intensity of it all has you teetering on the edge again.
âYouâre so perfect,â Oscar murmurs against your skin, his breath hot on your neck. âI canât get enough of you.â
You shudder beneath him, your hands gripping his shoulders as you feel yourself nearing the edge once again. âDonât stop,â you gasp, your body arching into his as the pleasure coils tight inside you, threatening to snap.
Oscar groans in response, his pace picking up, each thrust hitting deeper, harder, until you're barely holding on. You can feel the intensity building between you, the friction, the connection driving you closer to the edge. His hands grip your hips tighter, his breath hot against your neck as he murmurs, âGod, you feel so good. I could do this forever.â
The words send a thrill through you, and you grip him harder, your nails digging into his shoulders. âOscar,â you breathe, your voice trembling as the pressure inside you mounts, overwhelming, unstoppable.
He pulls back slightly, his eyes locking with yours as he drives into you again, deeper than before. âCome for me,â he whispers, his voice husky with desire. âI want to feel you.â
Thatâs all it takes. His words send you spiraling, your body clenching around him as your orgasm crashes over you in waves. You cry out, your legs trembling, your hands gripping him as tight as you can, pulling him closer as your entire body shakes with the force of your release.
Oscar groans as your body tightens around him, his control slipping as he watches you fall apart beneath him. His rhythm falters, then he pushes deep one last time, his release hitting with a shudder as he spills inside you. His breath is ragged, his body trembling as he holds himself over you, the weight of his body grounding you as the aftershocks of your orgasm pulse through you.
For a moment, thereâs only the sound of your breathing, your bodies tangled together in the aftermath. Oscar collapses against you, his head resting on your chest as he tries to catch his breath. You run your fingers through his hair, a soft, satisfied smile on your lips as the warmth of his body soothes your soreness.
After a long silence, he finally speaks, his voice soft and a little shaky. âYou ⌠okay?â
You laugh softly, your body feeling like itâs been thoroughly worked over, but in the best way possible. âYeah,â you whisper, brushing his hair back. âMore than okay.â
He lifts his head to look at you, his eyes filled with affection but also a hint of lingering concern. âI didnât hurt you?â
You shake your head, smiling up at him. âNo, you didnât hurt me. You were perfect.â
He relaxes, a small smile tugging at the corners of his lips. âGood,â he murmurs, pressing a soft kiss to your forehead. âBecause I donât think Iâll ever get enough of you.â
You hum in contentment, your body still buzzing from the intensity of it all. âJust make sure I can walk by tomorrow, okay?â
Oscar chuckles, his hand trailing down to your hip as he pulls you close. âNo promises.â
***
Oscar steps out of the car first, scanning the airstrip where McLarenâs private jet waits. His brow furrows slightly, a flicker of concern in his eyes. The morning sun is harsh, casting long shadows on the tarmac, but his focus is entirely on you. He turns back, opening the car door carefully, like heâs preparing for something delicate.
You wince as you try to swing your legs out of the car. The soreness from last night has reached a whole new level, and every movement feels like your muscles are made of lead. Youâd tried standing when you first woke up, but it was a no-go. Now, as you attempt to shift out of the car, itâs confirmed: you really canât walk.
Oscar leans down, his hands gently coming to rest on your hips. âReady?â His voice is soft, a little sheepish, like heâs still not over the guilt from earlier.
âDo I have a choice?â You joke, though your body aches in a way thatâs both painful and satisfying, a reminder of last nightâs passion.
He gives you a small smile, his eyes soft as he reaches under your knees and lifts you effortlessly into his arms, bridal style. You instinctively wrap your arms around his neck, leaning into his chest as he straightens up.
âOkay, this is officially ridiculous,â you mutter, burying your face in his shoulder, half-embarrassed, half-amused.
Oscar chuckles, holding you close. âYouâre the one who said you wanted to make sure you couldnât walk properly again.â
You lift your head slightly, meeting his gaze. âI didnât think youâd take it so literally.â
He grins, but you can see the hint of worry still lingering in his eyes. âToo late now. Besides, I think I might enjoy this.â
âYou enjoy having to carry me across an airstrip in front of your entire team?â You raise an eyebrow, trying to keep your tone light, though you know itâs about to get a lot more embarrassing once people start noticing.
Oscar shrugs, shifting you slightly in his arms as he starts walking toward the jet. âI enjoy taking care of you.â
You feel a warmth spread through your chest at his words, your earlier embarrassment fading. Heâs so earnest, so gentle, even now, and itâs hard to feel anything but safe in his arms.
As you near the jet, you can already see the crew milling around, loading luggage and prepping for departure. And, of course, Lando is leaning casually against the stairs leading up to the plane, a mischievous grin spreading across his face as soon as he spots the two of you.
âWell, well, well,â Lando calls out, his voice full of teasing glee. âWhat do we have here? Oscar playing the hero?â
You groan softly, burying your face in Oscarâs shoulder again. âPlease no,â you mutter under your breath.
Oscar doesnât slow down as he approaches, though you can feel his body tense slightly. Heâs protective, even if heâs trying to laugh it off. âDonât start, Lando,â he warns, though thereâs a playful edge to his voice.
But Landoâs never been one to back off, especially when thereâs an opportunity to tease his teammate. He pushes off the stairs and stands directly in front of you two, hands on his hips. âWhat, did she trip or something? Or is this âŚâ He pauses dramatically, raising an eyebrow. âIs this because of Sunday night?â
You feel the heat rise in your cheeks immediately. Youâve had your fair share of teasing from Lando before, but this â this is next-level mortifying. Oscar adjusts his hold on you slightly, and you can feel the subtle tightening of his grip, like heâs shielding you from whateverâs coming.
âLando,â Oscar says, his tone warning, but not harsh. âSeriously.â
But Landoâs not done. His eyes dart between you and Oscar, and his grin widens. âWait â wait. Hold on. Is she not able to walk?â
You donât say anything, but your silence must be enough because Landoâs grin fades, replaced by a look of genuine shock. âOh my God. Youâre actually serious.â
Oscarâs jaw tightens, and he shifts you in his arms again, turning slightly like heâs ready to move past Lando and end this conversation. But Lando steps closer, his playful demeanor slipping into something more serious as he realizes the situation is ⌠real.
âMate,â Lando says, his voice lower now, almost incredulous. âDid you ⌠I mean, you didnât-â
âNo,â Oscar cuts him off quickly, his voice firm but not defensive. âI didnât hurt her.â
You peek out from Oscarâs shoulder, meeting Landoâs wide-eyed gaze. âIâm fine,â you add, trying to inject some normalcy back into the situation. âItâs just ⌠you know.â
Landoâs brows shoot up. âI really donât know.â
You laugh softly despite yourself. âWell, Iâm not hurt. Just ⌠sore.â
Landoâs mouth opens and closes as if heâs trying to find the right words, but for once, heâs speechless. He glances between you and Oscar, and then shakes his head, half in disbelief, half in amusement.
âI mean, Iâve heard of being âswept off your feet,â but this âŚâ Lando trails off, his eyes flicking down to your legs, which youâre certain look completely useless at this point. âThis is next level.â
Oscar rolls his eyes, though thereâs a hint of a smile tugging at his lips. âYou done?â
Lando lifts his hands in mock surrender. âHey, Iâm not judging. Iâm just saying â next time, maybe leave her able to walk? Just a suggestion.â
You groan, leaning your forehead against Oscarâs shoulder again. âPlease make him stop.â
Oscar chuckles, squeezing you gently. âLando, I swear, if you donât move, Iâm going to drop her on you.â
Lando steps aside, holding his hands up. âAlright, alright. Iâll be good. But seriously,â he adds, glancing at you with a smirk. âYou two should probably invest in some crutches.â
You shoot him a withering look, but thereâs no malice behind it. âYouâre not funny.â
âI disagree,â Lando grins. âIâm hilarious.â
Oscar shakes his head, moving past Lando and toward the stairs. As he climbs up, still carrying you effortlessly, you whisper, âIâm never living this down, am I?â
Oscar leans down, pressing a soft kiss to your temple. âProbably not.â
By the time he settles you down in one of the plush seats on the jet, the soreness in your legs has turned into a dull throb. You sink into the cushions with a relieved sigh, stretching out as much as you can without wincing. Oscar sits beside you, his hand immediately resting on your thigh, a silent check-in.
âYou sure youâre okay?â He asks again, his brow still slightly furrowed.
âI promise,â you say, reaching for his hand. âI mean, yes, I probably wonât be running any marathons anytime soon, but itâs worth it.â
Oscar gives you a lopsided smile, but the concern doesnât fully leave his eyes. âI didnât think Iâd actually-â
You cut him off, squeezing his hand. âOscar, stop. You didnât do anything wrong. If anything, Iâm the one who asked for it.â
His cheeks flush slightly, and he rubs the back of his neck. âStill.â
You lean closer, brushing your lips against his. âIt was perfect,â you murmur softly. âYouâre perfect.â
He exhales, some of the tension finally leaving his body as he leans into your kiss. âIf you say so.â
âI do,â you whisper against his lips, then lean back with a grin. âNow, how are you going to carry me once we land?â
Oscar laughs, a sound thatâs light and warm. âIâll figure it out.â
From across the aisle, Lando chimes in, âJust get a wheelchair. Might be worth the investment if this is going to be a common occurrence.â
You throw a pillow at him. âShut up, Lando.â
But deep down, despite the teasing and the soreness, you wouldnât trade this moment for anything.
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Tim Drake â From Vigilante to Infinite Realms Royalty
It was one of those things that Tim never imagined would happen, not in his wildest Gotham nights. But then again, dating Danny Fenton, aka Danny Phantom, the Ghost King, came with more than just the usual paranormal hijinks.
Tim was used to strange things, but being royalty? That was definitely new.
The revelation hit him one evening when Danny casually mentioned it, like he was talking about the weather.
âYou know youâre technically royalty now, right?â Danny said, lounging upside down in the air like it was the most normal thing ever.
Tim raised an eyebrow. âRoyalty? What are you talking about?â
Danny grinned, clearly enjoying himself. âWell, youâre dating me. And Iâm the King of the Infinite Realms. So that makes you my consort⌠which, you know, technically makes you royalty too.â
Tim froze. âWaitâwhat? Thatâs not how this works. I didnât sign up forââ
âOh, but it is how it works. Welcome to ghost politics, Drake.â
And thatâs when Tim realized his life just got infinitely more complicated.
Naturally, the bats found out. Because of course they did. And it spiraled into something Tim really didnât want to deal with.
It started when he casually mentioned it during a meeting in the Batcave. He figured it wasnât a big deal. After all, being âroyaltyâ in a ghost dimension didnât really change anything, right?
Wrong.
Bruce didnât even flinch. He just kept typing at the Batcomputer. âYouâre dating the Ghost King, and now youâre royalty?â
âTechnically, yes,â Tim said, trying not to sound too defensive.
Bruce glanced at him. âI see.â
That was all he said. But it was enough to make Tim feel like heâd just announced he was moving to the moon.
Jason, of course, immediately jumped on it. âHold up. So youâre, like, ghost royalty now? Does that mean you get a crown or something?â
Tim shot him a glare. âNo, Iâm not getting a crown.â
âOh, I dunno,â Jason grinned. âSounds like royalty to me. Next thing you know, weâre gonna be bowing to Prince Drake of the Phantom Zone.â
âItâs not the Phantom Zone, Todd.â
Damian, predictably, was furious. âThis is ridiculous. You, Drake? Royalty? You are not fit for any throne, especially one in the Infinite Realms. The entire concept is absurd.â
Tim sighed, rubbing his temples. âIâm not ruling anything, Damian. Itâs just a title.â
âAn unearned one,â Damian muttered under his breath.
Steph, on the other hand, thought it was the funniest thing sheâd ever heard. âWait, wait. So if you and Danny are together for real, does that mean we have to call you âYour Highnessâ? I need to know. Are there royal ghost duties? Do you have to make decrees?â
âNo. Please stop,â Tim groaned.
But the worst part? The teasing didnât stop. Every dinner, every mission, every time Tim walked into the room, someone had something to say.
âSo, Tim,â Dick said one day with a grin. âHave you started planning ghostly state visits yet? Iâm sure the Justice League would love to attend a royal banquet in your honor.â
âNo state visits,â Tim said through gritted teeth. âI donât even rule anything.â
âSure you donât, âYour Ghostliness,ââ Jason added with a laugh.
The bats seemed to think it was the funniest thing in the world. Tim? Not so much. But he had to admit, ghost politics were no joke. He was already getting drawn into weird Infinite Realms power struggles, where ancient beings would bow to him and ghosts would whisper about âthe Kingâs consort.â
At first, Tim tried to play it off. He didnât need the title. He wasnât about to walk around with a crown and robes, or start making royal proclamations. But when one of the ghost courtiers addressed him as âMy Lord,â he couldnât help but cringe.
Danny found the whole thing hilarious. âDonât worry,â heâd say with a smirk. âYou wonât have to do anything royal. Itâs just⌠a perk.â
âSome perk,â Tim muttered.
Still, despite all the teasing and the bizarre ghostly politics, Tim knew one thing for sure: he wouldnât trade it for anything. Dating Danny came with chaos, sure. But at the end of the day, Tim was okay with it. Even if it meant being ghost royalty.
Just⌠no crown. Ever.
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Hotch request w Jack and new baby!!! Coming back from the hospital and reader is in bed with new baby and Jack while Aaron is in another part of the house (maybe making food in the kitchen) and reader starts crying because sheâs in pain and jack is all concerned and sweet and goes to get Aaron??
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âHeâs gonna stab him!âÂ
You blink from the spot youâd been staring at, pain momentarily forgotten. âWhat! Whereâd you learn that word?â you ask in surprise.Â
Jack leans back against his big velvet pillow, blue with silver stars, looking as though heâs in the lap of luxury. âAt school.âÂ
The cartoon mouse on the TV raises his fencing sword high in the air.Â
âHeâs not stabbing anyone, theyâre fencing,â you say, reaching for his hand to hold. âStabbing⌠thatâs pretty scary. How did that make you feel?âÂ
âWell, Iâm not gonna stab anyone,â Jack says.Â
Heâs confused that youâre making a fuss, just old enough to realise youâre poking around for his feelings. You worry lately that you arenât paying him enough attention because of his new brother, and the word stab isnât exactly age appropriate.Â
But maybe thatâs what the boys his age are talking about? You frown more, your hand slipping along his arm to curl behind him. You pull him toward you. âCome on, handsome. Cuddle me.âÂ
Youâre too sore to move, so Jack has to come to you. He crawls across the couch until his arms can wrap around you and his cheek can rest against your chest. Stab is an apt word for the feeling in your stomach. Jackâs arm squeezes at you and the pain worsens, so you move it up your front and curl your arm around him.Â
âIs it a bad word?â he asks.Â
âNo, itâs just like hit or slap, I guess. And I know youâre not gonna do any of that to anyone. Youâre too gentle.âÂ
âGentle is a good word.âÂ
âYeah.â You kiss his forehead, a moment of self indulgence. You love your stepson, and he is oh so kissable. âOh no, look at the mouse.âÂ
Charlie sleeps in his swing seat, the soft whirring of its constant motion almost as comforting as the sound of his soft breaths. You watch him for a while, Jack climbing up at your side to press his face to your neck, leg on your thigh, slowly pressing against the tenderness that is your abdomen. âUh, Jack,â you breathe, trying to pick him up, âyouâre gonna have to climb off of me, my tummy hurts too much.âÂ
âSorry,â he says quickly, slipping off of you and onto the couch cushion. His foot kicks out as he rights himself, a jamming of his toes against the pain like a spike.Â
You take a deep breath. Ouch.Â
âItâs okay,â you say, groaning softly as the pain thrums, hand on your stomach as though your touch can make it stop, âjust a tummy ache. Iâ Iâm okay.âÂ
âYou got little tears?â he says, his voice going wobbly. You try to blink away tears and end up with a straggler curving down the slope of your cheek. âIâll go get dad!âÂ
âJack, Iâm okay,â you say.Â
Too late. Jack scrambles from the couch and away from you, up the stairs to find his father. Youâre not sure what Aaronâs up to, heâd only said, âIâll be right back,â twenty minutes ago. Youâd guessed laundry.Â
Youâre glad Jackâs run upstairs when you realise the pain isnât going away. Itâs not bad, not half as bad as your contractions had been, but the whole labour process has sapped you, and you feel weak as a willow branch in bad weather. You shift heavily onto one leg and cross them, uncross them when the pain spikes again, letting out a weird and breathless whine as it turns to a full blown cramp.Â
Jack returns with Aaron in tow. His hair is dripping wet, soap suds on his neck and his shirt stuck to his chest. Heâs rushed out of the shower to see you.Â
âWhatâs wrong?â he asks as he rounds the couch. âJack told me youâre not feeling well.âÂ
You hold your arms out for a hug. He doesnât falter, simply does as you want, his hair wringing wet and dripping onto your shoulder as he gathers you in his arms.Â
You hold onto him like a lifeline. The cramp curls, and tightens, has you seizing up against him.Â
âWhat is it?â he asks softly. âStomach pains again?âÂ
The nurse said itâs your uterus shrinking. Whatever it is, itâs sudden agony. You shudder into Aaronâs shoulder until the pain pangs and fades, leaving your stomach a tense mess. It hurts to move, so you stay clinging to your husband and let him hover over you.Â
âAre you okay?â Jack asks.
You sniff.Â
Aaron pulls away to take your face into his hands. He holds you with care, his thumbs under your jaw, index fingers running diagonally under each eye, tips at your brows. Just a stolen few seconds for him to check you over. No tears to be wiped away.Â
âStill hurting?âÂ
You shake your head, eyebrows pulled down in a bad frown.Â
âOkay. Alright. Motrin?â he asks.Â
âNo,â you whisper, âcan you just stay here?âÂ
Jack says your name.Â
You peek past Aaronâs body. âJack, sorry.âÂ
âAre you okay now?âÂ
You grimace, âIâm gonna be fine, it just hurts sometimes and I didnât have any medicine today. Thatâs all. Sorry, I scared you.âÂ
âYou didnât scare me,â he denies.Â
You canât help smiling, then. âOkay, I didnât. Thanks for getting dad for me.âÂ
âHeâs our hero,â Aaron says. He sits down beside you carefully, his voice quiet and his hand gentle as he holds your thigh. âIâm glad he did.âÂ
Jack climbs into his dadâs lap. Aaron wraps an arm around him, the other at your side, fingers tapping at you.Â
You rub your forehead. Tip your head back and take a deep breath.Â
âJack,â you whisper, breathing out, âIâm sorry if I startled you. It doesnât hurt anymore.âÂ
âIt wasnât scary, I said that already.âÂ
âOh, you did?â Aaron teases.Â
âIt was okay, I just donât want you to hurt.âÂ
âOnly baby pains,â you say.Â
For a few minutes, you and your small family sit there in silence. Aaron works a hand behind your back to hug you, Jack snuggles into his chest, and Charlie stirs in his swing seat. The quiet calms him, and he goes back to his soft snoring seconds later.Â
âIâm sorry about your shower,â you whisper.Â
âItâs okay. Iâm sorry about my baby,â Aaron whispers back, drawing circles into your lower back, âhe didnât mean to chew you up.âÂ
âUgh, I know.âÂ
Jack raises his nose. âWhat? Chew? Do babies bite?âÂ
âItâs an expression, babe.âÂ
âOh.â He looks at his baby brother with suspicion anyways. âHe doesnât even have teeth?âÂ
âBuddy, itâs just a joke,â Aaron says, laughing as Jack slips out of his lap to go and look at Charlie in the seat.Â
âMaybe he did have teeth,â you say.Â
Aaron ushers you toward him, rests his cheek on your forehead. âItâll feel better soon. You need to rest, thatâs all.âÂ
âYour hair is so wet.âÂ
âI was in the shower.âÂ
âSorryâŚâÂ
âDonât be,â he says. âDonât be.âÂ
You reach up to tousle his wet hair. âMiss showering with you.âÂ
âWe showered last night.âÂ
âNo, I stood there and you helped me wash my back, thatâs not the same.âÂ
âWell, I enjoyed it.âÂ
âI bet you did.âÂ
Your fondness attracts many, many kisses, his nose nuzzling your cheek. You settle under the weight of him and watch Jack where he frowns at Charlie, big brown eyes squinted, waiting for a show of teeth that wonât happen. Aaron brings a hand to your tense stomach, waiting for you to lean back before he begins massaging the tensed muscle there with a slowness that borders unmoving.Â
âTell me if it hurts too much,â he says.Â
âYou can go finish your shower.âÂ
âI was finished. Mâgonna start pressing in, okay?âÂ
You wince as Aaron begins, but slowly, slowly, the tenseness from your cramp softens. It still hurts, but he makes it manageable. Jack delivered your rescuer, and your rescuer loves a soft touch.
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diet pepsi - kim mingyu
synopsis: When a ride home becomes something much more... interesting.
Your interactions with Mingyu have been getting weird during the last group meeting. Thereâs a certain tension in every kindness he does for youâit could be you overanalyzing friendly acts, or maybe Kim Mingyu wants you as much as you want him.
pairing: mingyu x reader wc: 3,6k
warnings: unprotected sex; kinda public car sex; dry humping; figering (f receiving); cock riding; mingyu is a teasing little shit; very slightly size kink; mentions of alcohol; inappropriate language. MDNI.
You don't know when you started feeling this way about Mingyu, but lately he's been... different. He's hot, but you already knew that. Everybody did.
Mingyu is tall, tanned, has a charming smile and beautiful sparkling eyes that goes along with the sweet and patient personality he always has when he's with you and the boys. But something is different.
You don't know what happened, but Mingyu's every attitude seemed different tonight and what would normally be âyour friend's caring and concerned wayâ was making you crave his attention in a way you've never felt before.
You felt your face heat up when he took the beer bottle from your hand and, before you could even try, Mingyu opened it and filled your glass, extending his arm towards you. When you hesitantly held the glass and your fingers touched briefly, Mingyu winked at you playfully and a shiver ran through your whole body.
This went on all night.
Mingyu carefully roasted the piece of meat you like best until it was just right for you. He also reached out to slap Vernon's hands away before he could snatch it from the grill, his muscles bulging under the sleeves of his black shirt right next to your face.
And, of course, you wanted to kiss him the moment he put his denim jacket over your lap to protect you from the cold without complaining â even though he told you to wear warm clothes tonight because of the weather.
â Gyu, you don't have to...
He cut you off before you could be the proud little thing who never gives in even though you know you're wrong.
â Don't be stubborn again. I told you it was gonna be cold and you still came in this tiny dress, at least keep the jacket. â He whispered, a perfectly balanced mix of seriousness and care. For emphasis, he tugged at the thin sleeves of your white dress, which didn't fit to keep out the cold.
Blame it on the drink;
Blame it on the several months you've gone without seeing anyone;
Blame Jeonghan for implanting indecent ideas in your head with his provocative comments about the way Mingyu always stood around you and looked at you;
Blame the smell of him surrounding you and inhibiting your senses in the enclosed space of the black range rover, or the way he drove with only one hand...
Blame anything, but you wanted him.
You felt your head spin the moment Mingyu said he would take you home, not letting anyone think of any other possibility during the carpool. And that was like a confirmation of everything a certain angel-faced devil had told you earlier.
You put on his dark denim jacket, sinking into the smell of his perfume that lingered on your clothes and biting your lips anxiously, an involuntary reaction to the scenarios you'd imagined and, to prevent your mind from continuing to go to places forbidden by âfriend statusâ, you grabbed a can of Diet Pepsi before heading towards the car.Â
Of course, you also had to deal with the feeling of disappointment silently when you found Dokyeom and Minghao waiting in the back seat. âJeonghan, you're paying me for this!â, you thought after fastening your seatbelt.Â
Mingyu smiled at you as he started the car, making his way to Dokyeom's house first - which was closer to the restaurant you were in. Eventually, you opened the can of Pepsi to distract yourself from the conflicting feelings you'd been having all night.
You didn't know it, but Mingyu noticed your strange behavior and, wanting to test whether his theory was right, he ignored the route to your house, deciding to leave Minghao first and then - by pure chance of fate - take the long way home.
He didn't stop there. Mingyu knew you were looking at him and purposely let go of one of your hands from the steering wheel, ran his fingers through his black hair to make it look messy as it fell over his eyes and, finally, grabbed the gearshift - as close to your thigh as possible, after all, Mingyu wanted to see how you reacted to him.
Of course, every glance was noticed, as was the intense way you stared at his hand holding the steering wheel. Mingyu could have sworn he saw you squeeze your thighs together a time or two when he made a skillful turn.
You started to shake your leg out of anxiety and seeing the perfect opportunity, Mingyu held your thighs in a firm grip to keep them still. The truth was that it didn't bother him at all, but he wouldn't miss the opportunity to put his hands on your thighs after so long watching them with desire.
He smirked arrogantly as he heard you sigh and struggle to keep still, muscles twitching uncontrollably under the palm of his hands. His eyes remained on the road, but they had a lustful glint behind the brown tenderness that Mingyu usually directed at you.
In your haze of thoughts, you didn't notice that the road to your house was taking longer than usual or that you had passed the same street three times. You also ignored the playful and arrogant expression that Mingyu wore, in fact, you didn't even look at his face as you were focused on the extraordinary way the veins stood out on the golden skin of his forearm and his thick thighs that were deliciously marked by his jeans.
The thin gold chain reflected the dim light of the streetlamps, shining through the collar of the black shirt that also highlighted the biceps carefully built up with regular routines in the gym, but just enough for the imagination. Kim Mingyu was dressed so casually and still managed to be sinfully handsome. Him wearing a black shirt so tight against his arms and chest should be considered a crime against public safety and you, feeling your neck heat up, pulled your hair up and leaned back in your seat to look at his face from a better angle.
 And the look in your eyes...
Mingyu felt his patience fading. He pushed his tongue against his cheek to control himself, squeezing the gearshift until his fingers turned white. And then your eyes went to his face, your rosy lips were slightly open, your shoulders barely moving because of the shallow breathing and the typical doe eyes that blinked heavily at him, scanning every birthmark he had on his chiseled face.
He was tired of overthinking what kind of game you were playing now.
Slowly, Mingyu pulled the car over as soon as you turned into a discreet, quiet - partly dark - street and, as if a mist was coming out of the front of your eyes, you came back to reality as you felt the car stop and looked out of the window. It wasn't your house and you were even more confused when you heard the car's engine stop.
You turned to Mingyu who was taking the key out of the ignition.
â What are you doing? â you asked, but Mingyu didn't answer. â Why did you stop here?
He continued without answering, Mingyu didn't even look at you. Still facing forward, he just unbuckled your thigh to open his own seat belt and moved the seat back very slowly. Your eyes widened in surprise, confusion and... anticipation.
You focused your attention on the sliding seat, returning to stare at Mingyu's thick thighs, and clamped your lower lip between your teeth. By the time you raised your eyes to Mingyu's face again, he was already looking at you with a naughty, arrogant grin and his head tilted slightly to one side.
â Having fun? â He asked arrogantly and you blinked rapidly, feeling confused and overwhelmed.
âMaybe I shouldn't have drunk so much,â you thought.
Mingyu leaned over you, knocking you backwards. Your back slammed against the car door and you held your breath, not wanting to make any movement or comment that would break the tension that bubbled deliciously under your skin. Your eyes were locked on Mingyu's, and you couldn't take your eyes off them for a second.
The sound of your belt opening made you blink repeatedly once more and let out an anxious sigh - which, in turn, made Mingyu even more confident.
He rested his left hand on the tinted car window and brought his right hand up to your neck, wrapping his hand around your throat and subtly pulling you forward. You let out a pained grunt and close your eyes as you felt his nose brush against yours, both breaths mingling.
His thumb moved slowly against your skin and your lips touched quickly as he moved his head. You were going crazy and he was doing it on purpose, after all, watching you need him was more fun than Mingyu could have imagined.
â Gyu⌠â You called softly. A heavy, needy whisper that complemented the hushed atmosphere that enveloped the two of you. He was so close that you could smell the beer and mint gum he was chewing earlier. You shifted uncomfortably against the leather seat, wanting to get rid of the feeling of unease that ran through your whole body.
â Hm? â was all Mingyu replied.
You brought your trembling hands up to his shoulders, sliding them slowly under the collar of his shirt, feeling the warm skin against your icy palms and the defined muscles under your fingertips. You slid down to the nape of his neck, making a point of dragging your nails lightly along the way in a phantom touch that Mingyu reciprocated by squeezing your neck a little tighter.Â
With a sigh you pressed your nails against his neck, marking his honey skin with red scratches and pulled the gold chain into a closed fist. Mingyu finally crashed his lips against yours in a strong, needy kiss.
An involuntary moan of satisfaction escaped your throat as you felt his tongue making its way into your mouth, the soft muscle crashing deliciously against yours, and Mingyu released your neck to wrap his arm around your waist, pulling you against him so that you rode his lap.
It wasn't the most comfortable position even though the car was large, but 'comfort' wasn't a concern for him at the moment and even less so for you.
Still with trembling, hurried hands, you slipped them under his black shirt, dragging your nails across the length of Mingyu's abdomen, leaving more red marks across his immaculate skin. Your fingers stopped against the waistband of his jeans, unsure of what to do now.
Despite (trying) to be a confident person most of the time, you weren't the most experienced person when it came to boys. Minghao and Seungcheol tried hard to keep them away from you - after all, no guy was good enough for their best friend.
Mingyu, who had both arms around your waist now, pressing you against him, moved his hands down to your bare thighs, his fingertips trailing along the length that the slit didn't make a point of covering and - for the thousandth time tonight - your skin shivered at his touch.
Suddenly he grabbed both sides of your hips, pulling you forward and pressing you down against him, and you broke away from him with a gasp of surprise. You were both breathing heavily, your eyes closed and your foreheads pressed together. Mingyu brought his hand up to the collar of your jacket, gently pushing it back, his fingertips leaving a ghostly touch on the skin of your shoulder, exposed by the square neckline.
He removed the jacket from your body slowly, he was in no hurry at all and, now that there was nothing else in the way, Mingyu began to trail kisses and bites down the length of your jaw, neck and collarbones, marking your skin as you did with him and you answer by pressing your hips against his.
With an impulse of confidence you moved your waist, a slight and insecure movement at first, but one that made Mingyu sigh against the sensitive skin of your neck and increase the tightness against your skin - leaving marks that would turn red later. Mingyu's reactions were what you needed to keep going and you swivel your hips harder, making him throw his head back against the car seat.
Clumsily, you pulled up his shirt, trying to undress him, and Mingyu smiled even more arrogantly when he saw you fumble. He moved his hands away and pulled up his shirt and your eyes went down to his defined abdomen, measuring it completely.
His eyes darkened when he saw you biting your lips with glassy eyes. You brought your hands up to his shoulders, Mingyu was huge and very well built - unconsciously you thanked him for his dedication to the gym. He slid his hands under your dress, now squeezing the skin of your hips and waist with nothing to stop him.
You wrapped your index finger around the gold chain and pulled him forward, kissing him again, again, again and again and as many times as you wanted, you couldn't stop yourself.
You were so focused on the kiss, on moving your waist in just the right way to get all his reactions and whimpers, on the warm, soft skin against the palm of your hands, on the smell of him that intoxicated you, that you didn't miss his hands on your waist, and you weren't even surprised when the seat came down all at once, making you fall on top of him.
â What are you planning, Kim Mingyu? â you managed to ask between kisses and heavy sighs.
â You'll find out â he murmured against your lips. â And you'll love every second of it.
You felt your legs tremble and you rolled against him even harder, making him whimper softly and bite your lips hard. Mingyu stopped your hips, pushing you down a little just enough to unzip his pants and take out his cock that stood proudly up to his hips.
His red tip was shining from pre-cum, the veins that stood out on the skin, making you clench around nothing.
Mingyu moved his hand down your dress again, his fingertips slowly dragging over the thin fabric of your panties, teasing you.
â Gyu... â you whimpered.
â Tell me â he muttered against your mouth. â You need to tell me, pretty.
He enjoyed being a little teasing shit, finding fun in the way you react and your body trembles to his touches. Mingyu slides your panties to the side, his finger finally making contact to your clit.
â Please â you tried again, refusing to say it out loud.Â
â Nuh uh, baby, you need to say it.
â Gyu, please⌠â you started, but failed again.
â Poor little girl, canât even use her words⌠â he teased you.
â Kim Mingyu, I swear to God if you⌠â your words were cut off by a groan when he slid his middle finger into your wet cunt.
Mingyu smirked when saw you struggling with your words again, just because of him. It's a complete ego booster for sure.
â If I..? â he suggested, provoking you again. â Come on, baby, what are you gonna do?Â
He slid a second finger, bending them to hit that specific spot that makes you tremble and gasp in his ears because of the stretch. You leaned forward, resting your hands on his chest and hiding your face in the crook of his neck.
You feel a knot forming in your low stomach and bite his shoulder to relieve some of the feeling, moving your hips by your own, chasing it.
Your whimpers became louder and more frequent and Mingyu took this as an incentive to go faster, always aiming for that spot that made you react the way he liked the most.
Sequenced moans of his name left your lips and you dug your nails harder into his shoulders. Involuntarily squirming to escape the overwhelming sensation that you were experiencing. And at the same time that you wanted Mingyu to continue, it was becoming too much.
You hold Mingyuâs wrist, trying to stop him, but it only makes him go harder on you. His free hand, grabbing your hips to make you quiet.
â Shh â he whispered into your ear. â It's ok, pretty, let it go.
Mingyu was slowly edging you to your high. His fingertips brushing against your soft walls plus his sweet voice praising you makes your toes curl. His actions turn all too much to handle and you feel losing yourself.
â That's it, baby, cum for me.
And you came, his name leaving your mouth as a chant, while your body grows even hotter. Mingyu continued moving his fingers, slower this time to help you come down from your high. He left several kisses on your shoulders, and caressed your back until your breathing regulated again.
You push his arms down, breathing heavily with your foreheads close to each other.
Mingyu began to caress your thighs to calm you down, kissing your lips tenderly, moving down to your chest and collarbones. In a burst of courage, you sat on him, still not sliding in, just an attempt to tease him the same way he did to you before.
He moans your name in response, a smug smirk adoring his lips and his hooded eyes staring directly at you in pure desire. â Stop the teasing, baby. â He said.
You grabbed his cock aligning him to your cunt. You went down slowly, holding your breath as you felt him open you inch by inch. His hands grabbed your hips harder, pushing you down to help you keep moving.Â
â Fuck⌠â He groaned when he reached the bottom. Despite the urgency Mingyu felt to move, he remained still so you could adjust to his size.
You whimpered in discomfort, not being used to his size, but somehow the initial stretch was kinda pleasant. The caress Mingyu gave your back and the little kisses he left on your shoulders were enough to calm you down a little and, still a bit insecure, you raised your hips, waited a little trying to prepare yourself emotionally, and lowered yourself again slowly.
Mingyu squeezed his eyes shut and bit his lip hard. He wanted to take things at his own pace, so you would be comfortable, so you would enjoy it too, but you looked so beautiful and angelic in that short white dress and your frowning face that his inner self roared with the need to destroy you.
He wanted to take control, pin you against the leather seat and watch fat tears roll down your face, destroying your makeup with black mascara stains. You sped up little by little, gaining confidence as you moved, but it still wasn't enough and your thighs burned from the effort. You tried to keep going, wanting to get more grunts and moans out of Mingyu, but something was missing and so you stopped, hiding your face in his neck out of embarrassment.
â What happened? â he asked you, stroking your hair to comfort you.
â Tired⌠â you muttered. After a few seconds of silence you heard him laugh.
â Spoiled princess wants me to do all the work? â He asked you again, his voice dripping in a condescending tone.
â Please â you beg.
He blinked in astonishment, taken aback by you. His eyes darkened and he thrust his tongue against his cheek. â Move to the backseat!
You do as he says, moving to the back of the large car. Mingyu skillfully takes the seat again, pushing it closer to the steering wheel and gets out, walking around the car to the back seat. You lean your back against the door opposite the one Mingyu came in through, biting your lip in excitement.
He grabs your ankle, pulling you down. You slide into the seat, now lying on your back as Mingyu towers over you with all his splendor and size and you feel so small next to him â he has that effect on people.
You wrap your arms around his neck, pulling him down so you can kiss him again and circling his waist with your legs. Mingyu can only think about how you're going to be the death of him, but that moment doesn't last long as he's thrusting into you again. You moan louder, feeling him deeper than before.
The exchange of intense looks, foreheads colliding and the sloppy kisses constantly interrupted by sighs and moans add something more, intensifying all the feelings. His scent is surrounding you, making you dizzy and confused and Mingyu thrusts harder when he feels you scratch his back.
â More âyou asked and Mingyu happily complied with your whining.
He holds your thigh, placing it above his shoulders, resting one of his arms on the window glass for support, going even deeper. You feel your high coming for the second time that night and involuntarily tighten around him, making him grunt and go harder.
You scratched his back, cumming again.
This time Mingyu followed you, spilling his cum inside you. The feeling was overwhelming, something you had never felt before and didn't imagine experiencing so soon, even less not being in a relationship with this person, but when it came to Mingyu everything felt so right.
â What are we now? â maybe you were reading the situation wrong and this was nothing more than a casual hookup, a one night thing, but you couldnât help to feel your heart drop at this possibility.
â Iâll take you on a date â he answered simply.
â I think you reversed some steps â you joke, eliciting a breathy laugh from him.
Mingyu slid out slowly, but you still shivered in sensitivity. To reward him, he left several little kisses on your face.
â Maybe, but Iâll do it right this time. â He said. â Letâs get cleaned up and take you home.
You mumble in agreement, too tired to even respond and, unwillingly, you drag yourself back to the front seat. Mingyu leans towards you, fastening your seatbelt before leaving one last slow and deep kiss on your lips, one that you gladly return.
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summary | you've got an issue and joel's willing to solve it. after all, what are neighbors for?
author's note | this was a prompt from a meet-weird thing i saw ages ago that was originally supposed to be javi, but jo (@undercoverpena) gave me the beautiful idea of making it joel and it spurred this monster.
content warning | established friendship, caught during sex, does the apocalypse having working appliances? probably not, but for the sake of this fic distend belief i beg. oral (eating out from the back), unprotected piv, subtly cocky!joel miller, he's a good ass neighbor, okay?, unbeta'd.
word count â 5.6k
Joelâs fixed this damn machine seven times, convincing himself every time that it was the last time. Shocker, it wasnât. This time didnât even last a month. Heâs desperate now.
He would usually haul the load all the way to the communal laundry house closer to the group of joined townhomes that housed most of the younger adultsâthe spry and bright-faced ones who sprung up at the mention of patrol or work, any prospect of toting a gun around with any sense of leadership. They were eager, he couldnât say the same for himself.
He was old, weatheredâyears of routine he had created to get the job done and get the hell home.
And truthfully, as he tapped the wrench against the metal machine, chin tucked into his palm as he scratched at his beard, he almost complied with the idea that he would just have to tough it out. Scrounging for parts was nearly impossibleâdumb luck, really. In the past several years theyâve picked this town clean, bone-dry.
Heâs elbow deep inside the barrel of the dryer when he hears the knock at his door, bumping his head against the rim of it as he exits and cursing under his breath as he pushes to stand, joints creaking and popping in disapproval.Â
He can smell you before he sees you, the familiar scent of fresh-baked goods following you everywhereâJoel couldnât feel guilt for being one of the folks addicted to your cooking.Â
Grains had been hard to come by since the epidemic hit, everything was tainted on a global level. It took years and years of Jackson growing its own stock of wheat for things like pie or a nice, gooey cinnamon roll to even be plausible anymore. But, they were managing well so far.
âSaved âem for you and Ellie,â You tell him, a small plate of still hot brownies covered with parchment paper, dawning that trademark smile that Joel has come to love, tapping his fingers against the door frame as he passes the plate off to a quickly approaching Ellie.
âGirlâs got the nose of a basset hound,â Joel looks on in amused bewilderment as Ellie throws a mouth-stuffed thanks over her shoulder, âsorry âbout her.â
You wave her off whole-heartedly, taking in his sweaty appearance and casual attire. You were used to him in jeans and thick flannels, not a graphic tee and pair of sleep pants. Heâs almost always dressed like he had to run at a moment's notice, you werenât even sure he owned anything different until now.
âEverything good?â You question him, a small laugh escaping your throat.
âDamn washer and dryer is out again,â Joel explains, throwing a hand vaguely over his shoulder.
âBoth of them this time?â You ask, âDamn.â
âI can fix âem, just a matter of finding the right parts,â Joel tells you, â looks like Iâm gonna have to hand wash again.â
Joel was a friend. You helped friends. It seemed like a no-brainer really, opening your mouth without thinking it through, the kindness tumbling out despite yourself.
âOh, youâre welcome to load yours up at mine,â You offer and Joel looks immediately apprehensive, the southern charm and well-mannered tone gearing to creep up on you.
âNow, I donât mean to make you feel like you have toââ
âJoel, I wouldnât offer it if I didnât feel comfortable with it,â You remind him, âseriouslyâanytime, just try and bring your own detergentâand for the love of god, empty your pockets before you put âem in.â
Joel chuckles tiredly at that, rolling his eyes as he nods in agreement.
âGot it, of course, sweetheart.â
âI leave an extra key under the rug, so if Iâm ever not home just come in,â Given that Joel was Tommyâs brother, you knew he wouldnât be up to any trouble, âsound good?â
âYep. Anytimeâjust make myself at home.â Joel confirms and you nod with an even wider smile, waving a pleasant goodbye as you trailed down the stairs and made your way to the house you inhabited next door.
Right, anytime.
Unfortunately, Joel took that a little too literally.
-
Joel managed to scrounge up the courage a day later, tumbling into his house on tired legs after a lengthy patrol up at the cabin lookout, scooping the basket up in his arms and heading out his front door, taking the short walk to your house.
The lights were off, but that wasnât unusual. Joel knew you liked to stay late nights in the townâs mess hall, often working on prep for the following morning to make the load a little lighter and sleep in a while longer, so when he fishes under the doormat for the key he thinks nothing of it.
And as the door swings open, it is still fairly quiet. Though, he can hear your own dryer running upstairs. Heâs got the layout down too, having shared more than a few nightcaps with you. Friend to friend and nothing more, even if you had always felt a little more strongly toward being affectionate. A hug or a kiss on the cheek from time to time, he never pushed you away. Joel never seemed like the type of man who openly showed affection, even toward a friend. But, he was good, reliableâmost of the time.
He reaches the stairs with trepidation as the sounds grow louder and part of him wonders if by some uncanny coincidence your dryer might be growling and rumbling on its own final leg.Â
The moment his hand reaches that doorknob and turns he realizes heâs made a mistake.
Heâs caught you at aâŚbad time. Head thrown back with your mouth hung wide, whatever noise youâre making was mostly drowned out by the nagging sound of the dryer as it tore through the spin cycle but he hears the tailend of it, a soft moan of pleasure from the man whoâs buried inside of you right now, both of you naked from the waist down but your breasts on full display with your shirt tucked under your neck.
âBenny?â Joel asks, slightly amused.
You lift your head at the sound and spot him, your feet nearly slipping out from under you as you scramble to push Benny away, who perks with an even more perplexed, âJoel?â
âGoddamn it, Joel,â You curse behind gritted teeth, furiously readjusting yourself, pulling your sweats back on and over your ass and your shirt down, âWhat are you doing here?â
Joel looks down at the basket still clinging to his hip before back up at you, wordlessly.
You sigh through your nose with a tight lipped frown, cheeks puffing out as you brushed your fingers through your hair and downâBenny was still scrambling to redress behind you, unable to pull his gaze away from Joel.
âBenny?â Joel mouths at you quietly, eyebrows raised curiously.
You walk toward the now open door slowly as Benny buttons his pants and you shoot Joel daggers with your stern gaze.
Cut it out.
Joel smirks slightly, cheek dimpling with the action as he side-steps Benny, who leans around you and kisses your cheekâit was a kind gesture but given the situation, in horrible taste. You force a polite smile and once Benny is a far enough distance you hit Joel firmly in the arm as he passes by you and into the laundry room.
You walk Benny to the door with a million thoughts racing through your head, offering a distracted goodbye before youâre locking the door and racing back upstairs with determined footsteps and Joel has already loaded his clothes in the washer, turning the knob to set the load size and time.
âBenny?â He echoes his earlier questions, âReally?â
âWhat? Are you judging me?â
âNoâjust, that kidâs had quite an obsession with you for some time now. JustâŚsurprised is all.â
Your lips pull together in a disapproving but nonchalant frown, taking his words for the bullshit they are.
âWhen I said anytime that did not extend to the middle of the night, Joel.â
âYouâre usually still at work,â He suppliesâand really, heâs not wrong, âMâsorry. I mean that.â
âWell, now Iâve gotta deal with the fact youâve seen me naked,â You cross your arms over your chest and lean against the doorframe and Joelâs eyes track you for a moment, smiling with amusement at the thought.
âWhat? You want a fair trade?â Joel teases, ââCause, darlinâ. I donât mindâbut it was an accident. Besides, ainât nothinâ I havenât seen before.â
He means it in a broader sense, but you canât help the eye roll it induces.Â
âNo, no,â You chew at your bottom lip, watching Joel place the empty basket on top of the washer, âI can finish that up if you want to get some sleep. I know you had a long patrol today.â
âOh, did you?â
Heâs teasing you.
âDonât push it, old man,â Joel shakes his head at that jab and chuckles, âEllie clued me in when she picked up some sandwiches for her and Dina earlier.
Heâs not going to pass on the offer, though. He nods, rubbing a hand over his tired face.
âJesusâjustâŚBenny?â Joel reiterates again, âDidnât think the kid had it in âem.â
âOut,â You say with an over-pronunciation as you drag his slow and progressive steps further out of your laundry room and into the hall, âor youâre off my dessert list for a month, Miller.â
Joel smiles at you knowingly, âYou wouldnât dare,â He retorts, knowing you too well.
You wouldnât make him suffer like that. Or Ellie, who wouldnât hesitate to murder Joel if he robbed her of that pleasure. Not literallyâŚbut, she would carry a few choice words for him.
âSeriously, though, thank you,â He nods, leaning down to press a kiss into the crown of your headâan often familiar gesture when you parted after a long night of nonsensical talk and a couple glasses of wine or whiskey, depending on how hard the day had been, âI appreciate it, sweetheart.â
âYeah, yeahââ
âAnd I do apologize forâŚnot knocking and showinâ up at such a weird time.â
You shrug, âYouâre forgiven. JustâŚdonât give Benny a hard time. Heâs a good guy.â
âYouâve got my word, darlinâ.â
Joel was determined to be on his best behavior, clearly.
-
It takes Joel a couple weeks to find the parts he needs and luckily there are no more run-ins on your midnight sex-scapades, still feeling the embarrassment from the first one. Joel doesnât even seem to remember it after a couple days, thankfully. He was bypassing it for your own benefit, truthfully. And you knew that.
Selfishly, you're glad to have your appliances back to yourself.Â
Theyâre good, solid, reliableâuntil they arenât.
Your washer shits itself mid-load and you can hear it from downstairs. A loud screeching noise before an even louder pop that has you groaning loudly because you know. You can feel it.
You canât even bring yourself to go check, peering through the window of your kitchen and catching a fresh pot of coffee in the house across from yours, a man coming into view and his stark white shirt contrasting the black coffee cup in his hands. He catches you out of the corner of his eye and looks at you with a quizzical amusement, smile tugging at his face.
Joel was always up before the sun rose, so with the sun just creeping into the sky youâre sure thatâs his third or fourth cup of coffee. He reaches over his sink and fiddles with the latch on his window before heaving it up, watching as you struggled to do that same but eventually managed.
âYou run outta coffee again?â He asks, sipping at the bitter, black coffee in his mug.
âNo,â You reply quickly, slightly exasperated as you chew at your bottom lip, debating how to pop the question and feeling nervous under Joelâs intense gaze, curiously wondering if heâs still picturing you naked. Heâs never explicitly mentioned it since, but you have caught him in the act.
Wandering eyes, gazes catching when your back is turned for half a second as you bend down or move in a way that exposes too much skin.
âMy washer broke,â You cut to the chase and Joel chuckles at how comical it is, in hindsight.
Was this karma? It was definitely karma.Â
Youâve never asked Joel for anythingâdespite your often bouts of kindness toward him you never expected anything in return, not even a favor.
âDoors open,â Joel nods toward his front door out of view, an invitation like you offered him.
You didnât even hesitate, pushing the window close and bounding up the stairs.
-
Youâre already loading your things into his washer before he appears around the corner, peeking his head in, coffee cup still in hand as he takes a few more steps and leans against the wall beside the washing machine and your eyes glance at him briefly before you continue moving the clothes, watching him watch you from behind the rim of his mug.
âI can start them and come back,â You tell him, âso I wonât be lingering around here all day.â
âNo Benny?â
You stand up as you close the washer, deadpan stare pointed in his direction.
âYou can be such a nosy neighbor, you know that?â
Joel shrugs, a smug smile covered behind his sip of coffee.
âIt was just a few times. Besides heâsâŚtoo much for me.â
You turn the dial to start the load and it rumbles to life with a simple press of a button.
âYou wanna talk about it?â
It wasnât completely unnatural for you twoâyou knew quite a bit about Joel now: his life before, his work, his daughterâŚall things that come with trust and time. Heâs waited patiently for you and youâve given him peeks into your life, but nothing like this.
âItâs a long story, Joel.â
âGot time,â He smiles slightly, âIâll go grab you a cup of coffeeâsit down.â
You look around briefly, not a chair in sight. So, you raise yourself up just enough that you can slide your ass over the top of the washer, bare feet dangling off the floor and you wait, the subtle and quiet shake from the beginning of the load process keeping the awkward silence at bay.
Joel turns the corner a few minutes later with your cup, made up just to your liking and you nod with a gentle smile, taking the cup from his hand and allowing yourself a few generous sips.
âSoâthat night, you caught us,â You can laugh at the instances now, so you do in a soft, clipped manner, âit wasnât the firstâit had been a month by that point and he just caught me by surprise, showed up that night and things just got a little out of hand.â
Joelâs eyebrows raise in interest but he urges you to continue, leaning against the wall in front of you now, resting his mug on the shelf just above his head as he crosses his arms over his chest.
âHeâs a good guy, donât get me wrongâbut I donât do seriousâŚI canât, now with how things are. And I know a lot of people think the opposite, seize the moment and all that shit,â You sigh, a deep and heavy sound that expands and releases from your chest, âhe was already talking about moving in, the idea of us having kidsâso that night I just tried to distract him.â
âWith sex? Seems a littleâŚcounter-productive, donât you think?â
âDonât judge me, Joel,â You warn him but itâs edged with a playfulness that Joel recognizes. You didnât have a mean, deceptive bone in your body and Joel knew that from the first conversation he had with you.
âI needed him to shut up,â You groan at the thought of the conversation as it replays in your mind, âIâm trying to wash my clothes, heâs talking to me about babies. I do not want kids, Joel. Ever. At least none that are biologically mine. Who would want to bring a kid into this world?â
WellâŚTommy. The thought comes to you after the words have already left your mouth and your heart sinks into your stomach, looking at Joel apologetically.
âSweetheart, donât even try to apologize. Ainât nothing wrong with it.â
âIt makes me sound horrible, I know butââ
âIâve done my timeâitâs none of my business how others choose to live. Besides, Iâm pushing sixty, I donât have to worry about all thatâŚsorry, Iâm not trying to be crude here.â
You nod knowingly with a smirk tugging at your lips, taking another sip of coffee before handing the mug off for him to place it next to his own, ready to slide off of the washer before Joel interjects with another question that catches you off guard.
âHe treat you right, at least?â
You tilt your head with that same knowing smirk, pushing Joel away at his hip with your foot as he leans up from his position against the wallâJoelâs never flirted, always promptly skirted around the issue and went about it more gentlemanly. Heâs not abrasive and straightforward like most of the men in Jackson, but damn did he know how to make you feel special.
Undivided attention, constant subtle compliments, giving up some much-needed sleep for a simple late night drink with youâpart of you was too terrified to make your own move and make it clear just how badly you wanted just a small taste of him.
Youâve heard whispering, minimal talk from a few of the women in town. Joel didnât often make his rounds but when he did, he left an impression. And you had every right to be jealous, because with him standing in front of you nowâyou knew it would be easy to say no and he would fix you right up, finally crossing that line that heâs been carefully dancing around for a few years.
âHeâs a bitâŚtimid,â You shrug, âand he doesnât reallyâŚâ
The air lingers and the side of Joelâs mouth pulls upâyou donât have to say it.
âJoel, donât do that,â You shove at his shoulder as he approaches you, his hands pressing into the contraption youâre on, curled around the metal, ââheâs justâŚeager, but not in a good way.â
Thereâs a glint in Joelâs eye that leads you to believe heâs not thinking about Bennyâs less than experienced sex life, feeling the sudden jitteriness from the coffee as your chest rises with a deep, shaky breath and Joel eyes the time over your shoulder.
Forty-five minutes and some change, plus the time to dry because Joel already knows you arenât going to trouble yourself with walking the damp laundry through this cold, muggy weather.
âSo, no then?â Joel asks.
He could have treated you better, sure. But, he wasnât the worst.
But, the way Joel is staring at you knows makes everything and everyone dull in comparison.
You shake your head in agreement, chewing at the inside of your bottom lip as your hands fall to your lap, his hands ncreasingly closer to the tights covering your legs, suddenly feeling his thumb graze your hip. You both glance down at the action and your breathing halts, watching as his right hand slowly engulfs your thigh, fingers digging into the soft material and dimpling your skin underneath, his thumb only a few centimeters from dipping into the inside of your thigh.
They part on their own, welcoming Joel in wordlessly and his left hand echoes the other. His face is level with your own, staring down at your lips briefly before meeting your eyes and youâve seen that look beforeâthe adoration when he thought you werenât watching, secretly you had become good at catching those glances, but Joel wasnât trying to hide it now.
And it quickly dawns on you in the momentâhe was jealous. Of Benny. Or really, any man that had come before him. But, he was using him as the scapegoat.
Honestly, you couldnât even care.
âYou want someone to treat you right?â He speaks softly and if you werenât so close you wouldnât have heard him, âI got you, sweetheart. I swear.â
Heâs not looking at you anymore, eyes dragging down the bridge of your nose to your lips again. But, you are looking at him, flooded with that tricky feeling that creeps up on you when you want things you know you shouldnât.
âJoel, I told youâI donât do serious,â And you hold your breath for the response, wondering if that would send this moment crumbling to dust, but Joel doesnât miss a step.
âGood for you,â Joel dotes, âneither do I.â
Then heâs on you, the press of his lips in a heated kiss sends you tumbling back, caught by the warm slide of his palm over your back to pull you in, throwing your arms over his shoulders as he pulls back briefly, just enough for you to open your mouth to speak, but his tongue finds its way inside and the words fade away.
Just friendly, my assâyou think.
If you had known he kissed like thisâyou wouldâve jumped at the opportunity months ago; a night spent drinking too many glasses of wine and laughing over some movie far before your time, but not his.Â
He was so entranced, giving you all the details, but you couldnât help giggling over it, too touchy to be considered friendly.
Youâd both cut it short quickly when Ellie popped in halfway through the movie, and beyond that, it never grew.
Until now.
âSweet,â Joel notes with a subtle smile, his hand dwarfing the size of your neck as his fingers wrapped around the column of your throat, holding you firmly in place as he maneuvered you toward and away from the kiss as he pleased, swallowing every tiny moan that escaped your lips when his other hand squeezed at your thigh just a little too hard.
âAll that sugar,â In your coffee, the taste lingering on your lips and he licks around them teasingly, pulling away briefly to look at you, your eyebrows raising in question as the gears turn in his head, ââyou still with me?â
âIâm just wonderinâ if youâre okay with this,â Joel speaks candidly, his eyes trained on his thumb as it rubs against the middle of your throat, traveling up under your chin and tipping your head up slightly, watching as you swallowed, âbefore I take this further, jusâ need to know.â
You nod jerkily, not even a second of hesitation.Â
âYou would have known the moment you kissed me, Joel.â
In turn, Joel nods slowly before he speaks, stealing the air from your chest.
âAlright then, pull these down for me,â He tugs gently at the material clinging to your thighs before both of his hands find the spot behind your knees and tug until your feet hit the floor, âand push that pretty little ass out for me.â
The absurdity of this language on his tongue makes you giggle but abide in an instant, struggling slightly as the material bunches at your ankles and Joel helps you the rest of the way, tossing your pants aside before heâs kneeling despite how his body protests, too eager to give you a taste of the pleasure you deserve and heâs grabbing the cheeks of your ass and squeezing them between his hands before heâs leaning up to bite playful at the soft flesh.
He groans quietly against your skin, the press of his aquiline nose against your ass as his fingers fold around the string of your underwear and pull, dropping them down to your ankles and off and then his tongue is flat against the seam of your cunt, gasping as you fall forward and your own fingers clawing against nothing.
âJoel!â You squeak out as his fingers dig hard into your ass, forcing you up on your tiptoes as devours, licking into your cunt as it quivers around his tongue.Â
Your hand pressed against the wall in front of you to keep your chest from hitting the washer, feeling your pussy tighten around the finger that enters alongside his expert tongue, a soft groan erupting out of him from behind you. That smug motherfucker was attempting a teasing huh under his breath as he busied himself with the task of eating you out from the back and you couldnât even think straight.Â
âCâmon, baby,â He coos between his alternating licks and slurps of the heady slick that dripped from your cunt, âcome all over my mouth, let me taste that sugar.â
Itâs absurd, the way heâs speaking to you now. Your eyes squeeze shut as his thumb finds your clit amongst the chaos of his tongue and fingers, face heating up at how noisy your cunt sounded over the dull shake of the washer and Joelâs satisfied moans, occasionally massaging at the back of your thigh when your legs shake with the creeping feeling of your impending orgasm.
âOh,â You squeal, reaching behind you to dig your fingers into his hair, panting out in desperation, ââfuck, donât stop! Joel, rightâright there,â and then glance you take back at him, his eyes peeking open from his position below, on his knees and dutiful to you and you alone, wellâŚ
It sends you tumbling over the edge as his thumb rubs over your clit quickly, soothing you through the aftermath as he laps up the mess youâve made all over yourself, dragging his tongue along the inside of your thigh because if you knew anything about Joel, he didnât waste a meal.Â
And you were just about the finest heâs tasted.
You clear your throat as you rest your feet flat on the floor, feeling the faint quake in your legs as Joel rises slowly, forcing you to swallow down a giggle as he winces and he can see it on your face.
âWorth it,â He excuses himself, âdonât look at me like that.â
âNo old man jokes?â You sound sad and Joel canât believe it.
He shakes his head.
But, the smile that breaks out on your face quickly diminishes any comeback he has.
You begin to push him away with a hand gripped in his shirt, carefully avoiding the obvious bulge in his sweats as you reach for your tights, ready to redress and drop to your own knees as a favor but his fingers are wrapping around your wrist, pulling your attention back to him.
âI meant it,â Joel tells you, tilting his head to catch your gaze.
You smile wide and tilt your head to mirror him, âI think you proved your pointâBenny is a pathetic man who doesnât know how to make me come, blah blahâŚâ
âMy job ainât done if youâre still thinkinâ about him, darlinâ.â
His eyebrows raise in challenge.
Okay, youâre game.
Wordlessly you allow the hands at your hip that guide you toward the front of the joined appliances, his fingers sliding under your top until you get the hint to pull it off, your breasts bouncing free from the shirtâthe few bras you had were already in the wash, big deal.
Joel chuckles and stops for a moment, admiring the sight of your breasts for the second time that month, albeit more openly this time. He reaches forward and rubs his thumb along your nipple, watching the nub harden under his touch and you bite at your bottom lip, eye fluttering closed at how sensitive they were to touch, something other men never took the time to notice.
âYou like that?â Joel asks with a creeping grin.
You nod, watching as he squeezed your tits in his hands, showing your nipples ample attention as he circled them with his thumb before leaning down slightly and swiping his tongue over the hardened nubs, sucking your breast into his mouth and his eyes peer up, gauging your reaction which quickly developed from a soft giggle to a loud moan.
âClothes,â You breath out, âoffâif you still have a point to prove.â
A point that you wanted proven. Hard.
Joel pulls away and yanks his shirt over his head, allowing you an unobscured view of the mix of muscled shoulders and his softened stomach, running your hand over the patch of hair at the center of his chest and down, right along his hips until his own fingers hook around the fabric and pull his sweats and boxers down in one motion, his cock catching against the edge of his waistband before it bobs back up toward his stomach.
You find yourself smiling despite yourself, forgetting for a moment that Joel was standing there and watching you, feeling your mouth water at the sight of him hard and leaking at how just getting a small taste of you had turned him on that much, precum leaking slowly from the tip and he wraps his hand around himself, other hand tapping at your chin to drag your attention back up to his face, reminding you he was still there.
âGot somethinâ on your mind, sweetheart?â
You shake your head furiously, âNo, noâno, nothing. Just, uhââ
âIâll start slow,â He tells you and with the size of him, thick and girthy in ways youâve only imagined or pictured in your head, itâs daunting, âare you still alright with all of this?â
Your face softens and you nod, appreciating the repeated check-ins, the need for confirmation, but it pulls at your heart as you wonder why he feels the need to ask so much. As if he was fearful you would change your mind on a dimeâJoel was fine with that, but he was more worried about the change in dynamic. Thankfully, you were determined for that not to be the case.
âIâm pretty tough,â You shrug, a playful smile gracing your face.
Joel nods absently as his fingers drag along your waist before catching behind your knee and pulling it up over his hip, both of your eyes dragging down to his cock as he tugged at himself a few times, his brow furrowed as he spread your lips apart with the head, dipping his hips down slightly to catch against your hole before he pushes in slow, one solid stroke that steals the sound from your throat and transfers to his own. Joel groans out softly as he pushes into you, his hands gravitating toward your face and wrapping around the sides of your neck, tilting your head back to mouth at your skin, his tongue dragging along your collarbone before sucking and nipping gently at your skin.
âDonât I know it,â Joel responds after a while, âfind something to hold onto.â
Your soft giggle of excitement shoots down to your core and your fingers wrap around the edges of the washer and Joel pulls back swiftly before heâs snapping his hips back into you before repeating the process several times, the jolt of the machine hitting the concrete wall behind you drowned out by your loud moans, quickly swallowed up by Joelâs lips as he pulls your mouth to his, breathing into it with every sharp snap of his hips.
âHarder,â You beg, biting at his bottom lip as he groans, using his fingers intertwined into the hair at the nape of your neck now to pull your head back and he pulls his hips back quick, bottoming himself out inside of you so forcefully you feel like your legs might give out, his cock rubbing against your already too sensitive g-spot and continuously finding a way to bring you closer and closer to the edge, âfuckâyes, yes. Joel, oh my godââ
âYeah,â Joel goads you, his eyes drawn closed as he tries to keep his own orgasm at bay, âgive it to me, babyâwanna watch you make a mess on my cock, alright?â
Easy, you laugh airily and feel the instinctive squeeze of your walls around Joelâs cock as he pulls your face to his, foreheads pressed against each other as he angles his hips back and slams into you one last time before you come undone, head falling back in a similar position to how he caught you a few weeks ago, this time for him.Â
Your grab for his shoulders suddenly, blunt fingernails digging into his skin and he takes a few harsh breaths through his nose before heâs pulling out, hand grasping his cock as he jerked himself a few seconds before he comes in thick, short spurts against your stomach, squeezing at the head of his cock as he drags it through the mess heâs made.
His expression is nothing short of mesmerizing, mouth hung open just enough that his tongue can drag over his bottom lip before his teeth are taking its place, eyes drawn to your skin.
Wordlessly, he pulls away on his own pair of shaky legs as he reaches for his wrinkled, worn shirt and brings it to your stomach, cleaning up the mess with a faint smile on his face.
âYou know, I think it might take me a bit to fix my washer,â You tease, âsoâI might be over here bothering you for a while.â
Joel peers up at you, his head still tucked down as he wiped at your stomach.
âFine with me.â
Then heâs peering over your shoulder, watching as the washer time inched toward zero, dinging behind you. You turn around, letting your leg fall from his hip finally, ass brush against him in the process and Joel canât help the way his eyes refuse to leave the sight of it.
Only feeling slightly guilty when you catch him this time, not giving him the pass you usually do.
âWeâve still got about an hour left if I dry them here,â You tell him, âanything else you wanna prove?â
Joelâs tongue pokes at the inside of his cheek, eyes dragging up toward the upper level of his house before flicking back toward you, a smile plastered on your face.
âI can think of a few things.â
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