#or its SO VAGUE you wont get spoiled but you also will have no clue whats happening. im so sorry. not my best work either. i TriedTM

[kohakhearts]

things you said too quietly, nerissa (and wild card - whoever pops into your mind first)

3: things you said too quietly

wc: 990

Nerissa is eight years old the first time her brother does magic.

She is happy, like their mother, until the implications of it begin to set in. He is only three years old—very young to cast for the first time—and already has proven to them his innate ability to heal.

Nerissa is eight years old, and she can’t cast magic at all.

Quickly, joy morphs into bitter envy. She does not like watching him practice. She likes even less when her mother tries to make her practice, knowing that it does not matter what she does or does not do, when Poseidon has already done it all.

She never says anything, though. Their mother is already so overworked. She is happy to see Poseidon doing magic, when it is so clear that he loves it. Nerissa thinks she was like that too, before their father died. But magic doesn’t feel fun anymore. When she tells her mother she wants to learn from her father, not from her, it makes her feel like crying, but she does not know why.

She misses him. She misses magic.

She watches the snow blanket the city that winter, and tries to mimic it. Ice and snow—they are just different forms of water. Her dad told her that, years ago. She always remembered, especially once they moved to Derayn. This is the first year she has ever seen snow before. It is new. Different. She likes it, likes to watch it, likes to touch it.

Her magic comes back like this: new, different. She watches the snow fall from her fingertips, her toddler brother trying to catch the flakes while their mother looks on with a wide smile, and does not tell them she hopes her father will forgive her for it, this betrayal.

-

After snow and ice, water comes more easily, but she still prefers it frozen. When he is a little older, seven or so, Poseidon asks her why.

“I don’t know,” she says. “It’s prettier, I guess.”

He nods in agreement, and that is the end. She does not tell him that sometimes water feels more like blood when she draws it to her fingertips. She does not tell him that ice just hurts less.

-

Every year on their father’s birthdays, their mother tells them about him. Stories from their early childhoods, usually. This year, what would have been his thirty-seventh, she recounts one of the first lessons of magic he gave to Nerissa. She doesn’t remember it herself, but her heart aches as if she does.

Poseidon is eight. He asks, “Did he teach you to freeze it?”

Nerissa looks away from him. She shakes her head.

“Oh. Then, who did?”

“She figured it out herself,” their mother informs him, and for once the swell of pride in her tone makes Nerissa’s chest heavy and her throat tight, like she is going to cry in all the misery it inspires.

“Really? Can I learn how to do stuff like that?”

Their mother laughs. “I don’t think you can freeze fire, kiddo. Maybe steam? Not sure what good that would be, though…”

Nerissa excuses herself shortly after. She cannot bear to sit there any longer, with this poison under her tongue. It tastes like saltwater. It is too heavy to speak through.

She goes to sleep that night, drowning in it.

-

Nerissa is not shocked by her mother’s confession. She doesn’t know why.

They don’t blame her, so she won’t blame herself, either. They don’t talk about it.

It is better this way.

-

Nerissa is sixteen years old when she realizes that the blood in her water is not her own, but her father’s. She kills him, and she kills him, and she kills him, and she does not tell any of them.

-

Until Emerson, that is.

Her father’s sister, her brother’s beloved aunt. She wants to love her. She wants to hate her. She wishes she would not look so closely as she does.

She tells her the truth, but she does not believe it.

She is shouting, she is screaming, This is me! This is who I am! I killed him! I killed them all!

She is shouting, she is screaming, and nobody hears her.

What she means is, Please just make it stop. Nobody hears that part, either. It sits beneath her tongue, unmoved.

-

Did Ely feel anything when he died? Did it hurt? Did he suffer?

Nerissa hopes he didn’t. She has felt the pain of it now, and she knows he will not forgive her for forcing it on him all those years ago.

-

She tells Ada, too.

All she says in response is, “It’s not your fault.”

People have been saying that a lot lately. She does not know how to tell them they are wrong, when they look at her so sadly, like she will break in two.

Instead, she says nothing at all, and Ada does not ask her to, but she pulls her hands away from her throat and she tells her “You can breathe now, you’re okay,” and somehow that means so much more.

-

Walking away from the coast of Gias, Nerissa sends a flurry of snow over her brother’s head against the sweltering summer heat. He smiles and laughs, so she does too. From behind him, Ada remarks, “You look happy.”

Nerissa glances over at her. The snow vanishes, melts and warms to steam and reaches for the Heavens. Poseidon looks up in surprise, and then he grins.

Nerissa says, simply, “I missed magic.” And then, quieter: “I missed my magic.”

If either of them hears it, they don’t say so, but she thinks they would understand even if they didn’t. After all, they have never really needed words to know how she feels. Knowing they are here, and she is breathing, is more than enough. It always has been.

[childhoodgrave]

whats dtl about ifff ud like 2 talk abt it i see cute sprites & decide i wanna know things.. hehe the top hat n cape guy gif is in sync w my music hehe

IM SO GLAD U ASKED this game is probsbly my favorite game ever its been a special interest if mine since i was 7 and i dont think its a GOOD game per se bt i love it a lot and it impacted me a lot as a little kid w a mild interest in art :)

so basically the game is a little 2d adventure platformer where u get to draw and design the character u play as. its p clunky and the way ur character moves looks rlly silly bt again this game was released in like 2010 on the ds so its ok .. the game also gave u templates to go off of and use too just in case u didnt want to design a character from scratch

the story of the first game is abt this world that was drawn into existence by “the creator” in the book of life. u hav this little sequence where u get to draw the world, and the forrests and the creatures tht wld inhabit it. the creatures tht inhabit the world are callec raposa and they r little fox creature w funny ears :)

like this guy (his name is zsasha and hes a thief but hes like a bad one who ends up returning all of the stuff he steals and also watching over a little orphan girl who he basically adopts LOL)

in the universe if the game the “creator” eventually went silent and the raposa lost hope in them ever returning. the world was slowly shrouded in darkness and gradually all of the raposa inhabiting this little village were either lost or left on purpose bc it was slowly falling apart. the game starts when one of the remaining raposa, mari, prays to u, the creator, to come back and help restore her village, saying that everyone else has lost hope but she still believes you can return to her. u can answer, and either say that u will help or you wont, but either way u end up agreeing to help her and she goes to tell her dad, the mayor, abt it. you create a “hero” to be the vessel you will speak thru, and thats the character u end up designing and playing as. the game is abt going to various areas from the village and rescuing all of the raposa that are lost there, as well as restoring the village to what it used to be and drawing in bits of the landscape, like the sun and plants and stuff.

the villain of the story is a guy named wilfre, who was another villager in the town who ended up drawing in the book of life bc he wanted to create things the way the creator had. he ended up making these big inky monsters and got consumed by them, and when u meet him at the beginning of the game he tears up a bunch of pages in the book of life which get scattered across the land and you have to collect them in order to restore the village.

so u basically just go around saving villagers, collecting pages of the book of life, and redrawing bits of the town that were lost to wilfres shadows. eventually wilfre ends up like, killing maris dad (the mayor) and then after youve restored a majority of the village you enter his realm and kill him!! yay :)

throughout the game you also meet these two weird npcs called heather and mike. heather is a little raposa girl who has half of her face covered in shadows, and shes mostly mute. shes found early on in the game and is taken care of by another one of the main characters named jowee

mike is a character u end up rescuing later on in the game, hes p confused and doesnt know how he got where he is, and hes also different from the other raposa bc he doesnt have ears like they do and kind of just looks like a normal human (even tho none of the raposa know what that is and they just think he looks rlly weird)

in the first game heather is shown to take a liking to mike but it isnt explained why and she doesnt talk to its left unexplained

so yah the first game ends with you, the hero, defeating wilfre. mari takes on the role of her father and becomes mayor of the town, and all of the raposa (+ mike) live happily in the town youve restored. the hero goes dormant because theyre no longer needed and u get a scene at the end of the game w them sitting by the ghost of maris father.

the SECOND game takes place a while after the first game, in which wilfre returns and captures heather at the beginning of the game. he also kidnaps a bunch of the other villagers and transports them somewhere else, and he drains the color out of the village the raposa were in. they end up fleeing on a giant turtle with an abandoned town on its back that appears while the color is draining from the village. inside mari and jowee find another mannequin similar to the one the creator had drawn the hero on in the first game. they pray to the creator for help and thats when u draw the hero u get to play as for that game!! the hero doesnt seem to remember mari and jowee or any of the events of the first game, but they agree to help them rescue heather and all of the villagers wilfre stole.

jowee also has like, this magic pendant that belonged to heather that he found after wilfre took her, which seems to be leading them to where heather is. they use that to navigate the turtle thru the ocean to a bunch of other islands on the world. the second game is basically about traveling to different islands and helping them restore the color thats been drained out of them by wilfre. you also meet these two characters, salem

who is a villain in the first island u travel to, and sock

who is a villager on the first island u visit who ends up befriending jowee and traveling with them while they try to save heather.

so ur doing all of that but THEN, halfway thru the game mari is shown to be talking to wilfre, and then she dissapears. jowee assumes wilfre has captured her too, but shes later seen on the turtle again, and rips out a bunch of pages in the book of life the way wilfre did in the first game, and then wilfre appears to take her away and says that shes working with him now. jowee is heartbroken but resolves to get her back as well as heather

THEN, sock, jowees friend from the first island whos been tagging along and helping out, is ALSO revealed to be wilfre in disguise and he betrays jowee and steals heathers pendent, leaving jowee with basically no means of finding heather and wikfre and mari by extension.

so eventually they do end up finding where wilfre is and mari is like “jowee you dont understand wilfre has shown me the truth of our world and who the creator is and thats why im helping him” and jowee is like “i cant believe yoy are helping him how could you i cant believe you bla bla bla” and so wilfre is like “FINE ill show you the TRUTH of this world” and takes jowee and then the hero is kind of left ln their own for a bit to like wander around the world and try to keep rescuing ppl and such. and eventually jowee comes back and is like shaken up but kind of vague abt what wilfre showed him, but he still decides to side with the hero and the creator and eventually mari is convinced by him to join them again as well

so u fight wilfre again and EVENTUALLY wilfre reveals that if you defeat him basically the entire world will dissapear and thats what hes been trying to avoid by fucking w things and messing with the book of life. so all of the raposa have a bunch existential crisis abt them ceasing to exist if they go thru with this but then they decide to to it anyway bc the alternative is just as bad blah blah and u go and kill wilfre and he does this when he dies which is cool

[the gif was fuckjng broken im sorry but like look up his sprites and youll fjnd it 💔]

and now heather is back!! and her and mari and jowee are all talking about mike and how important he is and meanwhile mike has no clue whats going on and is kind of freaked out by all of this, but theyre all like “mike you need to wake up” as theyre all fading out of existence and shit around him and eventually him and heather are the only ones left and they dissapear too

and THATS when you get the ending and find out it was all like a dream mike was having while he was in a coma after a car crash anx this plays while the credits role lol https://youtu.be/Kur0qaYM1jM

^ they ended up releasing different versions oft he game w a less dark (but still w the whole ‘it was all a dream twist’) and thats it!!

there was also another game released for the wii that like gave wilfre a girlfriend kind of but i never played it to completion bc it used the wii remotes motion controls to like draw and shit and it was rly janky and hard so i never finished it and most ppl did the same. i kind of rlly want to try playing it again tho bc it was a p cute looking game even if the controls were fucked up

AND YEA thats drawn to life its a weird silly little series tht i was obsessed w when i was a kid and it still holds a special place in my heart :) i basicaly just spoiled the entire series i guess but if u have a ds or a 3ds (bc the game is backwards complatible ! ) id still suggest like getting a cartidge off ebay or something and playing it bc its honestly a rlly sweet and beautiful looking game and i think a lot of it still homds up even if the controls r rlly janky now

[worangetraveler-multiverseguide]

NEW JOURNEY LETS GO!

But first a little background:

While I was liveblogging Yuru Camp I knew it was just really fluff so I wanted to try something more, didnt know WHAT at the time, just wanted it to be a good “journey” because that’s the kind of show I like you know? Where we go from point A to point B... but the good is all the pit stops before it... and for some reason A Place Further Than The Universe came into my mind.

I have INFO on it... but all bits and pieces and the most important being that its an emotional journey... so in my mind while liveblogging Yuru Camp I though “I want to try this one nexr” and you know? by April 1st of 2019...

The universe told me “go ahead, while this is an April Fools joke, this might mean something”

SO yeup lets go check a new set of (hopefully) fluffy girls? Althought fluffiness with FEELS might be a more accurate idea? Anyway this is gonna be “fun” :D

BUT FIRST THREE IMPORTANT THINGS YOU NEED TO KNOW

I take time, not because im insightful (though I like to try) but because I have stuff to do around the house and sometimes get distracted, will do my best to do the whole episode in one day, but it will LITERALLY take me the whole day (i expect so since for the fluffy girls before took me a bit less and that was way more simple for what I understand)

I’m the kind of liveblogger that goes for the jokes, the puns, maybe memes or reactions. Also sometimes haikus and writting because old good bittersweet memories

THIS ONE IS IMPORTANT! Up until now I’m way more chill about spoilers than other livebloggers, seeing something is more important that HEARING what happened so I waltz around... buuuuuut while that’s fine with simplier shows like Yuru Camp and Komi-san... I dont want to be spoiled how some girl will kick me in the feels okay? Basically let me enjoy the trip and if you wanna tell me something about it wait until it ACTUALLY HAPPENS (i check all reblogs and comments btw)

And without much more to say... oh wait one last thing! under the cut is what I vaguely know about this anime. Okay I think that’s it... lets begin this new journey :D

Okay i know the premise is that a girl and then a group wants to go to antartica... or one of the poles... or a really cold place. Someone on a discord I go tried to make this vague and ended up making it confusing... which is hilarious because the next thing I know

THEY DO MAKE IT THERE... and apparently there’s a couple episodes about the journey given the thumbnails of the episodes, will be interesting to see

I know from a random video from crunchy on facebook a mom is an important character, or important enough that she caught her daughter doing something

I remember a gif that’s really emotional that I guess is from after the trip? wont elaborate but I wanna see it with actual context

The characters? probably seen the names but no clue which is which so bare with me while I learn names (or get them silly nicknames)

I know Loreweaver is watching this too... I might wanna check his liveblog and reblog some as extre commentary... but a legit question: should I do it when I finish or go by episode?

Apparently this happens during the girls graduating highschool years cause I think I heard there’s a graduation with music and all the crying involved

I think that’s it... know some beats, but overall I’m the most clueless about this than I was with both Yuru Camp of Komi-san... lets see if this makes it better (cant make it worse, trust me)